Adin Live - October 04, 2022


Adin & Pami Broke Up


Episode Stats

Length

11 minutes

Words per Minute

201.30592

Word Count

2,230

Sentence Count

1

Misogynist Sentences

3

Hate Speech Sentences

17


Summary

I m no longer in a relationship, I m single, and I m going through a rough time in my life right now. In this episode, I talk about how hard it is to be alone, and how I m not used to it.


Transcript

00:00:00.000 the first thing I want to say is this um anyone who's watching um I want to let you know right
00:00:09.160 now that I probably had the hardest time in my life um in the past uh three weeks and if you
00:00:17.340 know me on a personal note and then you talk to me you you know I've been going through it and
00:00:20.600 it's just we uh we all go through shit we all go through things in life and that's just how it is
00:00:26.980 and I'm not used to things happening collaterally meaning happening um uh when it rains it pours
00:00:32.440 is the expression right when it happens when it all pours down at once but um bro my heart is literally
00:00:39.320 beating as fast as it possibly can be beating right now and I'm gonna announce this and when I announce
00:00:43.620 it I don't want you guys to um think much of it guys um I'm gay I'm kidding well no okay that's
00:00:53.840 not the announcement let me let me let me let me tell you guys the the real the real announcement
00:00:57.060 okay so here's the real I I got you guys I you know I just I got you guys okay I'm just stalling
00:01:01.740 because I'm just really nervous okay my heart is accounting bro all right um I'm gonna just
00:01:06.920 talk about it I'm announce it for I'm gonna talk about it and that's it um as of right now guys um
00:01:14.140 I am no longer in a relationship I am single um and I have nothing but love and respect towards
00:01:22.200 that person and um I've been going through it like a lot bro like a lot and um I've I've you know
00:01:29.620 been trying to find the uh the time to publicly announce it and go through with it and um yeah
00:01:36.100 bro it's it's official um and that shit really fucking hurts bro but I'm not gonna sit here and bash
00:01:46.320 anyone or anything um the person was nothing but a literal wife to me like literally um but
00:01:53.880 you know when you're not even treating yourself good and it portrays on others that's kind of how I
00:01:58.700 am right now I'm not good to myself and um as a human being I know I could be doing better
00:02:04.400 and um I need to be doing better and that's um it's it's really really hard to try to you know
00:02:12.680 find um how to move move you know sometimes in life and it's it's hard to find yourself sometimes
00:02:19.940 because I'm lost right now but um hopefully I'll find myself again and I think I don't know we'll
00:02:24.640 see but um you know after that happened I you know um I have someone who's literally on life
00:02:32.180 support right now as we speak critical condition I made a tweet and thank you everyone who's praying
00:02:36.640 and if um if you showed any type of love I really really do appreciate that um I've had it I've had
00:02:43.140 to just take time away just for those two specific reasons and um I'm gonna be honest bro it's not
00:02:48.480 easy going through stuff like that I'm not used to it bro um my entire life I've never been alone
00:02:53.140 before and I'm alone now I'm finally alone I feel so alone right now and um I have I feel like I have
00:02:58.540 nobody except for you guys and I feel like literally I have nobody bro like I'm all alone and I and I got
00:03:04.800 to just find out how to just do the shit by my own myself and um I gotta really like I gotta really
00:03:10.400 figure this out I'll be honest um I've been working on myself I had a gym routine I stopped because I
00:03:14.660 was just going through so much shit I'm gonna plan on getting back into that um I'm gonna be honest
00:03:20.500 bro it is so hard when you're laying there and I know all you guys that are single you you're like
00:03:24.680 this it's so hard you know in the night time when you're laying down by yourself bro and you just
00:03:29.820 got no one that's that is the hardest fucking thing that is so hard bro going to sleep alone
00:03:35.260 and and and not having anyone to just you know cuddle and oh that really fucking hurts bro
00:03:41.740 it really really hurts I'm shit like I'm I'm I'm I can honestly say like I can get my mind off things
00:03:48.260 and I can I can be good in the daytime and I can do things that get my mind off it but it's really
00:03:53.160 really really difficult when you um you know when you when you literally gotta just do that shit
00:04:01.340 so um yeah bro I'm um I'm I if you listen bro it's just in life I'm not used to things
00:04:13.040 collaterally fucking you sorry wrong terminology uh in life I'm not used to things collaterally
00:04:18.600 um stinging in a way uh you know collaterally like pouring on you I don't know how to I don't
00:04:26.220 know how people could do it you know I don't I don't um I don't but um one thing I do know is that
00:04:34.440 uh life's been really fucking hard bro and um I'm gonna be okay we're all gonna be okay
00:04:41.800 it's it's it's it's it's um we're all gonna be good we're all gonna be good everybody is
00:04:49.520 everybody's gonna be okay um yeah I am going to twitchcon still um your age is texting me today
00:04:56.840 about it I'm gonna go by the way um I want to let you guys know right now all bullshit aside
00:05:03.320 like I know we're I'm gonna continue to talk about this topic again but real quick like I'm so fucking
00:05:10.900 proud of the WL community I'm so proud of Kai and your age and Bruce and they're fucking amazing bro
00:05:17.000 and um anyone who has anything else say otherwise like the money laundering bullshit and all these
00:05:23.260 things like he's killing it bro and that's such that's the biggest hating bullshit I've ever heard
00:05:27.760 in my fucking life like when other motherfuckers get that shit how come nobody accuses those
00:05:33.160 motherfuckers and it's just bullshit man um I'm so proud of him and I'm so proud of everyone else man
