The Jordan B. Peterson Podcast - May 19, 2019


Milo Yiannopoulos: Past, present and future


Episode Stats

Length

1 hour and 50 minutes

Words per Minute

176.21733

Word Count

19,442

Sentence Count

361

Misogynist Sentences

19

Hate Speech Sentences

60


Summary

In Episode 9 of The Jordan B. Peterson Podcast, Jordan's daughter, Mikayla Peterson, presents her father's conversation with Milo Yiannous, recorded on April 11th, 2019. In this episode, we give a brief background on Milo, which many of you might not be aware of, including his early life in the UK and how he ended up in the United States. Dr. Peterson also provides a detailed account of the events leading up to the events that led to the death of Milo, and offers some insight into what may have happened to him in the lead-up to his untimely and tragic death. Dr. B. P. Peterson has created a new series that could be a lifeline for those battling depression and anxiety. We know how isolating and overwhelming these conditions can be, and we wanted to take a moment to reach out to those listening who may be struggling. With decades of experience helping patients, Dr. Jordan Peterson offers a unique understanding of why you might be feeling this way in his new series, and provides a roadmap towards healing, showing that while the journey isn't easy, it's absolutely possible to find your way forward. If you're suffering, please know you are not alone. There's hope, and there's a path to feeling better. Go to Dailywire Plus now and start watching Dr. Pryce's new series on Depression and Anxiety. Let this be the first step towards the brighter future you deserve. - let's talk about the brighter futures you deserve! - Let's Talk About It! - Dr. , Dr. J. Jordan B Peterson (featuring a man of contradictions and contradictions, a man who is a hard man to categorize himself into one of the most complex and complex characters in the most complicated of all of us, and a man with a mind of contradictions. . , we're not here to help you become a better version of yourself, not just better at being a better you, we're here to make you feel better, not less alone, not better, but more like you, and more of you, more of a better, and you, too, and so that you can be a better person. Thank you for listening to you, friendlier, more like that you, I'm not alone, and I'm here for you, you can help you, so you can feel your best, and that you're not alone in the next episode of the podcast.


