Nephilim Death Squad - TIME CAPSULE： 015 - Upgraded for War w⧸ Colin

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00:00:53.280 We are being hypnotized by people like this.

00:00:58.420 Newsreaders, politicians, teachers, lecturers.

00:01:03.940 We are in a country and in a world that is being run by unbelievably sick people.

00:01:12.380 The chasm between what we're told is going on and what is really going on is absolutely insane.

00:01:18.220 Oh, yeah, dude.

00:01:19.480 There's some Nephilim shit.

00:01:20.680 It's like we all know what's going down.

00:01:23.300 We know I'm saying shit what happened to the home of the brave.

00:01:26.480 These motherf*****ers, they controlling this now.

00:01:28.480 And no one's talking about how they made us hard to be slaves.

00:01:31.640 And everybody's just walking around.

00:01:33.720 Out in the clouds, I want to wake up to a dead in the grave.

00:01:36.840 But then it's too late.

00:01:37.820 We need to be ready to raise up.

00:01:39.640 Welcome to the end of day.

00:01:41.320 What's up, guys?

00:01:47.540 Welcome back to another episode of Nephilim Death Squad, the show where we hunt down and expose Nephilim shit.

00:01:53.920 I am David Lee Corbo, a.k.a. The Raven.

00:01:57.160 This is Top Lobster.

00:01:58.720 And today we are set with a guest who has a very interesting story but would rather go behind sort of a veil of anonymity, which I empathize with because a lot of the topics that we talk about, they're really strange for a lot of people.

00:02:17.680 Never mind if you're someone who is experiencing these things.

00:02:21.640 And on my other show, The Raven's Watch, I deal with this quite a bit, and it's very understandable.

00:02:27.100 A lot of the times these are some of the first instances of folks like this sharing their own testimonies.

00:02:33.940 And so for the sake of anonymity, we're just going to call our guest Colin.

00:02:39.740 But without any further ado, let's get into it.

00:02:42.820 Colin, how are you, dude?

00:02:45.260 Hey, what's going on, guys?

00:02:46.080 I'm doing well.

00:02:46.520 How about yourself?

00:02:48.220 I'm good.

00:02:49.080 I feel like I've been quiet.

00:02:50.880 Two minutes I haven't said a word because I am so excited for this episode.

00:02:54.720 This has been a long time coming.

00:02:56.500 I've been following this guy and talking to this guy through this journey because I've known him since before any of this stuff popped off.

00:03:07.320 And the story we're about to hear is one that would make Tony Merkel mad if he's not hearing it and interviewing it because I think it's one of the most fascinating and timely stories of just this year or whatever's to come.

00:03:22.380 So, yeah, I just want to say I have seen some of the cliff notes from this and sort of the highlight reel and it's really intriguing.

00:03:32.600 So, you know, I think it would be best to start from the beginning of this, although, you know, if you feel that there's a better place, Colin, then so be it.

00:03:43.120 But why don't you go ahead and take us away from wherever you see fit?

00:03:46.540 I'll give you a little information about myself.

00:03:51.600 I'm just a my name's Colin.

00:03:54.100 I'm 37.

00:03:54.820 I'm from Indianapolis, Indiana.

00:03:56.360 I'm a father of three.

00:03:58.800 I'm just a regular dude.

00:04:01.360 I I had recently gone through a divorce about five years back.

00:04:06.020 And subsequent to that, it put me into a pretty dark, dark place mentally.

00:04:14.580 And that brought me up until this this year in January when I got my hands on some psilocybin mushrooms.

00:04:27.020 In an attempt to help, you know, I'd heard about the healing qualities of psilocybin, what it can can do for mental health.

00:04:35.640 So I figured what the hell I give a shot.

00:04:37.560 And that's what I did.

00:04:40.460 But unbeknownst to me that I opened up a doorway within myself that I was completely unaware existed prior to any of this.

00:04:53.240 And it ended with the climax of this, these experiences with what I call a consciousness abduction experience where I.

00:05:08.060 Like, they told me I they were upgrading me for an upcoming war.

00:05:12.920 So that's that's the that's the gist of what we're going to be talking about.

00:05:17.780 So this story.

00:05:20.360 Go ahead, top.

00:05:21.080 It fascinates me so much because, again, like to just to, you know, really ride Tony Merkel.

00:05:29.000 One of the first things I heard from him was on tinfoil hat, where he tells this story that's like an aside after he tells his initial story.

00:05:37.480 And the second story is better than the one that he came there to tell.

00:05:41.380 And he's talking about the guy, I think his name, they were calling him Ron, that he basically made an agreement with something and is like switching over between realms to fight this war on the other side that's happening.

00:05:59.220 He's doing stuff constantly.

00:06:00.700 There's like even a book to corroborate it.

00:06:04.500 I don't know if you guys have seen the episode, but the book is like it's like fiction written from a third hand perspective of someone talking about Ron.

00:06:14.300 So it's all there to like really corroborate what the hell this guy was doing.

00:06:18.900 But Colin's story seems kind of similar or the entities might be similar to whatever is going on with that guy, Ron.

00:06:27.740 So, yeah, that that whole concept of of war, right, being equipped for war, being upgraded for war, engaging in some sort of war, I think within our community and our community being right.

00:06:43.700 Like Top and I, we are we have a foot in the paranormal, in conspiracy, occultism, cultural topics.

00:06:53.040 And I think that is because they all blend together.

00:06:55.320 And within that, there is a lot of that, this idea of I mean, even even in my mind, it brings to me Whitley Stryber and the supposed war underground.

00:07:07.700 He was a I think an architect who was tasked with building deep underground military bases for the government, ends up coming into contact with entities underground where he finds that there's a whole war going on.

00:07:20.760 And then like Tops alluding to this episode of Tony Merkel, where in some sort of dream realm, someone's communicating with these entities, also being enlisted essentially into a war.

00:07:32.300 So this isn't the first time I've heard a concept like this.

00:07:36.580 Colin, once I say that, go ahead.

00:07:39.760 A war just because like Colin's going to get to the story here.

00:07:43.980 But just to put this out there, a war is between two sides.

00:07:47.600 It's not between one side.

00:07:49.960 So like who's enlisting is a great question before people just jump on, you know, if someone's talking to entities, it's bad.

00:07:58.380 Generally, yeah.

00:08:00.120 But I don't know, just something to think about there.

00:08:02.540 What because I have no clue what's going on.

00:08:04.440 So, you know, Colin, could you tell us like tell us about that night?

00:08:07.360 What happened?

00:08:07.780 Because I never really even got the full scoop.

00:08:09.360 All right.

00:08:12.000 So, well, I'm going to start from the beginning.

00:08:16.200 I was working.

00:08:18.060 I work at a cemetery.

00:08:19.440 I work in death.

00:08:20.860 So ever since I started working in death, synchronicities in my life, it's just been insane.

00:08:28.720 And that's I started working here when I was going through the divorce.

00:08:31.880 So but I was I was working at a comedy club here in town doing security at night.

00:08:37.860 And I hated it.

00:08:39.460 I I work here at the cemetery during the day.

00:08:42.420 I work at the comedy club every night, get home at two or three o'clock in the morning and do it up, do it all over again.

00:08:47.640 I was just a miserable person.

00:08:48.760 And so I started eating mushrooms, you know, Graham here, you know, one one point five and I'd be laughing or whatever.

00:08:57.820 I ate him one night at the comedy club and I'm sitting there and I'm watching everybody leave for the night.

00:09:03.260 Nothing spectacular is going on.

00:09:05.180 And I hear a voice clear as day from right behind me that says, Colin, you need to quit here.

00:09:12.500 You need to give yourself over to God.

00:09:14.500 You need to start going to church.

00:09:16.080 And I stood up and looked behind me like, what in the hell was that?

00:09:20.900 Like, I was looking around.

00:09:22.400 No, I no one said that no one was behind me.

00:09:25.240 No one was there.

00:09:26.000 I'm looking around.

00:09:27.120 It scared the living shit.

00:09:28.880 So I got the sense that this thing knew something about me.

00:09:35.500 So I kind of like started to listen.

00:09:39.180 And that was the first step in all this stuff that started to take place within like a two week speak.

00:09:48.040 Colin, can I ask you, I've also heard a voice before in the past.

00:09:55.040 And I was a child when it happened.

00:09:57.040 It was only once in my life.

00:09:58.880 Uh, but some of the things, so, so there's questions that I'm interested in.

00:10:04.580 What was like the tone of this voice?

00:10:07.440 Was it, um, first off, was it male or female?

00:10:11.360 And was it, uh, was it a scary voice?

00:10:15.660 Was it a calm voice?

00:10:16.880 Was it, uh, you know, it kind of gave you an order, right?

00:10:20.140 So I, I imagine it struck you as very serious.

00:10:23.380 Um, how would you describe it?

00:10:26.240 It was, uh, it was a male.

00:10:27.920 Um, fatherly, but not like, there was no anger in the, in the tone of it, but stern.

00:10:36.480 Like, hey, listen up type of thing.

00:10:39.120 You know what I'm talking about?

00:10:41.160 Yeah.

00:10:41.720 Almost like giving you advice.

00:10:44.000 Yeah.

00:10:44.580 Like you need to, you need to quit here tonight.

00:10:47.860 You need to give yourself to God and you need to start going to church meeting.

00:10:52.260 This was on a Saturday.

00:10:53.860 That next Sunday morning, I was at church.

00:10:56.740 I'd never gone, never gone to church before on my own ever, ever.

00:11:01.760 So I quit the common form that night.

00:11:04.260 Colin, was this, was the voice like, uh, overwhelming or was it just like another dude talking to you?

00:11:10.220 It was, it was like, like some, like say there was a chair behind me and somebody leaned up from behind and like to say something in my ear.

00:11:19.700 So they make sure I'd hear it like right behind my head.

00:11:23.240 And I was, I was, I was standing at the exit door watching the people who came to the show that night.

00:11:30.580 I didn't even make sure I got out.

00:11:33.460 One, one last thing for me.

00:11:35.320 Uh, did it sound, did you pick it up with your ears or was this something that like, when I heard the voice, I distinctively felt like it was, um, audible, but not from my ears.

00:11:47.720 So like, it was like, there was a woman in my head, uh, but it was very clear as if I heard it with my ears, but I, I distinctively felt like it wasn't something that I picked up with my ears.

00:11:59.280 Um, I turned around and looked, but like, I, I mean, it was, it's super loud in the comedy club.

00:12:07.020 So it had to have been in my head for me to hear it like I heard.

00:12:11.640 You got, you know, it's a 300 seat room and it was sold out night.

00:12:17.720 You got quite a bit of people in the lobby trying to get out.

00:12:23.200 So it's really interesting because you had, uh, from where I'm sitting, a mixture of things that, um, I'm not saying that this entity was negative.

00:12:36.040 I'm just speaking from my own experiences.

00:12:38.180 You had a lot of things going on that I would say would open one up to an experience.

00:12:45.500 Uh, so the psychedelic mushroom use, obviously, right.

00:12:49.460 You've, you've, uh, put that together.

00:12:51.660 A lot of people suggest that this is, um, it's a doorway.

00:12:56.140 It opens you up, uh, to experiences with things that aren't just psychological hallucinations, but, you know, maybe something, uh, in a realm that we're not able to perceive in regular waking life.

00:13:07.700 Um, not inundated by a different substance, but also, uh, you know, you're describing a situation that is accompanied by a feeling of like depression, right?

00:13:19.860 Like you've gone through a divorce, um, that's a, I mean, you know, I would, I would say that there have got to be studies that'll tell you a divorce is in the top three most, uh, destabilizing, chaotic, and upsetting moments, uh, in a person's life.

00:13:37.420 And so, um, and then on top of it, you're working in a cemetery, which is sort of the backdrop.

00:13:47.740 So it's like the, the, the things that are really happening in your life, it's the divorce, I'm sure is something you're struggling with on the surface level on a daily basis.

00:13:58.580 Um, and then this use of mushrooms, which is happening sporadically behind that.

00:14:05.580 And then the backdrop to all of this is a cemetery.

00:14:09.500 And I mean, man, you, you really created sort of a perfect storm there.

00:14:14.420 You got the bingo card of, of paranormal.

00:14:18.940 But yeah, well, yeah, I guess so possibly, but the, the, the cemetery, it's, it's beautiful.

00:14:25.760 It's 500 and some acres, you know, it's, it's a, it's a, it's like a forest.

00:14:31.280 So I don't know.

00:14:33.160 I, I, I was, I had gone to therapy.

00:14:35.980 I'd gone to the shrinks and shit and they put me on antidepressants.

00:14:39.920 You know, these entities told me to stop taking the antidepressants.

00:14:44.140 I did subsequently.

00:14:45.400 I have not taken anything since I feel so much better.

00:14:49.580 Uh, but yeah, it, it, it was interesting.

00:14:52.500 It was, it was a lot, a lot to take in while it was all happening because I, I, I felt insane.

00:14:58.560 I still feel insane about all of it, but so, um, do you want me to continue with the story or?

00:15:06.380 Yeah, please.

00:15:07.000 Before you, before you do that, I do want to ask one question.

00:15:09.720 Do you feel like the, um, did you pick the job at the cemetery?

00:15:13.760 Like, was that an opportunity for isolation?

00:15:16.420 Things are getting so much to the point where you kind of just want to be away.

00:15:20.720 Uh, no, uh, I, I needed a job and, uh, it, it, it, it, I fit the job perfectly.

00:15:28.360 Um, you know, it's, it's a lot more than just like digging graves and shit.

00:15:32.260 So, but I, I, I, I actually, yeah, heavy, heavy equipment and stuff, backhoes, all sorts, all sorts of stuff, you know, it's without giving away where I work.

