A 'Redeemed' LGBTQ Daughter of God
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Summary
In this episode, I share my story of coming out as LGBTQ+ after an abortion. I talk about how I came out as transmasculine, and how God brought me to the light of God's love and understanding of who I am.
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Like, I can't even begin to describe how against I was.
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But praise God that he pierced through my hard heart and the darkness that I was in.
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And he did it through someone telling me it's about a relationship, not a religion.
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And actually, the father of the child that I'd aborted, we kind of connected as friends.
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And he had come to faith, so he was actually sharing the gospel with me.
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I did not even want to hear it from him because I was just resistant to Christianity.
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But he was persistent, and he was praying for me.
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and we would have debates, but my heart was softening. And then I met someone playing
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soccer in front of my house and he invited me to a, um, a youth group on a Friday. And this was
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now, so this was October, 2021. So we're like in COVID times where like super isolated because of
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choices that I had made and just, you know, those were crazy times in general. And so, uh, I was
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like, Oh man, get to hang out with people. Okay. Even though these are like church people, I don't
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know if they're even going to accept me because I'm LGBTQ, but I went and, um, the Lord was just
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continuing us off in my heart. And it all kind of culminated in a moment at my kitchen table shortly
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after that youth group service, where I was trying to understand God's love and that we love because
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he first loved us. And, you know, even one of the songs that like, he's a good father, that's who he
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is and who I am is loved by him. That was such a new way to understand that like my identity could
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be that I'm loved by him. And at this time, by the way, I hadn't shared, but I shortly after
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the abortion, I actually started to think that maybe I wasn't even a woman at all. And I started
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to present as a man, as transmasculine, not a full-on man, but I knew I wasn't, I didn't think
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I was a woman and I was using they, them pronouns. I almost took testosterone and I did get approved
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for top surgery, but praise the Lord, I never went through with it. And so I was looking very
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masculine and LGBTQ and all of this. And so even this notion that like I was his daughter was like,
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if anyone else called me daughter, like my mom tried to call me daughter on a birthday card,
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I would cringe. But that he was calling me daughter was so different. And he was drawing me to him.