Raging Dissident Podcast - 🍁634 - Phillip's Friday Night Distraction

00:00:00.000 I am I am I am I said I wanna get next to you I said I'm gonna get close to you

00:00:23.940 You wouldn't want to have to hurt you too, hurt you too

00:00:29.300 Don't film this

00:00:43.660 I ain't, I ain't, I ain't about any of your apathy

00:00:48.500 I'm gonna learn about philosophy

00:00:51.920 You want to know about atrocity, atrocity

00:00:57.760 I know you want what's on my mind

00:01:02.160 I know you like what's on my mind

00:01:05.720 I know it eats you off this side

00:01:09.300 I know you know, you know, you know

00:01:12.540 Ah, the 90s, when you could get away with rock songs

00:01:20.260 that were borderline rape anthems

00:01:21.960 when you really sit and listen to it

00:01:23.200 and kind of go, oh, what is this?

00:01:25.300 This song's a little, you know.

00:01:27.000 But hey, we weren't thinking about it too much back then.

00:01:29.240 We were wishing we could get back to that place

00:01:34.580 where we were, what's that song, Third Eye Blind?

00:01:38.080 Smoking meth.

00:01:41.580 Took the bump that I was given.

00:01:44.000 Took the what?

00:01:44.820 No, wait a minute.

00:01:46.740 We got away with some wild stuff.

00:01:48.400 The lyrics to a lot of these things were just like,

00:01:50.220 Nobody seemed to question.

00:01:51.120 Nobody ever checked on it.

00:01:51.880 Like, I don't know.

00:01:52.320 It's art.

00:01:52.640 Leave it alone.

00:01:54.080 I guess.

00:01:55.440 Sometimes they would play beep on the radio, maybe.

00:01:57.600 But even then, that just drew your attention to it.

00:01:59.340 So you'd notice more.

00:02:00.220 So they were just a lot more subtle about it.

00:02:04.380 Just go quiet for a second, maybe.

00:02:06.580 You wouldn't know until later when your friends at school

00:02:09.100 would have a burned CD with the real song on it.

00:02:12.260 You'd go, what was that?

00:02:14.300 A foul utterance.

00:02:16.920 Yeah, I got it off the internet, man.

00:02:19.400 You did one.

00:02:21.500 Like, everybody was a hacker for, like, from 2000 to 2002, 0.99

00:02:26.900 we were all, like, little meanly hacker geniuses going around, like, fucking. 0.98

00:02:32.240 We were wizards to our parents. 0.99

00:02:34.520 And, like, yeah, I can make you a CD.

00:02:41.180 Yeah, I'm just going to hack into the database and extract the info.

00:02:46.220 I'm going to burn it.

00:02:47.520 It's a technical term you wouldn't understand.

00:02:49.400 on this laser disc, okay?

00:02:52.280 There's sucking lasers involved.

00:02:54.120 And long story short, whatever you want is going to be on there.

00:02:57.760 I'm going to make that for you.

00:02:59.000 Now, that'll be about at least, you know, cost of the CDs.

00:03:04.060 You got to buy them in big packs, you know.

00:03:07.380 It's probably 20 bucks.

00:03:10.120 How about 20 bucks?

00:03:13.160 That's how we got through high school.

00:03:14.220 That's how we made drinking money in high school.

00:03:17.880 Grifting burned CDs.

00:03:19.400 and very quickly there was a reputation of kids who could do it and kids who could not do it 0.92

00:03:25.320 like who who made this and like oh that was chris like i don't fucking want that 0.85

00:03:29.160 who is cd who burned this this was dan this was dan's give me okay i'll take that one 0.91

00:03:34.100 no he's always got something good on there it's probably like half the song's missing it's like 0.70

00:03:39.800 fucking lime wire it's like all you know what i mean it was uh yeah they would just not check

00:03:46.040 they weren't professionals right they would listen to the first five seconds oh yeah that's 0.98

00:03:48.780 a song put it on the cd play it it's like nope turns into christina aguilera or it turns into

00:03:53.540 you know it goes to hell but christopher did you not check these he's like no i didn't check them

00:03:57.620 why didn't you check them because i have a hamster brain fair enough 0.69

00:04:01.720 it was a simpler time wasn't it

00:04:10.160 nut boy thank you for the uh chats there 0.95

00:04:15.360 every day you're getting dumber where's the window there it is but there's no chat box yes

00:04:28.120 there is my bad i'm not very good at this guys you think i would intrusive thoughts thank you 0.96

00:04:32.260 sorry this is forced fun new tip from dagtastic he's forcing you dagtastic supported with three

00:04:37.600 in my 21st century digital guy i don't know how to live and i love to eat soy djt

00:04:44.980 I don't know how to live

00:04:48.880 And I gotta eat soy

00:04:50.620 I love to eat soy

00:04:52.400 Melt that soy 0.52

00:04:55.040 And put it in a needle

00:04:56.740 In my veins 0.99

00:04:58.460 I'm a tranny 0.96

00:05:00.180 There you go, done, hit 0.99

00:05:04.780 Fucking nailed it 0.99

00:05:07.240 Done 0.99

00:05:08.800 What was that

00:05:10.400 That was another hit

00:05:12.680 Take it to the 1.00

00:05:14.120 Let's collect another million dollars for the White Supremacy Bank. 0.90

00:05:26.720 It's so easy. 0.90

00:05:27.880 It's so easy.

00:05:32.220 You just make the white privilege noise and they just give you things.

00:05:37.760 You could be like basically Michelangelo or Leonardo da Vinci at this point.

00:05:43.920 You can be like, I've made a machine out of a birdcage and some old Pop-Tarts, and it generates like 500 megawatts of electricity.

00:05:52.920 And they'd be like, mm-hmm, you know, what are your pronouns? 1.00

00:05:58.340 Like, I, yeah, because you're a fucking Nazi. 1.00

00:06:00.960 Get rid of this guy. 1.00

00:06:01.900 That's how our society is running right now. 0.99

00:06:03.580 It's idiocracy.

00:06:05.600 Like, some of the smartest people I know are, like, unemployed because they're too smart. 0.76

00:06:10.040 They frighten the rest.

00:06:12.460 You know, they're too scary. 1.00

00:06:13.320 They know things, and they're not comfortable being around people who know how to do things, because they're dumb, and they know they're dumb, and they'll make mistakes and look stupid. 1.00

00:06:20.920 They don't want him around or her around to go, what the fuck is wrong with you? 1.00

00:06:23.780 So they don't, they just, nope. 0.99

00:06:25.460 They bully, they're bullying competent and intelligent and hardworking people out of work, out of society, out of life.

00:06:32.060 And so I imagine any minute now, things are going to become amazing.

00:06:36.380 right around the corner the just the the utopia we've long waited it's there it's so close

00:06:47.960 can you feel we just need we need some more health uh health officials what was whatever

00:06:55.480 that creature was pregnant people are people who can get pregnant 0.92

00:06:59.320 it's a good thing we don't have a space program that's too dangerous to handle these people can't 0.74

00:07:07.480 have rockets that's why i think what the military really did was they did a smart thing they said 1.00

00:07:12.660 listen we need to disarm ourselves because these people are um medically stupid like they're they're 1.00

00:07:18.800 so dumb that it's not even their fault they're just that dumb they're they're almost like a 1.00

00:07:26.560 subspecies at this point and nothing we can say or do like we just have to either keep them alive 1.00

00:07:31.300 or not it's like there's really nothing left to be done um you know they're eating tide pods they're

00:07:37.800 they're bill gates is inventing like mystery drugs and they're like bending over faster than it but

00:07:46.240 you know they're and they're barely getting paid on only fans they're doing that anyway it's crazy

00:07:52.400 people have lost the plot dude

00:07:56.880 like objectively there's no way you can

00:08:00.540 there's so many different things

00:08:02.460 over half the people walking around are 0.83

00:08:06.420 like not insignificantly to extremely mentally ill

00:08:11.660 I'd say half of the population are in that range

00:08:14.580 how that exactly breaks down

00:08:16.640 I mean it's probably

00:08:17.600 you know like one of those

00:08:20.620 probably to the 50 to 75th, you know, percentile is most of them.

00:08:26.180 And then it, you know, tails off. 0.87

00:08:27.300 But there's a lot of, there's some crazy folks out there.

00:08:30.440 There's still Ramona DiDulo people. 0.50

00:08:33.120 I'm pretty sure.

00:08:36.140 There are still Trump supporters.

00:08:39.980 There are people who are still trusting the plan, Phil.

00:08:44.080 Plan trusters.

00:08:47.300 Imagine what it's like to be there.

00:08:48.820 Like what they have to do in a day, like how their mental operating system runs, like what's the launch order and boot sequence of all of that.

00:08:58.560 The things they have to like reaffirm to themselves are real every day so that they don't go completely insane.

00:09:07.020 And they don't. They spend most of their time and energy trying to protect these fantasies that they all go insane.

00:09:12.020 They don't spend any time doing anything healthy or productive or normal.

00:09:14.980 they're preoccupied with

00:09:16.780 you know 0.99

00:09:17.600 feeling like they don't want to look stupid a lot of the time 0.99

00:09:20.940 which is even more insane to me 0.99

00:09:22.640 that's just something I got over a long time ago

00:09:26.880 and these people can't do it

00:09:28.900 they're 40, 50 years old sometimes

00:09:30.980 and they can't be wrong

00:09:32.520 they just don't know how

00:09:35.020 they're too

00:09:38.500 you know, it's insane, it's incredible

00:09:40.580 and for a bunch of people who think

00:09:42.360 I'm a strong independent, you're not a strong anything

00:09:44.820 You can't even admit you made a mistake or got anything wrong at all.

00:09:47.300 You've never done it.

00:09:48.700 Never mind about something significant or serious.

00:09:50.640 And I've had to eat that a few times.

00:09:52.660 That's why I'm a grown-up.

00:09:54.280 I can do those things because it's what grown-ups can do.

00:09:56.340 You guys, on the other hand, can't do that.

00:09:58.900 And you will move heaven and earth and create a parallel universe

00:10:01.480 to accommodate that delusional fantasy world.

00:10:05.540 Because otherwise, not only are you wrong, 1.00

00:10:08.120 you're absolutely a huge dick and a bitch for just dragging us out for this long. 1.00

00:10:12.080 just going to the ends of the earth to just not look and recognize the 1.00

00:10:15.320 obvious because you just are married to it.

00:10:20.160 Like it becomes its own thing.

00:10:21.800 It's like,

00:10:22.040 people don't even remember why they're mad.

00:10:24.840 One of these things that just carry on for years and years.

00:10:27.300 It's like,

00:10:27.600 what even do you even remember why you got started? 0.99

00:10:30.000 Do you even remember what the original fucking thing was, 1.00

00:10:32.080 or you just completely carried away in your own bullshit now? 1.00

00:10:37.440 A lot of the time it's the, 1.00

00:10:38.660 it's the latter.

00:10:40.140 But I remember exactly what.

00:10:42.080 got me into this and why it still is the reason I'm into this.

00:10:46.140 And it's never going to change because it's real.

00:10:48.280 I know where reality is.

00:10:49.860 This is a superpower that I have that they don't have.

00:10:53.060 But it's available to everyone.

00:10:57.800 Everyone can have it.

00:11:02.520 But it's hard to orient yourself in the world

00:11:04.920 when you don't know what's true, you don't know what's real.

00:11:07.880 And the things and the systems that you trust,

00:11:09.620 have trusted, have lied to you.

00:11:12.080 and done things to, you know, compromise your trust and hurt you.

00:11:18.860 Which goes to the root operating system of your being,

00:11:22.800 how you see and value and measure everything

00:11:25.060 was based on this set of things that were true and important.

00:11:29.420 And that's just, you know, because you need an alphabet

00:11:32.200 and you need to speak, to say words.

00:11:35.040 You need to know how to do basic mathematics.

00:11:37.240 Like, you need tools to express yourself properly.

00:11:42.080 And you need a map, right and wrong, just, unjust, you know, all those things.

00:11:52.280 It needs to be there and correct for you to be able to make correct decisions. 0.95

00:11:56.620 And then if the thing that it's built around turns out to be horse shit, well, that calls everything into question. 0.97

00:12:01.980 And that can be very difficult. 0.98

00:12:02.940 And that is very difficult for a lot of guys, for a lot of people.

00:12:05.340 So I'm working on another podcast episode like the other two that I have uploaded over the

00:12:18.420 past few months. Kind of intended to do with a little more regularity, but I can't follow up

00:12:29.600 something with less of an effort than the previous one because I don't know why. I just refuse to do

00:12:34.000 But so now I have to put these monumental efforts.

00:12:36.980 You know, it's it's draining.

00:12:38.460 It's mentally and physically draining some of the depending on what it is about.

00:12:42.700 But this one is very.

00:12:44.820 I'm hoping to have it done in time for November 11th.

00:12:48.580 Hopefully I can get it on the 10th.

00:12:55.820 And I'm like.

00:13:01.380 It's like, let's let's get this over with.

00:13:04.000 But I've been working on that all day

00:13:09.340 And a little bit yesterday

00:13:10.520 And it's just, it's exhausting

00:13:12.440 And it's probably

00:13:14.680 Many of the harder parts

00:13:17.360 Of the first episode that I did

00:13:18.840 But zoomed in tremendously

00:13:21.500 To a painful level

00:13:22.820 And caged

00:13:24.700 And

00:13:26.580 and mostly so I mean this is the best time of year to do it because this is when everybody's

00:13:39.040 thinking about it anyway and talking about it it's going to get the most

00:13:41.040 of the correct energy

00:13:45.960 And I'm just going to, well, I mean, betrayal is certainly the theme.

00:14:01.460 And a lot of soldiers and veterans and their families suffer a lot.

00:14:19.620 I've seen it.

00:14:20.240 I've been part of it.

00:14:24.260 And I feel as though I have a different...

00:14:26.780 I have a different map

00:14:31.940 that I made

00:14:34.600 and it seems to work

00:14:36.900 or did for me.

00:14:40.020 Because when I listened to them,

00:14:41.360 it didn't go well.

00:14:44.160 It did not work.

00:14:45.540 I feel like there's a missing component

00:14:47.000 to this explanation as to why

00:14:48.980 why everything is as destructive as it is.

00:14:56.420 Why is it that you can be rendered in such a way by something like this for so long?

00:15:06.580 Like, it can come to define and destroy your whole life and kill you.

00:15:10.320 And it's just treated as such a flippantly, like, oh, it's just another thing.

00:15:13.740 We're doing another political decision.

00:15:15.100 Like, there's a huge disconnect.

00:15:16.120 And I think that this lack of reciprocal appreciation and being seen and so on is causing immense amounts of damage.

00:15:33.940 Because it's, I mean, the whole thing is based on love.

00:15:37.660 I have a theory, as gays, that sounds.

00:15:39.880 But the soldier...

00:15:46.120 doesn't do it for money.

00:15:48.340 They do it because it's what they believe in.

00:15:50.120 They have to believe in it for some reason.

00:15:51.480 I mean, not everybody.

00:15:52.200 There's always people who are like,

00:15:53.180 I just don't want to get money.

00:15:54.920 The professional soldier,

00:15:56.180 the guy who believes it means it.

00:15:57.700 Like, it's what they're here to do.

00:16:00.540 They can't imagine, you know,

00:16:02.680 the call going out.

00:16:03.540 We need guys to protect the village or something.

00:16:05.440 They're like, I can't imagine not helping.

00:16:07.000 Like, I have to.

00:16:07.640 I just feel the need to be part of that.

00:16:10.580 Like, I can't do a lot, but maybe I can do this.

00:16:12.420 Like, this is like, let me do this.

00:16:13.600 because they think people want them to do it

00:16:16.660 or people need them to do it.

00:16:18.140 That's what makes it different than being a mercenary. 0.99

00:16:22.980 Which is like, I'll just kill people for money.

00:16:24.980 I mean, I really don't. 0.93

00:16:26.380 And they're not really going to fight that hard

00:16:27.620 because nobody's going to die.

00:16:28.640 You can't spend it if you're dead.

00:16:29.600 But some of the most heroic stories we've ever had

00:16:32.920 are from people.

00:16:36.900 They do these things because they love something.

00:16:39.820 That's the only thing that can drive them over that...

00:16:43.600 through that threshold, to go above and beyond,

00:16:47.300 like transcend, like I don't care if I die,

00:16:49.300 like it doesn't, it's not about that, it's bigger than me.

00:16:52.960 That's the only thing that can do that.

00:16:58.000 And that's what motivates them deep down,

00:17:00.500 is this idea that, you know, that's their place,

00:17:05.740 that's what they're for, and if it's needed, it's needed,

00:17:07.480 and they're doing it because other people can't.

00:17:09.760 and all they ask is that they be loved and appreciated and taken care of if something

00:17:16.400 happens to them or they're safe right and that's not what happens they're not taken care of they're 0.97

00:17:22.000 not respected and they're not even nobody even knows their fucking names and they don't it's 0.91

00:17:27.680 not that they want parades they want but there is no real recognition and they didn't do it for 0.98

00:17:33.820 recognition but there was an understanding and there's a feeling of betrayal because we thought

00:17:39.360 sorry i thought you said you love me because you keep saying that you keep doing these dances and

00:17:50.460 pony rides and oh our veterans and so this and that and then for a couple hours a year and then 1.00

00:17:56.400 you go right back to just shoving tar down my neck cutting benefits and go fuck just go die 1.00

00:18:02.720 like what's going on i feel gas lit this feels like a very abusive relationship dr bonnie henry 1.00

00:18:08.780 dr bonnie henry supported with 25 get your flu shot today newly updated with mrna for your safety

00:18:18.160 i wonder if any schizos would believe that's a real ad see the feds are helping

00:18:24.140 anyway um

00:18:27.860 i think there's a pain there because it's like we you know you wouldn't believe in doing the job

00:18:35.440 and doing all that

00:18:36.000 if you didn't have

00:18:36.780 some sort of belief

00:18:37.580 deep down

00:18:38.120 that this was a real thing

00:18:39.140 that you're doing this

00:18:39.760 for other people

00:18:40.260 because it's 0.99

00:18:40.660 I mean for fuck's sakes 0.99

00:18:41.460 you want to die for what 1.00

00:18:42.400 60 grand a year

00:18:43.660 go work on the oil rigs

00:18:47.360 you make way more money

00:18:48.080 than that

00:18:48.420 it's kind of dangerous

00:18:50.220 you know what I mean

00:18:51.200 no it's because

00:18:56.840 they feel like they

00:18:57.380 like people will appreciate

00:18:58.480 like

00:18:58.840 it's what they can do

00:19:00.700 they can

00:19:01.120 I'll risk it

00:19:02.740 I'll put my neck out there

00:19:03.560 I'll suffer 0.65

00:19:04.000 it's going to be awful

00:19:04.960 but i'll so you don't have to and that's how i can pay that's how i can contribute that's how i can

00:19:11.040 that's what i can do

00:19:24.000 and they don't even know their names as they just sit there and watch them all hang themselves

00:19:26.800 and everybody else

00:19:31.560 watches this happen

00:19:32.360 and they watch

00:19:33.640 James Topwalk

00:19:34.280 across the country

00:19:35.080 and

00:19:39.200 nothing

00:19:45.580 and everybody

00:19:48.300 that stood with him

00:19:49.860 and everybody

00:19:50.200 that supported it

00:19:50.860 like all of these things

00:19:51.780 all their families

00:19:52.740 and the people

00:19:53.100 they leave behind

00:19:53.700 just it's a lot

00:19:55.120 um so you start to feel like uh

00:19:59.940 oh um wow what i'm in i feel dumb i loved an idea that doesn't exist

00:20:09.520 so i do i even know what love is then can i because i thought that's what that but if it

00:20:19.360 doesn't come back it's not a real you know so so is that even real is anything does anything

00:20:24.840 matter? Is it all, is everything bullshit? Maybe it is. Maybe it is pointless. Maybe 0.99

00:20:33.240 there's no fucking, okay. Maybe. Thanks. It's a great, it's a great trip to get sent 0.99

00:20:38.820 on. So this, it does damage. It's hard to quantify. It's hard to explain. It's hard

00:20:53.200 to put into words because nobody's talking about it.

00:20:56.380 Nobody even wants to

00:20:57.200 try to explain what might be going. I think I have

00:20:59.300 an idea.

00:21:01.780 Take it for what it's worth. I don't care

00:21:03.120 if it works. If it doesn't, whatever.

00:21:05.380 But I'm still here. I'm okay.

00:21:07.020 I'm getting through it. And this makes sense

00:21:09.100 to me.

00:21:11.660 You know, like when I put the balm

00:21:13.160 on the burn, it feels better. And people who

00:21:15.120 aren't burned put it on and go, I don't get it. I don't feel anything.

00:21:17.460 What's the big deal? It's like, well, you didn't get

00:21:19.040 burned, did you?

00:21:20.740 If you had a massive burn,

00:21:23.200 you'd feel, oh, there's the relief.

00:21:25.980 That's where it is.

00:21:26.960 There's the problem.

00:21:28.320 That's what that was.

00:21:31.680 We don't like being lied to.

00:21:32.960 And then seeing the things that happen to other people who you love,

00:21:36.180 like family.

00:21:36.980 And not only have you suffered and had to do,

00:21:39.760 never mind the rest of the,

00:21:41.480 it gets very overwhelming very quickly.

00:21:44.380 Can.

00:21:44.660 So there's a, you know, let's just not think about that,

00:21:47.860 which you can't do forever.

00:21:49.920 and then you got like feel it's like air coming out of a tire you can keep putting air in it but

00:21:57.140 it's just faster and faster it leaks more new tip from nut boy this guy nut boy supported with 10

00:22:02.520 when the good old boys teach the new old boys that's when our society will begin to heal

00:22:08.260 it's a love for our heritage that we do this

00:22:11.540 and i i think um

00:22:19.920 You know, that is a pretty textbook sign of actual love or the truth,

00:22:27.180 like something real is that people will do it because they love it,

00:22:38.520 because they believe in it.

00:22:39.080 They're not going to get anything out of it.

00:22:40.600 If anything, they're going to be punished or suffer for it even,

00:22:43.080 and they do it anyway.

00:22:43.840 What else can explain that? 1.00

00:22:45.360 Oh, they're just crazy. 0.95

00:22:47.580 Maybe to you.