00:15:43.300 We've, we've been open since the civil war.

00:15:45.940 So that'll give you an idea of how old this place is.

00:15:51.060 Okay.

00:15:51.640 All right.

00:15:52.020 So, um, yeah, let's, let's, uh, let's go forward from here.

00:15:55.600 All right.

00:15:56.220 So, uh, I had that experience that night, the whole, I walk, I'm walking back to my car after hearing the voice.

00:16:01.580 Um, and it's, it's continuing to, to talk to me and it's, it's, it's pretty much, I, I'm, it's going through the list of all the, all the shit that I need to be dealing with.

00:16:14.660 You know, when typically when you eat mushrooms, you get, you get exposed to all the, all your faults, you know, all your shortcomings in life and everything.

00:16:21.300 And we're, it's going through that.

00:16:23.220 I'm like, oh, okay.

00:16:24.480 And I, I, I get what's going on.

00:16:26.280 I'm like, oh, it's just, it's here to help.

00:16:28.700 Like, all right.

00:16:29.380 So I, I, I, I text my boss the next morning.

00:16:32.540 I said, Hey, I, no fault to you guys, but, uh, last night was my last night.

00:16:37.600 I'm not going to be able to work.

00:16:38.760 It was just the second gig anyway.

00:16:42.760 So, uh, that, that week goes by and I get to the next weekend and I'm like, all right, well, I'm going to try this again and eat some mushrooms.

00:16:53.180 And I'm going to meditate because I, I'd read during the week and I'd listened to some podcasts and stuff about people who can get into that realm.

00:17:00.760 I was like, well, shit, I'm going to explore that.

00:17:03.360 And first time I, I meditate with, uh, I, I mask and with, uh, earbuds in and I'm listening to, uh, sulfurego beads or whatever the frequency is frequency music.

00:17:17.000 Like, and I, it, I get shot into this different realm and I come face to face with this blue entity.

00:17:28.160 It looks like a guy from the blue man group, just a complete blue entity.

00:17:33.460 And he's sitting behind what looks like, like a control panel of, of some sort, like, I don't know, like maybe like what, like a TV newsroom looks like a panel.

00:17:44.920 There's just panels and shit everywhere.

00:17:46.700 I was like, where in the fuck am I?

00:17:48.960 And he looked at me and he goes, well, holy shit.

00:17:51.320 He goes, how are you doing?

00:17:52.620 So I was like, I, I, I was, I was just shocked.

00:17:56.600 I was like, I don't know what in the fuck is going on.

00:17:58.860 It just completely and totally shocked me.

00:18:00.980 And he started to talk to me about stuff.

00:18:04.880 So you have any questions or anything?

00:18:06.820 You're going to keep going.

00:18:08.480 I do have a question.

00:18:09.480 How much, um, do you remember how much this time you took?

00:18:12.820 And how tall was this guy?

00:18:15.920 Uh, see, the thing is in this place, it's, I'd say average, like a average size of, of what I am.

00:18:24.120 I'm six foot.

00:18:24.980 So it's something like that, but it's not the same space.

00:18:28.400 There's no, and time doesn't exist there.

00:18:30.980 Does that make sense?

00:18:34.640 And, and how much mushrooms, uh, did you, did you consume?

00:18:39.560 On this, this time it was, uh, three grains.

00:18:42.740 Is that a lot?

00:18:44.000 I don't know.

00:18:45.540 Uh, yeah, this was, I, it was quite a bit for the, the strain I was taking.

00:18:51.560 Yeah.

00:18:51.800 Uh, so it isn't easy.

00:18:54.260 Okay.

00:18:55.640 And did you have like a sense of what, like this, this image that you likened it to a newsroom where he's got all these panels and all these TVs?

00:19:08.300 Did it, was it accompanied with any sense of, of what this guy was?

00:19:12.520 It's almost like you met, you bumped into a dude who was doing a job.

00:19:16.020 You know, that's, that's the impression that I'm, I'm getting lately.

00:19:19.180 Yeah.

00:19:19.300 That's what, that's, that's honestly what it felt like.

00:19:22.240 Um, no, I, I, I, I asked him immediately.

00:19:25.640 I go, are you God?

00:19:27.260 And I can't remember if that was the first time I met him or the second time, but he, he laughed.

00:19:31.460 And this thing has a sense of humor.

00:19:33.500 It jokes around and it laughed and said, no, I'm just, I'm just here to help you.

00:19:37.200 I'm one of your guides because you've been having a hard time.

00:19:40.840 I was like, holy shit.

00:19:42.400 But yeah, I've been having a hard fucking time.

00:19:44.220 That's for sure.

00:19:47.160 How long has he been your guide?

00:19:49.220 Like that he's, so he's just fucking around this whole time until like, he's like, all right, this guy really needs me now.

00:19:53.800 The hell?

00:19:54.020 I've come, I've come to find out that I, I have, I have several different ones that are with me.

00:19:59.600 Um, and they've been with me my entire life.

00:20:02.680 I had, I, I, I've, I've been able to look back on, on when I was younger, different things that's happened and it ties into all, all of what's happening now.

00:20:12.580 So this type of stuff's apparently happened my entire life.

00:20:16.280 So.

00:20:17.520 Okay.

00:20:18.000 So we'll, I, I very much looking forward to the bigger picture, um, that you're alluding to, but let's, let's give it to us in pieces.

00:20:25.360 So let's, let's continue on from there.

00:20:26.840 All right.

00:20:29.820 So I, I, I get to the point where I can take these mushrooms and I can go back and I can talk to the same entity with, he's the, he, and we just have, I can have a conversation with him.

00:20:45.140 Um, and it's, he's, he's, he's giving me advice, you know, on how to, how to do things.

00:20:51.520 And it's, and it's all, it's all things that are good.

00:20:57.740 Like going to church, giving myself to God.

00:20:59.900 I need to read the Bible.

00:21:01.440 Uh, I, I was told to give up meat.

00:21:03.720 I needed to start exercising.

00:21:05.620 I needed to, uh, cut toxic people out of my life, just a laundry list of, you need to do this, do this, do this, listen to this, listen to this.

00:21:16.580 And we can, we can get you to where you need to be on to your, uh, next step in all of this.

00:21:23.500 I, I was always confused on what he meant by the next step in all of this, because I, I, I was my, my goal for all of this.

00:21:31.540 I just wanted to, to not hurt anymore.

00:21:34.360 I wanted to be the best dad I could be.

00:21:36.100 I want to be the best, just the best version of myself that I could be.

00:21:39.560 And I was trying to do this work on, you know, work on myself.

00:21:42.940 That's, that was the intent for all of this.

00:21:44.780 I, I had no intention beyond that.

00:21:48.040 Um, but so we're just going through stuff.

00:21:52.600 And this is going on for like a week and a half.

00:21:54.980 Colin, can I just interrupt?

00:21:56.880 Uh, so I don't have any experience with mushrooms, but it seems like, you know, people look into like party, they'll take mushrooms and maybe they'll trip out a little bit.

00:22:06.040 People looking to explore deeper within themselves.

00:22:09.080 Like there's an intentionality to doing that.

00:22:11.440 Do you think that, uh, mushrooms work in that way that you can like, like almost like if I take this, then this becomes available to whatever doorway or path I decide to go down.

00:22:20.880 Or is it just a random trip?

00:22:22.600 Uh, no, it's not random.

00:22:25.040 Um, everything's intention.

00:22:27.780 Um, I, I, prior to this, I had never had experiences like this with mushrooms.

00:22:35.100 So I don't know.

00:22:36.340 That's it.

00:22:37.160 That's where it gets really confusing.

00:22:38.580 It's because I, I, I, I'd had experience with psychedelics, but never experiences like this ever.

00:22:47.980 And I, I, I don't know.

00:22:50.100 I don't know what the difference is.

00:22:51.740 Um, maybe it's just a different, different mind space that I am in now than I was then, but it's, it's, it's different for everybody.

00:23:00.900 Uh, I don't recommend it for everybody because I, a lot of, a lot of people should not do, do it.

00:23:07.660 And I definitely don't recommend to anyone to do what I decided to do.

00:23:12.880 It's drastic, drastic, drastic times require drastic measure.

00:23:18.000 Uh, I, I really wanted to get better.

00:23:21.000 I, that's all I wanted.

00:23:22.160 That's all I, I, and praying while I'm, not to get too personal, but, uh, was something at this time, like, were you considering like suicide at this?

00:23:33.720 Is that what you're saying?

00:23:34.340 Um, no, yes, no, um, I just, my, my ex-wife and I have less than a good relationship and we have children involved in, you know, it's just, it's really hard when your children live two hours away from you to be in their life at all.

00:23:54.420 You know what I mean?

00:23:55.680 Uh, so it's just, it was, it was that, you know, not being around my kids and everything.

00:24:00.080 And then pretty much having your whole life just flipped over on you out of the blue.

00:24:06.540 You know what I mean?

00:24:07.820 Yeah.

00:24:08.420 Cause generally like we're, we're going to have Jerry Marzinski on.

00:24:12.160 He's going to, we're going to talk about the, um, correlation between schizophrenia and actual demonic possession rather than schizophrenia being a thing.

00:24:21.020 It's more likely demons.

00:24:22.580 And this guy was, he worked in the field for years and he seems to think that that's the case, but it would, it was like, it would just seem that like the,

00:24:29.900 the demonic possession would want to move you in the other direction.

00:24:34.140 Right.

00:24:34.940 Which is why I'm like baffled by this case, you know?

00:24:38.420 That's in my girlfriend.

00:24:41.040 She, cause I tell, I, I, I was like, I, I didn't know.

00:24:44.400 I was like, do I tell her that she knew I was eating mushrooms and all she knew is I'd eat them and I'd put on an eye mask and I'd lay there for a couple hours and I'd wake up and I'd be a lot happier.

00:24:54.320 And I, I, I, after I'd come back, I, you know, I, I, it was like, holy, it's like, it was like sitting there talking with a therapist, but I'm in some other realm talking with an entity that with the help of psilocybin, which sounds insane.

00:25:08.640 Like, but everything this thing was telling me was, it was the truth.

00:25:13.420 And I, I, I, so I was like, all right.

00:25:16.280 So I started to listen to, I started taking the advice of what this thing that I started to listen to it and things started to get, get better.

00:25:23.880 So I, I, and I, and I, and I go to church every Sunday.

00:25:27.780 Um, I need to get baptized.

00:25:29.580 I have, I haven't done that.

00:25:30.540 I'm 37 and had never gone to church on my own.

00:25:32.960 So it was, it was a pretty profound experience to, to drag me to, to church.

00:25:38.220 I, I was, I actively denied the divine for my entire life.

00:25:44.420 You know, I thought it was for the weak and I couldn't be, I couldn't be more wrong, more wrong.

00:25:51.820 So what, um, what denomination?

00:25:55.540 I'm just Christian.

00:25:57.360 Yeah.

00:25:57.840 I mean, the church that I go to, it's just, it's just a Christian, Christian church.

00:26:03.680 It's a non-denominational.

00:26:06.160 So they, they, their, their, their mission statement is just to become more like Christ.

00:26:11.420 That's, that's the goal of it.

00:26:13.060 I was, I can get behind it and people, you can wear, uh, you know, football jerseys on Sunday and no one cares.

00:26:19.160 So that's cool.

00:26:19.660 So it's not like, uh, I'm just asking because I know that the church that I grew up in and the one that I used to go to, it's more like the pastor is going to prepare a message.

00:26:29.400 He's going to come up there and he's going to talk to you, like talk to you how we're talking.

00:26:33.380 And there's a big difference between that and the Catholic church.

00:26:35.980 I don't want to trash the Catholic church, but when you go there, it's almost like, I think they read, they all read the same thing on the same day.

00:26:42.240 And it's very much like read from this book, put it down.

00:26:44.900 There's not like a personal message.

00:26:46.160 So I'm, I'm trying to just like figure out exactly what you're like, you're going to church, but what do you hear in there?

00:26:51.500 You know what I mean?

00:26:51.980 Yeah, it's just, um, we're, we're, he's, we're, we just got done with Matthew.

00:26:59.280 Um, shit.

00:27:00.420 I, we were talking about Sunday, uh, uh, finding joy in the mundane thing, finding joy in everything, finding God in everything.

00:27:08.620 Right.

00:27:09.400 Looking at everything, look at everything in life and see that that that's God, that's God, that's God.

00:27:14.180 Everything's God, which is what these mushrooms have told me that, that there, there's nothing that is not the divine.

00:27:23.840 The divine is absolutely everything around you, including you.

00:27:29.540 So, so if you're created by, yeah, did these, um, entities, Colin, did they ever explicitly like use the name of Christ?

00:27:38.620 Um, we, we, they told, they were, we talked about Jesus.

00:27:44.160 He didn't say Jesus Christ.

00:27:45.380 And from what I understand, Christ is just the King.

00:27:50.280 And it's about, we talked about Christ consciousness, if that makes sense.

00:27:56.840 Um, turning on the Christ within yourself that everyone.

00:28:03.280 When he spoke about Jesus, did it sound like he knew him?

00:28:07.020 Yeah.

00:28:07.800 Oh yeah.

00:28:08.620 He, he, he, he talked about what Jesus came here to do was to show us what we all can do.

00:28:17.380 That's interesting.

00:28:18.240 I was just listening to Tony Merkel's episode while I was, uh, wrenching away under the car and they were saying, uh, you know, that in the Bible, it talks about Jesus expressing that, um, what he can do in regards to healing.

00:28:33.900 And, uh, we can, uh, we can, uh, we can do that and so much more.

00:28:37.360 Uh, so that's just interesting.

00:28:38.920 It just is a thought that I had.

00:28:40.560 Um, so, um, so, okay, let's, uh, let's, let's, let's continue on from here.

