Classically Abby - September 13, 2021


I Feel A Bit Stagnant With My Faith...｜ vlog #3


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Jacob and I went to a wedding in Rhode Island, we celebrated Rosh Hashanah, and I talk about how I feel like I m stagnating in my faith and faith journey. I m not sure what to do about it.

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00:00:00.000 You guys know I'm very open about my faith and my faith journey and one of the things that I've
00:00:07.860 been thinking about a lot lately is I feel like I'm stagnating.
00:00:30.000 Thank you.
00:01:00.000 Thank you.
00:01:30.000 Hello, friends, and welcome to today's vlog.
00:01:54.320 I figured that we would fold laundry and chat.
00:01:57.980 One of the things I really like about vlogging that I've never had the experience of doing
00:02:02.420 because I've never done regular vlogs before is that now I can just chat with you and tell
00:02:07.920 you everything that's been going on over the course of the week.
00:02:10.740 And I used to do that with my scoop videos, but I like this because it's a little bit
00:02:15.160 less formal.
00:02:15.980 So we can just hang out and I don't have to sit down and come up with topics to talk about.
00:02:22.260 This way I really just get to chat with you, which is really fun.
00:02:26.540 So I figured I would do it while I folded laundry because folding laundry is kind of mindless
00:02:30.800 so I can chat with you while I do it and I don't feel like I'm not doing this process
00:02:35.940 with enough clarity, if that makes sense.
00:02:39.560 So I wanted to chat with you guys about Rosh Hashanah and the wedding that we went to.
00:02:45.380 We were gone for five days.
00:02:47.060 We went to Rhode Island.
00:02:48.460 It was my first time in Rhode Island, so that was cool.
00:02:51.520 And the wedding was in Newport, which is an adorable little town.
00:02:56.580 It's on the coast and you're right next to the water.
00:03:00.880 And there's all these really kitschy little shops, which I personally think are really fun.
00:03:05.140 I know some people would feel like they were too touristy.
00:03:08.120 That didn't bother me.
00:03:09.420 I really like that stuff.
00:03:11.040 Jacob and I actually have this thing.
00:03:13.000 I've talked about it on my channel before probably, that we always go to Irish stores.
00:03:17.660 Whenever we come across like an Irish Scottish store, we always go inside. 1.00
00:03:22.780 We have a fondness for that.
00:03:25.600 Jacob has some of that heritage and also we just love the culture.
00:03:29.600 And so they had one there.
00:03:30.900 So Jacob was able to buy a new hat and he looks great in it.
00:03:35.760 It's actually the one he wore to the wedding.
00:03:37.980 So that looked really cool on him.
00:03:40.520 And I was really excited because it just, it's a great hat.
00:03:44.080 And I bought a little baseball cap with an anchor on it, which I thought was really cute.
00:03:48.160 And just a casual thing for me to put on, which is nice.
00:03:51.620 But this wedding that we went to was at an old estate called Rosecliff, maybe Rosecliff Manor.
00:03:57.280 And it's amazing.
00:04:00.160 It was built during the Gilded Age.
00:04:01.860 It's gorgeous.
00:04:03.120 And the wedding was black tie.
00:04:04.520 So Jacob got to wear a tux.
00:04:06.560 I got to wear a gown.
00:04:08.080 And that was so much fun.
00:04:10.160 You guys know that I love any opportunity to get dressed up.
00:04:13.900 So that was the best.
00:04:15.500 I got to wear a gown and that was so much fun.
00:04:17.480 And we were there with Jacob's whole family, which was really nice.
00:04:20.100 And I just, I love weddings.
00:04:23.140 So the whole weekend was lovely.
00:04:25.760 And then that led in to Labor Day and Rosh Hashanah.
00:04:28.980 So Labor Day was really spent getting ready for Rosh Hashanah. 0.69
00:04:34.700 And Rosh Hashanah is the Jewish New Year. 0.84
00:04:37.460 It's also the time of year where we're judged to see if we're going to have a good year.
00:04:41.640 And then that judgment is sealed on Yom Kippur, which is the big, fast Jewish holiday that you've probably heard of.
00:04:49.560 And Rosh Hashanah is a really important holiday.
00:04:52.240 It's the beginning of the year.
00:04:53.420 We're repenting.
00:04:54.740 We're hopefully making plans for a better year.
00:04:57.240 And we had such a meaningful holiday.
