MESSAGE TO SISTER BODMON ZAID
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Summary
In this episode, I talk about the feeling of being lost and how to deal with it. I have been struggling with this feeling for a while now and it has gotten so bad that when I think about praying, it makes me feel ashamed and I feel like I am not good enough.
Transcript
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Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh brothers and sisters and dear friends
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hope you guys are doing well welcome back to my channel on this video I'll be
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talking about a sister who is I think she's a youtuber from Canada if I'm not
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mistaken how I came across this video is one sister messaged me on Instagram
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which you can see on the screen I'll show you guys so then you guys don't
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think you know I'm going you know stalking sisters anyway this is the
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message man said that I think she watches she's maybe a fan of this sister her
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name is I think her name is Bodmon Zaid but I don't think that's a real name
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anyways this sister said to me that look there's this youtuber and she feels a
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bit down upset etc and she maybe maybe he would be a bit of advice and I thought
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you know why not you know definitely be something you know we are Muslim brothers
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and sisters in the religion and it's our duty to help each other whatever it may
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be you know and every single one of us go through this so I thought you know the
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Prophet peace be upon him said that indeed advice benefits a believer so I thought
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let me advise her and I did watch the video just to grasp and understand where
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she's coming from and uh to be honest like you know she seems like a good
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sister but anyways let's just quickly watch some snippets just quickly snippets
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I'm not gonna do like a reaction video just snippets of certain things and we
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will address each other yeah sometimes I feel very alone even though I'm not alone
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you know what I mean I just don't have like another outlet that I could turn to
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I feel like lost I have this constant feeling in my heart and like in me like in my
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body that I am missing something like that I'm truly truly missing something
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like I feel like I have no guidance which is so like bizarre I haven't prayed for a
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while and this is something that I've been wanting to especially since I've been
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feeling like the feeling that I have is not something a person can solve um the
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feeling of being empty the feeling of being lost the feeling of having no
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guidance is not something that a person can solve not the most religious person
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but I do believe in a lot of things so I feel like I'm not good enough you know
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what I mean my personal life is not doing that well and I don't know why a lot of
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it just has to do with me not praying I feel like I can't find peace and like
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nothing that bad has happened I don't know so on my way to the gym let it all
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out like do an ugly cry like I will just let out everything everything that you
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see on social media is not true you know the beauty gurus including myself we
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only show you guys what we want to show you like the only thing at this point
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that I haven't done is I just start praying I feel like I'm not worthy which I
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know is not the case so I 100% agree that I feel like I should pray and I do want to
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start like I I've fallen off you know and I shouldn't have and then it's to the
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point when when I think about going and praying
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so it's to the point where when I go and think about praying I feel
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let's just switch topics for one second back to the issue so it's gotten so bad
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that when I think about praying it's like I I almost feel like ashamed and I feel
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ordinary three artists who had an invited somebody who was neighbouring himself
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Now, guysied since we got an understanding of everything the�� has been gone through
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now this is something that's happening with a lot of youtubers that big youtubers whatever it may be
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they're going through this phase this emptiness comes and kicks in and obviously i'm not gonna
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this is this i've done this video for like fuzzy tube as well so sister if you're watching this
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firstly uh go watch my video on my reaction video to fuzzy tube when he was going through that that
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will really benefit you i just want to repeat the same thing again not that i can't it's just i've
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done it before just for the viewers you watch that but i'm just going to repeat a few things insha
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allah so one thing that we need to understand says allah says in the quran indeed if you forget
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my remembrance you will have a depressed life so now we need to understand that allah has set that
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law in place meaning that our hearts only find peace in the remembrance of allah it's programmed it's
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there there is you can't break that that programming is there meaning for example like gravity when i
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let go of something it's going to fall no matter what it's going to fall it's a it's a law that's
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in place so that's what allah says indeed if you forget his remembrance you're going to have a
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depressed life and then in another verse allah says indeed with my remembrance do hearts find
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peace so saying that if you forget me you'll have a depressed life if you remember me your heart
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will find peace now sister when we attach ourselves to anything besides allah subhanahu wa ta'ala our
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hearts will always be broken and we will always never find happiness if it's a car if you make our
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car our happiness and our life when when our car disappears our love and happiness disappears with
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it when we put our heart and love into a human being a person who might be this doesn't mean you don't
