FaZe Rain Explains The Truth About FaZe to Adin Ross
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Summary
In this episode, the brother and sister duo of the and are joined by their older bro as they discuss the recent scandal that has been going on in the family. This episode is dedicated to all the people who have been hurt by the actions of others and the ones who have done nothing wrong.
Transcript
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but again i meant no sexism and i had no intention to hurt your feelings and that's why i felt really
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bad people think it's because of backlash i don't even see any to be honest because i didn't check
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the other stuff i only saw my interactions i don't really see backlash to be honest i mean there was
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intention to hurt my feelings no there wasn't there wasn't you asked for a barbecue and i delivered
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and that's still hurting my feelings yeah i know i know and i understand that and that's why i
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apologize so i but you just said that you knew that that was too far and that you should have
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yeah i know but i didn't hit whatever whatever i understand that's why i apologize i don't know
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what else you would please somebody do like a apology count of how many times i've apologized
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to her already for the same thing over and over and over and over including the one on twitter
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too don't don't leave that one out me to do you want me to do what do you want me to forever just
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like who gives a fuck because it's like you want to super victimize yourself for that okay then i
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guess i'm hurt how dare you how dare you bring up the worst time of my life i'm fucking hurt
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yo oh it's like what are we talking about he's right i'm fucking hurt i almost died and i called
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you man and you responded something i almost took my life that almost left my mom without a son in
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support yo i'm an actor too bitch fuck that game i don't know
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rain's loving this shit bro rain is enjoying this shit bro and it's like how could you let other
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people hurt your feelings do you not believe in yourself are you not confident woman you should
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be you should be you've accomplished great things you should feel confident in yourself
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fuck all that so then how is this how is this hurting your feelings if i called you mid you
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should be like fuck him who cares what i say and if you bring up my drug pass are you getting
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emotional yeah no i don't like you oh i'm just being very logical i understand how you feel but
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you brought things up against me i think you're a terrible person no he's not oh she's calling
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that shit up now because i said oh shit i'm not gonna lie bro i'm manipulating myself bro i'm
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openly admitted you're manipulating right now don't do it don't i'm up in a chat i'm also a fellow
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manipulator uh fellow stripper uh this is a script i'm just being honest listen bro he's not a terrible
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person back him up it's my brother right here my older bro literally rain's a good ass person bro
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great guy when i opened up on my lead addiction the first thing he did was call me bro talk to me
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for fucking 30 minutes bro i love this motherfucker we still arrange at tim rain in the fucking chat
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double rain in the fucking chat pulling the acting how am i going to prison explain
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i don't owe you an explanation actually and i owe you an explanation
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um macho tell vera that i'm not doing this video and if they release anything that i'm leaving please
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no you got her dude she's gonna leave now bro rain bro what the hell bro
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all right it's time to call rain and milk this content so i just wanted to tell you bro first
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things first uh i got a surgery i am now a uh female that is so fucking weird
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i'm kidding no look yo um first thing i want to say is this bro happy belated to you i didn't say
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happy birthday to you i'm sorry i'm sorry no bro i had strep throat i was fucked up um and you did
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text me and that was when i had strep i'm better now okay oh yeah good to hear that bro yes
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dick or what uh no i've heard that a thousand times no i just had a sore throat uh you know just i
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don't know what happened but you know there was there was um there was white there was white
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dots in the back of my throat that's dick you get that from dick no no no no it was just it's
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pus maybe i don't know okay fair anyways though um i just want to you know catch up with you and uh
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you know i saw it i see everything going on bro by the way huh hell yeah we're on kick
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but by the way hey get rain a kick deal bro that's first of all we need to get you on kick
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i've been trying i've been trying to get rain on kick truth be told chat for a while hey hey now
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you have all the pressure on you everyone at hey bro get him on kick he's still games he still plays
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games he's still a goat okay so we need to get him on kick yo um oh i know game he's useless
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hey it's definitely useless cool addy you know him okay yeah yeah he's cool okay so is there you
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might come to kick if it works out yeah hopefully i think i'm supposed to get a deal offered today
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so we'll see okay well now i want to get i want to get it's not just me i want to get the boys you
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know what i mean i want the boys all stream on kick i thought it'd be cool because it's like it
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also fits into my whole little narrative you know what i mean like against all the corporate
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weirdos and shit and truth be told i don't like twitch they didn't even do nothing to me i just
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don't like i just don't like the way that they move you can't like them bro look who look who
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owns it like look at the you know the blue hair like you know fake wool people that run it it's
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not my vibe bro it's like the same people that pander to a demographic they can't relate to right
