JustPearlyThings - Only Fans Model Makes This Confession Live On Air

00:00:00.000 and i feel like you there's a lot of times where how much give me a number a lot so i've been

00:00:07.520 single for quite a while now and i feel like i'm looking after myself all the time it gets to a

00:00:11.680 point you get fed up with that and you actually just want a nice masculine man to take care of

00:00:16.640 you and put you in these arms i like that and everyone's different but that's what i like

00:00:21.120 give me a number how much does he have to make how much as long as i've got a nice house i've got a

00:00:27.360 nice car what does what does a nice house go for in london oh i wouldn't live in england anyway

00:00:33.280 i'd live abroad definitely so you're looking for a man in another country no that would want to move

00:00:38.560 so hopefully he's got his businesses all settled and we can go what makes you think that guy will

00:00:44.240 choose you yeah you know what i might never get a rich man in my life but that's what i like so

00:00:50.320 hopefully it get there but okay you might never get that are you taking steps to get there at the

00:00:56.000 moment i'm healing on myself i've got a lot of issues i need to sort out before i can never get

00:00:59.840 a partner okay and that's how are you healing them therapy oh yeah i think therapy makes you

00:01:06.160 crazier no you know what i think all the women i know that go to therapy get worse yeah and i can 1.00

00:01:11.360 actually agree with that but the only reason i'm getting this therapy because it's free at the moment

00:01:15.520 and i do actually need some sort of help is it a male or a female it's a female i'm gonna just you 0.99

00:01:21.520 should go to a male therapist really yeah women shouldn't be therapists it's just my opinion i'm 1.00

00:01:26.560 in i'm in the psychology program at the school i promise you these women that are giving you 0.51

00:01:30.720 they're horrible yeah horrible they're insane men look to solve problems so a guy's gonna tell you if

00:01:36.400 i have this problem let's say you solve it women are just gonna say oh it's okay tell me about your 0.98

00:01:41.600 trauma but i've also have had uh men therapists that have made me feel really uncomfortable and flirted with

00:01:48.320 me and that didn't solve any of my problems well i felt uncomfortable at my therapy session so to me

00:01:53.520 i'll feel more comfortable with a woman i have a more nurture how do you flirt just making comments

00:01:58.880 what's your social media and things like that you know making me feel uncomfortable because everyone

00:02:04.000 he knew that i'm a sa uh no sw and sws i'm allowed to say that right w yeah does do you think that helps

00:02:13.120 or hurts with your mental health it hurts it so so much okay i'll be so real what can you why do you

00:02:18.800 keep doing it then because at that moment i'm in like a bit of a loophole where it's a bit hard to

00:02:24.480 come out of it where i'm just used to money being thrown at me i'm scared to go back into a normal job

00:02:31.200 routine how how much in savings do you have savings um do i really have to answer that do you have more

00:02:38.640 than like okay what do you what do you roughly make a year yeah i'd say maybe not on of but

00:02:44.720 altogether maybe i'd say about 50k 50k yeah for that's sex work yeah you think you're worth 50k a

00:02:53.520 year no but i don't work a lot though with it i do you know i don't overdo it because when i was a

00:02:59.760 bit younger i overworked and that's when i was in a really bad place i overdid it so i've taken a bit

00:03:05.440 of a step back i don't even do my only of only fans anymore um i more do like dominatrix and come

00:03:12.560 in and that just keeps me steady for now yeah well i'm just thinking if you want to get out oh no of

00:03:17.920 course of course right so like like it might help to get some savings so then you yeah no i've got

00:03:23.040 i've got savings i've got same don't get me wrong i've got savings but also i've gotten a lot of debt

00:03:27.120 as well and i also had to go for a court case so i'm spending money on solicitors you know things

00:03:32.000 happen in life life's one big journey and i feel like everyone's journey is different some people

00:03:36.160 have a really good life and some people don't have a good life wait so what made you get into that

