SNEAKO - SNEAKO VS TRAUMATIZED WOMAN

00:00:00.000 okay this video is called setting boundaries why grown men love young girls trigger warning

00:00:06.360 so please click away so you don't get thank you for the for the tw moniker hernandez or i think

00:00:11.400 i think i might have watched you start speaking and then got because of the tw in the title now

00:00:17.580 i'm good but recognize like that as some of us get older and we watch our peers change and they

00:00:23.660 approach that split that split in the road some of them are going to choose like the route of

00:00:28.320 perversion and control because you know what happens there is no need to grow when you're

00:00:33.960 dating a 19 year old this is my channel my name is monica have you seen me on here before hey i'm

00:00:39.680 back and i'm doing better jesus christ bro she's mid mental breakdown ambition and ideas but then

00:00:44.880 whoa whoa that welcome back was crazy bro back and i'm doing better earlier this year i came through

00:00:52.440 with all this ambition and ideas but then depression released that boop and knocked me over the head

00:00:56.860 i hate when depression goes boop my depression today my anxiety went boop nope bitch you're

00:01:02.860 staying inside because boop mental health no more videos for you sis um but i have a system now

00:01:10.120 and i'm doing better um and i won't let you down again i'm really happy you guys are here

00:01:15.040 uh my name is monica if you don't know who i am i am an artist i'll be on instagram talking

00:01:20.760 i'll be doing stuff i don't know um this video for me was very cathartic to me i just finished it

00:01:26.820 i am really excited to share this with you guys because i feel like a lot of the things that i

00:01:31.400 talk about in this i would have loved to have here to have heard um when i was 18 19 20 21 whatever

00:01:37.280 so please uh chat why do you think grown men love young girls i don't i wonder how accurate she's

00:01:44.460 gonna be because i know why but does she know because i genuinely don't think women even

00:01:50.240 understand men but what do you think she's about to say enjoy i break this up into four chapters

00:01:54.820 so get ready for the ride the comments are open please leave that the space uh

00:01:59.980 please make the space a positive space i don't need to hear about how you're not that guy

00:02:05.640 if you're not that guy you don't gotta say it if the shoe fits then wear it i don't know um

00:02:12.140 thank you so much for being here let's begin

00:02:14.200 i had bought into the lie of being the chill girl for the majority of my early 20s and teens i don't

00:02:25.640 know where specifically this belief came from i don't know why i'm lying because i definitely do

00:02:29.800 i know where this belief came from it's the world we're currently living in i'm an artist so a lot of

00:02:35.580 my references are art texts and one of the books that gave shape to this realization for me growing up

00:02:39.860 was john berger's ways of seeing in the second chapter he gets into the male gaze and women

00:02:45.460 and he states a woman must continuously watch herself she is almost continually accompanied

00:02:52.080 by her own image of herself while she is walking across the room or while she is weeping at the

00:02:57.780 death of her father this is the this is the stars to avoid envisioning her i've read this i've read uh

00:03:02.620 this paragraph before we skip to the end um but this describes this whole paragraph that us will

00:03:08.860 explain most female psychology and why they kind of hate being girls

00:03:14.640 this is this is a good paragraph here i think i think it's accurate for pretty much all women for

00:03:21.080 all women who are like well a man could do that a man couldn't vote till 1970 wage gap

00:03:27.040 this describes it or weeping from earliest childhood she has been taught and persuaded to

00:03:33.540 survey herself continually and so she comes to consider the surveyor and the surveyed within her

00:03:39.640 as two constituent yet always distinct elements of her identity as a woman she has to survey everything

00:03:45.900 she is and everything she does because how she appears to men is of crucial importance for what is

00:03:51.700 normally thought of as the success of her life her own sense of being and herself is supplanted

00:03:56.840 by a sense of being appreciated as herself by another and one might simplify this let's simplify

00:04:02.840 one might simplify this by saying this is why women the feminism movement started because they

00:04:09.280 they realize that their existence kind of lives in the heads of other people women are just not as

00:04:17.860 independent as men are because they're objects because they're objects of beauty you're only an object of

00:04:23.940 beauty to a man men act and women appear this really this really says it perfectly men act

00:04:32.200 and women appear men look at women women watch themselves being looked at this determines not

00:04:38.640 you ever walk behind a girl like on the stairs or something like that and you notice that like her

00:04:42.460 short shorts are just slightly too you know when you walk behind a girl and you notice like right

00:04:46.580 away like oh god like she's showing a little butt under those short shorts and then as soon as you make

00:04:50.140 the connection and make eye contact shorts go down she does the pull she pulls it down or like right

00:04:56.200 when you see like a big pair of titties outside you're like oh yeah and then adjust or like fold even

00:05:01.520 if she you're not even in eyesight it's like she could just feel it and sense it men aren't like that we're

00:05:07.160 not aware of how much we're looked at because we're not really looked at only most relationships between

00:05:12.320 men and women but also the relationship of women to themselves the surveyor of woman in herself is

00:05:18.240 male the surveyed female thus she turns herself into an object and most particularly an object of

00:05:25.180 vision as sight so i didn't i didn't see this video yet this is the the problem that that weirdly all

00:05:33.460 the self-improving people want they all want to be objects but what it really boils down to is that

00:05:38.580 men men aren't looked at for our character we're looked at for what we can do we act they react

00:05:45.180 so in my opinion it's not as a man you shouldn't desire being an image you shouldn't desire being an

00:05:53.080 object of beauty you should just do shit just start acting you because you can you don't need to like

00:05:58.380 like go on facetime with your friend okay i'm walking home can you make sure i get safe i'm home i'm here

00:06:03.620 you could just go outside you get what i'm saying women have to always be considered objects and a

00:06:09.020 lot of them can't get over that it fucks with their ego and they get jealous of the fact that men could

00:06:13.860 just act it's that's the main difference between men and women is that they're objects and we're not

00:06:20.280 it is what it is man it is what it is this is an idea a lot of writers theorists artists etc have

00:06:28.460 obviously explored but i love burger's visual language when i stumbled across this book in art

00:06:34.480 school it gave me a very clear image of an experience i thought was innate that just was

00:06:40.180 the idea of being both the surveyor and the surveyed made so much sense to me this riff this

00:06:46.440 break in your oneness of being this nagging voice that is you see how crazy she's going like she's

00:06:52.040 just having that epiphany now at her age she's like she's malfunctioning buzzing in your head

00:06:58.780 you know you're going about your day and for example you know when you when you turn the corner

00:07:03.240 and all of a sudden there's a group of men and you have to walk through them and you feel this hyper

00:07:07.640 self-awareness you feel every movement every muscle made awkward by the fact you know people are looking

00:07:13.260 at you it's almost like this robotic breaking character and sometimes you keep your head down and

00:07:18.540 walk stiffly and sometimes you sway your hips and then afterwards you feel weird about it and you're

00:07:23.440 like why did i put on the performance for them like and all the cult people in here that they're still

00:07:27.660 here the cult people want to be objects you guys look in the mirror as much as bitches do you examine

00:07:34.980 each other and critique each other's bodies like bitches do men don't like the men i know like men around

00:07:42.220 like real men aren't fucking critiquing the tried lateral delts and greasing each other up and going

00:07:48.880 to bodybuilding competitions and in discord servers and finding cult leaders on you they don't do that

00:07:54.340 real men just act but you guys think that being adonis the ideal man is being like an object of beauty

00:08:03.580 and i'm saying that like the only people who are viewing you as objects of beauty are other men

00:08:11.160 only men know what the fuck muscles you're talking the rear the lateral the trapezius

00:08:17.840 the pectoral lateral delt that what bitches don't know what the fuck you're talking about

00:08:23.560 the only people who admire men's bodies as an object of beauty are the men

00:08:30.400 or other men women when you see them admiring men it's them doing stuff look pay attention next

00:08:39.680 time you see like a thread on twitter or like a girl posting a hot guy on instagram or something

00:08:43.720 like that it's always them like in a car or like with sunglasses on or like mid-action like you know

00:08:49.800 taking a phone call or like not looking at them because they like guys who aren't you know or like

00:08:56.240 you know a guy with a big gut he has nothing or like you know what it does the bitches on tiktok

00:09:00.200 you know remember how much they obsessed over the guy chopping wood it's it triggers an evolutionary

00:09:06.040 thing they think of a guy like oh he can protect me look at him chopping wood doing something

00:09:12.600 he can build me a house and keep me warm you cult people think that by flexing in the mirror with

00:09:20.840 other dudes shirtless that you're gonna pick up a bitch and it's like guys wake up call the only

00:09:27.460 people following and looking at you are other dudes doing the same thing it's a circle jerk

00:09:32.980 understand this hyper self-awareness i've been experiencing since this since i was a child i was

00:09:42.460 a quiet pensive child and i don't really think that was innate i was just very good at observing

00:09:47.420 and i saw clearly what happened when you acted certain ways and in many ways this robbed me of

00:09:52.940 my childhood because the bubble of being present was popped extremely early for me i couldn't express

00:09:58.940 or feel without major anxiety about how i would be perceived i lived with constant guilt and anxiety

00:10:05.500 over my own child appropriate impulses i repressed all of my reactions i i stifled myself because like

00:10:13.180 berger said how she appears to men is of crucial importance for what is normally thought of as the

00:10:19.720 success of her life it's not her construct of what success in life is necessarily like well it's

00:10:25.300 nobody's don't say it's men men's construct either that's just nature we need to fuck you and we want

00:10:31.940 to fuck things that look good so nature promotes good looking bitches so we can fuck you it's not

00:10:37.620 socially construct society that's life i'm not the architect of the mental prison i am in i didn't

00:10:43.640 get creative and say hey let's make you know subconscious that you literally have been depressed

00:10:47.980 since infancy okay now you're victimizing yourself yeah i'm literally depressed because i'm a girl

00:10:53.220 i am literally going all right bro i hate when everyone fucks in all right keywords that's this

00:10:59.560 video is another 47 minutes we're not gonna watch the whole shit bro we could speed it up she's gonna

00:11:03.680 say trauma she's gonna say more mental health she's gonna say anxiety more it's gonna be very

00:11:11.280 mental healthy let's just boil it at that someone give me a tally point every time a mental health

00:11:15.420 word gets clocked and we'll clock it at the end i have been responding to the systems around me

00:11:20.600 to the patriarchy a system under which we all suffer not just women and there's multiple factors

00:11:26.460 that obviously like affect this one it's a learned behavior i grew up in a culture of fear and guilt

00:11:31.800 shout out to everyone that was raised in the catholic household and also i am an immigrant i came to

00:11:37.420 the u.s at a young age so i get why there was less for me to make mistakes like my form she's bad as

00:11:42.300 hell i don't know a lot of you we all spent some fear being the others

00:11:45.420 we literally but you could see like the she hasn't had a man and she hasn't had a good

00:11:49.920 man in a while and she needs that to balance out her

00:11:51.920 and that just automatically makes you hyper self-aware because you're all of a sudden the

00:11:59.100 other like and this self-awareness is taxing it really wears you down when burger said while

00:12:08.000 she is walking across the room or while she is weeping at the death of her father she can scarcely

00:12:14.700 avoid envisioning herself walking or weeping she can't help but watch herself being watched

00:12:20.720 criticize her own human reaction run all this behavior through these like outside lenses this

00:12:27.300 this has like literally been my entire life a lot of our lives this the performance is always on

00:12:34.340 even at my most intimate of moments my most human of moments even when i am alone it's because when

00:12:41.400 you're different when you know you don't fit into the construct you're being okay shut up you're not

00:12:45.840 you're not different you're not different to pretend for your survival shut up and you start

00:12:49.520 to pretend how is she different how is she different so good you think this is your life

00:12:55.440 you've been doing this since before you could utter words this rift in yourself is something that wb

00:13:02.080 dubois expressed in the souls of black folks which talks about devil consciousness something that's

00:13:07.080 really important for me and and the work that i do i'm an artist i'm a painter um he goes

00:13:12.320 the negro is a sort of seventh son born with a veil and gifted with second sight in this american

00:13:18.880 world a world which gets to the point where's the grown man shit in here but only lets him see

00:13:24.060 okay now she's just like doing homework and shit tell me what the fuck the grown man shit is

00:13:28.360 seven minutes in seven minutes in seven minutes in chat women suck at telling stories like someone

00:13:34.120 saying like you don't know her experience yeah that's true eva i know i i know you're one of the

00:13:38.940 only girls in the stream i'm sorry but do you see what the fuck like is frustrating we're seven

00:13:43.580 minutes into this video and she hasn't said shit about the story bitches suck they have to give so

00:13:49.240 much prerequisite to tell a story so much preamble so just tell me i don't care that you're an artist

00:13:56.660 i don't care that you talk on instagram i don't care about this book what happened what happened okay

00:14:04.140 well first i need to tell you that well the thing is about my past and my trauma and my what happened

00:14:10.260 with the grown man well my trauma and my mental health first off it started off from just women's

00:14:17.080 experiences and if and you can relate to that because my depression's going crazy what happened

00:14:23.980 with the grown man if only my anxiety and my mental health wasn't taking over then maybe i could

00:14:29.940 okay i don't want to hear the story anymore i'm sorry for asking revelation of the other world

00:14:37.840 and this is literally what john berger's quote is talking about like seven decades later berger talks

00:14:42.820 about it in reference to women specifically but it's still the same idea of watching yourself watched

00:14:47.420 of being outside of yourself a constant scrutiny of being the other he goes on to say it is a peculiar

00:14:54.620 sensation this double consciousness the sense of always looking at oneself through the eyes of

00:14:59.640 others of measuring one soul by the tape of a world that looks on an amused contempt and pity

00:15:05.920 one ever feels his two-ness an american a negro two souls two thoughts two unreconciled strivings

00:15:13.480 two boring ideals and one dark body whose dogged strength alone what are you talking about bro like

00:15:19.000 is she reading is she telling a poem right now she's doing spoken word bro tell i'm being torn

00:15:25.400 tell me what happened i got really excited about wb dubois his tune as he describes in relation to

00:15:34.280 his experience as a black american he is talking about not true self-consciousness but a consciousness

00:15:40.560 of oneself you're outside of yourself having to mediate multiple identities and the same could be applied

00:15:46.860 to all marginalized identities with double or triple or quadruple consciousness for example i am woman i am

00:15:53.480 woman of color i am queer woman of color all these degrees of separation from oneself what eight

00:15:59.640 minutes eight minutes eva where are you girls girls pay attention this this is what it's like listening

00:16:06.580 to you tell a story what the fuck are you talking about you know of course they add context but it

00:16:12.760 always feels like you're outside of yourself having to make up for all the ways in which you don't fit in

00:16:17.660 so i say all this to say women have been socialized to perform out of survival no this is what every

00:16:23.580 feminist says they always say that the reason that they're objects is because they've been

00:16:27.340 socialized too and they don't understand oh this is fucking evolution you've always been the object

00:16:35.420 you've always been the fucky and men will be the fucker so you need to be pretty so that we fuck you

00:16:41.180 it's just that simple bro it's that it's not socialized by society oh she read a couple books

00:16:47.580 and now she's saying smart words and shit she thinks she knows what she's talking okay sorry

00:16:50.840 and before i was aware of this i found myself behaving in ways that feel so foreign to me

00:16:57.380 like i look back and i wish i could just protect myself my younger self for for looking for validation

00:17:03.420 in dangerous places and and you know what happened what happened

00:17:22.140 females a few girls in here are you still here did you get bored and leave men don't get bored and leave

00:17:28.060 with me but let's stick we're gonna fucking stick through this we're gonna do it together we're

00:17:33.340 gonna listen to a woman share her experience okay because you want to be taken seriously

00:17:42.780 you don't want to be an object what the fuck do you have to what are you what are you gonna talk

00:17:46.300 about what are you gonna talk about you you know i'm socialized to be pretty okay then then what do

00:17:51.740 you have to say what do you gotta say i'm sure a lot of us could relate the media is sending us

00:17:59.420 mixed signals at all times women are over sexualized but then you're vilified for having sexual desires

00:18:05.420 or worse yet you're punished for the natural cycle of having your prepubescent body mature which changes

00:18:12.220 the way the world sees you the act of leaving girlhood for a lot of us is really traumatizing

00:18:17.900 it's leaving behind the adoration of being perceived as innocent and stepping into the cruel criticality of

00:18:23.820 society and being an observant child what the are you talking about saw this future or rather i saw

00:18:32.860 my fate from miles away i saw the way women were ridiculed for their thoughts their emotions their

00:18:39.580 professions and interests minimized and mocked the fact my body would never feel like my own as adult men

00:18:45.340 would cat call me and comment on my pubescent body like i saw in bright lights the violence i would be

00:18:52.220 subject to if i heard a man's pride the danger of me asserting my words story time please and this

00:18:58.940 is pushed in every facet of our lives no like catholic priests in sunday school that hammered the image of

00:19:05.180 an ideal woman in our brains as an example mary virginal yet mother devout same point unlike her

00:19:11.820 counterpart mary a who followed her own desires and even though as the story goes like jesus

00:19:18.060 acknowledges like hey y'all we all sinners like don't judge don't judge the other mary we all like

00:19:23.740 to forget that part of the story they are both two sides of the same coin both fictive and impossibility

00:19:30.940 they're not fully fleshed out beings rather they're plot points to move the story are you telling a poem

00:19:36.780 what what what is this what is this 10 minutes and 23 seconds in women don't leave women i need to

00:19:45.020 see you in the chat right now all both of you both women watching the stream where did eva go

00:19:54.220 is this slam poetry

00:19:55.420 how did this get oh this is that's crazy that's wild i'm not gonna lie to you that's wild that's wild monica

00:20:10.620 i still would though

00:20:13.820 it's all it's all it's all it's all women i share your experience

00:20:19.100 women where you at women where you at skip to the middle there's eva there's eva there you are

00:20:25.660 chat ah i can't this is not obs anymore eva the same the same who i'm in before who was saying

00:20:33.100 let her talk let's hear your experience oh and there's another woman there i'm here she's saying

00:20:37.820 skip to the middle all right so she's complaining about being seen as an object you see why

00:20:46.860 you see why she should probably just be an object you say it's skip to the middle of a 50 minute video

00:20:53.020 so that we can finally get to the point she don't know how to get to the point

00:21:01.660 what is she like

00:21:05.100 and as you navigate your young life with with your open and vulnerable mind you're seeing very clearly

00:21:10.620 what's celebrated and what isn't how you fit in and how you don't it's literally how children

00:21:16.060 function for survival they have to get with the program very very quickly their brains pick up

00:21:21.580 patterns and changes and create their logic trying to navigate the dysfunction around them and i most

00:21:27.020 thanks for the five i think it's the girl she said she used to watch monica most of her streams are

00:21:30.060 just ranting and feelings yeah that's all women that's what goes through women's brains thanks for the

00:21:35.820 14 off v this ain't getting no watch time you know what but you're gonna stick through it with me

00:21:39.980 you definitely came into this earth with a lot of privileges by the way let's be clear

00:21:44.140 being able bodied being conventionally attractive and though i am not white i am light-skinned enough

00:21:49.020 to where i'm accepted even fetishized which of course is extremely dehumanizing yeah but it's

00:21:54.220 granted me more social mobility than a lot of people therefore i am oftentimes safer than most women

00:22:00.460 because men often see me as small and harmless okay we get it you get it you're an object you

00:22:05.260 spend 11 minutes saying you're an object what else and i saw this i really saw there we go cordelia

00:22:13.820 said as a woman do we all sound like this yes cordelia just said as a woman do we all sound like this

00:22:22.860 yes you do because we're watching it in the context of me which is okay what do you got to say the

00:22:28.940 context of you if you're watching this alone this is how you'd be watching it oh yeah oh that's

00:22:38.620 horrible that's so bad oh my god wow that's how you watch it that's why you watch murder documentaries

00:22:48.380 and shit because you kind of like your entertainment is oh oh that's terrible he shouldn't do that

00:22:54.620 that's so bad i don't know why you take that as entertainment but that's what you do and this is

00:23:00.540 how you talk bro is she gonna say anything funny is she just gonna be all right i just i just want to

00:23:08.140 show you i i really thought i selected this video because i thought she was going to tell a story

00:23:12.460 about a grown man like and it said trigger one i thought i was gonna get a spicy story about a grown

00:23:16.780 man nope nope just the women and my trauma this that despite how much i wanted how deep my interests

00:23:27.100 were how hurt i was by the way people in my life would treat me i learned to push that all to the

00:23:32.620 side and become the chill girl the chill girl you chill women she thinks she's chill

00:23:47.820 you see what i'm saying

00:23:52.220 um now there's many different like recipes for your own personal brand of chill girl um a lot of us have

00:23:59.100 had our own chill girl persona you may be in the middle of your chill girl era and not realize it

00:24:05.260 you may actually be chill there are there do be chill people but are you like chill there do be chill

00:24:10.380 people that was the best take she's made in this video there do do be chill people also you don't

00:24:15.740 make others uncomfortable are you chill for male validation you know like a lot of us at a young age i

