Ep 63 ｜ Very Important Episode
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Summary
In this episode, Allie Stuckey talks about what it's like to be pregnant and what she's learned so far. She also shares 5 things she's already learned and 5 lessons she learned as she's getting ready to have a baby.
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Hey guys, welcome to the podcast. This is Relatable and I am Allie Stuckey. In case you
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didn't hear that, I think my voice just cracked at the very beginning of this podcast. If you've
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never listened to me before, you might think that that's a regular thing, but I assure you
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it is not. Hopefully my voice doesn't crack for the rest of this podcast because it is a very
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important episode. I have told you guys on social media that this is a monumental episode of
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Relatable and that you guys do not want to miss it. I am going to tell you something extremely,
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extremely, extremely important. I don't know what else to describe it as. It's just very important.
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And I am going to dive into that for the rest of the episode. But first I'm going to tell you
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what pillow I sleep on. That's a bolster sleep pillow. It's an awesome pillow. It's so comfortable.
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My husband has one because he kept on stealing mine because it's so comfortable. I only have to sleep
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on it. No more of stacking a million pillows so you have the right feeling. This is a perfect
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pillow so that you don't have any cricks in your neck and you can sleep soundly all through the
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night. It's made from this material called tin cell that keeps the pillow cool so you don't have
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to flip over to get the cool side of the pillow. Your pillow will stay cool all night, which is
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great. You should go to bolstersleep.com. You can use promo code Allie. You'll get 10% off your pillow.
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It's a great Christmas present if you're looking for some last minute Christmas gifts,
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either for someone else or yourself. Definitely go to bolstersleep.com. Use promo code Allie to
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get you that discount. Okay, guys. So the reason why this episode is so very important and the reason
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why I was so awkward starting this episode off is because it's really weird for me to say what I am
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going to say. So a lot of you guys have been asking me ever since I kind of started this thing.
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Every time I post a picture of my husband, people ask me, Allie, when are you guys going to have
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kids? And really, I don't like that question because quite frankly, it's none of anyone's
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business except for ours. But the announcement that I have today is that we are expecting a baby
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and I'm officially in my second trimester. I am due in June and we are so excited. I really can't
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believe it. I'm still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that we are having a baby, but
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we are so, so thankful to the Lord for blessing us with this. And I just could not be more excited.
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So what I'm going to do in this podcast is I'm going to talk about five things that I've learned
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or five things that I realized as I'm just a few months into this pregnancy. I am not going to be
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giving any kind of parenting advice because I am not, even though I guess I'm technically a parent,
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I don't have any parenting advice. And there are a lot of moms out there I know that listen to me
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who know a lot more about parenting than I do that can give me some great advice along the way.
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That's not the advice that I'm giving you. I am giving some encouragement and things that I have
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learned already just as a very fresh, very new, very inexperienced mom. And of course,
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in this podcast, this is what we do a lot. We root things back into scripture and that is what I am
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going to do. I'm going to root these five lessons or five realizations that I have
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into scripture. And this is going to be a podcast that is relevant to you, whether you are single,
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you're in high school, or you're in college, or you're dating someone, maybe you're married and
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you're trying to get pregnant or you're not ready for kids yet. Maybe you're a young mom,
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or maybe you're someone who has never had kids, who wants to have kids, hasn't been able to have kids,
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and you are struggling with that. I want you to know that this podcast is for you.
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This is not going to be exclusively just about what it's like to be pregnant. It's going to be
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talking about life in general and the making of life and the importance of life and the importance
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that you have as a human being, whether you are a mother or not. So no matter what stage of life
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you are in, also, you could be a guy and also find encouragement in this podcast too. It's not just
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for mothers or potential mothers. I hope that you find encouragement in this podcast as we kind of
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go through some of the truths that I have recognized in this short period of time that I have been
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pregnant. So number one, that I know for sure, these are the things that I know for sure that
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have been backed up not only by my own experience now, but also what I know through the Bible and
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what I know from other people. Number one, this is a human being. It is a human being. I know that
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for sure. For sure from my own life and from what I have seen in my doctor's appointments,
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this is a human being. If you have ever doubted that what is growing inside a woman when she was
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pregnant is a human being, you should see a sonogram. This is not a clump of cells. This is not a parasite.
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This is not a random mass that might coincidentally grow into a human one day. This is a human being.
