Adin Live - Addressing Why I Haven't Been Streaming

00:00:00.000 oh oh there we go and why am i green looking oh my god i do look sick i do look sick i do look 0.98

00:00:05.880 weird it's been a while it's been a while oh my god what the fuck bro i look so weird on the 0.97

00:00:11.100 camera it's been so long oh here we go with the ills and the clothes oh here he is oh look at 0.99

00:00:16.680 you guys fat here we go oh we're back we're back with the fat jokes i'll be i'll be real with you

00:00:21.680 guys like i i i definitely have been eating very good lately i've been eating at the the best

00:00:26.940 restaurants having the best of the mac and cheeses but you know i'm i i lock back in on mac you know

00:00:31.540 i lock back on my guy and we're good but yeah i took about i took a little break from the gym and

00:00:36.020 i and i just wanted to eat a lot of food and i did a lot of traveling and i was just like bro like you

00:00:40.860 know food is just a lot of food is good food is really good you guys will see uh we we've been

00:00:45.880 we've been fat and uh and and we've uh i'm actually not that far behind probably like three four weeks

00:00:52.100 in the gym i'll be back to where i was my strength is still there which is great my strength is still

00:00:56.480 there i'm still lifting heavy and i'm about to uh do legs leg day um tomorrow the next day um

00:01:03.840 so i'm i'm stoked on that i'm stoked but as long as i'm getting my my my my physical health right in

00:01:12.140 the gym that's all i need and and that's all that's all i'm gonna do so i'm gonna be locked

00:01:16.540 i'm gonna be locked back in i i've already been hitting the gym and that you know um and if it gets

00:01:21.300 bad again i might just have to get ab surgery i'm gonna have to get the uh the bbl i'm not gonna lie

00:01:25.340 if it does at this point because bro it's just bro why can't i take two three weight two three

00:01:30.120 weeks off of the gym and i get fat right away it's crazy i don't know what it is i don't know

00:01:34.460 what it is but um my room looks so weird like it looks why is that purple well the end kick is good

00:01:40.540 the end kick is good to go um guys it's been a it's been a long time i genuinely hope everyone has

00:01:46.700 an amazing had an amazing new year we're in the new year right now six days in a weekend i god bless

00:01:53.240 you your families i hope everyone is you guys are doing something this year where

00:01:57.460 you guys are kind of setting goals and accomplishments and i hope everyone acquires

00:02:01.880 that i hope everyone gets what they want gets what they deserve and hope you guys put the energy in

00:02:06.520 that you need to put in to get what you need in this in this year um this is everybody's year

00:02:11.800 literally this is everybody's year i think that it's a pivotal moment for everybody that wants to

00:02:15.760 make change in their life and i think that's that's what this year is all about and um this year

00:02:20.560 for me i told myself i want to go into this thing and i want to just do things that i've always talked

00:02:25.080 about doing and never followed through with and um it all starts with action it all starts with me

00:02:29.940 you know doing doing um doing it and not just saying it and there's been a lot of times where

00:02:35.160 i've been around the wrong things and and and you know just kind of been dealing you know just

00:02:41.060 positioning myself in the not right spot in life and um i'm in a better mental spot that i've the best

00:02:47.380 one of the best i've ever been and i feel really good about myself and um i've just been i've been

00:02:52.680 i've been enjoying life life is amazing life is really fucking good when you when you actually 0.91

00:02:57.280 get off the internet and i and i know you guys use the internet a lot of you guys aren't on the

00:03:00.400 internet when your life is on the internet you go like in real life and you have real life interactions

00:03:04.720 with people it's just fucking amazing i mean there's just nothing like it like it's just there's

00:03:09.880 just nothing better there's nothing better than just going outside sometimes i swear to god 0.84

00:03:13.500 same speech no i know we've had this speech so many times right but it's like this time i'm telling

00:03:19.680 you right now it's not going to be a speech i'm letting all of you know going into this thing you

00:03:23.440 guys see that little stake back there we are going to be gambling i have to gamble just let you guys

00:03:27.500 know right now i'm gambling no i'm just kidding i'm not i'm not i'm not gambling i am i'm i'm actually

