Adin Live - September 01, 2023


I'm Sorry


Episode Stats


Length

14 minutes

Words per minute

186.59134

Word count

2,631

Sentence count

1

Harmful content

Misogyny

3

sentences flagged

Hate speech

28

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Summary

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In this episode, Adan confesses and talks about his past addictions and how he got fat in 4 days. He also talks about the time he almost died from an addiction to hard drugs and how his friends and family treated him.

Transcript

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00:00:00.000 i'm here to confess and talk about now i know i've already uh you know i'm saying um talking
00:00:10.560 about shit and all that man and already like kind of like guessing what it is i mean i'm sure you
00:00:15.700 guys can guess it's not hard to guess you guys see right through you guys know me better than
00:00:19.360 i know myself sometimes so i'm not here to contemplate am i here to stall i'm just gonna
00:00:24.020 get right to it i'm not trolling i um i'm a man man a man as a man you make mistakes you know i'm
00:00:32.300 saying and um it sucks sometimes because i'm trying to just like these comments bro it's just
00:00:37.980 like insane like some of you guys just seriously just like fucking like you just make fun of me 0.99
00:00:43.780 it's okay you know you know just sometimes people deal with things differently and you know i have a
00:00:50.360 sense of humor and i was doing so well and um i won't lie to you guys man i was sick with covid 19
00:00:55.300 and um i picked up a pint straight up and i poured up and i shouldn't have done that i did that back
00:01:02.460 to back days and um that's that would explain the face chub swollenness in my face and i'm not here
00:01:08.480 to no it's not a script it's the truth i'm not here to lie i was doing great at jay in the gym again you
00:01:14.600 guys could see that i was losing weight and shit so i wanted to show you guys i measured myself today 0.75
00:01:18.780 on the scale if anyone can guess how much i weigh and this is just doing back-to-back days of um
00:01:24.100 you know pouring up i just want to show them what i weigh and i was doing so well you know what i'm
00:01:29.280 saying um i'm just gonna show you guys straight up why am i getting notifications on my phone i'm on dmd
00:01:35.760 i um
00:01:37.940 i weigh that bro i just measured myself today you know i weigh 178 and you know i'm i already know fat damn 0.84
00:01:48.480 yeah bro what the fuck lol nice toes you know bro i'm not here to i don't want anyone here to feel 0.87
00:01:56.020 bad for me at all learn addiction is fucked up bro you know what i'm saying i i come from addiction 0.98
00:02:02.480 you know people my family members are addicted and stuff i've had uncles as you guys know i told you
00:02:07.700 guys that story you know addicted to hardcore drugs you know it's just i weigh 178 pounds bro and i
00:02:15.340 weighed like 169 a week ago and um i'm just gonna tell you guys right now there's always an excuse
00:02:20.960 for me there's always sometimes what story oh you don't know the story so when i was about 13 years
00:02:26.300 old my uncle was on meth and thought i worked for the fbi and stabbed me in my sleep
00:02:30.820 and somebody really put lol listen i'm just i got fat bro i got fat i used to weigh 150
00:02:38.140 i used to weigh 150 in la you know i'm saying the first time and and and you know a lot of people
00:02:44.900 are gonna see you and laugh and you know all i know you guys troll i know my name is adan ross and
00:02:51.000 i failed and i fell down again and i let addiction get to me and i picked up before and i i'm sorry i
00:02:55.280 picked up a pint i poured a four um but on stream today i would like to pour out the rest of my four
00:03:02.320 i'm at my pint
00:03:03.240 i hereby would like to pour it out
00:03:11.200 you know
00:03:13.600 it would explain my fatness i got fat in four days again you know what i'm saying
00:03:20.240 jesus call me one second what yo yo don't pour it out let me let me grab it i'm not gonna drink it
00:03:26.740 just let me grab it why do you want to grab dude you're making jokes out of it i mean do you want
00:03:32.600 me to tell the truth that you're the one picking it up for me and fucking selling it to me 0.98
00:03:35.920 yep i made money off you i don't give a fuck die 0.95
00:03:39.480 and that just goes to show you guys my my group of people around me you know
00:03:46.140 not citrus cheeser obviously cheeser that was cheeser
00:03:49.740 you know i um
00:03:51.640 look man at the end of the day
00:03:55.020 you guys can't feel bad for me don't feel sorry for me at all don't be like damn aiden 0.88
00:03:59.420 i'm gonna show you guys what i'm about to do in the next month i'm gonna transform
00:04:03.120 my birthday is excuse me
00:04:05.840 if you don't know what that is that's october 11th my birthday is in one month and nine days
00:04:11.340 ten days sorry watch how i look on my birthday today will be the last stream i don't wear a
00:04:17.100 hoodie or baggy clothing you're not gonna see my body you're not gonna see it i already took
