Leo D.M.J. Aurini - SatW Livestream 2026-06-18： Saviour Complex

00:00:00.000 and let's see testing one two one two check check one two radio check one two

00:00:09.160 mic check live it appears that we are live and good lord this meat is hitting

00:00:23.560 me very well tonight if you're asking so guys I was in a different town and

00:00:33.740 apparently this mean it's a local thing they only sell it in southern Alberta

00:00:37.800 and I was up in central Alberta which is a good six and a half hour drive

00:00:45.480 Alberta's pretty large. This isn't like America, where you drive two hours and

00:00:54.140 you're three states over. No, we're in the untamed wild west, the vast

00:01:02.480 frozen expanses of the true north here. So I was up there, but they didn't have my

00:01:15.800 brand of mead. And so quite foolishly, I picked the first one off of the shelf

00:01:23.800 that I saw and it was about 99% cranberry juice which if you know

00:01:34.420 anything about cranberry juice was 99% apple juice and if you were lucky lucky 0.98

00:01:41.980 seven percent alcohol I felt like a 40 year old divorcee that worked for the 0.82

00:01:55.000 human resources department speaking of working for the human resources

00:02:04.840 department the human resources department also known as JT has some

00:02:09.480 music for us. So let's paste and go. We're gonna turn off the speakers and we're

00:02:19.820 gonna be playing it through here. So there, that looks like some music playing

00:02:25.440 to me. You folks tell me in the questions, comments, concerns box whether or not you

00:02:32.980 can hear it. So, yes, most of what you see called mead is not mead. It's some

00:02:49.400 sparkling wine. It's utter garbage. Utter garbage. You know what the ingredients 1.00

00:02:55.660 on this bottle of fallen timber are honey some sort of bacteria or whatever

00:03:06.480 it is that makes it alcohol and an aged whiskey barrel this is mead I feel the

00:03:17.740 Viking blood of my ancestors coursing through my veins and yes I am Italian

00:03:25.420 with Viking ancestors that's that's just a fact of nature so we are going to be

00:03:37.720 talking about the savior complex

00:03:44.100 This is something worth discussing, but, but, but, before we get to it, you may have noticed

00:03:59.100 that iconic thumbnail.

00:04:05.920 I swear, I spent half of yesterday trying to get Grok to draw me tarot cards in black

00:04:11.860 and white ink and today it's just spontaneously drawing black and white

00:04:17.320 which is fine which is fine it's a fine title card I just needed something but

00:04:22.360 you might have been wondering what is the story behind all this screaming

00:04:30.480 about pickles and wait a minute wait a minute I want to try something are we

00:04:40.700 reconnected. It says we're reconnected. We should have a better bitrate at this

00:04:46.880 point. Let us have a better bitrate. Once I see it on screen I'll know that it

00:04:59.160 actually happened. Yes, the stream is blessed now. It's still

00:05:04.700 complaining about the bitrate, but it is a blessed stream. I thought a fun place 1.00

00:05:12.500 to start this would be a friend of mine asked Grok to write a story about yours

00:05:27.320 truly. Disrupting an artisanal pickle encounter full of hipsters. So let me 0.91

00:05:42.860 Let me read you this ribald and classic tale for the ages.

00:05:50.860 Scene.

00:05:53.860 The Pickle Crusade.

00:05:56.860 The Bushwick Warehouse Market was already vibrating with the low hum of pour-over grinders and Macbook keyboards

00:06:03.860 when the door burst open like a budget action movie.

00:06:06.860 In strode Davis Arini, leather duster flapping dramatically despite the 82-degree heat,

00:06:13.760 mirrored aviators in a faded traditional masculinity t-shirt stretched over a physique that screamed,

00:06:19.620 I lift weights, but also drink heavily.

00:06:22.980 His hair was slick back. This is where it gets it wrong.

00:06:25.280 His turtle wax skull was glowing like it was the apocalypse.

00:06:33.840 him. A GoPro was already rolling on his chest rig. He was loud, obnoxiously loud. Look at this shit,

00:06:41.660 he bellowed, voice cutting through the gentle indie folk playlist like a chainsaw. Heads turned, 1.00

00:06:48.240 beards twitched in discomfort. Ezra Thornhill froze mid-brine lick. Plastic clamshell still in

00:06:56.280 hand, mustache glistening. Juniper clutched her iced oat milk, lavender latte like a shield.

00:07:03.620 Dave is zeroed in like a heat-seeking missile. 1.00

00:07:06.500 Holy fuck, would you look at this specimen. 1.00

00:07:10.460 Skinny jeans so tight I can see his fucking principal shriveling. 1.00

00:07:14.280 Hey, fickle boy, that's a clousin, you absolute clown. 1.00

00:07:18.280 Your deconstructed working class's ferment is a goddamn factory fickle from New Jersey. 1.00

00:07:24.320 Ezra tried to recover with dignity, clearing his throat. 0.99

00:07:28.720 Actually, the lack of narrative is what it makes it so...

00:07:31.920 Narrative, Davis roared, stepping closer so the whole market could enjoy the show. 0.99

00:07:36.620 You're out here deep-throating a plastic pickle like it's high art while real men are out there building shit. 1.00

00:07:42.760 This is why your birth rates are in the toilet. 1.00

00:07:45.160 You're all so busy smelling your own farts and curating vibes that you can't even pick a real woman over a fermented cucumber. 0.92

00:07:52.320 A small crowd was forming.

00:07:54.180 Someone's fixed-gear bike got knocked over in the shuffle.

00:07:57.440 Davis wasn't done.

00:07:58.360 He snatched the empty clamshell from Ezra's hand and waved it like Exhibit A.

00:08:03.060 This hipster right here spent 20 minutes photographing a supermarket pickle.

00:08:08.080 20 minutes.

00:08:09.880 I've seen Taliban fighters with less commitment to their cause.

00:08:13.080 You people's gentrified neighborhoods, price out normal folks,

00:08:16.300 then cosplay as oppressed with your $9 avocado toast and pronoun pins. 1.00

00:08:21.340 Peak fucking clownery. 1.00

00:08:23.900 Ezra, cheeks burning under his artisanal beard oil, stammered back. 1.00

00:08:27.940 This is performative masculinity as a crutch for fragile ego structures.

00:08:32.540 Performative!

00:08:33.780 Davis laughed out loud, enough to rattle the exposed bricks.

00:08:37.800 Says the guy wearing skinny jeans and a $300 vintage flannel that looks like my grandpa's work shirt?

00:08:44.060 At least I own my vices.

00:08:45.820 You call this rebellion?

00:08:47.600 He gestured wildly at the entire market. 1.00

00:08:49.940 Drinking shitty sour beer and listening to bands that sound like depressed whales fucking? 1.00

00:08:54.000 Grow a pair, get some sun that isn't from a filtered Instagram story, 1.00

00:08:58.380 and stop pretending grocery store pickles are a spiritual experience.

00:09:02.560 Juniper tried intervening.

00:09:04.560 You're literally filming this for your right-wing Griff channel.

00:09:07.420 Griff! Baby! This is content. Pure uncut truth. 0.94

00:09:12.220 Meanwhile, you're all one layoff away from moving back to Ohio

00:09:15.320 and crying about how the bodega used to be vibrant before the wrong kind of people showed up.

00:09:20.700 Ezra showed up, handshaken with righteous indie rage.

00:09:23.520 You're just threatened by alternative masculinities, Davis leaned in, grinning like a shark. 0.95

00:09:28.700 Alternative masculinity is why you're licking plastic in public, my guy. 0.95

00:09:33.740 Real talk. That pickle has more spine than you do. 0.99

00:09:37.420 Security, a tired-looking dude with a man bun, finally asked them both to leave.

00:09:41.980 Davis strode out triumphant, already narrating to his GoPro.

00:09:45.700 Another victory in the culture war. Hipsters zero, reality one.

00:09:49.560 Ezra and Juniper slunk towards the exit, muttering about toxic performativity and late-stage capitalism's emotional labor.

00:09:58.680 Ezra still smelled faintly of industrial brine for the rest of the day.

00:10:02.260 The video went viral by nightfall.

00:10:05.040 Both sides declared victory.

00:10:07.140 Nothing changed.

00:10:08.500 oh boy so that's uh four minutes in and we've said nothing

00:10:20.260 exactly where i'd like to be starving vampires tell me that the music is coming through

00:10:28.160 appropriately and it's not drowning out my booming voice

00:10:38.500 folks welcome to the live stream we actually do have some content aside from abusing hipsters

00:10:47.800 and drinking meat eventually we will be getting some whiskey not bad the starving vampires what

00:10:56.760 does not bad me does not bad mean I need to turn up turn it down

00:11:08.500 It's not bad, I guess, so, so how does it start with, you know when you've got something

00:11:31.440 to say but you don't know how to say it?

00:11:35.440 the savior complex

00:11:47.040 i was listening to the latest video by think before you sleep

00:12:00.500 now i didn't know this guy back in the day

00:12:03.200 I got introduced to him by a guy that used to really like my videos.

00:12:08.940 And I got introduced to him, I think, around 2022, 2023.

00:12:16.480 Now, this was the period where the Manosphere was going from a bunch of independent voices,

00:12:26.820 All these different vloggers kind of trying to address the problems of feminism. 0.53

00:12:38.820 And it was starting to turn into the I Hate Women cult.

00:12:43.600 Which, historically, this isn't the first time it's happened. 0.99

00:12:46.480 The MGTOW movement, the guy that...

00:12:48.900 The original MGTOW guy, at one point got sick of it, removed all references to MGTOW from his site.

00:12:55.600 Because MGTOW was transmogrifying from what he was trying to say, that the system is rigged.

00:13:06.720 His point was, the system is rigged, and you have to go your own way. 0.83

00:13:13.220 Now, if kids are a priority, well, you need a woman for that. 0.97

00:13:16.500 And you should probably be married to the mother of your children, so that's a risk you gotta take. 1.00

00:13:21.360 But you gotta own it. You gotta do it your way. 0.98

00:13:24.340 The system will not protect you. You are not going to start a job, work your way up from the mailroom, and get a gold watch upon retirement.

