00:03:41.980with the ministry for about a year and a half.
00:03:44.440And my wife and I moved here from Texas
00:03:47.940and have five beautiful kids. You're the guy behind the camera.
00:03:55.940I'm the guy that is normally not seen and is just sticking behind the camera. So that's my
00:04:02.260usual bread and butter. And you have also been chronically ill.
00:04:06.080Yeah. Yep. So I've been diagnosed with celiac and Crohn's and have suffered with
00:04:13.660migraine headaches for almost, yeah, 20, 22 years now at this point. So
00:04:20.520dealing with chronic illness has been a long journey. I would say more
00:04:27.940than the last 10 years, but really specifically the last 10 years with the celiac and Crohn's.
00:04:36.860So it's been an ongoing thing for my family. And you're mostly well.
00:04:41.200Mostly well. We are essentially all but healed from all of the major symptoms that come with
00:04:50.200Crohn's and celiac disease. So by God's grace, we're able to do that through diet exercise
00:04:57.100and not having to rely on medications for very long. So that's been a real blessing for our
00:05:05.260family and uh the lord used it to to grow us in our our faith and walk with him yeah amen so um
00:05:15.100we're basically breaking down this episode in a couple parts talking about suffering uh sovereignty
00:05:22.380yeah uh and i wish you can come up with a bunch of s's for the rest of them but it was just
00:05:27.560contentment and joy yeah uh in the face of this kind of suffering so um yeah let's let's just
00:05:33.960start it off sure and uh have this discussion absolutely yeah so our first question this week
00:05:40.100is what is suffering so yeah and i want to say this last like this podcast isn't coming out
00:05:48.180the week after the first one why because i was suffering last week extensively and kind of
00:05:57.380honestly into this week a bit yeah and so we couldn't even record last week because
00:06:01.820my kidneys were hurting so bad that I was out for the vast majority of the week.
00:06:08.260And I'm recording late this week because of the same issues.
00:06:13.760Yeah. Yesterday I was in bed probably half the day. I'm adjusting to the new altitude.
00:06:20.700My body's releasing more toxins at a higher elevation. I know that might sound like tinfoil
00:06:26.920hat to somebody but when it's currently raining outside which makes it more humid and more humid
00:06:32.220and there's moldy stuff that's going on in here it's also like a million degrees in here and so
00:06:37.180we are i'm not kidding it's probably like we usually have a temperature gauge around us but
00:06:41.340like it's probably 89 degrees in here yeah and like 30 to 40 humidity yeah so we're making it
00:06:49.940guys um okay so the question is yeah what is suffering so uh you know essentially the
00:06:56.060Suffering is the effects of the fall on the constitution of man, the faculties of man from your, you know, your body to your mind, to your emotions, to your circumstances.
00:07:05.940And it can manifest itself in a variety of ways, right?
00:07:08.200So sickness and death and tragedy and heartbreak, sorrow, depression, loss, pain.
00:07:14.040And I would even say it can also manifest itself in discipline.
00:07:16.640I think we saw that in Samuel Rutherford's quote.
00:07:19.680It says, whether God comes with a rod or a crown, he comes with himself.
00:07:23.980And so the Lord might be, you know, disciplining you in this particular moment.
00:07:31.060And to think that God can't use suffering as a means to discipline his children would be naive.
00:07:38.800So we'll talk a little bit about that.
00:07:41.260Job 14.1 says, man who is born of woman is few of days and full of trouble.
00:07:48.600And so I think that we've seen in our, you know, I don't care how old you are, if you're old enough to be listening to this show, you've had some form of suffering at some degree, but why do we need to have a theology of suffering?
00:08:05.120and you know why now my experience is that i wish that i had more of my theological understanding of
00:08:15.160suffering in scripture before i entered into suffering because i spent a lot of time
00:08:20.600really trying to take god off trial is this god's fault is is the enemy causing these things to
00:08:29.220happened to me and God couldn't stop him? What's the purpose of the trial? Why sickness? Why sin?
