SNEAKO - August 02, 2022


SNEAKO Reacts to XXXTentacion FINAL INTERVIEW


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Length

46 minutes

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190.84666

Word Count

8,782

Sentence Count

207

Misogynist Sentences

9

Hate Speech Sentences

41


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DJ Akademiks and I discuss XXXtentendacion's recent interview with DJ Semtex, how to deal with depression, and much more. We also discuss how to handle anxiety and depression in the 21st century.

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00:00:00.320 Let's watch. Oh, this is XXXTentacion last interview on camera with DJ academic. You just meet you just
00:00:07.480 You just be bar. Yeah, I mean I'll be bar
00:00:11.000 You know, I was smoke, bro. I got I got like contact higher from being around him
00:00:15.640 Yeah, man, I'm like hella tired
00:00:18.040 Yeah, I don't smoke at all
00:00:19.760 Maybe smoking don't I don't be smoking either the most I'll smoke is a vape
00:00:25.240 man
00:00:27.240 I only drink I drink every day
00:00:30.000 Which was not good for you either, but like I drink to every day
00:00:34.760 Yeah, academics does like to drink
00:00:39.720 You're gonna have to see on stream a lot her. Yeah, he hadn't any demics they call them
00:00:45.240 And some more
00:00:47.240 Yeah, I should start drinking while
00:00:49.240 You'll get you'll get you'll get bro. Not only that it's healthy for you. It gets you drunk slash high
00:00:55.340 And then rose like there's no there's no health defect
00:00:59.680 Oh boy. That's not true. Alcohol is alcohol is literally poison
00:01:04.240 That's like it literally you're there's some benefits from wine compared to others
00:01:08.600 But you know at the same time like don't believe that it's just good for you
00:01:11.400 It's I think at the end of the day you got to look at the net effect if if it's if it minuses
00:01:16.840 10 life points and gives you back to you still lost eight life points
00:01:21.120 Yeah, you know, I mean like yeah, no no, but he does have a good point
00:01:24.540 I remember watching this interview says that you could drink a glass of wine and like sip it for like three hours and have a good high
00:01:29.080 That's true compared to taking the handy shots back-to-back with a bunch of sugar chases. Oh, yeah, no, and and like, you know
00:01:38.460 Smoking cigarettes is way better than doing crack
00:01:41.020 You know I'm saying they're still still poison. Yeah
00:01:49.260 Get red wine get nigga you drink one glass you drink one glass of red wine, bro
00:01:53.840 You set bro you and a good vibe for hours
00:01:56.140 Nigga nigga don't kick no game to me like I'm your fans and shit nigga
00:01:59.620 What the fuck you kicking?
00:02:00.620 Yeah, no, you are right. You are right. You're right. I gotta get some wine to really mix up in my shit, bro
00:02:08.440 You got anxiety, fam. Why is it? I could read you. I could see it
00:02:14.140 You know I could read something about you. I was gonna tell you this
00:02:17.360 The last time like they're both trying to big burr each other right now. Yeah X is drunk and
00:02:23.220 And academics well academics is just being academics. You might be drunk. You you could never tell I mean been there done that
00:02:31.320 I've drank so much before when I would get on stream after having like two drinks and people would not be able to tell I'm drunk
00:02:37.700 I'm drunk so I
00:02:39.700 But excellent excellent
00:02:41.180 He's talking a little slosh right now
00:02:43.180 I think and I know you have gone to therapy. I think when niggas have gone to therapy
00:02:48.580 They see things or they see shit in people differently from other people you get me
00:02:55.140 Because I feel like you
00:02:57.900 You going through that and like kind of also picking up certain shit
00:03:01.320 You almost assume the role of a therapist sometimes when you're talking to other people
00:03:05.220 Because what what what's probably drawn out of you by your therapist. You could easily point out in other people
00:03:12.880 I've been like this though. I just can read people
00:03:16.960 Why you up this time though don't sleep I'm always up
00:03:21.540 She looking up hentai port or something
00:03:24.220 I should be but no
00:03:26.860 Bro, yeah, you can I get it on that vlog tomorrow dog?
00:03:29.780 You want to get on the road? Yeah, man. I want to kick some knowledge to you don't think I can kick some knowledge
00:03:33.680 You can
00:03:35.760 We just have to go into a pack that that's what you want to do
00:03:39.600 You be using certain words that be sound like a little bit too deep a pact
00:03:44.280 Like when they can hear of a pact he kind of reminds me of a vans who cut a solo manati same time
00:03:50.460 I mean x was low-key on that spiritual timing to the bro. Yeah, he was yeah low-key high-key
00:03:55.840 That's that was his whole thing
00:03:57.840 Don't what aren't wolves in packs?
00:04:01.120 Uh, yeah, but when we know where that's a pack when I unpacked human
00:04:05.440 That's
00:04:07.440 I said that word for where we're at. Yeah, I love x's music, bro
00:04:11.600 And as a person I thought bro was cool, bro
00:04:14.200 Like I mean, I don't know
00:04:15.680 He got accused of doing some really heinous stuff to his girl and
00:04:20.360 I actually know somebody personally who was like
00:04:23.740 Who hung out with um
00:04:25.960 Their whole group. What was their group's name again? members only members only bro, and like
00:04:32.000 She didn't have any reason to lie like she wasn't like making any statements or anything, but just on some like
00:04:38.320 You know
00:04:39.360 A side stuff. She said, you know, he was he did he he did get angry sometimes, you know, i'll just leave it at that
00:04:46.640 It's very obvious. Yeah, you know, he's angry
00:04:50.480 So you know, but point is like
00:04:54.080 He was definitely on this like um spiritual stuff, which like I said, i've been on it, too, bro
00:04:58.880 A lot of people have been it's
00:05:00.880 It's it's beautiful
00:05:02.640 Or it's not beautiful. It's appealing because it allows you to make your own god
00:05:07.600 A lot of times you make yourself god and you also make his own god
00:05:11.360 Yeah, you make yourself god and you can make a god that is convenient to you
00:05:14.400 The the ten commandments are in order for a reason, bro. Now listen to me though
00:05:18.940 That ten commandments are in the order they're put in for a reason, right?