00:05:38.800 um like you know that's why I brought him up I your age and Kai and and Bruce and other streamers
00:05:49.720 they just check up on me they send me texts and they call me like how you doing gang and
00:05:53.880 I love you too Kai they really do they really they're not it's not just for the camera bro it's
00:05:58.380 really not it's not just for the camera they really do check up on me they did and
00:06:01.780 it's just a lot of love bro it's it was amazing it's they're just amazing people like real shit they
00:06:06.920 really are bro I want to find myself again and I want to bring myself up there's no reason why
00:06:15.240 I should wake up every day and not be happy there's no way and I gotta just figure out what makes me
00:06:19.600 happy I gotta set goals for myself and I gotta accomplish them and um I've been really bad to
00:06:24.960 everyone around me I've really bad at myself and you know I that's that's that's that's literally part
00:06:31.540 of the reason why you know things had to be done so that's my that's my announcement um
00:06:38.000 that's it's it's fucking really tough bro um but like I said uh
00:06:45.220 I don't know what I want right now I don't and uh I just don't want to hurt I don't want to wake
00:06:53.400 up and feel pain anymore I really don't that shit just fucking sucks um
00:06:57.400 it's um it's tough it's it's it's it's it's tough hey um clicks thanks for the raid bro I appreciate
00:07:06.180 you um I wanna I wanna um I wanna let you guys know though yeah I am I am going to uh when I
00:07:15.780 yeah so I didn't get a ticket for twitchcon yet is it still too late I think I can get one right
00:07:21.920 I'll probably be okay to get one I hope so yeah James next minute 10 give the subs I'm 100%
00:07:26.960 going because I'm I'm yeah you're good I know they're sold out I know they're sold out but
00:07:31.420 I'll try to see if you know we can we can we can make some shit happen I'll be I'll shoot you
00:07:36.100 straight how many of you guys are going to twitchcon though how many of you guys are going to um twitchcon
00:07:39.900 how many of you guys are um I know a lot of you guys in this community are not going I know when uh
00:07:45.860 I was doing that uh discord call with your raging kai and we all did polls and not a lot of people
00:07:50.560 are going at all but the ones that are going I really hope that um I get to meet you I really
00:07:55.380 do and it's gonna be awesome um and if you're in this stream please if I see you in person just
00:08:01.440 please say some shit to me be like I was in the stream and I watched that announcement and uh
00:08:04.440 give me a hug bro like real shit give me a hug bro I want I I want I need some hugs right now
00:08:09.740 bro real shit I would you know what I'm saying um there's nothing wrong with with with um with
00:08:16.420 hugging your boys bro real shit nothing nothing nothing wrong with hugging your boys bro and um
00:08:22.420 right now I want you guys to do me a favor before you get past all this mushy shit I don't care who
00:08:27.480 you are I don't care how many followers or dollars you have to your name I'm gonna do it right now
00:08:32.460 all of you guys send a text to your mom your dad your sister your brother just somebody right now
00:08:37.400 and just tell them how much you appreciate you love them because I got somebody in the hospital
00:08:41.340 right now who don't know what's gonna happen and um just please bro that's all I ask bro you just
00:08:46.860 you don't know what this life shit you never know you know what I'm saying and um just real shit just
00:08:51.920 text just text somebody right now bro and just let them know how much you you you know you you love
00:08:56.140 and appreciate them you know you just don't we don't know you never know bro you wake up this
00:09:00.260 shit's not guaranteed that's just that's the saddest you know um the only thing in life that is
00:09:04.160 guaranteed is death unfortunately you know it's just really it's fucked up and I know a lot of you
00:09:08.420 guys aren't on good some of you guys may not be on good terms of family members or friends just just
00:09:11.580 text them say I know look man I know we're not on good terms I know either you fucked me over I did
00:09:15.340 something just I just want to let you know I hope you're doing good and and and and I and I love you
00:09:19.280 and and you know that's that's all I want you guys to do just just literally just send send send
00:09:24.400 some love bro you know because I swear to god this shit happens like a flip of a switch bro like a flip of
00:09:30.860 a switch you know it's just it does it's just you never know when it's um you or somebody's time
00:09:39.440 to go life is really too fucking short bro um and um just tell everyone how much you love them and how
00:09:46.180 much you mean to them I'm gonna I'm gonna send my text right now um but yeah bro enough with the sad
00:09:52.280 shit I'm good I'll be okay you're all gonna be okay if anyone else is alone in here you're not alone
00:09:57.820 I swear to god you're not because I feel so fucking alone but I turn on the stream and I don't even feel
00:10:04.060 alone anymore I feel so much better because I realized that like how much people really are here
00:10:07.780 to fuck with me and um you know I uh that shit is really awesome bro that shit is really really um
00:10:17.280 awesome um that we we have each other um um that's really all
00:10:27.680 how to announce I know I saw people put an L announcement it wasn't really like some hype shit
00:10:31.340 I got no you know what I'm saying I got no hype shit but what I can tell you is um
00:10:36.040 you know it was a weird announcement I mean it's I had to fucking announce it eventually right um
00:10:43.600 but yeah I'm not gonna lie guys no weird shit I might try getting with a guy next just because like
00:10:50.180 I want to try some new shit and I don't know I feel like mixing it up every so often is is not bad
00:10:57.080 you know what I'm saying like um I don't know we just gotta we just gotta test the waters I feel
00:11:03.620 like a little bit I don't know