Transcript

00:00:00.960 Hey everyone, real quick before you skip, I want to talk to you about something serious and important.
00:00:06.480 Dr. Jordan Peterson has created a new series that could be a lifeline for those battling depression and anxiety.
00:00:12.740 We know how isolating and overwhelming these conditions can be, and we wanted to take a moment to reach out to those listening who may be struggling.
00:00:20.100 With decades of experience helping patients, Dr. Peterson offers a unique understanding of why you might be feeling this way in his new series.
00:00:27.420 He provides a roadmap towards healing, showing that while the journey isn't easy, it's absolutely possible to find your way forward.
00:00:35.360 If you're suffering, please know you are not alone. There's hope, and there's a path to feeling better.
00:00:41.780 Go to Daily Wire Plus now and start watching Dr. Jordan B. Peterson on depression and anxiety.
00:00:47.460 Let this be the first step towards the brighter future you deserve.
00:00:57.420 Welcome to Season 2, Episode 9 of the Jordan B. Peterson Podcast.
00:01:03.680 I'm Mikayla Peterson, Dad's daughter and collaborator.
00:01:07.000 Today, we're presenting his conversation with Milo Yiannopoulos, recorded April 11th, 2019.
00:01:12.780 This podcast will give you a bit of a background on Milo, which many of you might not be aware of.
00:01:17.700 Hopefully it's enjoyed.
00:01:19.160 Dad is still out for the count for the meantime.
00:01:21.760 Probably the foreseeable future, to be honest.
00:01:24.100 We're still dealing with a health crisis, although Mom's recovering from surgery like a champ.
00:01:28.660 She's the least whiny person I know.
00:01:30.700 We'll keep you guys posted next week.
00:01:32.540 Hope everyone's Victoria Day is good.
00:01:34.620 That's just a Canadian holiday.
00:01:36.260 But that's good for us.
00:01:37.600 The American suckers out there don't get Monday off.
00:01:39.640 Sorry about that.
00:01:41.080 When we return, Dad's conversation with Milo Yiannopoulos.
00:01:44.760 I'm speaking today with Milo Yiannopoulos.
00:01:54.860 Milo is a hard man to categorize.
00:01:58.540 Part journalist, part performance artist, part agent provocateur, part comedian at wit.
00:02:05.960 Yiannopoulos is a man of immense and complex self-contradiction.
00:02:09.300 He's half Greek and half Irish, but is known as an Englishman to the Americans with whom he has communicated extensively.
00:02:17.020 He's gay and Jewish by descent.
00:02:19.880 He married his long-term boyfriend, an African-American man in Hawaii in 2017, but faces frequent accusations of racism.
00:02:28.920 He is, or was, strangely attractive to young American Republicans, and completed a successful and controversy-ridden tour of U.S. universities in 2016 and 2017.
00:02:42.960 For at least two years, he was one of the most well-known internet celebrities, let's say, on the political front.
00:02:49.400 He caused more uproar than any other single person that I can think of.
00:02:53.340 He collected his fair share of enemies along the way.
00:02:56.300 He's often accused, for example, of being an alt-right supporter, an accusation justified in the view of those who oppose him by his association with Breitbart, for whom he was an editor.
00:03:08.940 In my view, for what it's worth, Milo was such a figure of inner contradiction and outer controversy that I believed from the beginning that his time was numbered.
00:03:18.780 Nonetheless, the circumstances of his demise were unpredictable, I would say, and that's in keeping with his apparent destiny.
00:03:25.540 After revealing details of his early sexual experiences at the hands of a 29-year-old priest, whom he refused to name,
00:03:33.580 he stated that he was an active participant in the events, and that such occurrences were far more common and far more consensual than people were willing to admit.
00:03:43.000 I don't think he ever recovered from the controversy that those comments generated.
00:03:46.980 I should finish by saying that Milo is definitely now on the list of those who no one acceptably socially should ever speak to, which I suppose is one of the reasons why I'm talking to him.
00:03:58.200 I want to know what happened to him in his own words, and I don't really give a damn if that's politically incorrect.
00:04:04.040 Thanks, Milo, for agreeing to be on my channel and podcast.
00:04:07.840 Thank you very much for having me.
00:04:09.980 I take a slightly less fatalistic view of my prospects than your introduction would suggest, but certainly I went through an extraordinary tumble, and I'm happy to share my thoughts about it with you.
00:04:24.860 Yeah, well, let's start by reviewing some of your history, if you wouldn't mind.
00:04:29.920 Tell me, let's start with a bit of your history in the UK before you came to the US.
00:04:35.500 It's been long enough so that I think some biographical information would be useful for people.
00:04:40.520 So tell me about your life in the UK before you came to the US, and then let's start talking about what happened to you as soon as you came over to North America.
00:04:51.460 Sure. I had a very unhappy life, particularly a very unhappy 20s in London.
00:04:59.920 I started off as a journalist in some quite prestigious publications.
00:05:04.660 I was in a relationship that was, I don't think, healthy or happy for either person involved.
00:05:12.840 I was searching, I think. I was looking. I couldn't work out yet what I was, what I was for, what my purpose was.