00:13:35.060 That's not going to fucking happen. 0.99

00:13:39.040 The system is quite, quite broken. It's been broken for a long time. 0.99

00:13:44.920 And I know all of you realize this, but you all know this.

00:13:48.080 Because in the foul year of our Lord, 2026, this is not news. This is known, Khaleesi. We all know this. But it was us trailblazers that made it known. 0.99

00:14:08.920 And when you say the system is broken, you sound a lot like a loser that's whining because

00:14:18.920 they can't succeed in the system. 0.90

00:14:22.920 And so, well, there's a lot of losers that decide to start glomming on to you when it's

00:14:31.920 You're, uh, never was. 0.97

00:14:36.340 You're not even a has-been.

00:14:38.200 You're another never was.

00:14:43.160 And so when you start pointing out that the game of marriage is rigged, 0.98

00:14:48.240 which is hurting both sexes, okay?

00:14:51.640 Let's be clear about that.

00:14:53.060 20 years back, when, 20 years back, we didn't have the internet like we have it today.

00:15:05.840 We certainly didn't have Elon Musk's ex.

00:15:11.540 We had network television.

00:15:17.040 One of the earliest things that struck me was something Aaron Clary said.

00:15:21.760 that your default response

00:15:27.460 is to attribute difficulties in your life

00:15:32.700 to mistakes you made.

00:15:35.580 You know, it's nothing else.

00:15:36.500 I can control myself.

00:15:38.200 I can't control the world,

00:15:39.180 but I can control myself.

00:15:41.040 So if I entered into a situation

00:15:43.680 and it turned into a disaster,

00:15:46.320 that must be on me.

00:15:51.760 Or at least there must have been something I could have done.

00:15:57.020 But then, you start comparing to other guys.

00:16:00.000 And not just your circle of friends, you compare to other guys on the internet. 1.00

00:16:04.580 And it's like, wait, you dated a crazy bitch? 1.00

00:16:06.440 I dated a crazy bitch. 1.00

00:16:07.760 Everybody's dating crazy bitches. 1.00

00:16:11.760 Now, in the era of network television, we were assured that women only break up with men. 1.00

00:16:20.920 They only divorce men because of good reasons. 0.75

00:16:28.260 Then you get online.

00:16:31.400 And you start seeing all these examples of people being destroyed by divorce.

00:16:39.920 And you're like, wait a minute, this is a match that I'm seeing on TV.

00:16:43.720 And it can't be just me if I'm seeing perfect strangers.

00:16:47.200 The same thing happens to them.

00:16:48.560 and it certainly isn't about not trying it's not about being a loser it's not about like i

00:16:55.600 obviously i didn't hate women before my divorce maybe i do now but i didn't before the divorce

00:17:00.080 start noticing patterns that the tv's lying to us about 1.00

00:17:04.240 and i mentioned it hits women just as hard 0.99

00:17:13.280 just not as immediately

00:17:16.800 Generally, divorce, at least ten years ago.

00:17:26.840 There's shifting tides and currents. 0.96

00:17:32.120 Tend to clean out the man. 1.00

00:17:34.880 Woman got to walk away with fun and prizes. 1.00

00:17:41.380 Not realizing that she's now a divorced woman with several kids, 1.00

00:17:46.240 and she is not of the same market value

00:17:50.120 that she was when she was in her mid-20s.

00:17:53.680 And it's slim pickings out there.

00:17:59.840 Now, I'm not here to sit in judgment

00:18:01.780 of anybody's relationship or anybody's divorce.

00:18:05.520 What I'm trying to say is that demographically,

00:18:13.120 structurally,

00:18:14.520 they implemented a marriage shredder they shredded a lot of marriages and a

00:18:25.140 lot of people made good money shredding marriages the men were the first ones 0.89

00:18:31.560 to notice because they got cleaned out financially then the women started to

00:18:36.120 notice because it really sucks being a divorced mom and I think a lot of those

00:18:43.260 marriages were probably salvageable. In the same way, cash for clunkers took a

00:18:50.620 lot of cars off the market that were perfectly fine cars. And now the price of

00:18:57.480 a used car is the price of a new car from 20 years ago. So a lot of people

00:19:04.980 made money shredding marriages. And the early Manosphere, the early MGTOW

00:19:10.820 movement. Was people noticing this? It took us a while to figure out exactly what was going on.

00:19:23.060 I'm not saying that everything stated 20 years ago was spot on. That's not what I'm saying.

00:19:29.220 But overall, the Manosphere, the MRAs, the Mektow people, these were not grifters, these

00:19:40.940 were not I hate women groups, these were not, whatever.

00:19:47.880 These were people noticing a rigged game and putting together the pieces and trying to

00:19:53.340 relearn the wisdom of our ancestors about how men and women ought to relate to one another.

00:19:59.220 But starting in the late 2015 to 2020, you know, let me just amend this.

00:20:15.060 This is my experience of it, okay?

00:20:19.140 I don't want to say this is some hard and fast block.

00:20:21.340 I've heard of a, there was a men's rights movement back in the 90s, because this has

00:20:28.180 been going on for a very long time. But the ubiquity of the internet didn't

00:20:36.040 really kick in until about 2010. So I don't think this is the first time this

00:20:44.380 has happened. I think there have been previous civilizations. But this is the

00:20:50.680 time that we have record of. And so I noticed, I noticed during my time during

00:20:58.900 all of this, that around 2015 is when the grift started. The original MGTOWs were 1.00

00:21:11.800 about the game is rigged. Doesn't matter how well you play, it's a rigged game. You

00:21:17.900 need to accept that and you need to go your own way. Don't trust the system, walk

00:21:22.580 your own path. That was the original MGTOW. And then at some point it 0.99

00:21:31.140 transmogrified into, remember, remember to hate women every day. Have you remembered 0.82

00:21:39.000 to hate women today? Remember to hate women! 1.00

00:21:47.900 some of which by the way um I'm only seeing two comments somebody toss a 1.00

00:21:54.500 comment and just make sure it's not locked I'm gonna reload the screen in a

00:21:58.700 minute if I don't see you give me some comments guys I'll make sure it's not

00:22:05.420 frozen or something they're not ignoring all of y'all there we go there we go

00:22:10.280 thank you very much I know it's kind of a last-minute stream so I shouldn't

00:22:14.720 expect a huge audience all at first I'd get paranoid about the technology rich

00:22:23.840 thank you for being here

00:22:29.840 so good if you have not had proper me geez got yourself some proper me that

00:22:35.600 should be what's this stuff I think it's 17%

00:22:44.720 14%. 14%. Respectable. Butterfly glad to have you, babe.

00:22:57.720 Yeah, so 2014 was that period where the go your own way started turning into you should 1.00

00:23:06.340 hate women. Which is not what MGTOW was supposed to be. 0.98

00:23:14.140 So in 2023, when I got introduced to Think Before You Sleep, there's a link down below to his latest video.

00:23:20.800 When I first got introduced to him, I was very, very suspicious. 0.53

00:23:30.240 His angle, at least his angle back then was very MGTOW.

00:23:35.080 You'll see from his latest video, his angle is anti-feminist.

00:23:38.300 Like, that's his market.

00:23:39.300 But he's not. His focus is on self-improvement with the philosophy that if there is universal self-improvement, the rising tide lifts all boats.

00:23:58.300 so i really like this guy this guy is absolutely solid if you if you go back into his archives

00:24:07.240 like butterfly if you go back into his archives like five years ago you might think he sounds a

00:24:13.620 little misogynist but if you listen to the whole video you're like you know what he's got a really 1.00

00:24:20.380 good point and that woman he was being misogynist she's kind of a bitch 0.99

00:24:26.840 you can see that he's kind of appealing to that 1.00

00:24:31.540 MGTOW demographic 0.97

00:24:33.660 from five years ago 1.00

00:24:34.720 right there's a big

00:24:41.620 difference between being anti-feminist 0.99

00:24:44.000 or anti

00:24:45.460 anti-marriage

00:24:47.680 shredder

00:24:48.240 let's do anti-marriage shredder 0.57

00:24:51.320 as I said 1.00

00:24:53.780 the marriage shredder it hurts the man 0.68

00:24:55.900 first, it hurts the woman second, and it hurts the children third. So there's a

00:25:02.800 bunch of people being hurt in this process, but it's staccatic.

00:25:14.820 And there were a lot of guys that were never married. There were a lot of...

00:25:22.860 There are a lot of never was.

00:25:27.220 It's one thing being a has-been, it's another thing being a never was.

00:25:31.600 There was a lot of never was. 1.00

00:25:34.380 Jumping on this bandwagon, because they're just spiteful, mutant losers. 0.96

00:25:44.140 A never was is not the same thing as a has-been. 1.00

00:25:52.860 Like a has-been, college athlete, top of his fucking game, bad luck, blows out his ankle, 0.97

00:26:02.700 doesn't make the playoffs, right? 0.99

00:26:05.540 And by the time his ankle heals, he's too freaking old.

00:26:10.520 That's a has-been, that's bad luck.

00:26:14.120 You know, you can sit around being bitter as a has-been, or you can be a has-been that

00:26:18.280 moves on and does other things with his life.

00:26:20.080 There's nothing innately shameful about being a has-been.

00:26:26.200 A never was is the guy that hated jocks back when he was 16,

00:26:31.180 and now that he's 36, he's jumping on the bandwagon of hating the whatever aspect of the industry he doesn't like.

00:26:45.760 So the original MGTOW, there's a lot of has-been energy.

00:26:49.820 A lot of guys that had their marriages blown up.

00:26:52.400 Or saw other guys get blown up.

00:26:54.180 But they didn't hate women, and they were doing deeper analysis.

00:27:08.840 Let's see.

00:27:09.380 Rich says, so that's why it stings them when you call them an insult.

00:27:11.960 I don't know if it stings.