00:03:41.200 well um the sex work sort of thing um i used to work in a care home and i was actually very

00:03:46.800 like depressed very low and i wasn't making a lot of money and i had my ex-boyfriend at the time that

00:03:51.680 used to he used to really make me feel low you know and even like we'd go out for meals and he'd say

00:03:56.800 have you got the 10 pound from the meal he used to always make me split and i used to think to myself

00:04:01.120 like like i care for you i love you i treat you try and treat you well and he never gave me that back

00:04:06.960 and then i worked in the care home and i was sitting there one day and i thought i can't

00:04:10.720 do this anymore like my mind don't even want to help like help um and then i was sitting there and

00:04:18.080 speaking to one of the old guys that used to look after in the care home and i told him my whole plan

00:04:22.320 about starting the only fans you know and he sat there and he said to me do it why are you not doing

00:04:26.960 it you're going to be old like me one day sitting in a chair you're going to like die basically one

00:04:31.120 day just do it and i probably just wanted to subscribe you know what but he didn't make it

00:04:36.080 till that time because he passed away a few months after but i started it and um how old were you i was

00:04:42.880 19. so you're 19 you're working to care home sorry it gets hot it gets very hot it's the uk question how

00:04:50.240 many years did you run your only fans um probably about a year and a half and i stopped yeah so i

00:04:58.880 was working in the care home and then i started it and i knew that if i started the oaf my ex would

00:05:03.520 leave me alone because he hated things like that and i knew that he'd really leave me alone because

00:05:07.200 we were so toxic together and then i was i was in work i checked my phone i think i made maybe like 2k

00:05:13.920 in that day and to me that's a lot i haven't come from a big family haven't come from

00:05:17.840 um a stable family at all i think 2k in a day is a lot and for me it was because i was getting 400

00:05:23.040 pound a week from the care home and i was working 12 hour shifts and five days a week so to me that

00:05:27.840 was amazing and how old did you say you are now i'm 22 now okay so you've been doing it for like

00:05:32.480 three years yeah and then um i said to my manager i i need to leave work like i don't really want to

00:05:37.920 be here and i told him my situation with the only fan she said to me just go so i went and i just never

00:05:43.520 looked back so why did you pick that route instead of like i don't know marrying

00:05:47.520 rich you know what it was you're a pretty girl you were 19 thank you you were with the guy for

00:05:51.680 three years so you couldn't have been i mean what you probably weren't street in that much

00:05:57.200 if you're with a guy for three years were you maybe you were okay yeah i was a mess i was a mess i

00:06:03.120 had no control over my emotions i felt like i didn't even know who i was right i feel like when you're in

00:06:08.000 a young relationship you don't know who you are as a person at that point you grow to learn who you are

00:06:14.080 why ruin your own life you could have got married ruin someone else's too i don't want to get married

00:06:17.760 i'm against marriage i don't ever want to get married thank you it wasn't offering i was just

00:06:21.840 asking yeah no but i don't like marriage i just think it's like no not everyone wants to get married

00:06:25.520 and not everyone wants children i know i just i just think it's like a shame because there's way to

00:06:28.960 utilize female beauty in a different way and still get the outcomes that you want you know what 1.00

00:06:33.520 i mean like now now you're in a position where it's going to be tough to ever be with a guy long

00:06:37.280 term yeah but maybe i don't want to be with a guy long term maybe i want to live with three cats at my

00:06:42.240 home with all my cactuses what do you want your life to look like it's 65 i'll probably be dead by

00:06:47.040 then so i don't know i don't think that far ahead because life yeah it's just you really should i

00:06:55.280 don't plan that hard i live in the moment yeah it probably will but if it does it does i don't really

00:07:00.640 care yeah you do no i don't i think you feel a bit under no i don't say that now but yeah then life

00:07:07.680 hits you and maybe it will hit me but it's not hit me up and i'm here i'm healthy you know i'm

