Adin Live - January 07, 2025Addressing Why I Haven't Been Streaming
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Summary
In this episode I talk about how I ve been dealing with some health issues and how I m dealing with them. I also talk about my plans for the new year and what s going to be going on in the rest of the year.
Transcript
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oh oh there we go and why am i green looking oh my god i do look sick i do look sick i do look
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weird it's been a while it's been a while oh my god what the fuck bro i look so weird on the
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camera it's been so long oh here we go with the ills and the clothes oh here he is oh look at
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you guys fat here we go oh we're back we're back with the fat jokes i'll be i'll be real with you
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guys like i i i definitely have been eating very good lately i've been eating at the the best
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restaurants having the best of the mac and cheeses but you know i'm i i lock back in on mac you know
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i lock back on my guy and we're good but yeah i took about i took a little break from the gym and
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i and i just wanted to eat a lot of food and i did a lot of traveling and i was just like bro like you
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know food is just a lot of food is good food is really good you guys will see uh we we've been
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we've been fat and uh and and we've uh i'm actually not that far behind probably like three four weeks
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in the gym i'll be back to where i was my strength is still there which is great my strength is still
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there i'm still lifting heavy and i'm about to uh do legs leg day um tomorrow the next day um
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so i'm i'm stoked on that i'm stoked but as long as i'm getting my my my my physical health right in
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the gym that's all i need and and that's all that's all i'm gonna do so i'm gonna be locked
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i'm gonna be locked back in i i've already been hitting the gym and that you know um and if it gets
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bad again i might just have to get ab surgery i'm gonna have to get the uh the bbl i'm not gonna lie
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if it does at this point because bro it's just bro why can't i take two three weight two three
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weeks off of the gym and i get fat right away it's crazy i don't know what it is i don't know
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what it is but um my room looks so weird like it looks why is that purple well the end kick is good
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the end kick is good to go um guys it's been a it's been a long time i genuinely hope everyone has
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an amazing had an amazing new year we're in the new year right now six days in a weekend i god bless
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you your families i hope everyone is you guys are doing something this year where
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you guys are kind of setting goals and accomplishments and i hope everyone acquires
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that i hope everyone gets what they want gets what they deserve and hope you guys put the energy in
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that you need to put in to get what you need in this in this year um this is everybody's year
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literally this is everybody's year i think that it's a pivotal moment for everybody that wants to
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make change in their life and i think that's that's what this year is all about and um this year
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for me i told myself i want to go into this thing and i want to just do things that i've always talked
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about doing and never followed through with and um it all starts with action it all starts with me
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you know doing doing um doing it and not just saying it and there's been a lot of times where
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i've been around the wrong things and and and you know just kind of been dealing you know just
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positioning myself in the not right spot in life and um i'm in a better mental spot that i've the best
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one of the best i've ever been and i feel really good about myself and um i've just been i've been
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i've been enjoying life life is amazing life is really fucking good when you when you actually
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get off the internet and i and i know you guys use the internet a lot of you guys aren't on the
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internet when your life is on the internet you go like in real life and you have real life interactions
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with people it's just fucking amazing i mean there's just nothing like it like it's just there's
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just nothing better there's nothing better than just going outside sometimes i swear to god
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same speech no i know we've had this speech so many times right but it's like this time i'm telling
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you right now it's not going to be a speech i'm letting all of you know going into this thing you
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guys see that little stake back there we are going to be gambling i have to gamble just let you guys
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know right now i'm gambling no i'm just kidding i'm not i'm not i'm not gambling i am i'm i'm actually
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not gambling at all um i'm not doing.com or.us this is the first time in my career that i've not done
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any gambling um so i'm going to not do any gambling right now um maybe maybe maybe further
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down the line maybe but probably not no i just want to focus on creating um something that i i'm
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proud of that i could look back at and be like yo this is heartwarming and this is just something i've
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always wanted to do and uh a lot of you guys are not going to like the way of my my new style of
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streaming and that's okay um but this is just something that i want to do right now in my life and
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this is just kind of what i feel is important for me and um something that i want to look back
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at one day and be like you know this is just something that i love to do and my whole thing
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my biggest thing of doing is helping people and um you know i i look and again like i'm i'm here
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to put a fork in the middle of people who watch me i think this whole time and i take full on
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accountability when i've raised a group of people a toxic group of people and which is influenced by
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toxicity myself which i've put out before whether it's lifestyle and just doing certain things and
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all this stuff i just know what i want to do now and what i want to do is just be the best version of
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myself and and actually go on with it i think i think i've made change before but it's it doesn't
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last so long and it's not consistent but the best thing i can do right now for myself is just be
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consistent in my change of behavior and my change of energy and what i put out so what does this mean
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what does this mean for the future well this means that a lot of you guys are not going to probably want
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to watch me anymore i want to rebuild everything i want to i want to go back to my roots i want to i
