SNEAKO - September 01, 2024


Everybody’s Got Something (DEC 2019, SNEAKO)


Episode Stats


Length

4 minutes

Words per minute

205.82314

Word count

886

Sentence count

1

Harmful content

Toxicity

16

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Hate speech

4

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Summary

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This episode is about depression and how to deal with it. I talk about my own struggles with it and how I dealt with it as well as how mental health is complicated but it s also not as simple as fear and doubt.

Transcript

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00:00:00.000 I finally admitted to myself that I get depressed you don't want to say it out loud because then
00:00:05.640 it's real I also didn't want to be one of those kids who says they're depressed for sad boy clout
00:00:10.440 but it's been a tough past couple weeks man I've also had the flu for like three weeks the same
00:00:16.600 time I'm going through a depressive period so every morning I'm waking up thinking do I want 0.99
00:00:20.280 to kill myself or do I just have to diarrhea everywhere right before Christmas I said fuck 0.99
00:00:24.780 it and booked a flight to New Orleans and left the next morning I wanted to go somewhere warm 1.00
00:00:28.840 to get out of the miserable brick New York cold I wanted to visit a great city and also get drunk
00:00:34.160 with strangers New Orleans is the best place for all three first couple days were great I went to
00:00:40.220 museums I did touristy things you know I saw parades and I took pictures of stuff that feels different
00:00:45.700 because you're on vacation people really are different in the south that always surprises me
00:00:50.180 I was taking videos with my tripod and some guy walks over and points at it says that's legs I'm 0.82
00:00:55.780 like how do I answer that and not make you feel as stupid as that sounded but the third day on the
00:01:01.020 trip I woke up and felt the same way I didn't want to move I just wanted to lay in bed and go on my phone 0.96
00:01:06.560 which sucked because I had made it that far in the trip without touching social media once at one o'clock
00:01:11.040 I finally got out of bed stepped outside and the first thing I saw was this guy getting pulled over and
00:01:16.000 immediately he gets out of his car which you don't do and then he strips naked I'm standing on the
00:01:21.660 sidewalk with this homeless guy watching this free entertainment we're laughing our asses off we 0.98
00:01:25.580 see the guy get tased three times in the chest and he eats it all then he chased me down the sidewalk 0.99
00:01:31.660 with his dick out this all has to do with depression trust me at first I felt guilty because my first 0.99
00:01:38.580 thought was this is gonna go viral which yeah blah blah influencers only care about fame or whatever 0.99
00:01:43.480 that's for a different video but seeing a seemingly sane man just driving then flip a switch like he was on
00:01:49.900 bath salts after I couldn't get out of bed for four hours it made me realize that everybody's got
00:01:55.420 something we all deal with depression and anxiety took me so long to realize that because so many
00:02:00.940 people in my generation use mental health for their underdog story I used to make fun of depressed
00:02:06.220 people in high school I went to this boarding school in New Hampshire because I got a scholarship
00:02:10.000 but most of the students there were straight out of treatment therapy centers a lot of them were
00:02:14.580 suicidal addicts anxious but a lot of them just had rich parents that threw money at their
00:02:19.740 kids problems these kids weren't depressed they were teenagers these kids were taking xanax and
00:02:24.460 antidepressants because they cried and got nervous sometimes then it became mainstream cool to be
00:02:30.060 mentally unwell overly dramatic tv shows rappers making hit songs about dying I thought that depression
00:02:36.800 was just a choice what I never understood when I was in high school was how these people describe
00:02:41.440 depression as a disease it just seemed too simple to cure man just be happy the sick part of depression
00:02:48.120 is how it romanticizes itself when you're depressed there's a part of your brain that believes it's
00:02:53.720 special because it's broken you feel unique you become almost proud that you have a disadvantage
00:02:59.800 that's the sickness because part of you also believes that you're worthless why are you sad you have a good 1.00
00:03:06.380 life you're being fucking lazy piece of shit get out of bed you cunt you can't even move you suck 1.00
00:03:11.920 when you start believing it's real then it's real everybody deals with anxiety and depression not 1.00
00:03:18.280 everyone knows they do we all cope in different ways some people have god some people have colorful
00:03:23.740 crystals some people have therapy wine mom night these are all coping mechanisms mental health is
00:03:29.720 complicated but it's also not at all it's as simple as fear and doubt if we were all content nobody would
00:03:36.440 do crazy shit to prove themselves nobody would start a family if we were all normal and happy 0.71
00:03:41.880 nobody would do shit I don't want to do youtube videos I don't want to do comedy I don't want to 1.00
00:03:47.120 do any of the shit all I want to do is lay down vertically in my bed with some drugs and snacks 0.99
00:03:52.280 unfortunately that also makes me massively depressed nobody wants to get out of bed in the morning 0.99
00:03:58.260 yeah there's a couple people who do wake up and play upbeat commercial music let's start the day
00:04:03.140 those people are psychopaths they don't count I mean normal people with jobs with stress with kids
00:04:09.520 with debt with a failing business rappers with 200 instagram followers nobody wants to get up in the 0.91
00:04:16.260 morning you just do it