N*gger Fatigue: Why I have it & why I donated to Shiloh Hendrix
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Summary
Why I donated to Shiloh Hendrix and why I would do it again, and again and again. I have seen over the course of many years that many black people feel justified in attacking and killing white people over a word.
Transcript
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I am the Shameless Spurg, and today I'm going to tell you why I donated to Shiloh Hendrix,
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and why I would do it again, and again, and again.
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There is a whole lot I could say about this subject, and over the course of time, I will
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But I've decided to narrow it down to a few key points on this particular issue.
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So over the years, between a familiarity with the crime statistics, and seeing a lot of
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stories, articles of crimes, of murders committed against my people by members of the black
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community, I watch the news media, the national news media, bury them.
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The moment that anything happens involving a white person applying any kind of force or
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doing any sort of damage or violence, called for or otherwise, that gets national headlines,
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international headlines, a hell storm, it gets rained down, but crimes against my people
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I have watched you commit drastically more crime against your own people, black people,
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I have watched you commit drastically more crime against my people than we've ever committed
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And of course, again, I watch the media bury it.
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There's all sorts of kids and teens, elderly white people that have been senselessly and
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brutally attacked, slaughtered, degraded, and dehumanized to a complicit media that buries
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And they basically just blow sunshine up your ass all day and tell you how great you are,
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how excellent and beautiful and strong you are, how courageous and proud you are.
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I see the phony moral outrage that you will raise over a word.
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I have seen over the course of many years that you feel justified in attacking and killing
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I see you people running around with your phones out, acting like the Stasi, acting like
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little enforcers, hoping to capture footage, spread it all over the internet with the very
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sincere hope that you will completely destroy someone's life for it.
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I've heard you a bunch of weasels and how you love to say, well, freedom of speech doesn't
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You'll spread a video online and you'll run a doxing campaign and you'll hack and you'll
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release social security numbers and addresses and phone numbers and family members.
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And you'll find out their employers and you'll harass them and get them fired.
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And then you'll find out about any future attempts at employment and you'll call them
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And you'll do everything that you can to possibly destroy someone's life and to keep them from
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And you will blast their face and name all over the internet for the entire world to see.
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You will feel completely justified that that is somehow appropriate.
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I actually don't believe that you believe it's appropriate.
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I think that the power that this whole arrangement has given you has been very intoxicating.
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This idea that you can kowtow everyone into silence any time a white person looks your way
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and you don't like it, well, you can just drop that word on us.
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And I don't think you realize that millions of us don't care.
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I donated to Shiloh Hendrix because, for one thing, she's my people.
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And you're supported and encouraged to do these things.
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And I'm supposed to accept just doing the opposite.
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You don't pause and ask yourself whether or not, was it really right for them to do that?
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You don't care about that when it's your people.
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So that's the stance that I'm taking now because I'm done.
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I'm done with this whole, you think you're going to wreck someone's life over a word.
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And you're absolutely having a conniption over the fact that a bunch of people donated to her.
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Oh, we saw the money that you raised recently out of your new Rosa Parks figure.
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We saw the comments on the give-s-and-go, you know, death to the white man and all that stuff.
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We've seen what you've said about Austin and his family and how he deserved it.
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You're glad that his brother lost him and had to experience that.
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You're glad that their lives have been completely destroyed.
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And you heaped upon Carmelo Anthony hundreds of thousands of dollars of virtue bucks.
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But what I can't appreciate is that you don't expect me to have the same thing for my people.
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I'm not going to accept this one-sided arrangement where you get to be proud.
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And to just send a signal to the rest of you that this little power that you think you have over us.
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It's this social capital that you have been given for a reason.
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You're useful idiots being used to destroy this country.
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And I'm sure it's a lot of fun for you right now.
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We don't have these artificial measures to boost us in hiring and admission and promotions processes.
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Where you think you need a boost, but we don't.
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This is all perfectly natural and healthy for me to care about my own people and put them above others.
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Everybody in the world expects us white people to have out-group preference.
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And this sort of in-group suspicion, hostility, antipathy.
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You want to treat us like shit and have us treat you like the best of friends.
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You want us to be loyal to you while you remind us that that loyalty will not extend to us.