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So I didn't realize everything that happens during pregnancy. I guess I was just kind of
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ignorant. Quite honestly, I just didn't really know how life was formed and how it grew in all
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of the different stages of pregnancy and the stages of embryonic growth. I just didn't know because it
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wasn't exactly relevant to me. I knew enough in order to make a scientific and logical argument to
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be pro-life. But there are so many intricacies to how life is actually formed in the womb
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that I was unaware of. So when I went to my first appointment at about eight weeks,
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you see the baby that's inside you. Of course, there's all this fear and there are all these
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nerves, at least there were for me, that is it really in there? I mean, I know I had a positive
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pregnancy test, but am I really pregnant? I don't know unless I actually see it. And then you see
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this tiny little thing that honestly looks like a bean. It doesn't even look like anything. It just
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looks like a little bean inside you. But this is the thing that just blows your mind. You see this
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little moving circle. It kind of looks like inside that little jelly bean that's inside of you. And
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that is the heart. And you see this heartbeat at only seven and a half, eight weeks. It actually
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started beating long before that. Maybe even at four to six weeks, the heart started beating. But you
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see this little beating heartbeat. They can measure the heartbeat. They can measure this tiny little
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jelly bean that's inside you. And you realize this is a human being at just eight weeks. Most people
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have abortions after eight weeks or at eight weeks. But this is a human being. It has a heartbeat.
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And from the time of conception, it had its own DNA. It was its own person. It was already a boy or a
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girl that had already been decided, even though we don't know if it's a boy or a girl yet. It had a
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heartbeat. And then four weeks later, you have your 12-week appointment. Sometimes women have
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sonograms. Sometimes they don't. But I had a sonogram at my 12-week appointment. And what you
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see at your 12-week appointment is incredible. You went from seeing this jelly bean looking thing that
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just kind of looks like a little, I don't know, thing inside you with a heartbeat to seeing a human
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being. At my sonogram appointment, I saw a human being with a head and, of course, the heart. And you
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see the brain inside of him. I say him. I don't know if it's a boy or a girl yet. Has arms and legs
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and fingers and toes. And I just burst into tears at my 12-week appointment seeing this child that
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actually looks like a child now with a profile. You see the teeth, the nose, everything moving
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around. The first time I saw my child move, I could cry right now, but I won't. It is like no experience
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you have ever had before. Knowing that you had a part in making this thing that is its own
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independent person and is now moving around, that is amazing. It was just this spontaneous reaction
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that all of a sudden I just burst into tears seeing that this is not just a human being, which,
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of course, I knew it was from the moment that I found out I was pregnant. From the moment of
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conception, it's a human being. We know that scientifically. But seeing it actually look
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like a human being, that is a startling experience. And, of course, you guys know that I am
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adamantly pro-life. I was pro-life long before I was ever pregnant, long before I was ever married.
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And I've talked thoroughly with you guys about the arguments for being pro-life, not just from a
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biblical perspective. Some people think it's only a religious argument. It's not. But from a moral and
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a logical and a scientific perspective, why abortion is wrong, why it's murder, why life inside the womb
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is truly life and has value and worth in and of itself. But there is nothing like seeing life that
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you helped create on the sonogram screen actually move and be. It is amazing. It's amazing what you see.
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It's given me a completely, I guess I would just say refreshed. And I don't want to say
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a stronger conviction about being pro-life because I can't really, I can't say that
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because it's just as strong as it was before. It's just a different perspective. And I'm grateful
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to be able to have experienced that. And, of course, from a biblical perspective,
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there is no moral argument whatsoever for abortion because even though I didn't think that this looked
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like a real-life human being until 12 weeks, even though I couldn't see this child move, I couldn't
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see its face. God made this child's DNA and crafted this child specially even before I knew I was
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pregnant. Psalm 139, as you guys know, talks about God forming children inside the womb and they have
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value and worth inside the womb. Psalm 139 says,
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That's the reality of pregnancy. That's the reality of God creating every single human
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being. When a woman finds out that she's pregnant, when that HCG hormone that's there when you are
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pregnant is found, it makes the positive pregnancy test. That is not saying that a woman might be
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pregnant with human life. It's not saying that a woman might be having a baby inside of her. It's
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saying that she is creating a human life right then, right there, whether you find out at four weeks,
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whether you find out at 12 weeks, that is a baby, that is a human life that's being created. HCG is
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not present when you just have some kind of mass inside of you, when you have some kind of parasite
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that some people on the left say inside of you. That is an indication of human life. There is no chance
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unless there is a miscarriage, of course, which is tragic, or something happens to the baby along the way in
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which they're harmed or in which they actually died. There is no chance that that little fertilized
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egg turns into anything else other than a fully formed human baby. It's not going to turn into a
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Tervis tumbler. It's not going to turn into a pumpkin. It is always a human baby. It doesn't turn,
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or I shouldn't even say turn into. It's not turns into a human baby. It comes out a fully formed human
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baby. Its embryonic stage just happens to be an early stage of human life. So what I know for sure,
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based not just on the Bible, but on my own experience and on logic and on science, is that
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everything, every single stage that I've experienced so far with this child has been a
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stage of human life. This is a human being. The second thing that I know for sure is that children
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are a blessing. So that means that they're not an inconvenience. They're not a burden. They are not
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a hassle. They are a blessing. Unfortunately, there is this lie that people believe both in and outside of
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the church. Of course, it's very prevalent in this whole postmodern feminist world that we live in,
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that children are an impediment to your success, that they're an impediment to your fulfillment.
