Ali Dawah - April 04, 2017


REACTING TO FOUSEYTUBE DILEMMA ｜｜ MUST WATCH!


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Length

19 minutes

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3,643

Sentence count

300

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Misogyny

1

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Toxicity

3

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Hate speech

12

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Summary

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Brother Fuzitube talks about depression and how to deal with it in this video. He also talks about the two different types of depression and the different ways that people can deal with them. I hope this video sheds some light on it.

Transcript

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00:00:00.000 Guys, everything's programmed.
00:00:13.280 My laptop's programmed, my camera's programmed, my phone is programmed.
00:00:17.860 We are programmed as human beings to only find peace in the remembrance of Allah. 0.96
00:00:24.020 Our hearts yearn for the remembrance of Allah.
00:00:26.920 What happens is when we start to get that emptiness and try to fill it up with a girlfriend or a boyfriend.
00:00:35.960 What happens is we make that person or that person our happiness.
00:00:40.840 And once we do that and that person lets us down and goes or cheats on us or betrays us or does whatever and goes.
00:00:47.500 Our happiness leaves with them.
00:00:49.920 When we put our happiness into a car and we end up being bored of that car, our happiness fades away the way our desire fades away from that car.
00:01:00.960 When we put our happiness into materialistic things and houses and whatever it may be and we get bored.
00:01:07.440 Why?
00:01:07.980 Because the heart is yearning for Allah. 0.97
00:01:11.600 You are giving it the wrong food.
00:01:13.260 You are giving it materialistic things.
00:01:15.600 It's rejecting it.
00:01:17.060 Car, it doesn't want it. 0.93
00:01:19.640 Partner, whatever it may, it doesn't want it.
00:01:22.000 Whatever you give it, it doesn't want it.
00:01:23.360 Drives, it doesn't want it.
00:01:24.260 Alcohol, it doesn't want it.
00:01:25.420 What does it want?
00:01:27.420 Wallahi, billahi, I'm telling you.
00:01:29.700 Hearts will only find peace in the remembrance of your Lord.
00:01:34.240 Wallahi, this is a law.
00:01:37.060 A law set out by Allah.
00:01:38.880 Just as there is a law, my knee dropping these keys, it's going to drop.
00:01:44.920 This is a physical law that Allah has put in place. 0.73
00:01:48.560 It's a physical law that Allah has put in place. 0.95
00:01:50.640 Just the same way, there's a metaphysical law which we cannot see with our eyes.
00:01:55.460 It's that our hearts only find peace in the remembrance of Allah. 0.98
00:01:58.620 As-salamu alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh.
00:02:00.080 Brothers and sisters and dear friends, before I start, I want to praise Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala,
00:02:02.820 the most merciful, the most just, or praise His glory and gratitude belong to Him.
00:02:06.840 Now, as you guys know, Fuzitube took a break from YouTube.
00:02:11.900 He's recently, today, done another video explaining why he left YouTube.
00:02:17.020 And I thought, you know what, I can do a video based on it and send a message to him.
00:02:20.620 But let's watch the video together, react to it, and derive some lessons from it,
00:02:25.040 which maybe brother Fuzitube can benefit from as well, as well as all of us.
00:02:30.460 And you can send a video to him at the end, inshallah, if you find it beneficial.
00:02:33.800 So let's get straight into it.
00:02:35.160 Let's get cracking, inshallah.
00:02:35.900 I recently texted a friend and I said,
00:02:39.440 yo, I'm high again right now, but I'm scared because I'm realizing that I'm smoking again and I'm drinking again.
00:02:47.640 And this time I feel that I'm doing it because it's out of depression and out of a low point in my life that I'm in.
00:02:54.260 So the actions that I'm doing every day and the feelings that I'm feeling are feelings of depression.
00:03:00.000 Two things he mentioned, and he's right.
00:03:02.800 People usually drink alcohol, drugs, etc. Based on just wanting to live life to the full.
00:03:08.920 This is what they claim, like, you know, the false understanding of believing that this is what life is about.
00:03:15.740 Clubbing, partying, dinner, whatever it may be.
00:03:17.880 So that's one path usually people take.
00:03:20.700 The other path is when you go through depression, right?
00:03:23.740 Now you're going through madness, whatever it may be.
00:03:26.420 So you start off life by partying, drinking alcohol, doing whatever you want, etc.
