SNEAKO - September 25, 2024


WHY I NEED MY EGO (OCT 2020, SNEAKO)


Episode Stats

Length

6 minutes

Words per Minute

182.2899

Word Count

1,253

Sentence Count

1

Misogynist Sentences

1

Hate Speech Sentences

6


Summary


Transcript

00:00:00.000 i wrote this last night i'm just gonna read it now when me and my brother were shooting this i
00:00:15.380 noticed when i hit a shot which was rare i always hit the second one and pretty often i hit three
00:00:20.900 shots in a row and statistically that doesn't make a lot of sense i suck out of 10 jump shots
00:00:25.960 i'm probably hitting three and they all come back to back wow i'm pouring sweat i don't play
00:00:32.300 basketball i'm asian i'm supposed to be good at chess and ping pong but look i'm gonna make three
00:00:35.520 shots regardless come on ready i'm writing this sitting alone in a bar because i want to feel
00:00:40.400 like hemingway but all i've written so far was the super s right when i needed an ego boost the waiter
00:00:45.380 came over and recognized me and i asked him what i should write about even though he's carrying a
00:00:49.800 tray full of glasses he says life fulfillment but i can't hear him through the mask so i lean closer
00:00:55.420 and say huh but he says he's too busy to talk and walks away turns quickly and then spills the tray
00:01:00.980 of glasses all over the floor i'm watching this idiot scramble to wipe up the mess and i imagine
00:01:05.680 this story of a closeted dancer who practices in secret in the garage and he's got like these ballet
00:01:13.120 slippers and he could twirl in them but to pay the bills he's a waiter at his father's bar who doesn't
00:01:18.340 know about his son's gay ass dream in my imagination right after he spills the glasses like a ballerina his
00:01:23.820 father goes through the door and he's like oh look at this mess claw this fucking mess and the waiter
00:01:29.280 throws his apron and says you'll see you'll all see and then he twirls his way out the door and the
00:01:34.620 whole point of this imagination was you need a fight you need some sort of fight to succeed
00:01:39.300 there's billions of talented dancers out there but the ones at the opera are only there because they
00:01:44.760 had something to prove they had some homophobic boston dad that they had to overcome
00:01:49.940 but he didn't actually drop the tray he just had better things to do than talk about deep stuff
00:01:56.900 with a youtuber sitting alone
00:01:58.280 it's never enough if your value system is based around money or fame like most of us there will
00:02:10.640 never be enough of it it's an unhealthy obsession that puts your life on a linear scale but i think
00:02:16.680 that life fulfillment is impossible without a little bit of this even if you have a beach house
00:02:22.500 on an empty island with the family you'll end up needing a fight some people don't need much
00:02:27.960 competition they're happy putting political bumper stickers on their subaru but guys like the life
00:02:33.060 fulfillment waiter need to overcome a mountain before they can relax at the beach all right i'm out
00:02:38.980 bro my competition for the longest time was just proving i existed i grew up an asian boy in america
00:02:45.860 aka invisible men think you're a pussy and women keep you away from it whole time growing up i just
00:02:51.700 wanted attention validation something to prove that i actually existed and it's left me with a lot of
00:02:57.620 resentment i don't know if i constructed my personality and my belief system based on truth or based on
00:03:04.900 standing out
00:03:05.860 i'm going to win andrew schultz editing competition i said that publicly so many times that i have to now
00:03:17.060 like if i lose you all know yeah actually a lot of you have no idea what i'm talking about schultz is a
00:03:24.400 stand-up comedian from new york city who i first saw joe rogan i don't need a job but since i left
00:03:30.240 school i've noticed myself getting stupid i've been looking for some routine ever since he said
00:03:35.380 that he was looking for an editor i applied and then he turned the thing into a whole competition
00:03:39.720 it was narrowed down from 200 down to 10 semi-finalists and we're still waiting on the winner
00:03:45.280 we saw some amazing ones that came in so far uh sneeko had a fire son i think if i didn't tell people i
00:03:52.120 wanted to win this competition i wouldn't have taken it seriously it would have just been like a side job
00:03:56.960 like oh maybe i'll do this i'll just try my hand at this i'll submit it would have been half-assed
00:04:01.640 but because i know people are going to see it i gotta set my game up
00:04:06.200 i learned watching the michael jordan documentary how he used his ego to become the best
00:04:18.020 at any point in the season where chicago needed a desperate win somehow jordan always said
00:04:27.440 i took it personal michael game on the line who would take the last shot me
00:04:33.940 that's a dumb question me and then the next shot is him fucking slam dunking on everybody he's taking
00:04:42.060 it personal a writer dissed him a player said he wasn't shit and he put that energy into the game
00:04:48.080 he wasn't just playing basketball he was playing for pride same thing want to watch the tottenham
00:04:54.540 hotspur documentary where jose marino stepped in halfway through the season to save tottenham
00:05:00.040 and he needed to psychologically push the team to another level they were almost in last place
00:05:05.540 and he brought them up to six by the end of the season the key players were out but marino stepped in
00:05:10.840 and you see his psychological process with the players he's almost like a therapist he would
00:05:16.640 have private meetings and tell players if you don't reach your potential you're going to regret it
00:05:22.760 and i think that is the best way to get the most out of a player
00:05:26.760 what separates professional athletes from each other is it ability is it skill i don't think so
00:05:35.480 most of them are built the same most have been playing football or playing whatever sport they play
00:05:39.800 for the same amount of time the same training but what separates them is their mental capacity
00:05:45.740 is how much they believe that they're the best player how much confidence they have when they're
00:05:50.920 right in front of the net and they need to score how much mental stamina they have can they sustain
00:05:56.180 their talent throughout the entire season the human ego is an underrated tool for success a lot of
00:06:01.640 players show glimpses of the same capabilities that the best players have but they can't do it day in
00:06:08.140 day out it's champions with mental strength who need to overcome their ego and overcome their pride
00:06:15.120 and who need to prove something because somebody wronged them those are the players who are the
00:06:19.740 best players i'm gonna win this editing competition i'm recording this before i have but i did win it
00:06:25.180 i'm certain of it i'm not certain of it but i'm certain of it does that make sense the world is getting
00:06:33.820 crazier and scarier and i just want to completely ignore all of it i don't want to participate in
00:06:38.620 anything mob mentality anymore i don't want to get involved in these these feared campaigns i just i
00:06:45.340 don't want to i'm not part of any of that and the lights turned out right when it should that means i
00:06:50.420 should shut the fuck up you get what i'm saying
00:06:51.940 you