Brother Fuzitube talks about depression and how to deal with it in this video. He also talks about the two different types of depression and the different ways that people can deal with them. I hope this video sheds some light on it.
00:00:49.920When we put our happiness into a car and we end up being bored of that car, our happiness fades away the way our desire fades away from that car.
00:01:00.960When we put our happiness into materialistic things and houses and whatever it may be and we get bored.
00:02:35.900I recently texted a friend and I said,
00:02:39.440yo, I'm high again right now, but I'm scared because I'm realizing that I'm smoking again and I'm drinking again.
00:02:47.640And this time I feel that I'm doing it because it's out of depression and out of a low point in my life that I'm in.
00:02:54.260So the actions that I'm doing every day and the feelings that I'm feeling are feelings of depression.
00:03:00.000Two things he mentioned, and he's right.
00:03:02.800People usually drink alcohol, drugs, etc. Based on just wanting to live life to the full.
00:03:08.920This is what they claim, like, you know, the false understanding of believing that this is what life is about.
00:03:15.740Clubbing, partying, dinner, whatever it may be.
00:03:17.880So that's one path usually people take.
00:03:20.700The other path is when you go through depression, right?
00:03:23.740Now you're going through madness, whatever it may be.
00:03:26.420So you start off life by partying, drinking alcohol, doing whatever you want, etc.
00:03:31.160Then what happens is that routine, once you do that and you realize that this is not happiness, this is not going to be happiness, I still feel this emptiness inside me.
00:03:39.860What happens is you start to decline and go into depression.
00:03:43.040And when you go into depression, now you're not drinking alcohol and doing drugs and committing dinner because it's fun.
00:03:49.240You're doing it because now you're in a state of depression.
00:06:07.880So, a lot of the times, when we don't find that why, the purpose, we get lost, you know.
00:06:13.520Because now, and the message I want to derive from this is the fitrah, the innate disposition to find happiness only in the remembrance of Allah.
00:06:26.540This is the why that we should live for.
00:06:32.920Everything, it should be for the sake of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala.
00:06:36.580As much as possible, our why should be connected to the one that we worship.
00:06:40.720And when we don't have that why, and we don't know that why, and we don't have that connection with that why, which I'm talking about is Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala.
00:06:49.920Then we go into this hole where we are lost.
00:06:59.920So, but okay, I'm doing it for this reason.
00:07:02.420So, whenever you do something other than for the sake of Allah, then you can't really find true happiness.
00:07:08.240Because you might be doing it for the people to make them happy, for your family, etc., whatever it may be.
00:07:15.080Obviously, it's good to make it for your family as well, for the sake of Allah.
00:07:17.900But not finding that why is a big hole a lot of people fall into.
00:07:21.100And not knowing your purpose is another dilemma.
00:07:25.200Because not knowing why am I here, where am I going, who's put me here, what's this all about?
00:07:32.340This why's, if they're not answered, and if you don't understand, okay, Allah's put me here, Allah wants me to do this, the reason because of that, and this is Jannah is my goal.
00:07:41.660Why, why, why, okay, bang, bang, bang, these are my goals.
00:07:58.120Just everything around me started to not make sense.
00:08:01.040And I realized that, you know, as I went on, I mean, guys, I took four months off this year.
00:08:08.340And you would think that, like, I had this mental breakthrough and I had this, like, you know, realization as to what I want to do.
00:08:14.980But I'm sitting here telling you guys, this has been a really, really, really, really, really, really, really bad year.
00:08:22.100And I'm not talking about in the sense of, you know, family problems and this and that.
00:08:25.940I'm talking about in the sense of waking up every single day, going through the same actions, doing the same thing, expecting different results, but getting nothing.
00:08:33.220Waiting for answers, praying for answers and nothing coming your way.
00:08:38.080And just not knowing what you're supposed to do in life.
00:08:40.740Waking up every morning just like, bro, what am I supposed to be doing right now?
00:08:44.860When I watch this, when I watch Brother Fuzi, it makes me think like the soul, the soul has been so deprived that it's on a brink of, like, breaking.
00:08:58.980Like, like, like, I feel like the brother is, he's, it just seems like his soul is starving.
00:09:05.200The fact that he's saying when I wake up and I'm like, what am I supposed to do?
00:09:08.900And it's, it's, it just makes it seem like, it reminds me of the verse in the Quran where Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala clearly says,
00:09:15.500If you forget my remembrance, you'll have a depressed life.
00:09:18.060Now, in no shape or form, I'm not saying that Fuzi has completely forgot the remembrance of Allah.
00:10:19.580So, every day, if you guys have been wondering where I've been, what have I been doing, what has Fusi been up to, I've been doing nothing.
00:10:25.140I've been doing nothing but spending time with myself, you know, trying to figure things out.
00:10:33.780But that's why I'm in the position now recognizing that the thing that I was missing all along and the thing that, you know, was, you know, I was yearning for more than anything was love inside myself, identity within myself.
00:10:45.900Recognizing who I am as a person and knowing who I am as a person and knowing that I'm worthy and valuable and, like, love myself to that extent to be able to love others around me.
00:10:56.480And understand that anything that comes into my life, I'm grateful for and, you know, I hold gratitude towards and it's not something that I need or something I need excess of to fulfill my, you know, internal pit of endless, you know, dissatisfaction and unhappiness around me.
00:11:13.740And when I took my break, I was waiting for that breakthrough of, oh, rejuvenation, come back strong, come back happy.
00:11:46.620I come to you with, you know, uncertainty.
00:11:50.220I come to you with whatever fears you might think mingle through your head when you put your head down to sleep at night when you're going to sleep and you can't get those thoughts out.
00:12:00.140I come to you in that form and letting you know that I'm going through that and I'm going through that heavily right now.
00:12:05.620I can't promise you, you know, the best version of me right now.
00:12:10.800I can't promise you the version of me that you once knew or that you fell in love with.
00:12:16.020Like, you might not even recognize me as a person anymore.
00:12:19.080You might not like me as a person anymore.
00:12:21.300The fact that he's justifying to the people that, look, you know, I'm going to be myself.
00:13:08.700There's another problem that we all face is that we're trying to please other people.
00:13:12.720Other people are not going to go in your grave.
00:13:14.360And if I were going to introduce myself in my most authentic form, it would be me here looking at you right now, being able to tell you I'm going through so damn much.
00:13:23.920And that's why I'm here and that's why I need you more than ever right now.
00:13:27.640When I used to use YouTube before my happy place became the scariest place that I've ever known because of everything I allowed into it, I used to be vulnerable.
00:13:38.040And I used to talk to you guys about what I'm going through.
00:13:40.440See, when he says, this is where I need you, the cure, the cure is not Fuzi needing his viewers.
00:13:51.360At this time, he really, really, really needs to like take that time out.
00:13:56.860I literally mean it like I think Fuzi has tried everything except like truly just saying, you know what, look, Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala has given you the cure.
00:17:42.900I pray that I have the strength to pick up the camera tomorrow and just talk to it.
00:17:48.500No matter if it be good, bad, positive, negative, or anything.
00:17:53.160I just hope that I have the strength to be able to press record and upload and try to help myself and you right there who might be going through something on your own.