Pearl - Let's Talk About Black Fatigue

00:00:00.000 We don't party like we used to Take me back to 1992

00:00:13.680 Everybody's acting brand new We're not looking across the room

00:00:20.720 Everybody is looking down On our phones, no ones around

00:00:27.600 Yeah, we used to tear up the town Now I don't hear a sound

00:00:36.160 People don't dance cause somebody's watching Drink too much, everybody's talking

00:00:43.280 We used to rage like there was no stopping So put your hands up, everybody's rocking

00:00:50.640 Put your phone down and get on the dance floor

00:00:55.440 shake that booty like you never did before look real silly yeah raise your hands let's get together

00:01:03.920 and baby just dance oh we used to snap a polaroid now the whole night's on record

00:01:15.200 i used to know who my neighbor was now we really don't do that stuff we used to go out and ding

00:01:24.160 gong ditch. Now that ring cam is the biggest snitch. Now all these young kids do is stream

00:01:31.480 on Twitch. 2020s are the biggest glitch. People don't dance cause somebody's watching. Drink

00:01:42.140 too much, everybody's talking. We used to rage like there was no stopping. So put your

00:01:49.420 hands up everybody's rocking put your phone down and get on the dance floor shake that booty like

00:01:57.500 you never did before look real silly yeah raise your hands let's get together and baby just dance

00:02:07.420 thank you thank you thank you if you wanted to know that one actually is on spotify but there's

00:02:14.380 someone else playing the piano in it so that's a little bit better so anyways guys thank you for

00:02:20.540 tuning in um i do have to start my show like i normally do which is you guys can put a word in

00:02:27.080 the chat and i will freestyle um last show there was really a mix of emotions about the piano in

00:02:35.120 the beginning some of you said pearl uh we love the piano we love it it's great to see this side

00:02:42.080 you. Others of you said, you said, Pearl, could you not? And to you, I say, I'm going to, I'm in

00:02:51.940 my Taylor Swift era. I'm going to double down. One day I'm going to be gliding. You guys, it's

00:02:58.000 going to be beautiful. You might shed a tear pre-show. You might, we're not there yet, but

00:03:03.260 every day you're just going to watch me get better. So I know it's a serious topic today. I thought

00:03:10.220 maybe I shouldn't do the piano, but I just, this is the highlight. I love doing it. So give me the

00:03:16.260 word, Columbia. Okay. Is it, can it be, okay. Let me, let me pick a chord progression. So we might do D.

00:03:27.840 Ooh, I'm better. A bad thing down in Columbia.

00:03:34.140 She got me wandering. I didn't think of anything. Let me think. Hold on.

00:03:40.220 I like the little Latin taste.

00:03:43.600 It makes me want to put on a ring.

00:03:46.820 Oh, I like this little Colombian.

00:03:51.940 All right, let me see.

00:03:53.440 Keep going, keep going.

00:03:55.240 Sometimes the words work better than others,

00:03:57.520 so I need you guys to bear with me.

00:03:59.040 One day, one day, imagine,

00:04:02.240 I have all your favorite conservatives in here

00:04:04.440 and they have to freestyle.

00:04:05.580 They're forced.

00:04:06.800 You have to freestyle to get an interview.

00:04:08.640 Yup.

00:04:10.220 It's going to be hilarious.

00:04:17.400 November rain.

00:04:20.160 Take music theory.

00:04:21.540 No, so I am doing music theory now.

00:04:25.020 I'll give you the background.

00:04:27.020 I know it, but I'm still like halfway.

00:04:30.920 I'm having trouble getting both hands to move at the same time and maintaining a steady.

00:04:36.840 I'm still on basic stuff.

00:04:38.500 I'm at 1.5.

00:04:40.060 on my piano books, if you were wondering.

00:04:42.560 Give me, I'll do one more word.

00:04:45.400 One more word.

00:04:47.560 Sorry, halfway through the second one.

00:04:49.580 And then we're going to move on to the show.

00:04:52.840 I'm a producer who says fatigue.

00:04:57.140 Okay.

00:04:58.000 I guess it would make sense to do the topic,

00:05:00.200 but this is so.

00:05:04.540 I'm tired.

00:05:07.420 So damn tired.

00:05:10.060 Why can't we just get along?

00:05:17.060 I'm sitting on a bus, minding my business.

00:05:22.060 I didn't ask for none of this.

00:05:25.060 Then I get, seems so insensitive to sing about that.

00:05:32.060 Then I get stabbed and it's so wrong.

00:05:37.060 I thought I told a joke, and they didn't take it right, now I guess we are gonna fight.

00:05:55.060 Oh, black fatigue, we're fatigued. Can we get along? Please take out the weave. Black fatigue, black fatigue. I'll be the villain and say it if that's what you need.

00:06:17.860 oh no you didn't you know what I'm so tired of this I can't make a joke about a weave

00:06:30.140 really really they can make fun of us dancing they can make fun they can make fun of anything

00:06:37.000 they call me they say oh like you know I've had and we're gonna show the clips do you know the

00:06:44.780 things that have been said about me from black women. I can't make fun of their weave, really.

00:06:55.020 Why?

00:07:01.940 What else are we fatigued about? You can put it in the chat. I'll read it.

00:07:05.660 Do you know what? The last time, I'll tell you what, I did this freestyling thing.

00:07:10.220 Do you want to know how I ended up on Pierce Morgan, if you want the story?

00:07:14.180 I ended up on Pierce Morgan because I wrote a song about the J-word.

00:07:19.240 I'm not going to say it on YouTube.

00:07:20.660 Do you know why I did it?

00:07:21.960 Because I said freestyle in the chat.

00:07:25.640 And that wound me up on national television.

00:07:40.460 Wearing a weave.

00:07:41.680 Wearing a weave, oh he's got a sleeve

00:07:49.680 That's what we call black fatigue

00:07:54.680 Oh here we go, they're mad at my show

00:08:01.680 I am so goddamn fatigued

00:08:06.680 And I'll try to be their friends and now they're mad

00:08:10.680 and they're saying I'm a colonizer I guess that's bad I'm so tired of this

00:08:18.440 fatigue they say they hate us and we say fine we'll go do way they say they hate

00:08:31.080 us and we say fine we will do our own thought they say they hate us and we say

00:08:39.120 fine we do what we want all of the time we say leave us alone and they say no

00:08:46.440 black fatigue black fatigue all we ask is please don't get mad just leave black

00:08:59.360 Black fatigue, black fatigue, I just ask that you don't stab me, black fatigue, my internet

00:09:24.120 career's over. All right, guys. That's enough for today. I'm going to end up on

00:09:34.420 Pierce Morgan again. All right, guys. So we're going to play a clip that my editor

00:09:46.920 put together, not me. So if you don't like any of them, if you want to be

00:09:53.360 fatigued at someone at him. Do you want to play it? Oh wait, I have to, right? Oh, I forgot. I

00:10:01.540 totally, can you email it to me? All right, let's see. Black fatigue, black fatigue. Please, dear

00:10:11.140 God, just take out the white woman's weave. Black fatigue. You know, I think I have this ability to

00:10:20.340 really talk about serious topics in an unserious way and i think this pisses a lot of people off

00:10:28.640 i really do because they're like why can't you stop laughing why can't you just be serious

00:10:34.820 it's like why are you here you know what i mean why are you here to we're just gonna

00:10:40.180 we're just gonna criticize huh black fatigue black fatigue

00:10:47.040 you're saying all right here we go all right we're gonna we're gonna play some

00:10:56.580 of the some of the commentary that's really sparking this oh it has to be on

00:11:00.420 the other screen doesn't it my bad my bad okay I can go layers and layers and

00:11:10.440 layers and layers to it and more of it is going to come from just like the

00:11:14.220 science and backing that you kind of put into collective bundles that ultimately just come from

00:11:18.380 who the white man you were raised by so when it comes so i'm just saying but i'm just saying you

00:11:25.660 asked you asked that's not that's not there you asked so that's not you making a decision that's

00:11:31.580 you being born into white privilege we need you to acknowledge that so that's not a decision that

00:11:36.380 you made that is the way you came into this and honestly wait girl you're a family of like nine

00:11:41.820 or ten like oh that's what how your dad sets you up so there are things that you genuinely

00:11:47.500 black fatigue black fatigue i beg you please take out the weave black fatigue black fatigue

00:12:01.740 please god stop yelling at me let's see that's a song i should have played did not have to

00:12:07.900 experience you don't know

00:12:23.980 i don't personally engage in swirling because i love black women but shout out to those who do

00:12:28.220 because within the past eight years the global white population has dropped from 11 to 6.5

00:12:34.460 percent. So keep up the good work. I don't personally engage in swirling because I love

00:12:38.320 black women, but shout out to those who do, because within the past eight years, the global

00:12:42.700 white population has dropped from 11% to 6.5%. So keep up the good work. So if nearly half of all

00:12:50.740 blacks are not okay with white people, according to this poll, not according to me, according to

00:12:57.500 this poll, that's a hate group. That's a hate group. And I don't want to have anything to do

00:13:03.520 with them. And I would say, you know, based on the current way things are going, the best

00:13:09.660 advice I would give to white people is to get the hell away from black people. Just

00:13:14.960 get the fuck away. Wherever you have to go, just get away. Because there's no fixing this.