00:24:23.740 found myself obsessed with boys and men that were emotionally unavailable and a side note on that i

00:24:29.820 think men go through their own journey of coming to terms with their vulnerability plus being a teen

00:24:34.700 is so intense that i understand who's doing the mental health checklist vulnerability insecurity bro

00:24:40.380 someone fucking please clock all these therapy words and have let go of a lot of the stuff i went

00:24:45.340 through uh at least i think i have um during that time because no matter what you do honestly being a

00:24:51.020 teen sucks you could be open and vulnerable and meet somebody that like absolutely destroys you

00:24:57.020 you could be closed off and guarded and find yourself like alienated and outcast and everybody

00:25:01.660 hates you get to the motherfucking point bro sorry it's oh god someone in the chat said uh

00:25:11.500 putting women down is beta or girl said putting women down is beta and building women up is alpha

00:25:15.820 this is my way of building women up because hopefully you watch this and sound a little

00:25:21.420 less fucking annoying after this because i don't want to keep hearing this shit man and you i really

00:25:27.980 just want to put you through it so that this is building women up because she doesn't want to be

00:25:32.780 an object and then she wants to talk and she makes no fucking sense

00:25:38.700 oh it's all a super confusing time and it's hard to navigate so that is what it is

00:25:44.540 but for me during that time i just realized the pain of putting myself out there and not having my

00:25:50.140 affection reciprocated was so deep that i said you know what i'm going to do i'm gonna chill out i'm

00:25:56.700 going to essentially have not have any standards i'm going to go with the flow i'm going to be so

00:26:02.780 understanding that nothing you can really do bothers me because i can rationalize it and look past it like

00:26:09.820 i didn't want to come across as too much or too needy or too obsessed i took a secret pleasure to

00:26:16.620 be completely honest and thinking i was being different than a lot of my therapy they were so

00:26:20.860 ruined y'all bro like why this is this looks like the opposite side of a zoom therapy call

00:26:28.620 quite crazy and such pain of being mistreated pushing guys away with their neediness and their

00:26:33.260 insecurities or or so prudish so boring so childish almost i really became conditioned to thinking that

00:26:41.420 me wanting more i gotta keep playing i gotta keep playing thanks for the 20j bro i swear to god turn

00:26:46.460 this garbage off my head is hurting i'm not you're gonna bear we gotta we you guys gotta see this you

00:26:50.940 gotta you gotta see what i'm talking about zady lime five dollars thank you as a girl monica the

00:26:55.340 majority of female commentary is just fueled off of emotions by the way love your streams also as a

00:26:59.100 patreon sub keep it up nope we're not skipping we're not skipping i was being crazy meant i was

00:27:04.140 being hysterical i i would spend hours trying to talk myself out of sharing how i feel to someone oh

00:27:10.140 yeah oh yeah erical i i would spend hours trying to talk myself out of sharing how i feel to someone

00:27:18.300 that i am literally being physically intimate with out of fear that like attaching concrete words to things

00:27:24.140 would push them away or wanting more consistency or to hang out with them outside of their home like

00:27:29.340 go on an actual date would be an inconvenience to them you know i was not like other girls yes i was

00:27:35.340 a meme um other girls they want

00:27:42.060 flowers they want sweet words you know like me me i'm cool with just like a chill conversation like we

00:27:49.180 could hook up i could come over and you know what on top of that you know how chill i am it's the

00:27:53.820 middle of the night i can i can get myself home you don't you don't even gotta spend a cab you offering

00:27:59.020 i'm not even gonna take it because i don't want to think that you're like not being like other girls and

00:28:03.580 you're just being a good side hoe you're just being an obedient side hoe you're not different you're just

00:28:08.700 trying to be different and it's just corny yes you do want flowers goofy to think i'm i'm childish and

00:28:15.180 immature like i can get myself home like what i was like really out here like kicking it with grown

00:28:25.100 men at 19 leaving at three in the morning like oh it's cool like oh you're blaming the grown men

00:28:32.140 you were 19 you weren't that young why were you 19 doing that why were you doing that are you not

00:28:38.060 responsible for any decisions when i was 19 i wasn't doing stupid like that i wasn't

00:28:42.540 fucking college doing dumber shit i could just take the train

00:28:48.380 sir you have a salary um i am in college and like honestly i was a child that clearly shows i was a

00:28:56.460 child and i consider anything under 21 a child and it's not to infantilize any of y'all or like

00:29:02.940 young people in general but it's because we can't go from being in high school one semester then going

00:29:07.740 through summer break and then the next semester all right so when she was 19 40 year old men she

00:29:13.100 thought she was really grown up an adult and she was looking down at all the guys in college and now

00:29:20.220 now she's a child because she's making a video about it 10 years later start college and all of a

00:29:24.780 sudden you're expected to like understand how to navigate adult relationships like that makes

00:29:28.860 absolutely no sex it wasn't an adult relationship what up let me beat you a chest come on i'm

00:29:33.980 streaming bro chill out yes people would tell me to i was so mature and so wise and looking back on

00:29:40.460 it like i was pretty smart but i was hold up matt yeah let me finish this reaction real quick

00:29:52.540 he's also very good at noticing what people wanted from me and and playing

00:29:56.220 pussy into that and i still managed to keep my weirdness i was an artist with unconventional

00:30:01.500 no one gave a about your artists no one not one of those guys that you gave a

00:30:05.740 about your paintings bro they're like oh whoa can i have head now

00:30:11.260 the tastes and beliefs and and i thought that that made it so i wasn't actually giving people what

00:30:16.540 they wanted like the other girls that i was actually being myself you see how many more people would

00:30:22.540 rather watch me play chess than hear another word of this fucking bitch bro sorry this queen

00:30:28.700 but she put a trigger warning in the title of this she put a trigger warning to say she got

00:30:33.500 when she was 19. what what what's the trigger

00:30:43.420 um and i still fell prey to older folks telling me i was so mature and like here's the thing because that

00:30:48.540 worked that's how that you're like am i here's some pussy about maturity let's get into it there's

00:30:54.700 no such thing as a mature child that is an oxymoron you're 19 you're legally not a child stop being

00:31:01.260 a victim bro i'm tired of these bitches victimizing themselves every fucking city

00:31:08.060 i'm a literal child 19

00:31:12.060 only bitches like pop smoke died like two months after that no one calls pop smoke a child

00:31:21.980 there is a there is no such thing as a mature child like it does not exist you can't be mature

00:31:27.660 and a child like that is two opposite things you literally can't do it i think on a lot of cases

00:31:33.500 the mature child at least in my experience you see how bitches start going crazy like when their body

00:31:38.220 count goes up like yeah we say don't slut shame and everything and then bitches say like it's just

00:31:42.540 my health phase and she was like riding the train in college going fucking all these old men and she

00:31:46.700 thought she was being really independent stuff but this is what i'm saying like when bitches need to

00:31:50.140 keep their body count down because then you start going fucking crazy bro she's like making a trigger

00:31:56.700 warning video essay about all the dicks she took in college bro she she's calling herself a victim

00:32:02.060 child because she got fucked in college

00:32:09.580 and now she's nuts this is what happens bro she can't let this experience all the men who

00:32:14.060 fucked the shit out of her already moved on probably oh yeah remember that bitch i

00:32:17.820 fucked 20 years ago and she's there like and bringing up books and shit to try and victimizing

00:32:25.260 herself to get past her body count she's just a hoe she's just though and i'll play chess after the

00:32:31.740 stream bro we need to hear the rest of this hobo this is so funny bro in my case i didn't even know

00:32:38.140 this going into this reaction i genuinely thought it was going to be like a good story time i was

00:32:42.940 traumatized by some experiences growing up i was traumatized and i didn't have space to process those

00:32:48.140 emotions to process those emotions and i turned quite cold like to not deal with the emotions i learned

00:32:54.620 to rationalize my feelings away or my feelings and then i got older and approached my mid-20s and realized

00:33:00.620 that though i understood a lot of human behavior a lot of abstract concepts shut up as a girl just

00:33:06.060 donated as a woman she's speaking from trauma thank you for the five it's unfair a lot of people blame

00:33:11.100 men instead of saying she wants a date but hopefully she'll grow out of it yeah she's blaming men because

00:33:16.700 she she got fucking used up in college and now she's a victim bro it's just it's not trauma it's not

00:33:24.140 trauma it's your decision making stupid you're 19 you're a grown adult stop victimizing yourself

00:33:30.620 calling yourself a child men don't get the same excuses you're excusing yourself because like i was

00:33:35.340 so i didn't know better and they called me mature they ran game on you and you fell for a dummy

00:33:40.700 like i'm sick of this bro i'm so sick of this very emotionally immature in so many regards and

00:33:46.140 i had neglected so many parts of my beings my emotions my spirit my self-esteem my spirit does

00:33:53.420 not make any sense like i read a lot of books i read a lot of the situations in front of me

00:33:59.740 personality wise i have always been a thinker but yeah talk to any wise child a lot of the time their

00:34:06.300 maturity is literally they are so unfortunately self-aware they're hiding parts of themselves

00:34:13.100 without realizing to not be she took this is the two took too many regrettable dicks that didn't

00:34:18.780 give a out of you laugh bro because don't want a whole phase you don't stop hoeing around it look

00:34:25.580 at look what it does to you you don't want it you want a good look at it she's going nuts read a lot of

00:34:31.900 books i've read books a lot of the situations in front of me personality wise i have always been

00:34:37.660 a thinker because they are so unfortunately self-aware

00:34:52.700 moral story stop your whole phase ho they're hiding parts of themselves without realizing to

00:35:02.060 not be a burden to those around them because like think about it like they see the hard times the

00:35:07.740 adults in their time their lives are having and when you're young you only like your world is

00:35:12.460 literally only you you think okay i must be the actual problem so let me like change my behavior

00:35:18.780 and then like adults around you are like yo doing good kid and you're like all right cool suppression

00:35:23.820 is definitely the way to go think of the young kids that have to process a parent or siblings i

00:35:29.420 mean shout out my little sister um their complex emotions for them and what they pull from that

00:35:35.340 situation this is this is what this is what y'all should do stop trying to talk and make a podcast

00:35:40.460 just do this just shout out your little sister and you put on a costume this is what makes you smile

00:35:47.420 shout out my love that's the happiest you've been the whole video just do that stop trying to be

00:35:52.220 smart you're not a thinker they're um they're complex not not all women her she's not like as

00:35:59.100 deep as she thinks she is she read a couple books and is repeating stuff she said in therapy emotions

00:36:03.260 for them and what they pull from that situation like a lot of people vent and rant to their kid and

00:36:08.780 i get it but like they don't understand what you're talking about they're just copying what you're saying

00:36:13.820 and of course it's an oversimplification based on my experience like i am not a child psychologist i

00:36:18.300 think that's understood but i would say that childhood what i say about the therapy i

00:36:23.820 fucking knew it it's just like she's just echoing therapy words and it doesn't really help her you

00:36:27.420 see like she's still talking in therapy you can tell people need therapy from too much therapy dead

00:36:33.900 ass bro uh lstream lstream lstream therapy is overrated in my opinion i'm tired of hearing these

00:36:38.380 people like yeah like kind of like i told my therapist like you could just tell when they do that

00:36:42.780 shit too much man what up yeah come get him yo bro they started geeking out when you said let's

00:36:49.020 play come in bro you're not interrupting anything they they started freaking out like you you still

00:36:53.740 want to play chess yeah yo gang what's up man what happened to the freestyle yo let me get a shirt or

00:37:02.940 sign these are samples chill out we got a shirt or sign take uh everything white tea is fire bro no not

00:37:13.180 yet not yet after the stream after the stream i'm gonna cut you i'm gonna stop reacting

00:37:18.620 all right tomorrow tomorrow we'll play chess i'm gonna cut you where you think you're going home

00:37:22.060 yeah bro okay i gotta work tomorrow don't tell you shut up bro but you're acting like i'm going to smoke

00:37:28.300 smoke and sweet damn bro all right sorry sorry

00:37:41.100 you see my airpods there

00:37:44.380 chad you saw his airpods he needs his airpods who's chad bro chat chat's right in front of me

00:37:49.420 what are you talking about i don't know there's 2200 people here really yeah and you in here looking

00:37:54.780 for your airpods there's 2200 people waiting for me to continue my reaction look and we're here

00:37:59.500 looking for your airpods right now you said therapy or overrated bro therapy's overrated it really is

00:38:04.780 why is therapy overrated i'm not gonna sit there and just talk to somebody about my

00:38:08.780 fucking problems yeah i know but like men need to open up about our insecurities more

00:38:12.780 don't you think men should be more open and honest bro you could literally understand what your

00:38:16.940 problems are by yourself you do not need somebody to consult you about your own personal problem

00:38:22.140 why not it's not good and healthy so what look i was once told that when you go to therapy right

00:38:27.500 you go to somebody for therapy it's particularly like so they teach you how to understand your

00:38:33.180 problem they help you to come to an understand of how you could you know solve certain things

00:38:37.900 of how you could possibly handle certain situations yeah yeah but it's the same thing you could do for

00:38:42.860 yourself yeah look if you sit in a room think you know you analyze the situation and do all that other

00:38:49.100 shit that they do with you what the fuck you're your own fucking therapy bro like you don't need you

00:38:54.460 don't need you don't need that shit from my perspective bro i don't got a therapy people you don't think

00:38:59.020 you're a toxic male you should really like work on your feelings i think you might be a hyper masculine

00:39:04.060 insecure man you think i'm insecure i think you're suppressing a lot of your toxic male insecurities

00:39:09.180 i think you're problematic problematic regarding what i think you've been hurt

00:39:14.140 you think i've been hurt before i'm just saying what bitches say bro i'm just saying what bitches

00:39:17.500 oh really yes that's what they all say when you say you don't like therapy no i've never been hurt

00:39:22.380 before you've never been toxic i'm not talking too i'm not i don't think i i don't at least i

00:39:28.380 don't think i do haitians cheat you know say suck my say real quick there's got to be a couple

00:39:32.540 haitians this bitch if there's 2 000 people here it's like passing losing it takes like 20 seconds

00:39:37.660 they'll say you they'll see if it comes up oh yeah but why don't you think uh you think that men

00:39:41.980 don't need to go to therapy at all what about women should women go to therapy yeah women definitely

00:39:49.900 women definitely need therapy because yeah yeah yeah yeah but men you could probably figure that

00:39:54.380 out for yourself right probably unless you really need it oh we got a couple suck by say really we

00:39:59.500 got a couple nabouleh we got a couple people saying this is pre-recorded look at this they cursing

00:40:05.820 what do you say yeah get your mother that's what they just said yeah that's what that means get mama yeah like

00:40:11.420 you don't know what that mean bro no i never heard that like get my mom like all right well jack

00:40:16.140 cleese oh his name is jack cristo that's haitian as fuck man

00:40:20.460 you fuck with me what are you supposed to say that jack cristo you're my cc

00:40:26.700 joshiko is the biggest my cc in the chat saying fuck my mother

00:40:30.460 my cousin's name was cristo that's not funny man all right back to this bitch

00:40:37.580 i was psychologist i think that's understood but i would say that childhood is the only time in your

00:40:44.300 life where you're fully present i don't hear anything you hear anything

00:40:48.060 yeah i think i got the most toxic child i've ever seen in a stream this shit mad funny though

00:40:59.980 in your body in your space where you're motivated to play run sing dance you speak you're full of love

00:41:05.340 and life and have yet to know fear to meet fear yet for a lot of us this bubble has popped super early

00:41:11.740 on and it is what it is like a lot

00:41:22.620 i'll have phones chat i'll have phones for real for real

00:41:28.700 a lot of us don't have communities to grow up in adults to protect us and sometimes just freak

00:41:34.460 accidents happen but a mature child does not exist to me and a side note a child is a hundred percent of

00:41:40.540 the burden it is what it is like take away the not negative connotation from from burden

00:41:45.260 there is no negative connotation in relation to the word burden if you don't like it don't

00:41:49.660 have a kid sucks to suck and you as a child or young adult need to stop feeling bad for

00:41:54.940 depending on the other people in your life and the adults in your life bro you see you see what

00:41:58.540 just happened like females if you're still here i was just vibing with my friend like just

00:42:04.380 and then as soon as i pressed play all the joy was just sucked out didn't you feel that chat

00:42:09.020 just like our energy shift from like fun having fun to you need to go

00:42:15.180 because literally you did not ask for this it isn't your job to carry the weight of you being

00:42:21.020 raised like i mean like in a perfect world of course a lot of us were put into positions where

00:42:25.740 we were literally like the adult literally as children hence the mature my trauma like if you're

00:42:30.780 at a point in your life where you could let that go a little bit like do not feel bad for me tim dogen

00:42:35.260 i've seen you spam is the stream fake no it's not how the would you think the stream is fake i've

00:42:39.340 been responding to chat this whole time stupid thank you for the two dollars being a burden like

00:42:43.420 literally what else is a child if not a burden what else is a child like i don't know i think a lot

00:42:49.100 of people will try to make you feel bad and then we'll try to make it seem like a kid is better than

00:42:53.020 the other because they're so mature no they they just learned how to shut the up they just learned how to

00:42:58.220 not speak and that's a bad thing okay whoo i just turned 26th of september um shout out to all my

00:43:08.780 virgos a fun fact about me by the way a little tangent me and beyonce have the same birthday

00:43:13.500 september 4th gang where you at i'm either oh god and astrology about to come up is she gonna say virgo

00:43:18.460 next bro she's talking about birthday please please it's just just just just just just this is what

00:43:24.620 this is what this is what women women women women for the women watching this the most happy she's

00:43:29.420 been this whole video we're about 20 minutes in she talked about trauma for a good fucking the whole

00:43:33.740 time and then she went shout out to my sister and then one more time let's see how she reacted to

00:43:40.060 beyonce one more time and then let's see her talk about astrology right after because i didn't i

00:43:44.140 didn't watch this i'm just saying about me by the way a little tangent me and beyonce have the

00:43:48.620 same birthday september 4th gang where you at i'm either destined to succeed or i'm destined to

00:43:53.260 always compare myself to her and her birthday and think about how i never did show in my life

00:43:57.420 but it's still an honor shout out the queen all right i just turned 26 l l l l l fuck didn't get

00:44:04.220 the virgo thank you for the time where she got to go for real nope nope nope sorry sorry she's a

00:44:11.900 queen and we're gonna hear her trauma and a lot of hardening of my frontal lobe like shout out to

00:44:19.180 more solid decision making two dollars for chicano vita she responded i didn't even finish my reaction

00:44:29.980 oh she did say it she did say the virgo thing oh okay so w where the

00:44:33.580 fuck she already responded what's her name uh monica hernandez how did you guys already

00:44:38.060 see that are you capping right now i hope she didn't go after my family

00:44:46.940 that's the l she went after my family yo oh she said virgo all right see w chat w w on the virgo

00:44:53.580 i can take that you feel me predictable bitches number all right sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry all

00:44:57.980 women are unique and different and they all have really interesting separate personalities where is um

00:45:03.900 um let's look at her trauma on instagram thanks sophie um well first where did she does me chat on

00:45:11.180 twitter what are you talking are you trolling me y'all trolling me

00:45:19.260 fuck i got trolled right all right it i got trolled where did she dis me samuel stop saying the

00:45:26.700 stream feels fake it's not fake i see your chat i see you it's not fake you're fake

00:45:30.300 where is this bitch you guys are lying to me and i just fell for it oh my god i gotta stop reading

00:45:38.540 the chat i just gotta stop reading the chat shout out to like fixing my personality in place like

00:45:43.820 i'm finally a full queen um and i like promise you i don't know what happened to you i don't know if it

00:45:49.580 was the the the absolute crushing of my self-esteem during the pandemic that left me helpless with nothing

00:45:57.580 just just just okay bro bro i'm trying to find the desk oh she's live y'all just capping you're our

00:46:03.180 captain bro now y'all let's go on but just one more time what did what did she just say what

00:46:11.260 what was that what was that fine oh the the absolute crushing of my self-esteem look how happy she's

00:46:21.580 talking about the crushing of my body and soul and i'm such a victim during the pandemic that

00:46:27.580 left me left me literally helpless with nothing because it's in the middle of a nothing and i'm a

00:46:35.420 victim stupid idiot thing to hold on to that made something wash over me that made me realize like hold

00:46:41.900 up i need to grow up or if it's the hardening of my front solo i think they like went hand in hand and

00:46:48.700 did that for me so shout out turning 26 because i've realized some things and that's that's what

00:46:55.420 what like prompted this whole video what i realized is men are full of crap um and here's the thing

00:47:00.860 this isn't i hate all men men are full of crap this i'm so glad i clicked this video but i'm youtube

00:47:11.260 nothing and i'm literally a victim in the middle of a pandemic

00:47:15.100 all right it's the chat said she dissed me in an earlier video i'm gonna watch that right after

00:47:20.540 see this is what i'm saying man i know my target audience man i know my target audience this is

