00:03:00.000hello guys welcome once again to another exciting edition of victory never sleeps
00:03:20.560i hope you guys are having an amazing yule out there um i want to thank uh brandy callahan for
00:03:27.920for hosting for me last week. I had some family in town and that was really nice. My father and
00:03:36.000my grandmother came down and my grandmother hadn't gotten to meet Aubrey yet. So it was great to get
00:03:42.740all four generations in one spot. Nick, if you got that picture, you can throw it up. It was
00:03:48.480really cool to have uh there we go to get that time it's uh my grandma is 92 years old and
00:03:57.760not sure how many more times i get to see her so it's really nice to to get that time especially
00:04:03.220during uh during the yule season but yeah thank you uh brandy and and spawn for doing an amazing
00:04:09.720show i tried to check in on that a little bit and you guys did a great job um tonight we have
00:04:17.760once again uh folk builder adam hudak joining us because his uh his colleagues overwhelmingly think
00:04:25.280that he is the living embodiment of discipline so uh we want to talk to adam about that virtue
00:04:33.280this evening and uh yeah amongst any other questions that you guys might have um anybody
00:04:41.760that wants to participate in super chat or wants to throw any kind of donations our way um doing
00:04:48.640that on entropy is the best way and we appreciate any and all of that um without further ado uh
00:04:58.400welcome adam how are you doing this evening very good thanks for having me back again
00:05:04.080honored to be here well we're glad to have you and uh you know it's not just a courtesy you are
00:05:11.760were overwhelmingly endorsed by your peers as the living example of discipline
00:05:16.880so i am uh glad to have you on and hopefully we can inspire some folks about that virtue tonight
00:05:25.840we've already got a couple of questions popping up so first one comes from sarah for
00:05:32.720a five dollar donation thank you sarah we always appreciate it
00:05:36.320Good evening, Matt and Adam. Matt, I was wondering if you did anything exciting yesterday
00:05:42.880on Mother's Nights that you would like to share with everyone. Why, yes, Sarah, I did. So
00:05:49.980Sarah is referring to yesterday was, okay, babbling a little bit tonight. Bear with me.
00:06:00.760I'm on some cold medicine. You guys may hear it in my voice. I'm a little bit under the weather,
00:06:05.240So we'll see how long I can make it happen tonight. But yesterday, I was able to go to the high desert, the high desert state penitentiary in California and meet up with some also true folks that were.
00:06:22.360that practice in that facility and get to see those guys and share a little bit of Yule joy
00:06:32.460with them. And it was very nice. Some of you guys may or may not know about the AFA's prison
00:06:39.220ministry and how that works. And up until now, it really hasn't worked. It's one of those things
00:06:46.640when, for a variety of different reasons, the AFA's always gotten a lot of letters and a lot
00:06:54.300of correspondence from folks who are incarcerated, but never really knew what to do with it or knew
00:07:03.080a substantive way to have that be a, I don't know, have that be a productive thing for us. So for
00:07:09.720a variety of reasons, not a lot was going on with that when I became Yelts Harrier Goethe.
00:07:14.400me. I jumped right in and I'm like, no, we can fix this. We can help these guys out. I'm going to
00:07:19.820have all these great letters that we can help folks and whatnot. And I learned very quickly
00:07:26.380there's a lot more to it than that. Letters that we were getting at the time weren't really about
00:07:32.120our faith as much as they were about merchandise. And we weren't set up with a catalog to where
00:07:38.180those guys could get our products. It was a lot of asking for stuff or asking where they could
00:07:44.080buy stuff. So it wasn't really Ausatru related. I mean, it wasn't corresponding about Ausatru
00:07:50.660related, I should say. And yeah, we had a number of people step up between now and then that
00:07:57.020wanted to get that project going to where the AFA was fielding serious questions and serious
00:08:05.380letters from folks incarcerated and when available to where our Gothar could go and, you know,
00:08:11.940provide some ritual and religious service for for folks that were incarcerated and a lot goes into
00:08:19.540it a lot of building relationships with the chaplaincy at different institutions a lot of
00:08:25.620paperwork back and forth there's a lot more involved than i think people realize so we had a
00:08:30.100whole lot of people step up and want to try and not be able to not be able to go the distance with
00:08:36.420it. And only very recently, our folk builder, James Ault, has made great strides in it. For
00:08:43.360the very first time, I was able to go and go into a penitentiary and get to meet with those guys.
00:08:52.720And it was a really interesting experience. I had no idea really what to expect, but the chaplain
00:08:58.580was great and really interested in working with us and making sure the Alcetree guys got
00:09:04.540religious services. He was very interested in that and very helpful. And the guys there were
00:09:10.760very thankful, very grateful for, you know, just the time and the thought and, you know,
00:09:16.440making the effort to be there with them. So it was really nice. We did a little bloat to the
00:09:21.200Allfather and we had a stumble and we talked for a little bit and it was very nice. It's something
00:09:27.060I look forward to doing again. So yeah, that's what I did yesterday. And I think it was a
00:09:31.500It was a nice way to start the start the Yule season.
00:19:53.580You know, I think that's really true with so many things.
00:19:56.980It's kind of a theme of this program is is victory and victory is more often than not built on the big victory with the big V is built on a bunch of small V little bricks over time.
00:20:15.780You know, you lay all of that foundation and you build one step at a time with laying those bricks of victory in until you get where you're trying to go.
00:20:24.560very seldom do you just win in one one big flourish it's you know it's game of inches sometimes but
00:20:31.200they add up um got some more questions piling up travis asks glad you'll matt can we see your whole
00:20:41.280ugly sweater why are you calling my sweater ugly my sweater's beautiful thank you um yeah
00:20:46.000i'll see if i can show you a little bit more of it more of it here
00:20:55.440i don't know if you guys are seeing it i got a little bit of camera delay
00:21:00.960but it's got santa and he's uh bringing a bag of gains
00:21:09.920um we got a question from ally with new year's resolutions around the corner
00:21:15.840how can we find the discipline to make them stick what would you say to that adam
00:21:20.560well a lot of people and and you know going back to the gym i've been going to the same gym for
00:21:29.120many years now and what you often find is people go into it with this idea of completely
00:21:38.600radically changing their lives right and unfortunately what usually happens is about
00:21:45.160a month later, you never see those people again, because they went into too radical.
00:21:52.860Okay, so what we want to do, in my opinion, is not be overly radical with how we go about
00:22:24.180but not so radical to the point where, you know,
00:22:28.020you can't stick with it because that'll only make you in the end
00:22:33.440falter in what your goal is, in essence.
00:22:43.440You know, I think that's I think that's spot on. And it doesn't matter what that resolution is. I know that I go back to the gym a lot with talking about this. And I just think that's a way that it has played out in my life that I think is a go to.