00:28:45.460 So you, you're, you're taking these mushrooms, you're having this experience for the, the better part of, of, of a bit longer than a week, uh, from what you described.

00:28:53.760 Yeah. Um, from, uh, this all, this entire story takes place over a four week span total.

00:29:01.080 So from the, uh, January 9th until, uh, February 15th.

00:29:09.140 So I'm over the course of that time, I'm eating mushrooms on, on a nightly basis and I'm meditating and praying every single night.

00:29:19.320 Um, we, we, I, it's pretty much everything that there's, these things are telling me, um, are biblical.

00:29:26.680 I did not know that they were biblical at the time, um, but subsequent to going to church on Sundays and hearing what these entities had told me when I was in the, the place with them.

00:29:41.220 I, they call it the upper room, I guess.

00:29:44.240 Um, yeah, it's, it's going through what, what, what you need to do to, to fulfill what your destiny on earth is to be.

00:29:56.040 You're not like that. We're not here just to, to work and pay taxes and live this bullshit life that we're all forced to do right now.

00:30:04.900 It doesn't have to be this way.

00:30:07.960 And that I got it already. Like, that's exciting to me because that was something that I think so many of us can resonate with my, my entire childhood, uh, was spent sort of rebelling against the school system.

00:30:20.020 Um, because it just felt like imprisonment. Now in hindsight, there's a lot of valid reasons as to why it felt like a literal prison, literal.

00:30:27.260 Yeah. And now as an adult, it's like the thing that I struggle with most.

00:30:31.240 I'm blessed to have this job where like, I can be very, um, I can make my own schedule come and go as I please.

00:30:38.920 Nobody holds my feet to the fire for anything. I have a really good rapport with my bosses.

00:30:43.040 Um, I could work hard and then if something comes up, I can go, Hey, I'm not going to be here for this and it's no problem.

00:30:47.980 And that really gives me a lot of freedom, which is hugely important to me.

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00:32:28.680 Just this, right?

00:32:30.000 Like I'm unbelievably satisfied that Top and I are engaging in these conversations with people like you and the other shows that we've done,

00:32:38.440 because honestly, in my mind, these conversations feel like that's what's important and that they, you know, ideally are going to lead somewhere one day where maybe we can break through something and realize maybe in the way that you have.

00:32:56.380 But yeah, that whole sentiment, I resonate with that a lot, right?

00:32:59.920 This is not why we're here.

00:33:01.280 We're not here to pay taxes.

00:33:02.720 We're not here to wage slave away to our deaths.

00:33:07.260 And we're not here to take on an incredible amount of debt and then just die.

00:33:13.280 That's not it.

00:33:14.660 So yeah, I just wanted to say that's really resonating.

00:33:17.880 That's my whole life story, dude.

00:33:19.460 Like, I don't know if you know about what I've been doing the last few years, Colin, because you follow like probably the bullshit that I do on Twitter.

00:33:27.820 That's how you know me, um, but you kind of realize that in 2020, just left a good job, took a lot of risk, moved to Florida with my entire family, not just me, like my parents to move them on the same land.

00:33:42.940 We're like, I'm like, I'm in on, it's not going to be, it's not going to be like clock in clock out.

00:33:50.260 It can't, it can't be that way.

00:33:51.920 There's something more and how I'm doing it is just completely retarded.

00:33:55.820 But I just feel like, you know, but because it is, it's weird, right?

00:34:00.480 Like I'm, I'm talking about a divine concept, but I'm doing it by saying the N word, you know, like, um, it's beautiful.

00:34:08.720 That's poetry, dude.

00:34:09.860 That's poetry.

00:34:11.760 Everything is divine though.

00:34:13.560 If, if, you know, you give it, you give it back.

00:34:16.460 If you're honoring that everything is beautiful, even the, the N word, you know, but I, I, I like it, you know, I like, I like the brasses.

00:34:27.520 Yeah.

00:34:27.980 I guess it's just something different that people want to hear, but, um, so please continue.

00:34:33.000 I need to hear the rest of this.

00:34:34.340 All right.

00:34:35.460 Um, so, uh, now I, I had, I had one strange, really strange experience prior to, uh, the abduction experience.

00:34:47.460 But, um, so I, I, I walked into my house and I subsequently, I subsequently have moved.

00:34:54.020 Um, I don't live there anymore.

00:34:55.160 And it was Indianapolis.

00:34:56.440 I've moved out of the city into a suburb now.

00:34:58.820 Um, but, um, I, I, I walked into my house after coming home from work and, um, my girlfriend was already home.

00:35:07.240 Uh, she has the baby and I, it's, I, I, I get the feeling and it just, it's, it's, it's like says to me, but telepathically, Hey, uh, you need to get like a gram or two mushrooms out, eat them.

00:35:21.400 And then you need to lay down in the spare bedroom.

00:35:24.800 I was like, huh?

00:35:26.960 I was like, sorry.

00:35:27.740 I, all right.

00:35:28.280 So I jumped in the shower or whatever, and I went and got them and I, I went to put first mushroom in my mouth and it touched my lip.

00:35:37.800 And as soon as it touched my lip, my legs, it, like, it felt like the mushrooms had kicked in and I hadn't even consumed them yet.

00:35:46.680 And I was like, Whoa.

00:35:48.420 And so I ate them and it was, it was not 20, 30 seconds afterwards.

00:35:55.300 I heard lay down now, get the mask on and get ready.

00:35:59.940 I was like, what in the hell is that?

00:36:02.620 So I, I did what it said.

00:36:04.480 I, I laid down in this, in the guest bedroom, in the bed, on the bed and, uh, I'm, I'm waiting and I'm, I'm listening to my music and I just, I, I just get normal visual visuals.

00:36:18.720 Like I, when I eat mushrooms, when I was a kid going to concerts and stuff, nothing, nothing happened.

00:36:24.300 I was like, huh?

00:36:25.500 I was like, that was weird.

00:36:26.640 I was like, cause I'd been able to regularly go back, go in and this thing would be, he'd be there every time and we'd have conversations and stuff and I'd do the whole psychedelic experience with it.

00:36:39.540 But this time it just nothing.

00:36:42.280 Yeah.

00:36:43.500 Really quick.

00:36:44.080 I just want to ask, um, is it him that's calling you?

00:36:49.000 Uh, the, I, I don't know what, I, I, I don't know.

00:36:53.920 I, I, it's what I'm communicating with.

00:36:56.420 I call it the, there's the mushroom entity.

00:36:58.560 Then there's the guides.

00:36:59.700 There's, there's all sorts of different ones.

00:37:02.520 That's the thing.

00:37:03.480 It's there's different ones that come through depending.

00:37:07.640 Does that make any sense too?

00:37:09.080 But the, the, the, the one where I'm to tell you, yeah, there's been different ones each time.

00:37:16.520 Like there's that one that I go when I eat mushrooms, but after my abduction experience, I don't like, I, I've, I had eaten mushrooms a handful of times.

00:37:26.940 That's it.

00:37:27.300 These things come through without that.

00:37:29.680 Wait, so which was the abduction experience?

00:37:32.180 Did we, no, we haven't gotten there yet.

00:37:35.400 Right.

00:37:36.920 Right.

00:37:39.080 Oh, that's interesting.

00:37:40.540 Oh, you're breaking.

00:37:41.500 Lost.

00:37:42.320 Okay.

00:37:42.960 Uh, top was asking which one was the abduction experience, but Colin, we haven't gotten there, right?

00:37:49.140 No, not yet.

00:37:49.880 I'm getting, we're here right now.

00:37:51.180 This is right before it.

00:37:52.960 Okay.

00:37:53.400 So, so you, uh, they tell you to come, you show up, no one answers the door.

00:37:59.220 What happens?

00:38:00.900 Yeah.

00:38:01.940 Yeah.

00:38:02.400 And I, I, I, I didn't know.

00:38:04.960 I, so I, I, I just experienced the mushrooms.

00:38:08.860 I, when, when they were over, I went to bed and all was well with the world.

00:38:12.840 And, and as a result of me doing the mushrooms, I, I was waking up in the morning and I had

00:38:19.380 never felt better in my life ever.

00:38:22.900 I, I was refreshed.

00:38:24.480 I, I felt like I was a new person and I, I, I'd go through like daily and be working on

00:38:31.760 myself.

00:38:32.220 And like, they pretty much told me to like give myself pep talks going throughout the

00:38:37.260 day.

00:38:37.520 You know what I mean?

00:38:38.940 And then I, I was listening to what they were telling me to do and every, everything's

00:38:41.920 changed everything.

00:38:44.820 So, uh, the, the, the, the night of the, the abduction were here.

00:38:49.660 Um, you guys ready?

00:38:52.400 Yeah, let's go.

00:38:53.400 Um, so it's a Saturday, uh, I decide that I'm going to eat a little more than normal.

00:39:03.340 Um, so I, I did and I'm, I'm laying on my couch in my living room.

00:39:10.640 Um, my girlfriend had already gone to bed and I'm getting ready to go into go in there

00:39:20.800 and I, it starts to happen, but this time I get the feeling that my entire body is going

00:39:32.100 up.

00:39:32.920 Like I'm on an elevator of some sort, like I'm moving.

00:39:36.560 Um, and I, I go to open my eyes.

00:39:42.420 I cannot open my eyes.

00:39:46.320 I, I can't move either.

00:39:49.600 Um, I begin to panic at this point and it's, it's going on for quite a while and it's, it

00:39:58.500 feels like I'm moving really, really, really fucking fast.

00:40:01.180 Um, seems like for eternity, this is going on and I finally, I pop into this, it was, I

00:40:18.720 can't describe it.

00:40:19.580 It was like a operating room of some sort.

00:40:24.380 There's, I see lights above me.

00:40:28.100 I see, and then there's, there's a, there's a, there's a, there's a, there's a

00:40:31.180 there's two or three lights above me.

00:40:32.880 Everything's white.

00:40:33.620 And then there's three guys, three men.

00:40:37.760 Uh, all three of them are bald.

00:40:40.000 Uh, one has a mustache and glasses and they're all three wearing white trench coats.

00:40:46.860 Um, they have ties on, they look, they look like doctors.

00:40:50.040 They see me look at them and I hear in my head, he's not supposed to see us.

00:40:58.120 And then they come over to me.

00:41:01.080 Um, I, I started to, started to fight them, uh, trying to get up, but I'm, I'm laying on

00:41:10.600 a table of some sort.

00:41:12.080 I don't know.

00:41:12.620 Um, I couldn't really see besides these guys put my arms up and they, the one, he just

00:41:20.480 kept saying over and over and over again, you consented to this, you consented to this.

00:41:26.620 You consented to this before you're born.

00:41:28.820 Stop fighting.

00:41:29.640 Stop fighting us.

00:41:30.660 And I, I, I remember, I don't know if I said it or thought it or what, but I go, I, how

00:41:37.540 could I consent to something that I don't know what it is?

00:41:40.940 What is this?

00:41:42.000 What is happening?

00:41:43.400 And he just kept saying over and over and over, you consented to this.

00:41:46.540 You consented to this.

00:41:47.660 We're upgrading.

00:41:48.600 And then it gets to the point where we're upgrading you for a war.

00:41:51.280 And I was just like, what in the fuck?

00:41:54.180 What, what, what?

00:41:55.840 And they're, they're holding me down.

00:41:57.660 And the next thing I know, there's a prick in the back of my head, uh, right where the,

00:42:03.400 your neck goes into your head slightly to the right of my spine.

00:42:09.020 And I have this sensation of lightning going through my entire body.

00:42:14.880 Um, my back arches on the table.

00:42:18.060 Um, I felt, I felt like, I felt like what I was someone in an electric chair would had

00:42:25.160 to have gone through, um, just the shaking and the, the, the most unimaginable pain I've

00:42:32.480 ever felt in my life.

00:42:34.740 It's, I don't know how to describe it.

00:42:36.860 It felt like electricity coming on my fingertips, my toes, my head, every, every, or every part

00:42:42.460 of my body was being electrocuted.

00:42:44.540 Um, and then everything went dark, everything went, everything went what, Colin?

00:42:53.840 Black, dark, everything went dark.

00:42:56.960 Um, and then I opened my eyes and just like you were opening, like I opened my eyes and

00:43:05.180 instead of being in, uh, on earth, I opened my eyes and it's, it's like the space that we're

00:43:14.240 in now.

00:43:14.720 So the, the same distance it felt to where the blue sky is, where the clouds are, is everything

00:43:21.160 is white marble with gold vein, giant gold veins running through it everywhere.

00:43:28.580 Everything's gold.

00:43:30.860 Everything's white marble in the center of this, which is the size of just like you'd step

00:43:36.100 outside and you're looking at the sky is this golden mechanical device.

00:43:42.260 It looked like the size of the moon, but in the sky here.

00:43:47.080 And I was, I immediately thought, I go, Oh shit, I died.

00:43:52.280 That was my, that I, that was my first thought.

00:43:56.000 I'm like, fuck, I died.

00:43:57.780 And as soon as I said that from behind my head on my right side, I hear Colin, you aren't

00:44:05.060 dead.

00:44:05.800 And it felt like I was in the presence of God.

00:44:11.000 Like I was, I was around someone who like the sense of knowing that I felt in that, in

00:44:17.900 that presence, it's indescribable.

00:44:20.460 Absolutely indescribable what that felt like.

00:44:23.440 Words do not do justice.

00:44:26.140 That when I first met that entity, I, it, I don't know exactly if it was God, but it

00:44:33.500 was something incredibly, incredibly powerful and loving, if that makes sense.

00:44:41.800 Dude.

00:44:45.260 So I'm listening to this and this, um, I don't know how well-versed you are, Colin, in sort

00:44:55.040 of these experiences, right?

