00:40:23.620Yeah, honestly, that's all I'm going to say on that. I did not accept any money. I will not accept any money. I think that's beneath me. I think that is fucked up. I am not previous people. I am me.
00:40:36.420Oh, I forgot to add in this, make ominous claims that imply abuse, but don't say it, right?
00:40:46.840Women, they often don't want to be questioned, so they don't want to say, I was abused, I was raped, or I was assaulted.
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00:53:36.620weeks to to give myself a little bit of something and i come home and it's pack your bags i was
00:53:45.700gutted like gutted i i'm sure her last boyfriend was gutted when she dumped him for a celebrity
00:53:52.820right drove back to boston the next morning and still getting nothing it's just like i accepted
00:54:01.180it i had to cancel surviving barstool because i had to look for a place to live and i had to
00:54:06.340um i don't know try to comprehend everything that was going on and i don't think a reality show
00:54:11.480would have been the best for me which sucks because i really wanted to do that like and i
00:54:15.140was really excited for that and i feel like there were so many things that i like really wanted to
00:54:18.420do i was excited for and i just like i was made to like hate so many things about myself that
00:54:23.860like i once loved and like i just like again remember she said she everything i'm saying is
00:54:32.000right okay changed her personality step three changed her personality and and this is what
00:54:39.060happened we repeat you know what happens if we date guys that let us do whatever we want and
00:54:44.900then we dump them and then we date a guy that doesn't and then we go through these steps right
00:54:49.940until we no longer qualify like we hit I don't know 30 35 and then we no longer can get the
00:54:58.720guys out of our league and then um yeah and then we just make money off of the tell-all books
00:55:06.800to just do everything with him in the back of my mind and i don't think that's how any
00:55:10.320relationship should ever be like of course you think about your significant other but
00:55:14.240you shouldn't think about like is this going to upset them or is this gonna
00:55:17.760like cause a fight when it's things that shouldn't upset people and okay so this caused a fight
00:55:25.440over things that shouldn't upset people so what happens is women will say okay tell me when things
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00:55:32.000bother you and then a guy will tell you when something bothers him and then she'll say well
00:55:39.000you shouldn't be upset over that well you know make up our mind ladies which is it drove home
00:55:46.400and i like came to terms with it and i just like surrounded myself with friends and family and like
00:55:51.340fucking cried to them um and I think like three or four days went by and I get a call from him like
00:55:58.120it was all a mistake and like I need you right now like he's going through his own shit and
00:56:04.520he's like I like I need you I need you to come back like I'll come to you like I'm sorry and
00:56:09.480like I foolishly was like okay like you okay I'll fucking come back um I'm embarrassed of that
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00:56:19.820but like i said when you love somebody right um but that's also why i say this is like partially
00:56:26.340my fault because i let myself be treated that way and i don't know why yeah that's the only
00:56:32.800thing you did wrong i'm sure like i don't know why i just was in this like crazy cycle
00:56:38.560with this guy and um i came back and like he still never apologized for what he did to me and i kept
00:56:46.720asking you like I'm gonna apologize I just can't do it right now he never did
00:56:50.200he never he never apologized for like doing what he did to me when I was on
00:56:54.220tour and then like sending me home and then the guys in the chat said booty
00:56:57.520call come back well it just you know it's an L it's an L like there's nothing
00:57:07.540from it so I guess I'm like staying with him to like hopefully get some sort of
00:57:10.360closure and then we went in to Boston for my live show and a lot of horrible
00:57:15.400shit happened that night i don't want to get into details right now i don't know if i ever want to
00:57:18.780get into details um a lot of horrible shit happened that night and the next day um it kind of ended
00:57:26.720yeah did you hear that again that's the ominous a lot of horrible shit happened that night i don't
00:57:32.760want to get into details well then why did you bring it up i mean you know i'd rather she just
00:57:40.360says you know what i'm gonna talk i'm gonna spill everything because i would rather she just said
00:57:46.920you know what i don't give an f i'm saying everything bad he ever did rather than what
00:57:50.940she's doing now which is i'm gonna say everything or imply everything and also try to virtue signal
