00:00:00.000Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh brothers and sisters and dear friends
00:00:27.680hope you guys are well welcome to this video before I start I want to praise Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala
00:00:32.680the most merciful the most just all praises glory and gratitude belong to him for the works that we do as a team
00:00:37.600the video today is a sensitive topic not only for brother Shaquille who's going to be sharing his story with us
00:00:44.160but for me personally because it's to me like I actually obviously like I said before it's a sensitive topic
00:00:52.340but it was hard for me to see brother Shaquille I've seen him before and the hardship he's going
00:00:58.140through to do this video because it's a bit like rubbing salt on his wound but he really insisted
00:01:04.520on doing it and subhanahu wa ta'ala I told him like I'm really busy with a few videos we'll do in two
00:01:08.920weeks time you know because it's obviously I had videos to do as well but it's hard for me to
00:01:14.020talk about something that he's been through and for him to mention again because it's like he's
00:01:19.320reliving the whole thing obviously he called me I think messaged me about two days ago and he said
00:01:25.040that it's mother's days on Sunday and I didn't know about it obviously we don't celebrate mother's
00:01:29.180day but the fact that you know it's just known out there I thought it's a great idea to actually do
00:01:35.380this and you know I wasn't feeling well myself but I said you know what it has to be done so yeah that's
00:01:41.380why we're bringing this video to you guys for you guys to benefit most importantly because a lot of us
00:01:46.380you know we don't appreciate our parents we don't know the value they have with us till they're gone
00:01:53.180so obviously I'm going to start with brother Shaquille. Shaquille is going to share a story
00:01:57.520of the moment he found out about his mother's illness to the day she passed away to today
00:02:07.200I'm not going to carry on any further to be honest I want Shaquille, brother Shaquille to
00:02:11.200kind of give us the story inshallah like from what happened so just tell me the first moment Aki when
00:02:21.120when you first first first found out what was you doing that day before you found out
00:02:28.000and how did your life change yeah in the name of Allah all praise is due to Allah first of all I just want to start saying I didn't even know that I was going to talk about the whole story from the beginning to the end I thought I was going to be talking about just giving advice to people to appreciate their parents obviously you told me about 20 minutes before so be patient with me
00:02:57.000if I kind of lose my words or what not but I'll just tell you like since it's happened I've tried to just ignore the realities of it even though I see things every day that remind me certain smells sights certain roads I go down I get memories 24 7 but I really tried my best to blow it out of my head and just I don't know just
00:03:26.980just try and pretend it's just try and pretend it never happened there's nothing I can do I can't bring her back so
00:03:37.780I remember she come back from Spain she stayed in Spain for a year
00:03:45.880and she come back and she had a really bad cough it was really bad but she said that she went to the doctors and they just said that she had a chest infection
00:03:59.640well I remember we went to Hyde Park she's in central London and we went out like a family out in and then I coughed I just noticed she was getting really really bad like she was heavily wheezing it was a cough like I never heard before
00:04:30.640she got she went up to North England to visit my brother
00:04:37.640and then found out she went to the hospital for her chest because she was coughing and it got worse
00:04:46.640so anyway she was in the hospital for one week and at this time I was still in South London and I had no means to get up to the hospital she was at
00:04:59.640but I spoke to my stepdad and my stepdad was like yeah we're going to go up there on the weekend
00:05:08.640before the weekend came I remember it was about nine o'clock in the morning
00:05:13.640and I was walking to the gym and I got a phone call from my stepdad
00:05:19.640and he's just like the first thing he just said he's like Romero get yourself together now we're going to go see your mum she's just been told she's got cancer
00:05:32.640and then I was in the middle of the street at that time and I was just like my heart just like just stopped for a minute
00:05:39.640I didn't know what to say and I was just like alright just let me know when you're outside my house
00:05:45.640so anyway I just like I didn't know what to do in fact I carried on walking towards the gym like it was just weird I didn't know how to react
00:05:54.640I didn't cry or anything I was just it's a big shock it's like not my mum
00:05:58.640and if you if you watched my last video I gave my my read that story most people know that I was very close with my mum
00:06:07.640she was a person that ever like she's easy to love and like so and she was a very strong woman as well
00:06:14.640and I was just like I said I've heard that she's got cancer and he also said it's stage 4 cancer which is bad
00:06:21.640very bad so I went to the gym and he said he's going to be at my house in about two hours
00:06:29.640I said no I was in the gym and I was just obviously I went focusing and I saw one of my friends at the gym
00:06:35.640and he asked me what's wrong like I just said well I've just been told my mum's got cancer and he was like what are you doing here
00:06:42.640I'm like I don't know I just don't know what to do like he's like just go home
00:06:47.640he said no I walked home and my stepdad picked me up then we went to North England it's like a three hour drive
00:06:55.640and as we was going up there my stepdad was just complaining like the fact that the doctors just come and told her by herself
00:07:03.640she had no family with her whatsoever and apparently he said that my mum was really crying just the fact that she was told all alone
00:07:12.640and my mum's really sensitive to things like that I think anyone would be so anyway we got to go up to the hospital
00:07:21.640I saw my brother I saw my mum and all this time she was in hospital for that long yeah we
00:07:29.640she was just told that she's got this wrong with her and that wrong with her but she
00:07:33.640it was only like until the last week she was told like she's got cancer so I saw her
00:07:36.640and she was just lying in her bed and then I didn't want to look at her as if she was like sick or
00:07:42.640ill like that so I just gave her a big smile and just gave her a kiss
00:07:45.640and I didn't show her any I tried my best not to show her any panic or that I was scared
00:07:50.640because I know she would be scared you know what I mean
00:07:53.640but she come to me and then she just started talking just tears were coming down her eye
00:08:02.640and she was just like don't worry son I'm gonna beat this there's plenty of kills out there
00:08:31.640and I can sort this out don't worry I'm not gonna die she's like she's carried on telling me don't worry I'm not gonna die
00:08:38.640I was like my mum know you're not gonna die you're too strong for that
00:08:41.640you know we sat with her for a few hours and we just tried to avoid the subject
00:08:59.640I just tried to talk about everything else other than that and then I'm just trying to bust joke
00:14:02.640and then slowly all these, like more medication was being brought into the house
00:14:05.640then she started getting one of them big breathing machines because it's lung cancer so obviously it started affecting her lungs so it was affecting her breathing
00:29:45.640But for them to die is a, it's like a stab wound to your heart as it is.