00:47:27.500 um if this does not apply to you blessings king like salute you you a real one don't i don't need

00:47:33.980 you in the comments saying not all men like we all know not all men anytime anyone talks crap oh my god

00:47:39.340 get to the point get to the point get to the point and like are we supposed to like split the like the

00:47:43.340 human population right seven billion cut it in half three and a half billion from those three and

00:47:47.820 a half billion billion we're gonna come up with a comprehensive list of names what's the point

00:47:51.660 someone get the spreadsheet ready of who is and who isn't included in every single conversation when

00:47:57.340 we say men in general like y'all love to forget how like how like communication works and how like

00:48:02.700 speaking in general works when it like it doesn't suit you anytime y'all talk anything about women i'm

00:48:08.140 not just gonna be like um not all women i'll be like yo some women not me oh good luck though so

00:48:15.420 let's move on okay so 26 made me realize men suck and like and then uh i i need to hold people more

00:48:21.820 men suck women you still in here so now this is uh new developments for the video men suck age 26 she

00:48:31.580 realized men suck all right um because her storytelling is so great she's just so

00:48:40.780 enjoyable to listen to and everyone here loves her personality and hasn't been skipping spamming

00:48:47.420 skipped the whole time but men suck now i'm intrigued accountable kind of way something else that i

00:48:53.980 realized with turning 26 is how young a 20 year old is you may be 20 right now 21 22 23 whatever you

00:49:02.060 may not see it you may understand this in theory that you're young but you've yet to experience like

00:49:07.580 the change in mindset that washes over you somehow in your mid-20s and like in experiencing this change

00:49:14.780 it also makes me look forward to like my 30s and my 40s and like all of that because while things

00:49:20.380 in my life are very difficult right now chad doesn't she sound like therapy can't you hear

00:49:26.940 the therapy in her more difficult than they've ever been i've never found myself as clear in my

00:49:32.300 values and my motives as i am now and let's be also clear i loved my late teens and 20s did you i

00:49:39.580 thought you were a fucking victim of getting fucked in by old guys and now you loved it i thought you were

00:49:43.500 you put a trigger warning for your teens and now you're in love i am team b20 and make mistakes i am team

00:49:49.500 20 but not 19 19 you're a child i'm like when i say 20 i mean all the years surrounding i am team

00:49:54.700 have the best time of your life right during that time because i even though i was the most depressed

00:50:00.140 oh my god i've probably been except for right now oh my god bro such a victim i look back at that

00:50:05.660 time and i'm just like yo i was fearless i really hot like i really was out did you make it no sense

00:50:12.060 bro you were fearless but also a victim you were fearless but also depressed you were fearless but

00:50:18.540 getting fucked by all the guys and getting manipulated and you were also you were fearless

00:50:22.620 but a child it's just you make no absolutely no sense bro absolutely no sense and she's speaking

00:50:31.340 like i've never been this at the same time if i call her unhappy i guarantee you she made a video

00:50:35.980 like you guys maybe want me to respond to that saying like becoming a hater and everything judging me

00:50:39.660 she also said she's depressed right now so what the fuck are you in any position to say anything

00:50:45.020 about anyone and to say that men suck or that you know about life if you're depressed

00:50:50.140 she legitimately makes absolutely no sense someone said she got she's just she's saying positive

00:50:56.380 affirmations and just repeating stuff she said in therapy she's making no fucking sense and you're

00:51:02.540 saying it's boring you're saying skip but i just want you to hear how little sense women make when they

00:51:07.900 talk alone bro here like it was really really cool like i was it was the most creative i ever was i just

00:51:15.260 entered so many spaces with such an open mind and heart and look enjoy your moment don't let any old

00:51:22.460 head make you feel bad for being who you are in this moment like really live your 20s and now that i've said

00:51:28.460 that enjoy your 20s girl i also have to tell you older folks are definitely preying on you as we speak

00:51:35.820 there is no way on god's greener someone that is 15 years your senior who is trying to court you

00:51:42.460 is a good man like let's be completely real he's not trying to court you trying to fuck you because

00:51:47.100 here's the thing here's the thing humans are social creatures and we measure growth or one of the ways

00:51:52.060 in which we measure growth is in relation to each other so men suck and she's bait you know what i'm

00:51:57.020 saying like now she's about to talk about like how men suck because she realized when she was 26 how

00:52:02.220 it was weird that she was fucking guys in their 40s when she was 19 and she's okay what she's doing

00:52:07.180 when you do that you don't take any responsibility for yourself you make conscious decisions to do that

00:52:11.420 on a regular basis you got fucked and you just told the whole internet that you got fucked on a regular

00:52:15.500 basis in college

00:52:16.220 fuck what is features and we measure growth or one of the ways in which we measure growth is in

00:52:26.060 relations human is a good man like let's yeah and she's saying that men suck men aren't good

00:52:33.100 the because just based off the guy she fucks you see what i'm saying women don't understand men at all

00:52:39.740 this bitch is 26 and making a 50 minute video about her realizations and all it is is that the guys that

00:52:45.500 dicked her down aren't good people you don't know men you just know the guys that fucked you

00:52:51.500 and yet that doesn't represent all men are creepy you just were fucking with older guys obviously

00:52:57.660 you're gonna think guys are creepy if you're only fucking with creepy guys stupid bro i'm just so

00:53:02.380 tired of them all saying exactly the same thing i'm not gonna go on a yelling red pill rant but these

00:53:07.180 bitches make no fucking sense bro no fucking sense bro let's be completely real because here's the

00:53:13.100 thing here's the thing humans are social creatures and we measure growth or one of the ways in which

00:53:17.820 we measure growth is in relation to each other so if you got a 40 year old boyfriend what do you

00:53:22.620 think his 40 year old women counterparts his peers think of him kicking it with your 20 year old self

00:53:28.220 they're jealous because you're hotter than the 40 year old women like society has this way of making

00:53:34.300 older women seem evil and jealous and bitter like they are because they can't get pregnant anymore they are

00:53:39.420 jealous and bitter that's what happens when you get single when you're single and 40 you are

00:53:44.140 oh and when you're a woman single and 40 you're by definition bitter because you're not married and

00:53:48.780 taken yet villainous like think of fairy tales like the disney ones of old witch ladies think of

00:53:56.300 fairy tales bro your reference to relationship is disney okay just i'm just gonna let it talk i'm just

00:54:01.420 gonna let it i can't okay so i'm sorry sorry like the disney ones of old witch ladies and how

00:54:07.820 malicious and and full of resentment they are over the beauty of a young woman like that's what they're

00:54:13.180 trying to steal from them like think of that story that's literally how we depict older women we reject

00:54:19.740 women once they leave the purity of girlhood once life has left them marked once they've had experiences

00:54:26.540 have given their hearts and bodies to others society pits women and girls against each other

00:54:32.140 and girls when they're young don't realize that there comes the day where they become the same

00:54:37.420 woman she's gonna be the same better bitch too because you know what you did when you was young and

00:54:41.260 hot you was fucking guys for free and riding the train home

00:54:46.460 you used up your peak years riding the train home

00:54:49.420 fucking men twice your age thinking you were mature and now you regret it so you're going insane

00:54:55.180 and you're talking about how terrible men are in podcasts and on in therapy

00:54:59.100 instead of taking responsibility for your actions and maybe you shouldn't have been a dumb hoe in

00:55:03.820 college maybe you should have been looking for a boyfriend maybe you should have been sticking to

00:55:06.860 the guys in your school but you're not taking any responsibility and this is why the men in this

00:55:11.660 chat get bitter because they see you picking the the top men the alpha high value men and they're just

00:55:17.980 using you up and now you're crazy and now the same guy that you were ignoring back in college

00:55:23.100 probably is making more money now and is on his shit and is looking at you like you're just a dumb

00:55:27.340 painting hoe and society is conditioning us to see us so different from ourselves

00:55:32.540 you will become the woman that you right now resent consciously or subconsciously that you right now

00:55:38.540 look back like look down on there is no denying your fate you will always become her so it benefits

00:55:45.980 you to start befriending her girl befriend your future old hoe because it's really like it's gonna

00:55:52.380 help you a lot do not try to escape aging you're only going to live a life of pain it's quite

00:55:58.860 beautiful despite the way the media blames it ride that boat girl it's a good one and men like old men

00:56:05.500 be out here like oh he's rugged he's weathered he's had experiences he's so wise and then women that are

00:56:10.460 old and have done a lot is just like they're washed up because you can't get pregnant anymore and men can get

00:56:16.220 women pregnant for our whole lives pretty much our sperm doesn't stop our sperm doesn't age out

00:56:21.180 your eggs do though it is what it is yo she's bad whatever and and like i don't think it's also solely

00:56:29.660 just like we strictly like resent women i think a lot of us have also trauma from a parent trauma we

00:56:35.580 mistrust women around this like society has changed so fast that a lot of us have this feeling towards

00:56:41.340 our elders that they're going to judge us both men and women like i feel that like it feels like

00:56:46.540 they don't understand what's going on like technology is moving so fast like they're not going to get

00:56:51.980 us there's this generational divide all this culture shock especially if you're an immigrant like me

00:56:57.420 but here's the thing as far as general human interaction goes like power dynamics abuse it's all

00:57:04.060 existed for as long as we have had the same human brain oh god bro you you know why she has so

00:57:11.020 much fucking and she has no just you know why she has so much confidence saying all this nonsense

00:57:16.140 it's because she said it all in therapy chat people in the chat are like what the

00:57:19.980 fuck is she talking about she said all this shit to her therapist and she thinks it's like epic

00:57:24.220 realizations and it's just like it's just well a lot of people think it is man this has mad views

00:57:31.580 it's got mad views bro she's like 200 000 years so basically it's all the same girl if if his older

00:57:40.460 women like if his equals if his peers if the same people from his same age group find him weird i

00:57:47.180 promise you girl run run and what gave me so much clarity about this was looking back on how immature

00:57:56.300 i was in my late teens and 20s i really thought i was mature by the way but how immature i in reality

00:58:01.980 was i see young folks now and i honestly cannot fathom how a grown adult man can have a functional

00:58:07.580 relationship with a child like you can't you literally a child

00:58:13.980 a child she keeps she's gonna keep saying that bro she was in college you're a grown person

00:58:21.420 take some accountability i'm so tired the power imbalance it's gonna be so good when i react to her

00:58:27.660 hate video on me man ah great you can't even go to a bar with this girl in the states you talking about

00:58:33.500 impactful things that that have happened to you girl when it's stories from high school you think

00:58:38.060 about homework classes and professors you have no stable income no career nothing to fall back on oh

00:58:44.700 god it's just her voice hurts it's painful painful to listen to you women are you still here

00:58:52.860 are you still in the chat like are you hearing this is what you sound like this is what you sound like

00:59:05.180 professors you have no stable income no career nothing to fall back on you have no assets you

00:59:12.540 why why does she talk like a tweet bro i do this voice ironically you need to take a man oh god

00:59:22.940 fuck fuck fuck imagine imagine dating imagine living with her imagine marrying her

00:59:33.500 fuck thank you for the 20 denzel you finally made it to one of these live bro i'm sorry this is gonna

00:59:39.180 be a painful rest like we're barely halfway through do you see chat they're miserable my whole chat is

00:59:46.540 miserable right now monica you're you're you're hurting ears you have like not lived alone to fall

00:59:54.620 back on you have no assets you have no career nothing to fall back on you have no assets you have like

01:00:03.340 not lived alone yet you you don't even like you like girl and here's the thing live in that moment

01:00:11.260 being with some older man will make you feel like you got a rush to grow up girl it is not a race

01:00:16.700 this man has been having sexual intercourse with girls for as long as you have been alive

01:00:23.900 if you are 20 and he is 40 when you were zero he was 20.

01:00:29.020 oh god oh my god oh my god holy

01:00:37.820 when you were zero he was 20. therefore for the entirety of your life he has been

01:00:44.220 doing this essentially and he's still doing it like that's a little odd like let's really unpack that

01:00:50.140 and i'm not saying that to make any young woman feel bad because i was that young woman too

01:00:55.420 i will never place blame on a girl even if she's saying explicitly at the top of her lungs i want

01:01:00.300 this i want this i want this like you don't realize what you're doing it's you see you see what she's

01:01:05.900 doing this is woman advice right now she's saying she knows better than younger girls and she's not

01:01:11.580 gonna correct them one more time one more time so you hear it man so you hear it this video if you

01:01:16.700 don't if you're not red pill this video will do it i want this i want this i want this like you don't

01:01:22.700 realize what you're doing it's not your fault you

01:01:29.660 want this i want this like you don't realize what you're doing it's not your fault

01:01:35.660 you will never win with these hoes bro you will never win you thought you got some

01:01:41.340 pussy 10 years ago and then 10 years later she's making a trigger warning video about you

01:01:46.940 you thought it was cool she was just hey i'm getting some easy pushy she's taking the train

01:01:52.220 and oh shit i triggered her she's traumatized because they don't they can't take responsibility

01:01:58.860 you see what i'm saying she's saying she knows better and she would not even give the advice to

01:02:03.340 younger girls because it's not your fault you don't know better she'll have put this whole

01:02:09.980 paragraph in the beginning of the video talking about how like women are just seen as objects and

01:02:15.180 they always need to blah blah blah but then she'll also say that i don't know any better

01:02:22.700 it's not my fault for my decisions so are you an object or not if you're not responsible for

01:02:29.820 your actions then who is men so be so be an object or don't are you too stupid to make decisions or not

01:02:37.100 you can't be both at the same time because now you're not making no fucking sense

01:02:45.340 you have never placed blame on a girl even if she's saying explicitly at the top of her lungs i

01:02:50.220 want this i want this i want this like you don't realize what you're doing it's not your fault you

01:02:55.900 have only been on this earth for such a long such a short time you don't see the consequences like

01:03:00.620 yeah bro but then men get sent to jail when they're 16 for like you know robbing a store

01:03:05.300 then you're responsible for your action you know they don't call you a child then

01:03:10.060 men get locked up at 18 for like a dime bag of weed bro this shit is stupid as fuck man

01:03:18.340 i'm tired of this fucking mentality and this is where the anger comes from because then

01:03:22.840 these bitches don't think that they can take any responsibility or any accountability for any of

01:03:27.280 the shit they do and then it falls on me it falls on me it's my fault

01:03:32.200 but they still want the same power as a man and none of the accountability fuck that man 26 years

01:03:39.680 old saying nonsense they play out you don't know what's around any of the corners yet like something

01:03:44.700 about your 20s your 20s are literally about firsts there's so many firsts in your 20 from your first

01:03:50.860 job to your first apartment so maybe your first left yeah if you're a bitch and you could just run

01:03:55.760 around fucking people on the train if you're a dude a lot of us need to provide a lot of us need

01:03:59.680 to start paying for our families and like you can't just like go around saying i'm 29 i just tried

01:04:05.360 it because i wanted to what what bro your first major heartbreak so many firsts that's why it's such a

01:04:13.880 difficult time period and that's why it also like blows my mind that like older ass people love to get

01:04:20.380 with kids essentially because it's just like you know they are vulnerable and here's the thing no

01:04:25.860 they're hotter dummy and they're not fucking crazy like you because the bitches that were hot at 19 to

01:04:31.980 23 end up like you when they get fucked through when everybody starts fucking and they end up insane

01:04:38.780 so they try the older guys and i'm 23 i'm speaking for older men as if i know but i'm just saying the

01:04:44.680 older guys are fucking younger girls because the women their age are all insane and talk like you

01:04:49.260 and talk about trauma and therapy like maybe they just want to have a little bit of fun all the girls

01:04:54.980 their age are used up and they don't see you for you they see you and they see nobody bro bitches just

01:05:03.780 they don't see you for you we just want some pussy shut up and they like that and they like how naive you

01:05:10.700 are and they'll placate you and listen to you with a smile thinking about how naive you are

01:05:15.560 and how cute it is and how free and full of life you are and they envy that they envy your freedom

01:05:21.240 and you were a happy participant of it you were the other half so you're talking about as it was this

01:05:28.440 disgusting thing they took advantage of me no they didn't you just don't know how to make decisions

01:05:32.480 properly want that they want to possess that they want to be the one that leaves their mark on you

01:05:37.900 and they know what they're doing stop rationalizing it by saying i'm actually so smart and wise and

01:05:44.200 mature you're not you're absolutely not i remember side note we're going to go on a little tangent

01:05:51.140 personal anecdote time when i was in a situation with someone that was like 16 17 years older than me

01:05:57.400 it was very short-lived thank god but i remember um he got really weird i was late to go to to go hang

01:06:04.680 out with him i was 19 at the time he got really weird i was like late i was coming i'm a victim

01:06:09.280 i'm a victim and he called me it was just like yo and i was like oh i'm just walking to the train

01:06:14.400 right now he was just like you know because i was by the time i was walking to the train i was already

01:06:19.000 supposed to be there he was just like didn't we talk about your lateness and i was like talk about

01:06:24.860 my lateness talk about my lateness like it he made it sound like we had had this conversation

01:06:32.000 where it was like he was joking around trying to be funny stupid he was joking don't be late like

01:06:36.760 also it's like you're not my god he was flirting with you tell me weird like we literally talked

01:06:41.020 about how i i literally talked about how i'd be late but it's like i'm coming over like it's not

01:06:45.260 like we have like an event that's beside the point he's calling me to reprimand me i immediately was

01:06:50.880 like i don't like this at all never spoke to him again wait till she doesn't get any attention

01:06:55.640 from any men and how crazy like bro when she stops losing attention completely now she's like

01:07:01.160 and i'm an object and it's disgusting wait till she loses the attention man i'm ready for that essay

01:07:05.860 wait till you age out i went and pulled up to a friend who was uh hanging out with an older woman

01:07:11.720 for some work um they were like shooting and stuff and i remember getting there and explaining my

01:07:17.540 situation and just being like yo this happened to me like and the older woman and she wasn't even

01:07:23.120 that much older i think maybe she was like 30 tops you know what i mean she looked at me and i

01:07:27.560 never forgot what she said she said you think this is okay right now but you're gonna look back

01:07:33.320 and feel so lucky you got out of that and you didn't listen you kept taking dick stupid and now

01:07:37.740 you aged out and you know why she didn't listen to her advice is because she was still getting the

01:07:41.520 attention and then when the attention wore off and she started to get 26 and uh-oh that clock is

01:07:47.300 ticking now she makes this video oh i got chills

01:07:52.000 and drink your shit that shit is real yeah and she kept taking the dick

01:08:02.800 she's got chills from hearing that oh my god you're so right i'm still gonna fuck him though

01:08:09.780 like i really was like she was just like she saw that she was just like oh like she saw that

01:08:16.680 and i couldn't see it and knowing that i couldn't see it i've always i've always been good at like

01:08:22.900 one of the things i will say about myself despite how immature and naive i was i i do i am lucky that

01:08:29.440 my temperament has always been like all right this sucks right now but i'm doing this for future me

01:08:34.280 yeah and hearing her say that i only had to hear it once i didn't even fully understand i fully

01:08:41.220 couldn't grasp it wasn't until like literally like a year or two ago yeah a year or two ago

01:08:45.300 she still kept taking a dick though a year or two ago she turned 25 oh now i'm not getting the attention

01:08:51.800 from the same guys that's how long it took to click and that's why she's not giving the same advice to

01:08:57.000 younger girls is because girls don't want to take advice girls don't need to self-improve i understand

01:09:02.840 there's a lot of these dudes watching like the the fucking who need to self-improve and want to be

01:09:06.680 the best they can be women don't have to women don't have to you can coast off of a man you can

01:09:11.080 coast off a man who's adonis so you don't need to take advice you don't need to tell anything you

01:09:16.760 don't need to improve you could do self-care and shower and just whatever just fucking disney movie

01:09:22.640 look at stars or whatever the fuck watch murder documentaries and not improve you don't have to and

01:09:27.180 you're not going to take advice because you don't want to improve you'll just want to find a man who

01:09:30.840 makes you feel better it makes you feel like you did improve and i was just like no that's what

01:09:36.180 she meant like trust us trust us for real it's weird don't do it yeah how do you feel let the people

01:09:45.860 know how do you feel she thinks this is comedy

01:09:50.760 the patriarchy you feel bad about the patriarchy girl me too the three times she smiled in this

01:09:59.240 video was uh sis my sister's halloween beyonce doggie the rest of it when she was talking and thinking

01:10:07.980 but doggie beyonce halloween just do that just do my point is just be a girl stop trying to be a guy

01:10:20.240 just be a girl doggie patriarchy and just stop stop

01:10:28.460 how much of this how much of this did she think we think she's cute why did you put this in

01:10:47.620 listen listen listen listen real close to this noise because this is what it like you're gonna

01:10:56.740 hear this is what you're gonna hear all the time when you if you marry her there's a guy out here

01:11:00.560 he's like oh i could fix her get used to this

01:11:03.540 you just wanna be free i just wanna be free oh

01:11:09.760 fuck

01:11:24.120 coming the bad guy all right all right all right all right

01:11:30.560 let's continue so what's giving me all this clarity on this as i've said i've arrived at 26