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like i hate people like that bro no i don't want to get political wait wait look who's calling me
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look who's calling me benz hold on there he is yo i'm streaming right now bro look look look
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we're going look what we're doing look i sent you the uh oh that's awesome i sent you the uh the
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money i owe you yes we don't say anything crazy i'm just true i know i know i know um
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um fuck face corporate okay yeah fuck face yo from banks entering themselves
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hey it's the fucking truth bro um i love you love you too bro i'll talk to you in a bit
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i haven't had a good conversation yet talk to you in a bit i think that bread did you get it
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uh i'll check in a little bit it's cool yeah you're so rich must be nice
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bro all right hold on bro you're getting better all right all right um okay look so so uh the first
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thing i wanted to really talk to you about bro first of all you know i saw corporate make a tweet
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today or some shit and that shit kind of pissed me off yeah some pr bullshit bro it's just it's just
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so annoying bro because you got people that really still like like watch your guys videos
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you know i told you bro when the moment i met you bro i watched you guys when you were in that new
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york house bro you and and alex um and and ricky and everybody just everybody the whole thing and
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it's just sad to see corporate what it does you know when people go corporate it's not even under
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your control you've been you've been talking about this for years and people people called you crazy
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bro y'all remember for years we're talking about this shit but now weeks ago the whole narrative
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was like he's on drugs and now it's like anybody who says i'm on drugs they roast them it's actually
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fucking hilarious yeah no i get it man i would the last time they saw me out like that i was
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fucking crazy so i don't blame it like shit is he still crazy i don't blame him but like if you
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just listen to what i said you'd be like no this makes sense because that happens in like every
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industry it is about every fucking industry bro it's like every million lebron can make there's an
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old white man making 10 million for every million he makes it's true that's the fucking truth and it's
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like i don't want that to happen to the industry that i helped make it just hurts so it's for me it's
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more an emotional journey you know about something i genuinely care about rather than like the money
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and shit bro because like there's so many routes to just take make easy money and just fuck off and
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going off in the sunset right but to me i just want phase i take phase over money i'd rather make
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200k a year and have phase forever 100 million and not have i swear to god though i'm not i'm the
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same way for real i i know i really feel that no i i you know you're passionate about that shit bro for
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real and that's amazing who are these core motherfuckers chat like who are these motherfuckers
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who are these motherfuckers bro i also have to be careful because we live now normally when it's videos i say
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and i'm like yo but i'm asking my lawyer to look through and edit it out right yeah i'm not trying
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to get sued i'm on a mission but i don't want to i know
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yeah nah yeah i gotta be careful nah so i can name drop a list look into it bro it's not hard you can
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find them it's not hard look into it not for sure bro um but you know man with everything going on
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this shit you know it's it's what about that gray situation so y'all y'all literally y'all literally
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just she she pulled up to your guys crib and you guys tried to get out bro first of all i want to
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say one thing bro i said this shit right now bro everyone knows you're not a fucking r you're not
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rapist bro i know you're not a rapist no you're saying that no because the tweets the tweets
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dude but it was like it's stupid i know i guess i said it because tensor loved her and i said like
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i don't know bro it's what the but i said look i'm even tweeted worse than that and just being
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yeah nah bro internet was so different back then so if you want to hold it against me fucking go ahead
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no you're not nobody can bro it's not right look bro you you grew up on call of duty that's your
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shit and either you get it or you don't get it that's why i love the way you said about the video
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because she was like i never grew up saying shit like that bro either you get it or you don't get
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it like every game chat consisted of people screaming the hard r and crazy shit bro like
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if you know you know it's that type of thing bro but even at the end of it bro it's more i wish
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that like she just take it as like a route of education like getting like offended by it i don't
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want her to get offended or even after all this like i don't care bro i just want everybody to see
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like bro i tried i tried to be nice i was understanding fucking compose i was chilling the
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whole time bro when she's like so emotional about it let me ask you let me ask you i know i know
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where you've been going through it for if you guys don't know i mean you guys don't know rain
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was fucking in a wheelchair for a couple years now you're fucking can you can you can you jump
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now and shit can you do some yeah i can i can jump i can like fake jog and shit too but it's like okay
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but but yeah okay all right all right no not yet not yet all right we'll get there soon um but you
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know my thing is it's just like when she made that comment how do you feel about that because i
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nobody asked you i want to ask you when she made that comment how did you feel about it be honest