00:44:56.580 Whether they're sleep paralysis experiences, alien abduction experiences.

00:45:00.940 Um, but there are key elements that I always draw a, uh, correlation to, or a line through,

00:45:09.160 right?

00:45:09.720 It's like a sort of a pattern recognition in these experiences.

00:45:12.660 And I can tell you of my own personal experiences where, well, first I'd like to ask you this

00:45:18.320 electricity, right?

00:45:19.520 That you felt going through your entire body.

00:45:21.380 Was it also accompanied with like, it was a feeling as well as a sound?

00:45:26.540 Like you could, it was getting, you were getting all of it, like an intense, it was, if somebody,

00:45:31.700 I'm sorry.

00:45:34.440 A hundred percent feeling it.

00:45:35.660 I felt every, it was horrible, horrible.

00:45:39.900 If somebody described to you, um, a similar situation, but they used words like, I was

00:45:49.800 frozen and there was an intense, painful, like vibration.

00:45:54.900 Could you say that there's a, they're using just a different language to describe something

00:46:00.020 very similar?

00:46:01.760 Yeah.

00:46:02.600 Yeah.

00:46:04.040 But it definitely couldn't have been misunderstood with cold.

00:46:08.100 Oh, here, let me, uh, tell you what I'm getting at.

00:46:11.740 So when I was younger, I started going down this rabbit hole of exploring, um, this concept

00:46:16.520 of shadow people, because I discovered that there was a, uh, a string of coincidences within

00:46:22.240 my family where they all saw the same entity.

00:46:24.180 And it was a unique shadow person.

00:46:25.460 It's the guy with the hat and the duster coat.

00:46:27.220 People call him the hat man.

00:46:28.560 Um, I had found out that my grandmother saw him as well as my mother.

00:46:32.080 I mean, I'm sorry, my father, as well as, uh, a grandmother who wasn't really my grandmother.

00:46:37.720 She was like my stepdad's mom, you know?

00:46:40.120 So, uh, she would tell me stories of it and I started to connect all these dots.

00:46:43.520 And then I ended up reading a book one day that my grandmother said helped her to understand

00:46:47.680 what was happening to her.

00:46:48.840 And it was a book on basically alien abductions, but I start to become fascinated with this.

00:46:53.260 I go down a rabbit hole.

00:46:54.260 And as I'm researching on the internet, this is 2006, 2007.

00:46:58.120 I'm starting to realize, uh, that thousands of people are having this experience.

00:47:01.920 So I think to myself, I'm going to have this experience by virtue of researching it.

00:47:06.160 Right.

00:47:06.360 It's like, if you stare into the abyss and I was willing to engage with the idea that

00:47:09.540 like, it might just manifest in like a nightmare because I'm, and this is not, I'm not at all,

00:47:14.540 uh, uh, suggesting what your experience was period.

00:47:17.600 This is just my story.

00:47:19.060 So, um, I'm willing to engage with the idea that I might actually trick myself into having

00:47:24.940 like a nightmare.

00:47:25.620 And then I'd have to struggle.

00:47:26.980 This is me like preemptively thinking about it.

00:47:28.720 I might have to struggle with, was that valid or was that something that I dreamt because

00:47:32.940 of my obsession with this?

00:47:34.460 And so, uh, lo and behold, it does end up happening.

00:47:37.360 Now, what ends up happening, uh, parallels your story in, in many ways.

00:47:44.620 Um, but yours is above and beyond in its, uh, drama and scale and, and, uh, intensity.

00:47:53.880 And so what happens to me is, um, I wake up in the middle of the night and I, I can't move

00:48:00.960 and my entire body's locked up and I'm experiencing sleep paralysis and I'm not afraid at all.

00:48:06.680 Um, but I think to myself, oh shit, it's, it's happening.

00:48:11.080 Right.

00:48:11.500 So, uh, I, I kind of am trying to get into the mode of like wiggling my body, trying to

00:48:16.860 get out of this.

00:48:18.020 And all of a sudden, um, I see the shadow of a man move across the room.

00:48:26.140 And as soon as that happens, I'm hit, excuse me, I'm hit with what feels like electricity.

00:48:32.420 My body stiffens up and all like my fingers, my arms, everything extends to the, the absolute

00:48:39.340 limits.

00:48:39.900 And I feel this insane electric, electric, uh, like it was, it wasn't electric shock.

00:48:47.440 It was electrocution, a constant steady wave of electricity pumping through my entire body.

00:48:52.020 I could feel it on.

00:48:54.120 It was so, it was like being attached to the loudest, uh, bass speaker ever.

00:49:00.020 And, uh, it, it overwhelmed my senses and I blacked out.

00:49:05.400 And when I came to, I was in a totally different position.

00:49:09.880 Now the, I want to say the electricity did two things, made me black out and filled me

00:49:15.340 with an unbelievable sense of dread.

00:49:17.540 Like I've never experienced it in waking life to this day.

00:49:21.720 Um, I wake up, I'm now facing the opposite direction.

00:49:25.820 I was sleeping next to my girlfriend at the time.

00:49:27.600 Her feet are now by my head and I'm looking at the closet and pouring out of the closet

00:49:34.200 is an unbelievably bright white light.

00:49:37.940 Everything is white and it's immense and it's pouring out.

00:49:40.780 So there's no light source in this closet.

00:49:43.560 Uh, and yet somehow there is one.

00:49:45.780 And then once again, I'm hit with this unbelievable sense of electricity.

00:49:49.780 My body locks up.

00:49:51.360 I'm basically feel like I'm being like tortured.

00:49:53.280 Like you said, uh, an electric chair is like a constant wave of electricity.

00:49:57.080 And then I black out again.

00:49:58.860 Um, that is just, as you're telling this story, there is a, a, a series of phenomenons

00:50:08.520 that have this same set of patterns.

00:50:12.740 And I don't think that they're separate at all, right?

00:50:14.700 Because if you're having this in a sleep paralysis shadow people sense, but you're also having

00:50:19.640 this in like an alien abduction sense, or you in particular are having this in some sort

00:50:24.200 of like high level, you know, communal with spiritual entity sense.

00:50:29.500 I'm compelled to believe that there is, if not one in the same happening, um, a massive

00:50:38.200 overlap and experiences where if it's a Venn diagram, the center section is much bigger

00:50:42.920 than the edges.

00:50:43.740 Did, does, did, did that sound at all?

00:50:46.260 Like it related to what you experienced?

00:50:49.480 Oh yeah, absolutely.

00:50:51.020 Um, uh, the, the, the, the, the thing is like when I, when I opened my eyes and I was

00:50:57.500 in that other place that was gold and marble.

00:51:01.140 And I had the experience of this, of the all, all knowing in, I'm, I was told, he said, we're

00:51:08.220 going to go over some things you're not going to remember until the time comes.

00:51:14.340 And I, I, he said some personal things that I don't necessarily, I don't know if I want

00:51:21.200 to get into, uh, right now, but some, some personal things.

00:51:25.200 And, uh, it definitely piqued my attention, um, that, that, that there's something that

00:51:31.300 is, uh, going on.

00:51:34.100 And I, I have, I have a firm belief that we, we, we live in, but we've always lived in

00:51:38.960 biblical times.

00:51:39.700 And I think that a lot of things that are in the Bible are going to be coming and showing

00:51:45.900 their, uh, their faces soon is the impression that I was given.

00:51:50.060 And, um, and I, I'm told that I, I'm, I have some, some sort of mission for this upcoming

00:51:55.720 war.

00:51:56.260 I, I, I, I'm not qualified for, um, you know, I, I, I don't know what my qualified qualifications

00:52:04.480 that, that led me to this, but I guess that it was predestined to happen.

00:52:11.180 A lot of this is from what I've been told.

00:52:13.540 That's the thing.

00:52:14.480 This is just my experience.

00:52:15.620 I, and I didn't, didn't believe in all this stuff and it's, it's a learning, learning experience

00:52:22.440 going along with it.

00:52:23.320 It's, it's pretty fucking scary at the same time too.

00:52:26.680 Uh, it's, you know, you kind of feel alone because you speak about this to the wrong person.

00:52:32.520 You're labeled insane and you're actually put in a fucking mental institution or some shit.

00:52:38.360 You know what I mean?

00:52:39.060 So I, I just don't want, I guess, I don't know.

00:52:42.180 I, it's just, it's just, it's just the same.

00:52:44.420 And then after that happened, I came, I, I am not the same fucking person I was before that.

00:52:49.740 Like it's, I, I'm doing, you know, five, seven miles every morning with, with 40 to 50 pounds,

00:52:56.300 weights on my back, running every morning before work, training, like constantly.

00:53:01.960 It's, it's.

00:53:03.120 Do you think, are you like of the mindset that the war will be actually physical, like here

00:53:08.240 with your physical body?

00:53:09.360 Because when we talk about that war, it's like, who knows what it is.

00:53:13.720 I think it's going to be a combination of both.

00:53:16.060 Um, I just have the feeling that I need to be in the best physical shape that I can be

00:53:20.880 in.

00:53:22.260 Um, I, prior to all this, I didn't pray.

00:53:25.780 I pray all, all the time now.

00:53:27.580 You know, I just, it's, it's, it's my, my girlfriend's like, you were not the same person

00:53:35.460 you were.

00:53:35.880 I just like, I, I don't know what to think of what you, what happened.

00:53:39.340 Something happened, but I'm telling you, this is how it's just crazy.

00:53:45.200 Hey, top, um, that episode with, uh, Tony and, and the guy who said that he felt like

00:53:53.580 he was being recruited essentially for some sort of war.

00:53:57.140 Wasn't there a, a, a notion that like, he distinctly felt like it was for like, for the

00:54:02.780 wrong side, right?

00:54:05.060 Um, no, it was, I think it was another, some, something else approached his brother or something

00:54:11.940 like that.

00:54:12.520 And he felt like that was negative.

00:54:13.760 Um, yeah, it was an entity named ball.

00:54:16.340 So yeah.

00:54:17.220 Right.

00:54:17.520 Go figure.

00:54:18.540 Colin, it sounds to me like you never got the, the feeling.

00:54:21.760 And the reason that I'm, I'm going in this direction is because if there is a war, uh,

00:54:25.580 and we already have this, this story, very compelling story on, on Tony's show of, um,

00:54:30.740 well, there's another one recruiting.

00:54:32.520 Yeah, there was another one.

00:54:33.620 Right.

00:54:33.980 It's like a member system.

00:54:36.440 Uh, this one I'm talking about is a part of the predator, but it's in the members only

00:54:41.340 or like the overtime or something like that.

00:54:42.860 And the guy tells a story about, he's actually having sex with his girlfriend and then blanks

00:54:48.100 out.

00:54:49.020 And he's in a room like filled with this white marble, probably kind of like how you're describing.

00:54:54.840 Yeah.

00:54:54.940 But this was like Lucifer's throne room in his, right?

00:54:58.540 Like that was what he, and he, he knew that somehow, but, but these people are, are, when

00:55:04.460 they're describing their stories, there is no like turn towards God, turn towards Jesus.

00:55:10.740 Like, and it makes sense that, that, um, I'm not saying that Colin, your experience is one

00:55:16.520 of being duped.

00:55:17.840 What I'm more getting at is that if one side is recruiting, then, then the other side is

00:55:23.080 recruiting.

00:55:24.080 Yeah.

00:55:25.020 Oh yeah.

00:55:25.960 That's, it's, I don't know.

00:55:29.380 I just, I, I, it's, it's such a profound experience that, that, that took place.

00:55:35.160 And, and, and, and now it's like, it's, it ebbs and flows where these things will just

00:55:41.320 pop in, pop in sometimes.

00:55:43.480 And, uh, you know, I just, I, I can do things that I had never been able to do prior to this

00:55:50.200 experience.

00:55:50.960 Um, it's just, I don't know.

00:55:55.600 Since that abduction experience, um, I think I've only eaten mushrooms twice.

00:56:00.080 So that was, so twice of the summer.

00:56:02.580 So I'm not, I'm not on that spiritual quest.

00:56:05.420 I feel like I've, I've gained quite a few answers with, with my, with my, uh, experiences.

00:56:12.380 So I have a good, I have a good understanding of what, what reality is, is actually like,

00:56:18.100 and it's a lot crazier than I was led to believe.

00:56:21.080 Um, that's for sure.

00:56:23.080 Could you, there's two questions I want to ask you.

00:56:25.760 Um, one is, uh, and, and, and a simple yes or no.

00:56:30.080 No, it's fine.

00:56:31.100 Is there any time throughout these experiences where you felt like there was a potential

00:56:35.980 for you being, uh, deceived by these entities?

00:56:41.360 Um, I, I, I'd ask on, I ask frequently, um, asking questions to pertaining to, you know,

00:56:51.960 I, like, I, I, I, I accused one of them of being, uh, uh, a demon and he took a, he got

00:56:59.880 offended by that.

00:57:01.440 I found that it was just really fucking strange.

00:57:04.040 I was like, what in the hell?

00:57:05.360 I, but I never got the, I never got the sense of anything negative.

00:57:09.800 They never asked me to do anything for them.

00:57:12.280 They never asked me to do anything to anybody else.

00:57:15.640 They never, it was all, you need to, this is what you need to do to get yourself right.

00:57:21.620 There's a war coming up.

00:57:22.840 You need to get yourself mentally and physically prepared.

00:57:25.980 You need to give yourself to God.

00:57:27.620 You need to start praying.

00:57:29.000 You need to eat healthy.

00:57:30.040 You know, I gave, I went, went to being a vegetarian, eating all organic and everything.

00:57:36.580 It just, I, I do what they tell me and it, things work out.

00:57:41.300 The, the other thing that I wanted to ask you is, um, you alluded to a moment ago, being

00:57:47.700 able to do things that you couldn't do before.

