Ali Dawah - March 12, 2022


“I’M GAY & STILL LOVE ALLAH” - AMAZING CONVO


Episode Stats

Length

16 minutes

Words per Minute

212.61185

Word Count

3,493

Sentence Count

1

Misogynist Sentences

4

Hate Speech Sentences

33


Summary

Jummah Kutbahaykah with a special guest, who shares his story of how he came to identify as gay and Muslim. He shares his experience of coming out of the closet as a gay Muslim, and how he found his identity in Islam.


Transcript

00:00:00.000 وما أنفقتم من شيء فهو يخلفه وهو خير الرازقين
00:00:16.300 We want to establish an amazing masjid for the sake of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala in the country of Norway
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00:00:30.000 Assalamu alaikum
00:00:32.920 Wa alaikum
00:00:33.400 How are you doing?
00:00:34.120 I'm good
00:00:34.440 How are you?
00:00:34.760 May Allah bless you insha'Allah
00:00:35.620 It's a pleasure to have you here
00:00:36.560 My pleasure
00:00:37.460 Yeah, alhamdulillah I like your fashion sense
00:00:40.360 Thanks
00:00:40.960 I need to work on mine
00:00:41.820 So, yeah, so what I was going to say is
00:00:44.400 Okay, so tell us a bit about yourself
00:00:47.860 So we want to know about, be about yourself
00:00:49.520 Okay, so I think because we're talking about one specific thing
00:00:54.100 I'm going to concentrate on that
00:00:55.340 Yeah
00:00:55.580 And I'm going to say I was born in Italy
00:00:57.540 Okay
00:00:58.040 I was raised there and I was raised with, you know
00:01:01.720 Let's say I was, I am like the typical, you know
00:01:04.780 Yeah
00:01:05.240 The people you would see everywhere now
00:01:09.320 Like being indoctrinated by media
00:01:11.120 Yes
00:01:11.620 And being indoctrinated by ideologies really
00:01:14.380 Yeah
00:01:14.660 Which are constructed on fallacies really nowadays
00:01:17.440 Yes, yes
00:01:17.980 And what I really always found a problem was that most arguments
00:01:22.540 Yeah
00:01:22.960 Around literally everything in life
00:01:24.540 Yeah
00:01:24.860 Always had emotional arguments
00:01:27.640 Like it was always emotional motives
00:01:29.540 Yes
00:01:29.780 There was never logic or fact
00:01:31.120 Yeah
00:01:31.380 And if we take it literally facts don't really care about your emotions, do they?
00:01:35.400 Yeah
00:01:35.600 So I think that's what really stuck with, that just got stuck with me
00:01:40.920 And I started to like
00:01:42.080 Yeah
00:01:42.380 The moment I tried to separate my own emotions
00:01:45.780 Which people nowadays like use to like justify everything they want to do
00:01:50.880 Whether it's objectively right or not
00:01:52.820 Yeah
00:01:53.040 Like whether do it or not
00:01:54.380 Yeah
00:01:54.700 I think the moment I separated the emotion side with the facts
00:02:00.260 Yes
00:02:00.700 I think that's when I started to like have a playing base
00:02:04.080 Where I could construct what reality really is in the dunya
00:02:07.280 Okay
00:02:08.040 So from there I just started, you know, I started to research into
00:02:13.740 Also it's very difficult to kind of understand Islam when you're in Italy for example
00:02:17.380 Yeah
00:02:17.720 Because nobody's Muslim there
00:02:19.540 Like nobody is
00:02:20.560 So I was fortunate because of course I was born in a Muslim family
00:02:24.240 But of course they never had the logical or the vocal ability to kind of portray the message logically
00:02:33.400 It's more like remember the Quran, what does this mean?
00:02:36.520 Don't worry
00:02:37.000 So someone who is like growing up between
00:02:38.940 Like in a contrast between what's a social norm
00:02:41.720 Yeah
00:02:42.140 In their own world, like in their own country
00:02:44.180 Exactly
00:02:44.540 And what reality is on the other hand
00:02:46.120 Which is of course Islam for me
00:02:47.380 Yeah
00:02:47.780 Because that's the only place where I found some sense, you know
