SNEAKO - September 12, 2022


JiDion Cries to SNEAKO for his TOXIC Chat!


Episode Stats

Length

34 minutes

Words per Minute

227.20451

Word Count

7,771

Sentence Count

37

Misogynist Sentences

6

Hate Speech Sentences

49


Summary

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In this episode, I talk about my recent anger issues and how I dealt with them. I also talk about how they have affected me in the past and how they've affected the way I think about myself and the way that I see myself.

Transcript

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00:00:00.000 like such a spotlight on the channel where it's so many like bro we got these like hassan
00:00:07.280 and h3h3 and all these commentary youtubers and it's like bro i don't want to go through the
00:00:12.640 stress of dealing with these so it's like let me tiptoe let me tiptoe it's like you know nothing
00:00:16.560 against them should i call them so what got you upset man uh so basically what i happened was
00:00:25.360 like uh like the last couple days i've just really been like self-reflecting i like to like
00:00:32.180 at certain periods of the year i like to really self-reflect with myself like i don't know if
00:00:36.380 people like look through other content like my content throughout like you'll see like maybe
00:00:41.320 like changes in the way i act and certain things like that because you just have to like self-reflect
00:00:46.300 on yourself and just change for the better so i was just self-reflecting on myself and then i
00:00:52.260 realized i was just like looking back at like some of the videos and like some of the videos
00:00:56.200 it was like okay yeah this is a certified banger i was happy with it but then other ones it's like
00:01:00.920 i don't even like want to look at them it's like i just want to pretend that they're not there
00:01:04.760 just because it's just like i know i didn't put my best foot forward and i knew and i was like i
00:01:11.500 knew like deep down like i sold out and then like pertaining to this week's video um but don't get
00:01:17.180 me wrong i did the video solid i really i love the video and everything but the thing is it's
00:01:21.840 like with the ad towards it uh that's a that's a whole nother thing but basically with the ad
00:01:28.200 towards it i wanted to make the ad better like first off i didn't want to do the ad but like
00:01:33.980 things happen so i ended up the bag was good the bag was good no no no it had nothing to do with
00:01:39.840 the bag it had nothing to do with the so what i have to do why did you do it that that's besides
00:01:44.040 the point but i i ended up doing this i was like fuck if i'm gonna do this i might at least make
00:01:47.680 it you know as best as i can so i wanted to do other certain things but with timelines and people
00:01:54.040 like yo it's like i just felt so rushed so i literally just sat down in my room recorded it
00:01:59.260 posted and boom but then like when i posted the video like my my pride is so high especially with
00:02:05.420 what i love with the videos that like in my eyes that ruined the entire video just that ad alone
00:02:11.420 you know when i do do ads i like to make them like funny as fuck so it's like because an ad is
00:02:17.080 an interruption of the entertainment that you're presenting to your viewers and so if i'm gonna do
00:02:21.980 an ad i want to make sure that entertainment isn't interrupted but at least you know they're still
00:02:27.240 being entertained throughout the whole video so no one can be like yo everything was great in the
00:02:31.200 video except for that one part because i felt like if people are saying one part of the video
00:02:34.460 is bad then the entire video is bad you know and so that happened then it had me self-reflected on
00:02:39.380 like I did this video where I went to uh Inverness where the Loch Ness Monster is and
00:02:45.280 like I could have made that video so much better like I had spent 6,500 on a life-size
00:02:51.180 Loch Ness Monster I was gonna buy I was gonna buy even more scuba divers to trick him and stuff
00:02:56.760 like that but then I just like brushed it out I just brushed it out when I didn't need to I
00:03:02.060 didn't need to I could have made it so much better and it was just like so much stuff was getting
00:03:06.800 towards me and then it also had me self-reflected on just like how i've been in general and i was
00:03:12.140 thinking back to like the pokemon situation i feel like the thing from that whole situation
00:03:17.240 that i feel like that turned me from the that turned me from myself the most is the fact that
00:03:23.400 it's kind of like i was big like i was already at three million subscribers whenever the whole
00:03:27.820 twitch situation happened but what happened was it kind of made me mainstream you feel me like
00:03:33.260 it had i had and i'm pretty sure you know the same feeling where it's like you have you're
00:03:37.500 i've never no what i mean is you have everybody's eyes is on you so you have the people that you
00:03:45.200 know love you and fuck with you like you're just used to just pretty much just getting love right
00:03:49.940 but then you get shot into a sphere where so many people are looking at you and it's not just love
00:03:55.680 you have the people that are looking at you just waiting for something to criticize i've always had
00:03:59.700 haters i've always had a lot of criticizers i've never i've never felt that switch like you i'm
