JustPearlyThings - January 14, 2025


The Meaning of Modern Women's "FIND MYSELF" Phrase | Pearl Daily


Episode Stats

Length

1 hour and 14 minutes

Words per Minute

167.12273

Word Count

12,398

Sentence Count

1,227

Misogynist Sentences

139

Hate Speech Sentences

109


Summary


Transcript

00:00:00.000 Thank you.
00:00:30.000 Thank you.
00:01:00.000 Welcome to another episode of Pearl Daily.
00:01:01.880 I am your host.
00:01:03.620 Today, we are going to talk about when women find themselves.
00:01:07.680 But first, I want to thank you to all the amazing people in the chat for keeping me employed.
00:01:14.280 But more importantly, I want to thank all of the hoes out there for giving me a job.
00:01:21.980 Without you guys acting like idiots, I would have nothing to talk about.
00:01:26.480 So thank you guys for keeping me employed for a lifetime.
00:01:29.920 I want to thank the prostitutes, the OnlyFans, models.
00:01:34.400 I want to thank all the women that have cheated on their husbands.
00:01:39.020 I want, you know, I want to thank all the terrible behavior.
00:01:41.800 Thank you guys very, very much.
00:01:43.580 Now, first, I want to do a throwback.
00:01:49.280 So guys, if you want me to read your comments, go to the website, theaudacitynetwork.com.
00:01:54.760 Sign up for my monthly or yearly membership there.
00:01:56.900 You're going to access a bunch of my old content.
00:01:58.800 And you're also going to be able to get me to read the chat.
00:02:03.180 Normally, in shows, you have to donate for every single chat that you send.
00:02:08.140 But for me, one-time payment, and you get to comment eternally.
00:02:14.080 So here we have, this was one of my early videos.
00:02:18.580 And I just wanted to show it to you guys.
00:02:20.540 So I want to show you guys what I started with a couple years ago.
00:02:23.160 So three years ago, really, the pregame, it all started with just mics in my living room.
00:02:31.500 I had a little Rodecaster.
00:02:33.180 I had this one-bedroom apartment in London.
00:02:36.140 And this was me inviting a fellow YouTuber.
00:02:41.300 He decided to call me racist later, but that's a different story.
00:02:45.660 And a friend that I had on the volleyball team.
00:02:49.680 So let me show you guys.
00:02:50.660 Just like you think you're a 10 out of 10.
00:02:53.720 What?
00:02:54.740 I never said that.
00:02:55.460 I never said that.
00:02:55.960 You think you're an 11 out of 10, which is in your head.
00:02:58.700 So what I'm trying to say is, if you're talking about something that isn't,
00:03:03.040 if we can look in your body and we can see you have two testicles and the penis,
00:03:07.240 we know what you are, right?
00:03:08.740 If you think you are other than what you actually are,
00:03:11.560 that's something going on in your head, right?
00:03:13.320 Because couldn't I identify as a teenager if I wanted to?
00:03:17.200 Trans age, they call it.
00:03:19.640 No, I'm serious.
00:03:20.440 No, I've gone into this.
00:03:21.460 I've gone into this.
00:03:21.960 What if I said I feel early days where I really liked this type of content?
00:03:25.820 Because no one had channels.
00:03:27.000 It was so much less influence or like,
00:03:29.040 it was just like a bunch of people talking through ideas on, you know,
00:03:34.160 in my living room.
00:03:35.500 17.
00:03:36.040 Well, that would genuinely be something that you'd have to work with.
00:03:38.360 And being someone who studies psych,
00:03:40.460 that would more than likely be a trauma response.
00:03:43.260 Because usually people...
00:03:44.020 So age, transgender is a trauma response.
00:03:45.180 I was not done speaking.
00:03:46.940 People who still feel like they're stuck in their teen years or even childhood years
00:03:52.080 usually experience some sort of terrible trauma at that age in their life.
00:03:57.300 And that's where they feel emotionally and physically stunted.
00:04:00.640 Yeah.
00:04:00.980 So that's why like maybe later on they still act a certain way for years.
00:04:04.560 But it's interesting because you're kind of saying like that's a mental disorder.
00:04:09.140 Yeah.
00:04:09.520 No, I can say that with peace.
00:04:11.300 Yeah.
00:04:11.600 But trans wouldn't be.
00:04:13.520 So trans wouldn't be.
00:04:14.380 I can't see it that way because I'm someone who's part of the LGBT community.
00:04:19.340 Yeah.
00:04:19.800 And I see how these people struggle and like, you know,
00:04:23.440 like people tend to make the argument that...
00:04:26.400 That's an emotional response.
00:04:27.340 It's not a logical one.
00:04:30.080 Do you want to answer or not?
00:04:31.860 Yeah, but it's an emotional response.
00:04:33.980 Yes.
00:04:34.380 It's a yes or no.
00:04:35.400 Notice how she was so mad at him.
00:04:37.400 But me?
00:04:39.640 We would both interrupt her.
00:04:41.600 Or interrupter.
00:04:43.340 No question.
00:04:44.520 It's a yes or no question.
00:04:45.840 Can you imagine?
00:04:46.820 He called me a colonizer late.
00:04:48.540 Like, look at this.
00:04:49.260 Look at this.
00:04:50.640 Do you know what it's like to deal with people all the time
00:04:54.040 and then randomly one day they make hit pieces on you?
00:04:57.820 This happened to be twice at least.
00:05:00.640 At least twice.
00:05:01.560 Two different no.
00:05:02.940 Three times.
00:05:03.940 YouTubers, you'll be like pals.
00:05:06.480 And then the next day, you're not...
00:05:09.060 It's crazy.
00:05:10.120 It's crazy.
00:05:11.440 The cool one.
00:05:12.880 Oh, it came unplugged?
00:05:15.200 Which part?
00:05:15.800 It's a yes or no.
00:05:16.520 I can hear it.
00:05:19.720 Oh, you don't have visual.
00:05:20.880 All right, guys.
00:05:21.400 We'll wait a second.
00:05:22.560 Is it back?
00:05:25.180 Okay.
00:05:25.600 No question.
00:05:27.120 Oh, my God.
00:05:27.840 Let's talk about the facts, not the feelings, please.
00:05:32.100 Guys, get along.
00:05:33.960 Let's talk about the facts, not the feelings.
00:05:35.760 It's like...
00:05:36.880 Regardless, these things were removed from the DSM-5.
00:05:39.380 Yeah.
00:05:40.080 Being transgender.
00:05:41.120 Gender dysphoria is still in there, I believe.
00:05:43.020 And they're working on the DSM-6, I believe.
00:05:44.980 If not, it's already out.
00:05:46.700 But...
00:05:47.060 No, no.
00:05:48.000 She was on my volleyball team.
00:05:50.280 It's difficult to pinpoint that as a mental illness, only because this is a whole...
00:05:57.420 This is something that someone's willing to change their entire life for.
00:06:01.780 I could change my entire life to be 17.
00:06:04.960 I mean, shit.
00:06:05.760 You could try.
00:06:06.640 You could try.
00:06:07.680 Hang on.
00:06:07.700 And Rachel Dolezal changed her entire life to be black.
00:06:10.360 Oh, my gosh.
00:06:11.380 Do you know who that is?
00:06:12.080 Yeah.
00:06:12.680 Right?
00:06:13.160 She was head of the NAACP.
00:06:15.220 And she was a white woman.
00:06:16.500 Yeah.
00:06:16.880 So, just because she identifies or thought of herself as...
00:06:19.740 How dare they say shit like Colin?
00:06:22.180 I know.
00:06:22.980 Yo, you've done...
00:06:24.040 I want to tell you.
00:06:25.640 It's been long enough.
00:06:26.620 I'm going to talk about this now.
00:06:27.740 I don't care.
00:06:29.540 So...
00:06:29.980 What happened was, he had a video, and it was like the truth about Pearl.
00:06:33.940 And when I saw it was scheduled, I thought it was going to be a video.
00:06:38.580 I swear, I thought it was going to be a video defending me.
00:06:42.220 And I was on the phone with my dad.
00:06:43.580 And I'm like, oh, that's weird.
00:06:45.380 He has that scheduled.
00:06:46.460 I bet it's...
00:06:47.280 I bet he's just defending me.
00:06:53.160 And my dad is like, are you sure about that?
00:06:55.160 I'm like, no, he wouldn't do that.
00:06:56.760 He did do that.
00:06:58.940 He did, in fact, do that.
00:07:00.540 It was so crazy.
00:07:02.020 Crazy guy.
00:07:04.740 That doesn't mean that she is.
00:07:06.000 But that doesn't make these people any less human.
00:07:08.080 I think that's what I'm trying to...
00:07:09.200 We're not...
00:07:09.560 No, but we're not talking...
00:07:10.380 That's what I'm saying.
00:07:10.760 You're talking from an emotional standpoint.
00:07:11.980 I never said trans people or whoever you are are less human.
00:07:15.600 They are human beings.
00:07:16.440 They deserve their rights as a human being.
00:07:19.240 But it doesn't mean that what they're saying...
00:07:20.660 It sounds like you won't even respect their identity is the issue.
00:07:24.180 So if a trans person were to come to you...
00:07:25.200 What do you mean respect their identity?
00:07:26.820 If somebody were to come to you right now, they were trans.
00:07:28.960 They once were she and became he.
00:07:32.600 And you knew this.
00:07:34.040 Would you refer to them as what they are comfortable with or what they were originally born as?
00:07:39.600 I would refer to them as who they are, which is a man or a woman, biologically.
00:07:44.080 Because what you're asking me to do, essentially...
00:07:46.080 So then that's just disrespectful.
00:07:47.440 No, it's not disrespectful.
00:07:48.240 That's blatant disregard.
00:07:49.120 No, I'll tell you what's disrespectful.
00:07:51.200 What's disrespectful for me is to ask me to buy into your delusion.
00:07:56.340 That's what I think is disrespectful.
00:07:57.700 If I come up to you and say, listen, I know I'm a black man, but please call me Mei Ling because I'm now a Chinese woman.
00:08:04.060 You're going to be like, all right, you're a Chinese...
00:08:07.620 I'm a Chinese woman?
00:08:09.100 Really?
00:08:09.680 And you've met me and you know me prior to me identifying as a Chinese woman?
00:08:13.960 You're now going to call me Mei Ling?
00:08:15.520 I'm now asking you to buy into my delusion.
00:08:20.260 If I feel like this, that's 100% cool.
00:08:24.120 But I shouldn't ask you to buy into what I think of myself.
00:08:28.340 Because like I said, you think of yourself as an 11 out of 10.
00:08:32.820 Right?
00:08:33.260 If you went around asking people to call you an 11 out of 10, then that's just plain arrogant and egotistical.
00:08:40.280 Because you're asking people...
00:08:40.700 I wouldn't do that, though.
00:08:41.980 Right, but...
00:08:42.660 Yeah, but trans people do.
00:08:44.180 All I ask is basic respect.
00:08:46.980 No, but trans people do.
00:08:48.640 They ask people to call them the thing.
00:08:51.520 Do you know what's crazy?
00:08:52.300 I'll tell you guys part two of this story.
00:08:53.960 What's crazy was, after this guy called me a racist, right, I went through mutual fronts and I'm like, look, can we just talk this out?
00:09:04.780 Like, what's the...
00:09:06.920 We were cool like two weeks ago.
00:09:09.540 Could we just not make this an internet thing?
00:09:14.240 He wouldn't do it.
00:09:15.220 Couldn't look me in my eye and tell me the same thing.
00:09:18.560 Insane.
00:09:21.040 I can't...
00:09:22.040 This was crazy.
00:09:22.680 That they know that they actually aren't.
00:09:25.840 Or the way they see themselves.
00:09:27.540 It's genuinely not that hard to just refer to them as she, her, or he, him as they ask.
00:09:33.860 And by the name that they choose to go by.
00:09:36.200 It's genuinely not that hard.
00:09:37.580 My name is Francesca, right?
00:09:39.160 But I go by Chesca.
00:09:40.440 That is my preferred name.
00:09:41.660 All I have to do is tell you, hey, this is what I prefer to be called.