00:58:00.080i don't like that say what you said sis i mean at this point get the write that tell all book
00:58:07.380you're already in this deep you know us wanting to work through it me willing to work through it
00:58:14.440and forgiving and um like him telling me like i can't lose you i need you and me being like okay
00:58:24.080all right all right let's do this like we can get through this and then the next morning we wake up
00:58:29.020and i'm like getting a cold shoulder like what the fuck is going on like it was always so hot
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00:58:33.980cold like i didn't know what version i was gonna get ever and it's just cold shoulder and he's like
00:58:40.220i'm going back to oklahoma and i'm like okay i've been telling you to go back to oklahoma all year
00:58:45.260like i want i i want to go back to oklahoma too i miss it and um he goes back to oklahoma and i
00:58:51.500don't know where we stand at this point because he won't give me anything i'm asking like are we
00:58:53.980okay what's going on and he's just like i need to go back to oklahoma i'm like okay cool but
00:58:58.380us and um he's just i'm going back i'm like okay i ask i ask i go can i have a hug before you go
00:59:07.360this seems like it's going to be the last time we're going to see each other and he goes you're
00:59:10.620being so fucking dramatic didn't give me a hug okay so that's the last time i saw him i knew
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00:59:15.800that was going to be the last time i saw him um he yeah they said he hit it again and bounced
00:59:20.880i mean you know some guy look at when you when you guys that are out of their out of our league
00:59:30.180right the guys that get i mean they treat you like you're expendable want to know why
00:59:34.320because you are because there's another her in every single city i mean it's not it's not going
00:59:42.140to be difficult for him to replace her so will he treat her a bit like trash yes but ladies let's
00:59:49.560not act innocent how did she treat her ex-boyfriend that she dumped and left for a celebrity what
00:59:56.020would he say right oklahoma and i still never like i never had a breakup conversation i never had
01:00:03.440like a phone call about what's going on i just had like argumentative words and i we didn't have
01:00:08.680a sit down like all i wanted was like a kinder goodbye um i'm well aware people break up and
01:00:14.060things happen but people break up and things happen in like a normal way but this just was
01:00:18.580like discard leave yeah because again guys see it as a cost-benefit analysis they're like what
01:00:25.980would I get out of a closure conversation what do I get out of this nope this is done
01:00:30.880I don't think a conversation will help move on bye me cry and um I talked to him about it a lot
01:00:42.320like talk about like we finally like I guess had a breakup conversation over text um and it was
01:00:47.300the same day that he made his raya and that day we have like our talk and we talk about how moving
01:00:54.620forward publicly is going to be on me and on my terms and when i want to say it and i was like i
01:00:57.900just need like um just give me a week so that i can deal with this before i have to deal with it
01:01:02.780online in front of everyone and i um get a bunch of dms that night of like girl your man's on raya
01:01:09.500i'm like what so i'm like what the fuck obviously it's like dude you are the guy right now like you
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01:01:16.500are so famous everyone is going to remember the same thing happened to her a year ago
01:01:22.180where everyone online was saying uh brianna's with zach bryan post that do you not have any
01:01:30.180like remorse or regard like that you claim to for my feelings when you know we broke up that day
01:01:36.020you make a raya obviously it's going to be the first thing online like obviously one that's
01:01:40.100humiliating too he wanted he wanted you know some he wanted some ass do you think okay let me get
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01:01:49.140this straight you think you think a guy at that level is gonna wait more than okay a guy that
01:01:55.620gets hot blonde women i mean i've been to country concerts it's a bunch of 120 pound attractive
01:02:02.900blonde blue-eyed long-haired women waiting for him in every city you think he's gonna say you
01:02:08.900you know what no let me turn that down for my ex's feelings that i'm no longer with and don't
01:02:14.940plan on being with i mean it makes perfect sense of course he's going to download raya
01:02:19.720that's hurtful three it's like what the fuck i don't think you need raya i think you need therapy
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01:02:24.300it's fucking beyond me that he did that and when i called him yep that's where so if they did stay
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01:02:28.840together it would be step five therapy i mean i it's like clockwork really you make a dating