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love your spouse no but not you don't love them more than you love allah do you get what i'm trying
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to say so when you put your happiness into this person whatever it may be and they your life and
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whatever when they leave and go your happiness leaves and goes with them and this goes with
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everything whatever you like you know whether it is if you like mango and you love it so much
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and it disappears whatever it may be do you get what i'm trying to say in your life so this is something
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that we need to understand so the emptiness that's where it's coming from because your heart is
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yearning for the remembrance of allah for the liquor of allah subhanahu wa ta'ala so that's why you
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sometimes you feel this emptiness when you move away and things are not right and then you get this
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temporary happiness where some people go through alcohol drugs uh whatever it may be but eventually
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they're just like it's just this void inside me one thing that i would say sister is that we need to
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we should concentrate about coming closer to allah with every action remember allah as much as you can
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even if you're alone for example i was preparing to do with this video let's say for example you're a youtuber
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you're prepared to do your video set up while you're doing that remember allah say you know
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astaghfirullah alhamdulillah la ilaha illallah um subhanallah just just remember allah on your tongue
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this is something that's heavy this is something that's light on the tongue saying allahu akbar
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astaghfirullah doing dhikr but it's heavy on the scales of good deeds on the day of judgment so try to
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do little things like this inshallah now other point that you said sister was one thing that i i really
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really and and really really touched me is that when you meant when you mentioned salah like prayer
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and you couldn't carry on you was you felt like crying now to me sister wallahi that shows your
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sincerity and it shows your genuinity and it shows your uh love for allah subhanahu wa ta'ala and when
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i've seen that sister wallahi i as your brother i make dua for you and your family that inshallah that
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allah gives you the best in this life and hereafter inshallah makes you closer to him
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um what i've seen that well uh what i've seen there sister wallahi i can testify in front of
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allah on the day of judgment that you are a sister that loves allah and his messenger wallahi i
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testify that seeing that that's not fake i believe that you love allah and his messenger and let me
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tell you a story and by the way sorry about my accent if i'm speaking too fast and this goes to
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everyone that's watching there was a man and he used to drink alcohol all the time and the
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companions would have a go at him you know like don't you feel allah you're drinking alcohol etc and i think
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this instance happened near the prophet this happened once and they were flogging this happened
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too they'll they'll flog him okay that was that was like the punishment yeah and this happened three
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times and then i think one of the companions said umar ibn qattab uh said to the man may allah like
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curse you what kind of a person are you you know you're drinking alcohol in front of the messenger
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etc along those lines and the prophet peace be upon him corrected him and he said yes he might be a
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sinner but indeed this man loves allah and his messenger meaning now we are all going to sin yeah we are all
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going to sin but it's about always having that connection with allah and seeing that in your
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sister you have that love for allah anytime you feel that little this goes to anyone anyone that
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feels a little regret when they sin you have iman in your heart you have the love for allah and his
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messenger it's there because you have this consciousness and a part and a part of repentance
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is there's three conditions you stop the sin you regret the sin and you don't go back to the sin yeah
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so for one of the parts is that you regret it so the fact that you felt bad and he was crying shows
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that you have that in your heart and i believe you love allah and his messenger so that's one thing
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that i would say sister now one thing that you said which i want to touch upon and a lot of people go
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through this is that you said that you feel ashamed and not worthy etc now this is one of the tricks of
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shaytan this is one of the ways shaytan attacks our sister so now what we need to understand is that
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no matter what sin you commit for any of us to think that allah will not forgive us is a bigger
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sin than the sin you're committing for example if i go and drink alcohol that's a sin or whatever it may
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be it's a major sin for example however the moment i think to myself allah's never going to forgive me i've
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just committed a bigger sin why because allah says in the quran every single chapter except one
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and one of his attributes is that he's the rahman rahim is the most merciful the very merciful
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yeah so for me to come and say for allah to say he's the most merciful and then for me to turn around
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and say no no you're not going to forgive me you're actually negating one of allah's attributes
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he is the most merciful so what you need to understand sister is that no matter what sin you commit
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whatever it is even if it's shirk associating partners to allah is the biggest sin yeah for
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example associating partners to allah for example thinking okay you know what this gem can protect
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me or going to somebody and asking praying to them etc long story short yeah any sin that you commit
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sister do not ever let the shaytan make you think you are not worthy because i know these folks come and
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say you know you're a hypocrite you've done this and that now you're going to go pray to allah you
