00:02:15.920I'm getting into pantry organization and getting systems in place so I can easily cook better
00:02:26.080I think that's like the final boss of cooking when you're like I need to fix this system it's
00:02:31.260not just one thing. It's like the full system. Finished my guitar book. They're taking down
00:02:38.380the basketball court at my gym. Sad. Nothing I can do. I think it's over. I have about
00:02:44.220two weeks left of my only social life really here. I guess I'll have to find a new way
00:02:50.220to make friends. It is what it is, right?
00:03:01.260I think I'm getting too disconnected from normal society, right? I think, I think I've been able to
00:03:09.520talk freely for a little bit too long, just a couple years too long, because I'll say,
00:03:19.380I'll go back, you know, I'm, I'm in my cave, right? I'm in my lair.
00:03:22.620I don't really like go anywhere else much other than my layer, you know?
00:03:34.440It's like, it's usually just my, um, here, right here.
00:03:41.440And then the gym, but I was at the gym the other day and
00:03:46.760I was talking to somebody about women spending too much money.
00:03:51.640and um i was talking about how a lot of men wouldn't be in debt from their credit cards
00:03:56.960um like a lot of men wouldn't have debt if they could just take away their woman's credit card
00:04:02.100and the guy's like oh um i i like my wife's spending or something like that and i was just
00:04:07.580thinking why are we in a world where we can't just admit water is wet the sky is blue women are big
00:04:13.840fat whores that spend too much money and bring nothing to society and are pretty useless and
00:04:18.560um I mean like why can't I just say that normally without you know white knighting
00:04:24.680just seems like everyone's getting really really weird I gotta find my um and it's also you know
00:04:37.160I was thinking about also how men care about like men being good people but women love criminals and
00:04:43.800bad people. And therefore, the incentive is going to be that now women that do terrible things are
00:04:50.520going to get money and power. Like there was some rich chick who scammed like all of the elites
00:04:55.820in New York City or something. I guess she just got out of jail. And now she's famous and becoming
00:05:02.600a celebrity. And I don't know who Sky King is. I didn't know till recently.
00:05:13.800If women and men are equally bad, then why don't women and men make equally bad decisions, right?
00:05:35.400The chat always distracts me. Do you know what I mean? It's just, it is what it is.
00:05:43.800what else do I want to talk about? Oh, I've had positive experiences with Facebook Marketplace.
00:05:51.980Everyone's told me how I'm going to have a terrible experience, but it's been pretty good
00:05:56.880so far. Um, like nobody's really said they were coming and didn't come yet.
00:06:03.200I've sold a few things that I'm like, Oh, get rid of this junk. I sold the lamp for ungodly cheap
00:06:10.160today. It was like five bucks, but I was like, I do not need this lamp. I just, I think I'm,
00:06:29.440I was thinking about how I've always felt like I thought deeper about things than other people.
00:06:39.120i don't know i don't know maybe maybe you know as a woman i know i'm prone to be narcissistic but
00:06:47.600do other people think of this stuff like do they think about how
00:06:53.520women are ruining everything in society like why am i the only woman that seems to notice do other
00:06:58.160women not notice because i'm just like guys i don't know how you could be alive past like 25
00:07:06.560and not notice that we're retarded. All right. So let's get into the topic. So today we're going
00:07:16.620to talk about Sky King. Now, last night I got on TikTok and I accidentally stayed up till four in
00:07:24.240the morning. It's why I kind of look homeless today because I watched this Sky King video
00:07:30.480like probably 30 times i could not stop watching this video on sky king so sky king was this guy
00:07:37.900who did bags at the airport uh you guys know i'm bad with names you guys are gonna he was one of
00:07:43.720those guys that takes the bags and throws them into wherever the hell the bags go on the on the
00:07:50.020thing i'm bad with names okay take it or leave it so he was a low status guy and low status men just
00:07:57.880they're not treated the best by society. A lot of times high status men don't really understand
00:08:04.580what they're going through. A lot of times high status men just tell them to buckle up their
00:08:08.260bootstraps and be better. High status men never take their issues seriously with women. Women
00:08:14.160can treat them like shit. And the high status men are like, well, what are you talking about?