01:02:35.880profile you know he says to me i didn't make a dating profile i reactivated it i'm like okay um
01:02:41.240if one plus one equals two like it's the same thing um so that was like tell my mom my dad my
01:02:48.360sisters my cousins my best friends everyone in my life forward and heal from this okay healing
01:02:55.880yeah the seven eight i should have added the healing journey because that's where they go to
01:03:00.120so now these simps back her up so now dave is in a position
01:03:06.520dave knows how celebrity men act so in all honesty he should have had a conversation with her
01:03:14.040and said you know what you signed up for this you dumb you dumb chick i mean what did you expect
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01:03:22.200uh maybe in a nicer way not the pearl way but yeah let me
01:03:26.600me Brianna was offered and I'm trying to think the best way to lay out this whole thing we'll
01:03:31.820get into all the subjects we did before but a lot's changed from the last episode Brianna
01:03:34.940was offered basically a payout to sign an NDA uh to not talk about the breakup things that happened
01:03:41.900and it was a constant over the last week of back and forth I think in Brianna's mind should I take
01:03:47.480the money and it's a shit time 12 million bucks is what it ended up being take it down for one
01:03:53.540second I am going to I don't want to keep getting up I think that would lower the quality of the
01:04:00.100show so what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna make a google doc and I'm gonna write in all of the
01:04:07.180abuse that she faced and we're gonna make a list so list of Brianna's terrible abuse
01:04:16.020because she's going around on the internet saying not in this stuff but later she says
01:04:23.120she was emotionally abused and I want to make sure that I'm getting this right
01:04:26.420that's a serious claim so she was first offered one offered 12 million dollars
01:04:34.360to shut up okay what else he broke up with her and then slept with her again
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01:04:47.040again does it sounds like an l for sure but not abuse um he
01:04:53.360dumped her over text i think was over text again not nice but you know was an l um
01:05:06.560uh let me know in the chat if i'm missing anything but we're gonna keep going
01:05:11.360that is life-changing money and i think for the better half of the week if you talk to brie and
01:05:19.640obviously i'll let brie say this in all words uh one hour she'd be like i'm not taking it
01:05:23.500that i'm not taking it the next hour too much money have to take it like how can i pass up 12
01:05:28.140million like what happened like my career i don't know there's people have turned on me since this
01:05:32.140relationship it's been kind of a stalwart my career and i was going back and forth with her a lot
01:05:35.960and even i was flip-flopping like i was like i think it was a moral battle it was a moral battle
01:05:40.180and I kept calling Dave I kept calling everyone because I'm like no one has the answer to this
01:05:43.880I'm like what the fuck do I do and of course I mean from the get-go from the beginning from
01:05:46.520last week's episode I was like fuck you I don't want your money but then I look at my family who
01:05:49.820obviously doesn't have money and comes from nothing they're like take the money take the
01:05:51.820money and I'm like I feel so stupid if I don't take this money and like you said the career thing
01:05:55.140but then I'm not going to be able to sleep at night if I take this dude's money and we'll get
01:05:58.180we'll get into why I didn't take the money but yeah it was a back and forth and I was I was
01:06:00.760just I was like take the money I can't me and Dave me and Dave even texting it was like it was
01:06:06.480like we can't tell brie not to like obviously you know we want to go to war but we can't tell
01:06:11.140brie not to take this money like this is this is huge and josh and i made the diss track after we
01:06:17.300recorded nothing from brie like no no information in the diss track that we made was from brie it's
01:06:23.020all readily available already kind of out there stuff so this was nothing yes correct nothing to
01:06:28.500do with her um and again i was going back and forth because i've my perspective and i don't
01:06:35.160to toot my own horn this is the the brie show and josh's horn we were gonna eat that this track for
01:06:39.000a while like i just thought we're gonna make it we spent all day doing it i'm like this is just
01:06:42.360never going to see the light of day so yeah and again i didn't want to and i still didn't i think
01:06:46.760the last conversation i had with brie yes this is the simp who made the track guys like you know what
01:06:53.080i kind of don't think you should take it i think this sends a message you're like what you're about
01:06:58.280and money's money you've never been about money but i also don't want to be the person to be like