00:03:31.160 Then what happens is that routine, once you do that and you realize that this is not happiness, this is not going to be happiness, I still feel this emptiness inside me.
00:03:39.860 What happens is you start to decline and go into depression.
00:03:43.040 And when you go into depression, now you're not drinking alcohol and doing drugs and committing dinner because it's fun.
00:03:49.240 You're doing it because now you're in a state of depression.
00:03:52.660 And that's the norm that you know.
00:03:54.480 And that's the only thing that you know that you can turn to.
00:03:57.100 So I think this is what he's talking about, which is true.
00:03:59.240 And I said, to be honest, I never knew I was in it until I was out of it.
00:04:05.500 This time I'm able to recognize that I'm in it.
00:04:08.060 And it showed me that you usually don't recognize how low of a point you're at until you get out of the situation. 0.96
00:04:16.000 Because then you're able to look back and be like, damn, I was there and now I'm here. 0.56
00:04:21.920 And you're able to appreciate the current position that you are in life. 0.98
00:04:25.680 A couple of months ago, I quit.
00:04:28.140 Like, it's not like, oh, I thought I quit or, oh, I was confused or, oh, I was going through this and that.
00:04:36.460 Nah, like, I'm going to be 100% honest to you guys.
00:04:39.120 I can't keep letting myself down.
00:04:41.160 I can't keep letting them down.
00:04:43.100 I can't keep letting the people around me down.
00:04:45.720 And I 100% and wholeheartedly decided to quit.
00:04:49.520 I, you know, called my mom and dad and I told them, hey, I don't want you to be scared for me.
00:04:56.800 I don't know what my life has in store for me right now.
00:04:59.360 But in terms of what I'm doing in my life, I don't know anymore.
00:05:02.800 But at that point in time, I just, I wasn't there.
00:05:06.680 Emotionally, spiritually, mentally, nothing of me was here anymore.
00:05:10.800 I had lost my why.
00:05:13.460 You know, we all have a why as to why we do what we do.
00:05:16.400 And the why should be your driving force through anything you do in your life.
00:05:20.220 It should be why you wake up in the morning, why you grind every day, why you make sacrifices.
00:05:25.120 Your why is, you know, your reason, your purpose.
00:05:28.480 And I no longer had a purpose.
00:05:31.180 And I no longer had a reason to justify why I do what I do and why I put myself into the situations that I put myself in.
00:05:40.040 Okay, he's saying that he lost his why.
00:05:44.620 Why am I doing this?
00:05:46.100 Now, obviously, I don't know the reason why he would do certain things, whatever it may be.
00:05:50.800 But in life, generally, when we do things, we really need to ask the question, why?
00:05:56.260 Because it's really crucial.
00:05:57.500 It's really crucial.
00:05:58.220 Why am I doing what I'm doing?
00:05:59.900 And this is a question a lot of us ask.
00:06:01.580 Why am I doing this?
00:06:02.700 Why am I doing YouTube videos?
00:06:04.580 What is it for?
00:06:05.660 Why do I behave like this?
00:06:07.100 Why do I do this?
00:06:07.880 So, a lot of the times, when we don't find that why, the purpose, we get lost, you know.
00:06:13.520 Because now, and the message I want to derive from this is the fitrah, the innate disposition to find happiness only in the remembrance of Allah.
00:06:26.540 This is the why that we should live for.
00:06:30.380 Why am I doing it?
00:06:31.120 I'm doing it for the sake of Allah.
00:06:32.920 Everything, it should be for the sake of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala. 0.97
00:06:36.580 As much as possible, our why should be connected to the one that we worship.
00:06:40.720 And when we don't have that why, and we don't know that why, and we don't have that connection with that why, which I'm talking about is Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala.
00:06:49.920 Then we go into this hole where we are lost.
00:06:53.240 Why am I doing it?
00:06:54.080 Okay, fans, make them happy, this, that.
00:06:57.580 Okay, but making them happy.
00:06:58.440 But I'm not happy.
00:06:59.920 So, but okay, I'm doing it for this reason.
00:07:02.420 So, whenever you do something other than for the sake of Allah, then you can't really find true happiness.
00:07:08.240 Because you might be doing it for the people to make them happy, for your family, etc., whatever it may be.
00:07:15.080 Obviously, it's good to make it for your family as well, for the sake of Allah.
00:07:17.900 But not finding that why is a big hole a lot of people fall into.
00:07:21.100 And not knowing your purpose is another dilemma.
00:07:25.200 Because not knowing why am I here, where am I going, who's put me here, what's this all about?