00:08:17.980They're amazing to me. Yeah. Ground crew baggage handlers. Yeah.
00:08:22.680and um i guess one day he just crashed out and he stole a plane and this normal guy took a plane
00:08:35.940decided he was going to kill himself and just rode this giant plane around for like two hours
00:08:42.240and then crashed it on an island and before he died and this is what i mean men even low status
00:08:50.680men, this is how I feel. And this is just anecdotal. I believe that most men are insanely
00:09:00.200intelligent at something. Now I had a relative that was not seen as the most intelligent person
00:09:08.080in the world. I'll just say this. They were not, the family kind of believed this person was not
00:09:12.040that smart. But this person, like one day I got him talking about, I think it was like rocks or
00:09:20.180some some like something that i just never would have cared about in my life do you know what i
00:09:25.500mean like rocks like whatever and listening to this guy talk about like it was either raw i think
00:09:33.940it was history like the dirt levels on whatever again i barely remember because it was just so
00:09:41.160outside of my interest but i remember sitting there and thinking everyone thinks this guy's
00:09:44.540kind of dumb um but this is like something that nobody else would ever know like this is really
00:09:51.260intelligent and even men that like are lower maybe status in society or don't have high paying jobs
00:09:58.220they seem to like be really good at something and i don't see this with women like i don't see women
00:10:05.600if women are low status like fat losers right um or even high status women where whose debt hasn't
00:10:12.800caught up to them yet. They have like no skills. And I've noticed that even low status men, like
00:10:26.860if you put them in the right environment, sorry, I don't want to say it like that, but like even
00:10:31.160men that are quiet or whatever, a lot of times, um, like in the right environment with a little
00:10:37.320encouragement, they're like funny. Like it's like that quiet guy and you bring them around his
00:10:41.440friends. Um, and then all of a sudden you're like, he's like a charismatic, funny. And you're just
00:10:50.580thinking, you know, if you acted like this, normally you'd probably get some bitches. Do
00:10:57.340you know what I mean? Like you would get a ton of like, I mean, women, ladies in the chat. Have
00:11:04.180you ever seen that? Like you have a male friend that you just would never, but then you see him
00:11:08.080in a different environment and you're like, huh? I mean, usually once you're in a box,
00:11:12.300it's very tough to move for us. But like occasionally that box moves. Cause we're like,
00:11:18.880Oh, I didn't, I didn't know. I didn't know what you were like when you weren't being a simp.
00:11:25.340Right. Like, I didn't know what you were like when you weren't simping the fuck out. I didn't,
00:11:29.920I didn't even know, like, you know what I mean? Like,
00:11:32.600I don't know. I don't know if that makes sense. And this is just like in general, right? Men,
00:11:44.220a lot of times it seems like, especially white guys, society just hasn't given them the tools
00:11:49.860to thrive. It just seems like that, right? Because they go to school and it's a completely
00:11:55.780female-centric education system. It's completely catered to women. Like, for example,
00:12:02.600I kind of thought like a man in high school in a way, I would always skip my first and second
00:12:09.880period. And I'd always skip my first and second period because, um, I could get good grades
00:12:15.340without going. And this is kind of how men think, like, why would I waste my time if I don't have
00:12:20.300to go? And I could still put like, to the point, my English teacher tried to fail me because I
00:12:25.100would still do good on the tests. Um, but I wouldn't show up to class. And I'm like, it's
00:12:29.680not my fault that you're not teaching me anything i don't know you know what i mean like anyways
00:12:35.060but but that's that's um that's like a male way to think and when i i and this is kind of a bad
00:12:44.380example because i mean i was kind of being an ass right in a way but in a way like men don't
00:12:53.400want to waste their time and the school system requires men to waste their time it's required
00:12:59.120like you because attendance is um a lot of times part of grades that benefits women because women
00:13:05.040will show up on time but we can't figure out the solution to anything and i'm sure it's probably
