JustPearlyThings - The BIPOLAR PERSONALITY Of a Modern Woman

00:00:00.000 so what did you do after the tweet did you come and like defend yourself or what no and that's

00:00:05.200 because i was silent because literally oh and that's when all the videos came out yes yeah so

00:00:10.160 that's what happened because when all like i'm telling you i have been through some different

00:00:15.680 things given birth how i felt after i don't know it was just like a crash like hormonally i don't

00:00:24.880 i was going through all this stuff and you just feel like for me i just felt like i was like

00:00:29.440 he just wanted to die right and when he said that i was like delete the tweet you know like

00:00:37.680 he ended up deleting but the damage already been done all the blocks picked it up all these stories 0.98

00:00:41.280 started circulating and i did not tell my story because quite frankly nobody gives a fuck nobody 0.85

00:00:50.000 cares that i was cheated on nobody cares what i went through when i was pregnant nobody 0.97

00:00:54.720 fucking cares so what do i look like going on live crying about my baby daddy about a decision i 0.99

00:01:02.400 made ultimately right this is who i picked to be my child's father i don't need your fucking sympathy 0.99

00:01:07.200 and i don't need your fucking empathy you're not going to understand even if i even just in this 0.99

00:01:10.320 interview right here people may have a better idea but you're still going to think what you want to 0.99

00:01:15.120 think about me so i for months i was silent but you know what i did i leaned into being a villain 0.98

00:01:21.360 okay well you guys think i'm a piece of shit you think i'm a monster well i'm going to show you 0.99

00:01:26.080 what a monster really is so then i'm on jackson state's campus taking selfies hide your sons 0.99

00:01:32.000 and because you guys are already saying that in my comments so instead of crying that's kind of

00:01:36.960 funny no it was funny it was it was hilarious i loved it you know so i'm like let me just laugh at

00:01:43.280 my pain just like with you like when people say mean stuff about you okay this is what it is

00:01:48.000 this is how i feel you're not going to use this and hurt me and that is probably something like

00:01:55.360 so you're almost like sometimes you're you're trolling the comments oh yeah absolutely but

00:02:00.240 people don't know my personality people think you're being serious because they don't because

00:02:05.760 they don't know my humor they don't know my personality they don't actually even know how i cope

00:02:09.120 and i have been on social media since july of 2012. i have seen instagram in its many phases before 0.99

00:02:16.080 there was even videos on there right i don't know another way because if you read shit and you 0.96

00:02:24.800 obsess about it you're crying in the car right it's i feel like kind of a guinea pig because i'm one of 0.96

00:02:31.680 like the original instagram girls right so i just feel like i don't like to explain myself to strangers

00:02:38.480 now me and you are talking where i want you to understand you're asking me questions i'm telling you

00:02:42.640 the truth right but to a bunch of strangers who have no desire to listen to me as you are i'm not

00:02:48.000 explaining myself go hide your son i don't care you already think i'm this anyways i can't convince you

00:02:52.960 otherwise and again i'm not jehovah's witness i don't convert people you ain't a believer i ain't here

00:02:57.040 to convert you so yeah a lot of it is like my personality people don't really know how i am now now

00:03:01.920 moving forward i don't really like to troll as much because i realize how damaging being something i'm not

00:03:09.440 a villain how damaging it has been because that's not my truth like you've seen me i'm really just

00:03:14.560 a little sweetie pie that's just kind of how i am i don't like people to see me vulnerable and nice and

00:03:19.040 she's actually likable because i would at one point i would have rather people fear me think i'm a 0.55

00:03:26.080 succubus evil whore because i i didn't want people to see this mushy part because it's disgusting right 1.00

00:03:32.640 and that's why i've always judged that part but i've told myself i'm going to authentically be myself 0.94

00:03:36.560 if it's not as exciting as being a villain right if i don't get as many clicks if i don't get any

00:03:42.240 more followers moving forward today at least i can say i'm being myself because all that

00:03:47.200 shitshow that wasn't me being myself that was me playing into a character that is like not even a 0.64

00:03:51.520 fraction like five percent of who i am what do you think about the phrase life is about choices and

00:03:57.040 trade-offs i agree i mean i love kevin samuels i feel like that was definitely a message like

00:04:02.080 the he would preach a lot and it's true

00:04:06.560 what was it like meeting kevin and he's much taller in person and did you take any of his

00:04:13.120 advice second part

00:04:17.760 i felt like i started to think about my life and what i wanted to do moving forward

00:04:23.440 which kind of i don't want to say it's scary i don't want to judge it but like