00:05:23.520 Those are the two most
00:05:25.520 The self-destructive things rules that we break like you think of things like murder
00:05:32.960 As like let's watch a little bit of it, bro
00:05:34.800 For real
00:05:35.120 I mean, i'm just saying like you think of the look you're gonna have other people on stream with you and they won't talk about jesus at all
00:05:42.720 Yeah, yeah, you feel me like i'm just saying like they're in order for a reason like I want to point this out because a lot of people
00:05:49.200 They hear about this. Oh, you know, don't don't make take any gods before yourself
00:05:54.480 That's not just like oh practice in another religion where the name of another god is your god
00:05:59.920 Literally the part the the the the idols that most people worship is themselves the gods that most people serve are the gods that they invent in their heads
00:06:10.080 and so
00:06:10.960 it yeah, I mean
00:06:13.200 agreement or a brother
00:06:15.760 Yeah
00:06:16.080 If you want longevity, you know, I got longevity. I got longevity. So it has to just be in agreement
00:06:22.480 I don't I don't read current
00:06:31.840 It'll sound like okay. What what things do you study?
00:06:36.080 Myself the world
00:06:38.320 I've just passed my own judgment
00:06:40.640 You know, that's what all authors really do all authors see it's it's hard. It's harder to to read a book than it is to write it true
00:06:49.840 Okay, that's not sure that's just not sure
00:06:52.480 I get all that, but there's some where where you have
00:06:56.400 Cultivated certain type of messages
00:06:58.880 Elva chat el jewel or even cultivating the way
00:07:02.960 that you put those messages out and
00:07:06.320 You've learned how to disseminate it in a way that people could digest and subscribe to
00:07:11.760 That's not I don't believe that's natural. It is natural
00:07:15.600 Stop it
00:07:17.040 It is natural the only book i've ever read that taught me more about my mind
00:07:21.440 Was the master key and that's when I was in jail
00:07:25.840 But it had nothing to do with my mind. I was my mind had already formulated
00:07:30.640 this
00:07:31.760 judgment this perception
00:07:34.400 I've always perceived differently. That's why I was always the oddball
00:07:37.200 Hey, oh by the way
00:07:42.640 You're on my stream. I don't know if you know
00:07:44.720 Right now
00:07:45.600 Yeah, that's what oh
00:07:47.360 You probably know there's a headset
00:07:49.040 When I have this on i'm usually on stream
00:07:51.360 Damn, why you ain't let me know?
00:07:53.760 You ain't say nothing crazy
00:07:55.360 But no, what I was gonna say is that yo
00:07:58.240 Shit, you were like super turnt earlier now. He's just like in a zen mode
00:08:03.280 kicking like you know, I mean on some look like you try to have a deep conversation and shit
00:08:08.080 Because my little cousin was around earlier, so I just be trying to make my little cousin happy
00:08:12.160 I'm just i'll be trying to entertain him
00:08:14.640 Yo, what was uh that conversation with kodak?
00:08:20.160 Which one?
00:08:21.360 Well, I don't know how many times you guys talk like he put up a conversation and you were trying to tell him to be safe
00:08:25.680 You're like yo listen watch the people around you and watch the surroundings
00:08:31.440 I felt i'm a very i'm a very i'm a very old. Where's that coming from?
00:08:36.480 Where a person and I felt energy
00:08:38.080 Formulating towards kodak
00:08:41.040 That he didn't need or that he didn't want or need formulating against him. I won't put it into words
00:08:47.200 he he's not he's
00:08:49.040 He's very ignorant to certain things, but it's because he wants to be you know, I'm saying he doesn't want to
00:08:54.480 Like I don't want to speak for the next man you feel me, but
00:08:58.160 all I was just I was being the
00:09:01.920 The the equilibrium in that situation just telling him providing him the options spiritually that
00:09:07.840 He needed to perceive in order to move forward or to move backwards
00:09:14.080 Thanks, you go, right? Yeah, thank you. Uh, you guys said don's a cool guy chill guy. Um, he definitely is
00:09:19.440 X is uh, was right about kodak. I think uh, kodak wants to be ignorant about a certain about a lot of certain things
00:09:25.120 That is kodak locked up right now
00:09:27.120 Kodak is sure he's in and out of jail all the time
00:09:30.720 Yeah, kodak has not really elevated even since this interview
00:09:33.280 Who does that feel?
00:09:36.400 That's the lonely part about being me nobody
00:09:41.680 No, parents why would I lie? I don't have to lie to you
00:09:44.480 No, not necessarily I didn't see a line
00:09:47.040 But what I'm saying is that who who do you often see like tries to
00:09:51.680 Give you that type of hey, listen stop doing everyone can offer support, but nobody can be my backbone. I am my backbone
00:09:58.400 You should have other people who could support you. I think x kind of another false prophet similar
00:10:05.920 Kind of thought he was his own god. Yeah, and that can that can steer you off
00:10:10.080 Yeah, I can see it can make you a little bit delusional
00:10:12.400 Mm-hmm
00:10:18.400 Kodak was very receptive. Kodak was definitely very receptive because it's it's a mutual respecting like but it's like
00:10:26.160 Regardless of anything we got to respect each other's minds because of who we are you know saying and where we are and who we are
00:10:32.560 We're the only one that has amounted to what we've amounted to now
00:10:36.880 It's different if I was some random nigga coming to him spitting no game at all
00:10:41.760 But look how much I've achieved you know
00:10:43.600 I'm saying look how much I've achieved look where my mind is and look how
00:10:47.200 Differently are I articulate myself from him and we grew up
00:10:50.720 Basically in the same place. We both grew up in Broward in a different city, but we grew up around the same place
00:10:56.160 For me so in the same context look how I've come out and look how he's come up with two different people
00:11:02.000 He he has different mannerisms and he has different perception
00:11:05.200 So all I did was evaluate on my perception and what the world was telling me to tell him and he perceived that
00:11:11.520 And whether he moves in that direction or not. I respect him as a man. He's gonna be a man regardless. So
00:11:18.080 Do you ever do you ever feel like?