00:23:03.180but i think these techniques are important in anything that we're doing whatever that resolution
00:23:08.620might be as adam said if you pick something that's very very hard to do and is radically
00:23:14.300different than what you're doing now you know if you do and you can stick with it then we'll all
00:23:21.420give you a round of applause that's amazing but more than likely at some point you're not going
00:23:27.100going to be able to keep that kind of a radical change and then there's all the feelings of
00:23:34.540you know shame or regret or defeat that you can't keep it up and those things you know tend to not
00:23:43.420only do they tend to not make you succeed but they make you regress i know physically a lot
00:23:49.100when people are trying to lose fat and you know can't keep up with some crazy diet that they tried
00:23:54.860to get on, they say, ah, screw it. And then they try to drown their sorrows in cake and
00:23:59.880they eat their, they quite literally eat their feelings. And, and I think a lot of folks do that.
00:24:06.940So I think setting, setting small, but attainable changes and building on those is, is much,
00:24:16.060much more important. And in the gym, I think a lot of that, you know, has to do, you don't just
00:24:22.640add hundreds of pounds on the bar you try to add one of those little 2.5 plates and the next time
00:24:28.640you go up you add another one and eventually you get somewhere but if you throw you know if you
00:24:33.840throw the 45s on there every time you're trying to go up weight you end up being self-defeating
00:24:38.560and you can't you can't do it one of the especially the older we get a lot of the situations we find
00:24:48.800ourselves in. And again, the go-to is physical fitness, but I think the same is the case in
00:24:54.500career or in education or anything else. We notice all of the time that we've lost and we
00:25:01.980try to make up for it by one massive flood. We want to fix 30 years of stagnation with one big
00:25:11.260push. And it's very hard to do that. If you spent 30 years building a career, building a life,
00:25:17.960building a body in one way to completely reverse course on that isn't something that's done
00:25:24.220overnight. It's a steady progress thing. And it's very hard for me when I watch people,
00:25:31.100let's say folks that are very overweight and they set their mind to fixing it and they go,
00:25:36.980they do stuff that makes them uncomfortable. They get outside of their comfort zone. They
00:25:40.280work out really, really hard for a week or two weeks, maybe even a month. And they're like,
00:25:46.840damn I'm still fat and so they just give up and go back to their old habits because it's so hard
00:25:52.320they they feel like they put all this in and they can't immediately notice it and unfortunately it's
00:25:58.240it's not a sprint it's a marathon and seeing those results take a really long time I think
00:26:04.160the same is true of somebody trying to get in you know to get bigger and stronger I think the same
00:26:09.520is true somebody trying to learn a challenging subject or learning a new language you're not
00:26:14.160be fluent in a new language after only studying it for a few months it takes putting in those hours
00:26:20.000putting in that time excuse me yes we got another question uh heathen hammer does the afa still work
00:26:31.440together with the australian alliance um no we don't and honestly i don't know what the perception
00:26:39.120was but the afa hasn't really worked with the austral alliance in any meaningful way in a very
00:26:45.520very long time certainly not since i've been an afa member and i think well well before that
00:26:53.360i think the afa working together with the alliance probably hasn't happened this century in a
00:27:00.640meaningful way i'm not sure if there's any follow-up on that or if there's anything specific
00:27:06.000that you had to ask about that but please feel free to it's a it's an interesting topic
00:27:12.880bruce asks matt how do i step up to be a part of the prison outreach things
00:27:18.880the afa have going on right now bruce what you want to do is reach out to james alt
00:27:24.400and he can you know see where and how you could be most helpful in that process
00:27:30.720so j alt at runestone.org and he's the guy you want to talk to and you know he is he is a huge
00:27:39.600reason why i was able to go in yesterday and he's done a really really great job with that so far
00:27:46.480um antonio asks does the afa um have work or or associated with the odenic right
00:27:57.600so that's another really interesting topic no the afa really doesn't have any interaction with
00:28:03.680the odinic right and again probably haven't till you know this entire century
00:28:11.600what i can think of is at the very very very end of the last century for a very
00:28:16.560brief period of time in like 98 or 99 there was this idea of the uh
00:28:22.640Ausatru Odenic Alliance, I think. I think that was the order that they were in, but it was
00:28:33.460basically all three of those at the time, the prominent three folkish organizations all working
00:28:38.700together. And from what I've heard, that really didn't ever, ever fully take off or manifest
00:28:44.720into something in the real world. And since then, the Ausatru Alliance really has become
00:28:52.560very, very inactive. And the Odinic right. So this is interesting. And maybe somebody in the
00:28:59.680chat on the side has more information or can get more information for me. As far as I can tell,
00:29:04.860the Odinic right doesn't really exist as an organization and hasn't for a very long time.
00:29:12.700I've always been very interested in our history of modern Alcitru. And I've tried to keep up with
00:29:20.500them at the very beginning of you know the early 2000s except to about 2010 or so the odenic right
00:29:28.320had an amazing website and really looked like they were doing a lot of cool stuff
00:29:33.200since then for for over 10 years now I've I've looked really hard to find pretty much them doing
00:29:41.120anything and I haven't been able to see it um I haven't seen anything from their uh director of
00:29:48.360court of gothar in probably 15 years i've heard several individuals that claim to be members of
00:29:56.200the odinic right but i haven't uh been able to see anything from them as a you know as an
00:30:03.560organization as a leadership structure in a very very long time uh this is something we've had
00:30:09.960going on in leadership trying to get this figured out one of the first things i did when i became
00:30:15.320also here you go through the afa was i tried to reach out to the odenic right to i don't know
00:30:20.680just to exchange some pleasantries and that didn't really go anywhere and very recently i
00:30:28.360sent uh email messages i think they have got somewhere like five or seven different
00:30:33.960email contacts on their website i sent a message to all of those and i didn't get one response
00:30:41.400so i'm not con i'm sure there are people out there that still claim membership in the odenic
00:30:46.440right but i'm not i don't believe they still exist as an organization and if i'm if i'm
00:30:52.040inaccurate in that please let me know i'd love to find out where that really stands
00:31:00.680um shay asks any advice on dealing with the undisciplined among our folk
00:31:07.080what boundaries do we recognize adam what are your thoughts on that
00:31:17.320well i mean i guess it comes down to do do you want to be a good representation of um our people
00:31:26.600or do you not want to be uh it's really that simple uh do you want to do the things that
00:31:32.360that make you noble, that make you honorable, that make you be Arian, or do you not?
00:31:39.980And, you know, it really is that simple when it comes to that in my mind.
00:31:49.980And I would think if we put it in that perspective and they are willing to listen
00:31:57.140and want to make a change in their lives, then they'll do it.