00:57:49.720 Um, and, and I'm sure this is all part of, uh, sort of the betterment of your life from

00:57:55.760 the decisions that you've made, uh, at the behest of these entities.

00:57:58.900 Uh, what sorts of impacts, improvements, you know, this idea of them, of, of them upgrading

00:58:06.080 you, um, you know, I know myself personally, if I went through something like that, I would

00:58:12.060 be searching ad nauseum for that upgrade.

00:58:15.540 What the, what, you know, what did they do in what way am I better now?

00:58:18.680 What, what have you found?

00:58:20.280 And before I forget, uh, also did they have names, but yeah, can you answer all that, all

00:58:26.180 those things?

00:58:26.580 Uh, I, only one of them, um, told me its name.

00:58:33.400 Um, I never asked.

00:58:34.600 I got, I got the, the, the feeling that I, I was there to listen and to not ask questions.

00:58:41.140 They would tell me that everything that I needed to know.

00:58:43.200 Um, so I did, um, I did do a meditation, a guided meditation.

00:58:50.760 And, uh, one of the, one of the entities came through and he, he called himself Anu.

00:58:56.540 Um, so I'd never heard that name.

00:59:00.820 I looked up what, uh, who Anu was and he's, uh, the, uh, one of the Sumerian, uh, Sumerian

00:59:06.840 God, an Anunnaki, uh, the angel of death.

00:59:10.780 Um, so that wasn't a good thing, I guess, uh, that kind of weirded me the fuck out, to

00:59:17.820 be honest.

00:59:18.440 I was like, holy shit, what am I fucking with?

00:59:21.400 But it, um, yeah.

00:59:23.540 So, what was the question again?

00:59:25.900 Um, the, the other question was the upgrades, but we, we can get to that in a second.

00:59:29.980 I, I am, uh, more interested in this at the moment.

00:59:32.720 Do, so, um, let's focus in on these entities.

00:59:38.380 Um, you know, for starters, how many would you think you could identify as, as like,

00:59:45.700 you know, there was five, there was six, there was three.

00:59:49.320 Um, during the, uh, the, uh, the abduction experience, like I said, there's a, there were

00:59:54.920 three guys and they, they clearly looked like men, like humans.

00:59:59.620 That's the, that's the weird.

01:00:01.720 So we have the, the blue guy on it for one is that that's not the blue guy, right?

01:00:07.060 No, I don't, I didn't get the, I didn't get the, the, the feeling that that was him.

01:00:11.520 Um, right.

01:00:12.500 So that's two plus the three dudes.

01:00:15.960 So that's five.

01:00:17.160 Yeah.

01:00:18.240 Um, and then I, there's probably like two or three more, two or three more.

01:00:22.940 I'd say there's some angels that come through sometimes too.

01:00:26.320 That's the thing.

01:00:26.980 Like the, the upgrades go into these things talking to me now, like communicating with me,

01:00:32.900 um, verbal, like audibly and telephatically.

01:00:37.060 Telepathically and shit like that.

01:00:38.780 Like on, on a daily basis type thing.

01:00:41.480 When, when, and where, like, are you focused or is it just, uh, like right now?

01:00:47.080 Like when I, like, they've been, they, like, they've known that I was going to talk to you

01:00:52.380 guys today and it's been, and yeah, yesterday and today it's just been like, uh, like overdrive,

01:00:59.100 like where I'll, I get like, uh, it's like a, it's like a people with flashcards in my,

01:01:03.760 in my mind, like I'll see pictures or, you know, sometimes I'll like catch a word or

01:01:09.480 like I'll, if I, if I notice, like if I, if I'm noticing like words on, uh, like say

01:01:16.400 four different separate things that have absolutely nothing to do with together, that's, I know

01:01:20.320 that's a sign that I need to be paying attention to shit like that.

01:01:22.880 Like, so I'm, it's like, it's like they took the dial and like turned me up from like up

01:01:28.900 to 11, like just like turn my dial or my, my frequencies adjusted type thing.

01:01:34.660 And I know this sounds all absolutely insane, but like, no, listen, I, dude, I have not

01:01:40.780 even fucking one story in this entire episode, uh, had that cross my mind.

01:01:45.100 What is insane is what's insane is how your story, uh, is like, like it's all shit that

01:01:50.600 I'm like, uh-huh, I've thought about this and it's like, dude, we're, I'm pulling, I'm

01:01:54.460 watching, uh, Corvo's face pull from different things that he's heard.

01:01:57.640 He's writing stuff down.

01:01:59.260 It's, uh, it's, it's just super interesting.

01:02:02.580 Yeah.

01:02:02.940 When I say for a second, when I, so I have a very strange, um, I guess the thing that

01:02:08.140 I never said out loud, as I'm going to say it out loud, it's not going to be very strange,

01:02:11.320 especially considering the episode.

01:02:12.900 Um, I always have had a feeling that something is coming, that a war is coming.

01:02:16.900 And when I say I've had a feeling when I was a kid, I knew it.

01:02:20.640 Like when I was a child, I knew it.

01:02:23.080 I mean, like a little fucking kid.

01:02:24.660 I was obsessed with the idea that something was coming one day and that like, um, I was

01:02:30.320 going to be engaged in something.

01:02:31.680 I knew that as a child.

01:02:33.220 And then as I got older, I didn't know that anymore.

01:02:35.560 I just still had the feeling.

01:02:37.420 And as I get older, now I find myself looking for information to reinforce that idea because

01:02:43.600 it's been a lifelong thing that's never gone away from me.

01:02:46.080 I always joke with my wife, um, you know, that when I was a kid, I, I, I just wanted

01:02:52.100 to be like, other kids want to be like a fucking firefighter when they grow up.

01:02:55.540 And then they, then they become one.

01:02:57.120 Sometimes you see a kid become a firefighter and I get jealous of that.

01:02:59.940 Cause when I was a kid, I wanted to be like a fucking, uh, like an assassin for good.

01:03:04.280 Like that was what I wanted to be as a fucking child.

01:03:06.720 I wanted to know like normal pathway.

01:03:08.720 I wanted to be a paleontologist.

01:03:10.680 Then it turns out dinosaurs don't even exist.

01:03:13.180 Incredible.

01:03:13.680 What a fucking bag of shit.

01:03:15.100 But, but, you know, uh, so I, and I don't think that I'm the only person, I don't think

01:03:19.760 that's even unique.

01:03:20.780 Honestly, I think a lot of us probably start out that way because I think you have more

01:03:24.260 of a connection to these realms and also some sort of echoes to, I believe that there is

01:03:29.800 a high likelihood we chose to be here during this time.

01:03:32.720 Uh, we made a lot of decisions before we got here and, um, and some of those still echo

01:03:37.660 throughout childhood.

01:03:38.580 And then it's this battle of like maintaining it while still being able to function in life.

01:03:43.480 And there's this aspect of life that just crushes that part of your mind.

01:03:46.980 Um, but yeah, so as you're saying this, this is not something that I, uh, uh, I at all,

01:03:52.360 um, think is, I don't even think this is fucking strange.

01:03:55.080 So, but I wanted to ask you when it comes to the nature of these entities, was there

01:03:59.940 a separation?

01:04:01.320 Like, in other words, did you get the feeling?

01:04:04.440 And I might explain this badly, but like, were some of them more concerned with this

01:04:11.160 aspect while others may have been more concerned with, with this aspect of the experience?

01:04:17.700 Um, because in other words, like almost job delegation, was there any sense of that at

01:04:22.780 all?

01:04:22.900 And that, that might be a flat, no.

01:04:25.680 Yeah.

01:04:26.140 Yeah.

01:04:26.540 I, I never thought about it.

01:04:27.860 Absolutely.

01:04:28.720 Yeah, absolutely.

01:04:29.800 Cause some of them were more concerned about me working on my, like the, the physical.

01:04:34.880 And then some are worried about the, you know, getting right spiritually and mentally and,

01:04:39.860 you know, working on that type of thing.

01:04:42.980 So yeah, absolutely.

01:04:43.980 I never thought about that.

01:04:44.880 It's that I get the sense that I don't really have much of an option.

01:04:48.460 Like this is what I'm supposed to do type of thing.

01:04:52.040 Did they, did they say why they need you?

01:04:55.680 Um, no, I, I, I never asked.

01:04:57.940 I, I, it, the, the presence is not, it's, I, it's not something to fuck with.

01:05:06.380 It's what I, I, I, like the, the impression I get, like, we're not like, we're, this is

01:05:13.180 some serious shit.

01:05:14.040 So, you know, that type of thing.

01:05:16.080 So I was just like, I'm right.

01:05:17.220 I'm all ears.

01:05:17.960 Like, like you guys have proved that, you know, that you, you know what you're fucking talking

01:05:23.760 about.

01:05:24.700 Cause I, I, like my mind, even my, like my anxiety is gone at this point.

01:05:29.720 Like I'm, I feel like I'm a completely, totally different person.

01:05:34.340 Like I, I hadn't just experienced the four years of like depression and just like that,

01:05:40.620 just dread that the divorce had been, had had on me.

01:05:46.220 Like it was immediately gone after that, that abduction immediately gone after that abduction

01:05:52.120 experience.

01:05:52.660 Prior to that, I'd been getting better.

01:05:55.020 It's everything, all of my shit was gone.

01:05:59.000 It's like, I'd been wiped clean.

01:06:01.800 And it's like, I, I got the, the, the feeling of like, you, you are forgiven.

01:06:06.580 Like, this is your second chance.

01:06:08.440 This is, you need to do this now.

01:06:11.360 Okay.

01:06:13.200 Pretty common.

01:06:14.440 Uh, when it comes to dreams, ones that you would like, you know, be sure.

01:06:22.660 In their definition that this was a dream.

01:06:25.240 Um, do you, did you, do you find that like, uh, you have a lot of childhood dreams that

01:06:31.220 you still remember or just like weird symbolic dreams that stuck with you?

01:06:37.520 Um, there's only one and it, I, I don't know the meaning behind it though, but there's only,

01:06:46.180 there's one from my childhood that I can remember very, very vividly.

01:06:48.680 It was my, it was just my mom as a witch.

01:06:52.660 And it always freaked me out.

01:06:55.360 Just absolutely freaked me out.

01:06:57.180 Like it was my mom, like the green witch on the, uh, wizard of Oz.

01:07:00.800 That's what she was dressed up like.

01:07:02.960 And I couldn't have been, but five or six when I had that.

01:07:05.940 So other than that, no, no, I, I really, I don't remember dreams that much.

01:07:13.220 So are you familiar with like this, this is something that I don't know because I'm not

01:07:18.860 well-versed in the Bible myself, but it's my understanding that within the Bible, there's

01:07:22.100 a verse that alludes to, um, people being portals.

01:07:26.600 Top, do you know what I'm talking about?

01:07:28.360 Yeah.

01:07:28.580 Uh, and to me, as you're describing earlier on, right, you're taking these mushrooms.

01:07:35.640 Suddenly there is a real, um, urgency that you need to take these mushrooms, put this

01:07:43.200 eye mask up and go lay down.

01:07:44.400 Like you got to do this right now and nothing happens that night.

01:07:48.520 Um, but then, or, or is it that night soon after that you have this abduction experience

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01:08:52.300 Is going, is, um, I go, this sounds like you had done enough.

01:09:00.320 If people truly are portals, um, the reason, right, that like, obviously your physical form

01:09:06.540 is still laying on the bed and yet you are in a room where there's a bright white light,

01:09:14.260 three dudes.

01:09:14.900 They're telling you, you shouldn't be able to see them.

01:09:18.400 Um, they're telling you that you've, uh, agreed to this.

01:09:21.620 You've given consent.

01:09:22.560 Next thing you know, you're also in a marble room.

01:09:25.200 All of these things are happening in a different realm, right?

01:09:28.380 So they're very real in my opinion, and they're happening to you, but not to your, your physical

01:09:33.040 form, whether it's your soul or your ethereal form, whatever you want to, uh, whatever name

01:09:37.220 you want to give it.

01:09:37.860 I couldn't pretend to know, uh, what to call it.

01:09:41.120 Um, it seems like you did enough work to have that portal open in such a way.

01:09:49.280 And it was almost like that was the last bit that you had to do.

01:09:53.600 So it may have seemed insignificant to you.

01:09:55.720 And this is just, obviously I have no way of confirming this.

01:09:57.700 This is my own psychotic ramblings, but like, it seems to me like you got to the point that

01:10:03.480 night where like the gate is fully opened and now you can travel in a much more, uh, conscious

01:10:12.040 way.

01:10:12.400 Maybe these things have always been happening to you, but there's a part of your consciousness

01:10:15.120 that you've not been able to bring.

01:10:16.320 And then all of a sudden, um, you know, like I said, the gate is open, the portal is open

01:10:22.060 and you can leave and you can go and experience these realms.

01:10:24.520 I just, that is like, when you were saying that story that popped into my head is this

01:10:30.980 idea that like, yeah, in the Bible somewhere, it calls people portals and like, we're not

01:10:35.360 opening portals when we're in the kitchen doing dishes.

01:10:38.400 We're not opening portals while we're under the car, you know, changing the oil.

01:10:42.160 Um, so is that happening in a different state, in an astral state?

01:10:47.020 Um, you know, is, is, is the combination of like our souls and our, and our, and our brains

01:10:53.300 that operate somehow as a, uh, a receiver of like frequencies and things of that nature.

01:11:01.040 Do they work in conjunction?

01:11:02.640 Can we open a portal?

01:11:03.580 And is that what you did?

01:11:04.780 Does that, do you feel like that makes any sense at all?

01:11:06.840 Absolutely.

01:11:08.420 And they, they also told me that everybody can do what I did.

