SHNEAKO - April 05, 2026SELFLESS NARCISSISM
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In this episode, I sit down with a good friend of mine and talk about a variety of topics. We talk about his journey, how he got to where he is now, and how he deals with the pressures of being an artist.
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The purpose of an artist is to work back their narcissism.
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First, identifying the arrogance that comes with their God-given free will, and then dedicating
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It's the uniquely human experience of finding the balance of selfless narcissism.
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Hangin' with my cousin, readin' dirty magazines
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We sing to niggas, cause then we ain't know what that should mean
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Then we start reinventin' everything that we ain't seen
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That's when I gave my cousin hate, gave my cousin hate
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And I know these niggas about to judge me now
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And I know they ain't about to judge you now
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What would you say if you could take anything back from how you got here
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and all the decisions you had to make, one mistake you made,
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I don't regret anything because I don't think it's part of your journey.
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And even the mistakes you made, I think they build you into a better person.
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Like when you get hit when you're fighting, you learn to cover up
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and you learn to not get hit in that way again.
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you're 19 i would say delay all gratification today i didn't want to film a video i just
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finished a good stream with digital naz if i'm going to be real i wanted to hit up a girl and
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just chill in the crib and do nothing but i should go to the gym i should make a video
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and then afterwards i'm going to feel more gratification like yeah you'll get dopamine
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with a girl you know you can do your thing but when you finish your work that's the best feeling
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ever so do what you hate doing in that moment and later on it's going to pay off always
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Two bites of the quay-quay, don't leave, just egg, man
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Nitrous, don't help me, it's just put me in a trance
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I'm talking about euphoria, I'm not talking about a man
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Told her don't leave me cause I need you by my side
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As long as you don't leave me then I'll probably be alright
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I think every successful person, maybe everyone really, there's a narcissist in everybody.
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And I think successful people have identified their narcissism
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and they're successful because they figured out how to use it to give back.
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At least the ones that are doing something good.
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Even the ones that are doing something bad, they're successful because they've shared with the world whatever arrogance they have with their God-given free will.
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A lot of people look at them online and think that they're these huge characters and they're huge personalities.
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And really, we're a lot more similar than we think.
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I was just curious because, you know, you seem like a chill guy, man.
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no i mean not really okay i i've met real jews all the time what's your name bendy shalom how
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are you bro of course i've met uh i've met a lot of hasidic jews um i grew up with with jews and
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i'm part jewish myself that's cool yeah how do you feel about that i felt about what about being
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part jewish that's great man it's uh it makes sense because i've always identified a little
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bit with um with jews and the you know i did fiddler on the roof when i was younger
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yeah the play i was um tevye no not tevye um more to hire so you want to step over here
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if you have a second to talk um but yeah what are your what are your preconceived notions about
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about what i believe i think they're a little confused i think the whole world's a little
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confused right now they're not sure what i make of things well what makes you think i'm confused
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well you've been on a journey i don't follow you closely but you've been on a journey
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and i think anyone who doesn't isn't raised with a very strong tradition at some point needs to
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look for answers and the jews play a significant role in the world yeah they're a small number and
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it's a little confusing so and there's very large religions that base their whole narrative on the
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jewish people right so if you're going to make sense of that you have to kind of put the pieces
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together yeah islam would not exist without judaism we believe the torah was the first
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revelation of god we're both monotheistic and there's a lot that we have in in common for sure
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so what would you think the world should fix with their confusion well they have to understand
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the the premise of judaism is that god communicates with man and you have to understand what a prophet
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is and then you can understand what the word of god is and then you can understand all the
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narratives all the rituals that jews do everything about everything that a person hears about the
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jewish people they see in the jewish people are based on those primary concepts and if you if you
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have a like a childish understand that i don't want to uh you know demean anyone but if let me
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put this down this is getting heavy sure if you haven't been educated on what that actually means
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like what does it mean that someone's a prophet what does it mean that somebody a messenger of
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god yeah but how does a person become a prophet how do you know that someone's a prophet or not
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a prophet well i mean why would the jews reject one person and accept another person uh that's a
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question why why did um i mean people say the jews rejected the jews reacted jesus correct
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right sure but why because they well from what i understand it's the the jews expected the messiah
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to be to be extravagant and to have wealth and jesus appeared as somebody who was humble and was
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wearing you know little clothing who wasn't wealthy right but that's not what the prophecy
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though the prophecy was never that it would be a wealthy person what's the prophecy that there
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There would be a humble man riding on a donkey, and he would...
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All the things that the Christians kind of say about the Jewish Messiah are...
