The Painful, Confusing Road of My Gender Transitioning
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Summary
In this episode, I talk about my journey of coming out as trans, and how I came to the realization that I was a mentally ill kid. I also talk about the stigma of mental illness in the trans community, and the treatment options available to help.
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so I probably started antidepressants at 12 and then um it was around the time I had been
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through something kind of traumatic that I went to my mom and I was like hey I want to be a boy
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because I finally heard what being transsexual with it was and she of course was not sure how to
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handle that nobody really is and I don't blame them and I was so set on this being my one way for
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happiness because I I was always a person who I felt like I would be a burden if I opened up that
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I was struggling and I didn't want to add on to any of anyone else's struggles so I just had so much
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things and problems built up and you'd think my my youth counselor or a nurse practitioner would
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have realized like I'm putting this kid on antidepressants there must be something else
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going on here but it was pretty much I was just like yeah I'm I'm I'm trans and then not really
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much of a talk into it and you know my mom was pretty hesitant we'd went to um Vancouver Children's
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Hospital before and they said that I would need a therapist but the thing is I couldn't afford it
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we just we couldn't afford it and it's funny that they would not pay and cover a therapist but
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they will cover mutilating a mentally unwell kid and without without without thought without hesitation
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because all people like me are to those people are paychecks and whether you whether anyone thinks
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they're out to help us they're not because what kind of person would take that as a first solution
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because I didn't need therapy I just went to another route and I started with um something called
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Deprivera which was supposed to kind of I don't really know if it was quite classified as a puberty
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blocker but it had an opposite effect on me pretty much so I was literally bleeding for a month straight
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and then I went back and then she gives me another shot and I'm like is this gonna stop she's like oh
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yeah and then another month and then another month and then I was just in so much pain and feeling so
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sick and I was just like just I need the testosterone already so I get a referral to a doctor's office
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because I walk in and the only question he asks me is are you sure this might not be from something else