00:02:51.020 So did you, was there a point that you left Islam?
00:02:53.040 Or was there a point where you was like, I'm not sure
00:02:55.460 I think I was like, in it like, when I was in Italy
00:02:59.300 I never really felt as if I was a Muslim or whatever
00:03:02.140 So it's not like I ever left Islam
00:03:03.640 I feel like I've never associated with it whatsoever
00:03:05.380 You never understood it, okay
00:03:06.100 I never understood it because the only thing I went like
00:03:08.040 I only went far until like reading the Quran and that was it
00:03:11.360 Okay
00:03:11.660 I found out that my sexual inclinations, you could say
00:03:15.940 Okay, alright
00:03:16.520 Yeah, were not heteronormous if you could, like they were not
00:03:19.460 I was not straight, you could say
00:03:21.480 Like technically speaking
00:03:22.540 I don't believe in defining yourself with these words
00:03:25.300 In the sense that they constitute your identity
00:03:27.340 Yeah
00:03:27.720 More than the word Muslim does, really
00:03:29.280 Okay
00:03:29.520 And that's where
00:03:30.800 So of course it's a struggle for many people
00:03:33.020 Because there's many people who identify as, you know
00:03:35.460 It's not even identifying, they just feel that way
00:03:37.460 Okay
00:03:37.960 So it's more like an instinct rather than a feeling
00:03:40.540 Because what the word is, like
00:03:43.300 You know, the word gay is not defining you as a person
00:03:45.700 It's just describing your biological approaches to some situations
00:03:49.140 In some circumstances
00:03:49.960 Okay
00:03:50.660 And my main problem was, you know
00:03:52.780 Every time I would research the question whether you can be gay or Muslim online
00:03:57.200 Yeah
00:03:57.400 The answer was always that
00:03:59.600 The answer was always focused on sex
00:04:01.920 Yeah
00:04:02.460 So the answer was always focused on sex in the sense that
00:04:05.660 People were always worried about whether you can act upon it or not
00:04:09.760 But I never found that to be the biggest issue there
00:04:13.760 Okay
00:04:14.000 Because my main problem since the beginning was to, like, understand what reality is
00:04:17.660 Okay
00:04:18.580 Like, like, you mean with the creator
00:04:20.140 Exactly
00:04:20.940 Okay, so
00:04:21.580 So that was my main
00:04:22.100 Do you want me to put your bag down?
00:04:23.900 Yeah, yeah
00:04:24.520 Yeah, let me put it down for you
00:04:25.260 Sorry
00:04:25.620 Yeah, so
00:04:26.700 Do you mind giving me your name or, like
00:04:28.580 I'm Hussain
00:04:29.800 Hussain, okay
00:04:30.780 Hussain, I'm Ali, yeah
00:04:31.600 Okay
00:04:32.180 So the thing is here, it's very important
00:04:35.060 Because the thing is, when anybody has these inclinations, yeah
00:04:37.580 We all have inclinations in different ways
00:04:39.400 And it's a way of dealing with it
00:04:41.000 Now, obviously, as a person who had these inclinations
00:04:43.460 Where you felt maybe the attraction to the opposite gender
00:04:46.000 Whatever it may be
00:04:46.720 There are people who go from different routes
00:04:49.360 Yeah
00:04:49.620 So the first one could be
00:04:50.720 Allah made me like this
00:04:52.080 Yeah
00:04:52.400 It's Allah's fault
00:04:53.100 You didn't go down that route
00:04:54.620 No, no, no
00:04:54.880 Number one
00:04:55.680 Which I found very interesting
00:04:56.900 And I found very admiring that
00:04:59.060 You didn't go down that route
00:05:00.180 Because a lot of people, not even just with the
00:05:01.560 With your sexuality
00:05:03.920 Some people do this with
00:05:05.500 When I party
00:05:06.720 So they're like, you know, I want to party
00:05:08.540 So what they do is they feel guilty
00:05:09.840 Doing these sins
00:05:10.800 So they're like, okay
00:05:11.420 If I make myself believe that God doesn't exist
00:05:13.880 I'll justify it to myself
00:05:14.860 You didn't go down that route
00:05:16.140 You went down the route where