00:11:21.040 Like you owe it to your fans to kind of steer them like because I feel like that's what the vlog yes
00:11:26.640 And that's what I'm that's what I'm doing
00:11:28.640 That's what I'm doing. But my main thing is
00:11:30.160 It's a difference right? It's a difference to be wanted and needed if i'm needed right if this energy is needed because it is
00:11:37.360 We don't have many teachers who don't have many prophets
00:11:40.400 You know, I'm saying how it was funny because bob marley says something very important
00:11:46.080 How long it was either bob marley or somebody how long are we going to sit aside and let them murder our profits?
00:11:51.600 How long are we going to sit aside like you have these people that
00:11:56.800 Arise and come out of nowhere and our teachers and our and our people that are supposed to lead and
00:12:02.320 Push people in the right direction with energy these are like you're a teacher the leader
00:12:07.360 Of the youth yes
00:12:09.200 Of the youth because they're the other ones that can be molded. I have to be very careful with my message
00:12:14.240 All I want is for people to be able to be themselves to be free-minded
00:12:17.520 To ideally understand themselves more to and to unlock that piece of their mind that gives them clarity
00:12:24.800 I think I have the same message as him
00:12:26.800 It gives them ground you know, saying but in order for me to lead people in that direction or to lead
00:12:32.480 Those anyone in that direction
00:12:35.600 People have to show the necessity the need
00:12:38.800 That for me, you know, saying they have to elaborate on that you have to be willing to
00:12:43.680 Show me that they they care about me and put that equal effort whether it means physically going somewhere and
00:12:49.280 Speaking about me or like bro. It would it would mean the world to me if people would go out of their way and leave their house
00:12:54.720 Their houses physically and do whatever they could to help me. You know, I'm saying
00:12:59.200 And if everybody put in that equal amount of energy
00:13:01.600 Then I could amount to what I needed to amount to to really assert myself
00:13:05.520 But sometimes
00:13:06.400 It's better like I I don't be trying to like tell people like oh, yeah, bro, save me
00:13:11.280 I'm not trying to tell people that because if it's genuine people will do it
00:13:16.560 Yo, you're at top of the rap game and at least for you know, I mean
00:13:20.880 He had good intentions
00:13:22.640 He seemed like he genuinely wanted to help
00:13:24.240 Bro, most people have good intentions
00:13:27.760 I truly believe that you think so?
00:13:29.760 Yeah, bro, most even the even people who do evil things they don't think they're evil
00:13:35.840 Most people have good intentions, but that's why it's dangerous. That's why the bible says lean not onto your own understanding
00:13:42.320 That's why it's dangerous when we try to live lives to please ourselves because
00:13:47.520 What happens when something that you want or something that you think is right?
00:13:54.000 Comes at the expense of hurting somebody else
00:13:57.600 I mean bro, when you look at nazi germany a lot of the people who became soldiers who
00:14:04.160 Put jews in concentration camps and were shooting people
00:14:07.840 They were just regular people living in society
00:14:10.800 A lot of people listening to this stream right now and just in general and i'm not even excluded from that prior to being christian
00:14:17.840 If we were put in a position where we felt like it's my life or yours
00:14:24.880 a lot of people
00:14:27.200 Would take that gun and
00:14:30.160 Murder an innocent person
00:14:32.240 You feel me like that people like to tell themselves that you're good people, bro
00:14:36.320 People like to tell themselves that oh like just because they tell themselves here's here's what I know for a fact
00:14:42.160 If every single thought and action that you have done i'm talking to everyone in this chat right now
00:14:48.320 If every single thought you've had and and thing you've done can be put on a on a
00:14:54.960 Wide screen or one of them lcd screams in times square
00:14:58.720 Nobody would think you're a good person not a single person
00:15:03.680 So don't you not good people bro, and that's why we need a moral code a true
00:15:09.200 Moral code nobody you try and try and tell me one bad deed or one bad thing
00:15:15.280 A person can do without breaking one of the ten commandments
00:15:20.160 You can't do no it's a perfect music game
00:15:23.440 Okay, but I still even have to put a caveat
00:15:26.400 Yeah, when it comes to your generation because it's gonna be somebody who points out like some huge megastar and be like he's down
00:15:32.160 But still
00:15:34.160 Here's here's a strange thing though. You do realize that my energy is purely mine, right?
00:15:39.600 Like explain my energy is purely mine like you can call my label and ask them
00:15:44.560 Like how much like how much if they were able to do any promotion behind anything i've done
00:15:50.160 it will be no
00:15:51.520 Like because even when I dropped my last album 17 that all those numbers was purely off the strength of my fanbase
00:15:58.960 Purely and that amazed the fuck out of everyone because it was like yo
00:16:03.840 Like I cut to compare to uzi's drop, right?
00:16:07.360 Uzi's drop had plenty of interviews behind it. Uzi had a huge
00:16:13.600 Exactly and it was all planned pre-planned now with mine
00:16:17.200 That was literally me me saying yo me talking to my fans. Yo i'm dropping it on
00:16:21.760 I think it was he's a product of the industry. I think uzi is promoting demon stuff
00:16:28.000 Like he changed his gender to they them
00:16:30.480 His name lozi for i've always heard that conspiracy like lucifer lucy vert
00:16:34.960 The the stuff he puts on his head like his concerts kind of like are
00:16:39.280 Worshipping somebody on stage. There's people always make this comparison that like modern concerts are kind of like
00:16:44.560 Satanic rituals like the whole mosh pit lose your mind mentality and then you saw what happened on astroworld
00:16:51.360 Uzi is not promoting anything good
00:16:54.480 I'm gonna drop it
00:16:56.480 My label had no
00:16:57.680 My label had no clue. Nobody knew what the fuck I was doing
00:17:00.640 You had a distribution deal. That's important to know you had a distribution deal
00:17:05.200 They weren't gonna promote your stuff. They were gonna just put it out there
00:17:08.240 They were gonna just put it out and pay for it and get a percentage
00:17:10.800 Exactly, so I I mean do you think your fan base has changed?