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want to find people who who find the the that they can watch me and it's not no forced bullshit where
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they're watching oh if anything's not doing this i'm not watching i want to rebuild everything i want
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i want to actually completely revamp reset everything i want to go back to um stuff that
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matters to me so with that being said every stream that i do in especially at this point until i say
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something else is going to be something that is heartwarming and it's something that is going to
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be meaningful and anything else any toxicity anything like that i'm not streaming it anymore
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on on on my platform i don't want to have it on my platform i don't want to have any
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controversy uh i just want to i want to show people some shit that yo when you get money
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you could just you could do the best things with it and that's what i want to show people
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because there's only a certain amount of money that everyone needs in this world but
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everybody's chasing for something everyone's hungry for something but it's like there's people
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out there that can't even fucking they can't even eat they don't even got nowhere to sleep so it's
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like what i want to do is just find some way to just show change and um and and and behavior of
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myself um there's been i've had a lot of moments where i'm not proud of but i've had a lot of moments
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in my career where i am proud of but i think what this what this starts is um i need to i need to get
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back to my old roots i need to feel i need to um i need to want to do something i want to feel
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good about what i want to do and um if a lot of people want to stop watching me i'm cool with that
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i just pray that everybody that does stop watching me i pray that you guys still have
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the best of the best lives and i hope you guys have an amazing happy healthy new year
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i hope everyone's families i hope everyone's friends i hope everyone's safe and
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and happy and healthy that's the most important thing and um i just i just want to i just want to
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show people the real side of what i like to do and and and show people you know um the heart
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because sometimes it's so easy to be misguided or misinterpreted or misunderstood and it's
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like i i know exactly what that's like so uh yeah that's it i don't i don't really got shit to say
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i think this is more shit to prove i think um there's more shit to prove um there's a lot to
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catch up on for sure there will be some streams where i'm not fucking doing what i'm talking about
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there's gonna be just streams where i'm just sitting here talking for sure but for the most part
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i'm just gonna be here to just show people that that's just what i want what i want what i want to do
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in my life what i want to do um what i enjoy doing i think um going live and and um doing
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what i'm doing at this point i need to do things that i'd like to do and um you motherfuckers man
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i haven't been live in what two three months and you guys are just spending this fucking cat yap
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motherfucker i'm gonna talk all i want it's the first stream back i don't give a fuck
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like i said a lot of you guys are not gonna fuck with these these new styles of streams a lot of you
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guys won't and i'm okay with that it's okay to outgrow people it's okay to be like oh fuck this
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new version of this person i'm okay with this i've already accepted the fact going into this thing
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that i'm gonna have to clean up and i'm gonna have to figure out new forms of people who enjoy me
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and um i just feel like i'm on a mission i'm on a mission to help and i want to just say the the
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number one inspiration i got from some from from this is sneeko i want i want to let everyone know
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right now the uh the best content creator right now sneeko what he's doing the way he's transforming
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the way he's fucking transitioning into what he's doing he's making the coolest fucking art i call
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it art it's crazy what he's doing he is fucking hungry and what he's doing what he's what he's
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doing is just amazing and a lot of people can't admit that and i'll just tell you guys it is a lot
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of people i get i get shit to this day for being friends with him and i'll never ever say that i'm
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not friends with that guy because he's had my back when the times have been the worst some of the
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times are the best and that's a good guy and him and i've had our issues but that's just
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one person i could say is is as real as it could be i'm about to be 25 and um as i grow i grow out
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of things so my behavior and just that's just part of life you guys will you guys know this shit
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i know bro no it's it's actually fucking insane i was literally just 20 21 years old in la
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fucking putting on and you know getting to where i needed to be but as of right now bro i'm telling
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you guys there's still so much more growth i need there's that i need to do and there's still
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so much more and um i don't know how old you guys are i don't i really don't know a lot of you guys
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watch me for years but i don't know how you guys how old you guys are now you guys can state your
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age i'm just gonna fucking um 21 30 18 23 18 yeah a lot of you guys started watching you're like
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fucking 15 16 a lot of you guys that are 18 right now 19 it's crazy bro my uh my audience is growing
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up with me and um one thing i could tell you guys is just how toxic things can be we can we could find
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ways to to still have fun but it doesn't mean that i'm gonna just make everything and again like if i'm
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rambling from rum it's if i'm fucking rambling it's because i haven't streamed in a while i'm just
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getting everything out because there's still so much more catching up we have to do and that's just that
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um but one thing i will tell you guys is the internet right now is just a shitty place
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it's a shitty place um and it's so contagious how shitty it is and it's just different
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and um you know i've already accepted the fact that it's shit but if there's one person that i
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can inspire to do something good in the world then that that's it then i win i win so if i could just