00:05:18.020 I mean, I did initially
00:05:19.020 You did initially
00:05:19.880 When I was, like, 11
00:05:21.120 Exactly
00:05:22.060 Yeah
00:05:22.400 So, but later on you made yourself
00:05:25.600 You acknowledge that
00:05:26.860 Yes, I may have these inclinations
00:05:28.580 But you didn't leave Islam
00:05:31.120 Like, you said no
00:05:31.980 Yes
00:05:32.760 I don't know
00:05:33.720 What happened next when you felt this
00:05:35.360 For example
00:05:35.720 So I did leave the idea of Islam
00:05:37.140 I did leave the concept of Islam
00:05:38.680 I left it when I
00:05:39.820 Came to the
00:05:41.060 You know, of Lut al-Asa
00:05:42.540 I never had any context about it
00:05:44.180 Okay
00:05:44.480 That's all I read
00:05:45.100 Because media was portraying Islam that way
00:05:47.100 Yeah
00:05:47.160 You know, Islam does this to these people
00:05:49.000 And this to these people
00:05:49.960 Yeah, yeah, yeah
00:05:50.400 But, you know, if you get to the roots of it
00:05:52.300 You discover that it's not
00:05:53.320 Islam doesn't do anything to these people
00:05:55.020 As long as you're not doing it, you know, publicly
00:05:56.940 Okay
00:05:57.720 Stuff like that
00:05:58.420 Which is really unlikely that you would do that
00:06:00.500 Exactly
00:06:01.240 Even in today's time
00:06:02.440 Exactly, yeah
00:06:02.960 Even that goes with, like, people who are straight
00:06:05.220 You know, you're not going to go and do intimacy in public
00:06:07.420 And if you do
00:06:08.060 You know, there'll be a punishment
00:06:09.360 It's not like one over the other
00:06:10.960 Exactly
00:06:11.080 Do you get it?
00:06:11.580 It's like
00:06:11.760 The concept of zinnah is zinnah
00:06:13.500 What's done in public
00:06:14.320 What happens in the house
00:06:15.560 Is totally separate
00:06:16.480 Yeah
00:06:16.640 Because you're not having an impact on society
00:06:17.860 So from there onwards
00:06:19.080 When you realise this realisation
00:06:20.480 It's very strong of you
00:06:22.720 To acknowledge that it's a sin
00:06:24.460 Yeah
00:06:24.960 So you accept it
00:06:25.780 It's like, it is a sin
00:06:26.660 Yeah
00:06:26.980 So how did you deal with it?
00:06:28.500 Because there are people who may have
00:06:29.620 I think, of course
00:06:30.580 Of course it was a problem for me as well
00:06:32.260 In the sense that
00:06:33.140 I had to be introduced to this issue
00:06:34.720 The same way everybody else had to
00:06:36.120 Yeah
00:06:36.440 So like, for someone who has
00:06:37.780 Exclusively these inclinations, you know
00:06:39.820 Yeah
00:06:39.860 It might be a bit hard
00:06:40.840 Because you have to
00:06:41.520 What you have to accept is that
00:06:42.760 Yeah
00:06:42.920 There's no kind of outlet for you to have
00:06:45.840 Really
00:06:46.220 You cannot
00:06:47.120 It's fine
00:06:47.660 You know
00:06:48.040 And I understand it's very difficult for some people
00:06:50.420 And therefore I can see why people take it to a realm
00:06:54.220 Where they have to like
00:06:55.320 They take it to a position in which they just justify it
00:06:58.680 They say, how can Allah ever like, you know
00:07:00.660 Deny these pleasures to a human being
00:07:04.180 Who biologically has them
00:07:05.420 Yeah
00:07:05.820 But you know, I feel like
00:07:07.180 I feel like at the same time
00:07:09.960 It's like
00:07:10.400 This desire
00:07:11.420 I feel like everybody's given a different challenge to this dunya really
00:07:15.620 Yeah, true
00:07:16.160 Do you know what I mean?
00:07:17.000 So if you believe in Allah to begin with
00:07:18.880 You understand that
00:07:19.840 When you're reading those words
00:07:21.340 Where Allah is denying this to you
00:07:23.020 When he's saying that you cannot do it
00:07:24.940 Yeah
00:07:25.180 I think you need to have the perspective
00:07:27.220 In which you believe Allah is real
00:07:28.660 Therefore he knows what's right and what isn't