01:11:12.120 Everybody has, has the ability.

01:11:14.460 We all do.

01:11:15.340 And it gets back to the, to what the, it gets to the, the root of it, of, of your beliefs

01:11:22.460 creating reality.

01:11:24.260 And if you take a part of what reality is and you don't even believe in it, it's not going

01:11:29.460 to exist for you, that type of thing.

01:11:31.060 If that makes sense.

01:11:31.820 Like what it's the, the, the, the, the reality is the consciousness consciousness creates the

01:11:38.000 reality that we exist in, you know, the, the material world, this is the great, great

01:11:43.900 illusion too.

01:11:45.220 You know what I mean?

01:11:46.420 That's, that's what that, it just, it felt so much more real there than it does here.

01:11:52.740 It, this doesn't, I've heard that a lot.

01:11:55.620 This doesn't feel real that I, it, I, I, it, there's no words that can accurately

01:12:01.820 describe what that place felt like, the, the feeling of the, the, the feeling of not

01:12:10.260 experiencing time.

01:12:11.620 I know that sounds weird to say, but like, I, I vividly remember thinking, holy shit,

01:12:17.900 time doesn't exist here.

01:12:19.200 And that's what made me thought I was dead.

01:12:21.500 I was like, oh no.

01:12:24.000 But then he, then he said from behind me, Colin, you're not dead.

01:12:28.340 And we're going to tell you some things.

01:12:29.660 You're not going to remember everything until the time is, time comes.

01:12:34.380 And it was like, just like somebody put their arm around my shoulder and we started to walk.

01:12:38.260 And that's the last thing I remember until I woke up on my couch and about four hours

01:12:43.400 had, had, uh, gone.

01:12:47.320 Do you, at any point have, has it seemed like they've asked you to, to worship them?

01:12:52.760 Cause you, you just mentioned that you finished reading, uh, or listening to the book of Enoch

01:12:57.320 today.

01:12:58.480 Um, yeah, I never asked me to worship them.

01:13:02.640 They've it's, it's always, they've, you talk about, uh, uh, God, uh, they call him source.

01:13:08.620 Sometimes the creator, the, the one God is it's all it's ever been talked to about.

01:13:14.980 How do they feel about him?

01:13:19.720 Oh, they do everything for him.

01:13:21.360 It's, it's, that's the thing.

01:13:22.900 That's like, I told my girlfriend, I'd started to slip some things.

01:13:26.300 She's like, I think you're talking to a demon.

01:13:27.680 I was like, but I don't, why would a demon tell me to give myself to God and that I need

01:13:33.500 to get baptized and I need to start going to church and start taking the kids to church

01:13:37.400 with me and get them and like, no, that doesn't sound like if, if that's a demon, he's doing

01:13:42.380 a really, really bad job, you know what I mean?

01:13:45.040 He's working for the government.

01:13:46.680 Yeah.

01:13:47.040 Like, and then it comes to that.

01:13:49.460 I'm like, well, now I, I, I, I've, I've been, ever since all this happened, I've been like

01:13:53.560 looking and researching and stuff.

01:13:55.000 And I come, come to find, I think it's called my labs, like military abductions.

01:13:58.660 I'm like, is that what happened to me?

01:14:01.300 Like, or was it?

01:14:01.920 Cause they, they were men.

01:14:05.680 Well, I mean, look, Colin, if you are engaged in something.

01:14:12.860 Uh, and something is reaching out to you, it stands to reason that that could, excuse

01:14:19.440 me, set you off as sort of a target, right?

01:14:21.820 Like the opposition might also be trying to get involved.

01:14:24.600 Um, maybe not every single one of the experiences was always from the same entities.

01:14:31.320 You know what I mean?

01:14:31.780 It's like, uh, I'll tell you when we're not recording on top, he knows about her.

01:14:37.740 Um, I'll tell you off air, uh, another time about this, this, this, this individual that

01:14:44.980 came into my life shortly after this experience.

01:14:48.920 And that's, so we don't have to get into that, but would you, are you saying that there was

01:14:52.980 like a nefariousness?

01:14:54.740 Oh, absolutely.

01:14:56.900 And I knew it right from the beginning.

01:14:59.020 I, I, right from the beginning, I, I, I knew right away.

01:15:03.440 And I was like, I gotta see what this, I gotta see what this is all about.

01:15:06.640 And it was not good.

01:15:08.880 Somebody sent the fucking ops, bro.

01:15:10.680 That's what happened.

01:15:11.460 That's crazy.

01:15:11.900 This story is, this story is so multi-layered.

01:15:14.120 It's, it's crazy.

01:15:15.120 This is.

01:15:16.040 I'm nothing.

01:15:16.740 I'm nobody special.

01:15:17.760 I'm nobody special.

01:15:19.100 Not, you know, I, uh, I'm, I'm an undercheated.

01:15:23.000 I'm an undercheated.

01:15:25.080 I think what makes you, um, if there is anything special about you, it's the beginning of this

01:15:31.080 episode where you said that you were directly seeking to, to be better.

01:15:36.440 That was the focus of, of everything that you were doing.

01:15:39.520 You wanted to be better.

01:15:40.380 You wanted to be a better father.

01:15:41.840 You wanted to be a better person.

01:15:43.260 Right.

01:15:43.660 And that drove you to, to make some extreme decisions.

01:15:46.280 And I think when you're making extreme decisions and you're delving into the spiritual or astral

01:15:51.540 realm, however you want to put it using these psychedelics, um, you're going to this spiritual

01:15:58.040 realm with the intent to be better, to be good.

01:16:02.020 And I think that is, it's like seek and ye shall find, right?

01:16:05.720 You literally were going off the deep end, looking to be better where like some people

01:16:11.540 will go off the deep end, spiraling, full of hatred, fuck everything, you know, dah,

01:16:17.080 dah, dah, dah, dah.

01:16:17.620 And they will find the equivalency of that.

01:16:20.180 But you went to that place looking for something different than I, I would say a lot of other

01:16:27.020 people do.

01:16:27.440 So maybe that's what it takes.

01:16:30.020 You'd be a very good entrepreneur, Colin.

01:16:32.100 Um, I, I, I don't know what the entities are telling you to do, but yeah, that kind of

01:16:36.280 mentality, the mentality of like shit's fucked, but I am going to drill deep and find a solution

01:16:42.440 is something really successful.

01:16:44.540 Well, my, my, my, I, I was, my life had gotten fucked, um, a large part because of myself and

01:16:55.200 my active denial of the divine.

01:16:58.820 Um, I got my, the reason my life has gotten so bad was because of me and my actions that

01:17:05.160 had caused all that.

01:17:06.360 So there was a reason I got into the point where I was willing to take drastic fucking

01:17:11.120 measures to try to become better.

01:17:12.840 I was, I, you know, I was, I was done, I was done, I was done trying to do my own.

01:17:17.940 I, and one of the things was, I remember when I, like, I just, I finally remember submitting

01:17:22.600 when I was in the presence of the, the, the knowing and I, I just, I submitted and it was

01:17:29.300 just like, it was like every, every, it was like everything had been washed off of me.

01:17:35.340 Everything that ever stuck to me that I'd been carrying around for the 37 years of life

01:17:39.640 was gone.

01:17:41.900 And I, I was like, what in the fuck was that?

01:17:46.340 Like, it was just, it was, it was mind blowing, you know, cause I, I'd gone to therapy and

01:17:52.460 all, just all sorts of shit trying to, uh, trying to feel better, you know?

01:17:57.660 Um, and nothing, nothing had ever worked ever, ever, ever until this.

01:18:03.720 And as I said, it, I, it, I do not recommend it for anybody just cause it's, it's not something

01:18:10.500 to, to fuck with at all.

01:18:12.840 Cause there's bad shit too.

01:18:15.100 There's bad shit everywhere.

01:18:16.660 And we, we live in it and I just, I can't believe I lived my life for so long denying

01:18:22.460 that God is in all around us.

01:18:24.900 And then that was one of my main problems.

01:18:27.000 That's interesting.

01:18:27.860 You're alluding to like, uh, so clearly.

01:18:30.380 So you're like, now you're kind of privy or you have this openness where you're, you're

01:18:34.900 able to see the matrix for the ones and zeros that it is.

01:18:37.460 So you can kind of like, you can, you can switch your own mindset and really help yourself

01:18:41.580 out, which I feel like you might've done.

01:18:43.060 Um, and I, I, I pray that you've done, you know, for your family, for your kids and whatever

01:18:47.460 you're doing with your life.

01:18:48.760 Um, but you said that there's messed up shit.

01:18:50.860 Are you like also privy to some weird stuff as well?

01:18:56.520 Uh, no, I, I just, just that the individual with what I think that they were into and what

01:19:04.000 they were all about.

01:19:05.040 But, um, no, I just, I, my, I, I, I don't, I'm not, I don't have any insight.

01:19:13.060 Information to any of that type of stuff.

01:19:14.780 It's like, I just, it's, it's pretty apparent that there, there's like Alex Jones is probably,

01:19:20.020 probably right.

01:19:21.220 They are actually, you know, fucking kids and killing them and sacrificing them to Moloch.

01:19:26.780 That's probably going on.

01:19:28.960 Heard a mention of child molesters.

01:19:31.400 Yeah.

01:19:31.700 That's, I'm like, there's some, there's some nefarious shit going on.

01:19:35.700 No, I don't mean, I don't necessarily mean like that whole, like, uh, you know, macro

01:19:40.220 I'm talking about like the micro, like for me, I don't know.

01:19:44.100 Sometimes like I can get like a feeling about somebody just even meeting them briefly or

01:19:48.720 walking by.

01:19:49.760 I've always had that.

01:19:51.000 Uh, my, my parents have said since I'm like a little kid, like you have a great sense of

01:19:54.360 discernment.

01:19:55.140 I think a pastor told me that.

01:19:56.980 Absolutely.

01:19:58.060 So like, I imagine with, you know, like how you're, where your headspace is now, especially

01:20:02.200 forget about any kind of upgrades, like just being more mentally clear, you probably have

01:20:06.840 like some kind of heightened sense of these things.

01:20:08.940 And, and honestly, like when you do come across somebody that you're like, this person is no

01:20:13.300 good.

01:20:14.020 It creeps me out and I can't like quantify why, you know what I mean?

01:20:18.620 I just know.

01:20:19.560 And I'm like, I'm just going to get, I know now I just fucking get away from this person.

01:20:23.040 So I, I, uh, I had the pleasure of shaking the hands of the, of the governor of Indiana

01:20:28.040 and it was like, I, I, I saw evil when our, when my skin touched his skin, it was the most

01:20:34.900 fucked up thing.

01:20:35.920 I was like, Ooh, Oh my God.

01:20:39.620 I was like, that's fucked up.

01:20:41.320 But yeah, that, that type of stuff is what it's, I'm, I'm super aware of everything now,

01:20:47.140 everything.

01:20:47.800 It's like, it's like being on, on super drive all the time.

01:20:51.580 I want to revisit something you said briefly, and then I'd like to move on to something

01:20:57.180 else, but I want to highlight something you said as, go ahead.

01:21:02.880 I'm going to have to go here in about five minutes.

01:21:04.320 I gotta go pick up my little one from daycare.

01:21:06.140 Oh, all right.

01:21:06.880 Okay.

01:21:07.080 Let's wrap it up real quick then.

01:21:09.140 So, uh, and this is a perfect way to end it.

01:21:11.380 Um, but briefly, I want to say what you said before about this idea of, um, you know,

01:21:17.380 you were responsible for the life that you had before that to me is the key.

01:21:22.460 It's the major catalyst for the direction that your life is going to go.

01:21:26.180 Do you shake your fists at God and blame every other external force you could possibly

01:21:30.600 imagine for all the shortcomings in your life?

01:21:32.660 Or do you take personal responsibility and recognize that you played the most massive

01:21:37.580 role in your shortcomings in life?

01:21:39.380 And look, man, if you stepped off a curb and you got hit by a car and you're paralyzed,

01:21:42.680 obviously I'm not talking to you, but there's a lot of people out here who are shaking their

01:21:46.580 fists at God because this just didn't go that way, or they just didn't get that.

01:21:50.460 Or, you know, how come things don't work out for me?

01:21:52.800 And that is a fucking trap, man.

01:21:54.780 And so I'm really glad that you said that, that recognizing, because I'm a big fan of

01:21:59.000 personal responsibility.

01:22:00.340 I just want to interrupt because you were talking about the book of Enoch and you said what I'm

01:22:05.120 going through after you read this book, you said, it's just like that.

01:22:08.320 I don't know what you were going to ask David, but I feel like I need to know this before you go.

01:22:11.940 Okay, wait, can we wrap this up together then?

01:22:14.780 If you could figure out a way, because I have to know what you're anticipating as well.

01:22:20.660 Like you're geared up for a war.

01:22:22.080 This whole thing is about you being geared up for a war.

01:22:24.960 What are you anticipating?

01:22:26.040 What do you suspect the nature of this is?

01:22:28.200 And maybe even when, I mean, within your lifetime, obviously, right, to some degree,

01:22:33.280 that's, that's got to be the impression.

01:22:35.660 And so, yeah, take it from there, whichever, whichever way you want to go.

01:22:38.420 I, I have a feeling that this corresponds with what's going on with like a, I think they call it

01:22:51.340 Agenda 2030, what's going on with the, the, the global shit.

01:22:54.980 I think, I think they, the, the leaders are possessed by actual fucking demons.

01:23:03.760 And we're getting ready to see the, the return of the Nephilim, in other words,

01:23:10.540 that we're going to see shit that we've only dreamt about or seen on sci-fi movies,

01:23:16.120 I think is going to become a reality.

01:23:17.660 And I think that's going to be happening, happening within, within, within the next five

01:23:23.300 to 10 years, if I had to guess.

