516 - CHICKEN OR SPAGHETTI?
Episode Stats
Length
2 hours and 54 minutes
Words per Minute
154.45612
Hate Speech Sentences
145
Summary
It's the 11th of February, and it's the worst month of the year, but it doesn't seem like it's going to get any better than it is right now. It's another boring day at the office, and I'm here to tell you why.
Transcript
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I know that each time, I know you know you know you know you know you know.
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That's why we do pre-flight checks and all that shit.
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I think everyone, the women just die in childbirth.
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I was trying to get into a routine of doing this about 90 minutes earlier than this is
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a kind of a standard time, but there's always fucking somebody crying about something or
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some kind of problem or something that has to be dealt with right now and it never ends
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up, you know, people don't respect you or respect your time or anything that tends
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So I'm getting kind of tired of that and probably going to be putting a stop to that real soon.
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Let's see if I can catch up and make sure all this is connected and working and I think
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Every two weeks is usually the routine I used to do when I was in the military and I
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I was going to do yesterday and I'd be like, how about your stuff that had to happen
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And, you know, I'll probably maybe tomorrow, next day.
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It's just a brief hello, goodbye kind of thing with Mark Collette sometime tomorrow
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And then Thursday, that's the Strange Brew podcast, I think.
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I have to check my calendar, but I'm pretty sure.
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And then it's the weekend and I got more shit to do.
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I didn't, in all honesty, didn't prepare much this evening, but I mean, I always do that,
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I always stack up a pile of stuff, you know, CRJ or CRJ.
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It's just, there's a nebula of creatures in British Columbia that have just kind of become
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one kind of amorphous blob of frightening, you know?
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So you've got CRJ, Genstein, Cam's out there somewhere.
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There are nines, there's a whole, you know, so they're all kind of one entity to me now.
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I don't know how much of it I'm even going to bother with.
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I have definitely put a lot of, I don't want to say pressure is the right word.
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Into coming up with, have some kind of structure, have some kind of message or something I'm trying to impart to people, but, you know, in a theme, in the vein of a specific greater topic, you know, if it's politics, for example, which I don't want to do anymore.
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When I first started this, it was very much just kind of, this is my outlet.
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This is just my creative outlet to vent and talk about whatever I thought was interesting and whatever I thought was important or what I wanted to talk about because no one else was.
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And over the years, it kind of evolved into different things and to adapt as things change.
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I guess in a lot of ways, that is what it's still maintained itself as in some sense because, you know, the COVID stuff happened, 2020 and on, and that was, I mean, there wasn't much else to talk about.
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It was very gripping a lot of our lives and interfering with our health, mental health, everything.
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It was on everyone's mind, so it was easy, but as a consequence of that, it's really, it's, it's become very, well, more politically charged, I guess, and focused.
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And, you know, where else that is where you should focus your attacks or criticisms or, or efforts if you don't, uh, you're not, you're not approving or enjoying the direction your home is going in, your country's going in, the things that are being done in your name, on your behalf, which is what our governments do.
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So, um, but at some point, it just stops mattering.
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It's, it's been fake and gay for quite a while.
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And I guess what I'm trying to say is it's become very centered on a lot of that stuff.
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That's primarily overwhelmingly the area I'd always go back to, to, to mine for things that I'm, that are on my mind.
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I'm not even, and I'm not, I'm not ignoring you guys.
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I'm just, I'm just going to go here for a bit because I'm just sorting out my own thoughts in real time.
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That's a lot of what this is and has always been or supposed to be.
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I've never really been one to interview people.
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I've done, I tried that a little bit, tried it on.
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And it's just something else everybody else is doing, you know?
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Go, go watch fucking Tim Pool or some other fucking clown, you know?
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There's nobody I'm really interested to talk to either.
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It's a very short list of people I would be actually get out of bed for and go, oh, okay, yeah, sure.
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It's just, I guess I'm just reflecting on a lot of things.
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I started doing this, what is this, 516 episodes?
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Plus, I don't know how many unnamed, untitled other streams and appearances.
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I mean, I don't know how many hours there is of me talking on the internet now, but it's substantial.
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It's been six years, almost, sometime in 2019 until now.
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And it, I mean, I probably aged twice as fast, but I'm 38.
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So it's like the last third of your life is coming around the corner, you know?
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Might get 30 more years, something like that, right?
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And it's at this kind of point where lots of people don't.