00:07:30.640 Yeah
00:07:30.960 And therefore you have to like
00:07:32.420 Take the approach in which you simply have to accept it
00:07:34.620 But obviously
00:07:35.340 Can I hug you?
00:07:36.920 Please, you know why?
00:07:38.080 Because you know this statement you made?
00:07:39.560 This is the essence of Tawheed
00:07:42.440 Because what you've done in a nutshell is the following
00:07:44.660 You've said
00:07:45.560 I have these tendencies towards opposite gender
00:07:47.800 I have options
00:07:49.200 I can say
00:07:49.820 Allah made me like this
00:07:50.920 It's Allah's fault and I leave the religion
00:07:52.360 You didn't go down that route
00:07:53.480 You said look
00:07:54.320 I have these tendencies
00:07:55.600 And I'm going to try to battle them
00:07:57.720 And I'm going to accept the Qadr of Allah
00:08:00.140 This is Tawheed
00:08:00.880 You're accepting the Qadr of Allah
00:08:02.300 You accept that good and bad come from Allah
00:08:04.300 And if you think about it
00:08:06.660 Even though you have this test that you have with
00:08:08.820 Many people can rebel
00:08:10.140 Many people can say
00:08:11.260 You know, I don't even have an outlet
00:08:12.460 Somebody who is obsessed with sleeping around has an outlet
00:08:15.300 You didn't
00:08:16.060 And the reason why I gave you a hug, Aki
00:08:17.540 Is because I found that so profound and strong
00:08:20.440 Coming from someone like you
00:08:21.740 Because I've spoken to a lot of people who have these tendencies
00:08:23.420 Yeah, I struggled to find people who are in my situation
00:08:25.700 Who went this way
00:08:27.000 Exactly
00:08:27.460 So it's very unique
00:08:28.640 And it's very interesting
00:08:29.340 Because you know why?
00:08:30.140 When it comes to the issue of tawakul
00:08:31.380 Yeah
00:08:31.640 Which is trust
00:08:32.520 You are having trust in Allah
00:08:34.420 Yeah
00:08:34.760 To a matter that you cannot control yourself
00:08:37.700 And you're saying
00:08:38.480 Oh Allah, you're testing me with this
00:08:39.800 Make me strong
00:08:41.100 You're worshipping him
00:08:41.920 You're acknowledging he exists there
00:08:43.200 And you are asking him for help
00:08:44.720 And like you said before
00:08:46.000 You said you found happiness via
00:08:47.840 I think people
00:08:49.780 I think people
00:08:51.580 What they do in the beginning is that
00:08:53.280 I think
00:08:53.840 They start to compare their desires with Allah
00:08:57.300 Yes
00:08:57.800 As two equal concepts
00:08:59.400 Yeah
00:08:59.860 And that's the mistake there
00:09:02.220 Because if you do that
00:09:03.400 You're basically just trying to find a way between the two
00:09:06.620 Where you can do that and also believe in Allah
00:09:08.580 And you know
00:09:08.900 But you're not just doing it to kind of
00:09:10.680 Just for the sake of doing it
00:09:12.200 But you're trying to justify it within the parameters of Islam
00:09:14.920 Yeah
00:09:15.140 So that obviously cannot work
00:09:17.060 But what I suggest for people in my situation
00:09:19.920 What I would suggest for people in my situation to do for example
00:09:22.680 Is to explore the situation with the acknowledgement that Allah is indeed the one
00:09:29.360 He is the one above us
00:09:30.900 He is the one you read about in the Quran
00:09:32.880 He is the one who has ownership towards us
00:09:36.860 So when you have that approach
00:09:38.660 When you get deep into this situation
00:09:43.300 You just need to try to give
00:09:46.720 You know what it is
00:09:48.180 I think media makes it very difficult for example
00:09:49.940 For people to
00:09:50.580 I feel like media makes it extremely difficult for people to find a way
00:09:53.900 To reconcile this with Islam
00:09:55.880 Yes
00:09:56.580 But I feel like the only solution to that
00:09:59.300 Which is not even that complex
00:10:00.880 Is to just you know
00:10:02.700 Try giving it up for Allah