01:07:01.800don't take it because you in three years you turned down 12 million or whatever it is and i
01:07:06.440don't want to be in that spot so i understood it was only it was a very personal decision
01:07:09.640that only brie could make and right up till what was it the election day i thought we were done i
01:07:16.600was and i guess can i say it now we haven't really planned this is a chat says breakup by text is
01:07:21.960cowardly totally but abusive i don't think so free form thing yeah but my plan at the end of
01:07:30.600of the year was to be done with bffs um just because i'm getting older like nearing 50 talking
01:07:36.540about teenage drama a little out of my wheelhouse so we've known this for months and we're like
01:07:40.100what's the best way to announce it and it was like it was kind of in the same direction you
01:07:45.760were talking about dave where it's like the pod's kind of gonna have to come to an end like how can
01:07:49.600we do this and not talk about it like that wouldn't be us doing our due diligence to the
01:07:52.680fans and the people that have supported the show for three years right and i think brie you probably
01:07:55.660thought about that right like it's because she could have said look it just didn't work out
01:07:59.600love him great guy didn't work out awesome podcast and it's obviously different josh has gone through
01:08:04.840it extreme in the beginning nothing like what brie is because zach's such a huge star me a tiny bit
01:08:09.760but nothing like this so it's a personal decision josh and i certainly can't tell brie what to do
01:08:14.900or how to think or what decision but it's really hard to go along with this pod and pretend this
01:08:19.420didn't happen yeah um well this episode is gonna be really hard for me and that's why i've put it
01:08:26.620off for so long because of course like the diss track was silly it was funny and that is what it
01:08:32.000is but it's so much deeper than that and like this episode isn't I honestly feel like I might cry so
01:08:38.220this might get awkward but um especially in the Minahan studio I know it's like what the what the
01:08:42.860am I this is crazy game time we love getting out to live events with this concert football game
01:08:47.360comedy show and we all the point of I'm not the people before and I was someone before you and
01:08:54.680you made the women before me believe that they had no okay so he made his exes sign ndas
01:08:59.580he didn't make them he paid them right
01:09:02.380now she just wants to be a hero so bad so bad your choice and to take money from you sign their
01:09:11.500their experiences away sign what they went through away you get to go skip off and sing your little
01:09:16.700fucking songs on stage like you're a good good dude you get to treat people around you like
01:09:21.000shit sorry i'm not them i don't want your money i don't want in two years to buy a fucking house
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01:09:26.880and think oh this is the money from the dude that literally fucking destroyed me and broke me for a
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01:09:32.020year fuck that okay so she said he he broke me he destroyed me okay what did he do brie
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01:09:38.700that's a serious accusation what did he do i need i need actual i know and she's making money off
01:09:46.600breakup it's like okay you i don't want your money and i i'm this isn't me getting on this
01:09:51.240isn't like a drama thing for me this isn't me not signing the nda or not taking the money because i
01:09:54.840want to get on here and expose who he is and his secrets and all that i didn't sign the nda
01:09:59.320i didn't take the money because i'm not signing away my experiences and what i went through
01:10:03.080to protect someone okay that's a rationalization i don't want to tell his secrets but i won't sign
01:10:09.160away what i went through okay and i'm a lot stronger than a weak man and i'm not you
01:10:17.240your money you that's where i'm at and that's why i didn't take the money it didn't have anything
01:10:21.320all because of an instagram story this is so ridiculous with the podcast or with anything i
01:10:28.520literally for the last i it feels like it's been months but i don't know when this like maybe two
01:10:33.160weeks i have been so back and forth because the second it happened the second it happened i told
01:10:38.280his team i have all the texts and everything the second we broke up the second he posted that text
01:10:41.880i said you i don't want your money like i don't want a settlement i don't like i don't know who
01:10:45.880you think i am but that's not me and then it was a back and forth the back and forth his team would
01:10:49.320call me they'd they gave me all these options they gave me they started low then they went up to 10
01:10:53.880million then they went up to 12 million then they wanted to give me a house then they wanted to give
01:10:56.520me a new york apartment then they wanted to do all these things to make me i mean that in itself 12