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So I don't think that that's why they rejected him.
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First of all, they could have potentially accepted him as a prophet,
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but as soon as he started messing with Jewish law,
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He didn't necessarily go through the full journey.
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He may have had some sort of mystical experience, but unless a person really toils and studies,
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only then do they fully understand the purpose of the law and all of that.
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Whatever that means. I'm not an official rabbi or anything.
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So, can I ask you, how much of the Talmud should we take seriously,
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and how much of that is true with the stuff that we see online?
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I've read, I don't know if it's true, that they say that Jesus is in hell,
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and that's what it says in the Talmud. Is that true?
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Yeah, sure. But you have to understand what these things mean.
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This is the challenge. This is the challenge in general with religion, and this is what's unique about Judaism.
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Judaism is filled with metaphor. All religion really is, but Judaism is very rich with metaphor,
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and it's part of the ancient way that the prophets would communicate. It's what Moses taught the people.
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So even him going up to Mount Sinai, right, is an allegory. It actually happened in real life.
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But it's an allegory for a person that raises their level of consciousness.
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Or the types of experiences that we're talking about
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But you understand that there are altered states
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So just as a person can enter an altered state with psychedelics
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and not everyone's able to reach the same level.
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You meet many people that don't have the same level of intelligence as you.
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There are certain things that they'll never be able to get that you just get.
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So part of the Mosaic concept is that he was the greatest prophet that ever lived,
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He's accumulated all of the knowledge that there is,
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and you have a variety of people that you're trying to educate,
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you have to find a way to break things down to the smallest common denominator.
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That's what it means to take the Torah, the Word of God,
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from the top of the mountain, the highest level of potential understanding.
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Yeah, you have to bring it down the mountain.
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or that non-Orthodox Jews don't fully understand,
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All of that are very abstract, lofty things that are trying to be brought down to the masses.
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And the beauty there is because the Jewish people are one nation,
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when everyone's doing the same ritual, regardless of your level of intellect,
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your level of piety, your level of worship, your level of revelation or education,
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you can all participate in the same ritual together.
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Because I see some do the chickens that they kill in the street.
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Some of the Hasidic Jews, I see a Palestine protest.
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I'm saying in theory that the concept of the religion
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is that you take lofty things and you bring it down.
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So the challenge, whenever someone comes to the Jewish people
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I mean, Jesus clearly, I don't really like to talk about Christianity.
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He clearly is alluding to some of these concepts
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A lot of the things that Christians understand
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when the rabbis talk they're very very very wise men that spend their entire life
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dedicating to scripture yes so they they're trying to take very lofty things and bring it down
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now the talmud is they're kind of like the boys club it's them between themselves okay and it's
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not really designed so it's not meant for us to read you can read it right but it's sort of like
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a gated community it's a secret language yes okay gated community yeah yeah like williamsburg
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exactly yeah so for you to walk into one of their their things listen to a lecture and think you're
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going to you're going to understand you're not going to understand now if you if you assume
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they're bad people that's why i'm asking you right no no i'm saying if not you if somebody
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if somebody were to assume that they're bad people they might hear things and go oh these people are
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terrible if they assume that they're wise and noble people then they might have a more uh you
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know they might take the time to understand what's being so you're saying people should automatically
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assume that what's wise and noble people i'm just saying that that based on your preconceived ideas
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of someone if you hear something that's said privately you might have a different response
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so let's say for example them saying that jesus is in hell if the way i understand it is that there
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was a jewish man who if the story is accurate he loved god with all his heart and he wanted to
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bring the redemption and the jews were clearly going through a hard time and were about to enter
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something terrible and he gave himself over to that now what happened in history was that he
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became a mascot for another religion which even if the sages of that religious believe in one god
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The masses believed in the Trinity as basically idol worship,
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So now our idea of hell is that your soul is eternal,
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Yeah, it's funny because you don't really believe in hell,
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So that's my point is that every one of these things
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requires a lot of study, what it actually means.
