Nephilim Death Squad - June 20, 2026


BONUS: Where The Wierd Ones Are w⧸ NDS


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00:00:44.160 what's up everybody welcome to another episode of where the weird ones are my name is kevin
00:00:51.960 which probably already knew that if you didn't now you do um today's episode is with uh another
00:01:00.380 podcast that i've been listening to for a while now so i'm excited to uh have a chat with them
00:01:06.620 um but before we get started like i do with every episode i just want to shout out that if
00:01:12.960 you are out there having any kind of mental distress please here in the united states
00:01:17.960 uh dial dial or text 988 um that is a good resource to use for any mental distress that
00:01:26.960 you are going through um you deserve to be here i do believe that we are all connected in some
00:01:32.280 kind of way so um yeah so please please utilize that resource it's there for a reason so stay
00:01:40.540 another day in june's men's mental health month anyway so i figured i'd throw that out there
00:01:45.360 uh but anyway so i wanted to introduce you guys to if you haven't heard of them uh the nephilim
00:01:51.540 death death squad um and i'm super excited so hey guys if you don't mind letting the people know
00:01:57.580 out there that may not know you um a little bit about your show and about yourselves sure so um
00:02:04.660 i'm raven this is my co-host top lobster we do and i'm pretty sure it's pride month is it pride
00:02:10.140 month so yeah not allowed to do men's health month uh uh in the month of the game where's your gay
00:02:16.840 stuff bro um you can find nephilim death squad anywhere you find podcasts our show is a conspiracy
00:02:25.420 show with a focus on christianity dumpster fire and it's a dumpster fire yeah it's a show for um
00:02:31.780 it's also for the mentally unwell so if you happen to find yourself in that category then you might
00:02:36.300 just be our people you can find us on youtube and and uh any of your audio podcasts uh apple
00:02:42.780 podcast spotify etc um yeah man so we we talk a lot about you know the conspiracy of the day
00:02:50.040 and we look at it through a christian lens but we're also fundamentally retarded so uh you know
00:02:54.920 it's sometimes it's funny
00:02:56.160 amazing job um i think it's there's a lot of good information and a lot of humor that come along
00:03:08.580 with it and i am functional functionally retarded as well as we just found out right at the beginning
00:03:14.600 of this i needed to turn my my volume up so i can fucking hear you that's a i gotta say i've
00:03:21.680 been doing this for uh podcasting maybe six years that i've never seen that kind of technical
00:03:27.260 difficulty he's like yeah my i just didn't turn the volume honestly though that's one that i would
00:03:31.320 display regularly if it wasn't for top but tops the the the the wires and tech guy and without him
00:03:37.920 uh you know i'd be doing it out of cell phones still so i i feel you kev i don't know you know
00:03:43.500 where the volume knob is either how long you've been doing your show for
00:03:47.300 three going on four years almost okay just about that i think i i think i started in
00:03:55.340 22 so yeah almost four nice what about what made you get into it this way because this is like a
00:04:02.940 serious uh like a serious thing when you start to dedicate that much time to a podcast why'd you
00:04:09.140 start uh so all right i'll give you the whole rundown so it was it was the year of the desolate
00:04:17.620 2020 where you know i feel like there's so many podcasts that were born out of that that time
00:04:25.720 anyway but so i had i was really had a really good friend of mine who started like um he started a
00:04:32.560 podcast himself he was doing it in his basement it's kind of set up like a joe rogan kind of thing
00:04:37.300 where people sat across from the table from him and stuff like that and i went on his show
00:04:42.580 and we just shot the shit like we normally do um and i really i like i had a fun time with it and
00:04:51.460 then i went on his show for a second time and then after um we were done he was like hey listen
00:04:58.660 there's a couple podcasts i think you should listen to you should check it out because he
00:05:02.500 was trying to tell me these like let flew me in on the conspiracy so this was like around the time
00:05:08.020 that i was like really red-pilled and all that and so i i started listening to this conspiracy
00:05:14.460 podcast um that he suggested and then from that podcast i came across the paranormal podcast
00:05:23.120 and which i found both of you guys on both of those podcasts by the way um which ones were those
00:05:29.800 Yeah.
00:05:30.960 So it was a tinfoil hat and the confessionals.
00:05:36.000 Okay.
00:05:36.900 Oh, we haven't been on the confessionals.
00:05:38.880 No, I imagine we probably came up on the confessionals.
00:05:41.360 I think so, yeah.
00:05:42.080 There was like some time a few years ago, maybe a year or so, when somebody was like telling us.
00:05:47.420 It was like a black dude said something, right?
00:05:48.720 Yeah, somebody was talking about us, but we've never, I mean, we know Tony.
00:05:52.200 Tony's been on our show.
00:05:53.060 Keep your name, keep my name out of your mouth.
00:05:56.680 No, that's pretty cool.
00:05:57.760 Yeah, yeah.
00:05:58.380 But we know those guys.
00:05:59.800 yeah okay so it was really tony's show that i was like i was listening to and i was like
00:06:06.300 you know i had so many um experiences myself and i would love to chat with people about
00:06:12.200 experiences and you know i could do conspiracies too because i i enjoy those um and then i told
00:06:19.660 him about it and he's like you know what you should do that and i'll help you so that's really
00:06:25.840 how it uh came about and the name was really weird to come across i went through like five or six
00:06:33.080 names and settled on where the weird ones are which is a play on the on the book i don't know
00:06:38.720 if you guys remember where the wild ones are yeah yeah so yeah so then it just kind of blossomed
00:06:45.240 through there the first like year and a half was really slow and and really rough and i wasn't sure
00:06:50.000 if it was gonna continue and make it to where it is now but it's been it's been a lot of fun
00:06:56.240 meet a lot of good people uh you guys are um are familiar with justin brown um the doc he's become
00:07:04.400 a good really good friend of mine um so uh but i wanted to ask you guys too what made you guys
00:07:10.580 want to start your podcast um uh love of money and fame proclivity for spreading lies lying
00:07:20.240 wanting to lie no you know uh so uh i had been a conspiracy theorist for a long time and i and i
00:07:28.480 went through something uh you know i guess a supernatural experience i i've had a lot but
00:07:34.820 um one of them was pretty profound and we'll probably end up getting into it here but
00:07:38.820 um it led me to the confessionals as well and i was uh a member there and so was top and we didn't
00:07:49.820 know each other at all but he had a sense of humor that um i just felt like there was something that
00:07:55.720 kind of drew me to i don't really go out of my way to talk to people i mean you know it sounds
00:07:59.720 stupid i do a show where i talk to people but i mean like i really don't and for whatever reason
00:08:04.820 And this dude was, like, something was saying, like, oh, go talk to him.
00:08:08.100 Dave's the type of dude, like, he's like, yo, let's do, like, a large live event and invite a bunch of comedians and celebrities and stuff.
00:08:14.420 And I was like, great, yeah, and fans, too.
00:08:15.640 He's like, yeah, fans.
00:08:16.600 And then they show up, and he goes, I'm not talking to any of these people.
00:08:18.680 Yeah.
00:08:19.340 I'm like, you have to.
00:08:20.820 We've invited them here.
00:08:22.160 Yes.
00:08:22.640 You've got it.
00:08:23.140 And he's like, I simply will not.
00:08:25.280 I do things against my own best interest very often.
00:08:28.460 But, you know, we start having a little bit of a back and forth.
00:08:32.020 And I was doing a show at the time that was very much like your show where I was exploring these experiences.
00:08:38.220 Of course, these experiences lead to conspiracy.
00:08:40.780 And I asked him because of a conversation that we had gotten into, you know, mutual interest in conspiracy and paranormal.
00:08:47.940 I said, hey, man, I do this show.
00:08:49.560 Maybe you listen to it.
00:08:50.940 One thing leads to another.
00:08:52.080 He actually listens to it.
00:08:53.120 I don't know if you know how unlikely that is.
00:08:56.480 You meet somebody and you go, hey, I do a show on the Internet where I talk for like two hours at a time.
00:09:00.920 why don't you dedicate two hours to listening to it and um but he did and he came back and said
00:09:07.200 maybe there's something interesting to do here one thing led to another and and we started the
00:09:11.060 show so for for me and i'm sure i can speak for top two it's it's birthed out of um you know this
00:09:18.240 really severe interest in the truth that's that's really what it is and then it just so happens we
00:09:25.840 you know we were kind of silly guys so it it was um palatable we find comedy helps to swallow some
00:09:32.700 of these pills yeah but i think the birthing of this show was definitely through supernatural
00:09:37.320 experiences that's what i was trying to do with my show that i like i kind of started but didn't
00:09:42.040 really do i was interviewing people that had those type of experiences people like my aunt
00:09:47.780 my cousin there was a couple of other people before we just decided hey like uh let's just
00:09:52.340 do it together yeah and talk to but then it ended up into something you know we ended up
00:09:57.260 it ends up going from like an interview show about experiences which is very much merkel's lane and
00:10:02.800 then we got into like talking to other interesting people in general conspiracy sometimes in politics
00:10:09.100 and we got away from politics and then we're into like talking to experts and we're we ended up in
00:10:15.320 like a weird uh biblical lane i guess all roads lead to there anyway if you're kind of looking
00:10:22.460 especially with the supernatural testimony if you're looking at if you're looking at it correctly
00:10:26.800 you're going to start to see some solutions and answers on along the biblical route so like we
00:10:31.580 started searching more there and then now the show is where it's at it's a show where you say
00:10:35.760 uh racial slurs and then quote the bible yeah uh-huh which is jarring for a lot of people and uh
00:10:43.560 but you know that i think it starts with i don't like it no i i actually don't like the show at
00:10:48.980 all um i think it starts with this seed and that seed is supernatural things are happening
00:10:55.160 and they seem to stop in the name of jesus christ and that's a huge like um what would you how would
00:11:02.060 you describe that like so many things are birthed from that so many what ifs are birthed from that
00:11:09.000 that idea right there people are having experiences with all sorts of crap it's funny that you said
00:11:14.540 like that sentence so those are two separate thoughts right supernatural things are happening
00:11:18.720 and they stop in the name of jesus is like well most people are like supernatural things are
00:11:23.100 happening yeah what are you talking about that's hard enough and like yeah i meet this guy in a
00:11:27.140 forum online or like twitter and we're like supernatural things are happening he's like
00:11:31.140 fucking right they are you want to talk about it it's like kind of yeah man let's talk to other
00:11:37.500 crazy people about this shit and then here we are a couple years later the evolution of it is
00:11:41.700 is really that right i mean if that is the seed that's planted you know okay there are things
00:11:48.320 that are happening i was very comfortable with that and also the grand conspiracy of things is
00:11:53.280 that there's a satanic agenda and i was very comfortable with that as well okay so there's
00:11:57.100 a satanic agenda and supernatural shit is happening and that supernatural shit stops in the name of
00:12:02.340 jesus christ honestly a good name supernatural shit is happening supernatural shit is happening
00:12:06.660 is a good name and that just blooms man because if you're if you're being honest and you keep
00:12:10.940 tugging at that particular string it keeps giving and keeps giving and keeps giving so
00:12:15.420 the show is and has been us pulling at that string and you watch it naturally progress you know we
00:12:22.080 went from um whatever we were to whatever we are now and i think that's why people enjoy the show
00:12:28.940 as much as they do is because it's not just about whatever conspiracy is happening it's about us
00:12:33.540 developing um which wasn't necessarily the intention but uh if you're being honest you're
00:12:38.620 going to develop so um yeah i got a question for you kevin whatever i'm gonna ask you questions on
00:12:44.460 your show i don't give a shit uh so as as we're doing the show right it's like like you said you're
00:12:50.200 pulling on a string but as you're pulling on the string there's many uh phrase that you can kind of
00:12:54.660 go off on and pull on that string and i like i often wonder i was like damn we pulled on this
00:12:59.080 string we ended up here what kind of strings have you seen um yeah what have come across the table
00:13:04.000 throughout your interviews and like like where where do you end up honestly this pretty much
00:13:10.320 similar thing where everything just kind of leads back to jesus and the creator um you know where
00:13:17.680 everybody seems to have similar experiences to where i think that everybody is connected in some
00:13:24.320 kind of way so like to make it so we're all we're all a part of the creator's consciousness
00:13:33.920 um we're extensions of that in my opinion um and people can disagree with it whatever
00:13:40.100 um but i think when something happens to one of us it affects everybody in different kind of ways
00:13:47.400 at different times if that makes any kind of sense um but everybody seems to have
00:13:54.200 if not one maybe several uh similar experiences everybody that i've talked to sees shadow people
00:14:02.840 and um that you know shadow people have been said to be like um us in the future or people in the
00:14:11.860 past and they're they're viewing the future and they're looking at us as shadow people and this
00:14:17.420 and that are you located in appalachia i am yes yeah that makes the northern part what were we
00:14:25.560 we were reading some stories yesterday and um you know this one of the listeners of the show he's in
00:14:31.460 he's in appalachia and it's just like he's like a forest ranger there becomes very obvious that if
00:14:36.200 you are there you have a lot of experiences and um i get it you know the mountains are old and such
00:14:42.680 but it's just it's uncanny because it's no shortage of people who have had a lifetime
00:14:48.200 of strange experiences all along that mountain line and we were actually arguing with matt our uh
00:14:54.660 our boss uh he's the owner that we we operate out of a coffee shop and he tells us what to do
00:15:00.020 that's true we don't do it but he does tell us what he tries uh but we were talking about
00:15:03.880 similar idea like we're kind of kind of with the a shadow person but the story was that the person
00:15:10.320 saw an apparition float through a daycare in an old church and then it disappears and it turns out
00:15:16.020 that the apparition he saw was a lady that used to work at the daycare there and it was buried on
00:15:21.140 the premises so now the question is yeah right the question is um is that a ghost where are we at
00:15:29.440 with ghosts where we at with time travel or is that like my my theory on that specifically would
00:15:35.460 be more like a stone tape theory where she spent so much time in that building that the live
00:15:43.960 materials inside of that building just replicate and replay her to people who have eyes to see it
00:15:50.160 I suppose at certain times maybe like you know if it's three in the morning I think it was the
00:15:54.640 middle of the night right yeah yeah so if you just think about um the kind of the cyclical nature
00:15:59.860 right everything is constantly almost replaying in some way that time has a spiral almost to it
00:16:04.840 and so maybe when it passes that spiral again there she is again yeah there she is but it's not
00:16:09.840 it's not her i i don't think it's really her like consciously i think that when you die you die
00:16:14.880 every man's designated to go to live once and die once and they go to you know hell they go to heaven
00:16:23.060 and they go to a waiting place, and back in the day it would be like Sheol
00:16:25.980 where they're in Abraham's bosom.