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be honest yeah mother's life i was so annoyed motherfuckers trying to make me a victim i'm not
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no damn victim bro i like bossed up and went through that shit and i fucking suffered for two
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years i'm not afraid of some someone calling me something on the internet or saying some shit
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that don't affect me you can't like my skin too tough for that now it's yeah plus i'm in permanent
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pain every single day you think i'm like dealing with a random bitch's opinion i don't give a
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fuck y'all so it's like and i really mean that like on my mom's life i mean that like yeah
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it's like kids shit whenever i see people saying shit i'm like they're either absolutely brain dead
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or they're children like it's one or the other it's one or the other now i'm not tripping like
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it doesn't bother me like why am i gonna be mad that you don't have iq like what the fuck does
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that change the internet is much different when you first started this shit bro now that's what
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but bro but bro you've been doing it for so long the internet now bro the top comment is always
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something negative and you know that now but back then it wasn't that you know it wasn't that and
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honestly the youtube comments chat and and rain positive as fuck still nobody on youtube is on
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that shit it's just really like you see it in the streaming community you see it on twitter and you
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see it on tiktok it's just so negative constantly and that's it's shock value it's all shock value
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and shit um but i just i just thought it was funny how when people bring up tweets in 2013 you were
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fucking a kid at that time bro you know what i mean like you can't bring up tweets that time and
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shit you know you can't i don't know that's just the fact that that's the best they got though
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because i was actually like not tripping on it but i was like damn what if people like really
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think of something but i'm like dude it's a fucking 2013 tweet no one's gonna trip like that
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right that's hey keep digging i guess not exactly nah bro but i mean she said she was leaving phase
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is grace gonna leave phase don't care don't know not myself i don't care like whatever happens
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happens you know what i mean all right bro so she was let's see if she stands on what she says
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i gotta do let's see it she said barbie to me i'm ready i said all right george foreman and she
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fucking just couldn't take it jeez okay so look bro what is your ideal because now everyone is on
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the same page now banks banks sees this shit now everyone's vocal about it what's the what's the
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next move for like you guys for me i need us in control the whole like thing i've been talking to
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like with the board and all the other people it's like if we're not fully in control of what happens
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we don't get to decide everything pretty much i'm like if that guy gets fired hired sign signings
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yeah yeah so like so and if i can't micromanage every department i don't want to do it yeah no
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of course i want to make sure people are doing their shit right and like bro for me because i
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know that all the shit the phase has been through three years even if it wasn't our fault like to
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save the kids shit like shit that we really didn't have anything to do with i like want phase to be as
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transparent as possible fucking everything even if we're not a public company anymore i want still to
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be as transparent about everything as possible just so the fans always know we really are what we say
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we are when we like care for them like i just i just want everything to be transparent just so
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like it can maybe trust us after everything you know what i mean so everything must be transparent
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if i'm there you know otherwise i can't be there gotcha so basically everything's got to be in your
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control or you're not doing any any and just transparent to the fans yeah and everything's
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for the community bro like dead ass like we have to do more like shit that piss me off is like
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they take doordash sponsorships and i'd fucking roast the chat but what the fuck are y'all doing
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$300 giveaway at doordash bro when i sold weed i gave 25k to people that showed up
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i love saying that shit to people i once said that to jake lucky and he tweeted and it got like
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crazy engagement i know that's nice and i can say yeah i meant kill yourself no i'm kidding bro i'm
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kidding i well whatever nobody fucking you know whatever um uh what's called though nah bro you
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know my thing is this rain it's just like i feel you but i relate to it a lot and i think that's the
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biggest thing um hold on there's never mind there this is my thing bro people relate to you
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a lot because you're real people can see right through this shit my thing is uh oh someone just
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said i just got dissed by her did she diss me chat or y'all capping i don't know who cares she's not
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good at it so it doesn't matter if she every time she's tried to diss me was like a self barbecue so
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it's like she probably just complimented you in some way shape or form honestly if you think about
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it gotcha gotcha gotcha um so no i uh my thing is this bro i want to see you and ricky and alex and
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tommy and all the motherfuckers jav all you guys yeah tico and um all you guys blaze everyone who
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just still wants to be a part of this shit um i don't care it's everybody who cares about the
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brand and not the other shit you know yeah apex do yes chat if i miss people but anyone who pretty
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much was there from the start y'all need to do your own thing you know you you do bro and dude it's