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put out something that someone's like okay this is heartwarming and i want to be inspired to do
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something like this i win i don't care if it's one or two people or fucking as long as it's one
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person it could be fucking one thousands could watch hundreds of thousands could watch the
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views on fucking twitter or fucking tiktok whatever it is as long as there's just one person
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that is inspired or one person that just watches this and loves it i'm cool i can go to sleep at
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night be like all right you know what one person that's all i'm looking for just one person one
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fucking person now that's all it was because if i could tell myself back years ago in high school
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bro you'd have fucking an army watching you'll be like what no way and i think that's what i forget i think
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i think that's what i forget sometimes i think i forget i think i don't realize it but i never
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want to realize it because if i realize it then it's like that's when you know a lot of shit could
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change so again as i grow up and i have a lot more maturity to have a far from i'm far from fucking
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growing and mature and i don't want to be uh i don't want to be somebody's like oh man i'm just
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completely going up and all this shit and fuck everything else but i just want to set myself in a
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way where i want to be around specific things and there's still gonna be times to joke and have fun
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and all that but i want to i want to be a bet the best version of myself for for the future for for
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humanity like what why the fuck am i here right now with with with with this platform with the with
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what i have it's like if i've given a ton of opportunity to people you guys know that
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but sometimes opportunity just it's not enough bro there's just people out there that are needing
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assistance in some things and i've always wondered myself i'm like yo bro there's all
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these billionaires and millionaires it's like they have so much fucking money and it's like
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why are we not helping the the need and um it's just like i want to i want to be a person that can
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inspire that i want to be a person that can inspire that another another person i will shout out
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is drake i mean like bro like that whole thing i did with him drake is drake you know he's number one
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and all these things and has all this stuff and him and i are we're very close and you know i have
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a very great friendship with him in a way where he explains things in you know real life situations
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and he's very he's been through so much he's very wise he's experienced and he you know all he wants
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to do is is bless and and give back and there's a lot of things you guys just don't hear about
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but the point i'm trying to say is in his position he feels the warmth he loves giving back
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and that's just that's just what it's all about so to chat i'm gonna let you guys know today
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what i'm doing and i'm gonna let you guys know what i'm going to be doing in my career
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we're still gonna have streams where i'm sitting down reacting to clips and having fun with my
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friends but for the most part i'm not doing that anymore i'm not gonna be live every day i'm not
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gonna be live um every day for at this point in my life i want to i want to be live with shit set
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up where you guys can see me go do the shit for example like uh me and ben the dawn this week we're
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gonna we're gonna do a stream where him and i go go to best buy and target buy stuff and you're
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gonna see us go do shit that like is just heartwarming and that's the shit we want to do
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him and i were speaking last night about it like that's just what we want to do we want to show you
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we want to show you the process we want to show you what it's like the whole thing and it's just
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that's what i'm doing that's what i'm on and if you don't want to watch me and you're done
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watching me that's it but if you want to watch me you want to see the good side of things and the
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and the happiness and the warmth then watch but if you don't and you want to see me bring on
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crazy shit on my stream and all this stuff it's coming we're just not doing that right now i need
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to take a break i need to find a way to to to to show the mass i don't give a fuck if you like me
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or don't like me i just want to show even if you don't like me i want you to just fuck with what i'm
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doing and what i'm doing is just showing people a break whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa a break
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why the fuck are you guys thinking i'm not going on a break for a very long time what are you saying
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what are you saying right now i'm who's the fuck is saying break i'm not going on a break what are
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you saying did i say break what did i say i didn't say break i haven't even talked to you guys bro let
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me see who the fuck is in this chat because i got a shitty ass monitor that citrus got me a crate
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eric merks eric i hope you've had an amazing fucking new year pizza i hope you've had an amazing new
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year uh priz you said i gotta take a break i don't know why i said that i already took a fucking
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break i'm not i'm not taking another break i'm just not going to be as i'm not going to be an
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everyday streamer uh aborted what's good aladark a 1600 what's good my boy gt sam bond sam bond where
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are you right now bro it's 30 frames it should not be i'll put it to 60 i put it to 60 um refresh your
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page i missed you more a lot of you guys say i miss you i miss you more bro let me explain something
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to you guys as this is what i can promise you as i grow up as you've seen me throughout the years grow
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i swear to god listen bro listen this is just one thing i'm gonna say sometimes guys it's just not
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cool to do certain shit anymore you know and i think that comes with growing and you guys are
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just gonna grow with me and that's that you guys are gonna grow with me and i'm only gonna give this
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i'm all guys i'm only gonna give this attention one time i deleted my twitter community for a
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specific reason the reason i saw was last night so i'm gonna explain something to you guys
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i uh i knew what i wanted to do for my comeback stream i didn't i didn't want it to be something