00:32:02.360You know, so that's that's that's what I got on that one.
00:32:07.360You know, something that I think is important.
00:32:12.360The question was, you know, about dealing with the undisciplined among our folk.
00:32:17.360And it's really important to realize that we've got our folk are broken.
00:32:29.360um steve mcdalen always called it having a soul sickness
00:32:36.400but the current generation current past you know few generations of our folk are really damaged um
00:32:45.440we can't suppose you can if you want to but it's not productive
00:32:52.640to get frustrated at everyone for not being where you think they should be
00:32:59.360it's just going to burn yourself out on it. There's a whole lot, a lot of people that maybe
00:33:04.400we can see the potential in that don't see the potential in themselves or certainly that haven't
00:33:09.760realized that potential. But what's important is, are they moving towards it or not? Or are
00:33:16.620they moving away from it? Coming down on them hard or being really frustrated because they're
00:33:22.300not as disciplined as you like isn't going to help make them more disciplined. It's going to
00:33:27.400further push them towards indiscipline. But I think encouraging the things that they're doing
00:33:35.180that moves them towards being more disciplined and encouraging and celebrating those when they
00:33:41.700happen is a much more effective way to help bring those people up. And I think that's what we'd all
00:33:47.100like to see. But it can be really frustrating, especially if you're a person that holds yourself
00:33:51.840to one standard when you're around other folks that that don't hold themselves to that standard
00:33:58.080it could be frustrating and sometimes rightly so so i i think it's a challenge but i think maybe it
00:34:04.000takes some discipline on uh on our part to make sure we treat those people well and that we
00:34:11.600realize that that many of us were once where they're currently at and have been able to overcome
00:34:17.760and and make more of ourselves and encourage them to take those similar steps and that's what i'd
00:34:22.720suggest yeah compassion compassion is it's the key there yeah absolutely one i think that needs
00:34:32.000to be tempered with reality your your second half there is what boundaries do we recognize
00:34:36.960there's a different you can be compassionate and encouraging but also not accepting excuses
00:34:42.320or accepting things that aren't true one of the things that i find and i think it's important
00:34:46.240And don't let people tell you things that aren't true.
00:34:50.500Something I've found when a general statement is made about something, the people that feel guilty always feel the need to chime in with an excuse here or there when they weren't even spoken about.
00:35:04.160And I think that's kind of a testament to they know they're messed up, but they'll come up with some excuse.
00:35:09.640Don't accept excuses that aren't legitimate.
00:35:12.240Those people can, you know, there's a difference between telling something untrue as an excuse or just being, you know, keeping your head down, being quiet and and learning from the exchange.
00:35:26.080And this may all sound vague. I'm in my head, but I'm thinking about several Internet exchanges that have happened where, you know, man, people really should get in better shape.
00:35:37.420and then somebody who's not in good shape needs to chime in about their various reasons why they're
00:35:42.400in bad shape. And yeah, you don't need to be accepting of things that are below a standard,
00:35:49.500but you should, pointing those out and beating folks up over it isn't helpful. Encouraging them
00:35:55.620when they move towards that standard is helpful, in my experience. Don asked a question, accompanied
00:36:03.040you'd buy $5 donation. Thank you, Don. We really appreciate that. Do you guys have any favorite
00:36:08.760Yule traditions or ideas you'd like to share? Hail Hjolnir. Adam, do you have any Yule traditions
00:36:16.040you'd like to share with folks? So my kids love, so when I first started off in Ositru and I was
00:36:25.020trying to learn uh the different soul spritzes and holy days and whatnot um we always did we
00:36:33.980would leave out a boot and put uh some some like uh cereal or grain or something like that
00:36:42.780for odin's horse and odin would leave a little gift um one of the knights and they all look
00:36:50.860forward to that so that's that's probably one of the biggest ones
00:36:57.980it's uh it's weird that you mentioned that i was gonna i was going to say something very similar
00:37:03.740we'd go to the to the end of the driveway and leave out an apple for uh for slepner
00:37:10.540and that was that was something that we did and we do that on uh we do that on mother's
00:37:17.500night. We do that on the night right before the solstice. Honestly, Mandy and I are still
00:37:25.040formulating kind of some household family traditions that we want to do at Yule. Our
00:37:30.860daughter's so young, but she's starting to get to that point where she can get into and enjoy those
00:37:36.280things. So we're trying to build those into our family as we speak. Yeah, those type of things
00:37:44.200take time you know it's it's like we've been talking about you know you mentioned someone
00:37:49.480that's been doing some the same thing for 30 years you know we didn't find ourselves in in
00:37:56.520this state of affairs as a whole with our religion in just 30 years it's been a thousand years so
00:38:05.320when it comes to yule traditions each year we slowly build upon it and
00:38:11.000And we get better at it, you know, so it doesn't have to be perfect.
00:38:15.980So for anybody that's new, I know some of, you know, 12 days seems like a daunting task, especially when we have to work.
00:38:25.840We still have other things to do in our lives.
00:38:39.640Absolutely. Anonymous asks, how does turning the other cheek fit into Asatru, if at all?
00:38:49.540um so that's interesting uh the reference that you make is a is a biblical reference where
00:39:00.900jesus instructs his disciples that if uh if someone slaps you in the face turn the
00:39:08.700give them your other cheek to slap as well and uh
00:39:13.140That, in that manner, certainly doesn't fit into Asatru at all.
00:39:21.100But I want to just kind of speak on that because it's a little bit deeper in Christianity, in at least as it's presented in the Gospels.
00:39:31.760there's this idea of non-violence and non-participation in those kind of social
00:39:42.620interactions. There's a lot of world-rejecting, almost intentional embracing of victimhood
00:39:52.380that's involved in that. And that's antithetical and the opposite of what
00:39:59.760If you read the Sermon on the Mount or the Beatitudes, it almost verbatim is blessed are the losers.
00:40:14.260It goes through a litany of different people that are beat down, unsuccessful, that, you know, blessed are the meek, blessed are those who mourn.
00:40:25.560And blessed are all the people who are losing and on the bottom of society, whereas in Ossetru, we want to celebrate the victors.
00:40:33.600We want to celebrate winning. We want to celebrate the courageous and the strong and the vital and the victorious.
00:40:41.660But in that sense, no, if a grown man slaps you, feel free to defend yourself and to to physically, you know, physically fix that situation.