00:22:49.920 There are real emotions and real feelings, and there's real things about that lifestyle and about those environments, about those places that just don't get talked about very much.

00:23:05.820 And I don't know if it's just people are uncomfortable with it.

00:23:08.720 I'm a very sensitive young man.

00:23:11.640 So when I get angry or sad, I'm very angry or very sad.

00:23:15.040 You know, everything is dialed up.

00:23:19.920 loud. So I can kind of maybe pick up things sometimes much more clearly or loudly than

00:23:26.320 others, but it's there. And it's very difficult to communicate, but this is what a lot of guys

00:23:37.080 mean when they say people don't get it. You just don't get it. It's so much to even explain.

00:23:45.620 It's like a language you don't know how to, they don't know how to speak and you can't teach. 0.93

00:23:49.000 You can only really acquire it through experience.

00:24:09.340 You know, we're real good at communicating about how to destroy things.

00:24:11.980 but

00:24:13.540 you know I was surprised

00:24:17.060 I've been in a number of experiences in places where

00:24:18.960 there's a lot of

00:24:20.700 tension and emotion but nobody's

00:24:23.300 really saying anything because nobody knows 0.63

00:24:25.140 what the fuck to say so we're all just kind of just 0.76

00:24:27.060 let's just 0.99

00:24:27.600 it's like flying a plane

00:24:31.320 that's half on fire or a boat that's

00:24:32.880 like blowing up but it's like but it's still it seems to be

00:24:35.180 let's just don't touch anything and let's just hope it 0.98

00:24:36.920 fucking settles itself down maybe 0.97

00:24:38.620 maybe it does for a little while 0.99

00:24:43.580 but then

00:24:43.980 over the next 10 years

00:24:46.620 it's going to get divorced twice

00:24:47.660 and develop a drinking problem

00:24:48.680 and all that kind of stuff

00:24:49.640 there's like

00:25:02.540 yeah there's a huge disconnect

00:25:03.680 right

00:25:08.620 And I don't think there used to be.

00:25:17.000 Not like now.

00:25:27.580 It's just another thing that happens now.

00:25:34.480 It's just another thing on the internet.

00:25:38.620 So the problem is the very, like, will and love and support of the people 0.98

00:25:45.580 is what enables you to do the fucking job in the first place. 0.97

00:25:51.320 I saw a video. 0.99

00:25:52.560 I'm going to probably put this in there, too.

00:25:55.900 It was Dallas Alexander saying, he always hears this, right?

00:25:59.440 It wasn't for me.

00:26:00.060 I did it for the man next to me.

00:26:01.940 It was just about me and him and the guy next to you.

00:26:04.260 It's all about the guy.

00:26:05.060 And he's like, I had this exact thought.

00:26:06.900 He's like, what?

00:26:07.980 It's like, well, if you guys just worry about each other,

00:26:10.200 why don't you just both stay home and then you're both safe 0.99

00:26:12.140 so you don't need to fucking... 0.99

00:26:13.740 I was like, every time I heard that, I thought the same thing. 0.99

00:26:17.700 It's like, well, then what'd you fucking come for? 0.98

00:26:20.180 It doesn't make any sense. 0.97

00:26:22.260 The thing is, the reason, I think, is because they can't quite

00:26:25.600 put their finger on it.

00:26:26.780 They don't really know.

00:26:28.180 They know they have a reason, sort of, but they can't quite...

00:26:31.420 It's just...

00:26:32.260 You just wouldn't understand, man.

00:26:33.800 Like, they're struggling with it.

00:26:34.640 We don't do this.

00:26:35.340 We don't talk about these things.

00:26:36.320 We don't talk about these subjects or these topics

00:26:37.940 or what they mean or what any of it is.

00:26:39.620 So we just expect people to fumble through it blindly,

00:26:41.720 like, you know, they're reading Braille and...

00:26:43.720 But it's, you know, it's not...

00:26:56.920 It's the idea that, like, anybody,

00:27:01.740 when you see this and understand the concept of what's happening,

00:27:04.960 It's like, okay, these people are trying to kill those people, but these people are in the way.

00:27:09.980 Oh, I see.

00:27:10.860 Well, that's very noble.

00:27:13.400 That's very courageous of them.

00:27:16.420 They must really love those people, don't they?

00:27:18.740 I'll risk death to protect you from whatever.

00:27:21.040 Because they didn't run away. 1.00

00:27:23.420 The women and children are slower. 1.00

00:27:24.820 They can just push them down and run away. 1.00

00:27:26.100 They get away.

00:27:28.380 They didn't do that.

00:27:34.960 something that can pull you to your death like fate

00:27:42.480 and then have you accept it and do it anyway

00:27:45.860 because it feels like the right thing to do.

00:27:49.000 This is not working at Sobeys.

00:27:52.340 This isn't coaching a football team.

00:27:57.180 This is almost like a religion.

00:28:01.440 There are sacraments and there are things

00:28:04.460 that you must achieve and do

00:28:05.740 and there are like a hierarchy

00:28:07.240 and there's a whole system of currency

00:28:10.280 that doesn't exist anywhere else in society.

00:28:13.780 You can't just have money.

00:28:17.020 No, you need to do things.

00:28:20.060 And the harder and more difficult they are,

00:28:21.900 the more painful they are,

00:28:23.360 the more impressive they are to us.

00:28:25.960 Because it demonstrates that guy's willing

00:28:28.020 to hurt that much,

00:28:30.080 even more than me.

00:28:31.380 because deep down in your deep deep deep down subconscious you believe it's like because people

00:28:42.400 need me to this is legit thing sometimes people need to be protected and we have to

00:28:46.660 some the world's not a nice place sometimes there's bad people out there there's bad things

00:28:50.200 out there people get crazy ideas in their heads and you're never you know it's you're not you're

00:28:54.040 not a good man because you're harmless that's not a thing you should be very cake because there are

00:28:58.500 monsters out there somebody's got to deal that's true we all know that so who deals with that well

00:29:03.640 that's their job they know it's a thing so they feel like they're called to this responsibility

00:29:14.760 and even if nothing happens you can do this for 20 30 years you never go anywhere it's like well

00:29:19.940 nothing happened thank good good whatever but i was if it did i mean who was going to get it it

00:29:24.800 was you and you accepted that responsibility accepted those stakes most people don't have

00:29:32.160 to worry about that you know most people don't have to worry about troop movements on the news

00:29:36.480 and uh funding moving here and there and shift you know oh who got assassinated like these don't

00:29:41.560 usually have implications of like i may die soon oh we're moving to kandahar now oh boy i see

00:29:52.980 that's a that's a real thing to have to deal with when you're when you're 19 years old

00:30:04.720 or any age but

00:30:18.260 and that's why most uh that's why it works so well the recruiting the propaganda it's like you just

00:30:22.560 have to entice that feeling which

00:30:24.380 exists inside all good men

00:30:26.280 I believe

00:30:26.900 all good men if you just

00:30:30.440 tickle their tummy in just the right way

00:30:32.340 with the right movies and video games

00:30:34.020 they know how to sing the tune

00:30:35.680 they know what tune we love to hear

00:30:37.540 freedom, saving people

00:30:40.840 protecting the innocent

00:30:42.240 getting the bad guys

00:30:44.700 isn't it? that's our favorite fucking story 1.00

00:30:46.760 in the world is when we get the bad guys 0.99

00:30:48.960 it's funny when the news lines up to be like that

00:30:51.000 a lot

00:30:52.560 but that's that's not because we're brainwashed or programmed it's because we're being taken

00:30:57.760 advantage of because that feeling is a real thing there are bad guys and we should get them

00:31:03.880 that is what like you know who's supposed to do that

00:31:07.440 it's nature it's you know this is the world we're in just as sure as we need nurses and moms

00:31:18.460 we need people to watch the walls at night

00:31:20.700 just as sure

00:31:22.400 as you need farmers and you need

00:31:24.680 everything else

00:31:25.440 who do you trust to watch

00:31:28.880 the walls while you're asleep and your family's

00:31:30.740 asleep because guess what it's not a nice place

00:31:32.860 out there all the time read a book

00:31:34.880 buddy

00:31:35.200 this is part of the challenge of being a person

00:31:38.880 and being a human being and living here

00:31:40.180 I think there's an innate sort of calling

00:31:46.700 to that and if 0.97

00:31:47.740 and it's guilt and they use guilt a lot they guilt and shame people oh are you a coward

00:31:52.260 when they're suspicious or like i don't know if this is legit who attacked us why what is going

00:32:00.960 on oh this guy's a coward you see where this is going um it's manipulation they're manipulating

00:32:06.880 love they're taking advantage of your love for your home your people your family your future 0.64

00:32:12.020 your children the trees the stones that you just want this place to stay the way and be get better

00:32:16.880 and be beautiful and be enjoyed for

00:32:18.880 and everybody gets to have a nice

00:32:21.080 safe place. You just want that. If somebody's trying to

00:32:22.960 threaten that, you're ready to do whatever

00:32:24.780 is necessary to protect it.

00:32:26.900 People are always apparently threatening it,

00:32:28.780 but it's never been real.

00:32:31.960 And they

00:32:32.240 take advantage of your willingness to

00:32:34.860 demonstrate your love for

00:32:36.800 all those things by sacrificing your life

00:32:39.120 and

00:32:40.880 they get to turn it into money.

00:32:42.080 and if you survive maybe the definition concept of love itself is irreparably corrupted and you

00:32:51.540 eventually go crazy and kill yourself your value system and everything's 0.99

00:32:59.760 earthquake doesn't fit right anymore doesn't work right anymore screen door doesn't fucking 0.99

00:33:06.300 close all the way door keeps getting jammed you know everything's just getting and falling apart 0.80

00:33:11.220 and it's getting darker and darker and you're just...

00:33:18.220 If I'm wrong, then it means it's just a very inconsequential thing

00:33:24.200 to live with being betrayed on a level that affects your day-to-day,

00:33:30.100 your soul, how you measure and kind of judge where you belong in life.

00:33:41.220 everything you based everything on is like, well, it might've been a lot of, 1.00

00:33:44.500 it might've been a lot of bullshit. You're like, well, fuck, I guess, uh, 1.00

00:33:47.080 let's give me to it for my confidence and sanity. 1.00

00:33:56.820 Maybe it's not, maybe it doesn't matter at all. I might be completely,

00:33:58.900 there's probably nothing to any of this.

00:34:00.140 I'm probably completely out of my mind. I'm just the ramblings of a madman. 0.88

00:34:03.480 You need pills. You need more pills. You need, uh, you need to drink. 0.99

00:34:08.180 If that's not working for you, drink with pills.

00:34:11.300 Most guys are doing that anyway.

00:34:12.300 They tell you, don't drink with these.

00:34:13.400 They go, oh, I would never do that.

00:34:14.480 Like, that's why they want the pills, because they drink with the pills,

00:34:16.420 and it's way crazier.

00:34:17.860 I've done it.

00:34:19.680 I'm not proud of it, but I'm like, that's the other thing, too.

00:34:23.800 I'm going to, not tonight, but if I'm able to get this done in time,

00:34:27.400 I have to get into a fairly personal situation that...

00:34:38.180 it's required for it to make sense

00:34:42.360 to demonstrate that I understand

00:34:44.120 what I'm saying.

00:34:52.300 So that's going to be tough.

00:34:57.880 But I also think that

00:34:59.400 none of us are doing any favors 0.93

00:35:03.420 by pretending we're all fucking indestructible 0.91

00:35:05.580 all the time. 0.95

00:35:06.060 and acting weird when, you know,

00:35:12.580 you don't want people to know that you're bleeding

00:35:14.520 because you've been shot, which is kind of what it is.

00:35:18.820 Like, this is a rare, very, very rare,

00:35:24.620 just quietly, you know, deal with this in the corner

00:35:26.780 and people don't need to know what it is.

00:35:27.940 No, this is very common, actually.

00:35:29.280 I've talked to a lot of guys over the years,

00:35:30.740 and it's like, it's extremely common.

00:35:33.540 It's so common that it's like,

00:35:36.060 It's a big problem.

00:35:37.160 People need to talk about this.

00:35:38.040 This is something that needs to be addressed.

00:35:43.000 Not everybody makes it.

00:35:51.980 And it's like your defense to dealing with this unknown range, you know,

00:35:57.520 a sniper is to just pretend he doesn't exist and hope he doesn't get you next.

00:36:01.320 That doesn't, that's not a good strategy.

00:36:06.060 You know, when you're playing with people's

00:36:13.300 like how they define their lives

00:36:18.180 and what they're willing to risk and suffer

00:36:19.940 and when you screw around with that

00:36:23.400 it does real damage to people

00:36:26.440 and it can be fatal

00:36:28.920 and I think it should be criminal.

00:36:36.060 if at any point you knew what you were doing and lying to these people.

00:36:39.220 Because not only they maybe get killed for nonsense and for no reason,

00:36:43.720 they may suffer in agony and struggle for the rest of their life

00:36:49.260 until they don't anymore and they just take the truck out.

00:36:54.520 Who pays, you know, this wasn't the deal.

00:37:01.280 You don't say, oh, well, you know, soldiers sign up to be used and abused.

00:37:04.340 and die for things that

00:37:06.100 you can't even demonstrate any of this was important 0.62

00:37:08.380 enough to happen and now you want to go bomb

00:37:10.320 let's go do another country 0.97

00:37:11.640 you wasted

00:37:14.260 why are you wasting lives

00:37:16.200 this is the most precious thing you have 1.00

00:37:20.120 and you're just throwing them around like they're fucking 1.00

00:37:22.080 poker chips 0.99

00:37:22.920 you said you cared about us

00:37:25.980 I would never do

00:37:27.460 I would reluctantly sacrifice

00:37:29.700 pieces because war is war

00:37:31.580 I understand that but not

00:37:34.340 you know, give speeches written by somebody else 0.99

00:37:37.840 on a teleprompter and pretend to give a fuck 1.00

00:37:39.920 and we just stand by our veterans and fucking... 1.00

00:37:43.860 No, you don't. 0.99

00:37:47.440 Don't say that.

00:37:49.380 That's not true.

00:37:51.480 Every day you prove that that's not true.

00:38:04.340 And I think there's really something to this where this...

00:38:07.400 New tip from Alexis.

00:38:09.480 Alexis supported with six. 1.00

00:38:12.300 Pepperidge is a nigher. 1.00

00:38:22.260 Like, how do you... 1.00

00:38:23.780 Some of these guys...

00:38:24.600 I was never this bad, but I started to get it towards the end.

00:38:27.680 I started to have some decorations.

00:38:30.180 Just not a lot, but I had a flag.

00:38:32.420 I had a regimental flag

00:38:34.560 I had a couple little things here and there 0.57

00:38:36.280 because at first it was like dorky

00:38:37.740 but that's not what it is

00:38:41.020 these guys aren't LARPing

00:38:46.380 there's real meaning here

00:38:47.220 their friends are dead

00:38:48.300 these symbols and these words

00:38:50.820 and these images mean a lot

00:38:51.920 they mean a lot more than anything

00:38:53.280 that they can really quantify or explain

00:38:55.500 and they go a long period of their life

00:38:58.960 believing that that's

00:39:00.200 You know, that's the bedrock on which everything else stands. 1.00

00:39:03.080 And then it's like when everybody treats you like shit and everything you work for, 1.00

00:39:13.500 it's all just going to hell all around you. 0.99

00:39:15.660 It's like, you know, you look at your museums and all your medals and all that stuff,

00:39:24.400 and all of a sudden they look like carnival trinkets. 1.00

00:39:28.540 You feel like an idiot. 1.00

00:39:29.540 You're like, but I was serious. 1.00

00:39:36.380 Like they're laughing and making tons of money and it's all bullshit. 0.99

00:39:39.160 And you're like, but I was, well, okay. 0.99

00:39:43.920 Well, I was serious.

00:39:59.540 it's sad it's sad man it's sad when i see them and you see a heartbroken man because 0.97

00:40:05.580 it's just it's such a fucking horrible place to be 0.88

00:40:07.460 and i lived there for a long time so 0.98

00:40:14.160 you know i'm always

00:40:22.780 what can you what can you do for p can you do anything for anybody is there anything you can do

00:40:28.180 So I could probably do, I might be able to help one or two guys with this

00:40:31.360 if I just put this on, put it on a, hit record and go and just let it rip.

00:40:38.960 Isn't that not worth my time?

00:40:40.100 Do I have something better to do?

00:40:45.420 Not right now.

00:40:46.740 So.

00:40:52.140 It's going to be a lot.

00:40:53.740 I got to get a lot done in a couple of days.

00:40:56.040 But I got a whole whiteboard there.

00:40:57.940 It's just covered in, like, schizophrenic squiggles and lines and numbers.

00:41:00.640 And I'm, like, trying to. 1.00

00:41:03.460 It's like a retarded mind, Ricky. 1.00

00:41:06.740 Beautiful mind bubbles? 1.00

00:41:07.800 No, this one's retarded, buddy. 1.00

00:41:09.880 It is. 1.00

00:41:13.560 Where'd my chats go?

00:41:16.420 Oh.

00:41:18.520 Swiss Daniels says, happy north.

00:41:19.860 What?

00:41:20.200 Happy Friday.

00:41:22.060 The north face.

00:41:22.860 I got a sticker with his shirt. 0.98

00:41:25.040 And Bond says, the white race. 0.99

00:41:26.940 Those guys were in Australia. 0.85

00:41:27.940 I think weren't they making those?

00:41:29.100 I saw that once.

00:41:30.820 It was pretty funny.

00:41:31.600 Zio Bubba says it's been so long.

00:41:33.300 I'm sorry.

00:41:33.840 Where have you been?

00:41:37.260 Where have you been?

00:41:39.120 Well, Zio Bubba and who was the other one?

00:41:41.220 We were just talking about you guys.

00:41:42.600 It went back and forth, and I thought, I don't know what happened.

00:41:46.160 If the other guy doesn't come back, I'm going to have questions.

00:41:49.640 I think he killed him.

00:41:54.080 That's just where my brain goes.

00:41:55.780 I'm a veteran.

00:41:56.620 Worst case scenario.

00:41:57.380 What's the worst thing that could happen?

00:41:58.540 I'm preparing for that already. 0.58

00:41:59.400 He murdered him. 0.98

00:41:59.860 He chopped him up. 0.50

00:42:00.360 He's in the lake.

00:42:03.180 Dad, no.

00:42:04.000 All right, well, we're just working our way down.

00:42:07.060 There's no reason to work your way up and start with easy,

00:42:09.240 and then actually the truth is way more difficult,

00:42:11.060 and you get crushed.

00:42:11.780 You can't survive. 1.00

00:42:12.240 No, you go to the fucking worst-case scenario. 1.00

00:42:16.380 Feet first, out of the plane, right into hell. 1.00

00:42:19.780 He was just getting the suitcases.

00:42:21.160 Well, I was prepared for a lot worse.

00:42:22.940 I'm glad to see that you're alive. 0.98

00:42:24.680 I thought he may have murdered you, chopped you up,

00:42:26.220 and threw you into the...

00:42:27.100 We were sending a dive team.

00:42:35.240 Zion, Bubba, and...

00:42:36.680 Oh, man, it's right in there.

00:42:39.280 You'd think.

00:42:39.740 I've had to be forced to say these insane names for so long.

00:42:43.160 But they do rotate around, so it's...

00:42:46.640 I think they do it on purpose.

00:42:48.220 It's just the same five people over and over again all this time.

00:42:53.420 That would be harder to explain in the crowds,

00:42:55.100 but um i don't know maybe i'm insane maybe i'm just hallucinating everything i don't know 0.98

00:42:58.940 they did give me mefloquine for a little while so i'm probably completely fucked in the head 0.82

00:43:02.020 probably completely insane phil all right um did i go to the uh kofi ones 0.92

00:43:11.680 yeah man i don't know it's so i

00:43:15.860 it's so mentally exhausting i had to say i this is what i'm doing instead of taking a break and

00:43:22.180 I started thinking about it again. So I don't want to do that. And I don't know. I don't know

00:43:28.480 if I'll be back before Remembers Day. So I'm going to try to get this done then. I'm going to be

00:43:32.080 busy tomorrow. It's going to be tight. It's like not something you want to do over and over a million

00:43:46.900 yeah i think uh i think essentially uh what a big part of the problem is um

00:44:05.700 new tip from big coffin 1488 big coffin 1488 supported with 10. god bless diagolano

00:44:14.540 cheers man i think um

00:44:18.720 i think feeling bamboozled and deceit you know it being in uh deceived about

00:44:33.260 the kind of thing you dedicated your life to and so on can be very demoralizing and cause a lot

00:44:42.320 a problem that may have an effect on uh a lot of people's sanity and uh mental health and so on

00:44:48.640 i think much more so than seeing dead bodies and all i don't even think that's what i've you know

00:44:54.200 what i've never had that i don't i don't know a single guy actually i well i do know a couple

00:45:00.900 but it's it's like guilt driven things it's not like about almost no i don't i'm thinking now i

00:45:06.380 don't know maybe just nobody wants to admit it but i i've had the odd nightmare nightmare where

00:45:12.620 i'm being like chased by armed men you know what i mean but i don't have like the violence was not 0.64

00:45:17.760 the problem as fucked up and you know frightening as it is it was never that it was uh something else 0.89

00:45:26.280 you know it's like you're taking a drink or something and you're like what is that 0.99

00:45:36.460 You taste that?

00:45:37.040 What is that?

00:45:38.580 It might be poison.

00:45:40.720 Like something's wrong.

00:45:41.580 Something's don't feel good.

00:45:45.700 You know?

00:45:49.720 And so they just label it as something and sell you pills for it.

00:45:58.960 And respectfully, from my point of view, I don't feel like you've helped anybody. 0.98

00:46:04.320 I don't think anybody's been helped by this crap, like very few. 0.94

00:46:09.380 And most of the guys I know that put a lot of time and faith 0.99

00:46:12.800 and energy into the system, a lot of them died, quite a few of them.

00:46:23.180 I don't know how good that is.

00:46:25.040 I don't know how good that system is.

00:46:26.520 I don't have a high degree of confidence.

00:46:30.240 I wouldn't send anyone I cared about in there.

00:46:31.980 What is a social worker

00:46:41.320 going to tell you?

00:46:52.040 About when it smelled like

00:46:53.520 when somebody got blasted all over the ceiling.

00:46:55.220 You know?