00:09:44.720 Feel free to call me this.
00:09:45.780 Right.
00:09:46.160 And it would be up to you to call me Chesca.
00:09:48.560 Like I said, I would prefer it.
00:09:50.540 If you call me Francesca, I'm not going to respond.
00:09:52.460 Because realistically, I don't like that name as much as Chesca.
00:09:56.220 It's that simple.
00:09:56.700 Shooting in your name.
00:09:57.480 It's a respect thing.
00:09:59.520 It's not.
00:09:59.800 No, it's not.
00:10:00.400 Shooting in your name, yeah, is not the same as asking me to call you by a totally different gender.
00:10:05.660 Okay, so...
00:10:06.340 There's no part of you that is that gender.
00:10:08.100 But if they preferred a different name even, you wouldn't go with that?
00:10:11.620 If they preferred it?
00:10:12.980 Like I said, I'm not about to...
00:10:14.460 If they went with a different name, you wouldn't go with that?
00:10:16.460 I am not buying into someone's delusion.
00:10:18.180 Yes or no?
00:10:19.160 Say again.
00:10:19.540 It's really not that hard of a question.
00:10:21.060 I promise you that.
00:10:21.700 If they asked me to call...
00:10:22.480 If they asked me to call them a name...
00:10:24.600 If I came to you and I said, I prefer the name Richard, even though I clearly am not biologically male...
00:10:30.660 I'll be like, what do your parents call you?
00:10:32.640 Okay.
00:10:33.180 What do your parents name you?
00:10:33.920 You're not my parents, so you wouldn't have a right to call me by whatever...
00:10:36.960 What was your name before you asked me to call you Richard?
00:10:38.820 You wouldn't have the right to call me by whatever my parents call me because my parents are different from you.
00:10:42.840 You're just a 40-year-old man.
00:10:44.160 Okay?
00:10:44.660 You're just a stranger that I see on the podcast.
00:10:46.860 Do not touch me now.
00:10:48.760 You're just a stranger that I see on a podcast.
00:10:50.660 So, Cheska, like, okay.
00:10:52.380 So, I honestly, if I knew someone...
00:10:54.800 Do you know what we call that?
00:10:55.440 We call that sign language over here.
00:10:56.920 If I knew someone that was trans, I would probably...
00:11:00.140 Like, I probably would call them by their name, like, just because they asked me to.
00:11:03.940 But the issue I get is when we start letting people live in delusion, there's consequences.
00:11:08.600 Correct.
00:11:08.740 And I really do, on some level, think that it's delusional because you're saying you're something you're not.
00:11:13.680 And the problem is now we have Leah Thomas coming in.
00:11:18.220 Who's that?
00:11:18.840 Leah Thomas, the swimmer.
00:11:20.440 The swimmer.
00:11:21.260 Okay.
00:11:21.540 And swimming in the woman's division and taking away opportunities from women.
00:11:27.320 Like, real biological women.
00:11:28.840 Because, in my opinion, we started by letting them live in delusion.
00:11:33.840 Okay.
00:11:34.200 And it slowly got to the point that now actual real women...
00:11:37.680 I like how me and Sarah are saying the exact same thing, but she's yelling at Sarah.
00:11:43.780 Like, we're saying the same thing.
00:11:45.740 I just said it in a slightly softer voice.
00:11:48.600 Athletics.
00:11:49.220 Right.
00:11:49.560 Okay.
00:11:50.700 Right.
00:11:51.140 That's what happens when you live in...
00:11:52.320 That's what happens when you say, oh, but they feel a certain way, so we have to respect it.
00:11:57.640 Genuinely.
00:11:58.480 It has real consequences.
00:11:59.120 As much as I would love to, you know, give a viewpoint on that, I can't.
00:12:05.380 Okay.
00:12:05.720 Because, one, I'm not trans.
00:12:08.160 I feel like I can't speak on it until I speak to other trans people who are athletes as well as cisgender people.
00:12:14.160 No, guys, this was before all the laws.
00:12:17.440 I don't know if there was an update on that, but this was, like, three years ago.
00:12:21.000 Who are athletes and see how they feel about it.
00:12:23.100 And two, I'm still curating my research on that, because I'll be...
00:12:26.460 How many subscribers did I have?
00:12:28.360 This, my channel was small.
00:12:30.060 It was getting bigger, though.
00:12:33.880 If I had to guess, maybe 50,000 to 100,000, but...
00:12:39.240 Yeah, but this was one of the first videos that went really viral, because this was before we even had, like, real mic stands.
00:12:50.860 So, this was, like, first, like, two or three months of the show.
00:12:54.180 This wasn't a pregame show, though.
00:12:55.980 This was kind of, like, a chill day, where I would...
00:12:58.800 I lived right next to an athletic center and right next to campus.
00:13:03.360 And so, I would just walk over and see if they would come.
00:13:07.840 And Sara lived nearby at the time, so he would come before he decided I was a big old racist.
00:13:14.360 Honest.
00:13:14.940 Honest.
00:13:15.980 Throughout high school, I felt that way.
00:13:17.760 Yeah.
00:13:18.120 I was, like, why the hell are trans people ending up in divisions that I feel like they're not supposed to be?
00:13:24.700 I realized that was me.
00:13:25.780 So, that happened at your school?
00:13:27.340 No.
00:13:29.020 I realized that it was me denying their identity, in a sense, right?
00:13:37.520 I know that, realistically, no matter what, this person was born opposite of what they are, but I do not want to deny how they feel and what they've experienced since, more than likely, such a young age about what they identify as.
00:13:51.760 But, at the same time, like, I have to look at the science behind this, right?
00:13:55.800 Like, because I've seen a lot of trans people come, it's changed completely, specifically with women, at least trans women.
00:14:01.700 They're, like, I don't understand why people get so upset about trans women entering women's divisions, because estrogen really does break down our, like, muscle mass and, like, our strength that we had as men previously.
00:14:15.900 But that's not their bone density, though.
00:14:18.040 No, I'm sure.
00:14:19.420 But that's what I'm saying.
00:14:20.180 That's why I'm saying, like, I have to do more research on it first before I can really curate an idea on it.
00:14:25.800 But I'm kind of, like, cheetering with it, because I could understand.
00:14:29.160 Like, I used to feel that way, genuinely.
00:14:30.720 Like, I was like, yo, I'm a girl, and I feel like I'm fighting for my feet.
00:14:34.560 We have to deal with bullshit from both racism and sexism.
00:14:38.340 Now, I want to talk about how women are not one-dimensional.
00:14:47.100 Obviously, this woman believes a lot of crazy stuff.
00:14:50.520 But genuinely, knowing her on my team, she was one of the nicer women on the team.
00:14:58.680 There's this idea that conservative women are somehow better to date.
00:15:04.080 Now, what I'm not saying is that she's the one you should date.
00:15:06.960 I'm not saying either or, right?
00:15:08.580 Like, what I am saying is I don't think necessarily.
00:15:13.300 Because there was, you know, a conservative woman on my team who was an absolute bitch.
00:15:21.520 Very Christian.
00:15:22.680 Very rude.
00:15:23.300 All the time.
00:15:25.480 She believed crazy stuff.
00:15:27.980 But she was a lot more pleasant to be around.
00:15:30.860 Well, I just think it's, like, disrespectful to, like, to honestly, to real women.
00:15:37.080 Like, women that were born that way.
00:15:38.260 Because we go through shit they'll never go through.
00:15:40.700 They'll never go through a smear test.
00:15:42.740 Yeah, they'll never understand, like.
00:15:45.440 What do we deem a real woman, though?
00:15:48.180 I'm just curious.
00:15:49.420 What's a real woman?
00:15:50.180 A woman that was born with a, what is it, X and Y?
00:15:53.740 A womb?
00:15:54.500 X, Y?
00:15:55.420 X, sorry.
00:15:56.240 X, X chromosome in a womb.
00:15:58.240 And I know they're going to, like, bring out exceptions to the rule.
00:16:02.240 Intersex people, that's what they do, yeah.
00:16:03.920 That's always the argument.
00:16:04.280 But, like, or the few girls that have fertility issues.
00:16:09.660 But that's very different than surgically changing a dick into a vagina.
00:16:14.440 Okay.
00:16:14.980 No, I hear you.
00:16:16.080 I hear you.
00:16:18.220 I think, again, like, because I'm part of the community, I have more insight on how they feel about it.
00:16:24.940 Yeah.
00:16:25.400 And I can go off of that better as opposed to the opposite.
00:16:28.400 But, like I said, this isn't how you feel.
00:16:30.020 I'm not done talking.
00:16:31.660 I know you're not.
00:16:32.220 But I'm just letting you know.
00:16:33.200 Damn, no.
00:16:33.480 I don't want to hear you right now.
00:16:35.340 When I'm done speaking.
00:16:35.780 It's not about how you feel.
00:16:36.820 When I'm done speaking.
00:16:37.380 When I'm done speaking.
00:16:38.500 Listen.
00:16:39.060 Why are you talking about feelings?
00:16:40.360 We're talking about facts.
00:16:43.160 Bro, you're going to have to stop him before I do.
00:16:45.820 What are you going to do?
00:16:46.560 I hate being in this position as an interviewer where you want the guests to debate, but where one starts getting offended, you're, like, trying to calm them down.
00:16:55.900 Hey, chill out.
00:16:57.080 Just to debate.
00:16:58.260 I don't think he's going to do.
00:16:58.940 What you going to do?
00:17:00.180 Listen.
00:17:00.880 What are you trying to do?
00:17:03.200 Nothing.
00:17:03.700 I'm just asking the question.
00:17:04.900 So, like, it's a, we're all talking, right?
00:17:08.000 Yeah, but that's what I'm saying.
00:17:08.780 We've been able to interact fine.
00:17:11.360 And, you know, if we cut each other off, we're like, all right, like, Gucci.
00:17:14.140 Like, oh, wait, my bad.
00:17:15.080 Like, whatever.
00:17:15.520 This motherfucker right here just keeps popping in like a freaking weasel.
00:17:19.900 Like, pop goes the weasel hat.
00:17:21.520 You just don't like being caught by a man.
00:17:22.000 That's what it is.
00:17:22.600 Like, it is so irritating.
00:17:24.640 I'll tell you one thing that gets me in trouble.
00:17:26.940 I laugh a lot.
00:17:28.180 It's a bit of a nervous tick sometimes.
00:17:32.140 And especially when I'm uncomfortable, I'm like, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
00:17:36.100 It's not a good habit.
00:17:38.340 But oftentimes when there would be times in interviews where people would be arguing and I would start laughing,
00:17:44.280 people would think I'm agreeing with one side or the other or I like this person.
00:17:50.080 Oh, my gosh.
00:17:50.900 This is a, this is a thing.
00:17:52.780 I've been caught by a man.
00:17:53.800 No, because you keep on saying like, oh, facts over feelings, facts over feelings.
00:17:57.000 He's like, no, like, at least when Pearl is interrupting me, she's saying like, oh, wait, but like, this is, this is what I see.
00:18:03.960 This is what I know.
00:18:05.000 You're just saying.
00:18:07.000 What about if I do that?
00:18:09.840 He could get fucking slapped.
00:18:11.640 I just like, like, do you know what I'm saying?
00:18:13.500 Like, really?
00:18:14.160 Like, and I think what he.
00:18:15.040 I did not get the security deposit back from that apartment.
00:18:19.840 I just want you guys to know that I did.
00:18:22.900 Yeah, I did.
00:18:24.800 And the next apartment was worse.
00:18:28.440 Did not.
00:18:29.100 What I'm trying to say is like, their feelings about it don't really matter.
