JustPearlyThings - December 29, 2022


Brittany Renner Confesses this...


Episode Stats

Length

9 minutes

Words per Minute

209.41168

Word Count

2,093

Sentence Count

4

Misogynist Sentences

3

Hate Speech Sentences

15


Summary


Transcript

00:00:00.000 matter what i want because i'm asking him this is what our bills are this is how much it would be
00:00:04.720 very reasonable number based on again you can't lie in the financial affidavit it's like they
00:00:10.000 subpoena everything so that's where there's full transparency it's not like you can get a chanel
00:00:15.360 bag with this child support this is literally to cover your child's needs this is not alimony
00:00:21.120 people get confused like a hundred thousand dollars for a kid like that's it depends on their
00:00:25.520 lifestyle i'm saying like this is like this is why the men like see these laws as unfair and this
00:00:31.840 is this is why they don't see this as fair because i hear 2500 a month and i i personally think and
00:00:38.000 this is i grew up in a one percent family okay like this is i i had the life like sort of we were like
00:00:44.000 kind of like rich people that like dressed poor you know what i mean but but it's like like i i hear
00:00:50.320 2500 a month i'm like that's plenty for a kid and i'm not i'm not trying to no that's fine i don't
00:00:56.160 think it's gonna like like damage a kid if they once in a lamborghini once in a honda civic but i'm
00:01:01.360 telling you that's up to judge that's up to the judge and that's up to law and again so if you're
00:01:05.920 if you are in it like i said it's like greater than equal to so if you're using a 1.6 million dollar
00:01:11.200 house a 500 000 house 400 000 house makes sense like i'm not saying you have to be 1.6 million like
00:01:17.120 that's not what it is so like i said people are allowed to feel that way i would love if people
00:01:22.080 were just out of the business in general the court system and there was something that could be worked
00:01:26.800 out but just between families like that's it but that's again that's a fucking ideal world that we
00:01:32.000 don't fucking live in well and and the feedback i've gotten from men is a lot of times like we would
00:01:36.640 get more if we didn't drag their ass in court and like this this is the feedback like if you just give
00:01:42.640 them time start like a lot of times you get more than you think you would have because most most men
00:01:48.640 want like that i know want to take care of their kids but it's just like when when a woman because
00:01:53.760 in their head and to them it's like you're dragging me to court you're doing all this you're asking me
00:01:57.680 for all this money and it's like in their head they're like well fuck like fuck you no well and to
00:02:03.120 also yeah um where that point is not relevant to me is because he served me i didn't take this to
00:02:10.720 court he wasn't paying me child support i had to get a lawyer to figure out what to do next but he
00:02:16.320 served me first people don't know that so i got a paper in the letter in the mail and said this is
00:02:21.280 all about to do he's taking you to court yes okay i don't serve to you so it just means he serves you
00:02:26.640 with papers so it's not like so for you saying oh well you know if you didn't take him to court maybe
00:02:30.960 he would well he's taking me to court so again i hear you and maybe for majority situations that's
00:02:37.920 what it is but i was served so then i had to retain a lawyer and like i said all i did was got a
00:02:43.360 consultation just trying to figure out he's not paying anything in child support what do i do and
00:02:48.480 then i got served so i had a retainer so that's why i'm saying my situation is like i get it it's
00:02:53.680 just not uh the typical like yeah maybe if i was just a little more this way he would give me that no
00:02:58.800 he served me i can't really i can't go i have to just defend myself that's it so that's where we're at
00:03:05.440 like again hearts don't break even people have their own motives and their own reasoning to do
00:03:09.520 whatever they do i i never wanted the internet in our business but when you tweet you was faking
00:03:14.640 it all along and putting people in the mix and playing up a narrative you know people think about
00:03:18.080 me oh you feel like you so you feel like he started it on the internet when we broke up yes okay okay
00:03:23.360 tell me tell me about that because well when we broke what i think of i like you're a social media
00:03:27.600 influencer i just assumed you were first no but that's why i'm saying nobody really looks at
00:03:32.800 the facts and really what unfolded so when we broke up he had tweeted you were faking it all
00:03:37.760 along and he said that they were lyrics from a song but thousands he got thousands of retweets
00:03:44.000 and then i became the big bad gold digging whore who just used him and had a baby and bounced on him
00:03:49.600 and then i became this pedophile psycho that is just vindictive and he started it you put the internet
00:03:58.000 in our business i literally just had a baby my stitches in my vagina were just healing
00:04:03.200 why would i want to go to the internet and have it be some spectacle for everybody to see
00:04:08.640 that we broke up why would i want that like after all the stuff i've learned even then that doesn't
00:04:14.640 even make it's not logical and now we have a child my child has his name so what do i gain from going
00:04:21.200 back and forth my baby daddy my son has his name so why would i want to make him look stupid and have
00:04:28.400 people in our ship so what did you do after the tweet did you come and like defend yourself or what
00:04:32.960 no and that's because i was silent because literally oh and that's when all the videos came out yes so