00:04:04.340 i've been used to this type of attitude well like i just was never used to that because it was just
00:04:11.220 on such like a broad scale where it was like whatever i did news articles like bro having
00:04:15.800 fucking news articles writing shit about you yeah it's a whole nother thing this is like what the
00:04:21.140 actual fuck so i had all these news articles and then it was just like all these huge creators that
00:04:26.400 i looked up to eyes are on me so it felt like it really felt like i had the world's eyes on me a
00:04:31.560 lot of pressure that's exactly a lot of pressure and so instead of like internalizing and being
00:04:36.160 like oh well i need to show them my true self it's like i would still be my true self but then
00:04:40.400 also in moments it would be like i would have thoughts in the back of my head it's like yo
00:04:45.000 what if someone like what if this or what if they could fuck a fist in the future and it was just
00:04:49.320 more like my business mind was getting in the way and it's just like you know i'm not a business
00:04:53.460 a savvy person so with that getting in the way it was like i feel like it was hindering my content
00:04:58.800 in a way and there'll be some videos where it's just like it wouldn't fuck with it like you know
00:05:02.220 like me bowling with the uh coconut in the bowling alley you know there'll be some videos where i
00:05:07.540 beat that instance but there'll be other videos where it would get the best of me and i really
00:05:12.320 feel like me going over to the uk especially me to logan and ksi and everything i feel like that's
00:05:17.500 where it really started getting the most to me and what's crazy is it's like like if anything you
00:05:23.480 know they're not the type of people where it's like oh he makes this type of content so we need
00:05:27.080 to stay away from them so i don't even know why i feel like it was amplified but it was
00:05:31.420 i just feel like it was so much more amplified to the fact of like i have to like basically
00:05:37.300 make air rack type content like i'll call it air racking like it's like i have to air rack it i
00:05:42.060 have to make content that could be basically i gotta make content that is suitable for everybody
00:05:47.480 you know instead of just like doing what you want yeah yeah yeah i realized i realized you
00:05:52.900 i don't want to say switching up because but yeah i've noticed you try to steer it towards like
00:05:58.720 family-friendly content try to get away from like edgy type thing trying to get mainstream type
00:06:03.180 content and i guess that's why it's taking a toll on you but i'm wondering like if you could simplify
00:06:07.280 like why were you crying on stream like that bro bro like it wasn't me crying on stream like you
00:06:13.640 know i'm breaking down i was coming on shame because it's like yeah i was like i was getting
00:06:18.560 it's like it's like you know if you talk to your girl or something or you talk to your friends
00:06:22.220 it's like something that's been on your chest for so long you know it is like you know you've been
00:06:25.920 like pushing it down pushing it down when you finally just like let it out you know emotions
00:06:29.760 are gonna follow you know like bro that's not my first time crying on stream like anybody that
00:06:33.520 watches my stream they know like i'm a fucking crier like i'm over here putting up eight snot
00:06:38.120 bubbles 20 tears yeah when you hit a mill i think i remember seeing that yeah like so me i'm seeing
00:06:44.880 people saying weak and stuff like that like if you think it's weak to cry you know that's on you
00:06:49.760 uh i mean personally i wouldn't do it but you seem like you seem much better now like after i was what
00:06:55.080 we were watching you seemed much better like it was good to let it out but it's good to cry man
00:06:59.340 jesus cried david cried you know a lot of powerful people in the bible cried okay but jesus was
00:07:04.400 crying for different reasons than you i'm trying to figure out the reason like what's really got
00:07:07.660 you i can can you boil it down to one reason i can't figure it is it just the pressure is it
00:07:11.360 everything is it everything building up no the the reason was that like i feel like i let myself
00:07:16.180 down you know like and i was just disappointed in myself and then it was just like also the fact of
00:07:20.700 like you know i'm letting myself down but then like i still have my viewers that still love me
00:07:24.900 and still supporting me and doing all this stuff and it was just like damn it's like if you have
00:07:28.640 like a loving family you know like i hate to use this analogy but let's say you're a drug addict
00:07:32.440 right and you have a loving supporting family that's there to do anything for you and everything
00:07:37.240 but you keep on doing drugs keep on doing drugs and it's like even though you keep on doing drugs
00:07:41.220 they're still showing you love compassion taking care of you and everything it's just like you're
00:07:46.380 doing something bad but you still have a support system around you that's great and it was just
00:07:51.140 like wow you know even though like in my mind it's like fuck i sold out and shit like that it's just
00:07:56.000 like i still got people that love me and it's just like it's just such a simple fix it's just like i
00:07:59.840 just need to make the content that i want to make whether it takes a week or a month or whatever
