Adin Live - September 01, 2023I'm Sorry
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Summary
In this episode, Adan confesses and talks about his past addictions and how he got fat in 4 days. He also talks about the time he almost died from an addiction to hard drugs and how his friends and family treated him.
Transcript
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i'm here to confess and talk about now i know i've already uh you know i'm saying um talking
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about shit and all that man and already like kind of like guessing what it is i mean i'm sure you
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guys can guess it's not hard to guess you guys see right through you guys know me better than
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i know myself sometimes so i'm not here to contemplate am i here to stall i'm just gonna
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get right to it i'm not trolling i um i'm a man man a man as a man you make mistakes you know i'm
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saying and um it sucks sometimes because i'm trying to just like these comments bro it's just
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like insane like some of you guys just seriously just like fucking like you just make fun of me
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it's okay you know you know just sometimes people deal with things differently and you know i have a
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sense of humor and i was doing so well and um i won't lie to you guys man i was sick with covid 19
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and um i picked up a pint straight up and i poured up and i shouldn't have done that i did that back
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to back days and um that's that would explain the face chub swollenness in my face and i'm not here
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to no it's not a script it's the truth i'm not here to lie i was doing great at jay in the gym again you
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guys could see that i was losing weight and shit so i wanted to show you guys i measured myself today
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on the scale if anyone can guess how much i weigh and this is just doing back-to-back days of um
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you know pouring up i just want to show them what i weigh and i was doing so well you know what i'm
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saying um i'm just gonna show you guys straight up why am i getting notifications on my phone i'm on dmd
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i weigh that bro i just measured myself today you know i weigh 178 and you know i'm i already know fat damn
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yeah bro what the fuck lol nice toes you know bro i'm not here to i don't want anyone here to feel
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bad for me at all learn addiction is fucked up bro you know what i'm saying i i come from addiction
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you know people my family members are addicted and stuff i've had uncles as you guys know i told you
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guys that story you know addicted to hardcore drugs you know it's just i weigh 178 pounds bro and i
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weighed like 169 a week ago and um i'm just gonna tell you guys right now there's always an excuse
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for me there's always sometimes what story oh you don't know the story so when i was about 13 years
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old my uncle was on meth and thought i worked for the fbi and stabbed me in my sleep
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and somebody really put lol listen i'm just i got fat bro i got fat i used to weigh 150
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i used to weigh 150 in la you know i'm saying the first time and and and you know a lot of people
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are gonna see you and laugh and you know all i know you guys troll i know my name is adan ross and
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i failed and i fell down again and i let addiction get to me and i picked up before and i i'm sorry i
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picked up a pint i poured a four um but on stream today i would like to pour out the rest of my four
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it would explain my fatness i got fat in four days again you know what i'm saying
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jesus call me one second what yo yo don't pour it out let me let me grab it i'm not gonna drink it
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just let me grab it why do you want to grab dude you're making jokes out of it i mean do you want
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me to tell the truth that you're the one picking it up for me and fucking selling it to me
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yep i made money off you i don't give a fuck die
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and that just goes to show you guys my my group of people around me you know
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not citrus cheeser obviously cheeser that was cheeser
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you guys can't feel bad for me don't feel sorry for me at all don't be like damn aiden
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i'm gonna show you guys what i'm about to do in the next month i'm gonna transform
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if you don't know what that is that's october 11th my birthday is in one month and nine days
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ten days sorry watch how i look on my birthday today will be the last stream i don't wear a
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hoodie or baggy clothing you're not gonna see my body you're not gonna see it i already took
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you guys want to see what i look like i took a mirror selfie today it's disgusting um
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so give me a month and 10 days and you'll see what i look like all right
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um i'm fat i'm fat man it's the lean guy it's the lean right it's the lean
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and um i was gonna be fake about it not tell you guys but what man am i to not tell my community
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i've been authentic about everything bro i've told you guys everything it's dumb it's wrong
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and it's never i'm 22 i gotta you know i'm saying i got
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i have a i have a life that is sometimes gets crazy and hectic and stressful but there's other
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ways man and i gotta be and i gotta and i gotta show you guys there's other ways than picking up a
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bottle and pulling up before a pint like pulling up before of um and you know i'm not gonna let
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anything get to me anymore me being sick should have not been an example
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and um i'm done d-o-n-e done no more y'all can put cap all you want
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i'll tell you one thing i'm gonna show you guys right now what i'm about to do i have to i have to
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lose weight i'm only gonna eat once a day i'm gonna fast 20 hours of the day sorry 22 hours of the day
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i'm gonna only drink water and celsius for my stream okay i have an open bag of talkies next to
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me and i'm gonna sniff it sometimes to show you guys that i'm gonna be a strong man and not eat
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this i didn't eat this off stream believe it or not it was right here before breakfast it was right
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here i swear right here like this bag on my face i'm addicted to junk food bro i'm gonna really put