00:04:28.480 he talked about a lot of uncomfortable truth about the perception of men and like family structure and

00:04:34.000 my situation and um it was a lot of difficult truths that were really hard to hear and i feel

00:04:39.840 like i started thinking more of a having more of a business mentality after i spoke to kevin and i

00:04:45.360 think he's was very kind i listened to him a lot when i was pregnant and i felt like his message often

00:04:50.560 went missed because they would sensationalize um him being hard on women i've heard him be hard on men

00:04:57.280 i've heard both you know but the internet's gonna run with what's the most viral but no i i loved meeting

00:05:02.960 him he was a fellow pisces like myself he's very charming he's very funny very open-minded

00:05:08.720 but he he was tough he was just like tough love so yeah i miss him you know yeah that's the one

00:05:16.320 that's the one and i as i've told you this but i really wish i could have interviewed him or like

00:05:22.080 had him on my show like that's the one person that i i just used to watch it's like you watched

00:05:27.040 him so much you felt like you knew him absolutely and i'd only talk to him i think i talked to him

00:05:31.040 twice like once about my channel and once about an ex like boyfriend of mine and it was like i don't

00:05:37.840 know you just like felt like you knew him even though like i'd only talked to him twice really yeah

00:05:42.720 and i think people underestimated how much he really cared he put a lot of time energy and effort into

00:05:47.760 talking about family structures and talk and having people be accountable and calling out the

00:05:53.520 the i have a phd you know die with a dog like he called out a lot of things that are going to be

00:05:58.240 people's reality if they don't look at their lives now so i think that's why a lot of his content was

00:06:03.920 rub people the wrong way my perspective you know everyone has their own feelings but because he was

00:06:09.040 necessary he was about outcomes not really what felt good yep and a lot of people would like i hate

00:06:15.280 him when people would like question his intentions or like you know what i'm saying yeah but i'm just

00:06:19.120 like what who cares his outcomes are good he has people making videos about how they got married

00:06:24.080 because of him yeah and it's like how can you argue with outcomes right um what do you

00:06:32.080 so did you answer did you take his advice yeah i've started focusing more on the business and figuring

00:06:38.480 out like what do i even like to do like how do i plan to make money like what is going to change here

00:06:43.920 like pretty it's relationship advice that what oh relationship advice um well we talked more

00:06:52.560 about business oh okay yeah our like the stuff that we talked about in like when we would talk on the

00:06:57.840 phone every now and then um funny he talked to me about business yeah he was more business so that's

00:07:03.280 why like when it came to relationships we didn't really talk about that stuff not really to be honest

00:07:11.840 because i just felt like that i wasn't really focused on that i was trying to figure out my

00:07:15.680 life i have a kid now and i feel like he was you know he was uh really insightful of that first of

00:07:21.200 that perspective and topic so yeah sorry i'm looking at the question what are the pros and cons of only

00:07:28.640 fans are we talking about like typically what people post on only fans or like are these people like

00:07:37.200 posting like uh like cooking corn corn corn to to nudes nudes okay um i have i think it's easy money

00:07:52.480 i don't think there's gonna be much longevity with it and for me

00:07:59.280 i don't like the idea of selling a picture of me like a personal picture that maybe i'd send a guy

00:08:07.680 i like like you can subscribe for like ten dollars and you can see it and i think it just takes away

00:08:15.760 intimacy for me um i think it's too invasive but there are people who obviously make money

00:08:22.400 sex workers that do can i say that sex workers okay um sex workers that make bank and they serve

00:08:29.520 their like there's an audience for that they they they fulfill their audience's desires but it's not for

00:08:37.760 me i i wouldn't want to do it no i i don't like taking the easy way out either and that's just my

00:08:43.200 opinion i think it's an easy way out but it's not like you're not actually asking yourself what you

00:08:47.360 want to do and you're not thinking about longevity unless you're using that money to like invest in

00:08:53.920 other things but most likely you're not and then not only now you kind of have to carry that stigma of

00:09:00.880 you sell content online and there's guys that don't care about that but like the stuff we've been

00:09:05.440 talking about there's more guys that care that you're an only fans girl than not so i feel like

00:09:10.800 why do it if you don't have to you know because it's just like i feel like it has such a 0.95

00:09:14.720 mark yeah see we we agree again yeah i would avoid it i'm like i already got enough fucking 0.98

00:09:22.160 shit like i can't be adding now and i just feel like it's an easy way out do you think you could 0.98

00:09:27.600 respect a man and submit to a man that makes significantly less than you so 45 000 a year 0.98