01:11:02.360million dollars to not talk about this relationship that you posted on instagram that was so beautiful
01:11:07.080and you had so much love for me what the are you hiding dude what are you scared of like and also
01:11:10.920everything that's already on the internet is enough but i mean i went through literal narcissistic
01:11:16.440emotional abuse for a year there it is always he was a narcissist when women call their ex's
01:11:27.080narcissist it just means i loved him a lot i swear if she doesn't call you a narcissist after she
01:11:33.480didn't like you that much it's just he made me believe everything was my fault he he was a great
01:11:37.560guy she didn't like you sorry fellas isolated me for my whole entire life he wouldn't let me be who
01:11:43.000i wanted to be he made me hate every again he wouldn't let me be who i wanted to be again that's
01:11:47.800step three he made me hate everything i loved about myself that i loved about myself so again
01:11:56.360that's all the annoying stuff that guys don't really like but the women like right so you know
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01:12:03.080like there's stuff that you know women we like we're loud at brunch and screaming about random
01:12:11.480stuff and gossiping we like that stuff the men not as much right me down and that made me feel
01:12:19.320like he was all i had left and he just kept repeatedly beating me down and beating me down
01:12:23.240even to the point of like yesterday or like when i gave you guys the call when i'm i'm finally
01:12:28.440standing up for myself and being like no you i don't want to sign this it's my fault i'm the
01:12:33.240bad guy this is like you guys are idiots barstool is the worst what i do is diminishing and call
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01:12:39.560brie sent me a text he he's called us all retard he hates my guts i ended up getting into i ended
01:12:44.680up like more in the middle of this than i kind of was anticipating and which is funny because i
01:12:50.360texted david was like you want to do the des track on zach and then now dave is the one that
01:12:54.200zach is like well yeah because i was like i was i feel like i have pretty good life experience
01:13:02.040through bars whatever older so i i was trying to act as i guess breeze friend and like legal advice
01:13:09.080when i don't have any real legal advice but like i was knowing what was going on the negotiations
01:13:12.760to a degree um and it was going back and forth with the money we'll get to but like at one point
01:13:18.440austin sent me a text and the text and i wasn't involved at any point on this but it was something
01:13:26.760to the effect you guys kept being brought into it for some reason i'm like this between me and zach
01:13:31.560like i you guys kept being brought into it okay hun you brought the internet into it i'm like what
01:13:37.720the is going on and honestly their team is stupid because if i didn't have enough time to take
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01:13:42.040myself out of the situation and really think about this i would have signed that nba but they stalled
01:13:45.880and they they up because right so it was i could have been stupid yeah it was going super slow
01:13:50.200like the back and forth and when we thought brie was gonna take the money i'm like get the money
01:13:53.640in your account i don't care about legal i can they told her at one point they can't wire five
01:13:57.080million bucks or something like brie i can why are you five million bucks in 10 minutes that's
01:13:59.800they're lying so i'm behind the scenes at some point and we talked when josh and i distracted
01:14:04.360like they're gonna try to push this to the election they're gonna like delay delay delay
01:14:07.400because getting the news cycle but austin sent me a text and we josh and i were not involved in this
01:14:11.720brie really had revealed very little i was talking to them and my lawyers that's it i was trying to
01:14:15.960i was playing always like i always did by their rules by their playbook i was trying to make zach
01:14:19.240happy so austin sends me a text they're trying to squeeze brie because of josh josh and you right
01:14:26.600wasn't that what you pretty much said austin yeah basically they were saying that they were going to
01:14:29.400squeeze brie in order to stop you guys from saying anything or releasing the distract like we can't
01:14:32.200get to you so we'll get to you through brie and they found out about the distract that josh and
01:14:35.240i made because of some weird connection between like warner music or something like an engineer
01:14:38.600um regardless i think anyone who knows me pretty well like we can make our own decisions
01:14:43.560i'm not gonna have someone tell me like you i have to shut up like i don't even know anything
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01:14:48.520you guys are idiots also like me like me i would call dave and talk about this like