00:08:37.600These are big questions that you want to have answers for before a tragedy strikes or a child
00:08:43.120dies. I kind of liken those moments to my Job moment where you are just lamenting so much to
00:08:53.780the point to where you're you're questioning your own existence yeah or you know is the gospel true
00:09:00.000your your doubts or questions or whatever might come in you know i remember hearing a story about
00:09:05.160john mccarthur i might have shared this last time but you know his wife got in a really terrible car
00:09:08.880car accident broke her neck yeah and he walks into the um to the hospital and his son who's you know
00:09:17.880an adult man says there's been a terrible accident and mccarthur's quick response was there is no
00:09:23.320accidents right you know pray for the pray for the grace of god yeah um and what that tells me
00:09:29.460is that obviously macarthur had a theology of suffering prior to the tragedy and so it's
00:09:34.880important for us to have that kind of suffering or that kind of theology so that it really can
00:09:41.200the word of god can carry us yeah uh instead of our emotions amen carrying us because it's hard
00:09:47.560I mean, I wept this week. This last week, I was sincerely frustrated with the up and down nature
00:09:57.400of being chronically ill. You are just constantly feeling like one step forward, two steps back.
00:10:06.400And when you have a problem like your kidneys, it's like a major organ, right? So you're just
00:10:11.840like, okay, like, is this going to be my new normal? Are my kidneys dying? Like, am I having
00:10:17.980kidney failure? You know, like you start having crazy thoughts about, you know, transplants and
00:10:25.440whatever else, right? You just start thinking to these things because your mind can race and you
00:10:30.220have to come back to the cross. You have to come back to the truth of scripture. Now for the lost,
00:10:38.260It is essentially, this is a little piece of what you will experience eternally if you don't turn from your sins and trust in the righteousness of Christ alone.
00:19:11.980there's not another world where he would have received more glory. If there was,
00:19:17.160he would have created that world. Now, we often go, why did God create this world with pain and
00:19:25.760suffering and sin? And the answer is that God created a world with pain and suffering and sin
00:19:30.560because he saw that he would get the most glory in a world that had pain and suffering and sin.
00:19:35.780Now, the new heavens and the new earth, the second part of that story, I think will be a magnified sense of glory. But God doesn't do something like at 80%. This is the best plan. There was not a better version of history that included you not being well.
00:19:59.900right exactly or you you being well and not being sick yeah right like whatever the circumstances
00:20:05.920are god has written the story now again i know we're trying to struggle with man's sovereignty
00:20:12.920or man's responsibility and god's sovereignty right this is the one of the great mysteries
00:20:17.300of scripture is how does the sovereignty of god and the responsibility of man intersect yeah and
00:20:23.540Which is still, there's a vast amount of mystery to that because God is sovereign and yet we still have a will, but we know that our will is never actually free.
00:20:36.320Yeah, it's either enslaved to sin or enslaved to Christ.
00:20:42.360We're not being manipulated to move in a certain way, but God is orchestrating the events of the world in a way that operates to every minute detail.
00:20:53.180I always remind people like the design of the line of ants in the middle of the desert where nobody sees them has been designed by God to operate that way and that shape.
00:23:58.940His will was to be slaughtered on that cross.
00:24:01.220But then it also says, Peter says in this verse in Acts, you, I could see him just like pointing out to them, you crucified and killed by the hands of lawless men, right?
00:24:12.460So we have to realize that God is meticulously involved in all of the things in the world.
00:24:22.480It doesn't mean that we can again just rest back and go, I'm not going to do anything because God is sovereign over all things.