00:09:34.000 yes but it's it's not about the money that brings the respect it's about it's about the mufasa energy

00:09:39.040 and like really caring about me and respecting me and valuing me have you ever met a guy that makes

00:09:43.680 45k a year that has the mufasa energy um the only guy i've talked to besides like my first boyfriend

00:09:53.840 and the lawyer i don't even i really haven't had many guys oh wait i'm trying to think

00:10:01.120 i talked to a trainer we talked about that last night what was the question again could i could

00:10:05.520 you respect like yeah could you submit to him yeah because i respect him i'm going to submit to him

00:10:11.040 that's naturally what i want to do like i want somebody who's gonna love he says he says don't

00:10:15.840 go don't go out would you would you delete your instagram that's my money maker so if i'm not if

00:10:22.160 i don't care about a guy's money that means obviously i'm taking care of like myself and providing the

00:10:26.800 lifestyle that i want for myself so i wouldn't delete my money maker now would you would you go

00:10:30.960 down in lifestyle for a family go down in lifestyle what what does that mean because i provide my own

00:10:37.120 lifestyle okay so okay so this is this is like often kevin samuels would talk about how women

00:10:42.320 don't want a husband they want the lifestyle and you you kind of agreed with that a little bit because

00:10:47.280 a lot of people do want a lot of people do because they don't have any earning potential so and like

00:10:51.440 his point was back in the day you would work you both would work at times and you'd have to work

00:10:58.080 twice as hard just to have children so it's like you wouldn't you and he wouldn't make like more

00:11:03.360 money so it would be like i try not to butcher this too much sorry kevin samuels okay but basically

00:11:10.240 but so the whole point is like you don't get to go on trips you can't go to london for a week

00:11:15.440 you can't i mean this is different because but you see what i'm saying you don't get to go on trips

00:11:19.360 you don't get to eat out like even growing up we even though we were in a one percent family like i was

00:11:23.680 very much jealous of some of the lifestyle that some of my friends lived um like where they would eat

00:11:29.200 out they had cable like we didn't have cable tv my parents like i want to say we still went on

00:11:33.680 vacations but we never flew and it's like a lot of times like women would rather have the lifestyle 1.00

00:11:38.800 than a family well to me what you're describing sounds like money management because that's you

00:11:44.640 make money and the reason that your family has stayed wealthy is because they don't eat out every

00:11:49.680 night they're not taking trips here there everywhere they are even though you guys could do that right

00:11:56.000 it's like that sounds like just money management yeah they do they do now i will say they do yeah

00:12:00.480 but that sounds like money management that sounds smart so yeah if you have more kids it doesn't

00:12:05.200 make sense to go out and spend three hundred dollars at outback when you could buy groceries right but

00:12:09.600 the whole point is like let's say you deleted your instagram tomorrow you you could hypothetically get

00:12:14.480 a part-time job make twenty thousand a year date a guy that makes fifty thousand dollars a year that's 70k

00:12:19.920 you could live off of that it just wouldn't be the lifestyle you'd want yeah and so that's that's the whole

00:12:24.400 question is like would you go down and lifestyle for a family because you get you get a family out

00:12:29.440 of it and that's like legacy that's like what we all want yeah it's like a lot of times as women we

00:12:35.600 don't want to give up you know the the nails done the hair done the makeup yeah all of that you know um

00:12:43.520 my answer is going to be no because that's something i can provide for myself so i would never downgrade

00:12:48.640 my lifestyle because again i'm not asking a man to provide something i can't provide for myself

00:12:53.440 so again i feel like i'm very i've gotten so much better at money management not spending six

00:13:00.000 hundred dollars at sephora you know what i mean i feel like there's because i have a son now because

00:13:04.240 i have to think of money um and be a lot smarter i have downgraded my lifestyle already so to go from

00:13:12.400 this six figures a year to twenty thousand doesn't make sense like i want to tap into my fullest potential

00:13:18.240 me tapping into my fullest potential does not entail working twenty thousand working a twenty

00:13:22.160 thousand dollar a year job it just doesn't that's not what i'm here to do i wouldn't be given this

00:13:26.480 platform i wouldn't be given this voice if i was if i was meant to have a twenty thousand dollar

00:13:30.960 a year job that's just what it is like and i'm just speaking for me like i'm meant to do this so

00:13:35.680 i just can't relate to that now as many of you know i was just banned on tick tock and we are

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JustPearlyThings - December 26, 2022

The BIPOLAR PERSONALITY Of a Modern Woman

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