00:18:31.760 She ain't going to slap me.
00:18:32.420 It's all about like, what's reality?
00:18:34.720 But if we functioned off of only logic and reality, we would be a heartless system.
00:18:39.120 I have no skills either.
00:18:40.780 So there's no way I could fix those walls.
00:18:42.680 There's just no way I could do it.
00:18:44.860 I have no house building, nothing.
00:18:48.800 Genuinely, I believe that.
00:18:51.360 I don't know.
00:18:52.160 I think, I think.
00:18:53.440 Currently.
00:18:53.800 The second place, Leah Thomas.
00:18:55.900 The girl that got second to Leah Thomas would be cool right now.
00:18:59.700 Okay, so.
00:19:00.360 Okay.
00:19:00.860 How many times have we.
00:19:01.720 Balance is needed.
00:19:02.580 Okay.
00:19:02.940 How many times have we looked at like politicians, for example, just going based off of their emotions.
00:19:08.320 Sheer emotions.
00:19:08.960 Yeah.
00:19:09.620 Like, and not even in a, not even close to logical sense.
00:19:13.520 You can find a balance between emotion and logic.
00:19:16.180 Yeah.
00:19:16.520 You can find a common ground.
00:19:18.260 I fully understand.
00:19:19.180 Ah!
00:19:19.740 No, but.
00:19:20.160 Ah!
00:19:20.900 Ah!
00:19:21.260 No, but.
00:19:21.880 Ah!
00:19:22.040 Ah!
00:19:22.400 Not in certain things.
00:19:24.320 Anyway.
00:19:29.100 She got kind of mad at me when that went viral.
00:19:31.880 I don't know what to do.
00:19:33.440 We can find a balance between emotion and logic.
00:19:36.080 I do believe that there are times where we have too much logic and too much emotion.
00:19:39.520 Right.
00:19:40.260 What do you think?
00:19:40.900 Ah!
00:19:41.540 Ah!
00:19:42.000 What do you think?
00:19:42.460 What do you think?
00:19:42.800 I was too much.
00:19:46.240 Guys, I saw this on my website.
00:19:47.980 I don't like giving Sarah clout, to be honest, because you have to understand, this was very
00:19:55.200 devastating to me at the time.
00:19:57.560 Like, these people that I knew just randomly called me a racist.
00:20:01.500 I was like, this is crazy.
00:20:03.420 And you have to understand, but this clip was so good.
00:20:08.240 I'm like, you know what?
00:20:08.900 I'm going to swallow my pride for the good of my audience today, because this is hilarious.
00:20:13.940 The full 10 bucks a year.
00:20:15.880 This is the level of content.
00:20:18.800 It was amazing.
00:20:19.960 I was in downtown London.
00:20:21.220 I was recruiting people that where I, I put, I brought way too many people in.
00:20:27.420 That's where it got out of control.
00:20:28.760 I won't lie to you guys, but this was my favorite shows.
00:20:32.360 Honestly, was when I was back in this like dingy, not dingy, but it became pretty gross
00:20:38.440 over time.
00:20:39.860 I won't lie.
00:20:40.320 There was no air conditioning, a lot of sweating and the panels made it so much worse.
00:20:46.760 Oh, they made, oh, it was so hot in that apartment air.
00:20:50.340 They're, London's crazy.
00:20:51.660 None of them, none of the apartments have air conditioning.
00:20:55.620 Um, but we would do these shows and they were so fun.
00:20:59.780 The problem was once you got over like half a million subscribers, people come with an
00:21:05.220 agenda.
00:21:05.640 Like they have their ideology they're pushing or I don't know.
00:21:09.800 There's just, there's, it's so much better content when people don't think as many people
00:21:14.440 are watching.
00:21:15.060 So this was someone in the chat said, this was like 30,000 subscribers at the time.
00:21:22.280 It was so much, it was crazy.
00:21:23.940 Like I would do a show at night and then I would do another, like change my mind episode
00:21:29.380 during the day.
00:21:30.160 I would do like three.
00:21:32.360 I just loved streaming.
00:21:33.840 It was so fun.
00:21:34.480 Emotional, too much logic.
00:21:35.500 Which one?
00:21:35.700 I think it was me telling you to shut the fuck up because you don't know how to sometimes.
00:21:39.940 But anyway, I said what I said.
00:21:43.600 No, I heard you.
00:21:44.520 I heard you.
00:21:44.840 I heard you.
00:21:45.120 Emotion and logic need to go hand in hand in times like this.
00:21:47.100 When there's too much emotion involved.
00:21:49.240 I know.
00:21:49.540 I was trying to diffuse.
00:21:50.800 I'm like, here's the alcohol.
00:21:54.280 Calm down, guys.
00:21:55.680 Calm down.
00:21:56.120 People can genuinely get hurt.
00:21:58.680 And when it comes to logic, I feel like logic, most of the time you can't go wrong, but sometimes
00:22:02.880 when we're too logical, you know.
00:22:04.040 Yeah, but that's one of the problems I'm talking about.
00:22:06.440 We're not talking about disregarding people.
00:22:09.440 But that's not one.
00:22:10.060 No, I didn't say that.
00:22:11.960 Ain't nobody talking about that.
00:22:13.240 Hang on.
00:22:13.520 Ah!
00:22:14.220 But the fact that people actually think that speaking things that make sense is disregarding
00:22:21.180 people is where we have a problem in this society.
00:22:23.600 Because if somebody is speaking to make sense and you take it as, oh, you're disregarding
00:22:28.580 me.
00:22:29.080 No.
00:22:29.560 Like I said, I think these people, trans people, deserve their human rights.
00:22:34.480 I don't think of them as less as a human being.
00:22:36.640 I'm saying when it comes to things like you coming in the, ah!
00:22:40.960 And when it comes, don't speak.
00:22:42.220 When it comes to you going into a sports arena that is not actually meant for you, and it's
00:22:47.040 meant for biological women, then we see real world consequences to your feelings and people
00:22:53.560 catering to people's feelings.
00:22:54.940 That's what I'm saying.
00:22:55.560 But, again, I said that I cannot curate an opinion on that until I do more research.
00:23:01.120 I will not open my mouth on something that I don't know shit about at the end of the
00:23:06.720 day.
00:23:07.120 You know?
00:23:07.460 Like, that would just be dumb.
00:23:08.920 So, but, okay.
00:23:09.700 So for you, the main thing that you agree with feminism on, like, the main rights that
00:23:13.620 women need to see today is abortion.
00:23:15.040 Bodily autonomy.
00:23:17.440 Because it's not always just, you know, it's not, it's not just abortion.
00:23:21.920 Like, in some states, or at least some counties, it's legal for a police officer to assault an
00:23:28.820 inmate.
00:23:30.380 That's, while they're in custody.
00:23:34.340 Do you guys think that's true?
00:23:36.240 I mean, right, like, so let's say I were to be arrested, and a cop could take me to
00:23:48.800 whatever little jail cell at whatever little, you know, place for custody, he could sexually
00:23:54.780 assault me, legally.
00:23:56.860 Are you sure?
00:23:57.980 Yes.
00:23:58.980 I promise, you can do some research on it.
00:24:01.040 I had seen.
00:24:02.060 Hang on, you can legally sexually assault somebody?
00:24:04.300 Yes.
00:24:04.680 A cop, a cop specifically, like.
00:24:08.380 What are you talking, what are we classing as sexual assault now?
00:24:10.600 That's what I'm trying to understand.
00:24:11.500 So what, what is this sexual assault that this man could do legally?
00:24:14.620 What is it that he can do?
00:24:15.900 Grape.
00:24:17.680 Legally?
00:24:18.240 Yes.
00:24:23.480 This is such good content.
00:24:26.440 Why did you have to do me like that, Sara?
00:24:28.440 These were so funny.
00:24:29.760 He can, yeah.
00:24:31.080 In some states, it's like an outdated law, but it's still in place.
00:24:34.040 And it does happen to people.
00:24:36.480 I mean, I'd, I'd love to.
00:24:38.240 MTR did the same thing.
00:24:43.640 Do you know how weird it is?
00:24:44.880 Do you know how weird it is?
00:24:45.740 I just want you guys to understand as a YouTuber.
00:24:48.400 I just, I think I went into this content game.
00:24:51.100 Like, I think one, people took it as more of a business than I did.
00:24:57.360 When I got into this, I just really wanted to have fun.
00:25:01.680 It wasn't really about, you know, making money or, I mean, it happened, right?
00:25:09.260 But I just had always loved YouTube.
00:25:11.980 Like, from a young age, I loved watching YouTube.
00:25:14.200 If you don't have a lot of friends, sometimes YouTube is like, sorry, I'm kidding, I'm kidding.
00:25:22.920 But seriously, I loved it.
00:25:25.160 And so what I didn't realize is that for me, when I would have really controversial people on,
00:25:32.640 I would think, okay, they have different opinions.
00:25:34.580 Who cares?
00:25:35.180 What they, what other people are seeing is, oh, you're associating with that person.
00:25:41.340 You're not on my team anymore.
00:25:43.600 I need to denounce you so I don't lose money from my audience.
00:25:49.980 And I'm like, what are we, I thought we were all having fun here, guys.
00:25:53.340 You know, I'm not the, not the, you know.
00:25:57.660 So this was, I was very naive when I went to London, I would say.
00:26:01.320 I didn't really know what we did.
00:26:05.180 I never really thought about people's incentives.
00:26:07.800 So I never thought about that if things were not going the way that, you know, in this case,
00:26:15.780 Sarah and the other YouTubers that did this wanted me to go, that they would just throw me under the bus.
00:26:21.740 And it was super weird because it was, it was like grown men.
00:26:25.600 It was men oftentimes that were like a decade.
00:26:28.320 I think I was like 25 in this or 26 and they were close to 40.
00:26:32.580 And it was like these 40-year-old guys denouncing me.
00:26:37.460 And I was like, I was thinking, like, what are you guys, women?
00:26:45.340 That's a women, as far as I know.
00:26:47.980 But that's what I mean.
00:26:48.840 I interviewed Muhammad Hijab.
00:26:52.080 I was like, all right.
00:26:53.560 You know, and I can't really blame them.
00:26:59.440 You know, women, we get things easier.
00:27:01.940 So I think maybe if I went through the same, like, toil that they did, you know, like, there's men that have been doing red pill content for 20 years, don't have the same following I do.
00:27:13.220 It's not really fair.
00:27:14.300 You know, you just have an easier mode when you're a woman.
00:27:17.640 And I could see why the men are a bit more careful than I was.
00:27:25.360 You know, I could see why, you know, so I do understand their perspective.
00:27:33.180 I just still think that's a bitch thing to do.
00:27:36.000 Sorry.
00:27:36.780 Sorry.
00:27:37.380 I'm not going to lie.
00:27:38.160 I'd love to see the research on that.
00:27:39.540 Do you have it?
00:27:40.480 I'm just curious.
00:27:41.480 I'll see if I can find it.
00:27:42.580 Because I've just never, that sounds, like, kind of wild to me.
00:27:47.420 Can I, can I, before we get, before we continue here, just point out Cheska's female privilege.
00:27:53.440 So when she threatened to slap me, do you think, do you think that it would have been received well if I threatened to slap her?
00:27:59.720 Did you threaten to slap her?
00:28:01.140 Yeah, she's like, because if you don't shut up.
00:28:02.320 I would have been laughing one way or another, me personally.
00:28:05.020 I'm just asking if it would have been received the same way.
00:28:07.180 I'm just asking, that's all.
00:28:07.880 It wouldn't.
00:28:08.560 Right, okay.
00:28:09.960 Just establishing that.
00:28:11.920 It wouldn't.
00:28:13.380 Um, okay.
00:28:14.820 You don't believe in abortions, Sarah?
00:28:16.780 Um, no.
