Dr. Michelle Critella is a pediatrician who practices her Catholic faith so well, is unafraid to speak on all the hardest of issues, contraception, abortion, even transgenderism, and the LGBT community, and got through one miracle after another, after another.
00:00:00.000This world is getting so incredibly dark that I think good news almost doesn't cut it anymore.
00:00:07.200We need good, almost supernaturally good news in order to break through what seems like an impossible situation of evil everywhere, overwhelming evil, and we're feeling suffocated.
00:00:19.780Well, my guest today is Dr. Michelle Critella, great pediatrician, doctor, who really, I mean, top of her class, just incredible.
00:00:36.680How did she come to be a physician who practices her Catholic faith so well, is unafraid to speak on all the hardest of issues, contraception, abortion, even transgenderism and the LGBT.
00:00:50.480Well, she got through one miracle after another, after another.
00:00:55.700You're going to want to stay tuned for this one.
00:00:57.260Dr. Michelle Critella, welcome to the program.
00:01:21.040Thank you, John Henry. It's good to be here.
00:01:23.660Let's begin as we always do with the sign of the cross.
00:01:26.580In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Ghost. Amen.
00:01:31.920I have been so looking forward to being able to speak with you here.
00:01:51.240Well, born and raised in Rhode Island in the United States and born into a Catholic family.
00:02:01.060And my faith was really gifted to me by my mother who survived polio as a child.
00:02:11.620And so as a little girl myself, my mother's story really stood out to me in that at age seven, she spent her entire, I guess between the ages of six and seven, spent her entire first grade year in the hospital recovering from polio.
00:02:34.380And when she went back home, the doctors told her mother that my mother would never be able to use her left arm.
00:04:29.840That's something that was instilled in me very, very young.
00:04:33.100And my mother, you know, growing up with my mother, I never saw her as, sure, she had a weakness in that left arm.
00:04:43.720But she did everything that any other mom could do or did.
00:04:47.380You know, cooking and cleaning and being involved with the parent, school mom and teaching CCD and throwing parties, all that.
00:04:57.460So, that was definitely a big influence in my faith life.
00:05:06.320In terms of what I do now, I became a general pediatrician.
00:05:09.780And I practiced in rural and suburban group practices for about 17 years in Rhode Island and Connecticut.
00:05:23.340And ultimately, about eight years ago, well, nine years now, like 2012, I'm also a married mom of four.
00:05:32.880And so, back in 2012, decided that I wanted to devote more time to my family.
00:05:38.340I left clinical practice and became director of the American College of Pediatricians, which is a pro-life, natural law, scientific organization of pediatricians.
00:05:52.720The only natural law pediatric organization in the world, actually.
00:05:57.400But that allowed me to use my medical knowledge and be more present to my kids.
00:06:09.380In that role, I'm often accused by detractors of, oh, she's Catholic and she's not about science.
00:06:18.680She's just out to, you know, enforce whatever the Pope says on issues of sexuality, abortion, and contraception.
00:06:30.780And really, nothing could be further from the truth.
00:06:36.200As I look back at my life, although my faith was always, it was instilled in me very young and I grew up with a daily prayer life from the beginning and a devotion to the rosary from the sixth grade forward.
00:06:53.320I always went to public school and my father, who's an electrical engineer, my mother, by training, she worked in the microbiology lab.
00:07:07.160There was always this sense of there's faith and there's science and they have their own realms.
00:07:15.700And they generally, you know, they're in parallel.
00:07:24.620They don't necessarily contradict one another, except, and this was my mother's, this was my mother's teaching.
00:07:33.860She said, you know, I think the church is wrong on contraception because wives should not be afraid to be with their husbands.
00:07:41.320You know, contraception, you're preventing the creation of a new life.
00:07:48.340And the other, the other issue in which I intuitively thought the church teaching made sense, the church teaching on homosexuality, that same-sex attractions, same-sex erotic attractions are intrinsically disordered.
00:08:12.020And, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, because men and women are made for one another and children are the crowning gift of marriage.