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Lots of people just mindlessly go about their life doing the same things they've always done.
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Get the money, buy the things, get drunk, watch TV, sports ball, movie, you know, repeat.
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And then another five years, another 10 years, another 20 years.
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You have to stop every once in a while and look at the map, you know?
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Is this what you want to do for the next 20 years?
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Because you only have probably that many left of anything worth doing.
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I mean, not disparaging people in their 60s, 70s, or so on, but I'm sure they'll know exactly what I mean.
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I mean, I'm sure they could give a lot of those people, and I will probably be one of them too.
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It would give anything to go back to being 38 or 39 from that age and maybe do something different or think of something different.
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I don't want to be at that level and go, fuck, you know?
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I should have did this or I should have did that.
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A lot of guys I served with and worked with, they didn't make it past 20 years old.
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They didn't get to experience much of anything.
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They got to be cannon fodder for some Jewish banker.
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I took what I had, what I knew how to do and what I thought I might be able to do
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and put it to use to try to take that example and that horrific waste of life that happened
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and try to educate or teach people or bring them around to at least exploring the idea
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that maybe the people making, calling all the shots around here are lying and full of shit
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and you shouldn't just, you know, do what they say
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because some celebrity on TV said it was a good idea.
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People live in a dream world a lot of the time.
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They don't think these things will happen to them or can happen to them
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and then when they do, it's just shock and total disbelief
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I didn't spend the last six years streaming and yelling
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until I'm literally blue in the face about hockey teams
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or Pokemon cards or video games or any of that shit.
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and it affected my life very greatly, very intensely.
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And I learned a lot of things from these experiences
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I think they should at least have access to that information
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and if they want to hear it, they should be allowed to hear it.
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A lot of other people didn't think it, see it that way.
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I thought, or I assumed rather, wrongly it turns out,
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I would at least be afforded the opinion that I have
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I think you've earned the right to speak at least.
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if you just vote for me and give me your money.
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And I'm also tired of getting stuck in the back.
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Something about a weird pop-up I've never seen before.
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He said it was great meeting you, gents, in BC's version of Death Valley.
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Intrusive thoughts chooses spaghetti because he says it's messier.
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Imagine what sort of creations will hatch from our despicable imaginations.
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So now that Camby has super chatted me, I will not read anything from CRJ for the rest of the evening.
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So you can't take on two different toxic streams of discharge at the same time.
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You can only block in one direction and you're going to get hit.
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Spurgbots, transgender, and reouts, a Scotian gentleman.
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Uh, yeah, somebody on Odyssey is talking about redonkulous.
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Yeah, I've talked to him once before, years ago.
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He's one of the first guys I talked to on the internet.
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Anyway, uh, yeah, he fought in Panama, and I think he was in Iraq, too.
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Um, I've watched or heard anything for that guy in years.
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I'm glad he's, he must still be up and doing his thing.
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Um, I've often really shied away from doing this because I don't like to do that.
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I never really felt like I should include myself in, in the class of people known as the veterans, you know?
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Um, but at the same time, I mean, I am one, technically.
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And not too many guys will talk for them or can, you know, they don't.
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Um, doing something like this, it's pretty rare.
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Most of these guys are, no, that's not going to happen.
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But I say it as kind of like a joke, but I don't, it's not a joke.
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Um, you know, I'll hear about a guy or somebody, or I said this on another stream, or I saw him on social media somewhere.
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And I was like, and my first thought is, he's still alive, right on.
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Um, that's a dark, like, that's your first thought?
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And you get to carry that with you the rest of your life.
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what is happening that's making all these guys kill themselves?
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I'm impressed and proud of the ones that have made it this far so far,
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like you're going to go through the grinder for a while,
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It starts off tough and gets harder until it's over.
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That's what you're doing for an hour and a half.
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So sometimes I scroll social media or I find it.
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Let's say it wasn't somebody I was super close with or didn't know that.
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I think it's for theirs because it's a lot of us don't talk to each other about this stuff very often.
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sitting in the back of the two ton or whatever,
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one guy's fucking got his helmet propped up against the fucking seat.
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That's basically what's going on telepathically there.
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And I think what's happened because you have no choice.
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maybe you don't get to be a full blown adult necessarily.
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If you're a piece of shit out here in the world,
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I guarantee every civilian that's woken up late for work.
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like sat down at your desk or whatever you're doing at like 10 after eight in the morning and you wake up and it's 828.
