00:01:51.840And yet, despite all that pro-life conviction going on, a massive member of your own church
00:01:58.500community, obviously with a huge family like that, you decided to make the, I would think,
00:02:07.760massive decision to come to the Catholic Church. Tell us about that journey, because
00:02:15.760just thinking about it, the unbelievable challenges that would result, I know it's the truth,
00:02:23.660obviously, but the massive movement, because when you leave, it's a hard thing. When you have a huge
00:02:32.520family and you leave, that actually gets compounded. Tell us about it.
00:02:37.460John, like you said, it was a massive decision and a long time coming. I mean, you know,
00:02:44.000our Lord is faithful. And so long before the FBI arrest or anything, I was reading Church Fathers
00:02:50.720and, you know, there was a journey already in its nascent stages. And even back down, I found
00:02:59.320and ran a little Baptist church for about seven years or so. So early on, you know, you're writing
00:03:05.120a church constitution, which is what Protestants do. You know, you have to define what, who's in,0.55
00:03:09.540what's the, what's the politic and how does this work? And, uh, and we come across the pillar and
00:03:14.920ground of the truth, uh, passage. And I look at my, my co-elders and I'm like, uh, you guys got
00:03:20.960this? Cause I think this is a little, this is a tall bar for me to be the pillar and ground of
00:03:24.900the truth. You know, one man in one lifetime, it seems like an unreachable goal. And so even way
00:03:31.720back then. And so there's always been this arc, I guess, to what we're doing. And God knows it,
00:03:37.740the beginning from the end. And it's, you know, it's great to see it work out. But certainly as
00:03:43.880we, you know, got into this trial, there were several things in the federal trial that led us
00:03:50.060to really dig in, understand the theological differences, and we can get into some of that.
00:03:54.320But but the decision itself was was challenging on a lot of fronts.
00:03:58.780We have, you know, six married children married into our local church, some to the elders, some to some deacons, some to other members of the church and congregation.
00:04:08.000We have grandchildren that we share. It was a big, you know, a big deal for all of us, everyone involved and not just my children, but their in-laws.
00:04:15.480And, you know, there were many, many conversations, lots of grace, lots of love in that process.
00:04:20.760But ultimately, you have to, you know, I think the underlying principle is where where can I be where I can grow and fulfill my calling in Christ and become more like Christ?
00:04:36.660You know, Patrick Coffin, I read just recently and this wasn't before, but but since we've come in or around the time, I was looking at some of this stuff and, you know, become a saint.
00:04:45.580What else is there? And certainly Protestants teach about becoming like Christ and becoming sanctified and things.
00:04:50.820But there is an emphasis that that I needed, you know, that I wanted to to press in and understand how I can, you know, be more more like Christ.
00:05:02.780And what does that look like on a daily basis, a weekly basis?
00:05:06.380Every mass is that opportunity to come into his presence and to be transformed.
00:05:11.680So, you know, in spite of all the challenges, we felt like we had to do it.
00:05:15.540And like I said, we had lots of conversations, lots of grace, and God has been good.
00:05:19.380And the conversations are ongoing, as you might imagine.
00:05:22.320But, you know, that's some of the challenges.
00:05:24.940At the end of the day, you've got to go where you can become like Christ and where God is leading you and be thankful to what he shows you.
00:05:31.620You know, he may not have shown some of the people what he's shown me.
00:05:35.440And my walk and my journey is a little bit different, perhaps, than most.
00:05:39.060Not everybody gets an FBI raid to wake you up in the morning.
00:05:42.040And so, you know, there's certainly challenges and there's certainly grace that goes along with that.
00:05:45.780And I think it's that really is the grace in the midst of the trial that it really strengthened my wife and I and our children at home that were walking with us on a daily basis.
00:05:57.640That, you know, just let it where there really wasn't any other decision there.
00:06:02.120There comes a point where you can't unsee what you've seen.
