Pearl - May 06, 2026Jesus Couldn’t Save These Hoes, Why Do You Think You Can？
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Summary
In this episode, I talk about a change in mindset I ve had in my life from when I was younger to now. I ve always viewed myself as the hero and others as the villains, but in reality, I m not a villain and I m a victim.
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So today, I wanted to talk about a change of mindset that I had from when I was younger to now.
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When I was younger, there was a lot of instances where people that I felt like I was very good to betrayed me.
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And I think this is a concept in most people's life, you know.
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We have a tendency as people to be very egotistical,
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always viewing ourselves as the heroes and never viewing ourselves as the villain um at least women
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in general and I'm a woman so you know let's not pretend I don't fall prey to some of this
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and when I was young I remember there's an instance where this girl I thought I thought
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she was my friend right and it turned out um that she was talking trash about me and my parents had
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a very big house growing up and she said that she was only friends with me for my parents house can
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you believe it right um there's also an instance i've talked about it a lot where there was a guy
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that i was friends with in london i thought we were the best of pals um and he came out and said
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that i was a had a colonial mindset or some stupid shit like that um and this is a guy that worked
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for me for a few years um I really viewed him as a friend I even invited him to like my birthday
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party and like you know friendly right um I guess he said he did not view me as a friend I was like
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well it's news to me right um and then he made like videos trying to like expose me you know
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it was this whole thing and I was like my guy I've given you so much opportunity right you know
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and I was very hurt and this was kind of a theme until my mid-20s where
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um there's another person who stole a camera from me and um again I thought we were friends
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they stole a camera do you know what I mean it's like it's like it's incredible incredible um
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and what I realized is that I thought I was a victim because these people like took
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but in all actuality um there's a few things one I was too weak in order to call them out when
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things were a little off or a little weird and I allowed them to gaslight me there were times where
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I've called I said you were talking about me and the girl do what women do is they say no I was
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and I didn't say that. And you're like, I think you did. I've heard this from like three different
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people that you said X, Y, and Z. Or, you know, anyways, regardless. The problem with this mindset
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is there are two things. Number one, I was not a victim because in these instances,
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I was chasing their validation or I wanted the friendship at times more than my self-respect.
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and there were times when it's very obvious, you know, uh, they didn't like me, they didn't
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respect me, et cetera, et cetera. Um, and in a way, you know, I talk about the natural order of the
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world. It's supposed to be like this, but when I put another person above me and I want their
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whatever friendship validation um more than i want to do what's right or to follow god or i don't know
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whatever it means you're making them a god right you're making the friendship of god you're making
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the relationship of god and you just can't you can't do that um because it's kind of like
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scammers um that scam people they're evil people they're takers etc however their vic their
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victims quote unquote uh in a way they wanted to get rich quick or they wanted something easy
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um more than like or they were too lazy to read the contract whatever it is there was a character
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flaw in them too so victims aren't always victims now number two pull on this thinking
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it's egotistical to think that you can control another person and it's actually downright
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psychotic to believe um that people are going to be good to you because you were good to them
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um if i'm good to a person i do my best to be good to them i don't always do this right i can
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be spiteful i can be wicked um but if i behave in an ideal way which i don't at a lot of times
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um you want to their behavior should have nothing to do with you when Jesus came down I'm not even
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that religious but this just makes sense to him Jesus came down and he offered nothing but goodness
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he said I'm going to be good to people and they're killing him on the cross right and he's forgiven
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these ninjas he's forgiven them and I was thinking about it and it's because his kindness um was not
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dictated on other people and he was not a weak person he was brave enough to say like when
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something was right or something was wrong or what he thought and I think when you're a kid
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you're a kid you're like naturally good it's like kind of my assumption you are a good
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because when kids are young they like will um and I really do think mothers ruin their kids
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you'll naturally say you're fat or you're old or you're black or you're white but you don't
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say it with any hatred in your heart but kids are very observant and they will say what's in front
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of them until the world tells them like not to talk like that and it's usually not the world
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it's just women to some degree it's the mother's mad because she says mom the kid says mama gets
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angry all the time and the mom gets mad at the kid for saying that like observing the behavior
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you know what i mean so anyways um just in my experience um jesus and none me and you
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none of us are jesus right we all behave in a worse way than god there's no way unless
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unless you are a narcissistic psychopath there's no way you think you behave better than jesus
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Jesus could not get people to be nice to him respect him and treat him well in fact they
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crucified Jesus now I don't even like making this comparison because I'm a woman so like my flaws
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are like here you know what I mean and Jesus's flaws were here but if Jesus himself came down
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I used to think that everybody needed to hear conservatism
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And that was a very egotistical way to think, right?
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I can control the behavior of another person by giving them information.
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You cannot, look it, I've done the street interviews, I've done the fighting, impossible.
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And in a way, it's thinking that you are above, like me as a woman, a woman of all people, right?
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you think you're better than God and she said you know something along the lines I can't remember
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she does not care about converting people and in fact that's a way to show femininity because
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um wanting to convert someone else is controlling it's I want to control what they do and that's
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not feminine um and so in my thought process before I thought well if I'm nice to people
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they'll be nice to me and um one that's trying to get something out of people and really the
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best people um that you gravitate back towards are the people that expect nothing you know people
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that are just kind and they don't they don't even need you to become that's what jesus did right
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So, you know, you can say your Christian values or whatever and have no care about the outcome of other people.
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And when you start to think like this, it's actually very freeing, even being more honest with people.
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Because I kind of found this weird persona in a way where I can be very honest on camera and talk about like X, Y, and Z.
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and talk about my beliefs because it was kind of an environment that you know you're on shows and
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stuff where they say what is your opinion but still there would be times in my personal life
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where I would have a harder time being honest right and I believe that showed a weakness in
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my character but I don't think I'm alone I think this is a common trope where you just can't
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it shows a different level of care and honesty to people when you're honest
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and you have no care about the outcome. It's like a different type of love.
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So anyways, this is kind of something I've been like
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thinking about a lot and attempting to do more of because I think a lot of people and I've
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fallen into this trap, you think you're being moral by not being honest with people. And
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I think when you live like that in the way it eats at your soul. So I don't know. These are,
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these are my coffee talks today. Um, let me know what you think in the comments.
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