00:03:31.840 not gambling at all um i'm not doing.com or.us this is the first time in my career that i've not done

00:03:38.760 any gambling um so i'm going to not do any gambling right now um maybe maybe maybe further

00:03:45.680 down the line maybe but probably not no i just want to focus on creating um something that i i'm

00:03:52.600 proud of that i could look back at and be like yo this is heartwarming and this is just something i've

00:03:56.180 always wanted to do and uh a lot of you guys are not going to like the way of my my new style of

00:04:00.980 streaming and that's okay um but this is just something that i want to do right now in my life and

00:04:05.660 this is just kind of what i feel is important for me and um something that i want to look back

00:04:09.380 at one day and be like you know this is just something that i love to do and my whole thing

00:04:13.720 my biggest thing of doing is helping people and um you know i i look and again like i'm i'm here

00:04:20.260 to put a fork in the middle of people who watch me i think this whole time and i take full on

00:04:27.860 accountability when i've raised a group of people a toxic group of people and which is influenced by

00:04:34.620 toxicity myself which i've put out before whether it's lifestyle and just doing certain things and

00:04:41.660 all this stuff i just know what i want to do now and what i want to do is just be the best version of

00:04:46.880 myself and and actually go on with it i think i think i've made change before but it's it doesn't

00:04:53.600 last so long and it's not consistent but the best thing i can do right now for myself is just be

00:04:58.460 consistent in my change of behavior and my change of energy and what i put out so what does this mean

00:05:05.100 what does this mean for the future well this means that a lot of you guys are not going to probably want

00:05:09.460 to watch me anymore i want to rebuild everything i want to i want to go back to my roots i want to i

00:05:14.580 want to find people who who find the the that they can watch me and it's not no forced bullshit where

00:05:20.660 they're watching oh if anything's not doing this i'm not watching i want to rebuild everything i want

00:05:24.960 i want to actually completely revamp reset everything i want to go back to um stuff that

00:05:31.440 matters to me so with that being said every stream that i do in especially at this point until i say

00:05:38.140 something else is going to be something that is heartwarming and it's something that is going to

00:05:42.860 be meaningful and anything else any toxicity anything like that i'm not streaming it anymore

00:05:47.860 on on on my platform i don't want to have it on my platform i don't want to have any 0.94

00:05:52.940 controversy uh i just want to i want to show people some shit that yo when you get money 0.93

00:05:59.260 you could just you could do the best things with it and that's what i want to show people 0.96

00:06:03.260 because there's only a certain amount of money that everyone needs in this world but

00:06:06.300 everybody's chasing for something everyone's hungry for something but it's like there's people 0.95

00:06:11.900 out there that can't even fucking they can't even eat they don't even got nowhere to sleep so it's 0.98

00:06:15.240 like what i want to do is just find some way to just show change and um and and and behavior of 0.98

00:06:22.320 myself um there's been i've had a lot of moments where i'm not proud of but i've had a lot of moments

00:06:27.120 in my career where i am proud of but i think what this what this starts is um i need to i need to get

00:06:32.420 back to my old roots i need to feel i need to um i need to want to do something i want to feel

00:06:38.560 good about what i want to do and um if a lot of people want to stop watching me i'm cool with that

00:06:43.340 i just pray that everybody that does stop watching me i pray that you guys still have

00:06:47.320 the best of the best lives and i hope you guys have an amazing happy healthy new year

00:06:51.160 i hope everyone's families i hope everyone's friends i hope everyone's safe and

00:06:54.720 and happy and healthy that's the most important thing and um i just i just want to i just want to

00:07:00.600 show people the real side of what i like to do and and and show people you know um the heart

00:07:06.380 because sometimes it's so easy to be misguided or misinterpreted or misunderstood and it's 0.86

00:07:12.480 like i i know exactly what that's like so uh yeah that's it i don't i don't really got shit to say 0.98

00:07:19.800 i think this is more shit to prove i think um there's more shit to prove um there's a lot to 0.97