00:08:38.220marriage. And so to my 12 year old brain sitting in the pew, I said to myself, well, that makes
00:08:43.340sense. I mean, yeah, this is biology 101. Sexual attractions should serve reproduction. So that
00:08:50.980made sense to me. But when I got into medical school, I was, I was taught by our professors
00:08:59.480that, oh no, no, it's genetic and it's genes and hormones that cause a person to be, to have
00:09:10.160same sex homosexual attractions. It's, it's not a choice now in medical school. They don't really
00:09:18.760teach you. Number one, they did not put forth the actual studies, by the way, they just told us the
00:09:25.340conclusion. If they had actually showed us the studies, twin studies, um, and actually been
00:09:34.280transparent, they would have said, what you see here is that genes and environment contribute
00:09:43.180together and actually environment plays a bigger role, but that's not what was said. So it was,
00:09:49.360you're in med school, you're getting, uh, you're being taught. It's the image that they, that, um,
00:09:58.620expresses med school best is you tell your teachers, Hey, I'm thirsty. And they take out a fire hose and
00:10:04.900blast you with it. And you don't necessarily analyze data, um, very deeply. You're just taking
00:10:14.140the basic conclusions and things are lost over. But the bottom line is in med school, I came to
00:10:20.440believe, oh, you're born this way. And, um, it's an interesting progression because you, you maintained
00:10:28.460your faith all the way through, but you had these distortions in it. Um, it's a, it's an incredible
00:10:34.640thing because you're here, you are in the medical field, but also with a mom who experienced a miraculous
00:10:39.800healing herself, but still had this sort of disagreement with the church officially with
00:10:45.560regard to the issue of contraception, which we know is so fundamental. Um, how, how did, uh, how did you
00:10:52.080get to where you are now? Um, you know, very well known for sticking with all the church's teachings
00:10:58.220and you're, and you're one who, who was accused of, yeah, just doing what the church wants, not being
00:11:03.800part of science at all. Right. Right. Um, yeah, well it's, um, God is patient way more. God is patient
00:11:16.080and, and he, he, uh, he had something in store for me. Um, I'm just laughing because when, when I met my
00:11:27.940husband, I met my husband in medical school and we got in, um, they came engaged. My husband said,
00:11:35.020you know, he came from a family of just three boys and I grew up just myself and a younger brother.
00:11:41.120And my husband said, I think I would love to have four kids now. I, and, and he said this,
00:11:49.220we were engaged. I was only a second year med student. I looked at him. I said, what are you crazy?
00:11:55.540Do you think I'm in med school to get an MRS degree? You think I'm, I, I'm gonna, I'm doing
00:12:02.060this so that I can marry you and be barefoot fat and pregnant for the rest of my life.
00:12:06.720I said, no way we are doing it the way my mom did the right way. We're going to have one boy and
00:12:11.620one girl and we're, we're going to be done. So, I mean, just like, I, I really had, you know,
00:12:17.220drunk the Kool-Aid on the, um, that aspect of the, um, sexual revolution. Um, however,
00:12:26.760so we had our, our, we did get married and I, um, went through finished med school and
00:12:35.440first got married and went through my pediatric residency and, um, planned because in residency,
00:12:46.320where I was, we routinely worked a hundred hours a week. Um, I, I planned it so that I could do
00:12:54.500electives. I could stack my electives the last three months of my final year of residency.
00:13:00.960And, and that's when we conceived our first son. So, um, since they were electives, I only had to
00:13:06.740work 60 hours a week, but, um, nevertheless, um, by age 32, we now had, uh, two sons, a three-year-old
00:13:19.880and a six-month-old. And we had moved back, um, uh, to Rhode Island. We were back equidistance between
00:13:28.780both sets of grandparents. And, um, although I was sad that I didn't have a girl, I was still very
00:13:38.240much committed to, Oh no, this is it. Two kids. That's it. Because I'm a pediatrician and I'm going
00:13:46.420to be in the world and making a difference, be God's pro-life warrior, because I was very much, um,
00:13:53.600I went into medicine because I was, uh, dedicated to doing all I could to save babies from abortion
00:14:02.360and to keep women healthy, to, to help women have alternatives to abortion. And I thought that's it.
00:14:08.940That's what God wants me to do. And that's it. Well, when I was 32 years old, three-year-old and a
00:14:15.560six-month-old, um, February, 2001, three nights in a row, I woke up at 2 AM. The first couple nights
00:14:27.280that I woke up at 2 AM, our oldest son, our three-year-old, he had night terrors. And I went,
00:14:34.180sat with him until the night tour was over. Then realized, Whoa, do I have a headache? But convinced
00:14:42.580myself the first two nights that the headache must've been because of his night terror third night
00:14:49.000spot on 2 AM. I w I woke again this time, no night terror, dead silence in the house. And
00:15:00.020I felt like my head was going to explode. Um, I thought my eyes were going to pop out of the sockets.