00:16:27.900 So I don't know, but I don't think that that person's there.
00:16:31.200 I think that that's like more of a, yeah, just like an echo in time
00:16:37.060 of like what was because of the live material that's constantly around us.
00:16:41.540 But what's your theory on that?
00:16:43.760 I'd say like I'm right there with you.
00:16:47.160 um like i think that once we die maybe we maybe our spirit spends a little bit of time here like
00:16:53.840 you said like a almost like a waiting room like we're just on the other side of the veil but we're
00:16:58.700 not really gone yet but i do think that we are constantly uh being like it's almost like um
00:17:07.160 the record is stuck kind of thing where we're just replaying it's just like it's residual energy is
00:17:14.260 the word that i'm thinking of where it's just replaying um and it's just memorizing what was
00:17:20.240 once there um but like you said it's not really the spirit it's just something that's replaying
00:17:26.900 what it's replaying a memory yeah i think what what could be the determining factor as to what
00:17:33.460 moment gets replayed is um the individual that was there in that time you know in their reality
00:17:41.700 um how they were emotionally because i do think emotional energy is so that's why if you know if
00:17:48.520 it's a highly charged emotional event like a murder or something like that that'll replay but
00:17:53.960 if she's walking down that hallway to see her child or something maybe she's filled with you
00:17:59.420 know it could be overwhelmingly positive energy overwhelmingly negative but but it has to be i
00:18:04.500 don't think you get a replay of like uh checking the refrigerator you know what i mean like something
00:18:09.400 that's not and maybe you will if your head is filled with demons at the time you know what i
00:18:15.180 mean if you're in your refrigerator late one night because you can't get to sleep because
00:18:18.320 you're filled with despair well then maybe in that case you'll get the refrigerator ghost in
00:18:22.660 the future uh but i think it has a lot to do with the energy that human beings are putting off in
00:18:27.680 that in that moment sure sure i believe i believe that's that same same thing um you know that i
00:18:37.080 I grew up seeing shadow people all the time. And, um, you know, for a long time I was like,
00:18:45.700 well, if I'm seeing these people, then we're either people aren't going to heaven or they're
00:18:51.420 not going to hell or they're not going to either. Um, cause I, when, you know, grew, when I was a
00:18:56.340 kid, my conception of that was that, you know, when we die, we go to one or the other place and
00:19:02.780 there's no in between. And so when I started seeing these people, I was like, well, what the
00:19:08.980 hell is, what, what is happening? What is wrong with me? First, I thought there was something
00:19:12.760 wrong with me. And then I started becoming like an atheist, I guess. And I went through a lot of
00:19:19.400 like childhood trauma with my mother, blah, blah, blah, blah. And so as a teenager, I was like
00:19:25.660 really angry. And that was the only time that I was never like plagued by anything supernatural.
00:19:32.500 was when i was like in this i was like in this my hood rat phase i guess you could say
00:19:37.620 fighting people yes yes i very much was i was very like tried to uh represent myself as as a
00:19:47.040 as g'd up from the feed up and um all that so um but i was so angry yeah through that period of my
00:19:55.400 life where and i wasn't experiencing any of that stuff anymore um and then when i i it was a little
00:20:03.400 bit later you know and i started experiencing again i started to calm down and i started to
00:20:09.240 heal myself from you know childhood trauma and stuff and then i started experiencing stuff and
00:20:14.680 then um and we just moved out of my house and we're in the middle of selling it we close on it
00:20:21.880 on uh wednesday thank god um and then you know my son he is he just turned 17 in november
00:20:31.900 and he's talking about god and he's wearing these shirts that have scripture on it he's got
00:20:40.380 a necklace and he's talking about you know we gotta come to jesus and this and that
00:20:45.360 and he preaches to kids at high school and stuff like that and then all of a sudden i start
00:20:50.760 believing is like really he opened the door for me that's awesome um and so now i have a now i
00:20:56.860 wear a cross around my neck and i'm not really a jewelry person um and so once i started doing
00:21:04.760 that then all of a sudden these shadow people started showing up again yes and then that's
00:21:10.060 when i was like there's there's something to this and like and so i started i just tried this just
00:21:16.900 like you said right at the beginning i they they were in my hallway there was one of them and i
00:21:22.880 just said in the name of jesus if you have bad intentions you're not allowed here and poof it
00:21:27.800 was done so yeah man there's obviously something and a lot of people are like it's the intention
00:21:33.920 it's not really the name and i was like well i don't know it's well the bible literally says
00:21:38.400 it's the name that's that's the thing that gets me is like a lot of people they they don't have
00:21:42.560 any sort of uh framework for the things that they say when they say that you know they go like oh
00:21:46.660 well it's just about your intentions you can call on any name it's like no specifically the bible
00:21:50.300 says that um and it elaborates as to why the name of christ works and you know once you start to
00:21:57.380 understand it it all makes a lot of sense but that whole idea of beginning your walk with christ and
00:22:02.980 then all of a sudden all that shit starts happening you know a lot of people will say that that's the
00:22:07.220 case and i say that that's the case because that definitively happened to me when i um you know
00:22:13.400 So there's a longer story, and I think we should ease into it because it takes up quite a bit of time.
00:22:19.680 But I had an event, and I ended up calling on Christ, and I was not Christian.
00:22:25.400 And it stopped that event, and we can get into that a little bit later.
00:22:30.120 But that forever oriented me towards Jesus in such a way that it ultimately leads to us doing this show now, or at least from my perspective.
00:22:43.400 and there was a time where this was a slow coming, right?
00:22:47.740 This happened, I'm 35 now.
00:22:50.300 This event happened when I was 30, I guess.
00:22:54.100 Yeah, because this is like 2020.
00:22:55.600 He's going to come.
00:22:56.720 And so it took a couple of years before I even really started really moving in that.
00:23:04.360 You know, it was kind of like I was just sitting in the wake of what had happened,
00:23:06.600 and I had all this conspiracy information in my head.
00:23:08.940 And but around 30, I guess, 33, 32, 33, I started to really move in this direction that was like listening to Merkel and things like that.
00:23:20.400 But I came to Florida and that's where I end up meeting top.
00:23:26.640 And I bought a house. And during that time, I am starting to move towards Christianity, but very slowly.
00:23:37.300 And I'm also doing it quietly. It's not like something I'm sharing with my wife or my son.
00:23:41.120 My son is little at the time anyway. And and like it took me a long time to draw the correlation.
00:23:47.980 But man, the activity in that house was insane. Now, I had had that previous experience I alluded to and I called on Christ.
00:23:56.800 So I had that as a base. Like I knew that I could do that.
00:23:59.960 And I was understanding a little bit about the spiritual realm, consent, and things of that nature, giving these things access to you.
00:24:10.620 And I had learned that through Merkel's podcast.
00:24:13.040 So when I'm in this house, what's happening is there are – I've got me, my wife, my son, my cousin, and my niece.
00:24:20.680 They're renting rooms from me, so we're all living in this house.
00:24:23.620 and
00:24:25.240 daily
00:24:27.840 and nightly
00:24:29.760 there are knocks
00:24:31.160 like clear knocks on my
00:24:33.740 doors and on my windows
00:24:35.680 and it becomes so
00:24:37.540 obvious like it's not like
00:24:39.560 a thing that happens every once in a while
00:24:41.160 it was happening constantly
00:24:42.840 we all heard it we all knew that it was
00:24:45.540 the thing that was happening we all just kind of
00:24:47.540 like espoused word
00:24:49.500 salad when it would happen we'd go
00:24:51.480 fucking ah some shit at the
00:24:53.480 door in the windows again there there it goes I don't know I don't know what to tell you I don't
00:24:57.140 know it got to the point where one day my cousin and I he's the same age as me he's kind of like
00:25:02.140 almost like a brother to me we're sitting up by my front door I'm standing and he's sitting down
00:25:07.640 something knocks on the front door but I'm within arm's reach dude so I grab the handle and unlock
00:25:13.560 it and rip the door open and we run outside we run outside because we're very familiar with this
00:25:19.460 This is happening all the time.
00:25:20.780 And this time we're going to see it.
00:25:22.820 Whatever it is, we're going to see it.
00:25:24.340 And we run outside.
00:25:25.780 My cousin goes one way.
00:25:26.800 I go the other way.
00:25:28.200 And there's nothing.
00:25:29.600 It's kind of dusk.
00:25:31.980 But my porch light is illuminating like my front, you know, my grass, my patio.
00:25:37.960 And I see nothing.
00:25:39.900 He sees nothing.
00:25:40.720 Out of the corner of my eye, I see just a skittering black mass.
00:25:46.480 But it's under the light.
00:25:47.760 like if it was under the light and it was a possum I'd have seen a possum it was a it was a black
00:25:52.660 shade a shadow but it was like a mass and it was moving across my lawn and then my cousin goes
00:26:00.920 what's that and he points down to the corner and there's a man the silhouette of a man
00:26:06.400 underneath the street lamp but he's under the street lamp why is he a silhouette
00:26:12.920 so we go back inside and we're like I don't know what the hell that is at the same time that that's
00:26:17.580 happening my niece is telling me that she's got a floor-to-ceiling window in her bedroom
00:26:21.780 and nightly there is a man standing in her window who is the height of the window it's a floor-to-ceiling
00:26:29.300 window so this thing is what i don't know eight feet tall and the there's black flies like huge
00:26:38.340 black flies all my garage is filled with black flies i empty everything out of my garage dude
00:26:44.540 every garbage can my workbench my dryer my my my washer everything and i clean everything
00:26:52.200 sweep everything out scrub the floors put everything back in the black flies return almost
00:26:57.620 like the same week they return and they're huge and there's like hundreds of them and we can't
00:27:02.720 get rid of them and i never draw the correlation that this is what's happening i'll be sleeping
00:27:07.400 behind my bed on my window and i get out of bed and i get the gun and i sweep the house
00:27:14.520 and I go outside and there's nothing there.
00:27:16.900 And eventually I have to come to terms
00:27:19.400 with like something else is going on.
00:27:21.320 And I thought, well, I'm the new owner of this home, right?
00:27:25.860 So legally, I own this home.
00:27:28.480 Well, the bank owns the home, but legally I own the home.
00:27:31.120 This is in my name.
00:27:32.560 And whatever was attached to the previous owners,
00:27:36.420 therefore, based on my limited understanding
00:27:37.980 of the spiritual realm, has no rights to be here anymore.
00:27:42.160 But I've not really evicted these things. So I start to call out in the name of Christ for these things to leave my house and leave my property, that they have no right to be here, that I'm the rightful owner, and these things have no right to be here.
00:27:58.480 dude i'm like number one it stops after that it stops after like two or three instances of that
00:28:05.600 it takes like a couple of times for me to do it and it all stops which is weird because the
00:28:09.020 phenomenon was so like um so constant it was constant it wasn't like hearing a knock every
00:28:18.220 once in a while it's like daily and nightly this this phenomenon was happening and it all stops
00:28:23.500 There was nights previous before it stopped that I would wake up because I could feel like maybe maybe you know what I'm talking about, Kev.
00:28:32.200 Maybe your audience does. I could feel the room was like this room is fucked up.
00:28:38.500 Something is wrong. Something is like here. And I can't see anything, but I could feel it and I could feel like dread and I could feel almost like an electric, you know, quality to the air.