00:08:03.760 it's just like when i want to go do a video i want to go do it so it's a simple thing all i need to
00:08:08.860 do is just be me like it is is that crazy it's crazy that i have merch say just be me but like
00:08:15.880 in a sense i wasn't just being me so it was more of just like a but what changed what changed like
00:08:21.680 i you seem like you're like you figured something out and you're not going to sell out anymore
00:08:25.460 i mean the title of the stream was i sold out but you've been going back and forth like when
00:08:30.000 we talk you're like i just want to stream and then like you'll facetime and you'll be like i
00:08:32.800 just want to make videos now i'm confused to like i'm trying to without speaking like in twitter
00:08:37.940 terms and stuff like that talk to me man to man like like what's going on what's going on but i
00:08:41.960 feel like you think it's something deeper when it's like really not i feel like like you might
00:08:46.540 maybe think i'm beating around the bush but like i'm telling you like i'm being point blank and
00:08:50.820 like literally everything i just said is exactly what it is like there's no deeper underlining
00:08:56.380 thing like that's just it i'm confused about what it is like just overall all the pressure
00:09:02.340 everything i just said like i just feel like i've let myself down you know like what i was building
00:09:07.700 and the momentum i was having and stuff like that i felt like i knocked that down just to like me
00:09:15.660 in my head thinking to get to another level but when it's just like you know fuck that other level
00:09:19.820 you know like even though so how are you gonna change you're saying fuck that and you seem like
00:09:23.040 you found a new direction but how are you gonna do that i mean sure i mean you know i can't just
00:09:28.580 i can't just talk about it i just got to be about it so i'm just gonna be that's what i'm asking
00:09:33.020 you so what what is gonna change now that you seem to have a new direction what's gonna change
00:09:37.920 is just that i'm gonna do what i want to do i'm gonna just do instead of thinking of the fact of
00:09:42.380 like oh yo this will go viral i'm gonna think oh bro this is funny as fuck let me go do that you
00:09:47.680 know like when i went to tyrone's place like you know there was nothing that indicated to me you
00:09:53.000 know making a diss track on a fucking shoe store manager would go viral you know what i mean it's
00:09:59.120 just like if anything that could backfire so hard just like bro he's just doing his job and you're
00:10:03.000 over here making but in my head it's the funniest shit in the world you know what i want to go do
00:10:07.260 that so what did i do i went and did it and then like like a lot of my stuff is like i think of
00:10:11.700 like the consequences later you know and i feel like a lot of things i've been thinking about the
00:10:16.080 consequences prior and it's like i've been psyching myself out when like i'm gonna go with
00:10:20.700 the flow type person so i'm just like just go back to my roots and just do what i do it's just
00:10:25.320 like you know like everything will work itself out you know if i think it's something i'm gonna
00:10:28.840 just go out and do it man like i already have like a bunch of like bro i already kind of went
00:10:32.780 through this crisis or this not even crisis i went through this like this little thought process
00:10:38.320 a couple days ago but like today was just me telling everybody because i feel like i have to
00:10:44.080 let my boys know like you know i know a lot of people don't like to let their social media know
00:10:47.300 their feelings and like how they're feeling and everything like that but i do because you know i
00:10:52.840 consider my boys like my boys you know and so i want to be open-ended with them you know i don't
00:10:58.520 see myself on a different pedestal i consider them my friends because you know it's just like
00:11:03.160 oh like they're who i do it for you know you know when you try to make jokes to your friends
00:11:07.680 and get a laugh out of them and be funny and or be like the the group clown or whatever yeah
00:11:13.980 i i feel like that's how i am with my boys it's just like i'm here to make them laugh and to like
00:11:19.300 you know bring joy to their life because they brought so much joy to mine real talk i think
00:11:22.920 you should take a little bit of a break from social media i think you should take some time
00:11:26.440 off to to think about everything the channel like what you want to do this is this is a real talk
00:11:31.820 i'm noticing this had like a common trend with youtubers who are really deep into this
00:11:35.500 and when you only exist on social media you kind of get lost in the sauce and i i'm just looking
00:11:41.600 out for you i wanted to say this like off stream but i i think you should take some time off and
00:11:45.660 just like you shouldn't stream don't think about videos maybe just take time for yourself be with
00:11:50.680 your boys you're saying and yo like being chronically online and everything it bro it
00:11:56.200 fucks with people's heads it i've noticed it happened to a lot of different youtubers like
00:12:00.220 in our circle stuff like that it's dangerous like when you really stay on social media that much
00:12:05.120 then you don't like the the noise all the time the back and forth the comments getting canceled