00:17:14.880 I mean at first when it was announced that you uh signed which by the way
00:17:19.440 Like and just personally people have my fan base has not changed
00:17:23.200 And I don't like to call it a fan base. My family has not changed. My supporters have not changed
00:17:27.280 It's what we've appropriated that has changed. It's what has become the cool shit that has changed
00:17:32.880 Some like look as new artists come out different ways waves will surface
00:17:37.040 But not all of these have longevity not all of these have the same
00:17:41.520 Purpose and meaning not all of these have the same raw energy you can go to
00:17:46.400 Like all right, it's hard. It's very hard to explain but you can see it in the energy
00:17:50.480 You can see it in the message. You can see it and everything like all right
00:17:54.000 Look how many times i've gotten like I said look how many times i've got my ass kicked in the media
00:17:57.760 Look how many times
00:17:58.640 Bro, he had a lot of hate surrounding him his whole career
00:18:01.840 And even I fell into that I was in high school and I was a huge fan of it and like when I heard about the allegations
00:18:06.560 Everything i'm like where I was really I started hating. I started being a hater and everything. Oh, really?
00:18:11.120 Yeah, but he if you look back like he got punched on stage
00:18:14.160 You got knocked the fuck out on say someone just ran up and knocked him out
00:18:16.720 He was constantly in fights. It's like every month. There was a new thing that dude like he had a short career
00:18:22.080 But holy shit, there was a lot of controversy in a short amount of time. I've never seen that from artists of his
00:18:26.800 He's got a 21 chat millions of dollars a million dollars of millions of dollars
00:18:31.520 I know plenty of people if I really wanted someone to be harmed. I could harm them i've stuck by my message
00:18:37.280 Purely not from not it's not for me. It's for it's for them
00:18:41.520 To show it's possible. It's not for me because if it was for me, I would have been gotten revenge
00:18:46.720 I would have been gotten revenge and that's always how I was
00:18:49.280 I changed myself in order to be that person for them to be that platform for them
00:18:53.840 So when I got punished in my shit when I went through what I went through even when I went back to jail that last time
00:18:59.440 Right for some shit from like and i'm not even going to evaluate on that because i'm not supposed to I was told to
00:19:03.520 But not to not to by the court, so I can't say anything about that
00:19:06.160 But even when I went back to jail last time
00:19:08.400 I didn't I do want to ask you one thing again nothing about the case or anything that just your mind 20 chat not even 21
00:19:16.880 When you were remanded and they put you in jail for that first day, did you kind of again?
00:19:22.880 And I don't know if you ever looked to a higher power or not, but did you kind of look at yourself and say
00:19:27.280 Yo, I fucked up like yo i'm back where I never wanted to return
00:19:32.480 No, I got the last time no because I know it was the universe protecting me
00:19:37.040 What do you mean?
00:19:38.080 It was the universe protecting you because I might have been in the wrong place at the wrong time during that time
00:19:45.360 So you didn't look at it as a bad thing because at that point it was probably one of the worst times you could go in
00:19:50.000 Why would you say that?
00:19:53.040 I mean
00:19:54.400 You're a very successful artist you just came off dropping a very successful album
00:19:58.880 You're you just uh reportedly signed a six million dollar deal which which is still that's all material
00:20:06.160 Okay, but to get locked up at that point
00:20:10.160 It's like almost stopping
00:20:12.160 I was only in jail for six to seven days initially. I questioned my entire life. I
00:20:24.720 Wanted to I wanted to commit suicide. I started to question myself. Yeah, don't do that. Thank you
00:20:29.920 Ego ray said great stream guys want to thank sneko and luke for opening my mind to becoming financially independent
00:20:33.680 Also want to thank don listening to him make me want to grow more spiritually and religiously
00:20:37.200 But in question life really starts with a question
00:20:40.160 Wouldn't it doesn't life start with a question?
00:20:43.280 Everything starts with a question. So I began to question myself
00:20:46.400 Anything that can cause you to question yourself is simply a reality check
00:20:51.920 Who am I currently where where am I headed? What are my goals?
00:20:55.280 I had realized that I had abandoned a lot of things that had made me the person I was
00:21:02.560 I had
00:21:03.760 Almost lost my reason I saw myself going towards a direction that I wasn't supposed to go towards now
00:21:11.360 One thing i'll commend him for is um
00:21:14.000 X
00:21:14.960 Was one of the artists that definitely
00:21:16.960 Grew a lot throughout his career not only like just through his image like he was always changing his appearance and like his hair and his tattoos
00:21:23.120 But his his music he was always trying to challenge himself as an artist
00:21:26.640 He blew up making a lot of like rage
00:21:28.960 kind of like, you know
00:21:30.720 I would say like demonic type music like look at me and all those rage songs and everything it was
00:21:36.240 It wasn't promoting good things. It was it was mosh pit type music, but when that's and then his first album 17 was like folk music
00:21:42.880 He was playing guitars instruments singing about pain. He was always trying to challenge and grow
00:21:47.520 Every single album sounded different in such a short amount of time and it's rare like uzi for example
00:21:52.720 Like he was comparing himself to that and even uzi compared himself to x on stage
00:21:55.760 Uzi's been making the same music basically since his whole career a lot of artists find a niche and just stick to that
00:22:01.680 But x was always like I remember when 17 dropped. I was disappointed because i'm like I like the rage music
00:22:06.160 I like rp roach um the stuff he was putting on soundcloud, but 17 was a complete
00:22:11.680 It it showed that he was trying to connect with his fans
00:22:14.800 He was trying to connect with people through his music rather than just make music to get streams, right?
00:22:20.320 And that's rare. That's really rare for artists very rare
00:22:23.120 The reason I went back to jail was a fucked up reason because it wasn't a real real real valid reason and I won't evaluate on it
00:22:30.000 but
00:22:32.000 Everything worked out how it was supposed to wasn't it
00:22:34.720 You know what i'll give you credit for this
00:22:36.800 You're definitely one of the most self-aware artists. I know you know why
00:22:40.080 Because you've gone through a lot of ups and downs like shoot. I was talking about music. Are we talking about music?
00:22:45.280 Artists um
00:22:46.880 Are we talking about artists period because if we're talking about artists no jim carrey is no let's remove even just artists
00:22:53.040 Jim carrey is not as as woke as a lot of people think he is bro
00:22:56.240 Jim carrey is like apparently going to the islands too
00:22:59.200 But he probably saw that video where jim carrey like put this up and was trying to expose everything
00:23:04.160 Yeah, people
00:23:06.160 Don what type of christian are you?