00:07:25.480 catch up on for sure there will be some streams where i'm not fucking doing what i'm talking about 0.99

00:07:29.840 there's gonna be just streams where i'm just sitting here talking for sure but for the most part

00:07:34.240 i'm just gonna be here to just show people that that's just what i want what i want what i want to do

00:07:41.680 in my life what i want to do um what i enjoy doing i think um going live and and um doing 0.99

00:07:48.140 what i'm doing at this point i need to do things that i'd like to do and um you motherfuckers man 0.99

00:07:54.000 i haven't been live in what two three months and you guys are just spending this fucking cat yap 1.00

00:07:57.700 motherfucker i'm gonna talk all i want it's the first stream back i don't give a fuck 0.99

00:08:01.460 like i said a lot of you guys are not gonna fuck with these these new styles of streams a lot of you 1.00

00:08:06.880 guys won't and i'm okay with that it's okay to outgrow people it's okay to be like oh fuck this 0.96

00:08:11.320 new version of this person i'm okay with this i've already accepted the fact going into this thing

00:08:15.560 that i'm gonna have to clean up and i'm gonna have to figure out new forms of people who enjoy me

00:08:21.040 and um i just feel like i'm on a mission i'm on a mission to help and i want to just say the the

00:08:28.860 number one inspiration i got from some from from this is sneeko i want i want to let everyone know

00:08:34.140 right now the uh the best content creator right now sneeko what he's doing the way he's transforming

00:08:39.420 the way he's fucking transitioning into what he's doing he's making the coolest fucking art i call 0.94

00:08:44.200 it art it's crazy what he's doing he is fucking hungry and what he's doing what he's what he's 0.97

00:08:49.040 doing is just amazing and a lot of people can't admit that and i'll just tell you guys it is a lot 0.89

00:08:53.140 of people i get i get shit to this day for being friends with him and i'll never ever say that i'm 0.75

00:08:56.940 not friends with that guy because he's had my back when the times have been the worst some of the

00:09:00.420 times are the best and that's a good guy and him and i've had our issues but that's just

00:09:04.040 one person i could say is is as real as it could be i'm about to be 25 and um as i grow i grow out 0.99

00:09:10.720 of things so my behavior and just that's just part of life you guys will you guys know this shit 0.89

00:09:16.660 i know bro no it's it's actually fucking insane i was literally just 20 21 years old in la 0.96

00:09:22.160 fucking putting on and you know getting to where i needed to be but as of right now bro i'm telling 0.93

00:09:29.180 you guys there's still so much more growth i need there's that i need to do and there's still 0.97

00:09:34.100 so much more and um i don't know how old you guys are i don't i really don't know a lot of you guys

00:09:39.420 watch me for years but i don't know how you guys how old you guys are now you guys can state your

00:09:42.860 age i'm just gonna fucking um 21 30 18 23 18 yeah a lot of you guys started watching you're like 0.97

00:09:49.580 fucking 15 16 a lot of you guys that are 18 right now 19 it's crazy bro my uh my audience is growing 0.97

00:09:56.080 up with me and um one thing i could tell you guys is just how toxic things can be we can we could find 0.98

00:10:03.960 ways to to still have fun but it doesn't mean that i'm gonna just make everything and again like if i'm

00:10:11.160 rambling from rum it's if i'm fucking rambling it's because i haven't streamed in a while i'm just 0.90

00:10:14.740 getting everything out because there's still so much more catching up we have to do and that's just that 0.95

00:10:17.940 um but one thing i will tell you guys is the internet right now is just a shitty place

00:10:22.320 it's a shitty place um and it's so contagious how shitty it is and it's just different 0.91

00:10:27.240 and um you know i've already accepted the fact that it's shit but if there's one person that i 0.99

00:10:34.480 can inspire to do something good in the world then that that's it then i win i win so if i could just 0.68

00:10:39.700 put out something that someone's like okay this is heartwarming and i want to be inspired to do

00:10:43.260 something like this i win i don't care if it's one or two people or fucking as long as it's one 0.98

00:10:47.660 person it could be fucking one thousands could watch hundreds of thousands could watch the 0.97

