Order of Man - RUDY REYES ｜ The Power of Deep Pursuit

00:00:00.000 There's so much to get distracted by these days with all of our duties responsibilities and obligations

00:00:05.800 It's really really easy to get lost in trivial and meaningless activities and pursuits

00:00:11.340 But when we learn to eliminate and remove the distractions

00:00:14.460 We free ourselves to find something truly meaningful to obtain

00:00:18.520 My guest today is a master at doing just that. His name is rudy reyes

00:00:23.360 He's a former marine recon author of his book hero living and host of the fox hit show special forces

00:00:29.720 World's toughest test

00:00:31.780 Today we talk about the power of a mission

00:00:34.860 Developing the executive mindset the strength of the inner story you tell yourself

00:00:40.160 How when and why to compartmentalize emotion and going deep on pursuits that matter you're a man of action

00:00:47.260 You live life to the fullest embrace your fears and boldly charge your own path when life knocks you down

00:00:53.020 You get back up one more time every time you are not easily deterred defeated rugged

00:00:59.060 resilient

00:00:59.860 Strong this is your life. This is who you are

00:01:03.660 This is who you will become at the end of the day

00:01:06.560 And after all is said and done you can call yourself a man

00:01:10.640 Gentlemen, what is going on today? My name is ryan michler

00:01:13.600 I'm your host and the founder of the order of man podcast and movement

00:01:17.720 Welcome here today and welcome back

00:01:20.700 We got a really good one for you today. Uh, rudy has been a friend for years

00:01:25.220 I've broken bread with him. We've trained together. Uh, we've spent time together

00:01:29.820 He knows my my two oldest boys

00:01:32.420 Uh, what a great human being and that's not to say that he's free of

00:01:36.760 Hardship or adversity or his own personal struggles

00:01:39.320 We talked a little bit about that today

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00:03:16.560 Use the code order of man at checkout. All right, guys, let me introduce you to my guest again

00:03:22.260 His name is rudy reyes. He is a former marine recon. I can't go through and talk about his

00:03:27.640 Uh awards and accommodations because it would just take too long

00:03:31.520 You can check it out for yourself. He's also the author of

00:03:34.620 His re-released book hero living. He's the star of the tv shows sas who dares wins

00:03:40.620 And special forces world's toughest test

00:03:43.920 That is a great show me and my uh, two oldest boys in particular watch that show

00:03:48.780 And it's a really really good show and he's just a hell of a good person and a good friend

00:03:53.440 Uh rudy has taken his immense combat experience including multiple combat tours abroad

00:03:59.000 And really molded himself into a force to be reckoned with

00:04:02.480 But of course none of that has come without a price rudy talks openly about his battles with

00:04:07.760 mental health issues and substance abuse and

00:04:10.900 uh during this conversation

00:04:12.820 He gets real about what it takes to go from the top

00:04:16.940 To the bottom to digging yourself back up to the top. Enjoy this one fellas

00:04:22.480 Ryan we are

00:04:25.320 Working

00:04:26.700 10 days straight i'm getting about four hours of sleep a night

00:04:31.140 And not only am I running course

00:04:33.360 And taskers and then running recruits to and from course and there's only four of us instructors

00:04:39.200 And um, we are also the range safety officers we're the safety swimmers

00:04:43.820 We're the safety divers us

00:04:45.620 And when we get them through their tasks and we finally get it get finally get them to the barracks

00:04:51.240 You have to make sure their uh uniforms are inspected their gear is inspected

00:04:55.900 Then we have to interview them and that goes all night till midnight sometimes one in the morning

00:05:01.140 So it is grueling

00:05:03.480 And so as the things develop we never know who's going to leave and when we never know

00:05:08.360 Right, um

00:05:09.800 So as things develop and then we get it all in the can for the next few months

00:05:14.980 I will go and do

00:05:16.780 Reshoot my master interviews like you see me in the dark room

00:05:20.660 Right, military kind of dark room and then I get my hair cut and everything so it looks just like that

00:05:25.680 I know you got your hair cut and you don't have a beard. I'm like who is I don't even recognize this guy

00:05:29.920 I know I know I know

00:05:31.520 So I get the look to match and then depends depending on what has happened

00:05:36.200 Then i'll do a little insight a little verb a blurb to what's happening on that episode

00:05:41.480 So that goes on months afterwards

00:05:43.180 And i'm doing and I have two programs I got sas in the uk

00:05:47.500 And you and then special forces in the usa. They're both out at the same time

00:05:52.600 So it's it's you know, it's all over the place but it's great. It's great to have a fucking mission

00:05:57.840 um, but uh, it's definitely a lot of work and I can see why my personal life

00:06:04.160 I don't have much of a personal life anymore. It's revolved around health and training

00:06:08.780 And being in the best uh condition mentally physically uh emotionally

00:06:14.660 to um

00:06:16.500 Be the only name in military entertainment because that's kind of how my

00:06:22.180 My niche is kind of developed that way

00:06:23.960 um, i'm very aware that our

00:06:26.920 uh world is um

00:06:28.920 Is uh entertainment is fickle and our world is not uh guaranteed things go up and down

00:06:34.900 uh economies go up and down

00:06:37.240 and um

00:06:38.640 I'm sure there's some 35 year old operators out there that are magnificent that are handsome that are war heroes

00:06:45.280 And they could take my job for half the money

00:06:48.020 So I have to be the best and that means my life outside of shooting is revolved around

00:06:54.240 jade myself the dog

00:06:56.600 The uh, the two cats my children and my health

00:07:00.740 That's that's the way it's got to be right now. You know what i'm saying?

00:07:04.280 Yeah, I mean it's hard to I you know, I I know a lot of guys myself included want to want to emulate the same

00:07:09.920 Type of lifestyle you're talking about but you know, one of the things that I think is how often we're tempted by other people or circumstances or

00:07:16.920 external situations

00:07:18.840 uh, that you and I have talked about where you know, everybody else is living a different life than we are

00:07:25.420 So my question is how do you stay on target and on course when everything around you is quite literally in some cases telling you not to

00:07:32.680 So true. So you know what so we just uh jade

00:07:35.820 uh, you can see our our beautiful little room here

00:07:39.560 We're out here in beautiful qs for the wedding. Um, it's so beautiful

00:07:44.520 that

00:07:45.700 um, jade

00:07:47.400 uh, she is

00:07:49.220 Disciplined in training in going to the training hall or the gym

00:07:54.260 Because as we know that is a shift of focus and consciousness of my life

00:08:01.320 Is now put on hold so I can go invest in my personal development. I can de-stress I can get strong

00:08:08.740 Everything else that's waiting for me is waiting for me out there

00:08:12.420 I work out right out here because i'm used to being expeditionary

00:08:17.820 Um, those two chairs out there. I turn into my dip station. I bring my rubber bands with me everywhere. I wear blood occlusion cuffs

00:08:25.760 The reason why is because it's a habit

00:08:29.080 from being a young man

00:08:30.960 um

00:08:31.900 many different

00:08:33.260 uh homes and schools

00:08:35.740 and that

00:08:36.800 Uh turned into the military in which I was deploying or going to school all over

00:08:41.860 And if I wanted to maintain my fitness

00:08:45.040 I had to learn to do it with whatever I have wherever I am

00:08:49.300 And just this morning jade said honey

00:08:51.420 I'm really proud because I don't know how you do it

00:08:55.800 She's going to the gym right now. We've got a little day pass

00:08:58.820 Some little hoopie gym here in key key west. I think you get probably you probably get, uh, uh, uh, I don't know

00:09:06.200 Rum drop shots when you go in I mean this place is insane

00:09:10.200 I mean, you know, everyone's wasted all the time bloody mary's from breakfast everywhere. So, um, she said, uh, she gave me a compliment

00:09:17.560 and said that you can

00:09:19.100 train

00:09:20.280 and that means even though we're in the middle we got

00:09:22.960 10 people in this house

00:09:24.620 and you know, they're, uh, blasting freaking, uh, uh, poison

00:09:29.480 uh, freaking, uh, you know, some, uh, some poison songs and some guns and roses and drinking bloody mary's

00:09:35.040 I still got my train

00:09:35.940 Um

00:09:37.020 It's a habit, ryan. It's a habit and

00:09:40.300 You know what else too

00:09:44.320 Sometimes I choose to just get into it and you know

00:09:47.820 We can do 30 minutes

00:09:50.660 Of 10 bodyweight squats 10 mountain climbers each leg

00:09:56.460 10 push-ups 10 thrusters even with no weight squeezing the shoulders

00:10:01.400 You run that 30 minutes straight

00:10:04.240 I can guarantee you're going to get some heavy results

00:10:06.820 Yeah

00:10:07.480 And then and then turn it into 20 reps 20 and then turn it 20 diamond push-ups

00:10:13.580 I'm telling you

00:10:14.720 So I would also this is something maybe my my friends and fans and and folks out there don't know

00:10:21.540 I ran counter terror and counter poaching

00:10:24.380 uh missions and programs in northeast africa and I was in charge of the pt and martial art program

00:10:30.780 We had an outdoor field

00:10:33.280 We had no equipment

00:10:35.400 And I was tasked with making these men strong and prepared, you know for for combat

00:10:42.500 I did things like that. We did calisthenics

00:10:45.800 We did vo2 max tabatas

00:10:48.380 We did, um, we put on our blouses our, uh, you know cami blouses and uh, do grip work

00:10:55.940 And uh hip tosses fitting in judo, um and duck unders and uh suplex fitting it in

00:11:04.040 That built these men strong and uh, I had to get results

00:11:09.200 There was no excuse that just because I didn't have equipment I couldn't get results

00:11:12.500 I've really that's just part of me now, you know, so then when you see me at sarnix when we got all the disneyland

00:11:19.220 Of weights and equipment i i'm having fun

00:11:22.600 I'm having so, uh, so, uh, I use both

00:11:26.680 I know I can always train with my body weight

00:11:29.100 I bring these occlusion cuffs much love to diamond dallas page. They're called power cups

00:11:34.000 And they and you know, uh, there's so many gimmicks out there brother

00:11:37.840 Um, these things are like you think they're gimmicky

00:11:40.680 So they're they're cuffs that go on you here and then crank them and it cuts off the blood

00:11:46.320 So now you're working three times harder with no blood getting to your arms

00:11:53.180 And body weight conditioning dips pull-ups even light band work

00:11:58.120 You're just oh

00:11:59.300 And when you take them off the massive amounts of blood comes flooding through great for inflammation

00:12:06.220 Also great for hgh because your body's in a sense in micro trauma

00:12:12.100 Sure and you'll notice deeper sleep

00:12:14.740 Um, they have them for the legs too and if you

00:12:19.260 If you're a really tough human being

00:12:21.900 And you want to try them on the legs and do just a body weight squat lunge work

00:12:27.160 Whoa, so I bring these things with me a band

00:12:30.800 um rings

00:12:32.800 Uh, and i've i've learned how to work out with what I have around me

00:12:36.420 That's really I guess maybe that's kind of what sets me apart from a lot of folks out there

00:12:41.060 um, maybe I was a um

00:12:43.540 A throwback really I bet you the old guys from 100 years ago 150 years ago. They were more like that

00:12:49.540 They'd find some stones the people that were involved in wanting to be strong and wrestlers gymnasts things like that