00:04:59.500 We actually moved to Providence for the holiday because the synagogues in Newport still weren't allowing people into services who weren't members.
00:05:10.120 So we had to find a synagogue in Providence that would be able to host us.
00:05:16.620 And it was amazing.
00:05:18.160 I mean, this Rosh Hashanah was so meaningful.
00:05:21.400 I feel like I had a catharsis.
00:05:23.340 I had some, I've been thinking about some things lately.
00:05:26.140 And you guys know I'm very open about my faith and my faith journey.
00:05:32.260 And one of the things that I've been thinking about a lot lately is I feel like I'm stagnating.
00:05:38.300 I feel like I wasn't taking steps forward.
00:05:42.480 Essentially, when COVID hit, synagogues closed down.
00:05:46.440 People weren't able to go to services.
00:05:49.080 And because we don't use electricity on Sabbath, we can't go to Zoom services.
00:05:53.400 We weren't really able to pray with the community.
00:05:57.340 And before that, when we were living in Omaha, we had gone to synagogue every week.
00:06:02.440 And then COVID hit and we stopped.
00:06:04.300 And since then, we've just really not gotten back into the swing of things.
00:06:08.700 And I think there's a part of us, because we don't really live in a big Jewish community,
00:06:13.160 that's been like, okay, when we buy a house and when we move into a Jewish community,
00:06:17.800 we'll start going to services and we'll keep more.
00:06:20.060 And we keep saying, when this happens, we'll do this.
00:06:23.140 It's just, it's not the best way to go about things.
00:06:27.400 It's, of course, you have to take things slowly.
00:06:29.900 You have to be smart about it.
00:06:31.960 You don't want to take a million steps forward really fast and then back up.
00:06:36.940 But it's also important to take deliberate steps forward.
00:06:40.260 And I felt like I wasn't doing that.
00:06:43.200 And so Jacob and I had a really good talk before, actually before Rosh Hashanah started.
00:06:48.100 And we just decided we're going to be more deliberate.
00:06:51.080 We're going to start taking on more.
00:06:53.020 We're going to think more about the practices that we want to start observing.
00:06:58.260 And I'm really excited about it.
00:07:00.040 It made me feel so much more intentional.
00:07:02.860 And I kind of had forgotten leading into Rosh Hashanah that, you know, so much of it is about repentance.
00:07:08.260 And then I got to the synagogue that we went to.
00:07:12.920 And, you know, the first book I picked up on Rosh Hashanah said, you know, this is the holiday of repentance.
00:07:17.300 And I felt like, oh my gosh, without even realizing, I feel like I've repented.
00:07:23.000 I feel like I've recognized my mistakes.
00:07:25.520 And I'm really making a resolution this year to be more intentional about taking those steps forward.
00:07:32.580 So I'm really looking forward to this coming Jewish New Year.
00:07:36.600 I'm really excited that we're going to be practicing more, even while we're not in a Jewish community.
00:07:43.200 We're going to be going to synagogue more.
00:07:45.580 We're going to try to take on more observances.
00:07:49.540 And I just feel so much more confident and excited about my faith and about Judaism.
00:07:57.940 And I think that there's so much that we have to look forward to.
00:08:03.600 So that's really exciting.
00:08:05.340 The prayer services were beautiful.
00:08:09.300 I'm so excited that things are open more now that we can go to services because we, in our area now, haven't had really a lot of access to that.
00:08:19.940 So going to services for Rosh Hashanah in Rhode Island was amazing.
00:08:24.740 And the tunes are like my favorite.
00:08:26.600 I love it.
00:08:27.100 We sing a bunch of songs and we say all of these prayers.
00:08:30.900 And it's just so meaningful.
00:08:32.420 And it was such a good Rosh Hashanah.
00:08:34.600 You know, Jacob and I have talked about what does Rosh Hashanah really mean?
00:08:39.520 Because I think a lot of the time we are taught through imagery as children what's going to happen.
00:08:46.240 So you have to pray really hard so you're written in the Book of Life.
00:08:49.400 And I understand why we do that.
00:08:51.240 But as a kid, Rosh Hashanah, for me, held a lot of fear.
00:08:55.000 I was really afraid that if I didn't pray hard enough, God would punish me or I wouldn't be able to have a good year.
00:09:01.880 And it felt so kind of up to chance.
00:09:05.720 And when I met Jacob, he kind of made me rethink things.
00:09:11.840 And he said, you know, I think Rosh Hashanah isn't about if you pray hard enough, God will put you in for a good year.