00:13:14.800frustrating just watching women be handed things is why i think half the guys in the rp space they're
00:13:21.600just not big fans of me and i and i can understand it right a lot of these men have built courses but
00:13:26.640i'm just a girl talking about her observations and i have more subs than rollo tamat that's not fair
00:13:32.960right he's way smarter more intelligent you know wait wait but you know that's just kind of how
00:13:40.400society is set up and it just seems like society is not set up for men and average men to showcase
00:13:50.480what they're good at because i this is a gut feeling but i feel like a lot of times if the
00:13:58.000reins were let off and women just let men have the jobs take over you know take over a lot of things
00:14:06.960um that men would just take off and they could just fix a lot of problems you know
00:14:20.480i got tired of going to school i literally christmas tree and passed the ged test yeah
00:14:27.800and like i met someone um at my gym and he told me that he didn't know he was smart he was like
00:14:36.660a dishwasher he was this guy was a dishwasher dishwasher and then he randomly took um he's
00:14:44.760white guy dishwasher whatever he randomly took the air traffic controller test
00:14:49.580and then that's like a very difficult high iq test i can't remember what percent of people
00:14:57.380passed but it's a very small minority randomly took it didn't study and passed
00:15:02.100as a waiter right with like a psych degree
00:15:07.620it just seems like that's something that only happens to white men because if a black guy's
00:15:14.240brilliant or a woman's brilliant there's so much attention so much credit given to them
00:15:18.580only white men and I've you know anecdotally I find white guys like this all the time where they
00:15:24.840just you know they're not really doing that well in life not bad but like you know it's just it
00:15:34.000just seems like how smart they are they should be further in society you know
00:15:39.760women dominated all the HR departments and hired all submissive Indians to secure power. I'm sure
00:15:59.280they did. And I meet like, um, I meet men like this all the time where they're just not,
00:16:04.240they're not that high in society, but it seems like they should be further.
00:16:22.900So anyways, um, this guy steals a plane, right? And before he dies,
00:16:32.620he does a double barrel roll and i don't know anything about planes but this guy just randomly
00:16:39.360played video games and learned how to fly a plane i'm going to react to the video
00:16:43.360but i just couldn't this guy was a normal guy he was married he had kids he was doing the baggage
00:16:51.700thing. And, um, he just crashes out, does an incredible, um, pilot trick and then kills
00:17:04.560himself. And you almost start like, you're almost watching that being like, why aren't
00:17:08.900you a pilot? Why aren't you? I mean, if you could, if you're intelligent enough and listening
00:17:15.220to him talk, he's like funny, he's like cracking jokes, he seems confident. It's like, why
00:17:20.020was this guy a baggage guy and I think that maybe that's part of like what it is it's like
00:17:28.080it's got to be really like okay now again this is not the same I remember when I was um a sophomore
00:17:36.680in college okay I transferred in from I my freshman year in college I went to one school
00:17:41.640and I was freshman of the year all conference but I was bullied kind of bad on my volleyball team
00:17:46.200the girls just for whatever reason didn't like me I was kind of cocky I thought I was better than all
00:17:51.140of them in a way and I kind of was so it didn't help right I got all these accolades I'd get all
00:17:56.060tournament like every other tournament you know and these girls just did not like me they did not
00:18:04.280whatever I did they did so I transferred school I probably shouldn't have in hindsight but I went
00:18:09.260this new school and um the coaches didn't recruit me i just transferred but i was competing with a
00:18:16.540girl who um she could touch 10 feet tall but she just wasn't that good so she could jump really
00:18:25.500really high and i could jump to 9 10 but my bounce like i've never was very flexible now that i'm
00:18:31.260older i know i thought it was genetic back then but i just couldn't bounce really quick but i
00:18:37.180remember there were times when i hit like 600 which is really high like a middle 300 is is like
