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00:00:45.000Remember, let's do a quick and spontaneous reading from my book, Russell Brand How to Be Christian, How to Become a Christian in Seven Days.
00:00:52.000Got to learn the title of this book that I've written.
00:00:57.000That's that bit where I'm talking about King David and his squabble with prophets and the challenges of King David remaining on track with our Lord as a fallen and broken man.
00:03:37.000By that time, you may as well move to Louisiana and start having sex with them and roll the barrels on DNA roulette with Theo Vaughn at that point.0.99
00:03:47.000Yeah, all right, listen, let me do this thing about my country.0.99
00:03:52.000As the temperature of global conflict continues to increase, the UK man is falling apart.
00:03:57.000I'm glad I'm not there, but I will be going back there pretty soon.
00:04:01.000There's anti Islam attacks, there's anti Semitic attacks.
00:04:06.000Keir Starmer said last Sunday he was appalled by several.
00:04:09.000Arson attacks on Jewish sites in northwest London in recent weeks following an attack from Saturday, Sunday targeting a synagogue.
00:04:16.000Prime Minister Keir Starmer vowed Sunday to bring the perpetrators of recent arson attacks to justice.
00:04:22.000As Britain's chief rabbi said, a sustained campaign of violence and intimidation against Jews was accelerating.
00:04:28.000Starmer's spoken out against it, and UK police say that it could potentially be linked to this ongoing holy war that seems to be getting worse by the day.
00:04:43.000Targeting Israeli and Jewish premises within London.
00:04:47.000Most have been claimed online by a group, Ashab al Yamin, the Islamic movement of the Companions of the Right.
00:04:55.000The same group in recent months have claimed attacks across Europe, also happening at similar premises, such as Jewish and Israeli premises.
00:05:08.000I want to be clear, irrespective of the motive.
00:05:11.000They say I want to be clear a lot now, don't they?
00:06:04.000And I suppose the answer to that question is we're all just bewildered and trying to cope with a world where.
00:06:10.000No one feels any connection to their community or their self or God.
00:06:13.000France prepares for a terror attack on London as tensions over Trump Iran war strike.
00:06:20.000Why is France preparing for an attack on London?
00:06:22.000France is preparing for a terror strike target in London, it has been claimed.
00:06:26.000With France considered as one of the UK's closest allies and security partners, French diplomats are understood to have undertaken a crisis management exercise to help prepare for a massive incident in the city as global tensions following the Iran war.
00:06:42.000A French crisis response blueprint is understood to cover all contingencies, including a potential terror attack involving French citizens in London, reports the standard.
00:06:49.000French consular staff also reportedly participated in the crisis room at the embassy in West London.
00:06:56.000These teams would offer support to victims and their families and have the authority to give out passports to French citizens.
00:07:00.000I mean, this is probably just an exercise, but we said that about event 2019, didn't we, where Bill Gates et al. prepared for.
00:07:11.000A potential pandemic, which then very definitively did happen.
00:07:44.000And we may stop by Cuba after we're finished with this.
00:07:48.000But Cuba is a nation that has just been horribly run for many years by Castro.
00:07:55.000I didn't like the Five Eye Alliance when Edward Snowden announced it existed.
00:07:59.000Which, in case you don't know, is in order to get round laws that countries have, like Australia, New Zealand, the UK, US, to prevent governments spying on their citizens, their citizenry, their subjects, you and me.
00:08:12.000Australia will spy on British citizens.
00:08:16.000Britain will spy on American citizens.
00:08:18.000New Zealand, like, you know, there's a kind of a merry-go-round of snitching and spying, even before the advent of the fully immersive surveillance that we know is coming.
00:08:29.000Took some comfort from is that Benjamin Netanyahu weren't adding a sixth eye to the Five Eyes.
00:08:35.000The Five Eyes, I always thought sounded all right.
00:08:37.000I think as a Five Guys burgers, it just sort of sounded a bit like friendly and not totally, I do want to say satanic, but Six Eyes, I don't know, man, that's taking it to another level and it's happening.
00:08:51.000We also produce these incredible weapons that we share with the United States.