00:27:13.260 like I've had people call me an incel 0.98

00:27:20.280 and it's like are you fucking serious 0.96

00:27:22.140 my problem is not there 0.99

00:27:26.140 I'm not saying I don't have problems

00:27:31.700 but that's not on the list

00:27:33.660 but yeah

00:27:37.500 basically you had the

00:27:39.060 it's really hard for young guys right now okay and and quite frankly any guy in your 20s

00:27:53.040 if you're a guy in your 20s even if you aren't aren't a forever alone even if you you aren't a

00:28:01.880 wizard. There is that fear that, I've only had sex with three girls, does that mean I'm an incel? 0.97

00:28:15.960 Okay, you know, I was gonna, oh, Save Your Complex is literally the name of the song that we're 0.84

00:28:19.680 playing right now. The music by JT, link to his stuff down below. However, he just messaged me

00:28:25.660 and said, this one is

00:28:27.660 for Butterfly.

00:28:29.340 So let's play it.

00:28:34.520 So yeah, I don't... 1.00

00:28:36.480 Incel is a bullshit insult. 1.00

00:28:38.300 Okay? 1.00

00:28:40.560 Especially, like,

00:28:41.800 the... 1.00

00:28:42.720 Sexual market's so fucked these days. 1.00

00:28:51.860 It's... 1.00

00:28:52.340 I don't even know what's going on,

00:28:53.960 exactly i'm way too old to understand what the teenagers are up to but it's there's a lot of

00:29:00.660 very ugly stuff like nobody's happy and

00:29:04.360 if you're a guy in your 20s who's not working out who doesn't read like if you're just playing 1.00

00:29:15.460 sitting at home and playing video games all day stop that shit man you need to get a life 0.99

00:29:20.180 not apologizing for those guys but if you're a guy that has a group of friends that has some 1.00

00:29:29.380 hobbies that reads books that's pursuing a career that makes money that does stuff

00:29:33.860 you might still be having a lot of trouble meeting women 0.99

00:29:37.840 and shitting on those guys is bullshit so i don't like that term in self for that reason 1.00

00:29:43.940 but that being said 1.00

00:29:51.120 there are the losers that have just given up on life 0.98

00:29:58.060 and they tend to be really nasty people 0.98

00:30:00.840 they tend to be very backbiting 0.93

00:30:03.080 quite vindictive 1.00

00:30:04.680 and it's no wonder that women don't want you 0.80

00:30:09.860 friendo, get your act together

00:30:12.720 and yeah when the man's beer thing first started going live it was it was quite easy to attract an

00:30:25.900 audience by taking the valid critiques of a corrupt system and turning that into an excuse for

00:30:35.340 personal failure. I don't believe in making excuses for personal failure. I

00:30:44.160 believe in getting back up, dusting yourself off, and getting back into the

00:30:49.500 race again. JT, Butterfly, loves the song. Don't worry folks, I do have whiskey after

00:31:04.960 this. Oh goodness. I absolutely love mead though. This is a whiskey barrel aged mead. It is so good.

00:31:26.160 Fantastic Bad Bridges. I remember the first time I read about it in a historical fantasy novel about

00:31:34.960 Bronze Age Ireland, and, like, what the fuck is fermented honey? 0.98

00:31:43.100 Absolutely love it. 0.95

00:31:50.360 So, that's a really long intro saying that Think Before You Sleep is a seriously cool guy.

00:31:57.360 He's very, very solid.

00:31:59.520 it. And he fights this culture war while having deep concern for the individual and discussing

00:32:09.960 actionable things that individuals can do to improve their life. So hats off to think

00:32:19.700 before you sleep. Yeah, don't crawl into a fetal position and suck your thumb for the 0.94

00:32:26.880 rest of your life. I mean, like, crawl into a little ball, cry for the weekend, you know, 0.99

00:32:33.640 then dust yourself off and get back into the race again.

00:32:43.880 Certain vampire says I cranked my volume up just in time for your glass to get slammed down again.

00:32:49.000 That was on purpose! That was on purpose. I have a time-delayed Facebook audio analysis of your home profile, JT.

00:33:03.320 so his latest video is oh man he's got some dog whistles in there he's got some 0.85

00:33:17.840 frickin dog whistles it's about this girl now her basic stance her basic 0.99

00:33:30.020 political stance. Is she strongly opposed to countries that allow child marriage, but

00:33:37.100 she also believes that people should be able to live in whatever country they

00:33:41.900 want to. Now, he went in a particular direction with that analysis, which has

00:33:56.180 nothing to do what I'm gonna be talking about. Great video, I recommend it. But

00:34:04.100 what, what stuck out to me was the Savior Complex. Now this girl in the video, I

00:34:18.020 think he briefly touches on this, okay, but it wasn't really the focus of his

00:34:23.860 video. This girl, I should say woman, she's probably like 28 or 30, but she acts like a 0.99

00:34:31.200 little girl, was very bullied as a kid, apparently. Which actually, you know what, let's rewind, 0.60

00:34:42.420 let's rewind were you actually bullied as a kid or did you just not know how to

00:34:56.580 get along with other people because if you don't know how to get along with

00:35:07.600 other people if you don't know these shibboleth if you don't know how to say

00:35:12.120 hello, how to say goodbye, how not to overstay your welcome, how to dress

00:35:19.440 acceptably. If you don't know these things, and I am, this is completely

00:35:27.880 autobiographical by the way, if you don't know these things, sometimes yes,

00:35:37.240 sometimes you will attract bullies. You're the kid that stands out, and the

00:35:44.740 bullies will go after the kid that stands out. But even if there were no

00:35:51.700 bullies, people won't really know how to respond to you because you're being 1.00

00:35:57.760 quirky chungus weirdo. Yeah, or maybe you're the one. Screw you, JT. Black leather jackets are so 1.00

00:36:10.400 fucking cool. Why can't you fucking wear one without looking like Neo? 1.00

00:36:14.060 like it could be it's entirely possible that nobody fucking bullied you you were just really 0.99

00:36:29.780 fucking weird yes literally my demonic familiar said no 0.96

00:36:40.280 she's a fantastic fashion consultant 0.99

00:36:46.160 i mean there's a major tragedy there that

00:37:03.660 nobody nobody knows what the hell they're doing these days nobody knows the common culture is

00:37:08.680 nobody knows like what like I don't know like what to buy somebody for Christmas

00:37:14.440 it's we're living in strange times I think there's a lot of people that feel

00:37:23.260 like they got bullied when actually they just like there were no rules to the

00:37:30.320 game. In fact, when I say a lot of people, I'm not saying like 20%. I'm saying like 60 to 90%

00:37:41.660 of people because we don't know what the fucking rules are anymore. Like the old rules might have 0.98

00:37:49.380 been oppressive, but at least everybody knew what they were. Now we've got no idea what the fuck is 0.98

00:37:55.360 going on and so everybody feels bullied when nobody was even trying to bully anybody 0.96

00:38:00.520 it's one of those uh you know like chicken and eggs type type of questions

00:38:17.220 there's no rules and there's no adults in charge like we're literally the adults

00:38:24.900 but we're not in charge of

00:38:26.840 anything.

00:38:36.420 Listen, I've been doing a ton

00:38:38.940 of personal work.

00:38:43.660 You know, integrating

00:38:45.000 the weirdest thing. 0.99

00:38:50.900 Everybody likes me these days. It is

00:38:52.720 so fucking weird. I don't know how 0.98

00:38:54.800 to take it. But yes, thank you, Butterfly. Thank you. Let me get back to topic. I am talking

00:39:06.140 about narcissists playing the victim game. Although I'm also talking about all of us

00:39:14.280 Because I would wager 95 to 99% of us, maybe I'm overestimating, but I will not go below 70.

00:39:30.260 70% of us, bare minimum, I think it's higher.

00:39:36.100 When we were 17, 18, 19, when we were first getting out into the world, I think all of

00:39:51.700 us were teenage narcissists with big chips on our shoulders, big personas we were trying

00:40:02.840 to live up to. Like, we weren't medieval times. You'd be assigned. You'd be the page

00:40:14.040 to a knight. You'd be the apprentice to a master. And he wouldn't give a shit about

00:40:25.520 your ego, but he'd give a shit about you. Instead, we were thrown into a world of marketing, 0.99

00:40:33.580 of movies, of hyper-reality, that cared quite a bit about our ego, but didn't give a shit 0.99

00:40:41.600 about us. I think this is one of the universal, like, narcissism is the 0.91

00:40:55.280 universal experience of the post-media age. My point in all of this is that

00:41:09.100 this this obnoxious little british girl living in japan lecturing japan about how they need to 1.00

00:41:17.660 accept more muslims while also opposing child marriage in muslim countries and calling anybody 1.00

00:41:24.140 that that that cosplays as freer in wearing an ice uniform as a nazi racist this obnoxious 0.96

00:41:31.820 little girl that is the subject of this video 1.00

00:41:39.100 is not that different from any of us.

00:41:47.840 My observation

00:41:49.400 is that what we're witnessing with her

00:41:55.220 and with most of the people on the left 0.98

00:41:58.880 You did a heckin' murder, my man! 0.88

00:42:03.100 You heckin' murderino'd that woman, Mr. Ice Agent! 0.96

00:42:09.100 Rich says, so it's the I'm the only one who matters mindset. 0.74

00:42:15.720 Well, no, it...

00:42:18.720 Yes, but projected.

00:42:27.800 The savior mindset.

00:42:31.340 And I say this as somebody that has very much embraced that mindset in the past.

00:42:39.100 Seriously, the number of women I've stayed with, that I should have just been...

00:42:45.100 Somebody needs to care about them. They have such a tragic backstory.

00:42:53.520 The core of the savior complex

00:42:57.180 is that when I was young,

00:43:04.820 nobody looked out for me.

00:43:06.220 And now that I'm older, now that I'm strong, I'm gonna look out for other

00:43:14.680 people.

00:43:27.900 I mean it makes a lot of sense doesn't it?