00:28:49.860 and i'd stay up for a little bit scroll my phone i'd eventually fall back asleep the next morning
00:28:55.320 my wife would be like room felt really weird last night and i'd be like you fucking felt that too
00:29:00.860 right like it's it was like tangible like we could all tell and after that like two or three
00:29:05.540 sessions of calling on christ and claiming like authority over my household it stops
00:29:09.900 that's amazing that's it it's really interesting the way the way it works it's because
00:29:20.280 it's almost immediate and you're you're talking about like the the the are you talking about like
00:29:28.520 how heavy it feels while you're in it while everything's happening or are you talking about
00:29:32.260 the lightness that it felt afterwards i'm saying good question so those nights yeah well you were
00:29:39.880 where were you aware of how heavy of an atmosphere you were in the entire time um i don't think the
00:29:47.380 atmosphere changed i put myself in a weird position like um you know renting rooms to people
00:29:53.600 and and people owing you money it just makes for like a kind of and also it was like my cousin was
00:29:58.760 my childhood best friend in a lot of ways so we grew up drinking and smoking and you know committing
00:30:05.860 all kinds of debauchery so um having him there there was like this energy you know that was like
00:30:11.400 very much like a time when i was really lost so i don't think necessarily that goes away um i've
00:30:17.120 since moved from that and now like you can tell it's it's like this fresh clean energy that's not
00:30:22.180 like that anymore but what did go away specifically was the man in the window the knocking on the
00:30:28.800 doors and windows the black flies and that like you know you want to talk about like a heavy
00:30:33.700 oppressive feeling those bedroom nights which were like pretty often it's weird how i became
00:30:39.760 accustomed to it like it was uh i didn't see it as really abnormal it's not like i ever it's not
00:30:49.300 like i ever had a place like that that i lived in that was as spiritually oppressive you know like
00:30:58.500 i i had been married for a while by that point and you know it just wasn't the norm for the
00:31:04.980 place that we came from previously didn't have that we weren't waking up regularly and being
00:31:08.920 like yeah fucking the room was not it was not good last night the room was not good last night
00:31:14.260 like i i don't know it seems like such a throwaway thing to say but it was so so regular
00:31:21.280 on a regular basis we were saying this to each other like yeah man and and there was just like
00:31:26.780 this kind of went on probably for a good two to three months maybe four months so four months
00:31:35.620 however many days that that is days and nights days and nights uh what is that uh 120 days and
00:31:42.520 nights and it didn't really feel that bizarre which it should have been it was like if it
00:31:50.240 happened right now i'd be like no something's wrong one day of that and i'd have been praying
00:31:54.860 but for four months of that and it was just like yep another one of those nights another night of
00:32:01.040 knocking on the windows another night of i was killing the flies regularly i was going in the
00:32:06.200 garage and i was swatting them out of the air i was catching them out of the air because they
00:32:10.520 were like these big slow black fat flies that you could just catch out of the air they were so
00:32:17.160 big and slow and there was so many of them um and i wouldn't think anything of you know it's like
00:32:23.220 a weird picture to paint manically for hours on end in the garage catching flies just catching
00:32:29.380 flies just killing them i would kill hundreds of flies and they'd be back in like a day or two
00:32:34.620 and never connecting this so if there was a heaviness to that house it was like a delusion
00:32:41.500 it was like something that was keeping me from seeing clearly what this was
00:32:47.160 that's interesting you know i've had kind of like um a similar thing with the flies i never
00:32:56.140 really connected it to like anything spiritually but i had just split up from um my ex-girlfriend
00:33:04.000 and um she was like she was on something else but anyways there's these two windows in this
00:33:11.420 kitchen of this apartment they were had flies around them all the time and i would kill them
00:33:17.280 every day i started putting up uh those stupid stringy things that catches them in the and
00:33:24.140 whatever and it was like two months straight of just constantly every day there was like a new
00:33:30.940 batch of flies and then i started talking to my ex again and we started getting back together and
00:33:35.640 as soon as she came back into the pictures the flies went away and i never really thought of that
00:33:40.960 until now and i think that she was a lesson that i needed to learn because she was i'm not saying
00:33:48.040 that i did any never did anything wrong either but there was like something there was something
00:33:51.900 there's something attached to her that i think so um well you know like another so um another word
00:34:03.600 for satan is beelzebub and lord of the fly lord the lord of the flies and so my connection kev
00:34:13.680 didn't come till like later on when i was like i remembered every horror movie i ever saw
00:34:17.560 where like the flies um amityville yeah dude like the flies are part of the whole bag that's what i
00:34:23.380 mean like it was like a spiritual veil i i couldn't see what this was it's very strange um and and i
00:34:31.700 like to think i kind of knew my shit i mean i wasn't really close to god at that time i was
00:34:36.960 just beginning my walk but like i was so familiar with the paranormal with the supernatural you know
00:34:43.200 all kinds of events throughout my life and that creates all sorts of interest
00:34:48.140 in studying it and like i couldn't see this very strange
00:34:52.740 and i when you were in this did you did you have like before well actually going
00:35:01.520 before this all really started did you have any kind of like stressors any kind of like mentally
00:35:07.420 anything going on with you um yeah i mean you just bought a new house i bought a new house
00:35:13.740 and i was trying to support like my family and my extended family and um you just moved from the
00:35:22.060 desert yeah well at that time i had moved from new jersey uh because i went to you know las vegas
00:35:28.420 and back to new jersey but um you know the the stressors were just the regular ones of like you
00:35:36.400 know stupid shit starts happening they adjust your property taxes they adjust your escrow and
00:35:40.600 all of a sudden your mortgage starts going up and shit and like you know there was but that
00:35:44.400 it wasn't that early honestly to be perfectly honest there is a connection i think to my cousin
00:35:51.240 where um he just opens up these old um routines in my mind you know what i mean because like
00:35:59.680 i was homeless when i was younger and i was homeless with him and so uh whatever drugs we
00:36:05.940 were doing and drugs we were selling and trouble we were getting into um the times i spent with him
00:36:12.860 it was like i didn't see him through my childhood i i met him and was homeless with him through my
00:36:19.040 teenage years and then he left you know to a different state in my very early 20s and then
00:36:25.780 I didn't see him again until basically this and I think there's like um he I'm you know and I don't
00:36:33.420 mean this in a negative way I love my cousin I think he's got like a hitchhiker he's got an
00:36:36.640 attachment it plays really well with my you know attachments that I think I had at a point and um
00:36:42.780 and so yeah it wasn't so much the stresses yet because I for all intents and purposes I should
00:36:48.500 have been in this beautiful renaissance of a period you know it was like i was a homeowner
00:36:52.300 and i and i landed a good job and everything was really wonderful but like he's got something that
00:36:58.400 doesn't play well with my something and uh and i think that was on full display at that point plus
00:37:04.140 um i don't know if it's the area but coincidentally and it's not coincidence i don't you know there's
00:37:10.240 an app called the the grinder there's an app called um neighborhood the neighborhood app i
00:37:19.360 don't have it anymore but it kind of like tells you what's going on around the neighborhood it's
00:37:22.960 like facebook for all your neighbors to gossip about each other the one guy who doesn't bring
00:37:26.320 his trash in from the curb ever and the other guy who's got cars parked on his lawn um and i searched
00:37:32.520 for like knocking on door and it's insane in my few block radius everybody is saying that people
00:37:43.400 are knocking on their doors and windows at all hours of the night oh that's interesting and and
00:37:48.100 some people would say it's teenagers and i would go they figured it out and i'd click on the post
00:37:54.040 and people would be like so you you saw them and they're like no and we're like well how do you
00:37:59.460 know it's teenagers and be like because what else could it be and then they would be like you know
00:38:03.240 oh um i think it's teenagers too and then somebody would be like yeah but i had them knocking and my
00:38:09.260 ring camera shows nobody there so that's when i realized like something else is going on and um
00:38:15.560 i think that that even though i was in a good place i think i might have been subjected to some
00:38:20.320 territorial spirits or something who knows what you know florida's a weird area when it comes to
00:38:25.300 Like, I think like the Seminole Indians or some shit.
00:38:27.920 So if it's an Indian cursed ground type of deal, who the hell, I'll never know.
00:38:34.160 You know, I don't think there's any way to figure that out.
00:38:36.120 But I did have an experience when I first moved in that kind of kicked all this off.
00:38:42.940 And I had a puppy.
00:38:44.020 I was walking the puppy.
00:38:46.500 And one of my neighbors was screaming at his wife.
00:38:49.200 It's very, like, embarrassing.
00:38:51.440 It was echoing through the streets.
00:38:53.660 And I was like, oh, shit, they're really going at it.
00:38:57.100 He was like, F you this, F you that.
00:38:58.960 And the voices were so loud that the puppy kind of like froze up.
00:39:03.380 And I'm trying to get her to walk and she won't walk.
00:39:05.860 And, you know, I'm kind of curious, though, like as to what's going on.
00:39:11.160 So I stick around anyway.
00:39:13.200 And I'm only like across the street from the house.
00:39:16.240 And I pick up on the idea that basically the wife left something of importance, maybe a cell phone or something somewhere.
00:39:21.680 Now they've got to get in the car and they've got to backtrack.
00:39:23.920 So they do that.
00:39:24.700 And they're, you know, motherfucking each other, this and that.
00:39:27.980 And they get in the car and they leave.
00:39:29.800 And I take note.
00:39:30.580 I'm like, damn, they left everything.
00:39:32.180 They left their lights on.
00:39:33.120 They left their garage door wide open.
00:39:34.640 Like their houses, you could see right into it because their big, you know, front window and the door, front door is also made of glass.
00:39:42.400 So you could just see into their open house, like their whole layout.
00:39:45.220 And I'm like, that's crazy.
00:39:47.440 And all of a sudden I noticed that there's a family approaching.
00:39:49.720 and as a first-time homeowner and a dude with a puppy and new to the neighborhood i'm like
00:39:54.040 excited because this is going to be a wholesome interaction i'm kind of on that like
00:39:58.240 i don't know you're a first-time homeowner i'm like a normal human now you know despite all the
00:40:03.280 weird demonic shit in my life i'm a normal guy and um so i'm anticipating this interaction dude
00:40:08.780 and i can see them come in and they smile and i smile it's a dude and a wife they got a stroller
00:40:13.380 they got a little girl they're gonna ask about the puppy i'm gonna say a bunch of wholesome shit
00:40:18.360 And as they're coming, I notice out of my peripheral, somebody walk out of this dude's garage, the one where they were just fighting.
00:40:24.980 And he walks out in such a way as to beeline straight for me, like he's speedwalking.
00:40:30.020 And it's kind of a little bit the sun's going down, but I can see everything in perfect except for this.
00:40:37.160 This guy is like a shadow.
00:40:38.860 But I'm not at all thinking anything spooky.
00:40:41.260 i'm actually mortified because it was so real that it was happening that the only logical thing
00:40:48.360 i could think of as to why this dude would be speed walking towards me is to apologize
00:40:52.120 for what i just overheard you know what i mean like that's all i'm like he's coming to say hey
00:40:58.260 sorry you heard me screaming at my wife even though i was pretty sure i watched him leave
00:41:02.580 this is clearly a man walking towards me so he's gonna and and i was so prepared to go
00:41:09.200 what no yelling i didn't hear any yelling at all no beat her ass and and so he's walking up to me
00:41:19.220 and i turn because i'm prepared to be a coward and pretend i didn't see him there and then have
00:41:23.980 that interaction that way instead of like watching him and as i'm turning they're saying oh the puppy
00:41:28.960 this is nice i go oh thank you guys nice to see you beautiful night all the wholesome shit and i
00:41:33.880 can feel like he's standing right there and i'm waiting for him to go hey sorry about but he won't
00:41:39.180 say anything. So I actually go like, fuck man, this guy's going to make me turn around and talk
00:41:45.080 to him. So, all right. And I turn around and nobody's there at all. And I go, fuck yeah,
00:41:52.620 that's awesome. Cause I think I just got out of this and I don't know what to make of it,
00:41:56.140 but I'm not complaining. I go back inside and I explained that to my wife. She's like,
00:41:59.980 what happened? I go, I was, I was out there for a while. Cause the neighbors were screaming at
00:42:03.160 each other, telling the whole story just as I did. And her and my niece look at me and they go,
00:42:07.720 so nobody was there so you didn't like see anybody it was a mistake and i go no i mean i
00:42:12.860 definitely watched this guy walk towards me but whatever i don't know he wasn't there when i turned
00:42:16.940 around and thank god and they're like that's creepy that's creepy as fuck and i go i guess it
00:42:23.260 is huh and i swear to you like that moment was when everything started that strange moment it
00:42:30.760 was like this thing attached to me like honestly the way that i interpreted it was it tried me
00:42:35.380 like it wanted to see like you you see it came out of their house where it was causing all of that
00:42:41.740 and it tried me and then i bought it to my house that's i don't know there's no way to prove that
00:42:48.580 but that's what i felt damn that kind of reminds me of a story that i don't think i really even
00:42:55.420 covered uh but i think i avoided that um just through like straight up discernment or a stirring
00:43:04.420 in my soul is a weird one um you know the story about my my titi miriam that's aunt my aunt
00:43:10.800 miriam for the people who are not spic uh it was like the first episode i did on the my show by
00:43:17.820 myself i interviewed her and her story uh she's she well she's a lesbian so i don't know if that
00:43:25.440 like brings any sort of iniquity or if that even pertains to the story um living a somewhat normal
00:43:31.480 life and one day she's in her room and her roommate another lady she's like some sort of cousin but
00:43:40.440 not really by blood you just know her she's in like another room but kind of like looking across
00:43:46.100 like you could see each other through the room and she's on the phone with somebody and uh miriam
00:43:50.480 says she like looks up i think her name's yolanda she looks up and she looks at her and she's on the
00:43:55.580 phone and she's like her you mean her and then she calls her over and she's like here to like
00:44:00.860 take the phone and on the phone is somebody on a hotline and uh the person it's it's like one of
00:44:08.340 those like uh psychic hotlines oh what yeah so she's in in the they share the apartment she's
00:44:14.900 doing the psychic hotline shit because it's just crazy yeah of course yeah and my aunt takes a
00:44:19.440 phone and apparently the psychic said there's a woman with you she describes my aunt and she goes
00:44:25.660 she has something on her put her on the phone right now and you know my aunt's like i don't
00:44:31.980 know so she takes the phone and the lady's telling her about this thing that's on her and she's like
00:44:36.080 this shit is crazy like i don't whatever like nothing's on me i'm fine that ends uh i don't
00:44:43.400 know the exact time frame but like you know a couple months to a year my aunt's life just goes
00:44:48.680 like off the tracks yeah completely down the toilet um she ends up moving to puerto rico
00:44:56.380 ends up living with my uncle like she's just like down on her luck she's having constant
00:45:03.220 visitations constant uh poltergeist activity scratches on on her back shit like you know
00:45:12.740 shadow people she she also described the hat man but yeah she said he was wearing like a bolero
00:45:17.360 because they're in Puerto Rico.