00:10:52.460 views on fucking twitter or fucking tiktok whatever it is as long as there's just one person 0.98

00:10:57.280 that is inspired or one person that just watches this and loves it i'm cool i can go to sleep at 0.98

00:11:03.220 night be like all right you know what one person that's all i'm looking for just one person one 0.74

00:11:06.680 fucking person now that's all it was because if i could tell myself back years ago in high school 0.92

00:11:11.160 bro you'd have fucking an army watching you'll be like what no way and i think that's what i forget i think 0.99

00:11:17.360 i think that's what i forget sometimes i think i forget i think i don't realize it but i never 0.99

00:11:21.340 want to realize it because if i realize it then it's like that's when you know a lot of shit could 0.95

00:11:27.120 change so again as i grow up and i have a lot more maturity to have a far from i'm far from fucking 0.97

00:11:34.580 growing and mature and i don't want to be uh i don't want to be somebody's like oh man i'm just 0.95

00:11:39.140 completely going up and all this shit and fuck everything else but i just want to set myself in a 0.97

00:11:45.080 way where i want to be around specific things and there's still gonna be times to joke and have fun 0.97

00:11:49.200 and all that but i want to i want to be a bet the best version of myself for for the future for for

00:11:57.080 humanity like what why the fuck am i here right now with with with with this platform with the with 0.88

00:12:03.380 what i have it's like if i've given a ton of opportunity to people you guys know that 0.80

00:12:08.420 but sometimes opportunity just it's not enough bro there's just people out there that are needing

00:12:13.360 assistance in some things and i've always wondered myself i'm like yo bro there's all 0.89

00:12:17.460 these billionaires and millionaires it's like they have so much fucking money and it's like 0.53

00:12:22.520 why are we not helping the the need and um it's just like i want to i want to be a person that can 0.99

00:12:31.520 inspire that i want to be a person that can inspire that another another person i will shout out

00:12:36.020 is drake i mean like bro like that whole thing i did with him drake is drake you know he's number one

00:12:43.140 and all these things and has all this stuff and him and i are we're very close and you know i have

00:12:48.460 a very great friendship with him in a way where he explains things in you know real life situations

00:12:54.020 and he's very he's been through so much he's very wise he's experienced and he you know all he wants

00:12:58.460 to do is is bless and and give back and there's a lot of things you guys just don't hear about

00:13:02.000 but the point i'm trying to say is in his position he feels the warmth he loves giving back

00:13:06.560 and that's just that's just what it's all about so to chat i'm gonna let you guys know today

00:13:11.740 what i'm doing and i'm gonna let you guys know what i'm going to be doing in my career

00:13:15.380 we're still gonna have streams where i'm sitting down reacting to clips and having fun with my

00:13:19.520 friends but for the most part i'm not doing that anymore i'm not gonna be live every day i'm not 0.88

00:13:24.140 gonna be live um every day for at this point in my life i want to i want to be live with shit set 0.83

00:13:29.620 up where you guys can see me go do the shit for example like uh me and ben the dawn this week we're 0.94

00:13:35.200 gonna we're gonna do a stream where him and i go go to best buy and target buy stuff and you're 0.93

00:13:40.460 gonna see us go do shit that like is just heartwarming and that's the shit we want to do 0.73

00:13:46.180 him and i were speaking last night about it like that's just what we want to do we want to show you 0.98

00:13:49.680 we want to show you the process we want to show you what it's like the whole thing and it's just

00:13:53.820 that's what i'm doing that's what i'm on and if you don't want to watch me and you're done

00:13:58.060 watching me that's it but if you want to watch me you want to see the good side of things and the

00:14:01.560 and the happiness and the warmth then watch but if you don't and you want to see me bring on

00:14:06.440 crazy shit on my stream and all this stuff it's coming we're just not doing that right now i need 0.98

00:14:12.140 to take a break i need to find a way to to to to show the mass i don't give a fuck if you like me 0.99

00:14:18.920 or don't like me i just want to show even if you don't like me i want you to just fuck with what i'm 0.99

00:14:22.980 doing and what i'm doing is just showing people a break whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa a break 0.99