00:07:14.960 living got good family members and you're still like you still get it like i don't think women 1.00

00:07:19.440 like we realize how much we like need attention from men yeah like we need like we need i agree

00:07:24.400 with that and so like right now you're still young you're still attractive you're still going to get

00:07:28.000 attention from men but like at 40 to 50 women become basically invisible yeah i know that does scare me

00:07:34.720 actually i thought about that and so and so if you don't if you don't get a husband before then

00:07:38.880 like what does life look like your your parents will pass away at some point your your siblings

00:07:44.080 will have their own families like if you don't start thinking long term like what what does your

00:07:47.600 life look like and i don't say this to be mean no no no it's a good question you're in the position

00:07:52.800 you're in already you can't do anything to like yeah yeah to change it yeah but it's like

00:07:57.760 you know if you want to be in a position where you're happier like wouldn't it make sense to maybe

00:08:01.920 start put that away maybe but um i don't know i feel like there's so much in my life i'm trying

00:08:09.360 to sort out first like my mental health and my family issues and a lot of my childhood trauma that

00:08:14.320 i still have to deal with daily so i'm trying to sort that out first because i feel like i can't

00:08:18.080 think straight at the moment my head it's just like one big tornado so so trauma like what do you

00:08:23.280 mean you need to go through like because i never understand when people say childhood trauma like

00:08:27.760 so when i was younger i was essayed and um it was my mom's boyfriend so like that was quite intense

00:08:35.280 you know oh i'm not getting upset it's just a bit you know um yeah so how long have you been going to

00:08:41.840 therapy for it um i was going when i was 16 for a year and then i stopped before i didn't need it anymore

00:08:49.440 and then i've only been going for about five months now well because it's just the the the sad thing

00:08:56.560 about therapy is it just seems like they just kind of make money off of their patients instead of

00:09:01.120 like trying to get you guys out and i think a lot of times that's like women doing it i know i know 1.00

00:09:06.240 maybe you had the bad experience with the guy but it might make sense to try to find a different

00:09:10.480 yeah i guess so you know that just because like what what does your future look like you have to

00:09:14.640 figure out how to move on yeah yeah definitely yeah okay and sometimes there are things that you

00:09:21.120 can't actually get over so looking at it endlessly you it makes you live in the moment yeah i always

00:09:26.880 feel like i'm i wake up and i'm still living in the past still like my head just keeps living in the

00:09:31.760 past but you know and i've just found that if i focus more on the future you don't live as much in

00:09:36.400 the past yeah you know like right now you're not even thinking like long term yeah also if you had a

00:09:42.560 partner one that was good for you not just any old partner if you were focused on them yeah and they're

00:09:47.600 focused on you then you also wouldn't have to i feel like that is why i do hate my job because i

00:09:51.920 don't glamorize sex work at all i think don't start it it does ruin your life it ruins your mentality and

00:09:57.360 it ruins how you view men and how men should view you so yeah i if i could sit here and regret doing

00:10:04.800 sex work i probably would regret it only because the stuff i put on the internet as well because that's

00:10:09.760 not me that's just what i've done for money and you shouldn't have to do them things for money

00:10:14.480 to you know you're losing your not morals but it could have been private yeah it could have been

00:10:21.360 private and i feel like where i was a bit younger and i was getting too excited because of the money

00:10:25.760 i had no parents to guide me i kind of lost the control and now i'm in this situation

00:10:32.880 but um yeah i'm just thinking there's like steps you could take to get out of it because you know it's

00:10:38.640 like you can you're able to make savings put it away yeah yeah learn like a skit because i'm just

00:10:43.360 thinking like you're you're a pretty girl there's ways to monetize your beauty in a different way

00:10:47.680 yeah start a youtube channel yeah reactions yeah right you could do you could do um sales yeah i

00:10:54.000 don't what would sales people hundred percent sex work uh sex workers it's what's interesting to me 0.62