00:13:24.020 This can't be fixed. Right? This can't be fixed. You just have to escape. So that's

00:13:30.440 what I did. I went to a neighborhood where

00:13:32.160 I have a very low black population

00:13:34.780 because unfortunately

00:13:36.300 there's a high correlation between

00:13:38.400 the density. This is according

00:13:40.440 to Don Lemon, by the way.

00:13:42.480 So here I'm just quoting Don Lemon

00:13:44.240 when he notes

00:13:46.340 that when he lived

00:13:48.420 in a mostly

00:13:50.300 black neighborhood, there were a bunch of

00:13:52.400 problems that he didn't see in white neighborhoods.

00:13:55.220 So even Don Lemon

00:13:56.280 sees a big difference

00:13:58.320 in your own quality of living

00:14:00.900 based on where you live

00:14:02.820 and who's there

00:14:03.720 so I think it makes no sense whatsoever

00:14:06.820 as a white citizen

00:14:09.220 of America to try to help

00:14:11.060 black citizens anymore

00:14:12.460 it doesn't make sense

00:14:14.400 it's no longer a rational

00:14:16.620 impulse

00:14:18.520 and so I'm going to

00:14:20.960 I'm going to back off

00:14:23.140 from being helpful to black America

00:14:25.280 because it doesn't seem like it pays off

00:14:28.340 Like, I've been doing it all my life, and the only outcome is I get called a racist.

00:14:34.960 That's the only outcome.

00:14:37.080 It makes no sense to help black Americans if you're white.

00:14:42.820 It's over.

00:14:44.760 Don't even think it's worth trying.

00:14:47.240 Totally not trying.

00:14:50.140 And there we go.

00:14:54.740 You didn't expect that today, did you?

00:14:57.460 but those who don't want to focus on education you just need to get away from them just get as

00:15:04.800 much distance as you can that's my recommendation and i'm also really sick of seeing video after

00:15:12.620 video of black americans beating up non-black citizens um you know i realize it's anecdotal

00:15:21.000 and it doesn't give me a full picture of what's happening.

00:15:25.600 But every damn day, I look on social media

00:15:29.060 and there's some black person beating the shit out of some white person.

00:15:33.260 I'm kind of over it. I'm over it.

00:15:36.620 So I quit.

00:15:39.780 Public service announcement.

00:15:42.700 Excuse me.

00:15:44.180 If y'all didn't know, this is the MSC.

00:15:46.600 And frankly, there's just too many white people in here

00:15:49.540 this is a space for people of color so just be really cognizant of the space that you're taking

00:15:53.780 up because it does make some of us pocs uncomfortable when we see too many white

00:15:58.820 people in here it's only been open for four days and frankly there's the whole university

00:16:03.300 for a lot of y'all to be at and there's very few spaces for us so keep that in mind thank you

00:16:09.460 you just said we have to leave no i said you're making the space uncomfortable uncomfortable

00:16:14.980 but you're white do you understand what a multicultural space it means you're not being

00:16:19.060 centered it's not a culture no no it's not a culture it's white is not a culture say it again

00:16:24.500 to the camera you think whiteness is a culture but it feels like the the void that has been

00:16:29.060 created by kevin samuel is leaving is that now we only have like white manosphere type people

00:16:34.020 telling people how to live their lives and the game is not the same i couldn't believe that the

00:16:38.100 black community elected a white to tell you how to how to get a black man like that right there

00:16:42.660 through me you're talking about pearl yes you're not a pearl i said i never even had black dick

00:16:48.740 before how she gonna tell a black woman how to treat a black man right like that's what the

00:16:56.500 and i said we're we're done we're doomed and they call her the female version of kevin seven what

00:17:03.060 the yeah i asked for an interview right because i was gonna get in that ass about that slavery

00:17:07.940 We've got to make that happen.

00:17:09.020 When Pearl now plays like she doesn't know what colonization is and she doesn't know what slavery is.

00:17:15.800 And she says these insensitive statements in that video, I actually attempted to give her a book.

00:17:22.740 It was called How Europe Underdeveloped Africa.

00:17:26.440 I've read it myself.

00:17:28.040 She semi dismissed that book.

00:17:31.320 She kind of dismissed that book.

00:17:32.620 5.37. Right now, a grand jury in North Texas has indicted an 18-year-old accused of fatally stabbing another teen at a track meet.

00:17:40.920 Carmelo Anthony was arrested April 2nd in connection with the death of Austin Metcalf.

00:17:46.640 Anthony is accused of killing Metcalf during a track meet at a stadium where both their Frisco High School teams were participating.

00:17:55.300 Anthony told police he acted in self-defense and was provoked by Metcalf during an altercation before the stabbing.

00:18:01.660 This is video surveillance of the night.

00:18:04.540 Irina Zaruzka enters a blue line at the East-West Boulevard station stop.

00:18:08.720 You can see she takes a seat directly in front of DeCarlis Brown, the suspect.

00:18:12.920 At first, nothing seems unusual, but four minutes later, he pulls out what appears to be a pocket knife and suddenly stabs Zaruzka multiple times.

00:18:24.220 Black fatigue, black fatigue.

00:18:27.560 All right, what's up, guys?

00:18:30.860 Welcome to another episode of Pearl Daily here on the Audacity Network.

00:18:35.620 I do want to start by doing what I do best, a bank for money.

00:18:39.000 Yeah, money.

00:18:41.380 And not in a way that, not in a disrespectful way,

00:18:46.320 but if you do want to go to my website to go to theaudacitynetwork.com,

00:18:50.400 every day I am able to participate in normal society less.

00:18:57.460 I'll give you an example.

00:18:58.840 the other day I wanted to play on a volleyball team. I was so excited. I haven't been playing

00:19:03.140 volleyball for years. I got kicked off this, the lefties, they kicked me off the volleyball team

00:19:09.260 and just every day, you know, so I don't know when YouTube is going to kick me off again. I was

00:19:16.280 kicked off of YouTube for a year and a half. They really ruined my life in a lot of ways I could get

00:19:21.800 into and part of part of this was from the fatigue we're going to talk about but when i talk about

00:19:30.260 these topics i really am taking a risk the more honest i am and so it's nice that people on our

00:19:36.500 website the audacity network.com signing up we if we get enough ten dollar a month signups

00:19:42.000 i mean to be honest i could talk about anything um but now i found right now i'm at the point

00:19:48.580 where I did find out the consequences for talking about anything.

00:19:52.920 And while I will take them, I do have to take calculated risks.

00:19:59.740 But today is an honest show.

00:20:01.100 This is going to be an honest show where I'm taking a little bit of risk by doing this.

00:20:09.440 So if you want to support me, theaudacitynetwork.com,

00:20:13.260 or you could do the GoFundMe and donate whatever you want to our divorce documentary.

00:20:19.460 Okay, so I will start by saying there are exceptions to every rule.

00:20:26.140 In order to abide by YouTube guidelines, because I am attempting to abide by YouTube guidelines,

00:20:34.560 I will say there are exceptions to every rule.

00:20:37.180 When I am talking on this show, I am talking about my personal experience and what I have witnessed.

00:20:42.640 That does not mean everybody has had the same experience.

00:20:46.980 I am not saying that I am a saint or I am perfect.

00:20:50.500 This is not me trying to have the moral high ground here.

00:20:56.400 And, yeah, there are exceptions to every rule.

00:21:00.000 So, recently there have been some stories in the news, and I'm going to kind of touch on them.

00:21:05.600 and the stories that have really overtaken um the news

00:21:11.380 wait where did it go oh here we are there was a black guy who stabbed a white guy at a track meet

00:21:23.360 um and he got out of jail on bond after stabbing the white kid to death

00:21:28.160 and over half a million dollars were raised in his defense

00:21:32.540 do you think a white person could stab a black person and get half a million dollars in their

00:21:41.600 defense and be put on bail it's called black fatigue black fatigue okay um there was a career

00:21:52.700 criminal who'd been arrested 13 times prior who stabbed a ukrainian refugee on on the train

00:22:02.340 DeCarlos Brown was a paranoid schizophrenic with a long criminal history that the state refused to lock him up.

00:22:10.880 Black fatigue has even reached black people, where there is a black girl who's punched in the face.

00:22:17.820 She was a pro-life reporter, and she's interviewing people at a pro-life rally.

00:22:22.620 She's this nice, nice lady.

