Pearl - Fatty Talks About The Struggles of Being Fat

00:00:00.000 feel in my stomach like i've weighed myself for years to the point maybe this is autistic but i

00:00:04.320 don't care i don't want to be fat what up guys welcome to my reaction series today we are

00:00:09.200 watching a fatty talk about the struggles of growing up fat you know i'm probably going to 0.84

00:00:14.560 relate to a lot of this i wasn't ever like obese but i was definitely chubby i would have been

00:00:19.920 90s obese but like 2010s chubby you know what i mean hey let's talk about the trauma of growing

00:00:27.920 up fat i was a chubby kid growing up and when you're young everyone thinks it's so cute that

00:00:33.680 you have these chubby cheeks you have chubby arms you have big legs like they love you because you're 0.97

00:00:39.120 so cute and then when you get older they start to turn on you and they shame you yeah fat kids

00:00:44.800 are kind of cute but yeah they get big and now they're blubber for being chubby i was eight

00:00:49.920 years old and people were already telling me god when your mother does not teach you how to eat

00:00:55.120 right and cook and like basic life skills um you just start such a disadvantage and like it just

00:01:01.680 took me so like so many hours to get over my eating problem and it was my own fault because

00:01:08.640 i had from like 14 to fix i never wanted to so you know but like it's just when that's your struggle

00:01:15.760 in life it takes so long to get over it that i had to lose weight if i wanted to have a boyfriend

00:01:21.200 that i had to lose weight in order to find love at eight eight years old you're already telling me

00:01:29.600 that my life is determined by how my body looks that my achievements that whatever will happen

00:01:36.560 to me is based on how thin i am that is such a messed up way to grow up i had very low self-esteem

00:01:45.200 i never saw and the look at so that's kind of nagging right so if you just say you have to

00:01:51.040 lose weight at eight what i what i would maybe suggest i mean take it or leave it it's my opinion

00:01:57.280 right but i do have the microphone so um you got to give them the tools to succeed and figure out

00:02:05.120 why they're like fat so i mean if i had a girl um come to me and we have to figure out what in her 1.00

00:02:14.720 diet is the problem like for me i'll just use myself uh sugar drinks um and just sugar in

00:02:23.120 general i mean that's my kryptonite um i mean some of the stuff i still don't have like the cleanest

00:02:29.520 diet but god i think of the stuff i used to eat and i'm like i should have looked like her i was

00:02:34.640 just chubby but i deserved to be fat myself as beautiful i absolutely hated myself and my body

00:02:40.960 I had such a terrible relationship with food my whole life I was traumatized just because I was

00:02:49.600 fat yeah I don't like the word trauma I mean your your mother failed you she didn't teach you how to

00:02:53.780 cook and eat healthy so count calories um again we used to have jobs that would just keep us thin

00:03:01.960 now we don't so we got to count calories it just is what it is

00:03:05.400 people treated me differently i hated family reunions because there was always going to be

00:03:14.680 this tita who brings up oh my god you're so big now you got so fat have you tried exercise

00:03:22.360 have you tried this diet and then when they see you eating they're like yeah i don't i don't like

00:03:27.720 diet um and i'll tell you what it is when i wanted to lose weight i didn't want to do the work of

00:03:34.680 counting calories like there's a lot of things you have to track and it's a lot of work like

00:03:41.000 there are people that naturally stop eating there's people that don't and if you're not

00:03:45.000 one of those people that stops you have to count not only your calories you have to figure out your

00:03:50.440 protein carbs and fats um you have to count sugars at some point i think i'll get to the

00:03:55.000 point where i can count like nutrients and that sort of thing but like time for that there are

00:03:59.640 apps that help you but i just for me it wasn't until i i know it like i know the information

00:04:07.480 um like it wasn't until i can kind of ballpark how much meat is gonna be like a portion and how much

00:04:16.280 carbs is a portion i can like i can feel in my stomach like i've weighed myself for years to

00:04:21.240 the point maybe this is autistic but i don't care i don't want to be fat um i've weighed myself for