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this shit right here and you guys can be like talking check and measure it bro this is where
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it's at measure it every day i'm gonna show you motherfuckers we're back to january motivational
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evening i'm back to planning out content i'm back to changing lives back to inspiring people
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fuck fat people if anyone's fat overweight or obese in here
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it's time bro guess what we're in september nine the month is nine there's 12 we got three months
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bro to start doing going crazy i blame america's educational system for me ever being fat there's
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no reason why i shouldn't have a six-pack in high school look at all these europeans that play soccer
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the mexicans they're fit because their country makes them work out so what i'm trying to say is
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fuck america for that you know what i'm saying this this country sometimes it lets me down that's why
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we need trump back in office he's a man for the people anyways i'm a little i'm going a little bit um
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off off task and shit um no more junk food you're gonna see me not even eat on stream i'm gonna eat
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after my workouts and a protein shake that's it i'm gonna have a shake probably every night i don't
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want to eat food i want to fast i want to i want to lose my weight i want to lose my chub my fluffiness
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my pudginess i i'm done and i might move out of america sooner or later i don't know yet this country's
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trump doesn't want i'm out i think i don't know i don't know i just look bro the end of the day guys
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i got you guys and you guys got me and you're my family you're allowed to laugh at me and make
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jokes about me i was sensitive yesterday remember when dave was i was sensitive because i was
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withdrawing from lean i texted cheeser last night i want to sit let's pour up he was like sure let's
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do it i said fuck you cheeser that's why you're a loser you're gonna be homeless in a year i'm not
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sipping that shit you fucking devil safe spawn cheeser for a reason chad to try to fuck me and get
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me off my track i was doing so good before i moved back to miami it's not because miami's bad
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i don't go out i stream all day people around look who's around cheeser look at him motherfucker's
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110 pounds and he's like 5 10 like this motherfucker is was in the hot hospital he gave me covid you're
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the reason why i fuck i'm gonna take accountability you're just a distraction you're just a walking
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distraction i'm gonna stay on my track to doing good irl screens fuck this shit we're gonna learn
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something new chat discipline and accountability for actions i fucked up i picked up the bottle
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i sick i did it it wasn't anybody else but me and i'm gonna apologize to everybody in my community
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my chat but letting you know that i'm human and i make mistakes and a lot of people who you guys
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follow on the internet they make mistakes too they just won't tell you i'm gonna tell you every time
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i fall bro i'm gonna tell you guys because you guys are there to bring me up because i love you guys
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so much and you guys love me i genuinely love you guys i'm not gonna sit here and give you
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quilty ass desktop streams every day i was just saying that because i was mad at you guys i was
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mad about lean i wanted lean i wanted to pour up on stream i love you guys bro we've been having a
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great month in august i want to make september even better in october even better let's keep topping
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milestones and keep doing dope shit i'm not gonna manipulate you motherfuckers i'm gonna tell you
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straight up it's fucked up that i did this it's selfish it i lose all motivation it fucks up my
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brain it you know it fucks up everything going on it's going great someone's gonna apologize to
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i'm not gonna apologize to another man i'm gonna apologize to myself and my community
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i'm sorry myself i'm sorry myself the content was going great again people love the consistency
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i get sick i'm in bed all day say nox on the door pour up a four it's time next time pouring that
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shit out for real i love you guys bro i'm really sorry i'm not all talk you're gonna see i was
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serious about it in january watch how serious i am about it now i wouldn't have told you guys think
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about it like this i could have hid it from you guys some of you guys would have speculated and known
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i could have hid it from you guys i didn't i told you guys bro the first step of knowing you
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fucked up is admitting and i admit it to you guys publicly why it is to be humiliated so when i
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actually do do the right thing and transform my body it'll feel even better for real i'm not gonna
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hide it from you guys bro i could have just said i was in bed all day and i ate junk food you guys
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would have believed it right do do do what dump it out pour it out
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i just let me ask let me ask somebody if i could do that on stream i don't want any like backlash
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let me see real quick i don't care about backlash i just mean like
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it's okay i don't know how many of you guys have ever seen addiction
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that's why i want to have once a week mental health
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how many of you guys have a family member or friend that's seriously addicted to hardcore drugs
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i know i'm not the only one how many of you guys come from that your parents your uncle your aunts
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i don't want to remind you guys of that you guys are here to get away from that shit
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but i'm gonna take accountability i'm not gonna blame it on anybody else
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you guys can see me my face you see the glow in my eyes
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when i'm motivated to do good content i'm motivated to work on myself
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drugs supplements etc are meant to suppress things
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you know i've had this talk with you guys a couple times