00:47:01.980 the only the only people that can possibly be of any uh understanding and mentorship and like 0.60

00:47:09.960 help of each other is us who the fuck else i mean it's crazy to think otherwise

00:47:14.740 a bunch of doctors and drug dealers are going to understand how to deal with what have happened to 0.98

00:47:19.580 us no they weren't even fucking there you wouldn't give them the time of day if somebody tried to 1.00

00:47:24.580 tell you about your fucking deployments or your job whatever you'd be like you what the fuck would 1.00

00:47:28.140 you know about it you want to but you're going to sign over your mental faculties control of your 1.00

00:47:31.900 emotions and soul oh no they went to a school and read some books about you know why it hurts when

00:47:38.500 i cry and you know so i therefore what what oh they read some books about it you were there and

00:47:43.900 so were you and so were you and so were you like we were all uh there's a lot of common problems

00:47:48.180 and issues i guess nobody's really that special so i feel like we should probably just deal with

00:47:51.780 it ourselves and that's what the legion used to do that's what it was originally for world

00:47:56.720 Canadian Legion was, like, the hanging out drinking club

00:47:59.380 of, like, all the rest of the veterans who were like, 0.98

00:48:01.160 well, that was fucking, that was pretty wild, boys, you know? 0.97

00:48:04.760 Because how all, there's, you know, imagine you're from, like, 0.99

00:48:10.900 you're, like, a refugee or something from a country that got destroyed,

00:48:14.080 and there's only, like, you know, there's only you

00:48:17.620 and, like, six other guys that got out or six other people.

00:48:21.020 And then every, and then one of them dies.

00:48:23.260 And then a couple years later, another one dies, another one dies,

00:48:25.760 and there's only like two, like it's the amount of people who understand

00:48:29.840 and really appreciate and get what it's, it's, there's not that many of them

00:48:33.540 and there's less every year until they make more of them,

00:48:37.680 until they send them off to another meat grinder.

00:48:46.700 And I've just always, I don't know, I wouldn't want to, I wasn't able to,

00:48:51.400 nothing else anyone had said to me made any, it landed.

00:48:55.760 Nothing. Any kind of advice or anything I got that were, even stuff that wasn't even super good advice, it was not bad, it was okay, like it was generally, like in retrospect, I knew what they were trying to say and do, but it was still way more effective because it came from someone I respected.

00:49:12.480 I I they talked and I listened because I respect because they demonstrated they they care a lot

00:49:20.620 they were willing to you know get shot at and blown up and then go back again and go back again

00:49:26.560 and if I if I was out there bleeding he would come get me he's done it for other people like

00:49:36.760 this is a real man. 0.99

00:49:37.760 This guy is a fucking real G. 0.99

00:49:40.020 And he's telling you, 0.99

00:49:41.160 this is what you got to do.

00:49:45.420 That's not what the doctors

00:49:46.560 and people are saying.

00:49:48.100 Or fine,

00:49:48.940 we'll go listen to them then.

00:49:50.440 Guess who was right?

00:49:55.460 Crazy concept.

00:49:56.360 Imagine who knows their business

00:49:57.640 to the people who do it.

00:49:59.700 Who's an expert on

00:50:00.660 veterans' mental issues? 0.98

00:50:02.380 Well, probably veterans. 0.66

00:50:04.680 Other guys.

00:50:06.760 not uh not Laura or whoever else I didn't mean anyone specific I did a podcast recently with a

00:50:16.060 woman named Laura that's not who I meant it's just a name that popped in my head I don't want

00:50:19.640 that she thinks she'll have that out shortly but uh you know anyway we're just killing time

00:50:25.260 man it's warm in here I got the fire going oh what else is going on today you know

00:50:36.760 but yeah i'm still it's also a shame too because there's guys that are tip from the honorable

00:50:43.460 david j mcginty the honorable david j mcginty supported with 45 this is always a hard time

00:50:51.660 of the year for you salute to your service sir what you do now is honorable and helpful

00:50:58.120 the way the ai bot says it it always sounds sarcastic oh it's great what you do good job

00:51:05.380 I appreciate it

00:51:08.980 sometimes more than I was

00:51:11.900 I don't mind right now

00:51:13.560 I don't really care

00:51:14.200 I'm not over it

00:51:16.280 I'm just

00:51:16.700 I'm in a different place mentally

00:51:19.500 with a lot of these things

00:51:20.380 because it just doesn't

00:51:21.580 you know

00:51:23.380 I'm up too high

00:51:24.860 it can't hurt me from there

00:51:25.780 you know what I mean

00:51:26.380 you know there's a relationship

00:51:33.720 between anger and grief as well

00:51:35.380 and I'm just done grieving about a lot of these things.

00:51:39.820 It is what it is.

00:51:48.420 And it's a good thing because you need to

00:51:50.080 you need to be able to think correctly.

00:52:03.360 And when you're able to do that, you're able to do the math

00:52:05.060 and make 2 plus 2 equal 4 again.

00:52:07.060 And then you can start to climb your way out.

00:52:14.000 I did it.

00:52:15.620 And there's a lot of guys out there

00:52:17.360 who are way fucking way harder than I am, will ever be. 0.67

00:52:20.920 Some of them didn't make it. 0.80

00:52:22.400 It's not about how tough you are or how, you know,

00:52:25.780 you're probably a little harder to bend than the average cat, 0.98

00:52:28.580 but I'm not a fucking super commando or something. 0.99

00:52:31.500 I'm not one of these guys whose mental game is like... 0.98

00:52:35.060 you know, next level

00:52:36.800 incredible. And I fucking 0.99

00:52:38.560 I did it. 0.99

00:52:43.360 So, I think if

00:52:44.780 a lot of these guys knew how

00:52:46.260 they would laugh about

00:52:48.700 how much easier it was to think of. 1.00

00:52:56.280 We live in a bullshit world where everybody's lying to everybody 1.00

00:52:58.840 and stealing constantly. I don't 1.00

00:53:00.660 blame anybody for being confused and not know what the fuck 0.98

00:53:02.740 is going on. How can you? 0.98

00:53:05.060 trial and error and you have to be willing to keep losing and getting your head kicked in

00:53:10.640 until you eventually accidentally if you have to find which way the right way is up and then

00:53:15.280 once you find out what that is but it's hard to do if you don't have a real good strong center

00:53:19.740 of what's real and what's not real what's true and what's not true because something you thought

00:53:23.160 you loved and was a part of your identity and your past it wasn't even a real thing

00:53:26.820 so could now it gets uh you know and also you know you're killing people that you know people

00:53:35.440 are going home in boxes and bags and it's like it really is just magic clothes what's it maybe 0.99

00:53:39.000 maybe nothing means anything kill people don't kill people who gives a fuck 0.99

00:53:42.360 be alive don't look nothing really matters like it there's a real fucking doom spiral there 0.99

00:53:47.940 because the truth is missing. 0.89

00:53:56.740 Withholding the truth from people who want it should be a crime.

00:54:00.660 It's a crime against humanity.

00:54:10.300 That's like

00:54:10.900 not telling people

00:54:18.740 the air in the next room is poison.

00:54:26.840 Who are you to decide 1.00

00:54:28.700 what the fucking story is? 1.00

00:54:34.540 You're not even going. 1.00

00:54:36.000 This doesn't even affect you.

00:54:37.280 You have a newspaper or some influence blog 1.00

00:54:39.160 or some fucking horse shit 0.99

00:54:40.200 and you're just picking a side and, well, I don't even know what's going on. 1.00

00:54:42.820 I'm just going to fucking. 0.99

00:54:44.140 Somebody's listening to you. 0.99

00:54:45.000 Somebody may be taking it seriously, and somebody ends up. 0.99

00:54:50.100 Well, now they're a road stain somewhere in Ukraine. 1.00

00:54:56.220 That's on you. 0.95

00:55:00.540 Because something else that's, you know, not super, I get mad at them,

00:55:03.320 especially the officers, because they should know better.

00:55:04.680 But most of these guys don't, they don't have the time.

00:55:08.500 they don't know really what's going on because they're so focused like this job takes a lot of

00:55:13.140 energy and a lot of time and a lot of like you're in it's not just uh it's like being in a gang it's

00:55:19.180 like your whole life it's not like you work at a place for a few hours a day and come home it's

00:55:23.240 like being in a hell's angels or something they could call you at three in the morning you're

00:55:25.980 gonna get up and you're gone for months with no explanation your family's like what we thought we 0.96

00:55:29.240 were going like i fucking thought too but never mind bye forever try to cheat on me again or 0.98

00:55:33.700 something you know all my kids are out of control it doesn't matter i'm not home i'm going to syria 0.95

00:55:38.200 and now bye you know and it's it never ends there's always like post-rotation pre-deployment

00:55:46.460 leadership course career course posting exercise but you know there's always there's always some 0.99

00:55:52.300 new thing that must we come on we gotta fuck it's just it the pace is bananas and you're you know 0.97

00:55:59.620 if you want to be halfway good at it you're good it's going to need a lot of your time 0.99

00:56:02.320 you're not sitting around reading political blogs you're on you know you might see a five

00:56:06.380 minute video here and there like but there's no real but none of these guys think they're doing

00:56:14.560 the wrong thing if they thought like i'm just here to kill people and help israel like i don't

00:56:18.880 no no one thinks that and they're all generally under the assumption that they're you know they're

00:56:23.700 trusting the institution the system like the country would stop they wouldn't send us to some

00:56:28.040 death trap for no reason they both why would they if they believe that they wouldn't be in there

00:56:32.420 i didn't when i was in there i would never have believed that

00:56:37.300 i believe differently now because i've seen some things i was in there for almost 15 years

00:56:42.040 not that long ago it's gotten worse not better i wouldn't i don't do not trust them at all

00:56:49.060 there's a scary um

00:57:02.420 A coldness that I've seen toward, you know, people, their own guys, the troops that the leader, that people will do just to please their superiors.

00:57:18.360 It's like a, it's like a Gollum moment where they, you know, you can see their face. 0.99

00:57:22.280 You're like, what the fuck is wrong with you? 0.98

00:57:27.240 Like, I've seen guys get chewed out because they want to go home to see their dying mom in the hospital. 1.00

00:57:31.120 and they're like don't you know this is the army like we're playing make-believe in the woods in

00:57:38.680 alberta fighting someone called the fantasians in other words of fantasy land i think he can 0.93

00:57:45.180 go home to say like do you want this guy to be effective in the fucking actual war or not because 0.88

00:57:49.940 not letting him go i mean this is just common sense but there's like a weird nastiness to this 0.96

00:57:54.700 but you know that's a guy who who didn't want to stand up to authority and say no that's wrong 0.98

00:58:01.580 i'm letting this guy go home are you fucking crazy or whatever so he's a goblin person you 0.98

00:58:05.340 know he's weak no strong man would have allowed that it had to come all the way down to like that 1.00

00:58:10.160 the platoon level before somebody's like what the fuck are you talking about and then there was a 0.95

00:58:14.380 near mutiny and then eventually they let him go home but like that shouldn't even happen 0.98

00:58:17.720 how does that happen yes men yes men are weak men and weak men they create hard times don't 0.68

00:58:24.620 I wonder who's in charge of the Latvian suicide pocket right now. 0.90

00:58:45.440 I mean, I hope that doesn't escalate, but if it ever does, whoever's in there, 0.97

00:58:51.960 It could be tomorrow. It could be next month. It could be a year from now.

00:58:55.340 It could be 18 months. It could be in four hours. It could be 14 weeks.

00:59:04.880 That's Russian roulette. Like whoever's in there at that time when the ball drops.

00:59:15.520 That's going to be it.

00:59:18.080 And the sick thing is it's like there are people who they want to be there

00:59:21.300 because they feel like that's their chance to matter.

00:59:24.540 That's their chance to do something important.

00:59:28.580 The desire and the drive to feel that,

00:59:31.320 that validation, that pat on the shoulder.

00:59:34.380 New tip from Miss Beaker.

00:59:35.860 Especially after a career of this. 0.99

00:59:37.080 Miss Beaker supported with 75. 1.00

00:59:40.000 Let us celebrate an evening and stream free from cocaine rim job.

00:59:44.500 I haven't seen him yet, but you're going to summon him.

00:59:51.300 Yeah, that desire to feel like you're doing something that's important.

00:59:55.520 After years and years of just suffering misery and the abuse and torture of that job and career,

00:59:59.600 the allure of that concept.

01:00:03.320 Because that's ultimately what you want.

01:00:04.480 You want to be of service.

01:00:05.380 You want to be of use.

01:00:06.060 You want to be there when it matters.

01:00:07.180 So you'll say things to yourself to make that true.

01:00:12.600 How sad is that?

01:00:13.500 How sick is that?

01:00:15.500 Why did these guys all go to their deaths?

01:00:17.320 Well, because they wanted to believe in something that they loved was real.

01:00:21.300 And other people who hated them

01:00:22.880 manipulated that against them

01:00:24.100 so they could turn their dead bodies into money.

01:00:26.620 Isn't the world a wonderful place, kids?

01:00:35.900 That's unfortunately the truth.

01:00:45.620 And it's hard to...

01:00:51.300 Think about what you should think about people who do that.

01:00:59.140 Who know what they're doing, know how they're manipulating people,

01:01:02.260 and they just are like, you know, it's just what they're doing.

01:01:06.400 It's just another day at work.

01:01:07.400 How do you...

01:01:13.400 It's kind of chilling.

01:01:21.300 I also got a couple of stories. I got one in particular that I understand has never been told publicly and should be a scandal in the Canadian military. And it should be. It involves a governor general and a dead girl, dead soldier.

01:01:51.300 i don't know i don't know if you've ever been in like a gang of dudes with matching clothes and

01:02:05.880 you're all like training hard around the clock to go into a mass murder competition

01:02:09.840 but i have and it takes a fairly intense amount of you know you got to come to a level of operation

01:02:18.280 that is demanding of life,

01:02:22.100 of being alive and being,

01:02:23.300 you can't just, you know.

01:02:30.000 It could be both a formative

01:02:31.600 and destructive experience and, you know.

01:02:38.540 Again, there's an understanding

01:02:39.680 that there's an exchange, there's a deal,

01:02:41.220 there's a reciprocation.

01:02:42.180 I will do this in exchange.

01:02:45.060 You know, if anything happens to me,

01:02:47.020 at least my family's taken care of

01:02:49.020 and a lot of the time they're not though, are they?

01:02:52.780 They're not even taking care of the living guys now.

01:02:54.860 They're like, oh, I have a maid. Do you want to have a maid?

01:02:56.680 Have you thought about being dead instead? 0.98

01:03:01.160 Oh, we love our veteran. Do you? 0.99

01:03:03.100 I've yet to see any evidence of that.

01:03:05.580 I haven't been one myself for quite a long time.

01:03:09.460 Since I was 20 years old.

01:03:12.400 First time I was shot at

01:03:13.560 I was 28 years old.

01:03:17.020 I mean, 20 years ago, this past

01:03:24.300 April.

01:03:29.180 Well, maybe more.

01:03:31.960 One of them was just a crazy situation.

01:03:37.200 Very repeatedly, intentionally, and like with the intent to murder,

01:03:40.340 you know, there was a guy,

01:03:41.300 one guy took a couple of shots at me and a guy in a tower once,

01:03:43.460 but it was almost like, it was literally two.

01:03:47.020 And it was, then it would be quiet for 10 minutes in between.

01:03:51.760 It was like gaslighting us that we even, did that even happen?

01:03:54.060 And then.

01:03:54.460 but when you if you have that for real if you have a real thing to stand on and a real thing

01:04:21.480 to fight for in a real like it's it's not a it's not bullshit like it's a it's there that love and 0.98

01:04:26.100 the truth is a real thing it's it's fucking you know you can do basically anything you can 0.98

01:04:32.080 there's nothing that's uh off the limit like you'll do whatever it takes 0.97

01:04:36.280 just like you would for your children or your family like it is what it is

01:04:40.700 and that collective power

01:04:51.760 and unity and cohesion

01:04:52.740 is what generates us

01:04:54.060 our ability to do everything

01:04:55.520 impressive and good

01:04:56.860 which is why we're not allowed

01:04:59.200 to have it

01:05:00.280 and they're the opposite of that

01:05:09.940 They don't have—their heroes, our enemies, their heroes, are not heroes as we would know them. 0.66

01:05:17.520 The people who they, like, respect and who they look up to are like the Rothschilds, you know? 0.96

01:05:31.380 Wow, look how much they were able to steal. 0.98

01:05:33.280 look how good they were at taking advantage of people's good nature to engineer suffering and

01:05:41.240 death so that i so that they could get really rich isn't that isn't that clever wow what a guy

01:05:47.860 that never occurs to us to even do never mind find impressive and admirable

01:05:53.720 ours are statues and monuments and stories and films and things we tell our children and things

01:06:01.120 We name our kids and dogs and thousands of years later of a time when somebody loved everybody else enough that they'll throw their life on the fire just to just to give them a chance to escape.

01:06:12.000 Because that feeling that someone would do that for you and vice versa, that that that's real, that that's a real place, that real thing.

01:06:20.460 That's what makes the world go around.

01:06:22.180 That's that's real love and the truth.

01:06:23.900 And that's what the stand in they say is for God.

01:06:28.060 That feeling.

01:06:31.120 And if you feel that, you can get that.

01:06:36.400 You feel like I'm in the right place.

01:06:39.640 And it really doesn't matter what happens now.

01:06:55.160 That's what they hate. 0.54

01:06:58.580 And work to take away from people.

01:07:01.120 that's cold, you know, that's like taking a child's, you know,

01:07:10.840 comic, you know, Batman toys away, like, like an abused kid who's neglected and alone. And he

01:07:17.780 just, all he has in the world is this idea about Batman. He's got this little Batman toy. And then

01:07:22.580 somebody like beats him up and steals it. That's kind of what it's like you're doing to these

01:07:26.100 adults they can't even have the the imagination of maybe possibly someday no no they're bigots 0.99

01:07:36.320 boo evil genocider call it boo every inching part of your existence is loathsome 1.00

01:07:42.840 tear everything down stab yourself cut your own guts out and sell them to the chinese 1.00

01:07:47.680 so i'm getting mixed messages here i mean personally myself in my life i've had this 0.99

01:07:54.180 other energy i've kind of been really given a lot of time to and it seems to be very benevolent

01:07:59.320 very helpful and understanding and very and then this other one it's just like just it just keeps

01:08:04.080 saying kill yourself and i'd like i'd you know it is hard to tell them apart but uh

01:08:10.200 it's demented 0.99

01:08:20.820 When you get really down to it, when you really see how just gross it is, how jealous and petty and disgusting it is.

01:08:43.580 And there's tons of people walking around who have no idea, no idea what's going on, and so sure of themselves. 0.99

01:08:48.820 Like they, but the minute you question them, they'll block, delete, you know, do all of that shit. 0.99

01:08:55.160 And it's like, you know, like fucking, I literally feel like Matthew McConaughey in True Detective. 0.99

01:09:06.820 When the guys are like trying to get him to tell them what happened, like this fucked up crazy story. 0.99

01:09:12.680 He's like towards the end of season one of True Detective, you haven't seen it, I'm going to ruin it for you. 0.86

01:09:15.380 It's incredible.

01:09:16.040 it's you got to pay attention though it's not you know it's it's not like rick and morty it's you

01:09:25.380 know it's very there's a part where he's like cutting up pot uh beer cans and they're just

01:09:32.320 trying to understand what was going on and he's just like if you had any idea

01:09:42.800 I don't even know where to begin to explain it to you.

01:09:49.440 How bad could it be?

01:09:54.200 Well.

01:10:01.960 It's the toughest grown man ever.

01:10:07.600 Crying.

01:10:08.860 That's how bad.

01:10:11.140 You ready for that?

01:10:12.800 They were crying.

01:10:13.600 Oh, yeah.

01:10:14.320 Yeah, some of them off themselves.

01:10:17.700 Yeah, they're like commandos.

01:10:19.660 You're tough, right?

01:10:20.760 You'll be fine.

01:10:23.620 Next.

01:10:25.540 You want to hop in the truth machine?

01:10:33.820 It's interesting, though, how this is developing and playing out.

01:10:37.120 is it john ryan yeah

01:10:43.740 there's always there's always a controversy but there's always something with somebody

01:10:52.020 oh did you see blah blah blah and that's a huge waste of time speculation on things no one can

01:10:58.640 know or prove like it it just time is the most valuable resource we have and you know allow

01:11:04.960 yourself a certain amount of the day and time to just be mindless entertainment and relax you need

01:11:09.200 to you have to have that but you can do it all day long forever and never get to the end like I

01:11:17.240 just have to I just have to see this and I just have to it's forever it will never stop it's

01:11:20.660 designed like a casino on purpose you're never going to be done so you know I just wanted to

01:11:28.660 learn as much as I needed to know about where I was and where I wanted to go and then what I needed

01:11:33.920 to get there and, okay, start 0.83

01:11:35.800 working on getting the fuck out of here and going there. 0.92

01:11:39.980 Sometimes there's things to see 0.94

01:11:41.820 and look at that help

01:11:42.660 and are relevant, but a lot of the time

01:11:45.720 it's just, hey, did you know the bad

01:11:47.860 guys are bad? I'm like, yep, I'm very aware

01:11:49.800 of that, yes. It's literally why

01:11:51.840 I'm here. It's why I'm doing all

01:11:53.880 of these things, because I saw them being, I saw

01:11:55.860 them, I saw them bad guys doing bad things,

01:11:57.860 and I was like, hey!

01:12:01.800 And they take my bank on away, and I was like, hey!

01:12:03.920 put me in jail hey wait a minute

01:12:09.200 wait a minute

01:12:14.480 but you know sean ryan is not a niche figure he's not a he's not tucker carlson popular and famous

01:12:30.540 but he's famous enough.

01:12:32.440 He's a fairly, what you would call

01:12:34.240 a mainstream TV show at this point.

01:12:36.540 If this was the 90s or something, early 2000s,

01:12:38.780 this is like a, you know,

01:12:41.060 it's a significant amount of people

01:12:42.260 that are listening to it.

01:12:47.120 And it's not just him.

01:12:48.280 Tucker has said things like this.

01:12:49.400 I'm seeing a lot of people say this.

01:12:50.620 And it's not a narrative.

01:12:51.920 It's not a psyop.

01:12:52.760 It's not a, it's just, it's starting.

