SNEAKO - SNEAKO VS. TRAUMATIZED WOMAN PT. 2

00:00:00.000 chat has been obsessing over this telling me to react to her because she made a video saying uh 0.73

00:00:04.500 monica versus misogynist we already reacted to that i don't feel like watching it she did make 1.00

00:00:08.800 another video here navigating pleasure and joy when you struggle with trauma and guilt

00:00:13.220 trauma oh yes the chat's saying watch lonica next let's just watch for a little bit i want to show

00:00:20.400 you that they make no sense um navigating pleasure and joy when you struggle with trauma and guilt

00:00:25.940 every one of these people all the woke people are traumatized they're all like struggle with

00:00:30.440 happiness they don't even know how to navigate pleasure and joy i just want to show you that

00:00:34.760 they don't make any sense let's watch this for a little bit sorry i i'm sorry already but don't

00:00:40.280 click away just if you don't believe me she's not gonna make any sense today's video is about pleasure

00:00:45.560 joy and all of the ways in which i stop myself a 54 minute video about navigating pleasure this is

00:00:53.580 there's a specific genre on youtube now that's just therapy these are therapy people and it should

00:01:00.440 be a good example for why not everybody needs therapy too many of you go too many of you validate

00:01:06.400 all the fucking negative thoughts in your head get over it this is the therapy genre 54 minutes of her 0.95

00:01:13.740 navigating pleasure and joy when ultimately youtube.com is supposed to be entertainment people get mad at me 0.99

00:01:18.880 when i say that like you think that everybody's supposed to be a comedian well it's supposed to be

00:01:22.320 entertainment at the very least or educational this is literally a zoom call therapy session 0.92

00:01:28.100 what the fuck we stop ourselves from making space for more uh joy in our lives and today we have 0.91

00:01:36.360 it is my pleasure to speak of pleasure i am honored pleasure she said it twice 0.99

00:01:44.360 today's sponsor cheeks cheeks okay i fucking know that's it she gets sponsors i'm never gonna get 0.96

00:01:50.820 i don't get no sponsors bro 0.99

00:01:52.420 shut up 0.51

00:02:02.140 look at these cheeks cheeks right here 1.00

00:02:07.360 this has been a recurrent

00:02:09.960 ha ha ha ha ha cheeks she kind of got the gyatta angle live bro monica yo monica i miss you baby 0.99

00:02:16.760 where you been at where you been at stop navigating pleasure and joy let me navigate all the pleasure

00:02:20.720 and joy for you come here you hear that you can navigate all that pleasure for you monica

00:02:25.000 yeah yeah yeah bring those cheeks right here monica baby 1.00

00:02:29.320 stop ducking the zoom call you know you want to talk to me baby i miss you

00:02:33.440 yeah i can make you laugh too one more time let me see that guy

00:02:37.460 woo monica stop trying to talk about pleasure and joy and trauma look at that 0.62

00:02:42.440 yeah

00:02:43.500 monica stop trying to make youtube videos 1.00

00:02:47.560 you don't need therapy i'll be your therapist

00:02:49.980 i'll make you feel better navigate all that pleasure and joy baby i miss you

00:02:54.300 cheeks right here yeah yeah yeah 1.00

00:02:56.420 okay now back to her trauma let's see what the fuck you gotta say 1.00

00:03:00.540 how much i try can't seem to separate pleasure from guilt pleasure from bad 0.98

00:03:05.780 like i feel like whenever i start to feel too good things are gonna go bad

00:03:11.540 this has been a recurring issue in my life

00:03:14.520 just just turning 27 this year i'm gonna turn 27 september 4 virgo gang

00:03:19.260 virgo gang

00:03:20.780 virgo gang she's 27 and doesn't know how to navigate pleasure and joy 0.96

00:03:25.600 she's about to pass her her fertility age 0.99

00:03:29.440 this is why she starts going crazy like women start going crazy at this age 1.00

00:03:33.000 because you get to the point like oh shit i should probably have a kid by now 0.99