00:12:56.340 They'd find stones or they do a lot of pull-ups or they'd probably do a lot of rope pulls

00:13:01.140 You know, so it works

00:13:03.800 Yeah, I think I think it is it's just being just being a little adaptive and a little resilient

00:13:08.780 I'm one of the workouts that I really like doing when I don't have anything around me is I do uh, 10 push-ups

00:13:14.340 Uh, 20 sit-ups and then uh, 30 air squats and I do 10 rounds of that takes 35 minutes or so

00:13:21.320 Exactly

00:13:22.360 Exactly. You're sweating. You're breathing hard. You're oxygenating tissues. Absolutely brother. Um, it works

00:13:29.820 It truly works. There's another great one. You've seen me probably over the years

00:13:34.060 It looks like i'm just mentally possessed and i'm throwing punches and spalls

00:13:38.160 It's boss root to boss root and the legend boss root. Yeah

00:13:42.980 Put in your earbuds and he calls out the shots. It's 30 minutes

00:13:47.480 You keep your hands high and he'll call out three

00:13:50.760 Or a two or a right straight left hook and then defense and then you scroll and then leaping knees to chest 20 and then

00:13:58.480 30 minutes of being in an executive mindset, meaning we are not thinking anymore

00:14:04.680 We are executing

00:14:06.160 Hmm switches a whole nother area on but we're just executing

00:14:10.620 Boss root and his all-around workout still gets me through

00:14:14.600 I turned

00:14:15.600 the uh, the actors slash recruits and bodyguards of generation kill

00:14:21.840 I ran that course too. I trained those actors for a few months before we even started to shoot and then

00:14:28.460 um, and then we trained, uh along concurrently while shooting

00:14:32.240 Totally immersive

00:14:34.960 Infantry basics and recon basics

00:14:38.080 All the actors got military haircuts gear issue

00:14:41.120 Uh camis and we ran it brother and this is all over south africa namibia

00:14:46.260 Um, and we would do boss root some of those actors who are now

00:14:50.620 Superstars, uh, michael kelly mikey kelly from uh

00:14:55.300 from house of cards

00:14:57.460 Beautiful blue eyes kind of balding here lean. He's also in the jack ryan shows the cia guy jack ryan's best buddy

00:15:05.600 The cia beautiful eyes. That's my homeboy michael kelly

00:15:09.080 Um, he still does boss root. I turned him on to boss root 13 years ago people are still doing the boss root because it works

00:15:16.580 No equipment no equipment

00:15:18.820 It's all it takes

00:15:20.500 I you know, I am curious where you're talking about these shows

00:15:23.480 So me and my kids watch special forces. I haven't seen sas, but we have we have watched special forces in a couple episodes into season two now

00:15:30.600 I was uh, I was a little disappointed. I was rooting for uh, mike piazza in season one. I was a little disappointed

00:15:36.720 I'm like come on you were I picked him on day one because I used to watch him as a kid playing for the dodgers

00:15:42.340 You know what? He's such a class act and he I think he was the keystone that held that course together

00:15:49.440 There was so many times

00:15:52.120 There was a time when it was about to be a mutiny

00:15:55.620 It was about to be a mutiny brother and this is behind the scenes

00:16:01.160 Um, foxy and billy normally do the super uh high speed repelling

00:16:07.000 We all do a little bit of everything together

00:16:09.080 Uh, because we all have to be able to cover each other's back

00:16:12.040 But he was doing a I don't know 250 feet bomb rappel from a uh

00:16:17.780 An air a a aircraft tower

00:16:21.100 Okay on the ocean in akuba

00:16:23.720 So we we showed the recruits going up all the stairs and then bombing it off. Um

00:16:28.760 Oh, that's right. I remember that

00:16:30.440 Yeah, you remember that we always rehearse

00:16:33.400 Just before we do it. We we rehearse

00:16:36.140 We go and rehearse weeks before and then even up to the day. We'll have a guy

00:16:41.000 Repel and do whatever whatever

00:16:43.320 Uh, um evolution we're going to do just to make sure it's finally safe

00:16:47.160 Well, the winds picked up

00:16:49.400 Foxy was coming down fast. He's a big unit brother fox. He's 235 pounds, you know

00:16:55.160 Yeah, he's a big boy

00:16:55.800 Solid strong

00:16:57.480 And um, the winds picked up and there's a

00:17:01.880 deus about 30 feet from the deck

00:17:05.320 And he swung in probably going about 40 miles an hour

00:17:09.320 And clipped his heel snapped tip fifth like that

00:17:13.640 Crashed to the deck completely fucking crashed

00:17:16.600 And at first I thought man, maybe you know, did he break his back and fucking really shut it down?

00:17:22.520 We got him into the freaking ambulance. It's his fucking leg

00:17:25.880 Now we're 3ds

00:17:29.320 And we're controlling 12 13 recruits

00:17:33.080 We have to uh, it has to be transparent to them. They can't know anything

00:17:37.880 We're running the course hot

00:17:39.400 Foxy's on a helicopter to try to get some kind of medical care. This is jordan. It's not the united states

00:17:45.640 Don't have freaking hospitals like we do

00:17:48.360 So that afternoon

00:17:51.160 We're getting ready to go into the driving ambush

00:17:54.040 And the king

00:17:54.920 The king of jordan flies in with his bodyguards to see us and have lunch

00:18:00.840 The royal family

00:18:02.680 Well, the king and the royal family

00:18:05.160 Who we're honored and obligated to because they gave us all these assets and they're letting us use their beautiful country

00:18:11.480 We're not going to tell him. Hey, hey king. You got to go now

00:18:15.000 We got to run this course

00:18:16.200 So the king was there entertaining us for about two hours while the recruits

00:18:21.000 Were in the vehicle standing by

00:18:23.560 And they were getting really pissed off

00:18:25.400 They're getting really angry. They don't know what's going on

00:18:27.400 But you know, welcome to the military. That's how it goes sometimes

00:18:30.200 Yeah, yeah

00:18:31.000 And uh, and so the nerves were frayed and raw

00:18:35.240 Danny and mandola got fired up

00:18:38.840 I was just about ready to eat this is after a long day and night just in the vehicle just

00:18:43.640 Got in there to eat and then I hear billy yelling his voice behind me

00:18:47.720 I'm like fuck something's going on

00:18:49.080 I get it and I go back there and they're about to go to blows

00:18:52.040 I got to back up billy. I can't let

00:18:54.600 I can't let the discipline of the course get out of control

00:18:57.000 If we can slam the door on danny danny squeaking at this at that

00:19:01.560 All of the recruits say all right, we're all taking off our armbands

00:19:04.840 We're about to lose the whole show

00:19:06.360 We're about to lose the whole for this show and this thing's like a 20 million dollar show, right?

00:19:10.040 I mean just flying everybody first class to get into this thing, right?

00:19:13.160 You know what i'm saying?

00:19:14.440 So this is day four

00:19:16.760 We're about to lose it

00:19:19.480 We get to the barracks everybody's flooding out

00:19:22.840 Scaramucci, daddy and everybody's like you know what right here

00:19:26.840 We're we're done. We're all done

00:19:30.040 And um

00:19:31.880 Then I i said i'm shut the eff up get in the accommodations right now

00:19:36.680 Shut the eff up just shut up get out of my face get out of my face and it was piazza

00:19:42.520 That freaking got everybody together

00:19:45.000 Get in there fatherly

00:19:47.000 Listen, you know, listen everyone we're here for a reason

00:19:51.400 You know, it's been tough on all of us, but we really need to show our best out here

00:19:56.440 We represent america we really need to keep get it together all right

00:20:00.360 We get we're gonna we got to do this together

00:20:02.600 Do you understand and everybody brought their emotions down everybody got back together and it was piazza

00:20:09.560 Get that course online brother. We were about to lose it all

00:20:13.640 Uh on the third or fourth day. Yeah, yeah, it was incredible

00:20:17.320 He's he's such a champ. He's such a great father. He's such a great american

00:20:22.200 I've had dinner with them and spent time with them afterwards, too

00:20:25.560 He came to my force blue gala

00:20:27.160 Uh, just a class act all the way. I loved him, but I knew

00:20:31.880 Physically over time

00:20:34.840 Um, when you're of that age when you're in a little order

00:20:38.440 It's tough

00:20:39.640 Especially if you're a bigger person if you're 170 pounds and you're 45 or 50

00:20:44.280 Okay, but if you're 210 230

00:20:48.440 It's all for running. It's all the wear and tear

00:20:51.240 Um, and then he had to box and brother

00:20:54.760 He got that he got the hell fuck beat out of him by being dwayne

00:21:00.040 Yep, um, you know, and and uh, um

00:21:04.760 We kept him in and he kept giving as much as he could

00:21:08.600 But he took some hard shots. I was amazed he was still standing in the air

00:21:13.320 His face is all swell up. Remember he freaking smashed against the the uh, uh

00:21:18.120 Gas chamber door if we could fell flat

00:21:21.160 Oh, brother. It was pandemonium. So there's no freaking script ryan

00:21:25.560 So when billy was running the gas chamber, he ran to escape. I was on the other side

00:21:31.160 Piazza was so freaking strong. He blasted that door. I almost fucking

00:21:34.920 Oh, that's right. When he tried to run into that door of that connex, right? That's right. I do remember that

00:21:39.960 Yeah, that's wild

00:21:41.400 Oh, brother, you know, you can go sideways uh on you anytime. So we're all very focused

00:21:47.320 About uh checking in with each other always

00:21:51.000 Doing back briefs so we all understand what's going on and what the audience does

00:21:55.400 It's behind the scenes

00:21:58.520 We have producers powerful people

00:22:03.400 Frightened that we're going to lose

00:22:06.920 Somebody really important if we've not got their inner story out

00:22:12.040 Now that being said I can't pump the brakes we can't pump the brakes

00:22:17.080 But it's amazing what one little word from a ds from an instructor to a struggling student can do for them

00:22:27.640 So out on task one little word one. Hey, stay in the fight, brother

00:22:33.000 Hey, young lady

00:22:34.760 You're giving a good account of yourself one little thing

00:22:37.800 Gives them enough to keep going

00:22:39.000 Yeah, and so later in the evening we'll bring him bring him in for a tactical questioning and learn more about

00:22:44.760 Uh, it's uh, it's really really amazing work. You need to be switched on

00:22:50.280 um

00:22:52.040 and

00:22:52.280 It's brought my health back together because when i'm there brother i'm there for two months totally immersed

00:23:00.520 No alcohol no distraction oftentimes no cell service just training and running the course

00:23:06.680 And then when I come home, I feel so refit refueled refreshed and

00:23:13.640 Find what's so important is that I have my loved ones back home. So it's a perfect life

00:23:18.840 Work training balance right now now. I don't know how long it's going to last

00:23:23.320 The numbers for our new season are almost twice as good as the first season

00:23:28.680 The first season was the best or the highest rated fox show unscripted

00:23:32.520 This one is still the highest rated fox show uh unscripted. I think of all time

00:23:36.840 But you never know how entertainment goes that I I want to I want to keep uh

00:23:40.680 I want to keep this train on the tracks

00:23:43.800 And I think our country needs

00:23:47.000 To be reminded of patriotism

00:23:49.720 And of sacrifice and honorable old world values and I think that's what this show does

00:23:56.840 Yeah, I think that I also think seeing people overcome obstacles and trials and hardship

00:24:01.800 Well, it seems like in modern times everything's so easy, you know, i'm not

00:24:05.640 I don't want to discount what people are dealing with we're all dealing with something, but

00:24:09.960 You're really not dealing with what what what will kill you for the most part and you're exactly become so complacent and comfortable

00:24:17.160 I am curious, you know with season one and now season two

00:24:21.080 Are there some common themes that you see not only through the shows that you've done but also your military training?