00:22:24.220 and pro-life activist savannah craven was punched in the face by a black woman and the black woman

00:22:31.500 was not criminally charged at all you guys can google all of these um all of these things

00:22:38.640 um but so we're going to talk about what the internet is calling is black fatigue which

00:22:46.320 according to the urban dictionary um it describes as the mental exhaustion from being forced to care

00:22:53.900 about black people and their actions 24-7.

00:22:57.360 So again, I am going to repeat

00:23:01.940 because I am trying to keep my channel.

00:23:05.100 The definition of a generalization is a statement

00:23:08.480 or a concept that applies broadly to a group category

00:23:13.380 or situation based on limited information or observations,

00:23:19.000 often assuming what is true for some cases

00:23:22.580 is true for all or most. It involves drawing conclusions from specific examples to make

00:23:28.980 a general rule or principle. So again, there are exceptions.

00:23:35.100 So you know, on this channel I do talk a lot about generalizations in society. And generally,

00:23:41.740 I do like to stick to generalizations about men and women. But, you know, with the recent

00:23:49.280 events that have been in the news I do want to give my two cents on what is

00:23:53.640 going on now I do kind of want to go through the criticisms before I give

00:24:03.440 this opinion because a lot of people are they are gonna give my they are gonna

00:24:07.820 go through the basic you know whenever I give an opinion on anything about what

00:24:11.300 race or money or society I think the number one insult as you guys saw on the

00:24:17.760 One clip I showed is that you're just a rich white girl.

00:24:23.100 They always leave out the smoke show part.

00:24:25.880 They always do.

00:24:26.640 It's like a switch thing.

00:24:28.780 They always say you're an obviously hot smoke show white girl from a family,

00:24:33.480 a well-off family who's handed everything in life.

00:24:37.000 What gives you the right to talk about this?

00:24:39.620 So I am going to give you my background and my credentials.

00:24:42.540 If you don't think this is good enough to have an opinion,

00:24:44.980 you are welcome to leave now.

00:24:46.220 because I already know the kind of critiques that they generally say.

00:24:51.600 I was handed everything in life.

00:24:54.520 I was given such a good head start that it's incredible.

00:24:59.680 And, you know, I would say that's generally true.

00:25:02.340 I was given a head start in life.

00:25:04.500 I was one of ten kids.

00:25:07.020 My dad encouraged me to do whatever I wanted in life, and I really did.

00:25:11.100 Let me read the super chat.

00:25:12.420 That's, we are fatigued that blacks uplift idiots and ostracize intelligence.

00:25:20.100 Layism, are women innately evil and hateful towards men?

00:25:26.700 What does it have to do with the topic?

00:25:36.160 So I want to go really first on my personal experience.

00:25:40.800 And I just want to talk about what my experience with race relations was growing up.

00:25:46.820 Because I would like to say when I was growing up, now I know black people have a tendency, not all.

00:25:53.180 They tend to hate when white people say this.

00:25:56.600 But I really do think that white people are raised to not judge people by the color of your skin.

00:26:02.280 I would say growing up, I grew up in a mostly Catholic area.

00:26:07.820 My school was private. It was mostly white.

00:26:09.940 um but when we had like black kids in the school I would say most people in general um

00:26:17.880 that that's just kind of how we're raised we're not really raised to see color

00:26:22.500 um but I do remember in school even in like a white catholic school you know having racism

00:26:30.800 sort of shoved down our throat and this was kind of confusing because this was a right

00:26:35.260 leaning area but even if it's not in the school you can't really um you can't really stop the pro

00:26:44.120 like black um you're a bit evil for being white propaganda I mean I remember getting this like

00:26:51.600 his Facebook that was kind of big when I was a kid I'm not gonna look at the chat for a little

00:26:57.300 bit you guys scare me sometimes um but because because I'm trying to be polite you know but

00:27:03.280 they just it's like I can give 10 disclaimers and they'll still find the one clip of me saying

00:27:08.240 something rude you know so we never really had issues um with I would say race relations in

00:27:18.980 general in my school it was I was in sports so there was always um there was always it was always

00:27:26.140 very mixed I would say and no one really like talked about it or really cared um but it wasn't

00:27:32.860 until I got to college where I would say that was the beginning of like the BLM stuff started,

00:27:38.700 at least to the point that I started to pay attention to it. And I think when I first

00:27:43.540 started hearing about like Black Lives Matter and that movement, I mean, genuinely from

00:27:48.740 the bottom of my heart, I had a lot of empathy. You know, you hear about a kid getting shot

00:27:56.140 by the police and you as a white person, or just like a human, and I don't like to make

00:28:01.040 this all about race but we kind of have to because the topic's black fatigue you you have a level of

00:28:07.640 empathy where you know you you don't want that to happen and you feel bad but it just seemed like

00:28:15.380 every time there would be a story that came out in the news there would always be a catch

00:28:20.600 that at first I would see the news and I wasn't that political because when we're better as we

00:28:26.960 say on the show young women we tend to be better when we're younger so I wasn't overly I was like

00:28:32.660 into the pro-life stuff but that you know BLM I just I didn't pay that close of attention but

00:28:37.980 it just always seemed like there would be facts of the case that were not talked about

00:28:44.240 now I can't remember the exact case off the top of my head but I remember there was one I think in

00:28:48.980 Ohio and um it was all over the news they were saying this guy got shot to death by a cop and

00:28:56.320 it seemed unwarranted and then I found out he hit the cop like 13 times but they kept all they kept

00:29:01.700 repeating was that like was that he did not have a gun and they kept saying oh he was unarmed they

00:29:09.700 shot this unarmed guy and you know you first hear these stories and off the top of your head you're

00:29:14.600 like oh no I don't want that to happen and then you find out he hit the cop 13 times and was trying

00:29:20.500 to take his gun and you're like oh well why would they say the story like that and this just kind

00:29:26.300 of happened over and over again I think sometimes I believed it sometimes I didn't you know sometimes

00:29:31.080 I would hear a story and this was like amidst I would say the build-up of the BLM stuff

00:29:36.920 and again I wasn't following that closely but it just it was really frustrating because I think I

00:29:43.620 just grew up I think I love doing this because I try to not come at this with a lot of ego like

00:29:49.960 I try to come at this with I could be wrong let's try to focus on the facts because I like to create

00:29:55.800 the media I just did not get growing up like when I was growing up it just seemed like every other

00:30:00.980 story was fake we didn't know what was real we didn't know what was false and the first time

00:30:07.080 and I always say when you see something on the news it tends to hit your personal life two to

00:30:12.980 four years later. So an example outside of this race stuff where this hit my personal life was

00:30:20.220 I used to cover women on antidepressants like two years ago. I think I started covering the

00:30:26.900 rise in women on antidepressants, especially white women. And I would say in my personal life,

00:30:31.780 I mean, that just started to hit me like where my friends are actually starting to be on it the last

00:30:36.760 year, two years. We're getting closer to 30. You know what I mean? We're like, we're crashing out.

00:30:42.980 So, anyways, when I got to school, I remember vividly there was this kid at my school who is like a mixed guy on one of the athletic teams who was arrested by the cops.

00:30:58.020 And I remember it was this whole drama on Facebook, like Instagram maybe, and everybody was saying how he was arrested unfairly.

00:31:08.300 It was like at a house party and he got arrested.

00:31:10.480 and I remember thinking that I knew that he was always throwing parties and doing things that

00:31:18.900 were illegal like drugs drink nothing crazy just college stuff drinking drugs whatever

00:31:23.660 and if your house smells like weed the cops can come inside but it became this whole race thing

00:31:30.980 and I think just like on my gut feeling and I remember people were posting about the unfair

00:31:36.040 i do think he got the charges dropped i could be wrong um but i have to be honest just in my gut

00:31:43.400 i just knew like just seeing him the last few years i knew there was more to this story that

00:31:49.060 he wasn't saying i knew he wasn't this like innocent guy and it was nothing against him he

00:31:56.140 was a nice guy but i'm like you do do drugs party and drink underage every weekend and i'm this

00:32:03.720 isn't even a moral high ground you know um i got in trouble for a fake id in college i did

00:32:09.900 i was a year young so i don't know if i should admit this but i did pay the i did do the crime

00:32:16.560 and i did get in trouble for it and i paid the time so i think it's okay to talk about but

00:32:20.800 but it's out i don't care but i was a year young in school and i always just wanted to go to the

00:32:26.320 bars and i got a fake id and then i got caught and yeah i just i just took the l do you know

00:32:31.740 what I mean it just it was an L in my life but I just I never would have had that thought to like

00:32:37.940 fight the cops or like say oh I was discriminated against because I was a woman maybe I'm a

00:32:42.640 privileged position I don't know so you know but you know I'm never gonna at that point I'm not

00:32:50.340 thinking like oh all black people are like this I'm not thinking this is like a and I still don't

00:32:57.180 by the way. Then there was the BLM era. So I end up, I go to college and I move and I start selling

