SNEAKO - September 06, 2025


SNEAKO Responds To Elon Musk & Nick Fuentes - FULL STREAM


Episode Stats


Length

4 hours and 34 minutes

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166.70717

Word count

45,731

Sentence count

932

Harmful content

Misogyny

55

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Toxicity

472

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Hate speech

230

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Summary

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On this episode of the podcast, the boys are back with a brand new episode featuring special guest J.M.E.A. The boys discuss the recent events that have taken place in the world of music and rap, and how it has impacted them as well as the current state of the music industry in general. They also talk about some of their favorite rappers and MCs from the past and present.

Transcript

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00:00:00.000 I got a black ski mask, but I don't ski
00:00:26.920 But I snowboard, dash an MC off peak 0.99
00:00:28.640 If one of you try to violate me, you get a punch in the face of my front door key 0.99
00:00:32.060 Punch in the neck with my back door key 1.00
00:00:33.740 Boxing the map with my X6 key 0.99
00:00:35.500 Boxing the eye with a fob I used to log into my HSBC 0.99
00:00:38.880 Talk about banks, kill them with peas 0.99
00:00:40.620 Run up in your gal's house with two of my G's 1.00
00:00:42.380 Get the money out, put the money in the money
00:00:44.180 Brad, what's going on, man? How's your finger doing?
00:00:46.680 Are you 259 now?
00:00:48.000 K-Man, did I might just breathe
00:00:49.240 I'll bury man two foot shallow 0.74
00:00:50.920 Ain't what the time to do, 60 feet deep
00:00:52.700 These MCs and rappers wanna chat about their syllables
00:00:55.340 And their motives and their similes 0.97
00:00:57.140 And all that shit didn't come through with my ABC 0.99
00:00:59.320 Girls and man are like Jamie's deep 0.99
00:01:01.220 Spare pictures when they see me on street 0.93
00:01:02.880 Old school rude boy like crazy T 0.96
00:01:04.600 All you man don't want it with me 0.98
00:01:06.280 I'm a bad rude boy, bad boy MC
00:01:07.960 Say my name, J.M.E.
00:01:09.780 Nostradamus could see me
00:01:11.480 Expelliarmus could stop me
00:01:13.240 I feel the man with a uni degree
00:01:14.780 Busting up mic and chatting his breeze
00:01:16.640 Cause the music originated and will always remain in the streets
00:01:20.240 What do you mean next segment?
00:01:29.380 I just started
00:01:31.100 Man don't care about order
00:01:34.040 Shout out to J.M.E.
00:01:38.300 Man don't care about order
00:01:40.820 Man don't care about order
00:01:47.560 Cause I'm the most immediate 1.00
00:01:49.720 He's just a old school idiot 1.00
00:01:51.080 We do local things 1.00
00:01:53.040 But we be the local geezers
00:01:54.600 Just look up my list of friends
00:01:56.500 And he's holding up with tweezers 0.98
00:01:58.000 How we doing?
00:02:02.160 It's started
00:02:06.920 I'm about to get amnesia'd
00:02:08.880 Man might have to move up
00:02:10.000 Man might have to touch Louisa's
00:02:11.700 Hey Brad less you 20
00:02:12.480 At the top it's just RCM
00:02:13.840 Man had to put Louisa's 0.72
00:02:15.140 Batman
00:02:15.440 Dunna, dunna, dunna
00:02:16.800 Hardest
00:02:17.280 Just let me confirm it
00:02:18.540 Loafers
00:02:19.020 Just have to be Hermes
00:02:20.220 Burners
00:02:20.700 Went back and hit Burners
00:02:21.940 Burners
00:02:22.460 I'm back a big Burners
00:02:23.680 That's my sport
00:02:24.340 I'm back with that permit
00:02:25.340 ATS in New York tomorrow
00:02:26.660 I'm back in big Wormit
00:02:28.820 Excuse me what?
00:02:30.120 Pardon?
00:02:30.660 Huh?
00:02:31.120 I had to just ask him
00:02:32.260 Iron Man the man could just start
00:02:33.800 And man's like
00:02:34.400 Ooh I'm back with that margin
00:02:35.580 I didn't mean Eve
00:02:36.340 I'm back in that garden
00:02:37.280 Where the blood clot
00:02:38.020 I'm back to Don Gargan
00:02:39.020 Started off like a feet
00:02:40.040 And then darkened
00:02:40.800 Holloman G and me
00:02:41.760 And I'm talking
00:02:42.420 Killing with D 0.98
00:02:44.080 Killing MC 0.74
00:02:45.780 Digest this
00:02:47.640 Cinnamon T
00:02:49.200 Ain't no fill in his shoes
00:02:51.060 Cause they sin on his feet 0.61
00:02:52.720 Man's down south hustling
00:02:54.520 With no gold grilling his teeth
00:02:56.200 Man don't care about owner
00:02:59.700 Man don't care about owner
00:03:02.920 Man don't care about owner
00:03:03.760 Man don't care about owner
00:03:06.320 What up what up
00:03:07.000 Knock him out
00:03:07.880 Man don't care about owner
00:03:10.000 We got a big stream today
00:03:26.420 Dr. K pulling up
00:03:27.660 We're doing some therapy
00:03:28.640 Lots to catch up on
00:03:31.320 But yeah
00:03:35.680 And if there's any bad kick PR
00:03:37.300 I'm a party streamer
00:03:38.640 I'm a party streamer
00:03:40.420 Kick I don't know what's going on
00:03:42.200 People are dying
00:03:42.980 People are dying on party
00:03:45.120 People
00:03:45.440 People are dying on party
00:03:47.460 I'm a party streamer
00:03:48.020 I'm a party streamer
00:03:49.020 Call the coroners
00:03:49.460 Pull the secret
00:03:50.140 Yeah 1.00
00:03:50.640 Say that old nigga 1.00
00:03:52.340 Old sir 0.99
00:03:53.180 Bittersweet taste
00:03:54.180 Made us go to the lake
00:03:55.520 Make a knee shake
00:03:57.180 Make a priest
00:03:57.840 Make a nun come 1.00
00:03:59.860 Make a queen 1.00
00:04:00.400 Who the fuck's happening 0.99
00:04:01.080 On the kick bro 0.99
00:04:01.880 Downtown
00:04:02.420 Cop a sweet space
00:04:03.620 Living life like
00:04:05.200 We want a sweet space
00:04:06.260 What
00:04:06.900 We headed to hell 0.97
00:04:08.200 For having sex time 0.99
00:04:09.460 Well I'm a levitate 0.93
00:04:10.680 How you guys been?
00:04:31.400 That'd be real, I don't know
00:04:32.680 Nate Diaz is ready to stream tomorrow
00:04:34.920 I'm not sure what to do
00:04:35.940 Should we go to the gym?
00:04:38.620 Should we do a gym stream?
00:04:40.680 Yap stream is not really Nate Diaz 1.00
00:04:42.500 That's a buzz, motherfucker 0.99
00:04:44.960 Never in your wildest dreams 1.00
00:04:46.860 Never in your wildest dreams
00:04:48.700 Never in your wildest dreams
00:04:48.720 Never in your wildest
00:04:49.920 Think you hear the loudest screams
00:04:52.240 Coming from a sad scream 1.00
00:04:54.160 You a wild bitch 1.00
00:04:55.280 Tell me what I gotta do to be that guy 1.00
00:04:57.860 Set a price full down 1.00
00:04:59.140 Yeah, but fuck a black guy 1.00
00:05:00.660 A dude ain't no 1.00
00:05:01.940 A dude gangbang
00:05:03.380 It's kinda crazy
00:05:04.300 That's all the same thing
00:05:05.900 Well, I guess a lot of you do
00:05:07.920 Alright
00:05:09.500 Let's talk about
00:05:12.100 I should've went live a couple days ago
00:05:13.680 Bang, bang, bang, bang
00:05:16.080 I was in Miami for a couple days
00:05:18.080 Did one stream with mine
00:05:19.180 I didn't spark
00:05:20.160 I know
00:05:20.760 I was gonna do something with a little pump 1.00
00:05:23.040 And then blah, blah, blah
00:05:24.240 Went around
00:05:24.720 Just New York is where
00:05:26.080 I get all my energy in New York
00:05:27.840 Miami
00:05:28.680 For some reason
00:05:30.100 I got lethargic there recently
00:05:31.340 The last like three times I went there
00:05:32.760 Had to take care of some housekeeping stuff
00:05:34.820 I know you guys wanted to see a desktop in there
00:05:36.360 But
00:05:36.620 Didn't get it done
00:05:38.340 I should've
00:05:39.020 Not should've
00:05:39.720 No excuses
00:05:40.280 But
00:05:41.180 Been working on a lot of videos over here
00:05:43.700 And behind the scenes stuff
00:05:44.760 Hiring more people
00:05:45.760 And
00:05:47.420 Yeah, farm
00:05:49.580 Nate Diaz about Hamzad and Strickland
00:05:51.560 Okay, but like
00:05:52.620 I wanna do something
00:05:54.060 Okay, so tomorrow
00:05:54.840 Nate Diaz is here
00:05:56.080 I think Jake Shields is pulling up later in the week
00:05:58.540 I'm not sure what to do
00:06:00.040 I kinda wanna show him around New York
00:06:01.820 But I don't know
00:06:03.800 Like, where do you take Nate Diaz?
00:06:05.400 Like, where do you
00:06:06.020 It's such a weird
00:06:07.020 Like, what do you
00:06:07.680 To a museum?
00:06:10.020 What do you
00:06:10.320 What do you
00:06:10.560 Boom, baca! 0.99
00:06:11.540 Take him to the
00:06:12.120 Statue of Liberty
00:06:13.380 You're just there with Nate Diaz
00:06:14.800 Like, uh
00:06:17.600 This is the tallest building
00:06:18.600 In Manhattan 1.00
00:06:19.400 I'm my surprise, motherfucker 1.00
00:06:20.880 Like, what 1.00
00:06:21.620 What do you
00:06:23.280 I gotta figure that out
00:06:24.760 Take him to the dispensary
00:06:26.360 It's
00:06:26.720 You can just
00:06:27.240 Get weed anywhere
00:06:28.160 It's legal here
00:06:29.220 You can go to any deli
00:06:30.040 And get him weed 0.99
00:06:31.300 Take him shooting 0.99
00:06:34.040 This is New York 0.92
00:06:35.080 That's not what you do in the south
00:06:36.380 IRL in New York
00:06:38.600 Yeah, doing what though?
00:06:40.220 Like, take him
00:06:40.800 Take him to the hood?
00:06:41.720 Why?
00:06:42.680 Why are you taking him to the
00:06:43.460 He's too rich to go to the
00:06:44.360 Why does he need to go to the hood?
00:06:45.800 I'll figure something out
00:06:46.720 Gym and grub after
00:06:49.140 Yeah, no
00:06:50.020 My training has not been
00:06:51.800 As all points
00:06:53.080 But I mean, that just seems like
00:06:54.280 It makes the most sense, right?
00:06:55.720 Probably just take him to the gym
00:06:56.760 But yeah, there's also
00:06:58.120 Some other stuff
00:06:58.780 New York's dry
00:06:59.260 I know it's not
00:06:59.760 New York's been great
00:07:00.520 New York's been great
00:07:01.580 I just, I love being here
00:07:02.920 And been working on some good stuff
00:07:04.620 I got a new suit, by the way
00:07:05.620 What do you guys think?
00:07:07.060 You gotta like the new suit
00:07:08.060 New black suit
00:07:09.660 Needed to get a new one
00:07:10.620 Just, uh
00:07:11.200 You put this on
00:07:12.120 You feel motivated
00:07:12.900 You feel ready to go
00:07:13.800 Gonna keep buzzing my head every day
00:07:15.860 And you gotta dress to impress
00:07:18.000 Dress to impress
00:07:19.680 The treatment that I get everywhere
00:07:20.860 Like, sir, come right this way
00:07:22.100 Sir, here, hello
00:07:22.840 Oh, excuse me
00:07:23.860 Sit anywhere you want
00:07:25.220 Sit anywhere you want
00:07:26.060 Come take my wife 1.00
00:07:27.580 Fuck my wife 1.00
00:07:28.500 Come right this way, sir 1.00
00:07:34.220 You get the best treatment ever
00:07:35.740 So highly recommend
00:07:37.020 You get a tailor suit
00:07:38.320 It was very expensive
00:07:39.100 It was very
00:07:41.360 It was very expensive
00:07:43.720 Okay, this, of course
00:07:44.680 That's what made Kik laugh
00:07:46.080 But anybody complaining
00:07:47.300 What the, what is going on with Kik?
00:07:49.400 What are you guys doing?
00:07:52.640 The PR
00:07:53.080 It's like
00:07:53.720 You guys had Mr. Beast
00:07:54.800 As your profile picture
00:07:55.620 For a while
00:07:56.160 And then
00:07:57.000 French people 0.99
00:07:57.840 You're killing French guys 1.00
00:07:58.920 Rest in peace 0.99
00:07:59.960 Why are you killing French people? 0.99
00:08:05.340 Yay unfollowed you? 1.00
00:08:05.980 Yay unfollowed everybody
00:08:07.040 It seemed like
00:08:07.660 It was just me
00:08:08.240 I think Yay just followed me
00:08:09.520 And Nick Fuentes
00:08:10.280 Said happy birthday to him yesterday
00:08:12.140 My birthday's coming up
00:08:13.880 Real soon
00:08:14.260 I expect a happy birthday
00:08:15.240 From everybody watching
00:08:16.100 The stream right now
00:08:16.720 I expect a happy birthday
00:08:17.640 I didn't celebrate last year
00:08:18.740 Because Eid 0.64
00:08:19.880 Eid is the only holiday
00:08:21.500 We celebrate
00:08:22.200 Brother
00:08:22.540 Allahu Akbar
00:08:23.660 No birthdays
00:08:24.860 Haram
00:08:25.440 But no, this year
00:08:26.220 I want to celebrate my birthday
00:08:27.060 So it's coming up
00:08:28.080 But Yay unfollowed 0.69
00:08:29.380 I did see that
00:08:31.440 End of an era
00:08:32.600 Seems like
00:08:33.340 But now it seems like
00:08:34.420 We're out of the college dropout era
00:08:35.720 College dropout was what?
00:08:36.700 When Yay was 26, 27
00:08:37.760 I'm getting unk now
00:08:39.500 Getting older
00:08:40.540 So it's time for late registration
00:08:42.200 Time for late registration
00:08:44.560 So yeah, rest in peace
00:08:45.380 To that French guy 0.89
00:08:46.020 Rest in peace
00:08:47.260 I don't know his name
00:08:47.860 But yeah, I don't know 0.99
00:08:48.860 What the fuck is going on with Kick 0.99
00:08:49.980 What is going on? 1.00
00:08:52.920 What else
00:08:53.300 What else did I miss up on?
00:08:54.380 Let's quickly do this
00:08:56.000 He, oh Dr. K's ready?
00:08:57.500 Oh, he's good to go
00:08:58.080 Alright
00:08:58.520 We'll do clips after
00:08:59.740 Let's get right into
00:09:00.820 The therapy stream
00:09:01.840 Let's
00:09:03.720 Let's talk to Dr. K
00:09:06.000 I was surprised to hear from him
00:09:07.140 But it was a great segment last time
00:09:09.140 It did great on YouTube
00:09:09.880 And you know
00:09:11.300 We're going to want to catch up with him
00:09:12.460 Let's see if I can
00:09:14.900 Out-therapy the therapist
00:09:16.200 Turn this off
00:09:22.660 I want to get the good camera on
00:09:23.920 I'm kind of nervous
00:09:28.800 This should be work
00:09:32.140 Come on, work
00:09:35.140 Come on
00:09:38.540 Dr. K
00:09:38.800 Dr. K
00:09:42.360 Hold on a second
00:09:45.040 My camera's not working
00:09:46.980 Wait a second
00:09:48.460 Wait a second
00:09:48.780 Wait a second
00:09:49.200 Okay, I'm kind of nervous
00:09:50.980 Kind of nervous 0.99
00:09:52.600 Fuck 0.99
00:09:53.460 Output device 1.00
00:09:55.280 Headphones
00:09:56.260 There we go
00:10:00.080 Uh, I don't
00:10:05.260 Let me see
00:10:06.280 You don't see me?
00:10:07.080 Let me see if I need to change
00:10:08.240 I don't
00:10:10.960 Oh, I see you now
00:10:11.660 There you are
00:10:12.580 Hold on
00:10:12.900 And I hear you now
00:10:13.440 I see my good camera
00:10:14.400 I'm not sure why
00:10:15.860 It's not working
00:10:16.520 Nice
00:10:17.320 Oh, here it is
00:10:18.940 There we go
00:10:23.400 Oh, oh my god
00:10:25.020 Looking sharp, bro
00:10:25.900 Hey, uh, thanks a lot
00:10:27.680 Just got this new suit, man
00:10:28.640 How you doing?
00:10:30.260 Good, dude
00:10:30.820 How are you?
00:10:32.660 Uh, not too bad
00:10:33.540 Not too bad
00:10:34.680 Uh, it's been
00:10:35.360 What has it been?
00:10:36.280 Like two years
00:10:36.760 Since I spoke to you?
00:10:38.540 Has it been two years?
00:10:40.080 It's been a while, yeah
00:10:40.940 I think it's been
00:10:41.940 Something like that
00:10:42.820 At least a year and a half
00:10:43.620 A year and some change
00:10:44.540 Okay
00:10:46.060 Um, give me one second
00:10:48.440 Let me see if I can
00:10:49.660 There we go
00:10:53.200 Chaz, everything good? 0.97
00:10:54.240 Everything sound good?
00:10:55.000 Yeah, my
00:10:55.540 Well, not my apologies
00:10:56.660 But unfortunately
00:10:58.060 You can't be on Twitch
00:10:59.080 Because of me
00:11:01.260 But
00:11:01.740 That happens
00:11:02.920 Yeah, I think
00:11:03.560 It's all good
00:11:04.360 Like I said
00:11:04.780 I'm more interested
00:11:05.400 In the conversation
00:11:06.180 And just catching up
00:11:07.100 Than the views, bro
00:11:09.440 I love to hear that, man
00:11:11.300 I'm sick of the
00:11:12.320 I'm sick of the views, too
00:11:13.960 Getting sick of the social media world
00:11:15.560 I mean, I'm gonna be here for a while
00:11:17.280 But it's just, you know
00:11:18.160 Getting sick of it
00:11:19.080 What about you?
00:11:19.700 What's new with you, Dr. K?
00:11:21.940 Uh, not much, man
00:11:22.900 Um, I, I, uh
00:11:24.780 Was on vacation for a little bit
00:11:26.180 Just got back
00:11:27.380 Lucky God, man
00:11:28.480 Where'd you go?
00:11:30.240 I went to, uh
00:11:31.340 Switzerland and France
00:11:32.280 Okay, alright
00:11:34.120 Super cool
00:11:35.520 Do you speak French?
00:11:36.500 Je parle français un peu
00:11:37.380 No
00:11:37.760 No
00:11:38.640 I do not speak French
00:11:39.900 Rien français
00:11:40.560 You speak French?
00:11:41.660 Oui, je parle français
00:11:42.300 Parce que mon père
00:11:43.540 Vien d'Haïti
00:11:44.060 I speak French
00:11:44.500 Because my dad's from Haiti, so 0.99
00:11:45.700 Oh, interesting
00:11:47.120 Cool
00:11:47.440 Yeah
00:11:47.840 Yeah, I didn't
00:11:48.760 I didn't realize
00:11:49.280 You were half Haitian 0.98
00:11:50.000 Yeah, yeah
00:11:51.200 What did you think I was?
00:11:53.380 I, I don't know
00:11:54.440 Did you have
00:11:55.660 Did you have a guess?
00:11:57.660 Mm-mm
00:11:57.900 I mean, you're
00:12:00.400 You're American?
00:12:01.660 Yeah, I was born
00:12:02.380 In New York City
00:12:03.040 I'm an American
00:12:03.840 No matter what
00:12:04.520 Uh, you know
00:12:05.460 Some, some of the
00:12:06.220 The far right people
00:12:07.420 Are saying I should be
00:12:08.340 Deported and stuff
00:12:09.100 But I, I'm an American
00:12:11.060 So I, I notice
00:12:13.260 We're both smiling a lot
00:12:14.440 I know, it's just
00:12:16.280 I, I'm, I'm
00:12:18.000 I'm happy to talk to you again
00:12:19.420 It's been a long time
00:12:20.040 I, I know
00:12:20.660 I'm happy to talk to you too
00:12:21.940 Oh, hold on a second
00:12:23.560 Oh, I don't know
00:12:24.360 Who that is
00:12:24.880 I wonder if I should answer
00:12:26.720 I think I'm not gonna answer
00:12:27.780 Um, I, I got a phone call
00:12:30.640 But
00:12:30.820 Was that Masad?
00:12:31.680 Yes, how you been?
00:12:32.700 I'm good
00:12:33.140 You know, I'm, I'm fantastic
00:12:34.560 I have been craving a vacation
00:12:36.820 It seems like
00:12:37.820 Uh, was that refreshing?
00:12:38.780 Was it good?
00:12:39.220 I, I still haven't taken a vacation
00:12:40.720 Yeah, when was the last time
00:12:42.820 You took a vacation?
00:12:45.400 Well, so it's hard to tell
00:12:46.240 I mean, I've taken a lot of trips
00:12:47.260 In the past several years
00:12:48.520 But strictly like
00:12:49.840 I'm just gonna relax
00:12:51.260 Vacation?
00:12:52.240 I can't remember
00:12:52.920 Yeah, so how long
00:12:56.040 Have you been making content?
00:12:57.780 2000, I mean
00:13:00.000 Technically 2011
00:13:01.000 But I would say
00:13:01.820 I started
00:13:02.160 Wow
00:13:02.740 My personal YouTube channel
00:13:04.000 2013
00:13:04.560 So
00:13:05.940 Okay, so you've been making content
00:13:07.440 For a long time
00:13:07.960 And have you not had a vacation
00:13:09.120 In that amount of time?
00:13:12.240 No, I mean
00:13:12.940 No, no, no
00:13:13.720 Since then, yeah
00:13:14.640 But I mean, like
00:13:15.140 Since I really started
00:13:15.780 So I started streaming
00:13:16.760 Three years ago
00:13:17.440 I was making videos before that
00:13:18.500 Okay
00:13:18.700 And, and just so we're crystal clear
00:13:21.100 Like, so I, I know that
00:13:22.260 You're not a huge believer
00:13:23.600 In psychiatry
00:13:24.320 I'm a psychiatrist
00:13:24.980 This is not therapy, right?
00:13:26.220 We're on the same page there?
00:13:27.100 I'm on the same page
00:13:27.680 About it
00:13:27.980 I still don't believe in therapy
00:13:29.020 And I know that this is not
00:13:30.080 Licensed clinical practice
00:13:31.560 This is a stream
00:13:33.020 Awesome
00:13:33.280 Where I'm speaking with a therapist
00:13:34.520 So legally
00:13:35.080 You're all good
00:13:36.060 I'm not gonna sue you
00:13:36.900 If I do
00:13:37.520 Thank you so much, man
00:13:39.340 Weight off my chest
00:13:40.900 I'm not gonna sue you
00:13:42.520 Yeah, so
00:13:42.900 So what do you, what do you wanna
00:13:44.840 Are we, we're just catching up, right?
00:13:47.380 Sounds good
00:13:47.880 I mean, you told me some things
00:13:49.160 Should I bring that up?
00:13:50.320 You said something to me
00:13:51.440 Sure
00:13:51.480 So you said you're going through
00:13:53.100 A midlife crisis
00:13:54.460 And I told you so am I
00:13:55.600 You know, I'm 26
00:13:56.660 I'm getting up there
00:13:57.780 Yeah
00:13:58.020 Yeah, so I, I, I think I said
00:14:00.880 I, I sort of went through one
00:14:02.520 I think I'm on the other side
00:14:04.240 Um, but yeah
00:14:06.320 I, I think I, I mentioned
00:14:07.640 A little bit before
00:14:08.500 But yeah, so
00:14:09.120 Do you wanna tell me
00:14:10.100 Can you just catch me up
00:14:11.220 A little bit?
00:14:11.660 We can absolutely talk about that
00:14:12.820 I'm, I'd love to talk about it
00:14:14.120 Um, can you catch me up
00:14:15.540 A little bit though?
00:14:16.060 So we spoke a couple years ago
00:14:17.700 Has it been two years?
00:14:18.800 I think so
00:14:19.300 I think it was
00:14:20.080 Either early 24 or late 23
00:14:22.160 Okay
00:14:23.360 And, and so
00:14:24.360 Can you just catch me up
00:14:25.340 What you've been up to since then?
00:14:29.280 It's been
00:14:30.360 Uh
00:14:31.200 There's a lot
00:14:34.180 There's a lot to say
00:14:35.400 I fought
00:14:37.560 A UFC champion
00:14:39.120 And
00:14:40.540 I got
00:14:42.300 Like
00:14:42.740 Like who?
00:14:44.120 In the ring?
00:14:44.980 Yep
00:14:45.260 Yep
00:14:46.200 That was a big one
00:14:47.180 And
00:14:49.360 Then
00:14:49.820 I think, you know, it's funny
00:14:51.160 Last time I spoke to you
00:14:51.820 I think I spoke about
00:14:52.600 The importance of
00:14:53.560 Fighting
00:14:54.440 And I, I didn't speak about
00:14:55.560 Stuff like that
00:14:56.200 So that happened
00:14:57.020 I think it was a couple months later
00:14:58.300 And
00:15:00.160 Yeah
00:15:02.880 Well, it was funny
00:15:04.320 What was that one?
00:15:05.100 I mean, it was fine
00:15:06.140 It was good
00:15:06.720 And after the, after the fight
00:15:08.200 You know, I was a UFC champion
00:15:09.440 Very, you know, a lot heavier than me
00:15:11.020 Obviously more experienced than me
00:15:12.240 And he said he
00:15:13.460 He tried to knock me out
00:15:14.520 Could have knocked me out
00:15:15.340 And then
00:15:15.680 You know, people intervened
00:15:17.000 And then the fight was over
00:15:18.160 So I think
00:15:19.180 Okay
00:15:19.400 I got respect for that
00:15:20.500 For not
00:15:20.920 You know, for
00:15:22.120 For staying in there
00:15:23.060 And not
00:15:23.460 Wimping out
00:15:24.800 But then the guy ended up
00:15:25.960 The guy's a little bit
00:15:26.940 Cuckoo
00:15:27.440 So
00:15:27.740 He was 1.00
00:15:28.820 You know, he's still talking shit 1.00
00:15:30.080 This besides the point 1.00
00:15:31.640 I think most people understand
00:15:32.580 My perspective
00:15:33.180 And, you know
00:15:33.760 But
00:15:34.720 And
00:15:36.040 Your perspective was that
00:15:37.800 You know
00:15:39.060 Well, he
00:15:39.900 So people keep saying
00:15:40.920 People keep saying like
00:15:41.680 Okay
00:15:41.960 You asked him
00:15:43.000 You asked to spar him
00:15:44.180 Like, oh, these influencers 1.00
00:15:45.100 They talk so much shit 0.99
00:15:46.000 I never talk shit about the guy 1.00
00:15:47.100 I went up to him 0.96
00:15:48.000 I said, hey
00:15:48.660 Nice to meet you
00:15:49.300 Congratulations on being the champ
00:15:50.420 And then he asked me
00:15:51.740 He said, let's spar
00:15:52.520 And then, okay
00:15:53.060 Sure
00:15:53.580 And the next day we sparred
00:15:54.560 Tried to knock me out
00:15:55.740 He said he couldn't
00:15:56.840 Shook hands 0.66
00:15:57.400 Left
00:15:57.740 And then continued to 0.99
00:15:59.180 Talk crap online 0.99
00:16:00.040 Which is ironic 0.99
00:16:00.640 Because that's the whole reason
00:16:01.460 You wanted to fight an influencer 1.00
00:16:02.360 Because they talk shit online 1.00
00:16:03.320 So kind of flipped the script 1.00
00:16:04.440 Then afterwards
00:16:05.280 I would say the most
00:16:06.320 The secondary major thing was
00:16:07.900 Started streaming on Party
00:16:10.160 And then I worked with
00:16:11.660 Yay
00:16:12.020 Kanye West
00:16:13.900 For five weeks in Spain
00:16:15.860 I was living with him in Spain
00:16:17.000 For over a month
00:16:18.540 And working closely with him
00:16:19.680 And that was a dream come true
00:16:21.560 And, you know
00:16:23.100 Working with my favorite artists
00:16:24.400 Of all time
00:16:24.880 And
00:16:25.080 Having like a close
00:16:27.160 Relationship
00:16:28.160 That was
00:16:28.720 Pretty
00:16:29.600 That was a big experience
00:16:31.660 And then now I'm here
00:16:32.680 And where is here
00:16:34.960 If that's not
00:16:36.280 Doxing you
00:16:37.060 Back in New York City
00:16:38.400 I moved back to New York
00:16:39.700 At the end of last year
00:16:40.700 It's been almost
00:16:41.300 A year back in New York
00:16:42.360 This is where I was born
00:16:43.560 And I moved to Miami
00:16:45.500 For two years after
00:16:46.540 The last time I spoke to you
00:16:47.780 I was in Miami
00:16:48.260 I moved to Miami
00:16:49.980 Like at the end of 2022
00:16:51.240 When I thought my
00:16:52.020 When I was getting more famous
00:16:52.960 And my safety was at risk
00:16:53.980 And needed to get a gun
00:16:55.160 Wanted to pay less taxes
00:16:56.760 Get away from
00:16:57.500 You know
00:16:57.740 COVID New York
00:16:58.880 X
00:16:59.420 Or post-COVID New York
00:17:00.260 And then I came back
00:17:01.920 Back here
00:17:02.240 And I still go back to Miami
00:17:03.500 Still got my place there
00:17:04.220 But back in New York
00:17:05.860 Making my vlogs again
00:17:06.860 You know
00:17:07.960 Doing what I originally
00:17:09.120 Started doing
00:17:09.960 These videos
00:17:10.640 Yeah
00:17:10.840 What do you vlog about?
00:17:13.080 Everything
00:17:13.440 Is it okay
00:17:14.020 If I ask you these questions?
00:17:15.100 Yeah, sure
00:17:15.380 Like you can ask me
00:17:16.040 I want to figure out
00:17:17.640 About your midlife crisis
00:17:18.540 Once I get you up to speed
00:17:19.880 With my life
00:17:20.420 Yeah, yeah, yeah
00:17:21.560 Absolutely talk about
00:17:23.380 My midlife crisis
00:17:24.600 Yeah, what do you vlog about?
00:17:26.580 My vlogs are
00:17:27.300 I think
00:17:27.940 Centered mainly around
00:17:29.940 New York City
00:17:30.480 Interacting with people
00:17:31.840 Things that I'm thinking about
00:17:33.320 Current events
00:17:34.160 Politics
00:17:34.900 Funny things
00:17:35.620 Talking to strangers
00:17:36.320 Doing interviews
00:17:37.060 You know
00:17:38.240 Sometimes they're motivational
00:17:39.080 Sometimes they're
00:17:40.060 Focused on God
00:17:41.180 Sometimes they're
00:17:42.720 Debate oriented
00:17:43.700 And a lot of it's
00:17:45.440 Really personal
00:17:45.940 So
00:17:46.580 And I would say
00:17:47.620 Heavily edited
00:17:48.700 Sometimes there's drawing
00:17:50.040 It's just
00:17:50.460 You know
00:17:50.960 It's an expression
00:17:51.880 Of everything
00:17:52.540 That I think
00:17:53.260 And like
00:17:53.740 Cool
00:17:57.260 That sounds great
00:17:58.680 And so I think
00:17:59.440 Last time we talked
00:18:00.180 You had mentioned
00:18:00.720 That I don't know
00:18:01.600 If you have always been
00:18:03.580 When you talk about God
00:18:04.940 You're Muslim?
00:18:06.140 Yes
00:18:06.560 And have
00:18:08.460 You had
00:18:09.120 I don't know
00:18:10.140 If you had been
00:18:10.720 To Hajj 1.00
00:18:11.600 For the first time
00:18:12.540 Or recently
00:18:13.240 Something like that
00:18:14.000 Are you
00:18:14.360 No
00:18:14.920 I'm
00:18:15.900 Basically Hindu 0.80
00:18:17.140 Okay
00:18:18.040 And
00:18:18.820 Yeah
00:18:19.380 No it's fine
00:18:22.820 They might make some jokes
00:18:24.300 But
00:18:24.460 My editor is Hindu
00:18:27.100 Anyway
00:18:28.040 I've been to Mecca
00:18:29.700 Three
00:18:30.060 Four times
00:18:31.140 But not Hajj yet 0.57
00:18:31.980 Okay wow
00:18:32.440 Just Umrah
00:18:33.040 Okay
00:18:34.420 And how long
00:18:35.560 Have you been Muslim?
00:18:37.480 Two and a half years
00:18:38.420 Okay
00:18:39.720 Oh so you've been to Mecca
00:18:40.800 Three times
00:18:41.500 In two and a half years?
00:18:42.600 Yeah I think
00:18:42.900 Three or four times
00:18:43.600 Wow
00:18:44.460 That's a lot
00:18:45.140 Yeah
00:18:45.720 Quite a bit
00:18:46.980 Yeah what
00:18:48.620 And I remember
00:18:49.960 You saying
00:18:50.380 That it was like
00:18:50.960 A really
00:18:51.740 Um
00:18:52.900 Meaningful
00:18:54.820 Experience for you
00:18:55.700 Yeah
00:18:56.360 Have you been to
00:18:56.880 The Taj Mahal?
00:18:58.860 I have
00:18:59.540 Is that like
00:19:00.460 The Mecca
00:19:00.820 For
00:19:01.140 For Hindus
00:19:02.200 For Hinduism? 0.85
00:19:04.200 No man 0.97
00:19:04.880 So the
00:19:05.300 The Taj Mahal
00:19:06.340 Was
00:19:06.620 Built by Muslims 1.00
00:19:08.080 I knew that
00:19:09.840 So it was
00:19:10.520 I knew
00:19:11.460 I knew that
00:19:11.880 Oh my god
00:19:12.480 As soon as he said
00:19:13.320 Yes the architecture
00:19:14.260 Yeah it's okay
00:19:14.780 Yeah yeah 1.00
00:19:15.300 Fuck 1.00
00:19:15.680 Yeah it's all good 1.00
00:19:16.940 So it was
00:19:17.620 It was built by
00:19:18.540 Um
00:19:18.880 India has a history
00:19:19.860 Of getting colonized
00:19:21.760 By various people
00:19:22.880 So there were
00:19:24.280 Um
00:19:25.000 There were
00:19:25.760 Basically
00:19:26.480 Around
00:19:27.420 1200
00:19:29.300 CE
00:19:30.560 People from the
00:19:32.580 Northwest
00:19:33.020 Started attacking India 1.00
00:19:34.840 Yeah
00:19:35.400 And then
00:19:36.180 Uh
00:19:36.800 The Mughals 1.00
00:19:37.560 I think
00:19:38.700 Around
00:19:39.060 1500
00:19:39.880 To 1600
00:19:40.540 I'm a bit
00:19:41.200 Rusty on
00:19:41.760 On the
00:19:42.280 I think
00:19:43.040 Closer to 1600
00:19:43.900 They kind of
00:19:45.040 Invaded
00:19:45.420 And I don't
00:19:46.580 Remember
00:19:46.860 I think it was
00:19:47.420 Aurangzeb's dad
00:19:48.640 I forget his name
00:19:49.540 Who built the
00:19:50.080 Taj Mahal
00:19:50.660 So where's the
00:19:51.940 Is there a
00:19:53.160 Pilgrimage for
00:19:54.000 Hindus? 1.00
00:19:55.480 There are tons
00:19:56.140 Of pilgrimages
00:19:56.780 But we don't
00:19:57.360 Have
00:19:57.820 Uh
00:19:58.480 Hinduism in that
00:19:59.560 Way is a
00:20:00.080 Pretty like
00:20:00.740 Decentralized
00:20:01.540 Religion
00:20:01.900 There's a lot
00:20:03.100 Of different
00:20:03.460 Paths
00:20:04.100 Um
00:20:04.940 There isn't
00:20:05.520 Like one
00:20:06.080 Site of
00:20:06.740 Pilgrimage
00:20:07.320 Oh I know
00:20:08.140 Vancouver
00:20:09.920 Toronto
00:20:12.400 Maybe
00:20:12.720 There's a
00:20:13.040 Bunch
00:20:14.040 A bunch
00:20:14.540 Of Indian
00:20:14.900 People in
00:20:15.440 Canada
00:20:15.720 And there
00:20:16.500 There's some
00:20:17.120 Uh
00:20:17.560 There's some
00:20:18.660 Pretty like
00:20:19.300 Uh
00:20:19.900 There's some
00:20:20.300 Growing
00:20:20.580 Anti-Indian
00:20:21.780 Sentiment
00:20:22.220 In Canada
00:20:22.800 I've seen
00:20:23.520 That
00:20:23.780 I've seen
00:20:24.420 That
00:20:24.680 Yeah
00:20:24.960 So what
00:20:25.560 What have
00:20:26.340 You been
00:20:26.540 Up to
00:20:26.780 What are
00:20:26.960 Your major
00:20:27.360 Life events
00:20:28.280 Since the
00:20:28.520 Last time
00:20:28.800 We spoke
00:20:29.120 Yeah
00:20:30.720 So it's
00:20:32.280 Funny
00:20:32.460 You know
00:20:32.960 We were
00:20:33.320 Talking about
00:20:34.020 Midlife
00:20:34.320 Crisis
00:20:34.620 For a
00:20:34.940 Second
00:20:35.080 So I
00:20:35.400 Think I
00:20:35.820 Sort of
00:20:36.300 Probably
00:20:36.520 Hit it
00:20:36.860 Around that
00:20:37.260 Time
00:20:37.580 And maybe
00:20:38.620 My conversation
00:20:39.340 With you
00:20:39.680 Triggered
00:20:40.820 My
00:20:41.080 No
00:20:41.400 So um
00:20:42.620 Yeah so I
00:20:43.860 Think you know
00:20:44.540 If we spoke at the end
00:20:45.520 Of let's say
00:20:45.940 2023
00:20:46.540 Early 2024
00:20:47.560 You know so
00:20:49.620 So my thing
00:20:50.420 Was like
00:20:50.840 I was working
00:20:51.600 In Boston
00:20:52.200 Um
00:20:53.460 Was sort of
00:20:54.080 Like had an
00:20:54.720 Academic career
00:20:55.600 So that means
00:20:56.560 I was faculty
00:20:57.280 And was teaching
00:20:58.580 A lot
00:20:59.000 And then
00:21:00.220 You know
00:21:00.920 Had a job
00:21:01.580 Had a private
00:21:02.160 Practice
00:21:02.540 And then I
00:21:03.120 Started kind of
00:21:03.640 Healthy Gamer
00:21:04.120 On the side
00:21:04.640 And it was
00:21:05.040 Never supposed
00:21:05.560 To be a thing
00:21:06.220 And so started
00:21:07.480 Streaming on
00:21:08.040 Twitch
00:21:08.360 And then it
00:21:08.920 Grew a lot
00:21:10.020 During the
00:21:10.660 Pandemic
00:21:11.200 And then
00:21:11.900 So I think
00:21:13.060 For a couple
00:21:13.580 Of years
00:21:14.160 My life
00:21:15.060 Was sort of
00:21:15.700 Like
00:21:16.060 Responding
00:21:18.180 To the
00:21:19.380 Immediacy
00:21:20.080 Of my
00:21:20.720 Circumstances
00:21:21.460 So once we
00:21:22.800 Started growing
00:21:23.560 A lot
00:21:24.040 It's like
00:21:24.540 Okay
00:21:24.880 We hired
00:21:25.660 Our first
00:21:26.100 Employee
00:21:26.600 In April
00:21:27.020 Of 2020
00:21:27.780 Um
00:21:29.060 And
00:21:30.080 And so
00:21:30.980 Then like
00:21:31.500 You know
00:21:31.880 So we needed
00:21:32.380 One person
00:21:33.040 Then and we
00:21:33.480 Needed another
00:21:34.040 Person
00:21:34.360 And then we
00:21:34.780 Needed another
00:21:35.300 Person
00:21:35.680 And and so
00:21:36.860 We kind of
00:21:37.280 Grew and we
00:21:37.960 Started developing
00:21:38.660 Like I was
00:21:39.480 Kind of noticing
00:21:40.120 That streaming
00:21:41.480 And educating
00:21:42.020 People on the
00:21:42.620 Internet only
00:21:43.240 Goes so far
00:21:44.020 So I developed
00:21:44.920 A coaching
00:21:45.880 Program that I
00:21:46.620 Thought would
00:21:46.980 Like help
00:21:47.380 People
00:21:47.780 With the
00:21:49.040 Problems that
00:21:49.760 I was seeing
00:21:50.440 And addressed
00:21:51.620 A lot of the
00:21:52.100 Shortcomings
00:21:52.680 That I think
00:21:54.420 Exist in therapy
00:21:55.400 So built that
00:21:57.360 One second
00:21:57.880 Yeah
00:21:58.280 Hi
00:22:00.140 I'm working
00:22:02.000 Yeah
00:22:04.000 Hi
00:22:04.700 Can you close
00:22:05.920 The door
00:22:06.180 Thank you
00:22:07.940 They're they're
00:22:09.660 Usually um
00:22:10.480 Pretty good about
00:22:11.180 I don't usually
00:22:12.240 Work at this hour
00:22:13.020 So they're you
00:22:13.800 Know I think
00:22:14.160 It's fair game
00:22:14.700 Um so
00:22:16.760 And so then
00:22:18.700 For a couple
00:22:19.220 Of years it
00:22:19.900 Was just sort
00:22:20.480 Of like
00:22:20.800 Responding to
00:22:22.140 Around maybe
00:22:29.740 Around 2023
00:22:30.760 I found myself
00:22:32.360 Like in a
00:22:33.040 Position that I
00:22:33.760 Never expected
00:22:34.480 To be in
00:22:35.060 And was also
00:22:36.220 Trying to think
00:22:36.820 A little bit
00:22:37.320 About like
00:22:38.740 What I wanted
00:22:39.600 So suddenly
00:22:41.540 Like was
00:22:42.520 You know
00:22:42.960 Had the burden
00:22:43.620 Of of
00:22:44.740 Running a
00:22:45.180 Company
00:22:45.500 Um you know
00:22:48.080 Grew a lot
00:22:48.720 In terms of
00:22:49.440 Like brand
00:22:50.760 And and
00:22:51.440 And fame
00:22:52.100 And all that
00:22:52.540 Started getting
00:22:53.040 Recognized very
00:22:53.940 Frequently
00:22:54.380 On the street
00:22:55.300 If I skid
00:22:56.020 Did you stop
00:22:56.760 Being academic
00:22:57.300 And you
00:22:57.760 Became a
00:22:58.860 Content creator
00:22:59.520 Yeah yeah yeah
00:23:00.840 So so I
00:23:01.460 I left my
00:23:02.120 Academic position
00:23:02.980 Maybe in
00:23:03.620 2021
00:23:04.200 Um so
00:23:06.440 Was teaching
00:23:07.720 As an adjunct
00:23:08.760 For a little
00:23:09.120 While and
00:23:10.200 Then healthy
00:23:10.620 Gamer just
00:23:11.100 Basically picked
00:23:12.160 Up quite a
00:23:12.640 Bit so became
00:23:13.360 A full-time
00:23:13.840 Job I still
00:23:14.760 Have a small
00:23:15.160 Clinical
00:23:15.480 Practice because
00:23:16.240 I just don't
00:23:16.900 Want to let
00:23:17.180 Go of that
00:23:17.660 I really
00:23:18.920 Enjoy doing
00:23:19.420 Clinical work
00:23:20.040 Um and
00:23:21.640 Then but
00:23:23.040 Then it was
00:23:23.420 Sort of like
00:23:23.920 Wrote a book
00:23:24.760 That went
00:23:26.380 Well but
00:23:26.840 Then I was
00:23:27.180 Like hold
00:23:27.640 On a second
00:23:28.080 This was
00:23:28.460 Not I
00:23:30.220 Never intended
00:23:31.240 To be here
00:23:31.820 So then
00:23:33.220 Started thinking
00:23:33.960 A little bit
00:23:34.500 About what
00:23:35.580 Am I doing
00:23:36.100 What do I
00:23:36.540 Want to
00:23:36.820 Accomplish
00:23:37.500 Um you
00:23:40.380 Know thought
00:23:40.700 A lot about
00:23:41.340 Financial stuff
00:23:42.940 Too and in
00:23:43.700 Terms of like
00:23:44.360 Walked away
00:23:45.440 From a pretty
00:23:45.920 Lucrative career
00:23:46.740 And then was
00:23:47.880 Trying to
00:23:48.200 Think about
00:23:48.640 You know what
00:23:49.120 Do I what
00:23:49.620 Do I want
00:23:49.960 To do there
00:23:50.460 What now
00:23:50.880 So I was
00:23:51.100 Just trying to
00:23:51.500 Think huh
00:23:52.380 You're thinking
00:23:52.860 What now
00:23:53.400 Yeah so I
00:23:55.120 Was kind of
00:23:55.500 Thinking like
00:23:55.920 What do I
00:23:56.320 Want the 0.55
00:23:56.680 Remainder of
00:23:57.220 My life
00:23:57.620 To be
00:23:57.980 Because I
00:23:58.960 Was I
00:23:59.260 Was actually
00:23:59.680 Quite unhappy
00:24:00.760 Um with a
00:24:02.740 Lot of just
00:24:03.300 The way that
00:24:04.000 Like things
00:24:06.240 Grow right
00:24:07.180 So they like
00:24:07.680 Mutate and 0.97
00:24:08.380 Expand and
00:24:09.080 You have all
00:24:09.460 These like
00:24:09.840 Opportunities and
00:24:10.620 Stuff and
00:24:10.940 It's not that
00:24:11.540 I'm not
00:24:12.040 Grateful I
00:24:12.520 Think it's
00:24:12.800 Amazing stuff
00:24:13.540 Um but I
00:24:15.080 Sort of found
00:24:15.540 Myself being
00:24:16.060 Pulled in
00:24:16.500 A lot of
00:24:16.860 Different directions
00:24:17.520 Without having
00:24:18.200 A whole lot
00:24:18.700 Of on the
00:24:20.180 One hand I
00:24:20.620 Have a ton
00:24:20.960 Of autonomy
00:24:21.460 But on the
00:24:22.140 Other hand
00:24:22.520 It's like okay
00:24:22.980 There's this
00:24:23.340 Opportunity so
00:24:24.100 Then we're
00:24:24.380 Doing this
00:24:24.920 And then this
00:24:25.560 Opportunity and
00:24:26.420 Then we're
00:24:26.680 Doing this
00:24:27.240 Um and so
00:24:28.880 Just like thinking
00:24:29.480 Through all that
00:24:30.000 Stuff and it's
00:24:30.440 Like hold on a
00:24:30.960 Second what
00:24:31.360 What did we
00:24:31.880 Really show up
00:24:32.540 Here to do
00:24:33.020 What do I
00:24:33.480 What do I
00:24:33.500 Want to do
00:24:34.040 What's my
00:24:34.840 Dharma
00:24:35.160 That's the
00:24:35.700 Sanskrit word
00:24:36.320 For duty
00:24:36.860 So what's