00:18:44.220a 300 kill percentage but there were times when i hit 600 or i got all tournament um at this new
00:18:50.380school and the coaches would just bench me because they thought that this other girl was going to be
00:18:55.100really good someday because she could jump high and she had like potential right they saw more
00:18:58.700potential in her than me um and this one i worked so hard and it didn't matter like do you know what
00:19:06.700it's like to get all tournament off the bench like they they tried to sit me the girl sucked
00:19:12.700they put me in i get all tournament off the bench and um it didn't matter what i did it did not
00:19:20.460matter how i played they would not start me over her and she ended up quitting like two days before
00:19:25.900the ncaa tournament i was so pissed regardless that's the most frustrated i think i ever was
00:19:31.500in my life when it was like because it just i felt so out of control like it didn't matter how hard
00:19:37.020i worked it didn't matter how i performed they just did not see it and i was so like i just
00:19:43.740remember this anger like bubbling in me oh my god i outworked her oh my god yes um for women i can
00:19:53.660always outwork women um but i was thinking about how that feeling has to be how men feel for their
00:20:04.460whole lives because women and minorities especially white matter just given you just watch them being
00:20:10.060like given things and you are like working your ass off well they're just given things you know
00:20:19.340It's got to be frustrating. Now, I don't know. I don't know if that's what like made this guy do.
00:20:24.100I don't know. Um, yeah. And I did beat her out at the end, but it was like, it was, it was like
00:20:32.380after, oh my God, it was like hell on earth. And then the next year I got all conference again,
00:20:37.420I was so pissed. Okay. So I actually, I would love, um, Doug MPA. I want him to explain why
00:20:44.720he thinks this guy committed suicide. Because I can only speculate, but when I think of men that
00:20:50.340commit suicide, they're going through a divorce. They're going through a divorce. They're young
00:21:02.660guys with nothing to lose. This guy had friends. This guy was married. He loved his wife and he
00:21:09.100just, you know. The tragic story of Sky King. In 2018, Richard Russell made news headlines for
00:21:17.360stealing and subsequently crashing a 76 passenger plane straight out of Seattle-Tacoma International
00:21:24.080Airport. He since attained the moniker Sky King. Many wondered how he managed to keep the plane
00:21:33.140in the air without any formal flight training. Others asked what would motivate him to do such
00:21:38.160a thing in the first place. Here's what we don't know. Who was Richard Russell? Richard Russell
00:21:44.840was a ground service agent for Horizon Air, a subsidiary of Alaska Airlines, who infamously
00:21:51.840stole and fatally crashed an airplane, earning the moniker Sky King. According to his blog,
00:21:57.560Russell was born in Key West, Florida, and moved to Wasilla, Alaska at the age of seven.
00:22:05.280Russell met his future wife, Hannah Stasener, while attending Southwestern Oregon Community College in Oregon.
00:22:14.740The couple ran a bakery for three years before moving to Summer Washington to be closer to family.
00:22:19.660We consider ourselves bakery connoisseurs and have to try a new one every place we go, Russell wrote.
00:22:27.580Russell's job with Horizon Air allowed him to travel and visit family in Alaska more frequently.
00:22:32.260While working for Horizon as a ground service agent, Russell also attended Washington State University, graduating with a degree in social sciences in 2017.
00:22:42.780Once I earned my bachelor's in social sciences, I will either seek management position where I'm at now or possibly join the military as an officer, Russell wrote at the age of 27.
00:22:52.540Russell Richard Russell's unorthodox unauthorized flight from Seattle Tacoma Airport on August 10th
00:23:02.4402018 at 2 36 p.m. Ground Service Agent Richard Russell arrived on a Seattle Tacoma International
00:23:09.280Airport for his scheduled shift of towing planes and cargo for Horizon Air at 7 19 Russell climbed
00:23:16.140inside a Horizon Air Q400 aircraft being in the cockpit was nothing new for Russell who had spent
00:23:21.920the past three and a half years towing planes around the airport and knew how to operate the
00:23:26.660plane's auxiliary power unit and maneuver air craft on land. But that evening, he decided to fly.