00:23:09.440 I believe in jesus and I believe the bible is truth
00:23:12.080 So but what what branch of christianity because you're you're not I don't identify with any denominations really
00:23:17.760 I go to a traditional baptist church
00:23:20.160 But I don't identify with any denominations because there are no denominations mentioned in the bible
00:23:25.200 Okay, you know
00:23:26.160 Jim carrey
00:23:27.120 Jim carrey
00:23:27.680 No, but i'm trying i'm trying to elaborate on you
00:23:31.120 Okay
00:23:32.960 You got knocked out on stage and we've had multiple conversations since then and you and this is the self-awareness part
00:23:39.760 Where you can say you know what when that happened to me
00:23:43.840 I
00:23:44.640 Fucked up in terms of how I handle something or I jumped out like out a window or whatever
00:23:50.480 A lot of times people don't think that ever you know
00:23:52.480 I mean when something happens to you bad, you know
00:23:54.560 Because you're not thinking for the long run
00:23:57.920 Like did it was it a process for you to feel like that though
00:24:03.760 Because at first I could imagine even with
00:24:05.760 I never let me tell you something. I've never been a man of ego
00:24:08.480 You wouldn't know the difference between me and artists. That's not true. He's definitely been a man of ego
00:24:12.560 You could see it over and over throughout his career. That's not true
00:24:15.680 And the all these other artists
00:24:17.680 I've never been a man of ego
00:24:19.440 Ever the only ego i've had is
00:24:21.680 Look at me
00:24:22.800 Fuck on me
00:24:23.600 Look at me
00:24:24.400 Fuck on me
00:24:25.040 Come on, bro
00:24:27.040 Everyone has ego
00:24:28.320 Yeah, everyone has ego
00:24:29.600 As if I deserved loyalty
00:24:31.440 That's the only sense of ego i've had and that if
00:24:34.400 Someone was disloyal to me that it would hurt me and that's the only sense of ego i've had
00:24:38.480 That i've that's the only
00:24:40.000 Even like and you can't even really attach that to ego you understand
00:24:44.480 Hey, do you tie your need because
00:24:47.600 A lot a lot of people like you and even me like I value loyalty very high
00:24:51.360 Yes
00:24:51.680 Yes
00:24:52.320 People but I remember you you put up some post and I hope
00:24:56.560 And again, i'm not telling you what you should put in your next vlog or whatever vlog
00:24:59.040 I hope you do elaborate on that
00:25:01.040 Like he was the head of the wave of rappers like switching into content creation x was like on live streams x was vlogging
00:25:06.640 And now you're seeing like nle chop a lot of these rappers like tori lane's is streaming now
00:25:10.720 This is really where it's at and he was doing it in 2018 before a lot of these other
00:25:14.960 Rappers, bro. He was ahead of the wave
00:25:16.800 Yeah, one time you had put up a string of posts explaining why you were certain ways and you were talking about how
00:25:24.400 Like it was kind of like like
00:25:26.400 Your father abandoned you and like you didn't grow up with a dad, you know, I mean is is
00:25:32.000 Is that dependency?
00:25:34.000 Um, that probably came from that the reason why you value loyalty let me let me clear let me clarify something because
00:25:41.440 Um, I don't want my words because i've even twisted my own words out of emotion, you know
00:25:46.160 Because everything is everything is very real. So I say I speak on how I feel at the moment. You understand so um
00:25:56.080 Abandon abandon abandon in the aspect abandon the aspect like okay
00:26:01.920 My father did what he deemed fit for his life right now that may be deemed that was deemed as selfish to me because
00:26:10.240 He could have taken the hard route
00:26:12.240 He could have taken the hard route just as I took the hard route because I did take the hard route
00:26:16.320 He could have took the hard route and he would have got a much more rewarding
00:26:20.960 Future you understand but in that in that I wouldn't be me
00:26:26.800 I would be a lesser I wouldn't be the person I
00:26:30.080 Exist to be today so it was in that him being selfish and making his own decisions for what he deemed
00:26:37.040 Fit for his current for what was his current situation
00:26:40.720 A but don't donate 20 said this fake spirituality stuff bothers me, bro
00:26:43.920 People have an innate desire for spirituality, but these new age spiritual spirituality people reject god
00:26:48.720 Because once they believe in him, they have to actually be held accountable
00:26:51.760 Yes, separating yourself and becoming your own god through spirituality and thinking that you know everything then you're not
00:26:56.880 You're not ever capable of sin and you're not ever capable of doing anything wrong
00:26:59.840 Exactly and believing everything doesn't matter and that has no consequences and everything is a man-made and then nothing is real and every
00:27:07.280 That will lead you down a path where you're you're not
00:27:10.320 You don't have any
00:27:11.520 Accountability for your actions and that that's that's a really dangerous way to live
00:27:15.840 Because if you have no morality then how are you acting and you kind of see that in in the west now because it's it's
00:27:21.280 So godless and there's there's the religion is falling apart in the west you see the way people act and
00:27:25.600 The stuff people say is is straight up evil and they have no idea about what they're saying or the energy
00:27:31.920 They're putting out into the world and then they wonder why they're depressed or they're wonder why they're sad
00:27:35.520 They wonder why they're unhappy
00:27:36.960 It's because you're you're putting out a lot of negative energy into the world because you think that nothing matters
00:27:41.280 You believe in astrology. You believe that you're special without doing anything, right?