00:29:51.640Akiwallah, to know, and this is like, I don't mean to hurt people that are listening to this, that maybe their family hasn't accepted Islam.
00:29:59.640Akiwallah, to know that your family, like, your parent didn't accept Islam.
00:30:06.640Akiwallah, I don't know how I would have lived with it.
00:30:08.640Yes, my parents are going to die. Maybe I'm going to die before them.
00:30:11.640But, okay, to a point you can bear it, okay, to a point.
00:30:16.640But knowing every day you wake up that your parents didn't accept Islam and died, like, that's one of the scariest things.
00:30:23.640Akiwallah, I know it's a calamity, but, you know, I can say nothing but see it as a blessing in a way that she accepted Islam.
00:30:34.640Akiwallah, I would give the whole wide world just for my parents to accept Islam.
00:30:39.640Akiwallah, just, at least then I'm just like, look, at least, at least there is a chance that I can see them in there after.
00:30:46.640Akiwallah, at least there's that chance. Do you get it?
00:30:48.640Akiwallah, just keep that in mind that, you know, I was so happy when you said, like, obviously when you said your mum passed away, it obviously really hurt me.
00:30:58.640But the fact that you said she had said Islam, akiwallah, it just called my heart down.
00:31:01.640Like, I was like, I was so happy for you. Wallahi, by Allah, I was just like, because if you said to me she didn't, akiwallah, I was just like, I don't know what I would have done.
00:31:09.640Wallahi, I'm being honest, I would have not be able to do this video. I could have not do this video.
00:31:13.640There's no way I could have do this video and it's hard already as it is, but I could not do it. Wallahi, by Allah, I would not be able to do it.
00:31:22.640But, yeah, man, I don't know. I just hope, like, this video, the whole point behind this video is for you guys to understand. Wallahi, by Allah, just understand the value of your parents.
00:31:33.640I have times with my mum where I'm just like, you know, you get mad. Put yourself back in your place. You know, this is your mother. You know, Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala said that he orders you to worship none other than him and to be in excellent behaviour to your mother and your father.
00:31:50.780You know, this is the doors to Jannah. Wallahi, by Allah, your obedience to your family members, to your mum and dad is your doors to Jannah.
00:32:01.940I can't really remember, I was looking for it before we started this, but there was a sahabi where he was so obedient to his mother and his father.
00:32:11.880And when they passed away, he was crying so much and they were asking, why are you crying?
00:32:15.820And it's like, my doors to Jannah have gone. My doors to Jannah have gone now.
00:32:21.300But I did also see a narration as I was looking on the laptop, is that every Friday, every Friday if you go and, like, do du'a for them in their grave, it's like you're being obedient to them.
00:32:33.980You know, and, like, you know, keep that in mind, Aki.
00:32:36.800You know, you can still benefit them. You want to start your own charity, inshallah, like, I will be more than happy to help you in, inshallah.
00:32:46.120And, brothers and sisters, Wallahi, I want to share a few narrations with you guys, is that Abdullah ibn Umar, once he was at the Kaaba and he saw a man, a Yemeni man circulating in the Kaaba with his mother on his shoulders.
00:32:56.760And he was circulating, and as he's circulating, he's humiliating himself by saying, I am my mother's, like, camel.
00:33:03.740I am my mother's camel, and he's going around, and he's going around.
00:33:07.040And then after he did this, he came to Abdullah ibn Umar and said, oh, Abdullah ibn Umar, have I paid back what my mum did for me?
00:33:13.860Abdullah ibn Umar said, you did not even pay back one uff she made when she was giving birth to you.
00:33:20.000You did not pay back one time when she went uff when she was giving birth to you.
00:33:24.840That one little pain. And also, there is another narration where a man who left his family came to the Prophet ï·º in war and said, oh, I've come to give you bayah and basically fight in your cause.
00:33:38.700And he goes, I left my mother and father crying. And he said, return back to your mother and father and make them happy just the way you made them cry.
00:33:46.600If the biggest form of, like, obedience and reward you want to get, go back and serve them.
00:33:53.020And brothers and sisters, Wallahi, if you are, like, forget swearing, man. There's people today that are hitting their old mother, man.
00:34:02.060The same mother who looked after you for nine months, brought you to this age.
00:34:07.300Wallahi, I don't understand. I don't understand. What mentality are you serving, man?
00:34:11.040The same mother who brought you up, you're lifting your hand to that. You're lifting your hand to her.
00:34:14.520But just learn from my mistakes that if I could go back and just have, not even one day, if I could have one hour with my mum, what a lie.
00:34:24.120I'm not joking you. I would just, I would not, I wouldn't, there's nothing I probably wouldn't do.
00:34:31.700Like, I would just tell her I love her so much every single second, like, you lot still got that opportunity now just to turn to your mum.