01:12:58.080 They're just seeing what I saw before.

01:13:00.540 And the only reason I saw it first is because it attacked me first.

01:13:06.120 I was in one of the border villages.

01:13:09.760 Tucker Carlson didn't notice for a long time because he was insulated and comfortable in his Fox News job and all of that.

01:13:15.280 And he's just doing what he's told and nothing to see here.

01:13:18.360 It's only until it comes into your life.

01:13:21.560 and the the signs and symptoms and presence of shenanigans evil shenanigans start to arouse

01:13:30.400 your suspicions that things are not exactly as they seem wait a minute this doesn't make sense

01:13:35.120 why would that happen to that why would that guy say that why does he but i thought but since but

01:13:39.760 why wait what what's going on here it's a matter of time trust the science trust the science trust

01:13:46.040 the science trust the sign it will it will happen and it may happen a lot eventually you're going to

01:13:51.120 notice and it's happening more and more faster and faster and now it's just like a main

01:13:56.540 this was very much on my mind and things I was saying out loud six seven years ago and they

01:14:04.720 would basically infer I was trying to fucking blow up the world because they were so scared

01:14:09.040 of what I was saying because it was true everything I said was true how do I everybody 0.79

01:14:13.840 is repeating it on YouTube now all YouTube and Facebook all the time

01:14:21.120 All the time.

01:14:28.860 And, uh, whatever.

01:14:35.120 I don't know what happens when you're in a world where

01:14:37.260 most people are generally somewhere in the vicinity of this.

01:14:42.460 Sat in front of, I don't know how many politicians now, 1.00

01:14:44.980 and they just fucking lie, lie, lie. 0.99

01:14:48.280 So much hope with this administration. 1.00

01:14:50.160 And I don't know about everybody else, but my hope went right down the fucking shitter. 0.99

01:14:53.920 Maha movement. 1.00

01:14:54.960 I was all about that shit. 1.00

01:14:56.180 They're going to clean up the food. 1.00

01:14:57.600 They're going to get rid of these pesticides. 0.99

01:14:59.260 They fucking ran hard on this stuff, man. 0.99

01:15:02.160 Influencers and the doctors with big names are all fucking rallying around the Maha movement. 1.00

01:15:07.080 Oh, let's throw a big fucking party. 0.99

01:15:08.920 Less than a year in, Trump signed an executive order and fucking RFK backed him and said, 0.99

01:15:13.480 we're going to give immunity to producers of glyphosate-based herbicides. 1.00

01:15:17.220 Shit, it gives me chills, man. 1.00

01:15:18.780 It's just every f***ing thing that came out of these guys' mouth is a f***ing lie. 1.00

01:15:23.540 What is the f***ing point of voting? 0.99

01:15:25.280 There are far too many people that are coming to that same conclusion. 0.96

01:15:28.520 It doesn't mean you give up, but I can tell you one thing.

01:15:30.840 You can vote isn't going to fix it.

01:15:32.460 I don't know who the guest was on the show, but he was very much in agreement.

01:15:44.480 Okay?

01:15:45.720 And it was very clear what Sean was saying.

01:15:48.780 is that there is no political solution.

01:16:00.340 That's now, I would say,

01:16:02.860 40% of the population are nodding along with,

01:16:07.020 yes, of course, we know that.

01:16:09.700 Five years ago, it might have been six.

01:16:19.760 They attacked everybody.

01:16:21.060 They made it everybody's business.

01:16:22.000 They came into everybody's house

01:16:23.040 and targeted everyone's family all at once

01:16:24.920 and they got greedy and they're not going to stop

01:16:26.340 and they're still doing it.

01:16:34.420 And I just, again, I'm a sensitive young fella.

01:16:37.540 I'm telling you that in that place,

01:16:41.640 in your mind or your soul, whatever it is,

01:16:44.420 in yourself,

01:16:45.820 it is.

01:16:48.780 that feels that reverence and solemn sort of

01:16:56.860 respect for the seriousness and the truth that is there is that thing there is like

01:17:02.640 there is such a thing as a righteous fight and sometimes you have to defend yourself and protect

01:17:06.840 people and it's it's all the horrible things everyone says it is but it's it's it's just

01:17:13.560 what you have to do and you you're not you don't feel bad about it you don't it is what it is like

01:17:17.440 you're almost, uh, you feel, it feels right, you know, that, that place and where everybody's

01:17:40.300 Drifting into, they're getting really close to, like, driving distance from being in the same neighborhood.

01:17:58.160 It's like, that's what's at the bottom.

01:18:00.820 When you finish falling to the bottom, that's what stops you when you...

01:18:06.580 fall off of where you think the world is

01:18:10.760 and when everything makes sense

01:18:11.780 and you've, you know, you progress, you do. 0.96

01:18:14.360 You become nihilistic and you're like miserable. 0.96

01:18:16.180 That's part of it, dude.

01:18:18.200 Anybody who tells you they didn't go through that is lying.

01:18:21.320 They're lying.

01:18:22.460 Or they were just always incredibly mentally,

01:18:25.260 you know, some people I've met are like that.

01:18:26.460 They're just, they were born champions.

01:18:34.360 But you go through all of the

01:18:36.580 misery of it

01:18:38.640 and the nihilism of it all

01:18:39.720 and then eventually you smack

01:18:41.980 you feel it instantly

01:18:43.860 it boils up inside your guts

01:18:45.440 you see what these people are doing

01:18:46.760 and what they've done

01:18:47.980 and what they're capable of

01:18:48.980 and what they're continuing to do

01:18:49.920 and you just

01:18:50.800 you know it's just a spark

01:18:57.660 just for a minute

01:18:58.240 just for something

01:18:58.780 where did it come from

01:18:59.500 it came from somewhere

01:19:06.580 It's real. They're lying. They're hurting people.

01:19:10.140 That's happening.

01:19:14.220 And you've fallen, you know, so far looking for some kind of purpose and meaning that you literally land on one.

01:19:29.460 Nihilism, it doesn't matter. It's all pointless. Who gives a shit? Who cares?

01:19:32.320 and then lands on 0.53

01:19:34.560 next door to

01:19:35.400 the worst people imaginable

01:19:40.620 are hurting everybody we love

01:19:42.660 it's so

01:19:52.520 it's just around the corner

01:19:54.160 that's what's kind of funny that there's so many people who are

01:19:56.420 just so like

01:19:57.100 defeated but like

01:19:59.120 it's just like that story I told years ago

01:20:02.020 So at the, yeah, I think it was at C-Source Selection.

01:20:07.300 And we did this event.

01:20:12.280 Training evolution, training event.

01:20:14.800 It's just torture. 0.99

01:20:15.880 It's all just fucking horrible. 1.00

01:20:21.000 And it's like a few hours, you know, you're carrying a bunch of crap. 0.99

01:20:24.840 You're, you know, up and down, obstacles, and it's muddy. 0.99

01:20:27.520 And, you know, guys are throwing up, and your fucking knees and back hurt. 0.99

01:20:30.740 It's just, you try to write shit down and it's half raining and you can't remember anything. 0.99

01:20:34.820 You're tired. 0.99

01:20:35.360 And it's just, it goes on and on and on and on and on and on and on. 1.00

01:20:38.440 And then you're like, okay, fuck you guys. 1.00

01:20:40.420 You're like, actually, actually, we're going to need you to do that again. 1.00

01:20:48.740 It's like, you got to be fucking, you know, it's, it's one thing to do all that. 0.98

01:20:52.700 And then do it all of it again. 0.99

01:20:55.180 I was like, they must be joking.

01:20:57.200 They weren't joking.

01:20:58.040 and that was obvious 10 minutes in

01:21:00.220 that we were going to do this whole thing all over again

01:21:02.780 and then we finished that

01:21:04.720 and I thought okay

01:21:05.360 they made the point

01:21:09.060 I get it

01:21:10.200 and they said but you know what

01:21:11.360 still

01:21:13.600 not very good

01:21:15.840 so

01:21:17.480 we're going to do it again

01:21:19.960 and it's like dark out

01:21:21.320 we started this at like 3 or 4 o'clock in the afternoon

01:21:24.800 it's like 10 o'clock at night

01:21:26.160 I'm like

01:21:27.720 okay

01:21:29.460 now put your head

01:21:31.360 we're going to try to do this in the dark now

01:21:33.060 and

01:21:34.160 like you basically

01:21:37.840 feel like 0.99

01:21:39.000 the point is to just suck all the life

01:21:42.180 out of you entirely 0.78

01:21:43.000 it just beats you down to like

01:21:44.660 to see what you land on

01:21:46.600 what's at your core

01:21:47.440 what's your defining

01:21:49.300 there has to be something that is the last stand

01:21:51.940 that is your soul

01:21:53.480 what is it

01:21:56.160 and some of these guys we stepped off and we walked a few minutes to back to do it again 0.95

01:22:02.120 and they quit immediately they're like i'm fucking nope i'm not doing this i don't care 0.97

01:22:06.800 i'm just fucking and they're like yep that figures who else anybody else a couple more 0.98

01:22:12.040 guys like yeah yeah yeah you know we're doing this all fucking night guys so if you're tired 0.99

01:22:15.440 now you might as well just shut up and get out because we're doing this all night all fucking 0.99

01:22:20.040 night boys yeah that's right yeah it's harder than you thought wasn't it yeah this isn't a 0.99

01:22:24.140 fucking kids game is it huh yeah that's right get on the truck anybody else who else thinks they're 0.95

01:22:29.200 tough is anybody else tough huh you're gonna stay it was like this and you've got these like 10 12 0.99

01:22:34.120 seesaw operators just yelling at you some of them look half insane and they're just like one guy's

01:22:39.760 just stared at you a few inches away from your face just be like you smell afraid you're what 0.98

01:22:43.460 the fuck i didn't even see him there and it wasn't like oh that's funny like no he looked like you 1.00

01:22:48.820 could smell my sweat or something he looked like a barbarian he looked like evil santa claus he was 0.99

01:22:53.500 like 55 years old gray beard i was like it was very frightening so a few guys just piled it in

01:23:03.840 but then after a while we went a couple hundred meters down the road and it was like whoever was

01:23:07.820 still in it seemed to be like and i was just like heartbroken i was just like i'm gonna die here i'm

01:23:13.020 like i'm i was like i'm not gonna finish like i'm not there's no way i'm gonna do this a third time

01:23:16.880 i'm i was like i'm probably gonna go down around the obstacle bridge that's probably where i'll

01:23:21.140 to the stroke and die or all well maybe and i'm doing this and then they're like all right everybody

01:23:26.560 was just kind of resigned to their fates and they're like all right stop stop turn left you 0.99

01:23:31.520 know and then the fucking truck comes around the corner like get in you're all done let's go back 0.98

01:23:34.620 to the base so those guys only had to walk 200 more meters and they would have been done 0.98

01:23:37.560 when they fit when they felt like it was the absolute it was cannot feel worse it feels so

01:23:47.120 bad, I'm going to give up.

01:23:49.740 Because

01:23:50.100 you were 99% of the way there.

01:23:52.960 That's why it hurts so bad.

01:23:58.460 Bummer.

01:23:59.300 But I never forgot that. 0.99

01:24:00.980 I was like, that is a fucking... 0.99

01:24:04.760 You never know. 1.00

01:24:06.680 That's why you can't give up.

01:24:07.980 You could be seconds away, minutes away.

01:24:09.500 It may not be that far. You don't know.

01:24:11.840 Something could happen tomorrow that changes your life

01:24:13.480 forever, but you'll never know if you give up.

01:24:17.120 and just something something tells me that I feel like you can't at one point on one hand

01:24:26.840 you know the entire world that we have that we live in is a lot of people are depressed and

01:24:30.500 they're not doing well and they just don't they don't have a life they don't it's it's not real

01:24:34.560 their money stuff and things and like oh look I got new curtains for the I got new rims for my car

01:24:40.780 oh I spent a lot of expensive money on these cigars look at it I'm not you know people like

01:24:46.360 their stuff. I get it. But like, if their life is empty, that's what you do. Look, look at all

01:24:51.860 the stuff I have. Okay. And then what? What do you do? You just sit in the dark with your stuff?

01:24:59.340 Must be, must be brutal in there. In the quiet, you're just sitting around looking at all a bunch

01:25:03.000 of stuff. It's just looking back at you. A lot of stuff I got. Some stuff. More stuff over there.

01:25:11.560 I think I collected all the stuff.

01:25:16.360 that's life, is it, for you?

01:25:25.240 I don't think that is for anybody,

01:25:26.540 and I think they just...

01:25:33.400 People are trying to make the best of it

01:25:34.560 and find something,

01:25:35.120 because it is getting difficult.

01:25:36.360 It's more difficult than it was when I was younger.

01:25:37.900 It's way harder to get by now

01:25:39.420 and just deal with things than it was 20 years ago,

01:25:41.960 if you have a brain. 0.98

01:25:43.440 if you're a you know gremlin slob you just go crazy and and you know there's more drugs and 0.99

01:25:52.320 numbing agents and distractions these days that you could you're incredible when i was a kid

01:25:56.680 back then in those days if you watched five or six episodes of a tv show in a row otherwise known

01:26:01.960 as binging now we call it binging like it was unhealthy like it was something that you do 0.97

01:26:06.900 people you took to the hospital if they did that you watch six hours of the fucking yeah i watched 0.99

01:26:12.800 all season one on saturday what the fuck that was something crazy people did now it's just what 0.99

01:26:17.780 happens everybody's doing it um you know the 15 second attention span on the social media like 0.92

01:26:23.300 we've all new tip from olivia chow it's olivia chow supported with 64 rich people are telling

01:26:30.540 me my city is not safe your muscles make my panties wet well i'm glad i'm glad somebody's

01:26:39.240 doing it for you i'm happy to be of service olivia this is my sir this is what's keeping

01:26:44.900 toronto imagine if she wasn't able to imagine how much more frustrated and insane imagine

01:26:49.240 imagine horned up can't get it olivia chow what does that look like what kind of disaster movie

01:26:55.640 is that that's like i feel like she becomes 100 feet tall and fights and beats defeats godzilla 1.00

01:27:01.260 and then and then might do stuff to her because that's how bad that's how hard up she is

01:27:06.380 So, you know, that's why we don't talk about these things.

01:27:11.860 We don't talk about Olivia Chow in this way 1.00

01:27:14.020 because the next thing you know, she's a 100-foot monster 1.00

01:27:15.680 and she's raping Godzilla on top of what used to be Toronto.

01:27:18.240 All right? 0.61

01:27:19.840 It's dangerous if you have an imagination.

01:27:21.600 Things can get put in your head that you can't ever unsee.

01:27:24.020 And you might want to, but there's no way out of it.

01:27:27.720 It's a part of you now.

01:27:31.600 Just like Olivia Chow made herself part of her.

01:27:34.600 No, man!

01:27:36.380 We'll be right back.

01:28:06.380 You're telling me there's a chance.

01:28:11.280 Are you guys trying to get laid in the chat?

01:28:12.700 I encourage it. 0.67

01:28:13.460 Good.

01:28:14.200 It's healthy.

01:28:14.900 That's what I want to see.

01:28:16.680 More sexual harassment in the chat. 0.99

01:28:22.220 Just turn it off if you don't like it.

01:28:27.540 This isn't Russell Brand.

01:28:28.860 Intrusive Thoughts says

01:28:36.580 Abuse, neglected childhood

01:28:37.920 Replace Batman with Master Chief

01:28:39.600 You basically describe my childhood

01:28:41.100 Oh my god

01:28:58.860 It's like a, it's like a, it's medicine people need.

01:29:11.820 They need something to care about.

01:29:13.020 That's not bullshit. 0.52

01:29:13.780 And when they find it, it's like, uh, it's so helpful. 0.96

01:29:24.100 He says, I would hire you for mental health purposes.

01:29:26.540 Grugs say life is endurance sports.

01:29:28.860 Grug right. Grug wrong march. Not short ruck march. PT. Long march. Weekend long X. Very bad.

01:29:37.500 Pack raincoat. Grug, pack raincoat.

01:29:58.860 It's going to, um, I'm making a prediction.

01:30:10.060 It's going to spread.

01:30:12.580 It's going to spread like drugs.

01:30:16.560 Mostly because other people see how much fun they're having

01:30:19.100 when they're doing it, first of all.

01:30:22.320 They're just much more alive and, uh,

01:30:25.140 like when people just decided

01:30:31.240 to 0.99

01:30:31.960 find something to really give a shit about 0.98

01:30:45.840 it's 0.99

01:30:48.900 it's a different feeling that you

01:30:51.480 is so

01:30:52.040 I think it's what the kind of thing a lot of other people are looking for through these fake

01:30:59.780 sort of outlets. And you get little tiny dribbles of it. So it sort of tastes like what the real

01:31:05.900 thing is, but it's the best you can find. And you have a lot of half men, if that, people out there 1.00

01:31:15.300 who are just not developed. They're just afraid of everything. And I go and I look at 1.00

01:31:21.540 because i mean you're partly you're a lot your genetics but you're also partly your environment

01:31:27.720 your experiences and i mean what if you don't ever have any experiences what if you just never

01:31:33.340 do anything what if you just stay home and play video games for 20 years i know people who have

01:31:38.880 done that and they're the same and you see you'll see them working at like uh game stop

01:31:43.840 you'll you'll see them out you know and you're like we'll play this game like how old do you

01:31:51.280 think that guy is and you're looking at him and you're like the clothing the demeanor the just

01:31:58.000 the general it's like i would i want to say like i want to say 16 but he's got to be at least 30

01:32:09.300 and i can tell he's kind of intimidated by me and he's overcompensating and it's making it worse

01:32:21.280 And it's very off. I'm getting really weirded out by these. They look like children to me. And not that they like their face worse into a baby. I don't mean it like that, but almost like the if I close my eyes and the mental picture and landscape and environment in which I assign around this person, when you think of them, like when you someone says someone's name, what comes to your mind?

01:32:48.680 What do you think of? 0.98

01:32:49.880 And it's the same sort of thing as a child, as a kid, as a teenager with a fucking skateboard and a DC shoes sticker on a fucking, you know, plate carrier. 0.99

01:33:02.600 And it's like, you're 28 years old. 0.99

01:33:04.700 You're 35.

01:33:05.740 What are you doing?

01:33:11.640 You've never talked to a woman, have you? 1.00

01:33:14.120 Ever. 1.00

01:33:14.640 You've never done that.

01:33:15.600 Not one that didn't buy something from you.

01:33:18.680 and then you get nervous, you're dropping things,

01:33:21.680 you're like, Jesus, good Lord, this is sad for me.

01:33:26.380 Do you have any idea how much you missed out on?

01:33:29.000 You should be so angry.

01:33:32.860 I mean, you can stop.

01:33:34.720 You could actually turn into a real man.

01:33:37.160 I did it.

01:33:37.880 It's just something you had.

01:33:39.860 Nobody helped you.

01:33:40.720 Nobody told you.

01:33:41.540 Nobody showed you. 1.00

01:33:42.340 They just let you be this fucking slug, 1.00

01:33:44.280 and you never pushed yourself, and nobody ever pushed you, 1.00

01:33:46.460 and next thing you know, you're like, I've really never done it.

01:33:48.680 I beat Zelda a lot and

01:33:50.560 one time, one time I went

01:33:52.660 on a bus trip to Toronto

01:33:54.340 and that was crazy

01:33:56.240 and that's basically been my whole life for the last

01:33:58.720 20 years. I'm like, that's the saddest

01:34:00.480 fucking 0.99

01:34:01.120 like there's so many 0.99

01:34:08.660 so much you didn't get to do and

01:34:10.620 didn't see and didn't that I'm like, oh, that 0.95

01:34:12.640 sucks. 0.98

01:34:16.300 And then they try to behave like 1.00

01:34:18.680 to compensate because they feel intimidated

01:34:21.620 and they're trying to like, you know,

01:34:24.820 it's like when a kid is like,

01:34:25.960 I'm still going to stand up big and straight. 1.00

01:34:27.680 You're like, dude, just shut up. 0.98

01:34:30.460 Just so you guys know, I'm also pretty tough and worldly. 0.99

01:34:33.200 And we're like, okay, no one asked.

01:34:35.180 You're making it worse.

01:34:37.300 And no, you're not.

01:34:38.360 And you're basically a child.

01:34:39.600 You've never done anything.

01:34:40.800 How would you know anything?

01:34:41.580 You've never been anywhere.

01:34:42.380 How much pain have you ever had?

01:34:43.760 I can see on your face very little.

01:34:45.620 like I can

01:34:48.860 just

01:34:49.800 and it's not just what the guy looks like

01:34:54.900 there's an energy to it

01:34:56.280 there's a guy I know who's

01:34:57.940 I don't know him but he's somebody online 0.99

01:35:00.200 I'm not going to tell you who because he sucks 0.99

01:35:02.520 but because he's a communist 0.99

01:35:05.000 but he was

01:35:06.160 in the military in the marines

01:35:08.760 and then ended up like

01:35:09.860 he was with Depeche Merga

01:35:12.260 and he was in Ukraine and so he's you know 0.99

01:35:16.200 But, you know, the point is, like, he's a dork. 0.98

01:35:18.600 He's, like, a little dorky-dweeby, like, you'd never guess. 0.98

01:35:21.800 But it's like, just sit still, just be quiet,

01:35:25.180 and just watch him long enough.

01:35:26.720 Like, just focus on his eyes and his face, and you'll see it.

01:35:29.600 You're like, oh, yeah, there's the crazy.

01:35:31.140 Okay.

01:35:33.160 It's in there.

01:35:39.880 It's like if you open the hood of a car, and you look in,

01:35:42.540 and you can see, oh, there's 12 cylinders in this one.

01:35:45.040 They don't have to be activated.

01:35:47.360 You see, I saw them.

01:35:48.600 I looked in there, and I looked right at them.

01:35:50.960 There's a, you know.

01:35:54.120 Likewise, some people you can talk to, and they're like.

01:36:02.720 I like, did you ever see, I like my favorite T-shirt.

01:36:06.560 It's Rachel Gilmore.

01:36:10.120 Rachel Gilmore.

01:36:11.180 Rachel Maddow.

01:36:12.460 Rachel Maddow.

01:36:13.320 Rachel Gilmore.

01:36:13.780 I like Rachel.