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just so insane to me bro like i just remember just watching motherfuckers i'll be honest bro this i'm
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not saying this because you're on the call i said this all the time chat i don't care what you want
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what it damn what face did for gaming that you guys literally what you guys changed gaming you guys
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changed gaming forever you made it cool to be a gamer you know what i mean you you did you guys
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did and if you kids don't know your first game was fortnite you didn't play god i had a high that i
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was playing video games to people in school i was ashamed i was embarrassed dude i was still making
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10 bands a month from video games in high school and i still wouldn't tell anybody yeah because
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hell no you're a geek back then i was like hell no enough and they'll fucking know that i do this
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shit it was embarrassing but now imagine if you're making 10k a month in the gamer and you're
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to flex yeah you're 16 years old making racks from gaming bro everyone games now and always open
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about it everybody because now it's cool now rappers you see fucking talk about oh i play games
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now you see you know all this shit if you didn't play a sports game like 2k or madden you were
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considered a fucking nerd chat back then but now you could be vocal about this shit without getting
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judged or you know feel embarrassed that's how it was back then you know um but it is what it is man
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that's what i'm saying you guys changed that shit y'all made it cool bro so i appreciate that bro
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yeah nah it's like it wasn't even like a plan either you know what i mean we just genuinely
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love that we were doing so much and like it just worked out right like my work i think even three
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videos a day for like three years wasn't because like i was like i got to for work it was just like
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shit i love doing it you know what i mean it was like fun yeah so that's what i like this shit to be
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you know i don't like ever doing it for the money but if money comes with it of course i'm gonna take it i'm
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gonna you know figure things out but it's not for it it's like any questions chat we care more
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about that um not for sure somebody said uh uh ask about rice gum what about rice gum
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no i've been trolling i've been tweeting like fuck rice gum on my story for like three years i just
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move along move along so it's an inside joke bro it's inside you guys are you guys are cool
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my dog bro okay okay he likes it like he likes when i do that it's a joke all right uh rain uh
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people are uh spamming it i'm gonna ask it i opened up about it before uh my lead addiction i also said
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that uh you know god i swear to god this is true when i when i opened up about it rain and i talked
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for an hour and a fucking literally instantly bro you were there for me bro just want to say
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this guy is not a shitty person what grace said he's a nice a nice person he was there for me
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terrible terrible person he was there for me in a second in a snap um i just want to know man you
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know thoughts on people still with addictions and shit you know um what are your thoughts on uh
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people that are undergoing uh addictions um you know it's it's a very like mix and match situation
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everybody has different circumstances it's not like a black and white thing right everybody does
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it for different reasons and you know it's just it's so hard to just give one reason for but i do
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believe every person that's dealing with an addiction knows that they shouldn't be doing what
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they're doing and i'm sure it is like impacting their life in a bad way in some way shape and form
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and you don't really like realize it until you like you really just like acknowledge that and you
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take true accountability and realize you're fucking up you live in life wrong and you could you're
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wasting your potential and you know when they get to that point they realize that bro i love being
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sober like even when i smoke weed i hate this shit nerfs me but i do it anyways but like i love being
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sober bro but like i don't know i just have so much energy and like all that shit nerfs me makes me a
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worse person so i don't know everyone has their own battle so it's hard to say that but you just gotta you know
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your life's better without you just know that and you can't ever feel dependent on something
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that makes you a bitch having a fucking drug decide how you feel that's activity you gotta make the drug
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your bitch if anything so don't ever be addicted to nothing and i never even had addiction though
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that's why it's hard for me to relate because i was just trying to off myself like real shit i've
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been saying that i wasn't like addicted to drugs i was just i'm dying i thought that was like an easy
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way like oh hell of drugs go to sleep you know what i'm saying yeah yeah yeah wait it was weird though
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i don't think that way no more what is um the lowest you're at what was like the worst um
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like what was the worst like what was your dosage of well i mean this is the thing i went based off i
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went back and i looked at how much i spent every conversation i had because i lost three months
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of memory i like woke up i thought it was april it was july so scary dude what the fuck drugs are
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bad check that's terrible bro but it's also and i'm gonna say this right now and i hope this does
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make sure that that shit stops xanax is the main villain stay the fuck away from xanax over
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everything like dead ass that shit is the worst drug and it just makes you not give a fuck about
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anything and it's just such an evil disgusting drug that you build a tolerance to and you abuse