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You go back decades and decades and decades ago, and you will find pictures of young white men and women with soldiers holding bayonets and rifles to their backs to force them into newly integrated schools that they didn't want.
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The freedom of association, the ability to freely create our own communities and fill them with the people that we want in them, that was completely taken away by force.
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And we were forcefully integrated with you, and here we are.
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Only the most sincerely deluded white person could look around at all of this and think that it has been better off for us.
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Moreover, I don't even think it's been better off for you, but that's not really my call, and I don't care.
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Your grievances are something that don't matter to me anymore.
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When I look at it and I know the foray fact that my life would be better by every metric if I lived only among my own people, what else am I supposed to do?
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I don't want to reconcile, and it's not possible.
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We have sunk first hundreds of thousands of lives went into the project of freeing you.
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I wouldn't have brought you here in the first place for a number of reasons.
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Now you think that you can come collect from me.
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After we have sunk trillions and trillions of dollars into trying to raise you up.
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After we have done a wide litany of various community building projects, we've done all sorts of things over the years to try to elevate you.
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Maintenance, it would seem, is just this background thing that happens with white people.
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And then all of a sudden, your shit falls apart.
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You know, we leave an area when blacks have moved in, you know, throughout our history.
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What have they done when they take up residence in a city?
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Um, and the next thing you know, uh, stores are, are closing up, packing up and leaving little pharmacies and convenience stores.
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Everything will be behind locked glass, except for sunscreen.
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That everything is behind locked glass, except a sunscreen.
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You are completely incapable of connecting your actions with your outcomes.
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All your negative outcomes, you figure, are evidence that some way or another, I'm causing, I'm causing or contributing to your negative outcomes.
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There couldn't possibly be a correlation between the things you do and the things that happen around you.
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We'll leave it, you know, create a nicer, cleaner, safer, more quiet, more orderly community somewhere else.
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It's like we, damned if you do, damned if you don't.
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And yet at the same time, I think you just, you like the benefits that come with it.
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Y'all, y'all, y'all living safer and nice neighborhoods as, as some kind of privilege.
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Talk about your neighborhoods and all the crime there.
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Like, there's just some magic force field that descends upon your whole area.
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And it just causes, it just causes there to be crime.
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Like, there's just crime waves or like, there's a, there's like a cloud of like crime.
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And then when we pick up and move somewhere else and establish a community where we're
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just on magic soil, things are just going to be awesome and prosperous and safe and orderly
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and quiet because we, whitey went and stole up the good magic land.
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You went on over here where it's just going to be nicer and safer just automatically with
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no connection to the choices that they're making in building this environment.
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It just happens because we just go steal it up, right?
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And the next thing you know, there's just this awesome society.
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Meanwhile, you people are killing each other in the streets and you rob your stores until
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they lose so much money that they can't sustain it.
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And you cry about food deserts and all this shit.
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And you can just never seem to see how it's you.
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You can never take responsibility for yourselves.
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You want to think that someone is capable, but decades, decades upon decades have shown
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You cannot connect your choices with your outcomes and you expect us to foot the bill
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You want all the benefits that we can provide at our expense while having the delicious privilege
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You know, it's really amazing when you live in a country that you say is white supremacist.
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Meanwhile, in this white supremacist nation, you just, you just get to say whatever you
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You can do all these things because you're oppressed.
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It's really interesting how being oppressed equates to you get to say all these things
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about the majority demographic in this white supremacist country, and nothing happens to
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You get, if anything, pretty supported, promoted.
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And society has largely echoed your views, and they've been down on their hands and knees
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And you have the nerve to call us privileged oppressors.
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You get actively advantaged, and we have certain measures where we get actively disadvantaged
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in order to create these equitable outcomes for you.
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And you still have the nerve to call us privileged oppressors in this white supremacist nation
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where you get to just say whatever you want about us, and nothing happens.
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Not only does nothing happen within the law, nothing happens that even compares to what
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you people do when you catch one of us in any context.
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Dropping that, uh, you know, that good old, that good old N-word.
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When we say that, suddenly it's worth killing over.
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But meanwhile, you get to say whatever you want, and you get to act morally outraged all
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the while, and say you're oppressed, and say we're privileged.
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Oh yes, what a privilege it is to deal with you people.