00:33:06.180 copiers in this city. And it was in the city of Milwaukee. Maybe I shouldn't say names. I don't

00:33:14.140 know. Whatever. I mean, I'm in Milwaukee and I basically had to witness during the George Floyd

00:33:20.580 riots uh stores i remember sleeping and hearing the riots like down the street from where i slept

00:33:28.360 like down the street from where i live i remember like waking up the next day going downtown and

00:33:33.540 just seeing everything was like trash there was buildings broken into and this this also um

00:33:39.360 happened with the kyle rittenhouse case um and i think when the original footage came out from

00:33:45.200 um the uh george floyd incident you know i mean the cop looked like the bad guy i had a lot of

00:33:51.720 empathy you know but then you know more more facts from the case came out and i find out that the guy

00:34:00.960 was trained to do that and they keep trying to cover it up um the guy that got or the police

00:34:06.500 officer the guy who was who died was a guy who put a gun to a pregnant woman's a pregnant woman's

00:34:15.740 belly and it's not to say he should have died but you know it kind of takes away the empathy when

00:34:23.340 they're like they have statues of um this this guy who you know died by the hands of police and

00:34:33.320 this just kept happening and this is over from the time I was probably 18 to like 23 and I remember

00:34:39.360 during this time everyone there's so much pressure on social media to post a stupid black square

00:34:44.660 and I remember so vividly that I did not post a black square but I did have empathy for the guy

00:34:52.340 who died at the hands of the police at the time but I was kind of neutral because there had just

00:34:57.720 been so many stories where I was misled that I didn't really know what was happening and women

00:35:02.280 I knew at school unfollowed me that I'd played with for years, that I'd never said or done

00:35:07.100 anything racist towards, that I was actually friends with, they started implying I was

00:35:11.980 racist because I didn't post a black square.

00:35:15.980 But again, you know, I'm not going to make a generalization off of just a few instances.

00:35:21.560 um then

00:35:25.120 then I go to work and I'm in I'm at work and there's basically a guy at work who's a DEI

00:35:37.940 hire and to be fair I was probably also a DEI hire so I'm not I'm not I'm not playing completely

00:35:46.900 innocent here right but this dude we were our job was to sell copiers and get like 200 calls a day

00:35:58.380 and this dude would call fax lines he would call fax lines instead you know basically it was a

00:36:07.620 white company these people hired him they're really nice they're really good bosses and he

00:36:12.240 you know took he took advantage of their kindness of hiring him or you know trusting him to do a

00:36:19.820 job and he would call fax lines and he knew they couldn't fire him because he could file a lawsuit

00:36:26.220 I mean he didn't say this but it took them like nine months to fire him of paying him

00:36:32.140 while he was doing nothing every single day

00:36:35.020 then then i go i go to london and um again

00:36:45.000 i go to london and

00:36:50.620 hold on let me make sure i have notes i have notes so and by the way none of this hold on

00:37:03.960 yeah the devil yeah you know yeah

00:37:16.320 it took four you know people are putting their experiences in the chat it took four years to fire

00:37:27.280 and I would just kind of find these patterns like over and over again where it just seemed like

00:37:35.020 and I'm gonna I'm gonna continue so I end up leaving the sales job I end up moving to London

00:37:42.180 and I start my show in London and when I start my show in London I end up having like probably an

00:37:48.840 80% black staff so again I don't care about race I don't want to see color it's not something I

00:37:55.100 really you know if somebody's good at their job why would I not hire them you know and it wasn't

00:38:02.980 till about a year a year and a half into hiring probably 10 20 black people

00:38:09.320 I got allegations of racism I was told I was told I was a colonizer I had a colonial mindset

00:38:22.000 whatever that means um and i had all of these youtubers i worked with throw me under the bus

00:38:32.000 because i interviewed somebody they disagreed with or i said things that they disagreed these

00:38:37.520 were people that worked with me and were i actually would have considered friends i hung out with them

00:38:42.000 even outside of doing the show um but it was like the first chance they got to and this was with a

00:38:49.360 100 almost 100 percent black staff they threw the racism allegation at me and and to be honest guys

00:38:56.680 when this happened I was devastated like I didn't really talk about it online um and I think I came

00:39:02.860 off really awkward because I just did not see it coming I literally I remember um I was playing

00:39:11.120 volleyball at the time and what happened was I interviewed this guy that was really controversial

00:39:15.540 and by the way I've always said I'll have anyone on the show

00:39:19.520 and they knew me when I was interviewing a thousand people

00:39:23.580 that were controversial like we would argue we would debate about stuff

00:39:27.140 and they basically disagreed with somebody that I had on

00:39:30.700 and so they end up

00:39:39.700 I remember they end up making like videos about me

00:39:43.000 and it wasn't I don't really care about having videos made about me by people I don't know but

00:39:48.880 it's one thing when like people you interacted with like every day or you you spent like a week

00:39:54.360 with um make like hit pieces like I don't think anybody understands like the pit in your stomach

00:40:01.280 that drops when somebody does that because anything anyone that knows you personally they

00:40:06.500 take it as gospel and this was like a canon event for me this was like I can't even put into words

00:40:12.920 how sad i was that this happened i didn't really care about my reputation um i didn't really care

00:40:19.240 like you know i already had a bad one doing what i do but what bothered me was like these were

00:40:24.940 people that i trusted um one of them i actually let stay in my family's house um because we had

00:40:33.040 like um he bought like there's something happened with the studio where he couldn't record and he

00:40:37.900 had to stay an extra day and so I said hey my family has an extra room you can just stay there

00:40:43.580 so you don't have to book an extra hotel that's nice that's actually going out of my way and maybe

00:40:48.620 maybe I shouldn't maybe I was dumb but I don't know I just grew up I grew up like that like my

00:40:53.220 family always would let people stay in our extra rooms like we house alcoholics that needed a place

00:40:59.320 to go with like relatives that had issues with alcohol drugs or just being young and needed to

00:41:04.600 get on their feet. So, not that that's, it was only a day, right? I'm not saying I'm like Mother

00:41:08.980 Teresa or anything, but do you know what it's like to bring somebody into your house and have

00:41:12.700 them make a hit piece? Do you know what that's like? And what they would do is they wouldn't

00:41:20.160 outright say I was racist, but they would elude it so hard that they might as well. They might as

00:41:25.180 well. I also had a co-host that I did this with for a year and a half. I had a really, one of my

00:41:33.500 staff stole a camera and I what I'm not trying to do is again these are generalizations not all

00:41:41.660 not all not all there was many of them that did not do this but I just never had the same

00:41:47.500 experiences with other cultures and this is just me being honest here I met other cultures I did

00:41:53.680 not have that same experience and I remember at the time like I don't think people realized how

00:42:01.100 much that really affected me I was bawling my eyes out crying because it just felt like all of these

00:42:08.240 people that I really tried to help like one of them one of them we had taken out to dinner like

00:42:14.200 him and this other girl that came out on our show we hosted them for like a week straight did all

00:42:19.780 this content and for about a year he made all these hit pieces on me taking things I said out

00:42:25.820 of contacts, just trying to make me look bad, racist, whatever, and just making fun of me for

00:42:31.020 a year. This was somebody like I'd spoken to. And so I understand that it's not like these people

00:42:42.680 owed me any loyalty, but I think there's like a basic decency that you kind of expect from people

00:42:48.840 when you go out of your way to be nice to them. And then I learned fast that you can't,

00:42:55.600 I'll tell you what.

00:42:57.980 And I would say that was my moment, personally, of black fatigue.

00:43:01.540 It wasn't really the BLM.

00:43:03.720 It was not that guy doing that in college.

00:43:06.080 It was not the guy that was calling fax lines at work.

00:43:11.520 I never really cared.

00:43:13.340 I mean, none of that really affected me too much.

00:43:16.240 It was when, and I always say the news hits your real life two to four years later, and

00:43:21.960 It was about four years after the BLM riots where now my personal life is

00:43:26.880 getting affected all because they disagreed with somebody I had on.

00:43:36.260 And one of them I actually tried to talk to behind the scenes and just say,

00:43:40.340 hey, like, what's your problem?

00:43:41.800 Like, you know, talk face-to-face, not on social media.

00:43:46.540 And my point of this is not to rehash the drama or bring it up.

00:43:50.340 I've moved on in my life.

00:43:51.960 Um, my point is that at some point, you know, you, you can't keep calling white people that

00:44:01.640 are nice to you racist and not expect us to get tired of it, especially when we're nice

00:44:05.780 to you.

00:44:10.720 Um, okay, let me keep going.

00:44:14.400 Um, on top of that, I got ambushed on the only like black owned network I went on.