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and it's just is that is that is it out of the equation yeah not have tweaked if that was just bad
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trust me but xanax is the devil like it really is it makes you not give a fuck about anything
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is xanax what broke like your legs like made you crippled or no
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nah that was everything combined and then oh huge blood everywhere there's blood all over my
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apartment and shit and i woke up dog my leg was like this big it was like huge
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all the blood would like seep down and i'd switch and all the blood it was wild
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no okay but like as far as dosage goes because obviously you had to intake a lot by the way chat
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like learn from this conversation people like don't because they think i would die and this
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is something i want to explain i thought like while i was doing that much drugs i was like dog
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did they like take all that shit dude they didn't say motherfucker is od on drugs because i was trying
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dog i was like this shit should work but then i realized this is gonna sound crazy i hope people
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take it the wrong way but it's more and it's not a crazy thing to say the fake drugs kill you way
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more than the real drugs do right and the issue with a lot of these drugs is say like you'd be buying
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drink shit's expensive 32 to 4k a pint right say somebody gets so addicted and they can't really find it
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they end up buying drink for or they want to spend less money they spend 1500 or just they just
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buy it off some fucking scrub who cut it because they also want the drug that's what's killing you
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immediately so it's the fake drugs that's killing people yeah i've had homies who have sipped every
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day for a decade plus bro it's just like the way that they handle it up and i'm not like promoting
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saying it's a good thing i'm not saying yeah it's the fake shit that's the killer so you have to be
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un-fucking-believably careful even if you are doing that shit because people no matter what the fuck i say
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or you say people are gonna do it anyways right so at the same time hopefully educate the users and not the people
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not using because don't die over that shit it's not worth it at all but okay so you were getting
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the real shit at that time of your low period obviously that's why because i only like i know
00:20:47.420
about shit i was buying real drugs and i thought it would also kill me but i should have just been
00:20:50.520
buying the cheap shit i'm stupid i wasted money right i mean not stupid i guess it worked out
00:20:53.700
but okay because you're like people don't believe me but like i still want to ask if you don't want to
00:21:02.820
tell your intake like how much were you doing at once like for example okay i can tell you i can't
00:21:07.160
tell you every single day in between but i know the exact day that i overdosed and people don't
00:21:10.100
believe it but i took what i took i know i had what i had okay i took over 100 perks at 30s so the
00:21:15.860
blues you know i mean the little blue 30s 100 of those 100 xanax and it's crazy because i bought
00:21:20.320
them for this other girl that everybody hates you know who the fuck i'm talking about and it was
00:21:23.380
supposed to be split with her but then i never ended up doing that thing yeah i mean people are just
00:21:27.360
saying what the fuck and i see some cats hey that's fine don't believe it i don't care i'm
00:21:31.180
not here to convince you like yeah dude yeah we're trying to like do the opposite you're asking me a
00:21:35.140
question i'm answering yeah no you're vocal and you're you're real about it yeah no no you don't
00:21:39.560
have to believe it it's fine i don't feel like it makes me cool for i feel like a fucking bum for
00:21:43.840
that bro those pills bro i'm buying 30s for 40 a pump that was four thousand dollars fuck that bro
00:21:49.260
like i was blowing money on that shit alone and what bro stop it like no i'm not happy or proud
00:21:53.580
about that you got me fucked up i'll be honest bro thank god you're alive first of all bro
00:21:57.580
seriously like that is crazy you said um just the back trick you did all in a 10 minute span
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did 100 zans 100 perks 102 milligrams 130s 30 30s and whatever lean i was drinking i had like two
00:22:11.400
pints still that i still had leftover i didn't drink all of it i still had like a pint left but
00:22:14.540
my nurse like she dumped it out and shit she's like you want to dump it i'm like yeah go ahead
00:22:18.020
but yeah you know yeah damn um that's insane bro uh can i ask you a question sure how did you feel
00:22:28.980
like in taking all that bro what do you think i remember yeah you probably blacked the fuck out
00:22:35.500
all i know is that my mom told me because i was on facetime with her because she's where i get all
00:22:39.300
the info from right because she was calling on stuff she said my entire back yeah i feel so bad for her
00:22:44.160
but um um but she gets it now me and her best friends i know w mom man yeah i love her to death
00:22:50.280
bro yeah um and i put her through the words so i'm always like yeah even again i've been honest about
00:22:54.780
it after i was clean for a year but then i did stuff every time i did something it was with her
00:22:58.520
blessing so just so people know like i don't be doing shit my mom every time i do anything mom
00:23:02.360
doing this boom okay like because i put her through the words she has to be transparent but people
00:23:06.220
don't have the relationship i have with my mom she's my dog i don't look at like his mother like
00:23:10.540
see my dog you know oh man w son w mom okay real quick before i just want to i want to touch
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i want to i want to i want to touch base on this topic real quick because this is so important guys
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like suicide and like taking these heroic doses drugs are bad in general but listen it's selfish as
00:23:27.420
fuck to your parents like i'm sure like you felt horrible you're putting your mom through that more
00:23:31.480
than anything like i know i know you probably i mean i'm not gonna speak for you but you probably like
00:23:36.120
felt probably like horrible for your mom right like you you know you're like yeah so anyway i'm
00:23:42.820
not gonna lie that's the one thing that was emotional so like everything else in life bro i
00:23:46.720
can talk about gotcha one fucking course i might like cry over because i love my mom everything i'm
00:23:53.380
talking about my dad leaving me wheelchair fucking skinny let anything else that's funny that's the
00:23:58.660
one thing that loki hits me because like it's my mom bro yeah of course yeah and i don't it's not
00:24:02.480
like anybody says anything it's just that if i think about what she went through right because
00:24:06.380
she went through train you want to join so yeah um nah man that's that's that's very emotional bro
00:24:13.120
yeah no i feel you on that 100 dude like honestly god i mean i'm sure you know this but god kept you
00:24:20.000
live for a purpose bro like so after after after you you you know you did you did that uh you did the
00:24:25.680
heroic dose what happened you just went straight to the hospital yeah wait i'm not supposed to call it a
00:24:30.560