01:36:15.040 and you you vote every time every year i thought i love voting i don't vote for rachel

01:36:24.640 oh

01:36:27.840 yeah i you know what i i the detainership sends better because it's less people there's none of

01:36:38.240 you dollar for dollar i'd think way better like less terrible decisions are going to be made

01:36:43.500 probably more extreme permanent decisions,

01:36:46.580 but there'll be less,

01:36:47.880 it'll be better than whatever this is

01:36:49.720 with the fish people of the Rachel shows

01:36:52.500 that are basically determining the fate of our civilizations.

01:36:55.260 It's an embarrassing way to go.

01:36:59.220 I don't know how we're going to explain this

01:37:00.600 when the aliens come.

01:37:01.600 That's a whole other,

01:37:02.340 it's a whole other theory.

01:37:05.000 I'm just getting wild now, guys.

01:37:06.380 I'm just,

01:37:06.820 I appreciate the break.

01:37:08.420 I appreciate the support and everything as well as,

01:37:09.880 like I said,

01:37:10.220 I'm working on this.

01:37:10.920 I hope I get it done soon.

01:37:11.860 I hate being on a deadline

01:37:15.520 I hate trying to rush things

01:37:16.620 I'm looking forward to getting it done

01:37:21.520 and getting it over with

01:37:22.040 because it's a very personal thing

01:37:23.540 if it doesn't track

01:37:30.440 it doesn't make sense to you 0.99

01:37:31.340 then fucking whatever 1.00

01:37:32.760 there's tons of shit out there 1.00

01:37:34.380 that doesn't make any sense 1.00

01:37:35.220 it doesn't track to me

01:37:36.160 but it seems to help people

01:37:37.100 and I'm like good for them

01:37:37.860 it's not for me

01:37:39.360 it doesn't fit me

01:37:40.000 It doesn't fit my weird, tiny alien hands.

01:37:42.780 You know, so I wear a different pair of gloves.

01:37:47.520 If it does, then great.

01:37:49.140 Because, uh...

01:37:51.140 It was like doing operation.

01:38:00.780 It was like, uh, you know, you're in pain.

01:38:03.780 You're in quite a lot of pain, like misery, I would call it, agony, potentially.

01:38:07.980 And you just have to do self-surgery on trying different, crossing differently.

01:38:13.900 Nope, that made it worse.

01:38:15.080 Does this help?

01:38:15.720 And eventually you start figuring some things out that start to make it manageable.

01:38:22.380 And eventually you can get back to functional.

01:38:27.160 Yeah.

01:38:37.980 I think it's a lot of things a lot of guys

01:38:45.280 it's a thing a lot of guys don't like to talk about either

01:38:47.800 because I think they might be afraid of it.

01:38:54.880 Just pretend it doesn't exist.

01:39:04.880 Because if I, you know,

01:39:05.940 is that crazy if somebody tells you like hey there's basically a monster that exists that 0.98

01:39:11.120 is extremely powerful and just it'll it's a very good chance it kills a lot of guys like you

01:39:15.460 you're gonna take a run at you it's gonna come for you you know so

01:39:19.240 ah that's kind of i'd rather just no that's not true i'm gonna say that's just not even real and

01:39:24.640 i'm not gonna worry about it that won't be me no sir no way i'm never gonna you know

01:39:29.000 i'm not gonna let the music change me i'm not gonna let the industry change me

01:39:38.320 that's about the music bro i'm rock solid

01:39:40.980 i'm just having a couple of drinks in the middle of the day

01:39:45.800 because i'm i'm 21 or 22 and i like to party it's totally normal it's not

01:39:50.580 why you know and it's like but why did you feel that why did you feel like i need a couple of

01:39:58.360 shots right now. Why? That's not. And when you look at it, things didn't happen. They didn't

01:40:13.660 deteriorate overnight. It was chipped away at. There was a process. There was somebody else in

01:40:18.860 the, in the room and somewhere, somehow the narrative, the steering wheel, the controls 0.99

01:40:26.940 started to get buzzy started to get hijacked this shit seemed to start moving on its own 0.50

01:40:34.440 or am i doing that and but you get you're getting used it's just going enough that you get used to 0.91

01:40:40.340 it like i'm a fair new tip from eric zito fair away from where i was eric zito supported with

01:40:49.600 5. Olivia's

01:40:51.600 rub and tugs are world class.

01:40:55.460 That's your sister, Eric. 1.00

01:40:57.660 That's disgusting. 0.98

01:41:01.900 Or is it his aunt? I don't know. 0.98

01:41:03.280 They're related, as far as I know.

01:41:04.460 Olivia Chow and Eric are like

01:41:05.900 the weird kind of related.

01:41:08.720 They're the Goldberg Mountain kind of related, is what I heard.

01:41:10.760 That's what I heard.

01:41:19.600 what are they talking about

01:41:28.880 seeing a guy get hit in the face with a hammer sounded like a bottle breaking it was horrific

01:41:35.300 that would have been his bones and his face cracking probably yeah uh it's it is it's it

01:41:41.180 makes your stomach turn it makes you want to throw up quickly because you know what it is

01:41:45.780 You're like, oh, a bottle has broke.

01:41:47.260 If you see it happen, you immediately understand that his bones have shattered.

01:41:51.040 And you're like, oh, no.

01:41:52.280 You can't help but.

01:41:55.360 Or if you've ever, like, if somebody gets their guts torn open and it's like this smell, you just, you see, it overwhelms you quickly.

01:42:01.600 It's not like it's a, you know, a lot of people just puke.

01:42:05.540 And it's like, yep, that's what happens.

01:42:07.760 It's horrifying.

01:42:09.920 It's not like a shameful.

01:42:11.340 It's like, oh, yeah, it's like getting sunburned.

01:42:13.180 Or like I said earlier, like you're.

01:42:14.800 Guys don't want to talk about it, that there's anything wrong with them at all, because they're, like, embarrassed, they're humiliated, but it's, like, it's an enemy effect.

01:42:22.820 It's a follow-on effect of the environment of battle, like a cloud, like it'll just chip away at you, like radiation.

01:42:36.980 so you shouldn't anymore you shouldn't anymore be ashamed of that

01:42:44.940 than if you were shot and bleeding and not showing or telling anyone because you didn't 1.00

01:42:51.100 want them to think you were a pussy you're like you're fucking this is a serious injury 1.00

01:42:54.900 this isn't like uh oh you've got a blister on your foot so you can't go to the field it's like 1.00

01:43:04.380 if you don't address this you might die

01:43:06.180 this is a lethal

01:43:07.880 this is very

01:43:10.580 serious what you're dealing with

01:43:11.720 and if you don't know what you're dealing with 0.99

01:43:14.160 it could take you out man it's fucking crafty 0.99

01:43:16.580 sometimes it doesn't even need a reason 0.99

01:43:20.040 you're actually having a great day

01:43:24.860 and for no reason at all

01:43:26.140 hey

01:43:27.160 what you doing 1.00

01:43:28.920 you ready to feel like shit 0.99

01:43:31.240 real bad 0.99

01:43:33.000 let's go

01:43:35.100 Today's the day.

01:43:41.520 You want to question the will to live?

01:43:43.660 Ready to have an existential crisis for the next two hours?

01:43:50.460 Nothing you can do about it.

01:43:52.860 It's going to be like, you ever see The Matrix?

01:43:57.560 The Architect?

01:43:59.860 And like the second or third one, he's in like this big room

01:44:02.180 and there's just TVs, screens everywhere.

01:44:04.820 He's watching everybody.

01:44:05.720 He's everywhere.

01:44:06.160 He's everything.

01:44:07.120 And they're all making...

01:44:08.060 It's like, yeah. 1.00

01:44:09.780 All the worst shit you can imagine. 1.00

01:44:11.420 Every terrible thought, outcome, 1.00

01:44:13.280 things that's happened, didn't happen,

01:44:14.960 just bad...

01:44:15.740 It's just like, let's put all those on

01:44:17.700 at the same time on loop, very loud.

01:44:21.700 While, you know,

01:44:23.040 it's like Guantanamo Bay in your head.

01:44:30.060 And it's almost like you want to do

01:44:31.540 the equivalent of like

01:44:32.420 every gladiator

01:44:33.320 where he's being whipped

01:44:33.960 buddy comes up to him

01:44:36.820 and he goes

01:44:37.000 his captain

01:44:37.700 or who was it

01:44:38.960 the senior

01:44:41.380 no it's not glad

01:44:42.260 oh starship troopers

01:44:43.160 I'm thinking

01:44:43.500 I'm a gladiator

01:44:44.120 and his captain

01:44:45.700 comes over

01:44:46.060 as sergeant

01:44:46.500 or something

01:44:46.700 he goes

01:44:47.040 bite down on this

01:44:47.940 it helps

01:44:48.500 he's like

01:44:49.620 just getting

01:44:52.000 you know

01:44:52.620 I don't think

01:45:00.220 I don't think

01:45:00.680 anybody's being helped

01:45:01.460 if we're lying to people and telling them

01:45:03.180 that that's not something that might happen to you.

01:45:05.000 This might be something you have to deal with.

01:45:07.220 And if you're not aware of it

01:45:08.600 and you're not prepared for it,

01:45:09.680 so when it starts to happen,

01:45:11.340 you're like, oh, I was told about this.

01:45:13.460 I was like, you know,

01:45:14.780 you're in a situation now.

01:45:19.980 You have to take it as seriously

01:45:21.560 as if somebody broke into your house.

01:45:27.420 Because this is now,

01:45:29.260 this is what happens when these guys

01:45:30.860 you know they take themselves out

01:45:32.640 it's usually not months

01:45:35.020 in advance and planning and meticulous

01:45:36.740 it's just they're just you know

01:45:38.420 they're basically on empty but are so

01:45:40.900 used to doing it that

01:45:41.940 it just seems you know whatever

01:45:44.480 and then

01:45:45.920 they end up

01:45:49.040 in one of these

01:45:49.680 events and

01:45:54.220 in the span of a couple hours

01:45:58.840 they go from

01:45:59.560 I should go to Walmart and get some, you know, plywood and whatever.

01:46:05.680 And then, well, I think, or I could just be dead, actually.

01:46:11.240 So it's an intense, you know.

01:46:21.540 New tip from Dagtastic.

01:46:24.560 Dagtastic supported with three.

01:46:26.220 Tyler Russell is going to be scampering back to Canada

01:46:29.960 once the Democrats get elected in 2028

01:46:33.100 I bet a lot of people are going to be coming back to Canada

01:46:35.440 before then, even 1.00

01:46:36.560 do we even want them back? 1.00

01:46:41.660 um, fuck 1.00

01:46:42.560 yeah, and it's like, it's such a, it's a vicious cycle 1.00

01:46:52.960 because this, the way this kind of thing happens to

01:46:55.060 what spins around in your head is it really all comes down to

01:46:57.400 like

01:46:57.620 it's real

01:47:01.500 negative, it's real evil, it's real

01:47:03.300 viciousness. The only

01:47:09.300 the actual real true experience

01:47:13.700 and understanding of

01:47:15.000 love and the truth is the only thing

01:47:17.700 that can counter that. So if you

01:47:19.240 have been stripped of it and don't have it and don't

01:47:21.620 know, you're helpless, you're vulnerable

01:47:23.380 and you're not going to make it

01:47:25.260 because you're never going to be able to fight this thing off forever.

01:47:28.080 You'll find a way in. It'll get you.

01:47:31.560 It's like the Terminator.

01:47:34.360 Two years, maybe.

01:47:40.800 And that's something people accept.

01:47:44.060 It's like, yeah, that may be a way you have to live now, by the way, forever

01:47:47.200 as a result of your volunteering to do this job

01:47:51.580 so a bunch of politicians could get rich

01:47:54.000 and give themselves pay raises

01:47:55.060 and, you know, we're not even going to know 0.98

01:47:58.120 anybody's names or give a shit. 0.98

01:48:01.820 Wheel, some of them out on a wheelchair 0.99

01:48:03.040 on some election day, I don't know.

01:48:04.720 Oh, there's a guy walking across the country.

01:48:06.400 He's on the other team? Ah, fuck him. 1.00

01:48:07.760 Get some reservist who fucking makes bacon, you know, 1.00

01:48:11.060 ham sandwiches. 1.00

01:48:12.760 Get some fat reservist guy to get up here 1.00

01:48:14.720 and say the opposite thing. 0.95

01:48:16.380 Who's never done anything. Who's never done shit. 0.99

01:48:18.480 And ignore, like... 0.93

01:48:21.180 like i i saw i told this story before when when cam neely retired from hockey and he was like

01:48:34.400 crying and he was like 30 35 or something he wasn't too old maybe he's less than 30 because

01:48:38.800 he's just his knees were destroyed he couldn't play anymore not at that level he was just you

01:48:42.120 know too injured and that was him realizing that that's all over hockey is not him anymore and

01:48:48.720 that's just gonna be gone and it's not real and it's just again you know and he like had a really

01:48:53.120 hard time with that it's like hmm so how many people died while you were put none so it wasn't

01:49:03.680 like war then like you know but to him that was that was his identity and all that kind of stuff 0.97

01:49:08.760 right but that's what it is to these guys and it's a much further fall from my fucking hockey 0.96

01:49:13.180 puck sports ball game is gone to like 1.00

01:49:15.200 oh my fucking 0.99

01:49:16.940 reason to live is fucking not there 0.99

01:49:19.260 anymore in the cupboard well this is 0.99

01:49:21.220 going to be a fucking tough go for a while I guess 0.94

01:49:23.120 it'll just a time to 0.99

01:49:27.140 experiment with fucking chemicals I guess 1.00

01:49:29.140 and fucking find something that works 1.00

01:49:43.180 Thank you. 0.99

01:50:13.180 It's like it's worse

01:50:25.020 to hear about in a lot of ways

01:50:29.580 because it's not just the fact that they're

01:50:31.440 gone, but it's the manner in which

01:50:35.580 they went, and I'm keenly aware

01:50:37.880 of how that goes.

01:50:39.380 And it's just...

01:50:43.180 Some people are like, well, at least they're not in pain anymore.

01:50:47.620 And I'm like, well, they were, though. 0.99

01:50:50.220 They fucking were. 1.00

01:50:52.580 That sucks. 1.00

01:50:54.460 They didn't deserve that. 1.00

01:51:04.900 And then you watch these fucking suits play God with their lives. 0.99

01:51:13.180 And then from where I grew up, from where I learned how to do life, do man-level life stuff, my playground, looking at theirs, you look like a child in your father's clothes playing on a Fisher-Price do-it-yourself Ottawa government play set. 0.99

01:51:43.180 like this is the full scale

01:51:48.900 production

01:51:51.220 this is the best you can do

01:51:53.320 to make it look like

01:51:54.440 there's anything to you at all

01:51:57.660 it's just not quite enough

01:52:00.580 it's still

01:52:01.160 you ever hear the lipstick on a pig analogy

01:52:11.180 it's like the

01:52:12.060 Like a faker's competition, a malingerer's competition. 0.91

01:52:15.400 It's the top.

01:52:16.220 You know who the politicians are?

01:52:19.500 The soldiers and the good ones when we used to have any.

01:52:22.160 The cops, the firemen, the guys who are like, I'll do it.

01:52:24.500 I'll go out in the way. 1.00

01:52:25.460 I'll fucking. 0.99

01:52:29.980 You know, that's them. 1.00

01:52:32.340 And the politicians, those are the guys who like, oh, actually, they found, they've invented an injury.

01:52:38.180 They're like, they're just, a lot of times the doctors just go, 0.99

01:52:43.780 I can't prove that they're not fucking whatever. 0.94

01:52:46.020 So they write them a thing. 0.98

01:52:47.020 It's like, you're excused from doing anything hard for the next two weeks.

01:52:50.040 They just stay home playing video games.

01:52:51.980 You're like, that's them.

01:52:54.320 They think that's smart. 1.00

01:52:55.940 That's very like, that's not Aryan thinking. 1.00

01:53:00.460 That's, you know, that's basically what you did.

01:53:05.160 I didn't have to go to the field.

01:53:06.280 I stayed home and played Call of Duty the whole time 0.99

01:53:07.720 because I fucking... 0.99

01:53:08.220 Oh, yeah. 0.99

01:53:16.020 Guys are going to buy you rounds of the mess.

01:53:18.600 You're going to be so popular at the Christmas party this year.

01:53:22.420 Yeah, you should go.

01:53:23.840 You're the guest of honor.

01:53:26.380 Mm-hmm.

01:53:27.440 Yeah, we're going to see you right up front,

01:53:29.440 right in front of the RSM.

01:53:33.040 Merry Christmas.

01:53:36.180 why is it quiet now new tip from crj there we go crj supported with 75

01:53:44.120 send help jenstian is harvesting my organs one by one ms speaker is lurking

01:53:52.260 are you just texting while your organs are being harvested with one hand or both hands 0.55

01:53:56.960 like how i'm like how how does this and she's lurking like there's other people

01:54:05.980 How often is this going to happen?

01:54:10.460 I'm starting to wonder if this is just shenanigans.

01:54:13.780 You guys are just making this up.

01:54:15.560 I feel like I should say, if it is,

01:54:17.040 I mean, there's a guy harvesting organs live all the time,

01:54:19.920 and instead of calling anyone for help,

01:54:21.540 the victims are sending paid chat messages

01:54:23.600 through this obscure website.

01:54:26.240 I mean, I don't know if that's...

01:54:30.540 That's not how I would prioritize

01:54:33.240 your grave communications at the end of life.

01:54:35.980 as your organs are being harvested by a doctor,

01:54:38.720 Yenstian. 0.74

01:54:40.820 The AI is that afraid of him, it won't even say his name.

01:54:46.980 I don't want to say, maybe we should say Yenstian,

01:54:49.040 because if you say his name three times out loud,

01:54:50.760 he could appear.

01:54:53.600 And I don't know if it's because he had the mask

01:54:55.560 or not.

01:54:59.280 It definitely didn't help.

01:55:00.200 but he uh

01:55:06.580 like even without the mask

01:55:09.540 it just

01:55:09.940 do you remember the rabbit

01:55:11.040 from Donnie Darko

01:55:12.180 it's one of those

01:55:26.640 you know

01:55:27.160 don't make any sudden movements

01:55:28.440 don't make it upset

01:55:29.240 like I

01:55:30.200 It feels like a not-quite-human creature.

01:55:34.940 Like, there's something alien.

01:55:36.180 It's just, I don't, I'm not confident.

01:55:37.860 So just, no sudden movements.

01:55:40.300 We don't know what we're dealing with here. 1.00

01:55:45.800 It started with a blood farm.

01:55:47.060 Apparently now he's moved on to organs.

01:55:48.300 This isn't a good development.

01:55:49.640 You know, we're going to run out of people.

01:55:50.940 Because we won't have anybody to listen to this anymore.

01:55:53.620 Has this just become a feasting pool for a vampire?

01:55:57.660 They're all laughing.

01:55:58.600 It's like, yeah, he thinks it's hilarious.

01:55:59.440 He's just eating someone every week, and they're all just pretending

01:56:01.740 like it's just a part of the ritual.

01:56:03.140 If we find out there's 20, like, I'm going to go back to the numbers.

01:56:07.140 Like, are some IP addresses just disappearing forever in the area?

01:56:11.260 So we're going to see on the news some days, like, 0.97

01:56:13.420 the remains of 68 people were found fucking plastered inside the walls 0.99

01:56:18.620 of a Surrey area home. 0.99

01:56:23.500 It's like Sicario.

01:56:29.440 Oh, my God, it's Cam!

01:56:33.820 Dead in the wall.

01:56:35.320 Oh, my God, look at them all.

01:56:42.820 He could be Rasputin.

01:56:44.500 I don't know.

01:56:44.980 He could be 200 years old.

01:56:46.480 No one knows.

01:56:48.060 He has no backstory.

01:56:49.140 He came from nowhere.

01:56:50.840 And it's just, again, Donnie Darko.

01:56:53.320 There's some kind of weird...

01:56:54.380 I'm not saying that's exactly what it looks like,

01:56:55.920 but you get the same ominous, ominous suggestion of menace.

01:57:01.940 There may be a hint of ominous menacing, a bit, a flavor, a hint,

01:57:08.640 like, you know, is that cinnamon I taste?

01:57:11.440 You know, just a little, just a little bit of ominous menace.

01:57:16.420 Itrusia says, this is just me personally, but if I am shot and bleeding,

01:57:19.060 please leave me on the delay with a few extra toys.

01:57:21.040 I promise I will make a mess.

01:57:22.820 I've been to the suicide pocket.

01:57:24.020 I've made my piece.

01:57:25.920 It's only if it has to happen.

01:57:27.640 If it's the only way, it's the only way.

01:57:29.020 It's just because then you accept it because it's just the alternative

01:57:33.480 is to just do a horrible thing and make it all worse, which is done.

01:57:39.160 Anyway, what are we talking about?

01:57:41.360 We all caught up.

01:57:45.180 75 super chat means that's 75 $1 supers he can't send now.

01:57:48.980 I don't know what this means.

01:57:50.080 I don't know what to suggest.

01:57:50.940 I don't know what he's powering up for.

01:57:52.220 He's an unpredictable character, but now he doesn't have any organs.

01:57:54.820 So, what does that mean?

01:57:58.600 But anyway, Sean Ryan is Fed posting, according to the experts.

01:58:03.640 So, neat.

01:58:09.800 What else?

01:58:12.180 Blah, blah, blah.

01:58:13.040 I don't care.

01:58:18.180 Oh, my goodness.

01:58:23.240 All right. 1.00

01:58:24.820 we've got more immigrants we're doing the nuke thing are we still carney's telling uh 1.00

01:58:33.120 telling people how to wage war now that's cute 0.99

01:58:37.760 this is a great uh well first what you want to do is you want to make sure their teenagers

01:58:46.180 don't come play hockey because that's uh that's the source of their power when teenagers go play 0.98

01:58:51.560 hockey and get laid in foreign countries they uh they come home with fucking self-confidence we 0.99

01:58:56.800 can't have that so what we need to do is ban their children from playing hockey and we thank 0.99

01:59:03.680 everybody hey all you people that aren't me should bomb russia hey everybody else bomb russia turn up 0.74

01:59:11.080 the heat says anita anand anita anand demands stronger collective action as russia not talking 0.68

01:59:17.900 Why don't you go do something about it, Anita?