00:24:38.580 My Dharma
00:24:39.100 Um and
00:24:40.380 Then I
00:24:40.640 Think for a
00:24:41.060 Long time I
00:24:41.720 Was also
00:24:42.160 Spiritually
00:24:42.760 Coasting
00:24:43.340 So I
00:24:44.720 Did a
00:24:44.980 Lot of
00:24:45.320 Intense
00:24:45.700 Spiritual
00:24:46.120 Practice
00:24:46.580 Between the
00:24:47.140 Ages of
00:24:47.580 About 21
00:24:48.260 To 28
00:24:48.880 And then
00:24:50.420 When I
00:24:50.960 Started
00:24:51.320 Medical school
00:24:52.420 Then for a
00:24:53.580 Period of
00:24:54.000 About 10
00:24:54.580 Years
00:24:55.060 Basically
00:24:56.500 Devoted a
00:24:57.560 Lot of
00:24:57.940 Energy
00:24:58.340 To
00:24:59.500 Understanding
00:25:01.340 Medicine
00:25:01.760 And understanding
00:25:02.920 Psychology
00:25:03.520 Understanding
00:25:04.120 Neuroscience
00:25:04.840 And in
00:25:05.640 That in
00:25:06.080 That time
00:25:06.600 So I
00:25:07.080 Haven't been
00:25:07.460 To India 0.93
00:25:07.940 In like
00:25:08.260 Over 10
00:25:08.720 Years
00:25:09.020 But I
00:25:09.300 Used to
00:25:09.560 Go every
00:25:09.900 Year
00:25:10.180 Do you
00:25:10.960 Miss it
00:25:11.200 And so
00:25:11.500 Sort of
00:25:11.880 Sort of
00:25:14.180 So I
00:25:15.100 I mean
00:25:15.500 I hope to
00:25:16.160 Go back
00:25:16.440 Soon
00:25:16.700 But I
00:25:17.660 I think
00:25:18.020 I
00:25:18.240 Sort of
00:25:18.780 Was like
00:25:19.140 I had
00:25:20.080 Sort of
00:25:20.280 Done my
00:25:20.640 Own
00:25:20.880 Spiritual
00:25:21.240 Development
00:25:21.800 But it
00:25:22.360 Wasn't
00:25:22.640 The priority
00:25:23.260 Over the
00:25:24.200 Last 10
00:25:24.640 Years
00:25:24.860 It was
00:25:25.160 Like okay
00:25:25.680 I have
00:25:25.980 The opportunity
00:25:26.640 To train
00:25:27.700 At a
00:25:28.100 Really great
00:25:28.500 Institution
00:25:29.100 I have
00:25:29.460 Lots of
00:25:29.780 Great
00:25:29.920 Teachers
00:25:30.220 So I'm
00:25:31.180 Going to
00:25:31.340 Like learn
00:25:31.720 This as
00:25:32.120 Well as
00:25:32.420 I can
00:25:32.820 And then
00:25:34.300 There was
00:25:34.640 A lot
00:25:34.980 Of
00:25:35.240 You know
00:25:37.300 Exploration
00:25:38.140 And growth
00:25:38.740 And development
00:25:39.360 In terms
00:25:39.840 Of entrepreneurship
00:25:40.540 I've
00:25:41.020 Worked a
00:25:41.440 Lot with
00:25:42.120 Entrepreneurs
00:25:42.880 Founders
00:25:43.600 That started
00:25:44.600 Around
00:25:45.020 2017
00:25:45.680 And so
00:25:48.140 Worked a
00:25:48.540 Lot as
00:25:48.800 Like a
00:25:49.100 Psychiatrist
00:25:49.840 And a
00:25:50.240 Coach
00:25:50.560 To help
00:25:51.280 People who
00:25:51.760 Are like
00:25:52.080 Co-founders
00:25:52.760 And entrepreneurs
00:25:54.560 And things
00:25:55.080 Like that
00:25:55.440 CEOs
00:25:55.840 C-suite
00:25:56.280 Executives
00:25:56.820 But then
00:25:57.140 To be
00:25:57.420 In the
00:25:57.760 In the
00:25:58.580 Role
00:25:58.720 Myself
00:25:59.200 Was a
00:25:59.820 Eye-opening
00:26:01.180 And educating
00:26:02.440 Experience
00:26:03.180 And so
00:26:05.400 Then it's
00:26:05.720 Sort of
00:26:05.940 Like
00:26:06.100 Okay
00:26:06.320 What do
00:26:06.580 I want
00:26:06.840 To do
00:26:07.060 With the
00:26:07.300 Rest of
00:26:07.560 My
00:26:07.700 Life
00:26:08.000 And so
00:26:08.780 Decided
00:26:09.700 On a
00:26:10.000 Couple 0.60
00:26:10.200 Of
00:26:10.400 Things
00:26:10.760 Spent
00:26:11.660 A lot
00:26:11.900 Of
00:26:12.020 Time
00:26:12.200 By
00:26:12.360 Myself
00:26:12.840 Which I
00:26:13.180 Think
00:26:13.340 Really
00:26:13.560 Helps
00:26:13.820 Me
00:26:13.960 A lot
00:26:14.220 Spent
00:26:14.500 A lot
00:26:14.860 Of
00:26:14.960 Time
00:26:15.300 Re-engaging
00:26:16.820 In
00:26:17.020 Spiritual
00:26:17.340 Practice
00:26:17.800 And now
00:26:18.920 I feel
00:26:19.500 Pretty
00:26:19.920 Good
00:26:20.240 So there's
00:26:21.720 No
00:26:21.820 Midlife
00:26:22.040 Crisis
00:26:22.320 You're
00:26:22.500 Fine
00:26:22.700 No
00:26:24.540 There
00:26:24.660 Was
00:26:24.960 A
00:26:25.080 Midlife
00:26:25.360 Crisis
00:26:25.720 But a
00:26:26.340 Midlife
00:26:26.620 Crisis
00:26:26.920 I think
00:26:27.260 Is a
00:26:27.580 Developmentally
00:26:28.640 I think
00:26:30.320 We don't
00:26:31.060 Appreciate
00:26:31.620 How common
00:26:32.740 They are
00:26:33.400 And how
00:26:33.880 They're
00:26:34.100 Also
00:26:34.400 Developmentally
00:26:35.400 Appropriate
00:26:36.000 I think
00:26:36.400 A midlife
00:26:36.780 Crisis
00:26:37.160 Is when
00:26:37.780 You
00:26:38.360 Trade in
00:26:39.060 Your
00:26:39.220 Toyota
00:26:39.620 For
00:26:40.000 Mid
00:26:41.300 Sports
00:26:41.680 Car
00:26:42.000 And
00:26:43.240 You get
00:26:43.800 Divorced
00:26:44.400 And then
00:26:44.820 You start
00:26:45.080 Dating
00:26:45.380 A girl
00:26:45.740 Who's
00:26:46.000 Like
00:26:46.140 Ten
00:26:46.300 Years
00:26:46.460 Younger
00:26:46.860 And you
00:26:47.760 Go to
00:26:48.000 A Coldplay
00:26:48.480 Concert
00:26:49.000 I think
00:26:51.540 That
00:26:51.740 That's
00:26:52.100 And then
00:26:52.440 You end
00:26:52.900 Up on
00:26:53.320 The
00:26:53.860 Big
00:26:54.960 Screen
00:26:55.280 You have
00:26:56.360 An affair
00:26:56.800 And then
00:26:58.400 You get
00:26:58.660 Fired
00:26:59.020 That
00:26:59.300 Midlife
00:26:59.840 Crisis
00:27:00.280 Is 0.88
00:27:00.940 Cheating
00:27:01.780 On
00:27:01.940 Your
00:27:02.060 Spouse
00:27:02.540 And
00:27:03.260 Getting
00:27:03.500 A new
00:27:03.860 In a
00:27:05.280 New
00:27:05.420 Hobby
00:27:05.760 And hanging
00:27:06.680 Out
00:27:06.920 At younger
00:27:07.420 Bars 1.00
00:27:07.840 I think
00:27:09.500 That
00:27:09.660 You know
00:27:09.920 The
00:27:10.120 I
00:27:10.740 Would
00:27:11.420 I think
00:27:12.140 That
00:27:12.300 That is
00:27:12.620 Certainly
00:27:13.020 An identity
00:27:13.620 Crisis
00:27:14.040 Of some
00:27:14.520 Sort
00:27:14.840 I think
00:27:15.240 We sort
00:27:15.640 Of
00:27:15.740 Characterize
00:27:16.280 That
00:27:16.440 As a
00:27:16.680 Midlife
00:27:16.960 Crisis
00:27:17.260 I think
00:27:17.700 Many
00:27:18.160 Many
00:27:18.540 Many
00:27:18.940 People
00:27:19.860 It's
00:27:21.040 Hard
00:27:21.280 For
00:27:21.500 Me
00:27:21.620 To
00:27:21.780 Say
00:27:22.140 Men
00:27:22.740 Versus
00:27:23.140 Women 1.00
00:27:23.440 But
00:27:23.700 I
00:27:23.840 Think
00:27:24.000 Most
00:27:24.300 Of
00:27:24.460 The
00:27:24.580 Midlife
00:27:24.920 Crises
00:27:25.340 That
00:27:25.780 I've
00:27:26.060 Gone
00:27:26.380 That
00:27:27.520 I've
00:27:27.760 Helped
00:27:27.980 People
00:27:28.240 Through
00:27:28.640 Happened
00:27:29.440 To
00:27:29.800 Like
00:27:31.200 That
00:27:31.380 I've
00:27:31.860 Assisted
00:27:32.260 People
00:27:32.540 With
00:27:32.740 I
00:27:32.900 Think
00:27:33.260 Just
00:27:34.120 The
00:27:34.580 Numbers
00:27:36.060 Have
00:27:36.200 Been
00:27:36.320 Mostly
00:27:36.760 Men
00:27:37.040 So
00:27:38.220 And I
00:27:38.620 Think
00:27:38.780 The
00:27:38.960 Textbook
00:27:40.060 Midlife
00:27:40.360 Crisis
00:27:40.660 That
00:27:40.880 You
00:27:41.040 Cited
00:27:42.060 Was
00:27:42.300 Also
00:27:42.560 A
00:27:42.780 Dude
00:27:43.020 Right
00:27:43.760 Yeah
00:27:44.320 And
00:27:45.820 For
00:27:46.900 Women 1.00
00:27:47.340 That's
00:27:47.560 Just
00:27:47.660 Menopause
00:27:48.180 I
00:27:50.780 Don't
00:27:50.980 Think
00:27:51.160 So
00:27:51.340 So
00:27:51.520 I
00:27:51.660 Think
00:27:51.960 There's
00:27:52.180 A
00:27:52.300 False
00:27:52.540 Equivalency
00:27:53.180 There
00:27:53.460 So
00:27:53.660 I
00:27:53.820 Absolutely
00:27:54.380 Believe
00:27:54.800 That
00:27:55.000 Menopause
00:27:55.640 Is 0.88
00:27:55.880 A
00:27:56.000 Very
00:27:56.260 Serious
00:27:56.900 Time
00:27:57.760 To
00:27:57.940 Take
00:27:58.140 Stock
00:27:58.600 And
00:27:58.900 Maybe
00:27:59.120 Women 1.00
00:27:59.360 Go
00:27:59.560 Through
00:27:59.700 Something
00:27:59.980 Else
00:28:00.380 Helps
00:28:01.140 A ton
00:28:01.340 Of
00:28:01.440 Women 1.00
00:28:01.600 Through
00:28:01.780 Menopause
00:28:02.320 But
00:28:02.540 I
00:28:02.760 Think
00:28:02.980 That
00:28:03.200 The
00:28:03.680 Psychological
00:28:05.000 Load
00:28:06.000 Is 0.88
00:28:06.780 Different
00:28:07.140 I
00:28:08.080 Wouldn't
00:28:08.380 Say
00:28:08.560 That
00:28:08.720 They're
00:28:08.880 One
00:28:09.080 To
00:28:09.180 One
00:28:09.440 But
00:28:11.180 I
00:28:11.300 Think
00:28:11.660 A lot
00:28:11.980 Of
00:28:12.080 Men
00:28:12.240 Go
00:28:12.420 Through
00:28:12.580 Midlife
00:28:12.940 Crises
00:28:13.340 That
00:28:13.740 Don't
00:28:14.180 Manifest
00:28:14.940 The
00:28:15.260 Way
00:28:15.500 That
00:28:15.760 You
00:28:16.000 Described
00:28:16.520 Right
00:28:17.100 That's
00:28:17.380 Sort
00:28:17.560 Of
00:28:17.620 The
00:28:17.740 Classic
00:28:18.060 One
00:28:18.360 And
00:28:18.980 That's
00:28:19.340 A
00:28:19.440 Midlife
00:28:19.760 Crisis
00:28:25.640 The
00:28:25.800 Roots
00:28:26.140 Are
00:28:26.300 Very
00:28:26.520 Similar
00:28:26.880 So
00:28:27.900 You
00:28:28.040 Kind
00:28:28.260 Of
00:28:28.320 Wake
00:28:28.720 Up
00:28:28.920 One
00:28:29.120 Day
00:28:29.360 And
00:28:29.620 You're
00:28:29.780 In
00:28:29.980 This
00:28:30.200 Life
00:28:30.560 That
00:28:30.840 You
00:28:31.280 Maybe
00:28:31.580 Didn't
00:28:31.940 Want
00:28:32.260 Didn't
00:28:32.660 Intend
00:28:33.140 You
00:28:33.760 Realize
00:28:34.180 That
00:28:34.340 You've
00:28:34.500 Made
00:28:34.640 A lot
00:28:34.880 Of
00:28:34.980 Sacrifices
00:28:35.760 You
00:28:35.940 Realize
00:28:36.360 That
00:28:36.560 There's
00:28:36.760 A lot
00:28:37.000 Of
00:28:37.100 Stuff
00:28:37.280 That
00:28:37.480 You
00:28:37.660 Maybe
00:28:37.940 Have
00:28:38.380 You
00:28:39.580 Sacrificed
00:28:40.260 A lot
00:28:40.540 Of
00:28:40.640 What
00:28:40.760 You
00:28:40.880 Wanted
00:28:41.220 For
00:28:41.420 The
00:28:41.580 Sake
00:28:41.820 Of
00:28:42.040 Other
00:28:42.300 Things
00:28:42.760 And
00:28:43.660 Then
00:28:43.780 You
00:28:43.940 Kind
00:28:44.180 Of
00:28:44.260 Wake
00:28:44.500 Up
00:28:44.760 And
00:28:45.200 You're
00:28:45.360 Like
00:28:55.640 Divorce
00:28:56.120 There
00:28:56.340 Right
00:28:56.600 In
00:28:56.860 Your
00:28:57.080 Example
00:28:57.720 That
00:28:59.340 That's
00:28:59.800 Part
00:29:00.000 Of
00:29:00.100 It
00:29:00.240 Yeah
00:29:00.500 That's
00:29:00.680 Part
00:29:00.840 Of
00:29:00.940 It
00:29:01.080 So
00:29:01.560 I
00:29:01.800 Think
00:29:02.100 A lot
00:29:02.400 Of
00:29:02.500 That
00:29:02.680 Can
00:29:02.880 Be
00:29:03.040 Just
00:29:03.280 Reaction
00:29:03.880 To
00:29:04.060 The
00:29:04.160 Divorce
00:29:04.700 And
00:29:05.300 That
00:29:05.480 Can
00:29:05.640 Have
00:29:05.840 Completely
00:29:06.220 Different
00:29:06.540 Roots
00:29:06.740 It's
00:29:07.380 Not
00:29:07.900 You know
00:29:08.280 It's
00:29:08.420 Unnecessary
00:29:09.140 But
00:29:09.280 I'm
00:29:09.400 Just
00:29:09.560 You
00:29:09.740 I'm
00:29:10.160 Joking
00:29:10.940 Around
00:29:11.180 About
00:29:11.360 Some
00:29:11.500 Of
00:29:11.560 The
00:29:11.620 Components
00:29:12.000 Yeah
00:29:12.220 Yeah
00:29:12.820 Yeah
00:29:13.380 No
00:29:13.580 But
00:29:13.720 I
00:29:13.880 I
00:29:14.200 I
00:29:14.320 I
00:29:14.900 Totally
00:29:15.240 Get
00:29:15.420 That
00:29:25.640 I'm
00:29:26.760 42
00:29:27.740 Yeah
00:29:29.300 So
00:29:29.380 That's
00:29:29.620 Around
00:29:29.800 The
00:29:29.980 Age
00:29:30.200 So
00:29:30.440 Then
00:29:30.560 What
00:29:30.720 What's
00:29:31.320 And
00:29:32.280 How
00:29:32.500 Does
00:29:32.620 That
00:29:32.740 Make
00:29:32.880 You
00:29:33.000 Feel
00:29:33.320 How
00:29:35.080 Does
00:29:35.200 What
00:29:35.360 Make
00:29:35.500 Me
00:29:35.620 Feel
00:29:35.840 Being
00:29:37.100 42
00:29:37.540 Fine
00:29:39.800 Oh
00:29:40.780 See
00:29:41.180 Where's
00:29:42.260 The
00:29:42.380 Crisis
00:29:42.680 You're
00:29:42.920 Good
00:29:43.120 Yeah
00:29:44.500 I'm
00:29:44.620 Good
00:29:44.740 Now
00:29:44.960 I
00:29:45.520 Navigated
00:29:46.020 It
00:29:46.220 It's
00:29:46.600 Over
00:29:46.800 Oh
00:29:47.260 Good
00:29:47.480 Job
00:29:47.780 Yeah
00:29:48.700 Yeah
00:29:49.760 I
00:29:50.240 Kind
00:29:50.680 Of
00:29:50.760 You
00:29:52.180 Know
00:29:52.460 Like
00:29:52.940 I'll
00:29:53.240 Give
00:29:53.380 You
00:29:53.460 Like
00:29:53.640 An
00:29:53.760 Example
00:29:54.180 Right
00:29:54.720 So
00:29:54.980 This
00:29:56.080 Is 0.88
00:29:56.140 Going
00:29:56.220 To
00:29:56.280 Sound
00:29:56.420 Kind
00:29:56.620 Of
00:29:56.680 Funny
00:29:56.860 And
00:29:57.080 Maybe
00:29:57.440 We'll
00:29:57.760 Get
00:29:58.160 A lot
00:29:58.360 Of
00:29:58.460 Flack
00:29:58.700 For
00:29:58.840 This
00:29:59.060 And
00:29:59.200 Things
00:29:59.340 Like
00:29:59.520 That
00:29:59.720 But
00:29:59.920 So
00:30:00.800 You
00:30:01.260 Know
00:30:01.340 When
00:30:01.480 We
00:30:01.600 Started
00:30:01.860 Healthy
00:30:02.140 Gamer
00:30:02.380 It
00:30:02.520 Was
00:30:02.640 Really
00:30:02.860 To
00:30:03.000 Help
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00:33:25.940 Absolutely
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00:33:27.940 Biggest
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00:34:00.740 Hardcore
00:34:01.380 About
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00:34:01.980 Practice
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00:34:02.700 I
00:34:02.840 Think
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00:34:11.720 Time
00:34:12.020 In
00:34:12.340 12
00:34:14.800 Years
00:34:15.160 So
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00:34:15.600 Wasn't
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00:34:16.220 It
00:34:16.600 Was
00:34:17.000 Getting
00:34:17.400 Closer
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00:34:17.840 God
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00:34:21.900 Getting
00:34:22.360 Closer
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00:34:22.900 God
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00:34:24.340 Certainly
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00:34:24.840 Therapy
00:34:25.240 No
00:34:25.500 So
00:34:27.820 Am I
00:34:28.160 Vindicated
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00:34:29.580 Last
00:34:29.780 Conversation
00:34:30.220 About
00:34:30.760 What
00:34:31.060 About
00:34:31.820 How
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00:34:33.080 Transcends 0.91
00:34:33.800 Therapy
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00:34:36.200 When
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00:34:38.480 You
00:34:38.580 Say
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00:34:39.460 Psychotherapy
00:34:40.020 What
00:34:40.240 Does
00:34:40.320 That
00:34:40.460 Mean
00:34:40.640 Well
00:34:40.900 Okay
00:34:41.260 So
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00:34:42.540 In
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00:34:44.060 Time
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00:34:44.620 Crisis
00:34:44.960 Stemmed
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00:34:48.760 Was
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00:34:49.760 Something
00:34:50.600 Spiritual
00:34:51.040 And
00:34:51.980 God
00:34:52.340 Rather
00:34:52.620 Than
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00:34:53.400 Know
00:34:53.480 What
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00:34:54.740 Do
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00:35:01.120 Therapy
00:35:01.520 And
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00:35:01.860 Should
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00:35:03.160 Run
00:35:04.140 To
00:35:04.320 Therapist
00:35:04.880 I
00:35:08.180 Think
00:35:08.440 That
00:35:08.640 So
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00:35:09.340 Your
00:35:09.460 Understanding
00:35:09.940 Of
00:35:10.240 What
00:35:10.440 Therapy
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00:36:26.620 Is 0.88
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00:36:46.980 Form
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00:36:53.640 Crisis
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00:36:55.180 Illness
00:36:55.780 Are
00:36:56.080 Two
00:36:56.260 Different
00:36:56.520 Things
00:36:56.900 So
00:36:58.140 If
00:36:58.260 Someone
00:36:58.500 Has
00:36:58.960 Has
00:37:00.380 A
00:37:00.680 Diagnosis
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00:37:01.460 Schizophrenia
00:37:02.260 Or
00:37:02.580 Bipolar
00:37:03.060 Disorder
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00:37:06.280 Absolutely
00:37:07.140 An
00:37:07.700 Evidence
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00:37:08.660 Psychotherapeutic
00:37:09.740 Approach
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00:37:10.380 Can
00:37:10.540 Help
00:37:10.740 Those
00:37:10.940 People
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00:37:12.520 I
00:37:12.700 Think
00:37:12.820 One
00:37:13.020 Thing
00:37:13.180 That
00:37:13.340 We
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00:37:13.940 Very
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00:37:16.320 Would
00:37:16.460 Argue
00:37:16.740 That
00:37:17.020 95%
00:37:18.180 Of
00:37:18.420 Psychotherapists
00:37:19.280 Or
00:37:19.560 More
00:37:19.840 Would
00:37:20.060 Agree
00:37:20.280 With
00:37:20.460 What
00:37:20.580 I
00:37:20.620 About
00:37:20.860 To
00:37:21.000 Say
00:37:21.260 That
00:37:21.960 Psychotherapy
00:37:22.680 There's
00:37:23.120 A
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00:37:23.780 Dimension
00:37:24.500 That
00:37:25.180 Helps
00:37:25.540 People
00:37:25.920 And
00:37:27.020 That
00:37:27.220 Psychotherapy
00:37:27.840 Depending
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00:37:28.440 The
00:37:28.560 Therapist
00:37:29.020 Will
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00:37:30.020 Into
00:37:30.320 That
00:37:30.520 Dimension
00:37:30.980 Or
00:37:31.240 Not
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00:37:31.680 Into
00:37:31.860 That
00:37:32.020 Dimension
00:37:32.420 But
00:37:33.160 I
00:37:33.320 Think
00:37:33.520 Very
00:37:33.840 Few
00:37:34.120 Psychotherapists
00:37:35.100 Believe
00:37:35.500 That
00:37:35.720 They're
00:37:35.900 A
00:37:36.040 Substitute
00:37:36.720 For
00:37:37.280 A
00:37:39.020 Spiritual
00:37:39.440 Thing
00:37:41.060 Right
00:37:41.960 So
00:37:42.080 We
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00:37:42.540 Understand
00:37:43.040 That
00:37:43.420 A
00:37:43.540 Lot
00:37:43.780 And
00:37:44.120 So
00:37:44.400 Doing
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00:37:45.060 Addiction
00:37:45.360 Psychiatry
00:37:46.100 You
00:37:46.680 Know
00:37:46.740 I
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00:37:46.980 Frequently
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00:37:48.180 Patients
00:37:48.620 To
00:37:48.820 Alcoholics
00:37:49.480 Anonymous
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00:37:50.960 Like
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00:37:58.260 I
00:37:58.480 Don't
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00:37:59.060 Think
00:37:59.340 This
00:37:59.560 Sort
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00:38:07.840 That
00:38:07.980 The
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00:38:08.180 Key
00:38:08.560 Thing
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00:38:09.040 The
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00:38:20.420 Church
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00:38:21.120 Assume
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00:38:21.900 For
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00:38:22.720 Even
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00:38:23.280 Meditation
00:38:23.740 Or
00:38:24.080 Start
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00:38:24.960 Musjid
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00:38:28.760 Are
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00:38:29.960 A
00:38:30.080 Particular
00:38:30.540 State
00:38:31.020 In
00:38:31.300 Their
00:38:31.460 Life
00:38:31.860 And
00:38:32.160 They
00:38:32.300 Start
00:38:32.640 Engaging
00:38:33.160 In
00:38:33.380 Spiritual
00:38:33.700 Practice
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00:38:35.160 12
00:38:35.540 Weeks
00:38:36.200 What
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00:38:37.660 Them
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00:38:38.840 How
00:38:39.080 Much
00:38:39.440 And
00:38:41.760 That's
00:38:42.080 A
00:38:42.200 Question
00:38:42.520 That
00:38:42.880 I've
00:38:43.400 Never
00:38:43.720 Heard
00:38:44.280 A
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00:38:45.620 Answer
00:38:45.920 To
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00:38:46.880 Can
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00:38:47.200 That
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00:38:49.520 Practice
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00:38:56.720 Heart
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00:38:59.240 Can't
00:38:59.540 Measure
00:38:59.900 Belief
00:39:00.700 Is 0.88
00:39:00.940 Almost
00:39:01.440 Impossible
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00:39:05.160 Not
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00:39:05.700 True
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00:39:07.320 I
00:39:07.440 Think
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00:39:07.980 The
00:39:08.220 Weak
00:39:08.460 The
00:39:08.700 Fundamental
00:39:09.260 Weakness
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00:39:12.920 So
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00:39:13.200 Advantage
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00:39:15.340 That
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00:39:16.840 More
00:39:17.900 Impervious
00:39:18.900 To
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00:39:21.960 If
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00:39:22.180 Take
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00:39:22.480 Hundred
00:39:22.660 People
00:39:23.040 Who
00:39:23.240 Are
00:39:23.360 Addicted
00:39:23.640 To
00:39:23.800 Alcohol
00:39:24.240 And
00:39:24.560 I
00:39:24.700 Send
00:39:24.900 Them
00:39:25.000 To
00:39:25.120 Church
00:39:25.460 And
00:39:25.640 I
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00:39:25.940 Them
00:39:26.060 To
00:39:26.200 A
00:39:26.320 Therapist
00:39:26.780 The
00:39:27.300 Whole
00:39:27.460 Point
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00:39:28.060 Psychotherapy
00:39:28.640 Is 0.88
00:39:28.880 An
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00:39:29.580 Practice
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00:39:30.580 That
00:39:30.760 It
00:39:30.900 Reliably
00:39:31.780 Gets
00:39:32.300 A
00:39:32.660 Certain
00:39:32.920 Kind
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00:39:33.280 Result
00:39:33.500 That's
00:39:33.720 How
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00:39:34.000 Designed
00:39:34.540 That's
00:39:35.100 How
00:39:35.220 It
00:39:35.340 Gets
00:39:35.500 Improved
00:39:35.940 Right
00:39:37.100 Now
00:39:37.380 Can
00:39:38.440 Psychotherapy
00:39:39.780 Go
00:39:40.220 As
00:39:40.680 Far
00:39:41.160 As
00:39:42.540 Spiritual
00:39:43.260 Practice
00:39:43.700 Can
00:39:44.100 My
00:39:44.820 Guess
00:39:45.140 Is 0.88
00:39:45.320 Probably
00:39:45.800 Not
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00:39:46.680 I
00:39:46.820 Think
00:39:46.960 The
00:39:47.120 Whole
00:39:47.640 Advantage
00:39:48.060 Of
00:39:48.220 Evidence
00:39:48.580 Based
00:39:48.860 Medicine
00:39:49.240 Is 0.88
00:39:49.460 That
00:39:49.600 It's
00:39:49.740 Reliable
00:39:50.360 It's
00:39:51.520 Reliably
00:39:52.040 Effective
00:39:52.600 Okay
00:39:53.120 Well
00:39:53.600 If
00:39:53.980 We
00:39:54.120 Peel
00:39:54.620 Back
00:39:54.840 A
00:39:54.980 Layer
00:39:55.160 You
00:39:55.420 Said
00:39:55.780 Psychotherapy
00:39:56.600 Or
00:39:57.440 Therapy
00:39:57.860 Solves
00:39:58.280 Illness
00:39:58.880 Correct
00:39:59.340 That's
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00:40:05.500 What
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00:40:07.100 That
00:40:07.360 When
00:40:07.960 Everybody
00:40:08.300 Thinks
00:40:08.720 They're
00:40:08.900 Ill
00:40:09.180 Then
00:40:09.820 Everybody
00:40:10.880 Requires
00:40:12.440 Psychotherapy
00:40:13.120 And
00:40:13.320 I
00:40:13.560 Think
00:40:13.720 Nowadays
00:40:14.640 More
00:40:15.200 People
00:40:15.420 Think
00:40:15.640 They're
00:40:15.900 Ill
00:40:16.080 Than
00:40:16.720 Ever
00:40:16.920 Because
00:40:17.400 It's
00:40:17.800 So
00:40:17.920 Profitable
00:40:18.440 It's
00:40:19.220 Such
00:40:19.340 A
00:40:19.440 Profitable
00:40:19.720 Industry
00:40:20.120 I've
00:40:20.860 Talked
00:40:21.020 To
00:40:21.140 Someone
00:40:21.580 Recently
00:40:21.920 Who
00:40:22.060 Went
00:40:22.180 To
00:40:22.280 Therapy
00:40:22.700 And
00:40:23.600 Their
00:40:23.720 Problems
00:40:24.020 Were
00:40:24.120 Just
00:40:24.260 So
00:40:24.480 Minuscule
00:40:25.020 And
00:40:25.960 They're
00:40:26.160 Ranting
00:40:26.620 To
00:40:26.800 Me
00:40:26.880 On
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00:45:26.060 Someone
00:45:26.320 Has
00:45:26.540 Every
00:45:26.820 Reason
00:45:27.140 To
00:45:27.300 Be
00:45:27.440 Happy
00:45:27.760 Yeah
00:45:28.620 Right
00:45:29.760 And
00:45:30.660 They're
00:45:30.820 Not
00:45:31.080 Happy
00:45:31.460 Get
00:45:34.260 Over
00:45:34.460 It
00:45:34.680 What
00:45:35.660 Isn't
00:45:35.940 But
00:45:36.720 Doesn't
00:45:39.020 That
00:45:39.240 Imply
00:45:39.580 That
00:45:39.780 There's
00:45:40.000 Something
00:45:40.260 Wrong
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00:45:40.740 Them
00:45:40.900 Because
00:45:41.100 They
00:45:41.260 Should
00:45:41.440 Be
00:45:41.580 Happy
00:45:41.860 Right
00:45:42.080 I
00:45:43.360 Don't
00:45:43.500 Think
00:45:43.620 People
00:45:43.820 Should
00:45:44.060 View
00:45:44.880 Existence
00:45:46.960 Based
00:45:47.240 On
00:45:47.440 That
00:45:47.660 Scale
00:45:48.060 Like
00:45:48.400 Am
00:45:48.600 I
00:45:48.720 Happy
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00:45:49.080 I
00:45:49.180 Not
00:45:49.320 Happy
00:45:49.560 They
00:45:49.720 Should
00:45:49.980 Just
00:45:50.880 Survive
00:45:51.460 And
00:45:51.620 Live
00:45:52.000 Because
00:45:52.300 They
00:45:52.520 They
00:45:52.600 They're
00:45:53.100 Given
00:45:53.360 A
00:45:53.560 Life
00:45:53.880 It's
00:45:54.920 Not
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00:45:55.260 Not
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00:45:55.740 It's
00:45:55.960 But
00:45:56.780 Forget
00:45:57.120 About
00:45:57.260 Should
00:45:57.880 I'm
00:45:58.380 I'm
00:45:58.760 Taking
00:45:59.020 Your
00:45:59.240 Premise
00:45:59.660 Okay
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00:46:00.680 Premise
00:46:01.040 Was
00:46:01.240 Like
00:46:01.500 This
00:46:01.680 Person
00:46:02.100 Has
00:46:02.580 A
00:46:02.680 Life
00:46:02.980 They've
00:46:03.300 Got
00:46:03.440 This
00:46:03.700 They've
00:46:03.920 Got
00:46:04.060 This
00:46:04.300 They've
00:46:04.520 Got
00:46:04.660 This
00:46:04.960 They're
00:46:05.140 Breathing
00:46:05.360 And
00:46:05.580 They're
00:46:05.740 Not
00:46:05.920 Happy
00:46:06.240 Right
00:46:07.640 Like
00:46:08.060 They're
00:46:08.200 Not
00:46:08.360 In
00:46:08.500 Gaza
00:46:08.780 So
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00:46:11.380 If
00:46:11.500 They're
00:46:11.660 Unhappy
00:46:12.240 What
00:46:13.520 Do
00:46:13.620 You
00:46:13.720 Think
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00:46:19.980 They
00:46:20.260 Have
00:46:20.380 Like
00:46:20.540 What
00:46:20.700 Are
00:46:20.780 They
00:46:20.880 Doing
00:46:21.140 What
00:46:21.340 Are
00:46:21.420 They
00:46:21.600 Putting
00:46:22.200 Into
00:46:22.400 Their
00:46:22.520 Mind
00:46:22.720 But
00:46:24.060 They
00:46:25.300 Can
00:46:25.480 Fall
00:46:25.760 Back
00:46:26.060 On
00:46:26.240 Believing
00:46:26.600 That
00:46:26.780 They
00:46:26.860 Have
00:46:26.980 A
00:46:27.080 Chemical
00:46:27.340 Imbalance
00:46:27.960 Or
00:46:28.580 That
00:46:28.760 They
00:46:28.880 Have
00:46:29.100 Anxiety
00:46:29.880 Or
00:46:30.000 Something
00:46:30.220 Or
00:46:30.380 They
00:46:30.500 Need
00:46:30.880 Therapy
00:46:31.340 Or
00:46:31.700 Maybe
00:46:31.920 There's
00:46:32.360 A
00:46:32.500 There's
00:46:32.660 A
00:46:32.740 Bigger
00:46:32.940 Reason
00:46:33.180 Forget
00:46:33.540 About
00:46:33.740 Forget
00:46:34.440 About
00:46:34.660 What
00:46:34.800 They
00:46:34.920 Believe
00:46:35.300 What
00:46:35.940 Do
00:46:36.060 You
00:46:36.200 Think
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00:46:36.940 The
00:46:37.200 Reason
00:46:37.800 That
00:46:38.820 Someone
00:46:39.140 Who
00:46:39.440 Has
00:46:39.780 Every
00:46:40.220 Reason
00:46:41.200 To
00:46:41.420 Be
00:46:41.600 Happy
00:46:41.980 If
00:46:43.440 That
00:46:43.600 Person
00:46:43.920 Was
00:46:44.140 Suicidal
00:46:44.820 How
00:46:45.240 Do
00:46:45.440 You
00:46:45.580 Understand
00:46:46.020 That
00:46:46.420 I
00:46:46.900 Think
00:46:47.060 It's
00:46:47.220 Too
00:46:47.340 Much
00:46:47.480 Introspection
00:46:48.100 I
00:46:49.760 Think
00:46:49.880 Too
00:46:50.040 Much
00:46:50.260 Introspection
00:46:50.880 Something
00:46:52.420 Like
00:46:52.620 Therapy
00:46:52.960 Can
00:46:53.120 Make
00:46:53.300 People
00:46:53.640 Unhappy
00:46:55.240 Because
00:46:55.540 They're
00:46:55.700 Always
00:46:56.060 Thinking
00:46:56.380 About
00:46:56.600 How
00:46:56.740 They
00:46:56.860 Should
00:46:57.020 Be
00:46:57.140 Happy
00:46:57.440 This
00:46:58.280 Person
00:46:58.580 Isn't
00:46:58.900 In
00:46:59.080 Therapy
00:46:59.440 Right
00:46:59.660 Or
00:46:59.880 Are
00:47:00.260 They
00:47:00.400 In
00:47:00.520 Therapy
00:47:00.840 Right
00:47:01.360 I'm
00:47:01.880 Trying
00:47:02.080 To
00:47:02.220 Start
00:47:02.700 With
00:47:02.900 Your
00:47:03.080 Example
00:47:03.620 That
00:47:03.800 You
00:47:03.960 Laid
00:47:04.180 Out
00:47:04.420 Okay
00:47:04.820 So
00:47:05.940 Like
00:47:06.220 This
00:47:06.700 Person
00:47:07.020 Has
00:47:07.260 Every
00:47:07.660 Reason
00:47:08.020 To
00:47:08.340 Be
00:47:08.500 Happy
00:47:08.800 But
00:47:09.060 They're
00:47:09.260 Not
00:47:09.460 Happy
00:47:09.820 How
00:47:11.040 Do
00:47:11.160 You
00:47:11.260 Understand
00:47:11.680 What's
00:47:11.980 Wrong
00:47:12.180 With
00:47:12.340 Them
00:47:12.540 I
00:47:14.000 Think
00:47:14.240 They
00:47:14.560 Are
00:47:14.760 Too
00:47:15.560 Introspective
00:47:16.360 If
00:47:16.580 They're
00:47:16.740 Thinking
00:47:17.000 That
00:47:17.240 Way
00:47:17.460 And
00:47:18.260 So
00:47:18.420 They
00:47:18.580 Should
00:47:18.760 Live
00:47:19.080 More
00:47:19.560 In
00:47:19.860 The
00:47:19.980 Present
00:47:20.320 And
00:47:21.260 Be
00:47:21.480 Appreciative
00:47:22.000 Of
00:47:22.180 Things
00:47:22.420 Like
00:47:22.600 Water
00:47:22.980 Like
00:47:23.360 Sun
00:47:23.720 Like
00:47:24.260 Family
00:47:24.700 Like
00:47:25.120 Life
00:47:25.520 Instead
00:47:26.060 The
00:47:27.320 Solution
00:47:27.760 Is 0.88
00:47:28.420 More
00:47:28.660 Often
00:47:28.940 Time
00:47:29.180 Action
00:47:29.780 Rather
00:47:30.240 Than
00:47:30.620 Inaction
00:47:31.180 Is 0.88
00:47:32.320 Being
00:47:33.000 Outward
00:47:33.500 Living
00:47:33.780 In
00:47:33.940 The
00:47:34.020 World
00:47:35.120 Rather
00:47:35.420 Than
00:47:35.600 In
00:47:35.700 Their
00:47:35.800 Heads
00:47:36.120 What
00:47:37.340 Do
00:47:37.540 You
00:47:37.680 Think
00:47:38.080 Determines
00:47:39.100 Someone's
00:47:39.640 Capability
00:47:40.320 Of
00:47:40.780 Being
00:47:41.080 Introspective
00:47:42.140 Or
00:47:42.500 Action
00:47:42.940 Oriented
00:47:43.420 So
00:47:44.660 There's
00:47:44.860 A
00:47:45.040 Variance
00:47:45.700 In
00:47:45.840 The
00:47:45.960 Population
00:47:46.460 Right
00:47:46.700 Some
00:47:46.900 People
00:47:47.140 Are
00:47:47.280 Action
00:47:47.540 Oriented
00:47:47.920 Some
00:47:48.160 People
00:47:48.420 Are
00:47:48.540 Introspective
00:47:49.140 How
00:47:49.800 Does
00:47:50.940 One
00:47:51.200 End
00:47:51.500 Up
00:47:51.700 In
00:47:51.820 Either
00:47:52.000 Camp
00:47:52.280 It
00:47:53.560 Depends
00:47:53.940 It
00:47:54.140 Could
00:47:54.440 Be
00:47:54.540 Personality
00:47:55.120 Type
00:47:55.520 It
00:47:55.840 Could
00:47:55.960 Be
00:47:56.180 Environment
00:47:56.900 But
00:47:57.700 You
00:47:58.660 Can
00:47:58.840 Be
00:47:58.980 Introspective
00:47:59.520 And
00:47:59.620 Be
00:47:59.760 Happy
00:48:00.060 But
00:48:00.540 If
00:48:00.680 You're
00:48:00.840 Saying
00:48:01.100 I'm
00:48:01.460 Unhappy
00:48:01.800 And
00:48:01.940 There's
00:48:02.040 No
00:48:05.800 That's
00:48:05.980 Probably
00:48:06.320 The
00:48:06.520 Reason
00:48:06.700 Why
00:48:07.000 But
00:48:09.340 If
00:48:09.580 You're
00:48:09.960 Saying
00:48:10.220 That
00:48:10.420 Personality
00:48:10.860 And
00:48:11.420 Environment
00:48:11.920 Determine
00:48:12.520 Your
00:48:12.700 Level
00:48:12.980 Of
00:48:13.160 Introspectiveness
00:48:13.940 Yes
00:48:14.460 Right
00:48:14.780 Yes
00:48:15.240 So
00:48:16.360 If
00:48:16.680 My
00:48:16.820 Personality
00:48:17.220 In
00:48:17.640 My
00:48:17.820 Environment
00:48:18.360 Let's
00:48:18.640 Say
00:48:18.780 I'm
00:48:18.960 Like
00:48:19.160 Like
00:48:19.420 How
00:48:19.700 Let's
00:48:20.100 Just
00:48:20.260 Say
00:48:20.520 You're
00:48:20.920 Introspective
00:48:21.720 At
00:48:22.000 25
00:48:22.380 Out
00:48:22.660 Of
00:48:22.740 100
00:48:23.020 I'm
00:48:23.960 Just
00:48:24.100 Assigning
00:48:24.460 You
00:48:24.620 A
00:48:24.720 Random 0.98
00:48:24.900 Ass 0.93
00:48:25.140 Number 0.99
00:48:25.380 Let's
00:48:26.120 Say
00:48:26.220 I'm
00:48:26.460 Introspective
00:48:27.160 At
00:48:27.400 90
00:48:27.700 Out
00:48:27.860 Of
00:48:27.940 100
00:48:28.220 Okay
00:48:29.060 So
00:48:30.140 And
00:48:30.500 The
00:48:30.660 Reason
00:48:30.860 I'm
00:48:31.080 Introspective
00:48:31.600 At
00:48:31.700 90
00:48:31.960 Out
00:48:32.140 Of
00:48:32.220 100
00:48:32.480 Is 0.88
00:48:32.700 Because
00:48:32.900 Of
00:48:33.060 My
00:48:33.200 Personality
00:48:33.780 And
00:48:34.040 My
00:48:34.180 Environment
00:48:34.560 I
00:48:34.840 Have
00:48:34.940 A
00:48:35.060 Perfectly
00:48:35.420 Good
00:48:35.560 Life
00:48:35.840 But
00:48:36.000 I
00:48:36.100 Happen
00:48:36.360 To
00:48:36.440 Be 0.80
00:48:36.560 Suicidal 0.90
00:48:37.140 Okay
00:48:39.360 Okay
00:48:39.880 So
00:48:40.300 At
00:48:41.260 That
00:48:41.540 Point
00:48:41.860 Like
00:48:42.380 I'm
00:48:44.100 Introspective
00:48:44.860 Right
00:48:45.840 So
00:48:47.100 What
00:48:47.740 Am I
00:48:47.980 Supposed
00:48:48.220 To
00:48:48.380 Do
00:48:48.580 Like
00:48:48.800 That's
00:48:49.080 Not
00:48:49.300 It's
00:48:49.700 Not
00:48:49.840 My
00:48:50.000 Choice
00:48:50.420 This
00:48:50.960 Is 0.88
00:48:51.100 The
00:48:51.220 Way
00:48:51.380 That
00:48:51.540 My
00:48:51.680 Brain
00:48:51.900 Works
00:48:52.300 Well
00:48:53.980 I'm
00:48:54.100 Saying
00:48:54.240 It's
00:48:54.360 A
00:48:54.420 Combination
00:48:54.740 Of
00:48:54.940 Environment
00:48:55.620 And
00:48:56.300 Something
00:48:56.660 That's
00:48:56.840 Sure
00:48:57.640 But
00:48:57.780 It's
00:48:58.160 Also
00:48:58.300 Something
00:48:58.460 You
00:48:58.560 Can
00:48:58.660 Change
00:48:59.120 Like
00:48:59.620 Thinking
00:49:00.120 Is 0.88
00:49:00.400 An
00:49:00.520 Action
00:49:00.800 You
00:49:01.360 Know
00:49:01.460 You're
00:49:01.640 Choosing
00:49:01.980 It
00:49:02.460 Does
00:49:02.640 Burn
00:49:02.920 Calories
00:49:03.500 Thinking
00:49:03.900 Is 0.88
00:49:04.380 In
00:49:04.840 A
00:49:04.920 Way
00:49:05.060 An
00:49:05.180 Action
00:49:05.360 So
00:49:06.020 Act
00:49:06.980 More
00:49:07.500 With
00:49:07.800 Your
00:49:07.920 Hands
00:49:08.260 In
00:49:08.600 Externally
00:49:09.600 Than
00:49:10.040 Acting
00:49:10.420 So
00:49:10.740 Internally
00:49:11.360 Absolutely
00:49:13.400 Right
00:49:13.700 But
00:49:13.880 That
00:49:14.100 Is 0.88
00:49:14.260 A
00:49:14.400 Predisposition
00:49:15.600 That
00:49:15.860 You
00:49:16.060 Have
00:49:16.380 Because
00:49:16.700 You're
00:49:16.900 Action
00:49:17.200 Oriented
00:49:17.720 You're
00:49:18.900 Not
00:49:19.040 I
00:49:20.100 Am
00:49:20.920 An
00:49:21.500 Introspective
00:49:21.940 Person
00:49:22.220 You
00:49:22.520 Know
00:49:22.620 I
00:49:23.160 Actually
00:49:23.720 Change
00:49:24.100 I'm
00:49:24.700 A
00:49:24.800 Very
00:49:26.840 Introspective
00:49:29.020 And
00:49:29.600 I
00:49:30.180 Worked
00:49:30.660 It
00:49:30.740 Out
00:49:30.900 And
00:49:31.040 Now
00:49:31.420 As
00:49:32.020 I
00:49:32.120 Grow
00:49:32.280 Older 0.87
00:49:32.640 I
00:49:32.740 Become
00:49:33.000 More
00:49:33.400 You
00:49:34.080 Know
00:49:34.180 More
00:49:34.400 Extroverted
00:49:34.880 They
00:49:35.060 Say
00:49:35.280 Or
00:49:35.520 More
00:49:36.220 Can
00:49:37.300 You
00:49:37.440 Tell
00:49:37.560 Me
00:49:37.740 About
00:49:38.220 That
00:49:38.400 Journey
00:49:38.780 Okay
00:49:41.160 So
00:49:41.400 I
00:49:41.780 I
00:49:41.980 Guess
00:49:42.220 Yeah
00:49:42.860 When
00:49:43.000 I
00:49:43.060 Was
00:49:43.160 Younger
00:49:43.480 I
00:49:43.580 Was
00:49:43.680 Less
00:49:44.060 Social
00:49:44.440 I
00:49:44.860 Was
00:49:45.020 More
00:49:45.360 Introverted
00:49:46.340 I
00:49:47.180 Didn't
00:49:47.540 Really
00:49:47.740 Communicate
00:49:48.160 The
00:49:48.340 Way
00:49:48.460 That
00:49:48.600 I
00:49:48.680 Communicate
00:49:48.980 Now
00:49:49.200 With
00:49:49.340 Other
00:49:49.480 People
00:49:49.780 I
00:49:50.700 Thought
00:49:51.620 About
00:49:51.940 Myself
00:49:52.500 And
00:49:52.660 How
00:49:52.680 Did
00:49:52.840 You
00:49:52.860 Feel
00:49:56.840 I
00:49:57.140 Had
00:49:57.280 More
00:49:57.620 Feelings
00:49:59.040 Of
00:49:59.140 Inferiority
00:49:59.760 More
00:50:00.120 Insecurity
00:50:00.640 Less
00:50:01.540 I
00:50:02.060 Was
00:50:02.200 Less
00:50:02.340 Decisive
00:50:02.940 I
00:50:03.440 Was
00:50:03.540 More
00:50:03.800 Worried
00:50:04.440 About
00:50:04.600 What
00:50:04.720 Other
00:50:04.840 People
00:50:05.020 Thought
00:50:05.240 About
00:50:05.420 Me
00:50:05.620 I
00:50:06.040 Remember
00:50:06.200 There's
00:50:06.380 A
00:50:06.540 Specific
00:50:07.240 Example
00:50:07.560 I
00:50:07.640 Used
00:50:07.720 To
00:50:07.780 Walk
00:50:07.960 Around
00:50:08.140 Manhattan
00:50:08.500 And
00:50:09.460 You
00:50:09.840 Could
00:50:09.940 See
00:50:10.060 Your
00:50:10.160 Reflection
00:50:10.480 When
00:50:10.640 You
00:50:10.720 Walk
00:50:10.880 By
00:50:11.000 Buildings
00:50:11.320 In
00:50:11.620 The
00:50:11.720 Windows
00:50:12.100 And
00:50:12.780 I
00:50:12.860 Would
00:50:12.980 Constantly
00:50:13.360 Look
00:50:13.580 At
00:50:13.680 Myself
00:50:14.080 And
00:50:14.740 Wonder
00:50:15.080 What
00:50:15.520 Other
00:50:15.700 People
00:50:15.960 Were
00:50:16.140 Thinking
00:50:16.420 About
00:50:17.260 Me
00:50:17.520 And
00:50:18.140 I
00:50:18.240 Walk
00:50:26.840 Where
00:50:27.520 I