00:45:18.500 So she's seeing this outside her window by her bedside.
00:45:21.500 What's a bolero?
00:45:22.880 A bolero is like a, you know, so think of the duster.
00:45:25.640 A bolero is kind of like the Spanish version of that.
00:45:28.120 So I guess, I don't know if she's seeing that
00:45:29.460 or if that's what she's describing it as
00:45:30.980 because that's what you see like the older dudes in Puerto Rico wearing.
00:45:33.940 But she's like, yeah, this is what I'm seeing.
00:45:35.280 Right, right.
00:45:36.080 And this thing takes control of her life.
00:45:39.780 It eventually ends up on my uncle who she moves in with later on in Puerto Rico.
00:45:44.280 And he describes the same thing.
00:45:45.520 And he had scratches and he had all the same shit.
00:45:48.780 And I don't think they dealt with it at all.
00:45:50.460 He had he passed.
00:45:52.420 He had passed maybe two years ago, a year ago.
00:45:56.820 Again, just kind of like, you know, extreme weight gain.
00:46:00.600 Just a lifetime of oppression from this thing and never dealing with it.
00:46:03.680 Yeah, probably like 15, 20 years of oppression and not like just ignoring it, you know, whatever.
00:46:08.660 Yeah.
00:46:09.020 But my aunt, when she's in Puerto Rico, decides to address it the completely wrong way.
00:46:12.380 She goes up a mountain to see a witch doctor.
00:46:15.180 There's a line that's, like, you know, 100 people long.
00:46:18.600 They see her.
00:46:19.780 They call her up in front of people, basically, like, you know, skip the line.
00:46:25.060 You got a thing.
00:46:25.760 Yeah.
00:46:26.060 Yeah, it's like you.
00:46:27.180 Yeah, yeah.
00:46:29.700 It's crazy.
00:46:30.420 The story's crazy.
00:46:31.180 She goes into the guy's house.
00:46:32.400 It's dilapidated.
00:46:33.700 The living room, the area that they walk through has a huge hole in it,
00:46:37.000 so they walk around it to this guy's office,
00:46:38.860 And she's describing like a room that's like book, like wall to wall books.
00:46:45.800 And the guy is sitting at his study and he's now talking to her and he's telling her like, yeah, there's something, there's a thing on you.
00:46:53.180 And, but don't worry, we can get it out.
00:46:55.780 So he does some sort of, you know, ritual.
00:46:59.780 I don't know exactly what it entails, but, you know, burning of candles, shit like that.
00:47:05.100 And he starts telling this thing like, you got to get off of her.
00:47:07.940 You can't stay here.
00:47:08.860 and she says that she hears it manifest behind her head they're all like you know kind of like
00:47:13.840 closed eyed in like a prayer circle sort of thing and she hears it and it's saying in spanish that
00:47:18.780 she's mine uh i i made her fat so that way nobody else could touch her and she's mine and no you
00:47:26.360 can't have her and she even like went to fuck they're so stupid they named these things so she
00:47:31.300 named it Victor and my uncle carried on that name of whatever this guy's name was. Um, so that
00:47:38.800 happens. The guy successfully exercises this entity from her life. And then he gives her
00:47:44.620 instructions to, uh, do these things when she gets home. And it's actually really funny. Like
00:47:49.400 she's got to put like, uh, you know, sage the house and shit like that. You have to do certain
00:47:53.780 kind of washes. Scissors in the lawn is the name of the episode. If anyone's wondering scissors
00:47:58.760 in the lawn that's probably on the nds um oh yeah it is on our feed as well so she's putting scissors
00:48:05.580 in the lawn and my uncle's coming to cut her lawn and he's like what the fuck are those scissors
00:48:08.760 here every like every week he cuts the lawn he takes the scissors out and she's like i don't
00:48:12.140 know how they got here you know because she's not telling anybody this crazy shit um lo and behold
00:48:16.920 it doesn't work uh she's she's living here in florida now and she doesn't like to talk about
00:48:22.860 it that much like i'd like to have her back on the show but like her her health also is deteriorating
00:48:28.420 how old is she oh she's got it like close to 60 they're all older now she's uh yeah but this had
00:48:36.840 this started with her when she was my age younger than me so crazy man yeah this is a lifetime of
00:48:42.800 following you know from the one late and i think you know like the more i think about that story
00:48:48.600 and it kind of like dawned on me that lady um when she handed her the phone it was like that
00:48:54.900 presentation of like will you hold that well yeah if i say this to you well that and that thing
00:48:59.900 jumped on her i guess she like maybe there's a part of you having to believe it or yeah it's a
00:49:04.380 it's a consent it's a consent it's an there's an invitation and that that psychic in asked you and
00:49:10.180 then you said yeah and then the vampire came in and it's been with her and you know she's tried
00:49:14.780 a number of things she's even tried to go to the church but i'll be honest like jesus said like
00:49:20.140 this one comes out with prayer and fasting you know and you don't think she's fasting
00:49:25.220 No, she ain't fast.
00:49:26.480 I don't think she's, you're not approaching this the right way.
00:49:29.740 There are techniques to get rid of these things.
00:49:31.480 There's generational iniquity.
00:49:32.960 There are certain, you know, dispositions of your heart that you have to have in your order, your life set in order before you could meaningfully tell something to leave.
00:49:43.560 Like, I can't tell you to leave if I'm doing the behavior.
00:49:47.620 Yeah.
00:49:47.800 you know like i'm partaking in the destructive behavior that that entity had fostered and
00:49:54.340 created in me and i'd be like yeah you gotta go and then i'm gonna still do no no no it doesn't
00:49:58.660 work like that yeah uh so it's the best of my knowledge she has not kicked that but it reminded
00:50:05.680 me um before i married my wife my wife we uh she was living renting the room in my my aunt's house
00:50:17.700 which was my grandmother's house and she was having a hard time paying for it like this is
00:50:21.980 like you know like i said like just a constant downslope of her life so she's trying to keep
00:50:27.620 this house which was my uncle's and my grandmother's and now she's inherited it but like bills
00:50:32.680 shit like that so my my girlfriend fiance at the time was living in the the room up there
00:50:39.060 and it was fine and my aunt's great she's a great person when you talk to her she's just like
00:50:43.520 so much fun and it's it's she's great to be around the best person that you know
00:50:47.460 um and one day like everything's going fine my my wife calls me and she goes oh your aunt said uh
00:50:58.740 you know some people are coming here from Puerto Rico uh some shit happened uh this kid and I know
00:51:05.420 the kid he uh he was into some shit some people came to his house they're looking to kill him
00:51:12.120 his friend was there they killed his friend in the kitchen and he wasn't home they so the mother
00:51:18.460 saw all that and she freaked out and she's like we got to get out of puerto rico because they're
00:51:21.740 gonna they're gonna kill him they're they're coming after him so my aunt she's just a great
00:51:26.860 person she's like come here and i was just like this story doesn't add up and i was like who is
00:51:31.600 it and she's like oh it's yolanda and i was like okay so i turned to christina and i go you're
00:51:39.720 leaving did you know that you're leaving and she's like i'm not fucking leaving like i've been here
00:51:43.640 for six months like we're we're getting we're getting married so we're saving up money and all
00:51:47.940 this shit like that and we're like ready to do that i was like no no you're leaving yeah and
00:51:52.780 she's like when i'm like fucking today you're leaving today and i packed up all her shit and
00:51:57.480 my aunt my other aunt had a house that she was like renting and she let us let let her stay there
00:52:01.980 for the time being but i was like you gotta you can't be here yeah and she's like i don't know
00:52:06.720 why ask chris ask christina when you see her and she's like i don't know why i was like you just
00:52:10.020 can't be here that's it you gotta leave yeah i was like i don't know that kid i sort of know this
00:52:15.900 lady like i know i know them kind of but i don't know them but enough to know i was like no it's
00:52:21.760 not happening the only impression you had from them was that just no the impression that i had
00:52:26.760 was like i'm about to start a family with you and these people are bringing something not just like
00:52:32.580 i'm not worried about some fucking guy coming from puerto rico with a gun to kill this kid and
00:52:37.620 that's not gonna happen that's crazy like and this is also in coney island but this is like
00:52:41.360 unwell people you're gonna get introduced to people that are unwell i mean were you looking
00:52:46.240 in a spiritual or like a chaos i couldn't i couldn't tell you i couldn't tell you but what
00:52:50.620 i could tell you is that no yeah you know yeah that like that day or the next day all of her
00:52:56.740 stuff was out and my aunt was like she she's she's like super nice but like i know that she was kind
00:53:03.640 of offended like she was sad about it because christina was paying her good rent sure these
00:53:08.240 people come and we're not paying her rent and i'm also like one of i'm like her favorite uh you know
00:53:13.460 her favorite nephew so it feels it feels bad yeah but i was like no no no no i was like what you
00:53:17.580 just did here like i can't explain it but you invited something and you also didn't ask the
00:53:22.940 person that was like that's a crazy living here you're trying to do something good like you know
00:53:28.300 yeah i get i get all that and then it turns out when she tells me that story years later i was
00:53:32.840 like oh that's yolanda it's the same lady that's that's the bitch that put this thing on you and
00:53:37.560 now she's coming back and i was like oh so i but i was like man what a what a crazy movement it's
00:53:42.400 just like again i don't know what i'm doing day to day but i know when something says move it means
00:53:46.420 move and i will do i move like whether it be like from state to state from house to house
00:53:53.100 or just you know my daily operations if something push if i think i have a good sense of when god
00:54:01.580 is talking to me and i don't know what that sounds like but i do know when it is what it feels like
00:54:06.560 yeah and i'm like okay we're moving we're leaving this is not happening this way we have to do a
00:54:11.920 thing and we did that but i was like man if i would have let her stay there how does the rest
00:54:16.080 of my life play out because i'm about to make vows yeah and marry somebody who could have picked up
00:54:22.360 something crazy here an attachment that seems like ruined what are you inviting to this house
00:54:27.700 what did you invite into this house into your house years and years ago that's still with that's
00:54:32.040 how it all works though that's why that vampire lore is like that like you got to invite the
00:54:35.540 vampire in these things need to be invited in but it's not as simple as like come in it's like
00:54:41.080 there's even little shit like come in is a full-blown invitation that's the door is open
00:54:46.400 and this thing is stepping through but every day in our lives but the things that we engage with
00:54:50.880 we get like cracking the door open and getting a hand pop through you know like that kind of a
00:54:56.380 thing and more and more you give up so you can either give up these consents uh inch by inch
00:55:02.340 or it sounds like in in the case of your aunt like all at once all at once to this thing just
00:55:09.500 believing it yeah like she said oh this is this is a thing that's happening to you for sure instead
00:55:14.500 of a psychic you're a fucking witch and you spoke a curse over a woman yep and this thing was like
00:55:20.380 boop got a new host yeah and that's pretty much what happened so man i could only imagine if like
00:55:25.260 you go back and play that out if i if i don't just go and i'm not a kind of guy that's going to be
00:55:29.400 like constantly confronting people although david will say like yeah i when when the time comes i'll
00:55:34.660 be like nah fuck you yeah yeah yeah but a lot of times i'll just be like all right whatever
00:55:38.380 yeah yeah but that's it when i say fuck you i mean it and i'm and that's a stopping point
00:55:43.700 like that's gonna be a no yeah and for for some reason everything in like like all my spider
00:55:49.820 senses were like no fuck fuck you no and i couldn't even verbalize why it was just no and
00:55:55.340 we were the next thing you know we're packing up the stuff and uh my aunt no okay she's a lesbian
00:56:01.620 oh that's right i forgot the lesbian part yeah that's right big gay aunt based
00:56:06.080 she's the best at least you said yeah but you know at least not passing anything on
00:56:14.580 generational iniquity style i mean yeah i know and it and you know the crazy part is like she's
00:56:20.180 such a good like has like a good heart too yo but it's always like people that crush that often get
00:56:25.820 these things you know people talk about sometimes the spiritual realm knows what you're going to be
00:56:29.880 about before you're ever about it and so some people have a bigger target on their backs than
00:56:33.980 others yeah it's like a your youngest child kind of thing this uh she has this very what makes her
00:56:40.740 great is this high agree agreeability trait which comes when you're female anyway but like when
00:56:45.580 you're when you're also a nice person and you're always just like yeah like what do you mean like
00:56:50.420 we would be at her house she's like you're the best and like 15 of my friends guys girls or
00:56:56.040 whatever and she's like come over and play hide and seek in the middle of the night yes and i'm
00:57:01.440 like you're a grown woman this is a stupid idea never me i'd be like absolutely i wouldn't even
00:57:05.960 pick up the phone out of your mind and pick up but we were doing that kind of shit and she was
00:57:09.260 like it was fun yeah but she's always like yes yes let's do that yes so like that creates a person
00:57:15.520 how that's a problem right consent wise yeah consent wise but you see how that could make
00:57:20.500 such a great person sure yeah so nice like she'll give you the shirt off her back but she'll also
00:57:25.680 She'll take the demon off your back.