00:12:09.660 the articles the pressure of being a youtuber and everything it fucks with your head and you
00:12:14.520 i think what that bro you're at another level right now where you're still like you're i think
00:12:19.720 you're one of the funniest youtubers of all time that's why i fuck with you and now you're reaching
00:12:23.320 a point where it's like you need to be mainstream and that they they take away the system wants to
00:12:28.240 take away the essence of funny so that you fit their agenda and the it's it's fucking with your
00:12:32.860 head so my advice i would take some time away chat you're you're you're blaming the system
00:12:38.060 and stuff like that it has nothing to do with the system like i don't have everything to do with
00:12:41.700 you're saying you sold out to the system that was the title you stream that's yeah i i did
00:12:45.500 i did you know no one forced me to do that i did so i'm sorry but i'm not even trying to put blame
00:12:51.560 i'm just saying like i think it'd be good for you to take some time away from from social but
00:12:54.720 i feel that i feel what you're saying and everything but like that's this is what i love
00:13:00.360 you know that's like telling a football player like you know he might be going through a rough
00:13:04.540 time playing football but it's like yo man maybe you should stop playing football or maybe you
00:13:09.060 should stop doing what you love you know it's like when you're going through the most difficult time
00:13:13.780 you should do what you love even more you feel me you should double down like even like the state
00:13:20.620 that you're in right now well just just because I was crying doesn't mean I'm in a bad state like
00:13:26.780 I feel great like I was crying because I was just disappointed with myself beforehand I wasn't
00:13:32.420 crying because it's like it wasn't tears of sadness it was more tears of just relief and
00:13:37.500 just getting my peace out and just like oh i got that burning off my chest like let's start a new
00:13:42.040 chapter that's what it was you know i feel like you know just because you're crying doesn't mean
00:13:46.260 everything's wrong there's tears for different reasons and for different things like you know
00:13:51.580 i feel great i literally feel better you look like your normal self right now i'm not gonna lie
00:13:56.140 like bro like i literally i uh i know this is probably like the worst thing to say but like
00:14:01.800 i cried looking at a picture of my sixth grade self and it wasn't like tears of like sadness it
00:14:07.760 was just like tears of joy because it was just like i remember what my mind state was when i was
00:14:12.580 in the sixth grade and i was just like i knew what i how i wanted to be perceived and how i
00:14:17.180 wanted to be when i grew up and it was just like looking at that sixth grade to be honest like i
00:14:22.120 i wish i could just go back in time and be like yo bro you did it you did it so it's more like
00:14:26.100 tears of happiness like how i express myself is really weird like if i if i had tears of sadness
00:14:32.060 i i won't i can't function like whenever i'm like sad or depressed or whatever
00:14:36.980 like i shut down and i want to stay away from everybody like i don't talk to anybody
00:14:41.400 i just can cool myself so so you don't want to take a break you don't want to take like a week
00:14:45.000 off from social media no like i like i want to go hard now that's the thing like i feel like
00:14:50.940 taking over the world but like just having fun with it like that's what i want to do like i'm
00:14:55.440 literally itching to go record right now what you're about to do next you can't but you never
00:14:59.940 put my chat on to what you're doing next but yeah i'm excited to see it i got some i got some really
00:15:05.200 funny stuff coming up you know um i just found the guy named wade and i found the guy named ro
00:15:09.880 so i'm flying them out soon uh we're gonna get something popping up with that and uh uh hold up
00:15:17.820 Do me a favor
00:15:19.440 Can you can you mute me?
00:15:22.700 Yeah, what you got to do? I was gonna tell you I'm gonna tell you
00:15:28.500 Wait, if I meet you I can still hear you I
00:15:35.820 Can't wait. Oh, I can't hear you. I can't hear you just fucking bro. Just sex me. It's okay. I got
00:15:42.320 Like why is your chat so toxic I have a lot of angry guys, bro
00:15:46.500 i gotta i could tell you're like you're like i've never seen a chat so toxic in my life
00:15:52.260 it's good though it's like it reminds me of like being no it's really not being in a locker room
00:15:58.120 like tough love stuff like that like i think men need that i think like hey pussy uh f word
00:16:03.300 you know i'm saying i i kind of like going back and forth like that it keeps you tough it keeps
00:16:07.340 you you know i don't have a sympathetic chat the very the big difference if i did what you did on
00:16:12.240 stream bro would be a very different react if you have a very supportive stream um oh but
00:16:16.480 they they they're all my ass yesterday i did an e-day and they were fucking mad at me because i
00:16:21.660 went on an e-day with this dude and the two girls were only fans and they're like you're a hypocrite
00:16:25.460 because of sidemen center bro i was on there talking about how like only fans makes people
00:16:29.240 sad and stuff like that i wasn't trying to like i was just giving them compliments like you're