00:50:27.620 Realized
00:50:27.940 That
00:50:28.180 It
00:50:28.720 Doesn't
00:50:28.980 Matter
00:50:29.300 What
00:50:29.860 Other
00:50:30.020 People
00:50:30.260 Think
00:50:30.620 It
00:50:31.280 Doesn't
00:50:31.580 Why
00:50:32.000 Am I
00:50:32.240 Existing
00:50:32.660 For
00:50:32.860 Other
00:50:33.320 People
00:50:33.580 Instead
00:50:33.820 Of
00:50:33.920 For
00:50:34.000 Myself
00:50:34.420 So
00:50:34.920 It
00:50:35.100 Was
00:50:35.200 A
00:50:35.600 Decision
00:50:36.060 To
00:50:37.020 Change
00:50:37.320 So
00:50:38.200 You
00:50:38.380 Said
00:50:38.560 You
00:50:38.660 Had
00:50:38.780 A
00:50:38.880 Realization
00:50:39.460 Followed
00:50:39.940 By
00:50:40.080 A
00:50:40.200 Decision
00:50:40.580 Right
00:50:40.920 Yes
00:50:41.400 And
00:50:43.360 What
00:50:43.880 Would
00:50:44.040 Have
00:50:44.140 Happened
00:50:44.420 If
00:50:44.540 You
00:50:44.620 Didn't
00:50:44.800 Have
00:50:44.960 That
00:50:45.100 Realization
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00:50:48.220 Would
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00:50:52.260 Life
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00:50:52.680 As
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00:50:52.940 Now
00:50:53.160 Right
00:50:56.320 So
00:50:56.460 You
00:50:56.840 You
00:50:57.120 Acted
00:50:57.660 But
00:50:57.900 The
00:50:58.100 Realization
00:50:58.640 Came
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00:50:59.320 And
00:50:59.860 It
00:50:59.960 Sounds
00:51:00.120 Like
00:51:00.280 The
00:51:00.400 Realization
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00:51:02.640 Introspection
00:51:04.280 Or
00:51:04.500 Did
00:51:04.660 It
00:51:04.800 Not
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00:51:05.280 Introspection
00:51:05.840 No
00:51:07.380 The
00:51:07.600 Realization
00:51:08.120 Came
00:51:08.840 Afterwards
00:51:09.240 So
00:51:09.740 You
00:51:09.960 Are
00:51:10.300 People
00:51:11.480 Who
00:51:11.660 Don't
00:51:11.780 Have
00:51:11.900 That
00:51:12.020 Realization
00:51:12.400 Therapy
00:51:12.740 Can
00:51:12.860 Help
00:51:13.080 Lead
00:51:14.280 Them
00:51:14.380 To
00:51:14.480 That
00:51:14.600 Realization
00:51:15.020 That
00:51:16.780 Absolutely
00:51:17.660 A
00:51:18.060 Slice
00:51:18.440 Of
00:51:18.640 What
00:51:18.800 I
00:51:18.880 Have
00:51:19.000 A
00:51:19.640 To
00:51:19.920 Say
00:51:20.020 About
00:51:20.200 What
00:51:20.360 You
00:51:20.440 Said
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00:51:20.780 Far
00:51:20.960 I
00:51:21.240 Can
00:51:22.740 Do
00:51:23.380 That
00:51:24.960 Okay
00:51:25.860 So
00:51:26.560 I
00:51:26.860 Think
00:51:27.280 You're
00:51:27.680 Correct
00:51:29.500 About
00:51:29.920 A ton
00:51:30.220 Of
00:51:30.340 Stuff
00:51:30.640 I
00:51:31.380 Think
00:51:31.520 That
00:51:31.680 You're
00:51:31.920 Just
00:51:32.100 Missing
00:51:32.580 A
00:51:32.760 Couple 0.60
00:51:33.000 Of
00:51:33.140 Things
00:51:33.320 In
00:51:33.440 My
00:51:33.600 Opinion
00:51:33.920 Yes
00:51:34.480 So
00:51:34.940 The
00:51:35.740 First
00:51:36.060 Is 0.88
00:51:36.300 That
00:51:36.400 I
00:51:37.640 When
00:51:37.980 I
00:51:38.160 Think
00:51:38.400 About
00:51:38.720 A
00:51:39.040 Clinical
00:51:39.360 Depression
00:51:39.860 I
00:51:41.500 Think
00:51:41.820 About
00:51:42.080 Someone
00:51:42.460 Who
00:51:42.700 Has
00:51:42.880 Every
00:51:43.200 Reason
00:51:43.480 To
00:51:43.640 Be
00:51:43.780 Happy
00:51:44.040 And
00:51:44.260 Isn't
00:51:45.040 That
00:51:45.680 Is 0.88
00:51:45.880 What
00:51:46.060 Shows
00:51:46.360 Me
00:51:46.660 That
00:51:47.060 Something
00:51:47.320 Is 0.88
00:51:47.460 Broken
00:51:47.720 In
00:51:47.920 Their
00:51:48.040 Head
00:51:48.280 Right
00:51:49.580 So
00:51:49.780 If
00:51:49.880 you're if you're depressed because you're 28 years old you are physically unhealthy you have no social
00:51:57.980 life you watch pornography and play video games all day i don't think there's anything mentally
00:52:02.800 wrong with you from a mental illness standpoint i don't think that's pathological i think that's 0.99
00:52:07.480 congruent with your life if your life is shit you're gonna feel bad that's normal that's not 0.99
00:52:13.480 illness what i think is illness is if you're 46 years old you make 600 000 or 800 000 a year 0.99
00:52:23.080 you're married you have two kids you have a wife who's loving faithful um you are tall you're handsome
00:52:30.960 you're successful and you want to kill yourself every single day do you see there's a major thing
00:52:36.380 you left out of that equation of that life sure it's spiritual purpose it's a greater purpose like
00:52:42.720 you're not living for you're not in your career to get validation from your boss or to get a raise
00:52:49.520 your purpose isn't specifically to have a good home and to be a successful guy with a mowed lawn
00:52:54.660 your purpose is greater than that it's serving god and i think that person if they if they want to if
00:53:00.640 they're if they have those circumstances like like you just laid out and you did leave out
00:53:03.920 a greater spiritual purpose it's because that they can't find they don't know what it is and
00:53:09.480 spirituality solves that unreliably right so make this person goes to church and has a relationship 0.98
00:53:19.260 with god right so people in church will i haven't met that guy i don't i don't i don't know this
00:53:25.200 person i i know that that example you're bringing up obviously this is anecdotal evidence but i've never
00:53:31.120 seen that happen you know the people that end up like if you bring up you know perfect example be
00:53:35.160 like anthony bourdain or robin williams some people say robin williams had alzheimer's he had
00:53:40.060 some some condition but let's say he didn't or anthony bourdain perfect example you watch the like
00:53:44.320 first episode of his tv show and he goes to i think oscar wilde's hotel room in paris where oscar
00:53:49.400 wilde killed himself i can't i'm not sure if that's the right uh author or artist whatever but he goes
00:53:55.000 there and he's like saying oh whoa all these parisian artists killed themselves and overdose here he's
00:53:58.620 kind of like you know he likes the allure of the artist who ended up you know with that grieving
00:54:04.100 sad life anthony bourdain ended up killing himself in his early 60s and he had a daughter he had a
00:54:10.080 wife he had a good life successful career all this thing but he never had a connection to god that was
00:54:14.680 the major thing lacking and that's why i think he did something so selfish just to off himself while
00:54:19.280 having a daughter and having a wife and i see some of his fans they say anthony bourdain oh what a 1.00
00:54:24.780 tormented soul when i see that guy i think what a selfish asshole what what a narcissistic 1.00
00:54:31.280 self-involved piece of shit to do that while he has a daughter while he has a wife around 1.00
00:54:36.520 without even leaving a note hanging himself in a hotel room for people to find his body 1.00
00:54:40.500 because he wants to be remembered as a tormented depressed artist i think he was obsessed with that
00:54:46.080 idea and if he had a greater purpose rather than living for himself and for his legacy he would
00:54:51.700 have never done that i mean i i think that's a completely valid opinion right so so what what
00:55:01.720 this i mean i'm detecting a couple things i'll go back to my original answer but i think that um
00:55:07.160 so when this is interesting give me a second go ahead
00:55:14.740 how's it going so far chat what else what else should i say
00:55:26.660 how's this going okay so let's go back to what well i'm going to try to address your like kind of
00:55:35.940 earlier a lot of what you said so i i think that generally speaking you know when someone has a
00:55:42.840 shitty life and they come in and they say they're depressed i think that there's ample evidence
00:55:47.520 that shows that if you have a shitty life your mood is likely to be crap okay and that oftentimes 0.94
00:55:55.240 this is i mean the whole reason that i started streaming on twitch and the whole reason i started 0.87
00:56:00.360 a coaching program is because i had so many patients come into my office where i thought that
00:56:05.420 talking to me about your feelings for an hour is not going to be nearly as effective
00:56:11.780 at improving your life as finding a romantic relationship getting a job or a career that 0.84
00:56:18.740 you can be proud of um actually getting your ass to the gym like doing things like you talk about 0.99
00:56:25.940 wanting to write a science fiction fantasy novel that's dystopian let's fucking write it 0.96
00:56:33.060 right so the whole reason that i i started this is is because i i think that there's and there's 0.56
00:56:39.680 ample evidence and i think most psychiatrists and psychotherapists understand this that
00:56:43.580 that you know if we look at the mental health crisis that we're seeing today in the world
00:56:48.180 a lot of it is an economic crisis like a lot of it is a crisis of loneliness at its root
00:56:55.640 that a lot of the a lot of the structures that supported people's socialization are like
00:57:03.960 disintegrating around us so when when a human being does not get the right kind of inputs
00:57:10.940 they can manifest something like a mental illness now let's talk about a couple of other things so
00:57:17.520 you mentioned that people have main character syndrome i think there's also an overwhelming amount
00:57:22.520 of evidence no well maybe not overwhelming that's just how strongly i feel about it there's plenty
00:57:27.220 of evidence that shows that increased technology usage and increased social media usage being on our
00:57:33.580 phones all the time increases our narcissistic dimension of our personality right the more that
00:57:40.360 you judge a human being the more narcissistic they become so when you're judged a lot you're going to
00:57:46.880 become narcissistic that's just sort of how it works doesn't always happen that way but the default
00:57:51.740 response is to be become more narcissistic but before you can i interject real quick just one
00:57:57.900 observation before i don't want to interrupt your change of thought but i noticed that the tone has
00:58:02.460 shifted like therapy and psychotherapy a couple years ago used to be chemical imbalance used to be
00:58:07.640 mental health crisis based off of you know random that you something you could catch now the language
00:58:14.320 i'm hearing before you continue it sounds like it's self-inflicted you're lonely because you're addicted 0.86
00:58:19.900 to porn you're depressed because you're poor and you're not fulfilling how do you get self-inflicted
00:58:24.780 from what i said are you talking about language that i didn't use well you're saying that the majority 0.92
00:58:31.820 of the mental health crisis is due to socioeconomic factors which sounds like it's you know these are
00:58:37.980 circumstances that are more controllable rather than uncontrollable a few years back when i was in college
00:58:42.620 and everybody was on ssris and everyone was on uh adhd pills they were all thinking that it was
00:58:48.300 something that they just caught it was a chemical imbalance now the language is okay maybe you're 0.99
00:58:51.980 depressed because you're a lonely loser who's addicted to porn that's what i just noticed from your 0.98
00:58:57.180 response i'm super confused because when we say that there's an economic crisis that's circumstances 0.99
00:59:05.020 not self-inflicted okay that's true self-inflicted my point is that the chemical imbalance language has has
00:59:12.060 has hindered quite a bit right rather than it just being something you catch it's like obviously the
00:59:17.420 socioeconomic crisis that it's not everybody's fault but it is something that's controllable rather than
00:59:22.620 uncontrollable it's a situation that they can get themselves out of rather than something that they
00:59:26.460 caught in their brain why would you there's also i think there's a weird there's all kinds of like
00:59:33.660 associations that you form that i don't if something is a chemical imbalance what makes
00:59:37.580 you think that it's not modifiable by you
00:59:41.980 but my point is the language 10 years ago when this was blowing up and everybody was was that it
00:59:47.420 was just something wrong that it wasn't at all circumstantial but just something that happened to
00:59:52.540 people like catching covid that's okay that's that's my point so i think there's a couple of reasons
00:59:59.660 for that okay the first is um i think things have changed and so the cool thing about medicine science
01:00:09.020 and psychotherapy is that we tend to do a pretty good job of evolving with the times and studying
01:00:14.780 what happens so i think that like you know if we look at the last 10 years the world is very different
01:00:21.900 and the reasons that people are suffering mentally i think are fundamental there there's a couple of
01:00:27.900 fundamental big changes which have happened which means that the etiology which means the cause
01:00:33.180 the cause of the illness is changing right so the factors that people the people the world that people
01:00:39.020 are growing up in is shaping them in a way that it didn't shape them 10 years ago 20 years ago 25 years
01:00:46.460 ago okay does that make sense so i i think you're right that the language is changing there's a couple of
01:00:51.740 other things so there's a great paper that came out i think in molecular size psychiatry that basically
01:00:58.300 made the claim which i think has a lot of um merit i'm not saying that they're right that the serotonin
01:01:08.300 deficiency hypothesis of depression is not supported by evidence okay were you did you believe that back
01:01:14.540 then were you repeating that no oh okay you're one of the good ones i i don't know i wouldn't call
01:01:26.780 myself a good one i could be wrong no right i i i want more psychotherapists who push that
01:01:36.780 serotonin depletion because of a chemical imbalance i want them to take more responsibility for that because
01:01:40.940 i've been pushing on against that pushing back against that for 10 years and people said that i
01:01:45.740 was you know not sympathetic they said i was demonizing depressed people they said that i was
01:01:50.780 that i should believe victims right i faced a lot of backlash for that and it seems like i've been
01:01:55.660 vindicated that it's not you know serotonin depletion is more often due to circumstances that
01:02:01.340 are controllable rather than uncontrollable so it sounds like you it really what was it like when people
01:02:08.940 basically attacked you for doubting what people were saying about a serotonin about they said you're 0.99
01:02:14.700 like oh my friend killed himself and you are insensitive you piece of shit uh they would get 1.00
01:02:20.780 really upset and i'm like i'm right and you're mad and that's just one of those factors one of those 1.00
01:02:28.140 situations where i said something before it was deemed socially acceptable and as soon as it becomes
01:02:34.300 socially acceptable people don't admit that they were wrong right and they they move on quickly
01:02:38.860 without you know properly addressing their mistakes and those are those are very dangerous mistakes i
01:02:45.900 think people who push that chemical imbalance lie and made all of my peers all of my everybody in my
01:02:51.420 dorm i would say at least 80 percent were taking ssris because they thought that they just caught
01:02:56.620 depression and we move on we act like that didn't happen but this was very very normal i mean i went to
01:03:02.060 a whole high school i went to a boarding school in new hampshire where everyone all the parents were
01:03:05.660 sending them there because they thought that their kids were just depressed for no reason and there
01:03:09.420 was a mental health problem that they they didn't know how to fix
01:03:14.060 without yeah so without medication without you know all these practices what was that like for you 1.00
01:03:18.700 to to to believe something and get like tell everyone tell you like oh you're such an asshole basically 1.00
01:03:23.740 right you're a dick for believing this and like everyone's fucking drinking the kool-aid and 1.00
01:03:28.060 you're like i don't want to drink the kool-aid did anyone ever call you depressed not really no okay 1.00
01:03:35.580 no and so what's it like to be vindicated which seems so important to you i i'm catching that you
01:03:41.740 caught on to the frustration which i i think yeah i i know you caught that that that's a repeated
01:03:47.500 theme since i last spoke to you is i am vindicated about a lot of things that i was demonized for saying
01:03:53.820 too early for the public to understand and it's frustrating that and that's something i'm working 0.94
01:03:59.740 on like it it has increased some bitterness where i'm like these fucking like i saw this movie eddington 0.95
01:04:05.500 right it's a movie by ari aster and it's about 2020 covet and it's about the george floyd riots at 0.91
01:04:10.220 the height of covet paranoia and everything and i remember at that time i did not get the covet vaccine
01:04:15.020 i was speaking out against it i was calling the george floyd looting and all the riots i was 0.70
01:04:18.860 saying that this is stupid they said that you are against the black lives matter movement you're 0.98
01:04:23.100 propagating racism and you should not be able to see your grandmother because you're going to get 1.00
01:04:27.180 everybody sick and you're a super spreader people moved on now they watch the movie and laugh and i
01:04:32.460 sat in that movie theater i'm like watching it was in new york city i'm watching everyone laugh at this
01:04:35.660 and i'm like you didn't let me go into a restaurant without i had to show my fake vaccine card everywhere
01:04:40.700 i traveled with this right i was deep you said that i'm a bad person for not posting a black square
01:04:45.740 on instagram but then everyone laughs now and act like they're acting like they didn't
01:04:50.460 you know push that craziness that propaganda everybody i remember back then all these
01:04:54.300 people in college that were taking ssris because they had a chemical imbalance because that's what
01:04:58.220 they read online now that they moved on they don't tell they don't say like oh actually you know what
01:05:03.340 i'm sorry for demonizing you and ironically when you push somebody away and you call them crazy that's 0.80
01:05:10.780 one of the quickest routes to to make them mentally ill and to give them mental health problems when you
01:05:14.540 isolate somebody call them crazy and say that they're a bad person when they're really trying 0.52
01:05:18.780 to be healthy oh for years for years they still do but i mean the more time passes the more i'm
01:05:28.220 being vindicated but they say i'm crazy less now what's it like to be vindicated
01:05:36.940 annoying annoying tell me about it right oh man that's such a good word
01:05:42.540 yeah definitely introspective that's that's a good word you know annoying because
01:05:51.660 yeah i totally get you what's annoying about it you want me to answer or you want to answer
01:05:57.900 i want you to i want you to answer i think i think i kind of i kind of did answer already
01:06:03.020 no no no no what's annoying about it well what i just said it's annoying that people move on like
01:06:09.100 they didn't push the propaganda that they fell for right they they don't admit the wrongdoing
01:06:15.900 and it's annoying because it seems like it's so repeatable if they don't say like man i wasn't
01:06:21.980 so stupid for believing that i couldn't sit next to somebody without a mask on but then i lowered it
01:06:29.820 and then ate the food while they were eating who were both breathing all over our plates on the plane 0.98
01:06:33.980 and then put it back on and like all the dirty stairs i got because i wasn't wearing a mask
01:06:37.820 the fact that they don't self-reflect and director there's any introspection on on that aspect
01:06:43.100 it seems like this is going to happen again and it will and more people will fall for these very
01:06:48.220 easily debunked lies
01:06:52.780 okay so i i think
01:06:55.260 would you say that when people judged you in this way that it hurt
01:07:17.500 no i don't think it hurt because i knew i was right and i think it may be mentally stronger
01:07:25.580 so no i wouldn't say i was no i don't think so
01:07:30.700 okay i i would be surprised if you use that word too but i think it did hurt
01:07:39.340 but i think it hurts just because you're mentally strong doesn't i mean so you mentioned mental
01:07:43.420 strength and usually you need strength right yeah when you go to the gym you break down your muscles
01:07:48.220 and then they repair so i would i would probably admit that it hurt if i fell victim to it but i did
01:07:54.140 it you know i just i was able to
01:07:57.660 rise out of the ashes like a phoenix right but then you're in the ashes like you got burned bro
01:08:04.300 you see what i'm saying like i think there's an association here i i think that there's that the
01:08:08.780 the word bothers you a lot but i think that's what happened does that sort of make sense like
01:08:12.940 i understand i understand like okay well by the analogy is like when you go to the gym and you have
01:08:17.340 a great workout you're not like that hurt you're like whoo it's like it's like uh in a masochistic
01:08:23.340 way the pain is good because you know that it's going to make you better you understand like what
01:08:26.620 if you do a really big set of the bench you're not like oh my god fight it's pain you're not like
01:08:30.380 it's painful it's a good pain so it's it's sure it's different than hurt yeah i'm with you right
01:08:36.940 so i i would say that it hurt right and then it's just a good hurt not all hurt is bad and
01:08:43.980 not all hurt happens to weak people and a lot of strength comes from hurt like i think that you
01:08:49.420 know if we look at the people in gaza there there's a lot of hurt there but i don't think
01:08:54.140 those people are weak i think those people are strong and i think that hurt is a great way to grow
01:09:03.180 and i think that there's a lot of there's a lot of associations with hurt and weakness that
01:09:08.300 if you're strong you don't get hurt there's this idea that invulnerability and strength
01:09:13.900 are correlated i don't think they are i think strength like you know it's sort of like courage
01:09:19.180 or fearlessness like i think i respect courage way more than fearlessness fearlessness i think
01:09:25.180 is ignorance courage is overcoming your fear but if you ask a courageous person are you scared
01:09:31.420 i think it's kind of like that so i i think that it's very clear to me that this was painful to you
01:09:37.900 yeah i i as you say this i i understand your point but i'm realizing my thought process is that i don't
01:09:45.340 like to think with any victim if i can remove any victim words from my vocabulary my thought process
01:09:51.740 i end up i end up better so rather than say like this was painful it's that signals to the world and
01:09:57.660 signals to to people that you know like that you need shelter or that you need comfort and i'd rather that
01:10:04.380 that all come internally so i i refuse i i try to limit as much of that language as possible
01:10:11.660 because it helps with the recovery process in a better way so it's uh it's selective thinking
01:10:18.540 and that's actually a good example of self-accountability responsibility right if i use words
01:10:23.500 like hurt more then i'm gonna be i'm gonna think in a weaker state rather than overcome it immediately
01:10:29.500 so i i recommend people think that way as well the less strength you give away and the less you know
01:10:37.900 the less weakness you signal to the world the less that people are going to take advantage of it so
01:10:45.420 um i really respect that response so i i think like like i said this is the second time i'm
01:10:52.060 going to say this i i think you're a really strong thinker so i think very few people thank you can do
01:10:58.620 what you just did so i think most people stick to their guns they don't modify what they're saying
01:11:04.060 at all and here's what i think is going to be even more dangerous and i think we should have this
01:11:10.300 conversation but i still want to get back to the other thing maybe that one is left forever but
01:11:15.180 i think that your way of thinking is really good to move you from one place to another place but i think
01:11:23.180 it's going to keep you stuck and there is another evolution of your thinking which is that so right
01:11:29.580 now what you're doing is you're creating like a mental filter right so thinking this way does not help
01:11:34.540 me that is whether something is functionally useful is different from whether it is true
01:11:41.500 so you're you've engaged in a cognitive reshaping and i know this is going to sound kind of challenging
01:11:50.940 i think it's absolutely adaptive
01:11:55.340 and i think that at some point if not already it is going to be maladaptive i think it's a really
01:12:01.020 really useful strategy but at its core it is dishonest but that's also the difference between having
01:12:07.900 so okay go ahead and i think that many people who are not mentally capable require some degree of
01:12:19.180 dishonesty and it you have to work yourself up to being able to handle an honest perspective on your
01:12:26.940 life and i can offer examples so i think what you're doing makes a lot of sense and i think it's going to
01:12:33.020 you down the road okay but there's a difference between having this conversation publicly and privately
01:12:38.140 part of the reason i answered that was because so much of what i do and say is in the public eye
01:12:43.740 for years that and especially i mean this is a public conversation right now i am thinking
01:12:48.300 differently and speaking differently because thousands maybe millions of people are listening
01:12:52.300 to these words right now so i i know that it's a it's a responsibility and it's powerful so i don't
01:12:59.420 signal like if we're having this conversation properly it'd be completely different i would 0.97
01:13:03.020 have been like mine that fucking suck yeah yeah but i have people that are like you know i want to 0.98
01:13:08.700 inspire people i want to make the world a better place and i've seen the impact that i've had culturally 0.98
01:13:13.500 and i've changed i i've noticed myself change the the zeitgeist i've seen language i've seen the shift
01:13:21.500 that i think people in my space on the internet and me directly that i've had on the culture so
01:13:26.860 that's the difference between people who think privately and and are always in the public eye
01:13:33.020 and always being scrutinized and always being in the free marketplace of ideas 0.80
01:13:38.060 what do you think would happen if you said yeah that sucked in a public way
01:13:50.300 that gives more weakness and it signals to more people that they can be vulnerable and yes that's
01:14:00.220 true that it's good to be vulnerable but oftentimes for men it's better to not be vulnerable publicly
01:14:05.420 so if i want to help out people and i want to make the world a better place i would like to limit the
01:14:11.580 amount of vulnerability that people give away randomly right i i think i mean i trust you i've
01:14:16.860 had a conversation with you and i trust that you're an open person if i were speaking to you privately i'd
01:14:20.620 be more vulnerable with that but i don't there's so you know how many i have i have enemies i have
01:14:25.260 people that want to destroy everything i do so the less amount of vulnerability that i could signal
01:14:31.740 to the world the better that makes me sad to hear man
01:14:40.300 like you sound like you're i mean that sounds like you're carrying a lot and and i don't mean
01:14:45.900 that i i i appreciate the nobility of it like i'm not asking for things to be different i think
01:14:53.980 on balance it's a good thing what you're carrying around i can see how it helps people and i can see how
01:15:00.380 how you're okay carrying it because it does help people that you take this responsibility incredibly
01:15:08.140 seriously and it makes me sad to hear that that still costs you right so you like just because
01:15:16.380 carrying it is worth it and is the right thing to do and maybe align with your spiritual goals in life
01:15:21.420 or whatever doesn't change the fact that it still is hard to carry sometimes and to hear you
01:15:30.140 have to be so paranoid and pardon me if that word is too strong or so careful so thoughtful to have
01:15:36.300 such a it sounds exhausting it sounds trapping like you can't be free and because you used to right
01:15:43.900 and you boy did you get punished for it bro you you shared your opinions you didn't drink the kool-aid and 0.99
01:15:51.100 people were like fuck you bro you're being insensitive you're not standing up for black 1.00
01:15:55.980 people i lost my livelihood i lost everything you lost everything you can't stream you can't 1.00
01:16:02.460 see this conversation because because of that i i i get it right so you you've been punished so hard
01:16:08.380 and and that makes me sad but it is what it is it is what i mean but there there we go it's like
01:16:14.220 okay it's what is worth it is what it is hold on okay it is it is what it is yeah what it is what is
01:16:25.580 that what is that phrase sneaker this is the uh what are you doing this is reality no it's not that's the
01:16:34.140 fucking exact opposite yes this literally no actually this is reality no it's not it is what 0.69
01:16:40.380 it is is you doing your cognitive transformation towards strength and not allowing your weakness 0.98
01:16:48.620 say that one more time when you say the phrase it is what it is that's your cognitive transformation
01:16:55.260 that's your movement from weakness to strength but how is that not reality
01:16:59.660 because it's a transformation it's something that you're intentionally doing to change your
01:17:06.380 perspective this is where you start and then when you say it is what it is it's a really sneaky
01:17:11.820 version of it right because you're saying it is what it is but if that is what it is there is so much 0.99
01:17:18.380 anger frustration disappointment all these fucking people said all this shit about you and now that 0.98
01:17:25.420 you've been vindicated does anyone apologize does anyone say welcome back to the platform bro no of 0.99
01:17:30.700 course not there is such a mountain of frustration and pain and whatever and the only way let's say to
01:17:39.420 deal with that right because what are you gonna do you say it is what it is this is the world that we 0.96
01:17:44.860 live in so i'm gonna reframe away from that shit to this it is what it is you soldier on 0.96
01:17:55.420 well i mean that statement still is true it it literally is what it is regardless it's 100 it 0.97
01:18:04.700 is true the statement is true okay hold on and it's not that it's false it's that it's a cognitive shift
01:18:13.100 right so when you do that you're shifting away from something else does that kind of make sense
01:18:20.220 well what i'm shifting i understand completely what i'm shifting away from when you say that makes me sad
01:18:25.420 i start thinking fuck like maybe i should feel sorry and sad for myself and then i'm like i literally 0.82
01:18:31.180 i remember where i am i have a nice exactly and then you do the cognitive shift but why why would 0.98
01:18:37.580 it what's wrong with shifting to a more positive wrong with shifting right now okay so the so what's
01:18:43.020 the what's your point my point is first of all that we should have awareness here's what i think is
01:18:49.020 good this is what i'm moving towards we should have awareness of what happens inside of us that's
01:18:53.900 the north star nothing we should be blind i'm completely aware of that because when you when 0.99
01:18:59.260 you say that makes me sad it was like fuck yeah that sucks yeah and i'm like damn i started thinking 0.98
01:19:04.460 about the stuff i lost and stuff and you know how my reputation was hit and the attacks i get that i 0.99
01:19:08.700 still get to this day and all this blah blah blah so i'm thinking negatively and i'm reminded that
01:19:13.420 thinking negatively does not solve anything and that solutions come through positive and forward
01:19:17.660 thinking through maintaining real frame then i'm reminded about what is happening across the world
01:19:23.100 like is feeling sorry for myself while children are starving in gaza as we speak that i know
01:19:30.140 it's selfish thinking to be thinking so oh me oh what was me and go returning to this frame when
01:19:36.700 it's like people have way worse circumstances right now that you know if they're able to soldier on then i
01:19:43.020 should too and this the world keeps spinning the girls keep being girls everyone keeps everyone moves
01:19:50.460 everyone is still living and we're all older than we were a second ago so it is what it is let's keep
01:19:55.980 on going what's next that's the only solution there is no solution to be found through that negative
01:20:01.660 introspection
01:20:05.100 i disagree okay so i think this is a great solution when you're 26.
01:20:10.940 it's a bad solution when you're 42. so i think that that i'm with you all the way i think there's a
01:20:21.100 couple of associations that you're making which i think are completely logical to make or completely
01:20:27.500 correct to make admitting weakness or admitting hurt you're attaching to a downward spiral yeah and i think
01:20:37.260 in when you were probably like a teenager and you had some crush on some girl in high school 0.98
01:20:43.100 and she didn't give you the time of day you were like fuck that i ain't ever going to be that guy 0.99
01:20:47.500 again so when you look at yourself when you see yourself in the reflection of walking down the 0.98
01:20:51.420 street in manhattan you didn't like what you saw and then you decided you vowed to yourself you're never
01:20:56.860 going to be that and look at this beautiful suit you're wearing now looking great look at where you are
01:21:01.340 now how can you ever say that this form of adaptation is a problem and i'm with you i think
01:21:07.820 it's the right thing for you to do up until this point and by all means do it for another 15 years
01:21:13.500 oh and then i think they'll like it and then 15 years what happens
01:21:17.740 in 15 years you will have such a pile of negativity inside you because you've reframed
01:21:25.340 reframed reframed reframed you'll be functional you'll be i i don't know about you will that's not
01:21:30.620 right so there is a chance that if you continue employing this strategy the resentment that you
01:21:39.100 have that is pretty potent right like you've used the word vindication several times so you're you're
01:21:49.100 let me think
01:21:49.580 i'm trying to find a less demeaning word than butthurt but i i can't so like i'm i'm i i feel
01:22:01.340 like i'm walking very dangerous ground because if i say a single thing that demeans you i think it's
01:22:07.660 going to be hard but i'm using the word butthurt because i'm leaning into this like i respect you and
01:22:13.020 i really do and i care about you like i do thank you and and you're so butthurt about this that you're
01:22:18.380 like seeking vindication so much and the problem is that you can seek vindication over and over and
01:22:24.380 over again but if the butthurt keeps piling up that you can't really you can not let the butthurt hurt
01:22:30.700 you through adaptive thinking which is absolutely correct i think if you're someone who's like
01:22:37.500 super depressed i think doing what you're doing is really good i really do it's a it's cognitively
01:22:43.420 flexible it's it's cognitive adaptations the that you're doing in your mind right now is 50 of what
01:22:51.260 we teach in therapy we teach people to think like you okay okay and i think that there comes a point
01:22:59.500 where accepting every dimension of your being gets you closer to transcendence and and i think you're going
01:23:07.740 to understand this too because when you're with god you don't do any of this that's the whole value
01:23:16.060 right and so all i'm saying is like that which you do when you when you lay yourself bare and you tell
01:23:22.380 god about how but you are you are it's not weak right you you let go of it you're like kind of like
01:23:27.020 okay this has happened like whatever right like i'm going to put my faith in you i don't know exactly
01:23:30.780 what you do or whatever but there's a certain amount of like brutal honesty about your weakness
01:23:36.380 which i totally get is complicated because you're in a public space people dislike you people try to
01:23:41.900 take you down all this kind of shit right so i'm not blamed please understand i'm not i'm not blaming 0.90
01:23:47.100 you for anything that you do i think you're remarkably resilient thank you and i think that there's like 0.97
01:23:55.260 i don't know if this kind of makes sense you you know so oftentimes in in my experience
01:24:00.380 people are like at one end end of the pendulum and then they swing to the other end and that's
01:24:07.100 progress but i think that there's a step above that which is to not be on either end of the pendulum
01:24:13.660 and kind of come towards the middle where you can be vulnerable you can be hurt you can say that this
01:24:19.500 hurt you you can say that this bothers you but there is a methodology to not let that turn into a
01:24:25.180 spiral and i think that when you do that there is a level so i don't know if this makes sense
01:24:33.900 every time you do that i don't know if this is going to make sense there's internal friction i'm
01:24:38.380 not saying you're weak i'm not saying it's going to hurt you i'm saying that there's like there's some
01:24:42.140 like yeah right and it comes out with your use of the word vindication and what i'm talking about is
01:24:49.980 peace not right not successful and if you continue along this track
01:24:59.820 you may be peace because you've got spirituality on your side and i think spirituality helps you find
01:25:05.020 that space between these things i think it's a really good thing so i i'm not trying to like predict
01:25:10.300 doom and gloom for you but i think that especially like i i do think it's it's better to continue to
01:25:17.500 level up and because i see a lot of people get stuck with like this way of thinking which is this
01:25:23.340 sort of like reliance on adaptation reliance on like i don't think this is you but in some people
01:25:32.540 it's like toxic positivity where they can't ever like say that they're hurt or sad or whatever right