00:28:17.320 I, I, I think abortions are, quote, unquote, okay in, in, in, in instances of rape and molestation.
00:28:24.500 Because if sex is non-consensual, sorry, if sex is consensual, and you had non-consensual sex, and a baby is a result of that, that actual act was non-consensual.
00:28:39.020 So the child would be non-consensual.
00:28:40.860 If you have consensual sex, and a child is a result, then you've consented to having a child.
00:28:47.480 Yeah, I'm just big into, like, taking ownership.
00:28:49.900 Like, I just feel like, deal with the consequences that you chose.
00:28:53.120 Right.
00:28:53.340 Like, okay, they want me to show the ah one more time.
00:28:58.040 Okay, because that's pretty much it.
00:28:59.320 Let me, what was the time stamp of the ah?
00:29:01.960 Terrible trial.
00:29:02.600 I was, it was when I got up.
00:29:06.460 All right, you guys want to see the ah one more time?
00:29:10.400 Further up?
00:29:11.240 Okay.
00:29:13.820 Okay.
00:29:14.460 Let's see this ah.
00:29:17.880 See, it's someone on the website requested this.
00:29:21.200 Look at the influence.
00:29:22.260 You can influence the show just by getting on the website.
00:29:26.160 You know.
00:29:26.880 Right.
00:29:27.260 You to call me.
00:29:28.060 Where is this ah?
00:29:29.760 Did I miss it?
00:29:30.460 I feel like I'm about it.
00:29:31.800 Yeah.
00:29:32.260 You don't like it.
00:29:32.780 I feel like logic most of the time.
00:29:34.980 Their feelings about it don't really matter.
00:29:36.620 She ain't going to slap.
00:29:37.440 Like, and not even in a, not even close to logical sense.
00:29:41.320 You can find a balance between emotion and logic.
00:29:43.980 Yeah.
00:29:44.320 You can find a common ground.
00:29:45.540 I fully understand.
00:29:47.000 Ah!
00:29:47.560 No, but.
00:29:48.240 Ah!
00:29:48.720 Ah!
00:29:49.020 No.
00:29:50.700 Ah!
00:29:51.020 Ah!
00:29:51.380 Ah!
00:29:53.420 Anyway.
00:29:58.900 That was so funny.
00:30:00.240 I forgot that happened.
00:30:03.140 Steven, thank you.
00:30:04.320 He said, figured it was about time I joined.
00:30:07.160 Thank you.
00:30:08.400 Thank you.
00:30:09.040 Thank you.
00:30:09.420 Thank you, Ken.
00:30:13.060 Um...
00:30:15.540 Where else are we...
00:30:17.720 Is there anything else, Pearl?
00:30:18.980 People like to think that everyone is on the same page as them.
00:30:22.040 That works well as long as you agree with the moral group philosophy.
00:30:26.840 If there is a conflict, a clause come out.
00:30:29.340 Because people depend on group validation as integral, as an integral part of their identity.
00:30:34.220 If you don't validate me, you are the enemy.
00:30:36.540 If I do that.
00:30:36.900 Then he could get fucking slapped also.
00:30:39.700 Guys, you know, and this is my fault.
00:30:41.480 I don't reply to enough comments, and I want to change that.
00:30:47.260 So please put your comments in the comments section after we're done being live.
00:30:53.420 I know it's my fault.
00:30:54.760 There's a lack of comments.
00:30:56.200 But, you know.
00:30:57.340 Okay, we're going to keep going.
00:30:59.320 That's the woman Pearl dunked on so bad she sued Pearl.
00:31:02.420 No, that wasn't her.
00:31:04.040 That was a different woman.
00:31:06.020 That was a woman that...
00:31:07.160 There was a...
00:31:08.000 Do you know the bullshit I had to deal with?
00:31:09.500 I see why you guys stopped dating.
00:31:11.140 And I'll tell you why.
00:31:12.120 Because recruiting women for the show, it was the same...
00:31:17.860 I went through some of the things you guys go through in dating.
00:31:21.140 The flaky women.
00:31:22.320 You know, I would recruit eight of her a night for a show.
00:31:25.440 Myself, on Instagram.
00:31:27.540 And I knew if I wanted eight girls, I'd have to book 16.
00:31:30.880 Half would flake.
00:31:33.120 Same flake rates as women.
00:31:35.440 So, if I recruited, like, basketball, they would be, like, the same flake rate.
00:31:44.600 I'd have to double book.
00:31:49.720 Anyways, though.
00:31:52.300 Men would show up on time.
00:31:54.040 But there was a different woman I brought on.
00:31:56.380 We texted her the show she was going on.
00:31:58.320 And then she claimed that she didn't know the show, didn't ever consent, and that she was coerced into coming on the show.
00:32:06.560 Crazy.
00:32:07.500 For example, just going based off of their emotions.
00:32:10.620 Sheer emotions.
00:32:11.380 Yeah.
00:32:11.980 Like, and not even in a...
00:32:14.140 Not even close to logical sense.
00:32:15.860 You can find a balance between emotion and logic.
00:32:18.540 Yeah.
00:32:18.860 You can find a common ground.
00:32:20.080 I fully understand.
00:32:21.540 Ah!
00:32:22.120 No, but...
00:32:22.680 Ah!
00:32:24.320 Ah!
00:32:24.820 No, but not in certain things.
00:32:26.440 Anyway, we can find a balance between emotion and logic.
00:32:32.160 I do believe that there are times where we have too much logic and too much emotion.
00:32:34.820 This is so funny.
00:32:36.200 Right.
00:32:36.940 What do you think?
00:32:37.540 Ah!
00:32:38.180 Ah!
00:32:38.700 What do you think?
00:32:39.120 Do you think I was too much emotion or too much?
00:32:42.520 Okay, I'm done with this.
00:32:43.800 I'm good.
00:32:46.840 So funny.
00:32:50.320 Oh, God.
00:32:51.180 That was so funny.
00:32:52.320 Okay.
00:32:53.560 Let me read the chat one more time.
00:32:57.360 Pearl Reed, if abortion is only legal if the sex is non-consensual, women will smear
00:33:02.720 men to get abortion.
00:33:05.620 Yeah.
00:33:06.260 No, I don't...
00:33:07.900 Look.
00:33:09.080 I just don't see a point.
00:33:13.000 They are not going to let us have this one.
00:33:15.800 I really think the pro-life people love them.
00:33:19.320 I want to say you guys do great work, but you're not winning.
00:33:22.940 There's more abortions after Roe versus Wade.
00:33:25.080 Sorry, guys.
00:33:26.600 You know, like, I think it's a great intent, but in terms of effectiveness, and half of
00:33:32.220 the pro-lifers simp.
00:33:33.540 They simp so hard.
00:33:34.760 None of them will say, throw these women that get abortion in jail.
00:33:37.640 None.
00:33:39.040 None.
00:33:39.300 If you ask them that, no, we're just going to throw the doctors in jail.
00:33:43.360 Of course.
00:33:45.100 Oh, no.
00:33:45.880 The women, they just, they don't know what they're doing.
00:33:51.320 They're being given the wrong information.
00:33:54.380 Are you...
00:33:55.040 Google.
00:33:55.400 I've Googled an abortion.
00:33:57.840 I have.
00:33:58.540 I've seen one.
00:33:59.820 I know what it looks like.
00:34:01.760 Whose fault is it if they're not informed?
00:34:04.800 Whose fault?
00:34:06.320 Is it the doctor?
00:34:07.500 Whose?
00:34:07.860 But you know what?
00:34:10.820 They simp.
00:34:11.500 And as most of you know, I have been on the front lines of the simp epidemic for years.
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00:35:40.840 Okay, so moving on to the next topic today.
00:35:46.540 We are going to be, I want to first give my disclaimers.
00:35:51.260 Number one, I sometimes make generalizations based on what I have seen.
00:35:56.780 My experience may not be your experience.
00:36:00.180 This is also based on interviewing a thousand women.
00:36:02.740 This is also based on following cultural trends and following relationship news and seeing
00:36:09.060 the choices that women make at different periods in their life.
00:36:12.380 This may not be your experience and that's totally fine.
00:36:15.000 When I say women or modern women, I never mean all women.
00:36:18.220 There are exceptions to every single rule.
00:36:20.120 However, I do need to talk about the patterns I've seen and also we're trying to get to
00:36:29.820 3,500 members on the website.
00:36:32.120 That is one yearly membership on the show.
00:36:34.820 If you can, feel free to sign up.
00:36:36.460 If you can't, that's okay.
00:36:38.020 Hit that like button.
00:36:39.480 Okay.
00:36:41.740 Now, we spoke before about the modern woman life cycle and the phases that we go through
00:36:47.320 as women.
00:36:47.740 Now, I first want to recap what the phases are of the modern woman life cycle.
00:36:53.420 So first, we go to a high-priced institution to get a degree that nobody will care about
00:36:58.880 to put themselves in a whole bunch of debt that will burden them for the rest of their
00:37:03.140 lives.
00:37:04.240 All they learn in school is how to be disagreeable and how to use men.
00:37:08.720 Modern women will get a job that is too stressful and does not care about them.
00:37:12.580 In reality, the job is not hard or stressful, but these women will convince themselves that
00:37:17.060 it is.
00:37:18.740 Modern women feel entitled to a certain lifestyle when they begin their careers and will buy
00:37:24.000 travel while ignoring their student loan debt and sometimes credit card debt.
00:37:28.920 Modern women will wake up between the ages of 33 to 37 and rush to have kids and find
00:37:33.600 a husband or bull.
00:37:35.120 Modern women will hit their late 30s and early 40s and try to get pregnant by a loser or go
00:37:40.240 through IVF.
00:37:41.080 Modern women will start on antidepressants and become alcoholics.
00:37:45.600 Modern women will buy a dog and die alone.
00:37:49.500 Now, along this journey, there are different phases that modern women go through.
00:37:54.800 We have covered the hoe phase.
00:37:58.720 Today, we are going to cover the post hoe phase and the find herself phase.
00:38:04.180 So what is it?
00:38:05.280 The post hoe phase?
00:38:06.740 The post hoe phase usually comes along when the women try to get our lives together before
00:38:14.440 we smash into the wall.
00:38:15.960 Some women enter this phase sooner.
00:38:18.980 Some women enter it later.
00:38:20.160 But the post hoe phase consists of the following options.
00:38:25.860 Number one, a health journey.
00:38:32.940 Many women do an extreme diet in this period.
00:38:37.520 They do this extreme diet because they don't want to take the work to about learning about
00:38:42.680 health or nutrition, you know, learning about carbs, protein, fat, calories.
00:38:47.480 That's too much work.
00:38:48.480 Let me just go carnivore, vegan or paleo.
00:38:51.960 I don't want to count sugars.
00:38:53.500 I don't want to count calories.
00:38:54.660 So oftentimes, they do this extreme diet for a couple of reasons.
00:39:00.180 One, to naturally clear an STD.
00:39:02.940 There are STDs that can be naturally cleared, allegedly.
00:39:09.820 And women are, I mean, at least they're convinced of it.
00:39:12.700 I'm not even saying this is true or false.
00:39:14.420 But on TikTok, they're certainly convinced that changing their diet will clear their STD.
00:39:19.860 Another thing that they may do this is to lose the weight that they gained from poor
00:39:24.220 decision-making.
00:39:25.780 Now, an office job doesn't necessarily need to mean that you get fat.
00:39:29.240 There's many men that work office jobs and are in great shape.
00:39:31.940 But that does require discipline and hard work.
00:39:34.480 That means putting the donut down, not getting a 500-calorie latte from Starbucks.
00:39:41.060 It means eating meals and not just snacking.
00:39:44.080 And that is way too hard.
00:39:45.480 So they need to go carnivore, vegan, or paleo to get out of that.
00:39:50.700 The next reason is to have sex with men at the gym.
00:39:54.020 Now, obviously, you know, women, top of the totem pole is going to be the jacked guy.