00:03:35.800 but also i need to be a girl boss independent queen 1.00

00:03:38.460 so they start going nuts

00:03:40.080 but baby yo you want a baby monica i'll give you a baby what you need 1.00

00:03:43.200 yo five thank you for agent seek have you tried that pink vibrator on yourself before

00:03:46.640 why did you just donate money to ask that bro somebody ban him

00:03:48.820 um literally ow

00:03:51.340 see what i'm saying turning 27 that that laugh

00:03:56.780 is the fear of aging knowing that she's passing the fertility age 27 is the peak age to have kids 0.94

00:04:02.720 in turning 27 this year i just keep finding myself repeating the same patterns i keep finding that

00:04:16.900 independent of where i'm at in life of who i'm with of how how i'm doing financially how i'm doing in any single way shape or form

00:04:25.860 i am my own enemy in a lot of cases you don't need an enemy stop trying to be financial take care of you monica what's up like you don't

00:04:33.820 i don't even worry about nothing just monica and i need to do the work of fleshing that out 1.00

00:04:41.780 i feel like unlike a lot of different issues pleasure is super complicated because it's not an it's not rooted in an individual thing i mean nothing

00:04:49.740 is like rooted in a singular thing but pleasure of all things is super intertwined into every single aspect of our daily experience

00:04:57.700 i feel like it's not necessarily a grass is always greener on the other side

00:05:03.120 chat skip

00:05:03.640 okay

00:05:04.700 just the therapy content

00:05:06.820 you know she goes to therapy once a week by the way she's talking

00:05:09.940 because they have full confidence

00:05:11.480 turning on their camera

00:05:12.700 turning on their webcam

00:05:13.980 and just talking about nothing

00:05:15.340 using

00:05:15.960 trauma guilt 1.00

00:05:17.220 just all these fucking nonsense words 1.00

00:05:19.080 you're fine 1.00

00:05:19.980 life is not that complicated

00:05:21.520 you need to be

00:05:22.200 and you need to go on a picnic

00:05:25.220 and cook for me

00:05:26.120 sorry i know you're gonna cancel me but you know

00:05:28.700 that kind of vibe like when i'm different i'll be better

00:05:30.980 but more so

00:05:32.240 i i it's not about being better it's about realizing that i am enough

00:05:37.920 and turning my day to day

00:05:40.020 into a more present and

00:05:42.580 and guilt-free experience

00:05:44.720 guilt-free

00:05:45.420 i just kind of want to lift this burden i feel like i live in this like

00:05:49.600 oh yeah

00:05:50.200 i feel like my feelings and i live in my feelings

00:05:53.000 it's like kind of like darkness and this sort of

00:05:55.100 this darkness and trauma

00:05:56.320 and this sort of like i feel like i'm outside of a window looking in on my own life

00:06:00.620 so you're thinking too much monica

00:06:02.480 let me call monica 1.00

00:06:03.920 monica you're thinking too hard

00:06:05.760 you're looking through a window of darkness

00:06:07.200 it's it's okay it's okay you hear that

00:06:09.740 that's the sound of brightness

00:06:11.420 that's sunshine

00:06:12.820 this is what you need

00:06:13.900 come here

00:06:15.140 that's all you need

00:06:16.200 stop

00:06:17.440 you're doing too much

00:06:18.780 you hear that

00:06:19.280 it's okay

00:06:21.880 you'll be okay

00:06:23.080 monica

00:06:24.540 all the time independent of what's going on

00:06:29.060 i've had incredible absolutely life-changing once-in-a-lifetime experiences

