why I've REALLY been gone...and what I haven't told you 😊
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In this episode, I share the story of how Mr. Baby came to be, my first trimester symptoms, and how I m feeling emotionally post-Mr. Baby. I m also excited to announce that we re expecting baby number two!
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yep you guessed right we are expecting baby number two and we are so excited it is a dream
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come true we always wanted to have our babies close together we actually were kind of like
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flexible on how close we were like however close God allows it to be it can be and it
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was just a crazy situation and I have to share the whole story kind of of how this baby came
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to be just because it happened a little bit a little bit in a funny way but we just are so
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grateful for this little baby but yeah that's why I was off of the internet for about three months
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not surprising anyone I'm sure I'm sure many of you figured it out but I just didn't have the
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energy I didn't feel well the first trimester is not fun for most women and that includes me so I
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just really didn't have the time or the energy to do that of course that also meant that I got to
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spend a lot of time with mr. baby and focus on him so that wasn't a lie I got to spend really focused
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attention on him and that's what I wanted I didn't want to have to be dividing my limited energy between
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taking care of mr. baby and creating content now that I'm in the second trimester I'm starting to
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feel really good so I am back and I'm excited about it I am officially 14 weeks pregnant I need to show
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you on my pregnancy plus app what this little guy looks like because it is amazing according to my
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app babies the size of a navel orange they grow so quickly it's a it's incredible like you you can't
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imagine that they go from teeny tiny microscopic to like the size of your hand your fist that fast
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and the first trimester I mean it makes sense that you're feeling terrible because you're doing
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the biggest head like the heaviest lifting as far as creating a human but I really want to share kind
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of my first trimester symptoms and how I'm feeling emotionally and just that that we're expecting
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again so let's just like break it down let's get into it and maybe I'll do a video answering any
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questions you guys have soon enough and maybe I'll do a vlog doing like a day in my life as a pregnant
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mom of a toddler of a 15 month old so yes the babies will be 21 months apart so actually let me tell the
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story of how this baby came to be so like I said we were open to having our babies really close together
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but I was breastfeeding for the whole first year of mr. baby's life and I personally didn't ovulate or
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even get a period that entire time now it's normal to not get a period or ovulate for a while when
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you're breastfeeding but after like eight months I was just getting a little bit nervous especially
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because we did want to have our kids close together I didn't know how long it would take for my cycles
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to get back to normal and that we would be able to conceive thank God with mr. baby we conceived really
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easily but I didn't know if that would be the case with number two so I made the decision that we were
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going to nurse him for the full year because it's good for babies to nurse for a full year if you can
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and then I weaned him really slowly over the course of a month so we were down to four nursing sessions
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a day anyway and then I just literally every week I was like okay I will cut out one feeding we'll cut
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out another feeding we'll cut out another feeding and on his birthday on the very last day that I was
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nursing him because we did exactly a year I ovulated and I have to say looking back I'm actually really
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grateful that I didn't get pregnant until then because it meant that I could just take in and
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enjoy that whole first year of mr. baby's life of motherhood and then when I started feeling sick
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it wasn't taking away from that and I started feeling sick around five weeks of pregnancy so I really
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did get like a full year of just adjusting to motherhood being mr. baby's mom enjoying mr. baby
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and that was perfect and I was mentioning to a few of my friends sorry I'm out of breath that doctors
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cannot handle when you don't have a last date of your period for them to date your pregnancy off of
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they just can't handle it I remember this with a different doctor they do not trust you when you say
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I ovulated this day so I know the day that I conceived they just don't believe you and it is
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so frustrating I literally every time I go into the doctor they're like so when was the date of
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your last period and I'm like do we really have to go over this again I did not have a period I never
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had a period before this baby I know what day I conceived though I know what day I ovulated it all
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worked out but it ended up meaning that we had to have an early ultrasound just to confirm
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the how far along I was with the baby so we had one at six weeks the baby looked great they also
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took a blood sample just to make sure all my levels were normal it was very funny because my doctor
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actually said my progesterone was so high that he initially wasn't sure if I was having twins but I'm
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not I just had very high progesterone which for me was really really comforting if you don't know if
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you're new to my channel my first pregnancy I actually had a miscarriage I have a video that I shared at
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the time and one of the things that happened during that pregnancy was I had low progesterone not
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incredibly low but very like the lowest possible within the range of normal so when the doctor told me
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that I had very good progesterone I was like that's incredible that is really exciting then
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we had a another ultrasound at 10 weeks just to do like the standard ultrasound baby looked great
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and then we did another ultrasound at 12 weeks to do the nuchal translucency test which is a down
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syndrome test baby looked great so we have had a bunch of ultrasounds already everything looks