heroic dose i was about to say i got a heroic dose that's like that's like a shroom term when you
00:24:35.360
take like oh my bad my bad my bad my bad that's uh that's a that's another type of dose that's a
00:24:41.520
brain dead dope fucking dose yeah yeah but like you went to the hospital right yeah i was in the
00:24:46.780
hospital it sucked because they put me in psych whenever you do that type of shit because i'm too
00:24:50.780
fucking honest and they fucking i went there they're like were you trying to kill yourself and i guess i
00:24:54.000
said yeah and they fucking throw you they throw you right in psych it actually sucked i was awake for
00:24:59.600
eight days straight in a small white box the nodes walls this white box like yeah that's gonna make
00:25:04.800
me feel better i appreciate y'all i'm screaming in pain and shit there's how many to shut the
00:25:09.360
fuck up the whole time that place sucked i actually had like evil plans when i was in there but then
00:25:13.520
when i get i'm like i'm free i don't care no more but they're mean bro they're fucking mean
00:25:17.280
fuck you glendale memorial fuck you guys they suck they're so mean they threw me in a small white box
00:25:23.680
and told me to shut the fuck up damn you went saw for my life you went solitary confinement
00:25:27.920
confined in a minute ah whatever it is basically for like getting sober three days yeah and then
00:25:33.600
they finally let me out and then talk about the process you got out you got out of that
00:25:37.200
shit and then um came home barely bro i crunched my feet in the process i couldn't feel my feet and i
00:25:42.960
was trying to like walk with a walk and i looked down on my ankles like twisted and i was stepping on it
00:25:47.440
because i couldn't oh it's so nasty i remember when i when i first moved to l and we met in person
00:25:51.440
i saw your legs they were they were disgusting but now obviously they look better not like that
00:25:56.960
you were oh not like that they elaborate brother what you mean disgusting
00:26:04.400
did i have my toes that when i met you if so i feel you that's that's what it was your toes
00:26:08.880
oh okay okay what the fuck is disgusting gonna be in a wheelchair but um no yo no no no no no
00:26:19.680
nah bro but you know i just remember bro you were so positive when i when you whenever you're in that
00:26:23.840
wheelchair you're like i'm gonna walk what else am i gonna do you told me though bro you're like i'm
00:26:26.880
gonna walk watch you know what inspired me how there's this dude named cory broner on instagram
00:26:30.640
i started looking at people who were going through way worse than me and it made me just like motivated
00:26:34.720
like this dude cory broner got paralyzed like 14 years ago 13 years ago but he's like
00:26:38.640
so confident bro and all he posts about his recovery he hasn't walked in 13 14 years
00:26:42.800
and he's so confident he's like i'll find a way i'll find a way like damn he works he's awesome
00:26:46.960
bro and like people like that and like this other i think his name was like um i want to say z he was
00:26:51.600
like uh he doesn't he only has like half a body like he doesn't have a bottom half he's like a wrestler
00:26:55.120
what is like that it's inspiring me bro like they put like you know how mad i got to myself like bro you
00:26:59.680
had it all and you were you fucking i hate my old self for even thinking that my emotions matter like
00:27:04.240
that like bro just keep pushing everybody feels just keep pushing me feeling my feelings
00:27:08.480
led me to want to kill myself like i get it feel your feelings understanding for what they are
00:27:12.160
but don't let them consume you don't let them be you know end all be all it's like yo people
00:27:15.680
fuck me over and i'm buttered about it fine this won't do it again but keep pushing bro stop being
00:27:18.720
a bitch and that's what pissed me off and like okay even like andrew that's why i
00:27:22.080
fuck with tate like he's peaches good shit now it's good shit for me to hear yeah while i was going
00:27:27.280
through shit like i was sitting still in the wheelchair i'm hearing this motherfucker i guess
00:27:29.600
good like i know i don't know go ahead sorry i'm gonna cut you off i'm not like an impressionable
00:27:33.840
person who like will just sit there and listen to what people say like that but he does say good
00:27:37.280
shit very good and i fuck with him and his brother you know yeah like just like that bro you just got
00:27:42.480
to keep pushing no matter what you can't get too lost in your emotions or let that dictate who you are
00:27:46.480
how you feel like that bro you can control that you can keep pushing that and telling yourself
00:27:50.240
depression is real and i really have this you're just giving it more energy like bro i just had to stop
00:27:55.520
believing depression i'm like it's not real it's not real i made all that up and guess what the last
00:27:59.360
six months of my sex oh the last six months of my life has been amazing bro it's been amazing
00:28:04.880
like and because i decided to practice is not real i'm gonna just keep pushing to live my life no
00:28:08.080
matter what the happens i'm happy i'm happy bro i i was in a wheelchair for two years suffering not
00:28:12.880
able to do i'm happy nothing can take that away from me even if i lose faith which i don't want to
00:28:16.800
i'm happy it'd be i'd be way happier with it but i'm happy and yeah it's like i have to just like go
00:28:23.120
through what i went through to learn a lesson you know that's real bro yeah but it's fine it's
00:28:27.600
life i don't like dwell on it you can't dwell on shit bro this is like eating in the energy from
00:28:32.160
the past and it's like all that negative dictate where you are and where you're going no right
00:28:37.440
not me that was not yeah um hold on one second so i don't have to do personal by the way but like
00:28:44.080
you know no no uh that'll hit me yeah my stomach's like making weird noises bro you got ibs too
00:28:50.560
yeah yeah yeah i like barely i haven't eaten today nothing i feel you hold on
00:28:58.480
yeah it's making like queef noises i don't know so weird bro it's they're spamming lean
00:29:04.640
gun shit y'all weird um nah but uh nah but uh what was i gonna say yeah bro like you know look what
00:29:11.760
they're doing to tape bro tape's motivational to to young men and even some women out there and
00:29:16.160
they try to like clips out of context and try to make them seem like this bad guy but
00:29:20.560
he's speaking the truth real check you platforming him didn't work canceling him didn't work trying
00:29:24.800
doing this to him didn't work you know once he once the gets dropped you know he's gonna come back
00:29:30.080
and change the shock and change the world you know so hey bro and now you got platforms like you know
00:29:36.000
there's platforms out there that uh you know that we can now be vocal and say what we want to say
00:29:40.960
without having the the like trio between like rumble twitter and kick is great that those are
00:29:45.440
like other platforms yeah bro it's great like it's really good because i'm so against that
00:29:50.560
controlled narrative like i'm so i know you hate it yeah i know yeah i hate that that's like
00:29:56.480
you know i'm just not rich enough to really talk my yet i can't get on my kanya level
00:30:03.360
my mom's got to stay good bro you know i made her that promise when i was like 17 to stay and i
00:30:07.520
i can't lose it all on some dumb shit nah my uh my thing is too bro you know the uh wait hold on
00:30:14.480
a second oh damn hold on i'm trying to see something real quick i'm trying to pull this thing up oh my
00:30:20.640
god bro my my my guts sorry bro i'll stop holding it up wait do you know train yeah you know oh you
00:30:32.320
guys have talked before i mean we're not like homies but we've talked yeah i know you know what's
00:30:36.480
me like train tracks right train tracks of course yeah yeah um train you say you want to join right
00:30:41.280
he's had some he i think he was addicted to like meth and heroin for like 10 years or some
00:30:44.880
shit um i think so i i don't know something like that right because i find it crazy if like
00:30:50.720
because i understand drugs for what they are and like heroin i can like big mike for example he did