01:23:25.960 Buckle up people.

01:23:28.500 Have they ever mentioned?

01:23:30.720 I think it's all connected.

01:23:32.420 It's all connected.

01:23:33.340 They, I, I, a lot of times I'll ask them stuff and they'll tell me I'm not ready.

01:23:37.840 I haven't done the next, I have to wait for the next step.

01:23:40.460 I, this all has to be done in steps.

01:23:43.020 And I, to be honest with you, top, I think you were one of the steps.

01:23:47.360 Cause we were going to talk about this stuff.

01:23:49.760 How long ago was that?

01:23:50.920 The summer.

01:23:51.980 And I, it just, I, the, the, they, they kept telling me they're like, you're not ready.

01:23:58.440 You're not ready.

01:23:58.900 You're not ready.

01:23:59.340 And they get, they were getting mad at me.

01:24:01.840 So that's why I kind of was like, what in the fuck's going on?

01:24:04.040 And I kind of disappeared for like a week or so.

01:24:06.500 Cause it, it was intense.

01:24:08.040 It's, this is really intense shit.

01:24:10.980 And yeah, that's,

01:24:12.160 so I don't know.

01:24:13.820 I, I think we got a little bit of time.

01:24:15.760 So I don't know.

01:24:19.580 It's been years guys.

01:24:21.240 We're a con.

01:24:22.500 I think 2030 is going to, that's where we're going to be going.

01:24:25.620 So I, I, I, I just try to get in physical shake.

01:24:28.940 I, I, I don't, I don't do the whole gun thing.

01:24:31.360 Um, uh, that's just a personal thing.

01:24:34.800 Um, I run five to seven miles every morning with 50 pounds.

01:24:37.800 I do manual labor, digging graves, six days a week, setting headstones, throwing granite

01:24:42.940 around.

01:24:43.260 So I, I, I, I mean, I, I used to be a, you know, a fat piece of shit, overweight drunkard.

01:24:51.640 So I'm not that anymore.

01:24:53.420 That's for sure.

01:24:55.120 It's, it's, it's a lot different.

01:24:56.580 I got six back now.

01:24:57.660 So that's good.

01:24:58.880 Oh yeah.

01:24:59.560 Yeah.

01:24:59.880 Just one more thing before you go.

01:25:01.420 Cause I know you got to get your daughter.

01:25:03.240 What about the book of V not kind of ring some bells to you?

01:25:05.880 Got to know.

01:25:06.440 Um, the whole, how he talked about the angels taking him, uh, into the, into heaven and stuff.

01:25:16.220 Like that, that was like, I'm like, like I've got to have had that experience where it's

01:25:20.640 like, it feels like these are angels that are talking to me.

01:25:22.860 It's not like I'm talking to like a dead grandma or some shit.

01:25:26.240 You know what I mean?

01:25:27.480 Like these things, I, I, they're powerful beings that are coming through.

01:25:32.420 So, is it possible, let me, let me float a theory and I don't know if this is biblically

01:25:36.900 incorrect, but is it possible?

01:25:38.140 I mean, I know that there's, there's fallen angels.

01:25:40.900 Is it possible you're talking to some of these, but maybe some of these guys want to get back

01:25:44.500 right in the grace of God.

01:25:45.500 I don't know if they can, but is it possible that they're acting in that manner while there's

01:25:49.580 other, others that are acting in a, you know, completely opposite direction?

01:25:54.680 No, um, I don't get that sense.

01:25:57.200 I don't know.

01:25:58.020 I mean, in the whole religious thing, it's all new to me too.

01:26:00.980 Like, like I said, I just started going to church here in February of this year.

01:26:05.900 Um, and I've really gotten into the Bible, like reading the Bible, a lot of audio books

01:26:10.640 on the Bible and stuff like that.

01:26:12.100 So this is all new to me too, but like, I, I'm just, I'm able to listen to something or

01:26:17.160 to somebody and I can tell immediately if they're bullshitting or they're telling the

01:26:20.340 truth about anything and everything.

01:26:23.080 Does that make sense?

01:26:24.340 So, you know that I'm completely full of shit then?

01:26:26.460 I guess I'll just stop tweeting.

01:26:27.380 It's like these fucking guys.

01:26:28.460 Hold on, I'm logging off.

01:26:29.920 I'm going to log off my Twitter right now.

01:26:32.680 You can say a lot of things about you guys, but you're not, you definitely aren't a fake

01:26:37.300 fucking person.

01:26:38.240 And that's, I, I respect that.

01:26:40.360 You know, I, I can tell with you guys that you guys are genuine people.

01:26:44.200 So, so I decided to talk to you.

01:26:46.820 I'm glad I did.

01:26:48.360 Thanks, man.

01:26:48.800 Yeah.

01:26:48.960 I mean, I feel like we could have, we could have gone like another two hours, but I'd

01:26:55.080 be more than happy to talk to you another time.

01:26:56.920 I'd have to, I'll schedule it right now to pick up my daughter from school.

01:27:00.260 So dude, this is perfect.

01:27:01.160 No, listen, what you did here was perfect.

01:27:02.580 And again, thank you for talking with us.

01:27:05.260 I know this is like, it was like a big step.

01:27:07.260 And even for us, it's not really the type of show that we do with this show specifically.

01:27:11.100 It's more like Raven does his thing like, like this, but I'm, I'm glad that you, you

01:27:15.100 know, had enough confidence to come in and enough confidence in me and David to come and talk

01:27:20.180 with us about this because I think it was, it was mind blowing.

01:27:22.760 And I, I think it's leading somewhere that's very interesting.

01:27:26.380 People should be thinking about.

01:27:28.240 Well, like I said, I'm, I'm, I'm trying to figure this all out too.

01:27:31.340 It's every, every day is different.

01:27:32.680 So, but I really appreciate it guys.

01:27:34.280 And I'll talk to you guys later.

01:27:37.260 Oh yeah, man.

01:27:37.820 Thank you, Colin.

01:27:38.600 Thank you so much.

01:27:40.020 All right.

01:27:40.320 See ya.

01:27:41.320 Peace out.

01:27:43.060 Guys, I think this was a, what do you think?

01:27:46.380 Dude, what the fuck?

01:27:47.320 That was, dude, that was, that was incredible.

01:27:49.880 Like, I don't, I, I feel bad because I wish there was some way that I could relate to him

01:27:53.960 that like, there was no part of me that, this is probably not good, right?

01:27:58.400 There was, there was no part of me that was skeptical that whole fucking time.

01:28:01.800 Like I was like, yeah, dude, this guy a hundred percent has been through some shit.

01:28:05.300 Like this, this fucking checks out on, on a really high level.

01:28:08.740 And I'm glad that we had this conversation because, uh, this is like, this, this resonates

01:28:15.280 with me very deeply.

01:28:16.580 Like that was, that was not a dude that was lying.

01:28:19.280 In my opinion, that was, I'm not going to, I was getting annoyed with him, um, throughout

01:28:24.760 the whole time.

01:28:25.300 Like we, we were talking for six months or so and he kept on, was like, Oh, you're not

01:28:28.500 going to believe.

01:28:28.880 And I'm like, Oh, motherfucker.

01:28:30.180 Like, you have no idea.

01:28:31.900 And he came and told us, yeah, you don't know the shit that I believe it's, it's wild.

01:28:36.060 But like, yeah, what he told us, I'm like, heard this, heard this in places, heard some

01:28:39.520 of the stuff was kind of new.

01:28:40.800 Some of the stuff, I mean, I think, I think Tony Merkel would definitely want to listen

01:28:45.980 to this episode or at least interview him because there are things that he said that

01:28:51.680 you can really tie into, uh, you know, other stories and try to figure out what was happening

01:28:56.600 here.

01:28:57.500 That was really the thing about his story was that, um, none of it, all of it was like,

01:29:03.180 it fit a pattern.

01:29:04.000 And that's not to say at all that he made it up.

01:29:06.000 In fact, that validates it even more in my mind of like, this guy had a genuine experience

01:29:10.520 and experience that like he, he said, dude, in the book of Enoch, he, it resonated with

01:29:15.420 him when Enoch was bought up, uh, you know, by the angels and how he felt like that was the

01:29:21.620 same experience he had.

01:29:22.580 And I say that to say that experience is like biblical in nature.

01:29:27.960 It's historical in nature, like people, you can find so many people who, and once you

01:29:32.120 get that big of a body of evidence of correlating information and patterns and everything, like

01:29:35.900 something is for sure happening.

01:29:38.100 That guy is absolutely having an experience.

01:29:39.960 And, you know, as hesitant as I am right.

01:29:43.680 Communicating with entities in a sort of a psychedelic realm.

01:29:47.120 That's something that I'm very hesitant because I think that these things can lie.

01:29:50.260 Like that being said, the nature of everything that he, yeah, a hundred percent authentic

01:29:54.420 was my takeaway as well.

01:29:56.060 And everything that he said felt positive.

01:29:59.980 You know, it wasn't like these, these things weren't leading him in any negative way.

01:30:04.000 Um, not only was he seeing improvements in his own, uh, personal life, but also moving

01:30:09.600 him closer to God and moving him closer to Jesus is like, there's really something there.

01:30:14.340 Uh, I, I think that that guy was, was very genuine and, and top, honestly, dude, I, I

01:30:19.960 would be lying if I said that I wasn't curious about what these, what these, um, beings were

01:30:25.660 saying about us.

01:30:26.480 Like that fucking, I wish we had time.

01:30:28.160 Like, wait, tell us about, tell me about us, dude.

01:30:30.580 Like I want to hear, I want to hear that shit.

01:30:33.240 You know what?

01:30:33.740 I don't, I wouldn't even, even ask because I don't think we would get, uh, it's not that

01:30:38.240 he would lie to us, but we probably would get like a scattered answer from whatever

01:30:42.080 it actually is.

01:30:43.620 But, um, right.

01:30:44.920 But those scattered answers are, that's where I like, I work in that scattered answer and

01:30:48.500 I'm like, Oh, this shit.

01:30:49.460 Oh, that shit.

01:30:49.980 You know what I mean?

01:30:50.360 Like, I think I could pick up something.

01:30:51.560 I'm, I, I would like to ask him off air, you know, privately, um, you know, that, that

01:30:57.120 sort of information, at least the impressions that he was getting, it doesn't have to be like,

01:31:00.720 well, they were saying that, you know, the Raven is a weird fucking guy because he leads

01:31:05.100 with the Raven and, and, you know, he's, you know, top is also an anthropomorphic kind

01:31:10.520 of like, I don't expect information.

01:31:12.860 I probably would expect like impressions and feelings and, and, and thoughts about us, uh,

01:31:17.980 not so coherently, but I'd be very interested in knowing that shit.

01:31:21.500 I wouldn't be surprised if like, we, they'd be like, yeah, these two guys, they might be

01:31:25.100 a pathway for you to do maybe what he just did right now.

01:31:28.000 Who knows?

01:31:28.780 You know what I mean?

01:31:29.180 It's just like, Oh, they're just veins, you know, they're veins that you use and they're

01:31:32.320 going to bring you here.

01:31:33.060 So it makes a lot of sense.

01:31:36.300 Yeah.

01:31:36.900 But where here is, I don't know what, what we just, I had a feeling when we started this

01:31:41.540 episode and I don't know if people are going to feel this way, but I'm like the information

01:31:45.000 that I think we're going to get is going to be something that is, uh, unique to say the

01:31:51.760 least.

01:31:52.580 And it's something that, you know, a lot of people are going to tutu it.

01:31:55.640 Obviously the ones that are not understanding what's going on, but then some in the community

01:32:00.820 will also be like, eh, no, no, no, that's a little too much.

01:32:04.480 And I understand that sentiment too.

01:32:06.740 Some are going to look a little deeper into this and I feel like maybe it's probably not

01:32:10.560 me.

01:32:10.780 I'm retarded, but maybe, maybe we can get some like nice strings connected to whatever

01:32:16.580 this bigger picture we're trying to put together.

01:32:19.340 You know, I think that that, that those angels or whatever they were, were like these two

01:32:24.320 retards that, you know, they're good guys.

01:32:26.500 They're a little retarded, but you know, they're going to help you get this information out.

01:32:30.260 Who knows?

01:32:30.540 Maybe the guy ends up on Merkle.

01:32:31.780 And it's like, at the end of the day, um, I don't have to necessarily know the nature

01:32:38.000 of what it is.

01:32:39.780 Um, and I don't have to know the answer and I don't have to know when the shit's going

01:32:43.380 to hit the fan, but I do think that when we connect these dots from one person's experience

01:32:49.360 to the next, and when we would connect these dots from sleep paralysis to, you know, his

01:32:54.160 experiences, psychedelics, shadow people, alien abductions, they're all connected in some

01:33:01.160 bigger way.

01:33:01.940 And to me, the main takeaway is there is spiritual warfare happening.

01:33:09.140 And even if he gets to some platform where he can tell that story and maybe like Merkle

01:33:15.280 can connect a few more dots and he can compel a few more people, not necessarily to believe

01:33:20.500 this guy one way or the other, um, that these entities and what their nature is, because I

01:33:25.820 don't think that's as important.

01:33:27.660 Uh, you know, I mean, for him, it's important.

01:33:29.520 He's engaging with you, but what I think is important for the audience is like, when it

01:33:35.640 comes to pattern recognition and like, look, bitch, I'm a conspiracy theorist.

01:33:39.260 If there's one, I'm basically retarded, but I noticed patterns.

01:33:42.200 That's about the most that I can say about myself.

01:33:43.820 And then I can kind of articulate them and maybe some other people can pick up on them.

01:33:47.500 This was like high level pattern recognition for me.

01:33:50.400 And all it screams is like, this is spiritual warfare.