00:24:26.840 That that seem to run common throughout people who succeed because if we can emulate those characteristics

00:24:32.680 That's what i'm interested in and I think that's what the guys listening are interested in too

00:24:39.320 First of all physical fitness why

00:24:42.200 because if you're disciplined enough to put yourself

00:24:45.960 into

00:24:47.720 A space of pain and being out of breath which in a sense is like a little death

00:24:53.080 I think we're trying I think intuitively

00:24:57.720 We are transporting ourselves back to the savannah

00:25:01.960 where there's lions

00:25:04.040 And yet we've got spears to hunt our food yet the predators could get us too

00:25:11.080 And imagine how in our primitive state how real that was right real

00:25:17.960 If you are approaching physical fitness and sport

00:25:22.360 I think at our base dna it's putting you back into that

00:25:27.080 That hunter-gatherer

00:25:29.720 And look what we do when we train too ryan

00:25:32.680 We end up making like tribe

00:25:34.840 members and friends

00:25:36.680 Do the training you know

00:25:37.880 Sometimes like if you you remember

00:25:40.680 Years back like you go into a new gym or something like that

00:25:43.400 And you've been there about three weeks and then you see a couple of the same guys and they're doing some legit stuff

00:25:48.600 And you guys just give each other a nod

00:25:49.880 There's so there's a quantum effect of things that are happening when you're physically fit and when they're doing sport

00:25:56.760 It's keeping you back into our tribal our freaking our our essential hunter-gatherer

00:26:03.160 when there was um when there was something on the line

00:26:07.480 Starvation predation

00:26:10.360 Will you have status to have a good woman?

00:26:12.920 Will you be strong enough to even fight get a woman or are you going to be eaten by the lion or by the

00:26:17.800 The uh, the barbarian hordes what you know

00:26:21.640 So starting with sport and physical fitness that starts developing a level of grit and um

00:26:29.720 Also, it's interesting the emotions i'm an emotional person yet

00:26:34.840 Through martial art and through special operations

00:26:41.960 We compartmentalize the emotion

00:26:45.320 And let it be a simmering flame

00:26:48.360 For our very intellectual approach

00:26:50.760 So if I can say

00:26:52.840 Separating church and state in the human mind for success

00:26:58.680 Separating the church and state specifically when you're building fundamentals

00:27:03.480 When you're our age though, right?

00:27:05.640 I see now I don't really separate now

00:27:08.040 They're working together at a quantum level

00:27:10.680 But there's a certain in in our earlier development

00:27:14.200 Separating uh church and state uh church being the emotion and soul spirit

00:27:19.400 All sometimes the empathy sometimes the empathy sometimes the sympathy

00:27:24.040 Separate that from the state and that is the freaking uh

00:27:29.240 That is the empire that you're building of yourself

00:27:33.000 You must conquer you must make clinical decisions

00:27:36.840 You must weigh risk

00:27:40.120 um

00:27:40.200 It I see that these are the building blocks and all the people that do well on my course

00:27:46.200 And all the people i've known that do well in anything

00:27:51.320 That ability uh, especially it doesn't seem that ryan

00:27:55.720 Many of us are just naturally geniuses or naturally

00:27:59.080 Um, uh, you know carl lewis not many of us are naturally carl lewis or albert einstein

00:28:07.160 But we're somewhere in the middle

00:28:08.920 So those are the basics. I really see sports fitness because you're willing to

00:28:13.640 Uh subconsciously put yourself back on the savannah

00:28:18.520 And take critique or loss

00:28:20.440 And then separating church and state when developing skills whether they're your economic skills your social skills your professional skills

00:28:29.320 If you can do that

00:28:31.160 You can do anything

00:28:32.760 One of the things that I that I really admire about you really just in the interactions we've had over the years is

00:28:38.520 You don't seem like somebody who's

00:28:40.680 Like i'll go to the gym for an hour every morning and that's my gym time and then my

00:28:45.640 You know, uh, my journaling or meditation time is is at this time you're talking about compartmentalization

00:28:51.400 but when I look at you

00:28:53.320 From what I see I don't see compartmentalization. What I see is

00:28:56.760 Fitness is not an hour a day fitness is life

00:28:59.720 What I see is exactly right achieving. You know, that's what I that's what I admire about you

00:29:06.200 Yes, but you're exactly right. It's that expeditionary approach. Um, however, when I was

00:29:12.600 In my teen years and early 20s and when I was doing shaolin kung fu and kickboxing

00:29:18.200 Uh, I lived in kansas city

00:29:20.600 And there was not really a fitness culture really there

00:29:23.640 And so I would train very early in the morning by the way my kung fu teacher

00:29:29.000 We didn't have any money. We didn't have a school. We trained outside and kansas city

00:29:33.800 We get freaking harsh winters and blistering summers

00:29:37.480 Um, still no matter what my kung fu teacher said jenet sit said

00:29:41.800 Every morning if you do these drills every morning

00:29:45.720 And when the sun is coming up and you do this meditation every morning for two years

00:29:51.160 You will achieve a skill

00:29:52.840 And if you skip anything the techniques lost and now looking back

00:29:57.480 I realize the technique that he's talking about is the technique technique of technique of commitment

00:30:03.320 Technique of such commitment

00:30:06.840 Once I started training that hard committed and that there were no

00:30:13.000 Excuses or no no reasons to to uh stray

00:30:17.000 It opened up another level of my probably my intelligence my grit

00:30:23.960 It built a foundation in which now

00:30:27.960 I take my kung fu school anywhere in the world

00:30:31.400 But it had to be started and moored with that kind of uh discipline

00:30:36.360 Uh, yeah, jade just walked in she just got me a coffee

00:30:39.400 Uh, she like I said she's blown away. So, um, because I always find she'll see me

00:30:45.160 Kind of like a

00:30:48.600 Kind of like a scrounge of

00:30:51.480 Things to work out with when we move into the hotel first thing

00:30:54.840 Uh, I look like, uh, you know where you put your suitcase on

00:30:58.280 I put my feet up on the table and use that thing that you put your suitcase on to do some deep chest presses

00:31:03.000 And then just moving some chairs around and i'll stick one chair against the wall

00:31:08.360 So it's got a little bit of pressure to hold it and then so I do my dips on the tops of chairs

00:31:13.160 So you have to be focused with you got to be focused with your core

00:31:17.800 To keep them from collapsing in so i'm feeling my ability through the four legs of each chair

00:31:25.640 There is a squeeze

00:31:28.840 That all started from the compartmentalization of my feelings

00:31:33.880 And whether how freaking cold and uh, and how much snow was coming in brother. I

00:31:39.480 Bro

00:31:40.840 I didn't have a car my brothers and I we're really

00:31:44.600 Lower socioeconomic group grew up very low socioeconomic group. I thought it was doing great

00:31:48.680 I had a restaurant job. We had a decent apartment in a okay part of town

00:31:52.840 And I rode my my bicycle everywhere keep super in shape and then do my train outdoors

00:32:01.560 The winter came in so harsh

00:32:05.160 That a bunch of cars we got freezing rain cars are

00:32:10.520 careening off the freaking streets

00:32:13.080 Mashing panamoning in the rain. Well, I still had to get to work

00:32:16.760 So I had these hand-me-down bole

00:32:21.880 Racquet pole goggles because see I noticed that when I wouldn't wear goggles when I riding my bike in the snow

00:32:27.320 My eyelashes would freeze and I'm freaking freeze over it

00:32:30.360 So I had these vegan things

00:32:32.680 I had a car heart

00:32:35.240 Kind of

00:32:36.360 Snowsuit it was an insulated

00:32:39.000 Car heart workman's jumpsuit

00:32:41.000 And wrap me some freaking scarves around and i'm riding my bike to the freaking park at five in the morning

00:32:48.520 So I can train the wind is hitting me so hard

00:32:52.520 I'm freaking work. It's so hard. I get to that

00:32:55.960 To the nelson atkins to do my drills

00:32:57.960 We're fighting drills and plow missions. It was awful. Uh, it was all plow metrics and striking drills. I had to do every morning every morning

00:33:04.280 I

00:33:06.280 Unzip the top of it wrapped it around my waist steam was coming off. Well snow is coming down

00:33:12.120 I was on the verge of going down for heat

00:33:15.800 From writing my book

00:33:18.440 So you know when you got those basics built in you

00:33:22.680 You will bring that level of intensity insight and celebration to whatever training you're doing

00:33:28.440 And then you start bringing that to everything you're doing everything you're doing

00:33:32.760 Um

00:33:35.000 My buddy his name's clark a legend very humble seal with a ton of freaking humor and he plays guitar loves metallica

00:33:44.680 And uh, um, he calls me his energy coach. He says energy code

00:33:51.160 That you're exactly right. There is a tipping point. There's the fundamentals fundamentals fundamentals and we always return to them

00:33:56.760 But our goal is to hit a tipping point in which we're living

00:34:02.120 full power hyper color

00:34:05.480 And and really celebrating and being gracious with all the gifts that we got, you know, it's strange

00:34:11.000 We look in the mirror. Do you remember boo? We used to be younger. I remember when we were younger

00:34:16.360 Um, things do change on our bodies. They do age

00:34:20.440 You know, um

00:34:21.960 They do age we have to warm up a lot longer. We now have to

00:34:25.800 I used to I used to see people roll out

00:34:28.440 I mean like what a waste of time what these people do

00:34:34.360 I just bought a I just bought a roller on amazon. I'm like, all right, I better

00:34:38.600 I better get after this because this ain't working anymore

00:34:41.720 You know what i'm saying and you know, it's it's really amazing. I'm still in love with it. I'll always be in love with it

00:34:47.560 Uh

00:34:51.560 I'm not even sure

00:34:53.560 How to describe my mission now or how i'm going to make a living for my family and I and such or whatever

00:34:59.320 Because i'm not necessarily and just an entertainer i'm not necessarily just a warrior anymore

00:35:04.600 Um, I still train my weapons with jade. We still do martial art with weights

00:35:09.560 Um

00:35:11.720 I'm a speaker

00:35:13.320 But i'm not necessarily just a speaker so it's still unfolding for us, you know

00:35:19.560 But what stays at the center is the relationship I have with jade and also, uh, the deep pursuit

00:35:28.040 Of

00:35:29.000 What i'm called by god to do what is the deep what what what doors

00:35:34.760 Has have been opened my whole life and also what challenges have been put in front of me

00:35:39.560 To make me a better man

00:35:41.400 So these are the things I wrestle with and think deeply about every day

00:35:44.920 And um

00:35:46.360 And so the road is unfolding in front of me

00:35:50.040 two men said said this two men said said this about martial art and technique he's such a