00:40:55.440but another thing is to be said i think it's very easy for our people to want to rush out into uh
00:41:03.200overinflated ideology about needing to be hyper violent or always having to be some barbarian
00:41:10.080one of the things that is important about nobility is you can choose your actions
00:41:15.920one of the cores of alsatru is the ability to choose you can grant someone a favor
00:41:20.960and not give them the butt whooping that they may deserve out of the goodness of your heart
00:41:27.440or as a, you know, as a kindness to them, you're, you're able to do that. But the difference between
00:41:33.100that and also true in Christianity is you're not obligated to do that. You can bestow kindness or
00:41:39.220forgiveness or favors based on your own personal will. And you're not entitled to let anyone walk
00:41:48.300you or treat you badly and if you choose to accept an insult or you choose to accept something
00:41:55.820and react in a measured way that's a choice you're making as a noble man
00:42:01.580and and that's so much more special to me because you're not being being forced into
00:42:09.580into a into a kindness that's not genuine it's not kind if the only reason that you're behaving
00:42:14.700that way is because a vengeful God has determined you must or you're going to burn in hell.
00:42:21.140It's a genuine kindness when you have the ability to act in an extremely hostile way to those
00:42:30.280things, but you choose not to. Jordan Peterson said something like that. We talk about you're
00:42:36.760not a good man if you're ineffectual and you choose not to get in fights because you're
00:42:42.440incapable of fighting you're just an ineffective man you're a good man if you're very capable of
00:42:47.240doing those things and you choose to moderate that out of kindness or out of you know benevolence
00:42:54.200and i think that's how that really fits fits into altitude do you have any thoughts on that adam
00:43:00.200yeah i mean we don't have to accept unacceptable behavior um but as you mentioned you talked about
00:43:07.240choice and choice is such a powerful word um we have the choice all the time and how we want to
00:43:15.160act and how we want to deal with any situation that's one of my favorite words actually
00:43:27.160well all right so uh katla asks how does the whole macro thing work so
00:43:33.560what i'm doing is is a version of if it fits your macros and there's different places if you reach
00:43:43.560out on the side we could give you um websites and stuff that have macro calculators basically
00:43:51.080if you're trying to gain weight you need to consume more calories than you expend
00:43:57.240now you can do that in a sedentary eating cake way and you can gain the wrong kind of weight or
00:44:02.520Or you can do that by lifting hard and eating the right kind of things.
00:44:07.960If you want to lose weight, excuse me, if you want to lose weight, you've got to consume less calories than you're expending and go into a caloric deficit to some degree.
00:44:21.920But again, just like the other way, there's a right way and a wrong way to do that.
00:44:26.560And so much of that right way and wrong way depends on what percentage those macronutrients make up.
00:44:35.820And for anybody that may not know, your macronutrients are your carbs, your protein and your fats.
00:44:42.560So if you have a caloric goal and it's split up between those things and the ratio, you know, different people may have different ideas on it.
00:44:50.740Any of those macro calculators. Here's the trick to diets. They all work.
00:44:56.560You know, if you're changing what you're eating, all of the serious ones work.
00:45:01.800What makes them work is sticking to them and having that discipline and not bouncing between one or another if you don't like them.
00:50:31.280believe it or not my my bench has never been my strong uh suit so probably uh
00:50:40.640last i remember was about 280. uh my my bench prep or deadlift sorry has always been uh my my
00:50:49.440stronger area which i've always liked it's like uh for picking up the uh serpent what's your
00:50:58.400deadlift max the i've been close to 500 but yeah i always blow my back out right right around those
00:51:08.720those areas right there deadlift is awesome that's always been my best lift as well i'm kind of tall
00:51:15.040and lanky so squats are real hard on my knees but deadlift just feels the most natural it's the most
00:51:21.680primal like lifting up something heavy off the ground that was always the one i was the best at
00:51:26.640um my best uh best ever deadlift was 620 that's that's my lift i'm super proud of i got a 620
00:51:34.780deadlift and that was really cool um but yeah that's that's hard to come by uh it has been a
00:51:41.480long time since i hit those numbers it's really you against you with yeah you against gravity yeah
00:51:49.060All right. Christine asks, Matt and Adam, can you share what the biggest obstacle you have conquered to achieve your goals and how did your perspective change after achieving victory?
00:52:06.060What are your thoughts on that, Adam? Do you have something that comes to mind?
00:52:10.600My greatest obstacle has always been myself. It's really that simple.
00:52:15.960But how I view the world, my thoughts, whether I'm thinking negative about certain situations, my feelings, whatever, my path to ascension is always hindered by me.
00:52:35.100So by conquering things that I needed to in my life, that that's what that's always been my greatest obstacle.
00:52:45.860It's the guy in the mirror. And I and I always feel that for everybody, that's kind of our greatest obstacle.
00:52:53.860The things that hold us back or the things we think we can't do or the things we tell ourselves that we can't do.
00:53:01.820So, yeah, it's it's been me. And, you know, that obstacle is not done yet.
00:53:10.920I still do that daily. You know, I still fight with that guy in the mirror and I probably will fight with that guy in the mirror for the rest of this this round.
00:53:22.340so you know i think there's now that adam put it so succinctly it's like i don't want to deviate
00:53:32.380from it because i think that's the truth of most anything it comes down to you preventing yourself
00:53:38.500from achieving and i think that's you could probably boil any answer down into uh into that
00:53:46.260very basic answer that applies to to all of us um just thinking about stuff that's held me back
00:54:03.300and i say that there's some people that have a victory over over disease or over
00:54:07.780something that is completely external please don't get me wrong but most of us we're just
00:54:11.940in our heads too much. I guess, so in, in some things I've been involved with, I've been at
00:54:29.520points where I had a lot of energy or I saw a lot of things that I wanted to be different,
00:54:36.780But the way things were structured, I wasn't high enough on the pyramid to be able to enact the things that I wanted.
00:54:48.680So it was very frustrating to have the energy that I didn't know what to do with and watch.
00:54:56.440Maybe watch other people not take shots that I would have taken or do things differently than I would have done.
00:55:02.980I'm sticking it out and doing the best I could in my position at my spot allowed me to eventually get to a spot where I where I didn't have anybody in front of me who was doing things differently than I would have or, you know, stopping that flow of energy.
00:55:23.000And that was a big thing for me. Something else that's been a huge thing for me is.