00:08:57.000We produce intel that is invaluable for the United States.
00:09:00.000You're familiar with the Five Eyes, Patrick?
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00:13:44.000At the time, I used to think that this LSD should not be being taken by me at a bus stop in Grays, but under clinical conditions or with a shaman in a feathery headdress, not here outside Lakeside Shopping Centre in the rain, terrified and anxious.
00:14:04.000Because it's, you know, when you're 16, your identity is just coming together.
00:14:09.000And if you sort of dismantle it and resolve it, although, Well, I suppose to cite Paul, he was there to save the Gentiles while being knitted together in his mother's womb.0.66
00:14:22.000So there is a version of yourself that's trying to be born.
00:14:24.000And there's no question that psychedelics can help you to arrive at an uncluttered and recovered place, a redeemed place, an identity that's not of this world, an identity that's not your response to trauma and coaching and conditioning, but an identity that's real and true and in God.
00:14:42.000But you're saying, Dave, and I would back this up, that it's not enough to just like have some powerful ayahuasca experience.
00:14:49.000Because, me, I feel like if I had a powerful ayahuasca experience, the very next thing that I'd want would be another powerful ayahuasca experience.
00:14:57.000In fact, the main challenge I have is like not really wanting to be here.
00:15:00.000And I would prefer to remain in a kind of spirit, is what I would probably call it.
00:15:10.000I find being in the world and in the body pretty difficult.
00:15:14.000And I think that sometimes what we're trying to do is kind of Defibrillate a spiritual charge out of dead matter, out of density, out of thick things, you know, like food or sex or whatever, trying to get it, trying to rest satisfaction out of this world.
00:15:29.000So let's start with the spiritual nature of our condition.
00:15:35.000And what happens if something that's plainly spiritually powerful, like the use of psychedelics, comes into conflict with the idea of total abstinence?
00:15:49.000I mean, I think, would you take them today?
00:15:53.000I'd take them from the minute I get up to the minute I went to bed if I could.
00:15:57.000I'd like it's, I mean, in a way, what is it you're looking for right now?
00:16:02.000My life is so beset with really sort of what seemed to me to be sort of gargantuan challenges that the idea that I could live, you know, when we watched that video one time of Thailand and there was like a waterfall and, you know, like sort of on a comet, I really kind of want to live like that now.
00:16:17.000I really want the opposite of going to New York and arguing with Piers Morgan and Megyn Kelly.
00:16:39.000But like, so, you know, and what's really interesting is when people say, no, like plant medicine, it's not drugs.
00:16:45.000And I recognize it's not drugs like cocaine, although that is plant derived, or heroin, although that is also.
00:16:51.000Plant derived in this is like it's medicinal in so much as its sort of explicit purpose is to induce the spiritual state.
00:16:58.000But it's just so strange when that kind of thing gets sanctioned when that thing's got the government's fingerprints on it, even when it's people in the government I sort of deeply admire, like Robert Kennedy and people from the media space, like Joe Rogan, who I hugely respect.
00:17:12.000I still think, oh man, as an addict, this ain't gonna work.
00:17:16.000I think if they were, if it was just them to bring it to fulfillment, right, I would not, then I wouldn't feel like it was tainted.
00:17:26.000But the fact that they're just going to get it passed, but like who's actually going to be benefiting from it and all that, then I feel like, I don't know, we'll see on that.
00:17:39.000I would think of it when I think of doing that, I think of it as just checking out.
00:18:21.000If you do them properly, alcohol will make you vomit, and weed will make you vomit, crack will make you vomit, smack will make you vomit.
00:18:28.000It's not like, oh, it's bodily uncomfortable.
00:18:30.000Any serious drug addict is going to push right through that.
00:18:34.000I'm interested in like, That the profound, I mean, profound in the literal sense, deep, that underneath your identity as who were you before you had that name?
00:18:46.000Who were you before you had that body?
00:19:06.000So I turned the light off and I was doing a rosary.
00:19:10.000You know, I do, I chant the rosary, something I don't chant, I just say it in my head.
00:19:15.000Now, I had this while I was doing it, I'm thinking, okay, so Christ, you're real and you're here now.