00:43:32.160 Anyway, Butterfly, once lit, she once lit a bar cracker in my closet as a kid in high school. 0.99

00:43:39.520 My parents threw a shit fit. 0.98

00:43:41.300 Like, what? 0.99

00:43:46.220 You almost set the house up.

00:43:48.220 You know what?

00:43:49.000 I, Jesus, I never got caught for this.

00:43:55.420 So I had a magnifying glass as a kid, because I thought I was Sherlock Holmes.

00:44:00.960 Like, you know, like, before I played Fallout and decided I was Mr. Fallout and I need lockpicks and, like, every rifle under the planet,

00:44:08.300 I was, like, the kid that, like, I read Sherlock, like, I need a fucking magnifying glass. 0.98

00:44:16.140 God, you know, we don't change. We just get smarter at pretending we're not retarded. 1.00

00:44:26.220 So I had a magnifying glass. 0.99

00:44:30.960 And it just happened to fit perfectly right into a little ledge where like the window slides in my bedroom

00:44:37.020 So I left it there one day. I came home and there's a burn mark on the frickin carpet

00:44:45.060 Easily burned the whole fucking house down. Oh 0.99

00:44:50.700 My god, I've... how am I still alive?

00:45:00.960 oh no as a kid you got no idea that houses burned down good what have you seen the the um

00:45:10.500 what do they call themselves the tartarian thing the whole town burned down just because a cow 0.98

00:45:20.000 kicked over a lantern that sounds implausible no it fucking doesn't retard it sounds eminently 0.97

00:45:28.960 plausible have some respect for the safety officer at work okay the guy's 0.99

00:45:39.880 not wrong he might be a dick but he's not wrong so you got to be totally off

00:45:49.780 topic there butterfly Jesus I can't believe it yeah that's a smart place for 0.99

00:45:53.380 a magnifying glass right by a southern window the number of times i've electrocuted myself

00:46:03.300 the number of times of jesus christ like i work around stuff that's like 80 mpa of pressure on 0.96

00:46:09.840 the fucking line and somehow i'm the responsible one 0.99

00:46:15.060 shit. 1.00

00:46:21.020 Goodness, okay, where was I? 1.00

00:46:22.520 Where was I?

00:46:24.580 So.

00:46:26.520 So.

00:46:27.360 I was arguing

00:46:28.380 I was arguing that the

00:46:32.700 nature of the environment

00:46:34.900 we grew up in, we were raised by

00:46:37.220 MTV

00:46:38.400 or Facebook algorithms

00:46:40.640 or pornography or whatever 1.00

00:46:42.920 the fuck your parental unit was. 1.00

00:46:45.060 We've been raised by these damn systems that cared a lot about our self-esteem, not about our well-being. 1.00

00:46:55.860 The total opposite. 0.99

00:46:57.300 When you used to be a page or an apprentice, where your boss would seem like a huge dick, 0.95

00:47:04.340 but he'd train you to become a man or a lady. 0.84

00:47:08.280 Now it's all about the esteem and nobody knows the rules and that inevitably

00:47:22.020 leads to feeling like you're getting picked on. Now I watched a really good

00:47:31.260 video. Oh goodness, there's this girl literature analysis who is cute as fuck 1.00

00:47:39.420 and probably married. I can't remember her name right now. I'll share one of 1.00

00:47:43.920 her videos on Twitter. She did an analysis of Holden Caulfield that I found quite

00:47:48.780 compelling because, much to my chagrin, I've been compared to that annoying

00:47:55.140 character more than once. I mean, just because I say everybody's a phony and he

00:48:00.360 said everybody's a phony oh god I found I find Holden Caulfield so annoying 0.63

00:48:12.300 because he hits very close to home for me and so this this lady did a video

00:48:17.680 depending Holden Caulfield catcher in the rye pointing out that yes the 1.00

00:48:24.980 culture is all phony. It is all fake. It's just performative. In Ken Wilbur terms, this was the

00:48:35.020 first... What Holden Caulfield was criticizing was stage five in Ken Wilbur's spiral dynamics.

00:48:44.780 That's above stage four, which is the rules. Stage five is the achievement. Stage six starts asking,

00:48:51.980 who the fuck are we trying to impress with all of this achievement? 1.00

00:48:56.200 We're all achieving so much, but we're all miserable. 0.99

00:49:00.220 Why is nobody happy?

00:49:05.500 I'm glad you like Holden Caulfield, Butterfly.

00:49:08.040 It's probably why you like me.

00:49:10.100 I find him obnoxious and irritating,

00:49:13.140 but I would say the same thing about myself.

00:49:15.760 So the title of the book, Catcher in the Rye,

00:49:18.460 is that Holden sees all these kids just plunging into the future

00:49:25.720 that it's like it's nothing but grinding for McMansions

00:49:31.220 and more toys to impress the other boys 0.99

00:49:35.820 and it's like, what the fuck is any of this? 0.98

00:49:44.360 And so Holden's got this big savior complex throughout the book. 0.98

00:49:48.460 and yet at one point here's here's the funniest part of the book to me 0.99

00:49:54.060 for some goddamn reason holden decides to hire a call girl and then instead of having sex with 0.99

00:50:05.520 a prostitute he bitches to her about his problems in life at which point the pimp shows up and beats 1.00

00:50:14.220 him up for not having sex 1.00

00:50:16.080 with the prostitute that he hired. 1.00

00:50:23.200 Butterfly, tell me 0.94

00:50:24.040 if I was wrong about that scene.

00:50:26.560 But it's like, dude, stop

00:50:28.080 wait, like, everybody here is just trying 1.00

00:50:30.040 to get their dick wet. 1.00

00:50:32.060 Like, she's a working girl. 1.00

00:50:34.400 She's gotta work. Stop wasting 1.00

00:50:36.000 I went to a 1.00

00:50:38.020 whore, she said my life's a bore 1.00

00:50:39.680 and she asked me to stop talking because I'm 1.00

00:50:42.060 bringing her down. 0.99

00:50:44.220 i have been that guy way too many times a month fuck i hate holden caulfield because he's too 0.99

00:50:54.600 close to home but he's got this damn savior complex he's trying to save it he's the catcher 0.99

00:51:02.440 in the rise saving the kids before they fall over the cliff 1.00

00:51:05.800 Holden points out valid problems, but he keeps trying to save everybody, and that's a fucking problem. 0.95

00:51:28.260 So, I was, uh, working with the guys. 0.96

00:51:35.800 Very, very, interesting guy.

00:51:49.800 And the guy's doing stuff, too. He's not just working, he's doing stuff.

00:51:54.800 He's moving around, he's talking to people, doing websites, he's got stuff going on.

00:52:02.800 He's a very cool guy. I like this guy quite a bit and I don't want to be too specific

00:52:28.080 about him.

00:52:32.800 the sake of privacy, for the sake of his ego, for basic decency, but I want to...

00:52:42.720 He also has a savior complex.

00:52:49.440 This little girl, this little 28 year old woman that Think Before You Sleep is talking about

00:52:58.960 in that video down below. She was an awkward youth. She had friendships with people that 0.99

00:53:09.100 were very, very negative to her. But she's also vicious because rather than working on 0.99

00:53:22.160 any of that, rather than on becoming a more likable person, a person that's easier to 0.98

00:53:28.680 get along with. She decided she was going to turn herself into the paladin of the oppressed.

00:53:38.520 Holden Caulfield, the catcher in the rye, she's going to say, 0.99

00:53:42.680 all those poor Muslims that just want to move to Japan. 0.99

00:53:45.720 she's an extreme case okay somebody that did no work on themselves they didn't figure out well

00:54:01.020 why don't people want to hang out with me is it because i keep making art noises in public and 0.98

00:54:07.260 jokes on you i'm only pretending to be retarded that didn't do any of the goddamn work just 0.98

00:54:12.760 decided to make herself into an avatar of the oppressed. Whom she also hates 0.99

00:54:19.460 because she's opposed to child marriage in Muslim countries. Like, it's retarded. 1.00

00:54:23.680 It's an extreme case of the retardation. Very easy to see the contradictions. And 1.00

00:54:33.940 she's trying to save the Muslims because nobody saved her.

00:54:40.760 Holden Caulfield is trying to save other kids, because quite frankly nobody ever really looked 1.00

00:54:50.260 out for Holden Caulfield, did they? As I recall, correct me if I'm wrong, Butterfly,

00:55:02.060 the book catcher in the rye starts off with holden getting kicked out of a like a prestigious

00:55:12.380 private high school sort of a thing because he hasn't been doing his homework

00:55:19.900 he's you know this is actually one of the interesting things they never really tell you

00:55:27.200 what's going on with Holden.

00:55:30.000 Something's going on with him.

00:55:32.060 There's something really bugging him. 1.00

00:55:33.700 It's not that he's stupid. 1.00

00:55:34.940 He could easily get the grades. 1.00

00:55:39.100 But there's something really bothering him.

00:55:42.520 And so he gets kicked out of school.

00:55:45.280 And the whole adventure of the story happens

00:55:47.420 because instead of phoning his parents

00:55:49.200 and telling them that he got kicked out of school,

00:55:51.900 he decides to take his money,

00:55:54.780 catch a bus,

00:55:55.520 rent a hotel 1.00

00:55:57.260 not have sex with a prostitute 1.00

00:55:59.460 etc etc 0.99

00:56:01.180 as opposed to 1.00

00:56:03.880 phoning his fucking parents 1.00

00:56:05.260 oh his brother died 1.00

00:56:10.220 shit maybe I need to re-read the book 1.00

00:56:13.980 okay so his brother 1.00

00:56:16.060 died the incipiating

00:56:17.780 the inception the 0.99

00:56:19.760 I can never remember that damn word 0.98

00:56:21.480 the incipiating incident 0.99

00:56:23.520 is that his brother died

00:56:24.960 But rather than phone his parents, rather than go to his priest, he's got nobody to go to.

00:56:43.620 This may be the defense of the character, that he literally has nobody to go to.