00:35:56.040 progressive progressive amazing human being

00:35:59.800 He said um

00:36:02.360 In fighting

00:36:03.800 If I tell you to go down the road and take a right

00:36:07.480 Or to this road and take a left

00:36:10.440 Um

00:36:11.320 And it's dark

00:36:13.160 Um

00:36:14.920 If you just do exactly what I say you're going to end up in somebody's front yard

00:36:19.880 But with headlights

00:36:21.080 You can see 30 or 40 feet ahead

00:36:25.000 And if you pay attention you'll be able to follow the road

00:36:29.480 And then take a right or then take a left

00:36:32.840 But in life you have to be able to follow the road and maybe that's the um

00:36:38.040 flexibility

00:36:38.920 flexibility

00:36:39.480 That we were talking about also what a dichotomy of bedrock

00:36:44.280 and flexibility

00:36:46.600 Man, let me just step away from this conversation very quickly

00:36:49.640 I went for a walk this morning and noticed that

00:36:52.840 It's starting to get a little colder out there, which for me means it's hunting season now

00:36:56.920 That has nothing to do with what I wanted to share with you

00:36:59.240 But just something I enjoy and talk about as often as I can

00:37:02.120 But what I did want to share with you is that we finally have our order of man original hoodies back in stock

00:37:08.600 It's been almost a year since we've had these things available and on

00:37:12.920 my walk this morning

00:37:15.000 It did the trick to keep me warm and also looking good

00:37:17.960 In fact, I almost caused multiple accidents as the men who drove by kept yelling and asking me where I got my hoodie from

00:37:23.800 All the ladies dropping their kids off at school in elementary school, you know, they couldn't take their eyes off of me

00:37:28.600 You know all this to say you probably need your own order of man hoodie

00:37:33.240 Which you can get at store.orderofman.com

00:37:35.720 But remember you've been warned

00:37:37.480 You will attract both wanted and unwanted attention

00:37:41.480 Just want to let you know from the men and the ladies guys all jokes aside

00:37:45.640 I do want to say thank you for the support

00:37:47.320 It means the world to me and if you want to look good and stay warm this winter

00:37:51.640 Then go to store.orderofman.com and pick up a brand new

00:37:55.720 order of man hoodie, it's going to keep you warm comfortable and looking good

00:38:00.560 All right, do that right after the podcast for now. Let's get back to it with rudy

00:38:03.760 You seem to be somebody who lives life on his own terms and and is willing to explore different veins and different avenues and different interesting things to you

00:38:13.620 How does that juxtapose with your time in the military because that that could be completely different where you've got command telling you

00:38:19.780 You're going to do this at this time and this way and then I see you the personality you have i'm like

00:38:24.600 This is a larger than life guy right here. How does that work?

00:38:27.900 You know, that's a great question. It's a great question because I look back at it

00:38:32.300 I can't wait for you to meet some of my other recon brothers. There's a brother that you need to get on here

00:38:36.120 His name's roger sparks. He's the first man. I called on for force blow. He's seven foot tall

00:38:42.980 Legendary recon ranger recon daddy then went to pararescue at 35

00:38:49.500 And they have an olympian swim program

00:38:54.900 So their their selection is just an olympian swim program

00:38:59.820 Okay, got it. Wow at 35 already a seasoned operator

00:39:03.660 Highest decorated highest decorated pararescueman of all time

00:39:07.620 Um, so he was my he was my mentor there at recon and

00:39:12.480 I had a

00:39:15.040 Uh screaming high and tight and I did what the hell I was told for the first two years in the marine corps

00:39:21.760 Made sure that everything was squared away fresh haircut great condition

00:39:27.400 All gear maintained and managed and I did what I was told

00:39:31.220 At a certain time the doors open up to you and now that you've shown that you

00:39:38.200 Uh have the intelligence humility and discipline

00:39:41.640 To do things without having to be told

00:39:44.700 Now you're brought in

00:39:46.840 And then some of the ncos will have a lava lamp

00:39:51.020 Next thing, you know, you see the other ncos. They play guitar

00:39:54.780 You know, they're playing guitar

00:39:57.580 Then you find out this guy over here, um is a painter

00:40:01.300 Then you find out this guy over here was a d1 football player

00:40:04.400 This guy over here was at ohio state wrestling

00:40:06.480 And it becomes a jedi council of high performance and creativity

00:40:12.300 Why that becomes so important is that when we deploy and fight overseas

00:40:15.980 We uh

00:40:17.600 Specifically recon specifically in my time

00:40:21.600 We did not live in any kind of nicety

00:40:24.320 Uh, we were the young bucks on the freaky playing field

00:40:28.880 And due to the excellence of my brothers and I in my my first two platoons

00:40:34.500 In afghanistan and pakistan in the invasion of iraq and then fallujah and ramadi

00:40:38.280 Marsak was created and so then they got the huge dollars

00:40:41.920 Um, we lived in holes

00:40:45.520 We lived we we invaded a country

00:40:49.860 In open

00:40:51.740 Humvees with no doors and no

00:40:54.420 No, uh, shielding from the elements just heavy guns and each other

00:40:58.840 We ran out of food

00:41:00.540 Um, we had to drink water from the euphrates with massive amounts of bleach and uh

00:41:06.420 Iodine

00:41:08.000 Um

00:41:09.060 Due to the burning bodies and burning

00:41:12.580 Burning steel and buildings

00:41:15.800 Uh, all of the men got disemperated

00:41:18.940 We're wearing nuclear biological chemical suits

00:41:21.120 Gas masks

00:41:22.060 Fighting

00:41:22.920 Dismounted

00:41:23.800 Mounted

00:41:24.400 Dismounted

00:41:25.260 Everyone is having diarrhea and vomiting

00:41:28.020 You can't take off your mop suit

00:41:29.920 So the diarrhea is just coming down

00:41:31.600 We have each other though

00:41:34.080 And the little laughter the little joke

00:41:37.740 The the little things we have each other

00:41:40.840 So that's what

00:41:42.120 My special military gave me

00:41:45.060 A really hard anvil

00:41:46.660 To eventually be trusted and trust others

00:41:50.100 To have each other's backs

00:41:52.660 And lives in each other's hands

00:41:55.080 And it became almost like

00:41:56.900 Like imagine you and your three best friends from grade school

00:42:01.200 When you're still riding bmx bikes and freaking chasing snakes

00:42:04.580 Except there's 20 of them

00:42:06.820 And you're all super capable

00:42:09.200 Uh, that's the feeling it felt like

00:42:11.940 That's the feeling

00:42:13.380 And so, um

00:42:14.640 I was just at this special time

00:42:17.000 So, okay

00:42:18.380 So I came back finally after all my words and stuff

00:42:20.620 And I see my konkwe teacher

00:42:21.940 And I said

00:42:24.260 Sifu

00:42:24.800 Uh, Sifu

00:42:26.120 Were you

00:42:26.840 Were you ever scared that I was not coming home?

00:42:29.240 And I'll use his Chinese accent

00:42:31.700 He's so genius

00:42:32.360 Because

00:42:32.560 Ludi

00:42:33.360 It is Litton

00:42:34.720 Ludi

00:42:35.340 Uh, no one know my name

00:42:36.840 Uh, until you're my student

00:42:38.780 Uh, I'm just a cook at a grocery store

00:42:41.220 And then after you win

00:42:42.640 Then after you win all the competition

00:42:44.460 They say

00:42:44.940 They don't know my name

00:42:46.080 But they say

00:42:46.540 That's Ludi's teacher

00:42:47.860 That's Ludi's teacher

00:42:50.700 Ludi, it is Litton

00:42:53.080 You're a hero

00:42:53.920 You have to go to war

00:42:55.260 Of course, after war you come home

00:42:57.080 That's amazing

00:42:59.240 Oh, that's amazing

00:43:04.600 Is that genius or what?

00:43:05.680 It's like

00:43:05.940 It's almost

00:43:07.100 You really saw

00:43:07.820 He'd already seen it happen

00:43:09.200 When

00:43:10.200 When he took me on as a student

00:43:11.740 And then we

00:43:12.280 We ended up going

00:43:13.020 Fighting internationally

00:43:14.400 Fighting

00:43:14.780 Beating the Russian champ

00:43:16.220 Beating the China champ

00:43:17.640 Going all over the place

00:43:18.780 And now we're like

00:43:20.000 And now he's on the Kung Fu magazines

00:43:21.580 And such, right?

00:43:23.120 And so he'd already seen it

00:43:24.440 But I was so immersed

00:43:25.600 I didn't see any of that

00:43:26.840 And that's probably good

00:43:27.900 But yeah

00:43:28.740 He was not worried at all

00:43:29.880 He said

00:43:30.200 He knew I'd have to come home

00:43:31.620 That's part of the journey

00:43:32.980 Do you feel like

00:43:34.660 The journey's already written

00:43:35.740 And now you're just playing it out?

00:43:37.000 I mean, you talk about that journey

00:43:38.160 But you also talk about God

00:43:39.520 How does your faith tie into that?

00:43:41.800 Oh boy

00:43:42.320 It's so, so heavy

00:43:44.260 Well, you know what?

00:43:46.980 How about this, Ryan?

00:43:51.020 Because my brothers and I

00:43:52.160 Grew up so hard

00:43:53.200 And grew up in

00:43:55.480 Different homes

00:43:56.820 Foster care

00:43:57.440 We were really abused

00:43:58.300 We were neglected

00:43:58.920 I was very sick

00:44:00.180 I had

00:44:00.580 I had hepatitis

00:44:02.840 At 11 or 12 years old

00:44:04.140 And almost died of hepatitis

00:44:05.460 It's completely yellow

00:44:06.840 My teeth are rotting out

00:44:08.200 And

00:44:10.260 Then I end up

00:44:11.420 Being put in the boys home

00:44:13.100 The good news is

00:44:14.320 I got

00:44:14.760 Weights

00:44:15.660 I got wrestling

00:44:16.520 I got new teeth

00:44:17.840 Got the disease

00:44:19.240 Taken care of

00:44:20.120 But, you know

00:44:21.280 I never had anybody

00:44:23.440 Love me

00:44:23.920 Or my brothers

00:44:24.540 It was just me

00:44:25.140 And my brothers

00:44:25.760 We were in really

00:44:27.040 Abject poverty

00:44:27.920 I focused

00:44:29.820 Well, I used to pray

00:44:31.900 I used to pray

00:44:33.580 To God

00:44:34.280 To please help me

00:44:36.320 And

00:44:36.820 It didn't show up

00:44:39.020 The way

00:44:39.320 Well, we're kids

00:44:40.340 We don't have the perspective

00:44:42.340 That we do now

00:44:43.020 I don't

00:44:44.220 The angels didn't come

00:44:45.340 And freaking save me

00:44:46.600 You know what I mean?