00:04:39.440 that's what happened because when all like i'm telling you i have been through some different things
00:04:45.360 giving birth how i felt after i don't know it was just like a crash like hormonally i don't
00:04:54.240 i was going through all this stuff and you just feel like for me i just felt like i was like
00:04:58.800 he just wanted to die right and when he said that i was like delete the tweet you know like he ended up
00:05:07.360 deleting it but the damage already been done all the blogs picked it up all these stories started
00:05:10.880 circulating and i did not tell my story because quite frankly nobody gives a fuck nobody cares that
00:05:19.760 i was cheated on nobody cares what i went through when i was pregnant nobody fucking cares so what do
00:05:26.960 i look like going on live crying about my baby daddy about a decision i made ultimately right this is why
00:05:32.800 i picked to be my child's father i don't need your fucking sympathy and i don't need your
00:05:37.200 fucking empathy you're not going to understand even if i even just at this interview right here
00:05:40.720 people may have a better idea but you're still going to think what you want to think about me
00:05:45.600 so i for months i was silent but you know what i did i leaned into being a villain okay well you
00:05:51.920 guys think i'm a piece of shit you think i'm a monster well i'm going to show you what a monster
00:05:56.080 really is so then i'm on jackson state's campus taking selfies hide your sons because you guys
00:06:02.320 were already saying that in my comments so instead of crying that's kind of funny no it was funny
00:06:07.600 it was it was hilarious i loved it you know so i'm like let me just laugh at my pain just like with
00:06:14.240 you like when people say mean stuff about you okay this is what it is this is how i feel you're not
00:06:19.760 going to use this and hurt me and that is probably something like so you're almost like sometimes you're
00:06:26.480 you're trolling the comments oh yeah absolutely but people don't know my personality people think you're
00:06:32.320 being serious because they don't because they don't know my humor they don't know my personality
00:06:36.640 they don't actually even know how i cope and i have been on social media since july of 2012.
00:06:43.360 i have seen instagram in its many phases before there was even videos on there right
00:06:49.040 i don't know another way because if you read and you obsess about it you're crying in the car
00:06:56.320 right it's i feel like kind of a guinea pig because i'm one of like the original instagram
00:07:02.720 girls right so i just feel like i don't like to explain myself to strangers now me and you are
00:07:08.800 talking where i want you to understand you're asking me questions i'm telling you the truth right
00:07:13.360 but to a bunch of strangers who have no desire to listen to me as you are i'm not explaining myself
00:07:18.240 go hide your son i don't care you already think i'm this anyways i can't convince you otherwise and
00:07:22.800 again i'm not jehovah's witness i don't convert people you ain't a believer i ain't here to convert
00:07:26.800 you so yeah a lot of it is like my personality people don't really know how i am now now moving
00:07:31.680 forward i don't really like to troll as much because i realize how damaging being something i'm not a
00:07:38.960 villain how damaging it has been because that's not my truth like you've seen me i'm really just a
00:07:44.000 little sweetie pie that's just kind of how i am i don't like people to see me vulnerable and nice and
00:07:48.400 she's actually likable because i would at one point i would have rathered people fear me think
00:07:55.200 i'm a succubus evil whore because i i didn't want people to see this mushy part because it's disgusting
00:08:01.760 right and that's why i've always judged that part but i've told myself i'm going to authentically be
00:08:05.520 myself if it's not as exciting as being a villain right if i don't get as many clicks if i don't get
00:08:11.440 any more followers moving forward today at least i can say i'm being myself because all that
00:08:16.560 shit show that wasn't me being myself that was me playing into a character that is like
00:08:20.400 not even a fraction like five percent of who i am what do you think about the phrase life is about
00:08:25.680 choices and trade-offs i agree i mean i love kevin samuels i feel like that was definitely a message
00:08:31.280 like that he would preach a lot and it's true what was it like meeting kevin
00:08:37.440 and he's much taller in person and did you take any of his advice second part
00:08:47.120 i felt like i started to think about my life and what i wanted to do moving forward
00:08:52.800 which kind of i don't say it's scary i don't want to judge it but like
00:08:57.840 he talked about a lot of uncomfortable truth about the perception of men and like family structure and
00:09:03.360 my situation and um it was a lot of difficult truths that were really hard to hear and i feel
00:09:09.200 like i started thinking more of a having more of a business mentality after i spoke to kevin and i
00:09:14.720 think he's was very kind i listened to him a lot when i was pregnant and i felt like his message often
00:09:19.920 went missed because they would sensationalize um him being hard on women i've heard him be hard on men
00:09:26.640 i've heard both you know but the internet's gonna run with what's the most viral but no i i loved meeting
00:09:32.320 him he was a fellow pisces like myself he's very charming he's very funny very open-minded but he
00:09:38.720 he was tough he was just like tough love so yeah i miss him you know as many of you know i was just
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