00:56:48.660 He's got no priest, he's got no coach, he's got no mentor, he's got no parents. 0.87

00:56:53.120 Like, there's, he does have parents, but, yeah, his parents are pricks! Exactly. 0.67

00:57:09.900 There is nobody in loco parentis. When I was talking about being a page to a knight,

00:57:16.040 or being an apprentice to a master, loco parentis.

00:57:23.120 and you know guys I'll tell you that I have I've never really had a mentor now

00:57:39.800 I'm getting older. I've actually found a couple of part-time Gen X mentors.

00:57:54.480 That's why I don't want to say that I've, you know, I don't want to be

00:57:58.220 unappreciative. There's a... back when I was a callow young man of 17 years in

00:58:08.840 Hamilton renting my own place I've been kicked out I there's an old man that I

00:58:19.460 met many times on the bus that he gave me my first phone and he always called

00:58:24.520 me the dashing swordsman because I'm because I studied the blade I pray for

00:58:35.840 for that man's soul. I'm quite

00:58:37.940 certain Ethan Hedipin, but I still pray

00:58:39.900 for the reposted soul. God bless that

00:58:41.840 man.

00:58:45.040 I don't want to

00:58:45.820 act like nobody's ever been on my side.

00:58:48.640 That's clearly not

00:58:49.780 true. That would be ungrateful.

00:58:54.020 But there's very much that

00:58:55.760 element of Holden

00:58:57.620 Caulfield, where

00:58:58.780 traumatic thing happens

00:59:01.980 and he doesn't have a mentor. He doesn't

00:59:03.880 have anybody to take care of him. 1.00

00:59:05.840 Now he goes on a stupid adventure where he pisses a lot of people off and kind of acts 1.00

00:59:14.680 like a dickhead while dreaming about catching the children in the rye, saving the other 1.00

00:59:23.400 kids. This is not the way, my people. This is not the way. That is the savior complex, 0.99

00:59:36.280 and it's an understandable savior complex, but it is not the way. When we look at all

00:59:45.400 these people on the left. Screaming about open borders, getting themselves shot. I 0.93

00:59:53.740 mean, how do you think ICE is doing? I think it's pretty good. Be careful, the ICE

01:00:00.640 has been murdered this year. All these people throwing themselves into bullets

01:00:08.160 to protect child rapists? Far out man, that's pretty far out. Or maybe it's not

01:00:23.280 that far out, maybe it's kind of close to home. 0.99

01:00:27.800 See, I mentioned, I had this co-worker who, this guy's been through the shit in life. 0.99

01:00:48.800 This guy, first of all, he really had his shit together, he was making money, extremely 0.99

01:00:55.800 physically fit. On top of his finances. And he's been through some real bad shit. 0.99

01:01:13.260 He's a man that's seen rock bottom. 0.99

01:01:25.800 What's this? 1.00

01:01:29.160 Seat says if you like Catcher in the Rye, then you are a scum. 1.00

01:01:36.400 I don't know. 1.00

01:01:37.200 Butterfly's pretty sweet.

01:01:42.840 I think if you felt vindicated by Catcher in the Rye, 1.00

01:01:47.620 then you might be scum. 0.99

01:01:50.860 But if you felt frustrated, if you felt upset, 0.99

01:01:55.800 Because you like Colden Caulfield, and you hate Colden Caulfield at the same time.

01:02:08.800 Good lord, I totally spent most of my 20s calling everybody a phony. 0.96

01:02:14.420 And I wasn't wrong, goddammit!

01:02:25.800 It's an interesting book.

01:02:29.600 I'm very suspicious that the education system pushed it on us.

01:02:36.040 But, hey, maybe sometimes the education system is good. 0.97

01:02:38.620 I don't fucking know. 0.95

01:02:41.840 It's... 0.97

01:02:42.280 Yeah, I've reached the point in my life where I don't need to say something is good or evil.

01:02:47.360 I can just say it is what it is.

01:02:50.320 It's kind of a nice place to be.

01:02:55.800 Butterfly says it just goes on and on about how shitty things are, and they are actually

01:03:08.120 shitty, and Holden is part of the shittiness himself as well, the book is somewhat self

01:03:17.960 aware of that, I don't know, maybe I need to reread it, I feel like I should be reading 0.97

01:03:24.740 something something by Ursula Le Guin I don't fucking know but maybe I should

01:03:28.580 reread it it's an interesting book it's a book that can be taken a lot of

01:03:35.780 different ways so you got to give it that but I was telling you about this

01:03:43.780 this co-worker this friend friend I'd like to think I like this guy quite a bit 0.97

01:03:51.180 He's been through the shit he's seen he has seen the horror within his own soul 0.99

01:04:00.440 Anybody can see the horror in other people's soul that's like that's fucking easy 0.99

01:04:07.980 This guy seen it in himself and he's fought against it and he's won seven out of ten of those battles

01:04:20.380 But here's the part where I'm going to be critical, and I'm worried he might hear this.

01:04:36.440 He's trying to be a savior to other people.

01:04:41.620 He's got some really grand ideas.

01:04:49.220 About 15% of those ideas are solid.

01:04:58.720 The other 85% is, man, you could just buy the homeless dude heroin.

01:05:08.620 Lushwitz does not like the music!

01:05:14.760 You know, we're gonna play this one out, Butterfly. I know you like this track. We're gonna go back to Savior Complex, the previous track.

01:05:34.060 This friend, he's doing good shit. He's doing interesting shit. 0.98

01:05:38.620 The savior complex, the trying to save others because nobody was there to save you, that's 0.99

01:05:56.900 what the entire political left is doing right now.

01:05:59.820 And that's the point I wanted to make about all of this, that the sheer psychopathy of

01:06:06.700 the political left, the incredible destruction to our nations, to our marriages, to our industry, 0.98

01:06:17.140 to our culture, to cinematography, the way they destroyed Star Wars, for fuck's sake, 0.96

01:06:24.340 is literally quite literally and directly because of the savior complex 0.93

01:06:37.340 we are back to the previous track what is this track anyway let me hear it

01:06:54.340 oh that's way more light-hearted than I thought it would be but it fits I've had

01:07:01.300 a fast cadence this three so what is the alternative to the savior complex I think

01:07:21.940 adequately defined the savior combo we all we all we're on the same page i don't know what i'm

01:07:27.940 talking about because this is something i'm only recently recovering from oh wait wait wait speaking

01:07:39.300 of saving us uh jt is gonna save us from having to listen to the same track this uh so let's

01:07:45.460 we're gonna pop this one on. This is Velvet Subwoofer by Later Than Eight, which is the

01:08:01.940 official name of JT's experimental work. JT, toss a link into the comments for the people.

01:08:15.460 You're kidding me. You like space ball. Man, we got very different senses. I just, yeah, I don't think Mel Brooks is funny.

01:08:30.580 I'm sorry. He takes something sacred and he adds a diarrhea joke.

01:08:40.760 Like, I'm not hating on you for thinking it's funny.

01:08:45.560 There's parts of Robin Hood men in tights that were pretty funny.

01:08:53.660 But there's, like, I just, Mel Brooks is too rude for me, man.

01:08:57.800 I don't think he's, he's too rude.

01:09:00.760 Listen, half of me is, half of me is Italian.

01:09:05.500 The other half is very, very prim and proper Scottish Viking nobility.

01:09:13.140 And I get really upset over poop jokes.

01:09:18.360 It's so rude.

01:09:22.000 Inappropriate.

01:09:22.760 I can do a morning show once in a while.

01:09:36.200 That would be interesting.

01:09:38.400 You know what, Butterfly?

01:09:39.940 I'll take that into consideration.

01:09:42.740 We'll see how I feel about...

01:09:44.460 That would be interesting.

01:09:45.320 How do I feel about the news?

01:09:49.820 You know, I can read through anonymous conservatives.

01:09:52.760 site, his news rollup, that's, yeah, that's not a bad idea, actually, that's something,

01:10:02.160 that's interesting, might be of some worth, anyway, yeah, not a fan of Mel Brooks, I've

01:10:14.580 tried, not a fan of him, not judging you if you are, I, like, dude, I like independence

01:10:22.740 day, okay? I think it's a great movie. It's stupid, it's all fucked, but I really like it.

01:10:32.260 So I just, I just don't like Mel Brooks. 1.00

01:10:41.620 Where were we? Where the fuck were we? 0.99

01:10:46.580 All right, so what the fuck are we supposed to do 0.99

01:10:48.980 if the savior complex makes the world worse. 0.99

01:11:07.440 How the fuck are we supposed to save the world 0.92

01:11:09.600 if saving the world makes the world worse? 0.95

01:11:18.980 this is something I put a lot I I feel very strong I've always had a very

01:11:34.740 strong sense of moral duty which it's so if you are serious about the question

01:11:48.520 of moral duty. You know, it's easy. It's easy to pick up, to put on the outfit of moral

01:12:02.900 code and go be a paladin for that moral code. That's very, very simple. Look at Islam. Islam

01:12:12.300 is like the archetypal example 1.00

01:12:14.240 of taking juvenile

01:12:16.160 masculinity, providing

01:12:18.260 them a self-righteousness code, 0.62

01:12:21.100 and then providing

01:12:22.220 them the sort of reward

01:12:23.980 that a

01:12:26.220 teenager would be interested in. You get

01:12:28.300 72 virgins in heaven. 0.96

01:12:34.020 Only a teenager would want that.

01:12:38.120 And then you tell them never to think about anything.

01:12:40.500 Just go be a warrior for the cause.

01:12:42.300 and so people look at something like islam

01:12:52.380 they look at holden caulfield who like in the story

01:12:59.020 in holden caulfield's adventure

01:13:03.580 he kind of makes a mess of everything like everything he touches

01:13:09.400 is worse for him

01:13:13.220 having been there.

01:13:18.220 He had every justification,

01:13:21.500 every excuse in the world

01:13:23.280 to do what he did.

01:13:26.840 But he didn't improve things.