00:09:20.220 I think it's more about the idea that it's up to you to write yourself in for a good year by the choices you make.
00:09:27.620 And by the things that you regret so that you make better choices.
00:09:30.960 And when he said that, it made me feel so much more in control.
00:09:34.480 It was so much more about my actions and how I could improve.
00:09:38.920 And Rosh Hashanah is our opportunity to kind of have a reality check of, okay, this is the time.
00:09:43.880 There's a new year coming.
00:09:45.780 It's your chance to actually grow and make better decisions.
00:09:50.960 And you get to do that.
00:09:52.920 It's not about, oh, if I pray hard enough, then maybe God will give me a good year.
00:09:57.900 No, you get to have a good year if you make the right choices.
00:10:01.600 And that was so much more calming and so much better for me as far as my faith and as far as my relationship to the holiday.
00:10:10.740 And so now I really look forward to Rosh Hashanah because it's a time for me to rethink, okay, what did I do this year that I regret?
00:10:17.860 And what did I do this year that I want to repeat?
00:10:21.060 And what do I want to do next year that will make me even better?
00:10:24.300 So it was a really positive, positive holiday.
00:10:28.460 And now we're back home.
00:10:30.020 And I've just been getting back into the swing of things.
00:10:32.900 Of course, we've got a ton more do-ish holidays coming up.
00:10:36.120 So I will be sharing all of that with you guys because I do these vlogs every week.
00:10:42.220 It's unfortunate that because we can't use electricity, I can't bring you along on the holidays.
00:10:46.200 So I kind of have to give you recaps.
00:10:47.960 But next week is Yom Kippur. 0.75
00:10:49.500 Yom Kippur is next Wednesday night into Thursday.
00:10:53.220 And that's a big holiday.
00:10:54.580 So I will definitely let you guys know how that goes.
00:10:58.880 But after that, we have Sukkot. 0.94
00:11:01.060 And then after that, we have Shemini Yatzeret.
00:11:03.060 And then after that, we have Simchat Torah. 0.66
00:11:04.540 So the whole month is do-ish holidays.
00:11:06.600 I love the do-ish holidays.
00:11:08.100 It just means that getting back into the swing of work is really difficult because you don't have a routine
00:11:12.120 because every day is another do-ish holiday.
00:11:14.320 It's really, really crazy.
00:11:15.820 But it'll be good.
00:11:16.800 So I'm going to finish up folding this laundry.
00:11:19.200 I don't think I did such a good job of not staying distracted.
00:11:21.740 I really didn't fold as much as I should have.
00:11:23.440 But it was nice to chat.
00:11:25.160 And then I'm going to bring you along for some other things that I'm doing.
00:11:55.160 I'm going to bring you along for some other things that I'm doing.
00:12:25.160 So tonight is Shabbat.
00:12:40.700 That means that it is Sabbath.
00:12:42.640 And we can't really do much.
00:12:44.700 I can't use electronics.
00:12:46.560 And even though Jacob and I aren't totally observant, I try not to do actual work.
00:12:51.600 So this is something I wouldn't do on the holiday.
00:12:56.140 And tonight we're going to the rabbi's house for dinner.
00:12:58.860 So I did make a soup for Shabbat.
00:13:02.040 And it is delicious.
00:13:04.180 I tried it.
00:13:05.340 I just had a bunch of leftover squash and potatoes and stuff.
00:13:08.420 So I put everything in the pot and then I blended it together.
00:13:11.080 And then I put in some barley and some kidney beans.
00:13:15.680 And it's really good.
00:13:17.040 So I think Jacob's going to really like it.
00:13:18.720 Maybe I'll come up with the recipe and I'll post it somewhere.
00:13:22.820 But yeah, I'm really, really into it.
00:13:25.360 It's delicious.
00:13:26.580 And yeah, so that is the rest of my evening.
00:13:29.920 But thanks for hanging out with me.
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00:13:45.300 And that is it.
00:13:46.440 So I'll see you guys in my next video.
00:13:48.680 Before I go, I should mention, I feel like this is an odd thing.
00:13:52.560 So we have a swing set in our backyard and we don't use it.
00:13:58.420 So we have the swings up and over and I don't know that it's actually that safe, but it looks
00:14:03.900 kind of weird.
00:14:04.660 So it's in the background now, but that's it for today's video and I'll see you guys in
00:14:08.940 the next one.
00:14:09.760 Bye!