00:44:20.100 you could say they didn't pay me and you saw it in the beginning of this they never paid me it's

00:44:25.120 been a year and a half um and the girl crashed out on me on live and they're just screaming

00:44:31.300 about how I'm a white woman and that's what they do like it's like they can scream at you about how

00:44:39.340 you're wrong for being white privileged what and you know what I am white privileged but

00:44:44.120 it's like but if I notice any patterns then I'm the bad guy and that's always how it goes

00:44:51.260 um on top of that I end up after these hit pieces have happened to me it damaged my reputation

00:44:59.600 actually so much that it was very awkward for me in normal life like people don't talk about that

00:45:04.820 aspect of the job where it's might not people might not outright bully you but when you go

00:45:10.500 to like volleyball and half the team's not talking to you magically after

00:45:14.500 this happens. It's very awkward for you in normal life.

00:45:22.280 And so at some point, you know, white people,

00:45:24.800 we really do get fatigued. We do.

00:45:28.880 Now, a lot of the pushback I get is, well, what about other races?

00:45:32.420 And look, there's things I am fatigued with white people on. Okay? There's things

00:45:36.480 I'm fatigued. We could go into other races, but, you know, this is

00:45:40.340 the topic today. So we're going to keep going. So, okay, let me keep going. Do you want to put

00:45:52.780 a zoom link for Doug in a second okay so you know I think what just keeps happening is what I've

00:46:11.500 noticed is with this topic they really do the same thing they do with women where they keep

00:46:17.480 gaslight and that's kind of what happened with year for years with white people they would keep

00:46:21.940 saying that it was you know that it was the white people that were racist and it was the white

00:46:27.100 people that you know we had done you know we were just attacking them or whatever but you know at

00:46:35.220 some point you know I and I would just say at some point you know white people get tired of

00:46:54.620 being abused for being nice and that's kind of what I see you know and I follow some of these

00:47:01.460 cases and I just don't understand it. Like, you know, they said that there was a fight that broke

00:47:08.640 out in a track meet. You know, fights happen at high schools. That happens all the time. You can

00:47:13.700 hit each other. Like, you know, people used to be able to fight at high schools and not be scared

00:47:18.300 that someone would have a weapon. And now, you know, a black kid stabs a white kid and he gets

00:47:23.660 half a million dollars raised. Like, what bullshit is that? It's bullshit that all these people

00:47:28.560 donated all this money to BLM what's changed what's different you know they just keep taking

00:47:34.140 advantage of white people's guilt because I would say generally we're not trying to hurt anybody

00:47:41.220 we're not trying to even see color but it's like they just keep milking this and milking it and at

00:47:47.580 At some point, we get tired.

00:47:59.440 You can tell me if he's on.

00:48:01.620 I know he wanted to give his two cents today.

00:48:05.240 Okay, no problem.

00:48:06.920 No problem.

00:48:17.580 Let me see what other notes.

00:48:47.580 I had on this. Black fatigue. Sorry. Black fatigue. So I don't know. And I'd like to say,

00:49:02.180 it's not like you think as a white person, I'll bring them on in a second. It's not like you think

00:49:08.780 that all black people, there's stuff I love about black people. And I really do. And I'd like to

00:49:13.820 make that very clear there is but it's just at a certain point you guys can't keep calling us

00:49:23.320 racist over everything I actually have a chart I made of how racism starts and we're gonna we're

00:49:29.020 gonna do it in a second you can you can bring it up but I'll so when you sit back down I'll get up

00:49:35.260 does that make sense yeah okay so and it's not like it's not like I'd like to be clear

00:49:43.000 There are things I love about black people.

00:49:45.120 There are.

00:49:46.680 You know, here we go.

00:49:51.440 I think they have a better sense of humor than white people.

00:49:54.420 I think they're more fun.

00:49:55.460 Like if I do street interviews, if I interview a white person, it's like a boring answer.

00:50:00.860 But if I interview a black person, I mean, they're a ton of fun.

00:50:04.860 You know, they're better at sports.

00:50:07.140 I love freestyling with black people.

00:50:12.000 I went to a cookout once in the hood, and it was a lot of fun.

00:50:15.380 I had a great time.

00:50:16.380 I got MVP of kickball.

00:50:20.700 They have the lowest suicide rate.

00:50:22.520 They do kill each other a lot, but they do have the lowest suicide rate,

00:50:26.000 and I do respect that.

00:50:28.860 Like, white people, we just, you know, we just off, but, you know.

00:50:32.760 It's like, they're like, if I'm going to go out,

00:50:34.720 I'm going to go out in, like, a shootout.

00:50:36.760 Like, I'm not taking myself out.

00:50:38.800 um but it's just like at some point you guys can't keep

00:50:44.920 calling us racist all the time and just expecting us to just take it um

00:50:52.540 no i don't it's not like

00:50:56.760 hello pearl big fan i have a i have a question unrelated to today's topic

00:51:03.620 maybe for some other days but i would love to know who are your female role models if any

00:51:08.800 Um, let me do my chart and then I'll bring on Doug.

00:51:23.800 Now, I do have the flowchart of racism. Now, you may be asking yourself, how does racism happen? Now, to be fair, there are some real racists, but I don't think people start that way.

00:51:47.260 we are seeing an influx of racism on twitter now again some of these are real racist but what

00:51:54.960 happened is you're nice to black people um then you're called racist stolen from attacked

00:52:04.140 and then there's black fatigue and then there's real racism and then you forget and then it just

00:52:12.060 keeps going. So, yeah, that's what we got here. Now we're going to bring on Doug MPA.

00:52:27.940 Hey, are you there? Hey, Doug. Hey, how's it going? I'm good. How are you?

00:52:33.660 I love this topic. So, um, are you sure? Are you sure? I'm scared. Sorry. No, no.

00:52:42.060 Someone in the chat said, Doug and PA, when did you turn against toxic Black culture? I said, I was never part of it. I was never part of it. You know, I've had Black fatigue for over 40 years.

00:52:54.920 when you're a person like me who comes from you know my family wasn't as well to do as pearls

00:53:00.620 when my family was pretty well to do we grew up in a nice neighborhood a prime youth white

00:53:04.980 neighborhood and i've had i've gotten it worse from my own race you know you you you talk white

00:53:12.500 you act white you get good grades you're just white white white white and guys i keep telling

00:53:18.120 you the only person um that has more black fatigue than white people are hard-working educated

00:53:26.020 law-abiding black people we're tired of it that's the thing you know it's bad when black people are

00:53:31.440 having black fatigue 100 100 and we're starting to see a shift where white people are speaking up

00:53:39.900 but then you see black people speaking up too you know this whole um you know no snitching kind of

00:53:46.360 thing where we have to protect the culture no that's over with it's over well you have more

00:53:52.100 black people who becoming will proudly admit to be conservatives on the right voting for trump

00:53:59.900 i think we're finally starting to see a cultural shift finally in my life yeah and it's like

00:54:07.940 do you know what it is it's the black people that don't do that stuff it it sucks they have to be

00:54:14.700 grouped in do you know what i mean it's like it's like you almost have to go to extra lengths to

00:54:20.400 prove you're not like that and it's unfortunate it's unfortunate but you can't you're not even

00:54:26.440 allowed to notice like i agree it's like um women make up these words the modern day sorcery are the

00:54:36.680 words that women make up to like redefine reality like um black women have this term

00:54:43.460 microaggression. It's the dumbest thing ever. So like, they'll

00:54:48.740 consider like, if anything that's based upon a stereotype, or

00:54:54.860 something that is perpetuated by black people, any way that white

00:54:58.580 people would respond is could be likely women will consider a

00:55:03.260 microaggression. But it's like, it's reality. You know what I'm

00:55:07.820 saying? Like, example, Pearl? Well, I'm not gonna put this on

00:55:12.340 you. But the average person

00:55:13.460 it doesn't matter what your race is if you're walking down the street you see four black dudes

00:55:18.260 standing on the corner you you're gonna cross the road i first you know what i forgot about

00:55:23.560 how mean black women were to me when i was in an interracial relationship oh man i forgot yeah boy

00:55:30.780 i forgot because i was so long ago but they were like there were times where they said things to

00:55:36.940 me in person and it was just like what doing it and same when we would post videos and stuff that

00:55:43.280 would be like the top comments would be like black women mad and it's just yeah or try being a black

00:55:49.240 guy dating white women oh man black women hate hate either one it's awful and then it's funny

00:55:57.120 because they'll praise serena williams marrying that dorky um uh reddit guy but i had a black

00:56:06.200 woman say that a black man marrying a white woman is betraying the race but a white man

00:56:12.360 marrying a black woman is a celebration of the black woman yeah and and the other thing is

00:56:20.120 they think black women think they can sometimes they they're just not all not all but at times

00:56:28.840 when I was doing interviews I mean they're just so mean like I mean if I was ever all out screamed

00:56:36.040 dad it was always a black woman like when britney renner like crashed out on me and they're saying

00:56:43.600 how i'm like wrong because i'm privileged and white as they're like screaming at me i'm like

00:56:48.720 do you not see the irony here i'm glad because guys i've been telling pro for years stop trying

00:56:56.660 to be made to feel bad about the fact that your dad worked hard to put you in a position where

00:57:01.720 you didn't have to where you had a head start in life i don't i would hate me too why do you feel

00:57:06.860 bad about people yeah i'm so tired of people holding that especially in the black community

00:57:13.160 like hood culture is supposed to be the culture if you didn't struggle if you weren't from the

00:57:18.160 hood if you were to dodge and bullets and and run away from the police well then you're not black

00:57:23.080 it's garbage do you know what the other thing they would do i'm i kind of moved on from this but the

00:57:28.380 news was giving me flashbacks because i really have moved on from this period of my life they

00:57:34.120 would get mad at me because i would bring too many black women on the show and they would say i was

00:57:37.560 racist because i brought on too many black women and they would say crazy things and it would make

00:57:42.820 them look bad and i and i was like so when you give black people opportunities you're called

00:57:48.780 racist if you don't you're called racist i'm like we literally cannot win you can't let me tell you

00:57:55.300 I'm like, what would be the perfect demographics for you?