01:13:30.200 he's obsessed with morality

01:13:40.120 but he makes

01:13:41.200 everybody's day worse

01:13:43.600 and it's not obvious that

01:13:46.240 the people whose days

01:13:49.840 he made worse

01:13:50.900 were particularly

01:13:54.040 agentic 0.99

01:13:55.160 like the pimp and the prostitute 0.96

01:13:58.320 that he just disrupts their business model. 0.90

01:14:02.260 It's not like they designed the pimp and prostitute industry.

01:14:06.360 It's not like they learned the lesson.

01:14:07.980 He just kind of made their day inconvenient.

01:14:19.380 Bolden is not wrong,

01:14:21.360 but he can't find any valid targets.

01:14:24.400 so

01:14:28.000 if you don't want to be

01:14:30.500 Holden Caulfield starting fights

01:14:32.440 with your neighbor

01:14:33.040 there was a

01:14:35.860 there's a threat

01:14:38.760 years back

01:14:41.080 allegedly from an Illuminati

01:14:44.420 member

01:14:44.800 who kept

01:14:48.420 addressing one of the characters

01:14:50.180 and calling him Travis Bickle

01:14:51.840 from Taxi Driver

01:14:53.340 Travis Pickle, Holden Caulfield, six of one, half a dozen of the other.

01:15:08.340 Taxi Driver happens in a more mature context than Catcher in the Rye.

01:15:12.340 Taxi Driver happens in 1970s New York City.

01:15:18.340 York City. Child prostitution, pornography, cinema, you name it. And like Holden, the 0.71

01:15:34.460 protagonist of Taxi Driver, he doesn't know what the fuck he's doing. He's trying to be a good guy. 0.97

01:15:42.380 but why is he trying to be a good guy why is he he goes at the end of the movie he goes and he 0.97

01:15:49.100 shoots up this den of iniquity to save a 16 year old prostitute 0.98

01:15:56.000 who's probably going to be a prostitute again in about six months 0.99

01:16:06.420 He doesn't really change anything. 0.96

01:16:11.020 He doesn't really embody a moral difference in reality itself.

01:16:16.900 He just shaves his head, says,

01:16:21.060 Thou art enemy, I art hero,

01:16:24.820 and engages in violence.

01:16:32.100 There really is no solution.

01:16:34.560 There's just a climax.

01:16:36.420 And the same thing goes for Catcher in the Rye.

01:16:43.420 No resolution, no solution, just climax.

01:16:50.500 Except Taxi Driver, he winds up a hero, if you believe the script.

01:16:57.400 Catcher in the Rye, he winds up in a mental asylum.

01:16:59.680 nothing changes.

01:17:13.760 Think about that leftist girl that we started this whole thing with. 0.99

01:17:18.460 Trying to advocate for more diversity in Japan. 1.00

01:17:24.200 While also advocating against date rape.

01:17:28.980 How'd that turn out?

01:17:34.920 So what ought we to do if we cannot be the savior? 0.97

01:17:47.520 Oh shit, I'm sorry for ruining it. I had a butterfly didn't ruin anything 0.97

01:17:58.160 It's still, like, books like that, it's not about the ending.

01:18:05.900 Okay, I promise I won't ruin anything else about it.

01:18:21.480 This is why I like Fight Club so much, particularly the movie.

01:18:26.140 The movie was tighter.

01:18:28.160 But the book had the same theme.

01:18:32.160 It was never about destroying the credit card companies.

01:18:37.160 It was about learning to talk to a woman. 1.00

01:18:45.160 Holy shit, I wish I could find a woman to watch that movie with. 1.00

01:18:54.160 Almost thought I did, but it turns out she was crazier than Marla. 0.99

01:18:58.160 Now, being the savior is not how we transmogrify reality.

01:19:18.500 The way we transmogrify reality is a hell of a lot harder than being a savior.

01:19:44.240 I'm going to read you something I wrote on Substack earlier today.

01:19:48.500 So, I'm still working this out. I'm still figuring it out. I don't have it nailed down yet, but, well.

01:20:01.220 My current approach is self-initiation into the mystery religion of the Aquarian Age, which is the Leonine Path.

01:20:18.500 The mystery schools are corrupt and co-opted.

01:20:28.580 At best, you'll be shunted off to have mystical visions in some monastery and be kept far away from the levers of power.

01:20:36.940 At best, you'll gain power, but only after being embedded with some sort of Epstein child sacrifice at the archdiocese of the three Masonic temples.

01:20:48.500 all the secrets have been revealed however in many cases they are driving the youth insane

01:20:59.540 getting bathed in the mithraean blood before they've even come to the age of reason 0.88

01:21:07.400 seeing behind the veil at what actually motivates the meat machine seeing the other sex as they 1.00

01:21:14.940 truly are, can be soul-shattering for the young mind. 0.95

01:21:20.560 But for those with grit and temerity, who do the work and walk the vieille sepens, initiation

01:21:30.700 into a distributed mystery school becomes possible.

01:21:34.500 Through fifth-generational warfare, a distributed army of Jedi Masters, without hierarchy,

01:21:41.120 each with the confidence of the lion, and utter contempt the system, while remaining completely invisible to it.

01:22:07.080 Maybe I do have some sort of monkey on my back.

01:22:11.120 Maybe Holden Caulfield

01:22:13.760 Maybe Joker

01:22:15.680 Maybe Travis Bickle. Maybe there's just some of us

01:22:20.300 Born with this monkey on our back. We can't stop

01:22:31.280 And so we put up magnifying glasses in our window and almost set the house on fire

01:22:37.180 Maybe there's a deeper metaphor to life right there, my brothers and sisters. There very well might be.

01:22:50.180 God paints with an eclectic palette.

01:22:55.180 And we are all part of his miserable dream.

01:23:07.180 what i'm approaching right now i don't have the words to like properly or i can't prove it

01:23:23.000 scientifically that's what drives me nuts about this like i'm so utterly certain of this

01:23:30.700 I can describe to you scientifically

01:23:36.260 I've tried to describe to you scientifically

01:23:38.960 why the

01:23:39.800 why the path of the

01:23:44.300 savior

01:23:45.120 no, no, we don't need any saviors

01:23:49.520 not even Christ was that

01:23:53.100 type of a savior

01:23:54.400 stop saving people

01:23:56.760 they don't want or need it

01:23:59.520 what sort of life ought Holden Caulfield to live?

01:24:08.420 Because clearly nobody wants him to be the catcher in the rye.

01:24:12.520 He's causing a lot of mischief,

01:24:15.600 irritating a lot of people,

01:24:17.240 and not benefiting himself in any manner.

01:24:22.480 That is not the way.

01:24:24.640 So, what ought he to be doing?

01:24:30.840 What ought we to be doing?

01:24:51.040 And this is the point where I don't have strategy anymore.

01:24:53.880 I just have tactics.

01:25:05.760 Adam Fox just wrote.

01:25:10.620 Actually, I'm going to paraphrase you, Adam.

01:25:14.120 If you will.

01:25:17.000 If Jesus can't save them,

01:25:19.860 Why do you think you can't?

01:25:27.960 Top Hat Jack, glad to have you, brother.

01:25:30.400 We're deep into it, though.

01:25:39.480 You know, if you actually read the Bible,

01:25:42.140 if you actually pay attention to what Christ was up to,

01:25:45.480 Christ is not acting like a savior.

01:25:49.860 Christ said

01:25:57.940 What, they don't want to hear you? 1.00

01:26:01.820 Kick the dust from your sandals, tell them to fuck off 1.00

01:26:05.060 Move to the next town 1.00

01:26:06.560 He wasn't trying to save everybody 1.00

01:26:11.700 He wasn't being a bitch 1.00

01:26:19.860 That is the crazy thing, is that those that try and follow the savior complex, they usually 0.99

01:26:28.100 think of Christ, but they act nothing like him.

01:26:31.180 Christ was more than willing to drop the dead weight.

01:26:38.700 Christ was more than willing to curse people. 0.99

01:26:47.980 You curse a damn big tree for crying out loud. 0.99

01:26:54.440 Those of the savior complex are trying to save everybody. 0.99

01:26:59.120 This is part of the reason leftism is so toxic.

01:27:02.660 Because they are trying to save everybody.

01:27:06.660 They're trying to save the homeless.

01:27:08.540 They're trying to save the drug addicted.

01:27:09.920 They're trying to save the child rapists. 0.99

01:27:12.280 They're trying to save the Muslims. 1.00

01:27:13.820 They're trying to save fucking everybody. 1.00

01:27:17.980 Butterfly points out they chose to reject Jesus. Jesus said, okay. 0.99

01:27:36.260 You know, this engenders a thought in me.

01:27:40.540 I am a bit of an argumentative person, you may have noticed.

01:27:51.920 And one of the things I've really adopted in my dotage is that if somebody's not interested

01:28:01.920 in the things I am arguing about, I say, okay, increasingly I've got so little interest

01:28:16.340 in trying to explain to people, not explain, justify, I've got zero interest in justifying

01:28:25.440 to people

01:28:26.920 what I see

01:28:29.200 what I know

01:28:30.700 what I hear

01:28:31.620 I'll tell you

01:28:33.440 and if you 1.00

01:28:33.900 oh that's stupid 1.00

01:28:34.960 okay 1.00

01:28:36.700 there are people in hell

01:28:53.160 Jesus did not chase them

01:28:56.140 No, like people got the right to go to hell, man.

01:29:06.140 You're not being a bodhisattva trying to save everybody.

01:29:14.140 You're being egotistical when you try and save everybody.

01:29:25.140 Contemporary example.

01:29:28.580 Empire Strikes Back.

01:29:37.540 Luke sees the danger at the Cloud City.

01:29:44.960 Rushes off to save his prince.

01:29:47.640 His literal Jedi Master says that

01:29:50.000 you're not called to do this, man.

01:29:53.400 you might endanger everything. 1.00

01:30:03.360 Like, literally, like, Luke, fuck off. 1.00

01:30:06.580 Cloud City's not your battle. 1.00

01:30:10.500 Luke ignores it, goes to Cloud City,

01:30:14.400 shits up everything.