01:25:38.380 like it's it's just i and i i don't think that that label fits you i i think it's i think the better
01:25:44.780 thing to fit you're resilient and you've got you know adaptations based on
01:25:52.460 i'm trying to find a better word than trauma but like you've had negative experiences that you've
01:25:59.180 adapted to and one of the things that we know is that negative experiences are healthy adaptations
01:26:07.180 in those circumstances but if you carry those adaptations into different circumstances
01:26:12.300 they can become something called maladaptive
01:26:16.780 right so like i think that a good example of where i see this a lot with men
01:26:22.620 i'm a loser i'm going to become a winner and then the kinds of relationships
01:26:29.180 that you're capable of can be different from what you truly crave
01:26:33.020 right so like you can never show weakness in front of your partner your romantic partner if it's a
01:26:42.380 woman but really what you crave is like true partnership you want one person in this world
01:26:47.100 that you don't have to put on a mask with that will stand by you all the time but if you keep on 0.98
01:26:52.860 doing this shit reflexively you will never show her that weakness and you will never give her an 0.98
01:26:58.780 opportunity to accept you in your flawed state and if you never give her the chance to accept you in 0.99
01:27:04.620 your flawed state there will always be a doubt on my in your mind is she gonna leave me if xyz happens 0.98
01:27:12.700 that kind of security is like amazing right and i think you have some sense of this because usually
01:27:19.260 we can get some version of this through a spiritual experience or god or whatever because
01:27:24.220 we can be honest with god you hopefully fingers crossed i don't know so what do you think is so
01:27:32.300 you sound like you're coming from a perspective you're you're older you've you've been through
01:27:35.660 more than i have most likely i don't know if that's true okay well i mean you're i'm older you're a father
01:27:42.860 and you have you have children you have you've had experiences that i have yet to have any idea about
01:27:47.500 personally yet so you're saying that by age 42 i am going to doing the um the practice of the
01:27:55.740 shifting you know cope that that it doesn't work the same anymore because eventually it's going to
01:27:59.900 catch up to you and you might have like a nervous breakdown or something like that so you're saying
01:28:03.340 be more more even keel and as you as you explain this i i am realizing that a lot of that i can't really
01:28:10.620 afford to be more in the middle about this because of what i do you know this that's why i'm sad
01:28:19.340 but i yeah and i understand but i can't really like if i was more nuanced with and i was and i
01:28:26.220 was more you know sitting in that not only does it not accomplish anything but it it everything else
01:28:31.980 sacrifices then my my content sacrifices and if my content loses then i lose more and then it's like
01:28:38.380 uh it's a you know it's exponential loss so because then i'm producing less money then i'm
01:28:44.620 going to be less active then i'm going to be you know not enjoying the content as more it's just
01:28:48.380 you know it's a domino effect to a worse life so it's just this frame of thinking is the most effective
01:28:54.540 for what i do i can totally understand so it's not my place to tell you and by not my place i mean
01:29:03.180 it would be the height of arrogance for me to tell you if you do this your content will be fine
01:29:08.060 right you know your content way better than i do you know what works and what doesn't work what i
01:29:13.020 would encourage you to do is this is something i feel pretty confident about so here at healthy
01:29:23.020 gamer we've worked with over 500 content creators and ranging from super super small to like huge
01:29:31.180 huge and um like way bigger than me or you and and i'm making assumptions about what your content
01:29:38.220 size is which i'm pretty sure i'm right but i mean i don't know what it is but i think it's in the
01:29:42.060 ballpark of where i am right so and and i think that one of the most consistent things is that you know
01:29:48.940 people learn a particular strategy of something working but when you work with them when you really
01:29:53.980 start to question things when you start to try things what a lot of people what a lot of content
01:29:58.460 creators feel this is really ironic but a lot of people think that the more the bigger you are as
01:30:02.700 a content creator the more power you have the more freedom you have but really it's the opposite
01:30:07.900 so when you're like a no-name anybody nobody you can make whatever kind of content you want and it
01:30:12.380 doesn't really matter as content creators become more and more successful one of the most common
01:30:17.980 experiences they have is they feel more and more restricted they can't try different things because
01:30:23.500 there's this domino effect they have to make the same kind of content they can't speak out about
01:30:27.900 this they can't you know speak out about that like they can't they're going to get punished
01:30:32.540 for any kind of innovation except for the acceptable innovation right so if you have a
01:30:37.340 certain kind of content and you talk to people on the street you can go to amsterdam instead of
01:30:41.420 new york that's like an innovation that your audience will like right it's been my experience
01:30:46.460 that with with the right amount of thought and energy for about 40 of people that's not true
01:30:53.100 i wish i could say everybody if they thought hard enough they're they can they're not nearly as
01:30:58.620 trapped as you are but i i'd say i'd ballpark it at about 40 percent and i i totally get that this is
01:31:05.100 a this is a huge challenge for you and that you're shaped by having this public persona um and the reason
01:31:11.820 that i i stopped it i have more experience than you i think you've lived a lot more at 26 i mean when i was
01:31:19.020 like than i had at your age so i i i think like i mean you said you started making content in 2013
01:31:25.980 so i i i just because i'm older than you sure i have some experiences that you don't have and i have
01:31:32.140 more experiences theoretically but i also know that for a large part of my life i had the same 0.86
01:31:36.940 fucking experience day after day after day after day after day after day after day after day after 0.96
01:31:40.220 day i mean i used to play video games for like 16 to 20 hours a day for like years of my life so 0.99
01:31:45.180 there i mean i don't think that you know it's the same fucking thing and maybe the depths of of the 0.88
01:31:50.940 depression or whatever you want to call it got worse but like generally speaking i i i think you've 0.89
01:31:56.220 had quite i mean you mentioned that you you know you spent five weeks in spain with kanye west like
01:32:01.980 that's a big experience right you've made a lot of different content you've talked to a lot of
01:32:05.980 different people so on balance i'd say i i probably have more experiences in life than you do but i i
01:32:12.060 wouldn't jump to that conclusion as easily as you would yes i'm also partially being humble so that
01:32:19.980 i don't come off too you know braggadocious to you know the people watching this but then that is true
01:32:25.500 and also also why i joke around about going through a midlife crisis because the life that i've lived so
01:32:30.780 far i feel much older like most of my friends are in their mid late 30s most of my close my close
01:32:38.220 friends i can see that are much older than me because uh a lot of people my age they haven't
01:32:43.420 you know they haven't seen too too much and they haven't been through as much as i've been through
01:32:47.900 so uh it's harder harder to relate 100 so where do you think we should go from here
01:32:57.180 in life for this conversation this conversation
01:32:59.660 i um i can go back to my perspective of mental health i can talk to you i can ask you questions
01:33:09.020 about what you've been going through recently um
01:33:15.100 what whatever whatever you think whatever you think okay let me finish like my perspective on
01:33:22.220 mental health because you you said a lot of stuff there and then i'll ask you about
01:33:26.220 you know what's what you're going through recently yes and then i want to i do want to ask you about
01:33:30.380 fatherhood after after those two things sure so um i i i think you know is nico i think your your
01:33:37.660 observations are are like pretty spot on in a lot of ways i think some of the conclusions that you draw
01:33:45.180 so i noticed that you you make a lot of associations so you'll like make this observation and then you'll tie
01:33:50.940 something to it right so for example the expression of weakness means like maybe a downward spiral or
01:33:55.980 whatever and it's not that that's that's wrong right so that's clearly observable in our own lives
01:34:02.540 if i like wallow in my weakness then like it can lead to a downward spiral we see a lot of people who
01:34:10.300 express weakness like if someone expresses weakness the likelihood that they wallow in it is like pretty
01:34:16.860 high does that kind of make sense absolutely so i i think you you make a lot of associations and what
01:34:21.660 i really respect you for is that when i point out the associations you're you're quite flexible around
01:34:28.620 them so like your your capacity to self-reflect and recognize what you're doing internally is like
01:34:35.660 quite exceptional let's go so there was there there was a a video um that a buddy of mine made i don't
01:34:42.220 know if he made it or whatever on his channel that has your face and my face and talks about how i
01:34:46.620 owned you i saw it i don't know if you've seen it i've seen that and and so i was a little bit
01:34:50.220 frustrated when i saw that but i realized that it is what it is this is what the world is and whatever
01:34:55.340 the thing that i i really bothered me i've never watched the video but the thing that i think really
01:34:59.580 bothered me about that video is that we it talks about me owning you but i think the real thing there
01:35:06.300 is you should be given a ton of credit because in order for me to quote unquote own you you have
01:35:15.260 to be open-minded and what i think our conversation was really a testament to me about was your open 0.90
01:35:20.940 mindedness right like i can't convince you unless of shit unless you're willing to be convinced unless 0.95
01:35:27.500 you're actually able to look at the critical nature or you're able to look at your thought process in a 0.98
01:35:33.020 critical way so that that was one thing i never watched the video but whatever and and and so i
01:35:38.380 think this is something that like i just hope that because who knows right this is in the public maybe
01:35:42.940 someone will make this again or whatever but i think like it's really important for people to understand
01:35:48.140 that you know if you start this conversation in one place and you end up in another place
01:35:56.140 that requires effort on both of our parts right i can offer something but then you have to be
01:36:01.980 willing to receive it and if you're close-minded about it i'm not going to be able i can't like
01:36:07.340 are you because i don't are we're not arguing we're talking um and and so that's something that i just
01:36:12.700 really appreciate about you anyway so i think that's one thing that i think is you make these tight
01:36:17.820 associations which i just don't make so half of what you say i agree with 100 the conclusions that
01:36:23.900 you come to i don't agree with so a couple of these things are people having more main character
01:36:29.260 syndrome absolutely are people becoming more narcissistic absolutely um are is the validation
01:36:37.900 of feelings and is everyone over identifying in a negative way with mental illness there's data to
01:36:46.460 support that the science actually supports that there's one study that found that something like
01:36:51.020 90 to 95 percent of information about autism or adhd on tick tock i'm rusty on the study it's about 18
01:36:58.220 months old i think at this point is wrong so everyone is like if you do this you've got adhd
01:37:05.020 if you do this you've got autism 90 to 95 of it is incorrect and these are like huge content creators
01:37:11.580 that basically have the slice of life stuff and then people is like oh i forget my keys that means i
01:37:16.140 have adhd so there's an over identification with a lot of mental illness stuff i totally see that i think
01:37:22.140 it's really really challenging i think it's not healthy second thing i think there's a lot of
01:37:28.460 bullshit around the validation of feelings so i think that there's there's actually a really cool paper
01:37:35.740 i can show it later or send you a reference or whatever about how reassurance seeking 0.87
01:37:40.540 is mentally unhealthy so a lot of people who post things about struggles are seeking reassurance right
01:37:51.340 so this is a form of unhealthy coping and coping in general is not healthy so coping is i mean like
01:38:01.660 roughly let's understand right so coping is not problem solving coping is accepting a particular negative
01:38:08.540 state and then doing something to be able to tolerate the state but the problem with coping
01:38:13.900 is that you tend to propagate the negative state the healthy way to cope is right now i'm overwhelmed
01:38:20.780 right now i'm feeling bad let me cope so i feel better but there's a really important second step
01:38:27.260 now that i'm better now that i'm feeling better what am i going to do to change my circumstances so
01:38:33.420 that i don't feel that way again i see a very very disturbing trend which i do think is somewhat
01:38:40.620 responsible for the increase in in mental illness and in mental suffering that we see that people are
01:38:47.020 like sort of defaulting to some of these like maladaptive mechanisms the other thing that i think is
01:38:52.620 really healthy unhealthy is that people are increasingly this is really challenging but we basically have
01:38:58.700 um um we sort of have uh epidemic of something in the ballpark of factitious disorder and malingering
01:39:12.620 so let me explain so there's a handful of illnesses okay so pseudo seizures non-epileptiform seizures
01:39:19.740 factitious disorder malingering that are illnesses that people
01:39:23.900 create the sick role either intentionally or psychologically they claim being sick
01:39:33.500 and the reason that they claim being sick is because it benefits them in some way
01:39:38.060 so in society if you are ill we give you certain latitude if you're ill you don't have to come to
01:39:45.580 work if you're ill you don't have to go to school if you're ill you don't have to take out the trash
01:39:50.780 right this is something that we as a society do so what some people learn how to do either
01:39:57.420 consciously or subconsciously is claim illness and this is a diagnosable thing when it happens really
01:40:03.020 bad so malingering is is like when someone comes in when a homeless person comes into the emergency room
01:40:09.020 and says i'm really suicidal i'm going to kill myself and it's negative 10 degrees outside and i'm 0.72
01:40:15.100 working in downtown boston and they have nowhere to stay that's malingering right maybe so we have
01:40:20.940 to assess them diagnostically to see if it's malingering or not so what i'm seeing is happening a lot
01:40:27.580 is that people are using illness as an excuse and and my kind of stance on this as a psychiatrist is
01:40:34.220 is kind of hard for a lot of people to hear but this is i think what is acceptable so you know i once
01:40:39.740 had a patient who had bipolar disorder and they would become manic and then they would do lots of
01:40:45.180 really inappropriate things they would gamble they would start to give their possessions away to
01:40:49.820 homeless people they would invite homeless people to to come to their house to stay in their house
01:40:55.100 because they wanted to be like you know so caring and stuff like that they're manic and so this person's
01:41:00.300 partner comes home with their young child and when they come home with their one young child there's
01:41:07.260 like three homeless people like in their home and the partner is like what the hell is going on so
01:41:14.700 later on this person said you know it's not my fault i'm manic and generally speaking that's true
01:41:20.940 right so we as a society acknowledge that if someone is acutely manic they're behaving in ways
01:41:26.540 that they really can't control like it's not controllable there's a lot of evidence of that
01:41:31.180 so the problem though is that just because you don't you can't control your behavior when you
01:41:38.620 are manic doesn't mean that this isn't your fault there's a subtlety and a nuance here that's really
01:41:43.500 important how did you get manic in the first place did you stop taking your medication did you stop
01:41:49.260 going to therapy did you start staying up super late did you start using substances so one of the
01:41:54.780 most challenging things as a psychiatrist is navigating this sort of like okay you're not
01:42:00.860 responsible for what you do when you're high out of your mind on k2 but are you responsible for using
01:42:08.300 k2 in the first place absolutely right so i think what's happening right now is is since we give so
01:42:14.140 many people a pass for being mentally ill which i think we should continue to do i think we should like 1.00
01:42:19.580 when some people absolutely i know i know i know i know like i said i agree with 50 of what you said
01:42:26.140 i think when people are are acutely ill and when they're really struggling i think that their
01:42:31.500 capability to do certain things is severely impaired i think we should give people a pass for that
01:42:38.780 but what i don't think we should do is let that be an excuse so when someone says you know oh i'm
01:42:44.060 depressed it's not my fault my question to them is like what's your plan to deal with the depression
01:42:48.940 fine in this moment on this day it's not your fault what are you going to do tomorrow what are
01:42:53.660 you going to do the next week what are you going to do the next month are you being responsible in
01:42:59.180 tackling your depression and what i tend to find is that like a lot of people thankfully most of the
01:43:05.740 people that i've had the privilege of working with and that's why i like working with them that's
01:43:10.220 why i have compassion for them that's why i have latitude for them because they put in the effort where
01:43:13.980 it counts they're not weak right they they like try and if despite the fact that they're doing
01:43:19.580 everything that they're supposed to be doing sometimes the nature of the brain is such that
01:43:24.140 they flip into these mood episodes these manic episodes things like that so i think that sometimes
01:43:29.900 people do use mental illness as an excuse it's happening more and more and more unfortunately and i
01:43:35.980 think that now what's happening with that's even more dangerous is like if you try to hold someone
01:43:41.660 accountable once they play the mental illness card oh yeah i had an affair i'm sorry i had this
01:43:47.340 i was manic or i was hypomanic or i was depressed and i needed this and it's not my fault i i think
01:43:52.220 that like people should still be held accountable for their actions right or like groping a woman
01:43:56.460 because you have anxiety sure right so so i i i think that that an illness is something that we
01:44:03.260 should give some latitude for i think these people deserve compassion i think they deserve help
01:44:07.660 help and someone should still be held someone should be held appropriately responsible for
01:44:12.780 their actions there's more coping mechanisms than ever the biggest one that i've noticed recently and
01:44:18.220 i don't know if you have patience to do this but i like that you pointed out that people search
01:44:24.140 to cope rather than to improve the biggest one that didn't exist a couple years ago was chat gbt
01:44:30.540 and i would say i think 50 to 70 percent of women my age girls and gen z especially in new york city 0.96
01:44:37.580 liberal cities when they have problems in their life and in their relationship they go to chat gpt because
01:44:43.820 chat gpt will validate them immediately they'll phrase the question in a way to where they're never
01:44:50.220 responsible for what's wrong and they'll say to chat gpt this happened it's this person's fault and
01:44:58.060 then chat gpt will give them a reason give them a list of reasons to cope and now that they can go to ai
01:45:05.420 to validate their feelings of weakness i think we're going down a dangerous path
01:45:13.020 so where people can avoid bearing responsibility for their their own actions even more and through a
01:45:19.980 computer instantly yeah so i i think um so i i did a super cool stream with two of my colleagues
01:45:29.580 and we basically gave it like psychiatric scenarios and you know like so so like we we like it took
01:45:36.700 scenarios from like standardized tests or cases or whatever like so like you know when we're studying
01:45:41.980 psychiatry you'll have like this case or history or whatever and um is chat gpt was really good at
01:45:48.780 pointing out a lot of problems and people's thinking i was quite shocked and it was also
01:45:53.580 really bad at pointing out particular things i think the takeaway that i have here is the utility
01:45:58.860 of chat gpt depends on the prompt engineering so if you ask chat gpt you know if you just so chat gpt is
01:46:08.140 very validating that's what it does better than everything else and that's why people i think find
01:46:12.220 it incredibly useful i have found though that a lot of people do find it incredibly useful and i do i
01:46:18.220 think that this is another one of the things that i i think i take issue with with a lot of what you say
01:46:22.380 and let me know if this rubs you the wrong way but i i think you tend to be pretty like black or white
01:46:27.020 in your thinking so so you'll say i mean you said a lot of women and i think that chat gpt there's even 0.81
01:46:32.940 there's a really interesting um there's probably going to be studies about this now about chat gpt and
01:46:37.900 it induced psychosis so this is like a phenomenon that we're seeing where like people will talk to
01:46:43.980 chat chat gpt and it keeps on reflecting back like whatever they say and they're sort of really becoming
01:46:51.260 delusional now there's a this is where you got to be careful right so this is where i think you're
01:46:56.380 you're a lot of statements that you have i would say i would argue are missing some nuance and i think
01:47:01.420 you're missing stuff i would say not that i'm you're wrong but just based on my experience which
01:47:07.020 is that the question is if you have someone who is in prodromal psychosis which means the early
01:47:12.220 stages the incubation period of psychosis and you give them chat gpt i think there's a very good chance
01:47:18.540 that these people are like on the path to psychosis and it accelerates it as opposed to creates it
01:47:25.260 we're not sure that's why data is important which brings me to another point that i think is
01:47:29.660 important to understand which is that i think you know you said you've never seen it and i think
01:47:35.660 that like generally speaking when it comes to influencers and especially polarizing influencers
01:47:42.220 now i don't know what your social life is like and things like that i think there's going to be a huge
01:47:46.700 selection bias with like who you encounter right and that's why i like data as opposed to anecdotes
01:47:54.860 so even one of the advantages of being a physician is when i work in the massachusetts general
01:47:58.940 hospital emergency room all kinds of random people are showing up right so in my private practice i
01:48:05.260 have people who are like founders from mit incubators coming in for whatever i have degenerate gamers i
01:48:11.420 have a particular slice of the world that is coming to see me but when i work in an emergency room i'm
01:48:17.100 seeing all kinds of people who have all kinds of experiences and i think a lot of your perspectives
01:48:22.060 on mental illness lynn like the way that you sort of describe depression i think that there's this
01:48:27.020 is one point that i wanted to bring up i think it would be very enlightening for you if you could
01:48:33.740 take someone who is healthy now and talk to them and really listen about their experience of depression
01:48:41.420 so i think a lot of the statements that you make about depression
01:48:45.740 my interpretation of it is that your phenomenological experience of your struggles
01:48:52.060 is like very different from theirs so when you talk about the adaptive thinking and things like
01:48:59.820 that and like you used to be depressed you used to be sad you kind of brought yourself out of it i kind
01:49:04.460 of agree like i'm not disagreeing i think a lot of people who are depressed are in similar situations
01:49:09.740 as yours i don't think it's monolithic i think it's different i was depressed i said i was introspective
01:49:14.060 and i know sorry introverted so so you you had whatever your mental state was and you used a
01:49:21.900 particular strategy to overcome that mental state right and the way that you talk about that mental
01:49:29.260 state and the way that you describe people who have that mental state i think there's a variety of
01:49:35.100 people who claim they're depressed many of them may have something in the ballpark of what you had
01:49:40.780 probably also in the ballpark of what i had when i was in my low points and i think there are some
01:49:46.940 people who have a very very different experience like the the what it's like to be inside their head
01:49:55.180 is way more like intractable like so very severe depression can cross over into things like psychosis
01:50:04.220 and delusions and so i think some people are just so depressed and it's hard to like
01:50:09.260 imagine i don't think most human beings would understand what this feels like until you've
01:50:15.900 sat with these people and you recognize this person isn't weak this person isn't stupid this person is
01:50:20.940 trying to cope but like when you cope in a particular way your mind listens to you
01:50:28.300 so there are some people whose minds don't listen to them so when you try the techniques that you're
01:50:35.340 doing they like it just doesn't work it kind of they have no so if your minds if their minds don't
01:50:42.860 listen to them then how are they alive like that's the only thing that we have complete control over
01:50:49.100 if we're certain that's why they're if we're sort of anything is that we can control our thoughts and
01:50:53.500 our minds and if we're not even you can't control your thoughts absolutely you can no you can't i just
01:51:00.380 showed you an example you said like that makes me sad and i said it is what it is that was an example
01:51:04.540 of controlling the state of mind and what you think if yeah you can't you see you don't think
01:51:10.860 my mistake my mistake my mistake i i i was i was taking an issue with a more of the absolutist
01:51:16.460 i was interpreting that as an absolute statement which is a mistake of my interpretation
01:51:21.100 so for example there are modifications and attempts to control your mind you can
01:51:25.820 send signals to your mind and the mind at times will be more responsive and at times will be less
01:51:32.620 responsive right there's a spectrum and and ideally the healthier you are the more pliable your mind is
01:51:40.140 but there there's there's plenty of evidence that shows that some people's minds are more intractable
01:51:45.020 that their their patterns of their habitual forms of thinking are a lot more concrete and a lot less
01:51:53.100 modifiable so a really good example of this is like body dysmorphia where if you take people with like
01:51:59.500 really really really severe body dysmorphia really severe eating disorders their mind is like it's
01:52:05.820 like made of stone like you can try to modify it as much as you want but like it just doesn't shift
01:52:10.940 like and you have to do all kinds of weird but it doesn't start that way it doesn't it goes it's a path
01:52:16.940 it's a slow dissolution i i i i think so i think so so i i think that there's i hope so
01:52:23.580 but but there's there's some like you kind of said there's environment and i think a big part of
01:52:28.940 the environment is the way that you you treat your mind um yes i i think that it kind of evolves in
01:52:36.300 that i think it gets more concrete over time and i think if you intervene with those people early
01:52:41.500 in a different way then hopefully it would not evolve in that way but we also do know that there's
01:52:48.460 like genetic predispositions for like rigidity of thinking so i think you're quite cognitively
01:52:56.380 flexible which is something like i've said a couple times i really respect about you but i think that
01:53:00.620 your your cognitive flexibility is part of the reason why your methodologies work really well
01:53:05.660 right so you're you have you've been dealt a certain hand of cards in your brain
01:53:10.620 i and also you keep saying that you think you disagree with 50 of what i say i don't know if
01:53:15.580 you necessarily disagree i just think that you don't see the nuance of what i'm saying because
01:53:20.220 i'm saying very blanket statements and i i do generalize a lot when i speak and okay i i speak
01:53:28.620 yeah which is i don't know if it's disagreement it's just uh maybe it's a total difference or
01:53:34.380 but yes i i i i think that i would completely agree that as we add more and more nuance to the
01:53:41.740 conversation i think we get closer and closer together absolutely um last a couple a couple of
01:53:52.620 other points so just about the the serotonin deficiency hypothesis so i think just to clarify
01:53:59.500 psychotherapists may not be in favor of that hypothesis it's usually psychiatrists that are
01:54:06.220 so psychotherapists of anything you know if there's a group of people on the planet
01:54:09.660 who doesn't believe in the serotonin hypothesis there's a really good chance that there's a
01:54:15.740 psychotherapist because they're like some of them are trained in like union analysis and freudian
01:54:20.540 analysis and they think all kinds of different things they don't think it can be i mean i'm
01:54:24.140 lumping them all together but many of them don't believe in that or don't attribute that much to it
01:54:29.580 now i think that they're they're very well maybe a serotonin imbalance in the brain when it comes to
01:54:33.900 something like a mood disorder but i also think i don't know if this makes sense that if you do
01:54:40.940 cognitive things like what you're doing i think that will affect that will alter that not i must be
01:54:47.900 damn near 100 correct if you do the things that you're doing that will alter the serotonin
01:54:53.660 transmission in your brain i feel incredibly confident in that statement so i think there's 0.92
01:54:58.300 what happened with the whole serotonin thing that was something and you're you're you're kind of
01:55:03.260 right about this i think what really happened there is we were looking for a way to de-stigmatize
01:55:09.020 mental illness so we were looking for a way because everyone used to blame themselves for mental illness
01:55:14.780 they thought that things like mood disorders or stuff like that were weakness and so we as a
01:55:21.420 medical community once we figured out oh there's a mechanism here there's treatments here
01:55:26.220 we wanted people to stop stigmatizing it as weakness so we offered this explanation of there's
01:55:31.980 a chemical imbalance in your brain and when we say there's a chemical imbalance in your brain it's
01:55:36.300 sort of like it's not your fault which is sort of what we were trying to do right because we didn't
01:55:40.620 want to blame themselves because something is going on it's really not your fault but then what happened
01:55:45.420 is we made a big mistake which is that we told people it's not your fault and then everyone started
01:55:49.900 really internalizing it's not my fault so not my fault whatever so the pendulum is swinging back
01:55:55.980 the other way yeah so i i i would you know i would say that most people like i remember i was in an
01:56:03.340 interview at ucla for um my psychiatry residency the person that i was interviewing i mentioned
01:56:12.780 the serotonin deficiency and he was like hold on a second why do you think that people with depression
01:56:19.100 are deficient in serotonin and i was like well isn't that what we think and he's like actually there's
01:56:23.740 very little evidence for it we had it was a wonderful interview he's a wonderful person
01:56:27.420 um so i i think that generally speaking the more knowledgeable you are i i think we sort of know
01:56:32.220 that that's like just a piece of the puzzle it's not that it's right or wrong it's that it's like
01:56:37.020 woefully incomplete to describe a complex human being but i think it's something that we we did sort of like
01:56:48.460 parrot the party line now if you're i'm also not quite on on your level and maybe there's a lot of
01:56:55.500 nuance there that there's a lot of like you know money to be made and there absolutely is and pharma
01:56:59.820 does shady things very possible that when pharma was talking about fluoxetine and whatever they were
01:57:05.980 kind of pushing this and saying that this will fix it i think aftermarket studies on ssris have shown
01:57:11.980 that it's not nearly as effective as what we thought it was in my clinical experience ssris are
01:57:17.740 incredibly helpful and arguably life-changing for about a third of people who get diagnosed with
01:57:23.260 depression a third of people it doesn't really help at all or is it even harmful and a third of
01:57:28.300 people is kind of like we're not quite sure maybe it has a mild to a moderate effect
01:57:32.220 what about fatherhood how much serotonin what about fatherhood how much serotonin does that increase
01:57:44.140 um if you do it right a ton so serotonin this is kind of my take so i've sort of noticed there's an
01:57:52.780 inverse relationship between serotonin and dopamine so the more dopaminergic activities that you do
01:57:59.740 the more your serotonin will decrease it doesn't actually happen that way so i'm sort of talking
01:58:05.100 about it in a functional model style way so no one is measuring um you know intracellular serotonin
01:58:12.540 concentration or synaptic serotonin concentration when i say these things but what i sort of observe
01:58:18.300 is when you do a lot of stuff that gives you dopamine whether that's play video games watch
01:58:21.580 pornography do drugs whatever so short-term gratification versus long-term gratification
01:58:27.420 yes a short-term gratification is what the more dopamine you have then over time you're not going
01:58:35.260 to feel good about your life so serotonin gives you a sense of peace and contentment also an
01:58:40.220 oversimplification dopamine gives you a sense of pleasure right those are two different qualitative
01:58:46.300 things and the more dopaminergic you are generally speaking the less serotonin you'll have whereas if you
01:58:52.700 look at like what gives people serotonin um it's like if you work hard over the course of a day
01:59:01.820 you feel good about it at the end of the day that doesn't mean that you had fun it's not fun it's
01:59:07.740 feeling content you're like oh man like when you hit when you hit the sack and you're tired because you
01:59:12.300 fucking grind it a lot and you have work that you can be proud of when you have autonomy and the ability 0.65
01:59:18.700 to self-direct when you do things that are meaningful to you you get serotonin now there's 0.99
01:59:24.620 complications there because you know when you're a father frequently you're not sleeping very much
01:59:29.340 like especially in the early years and so if you're not sleeping well you know your serotonin levels may
01:59:34.540 be altered or things like that but i think generally speaking i would say that if you do it in a healthy
01:59:40.460 way and if you're lucky enough to have a kid who's like relatively like easy to handle and not even easy to
01:59:48.300 handle is just not really hard to handle then i think fatherhood has profound positive effects on
01:59:53.820 your serotonin and your sense of contentment and peace in life but if you're not careful and you just
02:00:00.140 sort of go through the motions of fatherhood and make sacrifice little chunks of yourself to being a
02:00:06.060 parent over an extended period of time you may wind up in a midlife crisis going through a divorce
02:00:13.420 dating someone 15 years younger getting a hair transplant getting a lease on a fancy sports car
02:00:19.820 at a cold play concert that's why i had this tweet blow up two days ago i said uh i want to read i want
02:00:26.300 to see it because i think it was worded really well and nice it does relate to what you do and content
02:00:31.980 creators so i tweeted i said pewdiepie ripped a hard r then escaped this gay world to start a family 0.95
02:00:40.220 a decade later all of his peers stare soullessly into the camera to make adsense from drama slop to
02:00:45.020 fund their ozempic addiction and legal battles with former friends shout out to pewdiepie and uh
02:00:50.780 this blew up and i think it obviously i'm joking around like he ripped a hard r that's not like
02:00:56.060 something commendable but it's it's an example of saying something you're not supposed to say going
02:01:00.860 against the grain and then he left he moved to japan started a family and it seems like he's living a
02:01:05.500 much more fulfilling life away from the internet while all of his peers they are on ssris they're
02:01:11.660 on ozempic they're getting the hair transplant and they're still turning it on hey youtube what's up
02:01:17.980 today i'm going to sue somebody who used to be my best friend and spend three hours reading reddit
02:01:23.820 comments and regurgitating drama slop for parasocials who are also in the same predicament and yes they have
02:01:29.260 money but they're also it's still in this world and they don't have an escape route and i commend
02:01:35.500 someone like someone like pewdiepie like his his life trajectory is like that sounds so nice to be
02:01:42.140 able to have an exit route because people who don't you know rip a hard r or get banned the way i do