00:55:28.560is fear. And I don't mean fear in a, in a terrified sense, but there's a,
00:55:44.080there's a fear that comes with wanting to reach too high or wanting to go out and
00:55:53.580do things because every time you every time you want to move forward you want to do something
00:55:58.680different especially if it's bigger it's important there's a risk involved and you risk losing what
00:56:05.980you have i'll say this is a huge thing and uh spoiler alert both of these things are about
00:56:12.460ulterior stuff but um the fear thing and i really feel this and i understand how people get this way
00:56:21.200when you have success and you have something really cool you don't want to risk it on another
00:56:31.140roll of the dice you know you don't want to risk the success that you currently have
00:56:37.740by trying something something new or something something different and that's a poisonous way
00:56:44.940to think but it makes a certain amount of sense so there's always fear like if i say something
00:56:50.960wrong or I do the wrong thing. You know, I'm just one dumb decision or one ill thought out statement
00:56:58.380away from burning it all down for everybody. And that can be really paralyzing. And I've made a
00:57:06.320very conscious effort not to let myself be limited by that. But there's plenty of times those thoughts
00:57:13.520creep in and I've got to I've got to keep them at bay. So I think that's one of the things that
00:57:19.200is difficult. And on the flip side, how did your perspective change after achieving victory on
00:57:25.960things? In both of those scenarios, I think that I've grown to realize the truth that Adam shared
00:57:35.940with us, that most of it is just overcoming yourself. It's the doubt and the fears and
00:57:45.380projections and mental garbage that we all have going around in our heads that,
00:57:50.680excuse me, I'm sorry, that prevent us from achieving a lot of the things that we want to
00:57:57.960have. We impose so many limitations on ourselves, or we go into so much of our life thinking that
00:58:06.860we're destined to lose instead of, you know, wondering what if we won? You know, hey, what
00:58:12.960if we did achieve what we were trying to do? What can we do? What can we achieve? It's really easy
00:58:18.780to get a negative mindset and stay in it. So I learned to see opportunity all around me. I learned
00:58:26.820to recognize the tremendous opportunities that victory brings, but also opportunities that
00:58:34.680defeat or setback brings. Every shift in your position or in the positions of those around you
00:58:41.460creates opportunities and if we're so big busy pouting or worrying or stressing
00:58:49.940we don't see those opportunities we have to get successes and sometimes those opportunities are
00:58:55.460in places that we hadn't considered before so i think that's something that i've learned from that
00:59:01.540i know that's kind of a all over the place answer but i hope it gets close to some of the things
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01:00:00.100katla says matt did you choose that shirt or did someone give it to you
01:00:07.540very much on brand tonight we're talking about the gym um i actually chose this uh this sweater we
01:00:14.920were a number of years ago mandy and i were doing a wine walk and it was a you know christmas sweater
01:00:22.600themed wine walk so we're looking for looking for novelty ones and and uh this one specifically i
01:00:31.460don't know if mandy found or i found but this is you know this or something very similar was what
01:00:35.680we were trying to find so uh yeah it does happen to be very thematic i wore it because it's yule
01:00:41.400not because of what we're going to talk about but it worked out well
01:00:44.460um sunshine sucks gave us ten dollars we appreciate it it's been a little while since
01:00:51.240we've seen you, I'm glad you're back on the show. And he gave a little salute emoji. So thank you
01:00:56.580for that. Tony, the King of Shishi, I'm still entertained by that. Matt, Adam, good to see
01:01:06.240you both on here. Matt, looking stylish as ever. Thank you. How are you both doing tonight? How
01:01:11.780are you doing, Adam? Very good. I mean, it's the solstice. What more can we ask for? You know,
01:01:18.800The rebirth of all of it and the rebirth of ourselves in many ways.
01:01:23.240So, yeah, it's going to be a good year.
01:01:27.040Let's see what we can all do together.
01:01:48.180look forward to them all the time. Um, it's Yule. So I'm in a good place. I appreciate you asking.
01:02:00.020So, uh, Shannon hopes that, uh, please tell me Mandy has a matching Mrs. Claus sweater.
01:02:11.920She does not. I think it'd be really cool, but she does not currently have one. Um,
01:02:15.880I'm not sure if I've seen those, but if one exists, that would be neat if she had it.
01:02:21.700Anonymous. As a woman who's been pregnant three years in a row now and gained a tad with each, how can I balance my mom life and exercise when I live too far from a gym?
01:02:34.940Adam, do you have any thoughts on that?
01:02:36.220well i can only i can't always give advice on um you know what a woman should do obviously being a
01:02:46.380man i can only with my own wife um we have many children and uh with her just taking care of the
01:02:58.540kids alone has uh keeping her or kept her in uh in in a very good condition um
01:03:11.340i i wish i could give a little bit better answer than that but i i know kids
01:03:16.220keep us thin so maybe have more that maybe maybe just do that
01:03:22.140so it's a good question and that's hard um
01:03:29.500you're in and again i i answer this with a certain amount of humility i realize i'm a guy and um i
01:03:38.140don't know what it's like being pregnant or how that all works or feels i've watched my wife deal
01:03:44.140with you know deal with that and deal with gaining some gaining some weight during pregnancy um
01:03:52.140So one thing, yeah, chasing around your kids helps, you know, there's, it can wear you out. That's a thing. And it's hard. I, you know, outside of professionals and even then, I don't think there's a way to go through a pregnancy without gaining, you know, without either losing some muscle mass in some area.
01:04:18.940There's no way to really do it without damaging your musculature in some way.
01:04:24.160It stretches your body out in strange ways.
01:04:26.860It causes you to be less active, certainly towards the end stages than you would otherwise be very often.
01:04:34.480And eating the extra calories to grow a healthy baby, you're going to put on a little bit of extra weight.
01:08:30.360Adam, maybe you've got some good ideas on this you can share with folks.
01:08:35.060I think it's all about what they see you doing.
01:08:38.160Um, you can tell people often till they're blue in the face, uh, whether it's kids or, or, or adults, um, what you should be doing, but often people learn by just watching and seeing and seeing how you live your life and whatnot.
01:08:58.000So I hope that my kids see some of the things I do and maybe they challenge themselves later when they get a little bit older and, you know, see that, well, dad did this and whatnot.
01:09:14.120So and obviously give them little hints here and there.
01:09:19.360i think uh i think like anything if you try to push them to one way they go the other
01:09:32.320so we want to stay centered um and not push too much in any one way because i know when i was a
01:09:40.240kid when my parents told me to do something and they were adamant about it guess what i did i did
01:09:45.720the other thing so all right i'm not sure if you guys can still hear me adam uh adam's feed went
01:10:02.520down on my end but i think we'll get him back here soon um yeah i hope you guys can still hear me i'm
01:10:13.000just going to go push through. Awesome. Thank you. So we got another question. What type of
01:10:23.440workout would you suggest for women just getting back into exercise slash weight training to be
01:10:28.860able to be consistent and successful without being overwhelmed? Do you have any thoughts on that, Adam?
01:10:34.540well anybody that knows me knows i like burpees so i mean i think it's kind of
01:10:46.440ones that that works pretty well so maybe burpees are a good test of your will um they uh
01:10:59.500they pretty much work everything, um, in your body, um, and, and whatnot. So,
01:11:05.240yeah. All right. Well, I'm going to take a back step for a question because I realized I didn't
01:11:12.560answer my portion about the kids and the discipline. So to answer the rest of that
01:11:18.400question, my daughter's really little, she's two and a half. There's not a lot we're doing to
01:11:24.260instill discipline, but what I think is a part of discipline is routine and habits.