00:05:22.220 And it wasn't until I got to America I discovered what it was.
00:05:26.440 But I started to explore at least what would eventually become my, I suppose, my civic function as bomb thrower and provocateur.
00:05:37.680 Right at the beginning of my career in journalism, I mean, I was fairly predictably come from a broken home, not much love for or from either parent.
00:05:46.880 And I started, I got lucky, a combination, I guess, of luck and talent, writing for the Telegraph, which is the most prestigious newspaper in Britain.
00:05:56.720 And I began to notice the gap between the world that I was being asked to describe and the world that I could see existed.
00:06:05.840 At the time, I was writing about technology and was being asked to say that women were having a dreadful time of it in the emerging startup ecosystem in London, which, as far as I could tell, was the exact opposite of the truth.
00:06:20.120 And eventually these sort of fissures got wider and wider to the point where I, I sort of had this, this moment where I realized that my profession was a crock of, you know what?
00:06:35.420 And then if I wanted to, if I wanted to do something worthwhile with my life, I should either blow it up from the inside by being one or pick something else to do.
00:06:43.600 And that was around the time that I attracted the attention of Breitbart, the site in the U.S.
00:06:51.280 And I started from London writing from Breitbart in the U.S.
00:06:53.920 And at that time, I didn't really know what it was.
00:06:55.520 I never met Andrew Breitbart and I didn't know who he was either.
00:06:58.760 No, I don't think anybody knew what it was or who, what it was to begin with.
00:07:02.600 And it's a funny thing when you look at things in retrospect, you know, you get involved with people in organizations that develop a particular way over time.
00:07:11.660 And then it looks from a historical perspective, like that was self-evident from the beginning, but certainly not when you're dealing with a new organization.
00:07:20.660 Yeah, I mean, it was new-ish.
00:07:22.400 I don't think that the values of Breitbart changed a lot, but I think perhaps it's, it's modus operandi.
00:07:28.800 I think perhaps the way that it conducted itself as an organization shifted into high gear when Steve Bannon and I were there.
00:07:36.780 And I was doing the cultural stuff and Steve was using the rest of the site as the sort of battering ram politically.
00:07:44.320 So, I mean, I bear a large part of the responsibility for Breitbart becoming what it eventually became, although I don't think they've held on to that legacy very well.
00:07:53.180 I think it's a little sad the way that they're sort of, when I was there, we used to make the news and now they're sort of chasing off the turning point, you know, with stories that could have been written in 2015, 16.
00:08:04.380 I don't think they've managed to maintain the culturally defining excitement that was there when I was there, which I think is a function of me and Steve working together.
00:08:15.460 I suppose my center of gravity just started shifting to the U.S.
00:08:21.660 I started getting invitations to go and speak at colleges and sooner or later, one day I just sort of thought there were six of them in a row.
00:08:29.400 So I thought there was no point flying home between them.
00:08:31.000 I may as well just stay and just do sort of college after college.
00:08:34.820 And then suddenly I found myself booking more of them and wondering why I should bother going home.
00:08:41.280 And my center of gravity editorially and in other ways was shifting to the U.S. too.
00:08:48.500 So I, over the course of six or nine months, began writing more about the States, thinking more about the States, being in it, talking about it.
00:08:57.360 And then, I suppose, fast forward a year perhaps, and I was one of the two or three people driving, you know, Breitbart as this extraordinary, momentous, fascinating, dysfunctional editorial force through the last election.
00:09:18.080 So what was it that attracted you, do you think, to the United States and the political concerns there?
00:09:26.060 Why away from the U.K.?
00:09:28.240 I don't think Britain handles iconoclasts very well.
00:09:33.300 And it particularly doesn't handle bombastic ones.
00:09:36.340 And I think a lot of people with outsized personalities find themselves investigating America as an alternative birth, because I think America has a much higher tolerance for outsized personalities.
00:09:51.700 Yeah, well, I mean, it's pretty clear that you had some of the characteristics that made people stars, you know, that make people personalities.
00:09:59.780 That was obvious pretty much from the step of the first.
00:10:02.820 Well, this is why I'm not worried in the long term about my career prospects.
00:10:05.600 You know, I had a stratospheric rise over a couple of years and, you know, a painful tumble.
00:10:13.480 But talent is talent, and talent always wins.
00:10:16.000 And I've got 40 years ahead of me, you know, of whatever I choose to do with it.
00:10:20.780 So I'm not worried in the long term about my career prospects.
00:10:23.840 Good. Well, we can talk about your dissent and the sort of catastrophe that accompanied it and maybe about how you see being pulled out of that.
00:10:34.100 I'd like to hear about that as well.
00:10:36.800 So what in the world do you think made you so attractive to American Republicans?