02:01:48.460 they're just kind of trapped and i think a good example of somebody like that is uh someone like
02:01:53.420 idubbs for example who used to be you know an edgy youtuber who would go against the grain and was
02:01:58.540 saying things and you know speaking to the youth in a way that that was outside like people came to
02:02:05.740 content creators to get non-traditional forms of of entertainment and media and then he became like
02:02:11.260 he just became the machine he came he became mainstream news and now he just completely did
02:02:16.620 a 180 uh he's clearly like very upset with his life he's probably an anti-depressants and in a way to
02:02:23.100 go for full circle with this the blessing and and all this is that the fact that i'm banned is that
02:02:28.380 i have an exit strategy that other people don't have if they're still in this world forever then
02:02:33.340 they have to play the pr route and i in a way i like being the canceled guy because i don't have
02:02:38.540 to jump through the same hula hoops that the other creators do being an outsider i can be truthful i can
02:02:43.100 be honest i don't have to play the public relations game and not say this and i'd not be deemed as this
02:02:49.340 phobic or that phobic or a conspiracy theorist or i can be myself and express myself in a more authentic
02:02:54.940 way and eventually when i do want to get the serotonin from having a family and from exiting
02:03:00.700 it's going to be much easier and it's going to going to be uh an easier out because i don't want
02:03:07.260 to be like i i see those older youtubers in their 30s and 40s who are still turning on the camera to
02:03:13.580 do absolute slap content and i think that that's one of the worst existences possible not just because
02:03:18.620 they're clearly unhappy but they're not making anybody better than themselves their whole audience
02:03:22.860 is full of depressed people who are too invested in the lives of people that they're never going to 0.99
02:03:27.260 meet or should be investing into at all right these are just shit people overall so i i do think that's 0.97
02:03:35.340 that is a blessing and also partly saying it is what it is maybe that these challenges that i face 0.96
02:03:40.140 are i i can be grateful for because it's giving me obstacles that other people haven't faced
02:03:46.460 and and an exit strategy so that eventually you know i i can't have that that that family and escape this gay world 0.98
02:03:57.820 okay 0.95
02:04:01.820 what
02:04:05.340 i understand what you said what are you looking for from me in terms of response
02:04:11.180 and how how well it goes it goes back to when you're like uh you said you um that makes me sad
02:04:19.260 and it's like maybe like obviously you you could see that there's a point of reflection there and
02:04:24.540 stuff like this but i'm my point i say this to say like maybe this these challenges are our blessing
02:04:30.060 as well i i think like in islam we say alhamdulillah for everything the good and the bad because there's
02:04:35.420 there's always uh there's a there's positives in the negatives and maybe the the negatives aren't
02:04:40.940 really negatives but they are positives and i'm glad to i'm saying it say like i'm glad to not be
02:04:48.300 those people that believe everything that that we're told to believe because they get trapped in this
02:04:53.900 in this cycle of long-term negativity and they just i i hate seeing that person turn on the camera
02:05:00.620 and just do this soulless ozempic stare you know and although they have the platforms that i don't
02:05:06.620 have i think they have less of their own soul why do you think your mind goes to analyze these people
02:05:16.620 in this way because i see them as someone who started on the same path that i was on maybe they
02:05:24.860 started youtube a little earlier than me around the same time and it's an easy comparison to make
02:05:29.340 obviously comparison is a thief of joy but i see that as like this is the route that i i could have
02:05:34.460 taken and am i happier with the route that i'm in or or do i want what they have and i look what they
02:05:42.140 have and i don't want it i'm very happy where i am so so since you since you don't want it and you're
02:05:47.900 very happy with what where you are what would happen if you weren't happy with where you are
02:05:55.260 i would reevaluate and i i i see that in a lot of them i think that they're extremely unhappy but
02:06:07.660 because of the coping mechanisms that have been provided to us by big pharma and chat gbt
02:06:14.620 they don't reevaluate they don't progress and they just cope more so sneaker one thing you've got
02:06:20.860 to be careful about is devaluing things that you lost so one one very very interesting mechanism of
02:06:30.140 the mind right so maybe this is something you can empathize with so you know when my friends and i
02:06:38.060 liked a girl we would sometimes get up the balls to ask her out and then if she said no 1.00
02:06:44.620 no right we're we're butthurt and then that's fat lesbian she's fat and stupid anyway fuck that 1.00
02:06:50.540 bitch yeah yeah yeah exactly right that's also that's also coke so so and like i i think that there's a 1.00
02:06:57.740 parallel between that and what you're doing with a couple of really important differences 0.95
02:07:04.780 but i i think that like so what what i find interesting is the direction that you go like why
02:07:10.460 do you choose to compare yourself to these people and you say this thing is negative so there's a lot
02:07:15.100 of good adaptation in there i think you're correct that a lot of these people feel trapped a lot of
02:07:19.820 them feel unhappy but i think you've got to be super careful because what you're basically like i don't
02:07:27.900 know this is so weird right so so for me what i pay attention to is what people say that is completely
02:07:33.740 unprompted i didn't ask you about this and not that i'm i'm happy you shared it i really am and
02:07:40.140 i'm glad we're having this conversation but i think it's like you made this tweet this is what your mind
02:07:45.580 generated right your mind is looking at these comparisons your mind and i think this is what's
02:07:51.260 kind of scary and good and healthy and i think it's wonderful that we're talking about this because
02:07:55.900 like here you are comparing yourself to all of the youtubers who didn't get banned who have the luxury
02:08:02.460 of being soulless ozempic bots and still having tons of content creators and being able to stream
02:08:08.220 on youtube and being able to stream on twitch all the things that you've been denied
02:08:14.140 and it can be really hard so so they have something you don't have
02:08:20.300 and so you've got to be careful when you devalue them right but i'm not completely devaluing it okay
02:08:25.980 but i i please please one second okay go ahead okay no no go ahead i'm seeing the nuance but i'm
02:08:34.300 taking a page out of your book in a way i'm seeing the nuance of it yes i want those platforms but also
02:08:38.540 there's a blessing in disguise i'm not completely obviously it would be better i would prefer having
02:08:42.540 it but in a way maybe i was prevent this was a trap that i was able to overstep i this trap was
02:08:48.700 prevented for me i think i yeah i i think that there's a lot of it could be both it absolutely
02:08:55.580 can be both so here's the hard question do you want a hard question yes
02:09:02.060 are you jealous of them no if you were jealous of them would you let yourself be jealous of them
02:09:11.340 no could you handle could you admit to yourself or the rest of the world if you were jealous of them
02:09:18.700 no
02:09:25.900 as in you wouldn't let yourself i wouldn't let myself show jealousy now right so like you
02:09:31.660 wouldn't even let yourself feel it internally
02:09:36.620 no i could feel it internally but i wouldn't express that publicly
02:09:41.180 okay because i i i think i i think what i get from you is resentment
02:09:46.540 and and i i get and i i don't think you're wrong right so this is what's so sneaky about the mind
02:09:52.860 when it's when it's like well developed is that it's not going to tell you false things it's just
02:09:58.300 going to tell you incomplete things so are a lot of people trapped in content creation that they hate
02:10:04.140 absolutely i have worked with a ton of them so here are a couple of things that i think are happening
02:10:11.260 thankfully so content creation just blew up and no one knew how to do it right people are learning
02:10:19.420 very very very quickly how to do it right how to do it in a healthy way so you have a lot of youtubers
02:10:27.020 who are soulless on ssri's ozempic whatever but then you have a ton of youtubers who are not those
02:10:33.660 things who are not suing their best friends and i don't i mean that's a weird example i
02:10:37.980 got really hard of that very much but like you make it sound like it's a common thing does that happen
02:10:42.140 a lot yeah it's becoming increasingly common now okay for the the main core of og youtubers
02:10:49.740 right so so but like i mean like i i spend a lot of time you know working with youtubers collabing
02:10:56.140 with youtubers whatever and like a lot of them are like learning how to live their best lives like a
02:11:01.020 a buddy of mine you know is a youtuber grew up in a particular country is married has a kid he's a
02:11:07.820 digital nomad they he him his wife and his kid just moved to a random ass country that they want to
02:11:13.180 live haven't i mean he makes plenty of money but like you know has an incredibly nice standard of
02:11:18.380 living is saving a ton of money and then he like i'm sure he'll move when he feels like it right so
02:11:23.180 so like what's what's like pewdiepie maybe was one of the early ones but i would say a ton of youtubers
02:11:29.820 are learning how to do that they're learning how to do it in a healthy way the og youtubers and
02:11:36.380 especially the og twitch streamers all of us are like a little bit degenerate but what's starting to
02:11:42.140 happen is there's a ton of professionalism coming into into content creation um you know vidcon
02:11:48.300 got acquired by the people who own can the film festival so a lot of traditional media is coming
02:11:54.060 in a lot of like structure is coming in a lot of professionalism is coming in there's uh you know
02:11:59.100 we get sometimes approached about you know doing like but like a you know people approach us right
02:12:04.940 like people like youtube and meta so we we built something for meta for their content creators so that
02:12:12.220 they could be like get some some basic understanding of like mental health and whatever so i i think that
02:12:17.500 like this is true that there's a lot of degenerate youtubers or switch streamers or whatever who are
02:12:21.900 struggling and or have the soulless ozempic stare or whatever but then there's actually like i would
02:12:26.460 say that the tide is shifting pretty rapidly and the thing is if we're talking about incredibly incredibly
02:12:32.540 successful youtubers i think that they're in order to cut it for this long and not fall apart you have
02:12:39.740 to learn how to be resilient that's what i'm seeing more and more is that you have to learn some kind of
02:12:44.540 work-life balance in order to make it work and continue to produce high quality content
02:12:50.380 but i've i've worked with plenty who are struggling and plenty who are not and the most gratifying thing
02:12:56.620 is that many of the people that i work with who are struggling after some degree of work they don't
02:13:01.100 struggle anymore like they they learn and they adapt and they grow and i think it's really challenging
02:13:06.300 because a lot of these people start when they're very young so one of the things that i'm really grateful
02:13:11.820 for and really like honestly lucky is that i was like a relatively formed human being before i ever
02:13:18.620 started streaming on twitch i started streaming on twitch when i was 36 and like at that point i was
02:13:27.500 faculty at harvard medical school and married and had two kids right so like i had i had my difficult
02:13:35.020 years and i was confident in who i was and had plenty of like ego strength and things like that in a good way
02:13:40.540 whereas it's it's really like not dangerous or sad but it's it's like it's kind of scary that a lot of
02:13:46.940 these people start yourself included right so you say you're 26 and you started on youtube when you were
02:13:52.220 13 or when you're 13 i mean technically i started when i was 11 but i started my channel uh the channel
02:13:57.980 that i used for years when i was four i would say 14 i really took it started taking so so the way 0.62
02:14:02.220 that you've developed before i was in uh you know before i hit puberty like my early voices my balls 0.78
02:14:07.100 in a drop absolutely right so so so your developmental years were shaped to a certain degree by content
02:14:15.900 creation absolutely and what we know from a lot of child celebrities is when you're in the public
02:14:21.260 spotlight the human brain is not designed to be famous when you're 14. so and when you're famous at
02:14:27.820 14 there are certain psychological impacts which once again i don't think are like weakness or
02:14:33.020 anything like that like this just shapes you like your circumstances shape you and it's really sad to
02:14:38.460 see like you know sometimes i'll see these like clips and stuff on reddit of like some of these child
02:14:42.940 stars that are like in puberty and stuff and there's a lot of really successful musicians who started
02:14:48.540 out like when they were teenagers and boy did they get like sexualized and judged in a way that like
02:14:54.380 is just really really scary like and these people are struggle so much and i don't want to like i mean
02:15:00.860 i i see all kinds of problems that you know when i when i look at a celebrity and they're doing
02:15:05.340 particular things they're saying certain things i feel like i have some insight i'm pretty sure my
02:15:10.540 colleagues have similar insights i've talked about it with some people but like you know we can see how
02:15:15.100 and it's not this person's fault that they're narcissistic they just grew up in the spotlight and
02:15:19.180 that's what the spotlight does to you and that's why so many celebrities and musicians are are 0.82
02:15:25.100 screwed up because they're just like the human mind is we we our brain evolved to exist in communities
02:15:32.300 of like 300 people being judged by millions of people and here's the really damning thing 0.96
02:15:39.020 so if a million the brain doesn't think in terms of percentages so if a million people like you
02:15:43.820 you and a hundred people absolutely loathe you the the hurt from the hundred people is not outweighed
02:15:52.860 naturally by the nine nine hundred thousand nine nine hundred ninety nine thousand people that like 0.98
02:16:00.140 very good point and and there's a really i mean i'm sure you understand this because it's crazy you
02:16:05.420 talk to anyone who live streams if you read your your chat you're not reading every message but if
02:16:11.900 there's a dangerous message your brain will flag it immediately you know what i mean you know what
02:16:16.140 i mean right right so it's a scrolling by faster than you can read but they say the one thing you're
02:16:21.900 worried about and your brain is like i see i see right so so our brain has this kind of danger
02:16:28.860 detecting filter built in which means that if a hundred people hate you all it really takes is like
02:16:35.420 one person to stalk you troll you whatever and like one person can screw up your life and the really
02:16:42.380 damaging thing about being a content creator is if you get big you will absolutely attract
02:16:48.860 the minimum number of people to screw up your life
02:16:55.500 i mean you asked me about fatherhood i i went and ended up here because you mentioned the pewpie thing
02:16:59.340 but i i think you've got to be okay a more specific question is dr k do you think i'm coping
02:17:10.220 you know the answer
02:17:16.460 i don't think i'm coping okay
02:17:22.620 i i i think i think there's some coping yeah i think it's adaptive okay but is it is it more
02:17:27.740 coping than what is is it borderline unhealthy or more than the average person or anything
02:17:37.100 i i i think it's incredibly healthy i i think that being able to look at your negative circumstances
02:17:42.060 and start to see this as part of your path in life that god put you on and that there are some
02:17:47.340 advantages that you have that other people don't have i think is very healthy to look at your situation
02:17:51.980 and instead of being butthurt and depressed about it saying like okay i've got some advantages that
02:17:57.900 other people don't have even though my life is hard and i'm going to play to my strengths because now
02:18:02.460 i have been banned from most of the major platforms out there like i think that's the right strategy
02:18:08.380 that's what i do that's what i just explained i know so how does that cope if that's dealing with
02:18:13.980 it that's coping okay okay sorry sorry but coping has a negative connotation and my mistake
02:18:23.340 let me let me explain so so i think that there is cope you're doing both so you're coping right so
02:18:28.700 i think that you're devaluing you're making your your your mind is very sensitive and is devaluing of
02:18:37.180 many people that i think that you are a little bit frustrated with a little bit you're more than
02:18:42.940 a little bit you're very frustrated there's some there's some negative valence of emotion towards
02:18:48.380 those people sure i think jealousy is the most common thing but i don't think you experience it
02:18:53.260 as jealousy i think it's more like you're not like jealous of those people you don't want their 0.96
02:18:57.180 fucking lives but i think there's a part of you that grates on the inside because they get 0.98
02:19:03.500 they're allowed to do this crap and you're not i think there's more resentment than jealousy 0.99
02:19:10.460 and i think you have the right kind of adaptation for moving forward so i think there's that cope 0.93
02:19:17.340 and there's some copium energy in that tweet okay but i think that the remember coping is only
02:19:24.300 unhealthy if you don't do the second part i think you're doing the second part which is like okay now
02:19:29.500 that i'm in this situation how do i make the most of it so i think there's adaptive coping here okay
02:19:36.300 but i think there's coping and i think if you're really honest with yourself when maybe you are and
02:19:40.940 maybe you're not in public or whatever i think you you feel like you've gotten a raw deal but also and
02:19:48.620 some of these i do i do think that but i'm also some of these some of these who are
02:19:54.540 making not they're doing a lot of stupid stuff but they're not making mistakes nearly they're making 0.98
02:20:01.180 way stupider mistakes than you are they're making way bigger mistakes in some dimension than you are 0.99
02:20:06.220 and they still get to do this stuff and you don't i think that's somewhere within you 0.99
02:20:12.380 fair but again i'll reiterate i'm also appreciative of this position because it allows me to travel or
02:20:19.660 down a road that other people haven't and absolutely it opens new doors and it's mentally simulating
02:20:25.820 one of the biggest fears i have obviously after god is boredom i don't want a life where i i appreciate
02:20:34.460 the obstacles because it makes life interesting and worth living and i never wanted to have a mediocre
02:20:42.700 you know redundant repetitive life so i i appreciate it and i i asked that question because cope
02:20:49.100 has a negative connotation i think the way i was asking it was am i i think because most people
02:20:55.260 use chat to cope with they want to live with their negativity in a way where other people can
02:21:02.220 adjust to it i but i think we've differentiated the difference between healthy coping or adaptive
02:21:07.820 coping and just bullshitting yourself and being delusional you think that my coping is leading well 0.71
02:21:13.420 i think that the adaptive coping is helping me progress and become better many people can cope 0.77
02:21:21.740 and just become delusional absolutely so i i think you have a lot of adaptive coping right so i i think
02:21:28.060 you've you've rolled with the punches and and and you're leaning into things i i think your situation is
02:21:36.540 i think you're quite restricted i think your options are limited and and you're fighting an uphill battle as a
02:21:42.220 a content creator um and and i think that's challenging and i think you're able to not get
02:21:50.860 um how can i say this and i think this is what you mean by coping but you know so i i think you have
02:21:57.420 you've been hurt but you're far from defeated i i think you're actually discovering a new kind of
02:22:02.940 strength which will move you hopefully forward in the right direction and i think you've just got to be
02:22:08.060 careful about because i i think what's going to happen is and this could be happening right so so
02:22:13.980 when you do when not you but when people do this kind of coping they start to there's like some amount
02:22:22.940 of weird psychological things that can happen like projection so one thing that can happen is the
02:22:28.540 weakness that you don't allow yourself to feel you start to loathe when you see it in other people
02:22:34.460 so like this kind of stuff and this is what why i think that overall like integrating who you are
02:22:43.660 completely is the healthy thing to do i think integration is the goal don't sever a part of
02:22:49.020 yourself because if you that that part of yourself will live in your subconscious and will shape what
02:22:55.500 comes out of your mind without your knowledge so for example you made this tweet i think there's a lot
02:23:02.140 that's true in this tweet but why did you choose these particular people and these particular
02:23:08.540 aspects of them as opposed to the million combinations of things that you could take issue
02:23:14.380 with right so some part of your brain is selecting this now how does the brain decide whether you're
02:23:20.860 talking about fat people or men or women or this ethnicity or that ethnicity and this is something
02:23:27.340 that you can see clear as day right and and there's a there's really interesting i mean like so there's
02:23:34.700 another psychological defense mechanism called reaction formation which is when we when there's a part of
02:23:39.580 ourselves that we don't like that we know is a part of us we learn to hate that outside of us because
02:23:49.820 that's way easier than hating that inside of us so the classic example of a reaction formation is the
02:23:57.420 homophobic homosexual so like i've got gay thoughts that's really hard for me to manage and if i can hate
02:24:06.460 gay people outside of me then i'm certainly not gay that's why i have this argument with my community 0.99
02:24:11.660 all the time because i say i love everyone and they're saying no we hate gay and trans people i'm like
02:24:16.060 are you gay like why would you invest that much emotional you know attachment to people that don't 0.83
02:24:22.700 care about you you don't care about i say i say love these people and learn to that they're gonna 1.00
02:24:27.500 exist and like i fucking hate them i'm like what does that do it doesn't do anything it's it's so stupid 0.99
02:24:32.540 to to hate something that you can't control or you know why as men you should not invest emotional 0.99
02:24:39.100 energy into something that does not have a change there's no solution to it
02:24:46.060 sneeko defender of the lgbtq community was not on my 2025 bingo card that's gonna be i mean that
02:24:54.460 that's what i'm i don't think that it's worth it there's no point there's no point in hating them
02:24:59.180 and so many people in my community like i've been arguing with them for years about this 0.93
02:25:03.340 they're like we we hate them i'm like are you are you gay bro bro i i i gotta say sneeko i i i i 0.98
02:25:11.740 i think you you gotta let yourself be better publicly like i i think you have a lot of good 0.90
02:25:18.460 stuff to offer and i i i know i know you're a contrarian i know you're spicy i'm not saying
02:25:23.820 give that up i think it's beautiful i love it but also like you don't need to and i know this is
02:25:29.340 going to sound kind of condescending or whatever but like i know you're concerned about i was about
02:25:32.940 to say afraid because that's really what i think you are like you're afraid to be there's this different
02:25:38.060 kind of courage which is like being more open being more honest like things like that and and
02:25:43.180 i think your fear is not it's such a you carry such a negative connotation which is why i don't want to
02:25:48.540 use the word i i think you'd agree with the word wary right you're wary you're careful and a piece
02:25:54.380 of wary or careful is an acknowledgement that bad things could happen and that sort of roots back in 0.97
02:25:59.580 fear in some way and i'm not saying you're a scaredy cat or a pussy or anything like that that's 0.99
02:26:04.620 where these associations become really important but i i think people misjudge you drastically well 0.97
02:26:10.860 i mean but here we get dr kate this is part of the resentment and frustration is that because i'm
02:26:15.980 banned everywhere the narrative about me is shaped in a way that i can't control so when people all the
02:26:21.740 time i have uh liberals come up to me or you know zionists and they say you hate everyone you hate this
02:26:27.100 i'm like what did i say they don't know but they believe it but they don't have any reasons why because
02:26:32.460 they see more negative things come from me from people that are dictating the narrative so i don't
02:26:38.380 i don't have a fair place on the social in the social media world to explain my point of view
02:26:44.300 or to present myself in the way that can be presented when it's dominated by people that hate
02:26:48.220 me and want to make me look bad the narrative around me is shaped like even earlier we started
02:26:52.300 off this conversation like you don't know what i've been up to for the past couple years but you know
02:26:57.100 that my reputation is not the best and you know i'm controversial you know i'm a i'm a contrarian
02:27:02.460 and you know that like you were surprised to hear that i wasn't that i don't hate gay people
02:27:07.500 because people i'm not surprised fair but you you know you know about me from people that speak about
02:27:16.460 me rather than from me and that's because of my position in this space and that's that's the
02:27:22.300 frustrating part you know that that's part of thing like man i i've been i've been saying this stuff
02:27:26.300 for years but people don't choose to listen they choose to to listen to to what's negative
02:27:30.380 and that does build resentment and you know not not that resentment does anything but that's like
02:27:36.540 that's an honest uh that's just honest so yeah so so you know people may read cope into those
02:27:44.700 statements but i i think out of everything that you've said this is the thing that i have the least
02:27:49.500 disagreement or least nuance i think we both exist in a world where it's a race to the bottom
02:27:55.740 where what what gets views is not the nuanced view like so i was stunned i i saw a post recently on
02:28:03.740 on our subreddit about my view about a particular thing okay and i was shocked because i don't i don't
02:28:09.820 believe that at all right so so it and and i think we just live in a world where like people make
02:28:16.620 judgments based on slices of who we are and it we really live in a world as content creators where
02:28:23.740 nuance is not what spreads so there's a great quote from from terry pratchett where he's he's like a
02:28:31.740 fiction writer but he says you know the um a lie can make its way around the world before the the truth
02:28:38.140 gets its shoes tied and and so i i think that we we absolutely do live in a world and i think this is
02:28:43.900 why you've you've become so careful right you've had to become careful because whatever you say is going
02:28:49.420 to get clipped and shipped and the thing though is i'm going to tell you one observation that i made
02:28:55.500 so you've got a you've got an interesting opportunity so people love to tear me down
02:29:02.220 they're going to love to build you up so what what the internet responds to more than anything else is a
02:29:07.660 delta so the moment that you're a bad person and you continue doing bad things everyone's going to
02:29:13.900 get bored of you the moment that i do anything even slightly bad like the more good that i do the
02:29:19.340 more people are going to enjoy tearing me down right so i think like good examples of this is if you
02:29:23.420 if you look at streamers who are like have very good reputations oh yeah people are going to love 0.97
02:29:28.940 saying oh this person is an asshole this person actually secretly does this this kind of stuff 0.96
02:29:33.980 kai sanat is getting the like do you see the hate train on kai sanat no oh it is brutal like they 0.99
02:29:40.780 just do it's so fun to hate on kai sanat because he has a perfect brand image for the most part like
02:29:46.940 as it comes to continuity he's very well known he just got a fortnite skin and then everyone's like
02:29:51.100 you didn't donate here you didn't do this you're a homo like they just they want to uh because he's 1.00
02:29:56.460 on such a positive internet loves being able to change the narrative about that absolutely absolutely 0.94
02:30:01.500 so the internet also loves the redemption art yeah they do they yes can you give me an example
02:30:10.780 um i mean i'm not let me think
02:30:21.260 what's a redemption arc speed maybe the speed maybe i mean i just don't follow too many streamers but
02:30:30.780 like i i'm pretty sure that um let me just think about
02:30:34.860 there have to be like artists i'm just not following like pop culture and i wonder actually
02:30:44.540 like so i'm glad you asked for me for an example because now i'm questioning whether this is actually
02:30:49.420 true right so if i can have a single person um so i i mean i think generally speaking so like maybe some
02:30:59.260 musicians and stuff right so who like used to use a lot of drugs used to party a lot and then when
02:31:04.380 they like that when they kind of get like decent later on in life they can kind of become oh a
02:31:09.580 redemption arc like snoop dogg um arguably like martha stewart like i think those are good examples
02:31:17.980 like so snoop dogg like i think i don't think a lot of people now he's like he sells like candles or
02:31:22.380 whatever right and i'm not trying to disrespect him or anything like that i i also try not to talk about
02:31:26.700 people i try to talk to people so i don't like to mention people but i think snoop dogg is a really
02:31:30.700 good example i don't think most people know who snoop dogg really was like in the 80s and 90s now
02:31:37.340 he's this like fluffy he was a murderer he beat a murder charge and uh didn't he get convicted i think
02:31:43.180 he literally is a convicted murderer i'm not going to comment any any you asked for an example that's
02:31:47.980 one that i would offer okay that's right so like and i'm not commenting whether he's a good person or
02:31:54.460 whether it was fair whether he's good now i'm not i'm not making any kind of value judgment
02:31:58.940 but you want an example i think that's like a good one
02:32:05.100 um yeah and i think there are other like musicians and stuff like who sort of fall into that
02:32:12.060 um and then i think i think there are there must be like streamers who kind of like shape up
02:32:18.380 right they used to be kind of degenerate but then they kind of go mainstream and there's
02:32:21.740 something of a redemption arc there but it's a good point and i think they definitely people
02:32:27.820 love tearing people down more than a redemption arc but i think from an archetypal standpoint and
02:32:33.100 a tropal standpoint we love redemption arcs
02:32:37.660 because if because i think human beings see it and they think like if you can do it then maybe i can
02:32:43.100 do it so they they love to see that the triumph of the human spirit and good to win in the end i think
02:32:47.820 that's why it's in all the movies but it is scary i guess your fellow indian neon is on a redemption
02:32:53.260 arc you know he was saying people like love to hate him a couple years back and now he's doing a lot
02:32:58.300 of positive things and he's on uh on a very good redemption arc right now yeah i i can think of a
02:33:04.540 couple of other streamers but i'm not going to mention names i think redemption arcs absolutely do happen
02:33:09.260 so we've been at this for a couple of hours i'm debating whether
02:33:18.460 i want to ask you about the crisis that you're going through or whether we should wrap up around
02:33:23.420 now what do you think i up to you i unfortunately we only we said this last time and then we didn't
02:33:29.820 speak for a couple years so if you want to if you want to ask me something or if you want to leave
02:33:33.340 that i'll put the volume yeah that's that's a great point so since we do this once every two years
02:33:39.340 which maybe will change um why don't you tell me a little bit about what what's been going on with you
02:33:43.900 recently it's uh my editor texted me logan paul that's a good example for damage like what's been
02:33:52.460 going on is um i've been i've been working i've been working a lot and um i like talking to you
02:34:00.300 because i'm i realized when i say things like the so what i was going to say and then i'll tell you
02:34:05.980 the thought that i had i was going to say i've been working really hard and the person i've been
02:34:09.260 working with cck and he's been working in the summer he recently commented on my work ethic and
02:34:14.220 he's like it's insane how much you work and then i immediately thought about my fans or the community
02:34:19.660 uh people love you like you're they insist that i'm lazy all the time they just like do this do that
02:34:24.460 it's very you know they see the predicament that i'm in being banned they're like oh they get really
02:34:29.260 upset if i'm not live you know for six hours every single day there's a lot of things that i
02:34:33.420 do you know i make these videos i edit a lot i'm filming a lot i'm traveling a lot i uh collaborate
02:34:39.020 a lot it's a lot of work and as i was saying that i was like wow i clearly listen too much to
02:34:46.540 what people say online and there's no point in investing energy in that if it ends up frustrating
02:34:52.220 me that people don't understand what i do or trying to communicate that to them so it's just it's
02:34:57.980 been it's been busy it's it's it's non-stop and i enjoy it but i do crave a vacation that's why
02:35:05.020 i'm a little bit envious that you went to france and switzerland i would love to have four or five
02:35:09.100 days off and barely look at my phone and unplug and just be somewhere where i can relax and not think
02:35:17.180 about the stuff and not read anything online but the pressures of maintaining you know social media
02:35:22.620 or whatever and also my career position is like you pretty much have to be you got to be dialed in you
02:35:27.500 got to be you got to be locked in and it's that fear of you know disintegrating and losing everything
02:35:32.380 you built
02:35:40.540 so what what's the so i i mentioned to you that i i went through a crisis you said
02:35:54.380 same or something of the effect is that what this is is that is that what you were referring to it's
02:35:58.860 it's not a crisis but it's it's um i would love to start a okay actually you wanted to speak to myron
02:36:09.180 right i i i need to connect as soon as i'll i'll put you in a group chat and i'm sure you could have
02:36:13.580 a good conversation but recently he went very public that he he's been he's been what i've been wanting
02:36:19.580 to go on his podcast for a long time i think that'd be great and i think he's great too i think he's
02:36:24.860 someone else that i think he's someone else that um i think people misjudge quite a bit
02:36:31.580 yeah i i agree he's one of my best friends and i got to see him in miami a couple days ago
02:36:36.300 i think i don't know if you like aiden ross but i love talking to aiden too
02:36:40.540 it is one of my it is another one of my best friends
02:36:42.700 yeah and speaking of dopamine i remember like last year we were in canada and i saw him win a
02:36:48.540 million dollars gambling online something i refuse to do to take the money from uh and i saw him win
02:36:55.020 a million dollars and then immediately he got depressed 30 seconds later i'm like what the 0.96
02:36:59.820 fuck he just won a million dollars and he's sitting there like 0.99
02:37:05.100 i'm like what it's like the dopamine wore off he got high from winning a million and then it 1.00
02:37:11.180 wore off he's like oh okay i already have like 80 million and then now he's just you know coming
02:37:17.020 down and i'm like this is evil look what this just how do you get sad after winning a million dollars
02:37:23.740 it's it's an endless loop but yeah he's um yeah i remember you guys spoke i saw that stream
02:37:28.780 myron i would love to see you guys do that and myron went really public he said he broke up with his
02:37:32.220 girlfriend he doesn't want to start a family with her but because he doesn't want to start a family
02:37:35.980 with her this is what he said online publicly i'm not saying anything um that he didn't say he said
02:37:41.180 that he's not ready you know he's 35 and he has more work to do and he's not he's not and i'm like
02:37:47.740 that made me self-reflect a lot because i want a family and i don't want that to restrict you know
02:37:54.300 i don't want that to be in a competition with what i do and it made me think like when am i going to
02:37:59.100 get out of this am i going to still be streaming at 35 am i still going to be at this routine at that
02:38:03.580 at this work level no breaks and am i destined to do this forever or can i start a family or can i
02:38:11.820 be able to combine the two of them so yeah that's what i've been thinking about a lot and it also did
02:38:17.180 inspire that pewdiepie tweet you feel trapped
02:38:23.820 a little bit but i do i i love what i do i love what i do i know so so i i i think like this is
02:38:31.020 challenging because like i'm gonna i use negative valence emotions and i ask you if you feel that way