01:11:29.500And we are pretty good about that, about having a set nap time and a set bedtime and routines on those.
01:11:35.900And toddlers are really big on routines.
01:11:37.920And hopefully we can continue some of that as she as she continues to grow.
01:11:43.080I didn't want you to think I didn't wasn't going to answer my portion of that.
01:11:47.980As far as stuff I would suggest for women getting back into exercise and weight training and stuff that's not going to overwhelm them.
01:11:55.660Everybody's different. Every woman's different.
01:11:57.860Every man's different as far as what they feel is overwhelming.
01:12:04.560I would. The only thing that we have to go on when answering those kind of questions is like imagining what if it was me and I can't really what if I was what if I was a girl.
01:12:18.220But as far as I'm concerned with that stuff, I get excited about it.
01:12:25.080So the routines that I would do, I'm pretty much doing similar stuff that I did when I first started out.
01:12:32.120And it's never felt overwhelming to me because I just enjoy it so much.
01:12:36.280If you're a person that doesn't like going to the gym or that's overwhelming to you, then maybe a routine that's only, you know, three days a week, maybe a Monday, Wednesday, Friday thing to start out.
01:12:47.500do a entire complete whole body workout on each of those days, doing big compound exercises
01:12:54.440like deadlifts, like squats, but doing full body workouts on each of those three days.
01:13:02.580I think that's a way to go. If you're not opposed to that, though, I would recommend the same stuff
01:13:07.980I do, the routines that I post in the AFAs physical excellence program. And I go to the gym
01:13:12.920every single day. But I do that because it's something I love. So it's hard for me to imagine
01:13:18.680like that doesn't feel overwhelming to me, but it may very well to somebody who's not used to it
01:13:24.400or who doesn't enjoy going to the gym. But I think going to the gym and immersing yourself
01:13:31.420in that atmosphere is very helpful and it helps get you in a mindset and around people who are
01:13:37.740pursuing similar goals. And I think that's always nice, even if you only go a few times a week.
01:13:42.920but I'd suggest, you know, for anybody do the routines that I post on the physical excellence
01:13:49.040thing. Um, you are somebody who doesn't like going to the gym or it is intimidating for you.
01:13:55.620Full body workouts three times a week is what I would suggest. And I think you can make a lot
01:14:00.860of progress just starting out that way. Um, Miranda asks, what deity do you feel best? It's
01:14:09.840best to call upon in times when discipline is needed. What are your thoughts on that, Adam?
01:14:16.260Photon. Yeah, that's, I mean, you can just look at the lore and all that he does and all that he
01:14:24.160chases and the things that he wants to do. And not so much for himself, but for all of us.
01:14:31.480That's, I would say that deity, you know, the high one represents discipline at its, you know,
01:14:39.160highest level in my mind. You know, I don't think that there is a bad choice on that.
01:14:50.000Our gods are multifaceted, and certainly we have gods that stand out for different things
01:14:56.640and different reasons, but there's a lot of overlap. If you have a god you're particularly
01:15:03.600close to, or you call on regularly, I think calling on them to help you with discipline
01:15:46.400not just ecstasy by itself but the mastery of ecstasy so odin is a master of the woe he masters
01:15:58.200the overwhelming ecstatic state and he masters basically he brings order to chaos he brings
01:16:07.800discipline to the undisciplined um and though that's in a spiritual energy form i think it
01:16:15.220applies to anything we talk about, Odin is certainly a god of self-mastery, of mastering
01:16:21.940his environment, and of literally shaping will and order into chaos in the way that
01:16:31.020he dismembered Ymir and shaped our reality, in the way that he reshapes reality with
01:16:39.480his use of the runes. I think he's certainly an excellent exemplar of discipline. Another one I
01:16:47.800think is worth mentioning. I think Tyr is also a good God to call upon for discipline. It takes
01:16:54.120great discipline to be able to sacrifice and follow through with agreements and oaths, even
01:17:02.540if they're very disadvantageous to you. I think there's a tremendous amount of willpower and
01:17:09.180discipline involved when tears in the picture and in worshiping tears. So I think that's a good
01:17:16.080choice as well. All right. Another question. All right. It's another mustache real question.
01:17:27.640Nick, you can just leave those off if they're silly.
01:17:39.180all right so this kind of puts it in in place there's there's a whole lot of real talk going
01:17:45.160on and i think that's fine people have fun with it there's a lot of talk going on about
01:17:49.560real being involved in your facial hair choices but the basic question uh that the king of cheese
01:17:58.440is asking is what is real and uh in a serious way adam do you want to enlighten folks about
01:18:08.240thrill in a in a serious way as opposed to in the less serious way well if you're familiar with um
01:18:18.880some of the indo-aryan concepts of uh prana it's the same thing it's like the the uh fifth element
01:18:28.800if you will um it's all around us it lives within us and and and we uh actually generate it a lot
01:18:37.760in ourselves, all right? So that would be the idea of Vril. It's really the same thing
01:18:47.520in that aspect. You know, one way of thinking about Vril is your magical potency.
01:18:56.000And harnessing the energy of Vril is similar in a lot of ways, I think, to what's described as
01:19:03.680ki or chi in the martial arts. Vril is channeling your magical potency and being able to put it
01:19:13.060into effect. And there's a lot of different writings on it. Some of them make more sense
01:19:21.180than others. But yeah, I think that's what they're going on about. And they're implying
01:19:27.860it as a reference to the prowess that comes with their facial hair choice.
01:19:33.680Shea asks, when undisciplined children are disruptive at our events, at what point do we address the child or do we only address the parents?
01:19:44.900See, it's a real touchy question, and I don't think there's a perfect answer to it.
01:19:50.200But I think that the place to start is what Adam said earlier.
01:19:54.660You don't have to accept the unacceptable.
01:19:56.740um i think that if you are aware that problematic children are going to be at an event
01:20:07.960the best thing to do is set those standards early in front of everybody without singling anybody out
01:20:16.600say hey guys this is what we're doing we're here for something very serious today we got a lot of
01:20:22.100kids. That's amazing. But parents, please help. During rituals, we can't have noisy children
01:20:27.680or we have delicate things in this house. So please keep an eye on your children.