00:15:10.980Um, it was in med school. We call that a classic thunderclap headache, complete silence in the
00:15:17.900house. Clearly it was the pain that had awakened me. And I knew in my gut, Oh my gosh, I've, I've got a
00:15:27.420brain tumor. It didn't absolutely have to be a brain tumor. It could have been something else bad,
00:15:32.140like an aneurysm or abscess, brain abscess. Um, of course my, my husband, who's also a physician,
00:15:42.120um, wouldn't believe that anything terrible could be happening to his wife and it's, it's a migraine.
00:15:51.480Of course, I didn't really have a history of migraines and migraines don't typically present
00:15:56.840in the middle of the night with nevertheless, that's it's common with one of the reasons
00:16:02.140physicians try not to treat family. You know, you, you either over react or underreact
00:16:07.680in any case, uh, that was 2 AM by the time it got to be 6 AM. I, um, was vomiting nonstop and
00:16:19.200on that, just laying on the, on the cold bathroom floor was all I could do to not be throwing up and
00:16:27.680feeling okay. And my husband clearly knew he still didn't want to believe it was bad, but he said,
00:16:32.400wow, yeah, I really do have to get you to the emergency room and calm this down. Um, and, uh,
00:16:40.580so he, he did get me to the, to the ER where, um, they were able to give me some, some pain meds and,
00:16:48.460and then nausea meds and get me into the CAT scan. And, and, um, all this time I was very, um,
00:16:57.480anxious, fearful, convinced that it was a brain tumor and, um, waiting in the, uh, in the emergency,
00:17:06.480well, waiting in the ER after having the CAT scans. Um, my husband in the meantime was, um,
00:17:15.560he had our two sons with him in a stroller pushing it by the, um, radiology department. Again,
00:17:24.180he was a physician at the hospital, so he pushed back and later recounted to me that, um, he stopped
00:17:33.580in the doorway of the radiology department and saw cats, uh, some CAT scans up, um, the lights and from
00:17:41.920the doorway could see the brain tumor, right frontal brain tumor, probably about the size. Yeah. About
00:17:50.240the size of maybe a walnut, but the brain had already shifted instead of being centered, it had
00:17:58.000already shifted to the left. And, and my husband thought to himself, Whoa, don't want to be that
00:18:03.040person. And then the radiologist turned around with tears coming down his face because of course it was
00:18:09.680my scan. So, um, so I'm still back in the, in the room waiting for results and the ER doc came in with
00:18:22.680my husband. And of course my husband has a little tear. The ER doc also had like tears because both of
00:18:28.720us worked at this hospital. So they, they knew, um, at the moment they walked in, uh, all of my fear
00:18:38.100immediately went away and I had this heavy warmth just descend upon me from my head throughout my entire
00:18:50.260body down to my toes. And I knew I was going to live, but that's like, it was this certainty, unlike,
00:19:01.300you know, this peace and fortitude, unlike anything the world can give. I just knew it.
00:19:09.600The ER doc said there is a lesion. It's in the right frontal, uh, lobe. There is a lesion where we
00:19:17.480are going to give you Decadron now, uh, because that will decrease the swelling. You know, your brain
00:19:23.980has shifted. That's why you're in so much pain, but we can decrease the swelling on the brain by giving
00:19:30.120you the Decadron. And we, you know, we've already put a call in to the neurosurgeon at Rhode Island
00:19:35.520hospital, the neurosurgery team. And, um, and my husband said to me, you're taking this really well.