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01:14:52.520not not even about like what really was going on just be like this is a decision i need to make is
01:14:55.240it like money or what should i what should i do but dave didn't know anything and i tried to explain
01:14:58.120to them like dave it's dave porten or do you guys not this is his shtick this is his thing if you
01:15:02.280try to attack him everything is going to get worse and they just try to pin dave on me and i'm like
01:15:05.880like what the fuck is going on so yeah it was a weird strategy for them to think poking the bear
01:15:09.160was going to come out okay so her friends made a diss track now imagine if she had an std imagine
01:15:16.600okay because they said that i think he got leaked for having an std which i mean
01:15:21.880it's a celebrity he's having sex with girls in every city is that shocking not really but let's
01:15:30.160the tables were turned and he made a diss track about her stds how would the public react it's
01:15:37.440totally fine for them to do it to him what if his friends made a diss track back about hers
01:15:44.320or other personal information even that got leaked to the public how would the public
01:15:50.400perceive that for them um yeah i i keep going back to who the is running this guy's
01:15:55.200because they need to be gone not that i want to give zach advice on his life but
01:15:58.400get rid of whoever's running your oh i had some words with his manager after austin sent
01:16:02.880me that must have been thursday at 4 32 p.m because at 4 33 i don't even know how you had
01:16:07.600i got the lawyer's number how did you have that yeah chris i can read the text it's it's kind of
01:16:11.200funny i have it i have you have that what you said chris chris must have given it how did you
01:16:15.120yeah so chris gave i don't know how chris had the lawyer's number because he chris is like my
01:16:18.800manager so my manager don't care you didn't take the money let's see next she said no to the money
01:16:24.800where is the other abuse let's fast forward a little bit okay now this ad is ending okay
01:16:33.200fighting breaking gang back do you think if he didn't post that message and wasn't caught on raya
01:16:37.760there's a chance you're still with him now i think 100 if it was like so i guess let me reverse it
01:16:45.040a little bit to explain yeah i think we should have a recap basically kind of what you did in
01:16:47.760the last episode just so everyone has what we're all about this yeah yeah i'll get a i'll do like
01:16:51.440a little more insight to the relationship so obviously i ignored a lot of red flags hit the
01:16:55.920like button hit the hit that and by the way have we heard anything she did wrong anything nothing
01:17:02.240anything but when people tell me they love me or when like i just believe people because i don't
01:17:06.720want i don't assume people are bad i believed too much not like in day port on a huge red flag yeah
01:17:11.840um um well so our relationship started and i also want to make it very clear
01:17:16.960our people think that he was with his ex-girlfriend when we started dating he and it's out there for
01:17:20.960you guys things that you have used against me before he was with multiple other girls the std
01:17:24.480girls after his past relationship okay so these are the girls apparently he gave someone an s
01:17:32.000what did he give her trick is that a bad one uh okay
01:17:42.960then i was after that so i there was and i could attest to this i was at the concert the first night
01:17:50.880brie and zach even met like so i do know i just shook his hand they just said hello what did we
01:17:56.240say hi to him for three and a half seconds and then we went and hung out with my my boyfriend
01:17:59.520at the time there's a lot of allegations of that still which i know you've cleared that like okay
01:18:03.600these are men they give women the benefit of the doubt through everything if she says
01:18:08.240oh but we didn't we didn't do anything again i look at your actions so okay you might say
01:18:15.360we just met there didn't cheat didn't talk whatever but in may you guys met in july
01:18:21.760your boyfriend and girlfriend i mean who buys it in the i don't buy it and just because you
01:18:28.160guys want to believe women at all costs uh you guys are kids not you in the chat i love you guys
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01:18:33.520but if barstool wants to believe women at all costs i don't care what what evidence do i have
01:18:39.440that this is an honest and trustworthy person i'm just going based off of her word prove it
01:18:44.080prove it you guys made the timeline go fucking check your own facts if you want to use everything
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01:18:48.820against me my whole life is on the internet i've been honest open about i'm an open fucking book
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01:18:51.900go check it so that like our we first hung out when i went on this road trip with him this is