00:24:27.220because he still calls us to also behave properly and to stand for truth and to take care of
00:24:32.600ourselves and, and to, you know, uh, you know, I think about even just kind of the old ceremonial
00:24:39.040law. A lot of it was, it was health related. I mean, I think it was keeping his people alive by
00:24:44.700don't touch dead bodies without washing your hands, you know, um, don't eat certain things
00:24:49.160because, you know, you know, the certain, we found out that some of those things that people
00:24:53.920were eating were not good for you to be eating. There's a lot of sexual transmitted realities and
00:25:01.200stuff that was going on before the cleanliness routines that we have today around circumcision
00:25:08.420and some of those things that are happening at that time that was maybe keeping them and their
00:25:13.480line, their seed going more. So there's not just spiritual realities, but health benefits. And then
00:25:20.280Again, I'm not the self-love guy, but God actually cares about your body. I talked about this on
00:25:26.300Sunday when I was preaching, is that God doesn't just redeem your soul, but he actually redeems
00:25:32.980your body physically. And so 1 Corinthians 6 says that God bought you with a price, therefore glorify
00:25:42.380God in your body and soul, which are God's. And so God owns your body, so therefore you have to
00:25:48.220care for it i mean again um i think there's a scripture what it say uh says uh you know love
00:25:53.920your neighbor as you love yourself people are like see i don't love myself so i can't love my
00:25:57.740neighbor and it's like no you do love yourself yeah it's why you put a jacket on when you're cold
00:26:02.880and it's why you don't touch the hot stove because it hurts and it's why you give yourself
00:26:07.860food when you're hungry you already love yourself right love people like you love yourself which is
00:26:13.260think about their needs. Now, at the end of the day, also, we can get so incredibly
00:26:19.080irresponsibly busy. And this is what our generation is full of, right? We have a whole
00:26:27.460bunch of workaholics that are fat and dying, overweight, drinking themselves to death,1.00
00:26:34.680taking pharmaceuticals, eating terrible food. We're one of the first generations that have,0.98
00:26:39.280from birth essentially relied on fast food, frozen meals, all of these conveniences
00:26:47.800that ultimately, given the amount of unedible things put into them, have essentially made
00:26:59.140our generation and the following generation after us chronically ill, where we did not
00:27:06.800have the foundation that was set in place for the generations before us.
00:27:13.400I mean, literally every generation, like say 1900 and back, had organic food.
00:27:18.640Yeah. It didn't need to be classified.
00:27:21.200All food was organic, right? And they all had cleaner air because this is before the
00:27:28.880industrial revolution. They all had natural springs. Obviously, there was still problems
00:27:35.160in the world but what i'm saying is that we we certainly have got the short end of the stick as
00:27:39.560it pertains to like again all of their clothing was organic right you know they they weren't
00:27:45.800wearing there's this new book i said i think on the first episode it's called like to die for
00:27:49.640dye and it's about the idea of dyes and our food and our clothing and how it's certainly causing
00:27:58.680you know problems that didn't have plastic you know like they're we are living in a generation0.85
00:28:03.960where for the first time in a long time, the millennials are actually going to die earlier
00:28:12.180than boomers did. So we're starting to see that shift. And so many people are sick and suffering
00:28:18.300at this point. So there is wisdom in the sense of like, you should care for your body in the
00:28:25.480sense that we live in a pretty toxic world right now that is aiming to insert some sort0.58
00:28:33.820of nasty garbage into your body at every given point.
00:28:39.000I mean, we have like, you know, again, being chronically ill, you have to have all these
00:28:41.980things, but we have, you know, air purifiers and we have Berkey water filters and we have,
00:29:05.560Yeah. I'd love to go buy meat at Safeway.
00:29:08.580Yeah. Just go get a like McDonald's quick chicken nugget meal or something.
00:29:15.000Yeah. There's just a price to pay that we're all paying right now.
00:29:17.820And so anyways, God is sovereign over all of this and we get to be responsible for our actions, but we also get to realize that he's in control. It's not Satan attacking you and God's with his hands tied behind his back going, oh man, I wish I could help him.
00:29:36.840right um it's not pray hard enough uh that you know maybe if i have enough faith then god will
00:29:44.040let these trials go right no no it's that lord give me the strength in these trials walk with
00:29:51.960me through walk with me through it to persevere um take them from me if it is your will yep um
00:29:59.160I submit to these trials, accomplish in me what you need to accomplish quickly.