00:27:45.680 That made me who I am so I no longer
00:27:52.160 Try and dwell
00:27:54.640 Like all right, look at it this way. I hated I hated like I hated my I hated my dad because
00:28:01.680 His previous decisions had affected me
00:28:06.480 And it affected me spiritually
00:28:09.360 Because my dad
00:28:11.920 Was in it like I got locked up and was going to jail and shit
00:28:15.680 I ended up going through the same process
00:28:18.160 Abel donated five and he said it perfectly you can either be a slave to your desires or a slave to your career
00:28:23.520 I wouldn't call it being a slave. Slave is not the right word. Yeah, that's like calling children slaves because you have to be obedient to your parent
00:28:30.000 No, you're just learning. You're learning from people who are smarter than you. There are there are
00:28:34.560 People there's the thing people just don't like being told what to do, bro
00:28:39.040 So it always comes down to people don't like being disciplined
00:28:44.160 People don't like having a standard set on them by something external. I'm like that. Yeah, I'm definitely everyone is I think yeah, you know
00:28:51.440 And so not definitely not I think a lot of people want don't want to think for themselves
00:28:55.520 And so they they just like tell me what to do. Tell me what to do a lot
00:28:58.560 Most people are like that. Actually, I think youtubers and streamers and people who have like
00:29:03.360 Separated themselves from that system are like that
00:29:05.760 But most people just want to don't want to have to go through that mental journey
00:29:10.000 Well, most people don't want to take on the challenge of like making a living for themselves by running a business
00:29:16.160 I agree, but most people also
00:29:19.600 Don't like being told what to do you feel me like in terms of
00:29:25.200 People want to do what they want to do
00:29:29.760 Naturally everyone wants to do what they want to do and some people want to go into job
00:29:35.840 Uh, uh, uh office punch a time card and be told
00:29:39.520 Do they really want to do that or have they been brainwashed to think that they want that?
00:29:44.160 I don't think it's I think I think it's
00:29:48.000 This whole this whole you know, like if you don't want to run your own business thing it means you're like
00:29:53.920 A bot I don't subscribe to that. There are definitely people in the rat race
00:29:58.400 Who are bot minded who are kind of just like work zombies, you know, uh wage slaves. I agree with that
00:30:05.040 But I do think there is like some people who just enjoy the simplicity
00:30:10.400 Of finding a skill becoming really good at it and just getting paid a wage that they think and being told what to do
00:30:17.760 By their boss. No, they're getting paid to offer a service and they're getting told what to do following orders from their boss
00:30:23.440 Well, if they're not going to run the entire business then they need to come someone has to be leading
00:30:27.760 Yeah, and so that's what most people don't that's accepting the fact that you're being told what to do
00:30:32.720 They're being led but where everyone gets told what to do
00:30:36.720 Really, you can't drink
00:30:38.080 Who tells you what's the government tells you you can't drink and drive you have to wear a seatbelt
00:30:41.680 You can't drive this fast on this road
00:30:43.520 Or you can order a little seatbelt thing on amazon so you can click it in so it doesn't beep and then
00:30:48.080 People drink and drive anyway. No, but i'm saying we all get told what to do and most of us listen
00:30:53.920 To all you know the government laws. Most of us aren't criminals. Most of us don't break the law
00:30:59.120 You know, I'm saying that's being told what to do. Most of us
00:31:01.840 I've been before weed was legal. I broke the law like for five years straight every single day
00:31:07.200 That shows you that most people don't like being told what to do
00:31:11.280 But i'm saying we all submit to somebody into something in some situation. That's true. You know, I'm saying you know
00:31:18.080 I'm saying hey now
00:31:20.240 As far as his upbringing his upbringing was far different than me
00:31:25.680 Mine was not traditional
00:31:27.680 My it was almost like being thrown into a void, you know
00:31:31.360 And there's a lot about my family that people do not know you're saying that a lot of things that my mom has been through
00:31:38.560 My family's just like kind of spaced apart, you know
00:31:42.320 so it's it's
00:31:43.920 It's a lot to to mend
00:31:47.040 In itself, but I understand that I have to be that middle ground. I have to be the I am the gatekeeper
00:31:53.280 So i'm the one who has to
00:31:55.360 fix everything basically
00:31:57.680 What about resentment right so if
00:32:00.400 I don't resent any of them. I don't resent any of them. However
00:32:04.160 Just just as another man would hate to be under another man, which i've understood and that's why that's why I respect ski so much
00:32:11.520 And that's why I want people like art people have tried to make
00:32:17.200 All right, people tried to like art the fucked up part was i'm gonna get back to the resentment
00:32:21.760 But I want to I want to go and chat youtube is not my own boss
00:32:24.960 Like even before I mean I just dropped the creativity kit
00:32:27.920 We can um, we could learn how to be an independent content creator without live now. Yeah, just live. Oh, that's dope
00:32:32.720 Congrats creativity kit.com like a description, but also like even before that I was like only making money from patreon pretty much for
00:32:39.920 Two years like that was the majority of my income like I had an audience from youtube
00:32:44.640 But patreon was making most of my bread and still like I i'm active on there to this day
00:32:49.120 All the streams are uploaded there
00:32:50.640 I am not it youtube doesn't tell me what to do if I listen to what youtube told me to do
00:32:55.680 I would not be talking about this stuff right now. I'd be drinking coffee. I'd be doing a mukbang
00:33:00.800 I'd be throwing it back challenge. That's exactly the i'll be like, you know jumping in a pool of orbeez and giving money to
00:33:08.080 random pizza delivery drivers like that
00:33:10.640 That's not what youtube is is telling me to do because the perfect this is a perfect like people saw
00:33:16.320 I saw and people saw that we felt like ski resented me to a degree because
00:33:22.240 of my current status quo
00:33:24.240 but
00:33:25.120 He didn't want to like understanding not being one to be seen as a sidekick not wanting to be seen as a lesser to be
00:33:31.440 Appreciated as an equal he had to he had to burn me and burn the bridge in order to walk his own route
00:33:38.720 And you know i'm standing in that leave space to create later the website's down
00:33:42.400 It should be fixed tomorrow then damn yo
00:33:44.160 So resentment like I don't resent anyone. However, I do have to walk my own path. I don't I don't
00:33:51.840 Hold on though. Okay, maybe not resentment is a strong word. Yeah
00:33:56.480 Even you understand that whiskey didn't you feel a way?
00:34:00.960 With my with I guess it's getting too much traffic right now, but tomorrow should be fixed my father was ski
00:34:05.440 No, no whiskey like like
00:34:07.120 Even running to it, huh? People are just running to it. Yeah, yeah, it was just working
00:34:13.040 But the the shit's an era now. I think we can move on for this one
00:34:15.840 I wanted to to why have you ever listened to patrice o'neill? Yeah, I'm a pretty big patrice o'neill fan. You are?