00:06:33.520 i am so like freaking fortunate

00:06:36.920 and a lot of the times and it just feels kind of like

00:06:40.000 i'm like trapped in like

00:06:42.400 i don't know like i feel like i'm a little kid

00:06:44.980 what 27 year old woman she feels like she's trapped

00:06:49.500 as a little kid

00:06:50.240 they make no sense

00:06:51.620 they make no sense

00:06:52.880 perfect example

00:06:53.660 and i don't mean that everybody

00:06:55.000 doesn't need therapy

00:06:56.620 some people do need therapy genuinely

00:06:57.980 but she's just like

00:06:59.180 no you don't

00:07:00.160 i can fix your problems

00:07:01.260 some man could

00:07:02.300 you're just making absolutely no sense

00:07:04.300 it's seven in the morning

00:07:05.680 seven in the morning and she's talking about being trapped in a little kid and she's just

00:07:10.580 but i like i think it's because i haven't figured out how to approach um the type of life that i'm worthy of

00:07:20.380 what so in preparation for this video i picked up the pleasure activism the politics of feeling good written and i hope she doesn't start crying but

00:07:29.280 like she's gonna read a passage from this book that's what she does in every video it's very interesting

00:07:33.080 it's just gathered by adrienne marie brown um i have had this for a little while now and i haven't really

00:07:40.500 and i don't even the fact that there's there's a market for this is going girls has 100k on youtube that's impressive 0.95

00:07:45.540 talking about what

00:07:47.140 i've been into it that much but i did for the sake of the video i'm still by no means finished with it

00:07:52.120 but anyways in preparation for this i picked it up and one of the conversations in the beginning

00:07:58.840 earlier in the book is with cara page who is a black queer feminist 1.00

00:08:04.580 black queer feminist monica shut the fuck up monica shut the fuck up 1.00

00:08:09.160 hey come here 1.00

00:08:11.320 that's what you need not no black queer feminist you hear that that's what you need 1.00

00:08:16.360 that's what you need man yeah not no black fear it's just just 1.00

00:08:21.160 what the hell are you talking about 0.86

00:08:22.900 social worker and the writer and gatherer of the book adrienne marie brown 0.96

00:08:27.220 they're discussing ugly lord's use of the erotic the erotic is power

00:08:30.940 which is a very popular important text and cara page was just talking about how this specific

00:08:36.620 this specific piece of writing was like really important for her as a woman

00:08:39.200 it essentially became the anthem of her finding her own sexuality

00:08:41.520 and something that she said in regards to it really stuck with me and kind of became

00:08:44.000 what i wanted to send to this video on which is let me read the full couple

00:08:46.820 she starts it off by saying this is why like i don't understand and i get so bored

00:08:50.960 because youtube is supposed to be entertainment right chat am i wrong about that wl youtube should

00:08:54.680 be funny at maybe not even funny but interesting

00:08:57.180 like it's just people just coping everybody here is mentally ill everyone in the comment section 0.64

00:09:02.860 but i've been struggling i've needed to hear this this video spoke to me even though i'm shaking

00:09:09.260 and i'm literally traumatized you put it all into words you spooky bro this is not helping people 1.00

00:09:15.860 this is just all encouraging their fucking mental illness man you're not mentally ill 1.00

00:09:21.360 you just read these words too much black queer feminist intersex bullshit 1.00

00:09:25.400 shut the fuck up monica 1.00

00:09:37.600 especially as you get older and you become more aware of the things that you've been through 1.00

00:09:42.600 and you feel more like impacted by life how can you move forward how can you really

00:09:45.860 make your make these sort of connections and find joy for yourself we're justifying too much

00:09:50.280 mental illness and too much mental we're validating too much of it with too much therapy

00:09:54.060 too much mental health talk too much lgbt these people are going nuts 1.00

00:09:57.560 w i caught it 1.00

00:10:00.300 that was a big ass mosquito too that shit was gonna bite me that's what you gotta do 1.00

00:10:05.140 smack the mosquito in its face kill it instead you're like but i don't want to trigger it 1.00

00:10:09.600 my it's literally navigating in life and pleasure shut up life is simple we want to fuck we want 1.00

00:10:16.140 to make money we want to cook and monica you want to go on a picnic that's what you want to do you're 1.00

00:10:20.600 trying to be smart reading these books it's not making you happy you're going nuts when you feel