00:10:04.340 I think if you just try it
00:10:06.840 You will find more pleasure that way
00:10:08.440 Allah says in the Quran
00:10:09.540 Only in my remembrance do hearts find peace
00:10:11.800 So what that means is
00:10:12.980 Sometimes we think
00:10:13.900 Pleasure
00:10:14.600 And things that we want
00:10:16.320 Is
00:10:17.060 We'll find it in materialism
00:10:18.360 So look
00:10:18.860 I was not a Muslim before
00:10:20.220 Party girls
00:10:21.100 All this kind of stuff
00:10:21.760 I live this lifestyle
00:10:22.560 You hit a wall
00:10:23.800 You hit a wall of what's next
00:10:25.520 I was pondering to myself a couple of months ago
00:10:27.380 I was thinking I'm nearly 32
00:10:28.900 Some people say I look 25
00:10:30.560 I mean that's normal
00:10:31.360 So the thing is
00:10:32.800 The point is this
00:10:34.040 I was thinking
00:10:34.460 Can you imagine
00:10:35.080 Me living that lifestyle
00:10:36.480 Till this age
00:10:37.660 What a boring lifestyle
00:10:38.940 Going clubbing every weekend
00:10:40.760 Linking up with girls
00:10:42.140 It's boring bro
00:10:43.340 It comes to a point where you're just bored
00:10:44.800 So the thing is
00:10:45.840 How do you actually find
00:10:47.160 Actual happiness and peace
00:10:48.300 This is where we believe in the fitrah
00:10:50.240 God almighty has programmed us
00:10:52.060 That we can only find happiness
00:10:53.760 In his remembrance
00:10:54.540 Just the way
00:10:55.720 When we enter Jannah
00:10:56.900 The biggest pleasure
00:10:58.520 Is going to be in what
00:10:59.240 Some of us think
00:10:59.940 You know
00:11:00.120 Man's going to get 72 virgins
00:11:01.980 And you know
00:11:02.360 He's going to get all the girls
00:11:03.160 If you think about it
00:11:04.760 We are told
00:11:05.460 That we are the
00:11:06.520 Greatest thing
00:11:07.300 That we're going to look forward to
00:11:08.380 Is Allah's face
00:11:09.120 And his face
00:11:10.420 The way he befits his majesty
00:11:11.440 Not the way we think about it
00:11:12.900 So even in Jannah
00:11:14.540 We seek his face
00:11:15.620 And in this dunya
00:11:16.640 We seek him
00:11:17.260 So actual pleasure
00:11:19.260 Doesn't come with
00:11:20.400 Okay I have these homosexual tendencies
00:11:21.940 If I can't practice them
00:11:23.200 I can't get the pleasure I want
00:11:24.160 No
00:11:24.420 Because Allah says
00:11:25.220 If you fear me
00:11:25.920 I will give you a way out
00:11:26.880 From places you can never imagine
00:11:27.900 So that inner peace
00:11:29.420 So that inner peace bro
00:11:29.660 Sometimes
00:11:30.340 When you have the inner peace
00:11:31.800 And the connection
00:11:32.320 With God Almighty
00:11:32.980 There is nothing in this world
00:11:35.020 That can match that
00:11:35.660 Nothing
00:11:36.600 So that's why it's important
00:11:37.760 When you said that
00:11:38.320 About God Almighty
00:11:39.000 And the connection
00:11:39.500 And finding that
00:11:40.260 To me that is beautiful man
00:11:41.620 I'm so happy that I met you today
00:11:42.840 Other than that
00:11:43.700 Other than that
00:11:44.260 I feel like in the Quran
00:11:45.120 It's quite clear
00:11:46.040 I feel like for people
00:11:47.160 Who try to find a way with it
00:11:48.660 I feel like there's not really
00:11:50.000 A way for you
00:11:50.520 To reconcile these two things
00:11:51.740 In a sense that
00:11:52.160 You can justify it
00:11:53.240 Because in the Quran
00:11:54.280 It's literally quite
00:11:55.480 Even if you literally
00:11:56.680 Translate the Arabic
00:11:57.660 It's quite clear
00:11:58.820 What it's saying
00:11:59.380 About such people
00:12:00.260 And you know
00:12:00.780 Such inclinations
00:12:01.600 I'm sorry
00:12:02.400 I'm so sorry
00:12:03.040 No no it's okay
00:12:03.660 It's okay
00:12:03.940 Because I want to say
00:12:04.480 Identity
00:12:05.040 Because sometimes
00:12:05.340 They record it without
00:12:05.940 Oh no no it's okay