00:06:04.580and we we came to that point and and that's the way i explained it to
00:06:08.740to my children others that uh they're associated with this obviously so you
00:06:13.620came in this past easter now only really only weeks ago
00:06:17.100um and uh well you received holy communion for the first time
00:06:24.160um anything you'd like to share about that well it's phenomenal um gosh i'd
00:06:32.080really uh sat down to consider that in light of sharing that journey but you know obviously there's
00:06:38.220a difference in our you know our little church is is a very high church presbyterian where we
00:06:43.740where we came from so we practice weekly communion uh the lord's supper and of course you get into
00:06:49.280the theology and the the reality of the real local presence of christ and and you know the
00:06:54.420authority of the church to convect the elements and uh and so that was a big thing for us considering
00:06:59.280it. But it was very humbling and to be estranged from the table as we went through class and as we
00:07:10.000were, you know, coming into the church and to go forward each Lord's Day and to have a blessing
00:07:15.720and not receive was new, even as we came to, you know, the understanding of the real presence and
00:07:21.160everything. So, yes, the Easter vigil was an amazing journey. And in being able to come into
00:07:28.540the Lord's presence and consume, partake of the Lord's body, as he tells us in John.0.61
00:07:34.680And it was, yeah, I mean, obviously a highlight of a Christian walk, right?0.87
00:07:40.240I mean, there's a reality there that you can't explain away and theologically parse, you
00:07:45.800know, and without just looking at the historic church and seeing what the church believed
00:07:50.160and practiced throughout time and place.
00:07:52.640And so that's certainly a high mark of the Christian walk.
00:09:04.860and how the Holy Spirit works in individual lives.
00:09:07.020And, you know, we see in the Bible and Cornelius
00:09:08.960even long before he joined the church, you know, his prayers
00:09:12.520and his alms and come before the Lord as a petition
00:09:14.880and God had received them and knew them.
00:09:17.020And so we know that the Holy Spirit works in us around the world,
00:09:20.420wherever we are in a church, out of the church, that the God who created us is not distant and
00:09:24.900far from us. And so the, the, the idea of the Pope, and, and well, honestly, it wasn't really
00:09:30.660a theology, theological issue as much as it was the state of the church in my generation. And,
00:09:36.820and seeing, you know, we, we deal with this in the politics, right? We deal with it and the
00:09:43.260corruption of our leaders, national body politic. And we unfortunately see the same thing in our
00:09:48.280church. There's corruption. There's, there's, you know, they're good, they're good men. There's
00:09:51.780humanity, right? There in humanity, you get a mixed bag, you get good, you get bad, you get in
00:09:56.380between. And I love the Solzhenitsyn quote was part of our journey here, where he said that the
00:10:04.000threat of good and evil runs right through the heart of every man. And that it's left, right,
00:10:09.240Republican, Democrat, Catholic, Protestant, you name it, we are all capable of vast amounts of
00:10:16.120evil and vast amounts of good and so but that was certainly a hindrance early on and you know there's
00:10:24.600and there's john really i think the underlying thing is my biggest hang-ups were uh listening
00:10:32.200to what protestants said catholics taught instead of listening to what catholics teach
00:10:36.600and so that is always a uh a challenge and so it's really hard you almost cross a line long
00:10:43.620before you get there when you say, oh, I think I'll listen to this Catholic or I'll read this
00:10:47.860Catholic. And of course, a good way to cross that line without crossing it in the modern sense is
00:10:54.880to pick up the church fathers. If you believe Athanasius and Augustine and Basil the Great and
00:11:01.400these people were in the church and that they loved God and they served God and they had the
00:11:06.020fruits of the spirit exhibited in their life, then you have to go back and ask yourself, well,
00:11:10.300What did they believe? What did they practice? And so it was, you know, St. Vincent de Laurent's fifth century had a great quote that was instrumental in this journey.
00:11:22.560And he said, if you want to know what the faith is, the faith is what is believed by all people in all places at all times.
00:11:31.600Well, that didn't mean that the church was 100% all the time.
00:11:36.380But if you find that Antioch, the Christians in the 300s in Antioch, and Rome in the 800s, and Russia in the 1200s, and Greece in the 1400s, all believed the same thing, there's a very good chance that that is the faith of the church, and it has been and always will be.