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Someone could be on their way to your house right now.
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There may be police patrolling the base looking for you.
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the military has a jail specifically for soldiers
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that is outside the view of the rest of the fucking world.
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You got to do your rounds all these fucking hours.
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but it's usually staffed in a rotating roster of guys
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but deep down there's like a miniature ghost version.
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Every other vet I know is like this and they can't,
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I hate having like appointments and places to be and go just gives me,
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you get reminded a hundred times before something happens.
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It's it's so there's definitely some leftover like programming.
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Afraid I was of getting just ripped into like in public too.
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Sometimes I choose to think when I look back at this,
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I think he was old and he was bluffing and he just didn't have anything
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Cause I know what it's like to go off on tangents and rip into people and
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going to get used up and you got to recharge it or you drink some,
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These guys are coming into work at least twice,
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completely fully dressed as if we are going on parade that day.
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maybe while the RSM and the CEO will physically look at each individual guy,
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but it's up to the platoon commanders and the warrant officers.
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and you're going to do this a couple of times to look for any,
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that there's a string barely visible coming out of the top of your shoulder.
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So we're doing one of these and it's like a few days before I remember his day.
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I've had some RSMs in the Canadian army and they were,
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they were basically piglet people or like fat old men that were just retarded and drunk and like,
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he was a paratrooper and he was probably 50 early fifties,
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but like one of these guys that clearly has not taken a day off the gym in like 40 years since he was 12 or something.
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I can see the veins coming out of his neck as I'm coming into the parade late.
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like nothing happened pretty much just as he's coming our way.
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they didn't have their poppies on their uniforms.
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They're supposed to have them on by now because of the certain day and time.
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like your fucking bootlaces have to be going in the right directions all the time.
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don't even look at him through the corner of your eye.
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When the RSM doesn't take his hat badge off and cut your neck open with it,
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And I don't really remember what he was talking about.
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but he was like interrogating him about something.
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at least none of the NCOs and the leadership of this unit is that stupid to
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and I think he saw that he would have saw that the leaf on my arm and went,
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It was just like painful old man noises coming out,
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Some of these guys would break their paysticks over guys' backs and shit.
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like not necessarily with a goat's head on top,
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And he carries it under his fucking arm like this.
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I think if you frown at people in the Canadian army now,
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Cause that's in violated violation of someone's safe space.
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But in the eighties and nineties and early two thousands,
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there was still a lot of physical abuse that took place.
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They weren't like fat retards that were just abusing their power.
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Like they worked their way up through this abusive,
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violent environment to then become like the alpha pack leaders of this band of
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Because their killers will come and kill you and take all our shit.
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I'm going to invite them in and say refugees welcome.
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things have changed a lot since I've been around and I haven't been around that
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And we've got more children than we've ever have.
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Very demoralized people don't attempt anything,
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you want to have them just healthy enough to keep working,
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but not so healthy and strong that there are any threat to you at any time.
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So you want to keep them kind of depressed and fucked up most of the time,
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you would get a greater yield and productivity out of very healthy and strong slaves,
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So the only real way to do this is to keep them kind of fucked up.
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because we can't really work them after like 60,
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let's invent a medical assistance and dying program.
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It's called made like a maid's going to come clean your house.
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And we've killed 65 to 70,000 people now in Canada.
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fuck some of these people could live to be a hundred and something.
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we got to feed them and house them and look after them.
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Half the country claims to be Canadian and isn't.
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Even had a tiny gym for a little while till we gave up on that.
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there was a big summer festival that people from all over the,
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And then the town would blow up to like 15,000 people for like four days.
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It was just nonstop partying and all this kind of stuff.
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We all understood a lot of things to be inherently true without having to say it.
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I'm very aware for the character of this country was who I am,
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I think that's going to be important going forward.
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I don't have a lot of hope for this place to turn itself around.
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we've spent a lot of time now moving towards building,
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let's just circle the wagons and be friends and take care of each other and
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if you don't have some kind of social safety net of other,
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And eventually it's probably just going to be absorbed by the United States
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you can't let them take away who you are and what you believe and what you
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even if it's all swallowed up by Washington and we have to live in exile or
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they could kill us all or chase us all out of here.
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And fill it with all kinds of other people from all over the world.
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That doesn't make them Canadian just because they're standing here.
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Does that make you something else because you're no longer standing here?
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Your identity is something you have to protect and be aware of and,
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Some people spend their whole life in time studying tennis,
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And then I've looked the rackets don't weigh anything.