00:19:23.000And the Holy Spirit, that's God's spirit.
00:19:25.000That's the spirit of God that raised Christ from the dead.
00:19:29.000It's the spirit that created all reality, material and non material, observable and non observable.
00:19:36.000And just this morning when I was trying to explain the nature of consciousness to my seven year old and my nine year old, I was going, do you know what consciousness means?
00:20:18.000And, like, what I felt intimacy, I started to feel some intimacy.
00:20:23.000And I think that this idea of intimacy is an important one because, like, as a person that slept around a bunch, like, intimacy is kind of one of the ingredients, one of the essences rather than ingredients that you're pursuing.
00:20:36.000I also think there's a kind of anesthesia that drug addicts, like you said, checked out.
00:20:44.000Like, sometimes I'm, I grew up so much staring at screens anyway, and I'm, I, you know, my childhood predates the screen ubiquity of the modern era.
00:20:54.000I like just staring at a TV and like, ah, coming down.
00:20:59.000Like, but last night I felt like I experienced, and again, this is something that's sort of quite new to me.
00:21:08.000The presence of, oh, yeah, what would it be like?
00:21:11.000Because, like, I'm not going to, I don't feel like I'm going to experience Jesus in a kind of a South Park way or in a nativity, like, hello, Russell.
00:21:20.000Like, you know, what are you going to do?
00:21:21.000Envisage his face, a face that's a bit like mine, a bit like the Turing Shroud, a bit like Jake's, a bit like anyone that's got long hair and a beard.
00:21:28.000Or is it going to be, given that we're talking about, we're talking about bursting the bank's cup run of over realities that don't fit into your own, your contemporary understanding of what reality is and what reality's limits are?
00:21:40.000So, while I was doing that, I'm like obviously incanting a prayer that's about the mother of God, the person that held God in her body and birthed God.
00:21:52.000I know like none of you guys are Catholic and Joe's not here to stand up for it.
00:21:57.000But the idea of the divinity of Mary is obviously based on the fact that our Lord grew in her and how pure a person would have to be to undertake that task and on what kind of level of self abnegation.
00:22:11.000So, that a person would have to undertake to.
00:22:14.000And while I was sort of saying those things, I was feeling like a kind of an openness to, like, the point of praying to Mary, I suppose the Catholics would say, is like, you daren't approach our Lord.
00:22:25.000Now, that's one of the things that I don't agree with because I think the whole point of Jesus is direct access to God.
00:22:30.000I don't want another layer of brokerage after the curtain's been torn, temple curtain's been torn asunder, and after you've been granted that level of access.
00:22:39.000However, as I'm sort of doing it, I felt like I was really dropping into something deep and beyond my personhood, beyond what I think about myself, what I believe about myself.
00:22:47.000Good or negative, it was sort of like all just melting away as I lay there silently in my mind chanting.
00:22:54.000And then, though, I started to feel darkness.
00:22:58.000I felt the presence of like what I would call demonic evil.
00:23:04.000Like, because if you're in absolute fields, if you're in a boundless field of reality, like the field that Jake wants to live in, like you are going to encounter not just whatever essential forces drive good, but whatever essential forces drive evil.
00:23:19.000And I think actually the alcoholic is like a self designated priest, an uninitiated priest who said, I can't be in this world.
00:23:29.000I'm entering into a kind of a cult or I'm entering into a kind of monastery.
00:23:35.000But because it's not got disciplines or rituals or routines or ceremony, what it's actually going to focus on is the end goal of the spiritual life altering your inner state so that you are not identifying with who you think you are or what the culture says you are.
00:23:51.000And messy and crazy, and shouldn't be in the hands of kids just doing drugs on their own, but neither should it be in the hands of some of the worst corporate criminals in the world.
00:24:01.000Now, again, like you say, I trust Joe Rogan and I trust Robert Kennedy as much as I trust any person, any leader, any powerful people, of course.
00:24:09.000But it's so odd for me, fascinating in a way that I've still not fully understood that the culture and politics are getting right into the sort of molecular level of reality and messing around in there.