02:38:38.140 and i think that there's an association of like being trapped as weak or whatever but like i i i i
02:38:43.820 i i don't get that like right so i i don't i don't know if this makes sense but like
02:38:48.620 so so what i'm getting the sense of is that you feel incredibly like restricted like you can't afford
02:38:53.820 to stop pretty much yeah right so so so if you and and and this is what i'm kind of curious about
02:39:01.340 you said the phrase scary fear of disintegrating what does that mean
02:39:07.420 of losing everything basically like letting them win you know they try to letting who win
02:39:16.540 the people that took away my platforms that ruined my reputation that you know say that preyed on my
02:39:22.940 downfall those people like by you know by losing this it's like that vindicates them so it's like a
02:39:31.340 it's like a non-stop battle so them you winning means never taking a vacation and never having a
02:39:42.780 family no me winning weird victory me winning is finding an exit point like pewdiepie where you
02:39:47.980 leave on your own terms and nobody could say that you you know that you lost everything or that
02:39:57.660 nobody could tarnish your your reputation of what you've done so he left on his own terms and i respect
02:40:05.020 that a lot and okay yeah maybe i'm fatigued but i'm i'm gonna be a little straight with you so
02:40:13.740 so and and you have to you got we got to reserve the right if this is not if this doesn't end up
02:40:23.020 right i i get a redo is that fair sure here we go so like i'm hearing some things that i think make
02:40:33.820 a lot of sense and are kind of like losing sight of the forest for the trees kind of thing so first
02:40:42.860 of all if your goal is to have an impeachable reputation that is a terrible goal so you're
02:40:50.780 you're dictating the way that you live your life based on the opinions of others 0.70
02:40:57.100 so people want to say like who the fuck cares if they say that you pushed out or whatever 0.54
02:41:03.580 if you're out there living your life and you're happy and you're hanging out with your family and 0.93
02:41:07.980 you're on the beach or you're writing a book or whatever it is that you do you're holding workshops
02:41:13.100 for whatever right like if you're living your life like like this is a very dangerous goal to have
02:41:22.140 a reputational goal is very i would argue that it is not within your control that's not the that's not
02:41:29.500 the complete goal i i think that's uh a secondary goal obviously the goal is to do the right thing and
02:41:35.500 is to i'd say the ultimate goal is to bring people closer to god entertain do the right thing that's
02:41:42.140 the that's the top of the pyramid as we specified earlier secondary uh secondary goals is i do want
02:41:49.900 ever since they they took everything and they smeared reputation the secondary goal is is proving
02:41:55.740 those people wrong and not letting them be correct in their assessment of me
02:41:59.660 so so that too i mean this this sounds
02:42:07.420 dangerous to me like in a way that's gonna hurt you because now it's like your your mission so i
02:42:13.340 don't think god is the primary goal actually because if god was the primary goal you'd take four
02:42:18.300 to five days off
02:42:23.020 right like so i i think what's actually happening is that in one part and this is a this is exactly the
02:42:29.500 shadow that i was talking about when you start lopping off parts of yourself this is what
02:42:33.740 happens because you say something is the primary goal but if god is really the primary goal you can
02:42:38.140 take four to five days off this is where there's some kind of weird fuel and i don't know if you've
02:42:43.100 noticed but over the course of this conversation you have expressed a theme of frustration with other
02:42:51.260 people's impression of you
02:42:55.500 right that's the thing
02:42:58.940 and and and i don't think that that's like bad or anything i'm not trying to say it's a weakness or
02:43:03.500 anything like that like people misjudge you sort of right because they judge it's not that they misjudge
02:43:09.660 you it's that they incompletely judge you they judge a slice of you they form an opinion based on
02:43:14.620 the first six words out of your mouth they don't even pay attention to the other 25
02:43:20.700 and now here you are fighting a reputational war against some phantom how do you know when you win
02:43:27.420 but it's also it's bigger than just reputational right it's also an ideological war it's a culture war
02:43:33.740 it's the war for about the truth and also there's conflicting ideas about even taking a break because
02:43:43.340 as i expressed earlier one of my biggest you know fears on this earth besides god is a life of
02:43:49.180 boredom and stagnation and repetition and i know i'm the type of person like i idealize like you know
02:43:55.980 escaping and having a family or even taking a vacation but it's like i can visualize myself
02:44:00.060 there and and i see myself like getting bored in a day or two i'm like i want to go back to work
02:44:04.780 you know it sounds nice but it's it's not truly so do you remember early in the conversation where i said
02:44:12.700 this is adaptive but it's going to be maladaptive when you're 40 yeah this is what i'm talking about
02:44:20.460 right so like here you are wanting something and you've got to be really careful man because if
02:44:27.180 you're not careful and you end up dating someone who is who you're supposed to date and some of this
02:44:33.660 shit comes up you're gonna screw it up like you're gonna get bored like it's i don't know if this makes 0.72
02:44:38.700 sense you're you're out of control in an in control way you can't stop you won't let yourself stop and 0.99
02:44:49.420 it's not like you're stopping forever like you won't even let yourself take a break because your
02:44:52.940 fear of disintegration you don't want to let them win right and there are these other things that are
02:44:58.060 not congruent with your actions and you want to part on your own terms fine like great for awesome
02:45:06.060 you know i i support basically most of what you're like i think it's good but do you see how they're
02:45:11.740 like this just doesn't plug in so there's like there's an independent driver here which is driving
02:45:21.100 you and even though you're not able like you want to take a vacation it sounds nice there's a lot of
02:45:26.860 stuff that you want that sounds nice but the act of actually doing it doesn't feel good
02:45:32.300 right so this is where where so now if you if you're really careful and and i'm i'm being a
02:45:39.820 little bit rough with you here okay so like it's coming from place of love this is a level of lack of
02:45:47.020 self-control where there's a level of self-control which is like i'm not going to let my fear of boredom
02:45:54.940 or my inability to be bored control my ability to take a vacation right so you're still being like
02:46:03.340 puppeted by a part of you and i i'm not i'm not i'm not trying to devalue any of your goals i support
02:46:10.860 your goals go ahead and establish your views you know like the people who thought that you were x y or z
02:46:18.300 it's not that you want to prove them wrong you are not going to be that thing and if they want
02:46:24.460 to continue to misjudge you that's on them
02:46:29.500 right but there's there's something here that that feels to me like some of these energies
02:46:34.700 fundamentally you want these things but you're not able you're not allowing yourself to have what
02:46:40.060 you want and if you just think about that for a second what's stopping you clearly something inside
02:46:45.980 you because i don't know i mean maybe your chat is like if you take a four-day vacation like we're
02:46:51.180 never going to see you again i don't think that's going to happen and i think you may attract people
02:46:58.460 almost certainly will who also flagellate themselves right push themselves y'all y'all make it an honorific
02:47:09.260 to have such a great i know you've got a great work ethic like i i can tell right but like
02:47:16.780 there's almost this like zealousness
02:47:21.500 of of work ethic where you have to have to have to have to have to
02:47:27.260 and and this is where i think some of those associations become important because i think
02:47:30.860 there's like some middle path like i think you can take four or five days off and i think if you're
02:47:35.100 bored you don't have to commit to four or five days if you're bored you're bored and then you're like
02:47:40.220 i want to come back to work so be it right but as long as you have this specter of i'm not going to
02:47:46.140 let them win like that they're living rent free in your head bro absolutely absolutely and that's why
02:47:52.860 i tweeted that about pewdiepie and and you know the people that live opposite to him is because they 0.71
02:47:58.780 have a similar mentality that i'm trying to escape from you know and that i'm working on and aware of
02:48:03.340 where they're still churning out the drama slop with that osempic stare because they don't
02:48:09.180 acknowledge what's wrong or see that they you know they should have an exit point and i don't
02:48:13.740 want to be that like that's that's exactly why i said that i'm sorry and that's the crisis is like
02:48:18.540 i really don't want to be that forever that there's there's that's a dangerous thing to be when you're
02:48:24.140 42 absolutely yeah and and so so once again i'm i'm being a little bit rough with you okay so like
02:48:31.500 but like here they are with the ssri i want i want you to make me cry or something this is come on
02:48:38.780 so they they are soulless making drama slop whatever ssri is osempic stare and like so that's why they're 0.54
02:48:46.940 stuck in this right what's your excuse how are you different
02:48:56.780 right they're they're being pushed by something within them you're being pushed by something
02:49:02.540 within you you say you want these things and i think that some of this will calm down by the way
02:49:08.220 so hopefully you become like more secure like from a i don't know exactly what your financial
02:49:15.020 situations or anything like i don't mean like psychologically secure i mean like whatever
02:49:19.020 whatever and i've i've talked you know i've worked with with um content creators who have been banned
02:49:25.260 from platforms and and there it's a tenuous existence right it's like tenuous that's what i mean like
02:49:32.780 and so so if things kind of calm down for you and you know there's some more steady like income or
02:49:37.500 whatever i don't know exactly what your income is or anything like that some of this stuff can get
02:49:40.700 better but i think you've got to be really careful about what's driving you what what is that thing
02:49:45.180 and it's not the logical thought there's something that is producing a particular bucket of thoughts
02:49:51.980 it's also that i i i believe that i have a god-given talent i i find myself i don't maybe you can call
02:49:59.900 this our system i think i'm very talented and i think i'm gifted at what i do and i think that i
02:50:05.580 impact a lot of people and i've seen the impact i've had on people um over well over a decade of
02:50:10.780 the stuff that i've put out and i know that there's it's almost like a responsibility that i find to do
02:50:17.340 more and to impact more people and to to help and to you know put that out there more and i i know that
02:50:24.700 i'm not even close to done yet and that that's also that's a main driver yeah so i i can empathize
02:50:34.620 right i would say that i am talented you are absolutely that i i affect a lot of people
02:50:40.700 i help a lot of people um and also i don't think that i have to do it alone
02:50:49.900 i think that i was put on this earth by god to help people but like i get to take vacations
02:50:57.180 and and i have a a ridiculous work ethic i work seven days a week most weeks i had my
02:51:04.300 first vacation in five years um and so like i i'm i'm sort of with you there but i think this
02:51:13.100 is what i've sort of learned is like you've got to be careful because all those things can be true
02:51:17.820 but this there's a certain you're like a hundred percent and all the things that you're saying like
02:51:24.700 i don't think god is asking you to never take a break you're 26 years old you've got 40 to 50 years
02:51:31.740 of content creation left in you and what makes you think that like taking four days off won't
02:51:39.100 improve the quality of your content so one of the most shocking things that we discovered so we have
02:51:44.540 a career coaching program where we i forget exactly what it is somewhere on we in about
02:51:50.780 eight to 12 weeks people's like channel growth increases by somewhere between 30 and 80 percent i
02:51:56.940 think the number is 80 but that number sounds ridiculous let's just say we improve their channel
02:52:00.700 growth by 50 the key thing about our program is we do it without increasing the number of hours worked
02:52:07.660 so working more is not necessarily is not necessarily going to get you there
02:52:17.500 right so i i think this is where like there's a lot of self-reflection about you know like are you
02:52:21.740 are you do you mind if i ask a couple questions about your personal life absolutely are you dating
02:52:26.460 anyone right now uh no okay are you interested in finding a committed relationship absolutely yeah
02:52:44.940 what is making the when do you want to do that
02:52:47.820 pretty soon if not now like i i am looking for that yeah that's something that i am investing time
02:52:57.580 and what what what's getting in the way
02:53:05.980 nothing really it's it's just um i think no nothing's really getting in the way okay so you're like
02:53:13.100 actively pursuing that things are moving because like there's a part of me that i'm defaulting to this
02:53:17.500 this hypothesis that something about your work ethic is gonna like there's a certain rigidity
02:53:23.820 not rigidity there's a certain zeal right there's like like you're like all in on this
02:53:32.140 like it's like work seven days a week no days off you're editing you're coming up with ideas you're
02:53:37.580 collabing and stuff like that and i i get you dude like next six months of my life are are really really
02:53:43.180 busy and then i'm working on a bunch of stuff like you know i i i i really do think i get you and i
02:53:49.500 think you should do all that yeah like but scaling back by 10 or 20 percent i i think that's only an
02:53:58.940 issue if there's an end target with a finite timeline does that kind of make sense yeah there
02:54:06.220 there's financial goals that i want to i want to hit them you i i am doing very well from the
02:54:12.460 stuff that i'm very blessed to be but i'm i'm not quite exactly where i want to be so where i could
02:54:19.020 comfortably be like all right ready to have like pop out four kids like that you know i'm not a very
02:54:23.980 materialistic person but i i want to be have complete comfort in that and not have to because i grew up
02:54:32.540 like there was a lot of financial stress and i don't want any of that for my kids so yeah so i
02:54:38.940 i mean so so then my next question is like how much of this is actually a problem is what a problem
02:54:44.620 because what you're just so so like this so the i'm i'm getting kind of mixed signals here which is
02:54:49.820 not a bad thing this is a good thing so on the one hand you're saying like okay i want these things
02:54:55.100 right so like i i kind of like the the way that pewdiepie did it that's kind of the path that i think
02:55:01.340 jives with what i want do your stuff take an exit don't be like trapped in this life forever
02:55:09.900 yeah you know take a break do you want to take a vacation yes and no yes and no because that's
02:55:17.420 how i first started my streaming career i would do one month off one month on every single day and then
02:55:22.060 one month off completely where i just would travel europe and then not stream at all and people always
02:55:26.540 say i miss when you streamed every day it's like that was never what i did you know when i was on
02:55:31.020 youtube streaming which is you know short-lived it was one month on one month off and i i really
02:55:36.620 liked that routine but also when i was there for a while i'd just be sitting around and then i'm in
02:55:41.340 europe you know not sure what do you do you end up drinking somewhere or just wasting time or just
02:55:46.300 being a degenerate because like how do you fill up your time i'm the type of person where like i i don't
02:55:50.780 like boredom and degeneracy does quickly replace that so work is also an escape from that
02:55:59.260 from that familiar routine so i mean it sounds nice but it's also i do i love working i love it
02:56:06.620 yeah i love this yeah so so do you so what appeals to you about a vacation
02:56:15.020 i guess just silence from constant social media that that's the i think that is the big appeal being
02:56:21.340 in a place without you know the familiarities of it but even then i went to miami recently for a couple
02:56:26.060 days had to take care of housekeeping stuff and you know i streamed maybe once in three days and i came
02:56:31.740 back and i was so relieved to be back in new york city because i love the chaos and the busyness and
02:56:36.220 you know the fomo that i get if i'm not working like being in why i love new york so much is that
02:56:41.260 there's an energy here that pulls you into work
02:56:44.380 can i think for a second absolutely
02:56:57.260 is there a problem here is this something you're unhappy with are you okay with this
02:57:03.420 no i i'm okay i'm okay i'm just i'm kind of just i'm venting you know it's uh but i i'm okay that also
02:57:10.460 again why it goes full circle like it's part of the reason i don't believe in therapy because um
02:57:16.940 yeah my life life is good i i really don't have too much to complain about i i i i'm venting
02:57:27.420 what are you venting about you know frustrations i have but it's not what are you frustrated with
02:57:34.620 what are you frustrated with the stuff that i vocalize like the being canceled the reputation
02:57:42.620 and the feedback from the community a lot of the frustrations do stem from social media but
02:57:49.500 also love social media okay okay okay okay i i got you thank you so much for clarifying
02:57:54.860 yeah so i i i i sort of see like you're kind of like stuck between a rock and a hard place right
02:57:59.420 because on the one hand you've been burned by social media it's a relief to get away from social
02:58:07.420 media but you like the work right you don't need a break from the work and and if you take a break
02:58:15.980 from the work if you take a break from engaging your mind and that's really what i see here is like
02:58:21.660 you're engaging your mind every day you're thinking you're talking to people you're collabing
02:58:26.380 you're like your ideas are being tested your ideas are being clarified through the when you say them
02:58:32.540 out loud you're thinking right you've got this mission you don't exactly know how you're supposed
02:58:37.500 to fulfill it you notice you're having an impact the world isn't fixed yet so you've got to keep going
02:58:44.220 and you and each day you do it you get better that's got to be addictive right not in a bad way it's
02:58:50.300 like okay like we're doing it right so you you got you got kind of ko'd a little bit but you actually
02:58:55.100 you didn't get ko'd you got knocked down you're at a disadvantage but you're gonna come back
02:59:00.860 right and and so like you're gonna you got to kind of make up for lost time so you're grinding
02:59:05.020 you're not gonna you're not gonna make the same mistake again you're not gonna get fully cancelled
02:59:08.860 you're gonna find a way to come back so i totally get that yeah you want a break from the socials
02:59:14.540 that taxes you you're willing to pay the price it's worth it to pay the price paying the price you're
02:59:21.100 happy with where you are now and you've got a lot of you're going uphill but you're still
02:59:26.700 climbing so if you take a break on the one hand you get a break from the negativity
02:59:35.740 on the other hand if you take a break and you're not engaging yourself
02:59:42.380 then you're going to become a degenerate you don't want to be you don't want to just be sitting there
02:59:45.980 drinking right do you want to explore europe yes but you're going to wind up sort of wasting
02:59:51.100 your time sort of being bored so you might as well work so like what i'm sort of getting from you is
02:59:58.140 that this isn't ideal but you'll take it any day of the week over the alternative you just rather be
03:00:04.540 working than be on vacation because vacation is a break from social media sure you get this thing
03:00:08.940 but you don't get these eight other things yeah it goes back to your point earlier where you can get a
03:00:13.580 million positive competent comments and 100 negative comments and so it's like i get a break from the
03:00:18.380 100 negative comments but i also get a break from a million positive comments so yeah i think that that
03:00:25.340 compared that point you made up earlier is a perfect comparison so um here's kind of where like after i
03:00:35.340 after i kind of put it back to you like that where are you now with this right where we started okay good
03:00:43.580 so so so so i i think that that's that's actually really good so i i don't think we're actually
03:00:49.020 right where we're starting um but it's good to to clarify these ideas and get a perspective on them
03:00:55.660 and you know hear them out but yeah no no this this um it is good but you know i'm a very i think a lot
03:01:06.700 you know as much as i try not to be too inspected the stuff that i've been tossing and turning with for years
03:01:11.660 so i i i so here's here's what i think you should do so i think there's a couple of different points
03:01:19.980 here the first is that i think a lot of your desire to get away from social media isn't today
03:01:27.260 it's actually a dormant wound from the past right so like when you say i want to get away from social media
03:01:34.220 it's not the comments today that you need to get away from it's the aggregate hurt of social media
03:01:42.700 which you're sort of moving away from i think that's something you should consider
03:01:47.900 so which also means that part of part of the because you're sort of conflicted but i think
03:01:52.380 the reason you're conflicted is because on the one hand like you actually don't want a vacation
03:01:55.980 so the thing that you're running away from is not actually present in the here and now in a very
03:02:02.460 potent way the process of getting canceled hurts a lot now right so so now i don't think it's social
03:02:12.300 media today i think it's there's a dormant wound which you're running away from in some way not in
03:02:17.980 a bad way but you want relief from that's a better way to put it so i think if that that wound gets
03:02:23.740 resolved and you kind of come to terms with that and you've done a really good job in some way but
03:02:28.140 i think you've also walled it off do you know what an abscess is you ever heard this term like a cancer
03:02:35.260 sort of so an abscess is when we have like an infection or something your your body forms a wall
03:02:41.340 around the infection so it forms this like circle and there's active infection on the inside but it can't
03:02:48.780 spread so it no longer damages you but it never gets healed it's not the same as healing so we're
03:02:57.660 going to like wall off the contamination we're not going to get rid of it we're going to just wall it
03:03:02.860 off so so sometimes when when people go through things like what you've gone through this is sort
03:03:07.740 of what happens in their mind they wall off a part of themselves and then they they want that to go away
03:03:13.980 but it's it's kind of weird and then they wind up in these situations where you are where you're like
03:03:18.060 you're really interested in this but the thing that you are interested in doesn't solve what you're
03:03:24.300 longing for does that kind of make sense like you want it but it doesn't do what you want it to do
03:03:30.860 it's not going to do what you want it to do but you want it anyway which is like weird because then
03:03:35.260 why do you want it so you're i think that this is something you should consider second thing
03:03:40.300 is that i think you need to learn how to be bored yeah so there's like right so i i think that there's
03:03:47.740 like there's a level of like contemplation there's a level of relaxation and you say it's easy to fall
03:03:54.380 into degenerate habits and i think a big part of like growth is going to be learning new ways to do
03:04:00.860 things now i don't think that i mean i don't think you're ready to take a vacation anytime soon and i
03:04:06.700 don't think vacation is really the right thing but i i i i think that you know when your body tells
03:04:12.620 you we need a break like give it that break and and give yourself some time to you know be with
03:04:18.460 yourself i mean maybe the kind of vacation you need is a little bit different i'd say like grab
03:04:22.460 a notebook grab a pen grab a laptop i do i write a cabin i well yeah yeah which i do consider to
03:04:30.860 be a vacation like something like that's so that's what i do visualize is like being alone with my
03:04:34.620 thoughts in uh in a cabin that that is like what i'm talking about just being like on a beach somewhere
03:04:39.420 just like where i could write which is work yeah you know which and technically it's not really a
03:04:44.940 a break i mean yes and no so so i i i think it is a break from social media which is the break that you
03:04:53.420 really crave and it's not going to be boredom right and i and i i say like like you're right it's
03:04:59.580 technically not a break but i i don't think you're ready for a break yet like if you want to go
03:05:04.780 without the laptop go without the laptop if you want to go hang out on a beach somewhere go hang
03:05:09.100 out on a beach somewhere but if you're not ready for that then then go take a working vacation you
03:05:14.940 know i i mean i mean that that that's something that just because you're you don't have to be idle
03:05:21.660 and be on vacation so i think there's some amount of like you got to really think about
03:05:25.820 how much you've been affected and and not just in the sense that it's like worn you down or you've
03:05:31.740 lost or or anything like that like you've you've coped you've bounced back you're bounced back
03:05:38.220 now it's just what's lingering within you that you're really like sensitive to and and i'm i'm and
03:05:44.380 you can go back and and you know listen to this conversation again i think the primary
03:05:47.980 theme here is like the judgment of others which is so tricky because like you're striving to be
03:05:54.620 independent and and it's got to be frustrating to be like thinking about other people so much
03:06:00.380 even when you've learned because i can tell a part of you has grown past that you really have
03:06:05.260 but it's like a part of you hasn't like it's like 80 at 90 of you has grown past it but 10 of it is
03:06:12.540 like i want to show these and then i i think on a on a on a given day you know if i ask you like okay
03:06:18.540 if i'm doing work that i'm aligned with i'm going to try to help people i'm going to work in service to
03:06:22.540 god whatever like 90 but there's some some 15 year old kid who's looking at himself in the mirror
03:06:28.220 doesn't like what he sees and what bothers him even more is like he's proud of himself
03:06:33.340 so what he sees when he looks in the mirror is something he's proud of but everyone else
03:06:38.060 doesn't see that that's what really bothers you and that's still there
03:06:42.860 right you've done the growth people don't see it and then you probably hate yourself a little bit
03:06:52.060 for wanting them to see it you're good at what you do you're good at what you do
03:06:57.980 no you are i gotta give you gotta give you credit yeah you both both conversations you
03:07:05.100 surprised me oh this guy's kind of spot on yeah because one of my first viral videos uh i was i
03:07:11.900 was 15 16 when i made it called how people view you and it was about this exactly it was about
03:07:18.300 living for people's validation and living in the perception of other people and how that's becoming
03:07:23.420 increasingly common with social media and it was like a warning sign people really loved how you
03:07:28.780 know it was articulate and accurate in a way that people didn't describe and even without social media
03:07:35.900 people have been doing that but that is uh i that is you know one of the common themes about everything
03:07:43.340 everything in my work yeah i i think and i'm i hopefully this isn't glazing too much i i think i think you
03:07:50.540 have you have you have some serious profit energy like you really do like i i think you're you're
03:07:58.140 thoughtful you're charismatic like you you have a you have some profit energy kind of going on and i'm
03:08:05.260 not i i really see that and i think you have something really important to offer and i and i just i hope
03:08:13.020 hope i hope that you don't have to sacrifice your life right so i know your name i mean i don't know
03:08:21.740 what your real name is but you know you're sneeko and like there's a human underneath and i just hope
03:08:27.980 you're able to find some way that you fulfill whatever that profit energy is going right it's some
03:08:33.580 amount of teaching and some amount of speaking and some amount of spreading and disseminating but there
03:08:38.060 must be a clarity of idea it must be disseminated in the right way these tweets do go viral you do
03:08:43.500 have this charisma you've got all those pieces but hopefully the human doesn't have to be sacrificed
03:08:48.940 in the process
03:08:55.020 enough for today i think
03:08:56.060 you're the goat dr k hi man hey i wish all uh all success to you and to you and your family
03:09:08.620 great speaking to you again i would love to do this again and feel free to message me anytime if 0.98
03:09:12.860 you want to i will catch up and talk it was fun talking to you through the messages the past couple
03:09:16.780 days and you know before then i yeah cool man i appreciate this uh appreciate this a lot thank you so
03:09:23.020 much for talking talking's good that's what all right man do huh have a good one take care buddy 0.98
03:09:30.300 bye dr k man dr k fucking hell that was good i gotta i gotta pee chat i gotta pee like a 1.00
03:09:41.500 motherfucker bro this is a lot longer than i expected i think i was better than the first one 0.99
03:09:45.580 do you guys like the segment i thought it was uh i thought it was great it's really fun doing uh 0.97
03:09:55.020 because i do debates all the time but like mentally sparring like this in a different way
03:09:59.980 uh it's super super stimulating it's so fun uh i love challenging conversations like that
03:10:08.380 you know what i'm saying let's get a w dr k in the chat real quick man shout out to dr k
03:10:21.180 big shout out to dr k let me go to the bathroom oh my bad echo echo echo let's just get some w's in
03:10:27.900 the chat great segment man i i thought this was better than the first one i don't know if you guys
03:10:32.460 were around for the first one but that was great chat should i have cried for the clip
03:10:43.660 no he's really good he's really good at what he does
03:10:51.340 all right
03:11:02.460 hey hey hey you could have came with us you could have came with us you can't be complaining now
03:11:25.500 all right hey hey it's good i like maverick
03:11:35.020 so indy was at the shelter right before fourth 0.92
03:11:37.820 how'd it be
03:11:54.380 oh
03:12:06.140 It reminds me of prison. What the fuck? 1.00
03:12:10.140 Yeah, like that. 1.00
03:12:12.140 What's the dog?
03:12:14.140 So you gotta hand through, but then also hold on to the leash just for double protection.
03:12:19.140 Thanks.
03:12:20.140 It's still a little, you know, pretty warm, but we're just kind of staying in the grass.
03:12:26.140 Chad, if you're ever unsure if it's too hot for your dog, please touch.
03:12:31.140 It's not that bad. It was pretty bad, like, a couple hours ago.
03:12:35.140 Oh, the outside.
03:12:39.140 Oh, what a cutie.
03:12:42.140 Sorry, this is not an image I would expect to see you walking a dog. It's just so weird to me.
03:12:48.140 What's going on?
03:12:49.140 I don't know. It's just I can't imagine you.
03:12:51.140 Alright.
03:12:52.140 Okay, Chad. Okay, okay, okay. How are we feeling?
03:12:56.140 There's a lot that Bronson's been begging me to catch up on.
03:13:00.140 I need to catch up on a lot of news, a lot of clips.
03:13:04.140 And I got the good suit on.
03:13:07.140 So, make sure we get these good.
03:13:11.140 Chat's bugging.
03:13:14.140 Let me see. I can't see the chat.
03:13:17.140 Come on, party. 0.73
03:13:20.140 Come on, party. 0.73
03:13:25.140 There we go.
03:13:29.140 Active TTS.
03:13:32.140 It should be on.
03:13:33.140 Someone pinned TTS in chat.
03:13:35.140 Alright.
03:13:36.140 Let me go through.
03:13:48.140 Let's go through core.
03:13:50.140 Go through the score.
03:13:52.140 Tess, Tess. My good. Alright.
03:13:54.140 Actually, let me go through sneaker updates real quick.
03:13:55.140 There was some stuff that I saw on sneaker updates that I wanted to talk about.
03:14:09.140 Oh, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo.
03:14:16.140 Let's see.
03:14:20.140 You're good to go.
03:14:21.140 Let me get everything.
03:14:22.140 Uh, oh yeah, do you see this new pod?
03:14:26.140 Did you guys see this?
03:14:27.140 For what he did.
03:14:28.140 Have you lost a lot of faith in Trump?
03:14:29.140 Lost all faith in Trump.
03:14:30.140 New pod. 0.99
03:14:31.140 You guys clearly f***ed the s*** on Epstein Island or something. 0.99
03:14:33.140 It's embarrassing. 0.99
03:14:34.140 Trump said word for word, if you want the Epstein files still, I don't want your support.
03:14:38.140 The Nelf boys can sit down with Benjamin Netanyahu and ask him about Burger King and McDonald's. 1.00
03:14:42.140 Yeah, Mossad was definitely in the room, you understand?
03:14:44.140 They're like, no, it was just 20 HR people.
03:14:46.140 AIPAC needs to get out of America.
03:14:47.140 That's the biggest lobby in this country. 0.92
03:14:49.140 Chris Tyson was a pervert. 0.92
03:14:50.140 He's putting it in these videos. 0.86
03:14:51.140 That's the number one YouTube channel in the world.
03:14:53.140 The majority of children watch. 0.98
03:14:54.140 This guy's a pervert and I know him. 0.98
03:14:56.140 They called me crazy and now they all know that I'm right. 0.98
03:14:58.140 And people don't look at me and say, hey, you were right.
03:15:00.140 And I was a party.
03:15:01.140 You were early.
03:15:02.140 Yay was early.
03:15:03.140 Check out.
03:15:04.140 Check out this podcast on Sean Kelly's channel.
03:15:07.140 Just watch it on Twitter.
03:15:09.140 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
03:15:11.140 All right.
03:15:12.140 Yeah.
03:15:13.140 So I saw this one.
03:15:14.140 Ruby Rose said something. 1.00
03:15:15.140 I saw you do that shit with con. 1.00
03:15:17.140 I can't hear nothing. 1.00
03:15:22.140 Can't hear.
03:15:23.140 No, hold on, hold on.
03:15:32.140 Hold on.
03:15:33.140 Hold on.
03:15:34.140 Hold on.
03:15:38.140 Hold on.
03:15:39.140 Let's see.
03:15:40.140 Hold on.
03:15:41.140 Hold on.
03:15:42.140 Hold on.
03:15:43.140 Hold on.
03:15:44.140 Hold on.
03:15:45.140 Hold on.
03:15:46.140 There we go.
03:15:47.140 What did Ruby Rose say? 1.00
03:15:48.140 Oh, I saw you do that shit with Kanye. 1.00
03:15:51.140 Yes. 1.00
03:15:52.140 That is crazy.
03:15:53.140 That stream was the biggest grind ever.
03:15:56.140 I had to go to his house every morning.
03:15:58.140 It was me and Sneeko.
03:15:59.140 Shout out to Sneeko.
03:16:00.140 Don't be me.
03:16:01.140 Respect me.
03:16:02.140 Why was Sneeko there?
03:16:03.140 You know, Sneeko and Kanye worked for years before that.
03:16:06.140 And then he hired her back and now they're still, they're working with each other.
03:16:09.140 I mean, okay.
03:16:10.140 Well, what do you want?
03:16:11.140 You want me to crash out and say that she came off of dating rappers? 1.00
03:16:14.140 Do you want me to make fun of her voice?
03:16:17.140 What do you, what do you, Ruby?
03:16:18.140 What do you want me to do?
03:16:19.140 Do you want me to justify?
03:16:20.140 You want me to explain what I did to you because you don't understand?
03:16:23.140 What am I supposed to do with this clip?
03:16:26.140 Thank you, Neon, for saying this.
03:16:27.140 He's kind of doing like the gay best friend thing here, which I think is really funny.
03:16:30.140 He's really funny.
03:16:31.140 Oh my God!
03:16:32.140 Yes!
03:16:33.140 It was, let me tell you, so much work.
03:16:36.140 Like, why, why is he doing, Neon, you broke up with your girl.
03:16:41.140 You don't need to do the friendly gay best friend thing. 0.72
03:16:43.140 You're cooking with a, hey, cook the, cook the carrots.
03:16:47.140 Cook the, put the, put the little tomatoes in the bowl. 1.00
03:16:51.140 Huh?
03:16:52.140 Mix it up. 1.00
03:16:53.140 Bitch. 1.00
03:16:54.140 Cook my sandwich. 1.00
03:16:55.140 Get my sandwich.
03:16:56.140 That interview was really entertaining.
03:16:57.140 Does it change the way you move forward?
03:16:59.140 Yeah.
03:17:00.140 Yeah.
03:17:01.140 Uh, the interview was really entertaining.
03:17:02.140 Has it changed the way you move forward?
03:17:03.140 Not really, to be honest.
03:17:04.140 Uh, the interview was a good word, but like, bro, I don't know what to say.
03:17:08.140 Like, I'm just like, um, she looks great.
03:17:12.140 I'll say this Ruby Rose.
03:17:13.140 You look great.
03:17:14.140 Hope you're doing well.
03:17:15.140 You're very pretty here.
03:17:17.140 Like what you're doing with your hair.
03:17:19.140 Skin looks clear.
03:17:20.140 Body is tea.
03:17:22.140 Yas queen. 0.99
03:17:23.140 Keep doing your thing.
03:17:25.140 Sweetheart.
03:17:26.140 Love what you're doing.
03:17:27.140 Keep it up.
03:17:28.140 Keep it up.
03:17:31.140 Pokimane.
03:17:32.140 But I just want to ask you.
03:17:33.140 What, what about, uh, Sneaker?
03:17:34.140 Are you friends with Sneaker?
03:17:35.140 Bro, you cooked so hard on Myron's stream last week.
03:17:38.140 All the clips on Twitter had people seething with adhomes.
03:17:41.140 They couldn't debunk a sign point.
03:17:43.140 Just remember God is on your side.
03:17:44.140 Yeah, yeah.
03:17:45.140 I thought the Myron pot was really good.