01:30:15.960 Like, literally, Leia had just escaped,

01:30:19.220 and then she needed to go back to save Luke.

01:30:21.480 Luke did not save the day.

01:30:23.400 in Empire Strikes Back. He put everything at risk.

01:30:28.440 That's the savior complex. Empire Strikes Back

01:30:32.600 is the savior complex.

01:30:41.700 Night, JT.

01:30:42.880 See, it says, I can't believe that the left

01:30:52.940 believes they're trying to save everyone at this point.

01:30:55.260 They're trying to destroy everything.

01:30:59.540 They're trying to heal a childhood wound.

01:31:03.380 They are...

01:31:05.820 The wound is not in the world.

01:31:10.240 The wound is within themselves.

01:31:12.880 And so they get increasingly manic, trying to do something about the world, when actually the pain is inside of themselves.

01:31:28.880 The place where they need to do work is inside, not outside.

01:31:34.880 but they refuse to look inside.

01:31:39.140 And so they continue committing actions outside,

01:31:42.140 which make everything worse.

01:31:46.140 And this is the great contradiction.

01:31:50.620 You just help me figure out at least like 13% of it.

01:31:57.440 The great contradiction is the world is fine.

01:32:01.320 The world is what the world is.

01:32:04.880 What is the world going to become? 0.99

01:32:10.040 No, that's the wrong fucking question. 0.99

01:32:15.420 The question is, 0.99

01:32:18.040 what are you going to become

01:32:21.060 within the world?

01:32:34.880 The whole point of the Star Wars saga is that the greatest victory of the Jedi Knights 0.99

01:32:46.420 was not blowing up a fucking Death Star. 0.94

01:32:50.580 It was not a military victory. 0.99

01:32:53.400 That is ancillary.

01:32:55.240 That is background noise.

01:32:56.880 The great victory of Luke Skywalker was forgiving his father.

01:33:04.880 the great accomplishment of the work

01:33:12.040 is living your own life.

01:33:24.240 The world does not need people to save it.

01:33:30.700 It needs integrated people living their own lives.

01:33:34.880 when you start living your own life

01:33:46.380 which begs the question what does that mean

01:33:59.280 living your own life

01:34:00.480 top out jack you sleep tight

01:34:02.740 my brother 0.60

01:34:03.540 What is it to live your own life?

01:34:25.660 What could Holden Caulfield have done

01:34:28.020 upon receiving news of his brothers

01:34:33.340 depth upon this radical trauma oh goodness I gotta tilt it in the wind I gotta google it

01:34:54.340 I gotta google it

01:34:55.340 Don Quixote

01:35:01.000 Upon the news of his brother's death

01:35:08.140 Holden Caulfield turns into Don Quixote

01:35:12.560 He goes on this great quest

01:35:16.140 To try and save the children from the ponies

01:35:25.340 but he encounters nothing but people that are irritated with him

01:35:30.460 for interrupting what they're up to.

01:35:33.380 And, you know, like, he's probably right that they're all phonies.

01:35:39.440 But he's not exactly helping anything by interrupting them.

01:35:42.460 He's just kind of pissing them off, and they're just, you know,

01:35:45.140 they're working, they're doing whatever.

01:35:46.360 Okay, fine.

01:35:50.940 Build a bigger project.

01:35:55.340 build something worthwhile

01:35:59.900 say true things

01:36:04.020 have good relationships

01:36:08.480 and actually like at the most base level

01:36:15.160 show up to work on time

01:36:17.740 good lord

01:36:18.780 guys

01:36:19.820 if there is one piece of advice i could give to young people

01:36:26.860 it's that if you show up to work 15 minutes early consistently every day no except if you show up

01:36:36.900 early to work you can get away with being super mediocre at the job

01:36:42.420 like reliability

01:36:47.060 beats intelligence

01:36:50.280 99 times out of 10

01:36:52.720 but what about the mean

01:37:00.380 show up to work

01:37:01.980 do the base like do the work

01:37:05.260 wax on wax off

01:37:10.060 All spiritual wisdom is based upon foundational principles.

01:37:17.520 Get the foundational principles correct.

01:37:24.020 Holden Caulfield's problem.

01:37:28.380 Our problem is that people abandon the foundational principles of reality.

01:37:40.060 The foundational principles are that you must work to eat.

01:37:57.100 it must be at least 51% positive for people to want to hang out with you.

01:38:12.900 That's about it.

01:38:20.980 Let me catch up on these comments.

01:38:27.100 80% of life is showing up.

01:38:28.820 Exactly.

01:38:34.780 Show up to work.

01:38:36.900 Be five minutes early.

01:38:42.080 Try not to make your problems

01:38:43.860 other people's problems.

01:38:49.720 Try to have some appreciation

01:38:51.220 for other people.

01:38:53.300 And build them up. 1.00

01:38:55.100 But don't feed their fucking safety. 1.00

01:38:57.100 you're not the fucking savior 1.00

01:38:59.360 Christ, Jesus was not even the savior 1.00

01:39:01.960 not in that sense 0.81

01:39:04.340 now don't babysit

01:39:16.720 here, make sure the job gets done 0.94

01:39:19.620 if you've got incompetent co-workers

01:39:22.020 make sure the job gets done 1.00

01:39:23.860 Make sure the bills are paid, do the basics, stop saving people, have your shit together. 0.98

01:39:44.860 So, yeah, I've, um, for the past week, I haven't recorded any videos, but I've written 5,300 0.98

01:40:00.900 words in the, uh, grimoire, all in the Tree of Life.

01:40:09.400 I hope to have that chapter done before I have to go back to work and I'm

01:40:19.560 planning to publish the first third of it

01:40:24.680 Because I think this is work worth doing.

01:40:47.740 I do have this intellectual compulsion.

01:40:52.460 Can't help it.

01:40:53.240 Not saying it's a good thing.

01:40:57.240 Five planet stellium in my ninth hells.

01:41:01.240 I am what I am.

01:41:05.240 I feel strong compulsion to intellectualism.

01:41:13.240 Me and my stepfather

01:41:17.240 spent the afternoon setting up a ram pump

01:41:21.240 in the culvert, smash my finger between a couple of rocks. The the damn check valve 1.00

01:41:30.900 didn't work as it was supposed to. Such is life. 1.00

01:41:40.480 Multimating between building cattle waterer, which is based upon

01:41:47.860 manipulating the laws of physics

01:41:49.400 with my stepfather

01:41:53.480 whom

01:41:55.440 I

01:41:56.860 he and I agree on a lot

01:41:58.780 and we disagree on a lot 0.99

01:42:00.140 but we got the fucking job done 1.00

01:42:04.780 aside from the damn check valve 1.00

01:42:09.540 that didn't work 0.99

01:42:10.260 there's mutual

01:42:15.140 masculine appreciation there 0.99

01:42:16.920 there's the electric pump if this damn thing doesn't work 0.99

01:42:22.120 but I think we 0.99

01:42:22.940 we got a pretty god damn good design

01:42:25.940 got most of the pieces

01:42:28.060 in play

01:42:28.680 my rubber boots broke

01:42:31.860 my feet got wet

01:42:32.900 I swear to my cowboy duster the whole time 0.98

01:42:37.940 I look fucking cool 0.98

01:42:39.120 part of the work is just 0.94

01:42:44.020 doing work too

01:42:44.960 If you want to be an alchemist, go study chemistry, go study force, go study pressure variance,

01:43:03.960 go engage in the labor with others.

01:43:13.460 Colman Caulfield's problem is that he tried to do it alone.

01:43:18.460 There is no alchemy by yourself.

01:43:33.800 Butterfly, what sort of work do you do?

01:43:43.460 He was 16.

01:43:49.920 Wait, Holden Caulfield, or?

01:44:02.920 Yeah, what are the...

01:44:05.480 My stepfather and I, we've had words a few times.

01:44:12.420 over the subject of the nation of Israel. 0.99

01:44:17.560 Go figure.

01:44:23.140 Doing the work with him today,

01:44:25.640 down in the culvert,

01:44:27.460 was good.

01:44:30.680 That was good work.

01:44:33.340 That's what man is supposed to be doing.

01:44:40.220 Man is supposed to be arguing. 0.98

01:44:42.420 and talking about how we get the work done and doing the fucking work and making the cattle waterer work 0.96

01:44:51.020 and abusing the laws of physics like we're literally we're using a ram pump if you don't 0.96

01:44:59.040 know what a ram pump is we are tricking the laws of gravity to push water uphill it's it's downright

01:45:08.140 perverse.

01:45:16.560 So here's a

01:45:17.740 44 year old man and 1.00

01:45:19.900 what the fuck is he? 1.00

01:45:22.340 70? I don't fucking know. 1.00

01:45:23.900 He's old as shit. 1.00

01:45:28.460 Forcing water downhill 1.00

01:45:29.880 to go uphill in the way

01:45:31.920 that we demand it does.

01:45:36.280 I far 1.00

01:45:37.740 prefer arguing with him over that than talking about fucking Israel. That's the work man is 1.00

01:45:45.780 meant to do. And that was righteous today. That's why I wanted to do a stream about the unrighteousness

01:45:59.480 of the savior complex that is not what any of us are called to do you are called to live your life

01:46:09.920 gloriously and venturously but not to save others

01:46:29.480 I'm still very curious what you do for a living butterfly.

01:46:34.880 Do the challenge of characters like Holden Caulfield do?

01:47:04.880 The challenge is actually the Path of Mercy. The Path of Mercy has a curlicue. It's got a cowlick.

01:47:11.880 It makes it naturally easy to be a charming bastard that achieves success without ever earning it. 0.99

01:47:24.880 That's the foundational difference between the city mouse and the country mouse. Country mouse has to earn it. 0.99

01:47:34.880 Path of Severity has to earn it. 0.96

01:47:38.880 Path of Mercy is too fucking easy. 0.87

01:47:43.880 Jubar Carmen versus Jubar Tactus. 0.93

01:47:49.880 But then you get the problem that Jubar Tactus looks down upon Jubar Carmen for just easing their way.