01:59:20.500 You go volunteer. 1.00

01:59:21.740 You send your whole stupid family. 1.00

01:59:31.960 I feel like it comes from a very righteous place that you are, 1.00

01:59:35.520 these people are so instrumental in carrying on, you know,

01:59:40.020 this death and nonsense and they're benefiting from it.

01:59:43.640 And it's just so offensive to all things good and righteous.

01:59:46.780 that it's like you know god hates you right anita do you understand that whatever you believe is

01:59:54.260 good but there is something it very obviously i'm beyond convinced like we're inside something

02:00:01.040 this is not an accidental like this is an intentional place with rules and coding and 0.93

02:00:06.800 like it's something is going on and i didn't fucking i didn't build the fucking thing so i'm 0.94

02:00:12.860 willing to bet somebody did who's a lot 0.99

02:00:15.300 smarter than me

02:00:16.540 or anybody else I've ever met.

02:00:19.260 And there's a natural

02:00:20.900 sort of ebb and flow. There's a way, like,

02:00:22.700 going with the grain, kind of, that fits.

02:00:25.060 And then there's a way that's

02:00:26.800 very bad that is...

02:00:28.580 And that's where you're at, Anita.

02:00:30.160 You're warmongering

02:00:31.660 to make

02:00:34.760 money and, I mean, for God's sakes.

02:00:38.120 And what

02:00:38.700 is their excuse to use? Do they use

02:00:40.700 the...

02:00:42.860 Is he still alive?

02:00:43.860 Is George Soros still alive?

02:00:46.320 If I didn't do it, somebody else would have done it.

02:00:49.320 If I didn't do it, somebody else just would have come and done it.

02:00:53.440 If I didn't make money off the blood of children,

02:00:56.380 then somebody else would have just come and made the money off the blood of the children.

02:01:00.580 If I didn't nuke them, then somebody else was going to... 1.00

02:01:04.100 If I don't make the money off being a warmongering piece of shit... 1.00

02:01:08.400 I mean, it's going to happen anyway. 1.00

02:01:09.620 I might as well get paid.

02:01:10.960 Like, you're...

02:01:12.860 oh, you know, I'm not an expert by any means,

02:01:16.980 but I'm telling you, like, I'm not new,

02:01:18.780 and that's a bad, that's a foul.

02:01:21.440 You're getting a red flag on that one, Anita.

02:01:25.260 You know what?

02:01:25.940 You know what?

02:01:26.380 You might even be shown a real, 0.79

02:01:30.040 a highlight reel of everybody you helped kill.

02:01:35.500 And you'll feel just enough,

02:01:37.280 that collective pain spread over all the people that you,

02:01:40.300 and you're going to feel that back at yourself.

02:01:41.980 You're going to understand what that means, what you've done.

02:01:45.640 That's what they say happens when you die.

02:01:47.200 Did you know that?

02:01:48.300 When they say that your life flashes before your eyes.

02:01:50.080 I've been really into this subject for a long time.

02:01:52.100 Near-death experience people.

02:01:54.300 There are thousands of people saying the same thing.

02:01:56.600 There are a number of consistencies that seem to be, and one of them is that.

02:02:01.840 You see everything, but not from your perspective.

02:02:04.560 Everything that happened in your life from the point of view and perspective of everybody and everything else,

02:02:09.800 you just know it there you go

02:02:13.660 how do you feel about your life how do you feel about yourself now now that you can

02:02:19.720 so here you go anita oh yeah when you were slaving

02:02:25.080 you're all these days people blasted in half and screaming in the field yeah

02:02:30.960 that feel good you'd helped with that here have some here have some of that there you go

02:02:35.040 oh here's their wailing families at home finding out they're dead here

02:02:38.820 it nom nom nom there you go oh it was good did you get some money though what else what else

02:02:44.000 can we find there's a lot of pages here anita and this was just 2025 we are going to be here

02:02:50.000 for a lifetime okay and i think i wonder if that's what purgatory is and it depends on how you know

02:02:55.900 the egyptians believed in this also and whatever you think about that whole they're the bad guys

02:03:01.640 the powers that be in the world they're very very fascinated on these subjects as well they're very

02:03:07.340 tightly guarded and there's very little there's a lot of resistance into really digging and

02:03:15.600 literally into any of this there's a giant mega lot huge enormous structure under the pyramids 0.98

02:03:20.300 it's real it's 100 real and they're like no we're not going anywhere near that like why the fuck

02:03:24.520 would you stop the entire world to find out what's going on it may change everything what do you mean 0.99

02:03:30.320 there's a giant massive structure eight kilometers down under the what the fuck are you talking about 0.58

02:03:36.200 They're like, ah, it's just something we've found. 0.83

02:03:38.740 I'm like, ah, yeah, is it now?

02:03:40.280 Why are we doing anything until we've...

02:03:42.660 Imagine you get down there, and it's just a big glowing ball,

02:03:45.680 and you're like, yeah, you touch it, and you know everything in the universe.

02:03:47.960 Isn't that crazy?

02:03:50.520 Wow, that's great.

02:03:52.120 I don't know.

02:03:53.460 Pretty sure it's very...

02:03:54.940 We want to dig that up.

02:03:55.900 Whatever that is, we want to know what that is.

02:03:59.640 When they invaded Iraq in 2003,

02:04:02.100 the first targets that were hit were not military installations.

02:04:06.200 i mean i mean a lot of them were but there was something else that was also targeted very very

02:04:11.760 early like the the on the day the invasion began as soon as the first bomb fell the walls were

02:04:18.340 blown open in old museums in iraq where they had babylonian and sumerian artifacts that were like 0.87

02:04:24.100 older shit like thousands of years old they kept shitty replicas upstairs in the like the viewing 0.92

02:04:28.860 like oh this is the so-and-so the real shit was somewhere else buried involved and they and 0.99

02:04:32.640 somebody knew where it was and blew it all up and fucking stole everything and stole all the gold 0.99

02:04:36.460 too. Did you know that? Now that sounds like Delta Force or worse. That's like Rainbow Six, 0.99

02:04:42.940 which I don't know what it's called in real life, but I guarantee, I promise you it's not a

02:04:47.560 benevolent force though, but I do promise you there is an elite group of super killers that

02:04:52.380 is above all governments and belongs to whoever, probably the most, whoever the most powerful

02:04:55.940 people in the world are would have one of these. They have a gang. They have the A team of super

02:05:00.300 killers of apex predators who are just whatever you they're all delta forest french you know gign 1.00

02:05:06.380 fucking ksk spets not everything whatever doesn't matter are you are you a crazy good we'll pay you 1.00

02:05:13.060 so much money if you have no just no morale just do what you're told never ask questions and we'll 1.00

02:05:17.580 pay you you will live like a king i guarantee you they exist and they're above you know people

02:05:24.140 oh it was delta it was this country it's like it probably wasn't even a country it was probably

02:05:27.040 these businesses, this big money

02:05:29.460 is bigger than countries now.

02:05:31.280 They own countries. They own presidents.

02:05:33.320 They own...

02:05:34.900 They have the Sardaukar!

02:05:38.100 I would

02:05:39.300 bet my legs on that.

02:05:42.880 Who's

02:05:43.280 the most dangerous force in the world? Probably a bunch

02:05:45.200 of evil mercenaries 0.92

02:05:46.500 that work for the emperor.

02:05:52.500 probably coming out of blackwater who knows where they're trading at

02:05:58.900 new tip from hillary clinton eric prince is probably involved hillary clinton supported

02:06:03.720 with eight oh nice hillary i am coming back soon and you will not be disappointed

02:06:07.960 um if content wise no i did i probably would not be you know she's gonna bring

02:06:16.060 she's gonna bring the sardu car back with her this this is a this is real audio transcripts

02:06:23.540 of their comms chatter these are these are white guys yeah they are what

02:06:34.820 turn it turn it off it's like some kind of spell we think it might be 0.99

02:06:43.420 they've gone beyond fucking cqb with night vision and thermal they don't even do that 0.93

02:06:49.720 they don't even speak english anymore they talk like ancient egyptian gods and they float around 0.99

02:06:54.220 and seem to be omniscient they can see through walls and shit they're giving them experimental 0.99

02:06:59.380 drugs guys they've got fRNA for other things the fucking evil rainbow six is uh it's bad 0.99

02:07:06.400 we got cloaking technology could you imagine i mean think about it 0.99

02:07:11.680 somebody somewhere has to be the guy there is there's the top somewhere i'm pretty sure

02:07:18.240 we we've narrowed it down to the town the city area you know what i mean but like

02:07:22.220 international monetary fund there's a whole bank with its own army and its own

02:07:28.100 rules and laws and nobody could ever do anything to it and guess who owns it

02:07:31.980 There's like evil castles there that you would think Dracula lived in.

02:07:36.480 And you look at it, you're just like, oh, I feel, in my bones,

02:07:39.840 I feel like there's almost certainty.

02:07:42.680 Terrible things have happened in that place.

02:07:44.400 I just know it.

02:07:45.660 I just know it.

02:07:47.360 Oh, is that where Bilderberg is this year?

02:07:49.340 Great.

02:07:50.080 Wonderful.

02:07:51.380 Or whatever.

02:07:53.200 There's a few that the council informer are like,

02:07:54.700 there's all these, you know, somewhere it's a hierarchy.

02:07:59.420 and imagine the people that they keep on reserve because you've got to be prepared for everything

02:08:04.800 of course they have the sardau car i can think about that plus their money influence about they

02:08:11.780 could get whatever experimental shit out of china anyone they own and control like give us some of 0.79

02:08:15.600 that super soldier juice let's just see what i was doing some experiment those people do anything for 0.99

02:08:19.460 money like i will give you a fucking 250 grand and take this drug see what happens if you die 0.99

02:08:24.380 we'll give your family five million bucks how's that like fucking deal and they do it to it they 1.00

02:08:27.920 I have unlimited money. 0.99

02:08:33.040 Like some of the scarier stories that people say like over the years, 0.99

02:08:38.760 like they're trying to get into like Area 51 or doing dumb shit 0.98

02:08:42.740 or like the Grand Canyon is a strange hotspot. 0.98

02:08:45.120 They don't like people in the Grand Canyon.

02:08:46.640 You are not allowed in there.

02:08:47.440 Did you know that?

02:08:48.480 You will be apprehended by someone very quickly.

02:08:53.980 And they're like, oh, it's the military.

02:08:56.020 Like, I don't know if it is.

02:08:59.780 Like, oh, there's the aircraft, but the transponder is not turned on.

02:09:03.680 Well, like, well, that's super legal.

02:09:04.840 And they're just black, unmarked helicopter.

02:09:06.460 It could be literally anyone, and no one's even investigating. 0.99

02:09:08.960 They just apparently come and go, and it's like, what the fuck? 0.99

02:09:11.340 You go, it's the government. 0.99

02:09:12.260 You'd hope it is, but it may be above the government.

02:09:14.160 It may be something much worse than that.

02:09:18.320 It may be the forces of a private evil that puppets your government,

02:09:22.780 operating from a place you can't even see or know exists.

02:09:26.020 and can apparently come and go at will.

02:09:28.660 It does what it wants to anyone. 0.98

02:09:30.560 Like, that's fucking pretty scary. 0.98

02:09:35.480 That's like the Pharaoh, as far as you're concerned. 0.99

02:09:38.240 Whose helicopters are those?

02:09:39.200 The Pharaohs. 1.00

02:09:39.840 Shut up. 1.00

02:09:43.500 Fucking Pharaoh seems like a dick. 1.00

02:09:45.220 He is. 1.00

02:09:45.840 He's not a good guy.

02:09:46.900 He's not very well liked. 0.73

02:09:49.900 Pharaoh. 0.63

02:09:54.660 Well caught up.

02:09:55.460 What was that?

02:10:02.460 Customer checked.

02:10:03.280 You were busy working on a Wednesday podcast.

02:10:05.600 This is Friday.

02:10:08.780 We're going to Wednesday.

02:10:09.760 What are you talking about?

02:10:11.040 I had someone else's to do at that time.

02:10:13.460 You really thought you'd keep me away from the party.

02:10:15.120 What?

02:10:15.640 No.

02:10:17.180 How good of a...

02:10:18.180 If I'm trying to keep people away, how is it grifting?

02:10:20.440 It doesn't make any sense.

02:10:22.060 I can't grift nothing.

02:10:23.700 If I could, I wouldn't need any of you people.

02:10:29.660 I've got one.

02:10:31.900 What else is going on?

02:10:33.080 It's getting a little bit late.

02:10:33.760 How much time we got left, Phil?

02:10:35.860 Closing in.

02:10:36.460 That's good. 0.95

02:10:36.980 I don't know why I have M8 autistic.

02:10:38.520 It has to be three hours. 0.96

02:10:39.440 It's got to be.

02:10:40.660 That's the degree.

02:10:41.540 That's the agreement. 0.64

02:10:44.620 Do a nuclear war?

02:10:45.800 I don't want to do that. 1.00

02:10:46.820 It sounds like shit. 0.99

02:10:51.160 Oh, God. 1.00

02:10:54.140 Twitter is the worst.

02:11:00.220 It's just, it's like, it's an incoherent mess.

02:11:05.160 There's no way anyone can spend a significant amount of time

02:11:07.700 on the internet and come away with anything

02:11:08.940 other than like schizophrenia.

02:11:10.920 What is going on here? 0.69

02:11:12.900 Is this woman being executed?

02:11:14.400 I don't even want to put it.

02:11:15.040 I'm just scrolling through my feed

02:11:16.060 and it's just the wildest.

02:11:21.000 What are they buried?

02:11:22.200 Oh, they did shoot her.

02:11:23.360 Okay. 0.64

02:11:25.920 Insane.

02:11:27.740 Okay, it's just

02:11:28.840 Zelensky's guys shooting some of their own people

02:11:30.840 for probably desertion.

02:11:33.020 And then somebody's wife, it looked like. 0.79

02:11:34.640 Good, it's fine. 0.95

02:11:36.640 It's fine. Let's just turn that off.

02:11:38.480 We don't need any of that. Oh, there's some more here.

02:11:41.720 Is this a boomer getting beat up?

02:11:43.040 I don't need it. We can't do this right now.

02:11:45.140 Why is there so many of these?

02:11:48.060 Why is there so much of this?

02:11:51.180 I don't want it on the screen.

02:11:52.400 What do you guys want to do?

02:11:53.100 I can open the chat, actually, 0.97

02:11:54.080 if you guys want to fucking pop in. 0.92

02:12:01.340 Oh, you could just like 1.00

02:12:02.820 play some stupid music 1.00

02:12:05.400 to make it more fun? 1.00

02:12:06.340 I can't.

02:12:06.740 I could, yes.

02:12:09.040 Putting everybody to sleep 1.00

02:12:09.980 with this fucking 1.00

02:12:10.500 wowsy, wowsy, woo-woo. 1.00

02:12:14.900 That's not it.

02:12:16.400 Yeah, it is.

02:12:16.880 Whatever.

02:12:19.780 Nobody cares.

02:12:22.120 Nobody's ever cared, so you can come not care here if you want.

02:12:31.120 You can go to

02:12:33.720 Telegram

02:12:35.520 t.me

02:12:37.560 forward slash

02:12:40.300 my name

02:12:42.840 Jeremy McKenzie with an A-C

02:12:44.680 K-E-N-Z-I-E

02:12:47.280 C-A

02:12:48.760 C-A

02:12:50.260 C-A

02:12:50.780 Like a crow

02:12:54.500 t.me

02:12:56.640 slash

02:12:56.940 Jeremy McKenzie

02:12:58.440 C-A

02:12:59.020 and just join the, for some reason, if you want to ruin your life,

02:13:04.760 if you want to ruin your life, you can do that.

02:13:06.120 You can go in there and just, I'll, you can talk to me in here

02:13:09.140 and it'll just be two weird guys on the internet talking, you know?

02:13:15.220 Because, I'll be honest with you, like, I'm ready for craziness.

02:13:21.920 I don't, I don't, I've seen it all at this point, I think.

02:13:26.300 I've been to the end of the internet and back, and I, uh, I'm a legitimately deeply traumatized

02:13:33.800 person.

02:13:34.280 I've seen a lot of horror, like, there are things that I should never talk about.

02:13:38.600 There's just no good, there's no positive, there's nothing to be gained.

02:13:43.360 It's just, it should never have happened.

02:13:50.500 Oh, God. 1.00

02:13:52.500 Dagtastic, how are you? 1.00

02:13:53.580 welcome to nobody's cared nobody's ever cared hey man how's it going well you know nobody cares 1.00

02:14:02.480 how's it going with you oh it's going good do you think trump is stupid enough to nuke 0.99

02:14:09.860 iran's um pickaxe mountain i don't think it's up to him i don't think anything's up to him 1.00

02:14:17.120 actually because if it was he wouldn't have done and he's not that stupid there's a tucker 0.98

02:14:21.960 Carlson quote or quote a story he told where he was in the Oval Office with Trump this was 0.98

02:14:28.500 it's not recent it might have been a month ago or two months ago not too long ago and he said I was

02:14:34.000 alone with him in there and he said this is only a ploy for Israel to destroy Iran so it'll have

02:14:40.540 regional supremacy to weaken the rest of the Gulf states and get America out of the Middle East so 0.95

02:14:45.840 they can just do whatever the fuck they want and take all our money in the process he's like that's 0.95

02:14:48.780 all this is and he said trump looked at him and said yeah you're right i know and he said well 0.99

02:14:53.860 what are you doing then he said ah we all die anyway that's what he said trucker's like i

02:15:00.020 hand to god that's what he said he just went and he's like i was horrified he's like what about

02:15:05.300 our families what about the future why he goes ah he's just beaten and all he was checkmated a long

02:15:11.820 time ago and i think he's just doomed he's just making the best of it this is a guy that's coasting 0.95

02:15:15.640 This is not the same Trump from years ago who was all fucking gung-ho and, like, out for blood. 0.89

02:15:20.160 He's just going through it now. 0.99

02:15:22.540 He's just, like, you know, going through the motions, doing crazy stuff, having Halloween parties, fucking selling watches. 0.98

02:15:31.200 It's like, what are you doing? 0.97

02:15:32.820 I'm tweeting right now, tweeting about my watches. 1.00

02:15:35.640 Like, are you fucking out of your mind? 1.00

02:15:37.880 Maybe I'll nuke somebody. 1.00

02:15:39.480 What are you saying? 0.77

02:15:40.820 Like, it's, I don't know.

02:15:43.160 He's clearly not in charge.

02:15:44.900 The president of the United States has not been the final say and authority in what happens in the United States for a very long time, at least since the 60s, at least probably before that.

02:15:54.500 But it wasn't pretty clear when when your president start getting shot in the face and in the back of the head a lot.

02:15:59.860 It's like, well, somebody's doing that, you know, somebody somebody's doing it.

02:16:05.980 It's not me.

02:16:06.820 You know, must be somebody else doing it.

02:16:09.700 Who else do you think would be doing that? 0.92

02:16:11.700 Who keeps shooting the legitimate leaders and replacing them with puppet psychos who love banks and wars?

02:16:18.700 Who keeps doing it? 0.95

02:16:19.980 I can tell you.

02:16:21.300 I can tell you who did it.

02:16:23.140 It was the galeans.

02:16:25.320 Well, if it's an identifiable group, we can't say it because that would be identifying an identifiable group.

02:16:30.400 And if you identify an identifiable group in Canada, once they're identified, you've identified that you're going to be charged with prison.

02:16:36.160 You're going to jail.

02:16:37.500 You're going to jail forever.

02:16:39.360 Oh, yeah.

02:16:40.500 We better not do that.

02:16:41.220 Yeah, we can't identify that identifiable group.

02:16:45.020 Nobody's allowed to identify.

02:16:46.560 It's over.

02:16:47.300 All right, thanks, man.

02:16:48.080 I appreciate it.

02:16:48.720 Short and long, what do you want?

02:16:50.560 Why aren't you ever long and short?

02:16:51.920 Why is it always short and long?

02:16:53.720 Why are you so negative?

02:16:54.740 Why do you start with the small?

02:16:57.040 Or do you like to, like, you know, start small and then end long? 1.00

02:17:00.540 I mean, that makes sense, especially from a female perspective. 1.00

02:17:03.260 I think they'd appreciate that more.

02:17:05.740 I'm just killing time.

02:17:06.880 I'm just trying to, you know, it's just dead air.

02:17:09.120 You know what I mean?

02:17:09.540 So I'm just, you know, just just making noises just to keep because otherwise people to check out, they leave and they, you know, they don't listen and they never come back. 0.91

02:17:19.480 And, you know, maybe they maybe they go, maybe they turn gay or something. 0.69

02:17:23.400 And that could be your fault because you're just not you're just sitting there. 0.92

02:17:25.620 You're just not saying anything. Well, now you make me sad.

02:17:28.480 All right. Come along, Patsy. Is this guy Prussian blue? 0.97

02:17:31.160 This is going to be this is going to be legal, legal speech. 0.57

02:17:36.660 Or is he? Maybe. Oh, there we go.

02:17:38.920 yeah how's it going man i would just like oh great i'm from southern canada oh god

02:17:44.480 southern canada what do you mean yeah like yarmouth minnesota oh minnesota 0.98

02:17:50.400 minnesota yeah it kind of is southern canada like you've got a fucking nakastani 0.98

02:17:57.560 fucking weird accent every nakastani loves that joke yeah it is funny because everyone assumes 0.99

02:18:02.960 I used to live as an expat, and every Canuckestani just hated being thought of as an American, 0.99

02:18:12.500 but they knew that no one knew the difference.

02:18:15.600 So I developed that joke years ago.

02:18:17.660 Everyone loves it.

02:18:19.500 But other than that, I love shooting on your Air Force, but it doesn't taste very good. 0.99

02:18:26.200 Fucking Southern Canada, huh? 0.99

02:18:27.860 Prove it. 1.00

02:18:28.400 Well, I love the Minnesota Wild Hockey team.

02:18:30.940 Yeah, that makes sense.

02:18:31.700 I can skate.

02:18:33.180 They're really into the, you know, only Southern,

02:18:35.820 oh, there's something wrong with them.

02:18:37.060 They must be part Canadian because they care about hockey too much.

02:18:39.260 Way more than the rest of America. 0.99

02:18:41.420 Well, we're nice to me.

02:18:43.440 Driving me nuts about Minnesota sports is that we're too nice.

02:18:46.800 We're just way too nice.

02:18:48.120 We don't want to win, okay?