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But unfortunately, it's kind of seeped into Christianity as well. And just to be perfectly
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honest with you, it's something that I used to think. At one point in our marriage, when I was just
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focused on building my career, and of course, we were moving different places, my thought was that
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children will be a burden to me or that they will be an obstacle to me achieving what I want to
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achieve, to me fulfilling what I want to fulfill. I had this checklist of all of the things that I
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wanted to do that we wanted to do before I had kids. That's a sinful way to think. And it's honestly
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difficult for me to admit that because I know a lot of people that think this way. But if you're a
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Christian, that's just not biblical. It's a cultural way to think. It's a worldly way to think,
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because what you're saying is that children are not a gift. And the Bible is very clear that they
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are. Psalm 127, three through five says, Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord. The fruit
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of the womb is a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one's youth.
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Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them. He shall not be put to shame when he speaks with his
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enemies in the gate. So throughout the Bible, we see that children are good, that they're not a burden,
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that they're not something that we should be scared of, that we should resist. Of course,
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when we are in a covenant relationship of marriage, they are not something that we should dread. They're
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not something that we should see as taking away from, but something that is added to as a gracious
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gift of the Lord. Now, there is contention over this, of course, when it comes to the question of
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birth control, the natural question when you say, okay, if children are a gift, if children are not a
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burden, and if the Bible says that the children are a blessing from the Lord that should be asked for
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and should be, that we should be grateful for, the question is, is birth control allowed? Is birth
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control within the realm of God's larger will? And I think that's a very difficult question that I
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don't know every single theological answer to. Now, I do know that any kind of birth control, and there
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are people that know a lot more about the science behind birth control than I do, but any kind of
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birth control pill that actually causes an abortion, so after conception makes the uterus
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unlivable or makes it hostile towards growing life, that would mean that it's causing an abortion. That
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is sinful. That is wrong. That would not be a part of God's will. And I've heard, again, I don't know
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for sure, but I've heard that pretty much every birth control pill does that, that it creates an
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environment that is hostile towards a fertilized egg so that it doesn't actually grow. And if you
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believe that life starts at conception, that would be considered some kind of abortion. Now, if there
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was a birth control that actually prevented fertilization, that's where it gets, that's
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where really the moral question comes in. Is that part of, would that still be considered trusting
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the Lord? Or should you not have any birth control whatsoever? Or should you just say, okay, I'm just
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going to trust God with this. And whenever we get pregnant, we get pregnant. Sure, we might be poor.
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We might both be in school, but God's going to take care of it. And that's the question that I'm
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not, I'm just not totally sure about because I see both sides of the argument. On the one hand,
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yes, of course, we should trust God. And God knows our situation. He knows our financial situation.
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He knows that we're both in school, but we're trusting him. And this, and I'm not saying this is what we
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did. But now I'm looking back and I'm learning and I'm just asking these honest questions.
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Is that the right mentality or is the mentality, okay, well, certain kinds of birth control
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is a gift of common grace. It is a development of technology. And we should take advantage of those
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things with wisdom, by using prudence, by saying, okay, we are completely financially destitute right
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now. We have no business trying to raise a child. So we are going to use wisdom and to put that off
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until we're a little bit more stable. I could see, I could see both ways, but of course, the second
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option that I just listed, it gets a little muddy because what actually is stability? Are you waiting
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until you make, you know, $50,000 or are you waiting until you make $100,000? Are you waiting until
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you have some kind of job or are you waiting until you become CEO? When does it start to become selfish?