00:57:27.240 Yeah, she'll take the cursed shirt and she'll put that on too.
00:57:29.620 And won't say no.
00:57:30.700 Like there's like a big power in saying no.
00:57:33.140 Yeah.
00:57:33.880 I spoke with her about that.
00:57:35.360 Like just with her relationship with her siblings because they're all older than her.
00:57:40.560 And I see them.
00:57:41.580 I'm like, they're taking advantage of you.
00:57:42.640 You know that, right?
00:57:43.260 And I'm like 16 at the time.
00:57:44.980 And she was like, oh.
00:57:46.160 And I was like, just fucking tell them like to my mom.
00:57:48.280 I'm like, tell her to go fuck herself.
00:57:50.200 Yeah.
00:57:50.920 And she's like, oh.
00:57:52.560 I was like, sometimes you should.
00:57:54.640 and I was like maybe I'm an asshole
00:57:56.580 but late like as I learned life I'm like no
00:57:58.620 no that's a very good like
00:58:00.360 COVID was a good time to tell
00:58:02.620 people to fuck off
00:58:04.120 and to practice that
00:58:05.680 I'm very good at that now
00:58:07.500 still time to practice
00:58:08.480 it's actually fun to do for the listeners
00:58:12.360 go do it go practice
00:58:13.580 call somebody a faggot
00:58:15.360 I think COVID
00:58:20.700 kind of blossomed me
00:58:22.740 into like
00:58:23.720 uh speaking my mind a little bit more too so like i'm not i never got vaccinated my kids never got
00:58:30.660 vaccinated and people were like you really need to get your kids vaccinated no thank you and then
00:58:36.220 my ex-wife got vaccinated and then i was like listen i sat my kids down i was like do not let
00:58:42.260 your mother talk you in to getting a shot i was like don't go to when you go to the doctors and
00:58:48.280 they asked make sure you say no uh don't let people do it at school because i was hearing all
00:58:54.260 this fucking wild shit that they were doing it at school with the school nurses and all that shit
00:58:59.480 but yeah so i got i got i started getting a little bit louder with my nose too after after that and
00:59:09.400 um i think you know i was really like um um what the introvert and a lot and like i didn't i didn't
00:59:18.680 care to like have conversations all that much and then once i once i started this podcast i was like
00:59:24.400 and and a lot of people were like are you gonna be all right talking to people are you sure this
00:59:29.100 is something you want to do and i was like i like the subject matter so i think i can do it and then
00:59:35.600 it's become like i've come out of my shell i've written a book and and this and that and i just
00:59:42.300 it's it's so much easier now to talk to people and to speak my mind and give my opinions on shit
00:59:49.060 and i think that it's it really started with the spiritual growth of you know finding you know
00:59:55.740 god and creating a relationship with with him and just starting that that journey and the doors just
01:00:03.840 continue to open and and the attachments whatever they were there they seem to be gone now um you
01:00:11.740 know and i just i had a i just had a little girl two years ago um and i don't know man things just
01:00:19.820 seem to be looking up the more i just i think it's so interesting how when you start living
01:00:31.960 more positively in your life the things that change in it you know what i'm saying and
01:00:38.900 you know i was going down a pretty uh rough path as as um as you were when you were younger a um
01:00:48.100 you know i was into drugs i was trying to impress people impress people that probably didn't need
01:00:56.460 any impressing you know and none of them are friends with me now yeah um they would talk to
01:01:05.040 this we're family we're family we're family i don't have any relationship with them now um
01:01:10.600 and my life is way better off without them in it so i was as soon as my son was uh mentioned
01:01:18.820 And it was like a switch flipped in my brain.
01:01:24.080 And it was almost like a divine intervention kind of thing was like, dude, you need to do something about what you're doing.
01:01:33.160 Yeah.
01:01:33.360 And I haven't been arrested since the year that he was conceived.
01:01:39.560 There you go.
01:01:40.340 You said he's 17 now?
01:01:42.300 Yeah, he's 17 now.
01:01:43.560 That's a good spree, man.
01:01:44.560 Yeah, I think that some of us and it sounds like this is probably your case, too, because I think what it happens when you're really young, you know, there's there's the the potentiality of like trauma.
01:01:58.940 So, like, I've experienced some stuff that I think probably gave these things access.
01:02:04.440 But I also think that even outside of that trauma, the trauma is likely to happen if you are subjected to generational iniquity.
01:02:12.640 Yeah, I was going to ask, does your son have any experiences?
01:02:18.560 He's had one that he thinks of.
01:02:23.120 He's not really sure, but he thinks that he's had it.
01:02:28.840 But for the most part, nothing really.
01:02:32.320 But generational trauma, definitely a big thing.
01:02:36.000 Um, you know, my mom wasn't healed emotionally and she put a lot of that into us, um, as
01:02:43.800 me and my siblings.
01:02:45.160 And I actually tried to, um, met suicide when I was nine.
01:02:50.620 And, um, my experiences right after that, just like, boom, like it was blossom.
01:02:57.680 Like there was, it was just like, um, every other day I was seeing something weird, experiencing
01:03:03.360 something strange experiencing something off um and then you know i tried again when i was 13
01:03:10.220 and then it just things got crazy i got i started getting like angry about everything and then
01:03:19.620 that's when the experiences stopped but i was my life was in the it was going down the toilet
01:03:24.980 you know what i mean and i think that's what like when you're not doing good they're not
01:03:31.840 going to bother you yeah when you start improving they're like we need to put him back where he was
01:03:37.200 you know yeah that's exactly my experience it's like they they don't have any they don't have to
01:03:41.860 intervene or show themselves or do anything if you're gonna tank your own life right like if
01:03:46.860 you're fucking everything up and you're spreading you know all of this negativity and everything
01:03:51.500 like that's that's what they want so it's as soon as you start to get off that um that things start
01:03:57.840 going wrong do you ever look at like your mom or maybe your grandmother anybody is there any
01:04:02.980 like for me my my grandmother was like a practicing clairvoyant sort of new age
01:04:09.240 character do you have any of that in your family no not that i not that i know of um i am part
01:04:17.380 i'm part native and i know like there's a lot of spiritually
01:04:22.640 gifted people that come from that lineage um but as far as i've looked um there hasn't been
01:04:33.280 anything i will say that my best friend the uh guy that i got the podcast idea from i really
01:04:39.480 wish he was still doing his podcast he stopped a long time ago um but his he he's also part native
01:04:46.300 and it was i was probably 12 or just turned 13 and he put his hand he we were just it was my
01:04:56.120 first time ever meeting his uncle um who was uh was native and was really involved in the tribe
01:05:03.720 and he was a seer of whatever and i come out of his bathroom at in his apartment and he puts his
01:05:12.260 hand on my shoulder and he goes don't do it and i looked at him and i was like what are you talking
01:05:17.740 about he's like he's like i'm not really sure but i know that when the situation arises that you
01:05:24.640 should just not don't do it i was like okay and so later on that same year probably actually a
01:05:34.140 month later i stole uh my dad's car and got arrested um and then later on that year um it
01:05:42.780 was my second attempt on myself so i either either one or both situations good advice in general
01:05:50.300 right yeah yeah yeah so like i just i don't know like so with my family no but there has been
01:06:00.720 people throughout my life that have shown up randomly and have said weird shit to me
01:06:05.200 yeah I don't know you know I think there's a lot of different contributing factors but it's
01:06:10.700 always fascinating to me this divide of people that and I I had the pleasure now of talking to
01:06:18.060 people from the camp who have experienced shit throughout their entire life and then there's
01:06:24.020 other people that just seem to be moving through life never having any you know so when you have
01:06:29.680 the luxury of scrunching up your face when somebody says the supernatural or the paranormal,
01:06:37.100 like, what are you talking about?
01:06:38.600 That's a luxury, right?
01:06:39.740 Because for other people like you, it's like, yeah, this is not a theory.
01:06:45.280 It's reality.
01:06:46.200 This is a real thing that has had real implications on my life.
01:06:50.920 And I get to talk to those people now because whether it's a guest or another podcaster,
01:06:58.020 so many of us are spurred into this arena that we're in now where we're making content about this
01:07:04.360 because we had something that was unexplainable it's usually it man it's like something happened
01:07:10.560 at some point there's one thing maybe it was a bunch of stuff bunch of little things one big
01:07:16.080 one whatever doesn't matter that i never got a satisfactory answer for you know nobody ever
01:07:22.980 never convinced me that it was just a random thing that happened or that I was seeing shit
01:07:30.160 or that it wasn't real.
01:07:33.300 And, you know, you have these experiences.
01:07:35.080 I'm sure you've, you've, you know, had this happen before where like you go to try to
01:07:39.780 talk to somebody about it because you want to talk about these things to some extent.
01:07:44.240 On one hand, you don't because of the way that it's perceived.
01:07:46.620 But on the other hand, it's like this fascinating thing that you want to discuss.
01:07:51.100 and like far and few in between that you get anybody that can have that conversation with you
01:07:58.220 you know you bring to the table like this thing that happened to me and you could lay it all out
01:08:04.220 for somebody and they'll be like that's crazy man you're like fuck that's not enough that's crazy
01:08:11.340 man is not enough like I have to do something with this and so you know uh I just find it weird
01:08:18.320 how some people i don't know is it squeaky clean lineage where they never did anything crazy you
01:08:26.300 know your grandparents never engaged in this and that or you know you never experienced the trauma
01:08:31.340 in childhood that like opens up that door or you've you've never given a sequence of um
01:08:38.460 consents away to something in the spiritual realm for it to attach on to i just i don't know what
01:08:44.060 it is man you know even here that's all right bye um even here i don't this almost like went
01:08:51.260 over your head we had mason come in the other day and she opens the door it's after hours the shop
01:08:58.500 is closed and she's gonna ask us she walks in front of your camera and you go it's fine just
01:09:04.620 walk in front of my camera and all of a sudden both her and i hear ding and it's the fucking
01:09:11.540 bell at the counter yeah i didn't hear that nobody's there nobody's there and she looks
01:09:18.540 behind her and then gets into the kitchen and looks up to the front counter and nobody's there
01:09:24.420 and i go did the bell just go off and she goes yeah the bell just went off like you know how a
01:09:30.040 fucking bell works dog you gotta ding that shit how does that go off how does that happen i didn't
01:09:35.460 even know that i know that happened so like i don't know for some people it's like maybe some
01:09:39.220 shit happens and you just don't even
01:09:40.660 maybe you just forget. I was here by myself yesterday
01:09:43.460 I was like, it's a little spooky.
01:09:44.780 I'm just going to turn the lights off and get the hell out of here.
01:09:46.520 Yeah, when I was doing night shows I was like, this is fucking spooky
01:09:49.080 man. I don't want to be here. I don't like this coffee shop.
01:09:51.380 But yeah, it's like a
01:09:52.920 separation in society.
01:09:55.740 So the experiencers versus
01:09:57.120 the non-experiencers. And I don't
01:09:59.020 fucking understand the non-experiencers.
01:10:03.600 There's
01:10:04.080 been so many people
01:10:05.320 where I'd be like, you ever
01:10:07.000 seen a ghost? And they're like, no.
01:10:08.580 and i'm like really and they're like yeah why have you i was like a hundred times
01:10:14.400 yeah man like oh okay well you know um but like talking about like your bell in the in the shop
01:10:23.900 there freaking have you ever talked to somebody about something paranormal whether it's like
01:10:30.180 through whether you had a guest on um in the shop or like through virtual like this um
01:10:37.040 and then all of a sudden all of your tech stuff starts all the time yes shitting the bed yes
01:10:43.520 yeah uh what was the latest that happened so many times and when i was first starting there was this
01:10:49.780 guy he's he's become a really good friend now but his name's ron and i had him on i can't remember
01:10:55.960 is before is episode eight or nine or something like that and um i posted the the episode and
01:11:05.840 people started saying they're hearing voices yeah and so I go on and I start listening and I was
01:11:11.660 like it there's some back feed of our my voice through his mic but at the same time it's not
01:11:17.980 line there's certain spots that the voice is not lining up with my voice and it's completely
01:11:24.060 different words yeah we had one sister dissected it and she came up with a whole bunch of stuff
01:11:30.720 like where i called the the it's a sanatorium was where what he was talking about and i called it
01:11:37.320 an insane asylum and apparently it upset them whatever voice was there and oh wild so oh wow
01:11:46.760 i didn't think that that would just pop on the screen like that um well can we show this clip
01:11:50.600 real quick this is i guess we can show yeah he love i love heidi heidi's awesome yeah we were
01:11:55.260 talking to her and she is this is weird yeah uh so go ahead and listen to this that's a very state
01:12:00.320 What you've kind of done, Heidi, is you've pointed and you've identified an enemy.
01:12:05.100 Right.
01:12:06.340 Yo, that fucked me up. That gave me the chills. I didn't like that one.
01:12:09.160 One more time. That was crazy.
01:12:13.220 That's a very state.