00:07:32.340 This why's, if they're not answered, and if you don't understand, okay, Allah's put me here, Allah wants me to do this, the reason because of that, and this is Jannah is my goal.
00:07:41.660 Why, why, why, okay, bang, bang, bang, these are my goals.
00:07:44.120 So, then you're clear.
00:07:45.460 But when you don't have that, you're lost.
00:07:46.940 There's no light.
00:07:48.220 So, you're just basically like, you're just, imagine your eyes are closed and you're just looking for your way around, you get it?
00:07:53.380 It's a bit like that, I think.
00:07:55.200 Maybe, I might be going.
00:07:58.120 Just everything around me started to not make sense.
00:08:01.040 And I realized that, you know, as I went on, I mean, guys, I took four months off this year.
00:08:08.340 And you would think that, like, I had this mental breakthrough and I had this, like, you know, realization as to what I want to do.
00:08:14.980 But I'm sitting here telling you guys, this has been a really, really, really, really, really, really, really bad year.
00:08:22.100 And I'm not talking about in the sense of, you know, family problems and this and that.
00:08:25.940 I'm talking about in the sense of waking up every single day, going through the same actions, doing the same thing, expecting different results, but getting nothing.
00:08:33.220 Waiting for answers, praying for answers and nothing coming your way.
00:08:38.080 And just not knowing what you're supposed to do in life.
00:08:40.740 Waking up every morning just like, bro, what am I supposed to be doing right now?
00:08:44.860 When I watch this, when I watch Brother Fuzi, it makes me think like the soul, the soul has been so deprived that it's on a brink of, like, breaking.
00:08:58.980 Like, like, like, I feel like the brother is, he's, it just seems like his soul is starving.
00:09:05.200 The fact that he's saying when I wake up and I'm like, what am I supposed to do?
00:09:08.900 And it's, it's, it just makes it seem like, it reminds me of the verse in the Quran where Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala clearly says,
00:09:15.500 If you forget my remembrance, you'll have a depressed life.
00:09:18.060 Now, in no shape or form, I'm not saying that Fuzi has completely forgot the remembrance of Allah.
00:09:22.280 I don't know. I don't know, yeah?
00:09:24.580 However, it's important to have that connection.
00:09:27.220 Because if we don't have that connection, then we, like I said to you before, we're lost.
00:09:32.860 And this is really important, brothers and sisters.
00:09:34.900 We don't forget to eat.
00:09:36.500 If we don't eat, what happens to our body?
00:09:38.500 We are weak.
00:09:39.440 We can't do nothing.
00:09:41.580 Why don't we look after our soul the way we look after our body?
00:09:44.900 The way we look after ourself.
00:09:47.000 You know, I have to look nice, makeup, since I have to look makeup, whatever it is.
00:09:51.280 Hey, I need to look nice.
00:09:52.220 My outer appearance, I feed my, feed my body, handle that, doesn't, my soul, my body's not complaining, etc.
00:09:59.180 What about the soul?
00:10:01.000 What about the soul?
00:10:02.800 When we deprive the soul, what's going to happen?
00:10:05.700 You deprive, deprive, deprive to a point where there's so, breakdown.
00:10:10.400 So, this is really important as well, brother.
00:10:12.140 I didn't know what that was.
00:10:14.360 I don't, I didn't know what my reason was, what my purpose was.
00:10:18.400 I just felt empty.
00:10:19.580 So, every day, if you guys have been wondering where I've been, what have I been doing, what has Fusi been up to, I've been doing nothing.
00:10:25.140 I've been doing nothing but spending time with myself, you know, trying to figure things out.
00:10:33.780 But that's why I'm in the position now recognizing that the thing that I was missing all along and the thing that, you know, was, you know, I was yearning for more than anything was love inside myself, identity within myself.
00:10:45.900 Recognizing who I am as a person and knowing who I am as a person and knowing that I'm worthy and valuable and, like, love myself to that extent to be able to love others around me.
00:10:56.480 And understand that anything that comes into my life, I'm grateful for and, you know, I hold gratitude towards and it's not something that I need or something I need excess of to fulfill my, you know, internal pit of endless, you know, dissatisfaction and unhappiness around me.
00:11:13.740 And when I took my break, I was waiting for that breakthrough of, oh, rejuvenation, come back strong, come back happy.
00:11:21.820 You know, you got to motivate people.
00:11:23.480 You can't be called this.
00:11:24.700 You can't be called that.
00:11:25.720 I come to you broken and I come to you more afraid than I have ever been in my entire life.
00:11:33.220 And I come to you with more self-doubt than I've ever had in my entire life.