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hypocrite no this is from shaytan automatically ignore it yeah there's things that allah has set
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in place yeah these things do not let go of them no matter what the shahada obviously the salah is
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very key sister the salah paying zakat giving charity going hajj if you can and fasting ramadan
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these are the pillars yeah what is more beloved allah is the things that he's ordered that you do
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yeah and these are your key to jannah yeah for you to open that door you have to have those keys yeah
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now and also abstaining from major sins away from alcohol uh haram relations zina yeah uh murdering
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anyone yeah not that i think you don't know anyone but etc keeping away from major sin if you stick to
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the things that allah's ordered you to do like the salah etc abstain from major sins allah subhanahu
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ta'ala says that he will wipe away your minor sins yeah and allah is the most merciful yeah we're
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going to have faults we're going to have ups and downs this is a part of iman some companions came
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to the prophet peace be upon him and said oh rasulullah when we're with you our iman is so high
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that we feel so great but when we leave your gathering we feel so low and the prophet muhammad
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peace be upon him said if you were to feel that high iman all the time the angels would have come and
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give salam to you so meaning that we're going to have have our ups and downs sister but do not ever let
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shaitan make you think that you are not worthy or you're this the first thing that you need to
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understand no matter what you commit sister you need to say stop okay regret you hate the sin you
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make uh you take it off and you repell and don't go back to the sin you need to acknowledge this stop
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okay this is a sin i've committed yeah acknowledge that say you know what i have a lord that's most
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merciful now this doesn't mean you commit sins i say okay what we're trying to see is that
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you understand that you have a lord that's often given most merciful so you need to always
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acknowledge that and say you know my lord's forgiven turn back repent and try not to go back to this
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sin stop the sin even if you fall back into it 50 times million times repent sincerely sincerely
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and try your best to fix your ways and not fall back into it but do not ever let your sins whatever
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it may be to cause an impact on your life where you let go of your salah and there's a cat and the
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fasting and the obligatory um deeds yeah do not ever let that happen yeah because none of us are
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perfect and we're going to fall into sin and it's about learning the best of sinners are those who
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repent and don't go back to it so sister this is like a little reminder for me to you just acknowledge
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that and have gradual steps to work your way up and know sister that when you go into your grave
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on the day of judgment sister there's going to be no there no one with you
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do not try to please anyone not that i'm saying you are brothers and sisters yeah do not try to
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please anyone believe me none of these people none of these people your own mother is not going to
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go in the grave with you if if they ask your own mother would you come in the grave instead of her
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she'll say no no because allah says on that day on that day of judgment nobody knows nobody it's just
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going to be you so sister don't let this temporary life distract you from the eternal paradise from the
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hereafter don't let that do that and like i said to you before i sincerely believe you love allah
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and his messenger sister may allah bless you may allah make it easy for you inshallah uh and protect
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you and one thing that i would say sister is obviously we as youtubers sometimes the things that
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we should not put out in public which you know yourself is that because the prophet peace be upon
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him said that envy envy this is a big big thing sister yeah so to protect yourself from envy and evil
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magic all these kind of stuff yeah read surah class surah and uh and the surah nas yeah and the
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prophet muhammad peace be upon him before he would go sleep he would put his hands together recite those
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free surahs and blow and wipe it over his body and after salah he would read that so inshallah you get
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back into your salah uh uh sister may allah make it easy for you do these precautional measures and sister
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get to know allah get to know his messenger get another companions meet female companions spend
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more time like yes it's good that that you know um you're physically active etc uh that you go gym
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whatever it may be however sister if we train and look if we we give nutrition to our body if we starve
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our soul what's gonna happen why do people kill their self because they've starved their soul their
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soul needs that food their soul food you know and that's the remembrance of allah feed your soul
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because this body that we're training well if nobody's saying don't train you can train but this
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body is eventually going to perish it's eventually going to perish it's your soul that you need to
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make sure that your soul is alhamdulillah in shape yeah like your soul is strong and that's what i would
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say about uh sister may allah bless you brothers and sisters hope you guys have benefited as well inshallah
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share this with sister uh hashtag maybe bodmon zaid i don't know what this name is may allah bless
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and make it easy for me make to offer as well inshallah sister um for uh for our brothers and sisters
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indeed we are brothers and sisters in the religion and we should help one another and we should be less
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judgmental everybody has their own troubles in different ways uh that's about it may allah bless you
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guys um yeah take care assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh