Ali Dawah - July 30, 2015


Why I'm leaving islam ｜｜ Ali dawah


Episode Stats

Length

34 minutes

Words per Minute

223.52112

Word Count

7,814

Sentence Count

185

Misogynist Sentences

3

Hate Speech Sentences

51


Summary

In this episode, we talk about how I left Islam and what led me to leave the religion and how I came to the point where I decided to leave Islam. In this episode I speak about the main reasons that lead me to leaving Islam and why I left the religion.


Transcript

00:00:00.000 Asalaamu Alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh brothers and sisters and dear friends
00:00:27.560 welcome to this video of why i'm leaving islam now obviously this is what the video is called
00:00:32.280 and titled and it's not actually me that's leaving islam may allah protect all of us from that
00:00:38.120 obviously and there's a lot of people that go through this stage there is a brother that
00:00:43.140 messaged me a couple of weeks ago which you will see the message on the screen inshallah as i'm
00:00:47.800 speaking and this brother messaged me and said that he wants he basically took a shahadah to
00:00:53.000 take to come to islam and he was asking me how i can leave islam and he messaged me and qadr of
00:00:57.800 allah go in contact with the brother uh and the interview is going to be uh that we're going to
00:01:01.860 play the interview in a minute which we did with him uh and as you can see through the messages when
00:01:05.920 he first messaged me i wanted to clarify and know if this if he's really a muslim or not and obviously
00:01:10.680 asked him a couple of questions as you can see on the screen you know about salah uh etc etc and he
00:01:14.980 passed and i was like okay he's genuine uh so obviously we're going to interview him and find
00:01:20.140 out what led him to the point where he wanted to leave islam uh obviously so inshallah please
00:01:25.200 guys do watch the whole video inshallah we're going to go straight uh to the interview
00:01:28.540 so how do you guys have been here oh um very quickly yeah we were uh yeah so first
00:01:40.200 i was HIM first i was huh when i first came in like that was like right side off昨 day we
00:01:58.240 started training um you told me first about my marketing question i was kinda shocked i honestly
00:02:06.760 Yeah, yeah, we were going to match it together, we were super-serying, you know, it's like a bunch of times, you know, it's good.
00:02:13.760 It's good, and we're talking, you can't be confusing back from myself, right?
00:02:18.760 Yeah, for example, when Hank's supposed to do this, but he didn't have to start one.
00:02:22.760 Oh, really?
00:02:23.760 Yeah, and he was like, oh, now he's not told me.
00:02:26.760 Yeah, yeah.
00:02:27.760 So, you know, if you start one?
00:02:28.760 Yeah, that's right.
00:02:29.760 Okay, so basically, I get a message to somebody by the scene, I told him in the internet,
00:02:33.760 but I want to see you on the internet, you see it.
00:02:35.760 The only thing this video is not just the real people, the personal, the real people.
00:02:38.760 You know, so basically, you know, you're talking about, so how do you practice that?
00:02:44.760 Very, very, very, very good.
00:02:46.760 I'm always mad at this point.
00:02:51.760 I'm scared to go to the person, yeah.
00:03:02.760 There was a lot of passion and stuff, so I was like, that's deep.
00:03:15.440 From there, some brothers told me more about Islam,
00:03:19.100 about my, obviously, difficulties of, you know,
00:03:21.500 because, obviously, I'm a medium now,
00:03:23.980 because Islam's not really doing their, you know, like,
00:03:26.120 Yeah, there was a misconception out there.
00:03:27.720 Yeah, misconceptions on them.
00:03:29.380 So, obviously, there was a talk at, I think it was,
00:03:32.760 at Birmingham Uni, actually, if I'm not mistaken.
00:03:35.880 Joshua Evans, if you can get that right.
00:03:36.900 Joshua Evans?
00:03:37.480 Joshua Evans, yeah, yeah.
00:03:38.820 You know, he told his wee first story, and I thought it was amazing,
00:03:41.840 and then from there, obviously, he didn't take Rashada there,
00:03:44.980 but I took it in the prayer room and that.
00:03:46.680 It was alright, yeah, yeah.
00:03:47.880 So, roughly, that's how you came.
00:03:49.340 That's how I came, yeah.
00:03:50.500 Okay, now, I want to go straight into it, okay,
00:03:53.120 so, obviously, we heard how the brother knows you,
00:03:54.760 and how we came about here.
00:03:56.960 What is the main, say to me, first, we put it once,
00:04:00.120 what are the main things that has led you for you to message me
00:04:03.400 and say, look, I want to leave this down?
00:04:04.900 Was it, was it the doubts that you have with Allah and His Messenger,
00:04:08.260 or it's like, no, no, no, bro, it's nothing to do with Allah,
00:04:10.920 nothing to do with the Prophet, put that to his side,
00:04:13.280 it's how Muslims are.
00:04:14.560 Yeah, yeah.
00:04:14.920 You get it?
00:04:15.740 Wow.
00:04:16.040 So, which one is it?
00:04:16.620 Was it, was it, did you have doubts about the religion,
00:04:18.400 or is it the Muslims?
00:04:18.900 Not doubts about the religion,
00:04:19.820 because, in fact, the religion has taught me a bit of peace.
00:04:22.080 Every time I have prayed, there has been a bit of peace of mind.
00:04:24.600 MashaAllah.
00:04:24.900 Maybe not the best of prayers, but at least I'm trying,
00:04:27.280 you know what I mean?
00:04:27.700 Of course I can, of course.
00:04:29.360 Allah knows how best it is.
00:04:30.320 Allah knows, isn't it?
00:04:31.020 Allah knows.
00:04:31.600 But, the thing is, is the people, how they act,
00:04:35.020 and almost abandoning the reverts,
00:04:38.440 or even people in general, actually,
00:04:39.700 because I've seen it, you know what I mean?
00:04:40.540 It's quite sad to see, and,
00:04:41.920 and it wasn't that, sorry, sorry, sorry,
00:04:44.500 it's the, obviously, I was getting confused about different sects as well,
00:04:48.220 how people are so different, having...
00:04:50.780 So, sects was an issue?
00:04:52.100 Sects.
00:04:52.500 So, it wasn't the actual, you know, Allah and the president,
00:04:54.940 it was just the people around us?
00:04:55.960 The people around us were just giving me such a negative five,
00:04:58.640 and once you get a negative five,
00:05:00.220 you just want to go out, you just want to act, like, wild, ain't it?
00:05:02.520 You know what I mean?
00:05:02.920 There's no doubt.
00:05:03.740 Let's go through the stories.
00:05:04.840 Yeah.
00:05:05.060 What was the first occurrence that you had that was like,
00:05:07.880 like, you're a Muslim, why are you doing, like,
00:05:09.780 that nobody's perfect, we're not saying,
00:05:11.080 okay, just because you're a Muslim you should be,
00:05:12.180 but there's certain things you don't do.
00:05:13.660 Yeah.
00:05:13.800 Do you get it?
00:05:14.160 Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:05:14.660 Like, individuals that are not Muslim,
00:05:16.520 they don't do.
00:05:17.220 What was the first occurrence that you had and said,
00:05:18.940 like, wow, like, that you got affected by?
00:05:23.340 Um, I think, well, when I took my shahada,
00:05:28.040 obviously that was hard.
00:05:30.200 I think, excuse me,
00:05:32.360 I think the way the people kind of left me,
00:05:34.560 who I was with, you know, with obviously the brothers.
00:05:37.140 Okay, when you took your shahada, they were around you?
00:05:38.800 They were around me for a certain, like, couple of hours,
00:05:40.980 and then it's like they almost disappeared, kind of thing.
00:05:43.120 So, as soon as you took your shahada...
00:05:44.660 It's just like they walked to me.
00:05:45.620 There was, like, one who I'm good friends with now,
00:05:47.640 and may Allah reward him, actually.
00:05:49.260 He's a very good person, and his family as well.
00:05:51.220 Masha'i.
00:05:51.760 Um, apart from him,
00:05:53.240 the others were just lost in contact with me.
00:05:55.100 I don't know if things...
00:05:55.660 Those kind of ones that take a picture...
00:05:57.400 Take a picture, just get the rewards,
00:05:58.860 and, like, you know what I mean?
00:05:59.660 And I'm going to touch up on this.
00:06:00.580 Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:06:01.800 And I was thinking, rah.
00:06:03.420 I didn't really affect it.
00:06:04.320 I thought, you know, maybe they're busy,
00:06:05.520 maybe they're doing work, et cetera, et cetera.
00:06:06.860 That didn't mind me, but I've realised,
00:06:08.260 I thought, wait,
00:06:09.280 how come they're not calling me?
00:06:10.300 And I was like, well, where's all the love, man?
00:06:12.000 You know what I mean?
00:06:12.340 That's what I was thinking.
00:06:12.980 I thought Muslim,
00:06:14.000 maybe even thought about Islam,
00:06:14.920 was about peace, love, brotherhood.
00:06:17.400 And for the first couple of hours,
00:06:19.500 I was thinking, okay, you know,
00:06:20.520 Masha'i Allah, we went to something to eat,
00:06:21.900 and I thought, oh, this is all right, man.
00:06:23.400 A bit scared, because I'm not used to, like, big...
00:06:25.460 You know what I mean?
00:06:26.120 But, you know, so that was my first.
00:06:28.360 That was probably my first,
00:06:29.240 because when they just went their separate ways,
00:06:31.200 I thought, wait, you know what I mean?
00:06:32.960 Where's the interaction?
00:06:34.020 Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:06:34.940 So that was the first.
00:06:35.960 What carried on from there that was kind of...
00:06:38.740 Wow, madness.
00:06:40.680 What happened after that?
00:06:44.060 Obviously, I had to deal with, you know,
00:06:46.260 the family situation from there.
00:06:48.860 Obviously, when I told some brothers in the mosque
00:06:50.760 about my family,
00:06:51.940 it was like they were trying to say,
00:06:53.700 oh, you must convert your mum to...
00:06:55.640 And the Muslim was like, what?
00:06:57.260 There's a lot of pressure.
00:06:57.960 There's a lot of pressure.
00:06:58.800 So you're going to the mosque
00:07:00.040 to say my family's causing, like...
00:07:01.840 Yeah, yeah, there's a lot of, you know, issues.
00:07:03.200 And instead of them telling you how you should be,
00:07:06.160 they're like, oh, no,
00:07:07.540 get your mum to be a Muslim.
00:07:08.720 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:07:09.580 Like, it happens all the time.
00:07:11.140 Exactly, exactly.
00:07:12.000 You know what I mean?
00:07:12.580 So there was a lot of pressure.
00:07:14.260 I was like, whoa.
00:07:14.880 And then they were saying,
00:07:15.940 yo, Aki, you know,
00:07:16.780 mashallah, you took the shahada.
00:07:18.260 You're going to be, you know,
00:07:19.240 change your name.
00:07:19.800 I was like, no offense, man.
00:07:21.500 Like, okay.
00:07:23.140 You know what I mean?
00:07:23.860 It's something that you don't have to do.
00:07:25.920 I don't think it says in the Quran.
00:07:26.980 Yeah, you don't have to.
00:07:27.540 You know what I mean?
00:07:28.020 Of course you don't.
00:07:28.920 It takes time as well.
00:07:30.120 Yeah.
00:07:30.300 People start to realize as well.
00:07:31.920 Of course.
00:07:32.380 Brother John Fontaine.
00:07:33.380 You know John Fontaine?
00:07:34.060 Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:07:34.540 His name is John Fontaine.
00:07:35.940 Yeah, exactly, exactly.
00:07:37.140 You know, he didn't name it Abdullah Fontaine.
00:07:38.880 Exactly.
00:07:39.320 You know, yeah.
00:07:40.860 Even though there's nothing wrong with the name,
00:07:42.100 but I'm saying it.
00:07:42.900 Yeah, yeah.
00:07:43.500 And pressurizing again with family.
00:07:46.020 Saying, obviously,
00:07:46.900 I was a drummer back in the day.
00:07:48.200 Yeah.
00:07:48.380 Now, they were saying,
00:07:49.680 what, you've got to stop music now.
00:07:51.280 I was like, whoa, whoa.
00:07:52.820 I was in college studying music.
00:07:54.280 So they're saying,
00:07:55.220 you need to stop it.
00:07:56.280 You need to stop it.
00:07:56.920 And I was thinking,
00:07:58.520 whoa, this is kind of deep.
00:07:59.920 I mean, fair enough.
00:08:00.860 Obviously, it's not the best of it.
00:08:02.180 Yes.
00:08:02.360 However, you can't just tell someone
00:08:04.820 straight away,
00:08:06.640 like, yo, you've got to do it.
00:08:07.840 Yeah, you can't.
00:08:08.520 It's impossible.
00:08:09.240 It's impossible.
00:08:09.840 It's like telling an alcoholic.
00:08:11.220 You've got to stop drinking straight away.
00:08:12.340 It's not going to,
00:08:13.240 you know what I mean?
00:08:13.940 But that was,
00:08:16.660 there's a lot of pressure.
00:08:17.680 So let's go through it.
00:08:18.840 So basically,
00:08:20.700 they're not allowing you
00:08:21.580 to slowly adapt to it.
00:08:22.660 They're just saying,
00:08:23.300 just do a U-turn immediately.
00:08:25.140 Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:08:25.600 Which is wrong.
00:08:26.260 Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:08:26.760 It's very wrong.
00:08:27.400 Yeah, yeah.
00:08:30.080 That, again,
00:08:30.880 so the pressure rising,
00:08:31.900 again, you know,
00:08:32.660 for reverts and that,
00:08:34.300 I know it happens
00:08:35.520 nearly every day for the man.
00:08:36.960 I mean,
00:08:37.360 family with names.
00:08:39.060 We're probably even
00:08:39.540 getting married as well.
00:08:40.640 Like, you know,
00:08:41.680 I don't know if there are brothers
00:08:42.520 who, you know,
00:08:43.080 they talk to Shahada with
00:08:43.940 and saying, you know,
00:08:44.560 Marshall,
00:08:44.920 now you need to get married.
00:08:46.400 I'm like,
00:08:46.980 whoa,
00:08:47.420 where's all this coming from?
00:08:48.860 You know what I mean?
00:08:49.540 Did you ever meet any,
00:08:51.440 like,
00:08:51.980 I'm a revert brothers?
00:08:53.560 Like, revert?
00:08:54.420 Yeah, around your area.
00:08:55.540 So, like,
00:08:55.720 he could help you,
00:08:56.860 relate to you or something like that?
00:08:57.640 There was one,
00:08:58.740 he was a good brother,
00:09:00.060 you know,
00:09:00.600 very good brother.
00:09:01.740 Until this day,
00:09:02.360 actually,
00:09:02.480 I think he is a good person.
00:09:04.060 However,
00:09:04.600 he was like,
00:09:06.520 he was like a proper Aki,
00:09:07.920 you know what I mean?
00:09:08.460 Like,
00:09:08.600 you know,
00:09:09.040 he's good,
00:09:09.480 you know,
00:09:09.740 he's a very good person,
00:09:10.860 but he was just like...
00:09:11.400 But not somebody
00:09:11.720 that would understand you.
00:09:12.740 Yeah,
00:09:13.140 I thought he would understand me
00:09:14.120 since he was from the same background,
00:09:15.640 same thing.
00:09:16.620 He was just like,
00:09:18.500 I wouldn't say extreme,
00:09:19.860 he wasn't extreme in that nature,
00:09:21.420 but he just had...
00:09:22.220 I know what he was.
00:09:22.720 Do you know what I mean?
00:09:23.180 I felt that.
00:09:24.300 I felt that when I did this.
00:09:25.300 Do you get it?
00:09:25.860 Yeah.
00:09:26.380 Okay,
00:09:27.080 what else was leading on to?
00:09:29.220 Because I didn't mean,
00:09:29.680 I want you to build it up
00:09:30.540 to say,
00:09:30.860 you know what,
00:09:31.340 this happened,
00:09:31.840 that happened,
00:09:32.500 and then I thought,
00:09:33.000 you know what,
00:09:33.480 just forget it, man.
00:09:34.420 Of course.
00:09:34.780 So what next?
00:09:36.240 Also,
00:09:36.740 before I even talk much harder,
00:09:38.000 there's one of my close friends,
00:09:40.420 you know,
00:09:40.940 in fact,
00:09:41.440 his background,
00:09:41.920 I can't obviously say his name,
00:09:43.220 but he was from an Arab family
00:09:46.900 and stuff like that.
00:09:47.700 And he was obviously telling about Islam.
00:09:49.340 In fact,
00:09:50.220 the one first I remember actually,
00:09:51.820 this is what made me feel
00:09:52.700 that Islam was beautiful,
00:09:54.820 is,
00:09:57.260 oh,
00:09:57.600 sons of Adam,
00:09:58.260 I've created you from different tribes
00:09:59.620 and nations,
00:10:00.100 so you can get to know one another.
00:10:01.520 That first,
00:10:02.380 yeah,
00:10:02.940 that first hit the heart,
00:10:04.920 really interesting.
00:10:05.460 To this day,
00:10:05.980 I think about it.
00:10:07.240 But I was thinking,
00:10:07.800 wait,
00:10:07.940 you're not even doing that,
00:10:08.660 the Muslims are not even doing that,
00:10:10.240 you know what I mean?
00:10:10.620 So we're all against each other.
00:10:12.020 Cultural.
00:10:12.640 Yeah,
00:10:13.000 cultural and that.
00:10:14.400 You know what I mean?
00:10:15.080 So,
00:10:16.300 obviously,
00:10:16.860 but now,
00:10:17.340 the brother who invited me to Islam,
00:10:19.820 obviously before the child and stuff,
00:10:21.700 but he was saying,
00:10:23.140 you know,
00:10:23.360 I never noticed,
00:10:23.940 he never used to pray,
00:10:25.580 he couldn't speak his own language properly,
00:10:27.600 I was just like,
00:10:28.320 whoa,
00:10:28.840 okay,
00:10:29.200 this is the guy that's giving me information,
00:10:30.700 but I'm not supposed to judge him.
00:10:31.760 So he doesn't pray?
00:10:32.680 He doesn't pray,
00:10:33.640 he doesn't,
00:10:34.300 He doesn't do nothing?
00:10:35.380 Nothing at all,
00:10:36.100 he said,
00:10:36.520 you know,
00:10:36.820 he's like the worst.
00:10:37.800 He gave you darat?
00:10:38.780 He gave me darat.
00:10:40.220 He gave me darat,
00:10:41.220 only to the best of his ability though,
00:10:42.780 whatever he could do.
00:10:43.460 He was trying,
00:10:44.640 he wasn't,
00:10:45.100 he wasn't a bad person at all,
00:10:46.640 but on that note,
00:10:48.400 so I was thinking,
00:10:49.080 wait,
00:10:49.400 but you're a Muslim,
00:10:50.380 and you're not even doing the basics,
00:10:51.680 I mean,
00:10:52.480 you know what I mean?
00:10:53.080 I,
00:10:53.260 you know,
00:10:53.860 it was quite upsetting,
00:10:55.140 and seeing that,
00:10:56.780 that was making me think,
00:10:58.100 wait,
00:10:58.320 I've gave up all my stuff,
00:10:59.860 you know,
00:11:00.220 like drumming,
00:11:00.900 gyal,
00:11:01.340 drink,
00:11:01.780 go to the club,
00:11:02.440 but you're not even doing half of this.
00:11:04.980 Next point,
00:11:05.680 obviously,
00:11:05.960 we were discussing,
00:11:06.780 you know,
00:11:07.060 how the brothers would kind of force me to marriage,
00:11:10.080 however,
00:11:10.620 to me,
00:11:11.080 there was,
00:11:11.760 you know,
00:11:11.940 obviously every Muslim guy that I know,
00:11:14.520 in fact,
00:11:14.780 probably everyone here now,
00:11:16.420 obviously wants to get married.
00:11:17.700 So obviously,
00:11:18.800 the marriage thing,
00:11:20.400 I was thinking,
00:11:21.260 obviously,
00:11:22.880 I've seen this girl,
00:11:24.160 she was a Muslim,
00:11:24.780 she's the same background as me,
00:11:27.040 but there was a lot of issues there,
00:11:29.620 and I was thinking,
00:11:30.160 wait,
00:11:30.500 how am I going to marry her?
00:11:32.160 My mum's kind of against Muslims anyway,
00:11:35.280 so if I'm bringing a hijabi to my house,
00:11:37.420 I'm just like,
00:11:38.020 roll.
00:11:38.240 She's a Jamaican Muslim,
00:11:40.620 yeah,
00:11:40.840 yeah,
00:11:40.980 so it was good in that sense,
00:11:44.220 but at the same time,
00:11:45.080 I was thinking,
00:11:45.860 I can't bring you to my house anyway,
00:11:48.360 no offence,
00:11:49.000 I don't know what's going to happen to you.
00:11:50.320 I can relate to that.
00:11:51.080 Because I've got some,
00:11:51.780 you know,
00:11:52.240 people in my family are white as well,
00:11:53.740 and it's just mixed up,
00:11:55.140 man,
00:11:55.340 so,
00:11:56.580 you know what I mean,
00:11:57.460 from that,
00:11:58.500 I want to say,
00:11:58.840 that really caused me to leave,
00:12:00.560 that's not one of the points of the English land,
00:12:01.920 but it's an issue that I think every Muslim should know,
00:12:05.200 I think,
00:12:05.640 you know,
00:12:06.360 brothers,
00:12:06.780 if you've got a daughter out there,
00:12:08.160 or sister that you don't mind getting married to,
00:12:09.760 make it easier for the brothers,
00:12:10.840 because it's not hard for us at all.
00:12:12.100 It's very true,
00:12:12.620 bro,
00:12:12.760 I'm supposed to be doing videos on this.
00:12:14.320 Yeah,
00:12:14.500 yeah,
00:12:14.700 yeah,
00:12:14.900 inshallah.
00:12:16.180 Some more points.
00:12:17.140 But you were saying that you had two friends?
00:12:19.080 Two friends,
00:12:19.680 sorry,
00:12:20.080 yeah,
00:12:20.240 yeah,
00:12:20.460 yeah,
00:12:20.680 yeah.
00:12:20.840 there was a guy,
00:12:23.280 obviously,
00:12:23.960 he used to go to my mosque,
00:12:25.120 the old chap,
00:12:25.900 about 60,
00:12:26.700 70 years old,
00:12:27.980 martial,
00:12:28.700 a very good brother,
00:12:30.160 learns his Arabic,
00:12:30.960 well,
00:12:31.100 he used to be an alcoholic,
00:12:32.280 very good exchange,
00:12:33.380 he's speaking,
00:12:34.060 he's speaking Arabic to the Arab brothers now,
00:12:36.140 he's just,
00:12:36.320 he was a river,
00:12:37.220 was he?
00:12:37.780 He was a river,
00:12:38.480 yeah,
00:12:38.760 he's a river.
00:12:40.220 So obviously now,
00:12:41.520 he's telling me a certain situation that,
00:12:43.780 you know,
00:12:43.980 he's praying,
00:12:45.260 then the people in the actual masjids told him like,
00:12:48.320 oh yeah,
00:12:48.600 you've got to go to the other side of the prayer room,
00:12:51.080 he's flipped out,
00:12:51.980 he didn't want to go to the mosque anymore,
00:12:53.280 but he's come back,
00:12:54.020 obviously.
00:12:54.300 Why did they tell him to go to the other room for him?
00:12:55.660 I don't even know,
00:12:56.260 to the other side of the mosque,
00:12:57.560 I was thinking,
00:12:58.040 wait,
00:12:58.640 because that,
00:12:58.960 you know,
00:12:59.200 because he's old,
00:12:59.820 he needs a chair to sit,
00:13:01.140 obviously he can get chairs both ways,
00:13:02.260 but I don't know,
00:13:02.680 they made a big argument,
00:13:04.980 I was like,
00:13:05.300 whoa,
00:13:05.740 that's kind of,
00:13:06.360 you can't do,
00:13:07.040 you know what I mean?
00:13:07.560 So,
00:13:07.920 we promote,
00:13:09.080 you know,
00:13:09.400 ecology,
00:13:10.120 exactly where you are,
00:13:11.140 so when I heard that and I saw it,
00:13:15.000 I was like,
00:13:15.240 whoa,
00:13:15.380 that's kind of deep,
00:13:16.280 man.
00:13:17.440 Did any time we know the situation where,
00:13:19.020 obviously,
00:13:19.400 martial arts,
00:13:19.860 he's trying to really better himself,
00:13:20.920 trying to go to Hajj,
00:13:22.320 and his brother,
00:13:25.020 apparently he's got his,
00:13:27.140 apparently he's gave the money for the brother,
00:13:29.860 so his brother gave,
00:13:32.760 to go Hajj?
00:13:33.740 To go Hajj,
00:13:34.440 yeah.
00:13:34.520 He paid up front,
00:13:35.300 paid up front to the guy who's going to take him,
00:13:37.540 because obviously he's elderly,
00:13:38.540 and the guy is Muslim.
00:13:39.780 Yeah,
00:13:39.980 the guy is Muslim,
00:13:40.860 and obviously he's trying to get in contact with him,
00:13:43.860 there's no response,
00:13:44.840 just disappeared,
00:13:45.960 I don't know what's happened,
00:13:46.880 inshallah,
00:13:47.640 inshallah he gets the,
00:13:48.820 you know,
00:13:49.080 the guy to get back to him,
00:13:50.180 because that's just fine.
00:13:50.760 Is this the same brother,
00:13:51.060 the guy who,
00:13:51.840 in the masjid?
00:13:52.920 Yeah,
00:13:53.140 this is the same guy that got told to actually move.
00:13:55.520 So he gives his money to someone to go Hajj,
00:13:56.800 and the guy runs away with him.
00:13:57.560 Yeah,
00:13:57.720 yeah,
00:13:57.940 yeah.
00:13:58.540 So,
00:13:58.860 what an amazing,
00:13:59.580 that one.
00:14:01.100 Boys,
00:14:01.660 that's just worthless.
00:14:02.360 And you mentioned to me about a brother that wanted to get married,
00:14:04.940 and there was a relationship.
00:14:05.420 Yes,
00:14:05.680 of course,
00:14:06.280 the marriage situation,
00:14:08.820 obviously this guy I know,
00:14:09.820 in fact it was the same one,
00:14:11.020 the same river who lives around my area,
00:14:12.720 but obviously he's a bit too trim,
00:14:14.380 but apart from that he's a very good brother,
00:14:16.880 obviously he's been trying to get married to this girl for,
00:14:20.140 what,
00:14:20.360 six,
00:14:20.760 seven years,
00:14:21.780 battling,
00:14:22.620 yeah,
00:14:22.880 I might even joke about it.
00:14:23.700 He's got good patience,
00:14:25.520 so,
00:14:26.280 obviously before he was a Muslim,
00:14:27.680 but at the same,
00:14:28.240 like half of the time he was,
00:14:29.400 you know,
00:14:29.560 Muslim learning himself,
00:14:30.760 she taught in Quran,
00:14:32.420 stuff like that,
00:14:33.920 and the dad was not having none of it,
00:14:35.380 he was just saying,
00:14:35.980 I like you,
00:14:37.060 obviously the guy,
00:14:38.280 but you're just,
00:14:39.060 because you're black,
00:14:39.800 you just can't have it.
00:14:40.780 You know what makes me crazy,
00:14:42.320 they come to you and say,
00:14:44.820 like,
00:14:45.140 you know when you accept Islam,
00:14:46.180 you're black,
00:14:46.900 or whatever colour,
00:14:47.640 yeah,
00:14:48.100 they embrace you,
00:14:48.820 you're my brother in the deen,
00:14:50.300 if that same person said,
00:14:51.620 you've got a daughter to marry,
00:14:52.660 I love you,
00:14:54.040 but,
00:14:54.560 but,
00:14:55.160 you know the big b****,
00:14:56.460 it's disgusting,
00:14:57.520 it's disgusting,
00:14:58.500 you know this is the reason why the Prophet,
00:14:59.780 sallallahu alayhi wa sallam,
00:15:01.280 came to abolish this disease,
00:15:04.120 you know,
00:15:04.600 and it still exists to this day,
00:15:06.140 which is upsetting,
00:15:06.680 and this is the reason,
00:15:08.240 one of the reasons why,
00:15:10.080 people got into it,
00:15:10.540 and if we go back to that verse,
00:15:11.860 you know,
00:15:12.100 the sons of Adam,
00:15:13.320 you know,
00:15:13.660 who prayed different tribes and nations,
00:15:15.640 to get to know each other,
00:15:16.500 if you can't even learn that surah,
00:15:18.400 or the meanings of that,
00:15:19.540 then you've lost it,
00:15:20.520 you've actually,
00:15:21.060 you've gone crazy,
00:15:21.820 because,
00:15:22.680 Muslims these days,
00:15:23.540 I've seen Kuffar treat,
00:15:25.460 each other like love,
00:15:26.600 like their brothers,
00:15:27.440 like brothers for 10 years,
00:15:28.560 and I'm like,
00:15:28.840 wow,
00:15:29.280 but you're not even doing that in the masjid,
00:15:30.760 you're not even doing that as a Muslim,
00:15:32.080 a Muslim sister,
00:15:33.260 a Muslim brother,
00:15:33.800 you know what I mean,
00:15:34.300 it's upsetting.
00:15:34.880 Yeah,
00:15:34.980 that's true,
00:15:35.540 a lot of rivers that I spoke,
00:15:36.880 they usually love the brotherhood in Islam,
00:15:38.840 I'm really surprised that you have a witness,
00:15:40.460 because the brotherhood,
00:15:41.440 is their sisterhood,
00:15:42.820 but it's sad that you haven't even seen that,
00:15:44.140 because that's the basic stuff that,
00:15:45.320 you know,
00:15:45.500 you know what I wanted to add,
00:15:46.300 you know,
00:15:46.440 because in South Hampton,
00:15:47.320 when you eventually moved,
00:15:48.880 we created some sort of brotherhood,
00:15:50.480 and that's what I told you,
00:15:52.940 because we created a brotherhood,
00:15:55.840 I think,
00:15:56.960 because you told me you were doing something for a counselling,
00:15:58.420 weren't you?
00:15:58.620 Yeah,
00:15:58.880 yeah,
00:15:59.060 and what do you call it,
00:16:00.800 and from there,
00:16:01.900 like,
00:16:02.400 I think you were kind of,
00:16:03.540 I saw you develop that,
00:16:04.420 when you were really quiet at the start,
00:16:06.060 but you opened up,
00:16:07.440 and that's why,
00:16:08.060 you know,
00:16:08.260 like,
00:16:08.700 I think,
00:16:09.400 when you're around people,
00:16:10.700 you're good brothers around,
00:16:11.460 you're sincere,
00:16:12.220 you know,
00:16:13.100 and it works,
00:16:13.700 and it helps,
00:16:14.040 I saw that in you,
00:16:14.700 because I saw it from the start of the year,
00:16:16.020 and until the end,
00:16:16.820 I saw,
00:16:17.160 you know,
00:16:17.720 you open up a bit,
00:16:18.480 you see what I'm saying?
00:16:20.480 You've got a point there,
00:16:21.460 Southampton,
00:16:22.620 come back to the family,
00:16:23.980 thought it was good,
00:16:25.060 I started doing the madness,
00:16:26.760 obviously,
00:16:27.020 I can't really explain on camera,
00:16:29.060 obviously,
00:16:29.840 what,
00:16:30.300 the things that happened,
00:16:33.720 I was thinking,
00:16:34.460 why am I even being Muslim?
00:16:36.040 I started praying,
00:16:37.220 came to Ramadan,
00:16:38.660 only done a few fasting,
00:16:39.980 I was like,
00:16:40.260 what's going on?
00:16:40.880 And you know,
00:16:41.320 the funny thing is,
00:16:42.100 I told this to Rassim,
00:16:43.220 actually,
00:16:43.440 I said,
00:16:43.800 I can't wait for Ramadan,
00:16:45.180 because last year,
00:16:46.660 was probably the,
00:16:47.620 that's when you were talking about
00:16:48.620 privilege and that,
00:16:49.740 I wasn't,
00:16:50.080 because,
00:16:50.380 you know,
00:16:50.540 I keep myself quiet and stuff,
00:16:51.720 but I did see the brotherhood,
00:16:52.800 I was just like,
00:16:53.260 you know,
00:16:53.460 like an hour of watches,
00:16:54.380 that's what I was like,
00:16:54.940 I was just like,
00:16:55.360 wow,
00:16:55.540 this is all right,
00:16:56.300 I'm serving a lot,
00:16:57.280 and I was thinking,
00:16:57.680 this is nice man,
00:16:59.220 but when I left Southampton again,
00:17:00.960 I went on a mad one,
00:17:01.840 I went wild,
00:17:02.340 I just thought,
00:17:03.080 there's no Muslim care for me,
00:17:04.940 you know what I mean,
00:17:05.360 so I'm thinking,
00:17:05.880 wow,
00:17:06.040 let me just go wild,
00:17:07.180 you know what I mean,
00:17:07.720 that's what happened,
00:17:08.720 I lost my way,
00:17:09.900 I was thinking to myself,
00:17:10.680 what have I done,
00:17:11.240 you know what I mean,
00:17:12.500 didn't need to be fasting properly,
00:17:14.880 praying properly,
00:17:15.960 and yeah,
00:17:17.700 I think,
00:17:18.240 when I come back to Burm,
00:17:19.080 it just messes me up man,
00:17:20.320 doesn't it?
00:17:20.800 So when you came,
00:17:21.480 and certain things that you did,
00:17:22.580 is it the guilt that said,
00:17:24.320 you know what man,
00:17:25.000 like,
00:17:25.900 not even deserving to be Muslim,
00:17:26.980 did you have that kind of mentality?
00:17:27.880 I had that bit of guilt still,
00:17:29.100 but then I was thinking to myself,
00:17:30.560 well,
00:17:30.880 where's the love,
00:17:31.540 do you know what I mean,
00:17:32.060 what's the Muslim,
00:17:32.720 where's the ummah,
00:17:33.780 where is it,
00:17:34.320 where is it,
00:17:34.680 it's like,
00:17:35.100 I was crying out,
00:17:36.200 to myself,
00:17:37.300 thinking,
00:17:38.180 for help,
00:17:38.720 you know what I mean,
00:17:39.420 because I'm making it,
00:17:39.980 obviously,
00:17:40.540 the best helpers of Allah,
00:17:41.460 but obviously,
00:17:43.140 Allah has already placed different people,
00:17:44.560 so you can get to know them,
00:17:45.940 you know what I mean,
00:17:46.300 so they can help you,
00:17:46.760 some people come for your life,
00:17:47.740 for a reason,
00:17:48.220 some people don't,
00:17:48.880 you know what I mean,
00:17:49.320 it's just the way of life,
00:17:50.300 but,
00:17:52.400 that,
00:17:52.840 I wouldn't say that's the last thing,
00:17:54.520 but it kind of made me realise,
00:17:56.160 you know,
00:17:56.440 I was talking to,
00:17:57.220 I think,
00:17:58.120 I was speaking with Qafaa as well,
00:17:59.800 and I think that's what really,
00:18:00.880 you know,
00:18:01.380 it's like they would influence me,
00:18:02.700 but sometimes you're supposed to,
00:18:03.780 you know what I mean,
00:18:04.200 you're supposed to be like,
00:18:04.780 a ping pong influence,
00:18:05.560 you know what I mean,
00:18:06.020 but,
00:18:06.760 it's like they would just keep on battering,
00:18:11.460 so your group,
00:18:12.120 so your social friends basically,
00:18:14.160 yeah,
00:18:14.360 they were non-Muslims,
00:18:15.980 yeah,
00:18:16.500 of course,
00:18:16.820 that doesn't help you,
00:18:17.660 does it,
00:18:18.000 yeah,
00:18:18.380 that will never help someone,
00:18:19.680 I advise people,
00:18:21.260 you know,
00:18:21.620 I advise the brothers and sisters,
00:18:23.180 you know,
00:18:23.720 chill with good people,
00:18:25.420 good company,
00:18:26.220 if you're chilling with bad company,
00:18:27.580 Allah,
00:18:28.140 swear to Allah,
00:18:28.880 you're going to end up,
00:18:30.240 lost,
00:18:31.600 confused,
00:18:32.280 you're going to forget yourself,
00:18:34.240 many more things,
00:18:35.420 and yeah,
00:18:36.100 I won't even mention that for you,
00:18:37.500 yeah,
00:18:37.760 okay,
00:18:38.180 so,
00:18:38.600 that was the last,
00:18:39.340 my next door neighbour as well,
00:18:42.020 he was a Shia,
00:18:43.580 and,
00:18:44.260 you know,
00:18:44.840 obviously,
00:18:45.400 I was thinking,
00:18:46.200 oh God,
00:18:46.880 I just can't bother with it now,
00:18:48.400 and then,
00:18:49.160 you know,
00:18:49.420 he's just like,
00:18:50.720 trying to brainwash me to be,
00:18:52.980 obviously,
00:18:53.320 a different set,
00:18:54.220 yeah,
00:18:54.620 forget about the Shia scene,
00:18:55.840 yeah,
00:18:55.880 and you only had an issue with sex,
00:18:56.920 and then,
00:18:57.100 yeah,
00:18:57.420 yeah,
00:18:57.760 he's just overloaded it more,
00:18:59.480 but,
00:19:00.260 you know,
00:19:00.600 I was thinking,
00:19:01.080 right,
00:19:01.460 he's an alright brother,
00:19:02.800 next door neighbour,
00:19:04.220 liking,
00:19:05.220 he's respecting my mum,
00:19:06.820 I respect his,
00:19:07.900 I was like,
00:19:08.140 yo,
00:19:08.260 this is good,
00:19:08.780 this is good,
00:19:09.080 but at the same time,
00:19:10.180 I ain't even better for myself,
00:19:12.080 as a human being,
00:19:13.720 never mind,
00:19:14.160 I'm Muslim,
00:19:15.000 so you're trying to,
00:19:15.980 just change me to a different set,
00:19:17.360 it's not,
00:19:18.160 do you know what I mean,
00:19:18.840 so,
00:19:19.660 a lot of challenges,
00:19:20.580 and more,
00:19:21.040 I guess,
00:19:21.400 more to comment it,
00:19:22.040 but,
00:19:22.180 that was it,
00:19:23.500 and then,
00:19:23.940 you just,
00:19:25.040 I think that's when I messaged you,
00:19:26.420 because I was just,
00:19:26.920 is that when you messaged me?
00:19:27.900 I think that's when I messaged you,
00:19:29.080 it was just the overload of everything,
00:19:30.760 obviously,
00:19:31.120 from what I've told you,
00:19:32.240 from what I've saw,
00:19:32.980 there's many other stuff as well,
00:19:34.080 but obviously,
00:19:34.460 just from the place,
00:19:35.040 so what I'm going to do is,
00:19:39.080 for their stuff,
00:19:39.700 yeah?
00:19:40.020 Yeah, yeah.
00:19:40.320 And then we'll be back,
00:19:41.100 inshallah.
00:19:41.480 Inshallah.
00:20:04.400 So that's where the brother was telling me,
00:20:06.640 that that was the point,
00:20:07.320 where he messaged me,
00:20:08.060 because he said,
00:20:08.560 enough is enough,
00:20:09.660 and this led him,
00:20:10.160 and a lot of people say this,
00:20:11.160 oh,
00:20:11.840 like,
00:20:12.140 why would you leave Islam,
00:20:13.100 because of this,
00:20:13.500 but it's easier for you to say,
00:20:14.620 you don't know what's going through,
00:20:15.600 an individual's mind,
00:20:16.460 do you get what I'm trying to say?
00:20:17.500 And,
00:20:17.940 the reason why I want to tell you this,
00:20:19.300 is because,
00:20:20.160 me personally,
00:20:20.780 even though I didn't come to the point,
00:20:21.900 where I was like,
00:20:22.200 I'm leaving Islam,
00:20:23.300 and may Allah protect me,
00:20:24.400 and all of us,
00:20:25.280 from that,
00:20:26.020 you know,
00:20:26.720 but,
00:20:27.880 I,
00:20:28.400 me personally,
00:20:29.240 when I came to Islam,
00:20:30.100 one of the things that I see,
00:20:31.500 that affect my iman the most,
00:20:33.160 me,
00:20:33.760 is personal to me,
00:20:34.840 is not the sex,
00:20:38.560 it wasn't,
00:20:39.360 one of the things that really affected me,
00:20:41.140 is when I see,
00:20:41.900 practicing,
00:20:42.860 brothers,
00:20:43.460 and sisters,
00:20:44.540 in hijab,
00:20:45.380 niqab,
00:20:45.680 whatever it is,
00:20:46.820 even though,
00:20:47.720 that you can say,
00:20:48.300 okay,
00:20:48.460 how do you know they're practicing,
00:20:49.260 we don't know,
00:20:50.140 but when I would see,
00:20:51.140 or hear,
00:20:52.160 stuff like,
00:20:54.300 like,
00:20:54.700 matters of zinnah,
00:20:55.680 yeah,
00:20:56.220 to me,
00:20:56.740 personally,
00:20:57.220 that would affect me,
00:20:57.800 like,
00:20:57.960 it just feels like,
00:20:58.560 the hope that you have,
00:20:59.360 yeah,
00:20:59.640 that really affected me,
00:21:01.000 when I would hear like,
00:21:01.760 okay,
00:21:01.980 oh,
00:21:02.160 this sister in hijab,
00:21:03.280 or niqab,
00:21:03.680 or this brother,
00:21:04.700 who's got a beard,
00:21:05.300 and foe,
00:21:05.620 did this to this girl,
00:21:07.160 or that,
00:21:07.540 yeah,
00:21:08.040 that would affect me,
00:21:08.960 man,
00:21:09.100 that would get to me so much,
00:21:10.640 I'm like,
00:21:11.000 wow,
00:21:11.340 like,
00:21:12.100 you are like,
00:21:12.860 okay,
00:21:13.100 look,
00:21:13.640 it might be wrong,
00:21:14.360 of what I'm thinking,
00:21:15.020 yeah,
00:21:15.520 you're not perfect,
00:21:16.700 but there's certain things,
00:21:17.480 that you don't do,
00:21:18.100 man,
00:21:18.580 when you're out in public,
00:21:19.460 I hear stories of,
00:21:20.580 seeing a sister,
00:21:21.580 a brother,
00:21:22.520 in an alleyway,
00:21:23.080 or something,
00:21:23.500 do you get it,
00:21:24.100 it's disgusting,
00:21:26.500 that was one of the things,
00:21:27.420 that affected me,
00:21:27.760 because I'm like,
00:21:28.180 wow,
00:21:28.440 like,
00:21:28.960 you know,
00:21:29.200 you're a brother,
00:21:29.640 you observe the fobe,
00:21:30.540 or the beard,
00:21:31.180 or your sister,
00:21:31.700 you wear the hijab,
00:21:32.980 like,
00:21:33.660 how do you do it,
00:21:34.300 do you get it,
00:21:34.700 when I first came to Islam,
00:21:35.700 this was one thing,
00:21:36.300 that I didn't,
00:21:36.800 couldn't comprehend,
00:21:37.860 it really affected my iman,
00:21:39.660 sometimes I would think,
00:21:41.000 like,
00:21:41.480 you get it,
00:21:42.640 but because my iman was as strong,
00:21:43.980 do you get what I'm trying to say,
00:21:44.540 yeah,
00:21:44.680 so one of the narrations,
00:21:45.420 from Aisha radiallahu anha,
00:21:46.600 is that,
00:21:47.200 she said,
00:21:47.760 if the Quran came down,
00:21:49.020 as halal and haram,
00:21:50.640 none of the Sahaba,
00:21:51.600 would have accepted Islam,
00:21:52.680 none of them,
00:21:53.640 the Quran came down,
00:21:54.900 with telling people about Jannah,
00:21:57.200 about the hellfire,
00:21:58.520 about paradise,
00:21:59.540 because you can't come to someone,
00:22:00.480 and go,
00:22:00.800 hey,
00:22:01.520 it's haram,
00:22:02.320 do you get it,
00:22:02.840 even though some people,
00:22:03.820 like,
00:22:04.280 I agree,
00:22:04.880 you can't use that term,
00:22:05.780 do you get it,
00:22:06.100 because if somebody's doing that,
00:22:06.860 you can't be like,
00:22:07.240 hey,
00:22:07.720 you know,
00:22:08.060 okay,
00:22:08.340 give me some more time,
00:22:09.800 so I can eventually stop,
00:22:11.320 do you get it,
00:22:12.040 I understand where you're coming from,
00:22:13.600 but you can't go and overload someone,
00:22:16.060 just because it took you 10 years,
00:22:18.280 this is what really annoys me,
00:22:19.300 it took you 5 or 10 years,
00:22:21.120 to become to the level of iman,
00:22:22.520 that you're at,
00:22:23.480 who gives you the right,
00:22:25.120 to look down at another individual,
00:22:26.660 who just come to Islam,
00:22:27.840 when you first came to Islam,
00:22:28.920 was you a sheikh,
00:22:29.500 did you just say,
00:22:30.480 you know what,
00:22:30.780 you asked me,
00:22:31.280 no you didn't,
00:22:32.860 so it took you about 5 to 10 years,
00:22:35.300 to come where you are,
00:22:36.600 who gives you the right,
00:22:37.600 to look down at another person,
00:22:39.120 that's just come to Islam,
00:22:40.260 put yourself on his level,
00:22:42.760 understand where he's coming from,
00:22:44.560 don't forget where you came from,
00:22:45.800 do you get what I'm trying to say,
00:22:46.700 and this is very,
00:22:47.540 very important,
00:22:48.340 and this is one of the things,
00:22:48.980 that we lack,
00:22:49.800 shahada,
00:22:50.200 trophy shahadas,
00:22:51.020 like the brother was telling me,
00:22:51.860 trophy shahadas,
00:22:52.420 that's the first time I've heard that man,
00:22:54.360 wow,
00:22:54.540 somebody comes to Islam,
00:22:55.760 you take a picture with him,
00:22:56.860 hey hey,
00:22:57.180 oh thank you very much by the way,
00:22:58.220 go on,
00:22:59.500 put it on Facebook,
00:23:02.980 get a few likes,
00:23:04.420 if somebody comes to Islam,
00:23:05.840 look,
00:23:06.540 I've been guilty of this myself,
00:23:08.540 it's a reminder to me first,
00:23:10.120 but what you need to understand,
00:23:11.220 is you need to look after that individual,
00:23:12.480 I'm not saying go there 24-7,
00:23:14.080 look after him,
00:23:15.180 they won't lie that as well,
00:23:16.220 just try to be there,
00:23:18.740 how you doing bro,
00:23:19.760 is everything okay,
00:23:20.820 every now and then,
00:23:21.640 check on them,
00:23:22.560 don't,
00:23:22.820 the shahada,
00:23:23.480 what's the use,
00:23:24.080 you're taking the shahada,
00:23:24.860 you don't even help him,
00:23:25.960 teach him how to pray,
00:23:26.760 or do whatever,
00:23:27.900 you need to help the guy,
00:23:29.500 do you get what I'm trying to say,
00:23:30.460 it's really really important,
00:23:32.500 what was your point?
00:23:33.580 the point,
00:23:35.300 I was going to say,
00:23:36.400 what would you do,
00:23:37.240 so let's say,
00:23:37.700 you came to Islam,
00:23:38.600 it's been quite a few years now,
00:23:39.840 from there,
00:23:40.720 you know,
00:23:41.180 and what,
00:23:42.820 so you said,
00:23:43.360 you obviously told us,
00:23:44.060 what effect did you do with a man,
00:23:45.100 yeah,
00:23:45.260 if you go back to that position,
00:23:47.680 when you knew you came to Islam,
00:23:48.720 yeah,
00:23:49.400 what is it that you would want,
00:23:51.400 and the brothers around you,
00:23:52.740 it's not from your family,
00:23:53.640 but you know that time,
00:23:54.540 yeah,
00:23:54.840 so what would you do,
00:23:55.720 yeah,
00:23:55.920 so what exactly would you want,
00:23:57.500 from the community,
00:23:58.320 from the mosque neighbor,
00:23:59.180 yeah,
00:23:59.320 to be honest,
00:24:00.820 what I would want,
00:24:01.760 is when I first came to Islam,
00:24:04.400 is people to be around you,
00:24:05.640 yeah,
00:24:06.000 you definitely need people around you,
00:24:07.600 friends around you,
00:24:08.320 yeah,
00:24:08.500 Alhamdulillah,
00:24:09.100 Allah SWT gave me beautiful brothers,
00:24:10.740 like Imran,
00:24:11.380 Musa,
00:24:12.120 like you guys,
00:24:12.840 do you get what I'm trying to say,
00:24:13.800 when I first came to Islam,
00:24:14.940 those brothers were there,
00:24:15.900 to help me,
00:24:16.940 when there's Eid,
00:24:19.020 our families are not Muslim,
00:24:20.420 do you get what I'm trying to say,
00:24:21.400 so,
00:24:21.900 in talking about Eid,
00:24:23.060 I didn't really have,
00:24:23.700 you know,
00:24:24.220 I was messaging this guy,
00:24:25.380 Ali,
00:24:26.180 what he was doing,
00:24:26.780 you know what I mean,
00:24:27.260 so,
00:24:27.760 I didn't have no one,
00:24:29.020 to celebrate it with,
00:24:29.700 I didn't celebrate it with,
00:24:30.180 no one,
00:24:30.240 he didn't have no one,
00:24:30.900 to celebrate it with,
00:24:31.460 and I put a post on Facebook,
00:24:33.720 and he messaged,
00:24:34.560 I don't know,
00:24:35.120 we assumed the best,
00:24:36.160 but nobody contacted him,
00:24:37.320 you get what I'm trying to say,
00:24:38.180 and people were on Facebook,
00:24:39.120 like yeah,
00:24:39.420 I'll help him,
00:24:40.580 I'll help him,
00:24:41.340 but nobody contacted him,
00:24:42.240 you get what I'm trying to say,
00:24:42.800 there was one,
00:24:43.200 but that was like,
00:24:43.880 on the day after,
00:24:44.760 so,
00:24:45.060 yeah,
00:24:45.240 that was on the day after,
00:24:46.120 so obviously,
00:24:46.660 maybe we'll assume the best,
00:24:47.540 maybe they didn't see the message,
00:24:49.380 but I would want people around me,
00:24:50.480 to help me,
00:24:50.980 encourage me,
00:24:51.780 if they see me,
00:24:52.500 if they see me listening to music,
00:24:54.140 aki,
00:24:54.440 that's haram,
00:24:54.980 no,
00:24:55.160 I don't want this behaviour,
00:24:56.380 you don't need to tell me it's haram,
00:24:57.440 I know it's haram,
00:24:58.540 advise me in the best way possible,
00:25:00.760 excuse certain things that I do,
00:25:02.460 do you get what I'm trying to say,
00:25:03.380 help encourage me with my fard,
00:25:05.040 music,
00:25:05.500 we know it's haram,
00:25:06.440 we know yeah,
00:25:07.260 but there's a way of doing it,
00:25:08.440 aki,
00:25:09.120 yeah,
00:25:09.360 I know it is,
00:25:09.740 but work on it,
00:25:10.360 do you get what I'm trying to say,
00:25:10.880 try your best,
00:25:11.820 don't stick things on,
00:25:12.920 do this,
00:25:13.540 your hair,
00:25:14.080 your this,
00:25:14.560 your shoes,
00:25:15.120 your ankles,
00:25:15.760 blah blah blah,
00:25:16.340 we respect where you're coming from,
00:25:18.200 but you don't stick it on somebody,
00:25:19.540 that's just come to Islam,
00:25:21.040 you don't do that,
00:25:22.120 it's really,
00:25:22.920 really wrong,
00:25:23.960 and,
00:25:24.880 brothers and sisters,
00:25:25.980 as Muslims,
00:25:26.600 you need to understand,
00:25:27.520 your actions,
00:25:28.980 the way you are,
00:25:30.420 plays such a big role,
00:25:31.680 yes,
00:25:31.960 there's brothers that are giving dawah,
00:25:32.980 bringing people to Islam,
00:25:33.960 but know that your actions,
00:25:35.400 and your behaviour is,
00:25:36.780 you know,
00:25:37.180 you're doing dawah in a way,
00:25:38.460 you're driving people away from Islam,
00:25:40.080 your dawah is,
00:25:40.980 you're just like,
00:25:41.400 okay,
00:25:41.960 this is how we are,
00:25:43.280 your actions are so important,
00:25:44.980 in public,
00:25:45.420 sometimes I hear brothers or sisters,
00:25:47.940 in hijab or in thaw,
00:25:49.540 yeah,
00:25:50.540 swearing,
00:25:52.140 what's the point of that,
00:25:54.000 you know what I mean,
00:25:54.320 swearing,
00:25:54.820 the way you're talking,
00:25:55.480 your behaviour,
00:25:56.220 the basics,
00:25:58.220 nobody's perfect,
00:25:59.340 but at least when you're out in,
00:26:01.860 at least when you're out in public,
00:26:04.160 let's try to be careful,
00:26:06.080 to the stuff that we say and we do,
00:26:07.840 because,
00:26:08.980 this brother,
00:26:10.020 if he didn't message me,
00:26:11.780 maybe he just said,
00:26:12.720 you know what,
00:26:13.040 forget it,
00:26:13.520 Qadr of Allah,
00:26:14.840 Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala,
00:26:15.520 has planned for him,
00:26:16.380 and may Allah bless the brother,
00:26:18.120 that he message me,
00:26:19.300 and I'm going to try my best,
00:26:20.380 to be in contact with the brother,
00:26:21.640 help him,
00:26:22.240 get some brothers involved,
00:26:24.060 and help him in,
00:26:24.820 some certain way,
00:26:25.960 and what I would give you,
00:26:27.040 as a reminder,
00:26:27.580 actually,
00:26:27.820 is that basically,
00:26:28.840 I know it's hard,
00:26:29.620 I know the stuff that you go through,
00:26:30.640 actually,
00:26:30.880 the stuff that you've been through,
00:26:31.620 I've been through,
00:26:33.040 maybe not as bad as yours,
00:26:34.700 through madness,
00:26:35.120 everyone's got their different experiences,
00:26:37.020 everyone's got a story,
00:26:37.980 but all I would say to you is,
00:26:39.420 wallahi,
00:26:39.940 I'm telling you,
00:26:41.500 I'm a witness,
00:26:42.440 yeah,
00:26:42.600 okay,
00:26:43.360 aki,
00:26:44.760 look,
00:26:45.700 be sincere,
00:26:46.740 try your best to stay away from haram,
00:26:48.500 yeah,
00:26:48.680 try your best to stay away from it,