00:10:42.880 I mean, this is one of the things that struck me about you right from the beginning, because it's not exactly like you're a poster boy for what you would assume conservative American Republicans would be attracted to.
00:10:55.660 Well, I think they quite liked the fact that I was reflecting their views in a package that you would more often think would be a liberal.
00:11:06.500 And, of course, I, you know, made that part of the act and part of the brand.
00:11:09.880 It's kind of like, you know, all these things and yet still Republican.
00:11:12.900 But the real answer is joy.
00:11:14.440 Anyway, there's a joylessness about a lot of conservative activists, authors and speakers, and there's a joylessness in intellectual dark web, too.
00:11:25.120 It's a very funless place.
00:11:27.120 And I look at the public intellectuals and commentators and speakers who are currently enjoying a moment in the sun, and each of them is in their own way quite joyless, quite devoid of mirth.
00:11:46.260 And I think that people liked my sense of mischief, and they liked the fact that I was always smiling.
00:11:53.420 And I think it's, I mean, it's unusual to see somebody talking about really serious things, who is the subject of the most extraordinary and relentless abuse, who nonetheless is always smiling.
00:12:04.600 And I have always been that person.
00:12:07.460 I've never stopped, not in 2017, 18, or today.
00:12:10.660 And I think people find that very mesmerizing and very attractive, because...
00:12:14.260 And very perplexing and difficult to understand, given the circumstances and the apparent seriousness of the topics.
00:12:21.780 You know, I mean, there is something to be said.
00:12:23.180 Because I think it's to do with, I mean, you know, joy is Christianity's great gift to Western civilization.
00:12:31.180 Laughter, you know, the medieval church is, you know, this place of song and of dance.
00:12:37.080 I think Christianity has become quite joyless.
00:12:39.720 The only places where there's a really impassioned, happy spirit of worship is in black churches.
00:12:47.360 But white evangelical Protestantism in the U.S. has become, I think, quite suffocating and joyless.
00:12:55.660 I think the public square as a whole, in general, is a miserable place.
00:13:02.000 Twitter is a miserable place.
00:13:03.720 If you turn the television on, people are miserable.
00:13:06.120 I think there's something about me, there's something maybe missing in my brain that doesn't get ground down by it.
00:13:13.440 And I'm watching, you know, I had my, you know, moment in the sun.
00:13:17.800 Some other people are having a moment in the sun now.
00:13:20.260 That will, you know, that too will pass.
00:13:23.480 And I'm watching them, and I'm watching them all getting ground down.
00:13:27.580 Well, how do you...
00:13:28.300 Well, that's a good, that's a real question that's of interest to me from a psychological perspective.
00:13:32.820 I mean, you know, my suspicions, it's obviously that you're extremely extroverted.
00:13:39.660 I'm not claiming any particular brilliance for noting that.
00:13:44.080 And also that you're extremely open, and that's the creativity dimension.
00:13:47.580 But I'm wondering about your scores on neuroticism.
00:13:51.880 It's like, you were subject to a tremendous amount of controversy.
00:13:57.400 And then quite a precipitous fall under strange and complicated circumstances.
00:14:06.140 And you seem to be able to survive that.
00:14:10.320 And you just described yourself as a relatively joyful person.
00:14:14.000 I mean...
00:14:14.420 I'm a very happy person.
00:14:15.640 I think that, listen, I mean, you know, conservatives are only out and off the playing field when
00:14:23.680 they choose to be.
00:14:25.740 Because there's such a, there's so few of us in such a wide open market.
00:14:30.600 The reason I'm not worried about my prospects in the long term is I still wake up every day
00:14:34.620 with joy in my heart, brimming with energy and ideas.
00:14:38.500 Most, I don't know anybody in public life, not one person in public life,
00:14:43.500 who could have gone through what I went through and not been broken by it.
00:14:48.480 But I'm not.
00:14:50.100 It hasn't beaten me.
00:14:51.800 And I think that that's down to a combination of personal characteristics that I don't think
00:14:57.400 many other people possess.
00:14:58.500 And that's, part of that is, you know, not being, it's impossible to intimidate me, for instance.
00:15:09.840 I don't get scared of things.
00:15:11.260 I'm not scared of things.
00:15:12.200 Mm-hmm.
00:15:12.860 I see.
00:15:13.440 I don't feel, perhaps to the same degree that other people do, embarrassment and shame.
00:15:20.140 So I don't mind playing the fool, playing Falstaff, clowning, you know.
00:15:25.720 I don't mind subverting myself, laughing at myself, because through that, I'm able to point
00:15:31.840 to truths that are real and big and beautiful and important.
00:15:38.320 I'm not an egotist.
00:15:40.160 So I don't, and I think that's part of the same thing.
00:15:42.120 I don't mind humbling myself, because I play at having a big ego, but I don't really.
00:15:48.140 And I'm not ground down or broken or upset by things that, you know, that don't matter that much.
00:15:56.500 I mean, I have love in my life.
00:15:59.280 I have achieved more than 99.8% of journalists, political activists, you know, public figures.