00:40:01.680 I mean, there's a reason women go and see Magic Mike.
00:40:04.200 We don't really go and see, you know, the smart guys dancing for it, you know.
00:40:15.740 So, you know, in order to do that, they're obviously going to need to be in shape too.
00:40:22.100 So here's a TikTok of a woman.
00:40:23.800 Oh, by the way, also, I forgot a breakup will also trigger this.
00:40:30.340 So, you know, being reminded that you suck as a girlfriend and that you just can't keep a relationship is hard.
00:40:36.340 So throwing yourself into the gym seems to be an option for some.
00:40:42.560 Very first proper day at the gym.
00:40:46.160 Hey, guys.
00:40:47.160 So I just came back from my very first proper day at the gym.
00:40:50.600 And I want to jump on here and kind of start documenting my journey because I want to have accountability buddies on the internet.
00:41:01.160 I've asked my friends to be my accountability buddies and everyone seems to be better at doing their own thing by themselves.
00:41:07.160 So due to the lack of friends who want to be my accountability buddy, I've decided to come on here and share my journey with you guys.
00:41:15.440 So I wanted to share a little bit about my health journey that I am kind of focusing on for this season of my life.
00:41:23.940 And that is basically I have really bad cardiac health.
00:41:27.940 So like even a little bit of exercise pushes my heart rate up to like 200.
00:41:32.440 Something in my blood pressure on average is quite low.
00:41:36.980 My orthostatic blood pressure is quite low.
00:41:39.480 So I really wanted to kind of see if I can improve that through like resistance training and just overall improving my cardiac health.
00:41:49.160 Okay, we get the idea.
00:41:51.660 The next option for a post-ho phase is finding religion or a spiritual journey.
00:41:57.740 So I dog on Nala a lot because she's a perfect example.
00:42:02.500 But, you know, it's not just Nala.
00:42:04.320 The best place to find some ex-hoes is in church.
00:42:07.360 There's no better place.
00:42:08.200 And the reason is because there's a lot of marketing towards people that are broken and have made really poor life decisions.
00:42:15.100 Now, that's all fine and dandy.
00:42:17.500 But the best thing for a ho to do is join a non-denominational church with no standards where you can live stream your baptism, do no work, and tweet about how holy you are.
00:42:31.120 That's option A.
00:42:32.360 So let's pull this up.
00:42:35.580 Here we go.
00:42:38.200 A year ago, I didn't believe in God.
00:42:43.980 Didn't believe in Jesus.
00:42:45.100 Didn't believe in God.
00:42:46.020 I thought it was super weird.
00:42:47.980 I thought it was super old-fashioned and traditional.
00:42:50.040 I thought it was super religious, super cult-y.
00:42:55.520 And, like, some people just lived their life that way.
00:42:58.340 And it was really extreme and strange.
00:43:00.860 And it just was not a part of my world.
00:43:02.880 It would never be me.
00:43:06.280 It is now.
00:43:07.420 And the worst part is she's hot enough.
00:43:12.220 You guys are going to fall for it.
00:43:13.580 There's no way you won't.
00:43:14.740 I don't believe you.
00:43:17.780 You're like, Pearl, not me.
00:43:19.540 I'm too alpha.
00:43:20.280 I wouldn't fall for that.
00:43:21.900 Yeah, okay.
00:43:23.040 Okay, guys.
00:43:25.060 Yeah, I don't.
00:43:26.940 You guys are falling for those blue eyes.
00:43:29.300 You're part of the church now.
00:43:33.600 Let me...
00:43:34.400 I didn't notice the OnlyFans.
00:43:36.480 Associated God and Jesus very heavily with what I knew of religion.
00:43:42.100 And that was one of the biggest things for me at the time
00:43:44.780 that was a block in even considering getting to know God.
00:43:50.500 I had some wild experiences, crazy experiences,
00:43:56.020 that led me to believe in God that I did not believe in.
00:44:02.460 Now, oftentimes, so, women that convert have a tendency
00:44:06.720 to think that God wants them to have a platform.
00:44:10.240 And they often hear voices.
00:44:13.120 And they attribute that to God, you know.
00:44:15.400 And it's the same story, right?
00:44:17.020 It's, I was alone, I'd just, I'd been partying and being a hoe,
00:44:21.880 and then I got, then I heard God speak to me.
00:44:24.980 Lady, he did not speak to you.
00:44:26.340 You are just crazy.
00:44:28.160 You are insane.
00:44:29.840 You hear voices because you're hungover
00:44:32.540 from getting tag-teamed the night before.
00:44:37.340 I mean, do you guys really believe that Nala heard God's voice?
00:44:44.780 Yeah, okay.
00:44:45.460 Let me tell you, if you're watching this right now
00:44:47.720 and you're like, oh, like, another Christian video
00:44:51.180 or, oh, another, like, person talking about God,
00:44:54.000 I was totally the same.
00:44:55.940 Every time I saw these videos pop up on my,
00:44:58.260 a bit earlier in my journey, like,
00:44:59.920 every time I saw these videos pop up on my TikTok,
00:45:02.260 I would be like, oh, but she's from a Christian family
00:45:05.120 or, oh, she grew up that way or she goes to church
00:45:08.280 or she has a best friend that's a Christian.
00:45:10.700 You know, like, I just always thought
00:45:13.500 it was ingrained in their life somehow.
00:45:16.840 I am telling you, I went from zero belief,
00:45:20.840 zero faith, zero care to believe
00:45:23.760 to full, undoubtable, full heart, brain, body,
00:45:33.220 full belief, full knowledge that the fact that this is so real
00:45:37.540 because the wildest things happened to me,
00:45:40.380 the craziest things happened to me.
00:45:41.580 I went through a really hard time and then...
00:45:44.340 Hoeing.
00:45:45.260 The hard time is a hard time, if you know what I mean.
00:45:50.980 It's, I, it always has to do with a boy.
00:45:55.960 You know, it's interesting
00:45:56.780 because when men go through hard times,
00:45:59.440 it's like, well, my mom was sick.
00:46:02.980 My, I was deployed.
00:46:06.140 My best friend tried to commit suicide.
00:46:09.200 When women go through a hard time, it's...
00:46:13.440 I got dumped.
00:46:14.500 I took an L.
00:46:15.340 He didn't call me back.
00:46:16.720 And these insane things started happening.
00:46:20.120 The only Christian I knew was my boss.
00:46:22.380 Oh my gosh.
00:46:23.260 Cap, cap, cap.
00:46:24.200 You guys in the chat, you would fall for it.
00:46:25.960 I don't believe you wouldn't.
00:46:28.360 I just, you know,
00:46:29.240 I don't believe if a woman this attractive
00:46:32.700 was super into you,
00:46:34.700 you would want to believe it.
00:46:36.180 I've seen, you know what?
00:46:37.280 I've seen this too many times.
00:46:39.300 I've just seen it.
00:46:40.560 You guys would fall for it hook, line, and sinker.
00:46:48.660 They're all saying they wouldn't.
00:46:50.100 Yeah, okay.
00:46:52.080 Nah, nah, I wouldn't.
00:46:54.040 Oh, I'm...
00:46:55.960 Okay.
00:46:58.000 So literally, thank God for her
00:46:59.820 because she helped me.
00:47:01.940 And I hadn't told her all these strange things
00:47:04.980 that were happening to me
00:47:05.720 until eventually one day I just blurted it out
00:47:07.820 because she was the only Christian I knew.
00:47:09.340 And she was like,
00:47:10.300 you need to start reading a Bible.
00:47:13.020 And then I'll, even then, I was like,
00:47:16.020 no, like, girl, be for real.
00:47:19.900 Me?
00:47:20.560 Read a Bible?
00:47:21.360 Me?
00:47:22.500 Read a Bible?
00:47:23.780 Like, a Bible.
00:47:28.460 Like, in what world?
00:47:30.800 But I did.
00:47:31.560 She bought me a really cute Bible.
00:47:33.580 And...
00:47:34.100 Kenneth said he'd hit and then see what happened.
00:47:36.580 That's an honest answer.
00:47:38.140 Thank you for being honest.
00:47:39.940 Thank you, Kenneth.
00:47:41.420 Thank you.
00:47:42.040 Because that right there is honesty.
00:47:45.980 What I don't need
00:47:47.000 is the virtue signal in the chat.
00:47:50.620 You know, I just want you to know,
00:47:52.300 I...
00:47:52.980 The shows that I did earlier,
00:47:55.060 I would see the men say
00:47:58.780 that they don't date those types of women
00:48:01.600 or they wouldn't fall for that, blah, blah, blah.
00:48:03.920 And do you know who I would see them dating later?
00:48:08.840 Oh, you know, there's this one guy
00:48:10.000 who'd come on their show a lot.
00:48:11.540 And he would have a friend before he met her.
00:48:14.980 She was exactly like that.
00:48:17.720 So, I'm not blaming you guys.
00:48:21.040 Can we just, like, call...
00:48:22.140 Can we just be...
00:48:22.900 I just...
00:48:23.360 I want some level of honesty between me and you.
00:48:25.940 I want some, like...
00:48:27.560 You...
00:48:27.920 Not only would you believe it,
00:48:30.260 you might...
00:48:30.740 You would want to believe it.
00:48:32.120 You would say, lie to me more.
00:48:35.480 That's exactly...
00:48:36.160 You know, it's like when women start talking
00:48:38.660 about stuff they've done before
00:48:40.100 and the guys are like,
00:48:40.920 oh, shut up, shut up, shut up.
00:48:44.660 It's because you're saying lie to me, please.
00:48:47.080 And I don't blame you guys.
00:48:48.220 You know what I'm like?
00:48:49.260 We like it when the men lie to us.
00:48:52.440 You're the most beautiful woman in the world.
00:48:56.160 Yeah, okay.
00:48:57.580 Then why don't I...
00:48:58.520 Why aren't I on the cover of Vogue?
00:49:00.100 Like, why haven't I had these outcomes?
00:49:02.120 Chill, Pearl.
00:49:05.860 They're starved.
00:49:11.040 I'm just...
00:49:12.160 Yeah, okay.
00:49:13.580 You're telling me the Australian accent,
00:49:15.840 blonde hair, blue eyes,
00:49:18.540 you would not...
00:49:20.380 You would not fall for it.
00:49:26.960 Soft-spoken.
00:49:28.900 You know, that gives...
00:49:30.200 You guys think if a girl saw...
00:49:32.100 You know, some girls have two voices.
00:49:34.280 They have two voices.
00:49:35.240 They have the...
00:49:35.980 And this totally happened on a team I was on in college.
00:49:40.360 There was this woman.
00:49:41.500 And to us, she was a total B.
00:49:43.360 She was a total bitch.
00:49:44.380 Like, she was not nice to anybody.
00:49:45.880 Always came in with a scowl on her face,
00:49:47.380 always screaming at practice.
00:49:49.260 And then we would see her go up to her boyfriend.
00:49:51.260 She would have a different voice.
00:49:54.060 And we're all like, what?
00:49:56.960 You were just...
00:49:58.280 How did you...
00:50:00.740 But you guys have it too.
00:50:02.900 You guys will be in the locker room
00:50:04.320 showing each other, I don't know,
00:50:06.720 nudes or whatever the hell you guys do.
00:50:08.800 I don't want to know.
00:50:09.760 I don't want to know
00:50:12.320 the side of men in the locker room.
00:50:16.180 I just don't want to say...
00:50:17.540 I don't...
00:50:18.300 I think you guys would hurt my feelings.
00:50:20.320 I just think you would.
00:50:21.520 And I'm good on it.
00:50:23.360 But women have that too, you know?
00:50:26.080 So we know when you're falling hook, line, and sinker,
00:50:29.720 she would pull it off.
00:50:30.880 She completely would pull it off.
00:50:35.840 First, pointy chin.
00:50:37.320 Looks fade.
00:50:38.060 She would get you.
00:50:43.140 And I took it politely,
00:50:45.260 opened a page, never stopped.
00:50:47.680 So this is weird.
00:50:48.580 It is just a part of life.
00:50:50.100 And it's not crazy to just
00:50:52.540 get curious about it.