00:16:33.340 simping you're simping for these girls bro i have like my stream compared to yours i get these guys
00:16:38.580 like i get that red pill rage in my shit bro but it's a good it's a good outlet for it because i
00:16:44.720 would like to push these guys in the right direction i'm trying to tell them that like
00:16:48.100 the anger that you have should not all be wasted online you could channel that anger to become
00:16:52.400 better to become stronger but at the same time there's people in here saying that like you were
00:16:56.860 you were crying on stream for no reason oh i mean they can think whatever they want like i mean me
00:17:02.420 personally i really don't care but like i'm just saying me generally like i just know myself and
00:17:08.120 i've actually talked to a lot of other people about your chat and like and like it's been the
00:17:14.300 consistent uh or it's been consistent across the board everybody really has no idea how you
00:17:20.540 function with this chat like yo yo like this is like literally one of the worst chats ever
00:17:26.080 i'm not saying they're horrible people but i'm just saying this as a collective this is some of
00:17:31.960 the most toxic waste i've ever seen in my life toxic like you know talk are you calling my chat
00:17:36.960 toxic waste because i don't cry i'm but bro i mean that's they they check me bro you know i'm
00:17:42.240 saying it's good it's good it's it keeps you fucking yeah but my no yo for real that you got
00:17:47.760 you got a point you got a point but i think one thing about is one thing about being on your ass
00:17:52.420 like the people in my chat like they be on my ass too but it's more of the fact of like you know
00:17:56.560 instead of calling me a bitch like you know they'll tell me what i did wrong and what to do
00:18:02.900 better you know it's more constructive criticism like i mean i don't know because you obviously
00:18:07.440 this is your chat this is your yeah but maybe it's an outlet because maybe the uh the example
00:18:11.860 you could put up is that online has become so soft everything is so censored everyone's tired
00:18:17.280 of like having to fit an image that when they come on my stream it's just like i don't give a
00:18:21.260 fuck and then everybody lets loose everybody's on someone's ass that's the worst thing but that's
00:18:27.820 the worst thing you know like your your time to let go is online when you should be letting go
00:18:33.780 in real life you know like why why why are you at the end of the day why do you need to be toxic
00:18:39.560 in the first place you know what what do you mean by toxic what does that even mean
00:18:43.320 bro like i'll be popping into your streams i mean what is that tell me what tell me what you mean
00:18:47.800 by toxic bro like it's never a happy moment like it's never just like a happy moment like
00:18:55.080 and if it is a happy if it is a happy moment if it is it's either laughing at toy boys yeah
00:19:01.100 Or it's not for that feminist.
00:19:02.980 Yeah!
00:19:04.560 Look at the smile on my face, bro.
00:19:06.180 That's the happy moment we get to let loose.
00:19:08.140 Ah, stupid.
00:19:09.280 I hate you.
00:19:10.260 Ah, bro.
00:19:11.220 We're wild here, man.
00:19:12.380 Why is that bad thing that we all get to be hugging each other all the time?
00:19:15.540 Bro, it's just like, fuck you.
00:19:18.020 Nah, fuck you.
00:19:19.260 Ah, you're gay.
00:19:20.700 Ah, it's fun, bro.
00:19:23.020 Toxic.
00:19:23.660 Bro, maybe the internet should be coming really soft.
00:19:25.580 And this is a safe space for guys that just beat themselves.
00:19:28.340 hey man if they gotta if the only way they could be themselves is online then you're not being
00:19:34.240 yourself well you have to hide behind the veil you gotta be you gotta be like like no offense
00:19:40.060 but like nobody in this chat is gonna be acting like how they be active to your chat in their
00:19:44.780 day-to-day life you feel me because they can't because everything in real life is so censored
00:19:48.600 right now you have to act a certain way a lot of times people are in their nine to five jobs
00:19:52.220 or they're around these people they can't be honest if people even say they like my videos
00:19:55.640 of real life they get called toxic that people have to like lie about what they watch and so
00:20:00.320 they come in here they're just like fuck finally man yeah it's just it's it and me too every time
00:20:06.520 i turn on the street bro i started this shit off by doing 50 push-ups telling that fucking
00:20:10.280 right i can't use slurs right now telling that soy boy to do 50 push-ups and i'll delete my
00:20:16.120 channel and i know he won't that shit's funny because all day long it's like fuck this guy's
00:20:20.220 trying to ban me i'm getting deleted off twitter they're oh my now these old people are against me
00:20:24.400 i turn on the camera fuck you and then now we can let loose all the stress and everything it's just
00:20:30.180 like yeah toxic bro toxic is what is indoctrination you're told to believe that a man acting like what
00:20:37.340 he really wants is toxic when that's just fun that's what we are we we always have to suppress
00:20:43.240 that and act like we're not thinking that once a fucking guy puts on harry potter glasses and
00:20:47.540 says he wants to ban me off youtube for making a joke we're like this fucking pussy but you can't