01:12:14.640 What you've kind of done, Heidi, is you've pointed and you've identified an enemy.
01:12:19.120 Right.
01:12:19.920 Bro, I forgot how crazy that sounded.
01:12:22.520 That's a very state.
01:12:24.320 That's like a deep, exasperated sigh. That's not the first time that that's happened to us.
01:12:28.020 It wasn't even just a sigh.
01:12:29.000 It sounds like it whispers something at the end of the sigh.
01:12:31.960 It sounded like some spooky-ass, I don't know, fucking movie where they're casting a spell.
01:12:38.460 We were talking to another guy.
01:12:40.280 Man, I forget his name.
01:12:42.100 And that one was more clear demonic interference.
01:12:46.320 It sounded like garbled voices and crackling of a Tesla coil or some shit like that.
01:12:53.140 But this one was weird.
01:12:54.040 It was just a sigh of a woman.
01:12:55.920 and i don't know isn't that strange though it's the sigh of like it was a woman's voice
01:13:01.280 yeah but it happens all the time kind of sound like oh okay i i wish i mean i don't wish um it
01:13:09.260 happened all the time but um it's it it gets me excited but at the same time like it's like
01:13:17.080 kind of scary yeah yeah it's like it's evidence but at the same time it's like
01:13:22.340 it's fucking with me i get it man i get the excited thing like i it's exhilarating it is
01:13:27.280 yeah that whole week i don't know if you remember that whole week was technical difficulties yeah
01:13:32.060 yeah i remember that there was like we go through these periods where it seems like she's going
01:13:35.200 through right now too yeah man yeah yeah yeah yeah um i don't know i i think uh i understand it you
01:13:44.340 know a lot of christians will kind of like get you know like oh don't don't look at that don't
01:13:48.800 look at that. But my thing is the people who experience it often end up being some of the
01:13:55.720 best tools for the will of God, right? Like, in other words, if you've experienced it,
01:14:01.580 like for me, I like to think that I'm a good tool. I could be a good servant because I can speak to
01:14:07.420 people who are like me, who have, I don't know if you've experienced this, Kev, but it's like
01:14:12.860 when you go through these things and they drive you to all sorts of like conspiracy and looking
01:14:18.380 into like the phenomenon there is a little part of you that looks at christians like
01:14:22.780 these motherfuckers like they don't know shit they don't know shit like they don't have they're
01:14:27.060 like they're they're just happy people going through they don't really have a a depth of
01:14:32.320 knowledge on any particular thing they don't know conspiracies they don't know the supernatural
01:14:36.260 and they're just going to church on sundays and what i find i eventually found is like oh no the
01:14:41.360 bible nails this stuff it nails it but that doesn't mean that the average christian knows it
01:14:46.600 But what that done, you were just reading the NLT, right? And it's like, dude, it's crazy how much the NLT and it's like, I enjoy it because the language is much more understandable than the King James version. But through all the episodes and conversations and research that we've done, I understand the NLT is like, fundamentally missing a lot. It hides the enemy from you. It's crazy. Like, the NLT reading it is not going to necessarily screw up your relationship with the Lord.
01:15:16.600 And it will still preach the gospel to you, you know, as the gospel is met and salvation by grace through faith and, you know, the coming of Christ and what he did for us and all these things, overcoming death, like all of that is still going to be there.
01:15:30.720 But understanding the nature of the enemy is like it's like stripped out of it because of the translations and shit.
01:15:37.540 It's kind of wild.
01:15:38.200 so um but what i get to do now is like yeah dude i spent my whole life having these experiences and
01:15:45.320 looking into all this occult shit um all of this for me was spurred on when i was a kid
01:15:50.980 because of my own experiences i i would talk about them and eventually one of my aunts overheard
01:15:58.540 you know saw some of my interest in it and then expressed to me like hey this thing happened to
01:16:03.460 your grandma this thing happened here and there yada yada this thing happened to your aunt and
01:16:07.600 that became fascinating to me became like the mystery of my family and it caused me to look
01:16:12.880 into all of this shit alien abductions and sleep paralysis and the hat man and it led through my
01:16:18.880 youth into my adulthood into my the thing that i do now for a living that's how i got here so
01:16:25.100 i get to now turn around and talk to people um who have had experiences like us and who have
01:16:32.160 you know um have an affinity for the occult or have an affinity for conspiracy theory
01:16:37.220 And I get to say, like, hey, dog, I know like I know all the shit that, you know, and sometimes I know it better.
01:16:43.080 Sometimes I don't know it as good, but I can speak the same language. Right.
01:16:45.980 That's kind of what it is. It's a language. And it's like I know enough that I can have this conversation in that language very well with those people.
01:16:54.120 And I can be like, by the way, it all leads to Jesus Christ.
01:16:57.460 And I know that sounds crazy because I know people think that the Bible is cringy and Christianity is cringy.
01:17:02.800 And that's on purpose. That's on purpose. That's been done on purpose in the West. We've made a surface layer over Christianity that is super gay and super cringy.
01:17:14.040 But if you can just hang in there and don't worry about the people, don't worry about the institutions, worry about God, worry about the truth and like actually look at what this thing is saying.
01:17:22.460 It talks about it all. It talks about it all. And it makes perfect sense.
01:17:26.980 And also, if you need a little convincing, look up the never-ending amount of testimonies of people getting alien abducted and calling on Christ, and it stops.
01:17:37.620 People will hear that, and they'll go, oh, no, well, that's just – it's just a thing like – that's just – it's intent, and it's like, no, dude, I've been through all that shit.
01:17:46.940 I'm not like some lifelong Christian.
01:17:48.800 I was not a Christian.
01:17:49.560 I was not religious.
01:17:50.260 I was a conspiracy theorist who who believed in the supernatural and who saw the occult I could see it in everything it was there very obviously and I didn't come to Christianity till 30 something years old and I'm telling you everything that I understand understood before makes perfect sense through the Christian lens.
01:18:14.220 but don't let christians or the church or anything there's nothing wrong with them
01:18:18.460 but i'm saying don't look at them as a as they're the truth that's just man those are just dudes
01:18:24.660 those are just people that's just a building and you go there and you can worship and you can
01:18:28.740 develop a relationship with god but like don't look at that and then think somehow that means
01:18:33.800 that the bible's not real and that jesus isn't real like no no it's super real dude it is very
01:18:38.420 real that's it that's what i got yeah i think i think nature is the best place to for for worship
01:18:47.420 i mean to sit instead of sitting in um in a pew uh listening to a preacher you can be out
01:18:55.460 just in a trail or as sit sit in some grass being barefoot or whatever connected to
01:19:01.980 what the creator has created and this is my opinion um and i think there's more of a of a
01:19:08.560 zen and a connection when you're out there because you're you're visualizing everything
01:19:14.220 that he has created as well and you could still sit there with a bible and read it too and you
01:19:20.780 know do the thing you don't have to listen to i mean i'm sure you know a sense of community and
01:19:27.420 stuff with within the churches is all fun and cool too but i do think that there's a lot of
01:19:33.600 there's a section of christians or really any religion that they'll go to their their church on
01:19:42.700 on sunday or mosque or whatever and they're listening to somebody tell them the word rather
01:19:49.940 than reading it and i feel like there's there's a good portion of people that haven't read it and
01:19:54.800 they're just listening to their to their preacher yeah yeah i mean it's one of those things where
01:20:00.120 i think it's um what i've learned is there's a more than a few ways to get it and if you are
01:20:07.900 if you enter that building let's say and you are earnestly seeking a relationship with god
01:20:14.980 god knows that and things will happen like when i started going to my church um i took a break
01:20:22.280 for a while because i started to have like um like a distaste for the way you know just like
01:20:27.160 the regular church shit like it just felt corny uh is is really like a way to summarize it but
01:20:33.840 there would be times and i mean i was you know i could ask my wife about these times where like
01:20:39.720 we were talking about something her and i like something was just on my heart or on her heart
01:20:45.500 and we're walking you know we'll go for walks together and we'll talk about it and then like
01:20:50.020 we'll go to church that week or the next day and the sermon is directly about it and like sometimes
01:20:56.280 sometimes scripture can be applied like a general blanket in a way that it can fit a lot of
01:21:03.600 different things these times were so insanely insanely pointed insanely pointed that even my
01:21:13.040 wife would come away like we wouldn't be talking during it we'd just be listening and afterwards
01:21:16.960 and she'd be like, I felt like he was talking directly to you.
01:21:18.980 And I'd be like, I know! How crazy was that?
01:21:21.020 So, like, if you're seeking God, you're earnestly seeking God,
01:21:25.800 he'll use those buildings, he'll use that congregation, he'll use whatever.
01:21:29.320 And I think there is something about energy and worship
01:21:32.780 when people are all together in one building, all thinking about God,
01:21:36.280 and this thing is happening on stage where everything is about God.
01:21:41.200 Even if it's a little bit corny, it's still like,
01:21:43.480 well everything that happens in there god is on the forefront of everybody's mind that's in there
01:21:49.360 so like i do think something special is happening in that building but i also agree like yeah if
01:21:54.380 you're in nature it's not just the building i mean you could be in this room right here we do uh
01:21:58.520 we do a show called straight bible every tuesday and the the owner of the shop matt boss he he's
01:22:05.300 the guy that does the episode i just produce it and i help like pull up and read the scripture
01:22:10.080 sometimes just to you know like i'm a co-host so i mean it's been multiple times but there's just
01:22:15.640 the last couple times i could remember i'm having a beef with the entire orthodox church go figure
01:22:20.840 and we're doing uh we're doing a series on sermon on the mount and it just so happens we're in
01:22:26.400 chapter 5 verse 24 or whatever it is and we're talking about the traditions of man and then
01:22:31.160 we're pulling up scripture to cross-reference that but matt has already wrote out this uh script or
01:22:37.680 he wrote this out months ago and we're just getting around to reading it now but like that
01:22:45.180 week i'm arguing with you know higher ups in the cath in the orthodox and probably catholic church
01:22:51.880 about their tradition specifically i'm like this is very interesting and like just this last week
01:22:56.680 that passed we had a conversation with our boy ed mabry dr mabry right there behind me um and we
01:23:02.800 were talking about the nature of God and you know that's always a question and does God know things
01:23:08.500 before they happen and things like this was the kind of back and forth that we had with him and
01:23:13.960 we weren't sure exactly where we came apart but like again part of the Sermon on the Mount series
01:23:20.020 I think it's like chapter 6 verse 5 or whatever it was we're talking about um the knowledge of
01:23:27.160 God and we're cross-referencing scripture according to like you know we're going from like numbers to
01:23:32.380 genesis and then we're going to first timid and just all these different scriptures and we're
01:23:36.760 talking about god knowing things beforehand and what he does and i'm like this is just it's
01:23:42.000 fascinating every single time i'm like yeah this is what this is the question and here's the answer
01:23:47.240 that's why people say like the bible or like scripture is alive in some ways like it seems to
01:23:52.700 be an interactive text yeah like it communicates there's a call and response and what i was telling
01:23:59.720 with matt the very interesting thing some of the best like i'm a guitar player so the best guitar
01:24:04.400 riffs or guitar lines are all call and response like you have a lead melody and and maybe that's
01:24:10.480 the first bar of this solo or the the chorus that you're going to present as this this solo on
01:24:17.700 guitar so the first is the melody the second thing is the response so you have a call your response
01:24:22.880 and then they do the call again and then the response is going to vary but it's always it's
01:24:27.420 like you have to call you have to call and then you have to give that response and then people
01:24:32.640 are listening and they're interested and you just you can keep doing that i mean again anybody
01:24:36.860 playing any kind of instrument it's that simple a melody slap in the bass that slap at a bass
01:24:42.700 a melody and then a respond to that melody and that's exactly what that i mean that's that's
01:24:48.020 what god is telling you to do constantly he's like he's there call out and then he responds
01:24:53.660 you call he responds and it's just it's fascinating how it works out almost every
01:24:58.360 single time in that way it is fascinating it's um i don't i would say like um for me
01:25:10.900 i had not only my my son in my ear but i also had uh so many lovely guests um
01:25:19.720 saying that they see this this and that and you know i've always been somebody that has
01:25:25.960 had struggled with compliments and so like somebody gives me a compliment like yeah whatever
01:25:32.300 um and you know um listening to my son talk about scripture and and stuff like that
01:25:40.920 shit i forget where i was going with this we're saying it feels like scripture is alive and it
01:25:46.480 calls back yeah so um when what what happened uh recently with uh charlie kirk right i didn't
01:25:57.300 really know anything about him really i just you know i saw a couple of his videos here and there
01:26:02.400 whatever but as soon like i heard heard it on on on a podcast that it had happened like live
01:26:09.140 and i was like i i drive for a living so i pull over and i was like no way and i open my phone
01:26:15.580 first thing i see is it literally happening yeah and uh and like something in me like vibrated and
01:26:22.780 all of a sudden like it became more real and i was like my soul was just like we need to pray
01:26:31.160 like for some reason i just felt like i needed to pray right then and there and i've never prayed
01:26:37.280 before so like i and then a week later i bought my first bible as an adult you know i had a bible
01:26:45.700 when i was a kid like this little like kid bible kind of thing and we decided that we were gonna
01:26:51.860 like just go like open it and kind of like pick out a verse because i heard this thing that i
01:26:59.960 can't remember who said it to me but just open up the bible and you could put your hand put your
01:27:08.100 finger on a random verse and it could it's gonna resonate with you with a current situation and
01:27:15.520 that's what we started well we we haven't been doing that lately but we did start doing that
01:27:20.520 And you can read the same verse at different moments in your life.