00:34:22.000 Yeah, listen to like all of his opian anthony although really I had a whole deep
00:34:26.560 I've listened to literally every single interview every single piece of recording that
00:34:30.960 I'd be surprised if I hear something I've heard before I've heard this one before too, but I'm interested to listen to it on stream
00:34:36.080 Sure, that's yeah
00:34:38.560 This is patrice o'neill speaks the truth about hollywood and more we welcome patrice o'neill in studio big mama prods on twitter
00:34:46.000 Yeah, talking a little bit about the nba finals. I know it's uh quickly becoming the past, but
00:34:54.160 This lebron james thing has a lot of people talking
00:34:57.600 Well, I mean, I don't think he's point shaved. I think he I just think point shaves like I said, I think uh, you know
00:35:04.960 I use a justice league analogy
00:35:08.720 Which is if
00:35:11.360 You're in if you're in the super friends and a meteor is getting ready to hit the earth
00:35:17.360 Who everybody in the justice league turns and looks at who fucking superman
00:35:22.480 But then superman goes
00:35:25.200 You've heard this before right?
00:35:26.800 This one?
00:35:27.360 Yeah, uh
00:35:28.320 I might not have actually you'll probably recognize once again to the top
00:35:31.760 I'm gonna skip ahead a couple minutes
00:35:33.760 Being him is it's he's a he's too physically. He's the greatest player to ever live. There's no other player
00:35:40.240 better than him
00:35:41.680 physically six foot eight
00:35:43.680 Slash nine you're talking about lebron
00:35:45.680 Can handle can jump and body as big as a horse and uh strong as a horse
00:35:51.840 But he just doesn't want
00:35:54.400 He's not mean he's not mean enough
00:35:57.520 Jordan used to do things to really demoralize people demoralize people laugh at
00:36:03.120 We talked about that earlier. Jordan used his ego to his advantage
00:36:06.640 That's how he got in people's heads. That's why it could be a successful tool
00:36:10.960 Close his eyes when he shoots free throws
00:36:13.760 Uh, uh fake you out with one hand like a fake pass larry bird used to do that kind of shit
00:36:20.160 Magic you date isaiah. They all were mean they were mean
00:36:25.600 He's a nice guy
00:36:27.200 And he he wanted his rings, but he doesn't understand you know
00:36:30.400 One ring in cleveland would have been 20 somewhere else. Oh my god. Uh, you you see the heroic
00:36:36.800 uh
00:36:37.920 godlike uh treatment uh, uh, dirk is getting
00:36:42.240 And not because he's white guy. I mean, I rooted for him because he's a he was a soldier stayed in dallas shitty dallas
00:36:48.560 Seven-foot bum
00:36:51.120 Only shoots free throw. I mean shoots outside jump shots three pointers
00:36:55.440 Who still does that?
00:36:56.640 Chad, the reason that I am a huge patrice o'neil fan is this guy like is the best representation of authenticity
00:37:03.760 Out of anyone i've ever listened to
00:37:06.160 Possibly the funniest comedian of all yeah, and also the funniest community of all time
00:37:08.960 Yeah, but that's why he was so funny because he was so authentic
00:37:11.600 Honesty is funny been able to do it consistently this motherfucker is not a force of nature
00:37:16.160 And he's a he's still the same dirk. He always was and calls him a caveman
00:37:21.120 It looks like a big it looks like a caveman
00:37:24.000 They're just just a normal you know that that fucking i'm super humble guy who is starting to make me sick this you know
00:37:32.800 Derrick rose is that i don't even think my mother it's like
00:37:36.720 Suck a dick you know i love my mom too, nigga
00:37:39.680 I love my mom too. Everybody loves their mom that you're this humble thing
00:37:44.640 So what do you think about winning the game?
00:37:46.320 I'm just happy that you know
00:37:48.800 I love my teammates and I love my mom like
00:37:51.200 Dirk is you know he he was in he was in I don't want to enjoy it mode
00:37:56.160 Yeah, so much that when he won he didn't know what to do
00:37:59.520 Yeah, you gotta walk away
00:38:01.520 For a little while at all and when he was teasing about him coughing and shit, and he's like they're just childish. It's like
00:38:08.400 What what happened is this my question for for?
00:38:15.440 This is my question for life
00:38:19.600 Now can we say are we retiring the phrase sticks and stones?
00:38:24.080 My bones and names words are hurtful as fuck that phrase makes absolutely no sense
00:38:29.520 Sometimes words can hurt way more than a stick in a stone never hurt. Is that now?
00:38:33.840 Officially it seems like we are I think you're right. No one can you know like we are
00:38:38.480 Can is it is it legal for me to say I endorse hate speech?
00:38:44.560 But ever since yesterday yeah, they've been spamming that I tried to show you earlier
00:38:48.400 So it's like a bunch of conspiracy stuff. Hmm. I don't give a fuck
00:38:52.480 Yeah, I want hate speech. Yeah, why bring back hate speech?
00:38:58.080 It's funny. It's good. It's truthful hate speech is what we really feel if you can't handle it
00:39:03.200 Then just don't look at it. Can I who is Mohammed hijab?
00:39:07.280 I don't know man. I hate you in speech
00:39:11.280 Exactly why I don't understand. I don't either not much country. How avarice can any kid look it
00:39:17.440 Do you mean you know how much money it take me to go fuck you motherfucker to everybody?