00:10:23.780 like life has hurt you so much and when you feel like everything is so interwoven into like like a

00:10:27.080 constellation like you're constricted by by these pains by these evils by all of this harm um so yeah

00:10:32.640 what really sparked this uh conversation was that i feel like i don't kind of recognize myself as much

00:10:35.460 lately and i think it's obviously the product of the difficulty of these last two years for all of us

00:10:38.460 i feel like i'm not as adventurous as full of passion as open as full of desire anymore

00:10:41.800 and part of that is doesn't this sound exactly like a therapy session

00:10:45.400 you know that she goes to therapy once a week by the way she's talking by the look in her face the 0.99

00:10:51.720 stress bitch you're just 27 you're starting to freak out you're reaching fertility age you should 1.00

00:10:56.520 be raising kids you should be filling up my son's lunchbox with the peanut butter and jelly sandwich 1.00

00:11:01.640 that's what's going to make you happy instead you're on the internet reading these books and in three

00:11:05.860 years four years or something like that you're not going to be able to have kids anymore you're

00:11:09.820 going to be too old you're going to age out of it you're going to be stuck trying to be a girl boss 1.00

00:11:12.800 stop it you need children it's due to the deterioration of good habits that i had built

00:11:17.800 over a long period of time growing up super depressed and not having access to mental health

00:11:20.780 growing up it's super depressed and not having access to mental um and not having access to mental

00:11:24.400 health professionals and like that being super taboo in my household i essentially had to learn

00:11:27.600 how to create habits for myself through trial and error it's actually good that mental health is taboo

00:11:31.460 we should make that taboo we should not talk we should when you start talking about it more you

00:11:36.520 validate it more these people all think that they have a chemical imbalance they all think that 0.54

00:11:40.160 they're mentally ill we should not validate that get over it because you sound crazy and everyone in 0.99

00:11:47.240 this comment section is crazy what the hell's wrong with y'all bro i empathize with you so much 0.99

00:11:52.560 monica thank you for your willingness to be vulnerable you should why are we encouraging people 0.99

00:11:59.640 to be vulnerable about being sad get over it this is youtube fuck this is it's infiltrating 0.93

00:12:06.400 everything i'm very lucky to have made it out relatively one can argue i'm not but relatively 0.97

00:12:10.500 okay you know what i mean i feel like i really work hard i read a lot i wrote a lot eight percent

00:12:14.140 females maybe you like this type of content but listen up eight percent female audience right now 1.00

00:12:19.120 i'm speeding it up and when you listen without the mental health blah blah blah blah i empathize

00:12:24.820 context does she make any sense does this sound sane to you

00:12:28.240 created art i was in art school at the time as well so that puts you in a position

00:12:30.420 chain said sego be honest you have a crush on her hell yeah i have a crush on her i'm in love with 1.00

00:12:34.900 her she's beautiful i i'm telling i'm not ashamed monica come here monica come here let me fuck some 1.00

00:12:43.940 sense into you oh my god how are you gonna okay fine i'm not trying to like harass her i'm just 0.99

00:12:49.780 fucking fucking around bro you're having to constantly be more self-reflective than the average 0.98

00:12:54.400 you know career path so i put a lot of time and effort into creating good habits that then made 1.00

00:12:58.540 me into the person that i found myself being in my early mid-20s but with the 2020 pandemic it

00:13:02.180 brought me to a low that i haven't really even been able to listen like financially emotionally

00:13:05.860 physically in every single way shape and form but i think the most harmful part of what happened

00:13:09.460 to me and it's something i've talked about in previous videos is the total distribution of

00:13:11.860 habits of habits that like are what make adults from forgetting to like and not knowing how to

00:13:14.960 like feed myself at what times i should eat what should i even like make what do i even buy

00:13:17.680 like and you know and it's that's so not who i was i was i was already like building up to be so put

00:13:21.140 together that for me to not even like be able to read my own body signals like what should i do when