02:18:49.760 Because if we win, that means someone's got to lose.

02:18:52.000 That's not very nice.

02:18:53.160 That's not very nice.

02:18:54.060 Yeah, it's not very nice.

02:18:55.640 So it's like, you know, you guys go to the Super Bowl.

02:18:57.400 You know what, you guys have the parade.

02:18:59.040 You've already made plans.

02:19:00.060 We don't want to have you cancel that.

02:19:01.320 so you know just go ahead and do it you know what you know what you're a good boy i don't want to

02:19:05.960 take this from it you go win you win the game and you go have fun all right because i don't need it

02:19:10.080 you need it more than i do if you go ahead good for you i got no other i got no other further

02:19:15.580 questions than jokes i just thought i'd give that one to him i've been listening for a while it's

02:19:19.660 kind of fun listening guys you're like you're exactly my age like 85 86 around there so yeah

02:19:24.460 86 stop making them any good they don't make them like that anymore oh man i can't believe yeah

02:19:32.620 i turned 40 i was like this is this wasn't supposed to happen well yeah apparently apparently

02:19:38.420 it's real you know i didn't know and then yeah i got a little bit of white hair it's not a big

02:19:43.360 deal but it's no it's definitely i dude i was actually i was boxing yesterday and i was just 0.81

02:19:47.620 a young guy was just running me hard we were like nine straight minutes for no fucking break i was 0.96

02:19:51.600 you cunt like he's just like fine and then i got up today and i'm my back i feel like i should have 0.98

02:19:56.600 a back brace on i was like i feel like i got hit by a car i'm like oh it's just just quit it took 0.98

02:20:01.740 so long to like i was like oh my god i literally have i'm thinking of like every old sergeant

02:20:07.640 major and everybody ever saw that would just get out of their sleeping bag like ah like i've become

02:20:12.860 it's that it's real it's a real thing i always thought like oh how bad can it be yeah it's

02:20:17.660 basically the fluid in your back like the lubricant is just used up so it's just seizing

02:20:24.160 metal parts going

02:20:25.100 unfortunately i guess i was smart enough to avoid military service or not go into it so

02:20:34.400 perhaps i'm in a little bit better condition than you are maybe maybe you'd be surprised

02:20:40.100 what decades of built-up hatred can do though it can you can summon supernatural performances

02:20:43.660 a time so it's like it probably balances

02:20:45.740 out. I bet

02:20:47.520 that story you said about

02:20:48.920 special forces or just the marines

02:20:51.540 it was like they made you do the training

02:20:53.500 twice and then you wanted to do it a third time

02:20:55.400 and everyone quit.

02:20:56.820 A few of them did. I think like

02:20:59.360 four or five guys were just like fuck 0.99

02:21:01.400 this and it was like that's what we were just trying to shake them 0.99

02:21:03.480 out if there was anybody who was like not resigned

02:21:05.560 to like and I think they have like mathematical

02:21:07.740 they've plotted this out. They know it's

02:21:09.540 like one time, two times will

02:21:11.540 demoralize a lot of people but if they're faced with a third

02:21:13.900 the ones who are going to quit will quit

02:21:15.680 like have it down to a science so that's why they do it all

02:21:18.000 like that every every stage of those events like

02:21:19.880 those special ops units is like it's not

02:21:21.920 just like yeah we're going to torture them to see who we like

02:21:23.880 and don't like it's like scientifically

02:21:25.740 designed for certain reasons they're testing

02:21:27.920 certain character attributes they do it in a certain order

02:21:29.980 like they they don't start you just start

02:21:31.880 by being physically run into the ground they don't even test

02:21:33.900 your brain until like three days in

02:21:35.300 because it's like I don't care I want to are you smart when you're

02:21:37.940 tired I want to see if you're smart when you're exhausted 0.99

02:21:40.060 I mean, because otherwise you're useless. 0.99

02:21:41.820 Like, the first three days, he's like, we're just going to torch you until you want to die. 1.00

02:21:45.760 And then we're going to start fucking with you. 1.00

02:21:47.440 And we're like, wait a minute. 1.00

02:21:48.140 We're in all these red a minute ago.

02:21:49.380 They'll be like, I don't know.

02:21:50.040 Were they? 0.99

02:21:50.520 You're like, what the fuck is going on with this place? 0.99

02:21:52.920 Trying to see if they could gaslight you into things. 0.98

02:21:55.360 And it's pretty, it was a fun experience.

02:21:58.360 It was really fun.

02:22:01.720 But, oh, my God, I got three more here.

02:22:03.360 So I better let you go.

02:22:06.200 Goodbye.

02:22:07.320 Goodbye, Prussian blue.

02:22:08.140 the thing they the thing that they never found where it should have been found

02:22:11.600 in the place that it's supposed to be but for some reason isn't it's such a you know

02:22:15.620 it's a mystery but it's you know there's groups that could be identified so we better not go there

02:22:20.700 intrusive thoughts he's going to tell us all about it thank you very much uh just want to

02:22:28.060 say thank you first off for uh you know uh speaking to a lot of the things you speak to

02:22:33.120 especially like the uh veteran issues and uh you were speaking on something earlier that i just

02:22:39.140 wanted to uh ask you a question on or discuss i guess a little further but uh you were talking

02:22:44.900 about this concept of you know like a childhood coming into it as adulthood and like you know

02:22:49.760 creating this identity and you know basing this foundation on these kinds of things and

02:22:54.980 you know like for example a service and a life of uh the military for example you know like

02:23:01.480 that takes a certain level of commitment and a certain worldview and things like that you know

02:23:07.620 when you take that worldview and you you shatter it and you know it was all for nothing and all

02:23:12.460 these things and you know um I guess what I like uh what I'm bringing up is uh so when you describe

02:23:20.740 it being like all based on a lie and things and like it was all done for money and things right

02:23:26.260 like uh how would you describe though like because like that thing that like you know those guys put

02:23:34.660 forward obviously it was very real and stuff right so it's not that their identity is like

02:23:40.140 shattering in that sense like yeah they were being mercenaries for the banks kind of thing um

02:23:47.160 but their identity of who they were like you know being a warrior and being that class of person

02:23:54.160 that you know would step forward and say you know like i am here send me like you know that

02:24:01.200 identity doesn't just get erased like it's still there it just needs a new definition um and like

02:24:08.720 you know it needs to be placed somewhere that like actually achieves those goals and like you speak

02:24:14.620 to how these guys are tricked and all this and you know like i thank you so much for it but um

02:24:20.380 like i was wondering if there was just anything you could help to say that would help them like

02:24:26.060 with their like going through this struggle of identity and like trying to understand who they

02:24:32.880 are because you know like some people i don't think like um necessarily like have the have

02:24:40.380 had the same upbringings or circumstances and are very lost in these kinds of things um so yeah like

02:24:47.400 Like, I know you'll probably get more into it on your Remembrance Day episode, but I guess you were touching on this stuff earlier, I guess.

02:24:54.320 So, and, you know, it's a question that was lingering on my mind.

02:24:58.500 So I figured I might as well ask you.

02:25:01.320 Yeah, no.

02:25:01.700 So, like, it's still true.

02:25:03.560 Like, those guys, they're all still all those things.

02:25:06.320 The problem is that they're looking for the validation and the reciprocation in the wrong place.

02:25:11.120 The thing that the place where you expect it to be, where it should be, where you where you were told it would be, where you understood it would be like the state, you know, you'd be looked after and taken care of, like not pampered and given a bajillion dollars, but like just, you know, just a basic level of understanding and respect.

02:25:27.000 and you know like life is going to be more difficult for a lot of these guys like just a

02:25:31.000 little bit of an extra you know and it's just not there and it's like you know well why don't they 0.94

02:25:36.680 care why doesn't anybody appreciate it so it's all bullshit was not real it is but you're the 0.73

02:25:40.320 people who understand and get it are not out there they're more in here they're the other guys and 0.94

02:25:45.680 the other family members and the and the some parts of the population who do understand it for

02:25:49.520 one reason or another and uh that's who they that's who they need to be with and focus on and

02:25:54.240 and connect with instead of trying to you know it's not helping anybody to like stand up there

02:25:59.640 and you know ask the prime minister like why you know basically why do you hate me and he's like

02:26:02.980 oh you're asking for more than i'm willing to give right now it's like that guy's never going

02:26:06.300 to like you he hates they it's a joke like you know you're looking for sustenance and and

02:26:11.260 understanding and acceptance in a place that it doesn't exist they just pretend who pretends to

02:26:16.200 like someone when they very obviously resent them and and have contempt like they don't they go out 0.76

02:26:22.020 to do these remembrance day ceremonies and they virtue signal they you know act like clowns and

02:26:26.400 then do the exact opposite in behavior the rest of the time so it's like there's contempt it's a

02:26:30.220 chore for them and they're like us wiping and smiling when they're like when they go home i

02:26:35.120 guarantee they're like thank god that's over i guarantee it and like uh you know if that's all

02:26:41.800 you're looking at like looking around for you know and they're all like we don't care like that's all

02:26:47.640 you ever see and it's you know it'll eat you alive and then but you don't there's a bunch of

02:26:52.580 other people that are in different places you wouldn't expect who do understand and do get it

02:26:56.000 and it just looks different than you thought it would you know it's the not the uh the sentiment

02:27:01.500 is still true there's the story's wrong you know you get uh it's not the hammer's the hammer gets

02:27:06.240 picked up to use to murder somebody like that wasn't what the hammer intended the hammer is

02:27:09.660 supposed to be hammering nails and building things it's it's like it doesn't choose who

02:27:13.600 it uses who it gets used on or right right um the sentiment was still there it wanted to be a nice 0.98

02:27:18.660 helpful tool to do a good thing and some piece of shit used it for something else and that's you're 0.98

02:27:23.640 you know you're abused then you're not a fucking bad like you didn't this was what anybody signed 0.99

02:27:28.220 up for you know and you touched on something uh kind of important there too when you bring up uh 0.96

02:27:34.680 stories and things like that and how they're very important to uh how we craft our world view and

02:27:40.940 things like this um people think of warfare and the pinnacle they're in of you know like nuclear

02:27:46.340 weapons and things like this and you know i want people to kind of internalize and think about but

02:27:51.580 the trinity test was over 70 years ago now i think to the day um like that technology is old school

02:27:58.860 like we're talking in the realm of fifth sixth generational warfare and these kinds of things so

02:28:04.240 absolutely to your point the very stories that we base our foundation and worldview on are

02:28:09.980 insurmountably just as much a weapon as the nuclear weapon is you know what i mean

02:28:15.700 well it's the difference between having like an orphaned you know child with no recollection

02:28:22.780 no idea where they came from or who their parents are to someone who's grown up with a very strong

02:28:27.160 foundation and sense of identity and family who loves them like one person is going to be a lot

02:28:30.880 more equipped and you know you can say oh the other person would be a lot tougher really if

02:28:34.900 they survive but they're very much more likely to just be completely insane and very maladjusted 0.93

02:28:39.560 a fucking victim of the machine uh so the people who get it like when they try to take this kind 0.97

02:28:45.080 of stuff away from you it's uh it's like depriving you of nutrients and things you need to be healthy 0.99

02:28:50.120 you're not allowed to have heroes and inspiring stories and venerate your no no you can't have

02:28:55.780 that it's white supremacy and all this stuff uh okay well that's it's like no more vegetables 0.99

02:29:00.380 or meat for you just gruel you can have miley cyrus and you can have fucking ben shapiro and 0.97

02:29:07.720 that's all like it you know that's not people especially young people they need example young 0.51

02:29:14.060 boys that you need um that's why they have batman and these kinds of things it's not because yeah

02:29:17.380 it's cool looking it's fun and it's you know but it's done in such it's it's sending a message to

02:29:22.400 younger people in a way that is easier to digest it's easier to understand if it's cartoonish like

02:29:26.740 that but the gist of it like you know batman's just trying to help everybody and he's doing what 0.81

02:29:31.500 he's got to do it's fucking shitty out there and no he has to do it by himself because nobody 0.97

02:29:35.060 understands really what's going on and he's like fucking half the people hate him and everybody 0.99

02:29:39.000 he's like i don't you know he's above all of that he's just i just have he knows that he's like i 0.94

02:29:43.900 have to do it nobody else can do it and i don't care if they hate me anyway it's just i can't live

02:29:47.740 with myself although because that's who he is and they're like that is a beautiful that that idea

02:29:52.080 that that someone could be like that even at all in real life who's just like like again that

02:29:59.620 character from black hawk down like why do you do it man who why and he's like because somebody out 0.99

02:30:05.640 there needs me you know and it's just like damn that is a fucking legend you know like that kind 0.98

02:30:11.820 of guy when you're suffering and going through a difficult time like you think about people like 0.99

02:30:17.900 that and you can kind of go you know what and and find a little bit of extra juice uh and it's like

02:30:23.380 that person suffered so you'd have the ability to know that you could survive something like

02:30:27.780 it's just such a beautiful thing.

02:30:29.700 And they're like, no, no, take it away.

02:30:31.640 Take it away.

02:30:32.780 Make them worship football players.

02:30:35.820 And actors worship people who play make-believe for a living.

02:30:40.480 Worship them.

02:30:41.420 They know things.

02:30:42.180 Angelina Jolie should go to the United Nations, you guys. 1.00

02:30:44.660 She should make fucking refugee decisions 1.00

02:30:47.340 because she plays make-believe on the television. 1.00

02:30:50.780 Crazy.

02:30:51.780 You know?

02:30:52.420 Anyway, I got to wrap this up here in a minute.

02:30:56.820 Final...

02:30:57.780 oh yeah no i'll let you move on to other hands thank you very much for allowing me

02:31:03.120 the opportunity to speak and thank you very much problem cheers man um i was just trying

02:31:08.020 to quiet the intrusive thoughts did i win you know anyway what a time it's uh yeah now it's

02:31:16.000 the 7th so we've been talking for a whole day now it's the 7th of november i got three days

02:31:21.680 oh man i don't it's gonna be so shitty uh i'm putting i'm putting on my i should have said

02:31:27.580 anything i put pressure on myself but maybe that's what i have to do i have to uh

02:31:31.040 i have to over commit to the point where i i you know i'll just not sleep i'll just fine i have to

02:31:38.260 then new tip from lapu lapu killer oh lapu lapu killer supported with 10 why are there always so

02:31:48.860 many people at street festivals it's so annoying which ones do you mean you

02:31:56.000 well people like them uh oh what's that noise

02:32:02.560 what was my telegram making crazy noises i was supposed to close that down anyway

02:32:07.480 oh there was some yeah whatever get another time anyway you know

02:32:14.400 we're just hanging out it's philips just friday night distraction time we only have a few more

02:32:20.040 minutes left i don't want to hear any complaining i put it there you could have went in there you 0.96

02:32:24.200 could have said whatever and you suck no no i'm gonna i'm gonna send rude chat messages from the 1.00

02:32:28.740 bushes i'm sure everybody how smart i am oh yeah well fucking you go ahead you go ahead 1.00

02:32:37.080 Here's a tip from Jake 313. 0.99

02:32:39.720 Jake 313 supported with 69.

02:32:42.840 Of course.

02:32:46.980 I almost...

02:32:48.340 What are you doing over there? 0.99

02:32:50.760 Morgan's playing fucking piano music or something. 0.99

02:32:56.580 One of the first things that struck me that I couldn't... 1.00

02:33:00.280 It took me a little while to believe.

02:33:03.960 Was that when I first went to the regular force army...

02:33:07.080 I mean, the reserves was one thing.

02:33:08.940 It's like, it's mostly kids, right?

02:33:09.960 It's mostly teenagers in like 20, 21 years.

02:33:11.980 Like it's, I think the odd, you know,

02:33:15.260 divorced guy in his 40s who's supposed to be responsible

02:33:17.080 for this whole mess and hates himself 0.99

02:33:18.260 and like retired, like left the fucking band news years ago. 0.99

02:33:21.100 And he's like, I fucking, you know, 0.99

02:33:22.220 should have stayed in Quebec. 0.99

02:33:24.700 But you get to the regular force army

02:33:26.320 and it's like, these are the grown men.

02:33:27.480 These are the big boys.

02:33:28.360 These are the professionals.

02:33:29.260 It's all that. 0.75

02:33:29.920 And the amount of like just people drawing dicks on things 0.87

02:33:33.500 like it was fourth grade was, I couldn't believe 0.65

02:33:36.560 the level of childish like it was i was blown away i thought there's no way

02:33:42.720 that there are you know like this is my only real job like when i was a kid i like delivered

02:33:49.620 newspapers for a summer so i could get a playstation i did some some like minor like

02:33:54.460 farm work and stuff for my grandfather but i was like my only real job was in the army

02:33:58.420 so it's like i wonder what grown men are like when they're at work and so i was like they're 1.00

02:34:02.700 just idiots like every day every other time the same fucking 17 year old morons you know except 1.00

02:34:08.520 30 years later they're just fatter and older and they're still doing the exact same thing 1.00

02:34:13.020 and they're drawing dicks on things and like it's the same

02:34:15.300 how much you gonna donate 69 nice like you know 0.56

02:34:22.380 crazy but i will say this some of the things that were written and drawn like

02:34:31.440 in some of these like port-a-johns overseas

02:34:33.900 and military bases, like there is some truly

02:34:36.060 there's some next level

02:34:39.160 never forget that Duplices

02:34:46.200 was here. He was.

02:34:47.880 He was here.

02:34:51.180 Don't listen to them. They don't know anything.

02:34:54.820 You'll find him, sir.

02:34:55.980 He's out there. 0.98

02:34:56.520 the day you stop drawing dicks is the day you're on the road to death well it's subconscious you 0.99

02:35:03.260 know what i mean it's like uh women are like that's all they think about it's all they're 0.98

02:35:07.040 constantly like well i'm sorry but if we didn't we wouldn't be able to perpetuate the human race

02:35:12.460 okay so if we don't have that you do like having you you know you like purses so guess who makes

02:35:18.800 those the human civilization does and if we don't have one you don't have any purses and 0.94

02:35:23.400 unfortunately it's going to require the use and of a lot of dicks and so it's on our mind a lot 0.77

02:35:28.860 and sometimes they drop it i personally have never found i don't think i've ever done it i swear to 0.97

02:35:33.220 god i just was never that kid but other guys can't stop doing it it was literally was i didn't what

02:35:38.520 is that in super bad i think it was there's a kid that couldn't stop trying it's true there's always

02:35:43.560 a kid or two or more in school and apparently most of them end up in the ppcli i don't know why that

02:35:49.960 is what it was the jewish guy doing it in the movie oh jonah hill

02:35:56.640 that's all that's all i want to know cover that up yeah

02:36:09.720 all right what else uh wrap this up here what else is there anything going on is there anything

02:36:16.340 I should even care about?

02:36:17.660 I just zone out.

02:36:18.760 I'm like, wake me up when the city's destroyed.

02:36:20.140 Like, this is all the name.

02:36:21.580 Blah, blah.

02:36:22.280 New chief of staff.

02:36:23.360 We're going to have a new guy. 0.99

02:36:24.480 It fucking doesn't matter. 0.99

02:36:26.140 You know, look at him. 1.00

02:36:26.980 He's...

02:36:27.580 Oh, that's not anything.

02:36:28.340 That's just an empty desktop.

02:36:30.780 You're such an amateur, Jeremy. 1.00

02:36:32.400 Fucking come on. 1.00

02:36:33.560 Come on. 1.00

02:36:34.380 Come on. 0.99

02:36:36.040 Come on.

02:36:37.240 I don't even care.

02:36:38.200 He's, like, looking at something he's holding.

02:36:42.580 He's going through his... 1.00

02:36:46.340 He looks stupid. 1.00

02:36:48.700 I've never seen, I've never seen her, I know nothing about this man, except that I'm looking at him. 1.00

02:36:56.440 Something about his face and bone structure, the way he's holding his eyes. 1.00

02:37:02.220 He looks stupid. 1.00

02:37:03.180 He looks like a dumb guy. 1.00

02:37:04.820 And he looks like he knows that he's a dumb guy. 1.00

02:37:08.380 He looks like he has, look, he's got his hands full. 1.00

02:37:11.280 He's just, he's accepted it.

02:37:13.540 He's not even trying to, he's handing this to him.

02:37:16.340 I've brought this to the president, and he's like, 1.00

02:37:18.120 I'm not even going to open my hand to accept that from this moron. 1.00

02:37:24.320 How much longer do I have to do this? 1.00

02:37:26.560 I'm going to sit two more years of this.

02:37:28.200 I hope they give me that pager.

02:37:29.620 I want it for Christmas.

02:37:31.240 If I don't blow up on Christmas Day, I'm going to be,

02:37:34.360 part of me is going to be a little bit pissed off.

02:37:37.360 What's wrong, Donald?

02:37:38.380 You don't like your president?

02:37:39.200 Well, none of them killed me and ended this humiliation, so no, Melania.

02:37:44.180 No, they're not great.

02:37:45.380 It's not a great Christmas.

02:37:47.240 Stephen Miller, he said,

02:37:49.600 here, look, look at all these things and charts and graphs I've printed.

02:37:54.660 Look at all this.

02:37:55.300 I said, Stephen, you don't understand it, Stephen.

02:37:57.240 You're not there because it's a job I want you to do.

02:37:59.720 It's a job that anybody can do. 0.99

02:38:01.020 You're there to be a lame duck. 0.93

02:38:04.060 It's all over, Stephen. 0.99

02:38:05.400 We're going down with the Titanic.

02:38:08.220 Both engines are gone.

02:38:09.500 The wings are falling off the Titanic, which is now a plane, actually.

02:38:13.800 It's a plane that's going to crash into the ocean and sink to the bottom of the sea.

02:38:18.120 No life jackets, nothing, Stephen.

02:38:20.180 It's over.

02:38:20.900 They've got Congress.

02:38:21.820 They've got the Senate.

02:38:22.800 They're going to impeach everybody.

02:38:24.640 I think they're going to turn Elon Musk into some kind of hot dog.

02:38:28.580 I've heard them talking.

02:38:29.580 They're going to turn him into a hot dog.

02:38:30.920 They're going to feed him.

02:38:32.080 They're going to eat him, and they're going to eat him in hot dog form.

02:38:34.240 I don't know what they're doing.

02:38:35.680 They're saying demented things, crazy things, Stephen.

02:38:38.260 And you've got this.

02:38:40.040 What is this?