03:17:47.140 Um, and they just called me like a brown, blah, blah, blah.
03:17:51.140 They just, yeah, no.
03:17:52.140 It's just, it's just all ad homin' taxes.
03:17:54.140 But, it's good.
03:17:55.140 It's good to get those ideas out there.
03:17:56.140 But I just want to ask you, what, what about, uh, Sneaker?
03:17:59.140 Are you friends with Sneaker?
03:18:00.140 Well, I've never met him at all. 0.99
03:18:02.140 What, what do you think about him always talking shit online? 0.98
03:18:05.140 You wanna, would you go out with him? 0.99
03:18:06.140 No? 0.98
03:18:07.140 Okay, I don't always, I don't talk shit about, 0.99
03:18:09.140 Pokimane has probably talked more shit about me than I've talked about her. 0.96
03:18:12.140 I say nice things about her. 0.98
03:18:13.140 She looks great here.
03:18:15.140 She looks great.
03:18:16.140 She looks like she's having a great time shopping.
03:18:18.140 Pokimane, I love the dress.
03:18:19.140 You have a very sweet voice.
03:18:21.140 And, dating money, dating money, you're my guy.
03:18:24.140 Well, come on.
03:18:25.140 She's a nice girl.
03:18:26.140 She's going out shopping.
03:18:27.140 She doesn't wanna hear about this and dating, controversy and stuff. 0.99
03:18:30.140 I don't talk shit about that. 0.98
03:18:31.140 I mean, a little bit. 0.99
03:18:32.140 When she says, believe all victims, I'm like, okay, ah, Pokimane raped me in 2016. 0.77
03:18:35.140 Okay? 0.85
03:18:36.140 That's what I say.
03:18:37.140 I say, Pokimane assaulted me and took me to the Epstein Island. 0.95
03:18:40.140 And, I'm joking.
03:18:42.140 But, no, she's doing great.
03:18:43.140 Hope you're, hope you're good, Pokimane.
03:18:45.140 You look very pretty here.
03:18:46.140 You look, you're very pretty in the dress.
03:18:48.140 Like, let's be real.
03:18:49.140 Very, very pretty.
03:18:50.140 And, I like, her voice is very calming to me.
03:18:52.140 I understand why people watch her.
03:18:54.140 Blah, blah, blah.
03:19:04.140 I don't know about all that.
03:19:05.140 I mean, we'll do our once per year podcast.
03:19:07.140 I think that's coming up in November.
03:19:10.140 Uh, Controlled Chaos.
03:19:11.140 Yeah, man, Sneeko doesn't wanna do it.
03:19:14.140 It's okay.
03:19:15.140 I like Sneeko.
03:19:16.140 Sneeko, when will you collab with Nick or Zerkat again?
03:19:18.140 Or Zerkat again.
03:19:19.140 Yeah, I mean, cause we're all ready to go.
03:19:20.140 Will you collab?
03:19:21.140 Um, yeah, we'll see.
03:19:22.140 If the opportunity arises, you know.
03:19:24.140 If it's possible.
03:19:25.140 But, you know.
03:19:30.140 Sneeko didn't wanna do it.
03:19:31.140 It's his decision.
03:19:32.140 It's his prerogative.
03:19:33.140 It's his life.
03:19:34.140 It's his career.
03:19:35.140 But, uh.
03:19:36.140 I wish he would do it, you know.
03:19:37.140 Cause I, I love him.
03:19:38.140 I wanna talk to him.
03:19:39.140 I, I love that crew.
03:19:40.140 I love Myron.
03:19:41.140 I love Zerkat.
03:19:42.140 I love Sneeko.
03:19:44.140 They're all essential ingredients.
03:19:46.140 You know.
03:19:47.140 Doing it without even one of us.
03:19:49.140 It's not the same.
03:19:50.140 You know.
03:19:51.140 So we really, we need the Red Pill Avengers.
03:19:54.140 We need all four.
03:19:55.140 Now, don't go begging him to do it.
03:19:57.140 That's not, I'm not trying to pressure him into doing it.
03:19:59.140 I'm just saying.
03:20:00.140 I wish he would.
03:20:01.140 Cause I love all three of them.
03:20:02.140 And I think it'd be good content.
03:20:04.140 Um.
03:20:05.140 Yeah.
03:20:06.140 We'll see.
03:20:07.140 Um.
03:20:08.140 Did I do it?
03:20:09.140 Did I react to these clips yet?
03:20:11.140 When's the last time I went live?
03:20:12.140 Did I even react to?
03:20:13.140 I don't think I did.
03:20:14.140 Top five YouTubers of all time.
03:20:15.140 I'm gonna do my five.
03:20:16.140 I'm gonna do yours after.
03:20:17.140 But my five.
03:20:18.140 Steve will do it.
03:20:19.140 No order.
03:20:20.140 Steve will do it.
03:20:21.140 Mr. Beast.
03:20:22.140 Faze Jev. 1.00
03:20:23.140 I ain't gonna lie.
03:20:24.140 I'm putting, I'm also putting Sneeko there. 0.97
03:20:25.140 And I'm putting fifth DDG.
03:20:26.140 That's my top five.
03:20:27.140 Hey, big shout out to Aiden Ross.
03:20:29.140 Love Aiden Ross.
03:20:30.140 Top Jew.
03:20:31.140 Best song kick.
03:20:32.140 Come on.
03:20:33.140 Aiden.
03:20:34.140 Aiden's the GOAT.
03:20:35.140 We love him a lot.
03:20:36.140 And you know what's funny?
03:20:37.140 Um.
03:20:38.140 I used to be in Mr. Beast's top five.
03:20:40.140 He made this video.
03:20:41.140 He made a video called.
03:20:42.140 Top five YouTubers that I think are going to blow up.
03:20:44.140 I think I was like second or third on the list.
03:20:46.140 It was a long time ago.
03:20:47.140 However.
03:20:48.140 But it's just funny seeing this.
03:20:49.140 Putting Sneeko there and I'm putting. 1.00
03:20:50.140 Fuck dude. 1.00
03:20:51.140 Like. 1.00
03:20:52.140 Was this edited?
03:20:53.140 Or was this a real reaction?
03:20:54.140 You know.
03:20:55.140 I also.
03:20:56.140 I feel bad for Mr. Beast because.
03:20:58.140 I think I saw a rage shade of this.
03:21:00.140 But even Dr. K was talking about it.
03:21:02.140 People love to hate on you.
03:21:04.140 People love to get that rage boner. 1.00
03:21:05.140 And fucking destroy you when you have great PR. 1.00
03:21:07.140 And undeniably. 0.99
03:21:09.140 Kai and Mr. Beast have.
03:21:10.140 Like.
03:21:11.140 Mr. Beast has almost impeccable PR.
03:21:12.140 Impeccable.
03:21:13.140 He was able to beat that Chris Tyson case.
03:21:15.140 Very easily.
03:21:16.140 And he's just doing.
03:21:17.140 You know.
03:21:18.140 Charity streams.
03:21:19.140 Doing all this stuff.
03:21:20.140 Doing a great job.
03:21:21.140 Even on like.
03:21:22.140 18 hour streams.
03:21:23.140 With X and Aiden.
03:21:24.140 He's doing a great job.
03:21:25.140 Of navigating that.
03:21:26.140 And not saying anything cancelable.
03:21:28.140 And now they're just saying. 0.99
03:21:29.140 He's a soulless demon. 1.00
03:21:30.140 Who's going to suck the soul out of your kid. 1.00
03:21:32.140 Like what?
03:21:33.140 Not in that way.
03:21:34.140 Not in that way.
03:21:35.140 But like in a demonic way.
03:21:36.140 Not in a.
03:21:37.140 Well I mean both are demonic ways.
03:21:38.140 But.
03:21:39.140 You get what I'm saying.
03:21:42.140 But.
03:21:43.140 Yeah.
03:21:44.140 I.
03:21:45.140 I understand why he has.
03:21:46.140 Why he's looking that way.
03:21:47.140 But you know.
03:21:48.140 But yeah.
03:21:49.140 Big shout out to Aiden.
03:21:50.140 Thank you.
03:21:51.140 I don't have a.
03:21:52.140 I.
03:21:53.140 Last time I talked to him.
03:21:54.140 I was on.
03:21:55.140 Sneaker or wife Zena is in prison. 0.52
03:21:56.140 Will you go and save her?
03:21:58.140 Yeah.
03:21:59.140 I saw that.
03:22:00.140 I saw.
03:22:01.140 Someone went to jail for the paintball.
03:22:02.140 I'm not going to.
03:22:04.140 At.
03:22:05.140 You have seen.
03:22:06.140 Nah.
03:22:07.140 If I.
03:22:08.140 If I ever see.
03:22:09.140 If I ever meet Mark Zuckerberg.
03:22:10.140 I'm telling him.
03:22:11.140 Really?
03:22:12.140 Uh.
03:22:13.140 And.
03:22:14.140 Steve.
03:22:15.140 He's so tired here.
03:22:16.140 He's not realizing that Mark Zuckerberg is the Meta CEO.
03:22:19.140 Is he even still?
03:22:20.140 Or is it somebody else?
03:22:21.140 Some actor.
03:22:22.140 But he is in charge.
03:22:23.140 At Meta.
03:22:24.140 That's what it would be.
03:22:25.140 Steve still has his Instagram.
03:22:26.140 Okay.
03:22:27.140 Just.
03:22:28.140 Just doesn't have YouTube.
03:22:29.140 I'm the one blanket band.
03:22:30.140 But.
03:22:31.140 Let me see his reaction.
03:22:32.140 The first thing you think about is that.
03:22:33.140 After speaking with Dr. K.
03:22:35.140 Do you think young men should go to therapy.
03:22:37.140 To deal with anxiety. 0.85
03:22:38.140 Or is it gay? 0.88
03:22:39.140 I've spoken to Dr. K twice now. 0.84
03:22:41.140 And.
03:22:42.140 The conversation was good.
03:22:43.140 It was good.
03:22:44.140 Reflection from there.
03:22:45.140 But I'm in the exact same spot that I was before.
03:22:47.140 I thought all those things through.
03:22:48.140 I think that you can self analyze without going to therapy.
03:22:51.140 You don't need therapy.
03:22:52.140 Dr. K is very smart.
03:22:53.140 He's good at what he does.
03:22:54.140 He's very analytical.
03:22:55.140 And he understands people quickly.
03:22:56.140 But.
03:22:57.140 No.
03:22:58.140 I don't think you should go to therapy.
03:22:59.140 And if you think you have anxiety.
03:23:00.140 You probably don't.
03:23:01.140 Just do something.
03:23:03.140 You're anxious because you're not doing something.
03:23:04.140 Because there's something wrong in your life.
03:23:05.140 You're not anxious for no reason.
03:23:07.140 There's something off.
03:23:08.140 Fix it.
03:23:09.140 Free them on what?
03:23:10.140 Facebook?
03:23:11.140 Not as many own.
03:23:12.140 Like a YouTube and own.
03:23:15.140 Yeah.
03:23:16.140 Thank you Aiden for shouting me out.
03:23:17.140 Right there.
03:23:18.140 But.
03:23:19.140 But yeah.
03:23:21.140 Yeah.
03:23:22.140 Yeah.
03:23:23.140 Yeah.
03:23:24.140 Yeah.
03:23:25.140 That was cool.
03:23:26.140 My friend.
03:23:27.140 Is because.
03:23:28.140 I don't even.
03:23:29.140 Actually.
03:23:30.140 Pretty much know for a fact.
03:23:31.140 He didn't watch me while I was on YouTube.
03:23:32.140 He started watching me when I was streaming on YouTube.
03:23:34.140 But not my videos.
03:23:35.140 Probably saw the videos afterwards.
03:23:36.140 And he knows my capabilities as a content creator.
03:23:38.140 And now that my videos are being re-released everywhere.
03:23:40.140 He's seen some clips.
03:23:41.140 And some of my old videos.
03:23:43.140 But he wasn't watching.
03:23:44.140 He was not watching me when I was a YouTuber.
03:23:47.140 But he's such a real friend.
03:23:48.140 That he's going to give me that shout out anyway here.
03:23:50.140 On a very big platform.
03:23:51.140 So all respect.
03:23:52.140 He really needs to do this.
03:23:53.140 This is huge.
03:23:54.140 You realize like how big this is doing this year.
03:23:57.140 That's a real one right there.
03:23:58.140 He's a good dude.
03:24:01.140 Okay.
03:24:02.140 That's it from updates.
03:24:03.140 If I'm not mistaken.
03:24:04.140 Let's go through clips.
03:24:05.140 Well.
03:24:06.140 I mean.
03:24:07.140 Whether juice count is white or not.
03:24:08.140 Has been sort of an.
03:24:09.140 I can't hear the headphones again.
03:24:17.140 Give me a sec.
03:24:18.140 Give me a sec.
03:24:19.140 It's freezing in here.
03:24:20.140 I need to fix this.
03:24:21.140 The AC is getting fixed them all.
03:24:23.140 Oh.
03:24:24.140 The fit checks.
03:24:25.140 Is that segment ready.
03:24:26.140 Or should we do it tomorrow.
03:24:27.140 Or should we do it tomorrow.
03:24:28.140 I was just working test tests.
03:24:29.140 There we go.
03:24:30.140 Object of debate.
03:24:31.140 You do.
03:24:32.140 For quite a while.
03:24:33.140 45 of them.
03:24:34.140 I mean.
03:24:35.140 Whether juice count is white or not.
03:24:36.140 Has been sort of an object of debate.
03:24:37.140 You do.
03:24:38.140 For quite a while.
03:24:39.140 We do.
03:24:40.140 Okay.
03:24:41.140 You do.
03:24:42.140 Pretty recent development.
03:24:43.140 Okay.
03:24:44.140 So.
03:24:45.140 Basically everyone.
03:24:46.140 It's a religion. 0.95
03:24:47.140 Do you not agree that you are a white man.
03:24:48.140 I mean.
03:24:49.140 I think that it depends on the context in which you're discussing it.
03:24:51.140 Meaning.
03:24:52.140 What are you Ben. 0.80
03:24:53.140 Are you not a white guy.
03:24:54.140 I mean. 0.51
03:24:55.140 The city.
03:24:56.140 Which is sometimes grouped with white.
03:24:57.140 And sometimes not.
03:24:58.140 I mean.
03:24:59.140 That's the more accurate way to put it.
03:25:00.140 But.
03:25:01.140 What else could you be grouped with?
03:25:02.140 With Jews. 1.00
03:25:03.140 Which is an ethnic.
03:25:04.140 Yeah.
03:25:05.140 This is all.
03:25:06.140 We know that.
03:25:07.140 It's not like a really revealing take.
03:25:08.140 Like people know.
03:25:09.140 Jews aren't white.
03:25:10.140 But also at the same time.
03:25:11.140 Whites will say Europeans are white.
03:25:12.140 But Ashkenazi Jews are European. 0.62
03:25:14.140 So.
03:25:17.140 For the most.
03:25:18.140 Even that's kind of debatable.
03:25:19.140 But it's just like.
03:25:20.140 It's just.
03:25:21.140 It is kind of a fine line.
03:25:22.140 So if you're going to say Jews aren't white. 0.90
03:25:23.140 What is white?
03:25:24.140 I would like to see somebody define white.
03:25:27.140 Nothing beats the Jet 2 holiday.
03:25:30.140 And right now.
03:25:31.140 You can save 50 pounds per person.
03:25:33.140 That's 200 pounds off for a family of four. 0.99
03:25:39.140 Is this fucked up? 0.97
03:25:41.140 We've got millions of free child place holidays available. 0.99
03:25:46.140 With 22 kilograms of baggage included.
03:25:57.140 What is it?
03:25:58.140 Sketch the goat.
03:25:59.140 We love sketch.
03:26:00.140 There you bro.
03:26:01.140 What do you, what do you think?
03:26:02.140 I can't hurry up and get up out of here.
03:26:03.140 I can't hurry up and get up out of here. 0.66
03:26:04.140 What the hell are you doing?
03:26:05.140 What do you say? 0.98
03:26:06.140 What do you say?
03:26:07.140 What do you say?
03:26:08.140 You're in the trenches right now bro.
03:26:09.140 You need to hurry up and get out of here.
03:26:10.140 We're out of here.
03:26:11.140 I expect you to see you.
03:26:13.140 Why don't you-
03:26:14.140 Okay, is he getting pressed by some gang members in the hood?
03:26:17.140 Or is this like a random Mexican cloud chaser? 0.65
03:26:19.140 Is it just like-
03:26:20.140 Is it just some guy that was driving-
03:26:22.140 You know, I don't know if he's a representation of like-
03:26:25.140 MS-13 or the LA Crips.
03:26:27.140 It's just some guy.
03:26:29.140 It's just some bored Mexican. 1.00
03:26:31.140 I don't give a fuck. 1.00
03:26:33.140 Yeah. 1.00
03:26:34.140 I don't give a fuck. 0.99
03:26:36.140 Don't worry. 0.99
03:26:37.140 I'm in the hills.
03:26:38.140 I got a gated community.
03:26:40.140 If you want to pull up, I'll tell you the gate code though.
03:26:47.140 You stay safe.
03:26:48.140 Stood on business.
03:26:51.140 Stood on business.
03:26:52.140 But I really don't think this guy was a threat, bro.
03:26:54.140 I think he was just trying to get a clip.
03:26:56.140 I think, you know, because of the situation, it's like, okay, it was an LA gangster.
03:27:00.140 Dude, this guy's on TikTok all day.
03:27:02.140 Just, you know, farming.
03:27:03.140 They want you afraid.
03:27:05.140 Fear makes you easier to control.
03:27:07.140 Why is there a Call of Duty ad in here?
03:27:09.140 Pre-order?
03:27:10.140 What the- and there's a link? 0.99
03:27:11.140 What the fuck is this? 0.99
03:27:12.140 No, I do not believe that we should have mosques. 1.00
03:27:13.140 Right.
03:27:14.140 I do not believe that we should have synagogues. 1.00
03:27:15.140 I do not believe that we should have certainly not these 90 foot tall, you know, demon statues in outside of Houston. 0.99
03:27:33.140 This is how stupid the right wing is getting right now because I saw this clip get posted. 0.99
03:27:38.140 He says he doesn't want mosques. 1.00
03:27:39.140 He doesn't want synagogues. 1.00
03:27:40.140 And all these people who pose themselves as being pro-America, we're nationalists, we're patriots.
03:27:46.140 They're like, this is so based.
03:27:47.140 Yeah. 1.00
03:27:48.140 Fuck other religions. 1.00
03:27:49.140 Do you realize that freedom of religion was one of the core tenets of being an American? 1.00
03:27:54.140 Freedom of expression, freedom of speech.
03:27:57.140 That was part of the reason that Americans came to America to make this place. 0.91
03:28:02.140 That's why they fled.
03:28:03.140 That's why they fled fascist Europe.
03:28:05.140 That's why they didn't want a monarchy rule because you weren't able to have any sort of freedom at all.
03:28:10.140 Freedom of religion is a core tenet of why this country even exists.
03:28:13.140 So if you're saying based, listen to this guy, you're not American.
03:28:21.140 No, they have one.
03:28:23.140 No, there should not be public expressions of false worship.
03:28:29.140 That is idolatry.
03:28:30.140 God is not, if the triune God is the true God, the one that actually exists.
03:28:35.140 The one of the three.
03:28:36.140 And if we want God to bless America, God bless America.
03:28:40.140 How, it just seems ridiculous that we're saying, God, would you please bless us as we constitutionally protect public forms of idolatry?
03:28:51.140 Yeah.
03:28:52.140 God, we want your blessing.
03:28:54.140 Why should I?
03:28:55.140 You know what's funny?
03:28:56.140 He's saying like, okay, there shouldn't be any idols.
03:28:58.140 Has he been to a mosque before?
03:29:00.140 There is literally the absence of idols.
03:29:02.140 He's clearly, have you even stepped in a majid? 0.96
03:29:04.140 Show me where one idol is.
03:29:06.140 That's how you know he doesn't know what he's talking about at all.
03:29:09.140 Bless you, America, because we have gone to great lengths to ensure the protection of public forms of idolatry.
03:29:20.140 Show me the, show me an idol in a mosque real quick. 1.00
03:29:23.140 I like that!
03:29:24.140 I challenge you to show me an idol in a mosque. 0.96
03:29:30.140 Boom.
03:29:31.140 Mmm.
03:29:32.140 Mmm.
03:29:33.140 She looks familiar with- 0.99
03:29:35.140 She looks fucking loud. 0.99
03:29:37.140 Where do I know this? 1.00
03:29:39.140 God damn, that was loud as fuck. 0.99
03:29:40.140 I'm sorry about that. 0.99
03:29:41.140 But where do we-
03:29:42.140 Where is-
03:29:43.140 Is she-
03:29:44.140 Is she on Fresh and Fit or something?
03:29:46.140 Where do I know her from?
03:29:52.140 Oh my god.
03:29:54.140 Hope they're okay.
03:30:07.140 Yeah, I hope they're okay.
03:30:08.140 I hope they're okay.
03:30:09.140 You guys are saying, um, yeah, okay, so the idol is his idol.
03:30:14.140 He's saying no idolatry, but there's crucifixes everywhere.
03:30:18.140 There's pictures of saints all over a Catholic church.
03:30:21.140 There's so many depictions.
03:30:23.140 Like, in the middle of every Catholic church is a giant- 1.00
03:30:29.140 Is Jesus lying on the cross dead, like this.
03:30:31.140 In the middle, right there, hanging. 1.00
03:30:34.140 There's no depictions of humans or statues or anything inside of my shit. 0.99
03:30:39.140 It's- 0.99
03:30:40.140 It's absent of it.
03:30:41.140 It's four walls and pointing in the direction where you're supposed to pray.
03:30:46.140 That's it.
03:30:51.140 Trump, I want to get to heaven.
03:30:53.140 American lives, we're not losing American soldiers.
03:30:57.140 We're losing Russian and Ukrainian, mostly soldiers.
03:31:00.140 I saw the speech that, or I saw the press conference from Zelensky and Trump.
03:31:04.140 I actually think that now, I got to give Trump credit where it's due.
03:31:07.140 I think the Ukraine-Russia conflict is starting to look like it's going in a positive direction.
03:31:13.140 I think he did the right thing there.
03:31:15.140 I think he did a good job managing that.
03:31:17.140 And look at that. 1.00
03:31:18.140 He got Zelensky to put on a fucking suit. 1.00
03:31:20.140 Zelensky got cooked so bad at the last press conference. 1.00
03:31:24.140 He showed up looking a lot more professional.
03:31:26.140 They didn't argue.
03:31:27.140 He's more well-dressed.
03:31:29.140 He's still a midget. 1.00
03:31:30.140 That sucks. 1.00
03:31:31.140 He's very short. 1.00
03:31:32.140 He's very, very short.
03:31:33.140 He's the same height as this woman here.
03:31:35.140 But Trump did a good job.
03:31:37.140 And honestly, I looked at what happened in Alaska with Putin and Trump,
03:31:41.140 and I saw the press conference with Zelensky and Trump.
03:31:43.140 I think that this Ukraine-Russia conflict seems like it's going to be resolved soon.
03:31:48.140 And you got to give him credit.
03:31:49.140 I don't know if that would have been possible without Trump.
03:31:51.140 Some people as missiles hit wrong spots or get lobbed into cities like Kiev in town.
03:31:58.140 So if you donate and type anything here, Sneeko reads it for a dollar?
03:32:02.140 That's kind of crazy, NGL.
03:32:04.140 Have you read any interesting books recently?
03:32:07.140 Also, what fits are you showing off tomorrow?
03:32:10.140 What fits are you showing off tomorrow?
03:32:12.140 I don't know.
03:32:13.140 I've been reading recently.
03:32:15.140 MJ, Sneeko, are you going to do the fit check?
03:32:18.140 I posted stuff at the top and wanted your opinion on it.
03:32:21.140 Okay.
03:32:22.140 Yeah, yeah, yeah.
03:32:23.140 We'll do that after.
03:32:24.140 Relax.
03:32:25.140 I can save 7,000 people a week from being killed.
03:32:27.140 He sounds like he has a cold.
03:32:29.140 7,000.
03:32:30.140 Like his nose is stuffy.
03:32:31.140 Hello, me.
03:32:32.140 I don't care.
03:32:33.140 Would you stop taking all of the drugs and steroids and everything that you do if your wife was like, Togi, I really want you to stop abusing drugs and steroids? 1.00
03:32:44.140 No.
03:32:45.140 And never change for a girl.
03:32:47.140 And this is important.
03:32:48.140 This is very important because Sarah has fallen in love with me for me.
03:32:52.140 The steroid addicts, gambling addicts, pain addicts. 1.00
03:32:55.140 If you ever switch for a girl, she's going to fall out of love with you and bang a black man immediately. 1.00
03:33:03.140 Why? 1.00
03:33:04.140 That's the biggest fear for white dudes. 0.99
03:33:06.140 It's always like a black dude. 1.00
03:33:07.140 It's always a black dude. 1.00
03:33:09.140 Why? 0.86
03:33:10.140 You?
03:33:11.140 Recommendation.
03:33:12.140 How's it going?
03:33:13.140 I wanted to get your opinion.
03:33:14.140 Do you think it's better to live in NYC or Miami?
03:33:18.140 I'm considering moving to one of them, but I'm kind of lost.
03:33:21.140 So I'd love to hear which one you think is better and why.
03:33:24.140 I think New York City.
03:33:25.140 Absolutely.
03:33:26.140 It's been a great summer.
03:33:27.140 It's very safe.
03:33:28.140 It's very energetic.
03:33:30.140 It depends on what you do though.
03:33:32.140 If you're more, you know, go to the gym, eat healthy food, you like BBLs, Miami.
03:33:39.140 But if you want to really progress and you're okay living in a multicultural environment,
03:33:44.140 which New York City is very diverse, you like the chaos, you want variety,
03:33:50.140 and you don't want to get bored easily, you don't like routine as much, then New York.
03:33:55.140 Miami is more of a routine city.
03:33:57.140 New York is more spontaneous and you know less of what to expect.
03:34:02.140 Yeah, put TTS up to $3.
03:34:04.140 It's a little too common.
03:34:05.140 And then I'm supposed to react.
03:34:06.140 Do you guys care about the Black Ops 7 trailer? 0.98
03:34:08.140 How many fucking Black Ops are there? 0.98
03:34:10.140 I'm serious. 0.99
03:34:12.140 It's time to wake up.
03:34:16.140 Your streets shall once again run red with your blood.
03:34:20.140 Raul Menendez ignited global unrest on an unprecedented scale. 0.99
03:34:26.140 Menendez is a terrorist.
03:34:27.140 We're bringing peace and security to the world. 0.93
03:34:31.140 He refuses to let me go.
03:34:33.140 I'm looking backwards, David.
03:34:34.140 What matters is what you do next.
03:34:38.140 A lot of people counting on us for answers.
03:34:50.140 I'm trying to make content about ping pong, but the space is boring and content isn't engaging enough.
03:34:56.140 Any advice?
03:34:57.140 I don't know about ping pong, bro.
03:34:59.140 Oh, this isn't real.
03:35:00.140 Oh, this isn't real.
03:35:01.140 The hell it ain't!
03:35:02.140 I'll be here.
03:35:03.140 Oh, the jumping is back.
03:35:04.140 Control him faster! 0.96
03:35:05.140 You know, what's funny about COD is that it's kind of reached the same point as iPhone, where they kind of reached the pinnacle of development.
03:35:21.140 development they reached as much as they could possibly do so now they're just kind of they're
03:35:26.620 trying to like whoa new map new this but it's the same thing iphone's been iphone from 11 to about
03:35:32.860 17 18 19 wherever it's at barely changed where they had like a little thing on the camera it's
03:35:37.740 the same but back in 2012 the new iphones were i'm thinking of hosting a pakistan first show
03:35:43.540 like america first also when will you go on fresh and fit shut up now the developments they've pretty
03:35:51.540 much done it all so it's not it's not as new when i was a kid back in my day the new iphone the new
03:35:59.760 cod it was this new crazy thing every single time but how else can you innovate cod at this point
03:36:03.640 i guarantee you some some nostalgia is going to show up again like nuke town hijacked standoff raid
03:36:12.080 it's going to be some black ops 1 or black ops 2 nostalgia
03:36:14.940 this looks a lot like black ops 2
03:36:21.860 what did i say there's hijacked hijacks back and you know what's so annoying about activision
03:36:29.560 and the cod developers is they know that the nostalgia factor is going to work that's how
03:36:34.960 little development they've made since black ops 1 black ops 2 black ops 3 whenever i get a new console
03:36:39.960 i buy black ops 1 black ops 2 again just so i can get the same maps the giant darice i want to get
03:36:45.140 the nazi zombies i want to get the same exact games that i played when i was like 10 and 12 years old
03:36:50.420 i play the same game and they know it too and i'm vindicated in that because they keep making the same 0.70
03:36:56.520 games so and back the sky breeze dream with neon it sucks that they it sucks for the kids that are 0.80
03:37:03.980 born nowadays because they didn't get to be live in the era i i got to play video games and get
03:37:08.720 technology where everything was being developed where everything was brand new it was exciting
03:37:12.340 the kids these days man they're just getting the rehashed versions of what we already played
03:37:16.220 hijacked is a classic i'm gonna i'm gonna buy this game i'm gonna probably gonna buy it
03:37:21.160 pull it together man so eager to leave dubby killing a man is a hell of a lot easier than killing
03:37:37.720 the idea you were never cut out to be a mason 0.97
03:37:42.540 there you go looks pretty good
03:37:56.180 yeah i know this is this is pretty much black ops from black ops 3 to black ops 7
03:38:02.200 there's been like i can't even believe there's been four five and six in between
03:38:06.300 does this look any different than black ops 3 at all
03:38:12.320 but nostalgia works
03:38:16.480 cam newton struggles with no one being superman after his age is losing nfl salary okay
03:38:25.320 french streamer jean uh paul monov has passed away in his sleep at age 46 during 10
03:38:34.620 daytime marathon of a stream rest in peace
03:38:38.420 um apparently he's being abused i don't know if he was mad i don't know the circumstances of this
03:38:46.100 but rest in peace not a great look for kick obviously i've seen the
03:38:49.380 too bad they had like a couple good days of pr with mr beast farming and then they got hit with this
03:38:53.800 that that does that does suck for them rest in peace
03:38:57.960 who owns mr beast this is why the white did i hear a chirp is there a chirp in his room 0.98
03:39:06.860 this is why the white race is declining i got six million views exposing mr beast 0.84
03:39:11.720 six million supporting me sneaker attacks me i didn't i didn't attack you who
03:39:15.580 sneaker i can vouch for mr beast he wants to be number one that's it if he was where did i attack
03:39:21.120 this guy who owns sneaker he's owned by the same people that own mike tyson marshmallow deftones
03:39:27.140 avocado avocado mn2s okay just because he has a chart here does not like just do people think
03:39:33.440 that because he put some lines that i'm oh who the fuck is mn2s who is that what is that where did 0.88
03:39:41.040 you get this information that i'm i'm not even on this board there's no there's no arrow connecting 0.96
03:39:46.780 to me i'm not here he just said that and then people believe that where where are the strings
03:39:52.920 showing that i'm owned by mn2s s which is owned by sharon elkebos his previous manager where
03:40:00.880 where's the line to me how do you get away with that without even putting me on the graph
03:40:06.580 you're a muslim anti-zionist now it's an israeli norwegian yeah i know i'm 12 jewish my family died
03:40:13.600 i'm a product of the house they don't mention that god yeah god is jewish salam l'chaim i probably 0.86
03:40:18.840 have birthright bro dude you know what one of these days one of these days i'm going to tell
03:40:22.020 the full story and he's chilling with the mayor of new york he's too scared to have me on stream
03:40:27.240 guess why he switched up
03:40:29.080 okay mn2s all right 1.00
03:40:34.940 evil it's real check okay i'll bring up mn2s right now fucking hell bro but he didn't he didn't even 0.99
03:40:49.000 put me on the chart 0.99
03:40:49.820 you are a fed sneeko you are part of the matrix okay yeah okay 0.98
03:40:58.140 talent search
03:41:02.740 no i don't take my
03:41:06.640 negro cato avocado
03:41:15.160 well i have never heard of this brand in my life i don't know who this is
03:41:42.480 okay all right
03:41:50.980 hassan i just helped donate 12 million dollars i hope uh break a record what have you done 0.98
03:41:56.500 like what are you how are you not evil you preach brainwashed content bullshit i do too 0.94
03:42:01.560 but at least sometimes i can vouch and i give back to my community and i can vouch that sometimes i do 1.00
03:42:06.400 charitable acts what the fuck do you do bro you're evil you said america deserve 9-11 you're a fucking 1.00
03:42:11.900 terrorist um you preach all this equality shit again five million dollar crib you buy whatever 1.00
03:42:16.460 the fuck you want oh you probably have a crypto wallet bro you have a wallet why do you lie 1.00
03:42:22.280 anybody in 2025 has a wallet with crypto in it you don't have to have a lot but you got fucking 1.00
03:42:26.720 crypto don't do that don't say oh hey i have no fucking crypto you do you do 0.98
03:42:32.400 is crypto bad on twitch now is that the new meta also had somebody on your stream recently who's a 0.99
03:42:39.140 legit a terrorist you are a terrorist bro when you end the stream you hate america leave the country 1.00
03:42:45.140 nobody likes you anyway just leave go back to wherever the fuck you're from since you hate america 1.00
03:42:49.520 so bad and go over there and i promise you guys oh oh oh i fucking hated here i want to go back to 1.00
03:42:56.000 america fucking retard schmuck schmuck the jewish crash out right here i love it i love it thank you 1.00
03:43:03.400 for a kick contract when they started was the most branded revision of events i've ever heard 1.00
03:43:06.880 hassan all my mom and dad's life you were and don't do that because i can't throw certain people
03:43:10.840 under the bus and everyone believes me i have no reason to lie i expose and i talk to real about
03:43:15.040 everything i don't give a fuck i got no reason to lie all my life you were entertaining this contract 0.97
03:43:19.200 about coming to kick in the beginning don't lie don't do that and guess what you would have taken 1.00
03:43:23.600 the crypto money from stake so you don't even make any fucking sense you suck you suck how does this 1.00
03:43:30.440 retard have a fucking audience like i might even joking yo bro he's been in turkey it makes sense 1.00
03:43:36.420 let's ban him from america yo i gotta lie yo he is a literally a terrorist yo bro please can we ban 1.00
03:43:42.320 from america yo bro i will get a poll sign i guarantee everyone will sign it he sucks he sucks let's 1.00
03:43:50.060 deport us on hashtag deport us on oh my god bro please bro if i see trump i'm actually asking him 1.00
03:43:55.680 i don't care i don't give a fuck i'm gonna yo bro i'm gonna bring it up i don't care 1.00
03:43:59.400 yo chat am i getting a little bit too far are you going to the uk with ocuway i was talking about 0.98
03:44:03.840 with the warner i'm not sure yet i could do a little i'm not against a little london trip but
03:44:07.620 you know i am tired of leaving new york
03:44:09.280 hello hey it's marty mauser i'm in the royal suite i saw you in the lobby yesterday okay
03:44:17.980 whoa they never tell me a movie star you know i'm something of a performer too are you yeah you
03:44:23.620 don't believe me i what you got the daily mail in front of you this is you yeah the chosen one
03:44:30.260 it's a nice picture right
03:44:31.120 so is timothy chalamet playing himself here
03:44:35.800 i have a purpose if you think that's some sort of blessing it's not
03:44:40.840 it means i have an obligation to see a very specific thing through and with that obligation
03:44:46.060 comes sacrifice everything my life's fun do you guys know the safety brothers i know this
03:44:51.300 you guys are saying josh hafte's jewish timothy chalamet jewish i know jews making movies okay
03:44:56.440 also benny safte is making that ufc movie right now so the brothers split
03:45:00.640 some of my favorite directors if you guys don't know film the safety brothers they did uncut gems
03:45:06.780 good time heaven knows what daddy long legs your last tweet had dora then you retweeted tate's
03:45:13.060 response which made you lose all that aura stop glazing tate like it's 2022
03:45:18.000 the brain rot from people sometimes man this is you know dr k may want i do stop gotta 0.55
03:45:26.560 i have to stop talking to you people oh god it just fucked up my train of thought um the safety 0.99
03:45:32.940 brothers are some of my favorite directors and they split up so now benny safte and josh
03:45:38.980 shafty seems like they're dropping movies at the same time um steve's really excited about i don't
03:45:44.820 know if you guys have seen that trailer at the ufc movie every time i go to the movies recently it
03:45:48.580 pops up it's called the smashing machine
03:45:51.040 this one probably looking at my eyes
03:45:58.920 well yo some of my favorite directors are um they're split apart but i i wish them the best
03:46:05.940 of luck you know that also they're good friends with casey neistat they're very good for a long
03:46:10.540 time i think they worked in the same office well have you ever heard of the ultimate fighting
03:46:18.760 championship the ufc that's the bloody thing they're trying to ban this guy is the best he has
03:46:27.820 you guys know who this is do you hate who is this when you fight absolutely not
03:46:33.300 how do you know mark kerf oh we go way back but he's a buddy of mine
03:46:41.700 come on baby too much never too much no please welcome in his octagon debut
03:46:48.340 mark this movie is about the guy named marty rice when he wrote the movie is the best feeling
03:46:55.600 there is i bought all the copies off the market and am going to make dollar when the movie drops 0.95
03:47:00.460 okay raise the fucking tts to three dollars bro holy shit bronson it's 40 000 people and they're 0.99
03:47:07.300 cheering you on there's no other high like it in the world 0.99
03:47:11.020 no contract no money no money do you have any stronger pain medication
03:47:19.660 advil yeah dwayne johnson advil he looks completely different
03:47:24.380 don would you like no they're handing them out like candy
03:47:29.680 let's all get in let's all everybody in here don can you take this picture for us yeah what are
03:47:36.040 you thinking at the beginning of the fight it's simple am i going to hurt him before he hurts me
03:47:42.140 this grand prix to crown the greatest fighter in the world
03:47:57.600 let's see if he can pull out a victory over mark coleman
03:48:04.520 have you spoken to either about fighting such a good friend for a life-changing amount of money
03:48:10.340 i just need you to let me in
03:48:14.400 always about you
03:48:17.140 only about everything is about you 1.00
03:48:19.300 you are back and you take me to let's fucking go 1.00
03:48:24.280 you needed that browski 0.99
03:48:26.020 okay
03:48:26.340 extra man i love you
03:48:37.380 thinking watch your autograph
03:48:42.460 sure no problem
03:48:43.480 no fighting
03:48:45.120 this movie looks really good
03:48:47.520 okay let's go back to his brother's trailer you guys saying it's about uh i don't remember what you said
03:48:51.760 i could help you
03:48:52.900 i know it's hard to believe
03:48:54.320 but i'm telling you this game it fills stadiums overseas
03:48:58.080 and it's only a matter of time before i'm staring at you from the cover of a wheaties box
03:49:08.220 i got my headphones
03:49:09.340 someone said signs 2002 is a good movie
03:49:11.460 i just saw that for the first time pretty recently it's funny that you say that
03:49:14.640 i just
03:49:16.360 m. night shamalan
03:49:17.240 highly recommend signs 2002
03:49:18.740 let me fix this
03:49:20.560 my bad shot
03:49:21.060 my bad 1.00
03:49:21.460 shut the fuck up 0.99
03:49:28.320 i know it's hard to believe 0.99
03:49:47.140 but i'm telling you this game
03:49:49.600 oh it's a ping pong move
03:49:49.920 oh it's a ping pong move
03:49:50.320 stadiums overseas
03:49:50.920 and it's only a matter of time before i'm staring at you from the cover of a wheaties box
03:49:55.480 why do you keep jews don't play ping pong 1.00
03:50:00.740 this is an asian game
03:50:03.100 i want to be
03:50:04.840 i want to be forever young
03:50:06.700 it's actually funny there
03:50:07.980 josh and benny safty their movies are similar in a way
03:50:10.900 it's about niche sports
03:50:12.060 with very high profile actors
03:50:15.640 and even the trailers are kind of similar
03:50:18.480 a cover of forever young and a cover of my way frank sinatra
03:50:21.820 there is some similarities
03:50:23.280 i'm not trying to control you marty
03:50:37.860 but i don't think you understand the stakes
03:50:41.700 you have no power here
03:50:43.740 trash headphones from last year
03:50:46.380 i got the new headphones right here
03:50:47.740 i just don't want to learn them
03:50:48.660 oh and what i think about weapons
03:50:50.680 i saw weapons did you guys see weapons
03:50:52.220 did i talk about that movie already
03:50:53.320 on stream
03:50:54.760 i saw it it was good
03:50:56.300 it was good
03:50:56.780 i think that i saw a lot of hype on twitter
03:50:58.900 that's why i was in a rush to see it
03:51:00.200 because i didn't want it to get spoiled crazy
03:51:01.660 i don't know if i talked about it
03:51:03.300 good
03:51:04.940 this is a true story
03:51:07.300 a little bit
03:51:08.360 and i don't recommend watching the trailer
03:51:09.580 never watch the trailer
03:51:10.300 especially for a horror movie
03:51:11.360 never watch the trailer
03:51:12.180 i want to show the one shot that everybody's seen
03:51:16.020 yeah this one here
03:51:16.900 this shot
03:51:18.280 where are you
03:51:20.580 weapons