00:04:20.540 you guys want to see what i look like i took a mirror selfie today it's disgusting um
00:04:35.840 so give me a month and 10 days and you'll see what i look like all right
00:04:39.100 um i'm fat i'm fat man it's the lean guy it's the lean right it's the lean
00:04:44.940 and um i was gonna be fake about it not tell you guys but what man am i to not tell my community
00:04:51.760 i've been authentic about everything bro i've told you guys everything it's dumb it's wrong
00:04:56.580 and it's never i'm 22 i gotta you know i'm saying i got
00:05:00.880 i have a i have a life that is sometimes gets crazy and hectic and stressful but there's other
00:05:08.380 ways man and i gotta be and i gotta and i gotta show you guys there's other ways than picking up a
00:05:11.920 bottle and pulling up before a pint like pulling up before of um and you know i'm not gonna let
00:05:16.740 anything get to me anymore me being sick should have not been an example
00:05:19.880 and um i'm done d-o-n-e done no more y'all can put cap all you want
00:05:30.200 how am i gonna stop myself from doing it again
00:05:33.560 i'll tell you one thing i'm gonna show you guys right now what i'm about to do i have to i have to
00:05:41.240 lose weight i'm only gonna eat once a day i'm gonna fast 20 hours of the day sorry 22 hours of the day
00:05:47.180 i'm gonna only drink water and celsius for my stream okay i have an open bag of talkies next to
00:05:54.500 me and i'm gonna sniff it sometimes to show you guys that i'm gonna be a strong man and not eat
00:06:00.960 this i didn't eat this off stream believe it or not it was right here before breakfast it was right
00:06:08.080 here i swear right here like this bag on my face i'm addicted to junk food bro i'm gonna really put
00:06:16.580 this shit right here and you guys can be like talking check and measure it bro this is where 0.89
00:06:22.920 it's at measure it every day i'm gonna show you motherfuckers we're back to january motivational 0.88
00:06:31.220 evening i'm back to planning out content i'm back to changing lives back to inspiring people
00:06:36.920 fuck fat people if anyone's fat overweight or obese in here
00:06:40.520 it's time bro guess what we're in september nine the month is nine there's 12 we got three months
00:06:49.440 bro to start doing going crazy i blame america's educational system for me ever being fat there's
00:06:57.680 no reason why i shouldn't have a six-pack in high school look at all these europeans that play soccer 0.64
00:07:02.080 the mexicans they're fit because their country makes them work out so what i'm trying to say is
00:07:11.220 fuck america for that you know what i'm saying this this country sometimes it lets me down that's why
00:07:17.340 we need trump back in office he's a man for the people anyways i'm a little i'm going a little bit um
00:07:24.000 off off task and shit um no more junk food you're gonna see me not even eat on stream i'm gonna eat 0.90
00:07:32.440 after my workouts and a protein shake that's it i'm gonna have a shake probably every night i don't
00:07:36.480 want to eat food i want to fast i want to i want to lose my weight i want to lose my chub my fluffiness
00:07:40.140 my pudginess i i'm done and i might move out of america sooner or later i don't know yet this country's
00:07:45.880 trump doesn't want i'm out i think i don't know i don't know i just look bro the end of the day guys
00:07:52.740 i got you guys and you guys got me and you're my family you're allowed to laugh at me and make
00:07:57.620 jokes about me i was sensitive yesterday remember when dave was i was sensitive because i was
00:08:02.260 withdrawing from lean i texted cheeser last night i want to sit let's pour up he was like sure let's
00:08:08.740 do it i said fuck you cheeser that's why you're a loser you're gonna be homeless in a year i'm not 1.00
00:08:13.500 sipping that shit you fucking devil safe spawn cheeser for a reason chad to try to fuck me and get 1.00
00:08:19.160 me off my track i was doing so good before i moved back to miami it's not because miami's bad
00:08:23.660 i don't go out i stream all day people around look who's around cheeser look at him motherfucker's 0.97
00:08:28.960 110 pounds and he's like 5 10 like this motherfucker is was in the hot hospital he gave me covid you're
00:08:37.200 the reason why i fuck i'm gonna take accountability you're just a distraction you're just a walking 1.00
00:08:42.360 distraction i'm gonna stay on my track to doing good irl screens fuck this shit we're gonna learn 0.98
00:08:48.120 something new chat discipline and accountability for actions i fucked up i picked up the bottle 0.98
00:08:53.360 i sick i did it it wasn't anybody else but me and i'm gonna apologize to everybody in my community
00:09:00.800 my chat but letting you know that i'm human and i make mistakes and a lot of people who you guys
00:09:07.440 follow on the internet they make mistakes too they just won't tell you i'm gonna tell you every time
00:09:11.420 i fall bro i'm gonna tell you guys because you guys are there to bring me up because i love you guys
00:09:15.840 so much and you guys love me i genuinely love you guys i'm not gonna sit here and give you