01:11:35.740 and what sucks the most is the self-work you have to do like self-care self-work grounding myself

01:11:43.900 and having a self-care day with a four-day week because i need traumatized time for my time really

01:11:51.480 start to realize you need to grow up and not and not grow up in the sense of like

01:11:55.280 like buck up kiddo and get a job not even that because like i'm an artist like in that sense

01:12:00.500 i'm really not gonna grow up in that traditional sense like i'm never gonna like

01:12:03.540 like grow up in that sense growing up actually sucks but what i mean

01:12:07.540 is that you have to grow up and start taking accountability for your actions

01:12:11.120 no no no no wait chad i'm glad i'm glad we didn't click away because no way no way she really she

01:12:28.980 really she really she just she just said the the magic a but what i mean is that you have to grow up

01:12:39.720 and start taking accountability

01:12:40.880 you see how she makes no fucking sense do you see women women women i'm not gonna do

01:12:51.240 this is when i would usually yell and get real and be like this mate this bitch is fucking dumb

01:12:56.120 i would just go on a rant but i just want to like politely explain do you see how y'all make

01:13:01.120 no fucking sense she just called herself a child five years ago when what age do you start taking

01:13:10.160 accountability then you see how that makes app women where are you where are you where are you

01:13:15.720 the chat i need to read some of your takes bro holy fuck holy fuck you you didn't just say that

01:13:22.220 you didn't just say that

01:13:24.220 accountability word bro accountability now but i'm not gonna yell i'm not yelling it just it just

01:13:33.160 just

01:13:34.220 oh okay for your action it sucks but what i mean is that you have to grow up and start taking

01:13:41.340 accountability for your actions for the way you're affecting people and if you were like me

01:13:46.660 that you've always been so good and positive and see everything like i see everything so clearly

01:13:51.400 i think like you see everything so clearly but oh my god bro it's i didn't i in one video bro

01:14:02.480 how how are you even saying that after all the shit you just said

01:14:09.940 hong kong thanks for the 25 uh my ears bleeding from this video but i'm just i'm trying to how does

01:14:29.060 this make any sense

01:14:30.120 you're gonna like hit this wall where you realize like oh i'm not clearly

01:14:38.120 that you've always been so good and positive and see everything like i see everything so clearly i

01:14:43.620 think like she think how did she see everything clearly when she was getting

01:14:48.100 dicked down by dudes who didn't give a fuck about her for years

01:14:51.320 and then a bitch told you to your face stop being stupid bitch and she's like

01:14:56.980 you know and then realized it years later and now in in the same video she said she sees things

01:15:03.820 clearly

01:15:04.220 you're gonna like hit this wall where you realize like oh i'm actually like i actually suck

01:15:12.720 like i actually am not a good friend sometimes i'm actually not a good girlfriend um it's like

01:15:17.920 i think i have all these good intentions there's a lot that i don't really like notice about myself

01:15:22.680 or that i'm repressing um and you know it i guess this is like the work that everyone talks about

01:15:29.520 when people be like i'm doing the work i hope this is the work because this is like hard work

01:15:33.440 what are you talking about what are you what i'm doing it i guess um but the work it's hard work but

01:15:40.260 it's worth it i do it because i deserve it and honestly i had this revelation a few months ago

01:15:46.860 like i really like saw a different me in the future i i grew up daydream i grew up visualizing

01:15:54.020 like who i was gonna be and a few months ago i saw a different version of myself that terrified me

01:16:01.620 a very real tangible possibility of who i could become if i didn't okay i can't do this i can't

01:16:08.440 but there's gonna be more gold in here bro i don't want to miss gold i don't want to click away

01:16:12.880 and miss some fucking i like reflecting on my own actions if i didn't like you know it's like and

01:16:19.140 it's not even on some like i've been moving blindly until now it's just that that's what happens as you

01:16:24.440 get older you have to like refresh and like rejuvenate the way like your perceptions that and

01:16:30.560 your and the way you're like you just have to like really rethink about all that you've known

01:16:34.820 and okay make it make sense at the age that i'm at now like it's time to let me shut up um so let's

01:16:41.440 continue pick that in one day but you know people can either start choosing to do that work or you

01:16:47.840 could just double down girl you could pretend you don't even need any self-worth you could put

01:16:51.840 oh god no no no no no no no no no no no that you know everything because it hurts

01:17:02.580 it absolutely hurts so know that you're not the best at everything that all the things you

01:17:21.460 Thoughts were gonna be unhappening.

01:17:28.460 Oh my god.

01:17:29.460 That light.

01:17:51.460 Don't you wish you could do this to them in real life?

01:18:10.460 Goddamn, bro.

01:18:11.460 I wish I had a remote for every fucking story.

01:18:21.460 Oh my god, bro.

01:18:49.460 I'll literally start losing my vision.

01:18:54.460 I will lose my train of thought if it's something really intense.

01:18:57.460 But because of some experiences I've been having this year and having to like, you know,

01:18:59.460 just trying to be a better person and actually speak up.

01:19:01.460 I've been pushing past it.

01:19:02.460 And it's terrifying and it sucks, but kind of like exposure therapy sometimes,

01:19:05.460 it's just like this feeling is so uncomfortable, but what you realize when you go to the other side of the road

01:19:07.460 and you actually follow through.

01:19:08.460 On the other side, on the other side, on the other side of the door, girl, nothing's going on.

01:19:10.460 No one's gonna beat your ass.

01:19:11.460 We're speaking about how you feel.

01:19:12.460 Obviously, depending on what type of people you gotta confront, that may be a possibility.

01:19:14.460 But for the majority of stuff, no one's gonna come and kick your ass over saying,

01:19:17.460 like, yo, you're not the best person ever.

01:19:18.460 Or, yo, like, why didn't you, like, you know, do what I asked you to do.

01:19:20.460 Like, no one's gonna, like, you know what I'm gonna come through with this, girl.

01:19:21.460 Like, get through the discomfort and you'll realize, like, you're a better person for it after.

01:19:23.460 Not a better person, but a better person for yourself.

01:19:24.460 Because then you're just like, I can do this.

01:19:25.460 And I can do this.

01:19:26.460 And I can do this.

01:19:27.460 And I can do this.

01:19:28.460 And I can do this.

01:19:29.460 And then you're like, learn how to do these things.

01:19:30.460 What the fuck, chat?

01:19:31.460 What the fuck?

01:19:34.460 Girls, where are you?

01:19:35.460 Where are you?

01:19:36.460 Where are you?

01:19:37.460 You see what you sound like?

01:19:38.460 Do you see what you sound like?

01:19:40.460 I can do this.

01:19:41.460 And then you, like, learn how to do these things.

01:19:42.460 So, girls, do it.

01:19:43.460 That's what your 20s are about.

01:19:44.460 You start learning how to search yourself.

01:19:45.460 And I feel like at this point, I've had enough experiences now.

01:19:46.460 So, I can't really be the chillest girl in the room.

01:19:47.460 I can't always go with the flow.

01:19:48.460 I can't really put past my discomfort.

01:19:49.460 Like, in situations that I feel like are wrong.

01:19:50.460 I don't want to waste my time just to be somewhere or do something.

01:19:51.460 Or to get some weird validation for someone that doesn't want to see me for me.

01:19:53.460 The goal with the flow, energy changes as you start to acknowledge your needs.

01:19:54.460 How you want to be treated.

01:19:55.460 How denying yourself needs.

01:19:56.460 Like, your own need for someone else's comfort.

01:19:57.460 Like, it's like your own need for someone else's comfort.

01:19:58.460 Like, you start to be like a calm and calm and calm and calm.

01:19:59.460 And you essentially learn how to say no.

01:20:00.460 Big girl, no.

01:20:01.460 Girl, I learned how to have a substance.

01:20:02.460 Oh, my God.

01:20:03.460 She's stupid, bro.

01:20:04.460 Here's the thing.

01:20:05.460 Being the bearer of the no.

01:20:06.460 I am the bearer of the no.

01:20:07.460 Being the bearer of the no, girl, will make you feel like a bad guy.

01:20:21.460 If you have been socialized and conditioned to just take it.

01:20:23.460 When you start saying no, you're gonna feel evil.

01:20:24.460 You're gonna feel like, oh, my God.

01:20:25.460 I'm power tripping right now.

01:20:27.460 Like, I'm so inconsiderate.

01:20:28.460 I am destroying everyone around me.

01:20:29.460 Girl, just say no.

01:20:30.460 People do it to you all the time and you take it.

01:20:31.460 Why can't you do it to other people?

01:20:32.460 Learn how to say no.

01:20:33.460 As I'm talking, by the way, realize I'm also talking to myself.

01:20:34.460 I need to continue saying no.

01:20:35.460 It's scary.

01:20:36.460 And here's the thing.

01:20:37.460 This bitch is fucking nuts.

01:20:39.460 And it's not just her, chat.

01:20:42.460 You let him talk.

01:20:43.460 This is what they say.

01:20:45.460 This is not unique to her.

01:20:51.460 She's not depressed.

01:20:53.460 She doesn't have mental health trauma.

01:20:55.460 She's fine.

01:20:56.460 She's just another.

01:20:58.460 You're fine.

01:21:01.460 This is normal for you.

01:21:03.460 This is what should be happening after what the fuck you just said in this video.

01:21:07.460 I'm going to get to this video, man.

01:21:09.460 Just.

01:21:10.460 Just.

01:21:11.460 Holy fuck.

01:21:13.460 Oh my God, bro.

01:21:17.460 It's better double speed.

01:21:19.460 Like, I'm so inconsiderate.

01:21:21.460 I am destroying everyone around me.

01:21:22.460 Girl, just say no.

01:21:23.460 People do it to you all the time and you take it.

01:21:25.460 Why can't you do it to other people?

01:21:26.460 Learn how to say no.

01:21:27.460 As I'm talking, by the way, realize I'm also talking to myself.

01:21:28.460 I need to continue.

01:21:29.460 As I'm talking, I'm also talking to myself because I need it.

01:21:31.460 I'm saying no, it's scary.

01:21:33.460 And here's the thing.

01:21:34.460 It's scary.

01:21:35.460 If you're an open-minded.

01:21:36.460 She's saying scary.

01:21:37.460 Are you in a box like smart person?

01:21:39.460 You can make excuses for absolutely anyone or anything.

01:21:41.460 You'll find yourself in the...

01:21:42.460 Well, he doesn't talk to me.

01:21:43.460 He doesn't take me out.

01:21:44.460 He doesn't buy things.

01:21:45.460 But, like, girl, he has so much potential.

01:21:46.460 Or, like, you know, he had a tough life.

01:21:48.460 That's why he's like that.

01:21:49.460 And I don't want to be judgy and make him feel bad.

01:21:50.460 Because people that understand people don't judge.

01:21:51.460 Like, you'll hit a wall soon enough and you'll start judging people left and right.

01:21:53.460 Because objectively, some people just suck.

01:21:54.460 Some people are just, like, malicious.

01:21:55.460 Some people will take advantage of you.

01:21:56.460 And you can't be out here rationalizing everything for everyone.

01:21:58.460 You're trying to make them feel better about something they're literally not working for.

01:22:00.460 Just listen.

01:22:01.460 And also, a lot of this for me has been inspired by the fact that I've been reading.

01:22:03.460 Look.

01:22:04.460 All about love by bell hooks.

01:22:05.460 A queen.

01:22:06.460 Love this book.

01:22:07.460 Everyone on my timeline was reading and I picked it up.

01:22:08.460 They're not...

01:22:09.460 Unlike most things that are trends, this one did not let me down.

01:22:10.460 How could you be let down?

01:22:11.460 It's bell hooks.

01:22:12.460 You can't be let down.

01:22:13.460 Strongly recommend that.

01:22:14.460 I read that book.

01:22:15.460 Something that she really gets into with that book that really, like, absolutely has changed so much for me.

01:22:16.460 She talks about how people and movies and music will talk about love as a feeling.

01:22:18.460 When in reality, love is an action.

01:22:19.460 It's what you do.

01:22:20.460 It's how you show up every single day.

01:22:21.460 They also describe love as a kind of, like, intangible, indescribable, amorphous thing that, like, the moment you try to pin it down and define it, it will lose its spark.

01:22:26.460 Like, it's really not that.

01:22:27.460 And the thing that happens with that when you do love as these things, when you don't try to define it for yourself, when you don't see it as an action, is that you will be constantly unsatisfied in love.

01:22:32.460 You'll feel like you can't find it anywhere.

01:22:33.460 And of course you can't.

01:22:34.460 Like, you don't know what it is.

01:22:35.460 You don't have a definition for it.

01:22:36.460 Oh my god.

01:22:37.460 Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay.

01:22:38.460 Okay.

01:22:42.460 Okay.

01:22:44.460 Oh my god.

01:22:46.460 Someone said I have a literal headache.

01:22:49.460 No, like, my ears are actually ringing.

01:22:51.460 I've never take, I needed, that wasn't me trying to be dramatic.

01:22:54.460 I genuinely just need, holy fuck.

01:22:59.460 As a girl, I have a headache.

01:23:00.460 Thank you.

01:23:01.460 This is what you sound like.

01:23:03.460 And I know, girl, say this in the chat again, the one who just chatted.

01:23:06.460 This kind of, this is not unique to her.

01:23:08.460 This bitch is not special.

01:23:09.460 This is what she said.

01:23:10.460 This is, she sang the most basic girl shit ever.

01:23:12.460 It's scary and trauma and my life and I took too many dicks.

01:23:17.460 She's not depressed.

01:23:18.460 She's fine.

01:23:19.460 She's fine.

01:23:20.460 But this is what you sound like.

01:23:29.460 Okay, I need to, this video?

01:23:31.460 Okay.

01:23:32.460 Okay.

01:23:33.460 Nah chat, let's finish it first.

01:23:34.460 I want to hear your story.

01:23:36.460 I want to hear your story.

01:23:37.460 How can you chase something as like abstract as a feeling?

01:23:39.460 You literally can't.

01:23:40.460 And the thing is you'll yearn for love and every single facet of your like existence and all of your relationship from the platonic to the familial to the like-

01:23:45.460 You're so romantic.

01:23:46.460 You're so romantic.

01:23:51.460 Your spirit deserves that and you know that and being the chill girl-

01:24:06.460 Chill girl for the sake of like not being alone and just being down for the ride.

01:24:23.460 I've been down for the ride with the man that-

01:24:36.460 No!

01:24:37.460 No!

01:24:38.460 No!

01:24:39.460 No!

01:24:40.460 No!

01:24:41.460 No!

01:24:49.460 No!

01:24:50.460 No!

01:24:52.460 Thank you.

01:25:22.460 I can't do it.

01:25:52.460 I can't do it.

01:25:53.460 I can't do it.

01:25:54.460 I can't do it.

01:25:55.460 I can't do it.

01:25:56.460 I can't do it.

01:26:05.460 Man, you know what, bro?

01:26:09.460 like 19 was a weird year for me that's why i'm like go crazy girl but like also like don't go

01:26:11.960 that crazy like it's you don't get yourself into something you can't get out of on some real shit

01:26:14.460 you know that man don't like you like i can't see you as a child um in the moment you start like

01:26:16.900 acting up too much you don't either put you in your place in ways that are highly abusive or he

01:26:19.660 gonna toss you to the side young women and girls like i'm not sure you're still smashing chat see

01:26:22.100 this this is the bare minimum women look at look at the chat right now all these men were just

01:26:29.620 complaining about me playing this video for a good hour and change and they'll still fuck her

01:26:34.780 i would too and i hate this bitch i hate you fuck

01:26:40.840 you're literally making me like i'm trauma i have a headache right now

01:26:46.940 i don't hate you for like any like oh women's i'm just like it's painful to hear you and i would still

01:26:56.280 smash

01:26:57.560 i still would and so would this chat if you're saying l now you just switched up you're a

01:27:04.020 loser you know you would don't say you're down bad don't say you're down bad she's still smashable

01:27:10.020 that's the that's that's really boils down to like the women thing is like they don't need to do

01:27:17.420 anything and they're kind of jealous of the fact that we need to earn our fuckability but this bitch

01:27:23.000 is fucking

01:27:23.520 and we still would

01:27:28.960 we still would

01:27:31.120 it's they don't have it doesn't matter what book she reads how many paintings she paints

01:27:36.200 how much trauma she traumatizes how much therapy it doesn't matter one bit we would still smash

01:27:44.740 still get ahead

01:27:46.260 still get ahead she can earn her place in our crib

01:27:50.840 off of nothing

01:27:53.260 nothing she did

01:27:54.980 at time are appropriately naive you are appropriately naive i cannot blame you for not knowing enough

01:27:59.000 but men these older men in your life know enough and men and many others like during this time as well

01:28:02.780 run around trying to avoid accountability from their female counterparts at their age and they're

01:28:05.780 painting them as these bitter and old like hags and rather than self-improving and listening to what

01:28:08.520 people in their lives are telling them bro you suck you absolutely suck

01:28:10.460 they'll go and they'll find refuge in the 19 year old

01:28:12.020 leaving childhood behind is asserting yourself setting up boundaries for what is and isn't

01:28:15.960 this is what i'm talking about

01:28:19.680 and i didn't even expect it bro i was i wanted to watch this and hear a story about grown men and i just

01:28:30.580 heard her trauma for 47 minutes she thought it was appropriate to look at her bro look at her

01:28:36.820 and you still you would still smash chat you fucking disgusting human

01:28:41.920 all you fucking scum have no standards no self-respect you would still get ahead

01:28:49.220 disgust and trash

01:28:51.560 men are trash

01:28:53.160 men are really trash that you would still smash

01:28:56.320 you would listen

01:28:57.520 y'all would listen to her speak

01:28:59.400 you would put up with a date

01:29:02.120 you would put up with this whole shit on a date if you thought you could smash

01:29:05.640 y'all are in a stream now so you're scamming skip skip but

01:29:08.860 skip skip skip but you would sit through and you would have listened to all of this

01:29:13.740 nodding your head and smiling

01:29:15.160 at that face

01:29:17.100 you would have been across the table oh yeah

01:29:22.960 oh yeah that's a good point oh well i kind of agree with that

01:29:28.560 oh these are your paintings

01:29:30.680 oh my god you're i love your paintings are you like an artist you look like really creative

01:29:36.380 tell me about your paintings

01:29:37.720 you paint

01:29:39.780 you fucking frauds

01:29:42.420 i would too i would too though

01:29:46.480 it's allowed in your own home in your own heart in your own body and entitled beings will spew venom at you for taking away something they feel entitled to

01:29:52.100 the moment you set a boundary if somebody doesn't respect that they don't respect your humanity

01:29:55.260 and here's the thing these cycles we're used to these cycles that's why we fall into them like don't blame yourself this is like inscribed in a lot of our

01:29:59.880 oh okay let's hear the diss now

01:30:01.880 enough of her

01:30:03.840 i'm projecting

01:30:07.920 chat am i projecting

01:30:11.560 or you know there's a little bit of truth to what i'm saying

01:30:14.400 you know if you had to sit down say you matched with her on tinder

01:30:17.740 some artist bitch okay cool maybe i can get some head

01:30:20.220 you show up wherever restaurant or bar you know maybe just pull up your car

01:30:26.820 you're gonna put up with that conversation

01:30:28.740 you're not gonna call her out

01:30:31.100 you're not gonna say she sounds stupid

01:30:32.840 you're not gonna say the word accountability

01:30:34.480 you're not gonna make fun of her for her trauma

01:30:36.580 when she says she's depressed you're probably like oh my god

01:30:38.800 wow it's so

01:30:39.840 that's how it's gonna go i'm not projecting you know you would do it