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And so everybody's got to be quiet while you're hitting this ball around.
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So I'll make fun of the tennis people now focus on tennis all the time.
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who we are and what we've been through that in the last few years than I did
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And why wasn't I kind of schools don't teach the children of a,
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And a lot of the stuff I did came from like my,
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our families were all very aware of our legacy and how this place came to be,
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there's a very specific boat that brought all the founding peoples to this area
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Like they have reenactments and stuff where they used to when people gave a
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people who do and are very motivated to take the things that you have?
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any real understanding of what's happening around you?
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you return everything to a blank slate and start over from scratch.
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Put up pictures of the heads of state of whatever communist nightmare there is.
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Because if you were living in like an occupied territory,
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but because most people are busy watching tennis or some other sports ball time sucks sports,
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the percentage of the population that has anything in them to resent that,
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they kind of invaded us and they're occupying the country indefinitely and are basically treating us like shit and we're their slaves.
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Whose interests would it be in to leave lying around,
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stories and work and plays and paintings of all these,
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is reinforcing their identity good for who in this exchange?
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and conversely is destroying their attachment to themselves and their identity and their,
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It shouldn't be that hard to understand which is correct,
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Obviously destroying their identity and their attachments and who they are and what they,
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weakens them and it's good for the people oppressing them and occupying their home.
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Just because you say so doesn't turn me into you.
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the more likely that we're probably gonna have a problem with one each other,
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But that's just a hypothetical scenario about Poland and the USSR.
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shucky how you doing man he says it best if it tastes like and you keep on licking what
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just messy spaghetti what are we talking about you can't lick spaghetti sir that's why the mess
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everywhere jimmy goes to ottawa says ope ope exclamation point says thank you that's the post
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okay thanks man appreciate it uh brian thank you very much man he says you have the gift of
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conveying truth i'm old and have learned so much in this past year following you much respect well
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i hope so man i mean i'm just this is how i see it and if you agree cool if you don't i don't care
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you know that's really all i've been trying to do
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and and nothing will make people hate you more than doing that in my experience
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when you kind of just commit to it and it's almost like an not an addiction or like it's
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like a compulsion like if you know something is fucked up once you get into the habit of being
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like no this isn't right it's really hard to start because you can't you're either all in or you're
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not you're either committed to like your values or you're not and it's like this is something i don't
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stand for or that's something i will always support and so on because you've done the you know the
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work introspection and you have the experience through pain and suffering to learn um
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man don't tell people the truth they don't like it especially if it uh
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which i don't have any sympathy for everyone can do this if i can do it everyone can do it
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i was not a very mentally or any way physically mentally a strong person when i was a kid
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even not when i was a young man you know i was definitely way behind i had to get punished in
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man people don't like it when you tell them the truth they can't handle it especially if it
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they can't face that they've done anything wrong or bad or
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supported the wrong thing or like it's just doesn't exist we have a
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chicken or the egg guys is it is it comfort and convenience has killed us
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or comfort and convenience has made us weak and that's what killed us or is it because we became
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yes that's what i think that we we allowed comfort and convenience to become our priorities
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and we couldn't resist the temptation of just being comfortable and convenienced all the time
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because we were weak and now we're paying the price for that
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people can't even accept that they like voted for the wrong person
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or supported the wrong thing they'll they'll fight you to the death
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on whatever whatever they attach themselves to something
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they'll to the death dude no matter what happens
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people are so desperate for meaning now and and some sense of belonging to something and somewhere
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that they will whatever they've chosen whatever their thing is right now
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you are going to do really well to dislodge them from that ever
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because they can't be wrong they just they can't they can't be that wrong
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they can't be out right like they can be wrong about the time of a movie
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they can be wrong about what we had for supper yesterday
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they can be wrong about you know how this movie is going to end or how this fight is going to play out
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they can be wrong about those things they can't be wrong about something life-altering
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that takes courage to admit those things it it's not hard to absorb those other obvious l's like those are
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everybody does shit like that but everybody does the other thing too
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so only a few people make it through that filter and go to the next level
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they can't even admit they did anything wrong ever
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do you have any idea what it's like to be 26 27 years old
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and have to look in the mirror and and really just like eat it up soak it up
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your whole life everything you've done there's dead people everywhere dog
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don't fucking tell me about eating a shit sandwich
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committed to something that's completely bullshit