00:10:59.520 and this is actually something like i said when i was dating a gal that turned out to be a stripper

00:11:03.680 and like a really popular one apparently um what really interested me in her psychology she was

00:11:09.520 probably the best person i've ever met at just reading men and just understand like i don't

00:11:14.320 believe that anybody really knows human nature like sex workers do that's so they really like

00:11:18.400 these girls learn that yeah she can look she can look at a guy and i guarantee it i've met you like 0.99

00:11:22.480 two minutes ago we've got a show it's like she can look at a guy and immediately know how much money 0.97

00:11:26.560 he has would he cheat on his wife and how quickly and like and she knows she would you know you don't

00:11:30.480 talk about right she's like yeah of course because the gal i was with she was like she would look at 1.00

00:11:33.920 guys she's like i'm like oh that guy's my friend he was married she's like oh he would

00:11:36.960 cheat on his wife and i'm like really she's and she would just know she's like i know the look i 0.99

00:11:39.760 know i know the feel i know the energy like they just understand that so yes it definitely is good

00:11:43.520 for sales but coming i know that you did not like sales and that's fine i loved sales i'll tell you

00:11:48.880 no no no i don't mind sales i hate selling copiers yes we had a guy in our we had a guy in our company

00:11:53.920 that's like one of our top sales people he used to sell copiers came to us he likes his life now but

00:11:57.520 there is something um to sales that i think is really really important tying into this um how you feel and

00:12:04.480 like all the emotional stuff i mean obviously like that's that's a battle you have to you have

00:12:08.480 to you have to fight that's a battle you have to win it is what it is everybody has some trauma not

00:12:14.560 at the same level you know we're different but everybody comes everybody's family is left up in

00:12:18.320 some way or another like it's just a fact we all are you know and one thing i'm really glad about like

00:12:22.800 when i was 20 years old and i felt like i was a victim of the world and i think a lot of people you

00:12:27.920 know at a young age feel like they're victims like no i'm not the best looking no i'm not the

00:12:31.280 smartest no i'm not this the that i don't have a big brother to teach me things before i was 20

00:12:36.560 the internet wasn't like a huge thing which is kind of crazy so we didn't have these podcasts to learn

00:12:40.800 about life which is why i appreciate what pearl does so much because you know we get to learn about life

00:12:46.160 i was really really lucky to to take a sales position where people probably cared about the

00:12:51.520 money i was making them more than they care about me but at least the steps that i needed to take to

00:12:56.320 build myself included a significant amount of discipline a significant amount of accountability

00:13:01.280 and being honest with myself because i didn't get paid if i didn't sell anything so so i was had to

00:13:05.520 be very brutally honest with myself and extremely disciplined but what really helped was getting

00:13:09.520 around another group of people around me that were disciplined and growing and they didn't resent

00:13:14.240 my success they celebrated my success and i celebrated their success and when i failed they

00:13:19.200 didn't crap on me they said hey you failed let's work together to make you better if you want to be better

00:13:24.160 you know and so one of the things actually we we do in our company is and i think tate and those guys

00:13:29.120 have the war room the war was i think that's brilliant i think just giving men men a place

00:13:34.240 to meet other ambitious successful or striving men that's better than school yeah and that's we need

00:13:39.280 that we do the same thing in our company like we bring guys in and we literally mold them and work

00:13:43.680 with them to make them more accountable to grow and do some guys resent it yes they leave and they

00:13:47.680 resent it because they don't like to be in an environment where they feel like they're not enough

00:13:51.760 but other guys flourish in that environment and as a man i'm talking from a man's perspective

00:13:56.400 you don't have like a woman can cry and still move into another man's life a couple years later men 1.00

00:14:00.800 don't have that option like we need to be building all the time and if you feel like you're a dude and

00:14:05.440 you're a little bit victimized it's time to step up and get around people that will help you grow

JustPearlyThings - August 14, 2023

Only Fans Model Makes This Confession Live On Air

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