00:14:29.100 why the fuck are you guys thinking i'm not going on a break for a very long time what are you saying 0.99

00:14:32.420 what are you saying right now i'm who's the fuck is saying break i'm not going on a break what are 0.99

00:14:36.520 you saying did i say break what did i say i didn't say break i haven't even talked to you guys bro let 0.99

00:14:42.420 me see who the fuck is in this chat because i got a shitty ass monitor that citrus got me a crate 0.99

00:14:46.780 eric merks eric i hope you've had an amazing fucking new year pizza i hope you've had an amazing new 0.99

00:14:52.500 year uh priz you said i gotta take a break i don't know why i said that i already took a fucking 0.99

00:14:57.680 break i'm not i'm not taking another break i'm just not going to be as i'm not going to be an

00:15:01.180 everyday streamer uh aborted what's good aladark a 1600 what's good my boy gt sam bond sam bond where

00:15:10.020 are you right now bro it's 30 frames it should not be i'll put it to 60 i put it to 60 um refresh your

00:15:15.980 page i missed you more a lot of you guys say i miss you i miss you more bro let me explain something

00:15:21.180 to you guys as this is what i can promise you as i grow up as you've seen me throughout the years grow

00:15:26.480 i swear to god listen bro listen this is just one thing i'm gonna say sometimes guys it's just not

00:15:32.260 cool to do certain shit anymore you know and i think that comes with growing and you guys are 0.74

00:15:39.400 just gonna grow with me and that's that you guys are gonna grow with me and i'm only gonna give this

00:15:44.280 i'm all guys i'm only gonna give this attention one time i deleted my twitter community for a

00:15:49.560 specific reason the reason i saw was last night so i'm gonna explain something to you guys

00:15:53.340 i uh i knew what i wanted to do for my comeback stream i didn't i didn't want it to be something

00:15:57.780 crazy wherever i was like oh fuck it was supposed to be don't get me wrong me and drake were cooking 0.92

00:16:01.700 something up drake drake was going crazy on my shit and and again like there's just still something 0.99

00:16:07.020 we can do one day with him you know maybe we'll see there's some shit but listen just listen 0.99

00:16:13.120 listen what i'm about to tell you what i saw yesterday and again i'm not giving it attention 0.97

00:16:19.400 but what i saw yesterday was just the specific reason why i want to restart everything when i tell

00:16:25.580 people that i'm giving jake future a birthday a birthday that i cannot attend to because my mother

00:16:30.800 was in the hospital for bronchitis so this was just a it was it was a horrible two weeks ahead and

00:16:36.660 my mom is old and she's doing a lot better anyone that was i got dms that night from that stream

00:16:40.700 thank you so fucking much for the people that actually dm me i swear to god i read them i read 0.93

00:16:44.760 them because i was like let me see what the fuck people are talking about like i missed you aiden 0.88

00:16:47.340 oh my god pray for mama ross that was awesome thank you so much i'll be doing this for my mom soon 0.89

00:16:51.100 um very soon but when i went on twitter and this is what broke my heart i'm like okay i'm not doing

00:16:57.240 this anymore i'm not i'm not doing i this is why i delete the community you guys gotta understand

00:17:02.600 and i see everyone else doing it i see phase doing it i see the streamers doing it and i and i very 0.96

00:17:06.680 very i hope everyone does it and follows through with it because it's stupid shit whatever 0.99

00:17:10.160 it's just like reddit 2.0 it's like just dumb shit whatever when i when i when i make when i 0.99

00:17:15.380 when i tell people i'm coming back to give jake future a birthday a birthday that you know a way 0.92

00:17:20.600 where i can i can show jake on stream and then i can basically help my boy jake out my boy jake i

00:17:26.280 missed this party he's been a real friend of mine he's been a real good real good guy throughout my

00:17:30.520 entire life okay well not my entire life but the past couple years since i've been streaming

00:17:34.600 and we got him a kick deal and uh obviously like what i want to do is have my boy on stream

00:17:40.520 i want to plug his kick and on top of all that what i want to do is i want to i want to bless him