00:19:46.960And I said, I said, I think it's because I knew, I mean, I, I knew it was a tumor and
00:19:53.300I'm, I don't know why I know, but I'm not, I'm not going to die. And, um, then I, I, I, then the ER doc
00:20:08.160left and I, and I said to my husband, I said, so what kind do they think, do they have an idea what
00:20:15.240kind it is? And he said, um, yeah, glioblastoma multiforme. So glioblastoma multiforme is the most
00:20:26.680common and deadly brain tumor, um, found in adults. Um, and I, again, being a pediatrician,
00:20:36.460yeah, I kind of, I listened to what he said and I thought back to med school brain tumors. And I said,
00:20:43.100that's, that's not good. He said, no, no. Um, so the, you know, the, that my husband had called his
00:20:55.760parents and my parents, they, they, they came in and, and, um, uh, everyone was crying, but I wasn't,
00:21:07.540I wasn't crying. I, I, I knew it was this. Yep. I'm a doctor. I know this is really bad,
00:21:14.780but I can't shake this certitude that it's going to be okay. Um, and the, the wonderful with the
00:21:24.000miracle of, of medicine, they were actually, um, able to, um, manage me, my, my symptoms. They could,
00:21:35.240by decreasing the swelling that relieved the pain and the nausea. I was actually able to go home.
00:21:40.880I didn't have to go into the hospital. You know, I could actually go home and, um, my appointment
00:21:48.880with the neurosurgeon, uh, and the neuro-oncologist were set up for the next day. Um, and, uh, you know,
00:21:59.360so the, the other, the, probably the most important thing my, my husband did in addition
00:22:07.540to all the, you know, getting a medical appointment set up, um, the, one of the first calls he made
00:22:14.180was to our, um, um, uh, our, our church prayer group. And, um, the woman who was in charge of it
00:22:25.000at the time had a son who was a member of the Franciscan friars of the renewal. And of course
00:22:30.300they had friars all around the world. So within a very short time, I later found out I had thousands
00:22:36.280of people praying for me all around the world. Um, uh, when I, when we followed up, uh, the next
00:22:45.180day with the neurosurgeon, he, he confirmed, uh, basically affirmed what the, the ER doc's
00:22:53.000impression was that, yeah, your whole presentation, it was just so rapid. And so, uh, the, the location
00:22:58.400of the tumor, um, the degree of the swelling, it really appears to have metastasized. There's,
00:23:04.500you know, suggestion of bleeding. This is all consistent with the glioblastoma multiforme. Um,
00:23:12.360my parents were in the room. So the neurosurgeon, I think my mom, my vestibule really like, um,
00:23:20.700what are the chances it could be something else? And so, um, you know, the neurosurgeon said, well,
00:23:28.000maybe 7%. Um, maybe it's a 7% chance that it's not a brain, not this. And I don't know,
00:23:37.100maybe it's, uh, a brain abscess. Not that I had any reason to have a brain abscess, like, you know,
00:23:44.920and anyway, um, uh, we set up the surgery. The surgery was going to be eight days from diagnosis.
00:23:56.300So I was diagnosed on Thursday. The surgery was set up for the following week on a, on a Friday.
00:24:03.560And, um, what was truly, um, remarkable at, at, at that time, it happened to be during Lent.
00:24:14.120And, um, so I, I was able to, uh, I was able to be, uh, obviously anointed by, by our, by our pastor.
00:24:23.860And, um, it was funny because when we went, when we went in to see him, it was, we have an adoration
00:24:30.480chapel, a 24 hour adoration chapel. I wanted to go there to pray with my husband. And I think it was
00:24:36.900a Saturday morning and, and often our pastor is out on a Saturday morning. I said, well, you know what,
00:24:43.180before we go on the chapel, let's just ring the doorbell just in case father's there. Well,
00:24:46.740he was there. And not only was any, you know, Mark tells him the story in the doorway and was,
00:24:51.040come in, I want to anoint you. And, you know, we don't normally have our, our, um, intercessory
00:24:55.880prayer group, uh, here on Saturday mornings, but they are, they're in the next room. I want them to
00:25:01.240pray over you right now. And, um, you know, and, and then we were also going to have our,
00:25:07.380our parish mission was starting that Monday night. And I had, I had had no intention of going
00:25:13.500of course now, Hey, I didn't have anything else to do.
00:25:18.380So I went to that parish mission on a Monday night and, um, I don't remember what it was about.
00:25:27.220What I remember is the close of that Monday night when, uh, father Larry Richards, who gave the
00:25:34.960mission said, by the way, we are going to have, um, healing mass with confessions on Wednesday.