00:12:06.780 It's okay
00:12:07.120 So what I'm saying
00:12:07.840 Is that you know
00:12:08.460 Some people
00:12:09.060 What I was saying
00:12:10.380 What was I saying
00:12:11.300 I'm so sorry
00:12:12.720 So you were saying
00:12:13.540 Was talking about
00:12:14.320 The love of God
00:12:14.780 Oh it's quite clear
00:12:15.200 In the Quran
00:12:15.620 You know that
00:12:16.180 So for people to
00:12:17.600 You know
00:12:17.920 Come to the conclusion
00:12:18.820 That actually it's fine
00:12:19.900 And you know
00:12:20.700 Allah will still love you
00:12:22.120 Will still forgive you
00:12:22.880 Even if you like
00:12:23.500 Justify it
00:12:24.380 Yeah
00:12:24.640 In Islam's parameters really
00:12:26.860 Yeah
00:12:27.340 So I feel like
00:12:29.020 It's just impossible
00:12:30.080 To do that
00:12:30.560 I feel like people
00:12:31.160 Need to first acknowledge
00:12:32.100 That if you have a look
00:12:33.700 In the Quran really
00:12:34.760 I'm studying the Quran
00:12:35.760 With Numan Ali Khan
00:12:36.920 Oh wow
00:12:37.540 Brilliant
00:12:37.860 He is a gem
00:12:38.920 Yeah yeah
00:12:39.520 And I feel like
00:12:40.620 If you truly have a look
00:12:42.060 At it
00:12:42.380 Yeah
00:12:42.620 You start to realise
00:12:44.360 That there's no
00:12:45.520 Like you know
00:12:46.540 Even when we
00:12:47.140 In the Quran
00:12:47.920 Even when the hypocrites
00:12:48.900 Are mentioned for example
00:12:49.740 Yeah
00:12:49.920 And how you know
00:12:51.840 They
00:12:53.080 There's an ayah
00:12:53.920 That says
00:12:54.320 They come into the light
00:12:55.280 And they step out
00:12:55.900 Out of their own convenience
00:12:57.080 Basically
00:12:57.660 That they accept
00:12:58.600 Islam
00:12:59.300 Only when it's convenient
00:13:00.360 For them to do so
00:13:01.220 Exactly
00:13:01.440 And then they step outside of it
00:13:03.240 When they just want to do something
00:13:04.620 That doesn't adhere with Quran
00:13:05.960 And that's why Allah said
00:13:06.660 Have you seen the one
00:13:07.180 Who takes his desires
00:13:08.100 As his own good
00:13:08.820 So I feel like
00:13:09.740 If you
00:13:10.080 I feel like the solution
00:13:11.080 The main solution here
00:13:11.880 Would be to put yourself
00:13:12.880 Outside of the box
00:13:14.160 And look at your situation
00:13:15.420 Technically
00:13:15.980 Without involving your emotions
00:13:18.040 I understand that it's a very emotional
00:13:19.540 It's coming from someone
00:13:20.440 Who has lived this situation
00:13:21.660 Okay
00:13:21.920 So I understand
00:13:22.920 So I understand
00:13:23.000 The emotion can be quite
00:13:24.060 Strong here
00:13:24.960 But if you look at it
00:13:26.040 From an external perspective
00:13:27.900 Right
00:13:28.260 If you put your inclinations
00:13:30.280 On one side
00:13:31.520 And what reality
00:13:32.460 Is telling you
00:13:33.240 You know
00:13:33.540 You have realised
00:13:35.320 That's objective truth
00:13:36.340 You've realised it
00:13:37.440 And you are reading
00:13:38.840 The guidelines
00:13:39.520 That the subjective truth
00:13:40.660 Has given to you
00:13:41.500 And if those guidelines
00:13:42.920 Are not adhering
00:13:43.660 With your desires
00:13:44.260 It simply means
00:13:44.980 That you have to give them up
00:13:45.800 Just like anybody else
00:13:46.680 Has to give up other sins
00:13:47.640 You know
00:13:47.960 It's the same exact thing
00:13:49.240 I don't think
00:13:50.240 I don't think homosexuality
00:13:51.380 Can be
00:13:51.900 I don't think
00:13:53.520 Allah is being unfair
00:13:54.680 By giving me a challenge
00:13:55.900 Which makes me
00:13:56.940 In my sexual inclinations
00:13:58.620 It makes me unequal
00:13:59.700 To someone who might be straight
00:14:01.160 And is happily living
00:14:02.100 A married life
00:14:02.700 I take it as a challenge
00:14:03.920 You know
00:14:04.160 I just take it as