00:24:22.000This could just be more profit earring, just like AI or whatever, pick a news story.
00:24:26.000But Dave, you know, like you're an addict just the same as me.
00:24:31.000You're a person, therefore, that can't fit in this world just the same as me, that you're a suicide risk if you are just left on your own.0.78
00:25:54.000I think there's a lot going on around us.
00:25:58.000I think in the last few weeks, especially with Jamie coming in town, talking about fears and identities, I've felt more growth in the last month probably.
00:26:16.000Demonic, some of it's just my own self will resistance, too.
00:26:19.000So, but say when someone says that it's endocrinal or hormonal or menopausal or manic depression, don't you think that's just one tier of analysis?
00:26:34.000Well, self will for me is the nexus via which Satan or I'm trying to find the right vocabulary for all this stuff so I don't put people off, but evil or fallenness or destruction.
00:27:54.000I'm a father, I'm a householder, I'm a normal dude.
00:27:56.000I'm a normal dude with kids, you know, and I know I've got to do all that stuff.
00:28:00.000And then when that man and when that unfolds into like, even you, a lot who are trying to do this sort of more, you know, this is a relatively, I don't mean this in a derisory, obviously, way, innocent sort of place to live.
00:28:10.000You know, you're not living in London or Chicago or Dallas where the culture would be, Addy, like, yeah, sorry, I shouldn't use particular names, but like, you know, one more of the older daughters, you know, and that'll be my daughters in a few years are, Getting pulled into some crap, you know, like, you know, like they're on this thing now, like some sort of terrible screen that's pulling them this way.
00:28:31.000We're in this, and you still have to go and do all of the baseball stuff and all that.
00:28:34.000You know, the world's so greedy and porous and magnetic, and I sort of don't want to be in it anymore.
00:28:41.000And I don't mean that in a suicidal way, I mean it in established communities outside of it and live in alignment and live in truth.
00:28:50.000And I see like the appetite for it is real, like people that are in normal, let's call them normal American churches.
00:28:56.000They want a richer, more vivid, vital experience of Christ.
00:29:00.000People that have just spilled into the world recognizing, oh no, like whether you're purchasing Lamborghinis or rattling around in Target, they're recognizing, oh no, everyone, this is precipitous.
00:29:18.000It's just like whatever was familiar, whatever, even things that you could go back to for some sort of sanity or control, don't work anymore.
00:29:32.000Like we're in this unknown and there is resistance and we still can't see what's ahead, but we're sort of just trying to take it a day at a time.
00:29:48.000I do think not just in Christ when you're, you know, sitting down on your knees doing the rosary at night, but I think I've been thinking quite a bit of just being grateful for the deep friendships I have.
00:30:02.000Because other guys, like, I mean, Christ went well with us on a plane or wherever we're going, you know, at Tucker's or other places on mission, too.
00:30:16.000And, and like they're experiencing it day by day with other guys like you and Jake and other and Micah and Robert, like guys that I'm close with.
00:31:35.000Yeah, well, I suppose, see what, like in that moment of contemplation and prayer last night, I've had a felt experience of this is not reality.
00:31:45.000Now, it's very difficult to encourage people to look at the world that way because it's invisible.
00:31:53.000But that's throughout the book the kingdom of heaven is on the earth.
00:34:21.000All right, now check this out sex, huh?0.66
00:34:24.000Well, what possible problems could there be around that?
00:34:27.000So, this is also what we're going to discuss today because one of the ways that we try to energize ourselves and energize dead matter is over sexualization.
00:34:38.000Now, I went to a treatment center for sex addiction when I was.
00:34:41.000Pretty young, actually, I was in my 20s.
00:34:45.000And, um, for a sex addiction, yeah, Keystone, Philadelphia.
00:34:49.000And, um, our man, because there was a regular rehab attached to it, and I did not like being on the bus with the, I mean, they were really lovely people, but excuse me, a lot of their problems were more, um, what I would say vividly and troubling.
00:35:35.000Then we have the voices who cry for sex and more sex, who bewail the institution of marriage, who think that most of the troubles of the race are traceable to sex causes, Freudianism.