01:48:00.880 I was a bright student, and I went to university, and then I got promoted to manager.

01:48:07.840 Jubar Tactus looks down upon that. That's just the natural pathway of Jubar Carmen.

01:48:16.480 What both need is Gloria, the balance, and you

01:48:38.360 It is possible to walk only one path, the path of mercy, the path of severity, and achieve

01:48:49.860 balance.

01:48:50.860 It is possible.

01:48:54.860 If you walk the path of mercy, the road to balance is humility and the hermit.

01:49:06.860 is to become that Harvey Dent.

01:49:16.000 To become that established figure of mercy.

01:49:23.600 Holy Caulfield, he is down, he is down in Victoria.

01:49:28.280 He is a smart student, sees everything.

01:49:32.720 Okay, go become a patriarch.

01:49:35.080 Go become a judge.

01:49:36.860 a lawyer, a doctor, a respect member of the community with your great smarts.

01:49:43.500 Then, walk the path of the hermit.

01:49:55.500 Alternatively, Victoria can walk the path of death.

01:50:02.460 sacrifice 0.71

01:50:06.220 all your glory

01:50:07.780 to others, which is kind of what

01:50:10.240 Holden Caulfield does

01:50:12.080 but you know

01:50:14.520 there's higher stages on the tree, Holden

01:50:16.280 Path of Severity

01:50:22.620 you achieve splendor

01:50:30.340 you achieve

01:50:32.700 achievement, glory

01:50:34.580 you work your way into accomplishment

01:50:39.360 like you walk the path of the devil

01:50:44.160 to glory

01:50:49.300 put those bonds upon yourself

01:50:55.080 voluntarily

01:50:56.120 Or you can suspend yourself voluntarily.

01:51:05.140 You can hang yourself upon duty.

01:51:09.100 Get to Robert.

01:51:13.960 Second stage of severity.

01:51:17.880 And then to get to Gloria.

01:51:21.380 Get to True Heart Chakra.

01:51:23.900 you walk the path

01:51:27.140 of justice

01:51:28.580 not enough to be a cop

01:51:34.560 and let the

01:51:36.980 crown prosecutors

01:51:38.100 deal with moral questions of justice

01:51:40.900 if you want to walk the path

01:51:42.920 of cop

01:51:43.520 you want to be a police officer

01:51:46.040 you need to integrate

01:51:48.800 justice into your heart

01:51:51.140 then you get Gloria

01:51:52.960 Or you could walk both paths

01:52:03.400 And become a major

01:52:17.060 Not a story close work that close that makes the cove it

01:52:22.960 Now, I'm tailing Gen X, and I, to my own chagrin, I identify way too much with Holden Caulfield.

01:52:46.140 Oh, no, no, you misunderstand.

01:52:49.680 Butterfly.

01:52:50.400 The path of the devil.

01:52:52.960 I walked the path of the devil when I signed up for my car loan the devil is

01:53:02.920 a known evil it's known enslavement it's putting a chain around your neck that

01:53:08.200 you could take off at any time like I could cancel my car loan and get they

01:53:12.520 could take the car back now the devil is a the devil is a mature card it's in the

01:53:27.360 the third Septuagint might not be using the right word it's in the third you got

01:53:35.800 three... hep... what is the word for this? You got three sets of seven cards.

01:53:50.760 Hepkarde? I'm gonna go with Hepkarde. You got three Hepkarde in the... 0.68

01:53:59.680 in the major arcana of the tarot deck.

01:54:06.680 The first Hepkarnate is the basic forces of reality.

01:54:14.080 You've got the magician, which is the primordial ability of masculinity to alter reality.

01:54:22.660 reality science technique charisma like all those basic masculine forms

01:54:34.260 second you've got the uh the high priestess you've got the feminine intuition the insight 0.79

01:54:45.460 then

01:54:49.860 you got the empress 0.62

01:54:52.120 you got mother nature

01:54:52.920 you got the emperor

01:54:55.180 you got patriarchy

01:54:56.580 you've got the

01:54:59.260 hierophant

01:55:02.860 you've got rules of religious behavior

01:55:13.680 you've got

01:55:14.600 the lovers, you've got falling in love, and then you got the chariot. The chariot is when

01:55:26.700 you harness all of these things, these previous six things, you change into destiny. That's the

01:55:36.320 first seven cards buy you a new car I mean like I don't know if you married me

01:55:50.060 maybe I mean like I could that's not outside the realm of possibility they

01:56:06.200 got a second line second line I'm gonna try to remember these the first one is

01:56:14.720 strength strength is an interesting card it's a woman holding a lion's mouth

01:56:20.540 closed it is grace and power combined gratia and robert the path between them

01:56:36.980 is strength because strength knows when to hold the lion's mouth shut it is when

01:56:43.640 Jordan Peterson talks about keeping your sword sheathed. True strength is not

01:56:54.440 needing to use your strength. Next you have the Hermit. The Hermit who has a 0.66

01:57:03.080 lantern of light and insight but doesn't share it until they're ready next the

01:57:13.820 wheel of fortune that the ongoing wheel of time that sometimes you're up

01:57:18.740 sometimes you're down. Next is death. Am I right about that? I'm guessing. Death, then,

01:57:39.300 Wait, wait, no. Death is 13. We have 7, 8, 9, 10. No, 11 is justice. Principle of justice.

01:57:58.300 12 is the hanged man.

01:58:06.100 It's self-sacrifice for knowledge.

01:58:08.780 It's Christ.

01:58:14.420 It's Odin.

01:58:20.600 Then death.

01:58:24.900 Then the devil.

01:58:28.300 And then the tower.

01:58:42.300 Then...

01:58:45.300 It's, what is it, it's star, moon, sun, the trumpet, the return to life, and then the

01:59:10.420 world. The world's the final one. There you go.

01:59:22.140 What does all that mean? It means that we live in a reality. We live in a reality

01:59:32.180 with a palette there there was a palette a painter's palette used to describe

01:59:43.760 this reality and when you're young you call some of the colors evil you call

01:59:51.980 some of the colors good but they're just colors and our goal if you're serious

02:00:07.580 about the moral goal in life is to start contributing to the painting and you

02:00:21.360 still have to use the same colors as everybody else. But maybe we can use

02:00:28.740 those colors in a way that isn't so ugly.

02:00:36.500 So the purpose of the magus, the purpose of the saint, is to start coloring reality in

02:00:56.340 a better way than it has been colored up to this point.

02:01:03.860 using the same colors we're not overthrowing evil there's there's always going to be evil

02:01:16.180 but maybe we can

02:01:22.100 maybe we can put evil into a better context than it used to be maybe it doesn't need to be

02:01:28.100 children at Epstein Island, maybe we can

02:01:34.540 maybe we can create something a little bit better than that, like we're not getting rid

02:01:45.160 of evil, but if we agentically

02:01:52.680 create a new reality or create the next chapter of reality

02:02:04.680 maybe we could do something good does that answer the question butterfly

02:02:22.680 As I think I said earlier, I'm 5300 words into the first chapter.

02:02:52.620 of the grimoire yeah yeah okay butterfly get it butterfly says yes like for me

02:03:12.540 it's, like, go abusers and abusers.

02:03:20.020 It's

02:03:20.700 supreme agentic

02:03:22.760 responsibility for

02:03:24.480 reality.

02:03:26.740 Which, that sounds like such 0.99

02:03:28.540 bullshit, I know. 0.99

02:03:33.020 I'm not saying, like, I'm 1.00

02:03:34.680 the ascended master,

02:03:36.840 and I'm not. I'm still

02:03:38.480 engaged in this reality.

02:03:40.920 I'm very, very engaged,

02:03:42.420 I have arguments, I have peeves, I have...

02:03:50.820 It's an ongoing process.

02:04:00.500 It's not, it's not an easy solution.

02:04:06.180 The problem with leftism is it's an easy solution because

02:04:10.340 is, oh, anybody can live in any country, yeah, you know.

02:04:15.900 That's a really easy solution.

02:04:29.360 The culture war is obvious, like, that's another distraction.

02:04:35.640 Go fight in the culture war.

02:04:37.560 i'm not saying i am i completely agree with everything happening happening in ireland that's

02:04:45.480 righteous i am good lord i would love to do some irish stuff right now that would be so much fun

02:04:59.320 and especially you young men you young men should be super excited about this 0.96

02:05:08.560 Don't be stupid about it, but be excited about it. 0.99

02:05:19.560 Part of reality is competition between the species. 1.00

02:05:28.560 Nothing wrong with that.

02:05:30.560 nobody here is telling you to be a pacifist there is no spiritual righteousness in being a pacifist

02:05:43.160 glory glory glory to you god let us spill blood in your name

02:05:55.580 nothing nothing unrighteous about that 1.00

02:05:59.520 just don't be stupid 0.99

02:06:03.200 about it 0.99

02:06:23.960 very very difficult

02:06:25.200 to find somebody that is

02:06:27.240 real

02:06:28.280 cares about you and wants to watch the path and wants to do I think it's a good

02:06:42.140 place to end things your purpose in life is not to save other people your

02:06:55.080 purpose in life is not to save yourself either. Christ saves. He does not need

02:07:04.200 your help.

02:07:06.920 Your purpose in life is to individuate, is to be the best version of yourself, is to

02:07:28.920 bring into reality that thing that could not be brought into it without

02:07:40.080 yourself. Now we know that's a super tall order. It's easy to say, it's very hard to

02:07:53.180 do. So my advice, go out there, do the basics. Wax on, wax off. Do that which you know how

02:08:15.940 How to do. Go be the best version of your young, juvenile self that you can be.

02:08:26.940 Mastery will come in time.

02:08:36.940 You might be young. You might be juvenile.

02:08:40.940 you might be doing a simple job but you are vital my brother keep doing it do the

02:08:56.560 work, it will pay off. Carpe Futurum. This is Irini, out.

Leo D.M.J. Aurini - June 19, 2026

SatW Livestream 2026-06-18： Saviour Complex

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