00:13:24.920 should i sleep everything kind of when should i do what should i when should i sleep she makes no

00:13:29.280 sense you're thinking too hard you don't know how to yo let me do the thinking for you monica 0.99

00:13:35.180 clearly it's not working you're mentally ill you're struggling navigating pleasure and joy with 0.99

00:13:40.700 trauma trauma and guilt come on bro i got you baby i took for granted how much being a human being 0.93

00:13:47.420 is these habits how much it is like i wake up at this time do this like clean this and how

00:13:50.500 everything piles up i think you learned that from childhood you start to trial and error like okay

00:13:53.040 you get this like little level of responsibility clean your room this is too much therapy she's 0.65

00:13:56.120 cleaning her room and she doesn't know how to navigate cleaning her room bro chat's saying

00:14:00.060 skip you're getting bored i know but i just want to prove to you how therapy's not helping a lot of 0.94

00:14:05.540 people therapy makes it worse for people like this she's not making no fucking sense she can't 0.82

00:14:12.300 clean her room without navigating pleasure and guilt and trauma what what think about it does that make 0.85

00:14:18.920 sense and do some homework and then take a nap and then like you know you kind of do that and then

00:14:21.740 you get to the point where you do that by yourself and then before you know what you're in a dope

00:14:23.540 for me all that went out the window and this you know for 2021 essentially i was super focused on

00:14:27.040 getting back on my feet on creating these new habits again because i had gotten to a point where

00:14:29.220 i was like i cannot live like this i literally cannot i'm not even sustaining myself um so i think

00:14:32.720 i have been so focused on getting back on my feet that i had a realization the other day that all

00:14:36.660 this work and all this struggle and this desire to be better but never did i factor in joy and pleasure

00:14:39.600 and it's not like in the past where i struggled with depression and like i'm sad i could go out but like you know i don't really

00:14:44.340 want to do the things that i normally do like i wouldn't normally do this but like i don't want to

00:14:46.460 do it anymore like um what the fuck are you talking about monica i don't know what to do and i don't 0.88

00:14:51.800 know what i don't know what to do and i walk out of my room and i can't think you're just thinking too 0.99

00:14:55.220 hard stop analyzing your own brain too much stop thinking you're depressed it makes it worse

00:15:00.460 it makes it so much worse 0.99

00:15:02.820 we need to tell these people they sound goofy because if we don't everybody's going to be mentally ill 0.76

00:15:10.340 everybody's going to keep being depressed people are going to give up people are not going to go 0.99

00:15:13.340 how to like make breakfast in the kitchen without fucking falling to their knees 0.91

00:15:16.280 drama drama you're fine you're fine your life is good like i have just completely forgotten like 0.99

00:15:23.400 my options i have completely like i'm like yo people really like go out and get dressed and like

00:15:26.660 meet up for drinks and people really go out and get dressed and meet up for drinks you're having an

00:15:31.460 existential crisis about food and drinks and that's fun like i and i used to do that all the time like

00:15:37.140 i really have had a lot of like existential sort of like realizations in regards to things that are

00:15:40.400 normal because it's been so it's not an existential realization monica's she's going to see this too

00:15:44.860 and she might react to it and she's going to call me misogynist and stuff like that that's what she's

00:15:47.880 going to do she's going to say i'm belittling her and the girl's going to say i can't believe you had

00:15:51.340 to deal with that but think about it i separate that i'm not even like trying to attack her i'm 0.98

00:15:56.840 trying to attack the mentality she has because i hear it so much now this bitch is broken from too 1.00

00:16:01.380 much therapy think about it do you think she's going to change if she keeps going to therapy do you 0.99

00:16:05.980 think it's going to fix look at her literally look at her face is that the face of a sane person

00:16:10.520 the title of this video is navigating pleasure and joy when you struggle with trauma and guilt

00:16:14.420 that makes no sense you need to stop going to therapy that's what i'm trying to point out