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crazy wherever i was like oh fuck it was supposed to be don't get me wrong me and drake were cooking
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something up drake drake was going crazy on my shit and and again like there's just still something
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we can do one day with him you know maybe we'll see there's some shit but listen just listen
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listen what i'm about to tell you what i saw yesterday and again i'm not giving it attention
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but what i saw yesterday was just the specific reason why i want to restart everything when i tell
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people that i'm giving jake future a birthday a birthday that i cannot attend to because my mother
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was in the hospital for bronchitis so this was just a it was it was a horrible two weeks ahead and
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my mom is old and she's doing a lot better anyone that was i got dms that night from that stream
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thank you so fucking much for the people that actually dm me i swear to god i read them i read
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them because i was like let me see what the fuck people are talking about like i missed you aiden
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oh my god pray for mama ross that was awesome thank you so much i'll be doing this for my mom soon
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um very soon but when i went on twitter and this is what broke my heart i'm like okay i'm not doing
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this anymore i'm not i'm not doing i this is why i delete the community you guys gotta understand
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and i see everyone else doing it i see phase doing it i see the streamers doing it and i and i very
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very i hope everyone does it and follows through with it because it's stupid shit whatever
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it's just like reddit 2.0 it's like just dumb shit whatever when i when i when i make when i
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when i tell people i'm coming back to give jake future a birthday a birthday that you know a way
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where i can i can show jake on stream and then i can basically help my boy jake out my boy jake i
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missed this party he's been a real friend of mine he's been a real good real good guy throughout my
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entire life okay well not my entire life but the past couple years since i've been streaming
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and we got him a kick deal and uh obviously like what i want to do is have my boy on stream
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i want to plug his kick and on top of all that what i want to do is i want to i want to bless him
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and his mom today his mom is a is a real hero his mom is a an absolute hero and i and and i think all
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of us we all know this and um when i saw on twitter you guys just saying the most evilest things the
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most evilest things it's just it just it makes me it makes me just and honestly i'm i'm not perfect
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i'm i i i've said crazy shit and i've this is all my fault i'm taking full on accountability for
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raising you motherfuckers the motherfuckers that are going on twitter making the craziest craziest
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statements on certain people and i'm like wow this is my fault and i feel horrible for it and
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i promise myself that these people are not going to make it on my channel this entire year i'm gonna
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make sure all these people are banned i'll make sure all these people just don't exist i want
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nothing to do with any of these people and that's that that's what i want i want i want all that i
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want all that just all you guys to know i'm not giving you attention i'm not giving you guys
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anything i need to give because my chat is just way different from my actual community i want to make
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that very clear it really is my live chat is a lot different and i want to take accountability i
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i made them this way on twitch it wasn't this bad it just got bad on kick because the way this my
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behavior and my my environment but again i'm a grown about to be 25 year old man i take full
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accountability for that my actions everything and again people have heard this many times about
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change and all this stuff but i'm telling you guys right now it's a lot it's a lot different i took
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a step to delete my twitter community i took a step to plan things out and and want to just make
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things better and i'm just at a point in my life bro where i've done the biggest and best
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collaborations and um i just want to now when people watch my streams i just want it to all be
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about healing healing the world and this is what me and stico spoke about a lot healing and just
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showing people straight up like this is just this is just the raw footage that you see that if it just
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inspires one person that's all it takes and that's it my streams aren't going to be eight hours six hours
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longs anymore every day i might do that you know play once in a while do whatever i'm not committing
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to anything but what i will tell you is the shit that yeah i'm done gambling i'm not gambling on
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dot us or dot com that's correct someone said that yeah i'm not doing any steak for the first time in
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my career we'll see how that lasts no i'm kidding i i uh i i do miss wanted that dude i wanted when i
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whenever i do play to get a hits um sports gambling i mean off stream whatever i do is whatever i do
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off stream i gamble off stream no matter what so but this era for me is just growing it's just a
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growth era and this is the proper one we're gonna do i'm not gonna force anything i'm not gonna i'm
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not gonna do anything so no more tipping i did not do a christmas giveaway this year did i yo i did not
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do a christmas giveaway this year i did not i did not do a christmas giveaway this year
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i didn't do a christmas giveaway the one with drake is drake giveaway it was drake that did
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everything you know i'm saying and whatever but i gotta do one too i want to do one in person is it
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still too late to do some type of like holiday giveaway or nah be honest is it the fuck is he
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saying tof saying what yo yo what oh okay he's here okay
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so again i'm not going live to make money anymore whatever i make in this shit i'm putting straight
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back into blessing people and that's what i'm doing and i'm gonna today i'm celebrating my boy
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jake huge's birthday and that's what i'm doing today and whatever i decide to do for the next
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few months or multiple months is what i want to do and that's that and that's what i want to do
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and if i want to yo let's send let's send jake in here let's send jake in the room let's send jake in