00:11:52.940And so that was kind of the that was a huge point for me theologically.
00:11:58.140And so once you once you cross that Rubicon, it's you can't go back.
00:12:01.480You begin looking and things just fall in place.
00:12:04.760And you, you know, from one doctrine to the next, you know, one one nuanced in the next.
00:12:09.920And so, yes, it's an amazing journey, but no, no major doctrinal things.
00:21:55.700the the songs of the faith that are that are heard i that the the whole trend of the uh whatever
00:22:03.080they call it that when they show up in a mall and start singing christmas hymns that everybody knows
00:22:08.620and they love it and it's secular love it's loved secularly it makes you know massive views on on
00:22:14.560youtube and all over social media because it's beautiful and it is the traditional hymns you
00:22:20.560You hear Handel's Messiah, you know, and everybody is singing the Hallelujah Chorus because it speaks to the heart and of the whole wide world.
00:22:30.280So that, first of all, I think that's genius.
00:22:32.780It's also prayer because, you know, singing is praying twice is attributed, I think, to St. Augustine.
00:22:39.180But it's also true that it lifts the heart to Christ, but also as a public witness.
00:22:48.780So, A, you have my vote for doing that. I think it's fascinating. And I'm going to encourage people to do it because that's just gorgeous. But let's talk for a moment about the latter half of what's happened to you.
00:23:01.020So after the arrest, you are thankfully not taken to prison. But now, under the Trump administration, they've just shown how horrific this was, how the Biden administration went after you and pro-life leaders specifically, looking especially for Catholics and traditional Christians with a vengeance,
00:23:26.640did the unthinkable in going after Mark Houck and your son. Family men at the point of a gun
00:23:35.320on, he's like purposefully doing it to disturb. You've now been apologized to by the government.
00:23:44.740There's a huge report just released a few weeks ago on detailing the horrendous nature of this
00:23:51.140and sort of apologizing on behalf of the government.
00:24:14.320The premiere of by Don's Early Light is the movie that actually is a video documentary that that actually puts that report that came out into a documentary form, into video format.
00:24:29.380And we we have a small our story is a small snippet in there, along with a couple other our co-defendants, Eva Edel and Coleman Boyder in the movie.
00:24:36.720It was really it was very surreal to sit there and see leaders in our Department of Justice and high political officeholders being there, apologizing, acknowledging the wrongs done.
00:24:52.080But it's also kind of schizophrenia in a sense.
00:24:55.360Our body politics, it's the same Department of Justice that showed up at my doorstep armed that is now on stage apologizing.
00:25:03.280you know it's just it's hard to get your head around of how we as a nation metabolize this
00:25:09.420political system and i think there's some real reforms and things that need to be done but that's
00:25:13.880another you know probably a conversation for another day you know we are very pleased with
00:25:19.300the way god's using the story i think the one of my co-defendants said the the discernment and
00:25:27.360their analysis of what happened is dead on. The solution being proposed may be limited.
00:25:35.920And I would say it's probably limited. You know, John, we have 160 appointees each term
00:25:42.020and they manage some hundred thousand employees that are there. It would take it takes a very
00:25:49.200good leader to make an impact on someone's life in four years, let alone to actually have a
00:25:55.980continuous change, a meaningful change in our government. So there's more that needs to happen.
00:26:01.640I don't know what that is yet. I don't know exactly what that means, but I tend to lean this
00:26:07.940way. I think it was Ben Carson, actually, who may have said it just the other night. He said,
00:26:12.380just focus on being a Christian and expect to be persecuted. And quite honestly, that's a part of
00:26:20.520the embracing martyrdom, persecution, the saints that have gone before us is a beautiful history
00:26:26.800of the Catholic Church. And I, you know, never sought any of this type of martyrdom or persecution
00:26:36.140or anything. We've just tried to quietly live at peace with all men as the Bible instructs and
00:26:39.740raise our family on our farm. But, you know, they showed up at our door and my prayer then and now