00:57:58.800 And the thing is, they would always ask me why.

00:58:01.140 I'm like, they wanted to come on the show.

00:58:02.940 Black people love podcasts.

00:58:06.200 They love doing interviews.

00:58:08.280 And I think they're better at it.

00:58:10.300 If I'm being honest, they're way funnier.

00:58:12.740 Yeah, go ahead.

00:58:14.220 And honestly, so guys, I've moderated every single one of Pearl's panel shows.

00:58:20.900 You can go to Pearl's website, theodacitynetwork.com,

00:58:23.660 and become a member and watch all of her old

00:58:25.660 shows, so go over there. We'd love to have you over there.

00:58:29.180 It's

00:58:29.580 $10 a month, so go over there.

00:58:31.900 And

00:58:32.000 she would have recruiters, just recruit

00:58:35.660 whoever wanted to come on the show.

00:58:37.820 And who is the most

00:58:39.580 likely to come onto a podcast with

00:58:41.500 people that they don't know

00:58:42.880 and show their ass and act like

00:58:45.120 complete morons? Who?

00:58:48.440 Black women.

00:58:49.660 That's who. So you wonder why

00:58:51.520 there are so many black women on Pearl's show?

00:58:53.400 is because they can't wait to get in front of a camera and act a damn fool that's what what it was

00:58:59.480 yeah um i don't know when i did not i swear i it's not like i didn't notice race but i never

00:59:10.660 really paid attention or obviously and it wasn't that was such a canon event for people don't

00:59:16.540 understand how upset I was. Like, I'm sorry, Sarah, MTR, you are on my shit list forever, forever,

00:59:27.040 forever. Because it was just like, it was just so crazy because we were hanging out with both of

00:59:37.040 them the week. I remember when, like, when Sarah had his interview, his video scheduled about me

00:59:43.000 and it was the craziest video ever it accused me of like taking footage to hold over black people's

00:59:50.700 head that was the accusation that i was a call i had a colonial mindset and i was we were taking

00:59:56.920 footage at my birthday party to hold over black people's head and you know it's crazy he took

01:00:03.680 footage from that party and posted it on the internet yeah and i was like this is so crazy

01:00:09.960 And I remember seeing the video scheduled

01:00:12.740 and it said the truth about Pearl.

01:00:14.640 And I remember thinking,

01:00:16.440 oh, he would never,

01:00:18.840 it's going to be something positive.

01:00:20.400 He's going to stand up for me.

01:00:21.820 I remember thinking this.

01:00:23.240 I said this on the phone with my dad.

01:00:26.040 And my dad's like, are you sure?

01:00:29.000 And I'm like, no, he would never do me like that.

01:00:32.040 I was devastated.

01:00:33.720 I was devastated.

01:00:34.460 Yeah, I remember because

01:00:35.680 I remember you couldn't even watch the video

01:00:38.820 first because remember you called me and said hey can you watch this and tell me how bad it is

01:00:45.980 because you didn't even want to watch the video at first I remember and it and what they don't

01:00:51.640 understand is that traumatizes a person like I mean now look I judge people on a case-by-case

01:00:59.420 basis obviously like we're friends you're black like it's not like that but you you just don't

01:01:06.680 know who's going to do it and i feel the same way about women actually yeah this pro always says

01:01:12.120 it must be hard being being a successful educated black man sometimes because of

01:01:18.100 of what some black people do and i say well i feel the same well about you being a woman

01:01:23.120 how are you how can you stand being a woman sometimes i know i and that's why when people

01:01:31.480 like make generalizations about women when i interviewed a thousand i mean i i just saw what

01:01:37.100 they were talking about um yeah guys let me tell you so pearl's not having to show pearl's not in

01:01:49.200 any kind of denial that other races have issues we were talking about um when you saw that that

01:01:56.420 shooting at that church what race white guy conservatives yes yeah the guy that tried to

01:02:05.860 take out trump the guy that took out charlie kirk they're all so each race has has its issues but

01:02:13.300 we're talking about black fatigue right now and the past that a group of black people always get

01:02:20.260 is it's about the racism and the white supremacy and all this crap one of the biggest problems

01:02:27.220 with the black community in my opinion is that we're still so concerned with how we got here

01:02:34.580 that we don't want to figure out what we're going to do about it so when i was young i'd come up to

01:02:40.580 my dad and i'd say hey dad you know this happened this happened this happened and my dad would say

01:02:45.140 okay okay okay okay now what are you going to do about it because the work doesn't start until you

01:02:51.620 ask yourself with that question and there's too many blacks in america that want to talk about

01:02:57.140 the slavery and the jim crow and how racist white people were were in the past and even if you

01:03:05.220 accept all that what are you going to do about it how are you going to get on the field to

01:03:10.500 to score a touchdown how are you going to be successful well this is we're blocked with too

01:03:17.140 many black people where they don't want to figure out what they're gonna do to move forward and get

01:03:22.820 ahead and win go ahead well the other thing so we were always beat over the head with we were always

01:03:31.220 beat over the head and just said that we were these slave owners and when i found out that most

01:03:38.180 white people didn't even own slaves because my whole childhood they made it they would

01:03:44.500 all the media all the targeting was that white people were these slave owners that just ruined

01:03:51.540 black people's lives pretty much now i'm not saying there's not some truth to that but when

01:03:57.780 i found out like it was one percent of the white people that are in america today that are descendants

01:04:02.820 of slaves i was just like what why would they tell why would they paint that picture like that

01:04:09.940 go ahead well it's just like this whole thing oh yeah black people built america new york city

01:04:16.500 chicago um boston was not built by slaves i'm sorry it wasn't i'm saying i'm so tired of this

01:04:27.060 all the because because black women have great i'm sorry go ahead no no no i'm so sorry go ahead

01:04:32.500 go ahead i was gonna say black women have created this thing well women take credit for for everything

01:04:37.620 that doesn't really belong to them well they try to take credit away from men but like black women

01:04:43.060 have created this narrative that like black people just made everything just how women try to say

01:04:51.380 that they try to take credit away from men black women try to say oh yeah there's always a black

01:04:56.820 person responsible for all sorts of different stuff no there wasn't sorry no well the other

01:05:02.580 thing too i i didn't know the first slave owner was a black guy he like came from africa and that

01:05:08.980 was the like it wasn't as racial historically um as they taught us in schools and it's not like

01:05:19.060 i'm trying to downplay it obviously that should never have happened but you can't even talk about

01:05:25.220 the historical context without like you can't even talk about the historical context of slavery and

01:05:32.000 like the specifics about what happened without people getting mad at you and i just think it's

01:05:37.620 bullshit like why can't i investigate what happened you know they just get mad i'll do you

01:05:44.460 one better guys everyone in the chat everyone on the audacity site it is okay to be proud of who

01:05:52.140 you are and where you came from it is proud for you to advocate for your group if if you were a

01:05:57.500 white guy and say i want white guys i want to try i want to help as many white men to succeed as

01:06:04.300 possible well good for you if you're a white woman you want to um you want to help with white women

01:06:11.020 get ahead you don't owe any other group outside of the the demographic that you belong to anything

01:06:17.900 at all it's just like with black people if you want to just help help black people and get black

01:06:24.700 people ahead more power to you but it is okay for everyone to be proud of who they are where they

01:06:30.060 came from and advocate for their group and their group only i don't expect anything from white

01:06:35.660 people and it's funny because um that whole oscars is so white thing with last first off who watches

01:06:43.820 the oscars anyway but second up there's this campaign where like um black people wanted to see

01:06:51.020 50 of the oscars being won by black people like the expectation is that uh because there's black

01:06:58.700 people and there's white people that everything has to be 50 black when we're only 13 of the

01:07:04.140 population so anyway they have this oscar so white thing right so they studied all of the oscar wins

01:07:10.620 and found out that throughout the history of the Oscars,

01:07:14.840 13% of the Oscars had been won by Black actors and actresses,

01:07:19.700 which is the same percentage of the population.