00:35:47.000They think we do not have enough of it or that it isn't the right kind.
00:36:53.000Partner, and she's like, Yeah, yeah, the same, the same.
00:36:57.000Yeah, I like, and what I like is being in conversations where non judgment is the principle, and where this is where I think the old conventional church could benefit is from a bit of the old log in your own eye rather than the spec.
00:37:11.000I feel like sometimes, like the Christian community, I feel like we're really into judging gay folks or whatever when people at our own church are looking at porn the whole time.
00:37:26.000John Rich, very early in my walk with our Lord, John Rich, when I asked him about it, because he was wearing a cowboy hat and seemed like a Southern guy, which he is, he was like, no separate compartments in hell.
00:37:36.000Like he just didn't get involved in that, in judging people for that.
00:37:43.000Definitely, though, where I've gotten to is where you can get to pretty easily is all forms of objectification of sex that arouses suspicion, causes bitterness and resentment.
00:37:59.000Like, you know, now say, like, we've all got daughters and a son each, actually, haven't we?
00:38:04.000And there would have been a point not that long ago where I've said to my daughter, I'd have been grateful to say, Well, my daughters, you know, no sex outside of marriage, girls.
00:38:14.000That's how our faith and our ideology handles this.
00:38:41.000John Dutton, like the main country dude on it once, uh, he was giving a speech and he said, with daughters, you try to keep them from getting fucked.0.99
00:38:49.000With sons, you try to keep them from fucking themselves.0.98
00:38:53.000I'll always remember that it's like your two things between, like, you, like, you really worry for your daughters.0.99
00:39:00.000You're like, man, I want to keep their purity.
00:39:03.000Uh, I, I want them to remain pure and I want them to have a husband that loves them and, Committed to him, and then with my son, I just want him to keep his dick in his pants.1.00
00:39:19.000You're saying, beloved, did you see your major once we open that bottle?0.99
00:41:22.000I remember being so disappointed, so disappointed.
00:41:26.000But I had the same conversation with a younger lad recently.
00:41:29.000And I said to him, look, mate, you follow this path, all these things change.
00:41:34.000There's no quick fix, but in time, you're going to be all right and you're going to understand why you've got to go through these shifts of new feelings and life being a little bit more raw and having nothing to take it away.
00:41:47.000But in time, That experience is going to be useful and it's going to, you're going to start to see, oh, I get it now.
00:42:17.000When you said that psilocybin opens new neurological pathways, then the lion's mane fortifies them, it's so sort of comforting to find language that makes it seem plausible.
00:42:31.000And perhaps even on some high level MRI, you could observe that happening.
00:42:38.000But it's all phrenology in the end.0.54
00:42:40.000You remember phrenology was the science where they felt they could tell a person's, the Nazis liked it.
00:42:45.000It that you could tell a person's character by feeling bumps on their skull in the end, all human ingenuity will just sort of collapse into meaninglessness because I think we're living in a fragment of reality that's so insignificant compared to the whole,
00:43:00.000whilst it may bear its fractal essence, that all conclusions drawn from observing this tiny corner of reality are sort of moot, redundant, insufficient, and insignificant.
00:43:17.000Claim using contemporary astrophysics 90% of the world is dark matter, or excuse me, of the universe is dark matter and dark energy.
00:43:26.000And through our instruments of amplification, microscopes and telescopes, and all forms of amplification, right down to double slit theory, detecting movement of electrons is a form of amplification, it's a form of observation.
00:43:40.000We kind of accompany discovery instead of with awe, with a kind of contemptuous arrogance.
00:43:48.000And I reckon those of us that are Like our own lab rats, where we're running experiments on our own consciousness.
00:43:56.000Watch that lab rat video that I've got on the one I had on there for so long.
00:44:03.000We should be very humble about what we can understand and what we can know.
00:44:08.000It sounds like you've given some good guidance to that person.
00:44:11.000Because the truth is, I too had a conversation with my sponsor where I was like, listen, ayahuasca does this and it rewires the networks and the part.
00:44:21.000I mean, we're all having that rewired network.