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fantastic baby is growing really really well and obviously ultrasounds are always really fun because
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you get to hear the baby's heartbeat and you get to see that little that little person wiggling
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around and we actually already know the gender because we did a genetic test we wanted to do a
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genetic test just so that we could be prepared if anything god forbid was wrong and we also wanted to
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do it to find out the gender so we actually know already and at some point I'm going to share it
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I haven't decided how yet you guys can leave a comment down below what do you think this baby is
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and also when I do a gender reveal video how do you want me to share it do you have any good
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suggestions last time I did like old wives tales and that was really fun but I'd love to hear what
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you guys think your suggestions let's talk symptoms let's talk how I've been feeling so crazy story
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first five weeks absolutely fine I was really not doing terribly but the fifth week
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I actually got really bad food poisoning like the worst food poisoning I've ever had in my life
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and it was to the point where I couldn't keep ice chips down I couldn't keep anything down and I
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didn't know that I had food poisoning so I was really scared that I had HG hyperemesis gravidarum which
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is like the most extreme version of morning sickness where you really can't eat anything you're losing weight
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it's actually pretty dangerous and so I was so sick that night and then it ended up petering off and
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it was just it was just food poisoning but of course I don't know if it was caused by it or it just was
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coincidence but like three days later the morning sickness just set in now my morning sickness isn't
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terrible uh in the sense that I don't vomit every day I vomited once this pregnancy uh which is more
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than with Mr. Baby but not a lot but I just feel sick a lot so this is something I noticed the difference
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between my last pregnancy and this one is that my last pregnancy I felt sick all day but my other
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symptoms weren't so strong like I had cravings and aversions but they weren't terrible I had a
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metallic taste in my mouth but it only lasted a couple weeks I was tired but not terribly um I
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had like trouble sleeping but not not terribly this time it was like the morning sickness was there
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and it was not great but the other symptoms were incredibly potent and really really powerful
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so I was sick but not all day it would come in waves and those waves were really not comfortable
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like I would be on the floor just sitting there while Mr. Baby played uh so that I could in some
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sense function but I was really just sitting there kind of suffering I didn't throw up um and it was
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just I mean I don't like being nauseous nausea is my least favorite sickness symptom so it's not good
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it's not fun and what's more interesting is actually my morning sickness for the most part happens at night
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so I get really sick around 8 30 and so I just go to sleep I'm like I'm not I'm not doing this I don't
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have to live through this I'm going to bed right now and I found that clementines were very helpful
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to me I know that citrus generally is very helpful for morning sickness so I ate a lot of a lot of
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citrus I needed to have like lemons I needed to have clementines um lots of sour things helped cravings
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and aversions were super powerful this time around there were things that I just was like I cannot
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stomach it I cannot do it meat was off the table like I just could not do it and then there were things
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that I really wanted like I would have pickles and ice cream back to back I actually did that
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that you know old joke about pregnant women I was living it pretzels were a big one I really loved
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pretzels that helped just for some reason that really helped me at night I would have pretzels next
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to the bed and it was something that I could stomach like saltines didn't work for me but
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pretzels were good I'm looking at my notes here because I have some notes cheddar cheese
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was a really good one I ate a lot of cheddar cheese and that at least made me feel better
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because at least I was getting some level of protein fresh fruits and vegetables I had apples
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and clementines like I mentioned cereal like I really wanted cereal that was a big one for me
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so it was it was just interesting like I really wanted some things that I really didn't want others
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and I didn't have that so much the first time I had it a little bit but not that intense of like
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this is what I must have today I also had dysguja this pregnancy now dysguja is a sour bad taste in
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your mouth guys it's really gross I don't love it I still have it sometimes it it's not something
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that lasts all day although earlier in the pregnancy it did um now it's like if I eat certain things
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that flavor is stuck in my mouth for an hour or two so coffee with creamer cannot do it that something
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about that stays in my mouth and creates a sour taste that is unpalatable I've noticed more lately
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like cream cheese and yogurt does that which kind of makes sense because those have sour
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tastes to them maybe those just stick in my mouth more it's not fun and then the biggest thing that
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I noticed this pregnancy is fatigue oh my gosh the fatigue this time around is crazy like crazy
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now I'm starting to feel better but there were days I mean for the weeks that mr. baby would take a
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two-hour nap I would take a two-hour nap and then I would go to sleep at 8 30 like I was exhausted and
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functioning you you can't function you think that being tired is just something you I mean a normal
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level of tired is something you just push through pregnancy fatigue is like I do not know how I am going
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to stay awake like I just don't know so those were like the biggest symptoms I had during the first
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trimester I would say and if I remember anything else oh weird dreams I definitely had weird dreams
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restless legs when I was sleeping that's not fun but it's like at the same time all of those symptoms