01:07:24.620 Yeah.

01:07:26.900 Wow, that's crazy.

01:07:28.460 That was such a big campaign.

01:07:30.440 And it's just, I mean, all I can go off of is my personal experience

01:07:36.340 and what I've seen, but it just feels like,

01:07:39.680 and it's not every time because I have also had really great black people that have never done

01:07:49.220 me this way but there's always a percentage of black people that it's like they just bite the

01:07:57.760 hand that feeds them and I just there were so many that I gave opportunities to like one of

01:08:05.540 people i'm thinking of i mean we doubled his subscribers and he still made a hit piece on me

01:08:12.020 after there was another person who i mean they were living they made better money probably than

01:08:19.620 they've ever made and this person stole a camera from us and it's just like

01:08:27.380 you know and i just have not had that same experience with other races i haven't and

01:08:35.540 they try to criticize you and shame you for like what has happened in your life um but it doesn't

01:08:42.900 mean like it didn't happen you know yep i agree um i've been supporting pearl since the very

01:08:50.640 beginning and uh when this whole thing happened what she's talking about i know pearl's heart

01:08:57.800 and i just couldn't believe this was happening and also the the person that you had on your show

01:09:04.280 that started this whole thing you were the first major platform on youtube to have him on and then

01:09:09.700 guess what everybody else had him on after you did which which one are you talking about nick f

01:09:16.920 oh him yeah nick f yeah weren't you the first no yeah so they were mad because they were mad

01:09:22.420 because i had nick yeah nick f on um i was one of the firsts that went down i'd say some people

01:09:28.940 went harder well and the other thing too was there was like a clip he was mad about because

01:09:34.580 it was he nick doesn't agree with interracial dating right that's that's that's his opinion

01:09:41.960 obviously based on my life choices i don't have the same opinion but this girl that i was friends

01:09:48.620 with came on the show to debate with him about it and and she was she was being mean to him to

01:09:54.600 be honest she's being really rude and then he responds um and he makes a joke about her dating

01:10:02.760 the black guy but the thing is the thing is i warned her before coming on i said this is who

01:10:08.700 he is if you're not comfortable you don't have to whatever and everybody like was mad because i was

01:10:15.760 letting them debate and i didn't like stand up or do anything or whatever and i'm just i'm thinking

01:10:22.560 anyways sorry this this was so long ago i'm having like flashbacks but i just remember the other

01:10:30.800 youtuber who turned on me i could not he made like five videos it wasn't even just one video

01:10:38.880 he made about me he made like five ten videos i'm like do you have no shame and he would just take

01:10:44.920 things i said out of context and just gossip about me for months i'm like fuck you but and

01:10:51.300 And I took it personal because I honestly considered him a friend.

01:10:54.720 I didn't think he would do that.

01:10:56.560 I remember I was on my show, and that's when I learned you should never think YouTubers are your friends.

01:11:05.000 That was a lesson.

01:11:06.620 But I was on my show, and we talked before about the content, and I just didn't know what I was going to say

01:11:13.160 because everyone was crashing out about me having this, like, Nick F on.

01:11:16.780 and I just remember I like look down at my phone I see this flood of like people in my chat I look

01:11:23.660 down at my phone and it's freaking it I just see that he like made this video um this thumbnail

01:11:34.820 just making fun of me he took like the ugliest pictures ever um and he just texted me he's like

01:11:42.200 oh i had to stop the bleeding i'm like really you're that kind of person where uh because he

01:11:47.540 got pressure from his audience he's like i'm gonna throw you under the bus i'm like really

01:11:51.440 yeah yeah i'm like what what's talking about i'm like what is wrong with you and that's what i

01:11:56.780 realized these youtubers man they're snakes and i don't i don't care if they did not say this is

01:12:02.720 what they try to do they'll say oh we didn't call you a racist yeah you called me a fucking

01:12:06.740 colonizer what's the difference do you know what i mean are you you implied that i have some

01:12:11.160 learning to you and do and use this bullshit hr language like what is wrong with you

01:12:15.560 so before i deem someone a racist uh if they're white i look at if they have said anything that

01:12:27.340 i've never heard a black person say but with the with the racist swap because honestly like a lot

01:12:34.360 of people that you would deem as a racist that are white they're saying the same thing that i hear

01:12:39.140 black people say i'm dead serious but the races are swapped and once again i don't have a most

01:12:47.060 people that you hear have this racist rhetoric especially amongst men anton daniels said the

01:12:54.340 best even the most racist men will respect competency and hard work

01:13:01.860 guys become accomplished get yourself a highly valued skill highly valued trade

01:13:07.780 or how do you value education and make something of yourself and even guys on camera that will say

01:13:16.500 all this racist stuff they will respect you as a man and your contributions and your hard work

01:13:25.780 yeah but yeah black people i'm telling you we're tired the most you know i've

01:13:33.860 been having to deal with black fatiguing my entire life i remember um one of the jobs i took

01:13:42.100 um was full of a bunch of people that had gone to hbcus and they in the workplace they

01:13:52.500 intentionally separated the blacks that went to predominantly white institutions and then like

01:13:59.140 hbcus and guys only 10 percent of of black students go to hbcus all the rest go to predominant

01:14:07.540 predominantly white institutions and it's funny because on the west coast where i grew up

01:14:12.420 i'd never heard that term before so in the workplace they would if you were on a project

01:14:20.580 with someone that went to hbcu and you came to a disagreement they say oh well you went to a pwy

01:14:27.700 so uh i'm right and you're wrong and so a bunch of us blacks that went to a pwi we're like why

01:14:35.220 do we take this from these people they are intentionally separating us and trying to

01:14:40.260 parade this hbcu thing like they're blacker than we are or they're black this is more valid because

01:14:45.860 they went to a historically black institution no no so then then i look up up the numbers once

01:14:53.380 Once again, only 10% of African-American students go to HBCUs,

01:14:57.680 and HBCUs have some of the lowest graduation rates

01:15:01.120 and some of the lowest return on investment of any schools in the country.

01:15:06.800 That doesn't surprise me at all.

01:15:09.100 I saw them, like, twerking at graduation.

01:15:14.640 Yeah.

01:15:15.200 And I just, I'm just so tired of the evil, like, white men rhetoric.

01:15:21.340 and i think white people that's just how we feel it's been shoved down our throat for 10 years

01:15:25.500 15 years longer than that i mean i don't know that's as long as i remember um

01:15:31.240 you know and white guys are the least racist i would say really of any group in my experience

01:15:40.160 like if you if you really know rich white men like that really have a lot of like money and power

01:15:46.120 they do not care about race they because here's the thing they're so competent that it is so

01:15:52.720 difficult for them to just find somebody that's smart that those guys do not care they don't they

01:15:59.880 just want somebody that can get the job done um i have to push back a little bit pearly the only

01:16:06.060 time that these white guys are racist is when a black guy wants to marry their daughter

01:16:11.860 that's true but then but you know why right because look yeah but it's not like the white

01:16:19.700 girls are bringing home like they're bringing home gloctavians you'd be surprised man you'd be

01:16:26.620 surprised so it's only because you know look i just meant like from a hiring point of view yeah

01:16:34.540 yeah yeah like i mean they're just like they're like can you do the job

01:16:37.840 but then i'll say i don't even i don't even care if like

01:16:43.320 it's like why black women are trying to go for white men and white men are never going to marry

01:16:51.820 and have kids with black women in mass they'll sleep with them but why is because um white men

01:16:59.800 want children that look like them most men do right and so even if you're a rich and powerful

01:17:08.600 man you know you want your you know and you're white you want your kids to stay white but you

01:17:16.800 said with a lot of black people too you know a lot of black mothers don't want their sons

01:17:21.400 to marry a white woman because they want their their um their grandchildren to be black i'm just

01:17:28.600 saying is because once again

01:17:30.740 advocate for your own group

01:17:32.340 and don't expect any group to do

01:17:34.520 anything for you or have

01:17:35.840 any kind of empathy or give you anything

01:17:38.520 I put that

01:17:40.440 aside a long time ago and my life

01:17:42.500 has been a lot better

01:17:43.660 yeah

01:17:45.200 that's all I gotta say on the topic

01:17:48.460 yeah I'm

01:17:50.420 fatigued

01:17:51.080 we are fatigued

01:17:54.440 I'm trying to think what was my

01:17:56.500 biggest black

01:17:58.420 yeah what was your biggest black fatigue moment fatigue moment um well uh high school was all

01:18:06.500 black fatigue because you know i got good grades i was kind of a nerd you know i grew up in on the

01:18:12.100 west coast so you know i was all about rock music and you know and electronic music and stuff and

01:18:18.260 it was a tabletop um dice game stuff like that um what was my biggest book oh you know i i guess

01:18:28.580 an overall concept is this when i graduated college and i became a professional all throughout

01:18:37.280 my career my um my worst enemy in a professional or academic setting this is at a job or in school

01:18:47.820 was another black person who do you have a specific story yeah so um when i was uh

01:19:00.700 just like in general so the worst boss i ever had was at my job two jobs ago and he

01:19:08.460 He was a Black guy, and he literally said he was the worst boss ever.