00:04:26.520 years and i can feel how if i need to like walk more in a day and it's not until you know that

00:04:33.400 information and you're aware of it and it takes like i would say it took me a year and a half of

00:04:38.680 like tracking to get to that point but you have to be motivated and your parents have to give you the

00:04:44.680 tools like i don't know when i have kids i want them to have a food scale and i i just i would

00:04:51.000 never want them to deal with this problem that i had i just wouldn't are you sure you're gonna eat

00:04:55.160 all that maybe skip the rice for now maybe don't eat all of that and then when you don't eat they're

00:05:01.560 like why are you not eating are you on a diet you never win you never win anyways as a fat kid i

00:05:11.860 always thought i needed to be funny or i needed to be smart i needed to be something so i'm not 0.97

00:05:16.840 just a fat kid i'm the fat kid that's also smart i'm the fat kid that's good at eating the uglier 0.81

00:05:22.740 the girl the more productive they usually are just balance probabilities 0.97

00:05:28.900 i was more productive than my prettier sister 0.91

00:05:33.220 my uglier sister probably more productive than me you know what it is it's just yeah i'm the fat kid

00:05:40.660 that's good at art or like i'm funny i had to have something else so that i'm just not 0.94

00:05:46.260 labeled as that fat kid in class so much of my life revolved around my weight like every breathing

00:05:54.020 moment was focused on maybe if i do this i'll lose weight maybe if i wear this i'll hide the fat

00:06:01.140 everything revolved around my body and what it looked like i think that's one of the reasons

00:06:07.140 yeah and that's the worst part is for me like i didn't want to date because i knew date was

00:06:12.260 drinks food like there was a time when it was really i was gaining weight fast and i just like

00:06:19.300 i'm young and i'm like cute but like you know i don't want to exacerbate this problem but

00:06:24.820 although to be fair once you get into a relationship it really does as a woman give you the 0.90

00:06:29.940 opportunity to lose weight if you want to because like usually men have better eating habits than 0.99

00:06:36.180 women but you know just it's why i felt so lost in life when i reached my early to mid 20s was

00:06:42.660 because i never had a dream or goal my only goal was to lose weight my only dream was to be that

00:06:49.780 skinny girl with white skin let's make your dream come true i mean i don't know you're yellow like 1.00

00:06:56.020 so i don't know if you could be white but you have a cute face uh you should not be fat and

00:07:00.900 this is really bad for her age um like she's fatter than i was i guess i was like maybe 30 1.00

00:07:07.620 body fat 32 ish i'd have to look but that was my only dream so when i gotta be 40 to 45 i actually

00:07:16.020 got older and i'm like well what do you want to do with your life i don't know my only plan was

00:07:21.620 to lose weight that was it because that's what everyone around me kept on reminding me that i'll

00:07:27.220 only need to lose i'll remind you too you do need to lose weight be happy if i lost weight i'll

00:07:32.420 only find love you know i bullied my sister into this she's cute now but i told her and i you know 1.00

00:07:38.260 what i didn't even mean it to be mean but i'm just like you're really gonna i really regret being big

00:07:43.620 when i was younger and i'm like you need to make that your number one job is to get thin i don't

00:07:47.860 care what you want to do you want to get married have babies do that you want to work do that you 0.97

00:07:52.340 you want to be a whore whatever it's not my problem but you're going to want to be thin 1.00

00:07:57.620 whatever you do it's going to be a detriment to you if i lost weight i'll only be successful if 0.99

00:08:02.580 i lost weight i can only wear what i want to wear if i lost weight so yeah everything revolves around

00:08:09.380 losing weight today let's talk about the trauma of growing up fat okay i was a chubby so um i don't

00:08:17.540 really think it's trauma i think it should be the trauma of my parents not teaching me the skills

00:08:23.140 to be thin because kids need to know this i mean i i just don't think there's a reason like kids

00:08:29.380 don't know how to cook and clean and like do that stuff if you're an involved parent so um anyways

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Pearl - November 26, 2025

Fatty Talks About The Struggles of Being Fat

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