00:14:04.980 Something that I have to live through
00:14:06.240 And just like other people have
00:14:07.860 And I feel like
00:14:08.520 When Allah gives you
00:14:09.300 Such a struggle in your life
00:14:10.240 It's simply because
00:14:10.740 You can handle it
00:14:11.420 Exactly
00:14:11.760 It's not like
00:14:12.460 It's not like
00:14:13.920 You can't do it
00:14:14.440 And when you have this mindset
00:14:15.400 You never fall into it
00:14:16.420 Yeah exactly
00:14:16.980 If you keep persisting
00:14:18.000 And being consistent
00:14:18.660 With this mindset
00:14:19.160 Nothing happens
00:14:19.920 Yeah exactly
00:14:20.580 No it is
00:14:21.440 We don't believe
00:14:22.260 In the supernatural
00:14:22.840 We believe Allah is there
00:14:23.860 As a aid
00:14:24.420 As a supporter
00:14:25.000 You know
00:14:25.720 And he does say that
00:14:26.600 He will never give you
00:14:27.560 Something that you cannot bear
00:14:28.500 And the thing is
00:14:29.340 And I've seen that
00:14:29.940 And I've seen that
00:14:30.640 Because the further
00:14:31.820 I got away from
00:14:32.580 That kind of environment
00:14:33.380 When these things
00:14:34.000 Were being justified
00:14:34.680 The easier it got for me
00:14:35.620 To deal with it
00:14:36.160 Yeah yeah yeah
00:14:36.580 The easier it got
00:14:37.380 Yeah there you go
00:14:37.880 And I feel like
00:14:38.380 It's going to be that
00:14:39.000 Inshallah
00:14:39.420 It will be for life
00:14:40.600 Like I don't
00:14:41.100 Inshallah
00:14:41.800 Inshallah
00:14:42.100 Allah will help
00:14:42.860 And what I mean
00:14:44.480 Is also that
00:14:45.160 What do you say
00:14:46.380 I feel like
00:14:47.840 I might have some advantages
00:14:49.140 As well
00:14:49.500 Like while other people
00:14:50.720 Might have to you know
00:14:51.380 Get married
00:14:51.740 While for me
00:14:52.280 It's a bit
00:14:52.640 For me it's a bit
00:14:53.620 Like inconvenient
00:14:54.780 To get married
00:14:55.280 Because I simply cannot
00:14:56.200 Do you know what I mean
00:14:56.980 It's like
00:14:57.480 So what I was saying
00:15:00.140 Is that
00:15:00.460 I can see an advantage
00:15:01.680 In my situation actually
00:15:02.660 I can see more time
00:15:03.980 To spend with Allah
00:15:04.680 In comparison to what
00:15:05.620 You know
00:15:05.880 Married couples have
00:15:06.780 That is so beautiful man
00:15:08.040 Wow man
00:15:08.440 That is amazing man
00:15:09.720 I like the way you think bro
00:15:11.160 I like the way
00:15:11.700 You break it down
00:15:12.800 Where you're like
00:15:13.220 Okay I see the advantages
00:15:14.620 You don't look at the cup
00:15:15.800 Half empty
00:15:16.260 You look at it half full
00:15:17.100 And you're like
00:15:17.820 You know
00:15:18.080 Maybe somebody who gets married
00:15:19.360 Will not have
00:15:19.960 As much ibadah
00:15:21.160 And closeness with God
00:15:22.100 I get to get that
00:15:23.220 That is bloody beautiful man
00:15:24.340 That is
00:15:24.700 I'm amazed
00:15:26.840 I'm amazed by how you think
00:15:28.280 How you take that test
00:15:29.860 And you don't turn it into
00:15:31.760 Something where you can
00:15:33.060 Blame God
00:15:33.560 Which you know
00:15:34.620 Logically
00:15:35.620 Logically
00:15:36.260 Logically
00:15:37.040 And someone can
00:15:38.300 But if you think about
00:15:39.460 Having trust in Allah
00:15:40.420 Etc
00:15:40.740 You're taking this test
00:15:42.180 And you're just
00:15:42.840 Beautifying it
00:15:43.860 With ibadah
00:15:44.540 Getting close to Allah
00:15:45.260 Tawakul
00:15:45.880 You know
00:15:46.460 Tawheed
00:15:47.080 And all these things
00:15:47.780 That you're saying
00:15:48.240 And I think it's amazing
00:15:49.740 And I think that
00:15:50.380 This is one of the most
00:15:51.120 Amazing discussions
00:15:52.160 Of people that I've met
00:15:53.560 Is you
00:15:53.880 And I really appreciate it
00:15:54.860 I have to say
00:15:55.760 One of the most