00:44:47.340 Or

00:44:47.660 Or

00:44:48.820 You know

00:44:49.480 I was expecting

00:44:50.480 Like a father

00:44:51.240 Like freaking God

00:44:52.360 To come down

00:44:53.020 And pick my brothers

00:44:54.560 And I up

00:44:55.400 And, you know

00:44:56.780 Take our pain away

00:44:58.280 So

00:44:59.480 I then

00:45:00.180 Said

00:45:01.040 Well

00:45:01.340 If God's not coming

00:45:02.800 I'll just focus on myself

00:45:03.960 I'll just focus on my own attitude

00:45:06.360 And

00:45:07.140 My own determination

00:45:09.040 I'll

00:45:09.740 Empower myself

00:45:11.520 Through

00:45:12.060 Zen Buddhism

00:45:13.200 Through discipline

00:45:14.240 Through practice

00:45:14.900 That took me

00:45:17.140 A long way

00:45:17.860 By the way

00:45:19.160 No drugs

00:45:20.380 No alcohol

00:45:21.560 No women

00:45:22.480 None of the trappings

00:45:24.320 That young men get into

00:45:25.740 Nothing

00:45:26.300 Focused

00:45:28.280 I didn't have a

00:45:31.480 Teens and twenties

00:45:32.660 Like anybody else

00:45:33.860 All I did

00:45:34.520 Is train

00:45:35.020 And compete

00:45:35.920 Read

00:45:36.980 And I was vegetarian

00:45:38.800 I was actually

00:45:39.760 Experimenting

00:45:40.780 On what minimal food

00:45:42.460 I could eat

00:45:43.160 And how light

00:45:44.560 I could be

00:45:45.300 And compete

00:45:46.260 At 155

00:45:47.960 So I was

00:45:49.140 I was buying

00:45:50.220 Bulgur wheat

00:45:51.200 I was getting

00:45:52.000 Sprouted grains

00:45:53.120 And then

00:45:53.560 Making porridge

00:45:54.700 Myself

00:45:55.240 And eating

00:45:55.740 Fresh vegetables

00:45:56.540 And having a garden

00:45:58.420 With vegetables

00:45:59.000 Trying

00:45:59.500 And meditating

00:46:00.400 Deeply

00:46:00.940 Standing meditation

00:46:01.760 However

00:46:02.960 And this went

00:46:04.320 All the way

00:46:04.600 Through

00:46:04.800 Marine Corps

00:46:05.720 Oh brother

00:46:07.240 We're invading

00:46:08.260 These countries

00:46:08.800 And then

00:46:09.220 You know

00:46:09.660 The priests

00:46:10.180 Are coming

00:46:10.580 To give us

00:46:10.980 Last rites

00:46:11.580 Because we don't

00:46:12.120 Know if we're

00:46:12.420 Coming home

00:46:12.880 I still

00:46:14.500 Just counted

00:46:14.920 On myself

00:46:15.440 My discipline

00:46:16.140 And

00:46:16.760 And my work ethic

00:46:19.320 And I just

00:46:20.380 Counted

00:46:20.940 On me

00:46:21.660 However

00:46:23.400 Oh and

00:46:24.520 But I used

00:46:25.060 To be judgmental

00:46:25.840 Too

00:46:26.060 I still am

00:46:26.920 I still am

00:46:28.440 Judgmental

00:46:28.940 With people

00:46:30.220 But it used

00:46:31.720 To be much

00:46:32.100 Worse

00:46:32.400 If anybody

00:46:33.540 Was physically

00:46:34.160 Weak

00:46:34.600 Or

00:46:36.640 Or drank

00:46:37.400 Alcohol

00:46:37.800 Or smoked

00:46:38.640 A cigarette

00:46:39.120 After

00:46:42.740 All of my

00:46:43.420 Time

00:46:43.800 In war

00:46:44.380 And then

00:46:45.100 This mysterious

00:46:45.900 Thing that

00:46:46.520 Turned

00:46:47.340 The wars

00:46:48.520 That I went

00:46:49.020 To into

00:46:49.500 An entertainment

00:46:50.340 For HBO

00:46:51.260 Now I made

00:46:52.700 Over half a

00:46:53.600 Million dollars

00:46:54.460 At pretending

00:46:55.600 To do war

00:46:56.580 After I had

00:46:58.780 Done all this

00:46:59.480 War

00:46:59.880 And lost

00:47:01.120 So much

00:47:01.780 By the way

00:47:02.700 I'm only just

00:47:03.900 Now processing

00:47:04.860 The men

00:47:05.380 I've lost

00:47:06.200 Only just now

00:47:07.060 I've always had

00:47:08.020 To believe

00:47:08.520 They're still

00:47:08.900 Alive

00:47:09.380 And then

00:47:10.940 The

00:47:11.360 Corruption

00:47:12.400 Of women

00:47:12.960 Drugs

00:47:14.420 Alcohol

00:47:15.280 I didn't

00:47:16.680 Have any

00:47:17.220 More barriers

00:47:18.340 And I

00:47:19.500 Didn't

00:47:19.820 Know how

00:47:20.600 To let

00:47:20.900 God help

00:47:21.420 Me

00:47:21.640 Because I

00:47:22.660 Had built

00:47:23.140 Myself

00:47:23.620 Up to

00:47:24.020 Then

00:47:24.240 Or so

00:47:24.740 I thought

00:47:25.360 I had

00:47:26.520 Built

00:47:26.680 Myself

00:47:27.100 Or so

00:47:27.760 I thought

00:47:28.260 I end

00:47:29.500 Up in a

00:47:29.800 Mental

00:47:29.940 Institution

00:47:30.340 For a

00:47:30.720 Year

00:47:30.900 I lost

00:47:31.760 All my

00:47:32.160 Work

00:47:32.480 By the

00:47:34.180 Grace of

00:47:34.600 God

00:47:34.860 People

00:47:35.260 Like

00:47:35.480 Bert

00:47:35.780 Soren

00:47:36.140 People

00:47:37.000 Like

00:47:37.260 Rick

00:47:37.520 Elder

00:47:37.860 From

00:47:38.180 Beyond

00:47:38.520 Clothing

00:47:38.920 And

00:47:39.100 Huxworks

00:47:39.620 Derek

00:47:40.720 Woodski

00:47:41.200 Brandon

00:47:41.620 Lily

00:47:41.960 These

00:47:42.740 People

00:47:43.100 They

00:47:44.060 Stayed

00:47:44.360 With

00:47:44.480 Me

00:47:44.680 Yeah

00:47:45.440 And

00:47:47.260 They

00:47:47.820 Loved

00:47:48.080 Me

00:47:48.300 And

00:47:49.060 Valued

00:47:49.460 Me

00:47:49.660 And I

00:47:50.620 Started

00:47:51.020 My

00:47:51.280 Comeback

00:47:51.820 And I

00:47:53.160 Recognized

00:47:54.060 That

00:47:54.460 Well

00:47:56.000 Now I

00:47:56.360 Don't

00:47:56.500 Judge

00:47:56.740 People

00:47:57.020 Nearly

00:47:57.300 As

00:47:57.480 Harsh

00:47:57.720 Because

00:47:57.940 I

00:47:58.040 Been

00:47:58.260 Through

00:47:58.480 It

00:47:58.660 Too

00:47:58.960 I

00:47:59.860 Know

00:48:00.040 What

00:48:00.160 It's

00:48:00.320 Like

00:48:00.520 To

00:48:00.660 Feel

00:48:00.840 Hopeless

00:48:01.340 And

00:48:01.540 Feel

00:48:01.740 Like

00:48:02.040 Like

00:48:02.880 You've

00:48:03.840 Let

00:48:04.120 Like

00:48:04.880 Your best

00:48:05.240 Years

00:48:05.440 Are

00:48:05.560 Behind

00:48:05.840 You

00:48:06.060 Because

00:48:06.320 You've

00:48:06.560 Lost

00:48:06.780 Something

00:48:07.080 Something

00:48:07.100 In

00:48:07.700 You

00:48:07.840 That

00:48:08.040 You

00:48:08.160 Can't

00:48:08.460 Find

00:48:08.800 When

00:48:09.760 I

00:48:09.880 Met

00:48:10.140 Jade

00:48:10.500 After

00:48:10.800 I

00:48:10.920 Started

00:48:11.100 Force

00:48:11.440 Blue

00:48:11.660 It

00:48:11.860 Gave

00:48:12.040 Me

00:48:12.200 Self

00:48:12.460 Esteem

00:48:12.940 Enough

00:48:13.320 And

00:48:13.720 My

00:48:13.980 Strength

00:48:14.400 And

00:48:14.920 I

00:48:15.020 Would

00:48:15.140 Be

00:48:15.300 Clean

00:48:15.800 At

00:48:16.380 Least

00:48:16.540 For

00:48:16.720 Periods

00:48:17.160 At

00:48:17.280 A

00:48:17.380 Time

00:48:17.700 And