00:20:52.520 say that it's called toxic so we get on here and we're just like fuck that bro someone's talking
00:20:59.520 shit about you you can call them a pussy i'm not saying that but what i'm saying is you know for
00:21:04.040 six seven hour streams it's one thing if there's a segment of you talk you know like you gotta let
00:21:09.140 your toxic side out don't get me wrong but like what is i hate that it's even called toxic just
00:21:14.160 being a man is called toxic now but bro but that's not being a man just so what's being a man
00:21:20.960 because bro all they all they do is complain no they don't it's not just complaining that we call
00:21:25.520 out bullshit the whole point of my stream the whole point is calling out bullshit yes okay so
00:21:30.820 let's say a job if let's say your job is doing something wrong what do you do to you make a
00:21:37.240 complaint to your higher-ups about what they're doing wrong whether it's right or wrong what
00:21:41.480 you're doing it's still a form of complaining what does that have to do with my stream i'm just
00:21:46.620 saying like it's not even just yours like i'd be watching fresher fit well usually i just watch
00:21:51.360 whenever you're on there it's like fresher fit or blah blah blah blah blah blah and it's like
00:21:56.800 it's never it's never like and you know it's sad like it's crazy to say this but the only person
00:22:04.300 that i ever seen that actually gave advice for like the betterment of guys without having like
00:22:10.780 this second you know underhanding of like bringing other stuff down is andrew like there'll be like
00:22:16.220 Times where like Andrew and Tristan
00:22:18.040 Will literally just give out good advice
00:22:20.820 Just good advice
00:22:22.000 Myron and even me
00:22:23.740 I've given out good advice on the stream all the time
00:22:25.860 Myron always gives good advice
00:22:27.340 Maybe I'm missing those parts of the stream
00:22:30.080 Every Monday
00:22:31.220 They do money Mondays every single week
00:22:33.840 Telling people how to make more money online
00:22:35.540 Every single day they tell people
00:22:37.120 Did I not say I only watch whenever you go on
00:22:39.720 Did I not say I only watch whenever you go on
00:22:41.740 Uh yeah
00:22:43.780 Alright
00:22:44.160 i i don't i don't get your point and what i'm hearing right now is a lot of these twitter words
00:22:49.400 i'm hearing a lot of like the social media yeah this is this is this is what this is what this
00:22:54.480 is what i consider a lot of this stuff i consider it a lot of the like you know like those like
00:22:59.720 girl morning shows like they're like the gossip channels and stuff like that i consider it the
00:23:06.060 same way but like the male version like i feel like it's like literally the same thing okay but
00:23:10.440 those shows the view doesn't have men on there they just go back and forth and agree with each
00:23:13.980 other every night fresh and fit has 11 girls to come and argue with us yeah but it's just like
00:23:18.760 that's not the same thing like you know alpha male strategies he's not always arguing with
00:23:23.400 girls he's giving fact that's why i like alpha male and um what's his name
00:23:27.880 fuck man my my brother i'm a little bit confused about your point i i think you've been
00:23:33.680 my my points my points uh chat doesn't he sound it doesn't even matter chat doesn't he sound like
00:23:39.380 social media though don't you like it's toxic it's sad it's problematic it's i i can hear the
00:23:45.600 social media i never said i never said problematic you're saying a lot of these words in the attitude
00:23:49.400 towards men like being well your chat is toxic like it's no way toxic bro don't look i've never
00:23:56.220 i always look the same every day i stream i've never i i never said it's affecting you i just
00:24:01.080 said your chat's toxic so then how is it toxic if i'm not getting affected by it bro it doesn't
00:24:05.880 matter like it's toxic to who bro i just look at that shit i'm like damn why why yeah there's
00:24:13.920 never nothing positive that's not true but then again i'm not watching your streams 24 7 i'm just
00:24:19.680 saying okay man for those segments that i watch it it's just toxic you're gonna put you're going
00:24:25.340 in circles with this stuff my advice bro and you're probably not going to take it i would take
00:24:29.220 i would take some time off of social media bro you know what i'm uh what is your course called
00:24:35.320 again the creativity kit i'm gonna just take some time off social media i'm gonna buy the
00:24:40.480 creativity kit and i'm gonna forget how it's really done by a true boss you're being ironic
00:24:45.960 right now but we just had a great call today i'm doing three calls a week a lot of those i'm being
00:24:49.540 for real but i was i was supposed to be a little plug and you're over here calling me ironic but
00:24:53.220 you're not you're not gonna actually buy it we know you you fucked up the plug bro but that's
00:24:57.960 that's a fake plug we know we can hear that bro bro why are you being toxic stop being toxic man
00:25:02.440 Stop being a man saying the word toxic, bro.
00:25:05.460 What's toxic about what I'm saying?
00:25:09.060 Bro, I'm showing love to the creativity kid.
00:25:11.980 All right, so I'll see you on the call on Monday then
00:25:13.460 if you're serious about it.
00:25:14.300 4 p.m., we got a call.
00:25:15.240 We're going to talk.