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were really comforting to me because I knew that the baby was growing healthy and it's this weird catch
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22 where it's like oh god I want to feel better I hate feeling sick I want to feel better and the day
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that I felt better like there were two or three days in in week 10 that I felt better I was so worried I
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was so anxious I was like something is wrong something is wrong it's this crazy thing because
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you want to feel better but you also know that feeling sick is a good sign so you at least for
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me I was afraid to ever feel completely better too early it's an interesting thing when you've had a
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miscarriage I think that that runs through your head more if you haven't had a miscarriage maybe you
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don't think that way the morning sickness lasted about eight weeks so it started at week five and it
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ended at around week 13 so that's something I need to remember for the future because this pregnancy
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I couldn't remember how long it had lasted last pregnancy and I was like what is the end goal
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here how long is this gonna last so what have been my emotions during this pregnancy um you know
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it's a very different thing going through pregnancy once you've already had a child number one is that
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you are not as in it every single day like I am five weeks and three days along because you have
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another person to take care of so I was like oh okay I'm week 13 or oh I'm week 14 I couldn't tell you what
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day and week I was but I could tell you what week I was a lot more focus is being expended on another
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human and less is on okay I'm literally doing a countdown and so that's that's a nice thing in
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a sense chasing around a toddler when you're not feeling great and you can't just like relax all day
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that's not as easy but it can be done and I did it but there was and this is something you know
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vulnerable that I'm sharing with you initially when I was feeling sick I remember feeling guilty
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that I was taking away something from Mr. Baby I was not being able to give him my full attention
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just my the full mom experience because I felt bad and I kind of felt upset about that like I had
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I had done something that was harming him and then a few weeks ago we had friends over and they have a
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baby that's exactly the same age as Mr. Baby and he is so extroverted Mr. Baby just loves other people
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and it reminded me like you know what we're doing something he has eight weeks where I'm not going to
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be able to give him my full attention and after that he's going to have a sibling for life a friend to play
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with all the time and someone to call as he gets older and that is so much more important than an eight
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week period where I don't feel good and something he's literally never going to remember because he's
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15 months that made me feel better when I was feeling kind of bad about not being able to be the
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best mom I could be in those moments giving your child a sibling was it was the thing that got me
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through but I mean I wasn't as positive this pregnancy as I was the first time around because I wanted to be
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more present and I wanted to be the best mom I could be so I wasn't like oh like this is all
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great even though I feel sick I know it's for a good reason I obviously that's like the underlying
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thing but there's still this feeling of like I want to be able to function I want to be able to do
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things and I couldn't stay as positive now that I'm through it I can look back and be like yeah that
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was all worth it that was not that bad in the scheme of things I'm also somebody who's very bad about
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that once I'm out of the woods with something my husband always says it's like wherever I am I
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think I'm gonna be there forever if I'm feeling bad I think I'm gonna be feeling bad forever if
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I'm feeling good I don't even remember that I felt bad it's good during the good times not so good
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during the bad times but when I came through the other side of the morning sickness I was like oh
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like that wasn't so hard I can handle it when I was in it I was like I'm never doing this again
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as far as just having another baby it's a little overwhelming definitely initially I was scared
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it was like I wanted the baby and I was excited to be pregnant but I was also like how am I gonna
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do this how do people do the transition from one to two and I've heard from many of my friends that
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that doesn't change with the number of children you have it's like you always feel like that how is
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it going to change how am I going to do this how is it going to look but as I've started feeling
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better and as I've seen Mr. Baby just really blossoming around other people it's making it
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clear to me just how important it is for me to to create a big family so that my kids have other
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kids to play with it's just something I'm really looking forward to but yeah that's kind of like
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the first trimester update the announcement that we're having another booba another baby and I'd love
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to hear from you guys who have two under two what it's like do you love it tell me everything down
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below all your tips all your tricks drop them down below I don't really know how to convey to Mr. Baby
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that there's going to be another baby um I don't know how to explain that to him because I keep trying
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to be like I bought him a baby doll he's like I don't care about this I'm like there's a baby in there
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and he's just like I don't I see a belly button I don't know what else you're talking about so I would
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love to know if you guys have any tips and tricks for introducing the concept of another baby in the
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house and yeah I think that's where I'm going to stop for today I'm looking forward to sharing this
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journey with you guys please let me know what you'd like to hear more of I love talking about baby
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registry stuff I love talking about baby products I love talking about maternity fashion oh it's a good
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one I have a lot to share so let me know your thoughts in the comments below and I'll see you guys