01:18:56.240the first time we like talked like in person and we were texting a little bit before that and then
01:19:00.580was like i need to go on a road trip from philly to oklahoma do you want to come i'm like yeah
01:19:04.020it i'm just gonna have a relationship i'm super sad i didn't think i'm gonna end up dating this
01:19:07.460dude i'm like this is a funny story i'm sitting on a bench with grace and she's like yeah go do
01:19:10.980it like who cares who wouldn't you wouldn't shut the up yes you would so i'm like this is gonna
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01:19:14.660be crazy i'm going out with zach bryan on a road trip we go i mean it's immediate after love bombing
01:19:19.460which is like okay i really am just like oh we really hit it off and he's like we're soulmates
01:19:22.260whatever after that i mean he got me after that weekend we spent three days together i think two
01:19:28.340or three days later he got me tattooed on his arm that's when i should have that's that's right away
01:19:32.340by the way and i'm pretty sure i brought this up in the past now again are celebrities impulsive
01:19:37.300people do they kind of play by a different set of rules don't really okay that's when you shouldn't
01:19:46.740you know but she did the same thing she also got the matching tattoo so that's something
01:19:51.540they did together okay i know i know guys i know tattoos for one in a relationship i
01:19:57.780think is pretty crazy secondly doing it but like y'all haven't even started dating yet nope i have
01:20:02.260to get some tattoos removed but i'm just a girl and i was like i love this dude this is you're 25
01:20:07.300you're not a girl that's not gonna work with me you're you're a grown woman i mean people
01:20:11.700my grandma had like seven kids by the time she was 25. let's not leave to him like i didn't he's
01:20:17.060telling me constantly women are always trying to ruin my life online and like people just want
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01:20:20.260money from me like yada yada i'm believing when he says this because he's giving me no other reason
01:20:23.860Okay. So let me go back to this list. We can show this list. That's fine. So we also have got matching tattoos said he loved her very fast or no said they were soulmates soulmates really fast.
01:20:44.480but I want to say like women we care about words men care about actions so I mean to a guy saying
01:20:52.420that is one thing but living it out is a different thing it doesn't really matter what you say it's
01:20:57.800like what what you do you know um anyways believe it like he's a narrative he likes to control
01:21:06.400narratives he manipulated the out of me like I truly thought he was this great dude because
01:21:09.940in the first four months of our relationship he was that's who he showed me that's what like
01:21:12.800I thought that's who I fell in love with I fell in love with this person that doesn't exist this
01:21:15.680person that he showed me who he was so after the four months of the love bombing the like affirmate
01:21:19.520like just being the loviest best dude ever it's just like all of a sudden a switch and he's making
01:21:23.520excuses blaming it on shit he's going there was always another excuse as to why he was treating
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01:21:26.780me so poorly and why I'm crying myself to sleep every night why he's screaming at me like and then
01:21:29.600you wake up it's the apology it's the um I'm gonna be better like I need you in my life but
01:21:33.360if you've been through this I don't know like I don't expect people to understand emotional abuse
01:21:36.940if you haven't been through it and I hope you never have to go through it but if you've been
01:21:40.240you know what i'm talking about and it was just this constant cycle of like build you up beat you
01:21:44.320down apologize over and over and over so i like was just rewired to be like when we fought he's
01:21:50.000gonna apologize and it's gonna be okay and i'm gonna feel better because he like you like crave
01:21:53.600that validation from the person because you're like holding on to this person that you thought
01:21:56.480they were in the beginning and it was just this crazy awful cycle so fast forward like i also i
01:22:00.560broke up with him last october because i still knew who i was before i lost myself and i wished
01:22:04.080to god so again i am so good you guys can't even again what did i say changes her personality that's
01:22:11.440when she says things like she lost herself so that's step three i just stuck with my guns last
01:22:16.320october but i lost myself throughout this whole relationship it's very evident you can see it
01:22:20.160throughout social media i don't even recognize my yeah it says she was manipulating him she didn't
01:22:24.720let him speak his mind you know because you'll notice he said she said he was always the one