00:48:18.760 Right

00:48:19.700 Now

00:48:19.860 I

00:48:19.940 I'm

00:48:19.980 In

00:48:20.040 The

00:48:20.140 Belly

00:48:20.340 Of

00:48:20.420 The

00:48:20.520 Beast

00:48:20.760 It's

00:48:23.080 Nothing

00:48:23.460 It's

00:48:24.080 It's

00:48:24.480 Nothing

00:48:24.700 But

00:48:24.880 Drugs

00:48:25.240 Out

00:48:25.520 Here

00:48:25.680 Right

00:48:25.900 Now

00:48:26.120 But

00:48:27.100 I'm

00:48:27.260 Just

00:48:27.420 So

00:48:27.820 Empowered

00:48:29.460 With

00:48:29.740 The

00:48:29.900 Love

00:48:30.120 Of

00:48:30.300 God

00:48:30.600 And

00:48:30.860 Why

00:48:31.380 I'm

00:48:31.600 Here

00:48:31.860 To

00:48:32.180 Make

00:48:32.560 This

00:48:32.740 World

00:48:32.920 A

00:48:33.040 Better

00:48:33.180 Place

00:48:33.640 I

00:48:34.560 Was

00:48:34.680 Still

00:48:34.840 Hesitant

00:48:35.180 To

00:48:35.740 Embrace

00:48:36.260 God

00:48:36.560 I

00:48:37.520 Definitely

00:48:37.940 Wouldn't

00:48:38.340 Even

00:48:38.540 Say

00:48:38.820 Jesus

00:48:39.220 Name

00:48:39.780 I

00:48:40.340 Think

00:48:40.780 It's

00:48:41.000 Because

00:48:41.260 I

00:48:41.480 Was

00:48:41.600 Afraid

00:48:42.080 Of

00:48:42.660 That

00:48:42.900 Kind

00:48:43.280 Of

00:48:47.700 Everything

00:48:47.920 I've

00:48:48.280 Been

00:48:48.460 Through

00:48:48.720 And

00:48:48.980 Done

00:48:49.260 That

00:48:50.980 I

00:48:51.260 Am

00:48:51.460 Worthy

00:48:52.020 To

00:48:52.360 Be

00:48:52.600 Received

00:48:53.200 And

00:48:53.380 Loved

00:48:53.840 Probably

00:48:54.840 Other

00:48:55.120 Orphans

00:48:55.620 And

00:48:55.780 Thrown

00:48:55.980 Away

00:48:56.180 Kids

00:48:56.480 Probably

00:48:56.760 Go

00:48:57.000 Through

00:48:57.180 This

00:48:57.440 Too

00:48:57.720 Right

00:48:58.140 After

00:49:00.240 Force

00:49:01.020 Blue

00:49:01.160 Was

00:49:01.280 Gone

00:49:01.460 For

00:49:01.620 A few

00:49:01.920 Years

00:49:02.460 I

00:49:02.840 Started

00:49:03.020 Being

00:49:03.340 Somebody

00:49:03.900 I

00:49:04.660 Was

00:49:04.720 Doing

00:49:04.860 A

00:49:04.980 Little

00:49:05.060 Work

00:49:05.380 Here

00:49:05.540 Or

00:49:05.660 There

00:49:05.760 But

00:49:05.940 Force

00:49:06.300 Blue

00:49:06.560 I

00:49:07.060 Meet

00:49:07.300 Jane

00:49:07.660 She

00:49:10.300 Needs

00:49:10.660 Somebody

00:49:10.980 She

00:49:11.200 Can

00:49:11.360 Count

00:49:11.620 On

00:49:11.860 For

00:49:12.620 The

00:49:12.760 First

00:49:12.980 Time

00:49:13.380 In

00:49:13.900 A

00:49:14.000 Long

00:49:14.220 Time

00:49:14.520 I

00:49:17.700 And

00:49:18.180 She

00:49:18.540 Is

00:49:18.680 Really

00:49:18.920 Christian

00:49:19.420 You

00:49:19.860 Know

00:49:20.080 And

00:49:20.780 She

00:49:20.980 Reads

00:49:21.180 The

00:49:21.300 Bible

00:49:21.440 Every

00:49:21.660 Morning

00:49:21.920 Still

00:49:23.020 Sometimes

00:49:23.460 We

00:49:23.680 We

00:49:24.500 Get

00:49:24.720 Into

00:49:24.960 Fights

00:49:25.620 She

00:49:26.140 I'd

00:49:26.680 Say

00:49:26.800 You're

00:49:26.980 Too

00:49:27.140 Young

00:49:27.420 You

00:49:27.580 Don't

00:49:27.700 Understand

00:49:28.060 I've

00:49:29.160 Been

00:49:29.260 Fighting

00:49:29.600 In

00:49:29.760 The

00:49:29.840 Middle

00:49:30.000 East

00:49:30.220 For

00:49:31.000 So

00:49:31.240 Long

00:49:31.580 Northeast

00:49:32.220 Africa

00:49:32.680 If

00:49:33.660 You've

00:49:34.000 Seen

00:49:34.240 All

00:49:34.380 The

00:49:35.080 Freaking

00:49:35.420 Terror

00:49:35.800 And

00:49:35.980 Destruction

00:49:36.480 I've

00:49:36.700 Seen

00:49:36.960 Because

00:49:37.660 Of

00:49:38.840 What

00:49:39.040 These

00:49:39.980 People

00:49:40.300 Saying

00:49:40.580 Their

00:49:40.820 Religion

00:49:41.180 Is

00:49:41.360 Right

00:49:41.560 Or

00:49:41.680 These

00:49:41.840 People

00:49:42.120 Saying

00:49:42.440 Their

00:49:42.680 Religion

00:49:42.960 Is

00:49:47.700 I've

00:49:48.080 Been

00:49:48.680 To

00:49:48.900 Babylon

00:49:49.400 Brother

00:49:50.020 And

00:49:50.620 It's

00:49:50.820 A

00:49:51.000 Shit

00:49:51.280 Hole

00:49:51.720 I've

00:49:52.820 Been

00:49:52.960 Where

00:49:53.180 Jesus

00:49:53.540 Was

00:49:54.880 Baptized

00:49:56.660 These

00:49:57.440 Places

00:49:57.980 We

00:49:58.480 Take it

00:49:58.800 For

00:49:58.940 Grand

00:49:59.200 In

00:49:59.380 America

00:49:59.700 It's

00:49:59.940 Not

00:50:00.140 Beautiful

00:50:00.560 Like

00:50:00.900 This

00:50:01.260 This

00:50:01.880 Is

00:50:02.020 The

00:50:02.180 Cradle

00:50:02.500 Of

00:50:02.680 Civilization

00:50:03.280 Of

00:50:03.580 Modern

00:50:04.060 Human

00:50:05.700 Thought

00:50:06.260 Where

00:50:06.800 We

00:50:07.100 Consider

00:50:07.880 Rule

00:50:08.180 Of

00:50:08.300 Law

00:50:08.620 This

00:50:09.100 Is

00:50:09.220 Some

00:50:09.360 Of

00:50:09.440 The

00:50:09.560 First

00:50:09.760 Places

00:50:10.100 It

00:50:10.280 Happened

00:50:10.720 It's

00:50:11.280 Not

00:50:11.500 Progressed

00:50:12.160 At

00:50:12.260 All

00:50:12.580 So

00:50:13.080 You

00:50:13.160 Can

00:50:13.240 Imagine

00:50:13.620 All

00:50:13.960 That

00:50:14.160 Weighing

00:50:14.740 On

00:50:15.020 Me

00:50:15.400 And

00:50:16.540 But

00:50:17.680 You Know

00:50:17.960 What

00:50:18.140 I

00:50:18.320 Didn't

00:50:18.580 Jay

00:50:18.880 Didn't

00:50:19.080 Give

00:50:19.240 Up

00:50:19.380 On

00:50:19.540 Me

00:50:19.720 And

00:50:21.300 I

00:50:22.100 Witnessed

00:50:22.580 A

00:50:22.680 Few

00:50:22.820 Miracles

00:50:23.260 That

00:50:24.120 Happened

00:50:24.500 To

00:50:24.800 Me

00:50:25.020 And

00:50:26.440 I

00:50:27.600 Don't

00:50:27.740 Know

00:50:27.860 How

00:50:27.980 To

00:50:28.100 Explain

00:50:28.460 It

00:50:28.620 To

00:50:28.760 Anybody

00:50:29.200 Else

00:50:29.620 That

00:50:29.860 Maybe

00:50:30.080 Is

00:50:30.280 Struggling

00:50:30.600 With

00:50:30.880 Faith

00:50:31.200 Or

00:50:31.620 Doesn't

00:50:31.940 Have

00:50:32.200 Faith

00:50:32.480 Quite

00:50:32.720 Yet

00:50:32.940 I'll

00:50:34.100 Just

00:50:34.280 Say

00:50:34.500 This

00:50:34.860 No

00:50:35.440 One

00:50:35.620 Could

00:50:35.820 Have

00:50:35.940 Told

00:50:36.160 Me

00:50:36.300 To

00:50:36.440 Do

00:50:36.600 It

00:50:36.780 When

00:50:37.880 I

00:50:38.380 Had

00:50:38.540 Been

00:50:38.700 Brought

00:50:38.960 To

00:50:39.160 My

00:50:39.340 Knees

00:50:39.740 By

00:50:40.800 The

00:50:41.400 By

00:50:42.360 The

00:50:42.560 End

00:50:46.540 I

00:50:47.440 Had

00:50:47.580 A

00:50:47.740 Meniscus

00:50:50.300 I

00:50:50.960 Couldn't

00:50:51.180 Walk

00:50:51.560 Gunner

00:50:53.520 Peterson

00:50:53.920 Called

00:50:54.820 Dr.

