00:00:00.000Selfie is the quitter. I'm selfish. She's the quitter. I know I'm selfish. Girl knows what she's got to get. That's what it is. And the reason why I did it personally was because I felt, and I've had a conversation with him at the point, I felt that I was being, you know, let down in a way because I wasn't able to do what I wanted to do. And I felt like it was always about him.
00:00:24.460Yeah. And he would always put himself first. He goes, oh, I've done this. I've done this. And I go, well, yeah, I get you done that. And I support you in that. And I want you to keep going with it. But then at the end of the day, he wasn't making me feel the way that I felt that I was giving it to him. It wasn't reciprocated. Yeah, exactly. Relationships have to be a pendulum, right? It works both ways. Absolutely. And if one person's doing more than the other, it's not going to work.
00:00:53.160I think when we get into the habit of keeping score, I think that in itself is destructive.
00:00:59.020I don't know, like, what a lot of times, I don't know what we think marriage is supposed to be. Like, marriage is actually, no, it's not supposed to be. If you look at, like, truly traditional marriage, it's not supposed to be about us.
00:01:10.900Yeah, when they say, like, you know, a relationship should be 50-50, that's bullshit. It should be 100-100. Like, I give 100% of my effort, you give 100%.
00:01:19.420Because when you start getting to the point, because I could easily be like, well, when was the last time you paid for dinner? You know?
00:01:27.820What was the last time you Ubered me home? What was that? You know, I could break out the fucking, I have an accountant. I can easily do that.
00:01:36.360But then you start getting into, like, that dark side of relationships where you're, like, keeping score. And it's just dirty at that point. You're like, okay.
00:01:44.760Like, that's not what I sign up for. And I'm not saying this to, like, pick on you, but I think, honestly, like, it kind of reveals more. If you say, I'm doing more for him than he's doing for me.
00:01:53.400Like, I think it reveals more about you than him. Because it's showing that you're the type of person to keep score of what the other, like, we're not supposed to, like, we're supposed to give selflessly, you know?
00:02:03.220And I, like, that's what, like, if you look at a traditional wife, a traditional mother, they're not keeping score. Oh, I did this much for that kid. I did this much for my husband. They're selfless.
00:02:12.180Yeah. No, your mom's never like, well, listen, I scratched your back for, like, three days. So now I got to ignore you for the next three days, you little shit. You know, that doesn't work like that.
00:02:22.020But, again, I think, because it just goes back to what's happening now with our modern times. I think humanity, as of right now, is probably at an all-time high for narcissism.
00:02:44.920Everybody thinks they're sexier than they are. Everybody thinks they're smarter than they are. Everybody thinks that their political views, the fact that we've even mentioned
00:02:51.900political views at all in itself shows us how much we've been psyoped by fucking the big four tech companies. You know what I mean?
00:03:00.240So we have all these things that are, you know, symptoms of our modern culture.
00:03:04.900But the thing is this, and I said it on multiple podcasts this week here on the Just Probably Thinks podcast, and I'll continue to say it.
00:03:11.940When you are continuously focused on yourself and you're like, me, me, me, me, that's who you end up with.
00:03:19.120Because focusing on me, me, me is selfish. You've got to focus on the we, because we are all in this together.
00:03:25.620Anything you want in this life, you're going to hear from another human.
00:03:36.980There's no such thing as self-made as well.
00:03:39.120Yeah, exactly. Arnold Schwarzenegger said that in his recent documentary. Arnold Schwarzenegger said that in his recent documentary, he talked about, you know, there's no such thing as self-made.
00:03:48.640Because that's bullshit. Anybody here, Pamela, you know, all you ladies here who lost weight, whatever, you lost your weight because somebody probably from the outside inspired you.
00:03:58.440Somebody helped you. You know what I mean? So this whole me, me, me bullshit, it's disgusting.
00:04:04.820And I, you know, I told this to somebody in my life and I told her, I said, if you keep on trying to be this boss babe and me, me, me, me, that's who you're going to end up with.
00:04:16.180Well, and that's like the other thing why I say like body positivity, being obese has negative effects for all the people that care about you.
