How I Was Deceived into Accepting Gender Reassignment Surgery
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Summary
In this episode, I talk about my journey of coming out of the closet as transgender and how it has impacted my life. I also talk about some of the challenges I have faced and how I have dealt with them.
Transcript
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Well, when I started with this whole thing, of course, I didn't really know what
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being transgender even was. I had no clue what it was, but I kind of had this feeling from
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when I was a little kid, I was a tomboy. I admired my dad. And I guess you could say
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the stereotypical man role, like the protector of the house. And he's a very important person to me.
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And you can, even if people try to hide it, I could always see when they're struggling. And I think
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I wanted to take on that role. I wanted to be there and help just to
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a burden across everyone's shoulders is better than a burden on two shoulders. And so
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I guess, you know, I went into elementary school, I never really fit in with the girls.
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So I had all my guy friends. And there was things like, you know, kind of being
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excluded from certain male activities. And then, I don't know, it was just all these things where
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I just, I never fit in with the females. And then you have somebody come into your class,
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I believe I had just started high school. So I had a trans man come and
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there's a fine line between raising awareness for something and indoctrination, because they come in
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with this one sided narrative. That's like, I am so much better now, I feel like I'm truly me,
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I'm happy. And they don't, they don't really, they're just like, Oh, if you feel different,
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it's probably gender dysphoria. And you know, hitting puberty, and having these male friends,
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and then, you know, male, female, like, kind of look at you differently then. And I didn't want
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that. I just, you know, I wanted my homies, I wanted to be with my friends. And I guess I kind
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of, I struggled with depression, very bad through a lot of my life, being an empathetic person and kind
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of seeing a lot of things fall around me and feeling helpless and powerless and weak. And
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I just, I wasn't comfortable with being a girl because I had gone through a few things I would
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describe as traumatic that pretty much just made it so I was like, I don't, I don't want to test,
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I don't even want to be looked at in that way. And so when you have somebody coming in being like,
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Oh, these will, this will solve your problems, if you're feeling this way. I was like, that has to
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be it. I didn't know what else to try. And I've had horrible experiences with counselors and youth
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workers. And they, I, I don't know, they just, I gotta say, I don't know how some of those people
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even have their jobs. I really don't. But so yeah, being on these antidepressants, I was kind of just,
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you know, you go in and then you're like, Hey, I'm depressed. They give you these happy pills. And
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then they're like, come back and talk to me in a month, but I'm going to be happy in a month. I'm not
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even going to remember what I'm sad about. And I think it's just really important that people work
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on their issues while they feel, because if you're working on it, when you can't feel, you're probably
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not even going to really know what those issues are anymore.