00:23:33.940At 7.33 p.m., Russell took off from the airport. For the next one hour and 13 minutes, Russell,
00:23:39.620who had no formal flight training, flew around the Seattle area visiting Mount Rainier and the
00:23:44.960Olympic Mountains. These guys are gorgeous. Holy smokes, he said over the radio. He also tried some
00:23:50.520tricks. Hey, pilot guys. Hey, pilot guy. Can this thing do a backflip, you think? Russell asked a
00:23:57.280nearby pilot. After a successful barrel roll, Russell refused to land the plane and said,
00:24:02.620I was hoping, I was kind of hoping that was going to be it, you know. At 8.46 p.m., his plane crashed
00:24:08.700on Keytron Island in Pudget Sound and Russell died. He was 28 years old. According to an FBI
00:24:17.340police report or press report. Russell's crash was intentional. If the pilot had wanted to avoid
00:24:23.200impact with the ground, he had time and energy to pull, pull the column back, raise the nose and
00:24:28.320initiate a climb. The press, the press release reads. So why didn't he? Russell's death came
00:24:33.820as a shock to his family and questions remain about his motivations. Here's what we do and
00:24:39.720don't know about the incident. Did Russell know how to fly a plane? Russell did not have a pilot's
00:24:44.960license or any formal training. However, through his job, he had basic knowledge of how to start
00:24:48.840a plane. When an air traffic controller asked Russell if he felt comfortable flying the plane,
00:24:53.640he responded, it's a blast, man. I played video games before, so you know. I know what I'm doing
00:24:58.620a little bit. According to the FBI, Russell also searched for flight instruction videos online,
00:25:04.020but his flight knowledge was limited. When an air traffic controller asked Russell if he was able to
00:25:09.060tell his altitude, Russell said, I have no idea what all that means. I wouldn't know how to punch
00:25:13.800it in. Russell's death was ruled as a suicide. After its investigation, the medical examiner's
00:25:21.040office noted that there is sufficient evidence to conclude that the death was intentional.
00:25:25.920Russell made several statements during the flight that suggested his intention to crash,
00:25:30.620including, I'm going to try to do a barrel roll, and if that goes good, I'm just going to nose down
00:25:34.720and call it a night. Did Russell have an accomplice? No. Russell worked alone to steal
00:25:39.520and crash the aircraft. According to the FBI, extensive investigative activity failed to reveal
00:25:45.660any additional subjects involved the planning or execution of an unauthorized flight. Why did
00:25:52.180Russell steal and crash the plane? Although Russell's motivations remain unknown, there are
00:25:56.280several theories as to why he may have stolen and crashed the aircraft. Fear of imprisonment. During
00:26:02.220the flight, Russell expressed concern about the legal consequences of his actions. This is probably
00:26:08.000jail time for life, huh? I mean, I hope it would be for a guy like me. Fuel anxiety. Throughout his
00:26:14.400flight, Russell expressed concern that he would run out of fuel or that something was wrong with
00:26:18.320the plane. I've got to stop looking at that fuel because it's going to go down quick, he said.
00:26:23.000Physical discomfort and disorientation. Russell experienced lightheadedness and dizziness during
00:26:27.960his flight and even threw up at one point. Mental health issues. Although the FBI investigation did
00:26:33.340not find evidence that Russell was suicidal prior to his flight. He hinted at mental health
00:26:38.980struggles in the air. I'm just a broken guy with a few screws loose, I guess, but I never knew it
00:26:43.780until now. Did Russell like his job? Russell enjoyed the travel benefits of his job with
00:26:48.740Horizon Air, including trips to Alaska to visit his family, but he also complained about being
00:26:53.440underpaid. Russell's team was paid below sea tax standard 15 an hour minimum wage, a fact he
00:27:00.640mentioned in the air. Minimum wage, we'll chalk it up to that. Maybe that will grease some gears
00:27:06.580a bit with the higher ups. The Richard Russell who stole a plane in 2018 is not to be confused
00:27:15.780with Senator Richard Russell who died in 1971 at the age of 73. Okay, they're just going to
00:27:22.540talk about that. Okay. Now we're going to watch the video. Um, let me see.