01:33:55.600 That's a hundred percent what's going on.

01:33:57.280 We are engaged in spiritual warfare and a lot of people will poo poo this, this other realm.

01:34:02.780 And as to whether or not it exists, I believe it does exist.

01:34:06.340 And I believe that we are engaged in something, uh, that there might come a time where you

01:34:13.260 don't have the option of sitting on the sidelines.

01:34:15.560 And in fact, sitting on the sidelines is casting a vote for the wrong team.

01:34:20.340 And that if this is really happening to go through life, ignoring it and pretending it doesn't

01:34:26.180 exist, I personally think is the wrong move.

01:34:28.460 Um, but to engage on a positive level as a force for good and a force for love and things

01:34:36.120 of that nature is the right way to go.

01:34:39.280 And also what he said was really powerful.

01:34:41.700 I just want to say quickly about that whole self-responsibility thing, wherever your life

01:34:46.180 is, if it's in the shitter, you know, like I said, if a fucking meteor hit your house and

01:34:51.120 the insurance doesn't want to pay out, that sucks.

01:34:53.420 I'll give you that.

01:34:54.420 But a lot of us aren't experiencing those extremes.

01:34:56.700 And yet we're still clenching our fists and shouting at the sky.

01:34:59.600 Why is this happening to me?

01:35:01.500 Why is everything so fucked up?

01:35:03.160 Why did this person do that?

01:35:04.860 Why did God do this to me?

01:35:06.440 And it's like the correct path, in my opinion, is, is self-responsibility.

01:35:10.860 Recognize the role that you played in that.

01:35:12.860 And that is going to be a much quicker way out of the shit than, you know, blaming external

01:35:17.800 forces constantly.

01:35:19.160 Yeah, one of the things, the important things I think that he said, too, was that he kept

01:35:23.980 saying, like, don't do this.

01:35:26.480 Don't do exactly what I did.

01:35:28.620 It's like, so you're saying you're going to have to eventually pick a side, right?

01:35:32.580 There's obviously there's going to be a good and an evil, and it's going to come down to

01:35:36.640 it.

01:35:37.820 I'm just hesitant to like, obviously, I'm not going to be talking to entities that I don't

01:35:42.360 know.

01:35:44.080 But I think the best way, so then it's like the question mark for everyone listening.

01:35:46.920 Well, what do you do?

01:35:47.460 It was like, well, I was like, maybe I should go back to church.

01:35:50.580 You know, maybe that's one of the things, but I'm not so sure church is exactly where

01:35:54.520 God and Christ are.

01:35:56.300 But read the Bible.

01:35:58.100 You know, there's a ton of information out there that can get you closer mentally to,

01:36:02.760 you know, what way you need to be without, you know, talking to mushroom entities, which

01:36:09.600 is, it could be quite risky because it's like, we don't know what he's talking to.

01:36:13.740 But like you said, what he did confirm is that he is talking to something and there is

01:36:18.820 a war.

01:36:19.920 You know, this is not the first person that said this.

01:36:22.160 We have multiple, multiple stories of people saying this.

01:36:25.420 So it's like, it's coming.

01:36:27.880 You know, pick your side.

01:36:30.680 I think, I think the right side is obviously God.

01:36:33.100 So pick that side and get closer to God.

01:36:36.120 I wouldn't exactly talk to an entity because like, yeah, you're just rolling the dice,

01:36:41.400 man.

01:36:41.500 You have no idea.

01:36:42.340 You don't know what you're doing.

01:36:43.340 You don't know what you're doing in this reality.

01:36:44.720 You think you're going to go like beyond the veil and figure it out.

01:36:47.980 There's no fucking time on the other side.

01:36:50.380 Like that doesn't exist.

01:36:51.320 What are you going to do?

01:36:52.620 It's a, yeah.

01:36:54.100 I think it also depends on the state of mind that you're in, you know, like you never

01:36:58.680 really know on the deepest level, like your, your subconscious, what kind of state you're

01:37:03.680 in.

01:37:03.920 And these things are heavily dependent on what kind of state you're in when you go into

01:37:07.160 them.

01:37:07.760 And so, you know, for, for Colin, was it a, a roll of the dice?

01:37:13.260 Was it meant to be that he was in the right state of mind when he entered this the first

01:37:16.640 time?

01:37:16.940 And that set the tone for the future experiences.

01:37:19.480 And then would you be, if you, if you went and did this, you know, I, I ate, um, just

01:37:25.120 shy, I think of five grams of mushrooms once.

01:37:27.540 Um, but to Colin's point, there's a lot of variation in potency.

01:37:31.840 I did not have the experience that he had.

01:37:33.860 I was inundated with epiphanies over and over again about myself and like human nature,

01:37:39.140 why people behave and do the things they, they do.

01:37:41.820 Uh, and it felt like I was getting like a, a download from something and there was nothing

01:37:45.360 really menacing in it.

01:37:46.440 It was just like, Hey, this is where this comes from.

01:37:49.160 This is why people behave the way they do.

01:37:52.000 Um, especially on like emotional lashing out and things.

01:37:55.140 I got a lot of information about that.

01:37:56.820 Uh, ultimately I don't fucking remember much of it, but, um, I've got no interest in really

01:38:01.880 doing that again.

01:38:02.600 I just think that, uh, you know, the whole talk of like going back to church or not,

01:38:08.140 like, what do you do?

01:38:09.140 Um, you know, I had that experience recently with the evangelical church.

01:38:12.200 That wasn't it for me.

01:38:13.240 We're still searching, but I do think dude, honestly, not to toot our own horn, but like

01:38:18.880 we're having conversations about, even though we joke about it and it's like retarded, schizophrenic

01:38:24.900 shit, this is like, maybe, or maybe it's some of the most important shit in this realm.

01:38:33.080 Uh, and this is what, this is what church probably was about.

01:38:36.620 Like maybe just after the times of Jesus, you know, after Jesus passed, church was in

01:38:41.440 a house.

01:38:41.840 It wasn't a place with, uh, taxes.

01:38:44.720 It was people that were talking to each other about real shit that just happened, like probably

01:38:49.800 crazy stuff.

01:38:50.440 So it's like, you know, that's like, they, they would just bring in knowledge and it's

01:38:53.700 like, Hey, we have this book too, that these guys wrote way before.

01:38:56.620 Like, we're going to read this and let's talk about it.

01:38:59.400 And to, to me that that's church.

01:39:02.360 Like, uh, when you were at my house, uh, uh, uh, my wife's uncle who was there the next

01:39:08.280 time he came, we kind of just talked about this stuff.

01:39:10.580 And I was like, that's church.

01:39:11.980 You leave feeling like, Oh, I asked a bunch of questions.

01:39:15.340 I might've learned something.

01:39:16.700 Um, and there's a congregation, meaning like, you know, there's a, well, the conversation

01:39:23.080 between a bunch of people that are kind of talking about things, agreeing, disagreeing.

01:39:27.860 Whereas the modern church is like one guy talking to you.

01:39:31.500 Um, it's, it's good, but I feel like, yeah, people do need to have that more, um, not intense,

01:39:38.880 but more like, you know, in-person conversation with people where it's like a frank back and

01:39:43.700 forth.

01:39:44.020 That's where I get more than, than in a sermon that teaches.

01:39:48.580 Yeah.

01:39:49.480 I think that, um, what I try to do is like through conversation and exploration of these

01:39:56.520 different topics I'm seeking.

01:39:58.960 That's ultimately what I'm doing.

01:40:00.480 And, you know, I think that you have to have a compass, right?

01:40:05.960 While you're going around in the dark and, um, my compass, I, I desire it to always point

01:40:12.880 towards God.

01:40:13.500 And I think that that's about as much as we could do.

01:40:16.320 We're just feeble fucking humans, you know, um, don't sit on the sidelines, engage and

01:40:25.180 learn and seek, but always keep in mind that there are traps and there is a negative side

01:40:32.400 to this.

01:40:32.840 And so always aim towards God, but use that as the flashlight, use that as the, um, the

01:40:39.980 compass as your true North, uh, don't just jump in it for the sake of exploration with

01:40:46.560 no real intent towards aiming, uh, towards something good.

01:40:51.520 You know, it's not something good.

01:40:52.920 That's too vague.

01:40:53.560 Aim towards God.

01:40:54.360 You know, there is like, we're, we've been saying, and I think it's appropriate place

01:40:58.580 to end it is, uh, that's the big takeaway guys is this is spiritual warfare.

01:41:03.980 And maybe you're lucky enough to not have it at the forefront of your life where like you

01:41:09.260 can go through, you're not having sleep paralysis.

01:41:11.240 You're not getting abducted in the middle of the night.

01:41:12.920 You're not, you know, uh, having all these terrifying experiences.

01:41:18.140 Uh, but I think the fact of the matter is there's no such thing as sitting on the sidelines.

01:41:23.240 And if you would stop and just pay attention to the patterns, you would see something that

01:41:29.040 you would only dismiss emotionally out of, out of fear of kind of breaking your worldview.

01:41:36.080 But if you can get over that and just admit like, yeah, there is data here.

01:41:39.780 There is patterns here.

01:41:41.100 It may not be as tangible as you'd like, but we don't always get what we'd like.

01:41:45.620 Uh, there is something here though, otherwise.

01:41:48.140 And if it points to a war, uh, you cannot be a neutral party in a spiritual war because

01:41:57.820 it's launched against us.

01:42:00.600 Well said.

01:42:02.000 Yeah.

01:42:02.660 It's, it's what did Trump always say?

01:42:05.860 They're not coming for me.

01:42:07.260 They're coming for you.

01:42:08.280 They're, they're coming for you.

01:42:09.400 It's about, it's very much about people.

01:42:11.380 I think that's what the show is about.

01:42:12.820 That's like Nephilim death squad.

01:42:14.600 Why, why would, would fallen angels subvert humankind to, uh, pervert their bloodline?

01:42:21.120 It's all about the human being, the, the person that whatever God made, why he made it so

01:42:27.000 special.

01:42:27.400 We, we don't really know what are we capable of.

01:42:30.060 And I don't know.

01:42:30.880 Some people say people can fly maybe, but definitely we're special.

01:42:34.760 We don't know why start figuring it out.

01:42:36.640 Start thinking about it at least like, this is not, you know, we're not just random shit

01:42:40.760 spinning through space, you know, Neil deGrasse Tyson.

01:42:44.260 Fuck you.

01:42:44.940 Yeah.

01:42:45.620 This is, there's something more going on here.

01:42:47.340 That that's like, I mean, you know, if I, if I wanted people to fall asleep and not

01:42:51.000 be thinking about why they're, why they're special, why God would create them, it, it's

01:42:56.840 the perfect thing to do and just completely make you feel useless.

01:43:00.840 Whereas, and then, you know, you end up with like an OnlyFans society, which we have right

01:43:04.100 now.

01:43:04.520 So that's, that's my, that's my rant.

01:43:07.420 I think we beat these people over the head with this stuff already.

01:43:09.920 David, you ready to get out of here?

01:43:12.740 I got my voice correct.

01:43:14.100 Yeah, I am, uh, guys, don't forget to go to, um, TopLobster.com.

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01:43:44.740 I got the one in the, I got the one in the, uh, the bottom right corner, the Nephilim death

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01:43:57.940 Um, but yeah, go and get the merch, uh, and just real quick.

01:44:02.460 Thank you guys.

01:44:03.000 I finally got to, uh, a thousand subscribers on YouTube for the Ravens watch and, uh, my,

01:44:09.280 my, my Twitter is, is crushing.

01:44:11.480 And also I just made an appearance on Elijah Schaefer shows, uh, Eliza, Elijah Schaefer's

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01:44:22.040 Uh, so go check that out.

01:44:24.020 And, uh, I think that's it for me.

01:44:25.780 Top, uh, tomorrow, uh, all the, all this great stuff that we said about God and looking,

01:44:31.300 we're going to do, we're going to just disappointed tomorrow.

01:44:35.760 It's like, don't, don't turn, don't turn the computer on for this God.

01:44:39.280 It's going to, no, I mean, listen, I, I think that I do think that there's a place for comedy

01:44:44.280 and, and obviously like what we're doing there is, is all just like, we're, we're, we're

01:44:49.720 exposing, we're, we're shining a light on the lies that like, you can't say these things.

01:44:54.840 We're trying to make it funny, trying to blow off steam.

01:44:57.440 If you like doing that, come hang with us at Tower Gang.

01:44:59.880 You already know.

01:45:00.740 They already know.

01:45:01.960 Peace out guys.

01:45:02.580 The greatest hypnotist on planet Earth is a oblong box in the corner of the room.

01:45:10.700 It is constantly telling us what to believe is real.

01:45:14.480 You can persuade them that what they see with their eyes is what there is to see.

01:45:19.580 Because they'll laugh in the face of an explanation that portrays the bigger picture of what's happening.

01:45:27.500 And they have.

01:45:28.600 Yeah.

01:45:28.900 Yeah.

01:45:29.460 Yeah.

01:45:29.980 Yeah.

01:45:32.180 Yeah.

01:45:33.480 Yeah.

01:45:33.880 Yeah.

01:45:33.980 Yeah.

01:45:34.220 Yeah.

01:45:35.020 Yeah.

01:45:36.000 Yeah.

01:45:36.440 Yeah.

01:45:38.400 Yeah.

01:45:38.420 Yeah.

01:45:40.840 Yeah.

01:45:41.900 Yeah.

01:45:44.540 Nah.

01:45:45.820 Yeah.

01:45:46.460 Yeah.

01:45:48.320 Yeah.

01:45:48.400 Yeah.

01:45:52.460 Yeah.

01:45:54.580 Yeah.

01:45:55.160 Yeah.

01:45:55.420 Yeah.

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