02:38:40.660 I'm not even going to open my hand to look at it, Stephen.

02:38:43.500 You don't even understand the nightmare that you're in.

02:38:46.700 If you wake up dead, Stephen, you ought to know.

02:38:49.980 A lot of people are saying you ought to know that you're lucky.

02:38:53.640 You're lucky is what they'll say.

02:38:55.160 He got off easy.

02:38:56.020 He got off lucky.

02:38:56.680 Remember, Stephen?

02:38:57.540 Remember, big boy?

02:38:58.320 New tip from totally not CRJ, but maybe Jen Stein. 1.00

02:39:01.800 Big stupid Stephen. 0.99

02:39:02.760 Totally not CRJ, but maybe Jen Stein supported with three. 1.00

02:39:07.360 My drippings are like glue.

02:39:10.240 And just like that, it was over.

02:39:12.700 just like that we were having a good time weren't we we were having fun i was like i'll do this for

02:39:20.840 20 straight minutes i'll just see how long i can do this for and instead he's like you know what we

02:39:25.940 need you know what we need 0.87

02:39:28.760 it's like a ruined orgasm but you know what i mean you're just like 0.51

02:39:53.280 i can't believe this could be the end it's i it's work i'm trying to place where it hurts in a way

02:40:03.920 that it's not it's not often it doesn't happen enough for me to know exactly where to place it

02:40:08.480 but it takes a minute or two and then you're like that's what that is horrifying that is horrible

02:40:12.540 Oh, you don't want to know.

02:40:33.500 No.

02:40:35.500 That's, is that, who's, no, is that, that's not the real Morgan. 0.99

02:40:39.560 Who's mind fucking me? 0.99

02:40:41.120 Who's doing that? 1.00

02:40:43.120 We don't have that kind of money.

02:40:45.700 We don't have...

02:40:46.880 What are you throwing $45 around for?

02:40:49.240 I don't feel like that was you.

02:40:52.220 No, we're not doing that.

02:40:54.580 I order pieces from different stores

02:40:56.280 and just rotate around with fake numbers

02:40:57.860 and have them delivered down the street where no one is.

02:41:00.620 And I just steal it.

02:41:03.860 I'm faster than all of them.

02:41:06.100 There's a path, there's a fence,

02:41:07.480 they're in the woods, they give up right away.

02:41:09.820 I get a little bit of exercise, but yeah, we're not...

02:41:12.060 No, we're very, you know, it's like we got to we want to beat them.

02:41:16.720 We got to we got to we got to get real cheap.

02:41:18.340 We got to get really cheap.

02:41:24.640 We're going to get real cheap and we're going to give it to Stephen.

02:41:26.660 Here you go, Stephen.

02:41:27.780 Figure it out.

02:41:28.800 Do the impossible.

02:41:30.480 I'm going to go. 1.00

02:41:32.120 I'm going to go to a fucking costume party and do cocaine with strippers or whatever the hell he's doing. 1.00

02:41:38.020 I don't know. 0.99

02:41:38.340 let's uh just just tired of it all right it's it's been a long time and it never it just gets

02:41:46.200 dumber the longer i've been watching all of this since i was jesus i was in grade when was 9 11

02:41:53.780 grade 10 it's kind of when i started to pay because i was like oh it's affecting the world 0.97

02:41:58.600 now then okay there is actually serious things that go on and uh it's only ever gotten dumber 0.95

02:42:04.300 They've gotten dumber. 0.99

02:42:05.420 Everything about it has gotten dumber. 1.00

02:42:07.200 The things people say and do and react. 1.00

02:42:11.900 Pregnant people are who gets pregnant. 0.88

02:42:13.800 I mean, it doesn't do gender.

02:42:15.140 What are you saying? 0.64

02:42:18.220 Oh, we're giving another $500 billion, a bajillion, a jillion dollars to Zelensky and his torture chambers that are being.

02:42:24.200 What are you saying? 0.51

02:42:26.060 Well, he suspended elections indefinitely, but it doesn't make him a dictator.

02:42:29.000 Yes, it does make him a dictator.

02:42:31.580 What are you talking about?

02:42:32.640 and I think CBC's getting another

02:42:35.880 the budget came out, they're getting a whole other

02:42:37.580 $300 million 0.99

02:42:38.200 good to see Rosemary Barton 1.00

02:42:40.780 look how much bigger her square is 1.00

02:42:43.420 Scotian Fentelman supported with three 0.60

02:42:45.540 hundred dollars

02:42:47.480 instead of smashing you 0.98

02:42:49.640 over the head with the tired jabs insults

02:42:51.840 I'll instead ask what is your favorite

02:42:53.700 memory in the reserves 0.98

02:42:54.980 fucking leaving it 0.99

02:42:56.600 do you like how he put three and then he added 0.99

02:42:59.780 $100 to make it sound, it's like no

02:43:01.580 He's going to do this 300 more times to make up for it, though.

02:43:06.280 I don't know.

02:43:07.020 The Reserves was mostly just a big party.

02:43:13.920 There was one weekend, I think, after Afghanistan.

02:43:26.740 we were in actually the debert bunkers

02:43:33.200 that zelinski is allegedly buying and we just uh it was crazy you know it was like a it was like a

02:43:42.240 training weekend it was just like lectures and briefings for most of the day and then we just 0.98

02:43:46.280 got fucking it was not like the night the basically from 6 p.m on was just a jungle shit show and uh 0.77

02:43:56.740 i don't know if this is a favorite it's a it's a significant i mean i don't know i learned a lot 0.98

02:44:07.780 from it but it was it was a lot of the same people we'd known all the for years and years

02:44:11.100 and years like in the reserve well not that long but a few years and uh it was kind of like your

02:44:15.680 work family and it was that's who you learned about the army with and came up with and all that

02:44:19.760 but a small amount of us went overseas and did that and then came back and briefly you know and

02:44:24.680 go back to being in the reserves like it was before

02:44:27.500 and it was fun and everything

02:44:29.420 and it was nice to see everybody and feel

02:44:31.040 back where you came

02:44:33.500 from

02:44:33.920 but

02:44:35.920 in the morning you're like I don't belong here anymore

02:44:39.660 like

02:44:42.560 I'm surrounded by people who have

02:44:45.400 they don't know

02:44:46.880 and all the guys

02:44:48.940 I wanted to go home

02:44:51.320 which was now with 2RCR

02:44:52.800 are because i wouldn't you know do that with those guys these guys i just drank with these guys

02:44:59.120 they're they're my real family you know so it wasn't it wasn't like i was just like oh well

02:45:05.320 now you know time to go time to go back you're going back i'm like yeah what are you what are

02:45:10.900 your mind i'm like i probably i probably am i mean i just that well that none of that was normal

02:45:15.560 like that none of that was good like i probably have yes probably i've probably gone crazy see

02:45:20.220 later there's a lot of reasons to think so i mean you you wouldn't be out of your mind to think so

02:45:26.960 um i loves batman master chief lived long enough to see them become goy sloth yeah but the feeling

02:45:34.160 isn't isn't fake that's what i was talking about earlier that feeling that sensation of like

02:45:38.100 when you see the good guy overcome something awful and deliver like it's not every day and

02:45:44.880 it's not you know real life is often not that you know satisfying but every once in a while it can

02:45:49.700 happen and it is possible. And because it is, why wouldn't you try? Imagine being able to help

02:45:57.020 deliver that for somebody, that feeling of like, you can have a thousand terrible days in a row

02:46:03.480 and then just one real good one that could sustain you for another thousand.

02:46:09.100 That's how much more powerful it is. One of those examples, one of those guys, one of those stories,

02:46:15.520 One of those is enough that it could fire you up long enough to stave off a thousand different attacks for a thousand different days.

02:46:23.060 One.

02:46:23.620 What if you got two?

02:46:24.380 What if you got five?

02:46:25.420 Twenty-five.

02:46:27.720 You get a dozen and you're good for life.

02:46:30.380 You have a good enough solid foundation, understanding, connection to that feeling is a real thing.

02:46:35.240 Good exists.

02:46:36.620 Love exists.

02:46:37.260 The truth exists.

02:46:38.100 This is a real thing.

02:46:39.020 It wasn't a one-off.

02:46:41.340 It wasn't a fluke.

02:46:42.180 It's a real thing. 1.00

02:46:43.560 Fuck these people. 1.00

02:46:44.380 I don't care what they try to do. 1.00

02:46:45.720 It doesn't matter. 1.00

02:46:47.060 It doesn't matter if they burn it all down and kill everybody. 0.97

02:46:49.440 It's not going to change anything. 0.82

02:46:50.380 That's real. 1.00

02:46:51.000 This is bullshit. 0.99

02:46:51.700 And that's always going to be true. 1.00

02:46:53.620 And they hate people for that.

02:46:55.000 You won't play the game. 1.00

02:46:56.120 You won't submit to the illusion and the horse shit. 0.99

02:46:58.900 And you won't bow. 1.00

02:46:59.640 And you won't kiss the ring.

02:47:00.660 And so then all they want to do is destroy you.

02:47:02.920 They can't bend you.

02:47:03.720 They can't twist you.

02:47:04.380 They can't bring you back into the plantation.

02:47:06.100 They just want to destroy you.

02:47:07.460 So pay very close attention to the people that they attack the most.

02:47:10.960 And hate the most.

02:47:11.920 and you'll see something

02:47:13.300 uncommon with all these people.

02:47:15.700 They're just wild horses.

02:47:18.380 You know?

02:47:20.100 And

02:47:20.400 it just

02:47:22.220 they're the physical

02:47:25.600 representation of that

02:47:26.800 the Heisenberg principle.

02:47:27.880 That thing

02:47:28.220 it's like this

02:47:28.780 this mostly works

02:47:29.640 this usually works

02:47:30.360 this works on everybody.

02:47:32.960 You know you can browbeat them

02:47:34.140 you can brain what you can

02:47:34.920 but for some of them

02:47:35.840 they just

02:47:36.180 won't do it.

02:47:38.400 They won't do what they're told. 1.00

02:47:39.340 They won't be good goys. 1.00

02:47:40.320 and 0.82

02:47:42.880 it's dangerous because it serves to see other people.

02:47:48.560 How many do you need to see do it?

02:47:50.340 First of all, we've been realizing that it's a thing that can be done.

02:47:53.160 It doesn't take a lot. It doesn't take a ton of examples.

02:47:55.300 It only takes a couple, maybe one.

02:47:59.840 They need a thousand attacks on a thousand days

02:48:01.860 because that's how weak they are. 0.98

02:48:04.540 They need to volume spam with shitty low-level mob attacks 1.00

02:48:10.080 because they're gross fucking level five goblin swine, 1.00

02:48:14.460 and they just have to. 1.00

02:48:16.180 All it takes from the other side is just one good smash,

02:48:21.520 and it'll buy you a year.

02:48:23.300 That's how much more powerful it is.

02:48:40.080 it's the only it's the only thing strong enough to defeat what they have

02:48:46.000 which is just fear and guilt and in your head and that's why it's that's why it's so important

02:48:56.300 that's why it's worth talking about and that's why it's worth spending time thinking about and

02:48:59.180 working on and developing because they aren't they don't need to use guns anymore they don't 0.99

02:49:03.000 need to do anything they just need to own your fucking brain and your mind and your soul 0.99

02:49:06.280 to make sure you do what you're told. 1.00

02:49:10.080 Too many people don't do what they're told.

02:49:11.520 It gets, you know.

02:49:20.100 And it doesn't matter what they try to distract you with,

02:49:23.320 which is why I think it's going to happen.

02:49:25.040 It's just inevitable.

02:49:26.220 You're betting against life itself.

02:49:27.620 You're betting against the very nature of it.

02:49:29.700 Everything they're doing, everything they're creating,

02:49:31.400 every substitution, distraction, it's all faker.

02:49:34.660 i was saying the other day the even these these things there is a time when there's a screen like

02:49:40.080 this device alone would have blown my mind i would have been playing with it all day just could not

02:49:44.160 believe how incredible it is and never mind the videos you can do the youtube alone exists and

02:49:49.040 it's on the phone too and i can talk to people like it's just it's incredible oh my god and then

02:49:54.340 back in the day i remember like when we had playstation 2 nhl 2001 came out and the graphic

02:49:59.340 jump from playstation to two to n64 was just insane it was it's garbage by today's standards

02:50:05.660 but to us it was like mind-blowing it was there was like a drug-like feeling in your mind

02:50:10.680 to play this game was like i need to this is crazy we couldn't believe it uh and now i'm like i get 0.98

02:50:16.340 nothing i i am done the fuck they there's nothing left that a screen can show me that i feel 0.98

02:50:21.300 anything about anymore i've i'm over it 0.97

02:50:29.340 I've had, I've had enough of the real thing of like real life and real, real, real fighting

02:50:37.940 and real victory and loss and, you know, defeats and successes and real stakes and real energy

02:50:44.120 and real adrenaline that there's nothing this, any of this can ever do. We can be fun and

02:50:48.340 sometimes, but it's never, it's nothing compared to the, to the real thing. And it gets to what

02:50:55.080 people want the more distracting the more ridiculous the more thick the syrup is on the

02:51:01.440 distractions and there's bread and circuses the the less effective it is the novelty wears off 0.99

02:51:07.600 so they need more and more faster bigger but now we need vr heads we need we need to be fucking 0.93

02:51:12.040 floating along being force-fed cheese from dr yen from robots and have drugs supported with 0.98

02:51:18.760 75. Checked it into our veins.

02:51:20.680 You are the best.

02:51:22.600 Humor and truth.

02:51:24.220 Thank you, sir.

02:51:26.560 But, you know, it's like the diminishing returns.

02:51:28.680 It requires so much to keep these people distracted now

02:51:31.080 that how much longer can it go on for?

02:51:33.560 That you have entire generations of people

02:51:35.080 offering themselves and choosing nothing

02:51:36.480 because there's no meaning, there's no purpose,

02:51:38.260 there's nothing there.

02:51:39.620 It's just emptiness.

02:51:40.680 It's this empty void of buying things

02:51:43.100 and what's it all about, nothing.

02:51:44.460 We grew up on Disney movies and action heroes

02:51:47.140 and these concepts that there's a beautiful thing in life

02:51:49.420 that's bigger than ourselves,

02:51:50.660 and it always involves somewhere orbiting of

02:51:53.940 or consisted of just the feeling and experience of love itself.

02:51:56.840 That's what inspires great things, amazing things,

02:51:59.880 heroic things, beautiful things, cathedrals and castles,

02:52:02.660 and the adventure and the heart and the spirit

02:52:05.060 to sail the ocean with no map and no idea what's going to happen.

02:52:08.920 This can only come from a certain place,

02:52:12.320 and it's always there.

02:52:15.920 it always exists it's always a real thing and a real feeling to participate in this

02:52:20.280 and eventually it's going to be the only thing left at the store to try

02:52:25.220 when the movies run out in the game it will run out it's right it's just you've

02:52:32.480 what job is there to look forward to what's coming down the pipe what is there for

02:52:37.160 where is where do you go where to eventually in the fake world of synthetic experiences

02:52:43.000 is where do you go to feel anything real anymore?

02:52:46.860 Eventually, there's only one place left.

02:52:51.500 And, you know, it might be painful at first,

02:52:53.680 but I think it's going to be like,

02:52:57.180 it's going to be like, you know, people taking DMT, you know?

02:53:00.320 I think they're, like, it's going to be terrifying.

02:53:02.500 It's going to be very difficult,

02:53:03.520 and you're really not going to have,

02:53:04.840 but on the other side of this,

02:53:06.380 i mean it's possible you have an entire generation of people who discover what it means to be

02:53:15.160 alive and care about something that matters because everything else available to them 0.99

02:53:19.640 was just so fake and so synthetic and gross and stupid for so long 1.00

02:53:22.840 it's like you'll do anything to shake up the boredom 0.99

02:53:27.340 i'm just gonna walk up and start shaking the fences for something to do because everything

02:53:32.480 is so comfortable and so convenient

02:53:34.440 and so easy that I just 0.98

02:53:36.480 fucking can't stand it anymore 0.96

02:53:38.120 New tip from Vlad Zed 0.99

02:53:39.840 Vlad Zed supported with 5

02:53:42.520 Time to watch my

02:53:44.480 drag dancing video while you stock up

02:53:46.440 your fridge

02:53:47.000 I'm glad you have one of those

02:53:50.560 It's good for you

02:53:54.280 I didn't have, we don't have these experiences

02:54:00.600 for no reason

02:54:01.280 I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow

02:54:04.200 It could get worse for 50 more years in a row

02:54:07.780 Just like I didn't know how much longer this march is going to be

02:54:11.140 I have no idea

02:54:12.320 All I know is I don't want to be the guy that doesn't find out

02:54:15.340 Because I was just too scared

02:54:17.040 I just didn't want to hurt anymore

02:54:20.340 I don't want to trade the comfort of not

02:54:24.980 Not enduring the pain of it

02:54:30.020 and robbing myself of the opportunity to outlast this and fight my way back

02:54:37.740 and feel what it is to be in the right place again,

02:54:41.700 to feel love again and feel the things that matter do exist.

02:54:45.860 Don't take that from yourself.

02:54:48.900 It could be right there, but you'll never know if you give up.

02:54:53.620 And that's exactly what they want you to do.

02:55:00.020 that's just fighting.

02:55:04.500 It's not as complicated as you're making it.

02:55:08.280 They want to take you out.

02:55:09.420 Don't let them.

02:55:09.840 Well, I woke up on a Monday.

02:55:13.420 I've been feeling pretty wired.

02:55:16.840 I've been wide awake since Wednesday.

02:55:20.240 I was feeling so inspired by the state of my life.

02:55:25.800 One foot in front of the other.

02:55:27.560 Don't think about it too much.

02:55:28.800 it's not any different than we're used to

02:55:31.180 you know what I mean

02:55:31.680 it can only hurt as much

02:55:35.240 as it does and it just stays that way

02:55:37.060 you just

02:55:38.180 just be

02:55:40.240 just like the good old Highlanders

02:55:43.420 be too stubborn to die

02:55:44.380 and if you do, you did it like a legend

02:55:47.400 you got nothing to be ashamed of

02:55:48.700 you win both ways

02:55:50.800 thank you very much guys

02:55:52.980 I hope you enjoyed the weekend, take care of yourselves

02:55:54.960 and each other, fymm.ca

02:55:57.400 if you want to support us.

02:55:58.320 I appreciate it.

02:56:00.580 Sixth ever Tyrannus.

02:56:01.720 Pro Patria!

02:56:02.960 I got some more stuff to do this weekend

02:56:04.580 and then I've got a full plate.

02:56:11.760 We thrive in a crisis.

02:56:14.020 The worse it gets,

02:56:14.940 the stronger we get.

02:56:17.040 Live for something.

02:56:18.380 It's a good...

02:56:20.560 Better than being a slave any day.

02:56:23.060 See you on the beach.

02:56:27.400 This is the best, this is the best

02:56:30.580 Stop me because I can't make no

02:56:54.040 That's right Stephen, I'm just gonna take it out on you really 1.00

02:56:56.500 because that's what i've hired you for you can't do anything else you're a big stupid dumb bald 1.00

02:57:01.700 idiot that's why you're here steven here to be my my punching bag i'm just gonna take it out 1.00

02:57:06.740 on you because it doesn't matter nobody listens to me nobody ever listens to me 1.00

02:57:11.700 shut up steven shut your big bald stupid face it's not what i'm paying you for 1.00

02:57:16.580 i gotta blame this on somebody i gotta blame it on somebody so steven you're gonna be 1.00

02:57:20.420 you're gonna be the recipient of this you know bb tried to smother me to death last week

02:57:24.820 He tried to. I pretended to die. I pretended. I flailed. I kicked my little feeties. You

02:57:30.680 know how much I love? I don't like to use my little feeties, Steven. I've got bone spurs

02:57:35.300 in them, you know. They're very painful. I couldn't go to Vietnam. It hurt me very deeply.

02:57:39.820 I wanted to go to Vietnam. They said, no, you can't go to Vietnam. I said, I wanted

02:57:43.760 to go to Vietnam. They said, you can't go. You've got bone spurs. I said, that's right,

02:57:48.080 owie, my feeties. And I kicked and I flailed him, and then he bought it. He bought it.

02:57:53.840 left. I just got up and I had a Diet Coke. That's the fourth time somebody's tried to

02:58:00.800 smother me to death, Stephen. I'm unsmotherable. Can't be done. I can hold my breath for 17

02:58:09.100 minutes. Most people can't even do three minutes, Stephen. I can hold my breath. I used to talk

02:58:15.020 to dolphins. They told me things, Stephen. They told me illegal things. Things I'm not

02:58:19.940 even supposed to be repeating, Stephen, so I'm not going to tell you because you know

02:58:23.020 what'll happen, Stephen. It won't even land inside that big stupid head of yours. It'll just bounce 1.00

02:58:28.380 off that big ball dome and bounce right into town. It'll tell everybody, Stephen, you can't keep your

02:58:32.820 fucking mouth shut, can you? That's why you shut up, Stephen. Shut up. I'm not paying you to talk. 1.00

02:58:39.020 I'm paying you to be abused. Yes, this is what I do every day, all day. Then I tweet, and then I 0.97

02:58:46.080 tweet some memes, and then I go back to abusing you. Then I have a sandwich, a Diet Coke, and

02:58:51.680 another sandwich. And then I say, Stephen, you know what would be better than this sandwich?

02:58:56.060 Telling you to go fuck yourself. What do you think about that, Stephen? Go get me another Diet Coke. 1.00

02:59:00.600 I don't want to drink it. I just want to see you go and get it for me like an emperor.

02:59:04.980 Go get it. Go get it, Stephen. You better hurry. Nobody else is going to pay you this kind of money.

02:59:12.700 I should have stayed with Kim Jong-un. That guy, he could party. He really could.

02:59:17.500 he was all right he understood it he got it where is steven with my coat 0.79

02:59:25.660 hillary's gonna put my head on a stick i think i we should i should drone strike her steven i 0.99

02:59:33.540 want to drone strike hillary clinton get the order please executive order drone strike that bitch 1.00

02:59:38.980 it's halloween she's resting she's powering up her broom for another year she'll be easy to hit 1.00

02:59:47.500 Thank you.

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Raging Dissident Podcast - November 07, 2026

🍁634 - Phillip's Friday Night Distraction

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