01:31:03.180 you know you would

01:31:09.840 hi guys welcome back to my channel

01:31:13.960 today's video is about envy

01:31:15.440 no way

01:31:17.560 the previous video

01:31:21.360 is my hate video

01:31:24.160 what is my recommendation

01:31:25.760 my algorithm go crazy bro

01:31:27.500 i'm even in the fucking thingy

01:31:29.040 there's me chat

01:31:30.320 we made it

01:31:31.640 we made it

01:31:35.680 that's crazy right

01:31:38.640 i was just roasting

01:31:43.260 i mean i wasn't roasting

01:31:44.460 i was reacting to her story

01:31:46.360 that's crazy bro

01:31:49.320 you know what chat

01:31:50.280 we're doing something right with this stream

01:31:51.760 if we're offending the same bitches

01:31:54.440 that pop up in the algorithm man

01:31:55.980 that puts a smile on my face bro

01:31:59.120 the youtube algorithm is

01:31:59.960 that's why i don't stream on twitch

01:32:02.760 that's her

01:32:05.260 that's her

01:32:08.640 why you look like that

01:32:09.440 what the

01:32:14.140 i still would man

01:32:17.860 it doesn't even matter what she says

01:32:19.860 how much she calls me a hater

01:32:21.040 i reacted to becoming a hater

01:32:23.520 envy projection

01:32:24.860 and toxic positivity

01:32:26.720 i still would

01:32:29.720 i don't even give a fuck

01:32:30.800 about anything you said

01:32:31.620 like i definitely still would

01:32:32.940 envy if you're new here

01:32:34.180 i'm wearing glasses

01:32:34.680 so you might not recognize me

01:32:35.480 who is she

01:32:36.760 it's me y'all

01:32:37.640 i've been trying to rest my eyes

01:32:38.680 because i'm looking at screen so much

01:32:39.480 i'm doing youtube stuff

01:32:40.440 and like doing art

01:32:42.100 i like look at stuff

01:32:43.320 really close up

01:32:44.060 and none of the speeds work now

01:32:45.660 none of the speeds work

01:32:46.840 look if you play it at normal

01:32:48.120 it's just like annoyingly slow

01:32:50.000 and you know she's talking about nothing

01:32:51.100 ready

01:32:51.400 i'm doing youtube stuff

01:32:53.040 and like doing art

01:32:54.700 i like look at stuff

01:32:55.900 really close up

01:32:56.660 so my eyes

01:32:57.080 she looks at stuff

01:32:58.180 really close up

01:32:58.980 like it just

01:32:59.680 it's just too much of my time

01:33:01.000 listen one more time

01:33:01.480 doing youtube stuff

01:33:02.360 and like doing art

01:33:04.200 i like look at stuff

01:33:05.400 really close up

01:33:06.160 and then when you play it

01:33:07.600 at playback speed 2

01:33:09.320 you can't win

01:33:11.640 you can't win

01:33:12.420 you just have

01:33:12.900 we just got to bear with it

01:33:13.800 because none of it

01:33:14.740 oh it all sucks

01:33:15.420 one more time

01:33:16.540 it's me y'all

01:33:18.080 i've been trying to rest my eyes

01:33:19.120 because i don't like

01:33:19.440 screen so much

01:33:19.940 like doing youtube stuff

01:33:20.660 and like doing art

01:33:21.520 i like look at stuff

01:33:22.100 really close up

01:33:22.480 so my eyes have been hurting so much

01:33:23.360 i've just been trying to like stop

01:33:24.020 like not wearing my contacts as much

01:33:25.040 um

01:33:25.480 and i've also been walking around my house

01:33:26.240 without glasses on

01:33:26.680 i don't know if that's good or bad for you

01:33:27.440 but i'm just kind of like

01:33:28.060 oh god i don't care

01:33:29.200 30 seconds in

01:33:30.140 that was 30 seconds of the video

01:33:31.960 and she said nothing

01:33:33.200 she said nothing

01:33:36.040 i need to relax these eye muscles

01:33:38.760 um because

01:33:39.400 you know there should be a playback speed

01:33:40.980 where i could just not

01:33:42.080 click the video and go home

01:33:43.840 but listen to 0.25

01:33:45.880 no speeds work chat

01:34:09.360 we just gotta

01:34:09.900 i'm sticking with one

01:34:11.120 this is just

01:34:12.400 the playback speed's not gonna fix it

01:34:14.080 it just sucks

01:34:15.240 it's just

01:34:17.320 it's just terrible

01:34:18.820 actively get in the way of your success

01:34:24.040 there's

01:34:24.840 they want the most

01:34:26.860 and i argue this is rooted in envy

01:34:28.940 thank you for the five

01:34:29.900 uh

01:34:30.380 what was it good

01:34:31.320 wstream

01:34:31.800 appreciate you

01:34:32.460 they want her so bad

01:34:35.040 not even her

01:34:36.200 the idea of her

01:34:37.320 or the idea of

01:34:38.260 of a her

01:34:39.020 that they've built in their head

01:34:40.080 women women women

01:34:40.900 you still in here

01:34:41.580 you hear your nonsense

01:34:42.480 i know it starts at 1330

01:34:44.300 i see the spam chatting

01:34:45.420 i'm ignoring you

01:34:46.260 so you gotta fucking sit

01:34:47.580 through what i gotta sit through

01:34:48.920 this the reason i'm angry

01:34:50.220 the reason i got the red pill rage

01:34:51.380 is this is what i gotta sit through

01:34:52.560 to get some pussy bro

01:34:53.480 this is what you gotta listen to

01:34:56.320 and i'm so sick of it

01:34:58.240 i'm so fucking sick of hearing

01:35:00.120 you talk about nothing

01:35:01.060 so i'm gonna make all you

01:35:02.640 who want to be entertained

01:35:04.100 sit through what the fuck i sit through

01:35:06.400 on a saturday night

01:35:07.520 when i want to get some cheeks

01:35:08.620 i gotta hear this fucking bullshit

01:35:10.480 they want the idea of her

01:35:14.820 or an idea

01:35:15.420 they want her so bad

01:35:17.860 not even her

01:35:19.020 the idea of her

01:35:20.140 or an idea of a her

01:35:21.840 that they've built in their head

01:35:23.040 um but they want her so bad

01:35:24.860 that that

01:35:25.280 that the fact

01:35:26.340 her choice is her own

01:35:28.160 enrages them

01:35:29.920 it's obviously not as simple

01:35:31.700 why you look like

01:35:32.520 why she look like

01:35:34.580 she sat at the

01:35:35.200 why you look like

01:35:38.080 you should have sat

01:35:38.600 at the back of the bus

01:35:39.420 but instead you sat at the front

01:35:40.760 what was this

01:35:41.600 but for me

01:35:42.360 i can always tell the type of

01:35:43.740 cis man you are

01:35:44.560 just by how you approach

01:35:45.840 a desirable

01:35:46.520 cis man

01:35:47.260 alright bro

01:35:47.780 the fucking twitter got to her

01:35:49.260 pretty girl

01:35:50.860 like how they reject you

01:35:52.760 like how you approach that

01:35:54.380 says a lot to me

01:35:55.460 about the kind of man you are

01:35:56.720 or even how you reflect

01:35:58.480 on a woman's beauty

01:35:59.700 in regards to her

01:36:00.660 like her success

01:36:01.440 like oh

01:36:02.380 if you're the type

01:36:03.340 that's like oh

01:36:03.820 she only got that

01:36:04.640 because she's pretty

01:36:05.500 i'm like i know

01:36:06.340 exactly the type of guy

01:36:07.460 you are

01:36:07.940 you think she could be a painter

01:36:11.320 if she was fat

01:36:12.260 you think she

01:36:13.920 anyone would buy her paintings

01:36:15.220 if she was fat chat

01:36:16.300 come on

01:36:17.440 anybody buying her paintings

01:36:18.780 is just trying to talk to her bro

01:36:20.120 like let's be honest bro

01:36:21.780 that's why you're a painter

01:36:24.060 you think her paintings are good

01:36:25.620 i might go check at them

01:36:26.680 and roast them

01:36:27.160 but it's just like

01:36:27.640 what do you think chat

01:36:28.480 what do you think

01:36:29.600 bye

01:36:32.040 i had a realization

01:36:34.780 i was in miami

01:36:35.600 with my girl

01:36:36.400 and you know

01:36:37.540 a couple guys from the beach

01:36:38.380 like working on the

01:36:39.220 on the chairs

01:36:39.880 and stuff like that

01:36:40.340 came out to me like

01:36:41.000 yo i love your videos bro

01:36:42.660 keep it up

01:36:43.380 fist pound move on

01:36:44.260 and then the same amount of times

01:36:46.300 my girl was getting

01:36:47.200 the same attention

01:36:47.900 wow you're so beautiful

01:36:49.660 i love what you do with your hair

01:36:50.980 thank you

01:36:51.720 i was like

01:36:53.300 why

01:36:54.120 do we have the same self-esteem

01:36:56.480 why

01:36:56.940 it took my whole

01:36:59.000 life

01:36:59.940 whole fucking life

01:37:00.580 sitting in the basement

01:37:01.440 of a train station

01:37:02.200 with an ungrateful cameraman

01:37:03.440 you know what she did

01:37:04.540 nothing

01:37:04.960 took a shower

01:37:06.080 put on some lotion

01:37:08.340 not admitting that

01:37:10.000 or seeing that

01:37:11.100 is living in a level of ignorance

01:37:12.540 that i think

01:37:13.580 is a lie

01:37:14.460 i

01:37:14.780 chat

01:37:15.020 do you think this bitch walks around

01:37:16.780 and gets compliments on her paintings

01:37:18.080 or gets compliments on her beauty

01:37:19.720 i needed to work my whole fucking life

01:37:22.240 for what you get by showering

01:37:24.340 that's the basis

01:37:25.740 of how the world sees us

01:37:27.580 now i know that in this

01:37:30.380 he's trying to be funny

01:37:31.400 this literally randomly popped up

01:37:33.080 on my youtube recommendations

01:37:34.160 i keep getting random like

01:37:35.860 and trust me

01:37:37.060 i love getting all types of content

01:37:38.660 i listen to men

01:37:39.640 like cis men

01:37:40.500 and their content all the time

01:37:42.100 but there's cis men

01:37:42.900 that i'm like

01:37:43.320 word i agree with what you're saying

01:37:44.720 or like

01:37:45.500 this is like rooted in like some misogyny

01:37:47.760 but i understand the

01:37:48.820 the general gist

01:37:50.160 like you're not trying to like

01:37:51.820 you're not trying to intentionally belittle women

01:37:55.080 like you're not

01:37:56.020 it's not really rooted in that

01:37:57.240 and i think i

01:37:58.020 i find fascination

01:37:59.440 understanding

01:38:00.240 different perspectives

01:38:01.600 this popped up

01:38:03.620 on my recommendation

01:38:04.980 because i did the fresh and fit video

01:38:07.320 like the the manosphere

01:38:09.200 uh alpha male

01:38:10.940 whatever

01:38:11.860 like video

01:38:12.720 get to the motherfucking point

01:38:14.640 and shut up

01:38:15.460 no i did

01:38:16.020 i keep getting like fresh and fit

01:38:18.160 and like random stuff

01:38:19.600 in relationships

01:38:20.320 in relation to this

01:38:21.580 so this is one of the ones

01:38:22.720 that keeps popping up

01:38:23.560 and the other day i was watching

01:38:24.460 uh tv

01:38:25.440 what is the fucking point

01:38:27.360 bitch

01:38:27.660 we're fucking two minutes

01:38:28.940 into where they told

01:38:29.720 they told me

01:38:30.460 chat told me to skip

01:38:31.520 to 13 30

01:38:32.360 we watched two minutes

01:38:33.680 of you say nothing yet

01:38:35.000 still

01:38:36.740 i'm fucking sick of you hearing

01:38:40.700 like nothing

01:38:41.820 my boyfriend's

01:38:42.920 i was like whatever

01:38:43.400 let's just click this

01:38:44.220 because it's like oh

01:38:44.760 someone like

01:38:45.400 asking questions

01:38:46.360 on the train platform

01:38:47.440 okay cool

01:38:48.120 like those are sometimes

01:38:48.960 pretty funny

01:38:49.580 like the the videos

01:38:50.540 where they're asking

01:38:50.940 no one cares about

01:38:51.980 where you were

01:38:52.740 when you watched the video

01:38:53.860 react to the video

01:38:55.280 bro

01:38:55.620 people like how much

01:38:56.340 they make

01:38:56.760 like how much is the rent

01:38:58.560 how much they make

01:38:59.340 whatever whatever

01:39:00.000 so i was like

01:39:00.400 all right let me just

01:39:01.000 click this

01:39:01.420 don't know who this is

01:39:02.480 what was the point

01:39:03.260 of that prerequisite

01:39:04.060 what was the point

01:39:05.100 like i know this is

01:39:06.680 a stupid thing

01:39:07.300 to get angry about

01:39:08.060 but this is something

01:39:08.940 that all bitches do now

01:39:10.080 why did you need to

01:39:12.260 yeah i don't really

01:39:13.420 click videos

01:39:14.060 but this time

01:39:14.800 i was laying down

01:39:15.860 and then i thought

01:39:16.840 hmm maybe i should

01:39:17.960 click the video

01:39:18.620 and then i saw the video

01:39:19.980 and it was on a train station

01:39:21.500 like the train

01:39:22.220 wee wee wee wee

01:39:23.260 and then i said

01:39:24.120 hmm i'm gonna click

01:39:25.520 the video

01:39:26.020 and then i clicked

01:39:27.040 the video

01:39:27.560 and then i started

01:39:28.980 watching the video

01:39:30.260 and i was sitting there

01:39:31.600 and i was watching

01:39:32.980 the video

01:39:33.480 and then while i was

01:39:34.840 watching it

01:39:35.460 i thought

01:39:36.040 i'm thinking

01:39:37.240 while watching the

01:39:38.400 say what the fuck

01:39:40.320 the thought was

01:39:41.380 immediately

01:39:44.280 this is like the

01:39:45.420 one of the first

01:39:46.320 things that pops up

01:39:47.280 i'm like i know

01:39:47.980 exactly what type

01:39:49.420 of guy he is

01:39:50.040 i know exactly

01:39:51.640 what's going on

01:39:52.920 what's up baby

01:39:53.500 what's up bro

01:39:54.380 ah if you shut

01:39:55.320 the fuck up

01:39:55.840 i'll put your

01:39:56.260 dick in my mouth

01:39:56.900 and i know

01:39:57.760 oh fuck i fucked

01:39:58.700 that up chat

01:39:59.120 i fucked that up chat

01:39:59.980 elriz elriz elriz

01:40:01.060 elriz elriz

01:40:01.640 elriz elriz

01:40:01.920 fuck

01:40:03.260 fuck

01:40:04.440 damn bro

01:40:05.980 the chat's gonna

01:40:06.440 come in 15 seconds

01:40:07.300 later ready for

01:40:08.260 all the l's to

01:40:09.080 spam above my head

01:40:09.800 i know what i just

01:40:10.460 said

01:40:10.720 i know what i just

01:40:11.880 said

01:40:12.320 should i just end

01:40:14.260 the stream

01:40:14.600 fuck

01:40:17.320 fuck

01:40:19.140 there we go

01:40:19.800 there we go

01:40:20.600 there we go

01:40:22.360 that was

01:40:25.180 that was

01:40:25.540 that was terrible

01:40:26.680 that was really

01:40:27.560 bad

01:40:27.840 you know what

01:40:31.360 lstream lstream

01:40:33.800 lstream

01:40:34.120 i'm gonna take

01:40:37.320 accountability for

01:40:37.960 my actions

01:40:38.380 i'm sorry i'm

01:40:41.420 learning and

01:40:41.860 growing

01:40:42.140 i did not mean

01:40:43.880 to say

01:40:44.300 that i would

01:40:45.740 take her

01:40:46.940 dick in my

01:40:47.680 mouth

01:40:48.000 i was trying

01:40:49.840 to spit

01:40:50.760 wriz and

01:40:51.520 maybe i should

01:40:54.320 stick to streaming

01:40:54.800 because that was

01:40:55.300 that was the

01:40:55.700 most lriz

01:40:56.280 i'm learning

01:41:02.060 and i'm growing

01:41:04.620 like trying to be

01:41:06.180 funny or whatever

01:41:07.120 and like this

01:41:07.820 this video isn't

01:41:08.780 about him

01:41:09.300 i don't know

01:41:09.720 anything about

01:41:10.440 him i'm just

01:41:11.300 like i'm you

01:41:12.200 know i'm putting

01:41:12.620 him in a specific

01:41:13.400 box but whatever

01:41:14.340 um but then i was

01:41:16.540 like you know

01:41:16.960 what i'm not

01:41:17.440 even like it's

01:41:18.060 not even i'm

01:41:18.560 like i just

01:41:19.220 stopped watching

01:41:19.720 the video i try

01:41:20.280 to watch a little

01:41:20.780 bit more of

01:41:21.260 that but then

01:41:21.600 the conversation

01:41:22.100 just kept

01:41:22.460 getting more

01:41:22.960 uncomfortable

01:41:23.460 while he was

01:41:24.040 talking about

01:41:24.520 like uh

01:41:25.400 like sex

01:41:26.420 between

01:41:26.760 cis men

01:41:27.240 and cis men

01:41:27.660 she's still

01:41:28.140 a minute later

01:41:29.280 since i had

01:41:30.080 that other

01:41:30.360 three minutes

01:41:31.580 since you guys

01:41:32.760 told me to

01:41:33.240 skip to 13

01:41:33.920 she still

01:41:34.900 hasn't said

01:41:35.660 fucking anything

01:41:36.420 and it was

01:41:37.160 just weird

01:41:37.600 it was like

01:41:38.060 a really weird

01:41:38.880 like tangent

01:41:39.600 like it was

01:41:40.480 it was just

01:41:41.180 giving homophobia

01:41:41.840 she doesn't

01:41:42.360 even understand

01:41:43.060 my videos

01:41:43.780 she thinks

01:41:44.200 it gives

01:41:44.820 homophobic

01:41:45.480 vibes

01:41:45.900 she doesn't

01:41:47.560 even she

01:41:48.080 doesn't know

01:41:48.360 how to watch

01:41:48.960 the conversations

01:41:49.820 happening

01:41:50.240 without getting

01:41:51.180 triggered

01:41:51.520 oh yeah

01:41:52.140 um but then

01:41:54.300 i was on

01:41:54.820 tiktok the

01:41:55.500 other day

01:41:55.880 and a video

01:41:57.140 of him on

01:41:57.620 the fresh

01:41:58.000 and fit

01:41:58.360 podcast popped

01:41:59.340 up and i

01:41:59.780 was like

01:42:00.140 here we go

01:42:00.740 a meeting

01:42:01.220 of the minds

01:42:01.940 i knew it

01:42:02.760 um

01:42:03.560 and this

01:42:05.340 is what

01:42:05.660 happened

01:42:06.000 on that

01:42:06.540 women are

01:42:07.920 i think

01:42:09.120 they're jealous

01:42:09.860 of the power

01:42:10.500 that men

01:42:10.940 have

01:42:11.300 because if

01:42:12.240 we're gonna

01:42:12.500 be honest

01:42:12.920 yo why is she

01:42:13.380 on my dick bro