00:16:19.560 you need to stop thinking you're mentally ill you're fine you need a good man you need some kids

00:16:25.940 make a peanut butter jelly sandwich pack up their lunch and a tupperware send them to school

00:16:31.080 have some flowers in the backyard and you'll be happy like oh yeah like i realized the other day

00:16:36.480 i because i started listening to music i haven't listened to music in probably like over a year

00:16:39.940 consistently like i'm in here listening to podcast podcast like just things like words to fill my

00:16:43.400 exactly hold on let me slow that down she's not listening to music that's why she's going insane 1.00

00:16:48.020 a lot of people can't handle information to that level they go nuts in here listening to podcast

00:16:53.000 after podcast like just things like words to fill my head because i don't want a moment of like

00:16:59.240 of like joy i think i don't want okay she's filling up her head with a bunch of words because she

00:17:06.340 doesn't want to feel joy she makes absolutely no sense she makes absolutely no sense what you need 0.99

00:17:13.240 is a good dick and down you'll be like hee hee you need to come i'm like i'm like i it feels like i 0.99

00:17:20.100 like anytime i listen to music i get so emotional i want to cry so that's like part of the reason why 0.99

00:17:25.780 can't even listen to music without being traumatized bro she's gonna watch this and

00:17:30.600 she's gonna call me misogynist but monica really think about what i'm saying because you're clearly

00:17:36.040 unhappy i realize like yo i'm really not like i'm really not okay and also for all the work that

00:17:42.860 i'm doing and for how much better i'm doing there's still obviously so many things that i'm neglecting in

00:17:48.220 my life i feel like generally speaking and this is why it's kind of hard yeah a lot of people like

00:17:53.180 being depressed a lot of people uh want to live in an action someone just said in the chat they

00:17:57.140 don't want to take responsibility for their life and being mentally ill being depressed and anxious 0.84

00:18:01.940 takes the control away and then you're like i'm insane and so then nothing is your fault you get 0.98

00:18:07.560 to live in the fact that you're an insane person and you gotta keep going to therapy you gotta keep 0.97

00:18:11.760 complaining about your trauma and your guilt and then nothing is your fault hard for me to accept 0.92

00:18:16.880 that this is something i need to work on i am content with my life right now i feel like

00:18:22.080 things are going really well i feel like my hard work is pain what you're content you just said

00:18:27.640 that you're not okay and that you're no break make absolutely no sense bro i feel more like myself

00:18:33.780 every day wrong but things are still very muted i feel like i would describe it as like my internal

00:18:40.040 oven is off i'm not full of desire and it's not even that i'm like you know why she her internal

00:18:45.620 oven is off and she's not full of desire because she wants kids she's getting to her age where

00:18:50.420 she's very fertile and she's not making no sense because she wants to be a girl boss but you need 1.00

00:18:54.320 kids what's popping bro you want to hear this bitch make absolutely no sense again 1.00

00:18:59.260 every time i come in here it's a bit of a sense 0.96

00:19:03.160 like there's not even a fire to begin like i can't even make the fire bigger because there is no fire

00:19:09.160 and i've gotten so used to not having a fire to being cold that like the act of even trying to

00:19:15.360 start it is kind of like absurd i'm just like why would i do any of these things that used to bring

00:19:20.100 me joy like why so i wanted to unpack all that and maybe talk about how we could potentially work to

00:19:25.860 get through it so in my video setting boundaries why grown men love girls i discussed john berger's

00:19:32.340 surveyor and survey to get into how we're in and a lot of yeah that's what i'm saying i'm saying

00:19:37.460 monica i need to fix you she's making no sense the title of this video is navigating pleasure and joy

00:19:41.500 when you struggle with trauma and guilt she said she just turned 27 she's fertile she needs kids i'm

00:19:45.380 saying monica come here you need some good thinking down you're making no sense you need to come

00:19:50.820 girl 0.91

SNEAKO - July 16, 2022

SNEAKO VS. TRAUMATIZED WOMAN PT. 2

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