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and if you're responsible for the impact you have in this world right even he says on the
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mount that you judge a tree bites fruit and all that right so if you're judged by the impact that
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you have in this world not just your intent but what you actually do so then him being in hell
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can mean when when there were millions of jews if you want to yeah quickly please keep talking
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sure when there were millions of jews killed in the name of him you can imagine what kind
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suffering that causes a soul nice to meet you bro so what's your nice what's your belief about
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islam because it's monotheistic we don't worship men so what's your why do you not believe in the
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religion of islam yeah so everything in the judaism are very lofty ideas that are broken
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down and they need to make sense across the board from the top sages to the masses islam did a good
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job building a religion for the masses but for someone who studies the depths of the law like
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myself it got rid of all the tradition it got rid of any basically all the treasure that is the
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torah and its laws it got rid of like what well there's no for the jews there's no sabs no kosher
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nothing no we have halal food halal food is as similar as kosher i understand but the my point
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is that there's details in the law that are containing deep abstract truths about the nature
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of reality let's put it this way yeah if moses communicated with god himself and god gave him
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the secrets of reality you understand reality i don't understand reality you understand reality
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as much as i try to okay i mean it's but it's absurd what's going on in this reality yeah so
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if there was a man who was the greatest prophet that ever lived much greater than you and i
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and god gave him the secrets of reality you think it was just as simple as i am god don't kill don't
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steal i mean it's pretty i could come up with that so you think islam is just as rules and it
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doesn't explain more nuances it well that's why i'm asking you it took this is in it's hard to
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give it over because the maimonides one of our greatest sages said about islam that they were
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the most brutal oppressors of the jewish people he lived under islamic rule and what about the
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ottomans ottomans were no i understand that there are exceptions but this is just his testimony and
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before 1948 you guys were coexisting pretty well in jerusalem i understand well
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there's different narratives you might disagree right right but the point is that this is his
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his testimony and he was he was the sultan's uh personal doctor he was doing pretty well objectively
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but that was his testimony what he said about jesus was that it was a mistake um and that the
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messiah will come and he'll correct the mistake meaning fundamentally they don't necessarily have
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such a terrible flaw in their beliefs but the trinity was idol worship and the messiah will
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come and kind of correct their thinking what does it mean to be the son of god what does it mean to
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be born of a virgin what does it mean all this stuff that they believe that were taken too
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understand God, they'll let go of. With Islam,
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very offensive thing to say about someone's
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I think that madmen are people that have, that are exposed to reality more than the average person.
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Or maybe they've gone through more suffering than the average person, and they don't know how to cope.
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But they don't necessarily have, what's the difference between a madman and a prophet in Judaism?
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You know that Muhammad Peswadam had a high level of intellect?
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High level of intellect and refined characteristics.
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So, which means that they have to, by nature, be kind and loving.
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But this was his testimony based on his tradition.
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But the main thing, the main reason why he's not accepted is because in the Jewish tradition,
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Moses set up a very specific religion, and each law contains secrets of the universe.
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If you take the prophet aside, what is there, my camera's about Dyson, so I have to ask
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Take the prophet, what do you disagree about the religion of Islam?
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In theory, it's a fine religion for the public.
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Okay, chosen means that we were at Sinai, and God revealed something to us.
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and that anointed the best of us and that's why you know everything that you see about jews in
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the world if they are pious religious jews they're some of the sweetest most angelic people
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that you'll ever meet and the other ones are people that are confused and go off in the world
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it's almost about to die i have two questions do you believe that there's sort of there's
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racial supremacy within judaism that's the wrong construct because jews have every single race
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And there were black rabbis that were in the Talmud themselves.
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And last question, do you support what Israel's doing?
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state is run by secular Jews and they don't have
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all the wisdom and the tradition. I think it's
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a trauma response that the Jewish people are dealing with.
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But the only way that that can happen is once people
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i think most secular jews literally feel embarrassed about being jews and it's they're
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going through like a an identity crisis and it doesn't help having people attack them on the
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streets yeah so it doesn't help my camera's about to die but it was great to speak to you likewise
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i hope that maybe your conception of me changed if you do you think i don't have any negative
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conceptions of you that's great um and hopefully we could all come together and the craziness that's
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in the world right now yeah i would like to see that well i want to say one thing that you god
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has chosen you for whatever reason we talk about chosen people every person is chosen for a mission
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God has definitely chosen you for something, okay?
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And you also have probably demons like all of us that you're fighting.
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And I think you need to think hard, like, long and deep about what God...
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I guess I don't want to say it's from the Jewish ancestry, but it resonates.
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And I hope that you keep seeking because even though it's not going to maybe make as good
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viral material the as the clickbait stuff but there's deep deep introspection that you can do
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and even let's say the conspiracies about jews or maybe you've heard about the noahideism
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you haven't heard moses when he came down the mountain also had laws for all of humanity
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and what that means is that if your battery's going to die i can't give it over right now
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but that but the idea is that there's there's lots of truth and i hope you continue to find it
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and maybe you play a role and actually bring in the redemption i hope so what's your name
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If you want to learn more about Judaism, you can do this off camera.
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I'd be happy to connect to you either myself or with someone else.
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