00:30:54.000
heroin for a long time it's dude the worst thing in the world but like you can come back to that and
00:30:57.360
still be like a normal human yeah i get meth i've never seen it so if he actually did meth for 10 years
00:31:02.160
and he's like a normal human i'm mind because those ones leave you the up yeah it was something
00:31:08.240
like that i'm not gonna lie bro uh what did you do again uh train was it uh crack and meth damn bro
00:31:14.000
good for you you cute hey i didn't i couldn't tell hold on me i did meth for a decade that's
00:31:19.280
crazy real quick chat this drug talk is really important bro our trainer here was it math yo what's
00:31:28.000
good what's up brother what's up rain how you doing baby i'm great guys i'm really sorry about
00:31:32.800
half the shit that's what my stomach's like tweaking i'm creeping out of my fucking stomach
00:31:35.840
let me uh let me shit i'm curious about tracing wasn't that train you can talk about your uh
00:31:40.800
meth heroin crack well i will bro first yo brain i think you and i gotta pay that uh
00:31:48.080
pay that dude that sold to those perks for 40 we gotta pay that motherfucker a visit bro he's ripping
00:31:53.280
you off nah i mean this is how you guarantee they're real shit you know what i mean and he was getting
00:31:57.600
them off scripts and that's what he's selling but he just didn't do me a bulk deal because bro
00:32:00.960
20 minutes bro okay then you're also that's risking presses like you don't bro now in la it's like if
00:32:07.920
it's under 35 40 it's fake it is it just is you know what i mean because the guys that are buying
00:32:12.640
the scripts are already getting it for 30 so it's like they barely make profit to begin with like
00:32:16.320
no maybe you're in like bc right no no no for me it was arizona arizona okay arizona maybe you gotta
00:32:23.680
remember la has crazy prices because of demand everyone's trying to be a rapper true true it's a
00:32:27.440
way bigger state yeah that's true there's no way if you get 20 here one billion percent it's fake
00:32:32.320
ain't no way like 20 was back in my day like i'm 30 yeah back when i was like 16 17 18 19 20. yeah
00:32:39.280
he's got to think about it it's like even him selling it for three bands for or four bands for
00:32:42.720
a hundred it's like i mean he made a thousand profit because he had to spend three bands for it
00:32:47.600
he's gonna have 30 a pop yeah maybe you get it for 25 but same shit damn yeah i uh
00:32:53.680
uh that's where it started that's where it started for me too except you know i kept going
00:32:58.880
unfortunately but it started at the uh well i guess it started with weed right i know people
00:33:04.080
are gonna hate me for that but you know i smoked some weed and then i'd say one thing about that
00:33:08.080
sorry yeah yeah i only believe weed is a gateway drug if you buy it from people who have other things
00:33:12.720
if you buy weed from a dispensary where there's only weed because they don't even sell tobacco there
00:33:15.840
it's not a gateway drug but if you get into the culture and everything's are talking to people blah
00:33:19.520
blah yes it can be because a lot of the way community also does other things but weed in
00:33:22.720
itself not necessarily but yeah i like weed i support weed like don't get me wrong believe me i i i i'm
00:33:28.960
in full support of of of weed 100 percent yeah yeah yeah so i'm not saying that i'm just saying like
00:33:36.720
for me i you know started out with that and then went to zanny's you know the xanax the words i don't
00:33:42.720
have heard what i was saying i did i heard everything that bro 100 like god damn your tolerance must have
00:33:48.640
been out there a hundred is wild but when you're doing it every day like there was no i believe
00:33:54.560
no i believe it i believe it because i've i've taken like 15 of them and i i was good so i believe
00:34:04.160
that's just an unfathomable amount but that's why i believe it i do believe it though but uh yeah i went
00:34:10.000
to zanny's and then perks and then uh oxy i mean it's the same thing perks are just oxy with tylenol
00:34:19.840
and acetaminophen mixed together yeah it's the same yeah and it's all it's all like yeah oxycon it was
00:34:25.920
yeah i think it's bigger right yeah that's what i'm saying when you actually when you say
00:34:29.360
80s or like that whatever yeah yeah when you say perk 30s they're actually nice perks i don't even
00:34:33.600
know why i call them perks they're just oxy it's the perks are like those aren't even but everyone
00:34:38.000
calls them perk 30s but they're not even perks they're just oxy like there's two there's two
00:34:42.640
brands right but there's one brand preferred i think there's like mbox there's alg265s there's yeah
00:34:47.520
yeah yeah okay canines i think the k yeah yeah and then anyway so i did that and then
00:34:52.480
um we would like you know start smoking them and then look at what smoking the perks and the oxy's
00:35:02.480
crazy as hell yeah yeah i've never heard of something like that in my life what the
00:35:06.960
you know first no even i know my sniff that i've never tried coke i've never my nose
00:35:13.680
we're not throwing in there yeah we popped them sniffed them and then smoked them and then there was
00:35:20.560
like a period back in the day where they discontinued oxy's because people were smoking
00:35:24.640
them like they knew people were smoking them so they they like discontinued the oxy's and they
00:35:29.360
released something called opana and opanas have like a coating over them that you had to suck off
00:35:35.360
you had to like physically suck it off just to smoke it and then they got to a point where that was
00:35:40.960
too expensive and you know like you said the supply is low demand is high a lot of things that's
00:35:46.080
when it makes fun yeah that's where the heroin came in and that's damn and that was the start
00:35:51.280
chat what's the worst time y'all done meth was only once i only did meth once it wasn't for four
00:35:55.840
years or ten years i didn't i was about to say yeah because i was like oh my bad for four years
00:36:01.360
you would be fried i even think once is too much but it's like still like you can definitely come
00:36:05.600
back from uh real quick i'm gonna let you guys talk i've uh i've done weed and lean okay that's my
00:36:11.200
drugs you're a fucking drug you're a fucking thug i've only listen i've never done pills you
00:36:19.360
like i do coke it's good that's good people think i say crazy things i make crazy movements i've never
00:36:25.440
done cocaine take it or leave it um why would you and it sounds dumb a 10 minute high you gotta stuff
00:36:31.360
it in your nose and it drips down your throat not even 10. but it just may it sounds like i'm gonna
00:36:36.080
have to point again i agree it's so shitty bro like yeah like the coke means i'll take them but
00:36:42.400
coke is it's not it bro wait so you actually don't do coke i'm not gonna lie every time i see you walk
00:36:47.360
away when you get the feature i'm like he's doing coke ain't no way he's not doing coke oh train i
00:36:51.120
used to go every time what are you doing flowers like what are you doing i mean i'll be real i'm just
00:36:57.600
uh i hate to admit it it's super embarrassing i'm just vaping train you're vaping
00:37:04.960
hey no way i thought you're doing coke he's going to hit his cotton candy extreme vape like that
00:37:11.760
i'm just hitting a jewel bro like i i just walk away at the jewel and i just come back it just it
00:37:15.680
takes the edge off you know i just don't want to do it on stream because it's like
00:37:19.120
my like the way i see people who vape it's like as clowny as it gets like it is i used to have
00:37:25.440
a character but i hate y'all vape chat yes or no yes exactly like cigarettes are bad too and they're
00:37:31.280
clowny too but i would rather smoke before i smoke a vape rain used to go to vapecon and
00:37:36.800
used to went to went to the right words went to went to went to or a video and it's my biggest video
00:37:42.160
so it was worth it but i was just a stupid character and that character ruined like my youtube
00:37:46.960
like cpm and shit back then it did that's crazy no i cut my money like eight times like six times