00:50:55.420 Like, it...
00:50:56.020 She's talking about religion and God.
00:50:58.900 Like, she's, like,
00:51:00.600 getting curious about your sexuality.
00:51:02.880 Like, it's the same...
00:51:04.400 It's the same words.
00:51:06.060 Or the same kind of phrases.
00:51:08.660 Just different, different things.
00:51:10.400 Changed my life.
00:51:12.680 Don't let the stigma that I had of religion
00:51:15.620 deter you from what is actually God.
00:51:21.200 Because God is healing.
00:51:22.340 God is love.
00:51:22.860 God is blessings.
00:51:23.860 There are so many things that religions do
00:51:26.660 that I do not agree with at all.
00:51:29.480 And there we go.
00:51:30.760 Remember, it's pick and choose Christianity.
00:51:33.140 The thing is, being a real Christian is real hard.
00:51:36.000 Again, that's why I try to say, you know,
00:51:38.420 don't look up to me.
00:51:39.900 There's...
00:51:41.100 People be like,
00:51:41.780 Pearl, don't you want people to...
00:51:43.960 Like, don't you want young women to look up to you?
00:51:46.080 No.
00:51:47.200 No, go find an Amish girl or something.
00:51:49.560 Not me.
00:51:50.600 Now...
00:51:51.140 But there's, like, a hierarchy, right?
00:51:55.100 Of the best women and the worst women.
00:51:57.900 And the thing is, women don't want to do anything hard.
00:52:01.360 So they'll always say there's stuff I don't agree with
00:52:03.540 about Christianity when it means
00:52:05.280 saying something that might get them ostracized,
00:52:08.980 not being a hoe.
00:52:10.160 All the hard parts, we just tend to opt out of.
00:52:14.880 The men will do the hard parts
00:52:16.180 because, you know, they have...
00:52:17.500 Not all, not all, not all.
00:52:18.800 But they have standards and, you know, honor.
00:52:23.380 And when they say things, they mean them.
00:52:26.580 We do not.
00:52:27.640 We just say things.
00:52:30.400 I'm going to read the chat for a second.
00:52:32.320 If you have a comment,
00:52:33.960 put it in the chat on the website.
00:52:35.420 Someone wants to know what happened to Auntie.
00:52:37.100 Me and Auntie are still friends.
00:52:38.200 I might have her call in one show.
00:52:39.700 That might be kind of fun for us to do.
00:52:41.440 So, um, I texted her the other day, actually.
00:52:47.680 Where are we going?
00:52:49.840 Remember, put Pearl Reed.
00:52:52.940 If you want me to read something.
00:52:55.500 Pearl, why don't you film the advertising
00:52:57.860 so you play it?
00:52:58.920 Aren't you tired of repeating it?
00:53:01.700 I think it's better interaction when I read it,
00:53:04.720 but maybe I'll look into that.
00:53:07.420 Curveball says it was very traumatizing
00:53:09.320 when a girlfriend started telling me
00:53:10.960 that God speaks to her.
00:53:13.100 Yeah, you know she's crazy.
00:53:15.120 But again, you know,
00:53:16.620 if she says it with those blue eyes,
00:53:18.760 you, I don't, you know,
00:53:21.040 everyone just assumes
00:53:22.160 because people talk about Christianity
00:53:24.240 that they're moral immediately.
00:53:28.500 I don't know what these people do
00:53:29.800 in their free time.
00:53:31.960 You know, so being the morality police,
00:53:34.340 I'm just going to continue.
00:53:42.800 You're right.
00:53:43.560 Elizabeth Holmes,
00:53:44.940 the Theranos con artist,
00:53:47.160 used two different voices
00:53:48.400 depending on the situation.
00:53:50.340 That's more common than you guys think.
00:53:53.980 You got to go up like two octaves.
00:53:57.000 Yeah, it's, I have a deep voice.
00:53:59.000 You know what?
00:53:59.520 My voice has gotten deeper
00:54:00.840 the last three years
00:54:02.180 because of this job.
00:54:03.660 I think it's gotten an octave lower.
00:54:08.740 Girls like to do 180s
00:54:10.280 because they figure out
00:54:11.360 it's a way to get polite society
00:54:14.160 to call, to stop calling them hoes.
00:54:18.140 And I thank them for that
00:54:19.780 because I wouldn't be employed.
00:54:21.100 Thank you guys.
00:54:22.440 Like at all.
00:54:23.180 And it was a huge block.
00:54:25.620 Also, life here on earth
00:54:27.380 is just way too short
00:54:29.220 and way too amazing
00:54:30.540 to be wasting it
00:54:31.400 on what people think
00:54:32.420 of what you're doing.
00:54:34.220 You know,
00:54:34.440 as long as you're not doing
00:54:35.160 terrible things,
00:54:36.380 then it doesn't matter.
00:54:38.540 Let me get this straight.
00:54:39.640 Now she's saying
00:54:40.780 it doesn't matter
00:54:42.300 what people think.
00:54:45.540 Okay.
00:54:45.900 What?
00:54:47.220 Like,
00:54:48.340 who gives a dang
00:54:49.140 about
00:54:49.680 what people think
00:54:51.360 of what you're doing?
00:54:52.200 Okay, we're going to go.
00:54:53.360 Craig says,
00:54:54.060 Pearl Reed,
00:54:54.920 what about turning the
00:54:56.320 I don't need a woman man
00:54:57.960 on its head?
00:54:58.660 I think society
00:54:59.460 would be better off.
00:55:02.640 The sexes are going
00:55:03.780 to go further
00:55:04.360 and further apart.
00:55:05.720 Don't expect your siblings
00:55:07.140 to have children.
00:55:09.240 At least half of them
00:55:10.640 aren't going to do it.
00:55:11.500 So,
00:55:12.680 okay.
00:55:14.140 Let me,
00:55:15.200 let me go to the next.
00:55:17.820 So,
00:55:18.640 the next option for them
00:55:21.600 is to become a trad wife.
00:55:24.840 Now,
00:55:25.360 becoming a trad wife
00:55:26.340 is going to be tough
00:55:27.140 because the men
00:55:28.560 that have been around
00:55:29.720 the players,
00:55:30.600 the charming men,
00:55:31.960 the men that have the choice
00:55:33.520 are going to know your BS.
00:55:35.960 Rebrand when they see it,
00:55:37.460 right?
00:55:37.720 So,
00:55:37.920 they're going to,
00:55:39.020 so,
00:55:39.840 when a woman's going to
00:55:40.860 become a trad wife
00:55:42.020 and she's a former hoe,
00:55:44.620 she's got to pick
00:55:46.180 an easy target.
00:55:47.640 That's why you'll notice
00:55:48.460 their targets.
00:55:49.180 They're always dorky guys
00:55:50.460 without a lot of experience.
00:55:52.380 If you ask them
00:55:53.240 how many relationships
00:55:54.220 have they been in,
00:55:55.740 it's usually one,
00:55:57.140 maybe two.
00:55:58.660 That's called
00:55:59.580 an easy target
00:56:01.380 because,
00:56:01.880 again,
00:56:02.660 the woman,
00:56:03.360 even,
00:56:03.720 let's pretend,
00:56:04.820 a lot of men
00:56:05.260 she's interacted with,
00:56:06.520 dealt with,
00:56:07.900 talked to.
00:56:09.060 Her manipulation power,
00:56:11.080 let's not,
00:56:11.740 like the sex
00:56:12.340 has manipulated each other.
00:56:13.740 You guys say
00:56:14.340 you're the most beautiful woman
00:56:15.560 in the world.
00:56:17.040 You pretend you don't like us
00:56:18.260 as much as we,
00:56:19.080 as you do
00:56:19.920 to keep us interested.
00:56:21.440 You do the hot and cold.
00:56:23.340 I've seen,
00:56:23.920 I've seen the dating advice stuff,
00:56:25.600 okay?
00:56:26.280 We do the same thing.
00:56:27.360 We have,
00:56:27.860 we manipulate each other.
00:56:29.240 Women are just better at it.
00:56:31.640 Women are just,
00:56:32.480 we're A1 manipulators.
00:56:33.920 We've been attractive.
00:56:35.120 When he saw her without makeup,
00:56:36.520 he just didn't know what to do.
00:56:41.120 Now,
00:56:42.260 so the trad wives,
00:56:43.700 usually they'll do
00:56:44.560 one of three things.
00:56:45.660 they go for a man
00:56:47.820 about their age
00:56:48.800 because,
00:56:50.420 again,
00:56:51.020 a woman,
00:56:51.860 late 20s,
00:56:52.780 mid 20s,
00:56:53.380 early 30s,
00:56:54.040 way more experienced
00:56:55.060 than the man
00:56:55.640 and she's going to run
00:56:57.460 that relationship.
00:56:59.120 She's going to give up
00:56:59.960 nothing to be a trad wife.
00:57:01.420 She might be an influencer,
00:57:02.920 build a trad wife persona
00:57:04.960 on the internet
00:57:05.720 and
00:57:07.460 anything that she wants to do,
00:57:11.180 God is going to be
00:57:11.880 calling her to do it.
00:57:12.820 So she's going to say
00:57:14.460 God wants her
00:57:15.100 to have a platform.
00:57:16.740 She's going to say
00:57:17.440 God wants me to go
00:57:18.640 put the kids
00:57:20.520 in this school.
00:57:22.640 That's like
00:57:23.300 a form of manipulation.
00:57:24.780 They have a tendency
00:57:25.260 to use God.
00:57:28.640 They also have a tendency,
00:57:29.980 right,
00:57:30.440 you know,
00:57:30.720 they're getting married
00:57:32.340 late 20,
00:57:32.980 there's something there,
00:57:34.060 right?
00:57:34.420 So they have a tendency
00:57:36.100 to use the Bible
00:57:38.060 to shame any behavior
00:57:39.320 they don't like
00:57:40.160 from the man.
00:57:40.920 So a common thing
00:57:42.020 I hear from the trad wives
00:57:43.260 is that all the men
00:57:44.620 just aren't holy enough.
00:57:45.800 He's not leading me to God.
00:57:50.100 And is it like
00:57:50.900 a worse form
00:57:51.740 of manipulation
00:57:52.340 because you're using God
00:57:53.960 to get what you want
00:57:55.160 and manipulate?
00:57:56.800 It's just,
00:57:57.940 it's like you respect
00:57:59.760 the player.
00:58:00.560 I respect the player more.
00:58:02.560 The Tinder swindler
00:58:03.780 who got all that money
00:58:04.980 out of the women.
00:58:06.860 I really respect him more
00:58:08.740 than the trad wives
00:58:09.880 using God
00:58:10.480 to manipulate their husband.
00:58:12.480 The Tinder swindler,
00:58:14.320 at least you can be impressed.
00:58:17.040 That's hard to do.
00:58:19.720 Now,
00:58:20.760 the thing is
00:58:22.340 these trad wives,
00:58:23.160 they don't know
00:58:23.580 the alpha and beta traits,
00:58:25.540 right?
00:58:25.940 So oftentimes,
00:58:27.060 they marry a beta guy,
00:58:28.560 unfortunately.
00:58:30.280 Now,
00:58:31.300 or a guy they see
00:58:32.700 as beta
00:58:33.260 based on the men
00:58:34.340 that they've dated before.
00:58:35.800 They don't know
00:58:36.620 that they don't like him.
00:58:37.900 You know,
00:58:38.100 they,
00:58:38.600 it's not like these women
00:58:39.600 go in wanting
00:58:40.540 to divorce their husband,
00:58:41.800 but they need a kid.
00:58:44.380 They need a kid.
00:58:45.460 They got to get married.
00:58:47.040 So,
00:58:47.720 they have to do
00:58:48.860 our hamster wheel,
00:58:49.980 convince ourselves
00:58:50.660 we like him.
00:58:51.380 The problem is
00:58:52.160 that kid gets born.
00:58:55.040 Postpartum depression
00:58:55.980 is post-nut clarity
00:58:57.740 for women.
00:58:58.380 Haven't you guys ever
00:58:59.160 really thought
00:58:59.800 you liked a woman
00:59:00.560 that had sex with her
00:59:01.920 and realized
00:59:02.420 you just wanted a blowjob?
00:59:05.000 That's it.
00:59:06.560 Women have that same thing
00:59:07.940 with children.
00:59:08.780 They think they like the man.
00:59:10.540 That's why a lot of times
00:59:11.340 the sexless marriages
00:59:12.380 happen after the kid.
00:59:16.420 Now,
00:59:17.760 these women also have a tendency
00:59:20.340 to shame male sexuality.
00:59:22.820 So,
00:59:23.380 they have no problem
00:59:24.300 not sleeping
00:59:25.200 with their husbands
00:59:25.920 and they will shame men
00:59:27.660 for trying
00:59:28.380 and also shame them
00:59:29.680 for watching porn.
00:59:31.100 Now,
00:59:31.280 we all know
00:59:31.700 how strong
00:59:32.680 the male need
00:59:33.700 for variety is.
00:59:35.700 There's a reason