00:25:15.720 We're going to network.
00:25:16.260 We're going to talk about how to make more money.
00:25:19.180 I might have to get off social media that day, you know?
00:25:23.600 That was a toxic joke, GDON.
00:25:26.460 Hey, man.
00:25:28.980 Wstinko, Wstream, Wchat.
00:25:31.020 yeah yeah your chat your chat something else man it's fun man but this is what your chat probably
00:25:37.020 would have been like a year and a half ago if you were streaming i was streaming a year and a half
00:25:41.800 ago didn't it kind of sound like this no no like nah like bro like i mean i mean we got two different
00:25:49.640 fan bases you know like you're on the uh the red pill side i don't even know what my side is but
00:25:54.460 i fuck with you know like we're not the same type of creators so obviously we're gonna have
00:25:58.920 different type of fan bases so more like how me personally i wouldn't want a majority of your
00:26:05.060 fan base i feel like it'll be vice versa you wouldn't want the majority of your my fan base
00:26:08.980 it's just like you know you want the people yeah so i guess mine is red pilled and you're you're
00:26:13.880 not really sure what yours is yours is kind of just social media in general you kind of just
00:26:18.040 reflect social media that's why i'm saying i think you should take a break from it because when you
00:26:22.720 when you're saying words like toxic and you don't even know how to classify your chat then a lot of
00:26:26.780 it as like views and cloud and what's trending or what's happening can i just hold on let me read
00:26:31.940 this hundred dollar donut right now do you mind it's a little bit toxic but can i read it to you
00:26:35.700 or are you just gonna go on your phone no you can read it okay ultra void thank you for the hundred
00:26:39.860 big hundred in the chat he said here is advice for this female mindset you have on stream
00:26:43.940 bitches go to hr real men go to find a better job tell him to tell the truth he has a bitch
00:26:50.020 mindset and he cried for views is he going to start a weekly cry next or does he need to check
00:26:54.460 his numbers that sucks man but you know what's crazy you know i love what i can cultivate even
00:27:03.040 when i cry i can make money you know i can make money and i still have a loving supportive base
00:27:09.300 that fuck with me for me you know i've cultivated a fan base to where you know even when i'm going
00:27:14.320 through my down periods they can hit me up correct me when i'm wrong and everything but should you
00:27:19.020 want to make money i don't i don't need to i don't wait i don't need to you know i don't need to go
00:27:22.920 to hr or go talk to anybody because i'm my own boss you know so if i want to change something
00:27:27.660 in-house i just have to look at myself directly and then you know i just need to like review
00:27:33.640 myself and be like how can i change for the better and then go as i see fit
00:27:38.300 i'm not gonna lie i don't think he needed to donate a hundred dollars to say that but you
00:27:43.460 know he must be a big baller he must be bro but um for real bro i i'm i think i think social media
00:27:51.160 i see how it's affecting a lot of people and i can hear i can hear it in your voice i think you
00:27:56.100 should take a break i i've been repeating i'm looking forward to your future videos um i'm
00:28:01.080 gonna go back to my reactions now but no genuinely hold up before before you hang up i i just want
00:28:08.020 to i'm gonna call rage real quick all right i'm gonna call rage and i'm gonna because we talked
00:28:13.920 about it for a little bit like we know we're not over here talking about you or nothing like that
00:28:17.280 let me see if rage answers he's probably streaming right now
00:28:22.320 well you're not even listening to the advice i'm trying to give you man
00:28:27.460 you're already i am listening i am listening you're telling me to get off social media but
00:28:31.880 like what i'm telling you and like i get where you're coming from but my problem isn't necessarily
00:28:37.960 social media is because i feel like my problem was me trying to uh to an extent fit in with
00:28:46.080 something that i'm not so how i get away from that is just do me like you know you're over here
00:28:52.700 telling me not to make videos but like that's what i love to do like my in my opinion i think
00:28:56.020 that's horrible advice because you're telling me to do something that i love to do you're telling
00:29:00.520 me not to do something that i love so that you could be better at it in the future because right
00:29:03.500 now you just said like i can cry and still make money like you you need to have some sort of
00:29:08.520 principles about what you do in front of the camera what you don't do if everything is there
00:29:12.340 and it's all I'm always gonna show my emotions like like if I feel like crying on shit like
00:29:17.820 it's my platform I can do whatever I want you know but do you like you want to do that you
00:29:21.520 want to cry on stream I don't necessarily want to but like if it happens you would prefer to
00:29:27.300 not cry on stream right bro no anybody would prefer not to cry but if it happens that's why
00:29:32.920 I'm saying that's why I don't I don't feel I don't I don't bro but that's a whole that's
00:29:37.020 horrible advice to say just because I cried on stream it's like yeah bro you need to take time