00:11:38.780 And I come to you with more questions about my life and my future than I've ever had in my entire life.
00:11:44.200 I come to you with anxiety.
00:11:46.620 I come to you with, you know, uncertainty.
00:11:50.220 I come to you with whatever fears you might think mingle through your head when you put your head down to sleep at night when you're going to sleep and you can't get those thoughts out.
00:12:00.140 I come to you in that form and letting you know that I'm going through that and I'm going through that heavily right now.
00:12:05.620 I can't promise you, you know, the best version of me right now.
00:12:10.800 I can't promise you the version of me that you once knew or that you fell in love with.
00:12:16.020 Like, you might not even recognize me as a person anymore.
00:12:19.080 You might not like me as a person anymore.
00:12:21.300 The fact that he's justifying to the people that, look, you know, I'm going to be myself.
00:12:26.120 I can't be how you think I am always.
00:12:29.100 I usually am, etc.
00:12:30.240 This is really key.
00:12:32.400 I think he takes, and I understand as a YouTuber, like, negative hate comments get to you a bit more than positive comments.
00:12:39.200 Positive comments are like, okay, hate comments get to you.
00:12:41.120 He's basically more concerned about what people think of him.
00:12:44.920 And he shouldn't.
00:12:45.640 He shouldn't care.
00:12:46.580 He shouldn't give a damn about what anyone thinks about him.
00:12:50.440 As long as he's true to himself and true to the one who created him, he shouldn't care who thinks what, you know.
00:12:57.400 And obviously there's that little barrier, as we can see, that maybe he's going through some tests and trials, etc.
00:13:04.020 That he doesn't have that connection with Allah, maybe.
00:13:05.580 I don't know.
00:13:06.040 I don't know.
00:13:06.420 That might be the cause.
00:13:07.460 But he shouldn't care.
00:13:08.700 There's another problem that we all face is that we're trying to please other people.
00:13:12.720 Other people are not going to go in your grave.
00:13:14.360 And if I were going to introduce myself in my most authentic form, it would be me here looking at you right now, being able to tell you I'm going through so damn much.
00:13:23.920 And that's why I'm here and that's why I need you more than ever right now.
00:13:27.640 When I used to use YouTube before my happy place became the scariest place that I've ever known because of everything I allowed into it, I used to be vulnerable.
00:13:38.040 And I used to talk to you guys about what I'm going through.
00:13:40.440 See, when he says, this is where I need you, the cure, the cure is not Fuzi needing his viewers. 0.51
00:13:49.820 He needs his Lord.
00:13:51.360 At this time, he really, really, really needs to like take that time out.
00:13:56.860 I literally mean it like I think Fuzi has tried everything except like truly just saying, you know what, look, Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala has given you the cure.
00:14:07.780 Just try that, Fuzi. 0.56
00:14:09.200 If you're watching this, please just take a break and try what Allah has prescribed.
00:14:16.180 Try that.
00:14:17.040 Wallahi, Allah's promise is true.
00:14:19.080 Allah's promise is true.
00:14:21.820 Try it.
00:14:23.220 Build your connection with your Lord.
00:14:24.680 Zone out.
00:14:25.860 Go to Makkah. 0.90
00:14:26.960 Go to the Kaaba.
00:14:28.040 Stay there.
00:14:28.860 Two weeks, three weeks, four weeks, whatever.
00:14:31.300 Stay there.
00:14:32.120 Build that connection with your Lord.
00:14:35.040 Have you tried that, brother?
00:14:36.260 Please, please, please.
00:14:38.380 Try this.
00:14:39.740 Please, guys, once this video is finished, please send this to Brother Fuzi.
00:14:42.300 This is the key.
00:14:43.040 You don't need them, you, those followers.
00:14:45.580 You need your Lord.
00:14:48.140 And I used to talk about depression openly and I used to talk about when my days weren't going good.
00:14:53.440 And I used to talk about, you know, my stresses and I used to talk about everything.
00:14:57.720 But soon enough, it became that that wasn't the cool thing to do.
00:15:02.320 And I got, you know, chastised for it and criticized for it, hated on for it.
00:15:08.140 So I had to, you know, good morning every morning.
00:15:14.280 And I had to force myself to be happy and I had to do all.
00:15:16.760 He had to put on, act on, even though he was going through madness.
00:15:20.740 Why?
00:15:21.420 So people were judging for this and that and whatever it may be, you know.
00:15:25.420 And he had to put an act on.
00:15:27.960 Why?
00:15:28.580 For the people.
00:15:29.960 The people would never make you happy.
00:15:32.020 If you try to find your happiness within people or materialistic things, they would always, always, always let you down.
