Modern Women Love Toxic Men
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Summary
In this episode, we talk about toxic men and how to deal with them in our lives. We talk about our experience with toxic guys and how we dealt with them. We also talk about how toxic men have impacted our lives and the impact they have had on us.
Transcript
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some lovely guys and then some not so i the others i think they were just young
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i don't think they're bad people i don't even think this last one is a bad person i just think
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he's not you don't think he's a bad person he has i do he has i'd meet i don't know he committed
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identity do you know with his mom premeditated and it made you move to australia for six weeks
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and to use you i'm gonna be friends with his ex sorry i don't know if he's bad or he's just
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unwell you know i know he had borderline personality disorder i know when i got with him he was
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severely anorexic he had a lot of demons that i tried to help him with and equally i'm not gonna
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lie he helped me with mine so i'm so that's why i don't know if he's bad or if he was just
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did you know there was demons like early on when we were friends no no but when you started dating
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him you kind of saw a couple red flags early on oh yeah when it started interfering with my work
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so i'm assuming that like you had have guy friends that i'm sure would date you right
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yeah come on yeah i mean she's a pretty girl yeah yeah so so so what made you go with like the toxic
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guy over the nice guy it was exciting what it was exciting do you know what i would be so honest about
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this i appreciate the honesty and um i think this is where my growth period happened i before him
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i always wanted to be that girl that could be taken care of be driven around in a nice car
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taken out to nice meals bought nice bags nice jewelry because i never you know i never had a
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guy that did that until my ex he bought me he did all of that for me and until i found myself sitting
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in that benz with the heated seats i was like i'm really unhappy because this man does not love
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himself enough to be with me he doesn't know who he is he's unhappy he takes it out on me because
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he's not secure within himself and now i drive around in my little toyota yaris and i'm just like
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you know what this is all i need i'm happy now i'm good um i can't remember your question so so so you
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you almost put up with more because he was rich i think it was more i think at the beginning that
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enticed me but it wasn't that i actually loved him 100 percent i loved him you didn't love him
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i did love him you just you just said it was because of like the cars and it enticed me yeah
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it enticed me but he didn't he didn't maintain me i financed myself he tried to buy me a car i said no
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tried to invest in my business i said no he tried to buy me a phone i said no because i even back then
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i was aware that if we break up you're going to turn around and say give me that back now
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i don't want to ever be in that position so no he you know it enticed me that he could take care
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of himself he had all these things it inspired me i'm not a gold digger otherwise i would have
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accepted all those things he offered me it was more i was inspired by his lifestyle i wanted that
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for myself that's what inspired by his life what does that mean he could drive that car he owned that
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car he's younger than me i'm like wow i want that okay so i just it just i'm just confused because it
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kind of it kind of is like you're saying the same thing okay okay you just wanted like the hey
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hey life really yeah i mean i'm not faulting you for it no you're fine yeah it's cool okay um
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so what about you guys have you guys ever dated a toxic guy anyone raise your hand raise your hand
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kind of yeah i mean the thing is though when i look back on it i'm like was it really toxic
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or did i just not know myself was i just not secure in myself um and i think also the word
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toxic is thrown around so much and you know sometimes when you're talking with your friends
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and they're just like oh that's so toxic but looking back i'm thinking we were both young he was just
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doing him and i was just so like you know i i know i won't say it was toxic maybe on my behalf
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i had an unhealthy attachment but i i looking back on it i wouldn't say he was toxic okay so you don't
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think he was toxic okay and what about you mine was a hundred thousand percent toxic i just came to
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the realization as i was saying that out loud that he wasn't toxic i was just like toxic not that i don't
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know um yeah a million percent i think maybe in my i was the opposite in my head i was trying to make it
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seem like he wasn't um and i would always defend him like i'd be out here defending him to everyone
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my parents like my whole family my friends even to him like his family his friends i'm like no this
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is the guy for me even to myself like become so deluded because i was so in love but i feel like
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again this love bombing phase in the beginning like maybe i grew attached and fell in love with someone
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that doesn't actually exist um but yeah it was just the the the regular things of just being unfaithful
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maybe he just couldn't commit and he wasn't the guy for me but for someone else it may not be deemed
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toxic but for me when i'm with someone i'm very tunnel vision so if they're not the same like what
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what type of toxic things did he do there was a few there was just loads of messages he would just go
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hot and cold like days weeks no communication i was with him so you're dating him and he didn't talk
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to you for weeks yeah he would just disappear and be like oh i just don't want to talk or he'd send
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little messages like i just don't want to talk and i'll be like okay when when people go through
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things i'm someone that i give you space i'm not needy i don't need to be talking to you 24 7 you
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have your space but then it become a regular thing and i was like either there's something wrong with
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you or there's something up here um and i'm a big communicator so if you can't talk to me about stuff
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fine whatever but i will try and try and try but you know in the end i won't bug you um i found condom
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wrappers just chilling and i was doing the laundry you know being and they've been that good housewife
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and yeah no it was just a lot and i'd say it was quite damaging but at the same time you learn from
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it you learn what you don't want and how old were you guys when you dated the toxic guy only recently
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so in 19 20 21. oh so you're you're 21 when you dated him okay that was only like eight months ago okay
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and then how many how many years were you guys with him so he gave us solidly about a year and a bit
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and then on and off i'd say two and a half years two and a half years a year and a bit a year and a
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bit but we were friends for like really close friends for two years before that so okay and i'm curious
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did you guys ever you said you caught him cheating yes yeah not in the act but yeah yeah you caught him
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cheating i don't think he ever cheated on me but then i don't know at the same time anymore
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there's so much that i just didn't know i don't want to get into that okay no no worries um when
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you caught him cheating did you stay or did you leave i left okay but went back shortly after
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i left the house and then went back and forth and back and forth but yeah it's not a good cycle to be
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in 100 percent okay would um any of you guys be open to dating a guy um that it's closed on your end but
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open on his or he would sleep with other girls no no no no ew not that i know about it but you might
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you might it depends it depends yeah okay what about you no no um so i'm gonna tweak it a little bit okay
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um so for me um it's dating to marriage and it's not really dating is in a sense of how
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you guys would see it it would be we want to get married he'd be talking to my mom my dad my brothers
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getting to know me with my male family members involved um so i wouldn't uh sorry i forgot the
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question i was just asking if you would ever be open to dating a guy where he's able to cheat but you're
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not basically um so we would be married and if he wanted another wife where i am now um with the
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mindset that i have now um i wouldn't mind if he had another wife but this is not another wife this
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is being unfaithful but that but i i'm not i don't date men yeah so that's why i said the tweaking
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i don't like i don't have a boyfriend and i won't have a boyfriend because i'm a muslim woman we don't
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oh you know that's yeah that's strictly forbidden um so would you be okay with your husband sleeping
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around with loads of different women then i guess that's the tweet not necessarily having one wife
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it would be sleeping with those of other women no she said she she said she'd be all right
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but no she said that what she'd be happy with her husband having another wife yeah yeah not a side piece