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I'm not, I'm not sure. So I guess in all of these things where I say, I know for sure, these are the
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five things I know for sure, but a subset of the second point that children are not a burden.
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I don't know fully the theological answer for not having any birth control whatsoever, because I do
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think wisdom should be involved in that. But what I do know, what I do know for sure as someone who
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has probably had a sinful mentality at one point in my pregnancy, who has probably unknowingly had a
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selfish mentality about having children, especially when we were moving a lot and we were trying to
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figure out our careers. I do know that children are not a burden and that we shouldn't view them
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as that and that we shouldn't purposely put children off simply because we want to check
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all of our boxes and check everything off of the list. I do think that's the wrong mentality to have
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where birth control falls into that outside of the whole abortive birth control issue. It's,
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it's a hard question that I am still trying to figure out for myself. If you have insight and
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discernment into that, I would love to hear it. So number three, the thing that I know, our child
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is not ours. And this is literally something that I heard and had not thought about until I was
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pregnant, that my child is not mine, that it is God's, that it might have, it might look like me.
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It might sound like me. Of course, it might look like my husband, sound like my husband. It might
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be like me. It's going to pick up a lot of the habits and the behaviors that I have, but it is not
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mine. It is God's. That means that God has a plan for my child's life that really has nothing to do
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with me. Of course, he or she is ours to steward and ours to take care of, ours to feed, ours to love,
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ours to point to God. But after I die, hopefully God still has a plan for this child considering or
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assuming that this child is still alive. God has a plan for my child after I die that has
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nothing to do with me, has a plan for his or her life that has nothing to do with me. His or her
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soul is theirs. It's not mine. God has hopefully a plan of salvation for this child, has a purpose
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for this child. Psalm 139 says that every single one of his or her days was written before any of
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them came to be. That has nothing to do with me. I didn't write my child's life. I have no idea what
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they're going to be like. I don't know what struggles they're going to have. I don't know what sins
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they're going to deal with. I don't know what their salvation story will look like, what their
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testimony will be like. But God knows every single detail of their life, which means that he is more
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in control of them than I am. He cares more about them than I do. He loves them more than I do. He
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has a plan for them that I could never have. And so I pray that my husband and I have that mentality
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throughout my child's life. And I hope that that helps us be good stewards of this gift and be good
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parents that really my only role is to care for this child by feeding them, by loving them,
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by providing for them financially for as long as, you know, is feasible and responsible in pointing
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them to God. I do not have control over the rest of their life. I don't even have control over their
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salvation. God has them. This is God's person, not my person. I am just a caretaker of this gift,
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but ultimately this is God's and his soul, his or her soul is in God's hands, not mine. So that is a
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reminder that I have to press into my brain because I am naturally a controlling person, an anxious
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person. I'm an extremely protective person. If you are familiar with the Enneagram, I think I'm an
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eight. I go back between being an eight and a one. I can't really figure it out. My quiz always changes.
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Um, but either way, I'm extremely protective of the people around me to the point, to the point
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simply where if someone hurts someone that I love, I want to pay the person back who hurt someone that
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I love. I really hate when people mess with my team and mess with my inner circle. I can't even
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imagine what I'm going to be like with a child. Like I will probably want to be that mom that's at school
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that is fighting battles for my child. I just hate when people that I love are treated unfairly.
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But my reminder is that this child is not mine, that God is doing things in this child that have
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nothing to do with me. And hopefully that reminds me to step back and not, um, over control my child's
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life. That's going to be something that the Lord sanctifies me and it has to teach me continually.
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I'm sure. But that's the third thing that I know that this child is not mine. It's not ours.
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It is God's. Um, number four, and this is one that I want you to hear, especially if you were someone
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who, uh, maybe pregnancy just isn't in the cards for you right now or ever. And you've struggled
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through listening to this podcast. I hope that you're still here because this is what I want you
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to hear that parenthood does not fulfill us. Parenthood, according to the Bible, if you're a
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Christian, parenthood is not the end all be all. Uh, we have this tendency to, it is kind of paradoxical
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with the tendency that we also have to believe that parenthood is a burden or that kids are a
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burden. We also simultaneously believe, uh, ironically really that parenthood is the peak
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of our fulfillment that after we reach this, uh, certain status in our careers, after we do all
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the things we want to do, after we've traveled to, uh, all the continents that parenthood will be
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kind of where it ends and that will be our peak fulfillment. And then we will be finally fully
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satisfied that we will be fully joyful. That's kind of the exclamation mark at the end of our
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youth. And that is not true. Children, while they certainly are a blessing, they will disappoint us.
