SNEAKO - August 11, 2023


SNEAKO Reacts To His Younger Self


Episode Stats

Length

8 minutes

Words per Minute

190.29631

Word Count

1,612

Sentence Count

1

Misogynist Sentences

1

Hate Speech Sentences

17


Summary


Transcript

00:00:00.000 actually no no no real quick real quick before comedy night can i farm myself i want to watch
00:00:08.620 one of my old videos this is depression is not a meme and this video here i'm trying to do new
00:00:14.680 things because 2018 new waves we're here outside in the fucking cold long island new york it's
00:00:23.480 just cold out here and the topic of this video which i've been working on i used to smoke weed
00:00:29.980 every day for a long time it's about depression and it took me a long time to make because i have
00:00:35.140 like four other four of the drafts of the same thing where i talk about the reason why depression
00:00:40.620 is on the rise look at my hairline back then whoa my shit bro i'm balding chat el baldo because if
00:00:48.840 you're my age i'm 19 everyone from the ages 17 to 25 know someone who's depressed you've heard it
00:00:54.280 being sung about you've seen tweets about it it's in the music the new genre the new wave of music
00:00:59.600 we can agree that hip-hop is the new rock and roll right well the new genre the new punk
00:01:03.760 is emo depressing rob
00:01:05.520 we're gonna be calling out the satanist back in a day back in 2018 with the antichrist earring
00:01:14.980 singing about depression programming us to think we're all sad
00:01:17.860 and if the world ever has an apocalypse i will kill all of you fuckers
00:01:26.020 fear will be plentiful death will be bountiful i will spend none of you peasants
00:01:29.440 if you're over 25 maybe you don't know but there's dudes like
00:01:31.960 lil uzi vert trippy red fucking xxx tentacion screaming rapping with their dreads
00:01:38.200 about death breakups always the half open like drugged out face
00:01:43.280 like right you remember the guys like back in 2007 yo this car's a loud as shit bro get out
00:01:48.360 i'm gonna fucking why did i keep this in the edit i edited this too handicapped too
00:01:52.960 gotta be handicapped i'm all right all right uh physically you know what's funny too is the
00:01:59.040 whole time this whole video i'm shitting on depression the guy who filmed it was on
00:02:02.520 antidepressants and i remember he was like a lot of these people that were living in my dorm which is
00:02:06.440 right behind here in college so many of them were on antidepressants and that was the reason i got
00:02:11.000 spied i'm like how the fuck are all you middle class northe like we're in the top one we're fuck
00:02:16.860 and all of you think you're sad all of you need to be on medicine to make you happy the cameraman was
00:02:22.940 one of the dudes he was always on xanax always on adderall he was taking serotonin um zoloft every
00:02:30.480 day or what's it called all that and he's filming it i'm just like yo everyone why is everybody depressed
00:02:35.520 like just get over it and it's not handicapped it's not everyone is depressed there's no way
00:02:39.820 that so much of a generation is clinically depressed to me that's not possible so either a lot of people
00:02:45.500 are doing it to be cool because it's marketable as fuck like if this makes a comeback when rap
00:02:49.420 if push me to the edge all my friends are dead if that can hit number one then there's something
00:02:54.300 going on it's scary how popular this is and now little ooziver gets on stage he says welcome to the
00:03:00.060 rapture welcome to hell push me to the edge all my friends are dead let's call 2018 man but it can't
00:03:07.880 just be that everybody is feeling the same exact symptoms there's no way that everyone here is
00:03:13.300 clinically depressed people spend nine hours a day on their phones people spend five hours laying on
00:03:17.540 their side what binge watching man everyone binge watches which is a symptom of depression like
00:03:22.020 honestly if you if you 10 years ago you said someone was going to lay down here on their side
00:03:25.780 on their bed watching their laptop like this eating junk food it's like are you okay is something
00:03:31.280 wrong with you you need to speak to someone it's so big at this point that it's marketable depression
00:03:36.520 is so big for people my age 17 to 25 that it's selling and originally my thesis was that it's because
00:03:42.800 everyone's fucking addicted to their phones it's all day long staring like this you know social
00:03:47.400 media constant updates it's studies have shown that getting an instagram like release a little bit of
00:03:52.560 dopamine in your brain and so the rest of the world the shit outside being in the cold being your