00:59:36.800 that,
00:59:39.340 you know,
00:59:39.600 in a way,
00:59:40.020 this is just nature
00:59:40.900 correcting itself
00:59:41.920 because historically,
00:59:43.900 eight women
00:59:44.400 reproduced for one man.
00:59:46.760 Eight.
00:59:47.620 So,
00:59:48.220 the sexless men,
00:59:49.200 the women sleeping
00:59:49.840 with the same men,
00:59:50.520 this is just nature
00:59:51.560 kind of taking its course,
00:59:53.560 right?
00:59:56.580 But,
00:59:57.240 what they'll do
00:59:57.920 is they don't really
00:59:58.620 want to have sex with him
00:59:59.640 but they also don't want
01:00:00.540 to lose their resources
01:00:01.980 and their husband
01:00:02.600 going elsewhere.
01:00:04.020 So,
01:00:04.320 they shame the porn.
01:00:05.140 They act like porn
01:00:06.280 is the root of all evil
01:00:07.660 in society.
01:00:09.720 I mean,
01:00:10.080 70% of men
01:00:11.100 watch porn,
01:00:12.500 admittedly,
01:00:13.760 in the last month.
01:00:16.160 I don't know.
01:00:16.640 Society's running okay.
01:00:18.940 I wanted to have sex
01:00:19.900 with them.
01:00:22.300 I know what they say.
01:00:24.580 To me,
01:00:25.560 I think women
01:00:26.400 just don't like
01:00:27.040 losing the power
01:00:27.920 because they can't
01:00:28.840 manipulate the guys
01:00:29.780 as much
01:00:30.380 if they have
01:00:30.960 another outlet,
01:00:32.000 another form.
01:00:32.620 they will also
01:00:35.040 shame men
01:00:35.960 that are players
01:00:37.060 who are exploring
01:00:37.920 their options.
01:00:38.720 So,
01:00:38.940 you guys know,
01:00:40.080 when a man's a player,
01:00:41.260 there's nothing
01:00:42.000 you are going to do
01:00:43.020 to get him
01:00:43.520 to not have sex.
01:00:47.440 Imagine,
01:00:47.980 imagine thinking
01:00:48.720 that a man
01:00:50.140 that's dating
01:00:50.720 multiple women,
01:00:51.640 having a harem
01:00:52.280 of five women
01:00:53.300 trying to have sex
01:00:54.120 with him all the time,
01:00:55.560 and you're going
01:00:56.660 to say you're
01:00:57.180 a bad person.
01:00:59.160 Do you think
01:01:00.000 that man
01:01:00.460 is going to say,
01:01:01.040 ah,
01:01:01.740 you know what?
01:01:03.300 I am a bad person.
01:01:05.600 Maybe,
01:01:06.020 yeah,
01:01:07.300 okay.
01:01:08.420 So,
01:01:09.920 what they'll do
01:01:11.180 is they,
01:01:12.960 the reason,
01:01:13.740 they love the players,
01:01:15.020 right?
01:01:15.220 They really do
01:01:15.840 because at some point
01:01:16.920 most women
01:01:18.500 have dated
01:01:19.100 a guy
01:01:20.720 that's more
01:01:21.260 of a player
01:01:21.780 than their husband,
01:01:22.640 let's just say.
01:01:23.520 Most women
01:01:24.160 do not marry
01:01:25.820 the baddest boy
01:01:27.000 that they've ever dated
01:01:27.880 or the biggest player,
01:01:28.880 whatever.
01:01:29.100 They hate
01:01:31.300 that they're attracted
01:01:32.060 to the players.
01:01:32.980 They're not attracted
01:01:33.640 to their husband
01:01:34.280 because why is,
01:01:36.480 why are these,
01:01:37.320 why are the women
01:01:38.280 yelling at the men
01:01:39.260 for sleeping around,
01:01:40.600 right?
01:01:41.680 I mean,
01:01:42.140 isn't,
01:01:43.160 you kind of wonder
01:01:43.840 what are you doing there?
01:01:45.760 It's kind of a weird behavior.
01:01:47.520 So,
01:01:48.140 they all go on
01:01:48.760 a lot of shows
01:01:49.560 and shame men
01:01:51.220 for exploring their options
01:01:52.400 even though they did
01:01:53.140 the same thing
01:01:53.740 when they were at their peak.
01:01:54.800 Is,
01:01:55.140 we should wait
01:01:55.780 till marriage.
01:01:57.360 Making men wait
01:01:58.340 for used goods.
01:02:00.360 The 90 day rule,
01:02:01.960 et cetera.
01:02:02.560 So,
01:02:03.780 the women,
01:02:04.380 they're not as hot
01:02:05.000 or innocent
01:02:05.680 as they used to be.
01:02:06.980 You know,
01:02:07.200 good women
01:02:07.860 will make up
01:02:10.080 for this,
01:02:10.680 right?
01:02:11.040 You know,
01:02:11.360 good,
01:02:11.980 reasonable women
01:02:12.760 will know,
01:02:13.480 okay,
01:02:13.660 I'm not as attractive
01:02:14.820 as I used to be.
01:02:15.660 And there's different strategies
01:02:16.660 that women take.
01:02:17.680 We could argue
01:02:18.360 about what strategies
01:02:20.240 are the most effective,
01:02:21.700 right?
01:02:22.640 But,
01:02:23.500 you know,
01:02:23.800 some women
01:02:24.500 decide they want
01:02:25.780 to give really
01:02:28.700 good blowjobs.
01:02:30.760 That's how they try
01:02:31.560 to make up for it.
01:02:33.520 One in the chat
01:02:34.400 if that would help.
01:02:36.520 Other women,
01:02:37.520 they decide,
01:02:38.640 I'm just going
01:02:39.040 to be a nicer person.
01:02:40.100 I'm going to learn
01:02:40.820 to be more pleasant,
01:02:42.340 nicer.
01:02:42.760 You know,
01:02:42.960 like fat women.
01:02:43.840 Fat women used to,
01:02:45.440 they knew they weren't
01:02:46.360 the best,
01:02:47.020 so they made up for it
01:02:47.940 with a really good personality.
01:02:49.560 So,
01:02:49.700 maybe the women
01:02:50.180 go that route.
01:02:52.300 Other women,
01:02:52.980 you know,
01:02:53.280 I have a friend,
01:02:53.920 she was older
01:02:54.600 and she ended up
01:02:55.540 getting married
01:02:56.120 to a guy that really
01:02:58.300 doesn't take any shit.
01:02:59.500 I wouldn't say
01:03:00.060 he's beta at all.
01:03:01.720 And she did this by,
01:03:03.560 how did she do this?
01:03:05.120 She learned how to code
01:03:06.460 and built him a website
01:03:07.760 for his business.
01:03:08.800 I mean,
01:03:09.240 she learned skills
01:03:10.360 that would make
01:03:11.100 his life easier.
01:03:12.300 She quit her job,
01:03:13.180 worked for him.
01:03:14.140 That's one way to do it.
01:03:16.040 Some women will get
01:03:16.920 in better shape.
01:03:17.640 You see women
01:03:18.060 in their 30s
01:03:18.780 hitting the gym
01:03:19.480 really,
01:03:19.840 really hard.
01:03:20.440 But the,
01:03:24.860 these women think,
01:03:26.420 no,
01:03:27.420 I don't want to do that.
01:03:28.680 That's too hard.
01:03:30.380 I would rather
01:03:31.280 just charge
01:03:32.040 a higher price
01:03:32.940 for used goods.
01:03:35.120 You know,
01:03:35.560 I am going to sell,
01:03:36.860 I'm going to sell,
01:03:37.540 you know,
01:03:37.740 because at the end
01:03:38.220 of the day,
01:03:38.600 dating,
01:03:39.060 it is selling,
01:03:39.840 right?
01:03:40.000 Everyone's selling
01:03:40.660 themselves.
01:03:41.360 This is what I,
01:03:41.900 what they're going
01:03:42.600 to do is they're
01:03:43.120 going to say,
01:03:43.460 look,
01:03:43.780 I know my ex-boyfriend
01:03:45.320 hit all the time
01:03:47.120 for free.
01:03:47.620 He had to pay nothing.
01:03:48.340 But you,
01:03:49.820 you get to
01:03:50.800 wait until marriage,
01:03:53.800 put all your money
01:03:54.720 on the line,
01:03:55.280 give me the power
01:03:56.160 to destroy your legacy
01:03:57.880 and steal your children.
01:03:59.480 And in exchange,
01:04:00.620 you get nothing.
01:04:02.200 You get the promise
01:04:03.400 that I won't leave.
01:04:07.980 They will get a guy
01:04:09.000 to sign up.
01:04:10.360 Probably one of you
01:04:11.160 in the chat
01:04:11.660 that fell for those
01:04:12.460 blue eyes.
01:04:13.480 I know one,
01:04:14.040 I know it's one of you,
01:04:15.060 I don't know who.
01:04:15.920 But deep down,
01:04:20.140 the woman knows
01:04:20.820 he's an idiot.
01:04:22.080 It's not a smart move.
01:04:25.400 So,
01:04:25.980 you know,
01:04:27.220 the next option
01:04:29.680 for the,
01:04:30.220 you know,
01:04:31.460 ex-hoes
01:04:31.940 is running back
01:04:32.560 to school.
01:04:33.300 This is an excessive
01:04:34.280 focus on their career.
01:04:39.360 Generally,
01:04:40.020 it's a graduate degree
01:04:41.220 and a PhD,
01:04:42.480 so they sign up
01:04:43.100 for more debt.
01:04:43.720 They become
01:04:44.960 even more selfish
01:04:45.980 even though
01:04:46.400 they're already selfish,
01:04:47.480 so they say,
01:04:47.920 I'm focusing on me.
01:04:50.300 Sis,
01:04:50.820 you didn't need
01:04:51.320 to do that.
01:04:53.400 You focused
01:04:54.240 on yourself
01:04:54.880 enough.
01:04:57.060 Here we go.
01:04:59.360 How my heart broke,
01:05:00.380 how my broken heart
01:05:01.620 led me to going
01:05:02.660 back to school
01:05:03.520 for social work.
01:05:04.100 Heartbreak led me
01:05:05.300 to go back to school
01:05:06.200 for social work.
01:05:07.060 I've actually been wanting
01:05:07.960 to...
01:05:08.200 It's never engineering.
01:05:10.280 Talk about this
01:05:10.760 for a long time,
01:05:12.420 but...
01:05:12.700 Oh my gosh,
01:05:12.860 I need to move this.
01:05:13.840 It's never medicine.
01:05:15.040 It's always something
01:05:16.060 that doesn't make any money.
01:05:18.340 ...time about
01:05:19.080 how a heartbreak
01:05:20.180 led me to go back
01:05:21.460 to school
01:05:21.820 for social work.
01:05:22.660 I've actually been wanting
01:05:23.540 to talk about this
01:05:24.260 for a long time,
01:05:25.100 but for some reason
01:05:25.800 I just never knew
01:05:27.080 where to start.
01:05:27.920 In 2019,
01:05:28.620 I was living in LA
01:05:29.860 with my ex-boyfriend
01:05:31.120 who I was also
01:05:32.480 working for at the time.
01:05:33.780 And if anyone's
01:05:34.480 watching this
01:05:35.080 who is contemplating
01:05:36.200 working with their
01:05:36.880 significant other,
01:05:38.140 don't.
01:05:38.820 Honestly,
01:05:39.140 it has nothing to do
01:05:39.800 with why we broke up,
01:05:40.740 but it made the breakup
01:05:41.680 so messy after.
01:05:43.400 I'll never forget
01:05:44.020 the day that started
01:05:44.800 our breakup.
01:05:45.580 He woke up really early
01:05:46.620 and he went to go
01:05:47.380 play basketball
01:05:47.940 and we didn't really
01:05:48.860 speak that morning.
01:05:49.560 He kind of just like
01:05:50.060 woke up and left.
01:05:51.080 Hours later,
01:05:51.720 I haven't heard from him,
01:05:52.620 so I'm like,
01:05:52.980 hello?
01:05:53.500 Like, all of a sudden,
01:05:54.300 I see like in our text
01:05:55.640 that he turned off
01:05:56.480 his location services.
01:05:57.900 I'm like,
01:05:58.660 that's weird.
01:06:00.580 What?
01:06:01.220 I just realized
01:06:01.860 that this story time
01:06:02.700 was supposed to be
01:06:03.180 about why I went back
01:06:04.340 to school for social work,
01:06:05.300 not what happened
01:06:06.060 in our breakup.
01:06:06.560 So long story short,
01:06:08.400 he broke up with me.
01:06:09.280 I was distraught.
01:06:10.660 When I tell you
01:06:11.380 I have never felt
01:06:12.500 heartbreak like that,
01:06:14.280 tried for a very long time
01:06:15.600 to just get over it
01:06:16.640 on my own,
01:06:17.060 but I literally could not
01:06:18.320 wake up in the mornings.
01:06:19.080 Like I was that depressed.
01:06:20.560 So naturally,
01:06:21.240 I'm like,
01:06:21.680 okay,
01:06:21.900 I need help.
01:06:22.840 I found a therapist
01:06:23.480 and I started seeing her
01:06:24.480 like two times a week
01:06:25.620 and no joke,
01:06:26.640 she single-handedly
01:06:27.720 changed my life.
01:06:28.720 To the point of...
01:06:29.500 Here's a therapy phase.
01:06:31.760 I want you guys
01:06:32.420 to think about
01:06:32.920 all the people
01:06:33.420 that make money off of us
01:06:34.620 during these phases.
01:06:35.400 The doctors convincing us
01:06:36.820 that we're sick
01:06:37.340 when we're not.