01:27:27.240 And it seems to have a different meaning for whatever situation that you're going through.
01:27:37.520 Yeah, it's my understanding.
01:27:40.120 I've not made it through the entire thing because I can't read because I'm retarded.
01:27:44.020 So a lot of mine is communication.
01:27:46.540 I've picked it up and started reading through it again.
01:27:48.420 I don't know what the umpteenth time this is, but it's my understanding that you can read through the entire thing and then go through it on a second playthrough and figure out or pull out all sorts of things that you didn't catch the first time around and so on and so forth to the extent that, you know, Matt is still he's been reading it for how long now?
01:28:10.420 and he's still pulling out things and ed mabry says the same thing he's been reading it for his
01:28:15.060 entire life and still pulls out things that he didn't catch before and i do think like yeah
01:28:20.160 there's a situational application that changes the meanings in one way or another that that can
01:28:25.460 be the case too but i think also just like uh being aware like one of the we were just reading
01:28:31.300 acts five and that's when saul or paul yeah it's saul at the time he's called um and saul was
01:28:39.840 murderer he's a murderer of christians and he's on the road to damascus and he's cold and he's
01:28:43.280 blinded but it's like oh like that's a yeah great story he he hears jesus and then he's blinded and
01:28:50.260 then you know then then he has to be healed and then he comes out on the other side better but
01:28:54.560 the story when you read it again and you actually like you don't even have to dissect it just read
01:29:00.280 it and go oh shit like didn't i didn't catch that part he's uh he's on the road and other men hear
01:29:07.320 the call as well well some do some don't and he hears it and he immediately goes
01:29:14.320 uh what do you want lord like yeah i'm here what do you want who are you and it's and it's jesus
01:29:23.080 and he's like yo dude you're killing all the christians but the interesting part is that he
01:29:27.460 recognizes his voice he doesn't know who he is because he's actively killing people that follow
01:29:32.340 him because he think that he thinks that that's the right thing. But again, just like an interesting
01:29:36.960 study of like, you could be, you can be in the wrong spot. You could be even doing the wrong
01:29:44.680 things up to the point of murdering people that follow Jesus. Right. But you can still know his
01:29:50.960 voice. What the hell does that mean? Right. It's like a question that we have to like really
01:29:57.380 question we we have to ask ourselves like do number one do i know his voice this guy is so
01:30:04.780 in tune with god that he did recognize him and he stops on a dime but he's doing the wrong thing
01:30:12.420 entirely until he's turned around and he has to be turned around in a harsh way like he loses his
01:30:17.220 eyesight for three days and it's it's kind of brutal for him but yeah it's like little things
01:30:24.220 like that as you go back and read the bible it's not just a story there's like okay there's a little
01:30:28.460 bit more there yeah that's what i've been learning to do am i listen am i am i listening but not
01:30:34.560 obeying right is that is this the lesson here that i need to take from that like i heard you
01:30:39.540 but then how about my actions you know and as you read it you have to like constantly reflect like
01:30:45.400 okay what happened here that's the other thing too is you have to look at it like um i think a lot of
01:30:51.760 us look at it as like tradition and um some people are comfortable looking at more as like allegory
01:30:58.740 but if you read it like these are real people and real events that happen and then make an attempt
01:31:04.700 to humanize them that's one of the things that um our buddy ed mabry does really well he was
01:31:10.660 talking about the story of cain and abel and it's very short in genesis the story of cain and abel
01:31:15.820 Like, it's super short. It just basically says that Eve had two sons and one was given, you know, to herd the sheep and the other one was given to to work the land.
01:31:25.460 And, you know, Abel gave his sacrifices, his offerings to the Lord and the Lord was pleased.
01:31:31.340 And when Cain, well, when Cain gave it, he was not pleased.
01:31:36.480 And and this upset Cain and then God's like, you know, why? Why are you upset? You shouldn't be upset.
01:31:42.000 No, so it's actually the other way around, because Cain is the one that does the sacrifices.
01:31:45.400 He's in charge of the animals, and God wanted the animal sacrifice.
01:31:50.000 And when he gave it, God's not happy with it.
01:31:52.600 Then Abel gives it.
01:31:53.980 Abel gives the sacrifice, and God's pleased.
01:31:55.640 Well, that's interesting.
01:31:56.420 Well, I have the NLT.
01:31:58.020 So I might have said it backwards.
01:31:59.260 It literally says Cain is given to plow the lands, and Abel is given to herd the sheep.
01:32:05.400 And then Abel gives his offering to the Lord.
01:32:08.360 Oh, sorry.
01:32:08.900 Yeah, yeah, you're right.
01:32:09.520 But the point is that one gives the offering first, and then it's rejected, and then the second gives the offering, and then he says that one's good.
01:32:16.680 But Ed was making the point that Cain was the offering guy.
01:32:19.980 He's the guy that gives the offering, and God only knows how long they've been doing it, and they've been doing this offering in order to get back into Eden.
01:32:26.780 That's the promise since they were kicked out.
01:32:29.060 They were promised the Messiah, so this is like, again, a shade of Jesus Christ to come.
01:32:33.080 so you you can imagine his mother telling him well you're the oldest you're the guy that's
01:32:39.560 going to give the sacrifice you're the special boy so god's going to accept this and you're
01:32:44.420 going to get us back into here just keep doing your thing and he gives a sacrifice and one day
01:32:48.980 god's like no that's not good yeah it's not good because you're going through you're doing a vain
01:32:53.820 repetition you're doing this uh tradition of man this is a it's like a shadowing of
01:32:58.900 of the church of the formalities of the church these cold dead formalities that you see and
01:33:05.180 this is like what we kind of take with religion why people when they look at it they go i'm not
01:33:08.840 doing that shit that looks retarded you know these guys are just passing around a basket and
01:33:13.040 saying the same words over and over again yeah and that's kind of this is what cain is doing
01:33:17.600 at that point so again it's very short scripture but when you look into and you look at the history
01:33:22.380 and you start to extrapolate on what these things say and read the hebrew and the translations of
01:33:27.040 what was actually said you can you can understand this story a little bit better rather than
01:33:31.440 he was just jealous of his brother yeah so he killed him it's like there's a lot more than that
01:33:35.960 but this is what what ed does he's like imagine this it's adam and eve in the garden the serpent
01:33:41.740 deceives eve the serpent's cursed adam and eve are cursed and god says that the seed of the woman so
01:33:49.780 the offspring of eve is going to crush the head of the offspring of this serpent so there's a
01:33:56.360 prophecy right it's like okay this is bad now we've been casted out we've been cursed but we're
01:34:01.320 gonna win yeah it's all good because we're gonna win there's no mention of like 8 000 years later
01:34:06.960 yeah when this see like jesus christ is the descendant of eve yeah but they're thinking
01:34:12.660 cain and abel the first generation of sons they have surely one of these two dudes is going to
01:34:19.420 make this right and fill the prophecy and it's got to be the dude that's the one that's giving
01:34:23.480 the sacrifices to god right so when that shit doesn't work like yeah that explains why he loses
01:34:29.180 his fucking marbles yeah like he lost his mind god's telling his brother he's like he's like i
01:34:33.920 see what you're about to do you should calm down chill out bitch yeah i know what you're gonna like
01:34:38.540 just rethink that and he's like no no no no and he goes and he puts his brother in the field and
01:34:43.660 he kills him because mom's been raising him for all these years saying you're the one that's going
01:34:47.800 to fulfill the prophecy that's going to get us back into the garden even was promised to you
01:34:52.900 three thousand years ago yeah just throw that down the line to what jews are doing today and
01:34:56.560 you're like huh it's all the same it's the same shit but we're doing it too right we all have
01:35:00.940 that special boy but it's great man to take those dudes and make them humans instead of just fucking
01:35:07.060 stories in a book like to look at this and be like okay yeah yeah so so she's promising like
01:35:13.240 or or like so my understanding was always so he off he sacrificed this and it wasn't good and the
01:35:19.680 other guy sacrificed that and that was good it was like what the what do you mean like that so
01:35:23.840 god values one over the other and it's no it's it's not that but then you look at that and you
01:35:28.700 go that's fucking stupid and then you go the whole thing's stupid like there's so many instances that
01:35:33.260 and i think that's really like you know we're talking about the nlt right the new living
01:35:36.300 translation which is like crazy to even use the word living like you look at that translation and
01:35:41.440 it's so many of the words have been translated to these really hebrew and greek words have like a
01:35:47.960 shit ton of different meanings for one word. And they all apply. They're super dynamic. And then
01:35:54.120 like modern English words are like paper thin in comparison to it. So it looks dumb and reduced
01:36:00.340 and reductive and almost nonsensical. Look up the definition of the word repented in the Old
01:36:06.460 Testament in Hebrew. It means like to be comforted. It means to be sorry. It means to make amends for
01:36:11.720 me. It means like 15 things. And it's like, well, God repented. I said, so what does that mean?
01:36:17.800 you look it up as like could could mean anything at this point yeah like how do we how do we apply
01:36:22.240 this well we have to go contextually situation by situation what happened but like that idea of uh
01:36:28.040 cain and abel in the garden there and uh the offering is again it's like shadowed again it's
01:36:33.720 like you can go to the new testament where jesus is telling the parable of the old lady that gives
01:36:38.300 her penny or whatever it's called versus the the guys that are giving you know a hundred times the
01:36:44.400 amount. And he's like, but look at this lady. She gave everything that she had. And that's what,
01:36:49.100 that's the offering that is acceptable to God. So then you go back to the Cain and Abel story,
01:36:53.860 you're like, yeah, Cain is going through the motions. He's going through the motions. This
01:36:58.580 no longer means anything. It's rejected by God. And, you know, the story goes on from there,
01:37:04.400 but we do that all the time too. And it's crazy because I'm looking at it here. Like the story
01:37:08.400 of Cain and Abel is you see Genesis 4 1 to uh Genesis what 4 4 17 that's it and by the time
01:37:19.820 you get to 4 17 which is not a lot of words not a lot of words it's very very short they're on to
01:37:24.980 like and Cain had a wife and and she conceived Enoch and they built a city and and they're
01:37:30.200 already moving on Cain's already been cast out he's already had a city he's in Nod and he's got
01:37:35.560 a wife and he's having a kid the whole thing is like such a short which is also something i didn't
01:37:40.660 know from the outside looking in before i was ever christian you know these stories everybody
01:37:44.120 knows cain and abel everybody knows the garden it's like fucking these things are so briefly
01:37:49.420 mentioned but i think greek and hebrew were such um like fucking unbelievable languages
01:37:57.320 so like they had numerical values attributed to them their their alphabet was synonymous with
01:38:03.100 their numbers and every word had such a vast uh and and and complicated meaning or not complicated
01:38:10.020 but complex meaning that like yeah in that short amount of time from genesis 4 1 to 4 16 a lot of
01:38:17.440 information is conveyed but it does not look like it it does not look like it because of the way
01:38:21.640 that we read and because of the way that our language is it looks like there's nothing there
01:38:26.340 but there's so much there these guys are 20 like no i think they were like 80 yeah some shit going
01:38:31.580 on here yeah man it's just it's it's fascinating it's fun to look at and it's always something new
01:38:35.860 but we have managed to water it down and make it very gay very gay that's what we like to do around
01:38:43.080 here yeah yeah everything make everything down and make it fucking gay it's pride month dog like
01:38:48.520 we told you at the beginning come on now exactly um there's so i heard one of the ways that some
01:38:55.840 people like to make the bible a thing of tomfoolery is that they they use the word
01:39:03.520 unicorn in it um and i haven't found it yet but apparently the there's there's a mention of a
01:39:12.520 unicorn in the bible and in the 80s in the encyclopedia unicorn not only did it did mean
01:39:21.600 the mythical creature but it also meant rhinoceros which makes sense for the area that the the bible
01:39:28.940 takes place in for a rhino to be present in one of the stories dude i'd say what the unicorn thing
01:39:35.960 is is actually really weird too because we ended up doing an episode where through the extra
01:39:41.100 canonical texts somehow or another it's derived that the nephilim uh rode unicorns or some shit
01:39:47.420 like that into battle well you'll see that on the seals of some of these ancient families as well
01:39:51.620 yeah unicorn and the unicorn is synonymous with the antichrist or the beast and and it's in children
01:39:58.180 memorabilia everywhere the reason that it even became fascinating to me is because there was
01:40:03.100 this time where all of a sudden while they're pushing all the lgbtq shit they're pushing like
01:40:08.000 unicorns and rainbows right alongside it and i'm like that's really fascinating like why has the
01:40:13.140 unicorn become in some ways the unspoken gay mascot for children and then something else
01:40:20.960 happened shortly after that where it was the axolotl and if you if anybody has little kids
01:40:25.900 out there you'll notice that it's there's a big axolotl push and that's because of transhumanism
01:40:30.740 axolotls have the ability to regenerate entire limbs and organs and shit like that and so they're
01:40:36.300 using them right now feverishly in all this research to determine how to activate the dormant
01:40:42.260 gene and human beings that can result in regenerating limbs and organs just like the
01:40:46.400 axolotl does and then as they're doing that all of a sudden they're pushing in the toy industry