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Oh my god, it's such a privilege to deal with you.
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Oh, I love the privilege of just these people that get to run around and say death to the
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white man, and talk about crying in white tears, and all this other stuff.
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It's such a privilege, such a, it's an honor, almost, even, to be in that position.
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She raised me with these, you know, colorblind views.
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Because after a lifetime of being pretty good, pretty decent, you just come up and sucker
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punch me from behind and tell me that, you know, I deserve to die, and that all white
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I didn't really think in terms of white identity.
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I was informed of my white identity, and the only choice is given where I can either be
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guilty and grovel and just go along with whatever you want to say and do, or else I'm a bigot
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and a racist, and you don't want to be that, you know, or I can be proud and say, I'm not
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I don't care that there are things that were said and done in the history of my people
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I come from a people that accomplished and invented and conquered and built amazing things.
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Unbelievable things that have changed the course of human history many times over.
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And I'm supposed to sit here and still take you people seriously.
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It's sometimes career suicide to not go along and play pretend for you.
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They shouldn't take your butchery of the English language, Ebonics.
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It is a bastardization and a butchery of the English language.
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You know, speaking of which, you'll load your music down.
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For one thing, every other word will be, you know, the N-word.
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If you don't utter it every other word, you're just going to completely lose it.
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Conversely, if I utter it one single time, even if I'm just quoting a song written by you.
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The world is just going to completely turn upside down.
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There is no possible way in the world that you actually feel that upset when somebody just sings along to a song.
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And out comes the word that the artist wrote into the song.
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There's no way you actually feel that upset about it.
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What's really going on is that you have been given license to conjure this moral indignation and to wield it like a club over Whitey when this happens.
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But the difference is that you're not going to be the only ones using it.
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But increasingly, people are going to stop caring how you feel about it.
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If it weren't for YouTube's community guidelines, which protect you, curiously.
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They don't really, they don't really look for racially offensive language, epithets, genocidal rhetoric against my people.
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They don't, they're not hunting for that in these comment sections.
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It's just any time something might offend one of you.
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The tail has been wagging the dog for way too long.
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And it really is a shame that 90% of you make the other 10% being generous.
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And it's the reality that you have to live with.
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I know that you're going to keep on trying to destroy people's lives over this sort of nonsense.
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I know that you're going to piss and moan and raise all this moral indignation over it.
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I think the only thing that pisses me off about you anymore is just your double standards.
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But I actually don't know if you're able to grasp them.
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Like the same way that a lot of you can't understand hypotheticals.
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Like, how did you, how would you feel if you didn't have breakfast this morning?
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When I see you go after someone like Shiloh for just saying a word, I don't care who she said it to.
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I don't care what your historical reasoning is.
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I don't care what your philosophical, political reasoning is.
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And when it comes to me, I value my free speech more than I value any, any of you.
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You know, I see people and I see various organizations calling, hoping that they can bring charges against Shiloh.
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If they even manage to charge against her somehow, it'll be like the biggest free speech case that this country has seen in a long time.
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You are allowed to say things that hurt people's feelings.
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It's a, it's a dogma in the, in the current state religion of egalitarianism.
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You know, we say we have free speech, but we have to, we sort of live like we don't, you know.
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When the consequences that you are able to unleash upon a person now, I think far surpass what jails and prisons will do to you.
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In terms of your long-term security, your ability to have daily food and a roof over your head.
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The consequences that you're able to unleash upon people are so far-reaching and so long-lasting, and they offer no real legal recourse.
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And you will just throw somebody to the wolves, and you'll cackle and laugh like a pack of hyenas over this thing you've done.
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And you'll feel good about it, and you'll pat yourself on the back and feel that you've really done something for the cause.
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You know, I'm not making arguments for you to care about us.
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So, just to be clear that we've arrived at that point, where that's the reciprocity that we're going to have here.
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Is that, yeah, I'm just going to stick with my people now.
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I mean, maybe I should almost thank you for forcing me into that realization.
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But really, it's been pretty unbearable dealing with you.
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I've been a pretty reasonable, level-headed person.
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And I have withheld a lot of judgment in my life.
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You know, I did all that only to be told later that I'm privileged and that all white people are racist and all this stuff.