01:06:40.220 Here we go,
01:06:41.180 the therapists convincing us
01:06:45.300 we need therapy
01:06:46.020 and to try to understand.
01:06:48.440 If we can't understand
01:06:49.660 our feelings,
01:06:51.900 I mean,
01:06:53.080 that's an impossible task.
01:06:54.420 I get mad for no reason
01:06:55.620 all the time.
01:06:56.940 I get happy for no reason.
01:06:58.300 I mean,
01:06:58.580 we can't understand that.
01:07:00.100 Me being like,
01:07:00.820 holy shit,
01:07:01.940 I want to be able
01:07:02.620 to do that for people.
01:07:03.560 So I took a big risk,
01:07:04.840 applied to a bunch of schools,
01:07:06.140 got in now two years
01:07:07.220 and helped people
01:07:07.940 the way that
01:07:08.520 my therapist helped me.
01:07:09.640 It's wild
01:07:10.520 how real rejection
01:07:11.840 is redirection.
01:07:13.000 If I hadn't gotten
01:07:13.720 broken up with,
01:07:14.640 I wouldn't have applied
01:07:15.500 to get my master's
01:07:16.240 in social work.
01:07:16.940 I wouldn't have found
01:07:17.720 Locks Club,
01:07:18.340 which made me realize
01:07:19.160 that I really want to work
01:07:20.500 in the dating
01:07:21.020 and relationship space.
01:07:22.540 I wouldn't have moved
01:07:23.220 to Florida during COVID,
01:07:24.380 met my boyfriend,
01:07:25.300 and I probably wouldn't
01:07:26.100 have started a TikTok.
01:07:27.240 Everything happens
01:07:28.040 for a reason.
01:07:29.200 Rejection is redirection.
01:07:30.820 Okay,
01:07:32.800 so there you go.
01:07:37.960 Next,
01:07:38.680 the false accusation realization.
01:07:41.080 So this is when
01:07:42.040 she realized
01:07:44.000 she consented
01:07:44.760 to none of her hoe activities.
01:07:48.620 This happens
01:07:49.500 when looks start to fade
01:07:50.900 because their looks
01:07:51.920 can't get them
01:07:52.900 the resources
01:07:53.640 that they used to.
01:07:54.660 They used to get
01:07:55.200 all this free stuff,
01:07:56.220 events,
01:07:57.200 attention thrown at them.
01:07:58.380 They can't get it
01:07:59.660 from that anymore.
01:08:00.640 Have you ever noticed
01:08:01.280 all the false accusation
01:08:02.700 in the Me Too ladies?
01:08:03.680 It's always after
01:08:04.360 they're hot.
01:08:05.020 They're not hot now.
01:08:06.800 They were hot before.
01:08:09.200 Then it's the
01:08:09.760 I was dumb,
01:08:10.740 young and dumb
01:08:11.400 justification.
01:08:12.500 So when men
01:08:13.040 commit a crime
01:08:14.160 when they were young,
01:08:15.060 they say I was wrong.
01:08:16.820 But women say
01:08:17.600 I was young and dumb.
01:08:19.600 Everything before,
01:08:20.840 post-ho,
01:08:21.560 I was young and dumb.
01:08:23.340 Then they got to
01:08:24.220 marry a boyfriend
01:08:25.800 who obviously
01:08:26.160 need a beta
01:08:26.680 with no standards
01:08:27.720 that lets them
01:08:28.500 do whatever they want.
01:08:30.500 You're the guy
01:08:31.160 she can get fat on.
01:08:33.580 If your woman's
01:08:34.500 getting fat on you,
01:08:35.360 if she's gaining
01:08:35.820 a ton of weight,
01:08:37.080 she's not afraid
01:08:37.740 of you dumping her.
01:08:39.120 You've instilled
01:08:39.700 no fear.
01:08:41.660 Congratulations, fellas.
01:08:44.060 She wants you
01:08:45.380 to have no standards
01:08:46.420 and zero requirements.
01:08:48.820 Next is divorce.
01:08:50.040 Divorce because
01:08:52.380 you want
01:08:53.240 to be an influencer,
01:08:54.940 go to concerts,
01:08:56.060 or join
01:08:56.880 some sort of community
01:08:58.880 that seems better
01:08:59.920 than your husband.
01:09:01.660 Next, obviously,
01:09:02.720 she's going to
01:09:03.240 raise her standards.
01:09:05.620 Make men wait
01:09:06.520 longer for sex
01:09:07.720 while offering
01:09:08.540 nothing in return.
01:09:09.540 So the older they get,
01:09:10.420 the longer that
01:09:11.200 waiting period.
01:09:12.000 It goes from
01:09:12.640 a month phase,
01:09:14.020 two months,
01:09:14.600 three months.
01:09:16.340 Give up,
01:09:17.140 have a one-night stand,
01:09:18.220 and then she repeats.
01:09:20.040 So again,
01:09:20.540 you know,
01:09:20.760 that's what they
01:09:22.060 always say,
01:09:22.380 I fell into temptation.
01:09:24.380 How do you fall?
01:09:25.920 I don't,
01:09:26.300 did you choose it,
01:09:27.120 or did you,
01:09:28.000 was it an accident?
01:09:29.900 There's a lot of steps
01:09:31.120 in having sex.
01:09:32.180 You know,
01:09:32.340 I mean,
01:09:33.320 I don't want to get
01:09:33.880 too detailed,
01:09:34.840 but you guys,
01:09:36.160 you know,
01:09:36.520 there's a lot of steps.
01:09:37.900 There's going back
01:09:38.580 to the place.
01:09:40.820 There,
01:09:41.000 it doesn't usually,
01:09:42.040 it's not just something
01:09:42.740 you fall into.
01:09:43.640 It's a choice,
01:09:46.780 but you know,
01:09:47.280 they won't say that.
01:09:48.140 So,
01:09:49.860 you know,
01:09:50.080 women back in the day
01:09:51.340 used to stay
01:09:51.980 at their parents' house
01:09:52.980 until they found a husband.
01:09:54.100 They used to learn
01:09:55.200 how to be wives
01:09:56.000 and mothers
01:09:56.480 from their mothers.
01:09:57.640 When they met the man
01:09:58.780 they were going to marry,
01:09:59.600 they would tailor themselves
01:10:00.720 to fit that man.
01:10:02.960 And they would become
01:10:04.220 the woman
01:10:04.780 that he needed her to be.
01:10:06.520 But a woman
01:10:07.160 finding herself
01:10:07.920 as a new phenomenon
01:10:08.920 started by modern women
01:10:10.900 as a way to put off
01:10:11.860 marriage,
01:10:12.320 children,
01:10:12.720 and any other
01:10:13.320 major life decision.
01:10:14.560 Because again,
01:10:16.740 the goal
01:10:17.280 of feminism
01:10:18.560 is to be able
01:10:19.360 to use our youth
01:10:20.880 on ourselves
01:10:21.440 as much as we can,
01:10:22.560 find a bailout guy later.
01:10:25.320 If we could,
01:10:26.140 if we had fertility
01:10:26.920 to push off kids
01:10:28.500 till 40,
01:10:29.520 swear we would do it.
01:10:30.740 I swear.
01:10:31.960 Instead of prioritizing
01:10:33.440 becoming a man's wife,
01:10:34.600 we learn how to be
01:10:35.720 disagreeable
01:10:36.600 and difficult.
01:10:38.340 The quest
01:10:38.760 of a woman
01:10:39.780 finding herself
01:10:40.600 usually leads
01:10:41.600 to the next phase
01:10:43.620 that is the hoe phase.
01:10:45.520 Now,
01:10:45.860 what is a modern woman's
01:10:47.340 motivation
01:10:47.840 for finding her hoe phase?
01:10:50.880 You,
01:10:51.420 now this is an article
01:10:52.640 from a feminist website
01:10:54.360 that says,
01:10:55.480 you have been
01:10:56.260 so lost
01:10:57.120 and self again.
01:10:59.420 And you feel all alone.
01:11:00.960 All you hit
01:11:02.260 is rock bottom.
01:11:03.680 You've become someone
01:11:04.720 that you don't recognize,
01:11:05.860 someone you thought
01:11:06.500 you were supposed to be.
01:11:07.840 And you don't
01:11:08.800 want to be that girl.
01:11:11.180 You've become that girl
01:11:12.360 that you promised yourself
01:11:13.740 you would never become.
01:11:14.920 That girl who doesn't know
01:11:16.040 who she is.
01:11:17.280 You tell yourself
01:11:18.040 that you're happy,
01:11:18.980 that you love the life
01:11:20.300 that you live
01:11:21.020 until you're laying in bed
01:11:22.280 at night
01:11:22.640 and it all hits you.
01:11:23.540 Those fundamental questions.
01:11:25.740 What are you even doing
01:11:26.580 with your life?
01:11:27.260 Who are you?
01:11:27.840 Are you satisfied
01:11:28.560 with where you are at?
01:11:29.640 The answer is never.
01:11:30.880 We're never satisfied.
01:11:32.400 Never.
01:11:33.380 Are you really happy
01:11:34.400 instead of what you needed?
01:11:36.040 You've conceded
01:11:36.780 to what you should have fought.
01:11:38.800 You've conceded
01:11:39.480 when you should have fought.
01:11:40.520 You've tried to be
01:11:43.060 who you thought
01:11:43.540 people expected you to be.
01:11:45.180 To please them
01:11:45.980 instead of pleasing yourself.
01:11:47.240 You're so caught up
01:11:47.900 in everything else
01:11:48.640 that you've lost yourself
01:11:50.220 along the way.
01:11:51.280 She's stuck between yourself.
01:11:52.920 You've done everything
01:11:53.840 the world has told you
01:11:55.080 would make you happy
01:11:56.400 and it has left you
01:11:57.300 with nothing but unhappiness.
01:12:00.620 You've been so desperately
01:12:01.800 trying to fill that void
01:12:03.000 but nothing you do,
01:12:04.100 nothing you get
01:12:04.700 or anyone you ever meet
01:12:05.840 seems to be able to fill it.
01:12:07.060 At the end of the day
01:12:07.740 you feel empty,
01:12:08.520 you feel lost.
01:12:09.720 What are the common actions
01:12:11.000 of a woman finding herself?
01:12:13.440 Usually dated
01:12:14.260 and broke up
01:12:15.180 with a toxic,
01:12:16.240 misogynistic ex.
01:12:18.940 Selfishness,
01:12:19.460 me, me, me
01:12:19.940 in all aspects of life.
01:12:21.520 Spent a ton of money
01:12:22.440 on living,
01:12:23.620 traveling,
01:12:24.400 and material goods.
01:12:25.940 Long-term planning stops,
01:12:27.480 live in the now
01:12:28.080 until we smash into the wall.
01:12:29.960 Becomes an amateur psychologist,
01:12:31.740 will diagnose herself
01:12:32.680 and everyone around her
01:12:33.620 with some sort
01:12:34.160 of mental disorder.
01:12:35.660 Fully embrace
01:12:36.320 misandrous ideas
01:12:37.400 like men are trash,
01:12:39.520 toxic groups
01:12:41.500 of misandrous
01:12:42.360 female friends,
01:12:43.240 etc.
01:12:44.420 Creative pundits,
01:12:45.560 social media,
01:12:46.300 content creation,
01:12:47.280 some sort of
01:12:47.780 creative business,
01:12:49.060 lack of true
01:12:49.840 self-reflection,
01:12:51.500 taking herself off
01:12:52.400 the dating market
01:12:53.100 for far too long
01:12:54.040 and rejecting
01:12:54.520 all the good men
01:12:55.240 that come along
01:12:55.880 because she's dealing
01:12:56.580 with her trauma.
01:12:58.040 This woman talks about
01:12:59.280 how she started
01:13:00.200 her healing journey.
01:13:01.400 Of course,
01:13:01.860 she had a toxic ex.
01:13:04.160 How did I start
01:13:16.760 my healing journey?
01:13:17.580 Because that was just a lot.
01:13:18.860 The first step
01:13:19.560 to starting my healing journey
01:13:20.800 was getting comfortable
01:13:22.300 with being alone.
01:13:23.640 I had this work view
01:13:24.400 that having somebody there
01:13:25.640 So that's taking herself
01:13:27.120 off the dating market
01:13:28.240 for far too long.
01:13:30.280 It was better than being
01:13:30.960 by myself
01:13:31.400 and that was far
01:13:32.360 from the case.
01:13:33.040 If you disrupt
01:13:33.420 my peace of mind,
01:13:34.240 you gotta go.
01:13:34.940 I learned that
01:13:35.480 the hard way
01:13:36.080 but it was very valuable.
01:13:37.440 I had to unlearn
01:13:38.740 everything that I had learned
01:13:40.340 within that relationship.
01:13:41.320 I had this really warped
01:13:42.600 view of myself.
01:13:43.760 She was telling me
01:13:44.280 I was too skinny.
01:13:45.400 I needed to get a boob job.
01:13:46.500 I couldn't see myself
01:13:47.740 for who I was
01:13:48.820 and what I had to offer.
01:13:52.960 Now remember,
01:13:54.460 these are the men
01:13:55.520 that can demand that.
01:13:57.560 I'm telling you,
01:14:01.300 I've heard guys
01:14:02.140 I've heard guys
01:14:06.280 that
01:14:06.780 there's one guy
01:14:10.340 in London I knew.