01:20:34.140Lay that groundwork up front and it will make everything that flows from it more
01:20:39.940easier to handle down the road. And I mean, don't physically discipline other people's children,
01:20:49.580but feel free to step in and tell children what is and is not acceptable, especially if it's in
01:20:55.000your home or involving your things. You got to use some common sense. I think speaking to the
01:21:02.860parents is always going to be more effective, but, you know, parents, certainly parents within
01:21:09.580the AustroFolk Assembly should not be upset if their children are out of control and another
01:21:14.740adult needs to appropriately tell them what the boundaries are and what behavior is and isn't
01:21:20.900appropriate in their home um and i think that we all need to feel more comfortable doing things
01:21:26.260like that do you have any thoughts on that adam yeah well towards it you know what you said at
01:21:32.100the end you know are all a a family when it comes to that so i don't think uh you know if if if i
01:21:41.940were to say something to someone else's child i think i don't think anybody would be upset with
01:21:46.580that you know we're we're a big afa family and uh but at the and on the other side though i know
01:21:52.340kids are going to be kids so we do the best we can uh to try to make it work they're they're
01:21:59.140unpredictable they are unpredictable um try to deal with it i'll tell you this if aubrey's at
01:22:05.540an event you're at and she's acting up please do not hesitate to tell her about herself or tell me
01:22:10.900if I need to handle it. As Adam said, we're, we're family. And I, I think, you know, I mentioned
01:22:22.120earlier in the program, and I apologize, my coughing is getting terrible. I'm sure it's
01:22:25.740bothering you guys. I promise it's bothering me too, if that makes you feel better.
01:22:31.920But we talked about it earlier a little bit.
01:22:34.960we, our people are broken and we have so many, so much mental baggage that we come into situations
01:22:44.620with. And I think that there's a defensiveness that parents very often have when other people
01:22:50.680try to step in and say something to their children or say something to them about a way
01:22:56.660their children are behaving. We feel a need to step in and be defensive and, and it takes some
01:23:03.960effort to break that. But none of us should be upset or offended if an adult in an appropriate
01:23:09.180way stops our child from behaving badly or asks us to take care of our child if our child's
01:23:16.960behaving badly. We should want to fix the problem rather than be upset that somebody would bring up
01:23:22.540the problem to us. But that takes some growth, and that's easier said than done. I know a lot
01:23:27.180of people have a lot of issues that way, and it takes growth on people's part.
01:23:34.440but at the end of the day do right and fear no one uh if your child if you're around and kids
01:23:40.600are acting up say something if parents are not controlling their kids say something it's much
01:23:46.680better if you say something up front than if you let it build up and become a bigger problem over
01:23:50.760time um uh aphid uh so we got a question another question are you eating lots of meat and animal
01:24:05.800fats adam are you eating lots of meat and animal fats i actually just got off this uh vegetarian
01:24:15.560diet for since kind of our last podcast i wanted to see how long i could go so actually i was going
01:24:22.840till tonight and uh the 21st was my my oath if you will uh to eat meat again so i just started eating
01:24:32.760meat again more just a mental thing i wanted to see if i could do it um but yeah for particularly
01:24:40.520i i eat a lot of raw eggs and raw milk that's like my thing i i love raw milk so uh i eat a
01:24:49.800lot of that and uh and obviously i'll be eating more meat uh as of you know going forward from
01:24:56.680now again so i eat a lot of meat um i eat a whole lot of meat uh as far as the animal fats it all
01:25:04.680depends again i count my macros and if i've already spent those fats on other sources then
01:25:11.160i know i tend to stick with lean meats in that in that occasion
01:25:17.080but if i've got the fats to spare absolutely i love animal fats and i do think they're very good for
01:25:22.040you uh matt and adam what do you do to get ready for bloat mentally adam what do you do to prepare
01:25:30.840for your bloods mentally um well generally when it comes to like the holy days i usually take like
01:25:41.200a week or two to really think about what the importance is and kind of just like i have i
01:25:46.360mentioned in my last uh response to the last question um i do things that are difficult
01:25:53.620I changed my routine a little bit going into the holy day.
01:26:00.460And once that day comes, I particularly don't eat before I do bloat.
01:26:08.360So if the bloat's at 5 o'clock at night, I'm not eating anything all day.
01:26:13.640I feel I can generate more power fasted.
01:27:43.280But what I do. Sorry, talking tonight is way rougher on me than I thought it would be.
01:27:52.160I know I'm coughing a lot. A lot of things.
01:27:57.720So I like to go over it in my head several times what I'm going to do and make sure all my logistics are in place.
01:28:06.760It's funny. I'll walk around, you know, and look like I'm talking to myself and I'll look real serious.
01:28:11.960people think I'm upset or something. And I say, no, I'm just preparing for bloat because I got
01:28:15.600to get in the right headspace. I like to go in wherever the ritual, wherever I'm going to be
01:28:20.740conducting the ritual. I like to go there and walk around in that area and feel the space,
01:28:27.600get a sense of the space, become comfortable with it. Depending on who I'm going to do bloat to,
01:28:36.280I usually usually say a prayer before before it's game time to, you know, express what I'm trying to do during bloat and to hope that I I to assure them that I want to represent them and honor them in the best way possible and kind of renew my commitment to do a good job with that.
01:28:56.520that gives me some peace of mind and some steadiness.
01:29:01.260Sometimes I'll galler a rune or multiple runes if it's relevant to what we're doing.
01:29:08.320But all those things are really important to getting in my headspace. So one of the things
01:29:12.220I'm so in the zone before bloat on what I'm going to do, it's always very helpful when other people
01:29:17.320help me make sure I've got everything I need. It's really easy to space something or not have
01:29:22.840a sprig or, you know, forget one of the bottles of mead or not remember to bring a horn or
01:29:30.240whatever you're doing because I'm focused so much on the ritual itself that the little
01:29:35.440bits and pieces, it's really helpful when I've got people there to look out for me that
01:29:39.360way. But it's, if you haven't done it, I don't know if it makes sense, but there's a tremendous
01:29:54.060amount of energy involved in it. One of the ways that I know if I do a really good ritual versus,
01:30:01.540is a kind of ho-hum ritual is how exhausted I feel after it. The rituals that I've done that
01:30:14.300have been the very best, they will drain you. So much energy literally flows through you
01:30:21.580when you're connecting our folk with our gods or our gods with our folk.
01:30:27.220you're a living conduit of all of that energy and if you do it right and if the gods are present
01:30:36.820it'll it'll exhaust you i know a number of people myself included have had to just go
01:30:42.480lay down afterwards because it's it's very powerful um so preparing yourself for that is a
01:30:51.800little bit different for everybody but those are the things that i like to do that i find help me
01:30:56.480how tall and heavy uh else harrier goethe is right now uh thank you for another great stream
01:31:06.380gentlemen you're very welcome um how tall seems to be a matter of some dispute
01:31:12.020up until this year i would have told you that i am six one and a half but according to uh
01:31:18.780according to my general uh practitioner and according to her height thingy uh i am and i
01:31:25.680checked it and it seems right i am six foot even and one half inch so
01:31:34.560i suppose we got an inch variance there uh how much do i weigh
01:31:41.680right now i weigh 232 which is pretty low for me but uh my body fat's down at
01:31:49.920uh 18.2 right now i'd like to see that get under 17. if i could get like 16.9 i'd be
01:32:00.080really happy with that and maybe i'd go in bulk for a month um but yes that's my my height and
01:32:06.240weight at this juncture uh any news about sigerheim developments uh yeah as a matter of fact we're
01:32:18.400We're going to do our first moot at Sigerheim on the 14th of January, and I'm looking real forward to that.