00:17:46.900 and his mom today his mom is a is a real hero his mom is a an absolute hero and i and and i think all

00:17:53.060 of us we all know this and um when i saw on twitter you guys just saying the most evilest things the

00:17:59.560 most evilest things it's just it just it makes me it makes me just and honestly i'm i'm not perfect

00:18:05.420 i'm i i i've said crazy shit and i've this is all my fault i'm taking full on accountability for 1.00

00:18:11.120 raising you motherfuckers the motherfuckers that are going on twitter making the craziest craziest 0.99

00:18:16.780 statements on certain people and i'm like wow this is my fault and i feel horrible for it and 0.99

00:18:23.040 i promise myself that these people are not going to make it on my channel this entire year i'm gonna

00:18:28.860 make sure all these people are banned i'll make sure all these people just don't exist i want

00:18:32.600 nothing to do with any of these people and that's that that's what i want i want i want all that i

00:18:36.600 want all that just all you guys to know i'm not giving you attention i'm not giving you guys

00:18:40.220 anything i need to give because my chat is just way different from my actual community i want to make

00:18:45.120 that very clear it really is my live chat is a lot different and i want to take accountability i

00:18:49.660 i made them this way on twitch it wasn't this bad it just got bad on kick because the way this my

00:18:54.920 behavior and my my environment but again i'm a grown about to be 25 year old man i take full

00:18:59.940 accountability for that my actions everything and again people have heard this many times about

00:19:04.980 change and all this stuff but i'm telling you guys right now it's a lot it's a lot different i took

00:19:09.220 a step to delete my twitter community i took a step to plan things out and and want to just make

00:19:14.600 things better and i'm just at a point in my life bro where i've done the biggest and best

00:19:18.980 collaborations and um i just want to now when people watch my streams i just want it to all be

00:19:24.200 about healing healing the world and this is what me and stico spoke about a lot healing and just

00:19:29.500 showing people straight up like this is just this is just the raw footage that you see that if it just

00:19:35.800 inspires one person that's all it takes and that's it my streams aren't going to be eight hours six hours

00:19:40.560 longs anymore every day i might do that you know play once in a while do whatever i'm not committing 0.96

00:19:46.080 to anything but what i will tell you is the shit that yeah i'm done gambling i'm not gambling on 0.95

00:19:50.280 dot us or dot com that's correct someone said that yeah i'm not doing any steak for the first time in 0.98

00:19:55.260 my career we'll see how that lasts no i'm kidding i i uh i i do miss wanted that dude i wanted when i

00:20:01.280 whenever i do play to get a hits um sports gambling i mean off stream whatever i do is whatever i do

00:20:06.440 off stream i gamble off stream no matter what so but this era for me is just growing it's just a

00:20:13.200 growth era and this is the proper one we're gonna do i'm not gonna force anything i'm not gonna i'm

00:20:17.900 not gonna do anything so no more tipping i did not do a christmas giveaway this year did i yo i did not

00:20:24.720 do a christmas giveaway this year i did not i did not do a christmas giveaway this year

00:20:31.420 i didn't do a christmas giveaway the one with drake is drake giveaway it was drake that did

00:20:37.780 everything you know i'm saying and whatever but i gotta do one too i want to do one in person is it 0.94

00:20:42.420 still too late to do some type of like holiday giveaway or nah be honest is it the fuck is he 0.98

00:20:48.080 saying tof saying what yo yo what oh okay he's here okay 0.99

00:20:54.480 so again i'm not going live to make money anymore whatever i make in this shit i'm putting straight 0.94

00:21:08.780 back into blessing people and that's what i'm doing and i'm gonna today i'm celebrating my boy 0.87

00:21:13.940 jake huge's birthday and that's what i'm doing today and whatever i decide to do for the next

00:21:18.800 few months or multiple months is what i want to do and that's that and that's what i want to do

00:21:24.980 and if i want to yo let's send let's send jake in here let's send jake in the room let's send jake in

00:21:31.280 the room

Adin Live - January 07, 2025

Addressing Why I Haven't Been Streaming

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