00:26:50.120 put your trust in Allah,
00:26:50.860 Allah says in the Quran,
00:26:52.120 don't think that you're going to say,
00:26:53.260 I believe and not be tested,
00:26:54.320 don't say,
00:26:54.680 I'm a Muslim,
00:26:55.420 not be tested,
00:26:55.920 you get it,
00:26:56.440 you are,
00:26:57.240 try your best to stay away,
00:26:58.800 make dua to Allah,
00:26:59.620 Allah will give you away,
00:27:00.440 aki,
00:27:00.880 when you say to Allah,
00:27:01.820 oh Allah,
00:27:02.740 please,
00:27:03.100 like I know brothers,
00:27:03.960 who would,
00:27:04.520 like when it comes to a matter of zina,
00:27:06.080 they'll be like,
00:27:06.520 I don't know,
00:27:07.280 I don't know if I can help myself,
00:27:08.380 yeah,
00:27:09.240 I know brothers,
00:27:09.900 these same brothers would say to me,
00:27:11.040 when I'm on the way to go to the girl's house,
00:27:12.700 to come to zina,
00:27:13.180 I will make dua to Allah,
00:27:13.960 say oh Allah,
00:27:14.420 please do something,
00:27:15.400 I don't want to go,
00:27:16.160 I can't help myself,
00:27:17.520 he would,
00:27:17.900 look,
00:27:18.040 I'm telling real life stories,
00:27:19.280 aki,
00:27:19.980 the guy would say to me,
00:27:21.640 this girl messaged me,
00:27:22.880 and said,
00:27:23.240 my grandma had a hard time,
00:27:24.180 I had to go to hospital,
00:27:25.140 aki,
00:27:25.440 Allah will put something in the way,
00:27:26.700 I'm telling you,
00:27:27.180 I totally agree with Ali actually,
00:27:28.520 because,
00:27:29.080 you know,
00:27:29.320 there's a lot of signs,
00:27:30.280 in fact,
00:27:30.760 I've had the same situation,
00:27:32.300 where,
00:27:33.820 I remember,
00:27:34.280 I was supposed to meet this girl,
00:27:35.560 the road was just closed off,
00:27:37.020 I'm not even joking,
00:27:38.020 I was like,
00:27:38.860 wow,
00:27:39.080 I was trying to force myself,
00:27:40.400 to go there,
00:27:41.040 and I was thinking,
00:27:41.600 rah,
00:27:42.320 Allah will put signs man,
00:27:44.100 to let you know,
00:27:45.440 why aren't you getting me,
00:27:46.320 and,
00:27:47.320 you know,
00:27:47.660 if you're not,
00:27:48.280 if you're not cutting it,
00:27:49.640 if you just want to carry on doing it,
00:27:51.420 carry on doing it,
00:27:52.160 you know what I mean,
00:27:52.740 but don't,
00:27:53.220 don't be giving the,
00:27:54.180 you know,
00:27:55.400 people out there,
00:27:56.840 a bad interpretation,
00:27:59.280 because that's wrong,
00:28:00.160 that's not fair,
00:28:00.660 you know what I mean,
00:28:01.180 because you never know,
00:28:02.020 if you were actually saying,
00:28:03.160 you know,
00:28:03.600 how are you doing today sir,
00:28:04.660 you know what I mean,
00:28:04.980 if you did that to some,
00:28:06.000 you know,
00:28:06.520 a non-believer,
00:28:07.200 he's going to be like,
00:28:07.640 right,
00:28:07.820 is that a Muslim,
00:28:08.420 is that our Muslim acts,
00:28:09.560 do you know what I mean,
00:28:10.120 wow,
00:28:10.360 he's going to be like,
00:28:10.900 okay,
00:28:11.080 you're making it worse,
00:28:13.940 if you're acting the way you are man,
00:28:15.220 you're like,
00:28:15.820 you can't be doing them things man,
00:28:17.100 nah,
00:28:17.440 it reminds you,
00:28:18.580 sorry,
00:28:19.000 sorry,
00:28:19.920 carry on,
00:28:21.160 it reminds me,
00:28:21.800 you know,
00:28:22.100 once after Jum'ah,
00:28:23.700 in Southampton,
00:28:24.340 you bumped into me,
00:28:25.660 and obviously,
00:28:26.640 I'm not trying to expose yourself,
00:28:27.620 of course,
00:28:28.140 of course,
00:28:28.400 we kind of like,
00:28:30.320 we tried to chat,
00:28:31.200 it was a Friday night,
00:28:32.160 it was like,
00:28:32.420 Jum'ah,
00:28:33.300 all you're saying tonight,
00:28:34.200 kind of thing,
00:28:34.620 and I remember,
00:28:36.000 that you know,
00:28:37.280 kind of by each other,
00:28:38.380 like,
00:28:38.560 you know what,
00:28:38.860 I don't want to go,
00:28:39.380 I don't want to go,
00:28:40.400 and then,
00:28:41.140 you said to me,
00:28:42.420 do you know what,
00:28:42.740 if I didn't see you,
00:28:43.420 I would have won,
00:28:44.380 you know what I'm saying,
00:28:44.940 look at me,
00:28:45.380 no but Allah gives you signs,
00:28:47.920 and you said to me,
00:28:49.180 I'm so glad I saw you,
00:28:51.100 otherwise,
00:28:51.300 I'm going to wear Jum'ah,
00:28:51.800 I was going to go,
00:28:52.540 I mean my boys,
00:28:53.260 and they were,
00:28:53.520 normal people again,
00:28:54.500 social friends,
00:28:55.240 you know,
00:28:55.380 and what Ali said was true,
00:28:57.520 because even the Quran,
00:28:58.280 he said three times,
00:28:59.380 that Allah first said,
00:29:01.180 you know,
00:29:01.580 do not drink Hama,
00:29:02.760 yes,
00:29:03.280 Allah said,
00:29:03.780 don't do it,
00:29:04.940 Allah said first,
00:29:05.720 you know,
00:29:06.000 stay away from it,
00:29:06.880 second time,
00:29:07.640 it was a bit,
00:29:08.140 don't come near the salah with it,
00:29:10.420 now don't do it,
00:29:11.560 so in the best of people,
00:29:13.140 Allah does,
00:29:16.220 Allah puts rules in the books,
00:29:17.820 you know,
00:29:18.100 there's a reason for it,
00:29:19.180 wisdom behind it,
00:29:20.200 there's wisdom,
00:29:20.840 why are you drinking alcohol,
00:29:21.940 I don't know,
00:29:22.260 I've seen akis with full beard,
00:29:23.960 in the clubs,
00:29:24.940 you know,
00:29:25.360 I'm thinking,
00:29:25.880 what's going on,
00:29:26.980 but I'm thinking,
00:29:27.600 why are you drinking,
00:29:29.300 from a non-believer,
00:29:30.060 trust me,
00:29:30.340 I've done all the drinking,
00:29:31.220 I've done all the smoking,
00:29:32.180 it's not benefiting you,
00:29:34.100 you know what I mean,
00:29:34.300 I've got family members,
00:29:35.260 that are alcoholics now,
00:29:36.440 you know what I mean,
00:29:37.240 it's messing them up,
00:29:38.720 you know what I mean,
00:29:39.300 psychologically,
00:29:40.200 it's not good for them,
00:29:41.540 you know,
00:29:41.780 smoking again,
00:29:42.520 all these brothers,
00:29:43.760 I've seen little youths around,
00:29:44.780 obviously Birmingham's messed up,
00:29:45.960 you get me,
00:29:46.280 all the youths are smoking it,
00:29:48.300 signing it,
00:29:48.700 you're like,
00:29:48.920 right,
00:29:49.120 this ain't benefiting you,
00:29:50.180 this ain't benefiting you at all,
00:29:51.980 and,
00:29:52.500 you know,
00:29:52.820 the gyal,
00:29:53.880 obviously get married,
00:29:55.140 faster,
00:29:55.740 what was Imran's,
00:29:57.000 video,
00:29:57.900 faster,
00:29:58.200 faster,
00:29:58.300 die,
00:29:58.500 try it,
00:29:58.860 you know what I mean,
00:29:59.420 do the team man,
00:30:00.180 do the team man,
00:30:00.480 get married or die,
00:30:01.340 try it,
00:30:01.640 do the team man,
00:30:02.960 do the team,
00:30:04.120 so how do you feel now,
00:30:05.540 I mean obviously,
00:30:06.340 from the Alish,
00:30:06.840 at the chat,
00:30:07.820 yeah,
00:30:08.060 yeah,
00:30:08.240 yeah,
00:30:08.460 and you know,
00:30:08.940 how do you feel,
00:30:09.920 after the conversation,
00:30:11.380 obviously,
00:30:11.960 Hamdi Allah,
00:30:12.440 it was a good conversation man,
00:30:16.280 work my sail,
00:30:17.760 get myself,
00:30:19.040 insure I'll get myself back into prayer,
00:30:20.680 it's going to take me a long time,
00:30:22.460 because the effects has already happened,
00:30:23.780 do you know what I mean,
00:30:24.100 of course,
00:30:24.540 and do that,
00:30:25.040 one of the things is,
00:30:26.700 that would affect you,
00:30:27.840 is like,
00:30:28.140 when you go back into that same old ways,
00:30:30.560 I'm not worthy,
00:30:31.440 because shaitan comes,
00:30:32.420 and he's like,
00:30:32.860 you just did this,
00:30:33.680 you're going to go free now,
00:30:34.360 so what he's doing is,
00:30:36.260 one of the big things that shaitan,
00:30:37.600 like I always say,
00:30:38.160 that shaitan never knocks you out,
00:30:39.260 by making you commit a sin,
00:30:40.400 he knocks you out,
00:30:41.540 like Mike Tyson does,
00:30:42.460 yeah,
00:30:43.000 is when he makes you think,
00:30:44.240 your sin is greater than Allah's mercy,