01:19:17.540 And I asked him why he had that managerial style, and he said that his mentor, who was

01:19:23.840 another Black person, said that if your employees don't hate you, then you're not doing your

01:19:30.640 job as a manager.

01:19:31.900 So he would intentionally go out of his way to make his employees' lives miserable, Black

01:19:38.460 guy danny the worst boss i ever had was a black man danny i'm sorry pearl i'll chill i tried hard

01:19:44.940 to get banned from don lemon's stream today and he let me speak however he called me out

01:19:49.260 don lemon oh yeah didn't he say something crazy i don't know i mean i just have so many stories

01:19:58.860 like the most athletic

01:20:02.680 trying to think that like on my teams that i've been on over the years there'd be like two types

01:20:13.600 of black girls there'd be like the athletic ones that work hard and they would do really well but

01:20:19.140 like half of them would just piss away their athleticism yeah like this one girl just ate

01:20:24.500 grilled cheese every day and she was she was better than me she was in the same position

01:20:28.660 And she was so athletic.

01:20:30.160 She jumped higher.

01:20:31.140 But I'd always beat her out because she just kept it.

01:20:33.460 She got fat.

01:20:34.420 She kept eating grilled cheese.

01:20:37.320 My mother's had a woman that she worked with.

01:20:41.400 And they moved from California to where we were.

01:20:45.960 And her daughter was a star track athlete.

01:20:48.620 Black woman.

01:20:49.700 Straight A's.

01:20:51.160 And so she moved to this new high school where it was predominantly black.

01:20:56.600 and the girls

01:20:58.820 on the track team

01:21:00.480 found out that she had really good grades

01:21:02.460 and just kept bashing on her

01:21:04.780 making fun of her

01:21:06.840 because she had good grades

01:21:07.980 so her daughter was getting D's

01:21:10.840 and C's in school

01:21:12.420 to fit in with the black girls

01:21:14.500 on her track team

01:21:16.120 that's crazy actually

01:21:19.020 the mom was like what are you doing

01:21:20.380 she's like I'm tired of them making fun of me

01:21:22.260 but I want to keep running track

01:21:24.320 but I don't want them to make fun of me

01:21:26.120 So she would rather tank her own grades to fit in with Shaniqua and Bunkisha.

01:21:33.780 How sad is that?

01:21:36.120 Yeah.

01:21:38.100 And it's not like anybody wants to be prejudiced, right?

01:21:43.660 Nobody wants to do that.

01:21:46.140 Nobody wants to be racist.

01:21:47.680 You know, this isn't, and most people will give anybody a chance as long as you're nice.

01:21:54.380 Most people, I would say, operate in somewhat good faith, but it's just at some point, calling white people racist, it's not working anymore.

01:22:06.740 People don't care. People are done. Go ahead.

01:22:09.880 I would go on to say, even if they're, what are you going to do about it?

01:22:15.020 You have to figure out what you're going to do about adversity in your life.

01:22:25.020 white people you're gonna run into racist white people you you're gonna run into racist black

01:22:29.340 people asians hate black people i i would argue asians probably asians probably hate black people

01:22:38.060 more than white people hate black people have you seen how asian hair shop owners

01:22:44.620 treat black women well sometimes rightfully so because because they steal the weave out

01:22:48.780 out of their shops a lot of the time but still yeah that's the other thing they always say that

01:22:56.220 like we want to be black but they're always wearing white girls hair so it's like why do you

01:23:01.220 no i'm serious why are you wearing white people's hair if you like we want to be black

01:23:06.460 they're like oh because you use lip filler i'm like i don't i don't really think it looks the

01:23:14.760 same i won't lie to you guys like i just don't think our filler lip i i do i could go on a rant

01:23:22.540 about white women i i really could do that too and we have like our lips filled and whatever

01:23:29.320 but i just i don't think that lip filler lips look like black girl i don't i don't think it

01:23:36.440 looks the same i really don't yeah yeah it's uh i'm just glad that with um you know ever since

01:23:47.580 trump got re-elected everything is kind of correcting itself and we're actually able to

01:23:52.720 have could you imagine having had this type of show like a year and a half ago oh i wouldn't

01:23:58.460 have did it a year and a half i i saw like three other channels not get kicked off so i was like

01:24:03.540 i'll just say my experience yeah and i mean i don't know this was a canon event for me

01:24:10.340 this really was a canon event um and you know a lot of people are saying why pearl didn't conduct

01:24:17.900 the interview right or whatever you know maybe i didn't or maybe i they think i should have did it

01:24:23.100 a different way because but do you really like do you really have that little decency that if

01:24:31.020 you know somebody and have interacted with them personally that gives you the right to bully them

01:24:36.440 for a year and a half really like somebody that was actually nice to you let you stay in their

01:24:42.180 house really yeah truly that that's what you because you don't agree with how they did an

01:24:48.600 interview truly really so yeah well you kept your head up this whole time pearl and you you made it

01:24:58.380 through and you know you you have your supporters that i can support you no matter what i'm one of

01:25:03.180 them yeah no look at i i get a little emotional talking about this to be honest like i i had a

01:25:09.700 i was kind of getting kind of sad halfway because when i think about it it just shocked me i've

01:25:15.760 never really i can't imagine how you guys go through it with your wives yeah because i i was

01:25:22.720 not romantically invested in any of these people but i just did not see it coming i really did it

01:25:30.160 i did not i did not see this coming so yeah i just have one more thing i want to say because

01:25:37.840 someone keeps putting that that black people are responsible for 57 of the crime that's that's

01:25:45.460 violent crime because here's the thing as a black fan i have to eat that statistic yes black people

01:25:52.460 are responsible for 55 percent of violent crime but guys like i said earlier your favorite

01:25:59.800 your favorite conservative influencers if anyone is going to take them out it's going to be a white

01:26:06.100 guy white men are like 75 percent of the sex offender registry 90 percent of white collar crime

01:26:13.800 is perpetuated by white people most mass shooters are white most school shooters are white white

01:26:21.400 people have their problems too so uh just make sure to look at all the stats guys because once

01:26:30.660 again that church shooter whenever you see someone shooting up someplace the guy that shot up the

01:26:36.780 freaking nf uh nfl headquarters the guy that shot up the church all white guys the las vegas shooter

01:26:44.520 remember that the guy that shot all those people from that hotel room so everyone has their issues

01:26:53.320 but yes black people commit 55 of the violence yeah but the difference is we can say that about

01:26:59.640 white people i mean we can't say it now but i'm saying the last decade we haven't been able to

01:27:04.200 say it you know it's kind of changing now but even these topics still make me a little bit uneasy

01:27:11.560 you know what i mean i'm like absolutely the opportunity says this crime that you're talking

01:27:17.160 about are too complex for for black people hilarious okay well that's all i got today on

01:27:26.760 this topic um i may have more this week we'll we'll see but if you want to go to the audacity

01:27:34.040 network.com there are certain streams i do guys where i i am risking my channel to some extent

01:27:41.560 I would love to bring some people back on,

01:27:45.400 but we need to get more people on theaudacitynetwork.com.

01:27:50.040 You know, we could actually do once a week YouTube sessions again,

01:27:54.120 but they just never got any traction.

01:27:56.220 If you guys want me to teach you YouTube again once a week,

01:27:59.700 I could totally do it,

01:28:00.920 but I kept doing the streams and no one was coming,

01:28:03.820 so I was just like, okay, you know.

01:28:06.860 the um but yeah we could do them on the audacity network.com if you want to do it again let me

01:28:14.020 know in the comments doug mpa you got anything else um yeah i really appreciate you i really

01:28:23.160 appreciate you doing this topic and guys once again you're gonna see a lot more white creators

01:28:30.300 covering this topic and they are perfectly entitled to do so because the only people that

01:28:37.360 have more black fatigue than the white people you see on camera are the black people you see on

01:28:43.240 camera can you do a topic and i could talk about the muslims coming in i lived in a very muslim

01:28:49.620 area i try to stick to stuff i have real life experience with not but i could talk about that

01:28:56.660 a different day. Um, thanks for coming in Doug MPA. I, I, I knew you'd want to comment on this

01:29:03.400 topic. Yeah, this is a really good one. Thank you. Thanks for calling in. Um, guys, make sure

01:29:09.620 you like the video. Um, if you're angry, please don't shoot me. Please God, I just have a talk

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Let's Talk About Black Fatigue ｜ Pearl Daily

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