00:39:25.760 Five million. Yeah
00:39:27.200 Five million is enough to tell out to suck my
00:39:32.160 Dick done
00:39:33.120 So obviously you're getting into the tracy morgan thing i'm getting into everything. It's all connected
00:39:37.760 That's what I was trying to say. It's all around us connected
00:39:40.400 But if you guys are into conspiracy stuff patrice was heavy into that so the tracy morgan thing is the big one today
00:39:44.960 Well, see my thing with tracy is this
00:39:48.560 Look, you know, I don't fall for no banana and no tailpipe. I don't listen to anybody that says it
00:39:54.400 I believe the opposite. I try to make the opposite opinion right away. Yep
00:39:58.160 Tracy's been that a long time. Tracy's been frivolous
00:40:03.200 With his performances a long time. He say some ill shit
00:40:08.400 Not just fucking gay and shit, but here's what he's doing now. It's simple as this man
00:40:13.360 The game we're in is like jail
00:40:15.840 You gotta you gotta be there's no rogue
00:40:18.960 lonely
00:40:20.400 Gunslinger guy in hollywood. There's no I do it myself and nobody fucks with me do it my way my way
00:40:27.920 Ain't none of that you got to be affiliated like if you go to prison you can't go in there and go hey
00:40:32.400 I'm just gonna read got my gun books and you know, I'm just gonna chill out
00:40:36.240 You got to join something yeah, and if you don't join something the guy's gonna find out
00:40:40.400 So who you who you affiliate with well, I'm just chilling up and just hanging person. I'm gonna rape you
00:40:49.280 Because you have no you have no affiliations my friend right you're not down with a cartel so what tracy
00:40:56.240 I mean
00:40:57.680 I come this is conjecture, but tracy's just paying what he oh
00:41:01.280 You it's like um the godfather the guy goes godfather and he goes
00:41:06.240 Well, you don't even fucking say hi to me. Yeah, but you know what here's my deal. I'll do what you want
00:41:11.760 And when I need you, I'm just gonna come get what I need and he goes
00:41:16.320 Knock on the door and it's like you got to pay me back. Yeah tracy
00:41:19.920 He owes a lot of people his career because why you think he could say now trust me people that know tracy
00:41:26.720 He says some ill shit. Yeah, that he could get
00:41:29.680 In trouble like he is for tracy something happened. He started speaking truth
00:41:33.120 He started talking about hollywood about what's really going on. What do you remember what happened? They called him crazy
00:41:37.200 Tracy morgan. Yeah, tracy more they label all them as crazy every day
00:41:42.240 I mean bro people call me a lunatic now
00:41:44.080 They call me and so I mean, I say I need to go to fear therapy. They said mentally ill
00:41:50.880 This time around that's he says the truth is crazy in a world mentally ill lunatic
00:41:57.120 And they said oh, here's a he's a good time
00:42:00.000 Take take a take a breath and try to listen to this
00:42:02.160 This is like this person inspired me more than anybody else
00:42:05.520 Tracy. Yeah, what what's up? Yeah, you know, you're in deep shit. We gonna make you apologize, but you you owe
00:42:10.640 And the fear that guy that when you owe is that they're gonna take everything from you
00:42:16.560 Mm-hmm
00:42:17.040 So if if they didn't make you they can't really break you and you see I say they it's
00:42:23.120 It's the cartels man. You you do not look at gay. I know powerful cartel
00:42:29.840 I affiliate myself with Jews low-level to mid-level Jews
00:42:34.320 Because they they deal in money the you you pay them though
00:42:38.080 You you here's your 10. Can I have a little can I do my thing over here?
00:42:43.040 Yeah, you this I'm not I'm not big enough to get in big trouble
00:42:46.960 You know, so is it possible I can just do this here's your dough and the thing I like about jews
00:42:53.680 dealing with them as a cartel
00:42:56.000 is
00:42:57.200 They don't want you to be jewish
00:42:59.920 Data you don't have to join you don't have to give anything but what you owe you don't have to fucking
00:43:06.480 You know, you don't have to fucking go to the parties
00:43:11.120 You don't have to put on the yarmulke you don't have to do it. No, so it's a very
00:43:15.440 Fair thing lies cartels man. You gotta be that gotta be in with them
00:43:21.600 And I believe that and believe everything they believe in you got yes don't speak ill of them
00:43:27.680 Yep. Yep. And and the thing is
00:43:31.600 You know, tracy has to
00:43:35.440 Pay with you and I knew that when tina fay said tracy has to pay what he owed
00:43:40.240 so to make it in hollywood, you need to
00:43:43.360 Submit to the people who have power in order to get a certain level of fame
00:43:47.360 That's what it is to be part of that system. Yeah, turned on him. Do you think you're ever gonna make it to hollywood? No
00:43:52.240 Yeah, yeah, same this is better than hollywood
00:43:54.240 Fuck hollywood tina fay has been his great benefactor right many years
00:43:58.320 So this one thing has turned the tides of tracy's career
00:44:02.400 Meaning it's it's made him
00:44:05.280 Public enemy number one when I heard this story pass one day
00:44:08.720 I said tracy's the new spokesman for gay shit now
00:44:11.520 And that's we said yesterday patrice that they grab you as a hostage
00:44:16.160 You don't have to be a hostage, but he's a hostage to glad right now and glad will let
00:44:20.800 Tracy know when they're done with them then they're not ever going to be done with them
00:44:24.560 That's what it used to be called huh what glad before they were lgbt that was the word oh gay lesbian
00:44:33.440 What was that ad?
00:44:36.080 They probably just be jacking the whole alphabet bro
00:44:38.880 It's power
00:44:40.800 It's corruptible man. You're like when a bully takes your money. He don't go. Thank you. I just needed it today. He keeps going
00:44:47.360 It's Tracy Tracy. I don't know how much money he got in the bank. Oh
00:44:52.000 But I would think it's enough to say
00:44:55.040 No, leave me alone. Fuck you and he but he sets himself up um where tracy doesn't have
00:45:03.600 Like if i'm saying this i'll i'll hear from tracy meaning yo don't talk shit about shut the fuck up, nigga
00:45:09.200 Like don't i'm i'm on your side. I know what you're going through, but I I made a decision
00:45:14.000 That's why people go. Well, why patrice isn't I don't want to owe that much
00:45:18.160 I don't because there's people that count on me to have you know what they do in hollywood to
00:45:24.240 Show it's like as a signal to the rest of the industry that you're a bitch
00:45:27.440 They make you dress like a bitch
00:45:29.440 I believe that you've seen all of them have had dressed up like a woman
00:45:32.240 They've all had to play female actors. They've all even patrice bar. He played a a trans lady in a movie, too
00:45:37.920 I never knew that. Yep, they get all of them
00:45:41.120 You know, they haven't gotten like a revolutionary. Oh boy. I gotta look him up
00:45:47.520 Hold on
00:45:48.800 If you like patrice o'neil you gonna you're gonna really like this dude
00:45:52.640 To be honest sometimes
00:45:58.960 That's your job