00:53:08.760Tyler Durden said a lot of guys talk to themselves
00:53:11.800and they do stuff, or they're kind of mentally ill,
00:53:15.620but the guy from Fight Club was the guy that actually ran with
00:53:19.380like a split personality a lot of guys related to to sky king you're just on the nowhere train
00:53:27.360and sky king he decided to get off the train once again guys i don't think that you should
00:53:32.600take yourselves out once again if you find a purpose and a passion or you divorce that
00:53:37.480that has her her boot on your neck you you can live a good life guys but he just decided you
00:53:44.660know for his thoughts to turn into action but there are plenty of men who think like sky can
00:53:50.600every day for 20 30 years while they're going into the coal mines while they're climbing the
00:53:55.900power poles you know coming home to some bitch yell it and scream at him yeah and there's no
00:54:02.700resources either because i mean before the red pill content actually that's actually a good
00:54:08.200question for you do you think there's been an increase in resources for men over the last 20
00:54:13.860years because of the red pill like do you think it's better for a guy today than it was like 10
00:54:18.42020 years ago the same or worse so the key to red pill is men are are better equipped to make
00:54:29.460decisions for them than the 50 years ago because here's the thing men are creatures of action we're
00:54:36.500gonna act but remember society wants men emasculated and ignorant and dumb because masculine uh
00:54:46.820intelligent well-informed men society can't get away with a lot of stuff men hold people
00:54:53.460accountable men men are disciplined we impose structure law order and and that's even better
00:55:04.500when we have the knowledge to be able to make good decisions. Women can't be doing what they're
00:55:09.940doing. Society can't be doing what they're doing if it wasn't for so many emasculated, ignorant,
00:55:18.120stupid, unproductive men. Yeah. And I don't think a man can really be blindsided the way he used to
00:55:25.640be. I guess maybe some men will simp through it all. Right. But like, I don't think a man
00:55:33.480getting married today can say that he didn't see it coming but a guy yes 30 40 years ago
00:55:39.440like do you know what i'm saying like the he a guy today i mean he's probably seen his mother
00:55:45.420be a bitch his grandmother be a bitch and his great-grandmother be a bitch you know maybe the
00:55:49.720great-grandma wasn't but like my grandma separated from they weren't divorced but my grandparents
00:55:55.040were separated before she died you know because she wouldn't listen to him you know go ahead
00:56:00.980Well, think about this. So, believe it or not, there are less black men getting black women pregnant and making them single mothers than like 20 years ago.