01:42:14.080 got it

01:42:14.720 that's it

01:42:15.080 being a man

01:42:15.940 see i gotta write

01:42:16.500 this time with

01:42:16.840 the dick

01:42:17.140 alright cool

01:42:17.520 is better

01:42:18.300 it's better

01:42:18.360 it's better

01:42:19.960 we gotta stand

01:42:21.180 up to pee

01:42:21.720 we have better

01:42:22.480 decision making

01:42:23.080 skills

01:42:23.540 you don't get

01:42:24.360 emotional

01:42:24.860 all the time

01:42:25.380 it's just like

01:42:26.040 you're built

01:42:26.900 better

01:42:27.260 you're stronger

01:42:28.040 you get to

01:42:29.120 fuck

01:42:29.440 you're the

01:42:30.020 fucker

01:42:30.520 it's better

01:42:31.380 it is

01:42:32.360 do you

01:42:32.900 would you

01:42:33.360 if you had

01:42:33.800 the choice

01:42:34.220 in life

01:42:34.600 would you

01:42:35.080 rather

01:42:35.300 get fucked

01:42:36.060 or fuck

01:42:37.080 everyone would

01:42:38.460 rather fuck

01:42:40.300 chat if you

01:42:41.080 needed to

01:42:41.500 pick

01:42:41.800 quick little

01:42:43.120 fucking thing

01:42:43.720 um

01:42:44.160 would you

01:42:45.400 rather

01:42:45.740 if you had

01:42:46.600 the choice

01:42:46.900 say life is

01:42:47.340 a video game

01:42:47.920 and you're

01:42:48.320 picking the

01:42:49.340 choose a

01:42:50.180 character

01:42:50.520 get fucked

01:42:52.380 or fuck

01:42:53.340 get fucked

01:42:56.100 or fuck

01:42:57.900 choose a

01:43:00.660 character

01:43:00.960 which you

01:43:01.960 choosing

01:43:02.220 i didn't

01:43:04.060 specify which

01:43:04.640 one you

01:43:04.840 should say

01:43:05.160 just get

01:43:05.860 fucked

01:43:06.040 or fuck

01:43:06.320 just you

01:43:06.920 fucking

01:43:07.220 write it

01:43:07.600 thank you

01:43:08.040 for the

01:43:08.240 five

01:43:08.560 uh

01:43:08.840 shelley

01:43:09.040 tokens

01:43:09.320 l

01:43:09.600 rosa

01:43:09.920 parks

01:43:10.320 yeah she

01:43:11.960 started

01:43:12.220 cosplaying as

01:43:13.080 rosa parks

01:43:13.540 because this

01:43:13.840 is her

01:43:14.060 smart video

01:43:14.660 and i'm

01:43:15.160 not like

01:43:15.480 other girls

01:43:15.840 i'm a

01:43:16.080 smart woman

01:43:16.580 fit

01:43:17.320 fuck

01:43:20.000 right

01:43:20.320 right chat

01:43:20.840 fuck

01:43:21.200 everyone

01:43:24.000 would rather

01:43:24.420 fuck

01:43:24.800 everyone

01:43:27.740 this is a

01:43:28.540 quick poll

01:43:29.020 and like

01:43:29.380 even

01:43:29.640 women will

01:43:30.460 say this

01:43:30.820 like if

01:43:31.160 that's what

01:43:31.840 it is

01:43:32.220 you pick

01:43:32.800 what you

01:43:33.140 are in

01:43:33.460 life

01:43:33.680 are you

01:43:33.880 the fuck

01:43:34.220 or the

01:43:34.460 fuck

01:43:34.660 eat

01:43:34.860 why would

01:43:35.700 you want

01:43:35.980 to get

01:43:36.380 fucked

01:43:36.860 so just

01:43:38.060 accept it

01:43:38.760 my shit

01:43:40.440 is better

01:43:40.860 my shit

01:43:42.220 is better

01:43:42.580 your shit

01:43:44.240 bleeds once

01:43:44.880 a month

01:43:45.180 you gotta

01:43:45.480 carry babies

01:43:46.220 until a certain

01:43:46.800 age

01:43:47.120 it makes

01:43:47.380 you all

01:43:47.640 emotional

01:43:48.080 and stuff

01:43:48.560 you fucking

01:43:49.520 you can't

01:43:50.180 stand up

01:43:50.540 to pee

01:43:50.920 it's worse

01:43:51.420 i could

01:43:53.040 fuck you

01:43:53.600 and never

01:43:54.380 speak to you

01:43:54.840 again

01:43:55.080 you need

01:43:55.400 to

01:43:55.580 like me

01:43:57.020 to do

01:43:58.100 the same

01:43:58.500 thing

01:43:58.920 and like

01:44:01.520 all right

01:44:01.880 cool

01:44:02.200 everyone would

01:44:05.380 rather

01:44:05.580 and like

01:44:06.940 all right

01:44:07.300 cool

01:44:07.680 i'm

01:44:08.080 look

01:44:08.360 look

01:44:08.680 cool

01:44:09.080 all right

01:44:09.600 you don't

01:44:10.000 like

01:44:10.280 i feel like

01:44:11.060 men don't

01:44:11.580 like

01:44:11.840 women

01:44:12.180 like

01:44:12.540 they just

01:44:13.180 don't

01:44:13.600 but like

01:44:14.100 and in

01:44:14.820 this video

01:44:15.400 specifically

01:44:16.080 no we

01:44:16.580 don't

01:44:17.540 we like

01:44:17.920 fucking

01:44:18.200 you

01:44:18.460 we don't

01:44:19.280 like

01:44:19.400 talking to

01:44:19.820 you

01:44:20.260 like

01:44:21.040 speaks to

01:44:21.720 one of

01:44:22.100 the main

01:44:22.520 pillars

01:44:22.980 of like

01:44:23.480 the cis

01:44:24.040 man

01:44:24.400 doctrine

01:44:24.900 which is

01:44:25.400 i can only

01:44:26.320 develop deep

01:44:27.260 and complex

01:44:28.200 emotions for

01:44:29.000 men

01:44:29.360 what

01:44:30.500 what

01:44:32.100 what

01:44:33.960 i'll take

01:44:36.460 chat

01:44:36.760 that's

01:44:37.540 that's

01:44:37.560 that's

01:44:37.580 like

01:44:37.760 pillar

01:44:38.180 number

01:44:38.500 one

01:44:38.920 like

01:44:39.240 their

01:44:40.360 friendships

01:44:40.800 with

01:44:41.140 men

01:44:41.460 are

01:44:41.640 truly

01:44:42.020 their

01:44:42.300 only

01:44:42.640 deep

01:44:43.000 sense

01:44:43.300 of

01:44:43.460 comfort

01:44:43.880 understanding

01:44:44.700 love

01:44:45.300 and vulnerability

01:44:45.900 and they can

01:44:46.760 only truly

01:44:47.500 love men

01:44:48.100 because to

01:44:48.720 love

01:44:49.080 you have

01:44:49.700 she's calling

01:44:50.340 men

01:44:50.660 gay

01:44:51.040 is that

01:44:51.500 your take

01:44:51.960 that's

01:44:52.380 your take

01:44:52.740 for this

01:44:52.980 rosa

01:44:53.360 parks

01:44:53.720 fit

01:44:53.920 to

01:44:54.080 call

01:44:54.360 men

01:44:54.700 gay

01:44:55.060 because we

01:44:56.520 don't want

01:44:56.760 to hear

01:44:57.100 you talk

01:44:57.800 to acknowledge

01:44:58.880 someone's

01:44:59.440 humanity

01:44:59.860 and to do

01:45:00.540 that you have

01:45:01.080 to respect

01:45:01.680 their humanity

01:45:02.360 you have

01:45:02.720 to respect

01:45:03.260 them as a

01:45:03.780 person

01:45:04.140 and they

01:45:04.860 don't do

01:45:05.340 that to

01:45:05.700 women

01:45:05.980 so

01:45:06.520 love

01:45:06.880 there's

01:45:07.360 nothing

01:45:07.640 because you're

01:45:08.260 goofy

01:45:08.680 you put on

01:45:09.560 a what the

01:45:10.180 are you wearing

01:45:10.940 what is this

01:45:12.940 this looks like

01:45:13.420 something my grandma

01:45:14.140 puts on the

01:45:14.680 table

01:45:15.020 this looks like

01:45:19.400 a fucking

01:45:19.860 christmas tree

01:45:20.780 decoration

01:45:21.300 you put on

01:45:22.540 your smart

01:45:23.140 aoc outfit

01:45:24.140 because you

01:45:24.460 thought you

01:45:24.700 were gonna

01:45:24.880 stand up

01:45:25.360 and be smart

01:45:25.820 for a bit

01:45:26.280 you're goofy

01:45:27.860 you don't need

01:45:28.640 glasses

01:45:29.140 how long did

01:45:30.480 you take

01:45:30.800 to get ready

01:45:31.220 for this

01:45:31.520 video

01:45:31.860 that's why

01:45:32.480 we don't

01:45:32.840 respect

01:45:33.240 because it's

01:45:33.700 fucking

01:45:34.000 like it's

01:45:36.200 just

01:45:36.620 your respect

01:45:41.260 needs to be

01:45:41.680 earned

01:45:42.080 and you think

01:45:43.080 that you could

01:45:43.740 just get it

01:45:44.380 because you

01:45:44.860 dress like

01:45:45.440 rosen parks

01:45:46.080 for these

01:45:48.600 type of men

01:45:49.460 it's only

01:45:50.620 like allotted

01:45:51.520 for other

01:45:52.200 men that

01:45:52.700 they respect

01:45:53.500 for their

01:45:54.140 mom and

01:45:54.960 for their

01:45:55.440 sisters

01:45:55.920 sometimes

01:45:57.440 sometimes

01:45:59.160 the glove

01:46:00.680 for the

01:46:01.080 sister

01:46:01.540 is

01:46:02.120 you know

01:46:02.300 who we

01:46:02.600 all respect

01:46:03.160 in chat

01:46:04.400 you could

01:46:04.640 say

01:46:04.860 do y'all

01:46:05.420 respect

01:46:05.700 Rihanna

01:46:06.080 Rihanna's

01:46:06.780 gotten fucked

01:46:07.220 by a lot

01:46:07.620 of famous

01:46:08.040 guys you

01:46:08.680 know

01:46:08.880 I respect

01:46:09.660 the shit

01:46:10.040 out of

01:46:10.260 Rihanna

01:46:10.560 respect the

01:46:13.120 shit out of

01:46:13.420 her

01:46:13.520 I'm never

01:46:14.040 gonna fuck

01:46:14.440 her

01:46:14.580 she's not

01:46:14.900 gonna let

01:46:15.160 me

01:46:15.320 maybe

01:46:16.120 but nah

01:46:17.500 I think

01:46:17.940 the chat

01:46:18.260 here

01:46:18.480 W or L

01:46:19.480 W you

01:46:20.280 respect

01:46:20.680 Rihanna

01:46:21.180 because she

01:46:22.700 doesn't do

01:46:23.260 this fucking

01:46:23.800 shit

01:46:24.120 she's never

01:46:26.320 done this

01:46:27.160 she just

01:46:30.780 does her

01:46:31.140 shit

01:46:31.420 puts on

01:46:31.920 her makeup

01:46:32.320 is hot

01:46:32.940 gets to

01:46:35.100 the bag

01:46:35.500 you know

01:46:36.260 shuts up

01:46:37.460 makes cool

01:46:38.560 music

01:46:38.940 so we

01:46:40.100 respect her

01:46:40.720 W

01:46:41.740 W

01:46:41.780 W

01:46:42.200 W

01:46:42.640 wish

01:46:43.300 this chat

01:46:43.580 was quicker

01:46:43.920 but like

01:46:44.300 look

01:46:44.540 look

01:46:44.900 there you

01:46:46.860 go

01:46:47.040 it's a

01:46:47.320 woman that

01:46:47.740 none of

01:46:48.120 us are

01:46:48.320 gonna smash

01:46:48.840 none of

01:46:49.760 us know

01:46:50.180 it's none

01:46:51.100 of our

01:46:51.340 moms

01:46:51.640 none of

01:46:51.980 our

01:46:52.120 sisters

01:46:52.420 look at

01:46:56.320 that man

01:46:56.720 she's been

01:46:58.100 in the

01:46:58.320 public

01:46:58.560 life for

01:46:58.920 so long

01:46:59.340 she had

01:46:59.560 tons of

01:46:59.900 controversies

01:47:00.460 and shit

01:47:00.800 and still

01:47:01.680 say

01:47:02.800 90%

01:47:03.800 everyone here

01:47:05.020 respects her

01:47:05.600 so stop

01:47:06.700 trying to

01:47:07.040 say you

01:47:07.300 don't deserve

01:47:08.000 respect just

01:47:08.640 because of

01:47:08.840 your existence

01:47:09.360 it's overridden

01:47:12.220 by the fact

01:47:13.040 that the

01:47:13.440 sister has

01:47:14.160 to go from

01:47:14.820 child to

01:47:15.860 adult woman

01:47:16.780 and then

01:47:17.240 it's like

01:47:17.740 can't

01:47:18.480 meld the

01:47:19.220 tool in

01:47:19.920 my mind

01:47:20.760 she is

01:47:21.620 at once

01:47:22.180 someone I

01:47:22.820 love

01:47:23.280 but a

01:47:24.040 someone I

01:47:24.800 hate

01:47:25.400 so for

01:47:26.580 some

01:47:26.960 cis men

01:47:27.800 funny enough

01:47:28.540 they go from

01:47:29.100 this is my

01:47:29.520 little sister

01:47:30.240 to

01:47:30.660 the fact

01:47:31.080 that she's

01:47:31.380 saying

01:47:31.580 cis men

01:47:32.080 she's saying

01:47:32.480 cis men

01:47:33.000 because she

01:47:33.300 thinks it's

01:47:33.600 a smart

01:47:34.040 woke word

01:47:34.880 that she

01:47:35.180 read on

01:47:35.460 twitter

01:47:35.700 and stuff

01:47:36.100 no one

01:47:36.980 here

01:47:37.420 thinks you're

01:47:38.140 talking about

01:47:38.620 trans men

01:47:39.340 bitch

01:47:39.720 I'm so

01:47:40.520 tired of

01:47:40.980 people saying

01:47:41.400 these terminologies

01:47:42.180 just to prove

01:47:42.740 how woke

01:47:43.100 they are

01:47:43.440 there's not

01:47:44.000 one person

01:47:44.760 watching this

01:47:45.300 video who

01:47:46.060 needs your

01:47:46.440 clarification

01:47:46.900 when you

01:47:47.800 say men

01:47:48.400 that you

01:47:49.080 mean cis men

01:47:49.920 for the chat

01:47:50.580 that doesn't

01:47:50.880 know cis

01:47:51.460 means men

01:47:52.420 who haven't

01:47:53.020 transitioned

01:47:53.600 it's to

01:47:54.300 differentiate

01:47:54.740 trans people

01:47:55.860 from regular

01:47:56.580 people

01:47:57.040 regular people

01:47:58.160 I mean guys

01:47:58.700 who didn't

01:47:59.100 snip their

01:47:59.560 dicks off

01:48:00.040 and change

01:48:00.540 genders

01:48:00.920 that's what

01:48:01.640 a trans

01:48:02.000 person is

01:48:02.540 there was

01:48:03.360 nobody that

01:48:03.980 needed that

01:48:04.300 clarification

01:48:04.840 the reason

01:48:05.640 she keeps

01:48:06.020 saying cis men

01:48:06.840 over and over

01:48:07.380 again is because

01:48:07.980 she's in her

01:48:08.360 smart getup

01:48:09.120 now she's

01:48:09.980 smart girl

01:48:11.020 literal bullying

01:48:12.560 and emotional

01:48:13.880 terrorism within

01:48:14.960 the household

01:48:15.720 of their sister

01:48:16.900 emotional terrorism

01:48:18.360 like what the

01:48:19.240 fuck are you

01:48:19.960 talking about

01:48:20.740 ever she reaches

01:48:21.680 a pubescent age

01:48:23.020 so that's one

01:48:24.100 way in which

01:48:24.560 that can play

01:48:25.180 out or

01:48:26.220 they just

01:48:26.760 become hyper

01:48:27.460 protective and

01:48:28.480 controlling and

01:48:29.300 regard her as

01:48:30.120 their possession

01:48:30.820 and they're just

01:48:32.760 like in this

01:48:33.440 eternal power

01:48:34.500 struggle with

01:48:35.520 the women they're

01:48:36.100 trying to bring

01:48:36.640 into their life

01:48:37.400 and the ones

01:48:37.940 that they can

01:48:38.440 control they

01:48:39.760 like hate

01:48:40.560 because they're

01:48:41.120 not challenging

01:48:41.920 bitch they just

01:48:42.680 don't understand

01:48:43.780 men at all

01:48:44.920 even her age

01:48:45.900 she's been

01:48:46.280 fucked by like

01:48:46.980 many guys

01:48:47.680 many guys

01:48:48.960 she said all

01:48:49.660 her dating

01:48:50.160 history in the

01:48:50.760 last video we

01:48:51.380 watched and

01:48:52.740 you don't

01:48:53.100 understand men

01:48:53.760 whatsoever

01:48:54.280 chat you think

01:48:54.900 she gets you

01:48:55.600 do you think

01:48:56.100 she's saying

01:48:56.460 anything accurate

01:48:57.460 about the male

01:48:58.200 experience

01:48:58.900 anything but

01:49:00.720 she doesn't

01:49:01.220 have to know

01:49:01.960 what men are

01:49:02.440 like she won't

01:49:03.180 ever know

01:49:03.700 because she's

01:49:04.640 the fuck

01:49:05.240 e

01:49:05.660 you think

01:49:08.500 salmon knows

01:49:09.260 about bear

01:49:09.980 no you think

01:49:12.360 birds know

01:49:13.320 about the

01:49:13.800 rednecks but

01:49:15.180 the rednecks

01:49:15.680 have the tools

01:49:16.360 they know

01:49:16.720 every single

01:49:17.540 fucking way

01:49:18.580 that the bird

01:49:19.060 flies where the

01:49:19.680 bird poops

01:49:20.140 you gotta know

01:49:20.920 your prey

01:49:21.440 this bitch is

01:49:22.660 clueless

01:49:23.460 she's calling

01:49:24.980 it terrorism

01:49:25.880 she does not

01:49:27.460 know

01:49:28.060 chat tell me

01:49:32.220 does she relate

01:49:33.500 to your experience

01:49:34.400 please

01:49:34.840 someone said

01:49:35.760 explain the

01:49:36.440 male experience

01:49:37.240 I mean it's

01:49:38.320 not this

01:49:38.900 it's not what

01:49:39.380 she's saying

01:49:40.000 and then the

01:49:44.540 ones that

01:49:44.940 they that

01:49:45.700 challenge them

01:49:46.680 they hate

01:49:47.220 because they're

01:49:47.700 not fulfilling

01:49:48.460 that like need

01:49:49.480 to like soothe

01:49:50.700 their like

01:49:51.260 fragile egos

01:49:52.340 um and it's

01:49:53.840 like okay we

01:49:54.460 get it you're

01:49:55.300 fighting demons

01:49:56.180 the demon is

01:49:57.200 bisexuality by

01:49:58.480 the way

01:49:58.880 this is what

01:50:02.300 I'm she

01:50:02.560 doesn't she

01:50:03.100 thinks male

01:50:04.140 sexuality is the

01:50:05.240 demon like they

01:50:06.480 just get a talk

01:50:07.260 they just get a

01:50:07.800 chat and then

01:50:08.460 only bitches

01:50:08.920 watch this

01:50:09.460 because they

01:50:10.140 know it doesn't

01:50:10.600 really have that

01:50:11.180 much impact or

01:50:11.840 any meaning

01:50:12.160 she's giggling

01:50:12.780 right after she

01:50:13.720 said that stupid

01:50:14.380 shit even though

01:50:15.440 she put on her

01:50:15.960 Rosa Parks fit

01:50:16.680 she's still giggling

01:50:17.420 at her stupid

01:50:18.040 nonsense and if

01:50:18.960 there was a guy

01:50:19.440 around she's

01:50:19.920 waiting for a

01:50:20.320 guy to check

01:50:20.840 her she knows

01:50:21.600 that she's gonna

01:50:21.920 say the stupid

01:50:22.520 shit and nothing

01:50:22.980 will happen

01:50:23.260 because she's

01:50:23.560 pretty she's

01:50:23.980 saying nonsense

01:50:24.760 get it you're

01:50:25.740 fighting demons

01:50:26.580 the demon is

01:50:27.660 bisexuality by

01:50:28.920 the way

01:50:29.320 I'm kidding

01:50:31.480 um

01:50:32.760 I just feel

01:50:35.840 like sometimes

01:50:36.500 of all the

01:50:39.740 things that this

01:50:40.520 world could be

01:50:41.220 right like I

01:50:42.280 feel like life

01:50:43.140 like when we're

01:50:43.680 born like we

01:50:44.300 don't choose

01:50:44.680 anything we

01:50:45.220 literally don't

01:50:45.960 choose anything we

01:50:46.660 just randomly ended

01:50:47.580 up here on a

01:50:48.340 random Tuesday

01:50:49.020 afternoon

01:50:49.600 see what I'm

01:50:50.100 saying chat I'm

01:50:50.680 not even having a