01:22:28.480apologizing so what tends to happen is women have a tendency to overreact so that's how we control
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01:22:36.080men it's how it's how the ladies could censor youtube it's either uh oh i can't say it here
01:22:43.740you sign up for the post show but they the the way they control is we have no power we can't do
01:22:51.380anything physically so the way what we have a tendency to do is get very angry as a way to
01:22:58.280control and then the men come back and validate the emotions by saying sorry you know um so we
01:23:06.160don't know what she was doing anymore like i lost 15 pounds i didn't have to lose in the relationship
01:23:10.400i didn't sleep like i was completely isolated from my family from my friends from work like
01:23:14.500he just took me out of my life it was awful and i he just took me out of my life so she was going
01:23:20.340she's saying it was awful because she had to let me let me write down this abuse
01:23:24.960she went she left her family and life to go on tour with a rock star
01:23:34.980I feel so bad oh my gosh how did you deal with this abuse they did because I was just like
01:23:46.260stuck and I loved the dude and it was I don't know I kind of blame myself I'm like why did I
01:23:49.720stay there's no answer i don't know why i stayed it it's crazy and then you hear that from victims
01:23:53.800a lot i mean because ostensibly oh dave oh make it stop i'm listening it's like yeah why why would
01:24:02.860you say stay so awful but that's emotional abuse i mean you you mentioned a few things so i the
01:24:08.260first salvo that i shot at zach was when i was actually on the name show and i'm like told two
01:24:13.260quick stories like i never liked zach um here's a little story and i told the golden globe story
01:24:17.460which a lot of people are asking about okay i'm sure these are very serious that unfollowed us
01:24:22.260unfollowed you for a second and i sort of had that story wrong yeah and you clarified it i thought it
01:24:27.700was because you were on the red carpet and said jay lordy was hot like a famous actor and he got
01:24:32.300mad he was unhappy with the dress you were wearing and then you told more which i never dreamed like
01:24:40.280he's controlling your social media as a team all do you want to like speak to that because to me
01:24:43.400was like a crazy red flag yeah well that that that was crazy um that was the first time like
01:24:49.960he had really tried to control what i wore or like what i posted um so i went to the golden
01:24:55.000globes and i posted like a carousel of pictures and all right i need my do we is this a dress you
01:25:07.480would be okay with your girlfriend posting can i get a thumbs up or thumbs down producer
01:25:13.400or would you be cool with this one he's all right with it all right what do you guys think in the
01:25:19.320chat is this your girl can post this so i want you guys to put this in perspective you guys
01:25:28.760hit on women by going up to them introducing yourself maybe downloading a dating app messaging
01:25:34.280them on instagram how do we hit on men we put ourselves in rooms with men to hit on us generally
01:25:43.400so on instagram when you're posting a picture like this no boyfriend no nothing essentially
01:25:52.060what it is is it's marketing to other men many men will see it as marketing to other men the
01:25:57.480boobs are out it's like a see-through i mean it's not terrible right but again some guys they'll say
01:26:06.060it's not so bad but this guy you know he's like bitch i can replace you in every city i don't
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01:26:12.600i don't you know anyways um he didn't like my dress he said he didn't want to like oh my gosh
01:26:22.060someone that like presents themselves that way and he unfollowed me he unfollowed everyone and
01:26:27.860i when i flew home like i flew home after the golden globes he ruined my night everything good
01:26:32.860so you know she's going to an event without him her boobs are out this is where other high level
01:26:40.020men are gonna be right i mean this is this is my guess as to why he would freak out right anything
01:26:46.740good i did for me he made sure to ruin it for me he ruined my birthday he ruined my tour he ruined
01:26:52.420the golden globes anything rihanna did for brianna he had to ruin it so the golden globes night was
01:26:57.860going so great and i'm like sending him pictures and he's like happy in the beginning and then all
01:27:01.300of a sudden it turns to like i can't believe you're wearing this blah blah blah ruins the
01:27:04.020night i'm crying to grace the whole fucking night and um he unfollows me because of the dress he
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01:27:08.980tells me all the instagram pictures that i have that i have to delete and i'm like okay yeah i
01:27:13.700guess like he makes me believe that like i okay so the abuse continues asks or tells her to delete
01:27:27.140instagram pictures he thinks are inappropriate now