00:44:41.000Power pointing our way through idiotic ideas and notions only to discover that you can't derive satisfaction from this world if only you manage properly.0.98
00:44:52.000The only way, the only way is through a kind of Death of the very thing that you're trying to fulfill, and that will come sure enough and fast enough.0.99
00:45:01.000But Jake Smith has for us this Do rats do therapy?
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00:47:42.000I saw some posts that said, like, if you watch Before Sunrise now, like that movie Ethan Hawke and that French actor, you're like, oh, God, everything's worse.
00:51:03.000Because if you're like a lifelong Christian and then maybe you see something like that and you can really sort of use it as a meditation, I know Joe would have been into that because Joe likes the gore of the.
00:51:14.000Or those people like people in the comments.
00:51:36.000On the passion and stuff, I don't know why I find that awkward because for me, it's like you're dealing with something sort of unknowable.
00:51:45.000And I reckoned I didn't get anywhere when I was thinking about the extraterrestrial Ezekiel stuff.
00:51:50.000When I was going, Oh, well, maybe Noah's Ark though, maybe it was DNA that was being stored because how could you really get two giraffes and two water buffalo?
00:51:57.000And like it doesn't work so, but maybe if they if like they were sort of interdimensional beings that were helping gather DNA and da and all of like that stuff, you know, I like that.
00:52:07.000I guess I like ruminating on the sort of a Marginalia of it.
00:52:14.000Like when it's like when you feel like you're dealing with some edge stuff.
00:52:16.000I think like now I'm going to go read Enoch and I'm going to go read them sort of Gnostic Gospels just because I want more architecture.
00:52:40.000And that's a bit like what I feel about that Iber Gain stuff.1.00
00:52:43.000Like, no, no, these institutions aren't going to work.1.00
00:52:46.000These institutions aren't going to resolve it.
00:52:49.000See, when thinking about the first miracle being turning water into wine, an analysis like, oh, I see.
00:52:58.000So, after Christ at a nuptial ceremony where we become, as his collective church, like the bride of God in this reinvigorated ceremony, the water of a thin.
00:53:15.000Experience of being alive is going to be enriched and like transformative, like wine.
00:53:20.000I can sort of like, like, as a poetic interpretation, I can get into.
00:53:25.000But if someone says, you know, you actually, how he may have done that is because he may have been able to, da da da da, I'm like, if they took it from like a chemistry, they're like, well, hydrogen molecules, you can do that.
00:53:38.000Maybe if he had these kind of lasers on his arms, like, I don't think that's the right direction to go.
00:53:45.000Like, I think you're sort of, again, it's an affront.
00:53:56.000Because, like, it's going to come down to.
00:54:00.000See when, like in Grief Observed, when all of us are going to experience points where just normal life nearly destroys you, and then your actual human life ends because your body's going to expire one way or another.
00:54:18.000That's not going to help if I've got some sort of scientific explanation for how this happened, or some very brutal explanation for the passion or something.
00:54:27.000Because it'll still take faith to believe what they're showing you is actually true.
00:54:32.000So, even if they showed you all the facts or they showed you, you would still have to take faith to go, Well, how do I know that that's real?
00:54:48.000What if the whole thing's, you know, like when it starts, when you start to get nearer to feeling this is a simulation, you've been captured, your consciousness is sort of trapped in a kind of sphere of reality that you can only penetrate and break out of through accepting Christ.
00:55:05.000You know, it's sort of, it's, There's so many kind of different threads and so many connections that have got to be sort of formed that it's not, you're not going to roadmap your way out of it by visiting a geographical location or having a real understanding of what it would actually be like to be whipped with a cat of nine tails or, you know, this is what it's like to hang in the sun on a cross.
00:55:25.000It's like, it doesn't seem like that's where it is.
00:55:30.000I mean, the We Agnostic puts it really good where it says, we, you know, reason can get us up to the bridge, but we have to cross it in faith.
00:56:21.000But then, even like C.S. Lewis goes through, or Mother Teresa, or presumably every great saint goes through times where you feel like, oh, Lord, it's pretty hard to believe in you right now.