00:37:53.600
jesus what the fuck is vapecon bro exactly what it sounds like this is the convention of vapes
00:37:59.840
literally it's actually crazy guys where you went is kind of like about nowhere but that's where i'm
00:38:04.080
from like that's literally where you went is you're from visalia yeah 559 i'm from the 559 area
00:38:09.280
what the that's so isn't that crazy like i don't know
00:38:12.400
it's so random like you went there and like i'm from the 559 it's crazy where is that it's central
00:38:17.600
it's like central california it's super drew drove me there for some reason i don't know why he did
00:38:22.160
did you guys at least get to go to like the national park or not the park or no or no no damn park i'm
00:38:27.120
going to vapecon i'm going home i got videos to make at that time you crazy yeah but um
00:38:35.280
oh wait i was going to say oh yeah but the reason i think vapes are so bad is because like i just be
00:38:42.160
seeing like 20 year olds on breathalyzers and shit that's just crazy cigarettes are bad and they're
00:38:46.000
nasty i agree but at least we've seen like our like i feel like we all dude cheezer was in the hospital
00:38:51.040
chat like having to have it for his lungs tank with you everywhere because you can't like breathe
00:38:54.240
without it really it's like that i've just yeah like this fake ones too right obviously not the real
00:38:58.960
there's a lot of fakes and jewels and shit like that and they use shitty like the
00:39:02.160
shitty juices and stuff like that it's just bad i just don't fuck with the whole like vape
00:39:05.440
shit oh and the idea that you constantly vape and like the idea what it does to your band like oh
00:39:09.360
i need to hit this every two seconds i can always just pop a new one open it's just bad it's a
00:39:13.840
bad habit forming like drug i guess but yeah it's like it's weird because like i knew that but hearing
00:39:21.520
you say it just like gave me a reality check that's good you know what i'm saying like hearing
00:39:27.040
you say that out loud that was like damn wait chad who vapes in here be honest you know holy
00:39:32.720
damn it's not good for your brain like that's why i even think i don't watch too much shorts and
00:39:37.200
because it's not good for my brain it's not it's not it's so bad for your brain dude i can't watch
00:39:44.560
what's good for your brain like in a month or two from now i know bro tick tock and youtube shorts are
00:39:49.520
so bad it's not gonna help you in the long run it's so bad for you bro tick tock is the most
00:39:54.720
addicting app i swear to god it's so addicting i probably have two hours on tick tock total in
00:39:59.920
my life i'm a youtube short let me look at my tick tock uh screen at least educational
00:40:04.640
on youtube shorts i'll see like bill gates stuff or elon stuff or mike tyson stuff muhammad ali
00:40:09.200
fucking tick tock i just get stupid shit like i'm not trying to see that uh i'm on my phone eight
00:40:15.520
hours a day it's my daily average and i'm on tick tock four hours uh wait hold on for four hours this
00:40:23.360
week just this week i thought i was gonna say a day i would say that's disgusting yeah it's
00:40:29.360
disgusting bro literally a week is still pretty bad that's my most what's my most used app my most
00:40:34.320
used app is messages nine hours what happened to your fitness ground are you still on it
00:40:40.640
fell off it when i did when i did the lean but i actually just worked out today
00:40:44.400
be back on it back on it tomorrow of course i'm there every day now you know give me a month i'll be
00:40:49.120
back to where i was and then we'll start to see some progression all you guys saying cap suck a
00:40:52.800
dick and eat a dick bro all you bro but uh for real though i know this is how it is you gotta prove
00:41:00.320
it you gotta just prove it i say a lot of things sometimes so i they're spending capital you do be
00:41:04.240
saying bro i really do i do be saying bro you gotta stop just saying i gotta i gotta just do it and not
00:41:11.360
say it at all be suspicious but uh but yeah now train you uh yo train someone's over that uh ufc's
00:41:20.240
in vancouver this week you going or not oh it is you're right probably not no you're going no
00:41:29.280
word we card the only card that sounded good was the one of july what's the one of july it's let me see
00:41:36.640
yeah i keep forgetting i think it's 290. fucking bulk versus uh yara rodriguez for the main event
00:41:41.760
brandon moreno and then uh alexandre pantoja but i want to see what's his face oh it's not this never
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mind i'm talking about this i'm talking about 291 i'm talking about the one with alex perera and
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john blotchowitz i want to see that one oh yeah that guy i want to see that one and tony ferguson
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bobby green yeah that's the one i'm talking about yeah what's it called dude train or not rain i
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went to that one called alexandre pere was so such a good card bro the one in miami it was such a good
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card bro i met trump there and she was lit yeah that she was lit uh train uh they're saying ad drake go
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i forgot what his discord was it's not drake it's something else i think it's like deep pockets
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oh yeah it is how do i know that i'm so weird yeah it is it is it actually i'm literally so weird
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fuck man well it was good finally talking to you rain likewise bro i don't think we ever talked to
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the voice before yeah train can we get train can we get rain taking care of on kick please bro oh yeah
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we need to bro we gotta get him over it we gotta come down the stream bro it's not fun i didn't put
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him in the music video bro yes yes he needs to come
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we're gonna make a music video like rapping it's both of y'all
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we're gonna cc uh 21 savage and drager you know everyone's gonna be on it it's not now it's time to
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just absolutely destroy the scene i'm with it bro i'm ready i believe in it i'm gonna be the
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chat people leave chat i'm going to finally go hard though none of this weird shit you
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know what i'm saying like it's got to go hard and no bullshit yeah facts gotta be only hard
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no ada i'm serious bro i don't i don't want to see you in those gray sweatpants with no
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socks wearing those sandals outside in your backyard with the orange uh uh puffy jacket okay
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none of that bro you keep like bro i know how to dress bro okay like dude people time
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this monitor this uh analogy that i don't know how to dress and shape bro come on bro bro those
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gray sweatpants with your bare feet and those goofy ass sandals bro i still have nightmares of those
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i wake up screaming in the middle of the night with hot flashes you understand cold sweats dripping down
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my face bro come on bro jesus christ um but nah bro i'm excited for everything that's gonna
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for coming we gotta get some wild going we gotta get the lambos all lined up oh yeah we're on that
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for sure a hundred percent time back slap time back yeah nah bro um what's called to both of you
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man i want to say rain thank you for coming on bro i love you bro you need to come to kick