01:50:51.260 conversation with

01:50:51.860 everybody I always

01:50:52.220 say this in the

01:50:52.680 streams every time

01:50:54.280 you say something

01:50:55.120 that challenges a

01:50:55.760 bitch which is

01:50:56.200 what I said

01:50:56.660 literally actually

01:50:57.320 what I said

01:50:57.880 because she's

01:50:58.360 reacting to my

01:50:59.060 tiktok and my

01:50:59.740 fucking podcast

01:51:00.600 anytime you say

01:51:03.120 something that

01:51:03.840 goes against

01:51:04.440 their core

01:51:04.980 beliefs they'll

01:51:05.600 call you toxic

01:51:06.380 insecure or

01:51:07.420 gay every

01:51:08.360 single time

01:51:09.000 every single

01:51:10.920 time they don't

01:51:11.960 know how to

01:51:12.280 argue past that

01:51:13.000 they're saying

01:51:13.620 toxic insecure

01:51:14.440 and gay because

01:51:15.320 they're trying to

01:51:15.720 make you they're

01:51:16.380 trying to belittle

01:51:16.840 you instead of

01:51:17.840 respond to the

01:51:18.500 stuff you said

01:51:19.100 the delivery room

01:51:23.580 right we could

01:51:24.420 have been born in

01:51:25.020 1462 wait also

01:51:26.880 we're five six

01:51:28.700 minutes since we

01:51:29.480 reacted to the

01:51:30.420 she hasn't

01:51:31.080 responded to it

01:51:31.860 she's just what

01:51:32.880 has she said

01:51:33.560 chat what

01:51:34.540 points has she

01:51:35.640 made women

01:51:36.760 are you watching

01:51:37.420 what point is

01:51:38.620 she making

01:51:39.180 is it

01:51:41.600 knowing

01:51:41.880 never mind

01:51:44.860 we could have

01:51:45.560 been born

01:51:46.020 what the fuck

01:51:46.680 are you talking

01:51:47.200 genuinely what

01:51:48.220 the fuck

01:51:48.520 are you talking

01:51:48.820 is it

01:51:49.240 knowing

01:51:49.540 what

01:51:50.900 been born

01:51:51.560 in 1462

01:51:52.580 wait

01:51:53.060 is it

01:51:54.520 knowing

01:51:54.820 never mind

01:51:57.780 we could have

01:51:58.480 been born

01:51:59.020 in 10,000

01:52:00.260 bc

01:52:00.800 we could be

01:52:01.680 born right

01:52:02.180 now you

01:52:02.580 know what

01:52:02.840 I mean

01:52:03.080 and of all

01:52:03.640 the things

01:52:04.100 that we

01:52:04.400 could use

01:52:04.860 our human

01:52:05.300 power to

01:52:05.920 do

01:52:06.140 this is

01:52:06.820 like

01:52:07.020 these are

01:52:07.380 like

01:52:07.580 the struggles

01:52:08.880 that we're

01:52:09.420 like contending

01:52:10.420 what are you

01:52:11.100 talking about

01:52:11.880 the video is

01:52:12.580 called becoming

01:52:13.220 a hater

01:52:13.760 envy

01:52:14.500 projection

01:52:15.140 and toxic

01:52:16.280 it's not about

01:52:17.060 anything

01:52:17.540 she's just saying

01:52:18.260 therapy words

01:52:19.180 just saying

01:52:19.960 woman shit

01:52:20.660 she played

01:52:21.760 my tiktok

01:52:22.400 played my video

01:52:23.180 and said

01:52:23.700 nothing about

01:52:24.400 it

01:52:24.760 it's just

01:52:25.600 like

01:52:25.920 it's just

01:52:27.320 it's absurd

01:52:27.960 to me

01:52:28.400 like this is

01:52:29.060 just really

01:52:29.520 absurd

01:52:30.020 but like

01:52:30.600 let's carry

01:52:31.320 on

01:52:31.760 it's like

01:52:32.540 yeah

01:52:33.480 it's sad

01:52:34.640 i feel like

01:52:35.160 we constantly

01:52:35.760 keep reinventing

01:52:36.840 the wheel

01:52:37.120 but yeah

01:52:37.460 we learned

01:52:37.920 about the

01:52:38.360 ways in which

01:52:39.040 like people

01:52:39.540 will wish

01:52:40.020 ill upon us

01:52:40.960 from young

01:52:41.660 like we learned

01:52:42.300 to protect

01:52:42.840 ourselves

01:52:43.200 what are you

01:52:44.140 talking about

01:52:44.920 from their envy

01:52:45.700 from learning

01:52:46.720 to stand up

01:52:47.480 for ourselves

01:52:48.180 and be

01:52:48.620 confrontational

01:52:49.540 like you know

01:52:50.160 if a kid

01:52:50.540 took something

01:52:50.920 from you

01:52:51.420 if you may

01:52:51.900 have a mom

01:52:52.400 that's like

01:52:52.700 go beat them

01:52:53.400 up right now

01:52:54.060 or to avoiding

01:52:55.300 problems

01:52:55.800 and being more

01:52:56.340 passive and shy

01:52:57.320 like hey

01:52:57.880 don't even

01:52:58.360 get into

01:52:58.860 problems

01:52:59.260 just don't

01:53:02.140 fight

01:53:02.460 i don't know

01:53:03.020 genuinely

01:53:03.880 genuinely

01:53:04.600 some woman

01:53:05.640 please in the

01:53:06.360 chat

01:53:06.640 there's

01:53:07.740 fucking

01:53:08.140 oh god

01:53:09.000 someone explain

01:53:09.900 what the fuck

01:53:10.900 is she talking

01:53:11.480 about

01:53:11.820 not on no rage

01:53:13.240 shit

01:53:13.420 i just

01:53:13.820 i have no clue

01:53:15.180 what she's talking

01:53:15.820 about

01:53:16.360 i don't know

01:53:17.100 what you would

01:53:17.460 tell a kid

01:53:17.900 um

01:53:18.880 to knowing

01:53:19.960 maybe not to

01:53:20.780 talk about

01:53:21.300 certain successes

01:53:22.220 around certain

01:53:23.080 people because

01:53:23.860 we know that

01:53:24.640 we can invite

01:53:25.340 envy when we

01:53:26.140 do that

01:53:26.600 and that can

01:53:27.180 put us in

01:53:27.720 harm's way

01:53:28.400 to even

01:53:29.320 engaging in

01:53:29.980 superstitions

01:53:30.840 and i would

01:53:31.500 still i hate

01:53:32.620 men i hate

01:53:33.700 me because i

01:53:34.660 still would

01:53:35.300 fuck

01:53:35.680 and she's

01:53:38.020 making no

01:53:39.060 fucking sense

01:53:40.300 bro

01:53:40.660 modifilms two

01:53:41.540 dollars my ears

01:53:42.260 are bleeding

01:53:42.800 please turn her

01:53:43.760 off modifilms

01:53:44.900 you would still

01:53:45.820 put your dick

01:53:46.480 in her mouth

01:53:46.980 you know you

01:53:47.820 would just

01:53:49.180 shut up with

01:53:50.580 your points

01:53:51.120 with your toxic

01:53:52.380 positive whatever

01:53:53.280 and

01:53:57.180 she got a

01:53:57.780 nice smile

01:53:58.420 but what

01:53:59.200 the fuck

01:54:00.160 are you

01:54:00.480 talking

01:54:00.920 about

01:54:01.340 i'm like

01:54:05.280 oh god

01:54:06.320 you say she

01:54:07.940 might have

01:54:08.300 adhd

01:54:08.900 no you

01:54:09.780 i have

01:54:10.440 bro

01:54:10.840 first of all

01:54:11.800 that's just

01:54:12.060 not real

01:54:12.440 and you say

01:54:12.900 i have that

01:54:13.380 every day

01:54:13.800 i'm still

01:54:14.480 capable of

01:54:15.160 making

01:54:15.560 coherent

01:54:16.560 sentences

01:54:17.360 and saying

01:54:18.680 something

01:54:19.080 even if you

01:54:19.560 disagree

01:54:20.020 something that

01:54:21.220 makes sense

01:54:22.400 i'm making

01:54:23.300 points

01:54:24.160 bro

01:54:24.960 why would

01:54:25.460 you go

01:54:25.720 on youtube

01:54:26.160 put a camera

01:54:27.180 get ready

01:54:27.900 and say

01:54:28.840 what the

01:54:29.920 fuck

01:54:30.600 ward off

01:54:31.120 people's

01:54:31.680 envy

01:54:32.080 and like

01:54:32.560 the evil

01:54:33.060 eye

01:54:33.520 the older

01:54:34.600 i get

01:54:34.980 the more

01:54:35.360 i truly

01:54:35.740 see how

01:54:36.240 much

01:54:36.440 envy

01:54:36.700 there is

01:54:37.400 and it

01:54:37.740 can be

01:54:38.060 as petty

01:54:38.600 as like

01:54:39.080 someone

01:54:39.380 not letting

01:54:39.980 you know

01:54:40.300 you have

01:54:40.620 something

01:54:40.920 in your

01:54:41.220 teeth

01:54:41.560 around

01:54:41.860 someone

01:54:42.160 you

01:54:42.400 like

01:54:42.880 or

01:54:43.800 like

01:54:44.440 literal

01:54:45.000 obsession

01:54:45.800 that then

01:54:47.000 turns into

01:54:47.520 murder

01:54:48.120 um

01:54:48.860 so you

01:54:49.800 know

01:54:49.980 the range

01:54:51.000 there truly

01:54:51.560 is a lot

01:54:52.080 of range

01:54:52.640 in the way

01:54:53.020 people express

01:54:53.720 their envy

01:54:54.280 and i feel

01:54:54.760 like i

01:54:55.480 have i've

01:54:56.340 grown up

01:54:56.820 pretty naive

01:54:57.480 because i'm

01:54:58.220 not naturally

01:54:59.320 that envious

01:55:00.480 i have not

01:55:02.360 recognized

01:55:03.000 people's envy

01:55:04.300 what the

01:55:04.980 fuck does

01:55:05.640 it have to

01:55:06.140 do with

01:55:06.580 my videos

01:55:07.280 what the

01:55:09.300 fuck does

01:55:10.040 this have to

01:55:10.520 do with

01:55:10.980 anything

01:55:11.520 why did

01:55:12.720 she play

01:55:13.140 my clips

01:55:13.740 ten dollars

01:55:21.180 from simon

01:55:21.660 bro sneaker

01:55:22.180 i watched

01:55:22.540 the reaction

01:55:22.980 vid when

01:55:23.420 that dude

01:55:23.800 take got

01:55:24.260 canceled

01:55:24.640 all your

01:55:25.320 takes are

01:55:25.640 w's

01:55:25.960 don't worry

01:55:26.260 about your

01:55:26.560 lane fans

01:55:27.000 you want

01:55:27.700 ten man

01:55:28.160 what's

01:55:28.440 one

01:55:28.760 uh

01:55:29.600 keep

01:55:29.840 pushing

01:55:30.060 it

01:55:30.200 dude

01:55:30.400 bro

01:55:30.780 it's

01:55:31.820 i don't

01:55:32.200 even feel

01:55:32.680 i'm just

01:55:32.960 trying to

01:55:33.260 figure out

01:55:33.620 what she's

01:55:33.960 saying

01:55:34.320 thank you

01:55:35.180 five uh

01:55:36.060 mr gaborama

01:55:36.760 you need to

01:55:37.120 start doing

01:55:37.440 stand-up

01:55:37.820 again bro

01:55:38.200 these rift

01:55:38.600 takes you

01:55:38.900 been doing

01:55:39.180 since you

01:55:39.440 started

01:55:39.620 streaming

01:55:39.800 are

01:55:39.900 hilarious

01:55:40.260 it could

01:55:40.460 be

01:55:40.540 turned

01:55:40.700 into

01:55:40.860 fire

01:55:41.120 bits

01:55:41.440 yeah

01:55:44.040 but just

01:55:45.240 like it

01:55:45.540 writes

01:55:45.800 itself

01:55:46.360 it's

01:55:47.580 not

01:55:47.820 i just

01:55:48.340 i'm

01:55:48.560 literally

01:55:49.060 just trying

01:55:49.640 to listen

01:55:50.060 to what

01:55:50.380 she's

01:55:50.620 saying

01:55:50.940 genuinely

01:55:52.380 without

01:55:52.720 any

01:55:53.160 blinders

01:55:53.680 just

01:55:53.860 trying

01:55:54.040 to

01:55:54.140 listen

01:55:54.340 to

01:55:54.460 my

01:55:54.580 headphones

01:55:54.860 what

01:55:55.440 are

01:55:55.720 you

01:55:55.900 fucking

01:55:56.560 talking

01:55:56.960 about

01:55:57.360 and i

01:56:01.780 i'm not even

01:56:03.760 trying to be

01:56:04.160 funny i'm just

01:56:04.760 i'm legitimately

01:56:05.620 frustrated

01:56:06.320 this is what

01:56:07.880 you this is

01:56:08.620 what we deal

01:56:09.200 with trying to

01:56:09.700 get some

01:56:10.000 pussy man

01:56:10.580 you gotta

01:56:11.960 hear like

01:56:12.760 nothing

01:56:14.420 not

01:56:15.040 legitimately

01:56:15.740 nothing

01:56:16.340 like i

01:56:18.520 have i've

01:56:19.380 grown up

01:56:19.860 pretty naive

01:56:20.520 because i'm

01:56:21.280 not naturally

01:56:22.360 that envious

01:56:23.500 i have not

01:56:25.400 recognized

01:56:26.040 people's envy

01:56:27.360 and as

01:56:28.420 someone that

01:56:28.980 has had

01:56:29.640 and i finish

01:56:30.200 every sentence

01:56:31.020 like this

01:56:32.620 because i have

01:56:33.560 no point

01:56:34.340 and i'm just

01:56:35.260 talking with my

01:56:36.300 feelings

01:56:36.900 and i don't

01:56:38.220 really know

01:56:38.820 where it's

01:56:39.260 going the

01:56:39.720 next point

01:56:40.320 i just

01:56:41.260 played two

01:56:41.720 clips

01:56:42.140 and now

01:56:42.800 i'm gonna

01:56:43.160 talk

01:56:43.600 this is

01:56:43.960 not beginning

01:56:44.340 it's a

01:56:44.640 personal

01:56:44.960 anecdote

01:56:45.440 as

01:56:45.720 someone that's

01:56:46.240 been on

01:56:46.540 like social

01:56:46.980 media for

01:56:47.460 a long

01:56:47.780 time

01:56:48.140 and has

01:56:48.520 had a

01:56:48.860 lot

01:56:49.020 like

01:56:49.260 social

01:56:49.680 clout

01:56:50.140 in that

01:56:50.440 sense

01:56:50.700 i came

01:56:51.580 through

01:56:51.780 from the

01:56:52.120 perspective

01:56:52.620 of like

01:56:53.280 weird art

01:56:54.260 kid

01:56:54.600 it's like

01:56:55.300 i don't really

01:56:55.860 care about

01:56:56.400 these things

01:56:56.940 i'm just

01:56:57.280 trying to be

01:56:57.760 like present

01:56:58.340 with you

01:56:58.800 and have

01:56:59.140 a good

01:56:59.360 time

01:56:59.660 but i

01:57:00.120 never really

01:57:00.660 realized

01:57:01.140 how like

01:57:01.600 some people

01:57:02.060 were actively

01:57:03.300 like clowning

01:57:04.140 me in front

01:57:04.740 of my face

01:57:05.380 were actively

01:57:06.020 talking down

01:57:06.800 to me

01:57:07.180 in front

01:57:07.740 of my

01:57:08.040 face

01:57:08.380 i've

01:57:08.900 literally

01:57:09.380 even to

01:57:09.980 this day

01:57:10.300 i struggle

01:57:10.800 with the

01:57:11.200 idea that

01:57:11.800 people are

01:57:12.240 speaking

01:57:12.540 negatively

01:57:13.060 about me

01:57:13.660 shut

01:57:14.360 the

01:57:14.840 fuck

01:57:15.540 up

01:57:16.500 oh

01:57:17.860 my

01:57:18.280 fucking

01:57:19.080 god

01:57:19.560 bro

01:57:19.960 are you

01:57:20.660 you're not

01:57:21.200 in therapy

01:57:22.020 what is

01:57:23.340 anyone

01:57:23.660 getting

01:57:24.120 from these

01:57:24.600 videos

01:57:25.040 bro

01:57:25.420 i have

01:57:30.800 a male

01:57:31.100 friend

01:57:31.380 that

01:57:31.580 literally

01:57:31.840 likes

01:57:32.240 and then

01:57:32.500 dislikes

01:57:32.860 all my

01:57:33.180 instagram

01:57:33.440 photos

01:57:33.800 because

01:57:34.060 he

01:57:34.240 doesn't

01:57:34.520 like

01:57:34.660 the

01:57:34.820 fact

01:57:34.980 that

01:57:35.140 i

01:57:35.240 get

01:57:35.360 so

01:57:35.520 many

01:57:35.660 likes

01:57:36.020 it's

01:57:36.540 so

01:57:36.720 weird

01:57:37.060 why

01:57:37.300 men

01:57:37.740 are

01:57:37.900 envious

01:57:38.240 of

01:57:38.520 women

01:57:38.760 they're

01:57:39.280 not

01:57:39.480 envious

01:57:39.960 you

01:57:40.200 dumb

01:57:40.500 bitch

01:57:40.800 they don't

01:57:41.560 understand

01:57:42.120 what

01:57:42.340 the

01:57:42.480 fuck

01:57:42.640 that

01:57:42.840 is

01:57:43.200 oh

01:57:45.200 god

01:57:45.640 bro

01:57:46.020 it's

01:57:46.400 not

01:57:46.640 envy

01:57:47.160 we

01:57:47.780 just

01:57:47.940 don't

01:57:48.060 want

01:57:48.180 to

01:57:48.280 give

01:57:48.440 you

01:57:48.560 he's

01:57:48.840 trying

01:57:49.000 to

01:57:49.160 fuck

01:57:49.440 you

01:57:49.620 stupid

01:57:50.100 it's

01:57:50.640 not

01:57:50.780 a

01:57:50.960 male

01:57:51.160 friend

01:57:51.640 he

01:57:52.060 thinks

01:57:52.300 that

01:57:52.460 if

01:57:52.580 he

01:57:52.680 takes

01:57:53.240 away

01:57:53.480 attention

01:57:53.860 he

01:57:54.020 can

01:57:54.140 fuck

01:57:54.520 you

01:57:54.780 they're

01:57:55.480 so

01:57:55.740 clueless

01:57:56.480 this

01:57:57.540 is

01:57:57.660 what

01:57:57.800 i

01:57:57.960 mean

01:57:58.200 but

01:57:58.360 someone's

01:57:58.760 like

01:57:58.880 do

01:57:59.020 you

01:57:59.120 think

01:57:59.240 you

01:57:59.320 can

01:57:59.480 explain

01:58:00.040 the

01:58:00.200 male

01:58:00.340 experience

01:58:00.800 i

01:58:01.260 just

01:58:01.580 did

01:58:01.800 here

01:58:02.080 this

01:58:02.860 dude

01:58:03.220 in

01:58:03.500 one

01:58:03.840 sentence

01:58:04.140 i

01:58:04.260 could

01:58:04.360 explain

01:58:04.900 her

01:58:05.140 male

01:58:05.760 friend

01:58:06.320 you

01:58:06.740 fucking

01:58:07.120 dummy

01:58:07.640 it's

01:58:08.560 not

01:58:08.760 a

01:58:08.880 male

01:58:09.040 friend

01:58:09.280 it's

01:58:09.440 a

01:58:09.520 guy

01:58:09.600 trying

01:58:09.820 to

01:58:09.940 fuck

01:58:10.200 you

01:58:10.420 you

01:58:10.780 you

01:58:10.820 think

01:58:11.040 that

01:58:11.200 he's

01:58:11.440 unliking

01:58:12.060 and liking

01:58:12.460 your instagram

01:58:12.940 photos

01:58:13.400 because

01:58:13.880 he's

01:58:14.180 jealous

01:58:14.440 of

01:58:14.660 your

01:58:14.800 likes

01:58:15.320 no

01:58:16.260 no

01:58:18.880 no

01:58:19.700 no

01:58:20.160 no

01:58:20.500 no

01:58:20.900 he's

01:58:21.500 trying

01:58:21.880 to

01:58:22.140 fuck

01:58:22.680 you

01:58:22.920 angelica

01:58:23.760 you

01:58:24.240 asmr

01:58:25.180 columbia

01:58:25.740 you

01:58:26.320 make

01:58:26.600 asmr

01:58:27.280 videos

01:58:27.620 of course

01:58:27.980 you don't

01:58:28.260 know

01:58:28.440 what

01:58:28.560 the

01:58:28.700 fuck

01:58:28.880 is

01:58:29.000 happening

01:58:29.320 bro

01:58:29.560 i'm

01:58:29.780 just

01:58:29.980 so

01:58:30.220 fucking

01:58:30.520 sick

01:58:30.760 of

01:58:30.860 this

01:58:31.000 bro

01:58:31.220 i'm

01:58:32.620 so

01:58:32.820 fucking

01:58:33.160 sick

01:58:33.400 of

01:58:33.500 this

01:58:33.620 bro

01:58:33.880 this

01:58:37.200 is

01:58:37.380 so

01:58:37.620 true

01:58:38.060 their

01:58:38.560 entitlement

01:58:39.020 over

01:58:39.400 someone

01:58:39.740 else's

01:58:40.100 needs

01:58:40.440 wants

01:58:40.800 body

01:58:41.200 emotions

01:58:41.780 are

01:58:42.380 rooted

01:58:42.680 in

01:58:42.880 envy

01:58:43.240 what

01:58:44.300 okay

01:58:51.940 so