00:30:45.640 when he puts that in your head,
00:30:47.180 and thinks,
00:30:47.500 well,
00:30:47.620 you just did this,
00:30:48.260 you're going to go pray to your Lord,
00:30:49.200 no,
00:30:49.300 you're a hypocrite,
00:30:50.200 don't ever fall for that,
00:30:51.960 no matter what you do,
00:30:52.620 Allah says in the Quran,
00:30:54.100 indeed my servants,
00:30:54.880 who have transgressed against themselves,
00:30:56.100 don't ever despair my mercy,
00:30:57.920 for you to despair Allah's mercy,
00:30:59.380 is a sin in itself,
00:31:00.020 because you're,
00:31:00.600 you're rejecting one of Allah's attribution,
00:31:03.780 he's saying,
00:31:04.080 I'm the most merciful,
00:31:04.720 come to me no matter what you do,
00:31:05.640 you're saying,
00:31:06.320 in you or me,
00:31:07.580 my little brain,
00:31:08.160 I'm like,
00:31:08.340 Allah's not going to forgive me,
00:31:09.960 don't ever have this,
00:31:10.680 do you hear what I'm trying to say,
00:31:11.400 it's a reminder to reverse that out there,
00:31:13.080 yeah,
00:31:13.380 so basically,
00:31:14.120 and one thing that I want to say is,
00:31:15.260 it's a narration from Ali radiallahu an,
00:31:17.220 is that,
00:31:18.020 he said,
00:31:18.680 I'm just paraphrasing,
00:31:19.660 that,
00:31:20.120 do not tell people,
00:31:22.200 things that they can't comprehend,
00:31:23.760 or understand of the deen,
00:31:25.360 he said,
00:31:26.080 don't say that,
00:31:26.800 do you want people to disbelieve in Allah,
00:31:28.720 and his messenger,
00:31:29.640 so if you know something,
00:31:30.980 that you're going to utter,
00:31:31.900 that the brother doesn't know,
00:31:33.300 yeah,
00:31:33.500 like for example,
00:31:34.060 that it's too hard for him to handle,
00:31:35.400 his iman is not on that level,
00:31:37.020 don't say it,
00:31:38.880 don't say it,
00:31:39.680 a lot of people just come and,
00:31:41.700 just ruggle,
00:31:42.780 bam,
00:31:43.080 drop it on you,
00:31:43.660 like,
00:31:43.880 you're like,
00:31:44.260 wow,
00:31:44.580 actually there's certain things,
00:31:46.360 that I would hear,
00:31:47.620 and I would just say,
00:31:48.140 wow,
00:31:48.580 do you hear what I'm trying to say,
00:31:49.360 but as your iman grows,
00:31:50.520 and you understand certain aspects,
00:31:52.140 it changes,
00:31:53.000 do you hear what I'm trying to say,
00:31:53.960 so I'm just going to wrap it up bro,
00:31:55.060 that's about it for me,
00:31:56.320 but like I said,
00:31:57.060 actually there's culture out there,
00:31:58.020 this disease,
00:31:58.940 which I call it,
00:31:59.460 I just call it,
00:31:59.900 it's the cancer of the ummah,
00:32:01.460 this culture,
00:32:01.980 and I don't mean in a way like,
00:32:02.960 there's beautiful things about culture,
00:32:04.420 do you get it,
00:32:04.760 like my Jewish culture,
00:32:09.820 Pakistan,
00:32:10.380 Bengali,
00:32:10.940 every food man,
00:32:11.700 which kind of food sorry,
00:32:13.000 well that's,
00:32:13.500 there's too much in this bro,
00:32:14.800 I'm going to have to take you to the restaurant,
00:32:15.940 the biryani yeah,
00:32:16.660 the chicken biryani yeah,
00:32:19.360 so bro,
00:32:20.600 like I said,
00:32:21.080 just be strong,
00:32:21.680 is there anything that you want to,
00:32:23.480 tell the people out there,
00:32:25.020 and like,
00:32:25.920 yeah let me wrap it up as well,
00:32:27.260 just basically,
00:32:29.440 if a river comes here,
00:32:31.640 and asks for,
00:32:32.320 you know,
00:32:32.560 how to pray,
00:32:33.920 teach him,
00:32:34.440 you know,
00:32:34.660 just help him man,
00:32:35.380 be kind,
00:32:35.780 you don't have to always,
00:32:37.020 bro you don't even have to always,
00:32:37.920 talk to him about religion,
00:32:38.880 talk about life,
00:32:39.740 you know,
00:32:40.080 it's not haram to talk about life,
00:32:42.040 you know what I mean,
00:32:42.380 some people think,
00:32:43.240 you just have to leave this world completely,
00:32:45.920 it might have been cut double,
00:32:46.920 to kick people,
00:32:47.700 certain people from the masjid,
00:32:49.320 when they're sitting down,
00:32:50.160 and not doing nothing,
00:32:51.080 get out of the masjid man,
00:32:51.980 I've seen that as well,
00:32:53.260 that's bad,
00:32:53.920 you know what I mean,
00:32:54.960 but you're saying,
00:32:55.860 yeah sorry man,
00:32:56.240 sorry,
00:32:56.480 sorry,
00:32:57.400 so yeah that was one,
00:32:59.860 two,
00:33:00.600 you know,
00:33:01.380 obviously,
00:33:02.140 if the river,
00:33:02.960 for example,
00:33:03.540 wants you to see,
00:33:04.860 wants you to invite them to house,
00:33:06.040 don't be scared to,
00:33:07.020 go in or say hello to their family,
00:33:08.680 or anything,
00:33:09.920 or invite them to yours,
00:33:11.620 you know what I mean,
00:33:12.100 let them see how a Muslim family works,
00:33:14.600 because all they're used to,
00:33:15.380 is like,
00:33:15.660 Qafwa non-believers,
00:33:16.540 they're not used to,
00:33:17.160 you know what I mean,
00:33:17.780 so onereason.org,
00:33:18.940 share that around,
00:33:19.980 even go to a little community,
00:33:21.820 and go to the community,
00:33:23.040 I know sometimes,
00:33:23.740 they're not very friendly,
00:33:24.640 they're helping,
00:33:25.140 but go to them,
00:33:26.300 so we've got some new brothers and sisters in Islam,
00:33:28.280 and they're all set on that,
00:33:29.360 so you might take lead yourself,
00:33:30.620 so that's within your community,
00:33:31.540 inshallah.
00:33:31.720 Yeah,
00:33:31.960 inshallah,
00:33:32.180 do that,
00:33:32.560 and also check onereason.org out for,
00:33:34.440 if you're a reaver,
00:33:35.660 you're a star pack,
00:33:36.640 inshallah,
00:33:37.180 and like I said,
00:33:37.700 brothers and sisters,
00:33:38.180 if you're a reaver,
00:33:38.860 seriously,
00:33:39.380 inshallah,
00:33:39.780 be patient,
00:33:40.840 reward us with Allah,
00:33:41.560 I know it's tough out there,
00:33:42.480 I know there's a lot of Muslims,
00:33:44.180 that do really,
00:33:45.020 stuff that,
00:33:45.660 trust me,
00:33:46.100 just blows your mind,
00:33:47.280 sometimes I would just think,
00:33:48.480 like,
00:33:48.720 how do you do it,
00:33:49.460 like,
00:33:49.580 I don't know,
00:33:50.060 but,
00:33:50.920 Allah is with us,
00:33:51.600 yeah,
00:33:51.920 you just got to be strong,
00:33:53.280 Allah is testing you,
00:33:54.440 I'm a living proof,
00:33:55.820 wallahi,
00:33:56.220 the stuff that I've been through,
00:33:57.180 wallahi,
00:33:57.820 I'm telling you,
00:33:58.880 Allah says,
00:33:59.720 indeed if you fear me,
00:34:00.700 I will give you a way out,
00:34:02.920 from places you'll never imagine,
00:34:04.560 wallahi,
00:34:05.180 billahi,
00:34:05.740 I'm telling you,
00:34:06.340 I am a living proof,
00:34:07.380 I have been in situations,
00:34:08.380 where I said,
00:34:08.900 there's no way out,
00:34:10.100 there's doors being opened to me,
00:34:11.120 there's doors being opened to me,
00:34:12.740 I'm a living proof of that,
00:34:14.180 inshallah,
00:34:14.520 may Allah give you patience,
00:34:15.340 may Allah bless you,
00:34:16.340 brothers and sisters,
00:34:16.920 hope you guys have benefited,
00:34:18.320 inshallah,
00:34:18.580 please share this with your friends and family,
00:34:20.620 if you have revert friends,
00:34:22.060 get in touch with us,
00:34:22.840 yeah,
00:34:23.040 get in touch with us,
00:34:23.460 that's about it from us,
00:34:24.320 gonna have a couple of videos at the end,
00:34:25.620 please watch it,
00:34:26.580 subscribe,
00:34:27.600 may Allah grant every single one of you guys,
00:34:30.880 inshallah,
00:34:31.920 assalamualaikum,
00:34:32.660 wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh,
00:34:33.500 from me,
00:34:34.680 brother,
00:34:34.920 I will see him,
00:34:35.740 and brother,
00:34:36.700 I'm gonna say X,
00:34:37.420 cause we don't know who he is,
00:34:38.560 balak ala ala fi,
00:34:48.580 shub-shub-shub-shub-shub-shub-shub-shub-ysha-da-doo,
00:34:51.240 nah-nah-nah,
00:34:52.600 nah-nah-nah-nah-nah-nah-nah-nah-nah-nah-nah,
00:34:54.840 na-nah,
00:34:55.520 You