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They are human beings. They will not bring us all of the happiness and satisfaction that we need.
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And as Christians, we have to know that only Jesus can do that. Only Jesus can bring us that
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satisfaction. So if you are someone who doesn't have kids, you don't have to worry about missing out.
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You are not missing out. No Christian is missing out on anything by not partaking in something
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worldly, whether it is marriage or whether it is children. Jesus is that satisfaction for you.
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Um, first Corinthians seven 32 through 35 says, I want you to be free from anxieties. The unmarried
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man is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to please the Lord. But the married man is anxious
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about worldly things, how to please his wife and his interests are divided. And the unmarried or
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betrothed woman is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to be holy and body and in spirit.
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But the married woman is anxious about worldly things, how to please her husband. I say this
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for your own benefit and not to lay any restraint on you, but to promote good order and to secure
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your undivided devotion to the Lord. That means it is better spiritually if you can later, or actually,
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I think it was earlier in this chapter, he talks about, um, if you have self-control,
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if you can remain, uh, away from sexual immorality, then you should not get married.
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This is what Paul says. He says that there is no, uh, there's no law against marriage that you're
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not sinning. If you get married and that of course the Lord would rather you get married than be
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sexually immoral. But, but if you can remain fully devoted to the Lord and remain away from
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sexual immorality, then you should stay single. That means that means that our fulfillment does not
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come from our spouse. It does not come from our children, but it comes from the Lord. And we
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should be as undivided in our attention to the Lord and our devotion to the Lord as we can. I say
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that as a married person. So obviously I'm not condemning married people. I say that as a mother
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to be, I'm not condemning any mothers. I'm just reading what the Bible says. So if you're unmarried,
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if you do not have kids, do not worry that you are not going to, uh, have all of the joy and
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satisfaction and happiness and love, uh, that people who are married or have kids do, that is
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not true. That's not what the Bible says. The Lord is, is sufficient for you. His grace is sufficient
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for you. His joy is sufficient for you. Your purpose, your identity is not wrapped up in being
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a spouse or a mother. It's just not, there will be people like the, uh, who is it? Who's that crazy
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blogger? Sorry. If you guys like her, the transformed wife, the transformed wife who really believes
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conflates your identity and conflates your purpose and your worthiness as a woman with being a wife
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and a mom. I'm sorry. That's not what the Bible says. Your identity is in Christ, which means it's
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in something way bigger than being a wife or a mom. Now it's awesome to be in a wife and a mom. I love
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it. It is a blessing to me, but even if I weren't those things, God would still be blessing me with
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his son and with the Holy spirit. And he would fulfill me with that completely. Um, so I just want you
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to, I want you to be encouraged in that. And I also want you to remember that having spiritual
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children, that means people that the Lord, if the Lord uses you to bring people to Christ,
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having those quote spiritual children, even though it was really the Lord who did it,
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having people that you disciple, that you help bring to the Lord through the power of the Holy
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spirit, that is far more fulfilling, far more eternal than having physical children. So again,
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I want to remind you, you are not missing out. Number five, and this is the last thing. Um,
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God is sovereign and that's the thing that underpins everything. So I just want to give
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a note. And again, I hope these women are listening. And I know this podcast might've
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been hard for these women. I just want to give a note to the women who have struggled with
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infertility. I want to talk to the women who have gone through a miscarriage or maybe went
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through a stillbirth or who it's just, I don't know, went through something, maybe lost, um,
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an adoption battle. Maybe you were fostering kids and you wanted to adopt these kids and it just
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didn't go through. Maybe you've been trying to adopt for a while, but you can't afford it. And
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you are afraid that you will be parentless or, I mean, that you will be childless, um, and that
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those kids will be parentless. Maybe that's your fear. And I just want you to know that number one,
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number one, that God has not forgotten about you, that he sees you, that he's with you,
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that he has more compassion for you than you could ever imagine that he feels your brokenness
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and that he empathizes with you. We have a great high priest who empathizes with our weaknesses,
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not one who is far off, but one who is near to us. He is with the brokenhearted and he binds their
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wounds. I want you to know that he sees you, that he hears you, that he knows the desires of your heart
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and he knows your longings. And I know that he's in control and, uh, number two. So that's number
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one, that God sees you number two, much less important. I see you too. And ever since
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I found out that I was pregnant, ever since I thought about doing this podcast and ever since
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I thought about posting on social media, whenever that is, I've thought about the people who follow
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me, the women, especially, but also the men who follow me, who, um, haven't been able to get
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pregnant or aren't able to have children themselves. I just want you to know, I'm not going to spend,
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uh, the next few months rubbing this pregnancy in your face. And I haven't forgotten about you.