00:50:55.180 Ella

00:50:55.340 Trash

00:50:55.700 Gave

00:50:56.940 Me

00:50:57.040 A

00:50:57.140 200

00:50:57.420 $200,000

00:50:58.380 Surgery

00:50:58.860 I

00:50:59.680 Didn't

00:50:59.780 Have

00:50:59.880 The

00:50:59.980 Money

00:51:00.180 I

00:51:00.520 Just

00:51:02.340 Had

00:51:02.560 My

00:51:03.080 Own

00:51:03.400 Program

00:51:03.740 On

00:51:03.920 History

00:51:04.180 Channel

00:51:04.460 Gone

00:51:05.380 I

00:51:06.700 Can't

00:51:07.020 Walk

00:51:07.360 Jade

00:51:07.940 And

00:51:08.060 I

00:51:08.200 Have

00:51:08.720 No

00:51:08.880 Money

00:51:09.120 We're

00:51:09.400 Living

00:51:09.580 In

00:51:09.720 Idaho

00:51:10.000 I

00:51:11.180 Had

00:51:11.360 No

00:51:11.520 More

00:51:11.740 I

00:51:11.840 Had

00:51:12.000 Nothing

00:51:12.280 Else

00:51:12.520 Rudy

00:51:12.740 Reyes

00:51:13.020 Could

00:51:13.200 Do

00:51:13.420 And

00:51:14.560 And

00:51:14.580 These

00:51:15.520 Miracles

00:51:15.860 Started

00:51:16.160 Happening

00:51:16.620 And

00:51:16.920 I

00:51:17.040 Just

00:51:17.240 Know

00:51:17.560 That

00:51:18.280 God

00:51:19.740 And

00:51:20.680 Jesus

00:51:21.020 Have

00:51:21.780 Made

00:51:22.840 My

00:51:23.040 Life

00:51:23.640 Sufficiently

00:51:24.700 Hard

00:51:25.180 To

00:51:26.420 Empower

00:51:26.980 Me

00:51:27.260 But

00:51:28.080 Never

00:51:28.320 So

00:51:28.580 Hard

00:51:28.820 To

00:51:28.980 Break

00:51:29.220 Me

00:51:29.420 And

00:51:30.500 When

00:51:30.760 I

00:51:30.900 Did

00:51:31.080 Break

00:51:31.420 That

00:51:31.700 Was

00:51:31.860 The

00:51:32.020 Rudy

00:51:32.260 That

00:51:32.480 Was

00:51:32.620 Broken

00:51:32.920 But

00:51:33.480 Not

00:51:33.740 The

00:51:34.620 Being

00:51:34.940 That

00:51:35.180 God

00:51:35.440 Created

00:51:35.860 So

00:51:36.700 Here

00:51:36.960 I

00:51:37.140 Am

00:51:37.340 I'm

00:51:37.480 In

00:51:37.560 A

00:51:37.680 Different

00:51:37.880 Very

00:51:38.320 Different

00:51:38.580 Place

00:51:39.020 It

00:51:39.760 Makes

00:51:40.100 Me

00:51:40.240 Emotional

00:51:40.760 I

00:51:41.240 Have

00:51:41.380 My

00:51:41.540 Son

00:51:41.900 Back

00:51:42.180 In

00:51:42.300 My

00:51:42.420 Life

00:51:42.680 Ryan

00:51:43.200 I

00:51:43.320 Lost

00:51:43.520 My

00:51:43.780 Son

00:51:44.060 About

00:51:44.340 Five

00:51:44.620 Years

00:51:44.820 Ago

00:51:45.040 Because

00:51:45.460 Because

00:51:46.280 I

00:51:46.440 Was

00:51:46.560 A

00:51:46.700 Danger

00:51:46.920 To

00:51:48.740 Be

00:51:48.860 Around

00:51:49.120 I

00:51:50.200 Was

00:51:50.280 A

00:51:50.360 Danger

00:51:50.580 To

00:51:50.720 Be

00:51:50.820 Around

00:51:51.060 I

00:51:51.940 Was

00:51:52.040 Still

00:51:52.200 Doing

00:51:52.440 A lot

00:51:52.640 Of

00:51:52.940 Cocaine

00:51:53.400 Still

00:51:53.860 Street

00:51:54.140 Fighting

00:51:54.400 I

00:51:55.440 Raised

00:51:56.040 I

00:51:57.340 Had

00:51:57.640 To

00:51:57.820 I

00:51:59.160 Had

00:51:59.900 No

00:52:00.020 Father

00:52:00.320 I

00:52:00.880 Was

00:52:01.060 Trying

00:52:01.780 To

00:52:02.020 Overcome

00:52:03.540 The

00:52:03.760 Generation

00:52:04.300 Of

00:52:05.400 Not

00:52:05.660 Caring

00:52:06.060 Of

00:52:06.260 Children

00:52:06.580 All

00:52:06.960 On

00:52:07.140 Me

00:52:07.440 And

00:52:07.980 I

00:52:08.040 Was

00:52:08.180 Still

00:52:08.540 Plagued

00:52:09.440 And

00:52:10.480 Then

00:52:10.700 I

00:52:10.960 Went

00:52:11.260 To

00:52:11.420 Court

00:52:11.740 And

00:52:12.000 I

00:52:12.160 Lost

00:52:12.600 I

00:52:12.960 Lost

00:52:13.220 A

00:52:13.780 Lot

00:52:14.140 And

00:52:15.300 Then

00:52:15.600 When

00:52:15.860 My

00:52:16.020 Son

00:52:16.240 Was

00:52:16.420 Taken

00:52:16.860 I

00:52:17.160 Was

00:52:17.580 At

00:52:17.720 The

00:52:17.820 Lowest

00:52:18.120 I

00:52:18.280 Been

00:52:18.460 Again

00:52:19.040 This

00:52:19.360 Is

00:52:19.500 A

00:52:20.380 Miracle

00:52:20.900 I

00:52:21.320 Was

00:52:21.420 Very

00:52:21.600 Close

00:52:21.840 To

00:52:22.040 Suicide

00:52:22.540 I

00:52:22.760 Had

00:52:22.900 My

00:52:23.080 Pistol

00:52:23.520 I

00:52:24.320 Had

00:52:24.380 Been

00:52:24.480 Up

00:52:24.740 For

00:52:24.880 Days

00:52:25.320 Drinking

00:52:26.240 Vodka

00:52:26.640 Doing

00:52:26.980 Cocaine

00:52:27.440 And

00:52:27.580 I

00:52:27.640 Was

00:52:27.740 Very

00:52:28.100 Close

00:52:28.520 I

00:52:29.360 Felt

00:52:29.560 Hopeless

00:52:30.200 Hopeless

00:52:30.760 Hopeless

00:52:31.160 And

00:52:31.340 Then

00:52:31.500 I

00:52:31.920 Just

00:52:32.080 Felt

00:52:32.280 This

00:52:32.480 Force

00:52:32.840 In

00:52:32.980 This

00:52:33.120 Voice

00:52:33.440 Saying

00:52:34.760 It's

00:52:35.040 Okay

00:52:35.380 There's

00:52:36.500 More

00:52:36.860 That

00:52:37.400 You're

00:52:37.880 Here

00:52:38.120 For

00:52:38.500 And

00:52:39.020 Then

00:52:39.160 Immediately

00:52:39.620 Instead

00:52:40.040 Of

00:52:40.180 Me

00:52:40.300 Just

00:52:40.580 Saying

00:52:40.880 Yes

00:52:41.360 Thank

00:52:42.400 You

00:52:42.620 I

00:52:43.340 Took

00:52:43.600 Action

00:52:44.120 I

00:52:44.420 Called

00:52:44.580 My

00:52:44.740 Brother

00:52:44.920 Caesar

00:52:45.260 I

00:52:45.460 Said

00:52:45.560 Come

00:52:46.240 Here

00:52:46.440 Get

00:52:46.900 All

00:52:47.000 My

00:52:47.120 Guns

00:52:47.340 Out

00:52:47.460 Here

00:52:47.640 I

00:52:48.460 Need

00:52:48.600 To

00:52:48.680 Get

00:52:48.780 Myself

00:52:49.040 Together

00:52:49.400 Get

00:52:49.740 My

00:52:49.880 Guns

00:52:50.100 Out

00:52:50.300 I'm

00:52:51.280 Going

00:52:51.360 To

00:52:51.400 Get

00:52:51.540 Clean

00:52:51.880 Freaking

00:52:52.660 Stayed

00:52:53.040 Indoors

00:52:53.520 Shook

00:52:54.340 For

00:52:54.520 About

00:52:54.780 24

00:52:55.360 Hours

00:52:55.740 Then

00:52:56.420 Started

00:52:56.640 Working

00:52:56.900 Out

00:52:57.140 Again

00:52:57.400 Got

00:52:57.800 Myself

00:52:58.100 Together

00:52:58.440 Again

00:52:58.720 Little

00:52:59.180 By

00:52:59.380 Little

00:52:59.580 Forced

00:52:59.940 Blue

00:53:00.200 Started

00:53:00.640 Blooming

00:53:01.520 I

00:53:02.000 Mean

00:53:02.220 Jade

00:53:02.460 Jade

00:53:02.760 Started

00:53:03.060 Blooming

00:53:03.440 I'm

00:53:03.920 Almost

00:53:04.220 There

00:53:04.480 Then

00:53:04.660 I'm

00:53:04.780 Brought

00:53:04.940 Back

00:53:05.180 Down

00:53:05.460 And

00:53:06.080 Then

00:53:06.400 I

00:53:08.480 Did

00:53:08.620 A

00:53:08.760 Documentary

00:53:09.360 For

00:53:09.840 A

00:53:10.920 Little

00:53:11.140 Documentary

00:53:11.960 Filmmaker

00:53:12.460 Seven

00:53:13.320 Years

00:53:13.600 Ago

00:53:13.900 It

00:53:15.120 Turned

00:53:15.440 Into

00:53:15.680 Once

00:53:16.060 Upon

00:53:16.320 A

00:53:16.480 Time

00:53:16.700 In

00:53:16.820 Iraq

00:53:17.240 That

00:53:18.400 Won

00:53:18.680 The

00:53:18.960 Oscar

00:53:19.380 In

00:53:19.760 The

00:53:19.940 UK

00:53:20.340 The

00:53:20.980 BAFTA

00:53:21.520 For

00:53:21.820 Best

00:53:22.080 Documentary

00:53:22.760 I

00:53:23.100 Had

00:53:23.220 Forgotten

00:53:23.560 I

00:53:23.640 Had

00:53:23.760 Done

00:53:24.020 The

00:53:24.140 Work

00:53:24.380 The

00:53:25.380 Documentary

00:53:26.240 Filmmakers

00:53:26.760 Had

00:53:26.960 Met

00:53:27.100 In

00:53:27.280 Hong

00:53:27.540 Kong

00:53:27.800 I

00:53:27.920 Was

00:53:27.980 Doing

00:53:28.100 Work

00:53:28.300 In

00:53:28.400 Hong

00:53:28.580 Kong

00:53:28.740 At

00:53:28.880 The

00:53:28.980 Time

00:53:29.160 To

00:53:29.380 New

00:53:30.000 York

00:53:30.260 LA

00:53:30.680 When

00:53:31.620 I

00:53:31.720 Was

00:53:31.860 Up

00:53:32.100 Down

00:53:32.300 And

00:53:32.480 Sideways

00:53:32.940 And

00:53:33.760 Then

00:53:33.980 Finally

00:53:34.560 I

00:53:34.740 Happened

00:53:34.940 To

00:53:35.020 Be

00:53:35.120 In

00:53:35.200 New

00:53:35.320 York

00:53:35.460 City

00:53:35.680 And

00:53:35.800 They

00:53:35.900 Asked

00:53:36.120 Me

00:53:36.220 If

00:53:36.340 I

00:53:36.420 Would

00:53:36.460 Like

00:53:36.580 To

00:53:36.700 Come

00:53:36.900 In

00:53:37.060 Just

00:53:37.540 Get

00:53:37.700 On

00:53:37.820 Camera

00:53:38.060 And

00:53:38.220 Talk

00:53:38.420 A

00:53:38.520 Little

00:53:38.620 Bit

00:53:38.860 I

00:53:39.700 Forgotten

00:53:40.080 About

00:53:40.280 It

00:53:40.420 I

00:53:40.700 Didn't

00:53:40.860 Realize

00:53:41.240 It

00:53:41.380 Did

00:53:41.520 So

00:53:41.700 Well

00:53:41.920 While

00:53:42.800 I

00:53:43.000 Was

00:53:43.200 Recovering

00:53:43.780 From

00:53:43.920 A

00:53:44.040 Nees

00:53:44.200 Surgery

00:53:44.520 I

00:53:44.900 Put

00:53:45.120 On

00:53:45.280 Some

00:53:45.540 Weight

00:53:45.900 Which

00:53:46.180 I

00:53:46.260 Didn't

00:53:48.980 Have

00:53:49.180 Any

00:53:49.340 Money

00:53:49.620 Jade

00:53:50.240 And

00:53:50.360 I

00:53:50.440 Are

00:53:50.540 Living

00:53:50.720 In

00:53:50.900 Idaho

00:53:51.340 Where

00:53:52.280 It

00:53:53.760 Was

00:53:53.940 There's

00:53:54.440 No

00:53:54.640 We

00:53:54.840 Have

00:53:55.040 No

00:53:55.200 Friends

00:53:55.500 Everybody