01:40:51.640 and and all these other things for babies axolotl everything's axolotl so like there's these weird
01:40:56.520 little things they slip in there the unicorn was one of them and then i bought it up on a show one
01:41:00.800 day and our guest might have been ed mabry was like actually yeah there's something there it's
01:41:04.940 interesting you should say that because it's a symbol associated with the antichrist and i'm
01:41:08.140 like fucking a man of course it is so like yeah we get to scoff at unicorns makes a lot of sense
01:41:14.500 well it seems like so in num i'm looking at it here but in numbers it's mentioned in connotation
01:41:18.700 with egypt a bunch of times and if you want to go like get real crazy about some of this
01:41:22.700 transhumanist mixing stuff oh yeah egypt was doing this like nephilim shit yeah nephilim shit
01:41:27.980 specifically at around the time of moses so numbers 23 22 there is where uh it talks about
01:41:34.260 the strength of a unicorn and god brought them out of egypt it might have been something that was
01:41:40.000 like uh what would you call that like a some sort of a hybrid animal some maybe something created
01:41:46.020 i don't know i don't know yeah around this time period in egypt they were very comfortable and
01:41:51.800 familiar with shit being weird like you know we're talking about the plagues right like they're like
01:41:57.580 yeah your firstborn son's dead uh yeah there's locusts yeah the water turned like blood red
01:42:02.560 and people were still like yeah cool whatever you know there had to be 12 of these Moses throws
01:42:09.060 down a rod and then his guys throw down a rod they both turn into snakes but one eats the other
01:42:13.040 and they're like oh shit his snake like that was normal that's normal in Egypt at the time so yeah
01:42:18.380 yeah there's things going on that it's more fascinating than we understand that's when
01:42:22.440 when people scoff at that too it's like okay so you've never had a cryptid experience or you've
01:42:27.400 never uh heard somebody who encountered you know an upright man dog some sort of werewolf creature
01:42:33.960 you've never in cat like once you hear enough of that shit i'm like yeah i'm fine with a fucking
01:42:38.620 unicorn i just seen a fucking german shepherd chihuahua okay what are we talking yeah it was
01:42:45.180 a chihuahua that looks like a german shepherd that actually sounds pretty cool how does that
01:42:48.840 happen it's just like this is what nothing new under the sun an abomination to god though yeah
01:42:53.200 but everyone's like that's cute that's cool it's like i don't know there's shit out there like
01:42:56.280 ligers i mean they're making yeah lizard people lizard people in a lab somewhere this fucking
01:43:01.420 matt gates comes out and says there's an entire hybridization program taking place in these deep
01:43:05.500 underground military bases and now all of a sudden it's all that congressman anna paulina
01:43:09.980 luna wants to talk about or um uh what's the other lauren bober you know they're literally
01:43:15.800 about to do a big fake and gay alien disclosure to scoff at the idea of unicorns have you seen
01:43:21.380 a narwhal dog yeah it's a whale unicorn i i don't have any problems with unicorn it doesn't even
01:43:28.180 uh remotely move the the the the the meter on my radar you know i i don't care at all about that
01:43:35.160 i actually find it kind of cool i think they're i think they're cooler from what they're described
01:43:38.940 in the bible they're probably cooler than the gay shit that we see oh yeah that's what i'm saying
01:43:42.800 it's all been like i don't think they had rainbow manes and you know uh like hearts on their ass
01:43:47.500 cheeks or anything like that in fact if they did exist that means a couple of dudes throughout
01:43:51.680 history were gored to death by one sick that's kind of sure that's kind of cool most likely
01:43:58.060 yes all right new podcast named death by unicorn death by unicorn is actually a banger i i hereby
01:44:03.520 a movie actually is it really yes i want to start a petition for uh making unicorns hardcore again
01:44:10.860 it's a horror movie with paul red and um jenna ortega really shit yeah look at that that's so
01:44:18.660 funny i think they nailed it look look they nailed the unicorn probably what it was i see
01:44:22.700 it's like a ferocious looking beast somebody getting gored by it sometimes these movies
01:44:27.200 literally talking about like consent and stuff like that things that they're putting they always
01:44:34.100 in the movie they're using the blood of the unicorn to make uh the the heir of this mansion
01:44:43.900 younger there you go so we have this idea of uh the chrome the chrome yeah they they do tell you
01:44:50.940 they have to tell you somehow i don't know if they have to tell you or if they really like telling
01:44:55.320 they like telling you and also the the most interesting stories are those things because
01:44:59.460 they're like truths about reality that have been stripped away from our understanding so when
01:45:05.420 they're reintroduced through fiction they resonate on some genetic level like we look at that as
01:45:10.540 humans and we go like i don't know why but i really enjoyed that it's because you enjoy the
01:45:14.500 truth and that was part of reality at some point yeah all the superhero movies oh you enjoy movies
01:45:19.740 about men of renown heroes of old yeah all right i see what's going on here check out genesis 6
01:45:24.820 dummy yeah yeah yep every once in a while we'll be watching a movie and i'll be sitting there and
01:45:30.700 i'll be like i don't consent that's the other thing too i i've gotten to this point now where
01:45:37.340 it's um it is rough to watch a movie with me yeah i don't consent to any of it but i enjoy the slop
01:45:43.080 yeah i enjoy looking for all the like the the hidden subliminal messages and the symbols and
01:45:48.820 all this crap in the background i don't look for it i do i let it like like you ever see the meme
01:45:53.500 of the girl with the hot dog oh yeah yeah that's the the goyslop watching the movies as it bounces
01:45:58.120 off your face and i go give me more of that that was cool delicious delicious goyslop
01:46:01.860 oh man all right guys so uh i'm taking up a bunch of your time today but um if you guys don't mind
01:46:12.860 um i do have a really important question that i like to ask at the end of every episode and that
01:46:19.800 is um are you guys finding fulfillment in doing what you do this is like the team version of our
01:46:26.280 show how dare you very interesting we have a question we don't always ask it kevin you bitch
01:46:30.620 kevin you've been watching uh we don't always ask it but we like to ask people if they're having
01:46:34.420 fun yeah and he did that but he did it in like a more meaningful way no he did it in a way that's
01:46:39.220 not copyright infringement oh touche yeah yeah right so uh fulfillment yeah dude it's like he
01:46:44.820 They added the itty-bitty ting, you know, to, like, the vanilla ice shit.
01:46:48.840 Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
01:46:49.380 And the Milli Vanilla.
01:46:50.660 Is that a real thing?
01:46:51.540 Oh, yeah, that's a real thing.
01:46:52.580 They avoided copyright by adding a ding-ding-ding-ding-ding-ding-ding.
01:46:56.640 Really?
01:46:57.160 Yeah, dog, that's all it takes.
01:46:58.220 I thought that was the whole thing.
01:46:59.520 I thought that was...
01:47:00.620 Well, that's the argument.
01:47:01.920 This is what Kevin just did to us.
01:47:03.520 Wow.
01:47:04.080 Oh, yeah, that makes sense.
01:47:07.520 So, yeah, fulfillment.
01:47:09.200 Yes.
01:47:09.820 Yeah, I definitely am.
01:47:11.340 I mean, I did a...
01:47:13.540 I'm not talking about hot dogs.
01:47:14.420 he's talking about like no not hot jokes okay i i did a show for a long i've been podcasting for
01:47:19.900 um my facebook memories just came up the other day and it said reminded me of a show i had nine
01:47:24.380 years ago so i've been doing this for a long time and those shows were not fulfilling i knew that i
01:47:30.300 had to do something i was always called to do this but i did a bunch of shitty versions of it
01:47:36.220 and i wasn't talking about the truth and i wasn't talking about conspiracies and any of that stuff
01:47:40.540 I was just I didn't know what to talk about.
01:47:43.300 In fact, I had a show for a number of years called Where I Belong, which is like literally me trying to figure out, like, what am I doing?
01:47:49.300 Where do I belong in this? How do I?
01:47:51.400 And for all those years I did that, this has been going on for almost three years.
01:47:57.960 And it's certainly the greatest job that I've ever had.
01:48:01.680 But it is fulfilling because I do believe that God gave me a gift.
01:48:09.040 And I've used it incorrectly a lot.
01:48:10.540 um and it's the gift of i don't think i can shut the fuck up i don't think it's possible i actually
01:48:17.420 think that if the camera's going i can go indefinitely as long as i've got you know
01:48:22.400 coffee and something to keep me awake and so i've been able to take that and apply it to something
01:48:28.280 that people regularly say helps them it helps them it brings them closer to god it helped them
01:48:38.220 understand something they didn't before they got community they found their people whatever the
01:48:43.460 thing is somehow talking a lot has helped people and it helps me and so i like to think that it
01:48:52.880 serves god i believe that it serves god so in that way i don't think there's anything more fulfilling
01:48:57.260 than doing what serves god because i think that's what we're called to do so for me yeah dude it's
01:49:04.260 it's huge. This is the greatest thing that I've ever done outside of, you know, my marriage and
01:49:10.280 having my son. Yeah, I guess I'm, I guess I say I'm fulfilled. I don't, I don't really get
01:49:16.360 fulfillment from doing the show. Like this is never a, I've told you this before, like doing
01:49:21.360 a podcast is never a thing that I wanted to do. I always worked behind the scenes or worked
01:49:25.920 on the side of podcasting. Cause I like, I like the medium of what it is. Uh, I guess I'm good
01:49:33.020 at it people like to watch me do it so that's fine but what i do like about the show is that
01:49:37.720 it's helped me to it's put me in a position where i could do fulfilling stuff like when i when when
01:49:43.860 i build stuff like make when we made the studio here like for me that's very fulfilling plugging
01:49:49.340 in that wire is very fulfilling wires he's a big wire guy love wires or uh helping set people up
01:49:57.060 to like either meet each other or go on bigger shows or whatever it is like connections and
01:50:02.480 stuff like that that to me is fulfilling so this show uh has helped put me in that position and i
01:50:08.600 think that that's really cool so that's where i find the fulfillment so yeah i'm fulfilled daddy
01:50:12.980 fill me fill me up more you know
01:50:15.580 oh god all right um if you guys don't mind for the people that may not know who you are um or
01:50:31.200 where to find your show if you want to plug where anything any of your stuff websites all that stuff
01:50:36.820 oh tell them about what we're doing yeah i forgot oh my god yeah so okay um first off you find it
01:50:42.320 nephilim death squad anywhere so youtube except for rumble i don't like rumble but uh youtube and
01:50:48.040 apple podcast spotify but sprout pod bean all those other fucking things i don't know what
01:50:54.680 people use um there you know we're over there too uh patreon many there's so many of them and i don't
01:50:59.420 know any besides the two i mean we're on them all but i don't know them um patreon.com forward
01:51:05.540 slash nephilim death squad if you sign up there you're going to gain early access to these
01:51:08.880 episodes we do like five to six episodes per week um and you know you get all kinds of perks
01:51:16.020 like you get to watch live and engage with um with the live chat which is you know we don't we
01:51:21.260 obviously aren't releasing the ones that we do immediately so that's a real big perk and you
01:51:26.680 also be able to gain access to the communities um they're on patreon because oh they're doing
01:51:31.740 like a show oh yeah they're doing a bible study tonight uh on this wednesday june 17th so i don't
01:51:37.100 know when this will be released but yes but that's what the community's gotten together and started
01:51:40.420 doing they do their own thing now we've lost control of the community they don't even respect
01:51:43.620 us when we go and actually for legal purposes we have nothing to do with whatever it is that
01:51:47.900 they're doing or organizing or plotting um and so you know it's just to say that the community
01:51:53.540 has really grown into this thing of its own and people find a lot of value in that kind of like
01:51:59.200 camaraderie so um those those things you'll have access to all those spots too it's like telegram
01:52:04.340 and discord and everything but we also do uh live events annually semi-annually whenever we can find
01:52:10.520 a venue that will not kick us out and write articles about us and um we have another one
01:52:16.180 coming up august 8th in wildwood florida it's called brohemian grove and we're gonna be getting
01:52:22.080 together uh these posters um a lot of people who have been on the show who you know we consider
01:52:30.500 friends of the show uh they're all going to be there it's the nds community getting together
01:52:34.000 and you know last time we had some some big names like sam triply and owen benjamin uh this time
01:52:39.200 it's going to be more community driven more of the people who have appeared regularly on this show
01:52:43.920 plus we have some special secret guests but we have a very yeah some special secret special
01:52:48.980 secret guest you can get tickets for those at top lobster.com timothy alberino costume contest
01:52:54.140 oh it's timothy alberino costume competition that's right where we're gonna see who is it's
01:52:58.980 also coincidentally an indiana jones costume who's your daddy who's your daddy and then we
01:53:04.200 get to crown daddy yeah like at the end of it whoever wins so um yeah a lot of fun stuff coming
01:53:08.900 up if you're into that kind of a thing top lobster.com you'll see the tickets available
01:53:12.660 plus all of our merch that are designed by our very own in-house puerto rican very cool stuff
01:53:18.320 so um is that it is that everything probably i don't know i don't know i think that's it
01:53:23.400 awesome well guys i really appreciate you coming on the show today um you know it means a lot
01:53:31.400 time is our greatest currency because you can't get time back um so i really appreciate you guys
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01:54:20.140 um again check out nephilim death squad i enjoy the show i think you guys will too if you haven't
01:54:25.780 checked it out already um again thanks guys so fucking much thank you dude this was fun
01:54:31.820 thanks for having us on brother