00:25:43.200Let me remind you of the mortal sins that need to be confessed to a priest. And he went through
00:25:50.100them alphabetically. And, you know, of course, abortion was the first one, but the second one,
00:25:55.140he said, blew me away. He said, abortion, artificial contraception. I didn't hear, I, I didn't hear
00:26:04.340anything else he said after that. He got to artificial contraception and God hit me smack
00:26:12.660between the eyes. I was just, I was, yes, I'm in the church. I know that father Larry Richards,
00:26:18.820he's still talking, going down the alphabet, but in front of my eyes, I saw every, it was like a
00:26:25.780ticker tape of every, um, argument in favor of contraception that I had ever, uh, believed,
00:26:33.240but I had ever heard, read, taught, believed. And it was just going right by my, right by my eyes,
00:26:40.720one after the other. And I knew they were lies. I knew they were wrong in my heart. And I did not
00:26:50.240understand, but I believed, and that is the first time in my life I believed before understanding.
00:26:58.020Now with, with the issue of abortion, I was taught about fetal development in, in middle school. And,
00:27:05.520and I, and I had heard, um, witness stories from women who were harmed by abortion. So I understood
00:27:12.320the evil first. And, and then I looked to the church and said, oh yeah, that makes sense. You don't
00:27:18.100kill innocent human life and think this is going to be good for women too. But now I was confronted
00:27:25.780with this almost like illumination of, oh my gosh, this is a mortal sin. I don't understand God. I,
00:27:35.220I believe you, God all mentally. I said to him, I believe you, this, this is a mortal sin. I've been
00:27:43.000prescribing. I've, I've been doing this. I've been promoting it. I'll never do this again. Never,
00:27:47.520never, never. You have my word, but please Lord don't, I don't understand. And I don't want to
00:27:53.680understand. Don't explain it to me because if you explain it to me, I'm going to have to talk about
00:27:58.020it. And I'm a doctor. I can't look like an idiot. And, um, I can't, I mean, I'm going to look crazy.
00:28:07.660I can't be an MD and be against contraception. That's just makes no sense.
00:28:11.720And yet just as surely as I knew I wasn't going to die. I knew that artificial, I now knew artificial
00:28:21.900contraception is a mortal sin and I will never prescribe it again. I will never, I mean, my husband
00:28:26.460and I had been using, um, barrier methods that, yeah, that's it. That's I'm done, Lord. I'm done.
00:28:32.460And of course I did then attend the healing mass later in the week and make a good confession.
00:28:40.440Okay. So that was your day for confession. How long after that was your surgery?
00:28:49.280Um, so that was a Wednesday. So a couple of days later, so my surgery, my surgery was on a Friday and
00:28:54.200a very fascinating, two fascinating things happened. Um, well, prior to surgery, I, my, one of my,
00:29:06.340one of my best friends from residency, a little bit older than me, also a mom pediatrician. Um,
00:29:13.100she, um, called me, um, she had gone through, she called me to just to hear my full story.
00:29:24.200And in the middle of, of our conversation, she said, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait,
00:29:28.260Michelle's to stop. Wait. I don't understand how, where is your strength coming from?
00:29:36.060And she said, I mean, now she had gone through a tumor on her heart the year before.
00:29:45.160So she had been through a life, similar life threatening situation. And she said, I mean,
00:29:50.880I know you, you know, as a mom, you you're strong for your kids, but this is something else. This
00:29:55.340isn't, and I said, Angela, it's God, this is, this is God, Angela. I just, I believe I have the tumor.
00:30:01.840I believe it's a glioblastoma, but all I can say is I know I'm going to live. I think I'm going to
00:30:06.640suffer tremendously, but, um, and she was just, um, she, she couldn't shake it. Um, but there was
00:30:16.940one, one point, maybe just two days before my brain surgery, I, um, I passed through, um, our,
00:30:25.340our study in our home and my husband had, um, printed out the latest research, uh, latest research
00:30:32.420papers on the treatment of glioblastoma multiforme. And the top paper was, uh, put out by the Mayo Clinic.
00:30:39.420And I just read the abstract and I got as far as, you know, a few lines in it said, um, regardless
00:30:48.400of what was done, whether gamma, gamma knife surgery, uh, chemo radiation, it didn't matter
00:30:56.620what, what, what was done. Uh, these patients die within 18 months. And so I stopped reading.
00:31:04.880I couldn't bring myself to read the entire paper. And I, uh, walked into our bedroom and I, I sat at
00:31:13.380the end of our bed and I just looked up and, um, from where I was sitting, there was an image of,
00:31:19.100uh, Christ, uh, divine mercy. Uh, and, um, I, I just looked at that image and mentally I said,