00:03:57.780 trees and shit all this weird stuff is not as exciting the rest of the world is dull compared
00:04:03.600 to what it is online and so kids are getting depressed like honestly the rest of the world is not as
00:04:08.400 stimulating and that was my thesis that was my reasoning is that you know teens are like on their
00:04:12.660 phones for nine hours a day now on average teenagers in the united states on their phone for nine hours
00:04:16.860 and there's they feel symptoms of depression they're in a situation where you can fix some
00:04:23.400 of your problems and not all of them are related to depression there's no way that everything wrong
00:04:27.640 with you is a symptom of depression i really like watching this video back now because i was depressed
00:04:34.980 for like three years before this and i don't know if you guys remember this was the first video i
00:04:39.420 uploaded and i think it was almost a year and then it was three years where i was inconsistent
00:04:45.240 and this was actually the start after i dropped this video banger banger banger but i started even
00:04:51.720 though it was like maybe every two three weeks this is when i started catching momentum again
00:04:55.540 so i made this video basically shitting on my old mindset and then everything everything changed after
00:05:02.520 that i've been depressed like i've been going through my own shit i mean you saw my last video it's
00:05:08.080 all about lifting it's all about confidence it's been about two years since i lifted a barbell and i made
00:05:11.920 some decent progress i could deadlift some decent weight now look at this come on let's go
00:05:17.160 i broke my elbow i don't know if you can see this big ass cast floating through my elbow
00:05:26.260 can you hold on let me put this shit down real quick i'm an egotistical person i rely on my confidence
00:05:32.080 to get by and when my confidence goes away because i can't be in the gym i was depressed like i jumped
00:05:37.040 over the fence over here because i was getting drunk and going to parties and i ruptured my
00:05:42.140 my tricep tendon and broke my elbow my tricep tendon i didn't even i didn't have health insurance at the
00:05:49.160 time so i would just wear like this cast not knowing that i had a ruptured tendon under my
00:05:55.020 hoodies all the time and right then i was i was decent weight because i had been lifting a lot
00:05:59.240 kind of have like bud light be your face but after this i got so skinny because i wasn't eating
00:06:07.520 white i was drinking and smoking all the time couldn't hit the gym this it was uh this was like
00:06:13.920 a difficult imagine like you get all your confidence from the gym and then you can't go anymore i'd be
00:06:18.180 laying in bed all break we had a month-long break in college shit's too long
00:06:21.260 i ruptured my tricep tendon and broke my elbow i could have i could have taken the percocets that
00:06:29.900 they gave me for my surgery i could have wallowed in my pain i could have wallowed in my sorrow
00:06:33.680 l drugs i decided that i wasn't gonna wallow in my pain i'm gonna go to the gym anyway i'm gonna do
00:06:38.920 chest stop saying sticko fucking legs and abs i'm gonna i'm gonna work around this is what i thought
00:06:44.000 because me someone like me i think all the time that there's probably something wrong with me
00:06:48.720 there's always some nagging thoughts in my brain maybe there's something i try to ignore it it's
00:06:53.600 easy now to wallow in the self-pity it's easy now to wallow in sadness i've been there and for people
00:06:59.480 like me it's not depression it's not i'm not a depressed person i'm not i'm overall not a sad
00:07:05.380 person i could if i wanted to because we're at the point where it's normalized by music it's normalized
00:07:10.760 by our society don't don't lie there for five hours on your side watching netflix don't there
00:07:15.020 don't just lay there get drunk and stoned all day right don't see a car and think about jumping
00:07:19.900 in front you know stay positive because a lot of you out there you're not depressed
00:07:26.080 you really do need to get over it
00:07:28.020 yeah the haircut was pretty bad huh but i'm cooking i'm cooking i remember back then reading
00:07:37.600 the comments and people are upset like you sound like a boomer like what do you mean just get over
00:07:41.020 it i'm sad and i kind of like dialed it back i remember wanting to red pill so bad back then
00:07:46.080 and kind of getting held back by some of the comments
00:07:49.120 how did you get less asian i don't know i i i couldn't tell you
00:07:54.280 this is your job
00:08:00.300 today
00:08:10.260 i'm
00:08:10.980 i'm
00:08:11.740 maybe
00:08:12.240 i am
00:08:13.300 let's go
00:08:13.420 let's go
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00:08:17.420 go
00:08:24.200 let's go