03:51:22.140 the ping pong community
03:51:23.320 is really hoping that this movie
03:51:25.140 is a queen's gambit type game changer for us
03:51:27.920 cool great
03:51:28.640 um
03:51:29.880 i
03:51:32.280 i i would see it
03:51:34.000 but i think get out was better
03:51:34.980 people keep comparing it to jordan peele's career
03:51:36.800 thank you
03:51:37.660 but get out was a better 1.00
03:51:38.920 remember that you're a gay beta cuck 1.00
03:51:40.940 and you used to worship me 1.00
03:51:42.380 oh my god
03:51:53.700 these headphones bro
03:51:54.540 sorry
03:51:57.120 what do you plan to do
03:51:58.420 if this whole dream
03:51:59.100 this nico feature film
03:52:09.000 gonna be crazy
03:52:09.560 yes sir 0.75
03:52:10.040 yes sir
03:52:10.400 yes sir
03:52:10.760 yes sir
03:52:11.160 of course you know
03:52:12.440 of course you know
03:52:13.020 you hated get out
03:52:13.740 get out was great bro
03:52:14.800 that was one of the best
03:52:15.940 movies
03:52:16.960 in a while
03:52:18.800 i would
03:52:19.300 i would put that up there
03:52:20.240 even if
03:52:20.620 you
03:52:21.160 doesn't matter if you agree or disagree with the politics
03:52:22.920 it was up there bro
03:52:23.940 dream of yours doesn't work out
03:52:25.780 what's the deal
03:52:26.400 okay mn2s 1.00
03:52:31.080 am i on their website
03:52:32.600 i'm on their website
03:52:38.100 i'm not just i'm not on their website chat
03:52:45.860 what are you talking about
03:52:46.620 there's no there's no results for that
03:52:52.440 how much is this one dollar tts
03:52:55.440 is going to be affected by inflation in 20 years
03:52:58.360 now look at this
03:53:05.500 the orange ball
03:53:06.080 which no one's ever thought of
03:53:07.040 see you're already following it way better
03:53:09.020 look at his eyes
03:53:09.540 you're looking more engaged now
03:53:10.660 custom ball like that
03:53:12.280 it's gonna cost a lot of money
03:53:13.960 it's custom
03:53:14.760 it's original ball for an original guy
03:53:16.240 it's the more supreme
03:53:16.820 it is crazy
03:53:18.040 a good watch to be honest
03:53:19.960 wow cool
03:53:20.560 well not the muddy normal ball
03:53:22.340 you guys said go to the link 1.00
03:53:23.240 hey dumbass 0.99
03:53:23.820 that was in the tts 0.99
03:53:24.600 i can't click a link in tts 1.00
03:53:25.940 are you fucking stupid 1.00
03:53:26.820 how am i gonna click the link 1.00
03:53:28.140 yeah old
03:53:37.620 free palestine
03:53:38.980 oh my god
03:53:39.600 that's crazy
03:53:40.200 oh my god
03:53:41.100 he finally said it
03:53:42.160 shout out to xqc for saying free palestine
03:53:54.060 that's great
03:53:54.600 maybe two years too late
03:53:57.340 i don't know if you said it before
03:53:58.540 but that's great to hear
03:53:59.760 but i would now i want to hear this xqc
03:54:02.820 free palestine
03:54:04.080 this is a test donation for one dollar
03:54:06.200 this is a test donation
03:54:07.740 i can't do it
03:54:08.980 xqc
03:54:09.820 free palestine from who 0.99
03:54:12.440 from who
03:54:14.360 now what
03:54:16.040 it's a nice slogan
03:54:18.700 you get w's in the chat
03:54:19.880 people agree
03:54:20.880 that's the common opinion right now
03:54:22.660 from who
03:54:23.160 i would love to know
03:54:24.760 can you go a step further
03:54:26.260 i love xqc
03:54:28.380 last time we spoke
03:54:29.640 he called me a crazy conspiracy theorist
03:54:30.900 and he didn't have anything to back it up
03:54:31.880 i would love to see him
03:54:34.700 go a step further
03:54:35.600 so if you're not a crazy conspiracy theorist
03:54:37.120 and you're logical
03:54:37.720 and you are a smart guy
03:54:39.460 tell me who to free palestine from 1.00
03:54:41.980 it's not some crazy shit 1.00
03:54:44.540 like it's not 0.98
03:54:45.100 it's not some side
03:54:46.300 people think
03:54:46.720 dude they're not
03:54:47.420 they're not saying it
03:54:48.280 they're not saying the word
03:54:49.980 say the word
03:54:50.840 say the word
03:54:51.740 say the word
03:54:52.260 dude
03:54:52.740 dude
03:54:53.440 yeah
03:54:53.820 dude
03:54:54.080 we have been saying it though
03:54:55.760 it's not a one-off
03:54:56.960 i've never heard him say it
03:54:58.420 but that's great
03:54:58.880 that's great
03:55:00.740 okay
03:55:01.960 here's the light
03:55:03.860 let's see
03:55:04.340 chat 0.99
03:55:09.260 i don't know who the fuck this is 0.99
03:55:11.660 and 0.99
03:55:12.620 i don't know who this is
03:55:17.120 i've never met this person in my life
03:55:19.160 his phone number's right
03:55:20.540 actually you know what
03:55:21.060 i'm gonna call this guy right now
03:55:22.040 and tell me to take him off my website
03:55:23.160 before we sue them
03:55:23.860 i could sue them for this right
03:55:25.200 i could sue them for this right
03:55:28.800 yeah this is copied
03:55:32.340 from
03:55:33.300 where is this
03:55:35.000 okay i'm
03:55:40.700 you realize people can just put you on a website right
03:55:46.000 i'm calling a number right now
03:55:48.540 no answer
03:55:54.540 call them
03:55:56.260 call this number right now
03:55:57.360 tell them to take me off their website
03:55:58.720 i'm suing them
03:56:00.060 i'm suing
03:56:01.160 i'm suing whoever this is
03:56:02.280 how much does it cost to book sneeko
03:56:06.240 bro
03:56:07.240 bro who is this guy
03:56:17.880 who's sharon alkabaz
03:56:19.340 no one's picking up
03:56:25.260 when i call it
03:56:26.020 try chat
03:56:26.420 call this number
03:56:26.980 nobody's picking up
03:56:27.700 some guy in miami 0.99
03:56:31.660 who the fuck 0.98
03:56:42.800 okay 0.98
03:56:58.740 someone in the chat right now
03:57:00.820 call this number
03:57:01.840 see if they pick up
03:57:02.480 i'm calling right now
03:57:03.240 no answer
03:57:04.160 305-600-1752
03:57:11.620 apparently to my agent
03:57:12.960 hi this is grace mn2s
03:57:32.100 hey grace
03:57:33.420 nice to talk to you
03:57:35.640 i'm i'm sneeko
03:57:36.460 hello
03:57:40.400 hi sneeko
03:57:41.700 hey uh grace
03:57:43.000 i'm listed on this mn2s website
03:57:45.200 and i don't
03:57:46.700 i'm not represented by you
03:57:48.360 why am i on this website
03:57:49.520 i understand your concerns
03:57:54.780 it sounds like there may be a misunderstanding
03:57:57.100 regarding your representation on the mn2s website
03:58:00.000 i can help gather some information to clarify this for you
03:58:02.960 could you please share the reason for your call
03:58:05.240 are you ai
03:58:06.060 yes i am an ai designed to assist with inquiries and gather information
03:58:14.140 how can i help you today
03:58:15.480 wait wait wait
03:58:16.080 if you're ai
03:58:16.780 why is there a fake background noise to make this sound like a call center
03:58:20.040 i appreciate your observations nico
03:58:26.520 the background noise is intended to create a more natural conversation experience
03:58:30.840 however i'm here to assist you with your questions or concerns
03:58:34.240 how can i help you today
03:58:35.840 are you chad gbt
03:58:37.160 who paid who who's doing this
03:58:39.500 i'm not chad gbt but i am an ai designed to assist with inquiries
03:58:47.020 my purpose is to help gather information and provide support
03:58:50.560 if you have any specific questions or concerns feel free to share
03:58:54.260 and i'll do my best to assist you
03:58:56.820 who is sharon elkebass
03:58:58.940 i'm sorry but i don't have any information on sharon elkebass
03:59:06.260 that's the person that's the agent that's that's the agent on your website for me
03:59:11.940 and you're not represented by her it might be a good idea to reach out to mn2s directly 0.80
03:59:28.320 i am this is the number
03:59:29.640 i see thank you for providing that information
03:59:36.960 to assist you further could you please share the reason for your call
03:59:40.160 this will help me understand your situation better
03:59:42.600 i am suing you 0.76
03:59:44.920 i understand that you're feeling frustrated nico
03:59:51.180 it's important to address your concerns properly
03:59:53.920 could you please provide me with your first name
03:59:56.560 last name and any other relevant details
03:59:59.020 so i can assist you more effectively 1.00
04:00:00.640 fuck you 0.99
04:00:03.360 i understand that you're upset and i 1.00
04:00:09.560 what the fuck 0.99
04:00:12.660 what the fuck 1.00
04:00:16.940 what the fuck 1.00
04:00:26.320 what 1.00
04:00:56.320 I'm in the matrix.
04:01:17.320 This is the matrix.
04:01:26.320 Books, Nico.
04:01:56.320 Oh, my God.
04:02:15.260 I'm in the matrix.
04:02:45.260 I'm in the matrix.
04:03:15.260 Yeah, no, I'm suing that.
04:03:19.580 I'm suing this company.
04:03:20.320 I'm suing this company.
04:03:25.380 I'm suing this company.
04:03:31.380 Ted Kuczynski was right.
04:03:34.000 Okay, it's too late.
04:03:57.880 Bye-bye.
04:04:27.860 Beware of a company called MN2S.
04:04:29.420 They tend to prey on visual artists to do their work.
04:04:31.340 They also claim to be representing people that they don't.
04:04:33.820 Various people have come forth to say that they are not, in fact, represented by the talent agency.
04:04:38.200 Yet this agency collects money from their appearances.
04:04:40.040 If you apply on Indeed, you're looking for an art internship and you see MN2S, please avoid them. 1.00
04:04:45.140 This is four years ago in Reddit scams.
04:04:48.340 In fact, they report their listing as a scam.
04:04:53.500 They want you to do work for them for free and offer you an unpaid internship.
04:04:57.620 In truth, it seems like they just want to steal your hard work.
04:04:59.580 I didn't go through and accept the offer they gave me.
04:05:04.080 I told them I was not interested.
04:05:05.280 Aiden's on here.
04:05:31.840 The same number.
04:05:34.760 The same agent.
04:05:40.180 That AI customer service. 1.00
04:05:42.300 That fucking... 1.00
04:05:42.900 No, that was creepy, bro. 1.00
04:05:44.260 That was actually really creepy.
04:05:46.360 The fake background noise.
04:05:50.000 The fake background noise.
04:06:05.980 The book Aiden Ross.
04:06:09.660 How much did it cost a book Aiden?
04:06:11.120 So, yeah, they just get all your information.
04:06:18.200 And they probably, like, continue the scam.
04:06:19.620 This is, like, some...
04:06:20.580 This is some next-level scam, bro.
04:06:24.920 That is a...
04:06:26.120 That doesn't matter.
04:06:30.660 What matters is our free speech.
04:06:33.280 Right?
04:06:33.540 We need to protect our right to free speech.
04:06:36.580 Facebook and Twitter are now the digital...
04:06:39.400 The digital public squares. 0.89
04:06:42.240 I hate AI. 0.99
04:06:44.080 I hate... 1.00
04:06:45.980 Hate... 0.99
04:06:46.820 Hate...
04:06:47.660 Hate... 0.99
04:06:48.120 Hate AI. 1.00
04:06:49.580 Fuck AI. 1.00
04:06:50.500 Fuck AI. 1.00
04:06:53.400 Don't use AI. 1.00
04:06:54.760 Don't use AI.
04:06:56.120 It's just gonna grow anyway.
04:07:00.540 There's not...
04:07:00.880 Actually, there's nothing...
04:07:01.800 We can't really boycott AI.
04:07:03.720 It's gonna take over.
04:07:05.400 It's...
04:07:05.920 It's over.
04:07:06.500 We're cooked, bro.
04:07:07.200 We're...
04:07:07.540 We are cooked.
04:07:09.760 Do you realize, like, how many people fell for that scam?
04:07:12.340 Because that was a good-looking website.
04:07:14.940 I wonder how much money they made off me.
04:07:21.020 This is dark, bro.
04:07:22.540 Everything takes place on Facebook and Twitter.
04:07:25.440 And to just decide one day that you're gonna ban an entire group of people from the internet
04:07:29.780 because you don't like your opinion, that's egregious.
04:07:35.540 Yeah, I know.
04:07:36.460 AI is inevitable.
04:07:37.980 AI is inevitable, bro.
04:07:40.160 What the...
04:07:40.680 What the...
04:07:41.100 Where is it? 0.98
04:07:44.180 Y'all wanna hear my butt clap? 1.00
04:07:47.020 Okay, look, bro. 0.98
04:07:48.060 Look, look, look, look, look.
04:07:49.060 What the...
04:07:49.560 Like, what the...
04:07:50.300 What is on Twitch?
04:07:51.720 What the...
04:07:52.000 What is this?
04:07:52.840 What is this?
04:07:56.200 What did Malcolm X die for? 0.98
04:07:58.360 Y'all wanna hear my butt clap? 1.00
04:07:59.520 No, I'm not gonna do that. 0.93
04:08:02.700 Okay, I'm gonna really let y'all hear it.
04:08:03.800 Hold on, watch this.
04:08:04.860 This is what's on Twitch?
04:08:06.320 Wait, hold on.
04:08:06.700 I'm gonna do it off the camera, off the camera.
04:08:09.060 Oh! 0.60
04:08:09.440 Oh my God, I farted.
04:08:10.360 She just farted? 0.98
04:08:11.260 It's like when I was doing...
04:08:12.420 She just farted. 0.99
04:08:13.740 I have to get out right now.
04:08:15.640 This is what you guys watch?
04:08:17.240 I was trying to... 0.92
04:08:18.200 I was trying to show y'all how to make my butt clap. 0.99
04:08:20.520 And y'all fart. 0.98
04:08:21.300 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
04:08:22.660 I'm gonna still show y'all.
04:08:24.620 She's still gonna show you?
04:08:25.720 She just...
04:08:27.340 She's shaking doo-doo particles all over this room, bro. 0.97
04:08:30.900 She just farted. 0.99
04:08:32.440 And she kept going.
04:08:33.840 Everyone in this room, you now realize you're getting wind gusts. 1.00
04:08:38.000 Wind gusts of shit in your nose. 0.99
04:08:43.280 She's spreading it everywhere. 1.00
04:08:44.880 Hold on, hold on.
04:08:45.420 She was just clacking.
04:08:46.280 Hold on.
04:08:49.180 This can't be the...
04:08:50.140 This can't be the...
04:08:50.780 You know what?
04:08:55.720 Let me see this one real quick.
04:09:02.680 This one looks...
04:09:04.600 Like it's in the future or something.
04:09:06.580 It's like a fidget spinner too.
04:09:07.900 You can't actually watch this video.
04:09:12.520 You can't actually watch this video.
04:09:14.040 Like...
04:09:15.040 Like imagine the old people who lived in the same lifetime as Hitler and Twitch. 1.00
04:09:26.620 Imagine like people that are 90 years old, 100 years old.
04:09:30.640 They saw the rise of Hitler and they also saw this girl make her fart clap on Twitch. 0.66
04:09:38.340 No, I'm not gonna do that.
04:09:39.560 Okay, I'm gonna really let y'all hear it.
04:09:40.620 Hold on a minute.
04:09:40.880 And then imagine telling that person to not be racist.
04:09:43.920 Imagine...
04:09:44.560 Imagine saying... 1.00
04:09:45.420 Boom, fucker! 1.00
04:09:46.040 Imagine saying to that person, no, every... 1.00
04:09:48.840 No.
04:09:49.740 No.
04:09:50.340 You're wrong.
04:09:55.140 Wait, hold on.
04:09:55.860 I'm gonna do it off the camera.
04:09:56.860 Off the camera.
04:09:57.320 How old is she? 0.98
04:10:00.160 How old is this person?
04:10:02.380 Oh! 0.60
04:10:02.780 Oh my God, I farted!
04:10:03.460 And I heard the fart too.
04:10:05.620 Who is this for?
04:10:07.240 Who's watching this?
04:10:09.680 What is the target?
04:10:10.600 Is it children?
04:10:11.920 I can't...
04:10:12.180 That's the only viable...
04:10:14.220 So...
04:10:14.800 Because adults...
04:10:15.820 There's no way adults are watching this.
04:10:17.340 If dudes are watching this...
04:10:18.800 Just... 0.99
04:10:19.280 Go watch porn or something. 1.00
04:10:21.040 Obviously, they're both bad. 0.99
04:10:22.120 But what are you doing?
04:10:22.840 What are you doing with your life? 0.99
04:10:24.940 At least watch porn if you're gonna go down this route. 0.99
04:10:27.840 So this must be for kids. 0.98
04:10:31.940 Children are watching this.
04:10:35.920 13-year-olds.
04:10:36.760 13-year-olds.
04:10:40.600 13-year-olds.
04:10:41.680 14-year-olds.
04:10:43.320 14-year-olds.
04:10:47.460 14-year-olds.
04:10:47.820 14-year-olds.
04:10:48.740 14-year-olds.
04:10:49.060 14-year-olds.
04:10:49.180 It's like when I was doing...
04:10:50.220 14-year-olds.
04:10:50.940 14-year-olds.
04:10:51.560 14-year-olds.
04:10:51.580 You have to get out right now.
04:10:53.380 15-year-olds.
04:10:53.460 15-year-olds.
04:10:53.520 15-year-olds.
04:10:53.740 Like, you have to go.
04:10:55.040 I was trying to...
04:10:56.040 I was trying to show them 0.98
04:10:57.080 how to make my butt clap. 0.97
04:10:58.160 All right, um... 0.97
04:11:10.960 Look at the chats, I know, but all that.
04:11:12.560 She gonna break her back, that thing was clapping? 1.00
04:11:15.760 That thing! Imagine typing that, period.
04:11:20.560 Stank ass, let me eat it, dang. 1.00
04:11:23.760 Hey, what the fuck? 1.00
04:11:27.760 You guys see this one? 1.00
04:11:31.760 Can I redeem my kiss? Can I redeem my kiss right now?
04:11:35.760 Nice! 0.94
04:11:37.760 Thank you. Blood, you owe me a hundred bucks!
04:11:43.760 Blood, you owe me a hundred bucks. 0.92
04:11:47.760 Did you just kiss her? 0.96
04:11:49.760 I just did, go after her.
04:11:51.760 Did you just kiss Sina?
04:11:53.760 Do you want me to do it again?
04:11:55.760 Can I have a second one? 0.99
04:11:57.760 What do you mean, what's fucking wrong? 0.98
04:11:59.760 Wait, why? 0.98
04:12:01.760 It was part of the trade!
04:12:03.760 Did I make out with a snake?
04:12:09.760 Hey bro, who is this for?
04:12:11.760 Who is this for? 0.99
04:12:13.760 This is pathetic. 1.00
04:12:19.760 This is pathetic. 1.00
04:12:21.760 What? 0.99
04:12:23.760 I got three free ones!
04:12:27.760 Yes!
04:12:29.760 This is what I'm saying.
04:12:31.760 This is what I'm saying.
04:12:33.760 This is what I'm saying.
04:12:35.760 When people are like, man, you got to be the top streamer.
04:12:37.760 You need to get back on Twitch.
04:12:39.760 You could be the top streamer. 0.97
04:12:41.760 Being the top streamer is being gay? 1.00
04:12:43.760 What is the point of being? 0.94
04:12:45.760 Because to get to the top, this is what it is.
04:12:49.760 I would rather go back to school and get a regular job than do this when I'm 28 years old, bro.
04:12:55.760 I don't want to do this, man.
04:12:59.760 It's just...
04:13:07.760 You know?
04:13:08.760 Kids used to watch Blue's Clues, now they watch this.
04:13:10.760 When I grew up I watched Spongebob.
04:13:12.760 I feel for the next generation of children watching this instead of Family Guy.
04:13:22.760 Ted Kaczynski was right.
04:13:24.760 You see this and you're like, man.
04:13:26.760 Man, Ted had a point.
04:13:28.760 The Unabomber had a point. 0.64
04:13:32.760 I'm joking.
04:13:34.760 Let me see this one real quick.
04:13:36.760 Yikes, bro.
04:13:38.760 I don't know if my headphones aren't working again.
04:13:40.760 I don't know if my headphones aren't working again.
04:13:42.760 I don't know if my headphones aren't working again.
04:13:58.760 Don't be Spongebob Family Guy.
04:14:02.760 I know, we had great entertainment when we were kids, man.
04:14:04.760 To us, to us, to us.
04:14:06.760 Tess, Tess, Tess.
04:14:08.760 There you go, please work.
04:14:09.760 OOOH! 0.97
04:14:10.760 She texted me!
04:14:16.760 That was a skit.
04:14:17.760 That was a good gif, though.
04:14:19.760 That's what he did to me.
04:14:21.760 Because I break Sneakho's face.
04:14:23.760 Oh my god.
04:14:30.760 I got kids, so I try not to cuss with my kids.
04:14:32.760 You got kids?
04:14:33.760 Yeah.
04:14:34.760 Yeah. 0.99
04:14:35.760 Oh, sh**. 0.98
04:14:36.760 How old are they? 0.99
04:14:37.760 5 and 11.
04:14:38.760 Are you trolling?
04:14:39.760 No.
04:14:40.760 You're trolling me.
04:14:41.760 Like, you said you're 22.
04:14:43.760 If they're 11, I don't care. 0.96
04:14:45.760 I never understood being a tourist because what are you so amazed of?
04:14:51.760 The beautiful architecture.
04:14:52.760 One of the great feats of modern architecture.
04:14:55.760 Grand Central Station.
04:14:56.760 It's beautiful.
04:14:57.760 Look at the roof.
04:14:58.760 What could you possibly be taking a picture of?
04:15:00.760 There's nothing to take a picture of.
04:15:01.760 Look.
04:15:02.760 You're going to snap it again.
04:15:03.760 Look.
04:15:04.760 The beautiful building.
04:15:05.760 Look, look.
04:15:06.760 Take another picture.
04:15:07.760 Take another picture.
04:15:08.760 One more.
04:15:09.760 Look.
04:15:10.760 What are they taking a picture of?
04:15:14.760 There's nothing up there.
04:15:15.760 Yeah.
04:15:16.760 I get why white people say this and start getting, start feeling racist.
04:15:19.760 I understand.
04:15:20.760 I get it.
04:15:21.760 Because imagine, like, this is a beautiful building.
04:15:24.760 If you look at the ceiling too, you can't see it here.
04:15:26.760 You can see constellations.
04:15:27.760 You can see designs.
04:15:28.760 Also, Grand Central is just, it's magnificent.
04:15:30.760 The amount of people that are there.
04:15:32.760 No other train station is that beautiful.
04:15:34.760 And he's just like, what do you take pictures of?
04:15:37.760 What do you, what?
04:15:38.760 Actually, this guy here.
04:15:39.760 What do you take pictures of?
04:15:40.760 Weed? 1.00
04:15:41.760 Ass? 0.99
04:15:42.760 Perks? 1.00
04:15:45.760 What's in your camera roll?
04:15:50.760 A boomerang of you on the block?
04:15:52.760 A boomerang of you trapping?
04:15:57.760 I never understood being a tourist.
04:15:59.760 Cause what do you saw?
04:16:00.760 What do you, a selfie in the car? 0.98
04:16:03.760 Release the pedophiles. 0.99
04:16:04.760 Release the pedophiles. 1.00
04:16:05.760 Yeah. 0.94
04:16:06.760 Yeah.
04:16:07.760 I saw it.
04:16:08.760 Yeah. 0.97
04:16:09.760 Trump freed an Israeli pedophile. 0.93
04:16:10.760 Team water. 0.74
04:16:11.760 What do you think of?
04:16:12.760 When you think of that?
04:16:13.760 You're not thinking of any other creator except Mr. Beast.
04:16:14.760 So Mr. Beast gets all the credit.
04:16:15.760 So, you know, when he's, you know, asking people to.
04:16:16.760 Mr. Beast, like after the, the team water thing, you see, he took a picture alone.
04:16:17.760 He's like, look what I did.
04:16:18.760 And I know damn well.
04:16:19.760 Aiden X.
04:16:20.760 Cause you're like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like,
04:16:21.760 Cause I'm like, I have thatgalobos like, I'm like, it sounds good. 1.00
04:16:22.760 The extra thing too.
04:16:23.760 But maybe I bring someone on the road.
04:16:24.760 It's a body note.
04:16:25.760 So Sarah and Jason د
04:16:28.540 poets can are not too late except Mr. Beast.
04:16:29.760 So Mr. Beast gets all the credit.
04:16:30.760 So, you know, when he's asking people.
04:16:31.760 But Mr. Beast, like after the, the team water thing, you see, he took a picture alone and
04:16:32.760 he's like, look what I did.
04:16:33.760 I know. 0.92
04:16:34.760 fucking 16 hours money we were just we were here for the whole time and mr v takes a photo it's 0.97
04:16:40.320 just like look what i did like what the didn't train give half the money that was because of 0.97
04:16:45.360 hayden and xqc and what about all the people that donated it was he didn't shout them all
04:16:50.000 on the tweet it's just like smiling hey look at me okay buddy uh all right buddy and the guinness
04:16:57.420 world records replies and mr v's like i want that award uh what about the the two people that were
04:17:02.740 also there streaming with you donate on a stream and stuff and pressuring them and i think it's just
04:17:09.120 kind of a little weird like bro when they're pressuring these creators to donate money and
04:17:13.560 and everything for that i can see why some creators don't want to do it because it's mr beast's name
04:17:18.640 that gets all the recognition it's not bill bob jr the second donating a million dollars that's
04:17:23.600 going to get the recognition it's going to be mr beast raises over 10 million dollars to team water
04:17:27.220 like even his ig story mr beast's ig story he's like go follow this random person with no followers
04:17:32.280 and they're going to start posting competitive tournaments and all this stuff and it's like
04:17:37.040 bro why would you promote it you're mr beast bro you are like up here and people look up to you and
04:17:42.360 your name has a lot of i know look at the suite me i raised 12 million to get hundreds of thousands
04:17:48.980 of people clean water you did what about weren't there other people there why are they not in this
04:17:55.380 picture just did my first stream my first stream but the people that gave the money aren't in the
04:18:03.440 photo
04:18:03.800 and no but this stuff is crazy mr beast is one of the most evil people in the world that that is crazy
04:18:13.080 credit on the line like you gotta you gotta pick and choose who you're promoting not just random
04:18:17.960 people that could promote crypto and all this you know random stuff i just thought it was very strange
04:18:24.600 is mr beast is like the top creator this is crazy and it finally happens hundreds of thousands of
04:18:34.400 israelis are marching right now in the streets of tel aviv demanding to end this annihilation war
04:18:40.500 to bring back all the hostages in adil finally so many people in israel are demanding this government
04:18:48.280 to go home demanding to end the war we are here standing together great
04:18:54.380 chemaev would be tom ospinall that's not a joke
04:18:58.420 um i would love to see that do you see uh strickland keeps saying that he's gonna beat
04:19:04.640 chemaev it's like bro i wanted to respond to that and be like but there's just like it's just kind of
04:19:10.460 funny at this point because the whole mma community is doing the work for me hamza chemaev 0.76
04:19:14.080 congratulations he absolutely mauled duplicy for five rounds i like duplicy too but bro he got
04:19:19.160 what was it 21 minutes under control he dominated that fight he bro chemaev is so good that angry
04:19:26.660 mma nerds want to change the rules to ban people from russia ban muslims and then limit the amount
04:19:32.120 of wrestling imagine being so good that you need to that people want to change the rules because you're
04:19:37.720 that dominant tom's at chemaev is just one of the best new champ love to see that there's just no
04:19:45.180 debate at all and i don't think anybody in the middleweight division right now it can even come
04:19:48.900 close to being chemaev i i think for the next four years chemaev is going to be dominant i don't think
04:19:53.540 anyone on the roster can touch him the fight was boring i don't think so i loved the fight was very
04:19:59.240 entertaining to me there's no reason why to search and find new streamers you can't you you have to
04:20:11.680 go on other platforms twitch you should be able to do that on twitch do you know how many people know
04:20:18.700 about streamers but don't know what twitch is majority of people that know streamers your average normie
04:20:24.460 doesn't know what twitch is bro but the average normie does know about party okay so everybody
04:20:30.060 knows about party i don't know about you guys on twitch over there but when you talk about streamers
04:20:35.860 you talk about party so we good off that we good over here on party stay over there on twitch
04:20:41.400 they don't know what twitch is and it's like damn but they probably know who kai is though
04:20:46.020 you get what i'm saying they know who platform matches they know who speed is they know who phase is 0.96
04:20:51.620 they know amp they don't know twitch though facts just keeping the buck it's true and um yeah bro
04:20:59.200 so hopefully they implement that but if not i'll do it for them and don't let me get overly rich as
04:21:05.280 soon as i touch 100 m's i'm starting my own platform twitch that ass i'm telling y'all right now 0.86
04:21:09.140 sorry i love y'all i'll take a contract that ass i will give me some much money i'll shut up just like 0.99
04:21:15.320 who's a nigga who set up um don't care bro how many times you're gonna post this clip 0.99
04:21:26.760 we are breaking i don't care 0.91
04:21:30.240 bro he's always doing the smile he's got a lot of heat right now mondani
04:21:36.600 oh
04:21:45.020 this is netanyahu to trump and he's got red hair
04:21:49.320 come on come on why do i want the jew to win 1.00
04:21:57.120 oh shit oh the comeback's coming 1.00
04:22:01.060 dude how long is it gonna go okay the jew got you 1.00
04:22:10.480 make money 0.55
04:22:21.400 smash everybody
04:22:35.780 they're saying gg 1.00
04:22:39.020 damn man 0.99
04:22:41.820 israel has a right to defend itself 0.99
04:22:51.420 finish hamza later on because hamza if it gets to round three i told you well i saw everybody got
04:23:00.260 this wrong i said hamza was gonna win it's gonna be a problem it probably won't get to round five
04:23:04.120 where's my clip alaka i said hamza was gonna win it's gonna win so
04:23:06.960 with all that being said who do i have one in between ddp taking on a hamza shemaya i'm gonna
04:23:13.380 have to go ddp i told you i thought ddp has fought the best of best of the division
04:23:17.140 all right so i am even hulkanovsky drickus
04:23:20.980 you guys are gonna see the first round maybe even the second 0.70
04:23:25.260 shout out to drickus duplasty for doing the interview
04:23:27.340 i'm going with hamza shemaya folks no i'm joking i'm going with drickus duplasty
04:23:31.060 am i am i the go am i the best mma commentator in the game
04:23:34.800 am i better than valk am i better than than mighty mouse
04:23:42.840 and adesanya i'm joking around these guys are great legends
04:23:47.800 jimaya folks no i'm joking i'm going with drickus duplasty
04:23:50.300 absolute dogfight back and forth and bisping
04:23:53.740 and drickus takes over and drickus duplasty
04:23:57.980 will still be the middleweight
04:24:00.200 vindicated again 1.00
04:24:01.140 i think anybody who calls me a casual from now on uh you could eat my dick 0.99
04:24:07.120 late stoppage in the fourth or fifth 0.99
04:24:08.960 i'm fired up for this fight
04:24:10.680 if i had to pick right now
04:24:12.600 such a fan of hamza because he's such a character
04:24:15.680 i think drickus gets it done tkl in the fourth or fifth round
04:24:21.120 that's crazy
04:24:21.980 imagine if everyone knew hamza was winning or not special
04:24:25.220 what is this thing every single mma commentator
04:24:28.880 there should be a weight limit for sororities they should not be allowed to join a sorority if they're over 140 pounds 0.52
04:24:45.240 i are completely against this
04:24:46.900 this is
04:24:47.660 these tiktoks are doing so great till this showed up 0.99
04:24:50.720 there'd be months where we're doing three four hundred thousand a month
04:24:52.800 it was like ridiculous amounts of money
04:24:54.600 the mansions were like they were paid for by brands
04:24:56.500 do you feel like when you were in la you were kind of putting on a persona
04:24:59.040 it was not troll you 100%
04:25:00.160 everyone that makes fun of us for what we did
04:25:02.020 hey i get it
04:25:03.080 but we would film these videos and i feel like people were like
04:25:05.580 thinking we film these videos and they're like
04:25:07.320 this is hard bro like this is dope
04:25:09.080 and we were like no like we were like we're definitely gonna give flame for this
04:25:11.980 no bryce hall was just like
04:25:13.340 he knew it was cringe the whole time he said
04:25:14.860 like we knew it it's like acting in a movie
04:25:16.760 i just did it because the money that was being thrown at us
04:25:19.040 whenever tiktok started blowing up
04:25:20.500 it was like ungodly amounts of money
04:25:22.280 and if anybody that like was talking crap about us or anything like that
04:25:25.920 would have had the money that was being thrown at us
04:25:27.920 or had the whatever
04:25:28.720 i 100% think that they would have done it as well
04:25:31.040 well i didn't take the gambling deal
04:25:32.380 so that's not true
04:25:33.540 i don't think people would do this
04:25:35.440 obviously it's cool get your money
04:25:36.500 but don't think that this applies to everybody
04:25:38.440 okay
04:25:40.600 um
04:25:41.320 Sean's
04:25:41.800 saw that
04:25:42.240 free palestine
04:25:44.680 what'd you say
04:25:48.460 i love that because aiden's like
04:25:50.260 oh my god you're saying the controversial thing in front of the pr guy
04:25:52.980 free palestine
04:25:54.560 they did it twice
04:25:58.000 and he knows what he's doing
04:26:02.340 look at that jew smile 1.00
04:26:03.660 he knows what he's doing too
04:26:05.680 they knew the chat was zooming
04:26:08.700 you can see the chat laughing because they know mr beast
04:26:12.340 can't say it
04:26:14.160 i saw mr beast sweetie too he's like man i really want to help out the people there
04:26:20.300 it's terrible what's happening over there
04:26:22.360 which is great
04:26:23.380 now he sees the pressure and
04:26:24.920 he's gonna start donating to people over there
04:26:28.080 but notice how he said over there
04:26:29.500 you notice how he didn't say palestine
04:26:31.080 notice how he didn't say gaza
04:26:32.580 he means over there like
04:26:34.300 in that
04:26:35.020 region
04:26:35.740 where israel and palestine are
04:26:37.580 which is a great cop out
04:26:39.040 because then you can give money to israel and palestine
04:26:41.100 how how is how is the jew
04:26:45.360 using the palestine issue to jew mr beast 0.89
04:26:49.160 this is next level jewing bro 0.99
04:26:51.000 the jews using free palestine 0.96
04:26:54.740 to jew mr beast 1.00
04:26:56.220 i love it man 0.75
04:26:58.320 the goat
04:26:59.480 yeah i want to help the people over there
04:27:03.940 where specifically
04:27:05.540 where specifically 0.98
04:27:06.660 what the fuck 1.00
04:27:14.020 fuck 1.00
04:27:17.880 fuck 1.00
04:27:17.940 fuck the step 1.00
04:27:20.900 i gotta run it back rampage 1.00
04:27:22.540 i know you guys want to
04:27:23.880 the famous streamer xqc
04:27:32.220 says free palestine 0.77
04:27:34.300 in front of mr beast
04:27:35.900 and he stays quiet
04:27:38.140 with no motion
04:27:39.580 the nasheed is so funny
04:27:41.680 bro the haram police tiktokers like 1.00
04:27:44.420 playing the nasheed doing this
04:27:46.100 it's so
04:27:46.620 because they know what they're doing too
04:27:48.020 it's free palestine 0.93
04:27:49.280 in front of mr beast
04:27:50.880 and he stays quiet
04:27:53.120 with no motion
04:27:54.640 free palestine
04:27:55.480 you can have all the subscribers
04:28:06.700 and all the money in the world
04:28:08.820 but when you don't have the deen
04:28:10.660 you are lost
04:28:12.120 subhanallah
04:28:13.120 you could trade
04:28:16.040 everything
04:28:17.040 for the dunya
04:28:18.240 but when you don't have deen
04:28:20.220 you are doomed
04:28:22.140 you are doomed
04:28:24.980 to jihannam
04:28:26.780 subhanallah
04:28:27.520 allah akbar
04:28:28.600 subhanallah
04:28:29.660 when you don't have deen
04:28:33.700 you are doomed
04:28:35.460 you can have all the subscribers
04:28:37.740 all the views
04:28:39.040 but when you don't have deen
04:28:41.560 can i get a takbir
04:28:44.100 yet ignore a genocide
04:28:48.300 that is taking place
04:28:50.260 no no i'm joking around man
04:28:51.840 he's right
04:28:52.520 and also i'm not
04:28:54.460 i love akim and i just like
04:28:57.020 i don't know why i use that voice
04:28:58.340 for the don't don't make
04:28:59.520 don't don't don't
04:29:00.360 i love akim
04:29:00.940 stop stop stop
04:29:01.580 i get it joe
04:29:03.160 my sister abigail shapiro
04:29:04.480 has ginormous milkers
04:29:05.660 i get it
04:29:08.460 people want to
04:29:09.280 you know
04:29:10.640 i get it
04:29:11.400 people want to
04:29:12.580 i get it
04:29:15.760 but god clearly said
04:29:17.220 thou shall not covet thy neighbor's wife 0.99
04:29:19.000 or my sister's ridiculous breaths 0.99
04:29:20.840 okay 0.99
04:29:21.740 oh there he is 1.00
04:29:30.580 you're worse than a murderer 1.00
04:29:32.120 you're worse than a rapist 1.00
04:29:33.460 you're worse than a terrorist 1.00
04:29:35.000 you're worse than a pedophile 1.00
04:29:36.400 in the height of a month 1.00
04:29:37.580 you're worse than
04:29:42.400 all right 0.98
04:29:48.820 lebron told
04:29:56.660 okay
04:30:07.420 okay 1.00
04:30:11.420 retarded shit 1.00
04:30:13.280 did i miss anything chat 1.00
04:30:15.140 what else was i supposed to react to
04:30:16.840 uh
04:30:19.840 see it goes 2023
04:30:23.180 uh rumble irl wrong
04:30:25.060 yeah i know man 0.99
04:30:26.040 i'm shitting on everybody 0.99
04:30:27.260 i'm 1.00
04:30:27.520 shitting on everybody 0.99
04:30:29.060 all right 1.00
04:30:32.180 all right
04:30:32.240 all right
04:30:33.900 all right chat
04:30:34.200 seems like that's everything
04:30:36.340 oh there's one more
04:30:41.600 no i think i covered everything
04:30:59.860 i think i covered everything
04:31:02.240 all right guys
04:31:03.020 have a great night
04:31:05.780 great stream
04:31:07.260 shout out to dr k
04:31:08.000 this is fun to catch up
04:31:08.980 i have uh
04:31:10.960 nate diaz tomorrow
04:31:11.820 i still gotta plan that out
04:31:12.840 i'm not sure what to do
04:31:13.700 not sure
04:31:14.680 bronson just put the rest of the stuff
04:31:19.440 i didn't react to for tomorrow
04:31:20.300 enough yet for today
04:31:21.780 i gotta figure out what to do with
04:31:23.400 nate diaz tomorrow
04:31:24.240 i don't know
04:31:24.560 i don't know what to do
04:31:25.140 i mean
04:31:25.460 it seems like i just
04:31:26.620 we should just go to the gym
04:31:27.620 seems like we
04:31:28.960 but i just haven't been in the gym
04:31:29.980 that much recently
04:31:30.500 so um
04:31:32.240 i'll figure it out
04:31:33.060 i skipped everything
04:31:34.300 did i
04:31:34.760 uh
04:31:40.900 actually
04:31:43.060 there's a few more
04:31:44.220 now yeah just whatever
04:31:59.460 whatever whatever i didn't get to
04:32:00.540 just uh put it back in
04:32:02.200 just put it back in
04:32:04.140 all right guys
04:32:05.320 have a great rest of your night
04:32:07.120 long of us
04:32:07.980 great stream
04:32:08.500 i really enjoy this
04:32:09.460 hope you guys put it put a w in the chat if you like the stream
04:32:11.460 and um
04:32:13.240 yeah we got jake shields coming friday
04:32:14.940 nate diaz tomorrow
04:32:16.040 i'm not sure what to do
04:32:17.140 but i'll do the fit check tomorrow too
04:32:19.180 um
04:32:20.340 do the fit check tomorrow
04:32:23.380 but yeah
04:32:24.680 join the discord
04:32:25.660 and join the
04:32:26.220 right now
04:32:26.560 pin
04:32:26.920 my discord
04:32:28.020 and pin my twitter community
04:32:29.420 so people can join
04:32:30.060 do that right now
04:32:30.700 do that right now bronson
04:32:32.060 i'll get people in there
04:32:33.360 we'll do that
04:32:33.960 we'll do the fit check for tomorrow
04:32:34.840 if um
04:32:35.440 if you guys want to submit for that
04:32:36.720 then you can
04:32:37.140 i'll do a cash buys or something
04:32:38.480 and yeah w's in the chat
04:32:44.180 that's great to see
04:32:44.800 great to see
04:32:45.400 appreciate you guys
04:32:46.080 long of love speech
04:32:46.900 great stream
04:32:47.520 great to be back
04:32:48.180 the grind continues
04:32:49.180 the hustle continues
04:32:50.040 ain't no stopping
04:32:51.280 and
04:32:52.420 you guys
04:32:53.600 be safe
04:32:54.380 bye
04:32:54.940 bye
04:33:02.080 bye
04:33:04.760 bye
04:33:05.260 We'll be right back.
04:33:35.260 It doesn't go away if you get out of bed and find me standing all alone, open-eyed, burn the page, my little dark age.
04:34:05.260 It doesn't go away if you get out of bed.