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And I won't take for granted the blessing that I have of being pregnant. And I just want you to
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know that you are valued and that you are no less valuable because you don't have children. So,
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and I, maybe you take that as patronizing. I hope you don't. Maybe you're just thinking,
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well, you have no idea what I'm going through. I don't, I don't. I just want you to know that I
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think about you and that I pray for you. And then I know for sure, I know for sure that God is in
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control. Now, I don't know God's plan for you. I don't know if you'll ever have kids. I don't know
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how that wound will be healed. Uh, I don't know if you are going to wake up tomorrow and find out
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that you're pregnant or if you will never find that out. I don't know if you'll be able to adopt.
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I don't, I don't know those things because he doesn't promise that he doesn't promise that things
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are going to work out how we want to on this earth. That's not the guarantee that we have.
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The guarantee that we have is that he's good, that he is in control, that he is with us. And
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we also have the promise that one day, um, that all of this pain that we feel will be eradicated,
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that when we are in heaven with our fellow believers, when we are worshiping Christ,
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that you are not going to be mourning anymore, um, over the miscarriage, over the lost child,
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over whatever pain you have dealt. And I hope, I hope that that doesn't sound callous in any way.
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I'm talking to all people who have experienced all kinds of loss, that God makes us whole,
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that he will heal us, that we will have joy that is completely incomprehensible right now.
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No matter what you've gone through, I promise that we will not be thinking about how many kids we had
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or did not have when we are in heaven with Christ. I promise you that. So I just want to,
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I want to, I want you to know that you're not forgotten, that, uh, you are prayed for,
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that you are thought about, and that you are certainly not forsaken or abandoned by God,
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that he had a plan for your life too, before you were born. And this is part of that plan.
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And he's using this to sanctify you and to bring you closer to him. And I can't tell you,
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I know all of the reasons why it would be silly for me to say that I do, because I absolutely don't,
00:29:31.180
it doesn't make sense. It doesn't make sense why the 15 year old who, uh, who doesn't want kids,
00:29:36.840
obviously had this unwanted baby and why the woman who was 35, who's been trying to get pregnant for
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10 years, can't, it doesn't make any sense. And I'm not saying that it does, but the thing that I
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know for sure is that God is sovereign and that's really all I know. So these are my five things
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that I know as you, as you can, as you can tell, even within these five things, I don't know
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everything. I still have a lot of questions because I am not all knowing and I'm still learning a lot.
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And I would love to hear your feedback, but I wanted you guys to be the first to know this news.
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I haven't announced it on social media. This was something special for my podcast listeners. I said it
00:30:16.360
was a very important podcast, the most important podcast that I've ever done. I don't know if it's
00:30:21.120
the most important, maybe. I mean, I think it is because besides coming to know Christ,
00:30:26.120
this is probably the most important thing that has ever happened to me. Also getting married,
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I would say it's on par with that, but I just wanted to share this with you guys because I
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really consider you friends and I consider us part of a family. And before I announced this to the
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world, I wanted you to know, I wanted to have this conversation with you and I wanted to really
00:30:43.540
cover all of my bases before I announced it to everyone. I will announce it on social media soon,
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but I wanted relatable listeners to be the first to know. Thank you so much for listening. Thank you
00:30:53.300
for your support. I'm excited for us to go along this journey together. I won't be talking about
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pregnancy nonstop, I promise, but I probably will give updates every now and then. Y'all know that I
00:31:04.420
am a trash person mess and I just, I guarantee that's going to be even worse in pregnancy. I already
00:31:09.840
can't fit anything except for my sweat pants pretty much. So just imagine the trash person
00:31:15.480
that will ensue over the next few months. Get excited for that. Thank you guys for listening.