00:04:25.520Because one, you may die young and two, if you have health issues, they're the ones that are going to have to take care of you.
00:04:31.360I feel like it's come to a point big people know the risks that they're putting them through.
00:04:36.380And just like when I make that choice.
00:05:08.320But these are just excuses because at the end of the day, at the end of the day, I'm not saying they can't contribute, but at the end of the day, your life is your choices.
00:05:18.240Yeah, but you don't think about your life as a choice when you're in it.
00:08:12.480You walk for an hour a day because if you are looking in the mirror and you're unhappy because you're obese, you're fat or whatever, limit your eating window.
00:08:23.100Choose what calories you take into yourself and then walk for an hour a day.
00:08:43.200It's not, I mean, I agree with you what you're saying about the mentality.
00:08:45.800But at the same time, it is possible for all people of all races, of all genders, of all economic statuses to fast and walk for an hour a day.
00:08:58.960I don't, I mean, Pam, do you disagree with me?
00:09:03.680And I think it's, and you know, it's sad because the government is constantly saying, you know, just eat seven pounds of pocket bread a day.
00:09:14.140So basically my thing is I was always big, bigger.
00:09:18.440And just only two and a half years ago, I didn't realize how depressed I was.
00:09:24.660But once I accepted my trauma and what I went through, you know, I said I lost, I was 28 stones.
00:09:30.980I got a certain sense and certain understandings of some, one day I just woke up and I felt like, oh damn, this is how it is.
00:09:40.580And I looked in the mirror and I honestly was like, oh gosh, this is me.
00:09:45.480And it's almost like when I understood my trauma, I started losing weight.
00:09:50.320And so that's what I'm saying, so that's why I say, you know, when people have trauma and they're, and they're obese, they're actually dealing something.
00:09:59.280When you recognize it, when you recognize it, you know, when you catch it, then you can find a way forward until you accept that and that's happened to you, you will not.
00:10:08.460And I think, I think that's why it's hard for you to see it, Pearl, because you grew up in like a nice family and you didn't have to deal with a lot of trauma.
00:10:13.880Your dad wasn't whooping your ass when you were, when you were growing up, you know what I mean?
00:10:18.240When you, because that's what I do in the Inner Game Healing Summit, you know, the Inner Game Healing Endure thing is I work, I have a team of guys that we're all experts and we talk to men and we talk about healing the trauma.
00:10:29.640Right. We do a lot of hypnotherapy and we do an identification exercise where we identify the trauma and we figure out what exactly is happening.
00:10:39.100Why am I traumatized? What happened to me? And then going back to it, identifying the trauma and then coming to peace with getting some catharsis from the situation, healing them, giving them closure on the trauma, because that's what trauma is.
00:10:54.620Trauma is a, because trauma is a loop. You know what I mean? That's why, that's why people cut themselves. That's why people overeat because when they cut themselves, it is a, it is a temporary release.
00:11:05.820And a lot of people use sex as well as a coping mechanism, coping mechanism for trauma. People use food, they use drugs, they use prostitutes, gambling, video games, drugs. I mean, you name it.
00:11:16.680So when you, with the thing is though, because it's just, um, I agree. I know you have to stop. Listen, let me, let me just finish. Let me finish. Let me finish.
00:11:24.620Because the point I'm trying to make is that it is a, it is definitely a first world problem. It is a very first world problem. It is a very first world problem. It is a very first world problem.
00:11:36.040But that's what happens when you have these traumas and you do not heal them.
00:11:41.880Um, then what ends up happening is you just keep on getting on this loop of self-sabotage instruction. Go ahead.
00:11:48.880Uh, I think people in the Western world use trauma as an excuse. There's no such thing as trauma in the Western world. If you go to, there are countries that experience real trauma and the people are not overweight.
00:11:59.820I just don't believe in that. I think it's a crutch to remove accountability from people and to give people an excuse to not do what needs to be done.
00:12:08.100But I'll have these people who access to food are easy, easily accessible. That's the question.
00:12:14.340Yes. Africa is not, it's not a jungle.