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And instead of doing the thing that you want, where we get all, like, defensive, like, nuh-uh, don't call me that.
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You know, if that's how it's going to be, fine.
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Hopefully you people realize that that time is over where you can just casually destroy someone's life because they said a mean word.
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So the next person that does it and you get all in a tizzy and cry about it, we're going to help make them a millionaire, you know?
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We're going to shower hundreds of thousands of dollars on them.
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Until you get the point that we're free people.
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And, uh, like George Orwell said, you know, if liberty means anything at all, it means the right to tell people what they do not want to hear.
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But if I'm free, if I have liberty, then I have the freedom to say it to you.
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And to not have everything completely destroyed over it.
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And I know that you wish you could get rid of it.
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I know how much you people would love to throw us in prison.
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You people would throw us in a gulag if you could.
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And that is exactly why we have to have free speech.
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Because of rabid vultures that swoop in to pick people apart just because they can.
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Just because they've been given the power and the ability to do it.
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And I've seen what you've done with that power and that ability.
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As far as I'm concerned, Shiloh Hendricks did and said nothing wrong.
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The future is going to get pretty interesting, I think.
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I could keep going on for days and days and days.
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And I feel I haven't even really scratched the surface, you know.
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Enough to be able to come to some conclusions about this.
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So I will definitely have more to say on this subject.
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But I wanted to focus this one or at least begin my discussion on here.
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And it's because I want you to know that I'm done.
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I mean, I hope it was worth betraying, like, the first generation of white people to have,
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Because you had a friend in me, you sincerely did.
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And, hey, admittedly, I was pretty inspired by it.
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My naive 7-year-old, 8-year-old self really appreciated that message.
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I thought, well, you know, it really would be awfully absurd to just judge someone based on their skin color.
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Definitely we should judge them by the content of their character.
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And I realized that it actually always was about the content of your character.
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It's the collective, you know, set of unique traits and differences.
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Of which skin color is just the most easily, readily identifiable.
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Because you're literally covered in it head to toe.
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And, you know, upon further inspection, when you take a look at these people that have this tone, you start to find other differences.
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Like in bone structure, brains, brain size varies.
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And then you can start to make observations about intelligence and temperament and impulsivity and all of these things.
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And I came to the conclusion that it always was about the content of their character.
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That, yes, they were categorized as black because that was the most easily identifiable trait that they shared in common.
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There are a lot of other traits associated with it.
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And it's funny, like we do this in the animal kingdom.
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We can talk about other differences besides just the immediately physically apparent.
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We can talk about not just their, you know, body structure and not just their fur and their eye color and all of that stuff.
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We can talk about, you know, whether they're docile.
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We can talk about which of their instincts seem to be more finely tuned than the other.
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You know, what type of breed seems to be more useful for this task or that or which situation.
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We can say all this stuff with reasonable certainty because these tendencies manifest themselves within that breed.
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And then, but then when you hop over to the human kingdom, well, now all of a sudden those categories go completely out the window.
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Even though it's just plain common sense and something that we talk about every day when we're talking about animal breeds.
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Just hop over to people and I'm supposed to pretend that the only difference is skin color.
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And that, you know, if you have any, anything like a preference for your own, you know, people of your own skin color versus theirs, then you're just bad and stupid.
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Because what kind of idiot would just judge somebody based on their skin color?
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And I think it really just sums up MLK's life work really nicely to me.
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It's that every place in this country that's named after him, every boulevard, every avenue that's named after MLK, it's loaded with them.
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And it's a great place to observe the content of their character.
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You can just hop on over to the nearest MLK thing and just observe some characters.
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Well, I hope this has given you something to think about.
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Like, the time for conversation and dialogue and understanding and all that bullshit, it's completely gone.
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I'm sure a bunch of you MLK folks are going to probably show up in the comments section, too.
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And that you understand that what I'm saying is what millions and millions of other people think and feel, too.
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Or because some Jewish intellectuals in a university, because they said so?
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Because where we aren't forced to integrate, this thing called racism, it tends to sort of go away.
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Just by the sheer fact that we aren't forced to live together.
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At least by the sheer fact that we can opt out if we want to.
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But for now, we still live in a time where access to white people is like a human right, supposedly.
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It's especially a human right for you to be around white people.