01:32:26.680I'm very excited about it. I'll be flying down.
01:32:29.600A number of people are going to drive over for it because a lot of people are excited to see it and check out the property.
01:32:34.120At this stage, we're going to go through and get kind of a physical sense of the layout of land, exactly where the boundaries are.
01:32:49.360The guy that did a survey didn't really do a 2022 survey.
01:32:54.940he did kind of a 1922 survey so it's referenced from you know this fence post to this tree to
01:33:01.820you know this degree angle this many feet to this other tree to this other tree to this other tree
01:33:08.300so i'm assuming and i'm hoping that he flagged those trees
01:33:12.860or spray painted them or did something if he did we'll be able to follow that pretty good
01:33:18.140um if not we'll be doing a little bit more exploring uh but we're excited about that
01:33:25.980we're going to do that i don't think we have our first person lined up to move onto the property
01:33:32.300yet for a little while that's uh that's going to be coming in the coming uh probably year to
01:33:40.540year and a half hopefully we'll have some folks that can move out there earlier than that but uh
01:33:46.060don't want to put the cart ahead of the horse on that but all of that's going very well people have
01:33:51.980been generous on trying to help us pay that off which is great we always need help with that
01:33:57.260though if you would like to donate to that help effort and help us with sigerheim
01:34:02.060please donate to the link that nick threw up but those are there we go those are the
01:34:08.140developments as of right now but i'm very excited to actually get on the land and to
01:41:14.040For me, it's always going to be Botan.
01:41:18.540That's the God that best in every aspect.
01:41:25.900um he's he's always doing something more always becoming more always rising to the occasion and
01:41:35.500whatever he's doing um uh to to to the goals not for just for him but once again for all of us
01:41:43.380uh so so we can follow that and and and and live that in our own lives as well so that
01:41:52.120that okay adam you broke up there um our next question is what are some spiritual thoughts
01:42:07.560for this yola i don't think i've ever seen it spelled that way um
01:42:16.760i'm gonna give uh adam a second here to see if his equipment starts working again
01:42:22.120spiritual thoughts. So Yule is a, it's a good time for lots of things. But what I think,
01:42:30.960especially coming at the end of one year and at the very start of a new year,
01:42:37.540it's a really good time to take stock of how did 2022 go? What did you achieve?
01:42:46.980Did you did you achieve the things that you sought out to? What can you celebrate? What great things happened for you and your family or people that you care about or your kindred or the AFA or just in the world in general that you're happy about?
01:43:04.040celebrate those things. And if you have failures or things that you didn't achieve or things that
01:43:10.400didn't go the way you want, examine that. Come up with a plan. How are those things going to
01:43:15.340get better in the coming year? What can you do more? What can you do different? What plans can
01:43:20.640you put in? What do you want to accomplish by this time next year? Annual's a time of celebration.
01:43:29.400Don't evaluate those things in a masochistic way and beat yourself up over it.
01:43:35.760But it's a good time for self-examination and for taking stock of the good things you have going on in your life and taking stock of, you know, things that you'd like to make better.
01:43:48.580I think that's a really important part of you.
01:43:52.340The other thing is spend that time with your family as much as you can.
01:44:25.120um so celebrate it wholeheartedly and fully and get the most out of it and uh make and this is a
01:44:35.520thing be happy if you're currently happy because it's you and you're surrounded by family and
01:44:41.260friends awesome if you're not then make yourself be happy because it's really important one of the
01:44:48.780So it's kind of a random thing, a little bit of a deviation, but the holidays for all of our people is one of the most amazing, happy times of the year for so many.
01:45:04.760But it's also the height of suicides and of depression.
01:45:09.080if you're in that spot and this is part of what i've been saying this whole time
01:45:16.140if you're sad if you're depressed do not be alone if you are sad and you are depressed
01:45:23.940be happy reach out and do something with people do something with your friends do something with
01:45:31.440your family if you've got them if you don't got friends reach out to a folk builder or
01:45:37.060our go-thar and get together with some of your afa friends that maybe you haven't met yet
01:45:42.820don't be alone this year celebrate this with people that matter make new friends cherish old
01:45:49.700friends but please don't be alone and please don't be sad and depressed i know that's way easier said
01:45:57.220than done but please reach out it's really important something i think we just need to
01:46:02.020take stock of this time of year there's a lot you know as dark as things may be for some people in
01:46:09.300some circumstances there is so much beautiful that we are surrounded by going on right now
01:46:16.500sometimes it's hard to see but it's worth making that effort the best you can stay positive
01:46:25.940and last question of the night adam do you still consume raw eggs and if so how many
01:46:32.020well i've i've always eaten a lot of eggs uh ever since i was as early as i can remember
01:46:40.800um i always eat at least five a day uh all the time um and actually within the last
01:46:48.980i don't know year or two i i started eating them pretty much just raw all the time um it's a lot
01:46:58.360easier and you can take in a lot more actually matt you might remember when i messaged about
01:47:03.720that a while back um trying to ask some advice so yeah i never get sick from them it's amazing
01:47:12.120the stuff that you can eat um and not get sick from so yeah if you know if my fats are there
01:47:21.080i've gone through periods where i've drank uh at one point in time i was drinking a dozen a day
01:47:27.560and it goes down easier if they're if the yolks are broken up i think i sometimes if i'm going
01:47:36.120for i'd say if i'm going for six or more i start gagging on the yolks so if they're broke if the
01:47:43.560yolks are broken up that it all goes down a little bit easier for me but everybody's different
01:47:48.360everybody's got different situation that way but uh yeah i know a lot of people that drink
01:47:55.240raw eggs. I don't know anybody that's got an illness from it, despite the concern that some
01:48:01.280might have. So guys, I could, I could try to ring out some more questions. I could prompt you guys
01:48:09.200to ask more stuff. I've answered all the questions in the queue for today and my, my throat is
01:48:15.740killing me. But I want to wish you guys a very, very happy Yule. I want to thank our guest, Adam.
01:48:21.600Thank you so much for being on here. And it really is a testament now that for our noble virtues, two of them, your colleagues think that you are the guy.