00:53:55.800 Just

00:53:56.080 Drinks

00:53:56.460 Out

00:53:56.700 There

00:54:05.800 Then

00:54:05.940 I

00:54:06.060 Got

00:54:06.240 A

00:54:06.380 Call

00:54:06.660 And

00:54:07.200 It

00:54:07.280 Was

00:54:07.420 SAS

00:54:07.900 It

00:54:08.540 Was

00:54:08.640 The

00:54:08.780 Same

00:54:09.120 Production

00:54:09.480 Company

00:54:09.840 That

00:54:10.080 Special

00:54:10.400 Forces

00:54:10.900 They

00:54:11.600 Were

00:54:11.700 So

00:54:11.900 Blown

00:54:12.160 Away

00:54:12.420 By

00:54:12.700 The

00:54:13.200 Documentary

00:54:13.900 And

00:54:14.560 They

00:54:14.700 Had

00:54:14.860 A

00:54:15.000 Spot

00:54:15.360 On

00:54:15.560 Their

00:54:15.700 Team

00:54:16.160 And

00:54:16.800 The

00:54:16.940 Producer

00:54:17.280 Said

00:54:17.620 Get

00:54:18.000 Me

00:54:18.220 Rudy

00:54:18.540 Reyes

00:54:18.980 I'm

00:54:19.740 Telling

00:54:19.940 You

00:54:20.040 That

00:54:20.140 Was

00:54:20.240 All

00:54:20.420 God

00:54:20.720 It

00:54:21.040 Was

00:54:21.100 All

00:54:21.220 God

00:54:21.480 It

00:54:21.660 Was

00:54:22.380 All

00:54:22.700 God

00:54:22.980 It

00:54:23.180 Was

00:54:23.200 All

00:54:23.400 Jesus

00:54:23.840 It

00:54:26.240 I

00:54:26.980 Don't

00:54:27.140 Know

00:54:27.380 I

00:54:28.760 Don't

00:54:28.880 Know

00:54:29.000 If

00:54:29.120 You

00:54:29.200 Can

00:54:29.380 Tell

00:54:29.740 I

00:54:31.080 Don't

00:54:31.200 Know

00:54:31.300 If

00:54:31.400 You

00:54:31.480 Can

00:54:31.640 Proselytize

00:54:32.460 And

00:54:32.640 Preach

00:54:32.980 To

00:54:33.200 Someone

00:54:33.480 Exactly

00:54:34.080 I

00:54:35.440 Do

00:54:35.700 Believe

00:54:36.080 When

00:54:36.280 You're

00:54:36.440 A

00:54:36.620 Child

00:54:37.080 It's

00:54:37.640 So

00:54:37.920 Important

00:54:38.480 To

00:54:38.920 Give

00:54:39.220 Them

00:54:39.380 Those

00:54:39.600 Building

00:54:39.920 Blocks

00:54:40.400 So

00:54:41.100 That

00:54:41.260 They're

00:54:41.460 Already

00:54:41.780 Thinking

00:54:42.280 And

00:54:42.620 Their

00:54:42.780 Hearts

00:54:43.060 Are

00:54:43.240 Open

00:54:43.580 To

00:54:44.040 Start

00:54:44.380 Noticing

00:54:44.980 Magic

00:54:45.460 And

00:54:45.700 Miracles

00:54:46.060 Happening

00:54:46.580 But

00:54:48.720 For

00:54:48.960 Me

00:54:49.260 And

00:54:50.440 Probably

00:54:50.860 A lot

00:54:51.220 Of

00:54:51.360 Fighters

00:54:51.940 And

00:54:52.100 Killers

00:54:52.400 You

00:54:52.520 Know

00:54:52.580 A

00:54:52.680 Lot

00:54:52.760 Of

00:54:52.820 My

00:54:52.940 Bros

00:54:53.260 Are

00:54:53.540 Atheists

00:54:54.140 They're

00:54:54.920 Now

00:54:55.140 Starting

00:54:59.380 And

00:54:59.580 It's

00:54:59.860 Because

00:55:00.200 Of

00:55:00.400 You

00:55:00.940 Know

00:55:01.080 When

00:55:01.300 You

00:55:01.440 When

00:55:02.400 You

00:55:02.520 Witness

00:55:02.900 Human

00:55:03.600 Beings

00:55:04.000 Turned

00:55:04.380 Into

00:55:04.560 Meat

00:55:04.960 Sometimes

00:55:05.740 You

00:55:06.000 Got

00:55:06.100 To

00:55:06.220 Turn

00:55:06.400 Them

00:55:06.500 Into

00:55:06.660 Meat

00:55:06.900 And

00:55:07.940 The

00:55:08.080 Horrible

00:55:08.420 Stuff

00:55:08.800 That

00:55:08.980 Goes

00:55:09.300 Along

00:55:10.560 With

00:55:10.860 It

00:55:11.000 It's

00:55:11.400 It's

00:55:12.560 It

00:55:13.420 Can

00:55:13.720 Damage

00:55:14.120 You

00:55:14.340 And

00:55:14.780 It

00:55:14.960 Makes

00:55:15.140 You

00:55:15.280 Feel

00:55:15.580 Not

00:55:15.780 Worthy

00:55:16.220 Worthy

00:55:16.940 Of

00:55:17.120 Receiving

00:55:18.100 Love

00:55:19.200 Or

00:55:19.420 Possibly

00:55:20.220 A

00:55:20.380 Kingdom

00:55:20.580 In

00:55:20.760 Heaven

00:55:20.980 But

00:55:22.140 That's

00:55:22.400 Where

00:55:22.520 I'm

00:55:22.660 At

00:55:22.800 Now

00:55:23.020 Ryan

00:55:23.260 It's

00:55:23.480 Been

00:55:23.660 Nothing

00:55:24.160 Short

00:55:24.560 Of

00:55:24.700 Miracle

00:55:29.380 Like

00:55:29.880 I'm

00:55:30.120 Just

00:55:30.340 Starting

00:55:30.720 Again

00:55:31.140 You

00:55:31.400 Know

00:55:31.580 Well

00:55:33.180 I

00:55:33.300 Can't

00:55:33.520 Wait

00:55:33.660 To

00:55:33.800 See

00:55:33.960 What

00:55:34.160 You

00:55:34.280 Do

00:55:34.440 I

00:55:34.560 Mean

00:55:34.660 You

00:55:34.760 Got

00:55:34.920 So

00:55:35.320 Much

00:55:35.520 Going

00:55:35.780 On

00:55:36.000 And

00:55:36.260 One

00:55:36.500 Thing

00:55:36.680 I

00:55:36.780 Got

00:55:36.920 To

00:55:37.020 Tell

00:55:37.220 You

00:55:37.320 And

00:55:37.400 I

00:55:37.500 Man

00:55:38.500 I

00:55:38.600 Think

00:55:38.740 So

00:55:38.880 Highly

00:55:39.160 Of

00:55:59.380 Some

00:55:59.600 Time

00:55:59.820 To

00:56:00.000 Share

00:56:00.200 I

00:56:00.360 Know

00:56:00.480 You

00:56:00.580 Got

00:56:00.780 A

00:56:00.920 Busy

00:56:01.160 Weekend

00:56:01.600 A

00:56:01.820 Crazy

00:56:02.060 Weekend

00:56:02.440 Stay

00:56:03.000 Straight

00:56:03.360 As

00:56:03.660 You

00:56:03.840 Are

00:56:05.280 In

00:56:05.460 The

00:56:05.780 In

00:56:05.920 The

00:56:06.020 Belly

00:56:06.240 Of

00:56:06.320 The

00:56:06.420 Beast

00:56:06.640 As

00:56:06.800 You

00:56:06.900 Said

00:56:07.200 Hey

00:56:10.240 Let

00:56:10.460 The

00:56:10.600 Guys

00:56:10.840 Know

00:56:11.120 Where

00:56:11.420 To

00:56:11.780 Connect

00:56:12.380 With

00:56:12.600 You

00:56:12.880 And

00:56:13.720 Learn

00:56:13.920 More

00:56:14.080 About

00:56:14.260 What

00:56:14.420 You're

00:56:14.540 Doing

00:56:14.680 Including

00:56:14.960 The

00:56:15.160 Shows

00:56:15.520 And

00:56:15.720 Your

00:56:16.300 Book

00:56:16.580 Was

00:56:17.080 Re-released

00:56:17.560 Right

00:56:17.880 It's

00:56:18.440 Re-released

00:56:19.240 It's

00:56:19.520 Going

00:56:19.760 See

00:56:20.640 How

00:56:20.960 Would

00:56:21.140 You

00:56:21.280 Even

00:56:21.580 Plan

00:56:22.000 This

00:56:22.460 It

00:56:22.640 Just

00:56:22.820 It

00:56:23.340 Had

00:56:23.640 To

00:56:23.860 Be

00:56:24.040 This

00:56:24.340 Way

00:56:24.700 And

00:56:25.620 Now

00:56:25.860 I'm

00:56:26.160 More

00:56:26.660 Ready

00:56:27.500 With

00:56:27.920 My

00:56:28.100 Business

00:56:28.520 Acumen

00:56:29.000 To

00:56:29.220 Understand

00:56:29.780 I

00:56:30.180 Didn't

00:56:30.340 Understand

00:56:30.680 This

00:56:31.160 Before

00:56:31.520 And

00:56:32.160 To

00:56:32.280 Be

00:56:32.420 Honest

00:56:32.720 Yeah

00:56:33.460 I

00:56:33.600 Didn't

00:56:33.860 Have

00:56:34.220 The

00:56:34.580 Self-worth

00:56:36.220 To

00:56:36.920 Think

00:56:37.180 That

00:56:37.320 I

00:56:37.440 Was

00:56:37.580 Worth

00:56:37.900 Being

00:56:38.480 A

00:56:38.640 Business

00:56:38.980 I

00:56:40.460 Thought

00:56:40.800 I

00:56:41.020 Didn't

00:56:41.240 Have

00:56:41.480 That

00:56:41.680 Self-

00:56:42.020 Worth

00:56:42.240 Yet

00:56:42.600 And

00:56:44.000 And

00:56:45.180 That

00:56:45.780 Is

00:56:46.040 Absolutely

00:56:46.940 Changed

00:56:47.580 And

00:56:48.540 If

00:56:48.760 I

00:56:48.880 Can

00:56:49.020 Inspire

00:56:49.500 And

00:56:49.780 Motivate

00:56:50.480 And

00:56:51.220 Shine

00:56:52.040 A

00:56:52.200 Light

00:56:52.540 On

00:56:52.900 These

00:56:53.100 Things

00:56:53.380 For

00:56:53.560 Other

00:56:53.800 Brothers

00:56:54.080 And

00:56:54.240 Sisters

00:56:54.460 Going

00:56:54.760 Through

00:56:54.920 Struggle

00:56:55.340 I'm

00:56:55.720 Realizing

00:56:56.140 That

00:56:56.360 All

00:56:56.560 Of

00:56:56.700 Things

00:56:57.540 Now

00:56:58.140 That

00:56:58.940 We're

00:56:59.060 A lot

00:56:59.320 More

00:56:59.500 Alike

00:56:59.780 Than

00:56:59.900 We

00:57:00.000 Are

00:57:00.080 Different

00:57:00.360 I

00:57:01.520 Have

00:57:01.640 A

00:57:01.780 Wonderful

00:57:02.100 Website

00:57:02.900 Rudy

00:57:03.740 Reyes

00:57:04.080 Dot

00:57:04.320 Com

00:57:04.700 Nick

00:57:05.300 Gorley

00:57:05.880 Is

00:57:06.060 My

00:57:06.220 Designer

00:57:06.620 He

00:57:06.800 Might

00:57:07.000 All

00:57:08.080 Of

00:57:08.220 The

00:57:08.360 Sore

00:57:08.600 Nex

00:57:08.840 Designs

00:57:09.520 And

00:57:09.660 The

00:57:10.040 Beyond

00:57:10.740 Clothing

00:57:11.260 And

00:57:11.480 Raider

00:57:11.760 Project

00:57:12.140 That's

00:57:12.400 Only

00:57:12.580 Gorley

00:57:13.120 Oh

00:57:13.680 Is

00:57:13.840 It

00:57:19.500 My

00:57:20.100 Instagram

00:57:20.500 Is

00:57:20.800 Real

00:57:21.040 Rudy

00:57:21.280 Reyes

00:57:21.720 I've

00:57:22.880 Got

00:57:23.040 A

00:57:23.240 Book

00:57:23.520 Hero

00:57:23.960 Living

00:57:24.340 Seven

00:57:24.760 Strides

00:57:25.300 To

00:57:26.320 Awaken

00:57:26.660 Your

00:57:26.860 Infinite

00:57:27.440 Power

00:57:27.860 And

00:57:28.640 It's

00:57:28.800 A

00:57:28.920 Self-Help

00:57:29.340 Book

00:57:29.540 So

00:57:29.680 How cool

00:57:30.120 Is

00:57:30.280 That

00:57:30.420 Right

00:57:30.620 Right

00:57:30.860 They

00:57:31.300 Came

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Order of Man - October 24, 2023

RUDY REYES ｜ The Power of Deep Pursuit

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