00:15:39.120 Wallahi, they would always let you down.
00:15:40.640 When you do something in Islam, when we do something, we do it for the sake of Allah.
00:15:44.960 I do good to you, not because I want good back.
00:15:47.920 I do it for the sake of Allah.
00:15:49.400 Because you know why?
00:15:50.240 I know you will let me down some way or another.
00:15:52.680 So I am doing this for the sake of Allah.
00:15:54.760 Not because I want something back from you.
00:15:56.840 So doing things for the people is never going to bring you happiness.
00:16:00.660 Never.
00:16:01.280 Because they're always going to let you down.
00:16:02.920 The one that will never let you down is the one who created you.
00:16:06.280 I need this more than ever right now because I need an outlet to talk about whatever it may be going through my head.
00:16:12.660 And I need to stop harnessing these emotions and these bottles because I am living in fear every single day.
00:16:18.060 Every single day that I chose to not pick up this camera, it's because I'm terrified.
00:16:21.560 I'm terrified about what the world has to say about me.
00:16:24.220 I'm terrified about how people perceive me.
00:16:26.540 I'm terrified of people's opinions.
00:16:28.300 I'm terrified about reading anything about myself.
00:16:31.960 The only thing that matters is your connection to your Lord and what you can do to please Him.
00:16:36.660 It doesn't care what people think.
00:16:38.080 What people think don't matter to you.
00:16:40.480 Wallahi, that's true freedom.
00:16:41.600 Because right now it seems like Brother Fooza Tube, he's in these shackles of trying to please other people.
00:16:48.140 That's sad.
00:16:49.560 That's sad.
00:16:50.840 Because that's not freedom.
00:16:52.960 You are in invisible shackles trying to please other people, brother.
00:16:56.860 And this is why maybe a depression is happening.
00:16:59.660 And like I said, I can't promise you guys content that's going to entertain you.
00:17:05.940 I can't promise you guys content that's going to grab your attention.
00:17:10.540 And I can't promise you guys that I'm going to be able to even be here every day because I do not know.
00:17:17.680 I don't know how many conversations I had with my mom where she would say, when are you posting again?
00:17:21.900 I would be like, I'm trying, mama.
00:17:23.420 And then one week would turn to two.
00:17:25.220 Two would turn to three.
00:17:26.320 Three would turn to four.
00:17:27.280 And I still couldn't find the strength or the courage to be able to pick up the camera and just talk.
00:17:31.440 You know, I guess that's it, man.
00:17:35.680 I love you guys.
00:17:40.000 I appreciate you guys.
00:17:41.500 And thank you for listening.
00:17:42.900 I pray that I have the strength to pick up the camera tomorrow and just talk to it.
00:17:48.500 No matter if it be good, bad, positive, negative, or anything.
00:17:53.160 I just hope that I have the strength to be able to press record and upload and try to help myself and you right there who might be going through something on your own.
00:18:03.860 Until next time.
00:18:05.020 I understand he wants to help people, etc.
00:18:07.900 But you see Allah says in the Quran, save yourself and your family members from the hellfire first.
00:18:13.500 And a lot of people do this.
00:18:15.240 You know, you're too busy trying to help other people.
00:18:17.420 Look, if you're drowning, you need to help yourself first.
00:18:20.460 You're trying to help other people, you're both going to drown.
00:18:23.320 Help yourself first.
00:18:24.700 I just hope Brother Fuzi Choo, inshaAllah, may Allah make his affairs easy.
00:18:29.480 He's got an amazing family.
00:18:31.500 MashaAllah.
00:18:32.440 I just, like I said before.
00:18:35.020 Brother Fuzi, if you're watching this, go to Makkah. 0.97
00:18:38.100 Brother, go to Makkah. 0.96
00:18:39.860 You've tried everything.
00:18:41.580 Brother, please try this.
00:18:43.440 Try the way of your Lord once.
00:18:45.720 Aki, please try this. 0.88
00:18:48.780 Then come and say to me, it didn't work.
00:18:50.760 Try it and then say to me, it didn't work.
00:18:53.000 So guys, hope you enjoyed it.
00:18:54.200 Hope you benefited.
00:18:55.460 Share this with Brother Fuzi Choo, inshaAllah.
00:18:57.040 Please, inshaAllah, if you watch this, benefits from it, I'll be happy.
00:19:03.360 I'll be more than happy, inshaAllah.
00:19:05.360 I hope you guys have benefited and learned from this.
00:19:07.140 Peace, share with your friends and family.
00:19:09.420 As-salamu alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh.
00:19:10.760 I'll see you next time.
00:19:11.680 Goodbye.
00:19:24.480 Hey, give me one.
00:19:28.260 Thanks, Aki.
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