00:29:40.900 no bro that's like that i'm not like i'm just trying to be straight up like i feel like that
00:29:45.000 is literally horrible advice so okay all right then that's just i'm just saying that i would
00:29:51.760 i would tell you i appreciate it though i would tell you the same thing off stream bro but i i
00:29:55.060 can it's okay we're going we're going to the surface now if you think that's bad advice but
00:29:58.300 that's just that's what i would do i mean like you know i feel like you know if these are your
00:30:03.200 like would you consider these boys your boys yeah like your niggas you'll go to war with
00:30:07.940 hell yeah bro then if you can't cry in front of them then how could they be your boys
00:30:12.100 because i would not want to cry in front of them at all i'd prefer just being a strong example and
00:30:18.000 not having to show emotions like that especially people don't get saying it's because you had two
00:30:21.400 or three bad videos for something like that i don't think it's worth showing tears
00:30:24.500 just i care about it it's like it's like if a basketball player had two or three bad games
00:30:30.280 and it's because he knew something wasn't on his a game it's just because i'm passionate about it
00:30:33.900 if i wasn't passionate about it i would have never addressed it it's because i actually care
00:30:37.500 about what i do i feel like these people are like just misconstruiting it with oh he has a mental
00:30:42.540 illness because he's crying about something that's on social media it's not because i'm crying about
00:30:46.120 something that's on social media it's because i'm crying about something i actually genuinely care
00:30:49.840 about and genuinely which is something on social media which is either way it's something that i
00:30:55.840 genuinely care about it's a field that i want to put my best foot forward and i feel like i haven't
00:31:01.540 been putting my best foot forward so that's why i felt disappointed in myself i'm like yeah i cried
00:31:05.680 a little bit but it made me feel better because i got it off my chest because i talked to my boys
00:31:09.540 about it man like i feel like you you have to have boys in real life that you don't mind crying in
00:31:15.680 front of uh i don't remember ever crying in front of my boys like like that for real no i'm not
00:31:24.180 that's fine if you never cried in front of them i don't think so but like if you can't cry in front
00:31:29.140 of your boys then it's just like like you know you just it's like you're always having your guard
00:31:35.400 up 24 7 you should have moments you should have people in your life you're saying yes we should
00:31:43.420 have people in our life we have to determine those people that we let into our life that
00:31:47.020 we're vulnerable around because we can't be a vulnerable around everybody but once you have
00:31:51.380 those people in your life that you can be vulnerable around you don't need to have your
00:31:55.200 guard up 24 7 because that's how you ultimately just like kill yourself within because you can't
00:32:00.000 have your guard up 24 7 either you'll kill yourself from within or you'll just have a
00:32:03.540 break later down the line you can't you can't have your guard up 24 7 so you have to
00:32:09.520 i i think men should have their guard up 24 7 i um or else people are going to take advantage of
00:32:15.240 you i i think that's a good idea that's why i said you have to find people in your life that
00:32:20.740 won't take advantage of you because obviously you know i'm not gonna uh you know i'm not gonna meet
00:32:28.020 mr beast for the first time and like and like fit to him like that how i vented on stream you know
00:32:34.180 like you know what's crazy right after i did that you know who the first person was that texted me
00:32:39.620 who kai my one of my best friends in this game kai he texted me he said bro you're so real man
00:32:48.180 i love you like that and that's all he said you know you didn't call me a bitch you didn't call
00:32:52.900 me a pussy he got where i was coming from i didn't call you that either i didn't call you no i know
00:32:56.740 you didn't call me that but what i'm saying is because he's my true friend like him seeing me
00:33:01.180 vulnerable like that i know he doesn't look at me any differently and he texted me and just showed
00:33:05.280 me love i feel like everybody i feel like everybody in this chat should have somebody
00:33:11.000 whether it's of the same sex or the opposite sex where they could be vulnerable with because
00:33:17.000 bro we're not robots it doesn't even though we're strong capable minded people men we're not
00:33:24.440 invulnerable we're not indestructible and we never will be you know okay someone donated five and
00:33:31.100 said period hey it's all good but if you bottled i'm not talking to you specifically but i'm talking
00:33:38.640 to your chat you guys bottle that shit up and think men don't cry and stuff like that eventually
00:33:44.660 you're gonna you're gonna break you're gonna break eventually it might not be
00:33:48.200 five years 10 years 20 years but eventually you'll like break so you have to find those
00:33:54.000 People around you that could bring you up period
00:33:57.400 Now you just
00:33:59.400 I'll see you but I gotta go back to my reaction, but it's all good. Stay up though. Stay up though for real, bro. I
00:34:06.520 Playing man, I hope he's okay. I hope he's okay. It's good to let it out sometimes I guess