00:56:15.960and even if uh a young black boy or a black man growing up didn't have a father in the house
00:56:25.320he's seen uh his sisters his mother his aunts his grandmas who were all single mothers
00:56:33.720you know getting dicked down and he's like i don't want to do that
00:56:37.240so you know um interacting with women and their foolishness can still make men change the
00:56:47.960decisions and how they will they navigate through life and so and here's the thing guys
00:56:55.000channels like pearls to channels like mine and other red pill channels that i know you
00:57:00.120wouldn't say oh yeah just don't get married don't have kids that's the reality is in my lifetime
00:57:06.360because i'm in my mid 40s in my lifetime we're not going to see a below 50 percent marriage rate
00:57:12.600guys are still going to get married and still going to have kids the goal is like terrence
00:57:18.440pop's goal terrence pop wants to save as many lives as he can because his goal is that way
00:57:25.160because he's accepted that men are going to get to this place he's here to help when they get there
00:57:30.920you know i'm the same way guys like men are going to keep getting married to these broads
00:57:35.640keep having kids but i just don't want to see these guys doing a sky king or you know crying
00:57:42.040into the front camera of their phones in their car she left me it's like guys you get married
00:57:48.440but make sure to have a plan not if but when she leaves terrence wants to actually have a zero
00:57:55.080percent divorce and birth rate that's actually what he wants and the prediction to save the
00:58:02.440basketball court yeah it'd be cool if you got 200 signatures it's on my twitter
00:58:09.080uh that's the thing with when rich cooper was talking to andrew wilson and uh rich cooper said
00:58:15.480hey like i want there to be a zero percent divorce rate and and she's like that's not realistic oh
00:58:21.560yeah we sure can we sure can try can't we because guys the the divorce system is so bad and divorce
00:58:30.120scrape is so bad that not one man should have to go through that not one one is too many one is too
00:58:37.000many guys so you know i don't want any man to have to go through divorce or go through what sky king
00:58:46.040through it and just be living an average dead-end life and then just decide to get off the train
00:58:53.800like one man doing this is too many um hold on i'm gonna did my coffee talk taken no it didn't okay
00:59:07.080i'm sorry so so yeah um if you had asked me okay about stacking
00:59:16.520you know he was just he he got a degree in social sciences he had like all these goals
00:59:22.200and stuff but i'm telling you like live in western washington you you're a baggage handler for three
00:59:28.680years he probably had all these you know all these expectations and people calling him a loser and
00:59:34.920you know and he's one of the evil white men who are supposed to have all this privilege and all
00:59:40.120this power and stuff and he's like look man i'm i'm getting off this train uh if you can think
00:59:45.320of store three stories call in call in tell me them you know kyle welcome to the show um do you
00:59:52.280have a story comment or you know where were you when the stacking thing happened uh i was in college
00:59:59.080hello girl hello um yeah i had kind of i also was suicidal at one point and for me i got really sick
01:00:06.360and i just kind of felt like because of that i wasn't gonna do the things i wanted i wasn't
01:00:10.840going to be able to do things i wanted to do and i think for sky king it was a combination of like
01:00:16.360not having purpose and also not feeling like he was wanted kind of like what doug was saying
01:00:21.800how close were you to actually committing um i never had a serious attempt but i thought about
01:00:28.920it for a very long time and did your life like improve after um did you find purpose after yes
01:00:36.680i found the purpose uh i'm going to school for engineering right now uh and it was kind of just
01:00:42.040family and seeing my brother uh my younger brother do really well kind of encouraged me to
01:00:47.640stick with it and keep going what age were you considering it and then what age are you like
01:00:54.520what age did your life turn around uh so when i was seriously considering it i was like 13 14
01:01:01.080and things started turning around when i was i would say like 20 21. okay
01:01:09.640um so what why do you think he did it you think it was something similar um i think for him it
01:01:16.760was lack of purpose and also just not being wanted right like he's in an area where people like him
01:01:22.840were kind of demonized and so for men i think it's really hard when you don't feel like you're
01:01:28.840contributing or like you don't feel like you're wanted and i would juxtapose that with working
01:01:34.760hard you're working hard coming home tired every day and you just feel like you're not contributing
01:01:41.800you're not making a difference that there's no way to happiness or satisfaction or fulfillment
01:01:48.200it's like men a lot of us we how we got here in society pearly men have sacrificed their emotional
01:01:55.800mental physical monetary and spiritual health for god country community family children and women
01:02:05.320and that's still going on right now but the biggest difference now is women are on men
01:02:11.800society are putting women over men and these men are still the cost is still the same for men
01:02:18.760kyle when you considered it did women play a factor in it at all was it because you're only 13
01:02:24.040or 14 where did you feel like you weren't getting ahead was it dating was it like you weren't doing
01:02:29.880well in school um yeah i mean it was just i wasn't doing well in school um never really did well with
01:02:37.160girls at that age um but funnily enough it was a woman that like couldn't kind of kept me around
01:02:43.080uh my mom was like a huge part of like the reason i stayed like my support system at home and so i