01:58:52.140 she

01:58:52.340 thinks

01:58:52.700 that

01:58:52.880 i said

01:58:53.240 the

01:58:53.420 shit

01:58:53.660 that

01:58:54.260 it's

01:58:55.640 not

01:58:55.860 envy

01:58:56.340 of

01:58:56.680 a

01:58:56.820 woman's

01:58:57.120 beauty

01:58:57.440 we

01:58:57.940 just

01:58:58.160 did

01:58:58.340 the

01:58:58.500 poll

01:58:58.840 the

01:58:59.080 whole

01:58:59.320 chat

01:58:59.640 nobody

01:58:59.960 wants

01:59:00.300 to

01:59:00.440 be

01:59:00.620 an

01:59:00.760 object

01:59:01.040 we

01:59:01.300 all

01:59:01.460 want

01:59:01.640 to

01:59:01.760 be

01:59:01.960 we

01:59:02.680 all

01:59:02.900 want

01:59:03.060 to

01:59:03.120 be

01:59:03.260 men

01:59:03.660 even

01:59:04.400 the

01:59:04.600 women

01:59:04.840 said

01:59:05.240 w

01:59:05.720 to

01:59:06.040 be

01:59:06.240 in

01:59:06.340 the

01:59:06.480 fucker

01:59:06.860 not

01:59:07.060 the

01:59:07.240 fuck

01:59:07.520 e

01:59:07.700 nobody

01:59:08.480 is

01:59:08.720 envious

01:59:09.140 of

01:59:09.340 being

01:59:09.540 you

01:59:09.940 are

01:59:11.440 you

01:59:11.620 kidding

01:59:11.940 you

01:59:12.800 can

01:59:12.960 think

01:59:13.180 that

01:59:13.340 all

01:59:13.460 you

01:59:13.600 want

01:59:13.820 keep

01:59:14.060 thinking

01:59:14.300 that

01:59:14.500 please

01:59:14.760 so you

01:59:14.980 stop

01:59:15.180 trying

01:59:15.520 to be

01:59:15.840 men

01:59:16.200 i promise

01:59:17.180 you

01:59:17.500 bro

01:59:18.080 it's not

01:59:18.720 envy

01:59:19.260 it's

01:59:20.580 it's just

01:59:21.140 it's just

01:59:21.860 ugh

01:59:23.080 ugh

01:59:24.740 oh

01:59:26.880 my

01:59:27.280 god

01:59:28.000 this

01:59:29.120 is

01:59:29.320 what

01:59:29.600 you

01:59:29.840 are

01:59:30.280 i

01:59:32.180 want

01:59:32.380 to

01:59:32.540 fuck

01:59:32.780 that

01:59:33.240 so

01:59:33.700 bad

01:59:34.220 i'm

01:59:34.980 listening

01:59:35.240 to

01:59:35.420 this

01:59:35.640 asmr

01:59:36.340 streamer

01:59:36.720 jerking

01:59:37.120 off

01:59:37.360 and

01:59:37.500 she's

01:59:37.800 that

01:59:38.060 dumb

01:59:38.660 and

01:59:44.900 it's

01:59:45.100 not

01:59:45.300 because

01:59:45.640 i'm

01:59:45.860 arrogant

01:59:46.280 it's

01:59:46.620 literally

01:59:46.820 because

01:59:47.220 like

01:59:47.500 i'm

01:59:47.980 like

01:59:48.160 what

01:59:48.380 could

01:59:48.580 you

01:59:48.720 possibly

01:59:49.220 say

01:59:49.700 like

01:59:49.980 i'm

01:59:50.180 like

01:59:50.400 what

01:59:50.580 am

01:59:50.720 i

01:59:50.880 doing

01:59:51.240 i

01:59:51.440 like

01:59:51.680 have

01:59:51.940 i'm

01:59:52.260 i'm

01:59:52.600 kind

01:59:52.980 of

01:59:53.160 ignorant

01:59:53.540 in

01:59:53.860 that

01:59:54.080 sense

01:59:54.460 yeah

01:59:54.860 but

01:59:55.300 as

01:59:55.520 i

01:59:55.660 get

01:59:55.820 older

01:59:56.180 i

01:59:56.380 really

01:59:56.640 realize

01:59:57.100 like

01:59:57.360 you

01:59:58.660 don't

02:00:00.140 like

02:00:00.640 me

02:00:01.060 and

02:00:01.540 you

02:00:01.960 don't

02:00:02.820 want

02:00:03.140 to

02:00:03.300 see

02:00:03.580 me

02:00:03.920 win

02:00:04.360 no

02:00:04.720 it's

02:00:05.120 i

02:00:05.240 don't

02:00:05.360 give

02:00:05.500 a

02:00:05.700 fuck

02:00:05.920 about

02:00:06.140 you

02:00:06.400 winning

02:00:07.000 it

02:00:08.980 has

02:00:09.140 nothing

02:00:09.480 to

02:00:09.680 do

02:00:09.840 with

02:00:10.000 you

02:00:10.140 winning

02:00:10.480 i

02:00:10.780 just

02:00:10.980 don't

02:00:11.320 like

02:00:11.700 you

02:00:12.020 i

02:00:13.080 hate

02:00:13.400 the

02:00:13.620 fact

02:00:13.880 that

02:00:14.060 i

02:00:14.200 still

02:00:14.480 want

02:00:14.700 to

02:00:14.820 fuck

02:00:15.160 you

02:00:15.420 even

02:00:15.960 though

02:00:16.240 you're

02:00:16.480 so

02:00:16.980 nonsensical

02:00:18.080 and

02:00:18.520 you've

02:00:18.780 said

02:00:18.960 nothing

02:00:19.380 for

02:00:19.640 fucking

02:00:20.000 nine

02:00:20.440 minutes

02:00:20.780 straight

02:00:21.280 and

02:00:24.060 i

02:00:24.280 don't

02:00:24.500 know

02:00:24.700 what

02:00:24.900 to

02:00:25.040 do

02:00:25.240 with

02:00:25.400 that

02:00:25.560 information

02:00:26.160 so

02:00:27.340 it's

02:00:28.300 real

02:00:28.740 you

02:00:30.080 want

02:00:30.240 to

02:00:30.340 figure

02:00:30.960 out

02:00:31.260 fucking

02:00:31.640 what's

02:00:31.880 your

02:00:31.940 name

02:00:32.120 monica

02:00:32.980 why

02:00:33.240 we

02:00:33.380 don't

02:00:33.500 like

02:00:33.720 you

02:00:33.900 because

02:00:34.140 i

02:00:34.260 want

02:00:34.400 to

02:00:34.540 fuck

02:00:34.740 you

02:00:34.900 even

02:00:35.180 though

02:00:35.320 you

02:00:35.460 sound

02:00:35.660 like

02:00:35.820 this

02:00:36.080 listen

02:00:36.880 listen

02:00:37.360 close

02:00:37.680 women

02:00:37.940 in

02:00:38.080 the

02:00:38.160 chat

02:00:38.340 listen

02:00:39.060 you

02:00:43.640 heard

02:00:43.860 that

02:00:44.320 that's

02:00:51.720 why

02:00:52.040 it's

02:00:53.180 not

02:00:53.420 envy

02:00:53.800 that's

02:00:55.380 why

02:00:55.720 so

02:00:56.760 it's

02:00:57.640 real

02:00:58.000 when you

02:00:58.740 actually

02:00:59.240 have

02:00:59.720 stuff

02:01:00.320 like

02:01:00.680 when you

02:01:01.040 actually

02:01:01.460 start

02:01:01.860 to

02:01:02.080 like

02:01:02.300 succeed

02:01:02.840 or

02:01:03.120 when

02:01:03.260 you

02:01:03.400 actually

02:01:03.720 start

02:01:04.000 to

02:01:04.180 like

02:01:04.340 acquire

02:01:04.900 things

02:01:05.440 that's

02:01:06.000 when

02:01:06.120 you

02:01:06.400 really

02:01:06.800 start

02:01:07.240 seeing

02:01:07.600 people

02:01:08.040 act

02:01:08.440 different

02:01:08.780 around

02:01:09.140 you

02:01:09.420 and

02:01:09.760 I

02:01:09.880 feel

02:01:10.000 like

02:01:10.120 I've

02:01:10.280 been

02:01:10.400 experiencing

02:01:11.040 that

02:01:11.400 for a

02:01:11.800 minute

02:01:12.040 but also

02:01:14.040 in many

02:01:14.360 ways

02:01:14.560 I've also

02:01:14.940 been expressing

02:01:15.560 it myself

02:01:16.260 so I get

02:01:16.920 it

02:01:17.020 it's just

02:01:17.300 nothing

02:01:17.740 thank you

02:01:18.120 for the

02:01:18.320 20 Simon

02:01:18.840 you're

02:01:19.520 smart as

02:01:19.860 hell for

02:01:20.100 streaming

02:01:20.320 bro

02:01:20.640 you're

02:01:21.240 gonna keep

02:01:21.440 going

02:01:21.680 up

02:01:21.840 you're

02:01:22.100 gonna hit

02:01:22.500 seven

02:01:22.760 figures

02:01:23.000 if you

02:01:23.240 keep

02:01:23.400 going

02:01:23.660 I mean

02:01:24.780 hopefully

02:01:25.260 and then

02:01:25.740 I'll just

02:01:26.140 never have to

02:01:26.680 talk to

02:01:26.940 these bitches

02:01:27.260 again

02:01:27.620 and I'll just

02:01:28.080 have

02:01:28.320 you know

02:01:29.260 when you

02:01:29.600 get seven

02:01:30.040 figures

02:01:30.440 when you

02:01:30.840 get to

02:01:31.040 a certain

02:01:31.300 point

02:01:31.600 you don't

02:01:32.220 need to

02:01:32.460 keep

02:01:32.760 listening

02:01:33.100 to them

02:01:33.480 like

02:01:34.220 the only

02:01:34.440 reason

02:01:34.640 I keep

02:01:35.080 needing

02:01:35.260 to listen

02:01:35.720 to them

02:01:36.020 and sit

02:01:36.300 down

02:01:36.460 on dates

02:01:36.820 is because

02:01:37.100 we're

02:01:37.460 kind of

02:01:37.880 on the

02:01:38.120 same

02:01:38.320 level

02:01:38.620 in life

02:01:39.060 like

02:01:40.060 eventually

02:01:40.360 when I

02:01:40.620 get to

02:01:40.800 the point

02:01:41.160 where I'm

02:01:41.560 like

02:01:41.760 fucking

02:01:42.060 like

02:01:42.340 private

02:01:42.960 like

02:01:43.380 I don't

02:01:43.800 know

02:01:43.920 if I'm

02:01:44.120 ever

02:01:44.260 gonna

02:01:44.420 get

02:01:44.640 there

02:01:44.820 but

02:01:45.060 there's

02:01:47.180 a certain

02:01:47.480 level

02:01:47.700 where you

02:01:48.060 don't

02:01:48.580 need

02:01:48.700 to keep

02:01:48.960 tolerating

02:01:49.620 their

02:01:49.780 fucking

02:01:50.080 nonsense

02:01:50.460 and

02:01:58.080 suck

02:01:58.440 dick

02:01:58.760 maybe

02:01:59.940 I'm

02:02:00.420 experiencing

02:02:00.900 it

02:02:01.440 because

02:02:01.720 I'm

02:02:01.940 expressing

02:02:02.440 it

02:02:02.840 and

02:02:03.360 my

02:02:03.900 like

02:02:04.700 perspective

02:02:05.320 is becoming

02:02:05.980 my reality

02:02:06.880 but

02:02:07.680 there is

02:02:08.260 the reality

02:02:08.840 that some

02:02:09.360 people can

02:02:09.800 get so

02:02:10.200 envious

02:02:10.740 that they

02:02:11.380 will try

02:02:11.800 to take

02:02:12.200 everything

02:02:12.540 from you

02:02:12.980 and I

02:02:13.220 think

02:02:13.400 we all

02:02:13.720 also

02:02:13.980 understand

02:02:14.580 that

02:02:14.980 so

02:02:16.540 with all

02:02:18.200 this

02:02:18.460 acknowledgement

02:02:20.020 of people's

02:02:20.700 hate

02:02:21.000 and envy

02:02:21.640 where do

02:02:22.060 we sit

02:02:22.540 with our

02:02:22.980 own

02:02:23.380 because

02:02:24.240 that's

02:02:24.540 what we

02:02:24.800 can control

02:02:25.320 we can't

02:02:25.800 control

02:02:26.200 like

02:02:26.700 what

02:02:27.020 how people

02:02:27.540 are going

02:02:27.840 to react

02:02:28.340 to us

02:02:28.780 we can't

02:02:29.220 control

02:02:29.520 anything

02:02:29.980 but we

02:02:30.900 can control

02:02:31.500 how we

02:02:31.900 react

02:02:32.280 to the

02:02:32.580 world

02:02:32.820 and what

02:02:33.200 we project

02:02:33.820 as well

02:02:34.240 within

02:02:34.880 christianity

02:02:35.700 there are

02:02:36.240 the seven

02:02:36.800 deadly

02:02:37.260 sins

02:02:37.480 now you

02:02:37.720 gonna talk

02:02:38.040 about

02:02:38.220 fucking

02:02:38.540 religion

02:02:38.920 just

02:02:39.320 just

02:02:39.520 shut

02:02:40.480 the

02:02:40.840 fuck

02:02:41.460 up

02:02:41.880 what

02:02:43.940 does

02:02:44.160 this

02:02:44.320 have

02:02:44.480 anything

02:02:44.920 to

02:02:45.160 do

02:02:45.400 envy

02:02:46.500 lust

02:02:47.220 gluttony

02:02:48.140 and

02:02:48.460 swath

02:02:49.300 being

02:02:50.020 lazy

02:02:50.420 is

02:02:50.640 a sin

02:02:51.080 y'all

02:02:52.440 envy

02:02:53.580 is

02:02:54.000 a sin

02:02:54.540 therefore

02:02:54.980 by christians

02:02:55.920 understandings

02:02:57.080 is morally

02:02:57.700 bad

02:02:58.180 and while

02:02:58.540 within

02:02:58.860 christianity

02:02:59.680 this is not

02:03:00.160 she

02:03:00.420 fucking

02:03:00.820 brought up

02:03:01.280 the bible

02:03:01.760 and listed

02:03:02.160 the deadly

02:03:02.660 sins

02:03:03.100 to say

02:03:03.520 that envy

02:03:03.980 is bad

02:03:04.460 this is what

02:03:05.220 i'm saying

02:03:05.580 they don't

02:03:05.880 talk about

02:03:06.280 anything

02:03:06.560 i'm fucking

02:03:07.140 done watching

02:03:07.700 this video

02:03:08.180 that's done

02:03:09.820 that's done

02:03:11.700 man

02:03:12.040 but she needs

02:03:12.880 to see this

02:03:13.240 i need to clip

02:03:13.680 this so you

02:03:14.020 can see

02:03:14.300 this shit

02:03:14.740 because jesus

02:03:16.160 okay a little

02:03:16.680 more

02:03:16.920 a little

02:03:17.180 more

02:03:17.480 because i

02:03:17.940 want to

02:03:18.180 hear her

02:03:18.560 experience

02:03:19.680 you

02:03:23.660 didn't

02:03:24.200 randomly

02:03:24.600 stumble

02:03:25.060 upon

02:03:25.380 a christian

02:03:25.960 youtube

02:03:26.200 channel

02:03:26.660 don't

02:03:27.200 worry

02:03:27.520 like i'm

02:03:28.220 not about

02:03:28.640 to give

02:03:28.960 y'all a

02:03:29.320 sermon

02:03:29.620 i'm using

02:03:30.440 this as

02:03:30.840 an example

02:03:31.440 but within

02:03:32.580 christianity

02:03:33.580 like no

02:03:34.320 sin is

02:03:34.880 irredeemable

02:03:36.080 by god

02:03:36.880 oh my

02:03:37.420 gosh

02:03:37.920 she's so

02:03:43.520 stupid

02:03:44.020 you will be

02:03:44.620 forgiven

02:03:45.000 if you are

02:03:46.040 truly sorry

02:03:46.800 or something

02:03:47.540 like that

02:03:48.060 um so

02:03:49.060 it's there's

02:03:49.740 nothing like

02:03:50.300 you will

02:03:50.700 recover from

02:03:51.600 your sin

02:03:52.280 from one

02:03:52.920 of your

02:03:53.180 deadly sins

02:03:53.980 of envy

02:03:54.680 but within

02:03:56.020 a lot of

02:03:56.500 the western

02:03:56.880 perspective

02:03:57.500 on good

02:03:58.020 versus evil

02:03:58.780 like that

02:03:59.260 dualistic

02:03:59.920 like it's

02:04:00.480 it's either

02:04:00.900 you're good

02:04:01.360 or you're

02:04:01.720 bad

02:04:02.080 i think

02:04:02.740 that is

02:04:04.060 like truly

02:04:04.600 the root

02:04:05.120 of a lot

02:04:05.600 of our

02:04:05.880 suffering

02:04:06.440 or rather

02:04:07.200 there is

02:04:08.000 always

02:04:08.600 suffering

02:04:09.100 no matter

02:04:09.560 what we

02:04:10.080 do

02:04:10.400 but we

02:04:11.140 struggle

02:04:11.520 to accept

02:04:12.200 that reality

02:04:12.920 because we're

02:04:13.460 too busy

02:04:13.920 trying to

02:04:14.380 rationalize

02:04:15.100 it

02:04:15.320 and whether

02:04:15.980 you're

02:04:16.300 religious

02:04:16.700 what

02:04:17.160 the

02:04:17.760 fuck

02:04:18.400 i'm just

02:04:18.900 gonna keep

02:04:19.300 saying it

02:04:19.740 the more

02:04:20.020 you don't

02:04:20.240 make sense

02:04:20.640 what the

02:04:21.300 fuck

02:04:21.800 are you

02:04:22.020 talking

02:04:22.280 about

02:04:22.580 because of

02:04:23.580 how our

02:04:24.080 culture

02:04:24.660 our western

02:04:25.340 culture

02:04:25.880 is structured

02:04:26.580 even if

02:04:27.420 you're not

02:04:27.860 christian

02:04:28.500 like

02:04:29.020 cultured

02:04:30.620 christian

02:04:31.260 shut the

02:04:31.960 fuck up

02:04:32.520 okay

02:04:32.920 it's just

02:04:33.500 it's just

02:04:34.680 it's just

02:04:35.600 i'm done

02:04:37.240 i'm actually

02:04:38.560 done now

02:04:39.260 mohammed

02:04:41.080 donated two

02:04:41.580 dollars to

02:04:42.240 say no

02:04:42.840 turn it

02:04:43.760 off

02:04:44.040 please

02:04:44.540 bro

02:04:45.040 monica

02:04:45.680 this is

02:04:46.020 what you

02:04:46.260 sound like

02:04:46.700 to men

02:04:47.140 this is

02:04:48.320 what you

02:04:48.520 look like

02:04:48.900 when you

02:04:49.140 talk too

02:04:49.540 much

02:04:49.720 bro

02:04:49.860 just

02:04:50.060 maybe

02:04:50.540 stop

02:04:50.920 talking

02:04:51.320 because

02:04:51.720 why are

02:04:57.220 you dressed

02:04:57.620 like that

02:04:58.160 what

02:04:59.540 sign up

02:05:06.480 sign up

02:05:06.500 for be

02:05:06.880 educated

02:05:07.420 she's

02:05:07.840 educated

02:05:08.220 she has

02:05:08.500 a course

02:05:09.120 bro

02:05:10.440 this

02:05:10.740 bitch

02:05:10.960 has a

02:05:11.280 course

02:05:11.920 chat

02:05:21.860 chat

02:05:22.360 chat

02:05:22.600 chat

02:05:22.900 chat

02:05:23.160 chat

02:05:23.400 chat

02:05:23.700 chat

02:05:24.060 i don't know

02:05:25.420 if you

02:05:25.580 hear from

02:05:25.880 an hour

02:05:26.180 ago

02:05:26.400 this

02:05:26.620 bitch

02:05:26.840 said

02:05:27.080 she's

02:05:27.380 depressed

02:05:28.020 she says

02:05:29.140 i've never

02:05:29.700 been more

02:05:30.200 depressed

02:05:30.440 she said

02:05:31.020 maybe i'm

02:05:31.600 more depressed

02:05:32.100 now

02:05:32.540 the only other

02:05:33.880 times i might

02:05:34.380 have been more

02:05:34.700 depressed is when

02:05:35.240 i was 19 in

02:05:36.020 college getting

02:05:36.560 dicked down by

02:05:37.200 guys in their

02:05:37.680 40s and

02:05:38.620 she's selling a

02:05:39.520 course on

02:05:40.520 happiness

02:05:41.220 what is

02:05:43.040 happening

02:05:43.580 what is

02:05:44.740 happening

02:05:45.200 everyone's a

02:05:47.200 self-improvement

02:05:48.020 life coach

02:05:48.740 y'all genuinely

02:05:50.480 don't know what

02:05:51.260 the fuck you're

02:05:52.080 talking about

02:05:52.720 and you're

02:05:53.620 selling a

02:05:54.220 course on

02:05:54.800 happiness

02:05:55.460 on

02:06:02.460 sexual

02:06:03.160 health

02:06:03.800 and

02:06:04.040 happiness

02:06:04.560 you made

02:06:05.720 a whole

02:06:06.060 video saying

02:06:06.920 you got

02:06:07.400 fucked

02:06:07.880 for years

02:06:08.600 and were

02:06:09.100 you were

02:06:09.800 a victim

02:06:10.340 because you

02:06:10.960 were getting

02:06:11.240 fucked

02:06:11.860 for years

02:06:13.020 by older

02:06:13.580 men and

02:06:14.080 now you're

02:06:14.580 selling a

02:06:16.000 course on

02:06:16.540 sexual health

02:06:17.180 you stupid

02:06:18.140 bitch

02:06:18.560 you stupid

02:06:20.560 bitch bro

02:06:21.160 you're depressed

02:06:23.340 selling a

02:06:24.100 course on

02:06:24.580 happiness

02:06:25.060 what is

02:06:26.080 happening

02:06:26.600 chat

02:06:27.240 what is

02:06:27.840 going on

02:06:28.420 you're

02:06:33.600 and

02:06:34.060 I'm

02:06:34.420 fucking

02:06:34.780 I'm

02:06:35.260 going on

02:06:35.840 to

02:06:37.800 you

02:06:41.920 what is

SNEAKO - June 02, 2022

SNEAKO VS TRAUMATIZED WOMAN

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