00:09:20.480 quilty ass desktop streams every day i was just saying that because i was mad at you guys i was 0.89
00:09:24.860 mad about lean i wanted lean i wanted to pour up on stream i love you guys bro we've been having a
00:09:31.400 great month in august i want to make september even better in october even better let's keep topping
00:09:35.660 milestones and keep doing dope shit i'm not gonna manipulate you motherfuckers i'm gonna tell you 1.00
00:09:40.000 straight up it's fucked up that i did this it's selfish it i lose all motivation it fucks up my 0.99
00:09:47.220 brain it you know it fucks up everything going on it's going great someone's gonna apologize to 0.89
00:09:54.640 i'm not gonna apologize to another man i'm gonna apologize to myself and my community
00:09:58.620 i'm sorry myself i'm sorry myself the content was going great again people love the consistency
00:10:06.580 i get sick i'm in bed all day say nox on the door pour up a four it's time next time pouring that
00:10:15.600 shit out for real i love you guys bro i'm really sorry i'm not all talk you're gonna see i was
00:10:20.760 serious about it in january watch how serious i am about it now i wouldn't have told you guys think
00:10:25.000 about it like this i could have hid it from you guys some of you guys would have speculated and known
00:10:28.220 i could have hid it from you guys i didn't i told you guys bro the first step of knowing you
00:10:33.060 fucked up is admitting and i admit it to you guys publicly why it is to be humiliated so when i 0.95
00:10:39.560 actually do do the right thing and transform my body it'll feel even better for real i'm not gonna
00:10:45.680 hide it from you guys bro i could have just said i was in bed all day and i ate junk food you guys
00:10:49.940 would have believed it right do do do what dump it out pour it out
00:10:58.240 i just let me ask let me ask somebody if i could do that on stream i don't want any like backlash
00:11:07.460 uh hold on
00:11:10.560 let me see real quick i don't care about backlash i just mean like
00:11:16.380 you know
00:11:17.740 let me
00:11:19.900 let me see
00:11:22.400 yeah see i'm already getting texts don't do it
00:11:27.980 you know um i'm sorry to all you man
00:11:35.000 i failed but it's okay to fail a couple times
00:11:39.140 it's okay i don't know how many of you guys have ever seen addiction
00:11:43.500 that's why i want to have once a week mental health
00:11:45.700 uh podcast
00:11:47.700 um
00:11:49.200 listen
00:11:50.960 how many of you guys have a family member or friend that's seriously addicted to hardcore drugs
00:11:55.320 or pills or something
00:11:56.860 i know i'm not the only one how many of you guys come from that your parents your uncle your aunts
00:12:01.420 a lot of people in here
00:12:02.980 right
00:12:04.300 so
00:12:05.580 you guys watch my stream
00:12:08.000 you tune into clips you see stuff about me
00:12:10.520 i don't want to remind you guys of that you guys are here to get away from that shit 0.91
00:12:15.200 and i'm sorry i fucked up again 0.98
00:12:17.060 but i'm gonna take accountability i'm not gonna blame it on anybody else
00:12:20.580 and i apologize to you guys direct
00:12:23.520 you guys can see me my face you see the glow in my eyes
00:12:28.420 when i'm motivated to do good content i'm motivated to work on myself
00:12:31.840 you know what i'm saying and um
00:12:33.760 i understand it bro
00:12:35.160 i understand what that shit could do
00:12:36.720 it's not worth it
00:12:37.860 we're on earth
00:12:39.240 and um
00:12:41.040 drugs supplements etc are meant to suppress things
00:12:43.820 drugs and i apologize to you guys
00:12:45.620 i can i gotta be better for you guys
00:12:47.200 and i gotta be better for myself
00:12:49.040 and i don't know if you guys believe in
00:12:51.060 how many of you guys believe in god
00:12:52.380 or i believe in god
00:12:53.720 i believe in higher power
00:12:54.460 i gotta be better for god
00:12:55.500 you know i've had this talk with you guys a couple times
00:12:58.360 it's a relapse
00:12:59.820 it happens
00:13:00.720 i relapsed
00:13:02.200 but i admit it
00:13:03.520 and it's time for me to
00:13:05.280 to really um understand
00:13:07.260 to you know
00:13:09.300 i gotta own up every time that i fail
00:13:11.020 because i'm not gonna be a fake
00:13:12.580 a lot of these people on the internet
00:13:13.860 told you guys
00:13:14.380 are fake bro
00:13:15.340 i'm gonna tell you guys
00:13:15.920 when i fuck up 0.92
00:13:16.480 i slip and i fall
00:13:17.260 but i need you guys there with me
00:13:19.740 to bring me back up
00:13:20.560 all right
00:13:22.040 fucked up man 0.57
00:13:23.440 but i promise you guys
00:13:25.200 from here on out
00:13:25.720 if i do it again
00:13:26.460 i'm putting this pressure on me
00:13:28.480 if i do this shit again 0.82
00:13:30.340 it means i genuinely don't give a fuck 0.65
00:13:32.620 about you guys
00:13:33.180 and you guys should never look at me the same
00:13:34.720 for real
00:13:35.480 this time i'm serious bro
00:13:36.680 i had a realization
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