00:16:08.060 You and I are the only people who have achieved remotely close to our level of success in our,
00:16:12.940 you know, in the last 10 years worth of libertarian, conservative, IDW, you know, whatever,
00:16:19.880 whatever this grand nexus ecosystem is that we both belong to.
00:16:24.640 And you and I are the only two people who, you know, you and I are the two who have achieved
00:16:28.180 the greatest success at it.
00:16:30.860 And I've had terrible things happen to me.
00:16:32.940 You're fortunate and nothing bad has really happened to you yet.
00:16:37.440 I can't think of anything really awful that's happened to you, aside from the Cambridge thing,
00:16:41.160 which I think that I like to...
00:16:42.360 No, I wouldn't call that...
00:16:43.300 I think you brought that on yourself, and I don't think it was too much of a big deal anyway.
00:16:46.860 But nothing really bad has happened to you yet.
00:16:48.660 The worst thing imaginable has happened to me.
00:16:50.480 I had to stand up in front of the world and tell them that I had been sexually abused
00:16:57.060 as a child, and that this was why I'd spoken loosely and incautiously and used a formulation
00:17:01.500 that I regretted about something that had happened to me, and at the same time try to also say,
00:17:07.800 well, I'm not going to stop making jokes about that or anything else.
00:17:10.660 For other people, I think that level of public ritual humiliation would simply have snapped
00:17:17.100 them, and it didn't me.
00:17:20.520 And I don't know...
00:17:21.600 I mean, you're the psychology expert.
00:17:24.920 Perhaps you have some insight of you on this.
00:17:26.940 The only person I know in my personal life, a friend who has similar qualities is Anne Coulter,
00:17:32.380 to whom criticism is...
00:17:35.680 It's a game.
00:17:37.580 And she's able to very...
00:17:39.620 And the interesting thing is, it's not enough to say that we're, let's say, sociopathic,
00:17:44.600 because quite clearly we're both not, wouldn't be able to have some of the insights we do,
00:17:49.240 and we wouldn't have the love in our lives that we do if we were sociopathic.
00:17:52.540 So it's not that.
00:17:53.460 But we do both have an ability to just pick things up, put them over there,
00:17:57.240 and not allow them to burrow in and create...
00:18:02.640 Well, that seems to me to be that relatively rare combination of extreme extroversion and
00:18:09.100 very low neuroticism.
00:18:10.600 That's not the same as sociopathy.
00:18:12.860 I think you're right about that.
00:18:14.020 I think maybe that's what I've got.
00:18:16.100 Well, some people are just not that affected emotionally by negative events, you know.
00:18:21.580 Some people are devastated by the smallest of obstacles,
00:18:24.360 and some people can roll with punches that would take a normal person out
00:18:29.440 and continue to get back up.
00:18:32.080 Things do bother me in my personal life,
00:18:36.440 but there are things that are actually significant,
00:18:38.160 whether it's to do with my family or, you know, my loved one or whatever it is.
00:18:45.180 But there are things that in my brain are emotionally significant, serious things,
00:18:50.320 worthy of unfettered access to my emotions, if you like.
00:18:55.240 And they have that, and they produce very strong reactions in both directions.
00:18:58.840 I'm a very passionate person.
00:18:59.820 I can even be hot-headed, you know, when I'm defending somebody I love, for instance.
00:19:04.760 But there's another world, which is the professional world,
00:19:07.340 which is, to me, just a big game.
00:19:11.420 It's a big, fun game.
00:19:13.520 And this, the reason I just...
00:19:16.320 This is why I've always thought of you as a kind of a trickster, you know.
00:19:20.180 I mean...
00:19:20.340 I think that's part of it.
00:19:21.260 ...in the sense that you do.
00:19:23.220 There is a game-like element to what you're doing.
00:19:26.220 And...
00:19:26.780 I very much see what I'm doing in life,
00:19:29.680 and will be doing for the next 40 years,
00:19:31.200 as playing a very complex and very enjoyable game of...
00:19:34.640 And very, you know, a game of snakes and ladders.
00:19:38.000 And just because I hit a ladder on one of my first turns,
00:19:42.100 and then immediately the snake took me back to the front row.
00:19:44.840 It doesn't mean the game is over.
00:19:46.320 You know, in fact, it just means you've learned the rules.
00:19:49.840 So, that's, I suppose, why I find it difficult to take too seriously,
00:19:54.800 you know, harrowing introspection about, you know, whatever.
00:19:59.440 Because it's not how I apprehend the situation.
00:20:02.160 I can look dispassionately at what happened and why.
00:20:05.120 And we can talk about that, and I have some ideas about that.
00:20:07.000 But I don't have a...
00:20:12.600 I don't have a sort of emotional...
00:20:15.820 I don't have anything to offload about it, really.
00:20:19.080 Okay.
00:20:19.800 Okay.
00:20:20.040 Well, so, you know,
00:20:21.860 when that conversation about your early childhood sexual experiences first came out,
00:20:29.340 I listened to it, and I thought that there was tremendous trouble brewing there, you know,
00:20:35.420 for a variety of reasons.
00:20:37.160 And if you remember, I phoned you at that point and suggested that we had a conversation,
00:20:42.480 and we made some efforts to manage that that never came to fruition.
00:20:47.400 And I always felt that that was unfortunate.
00:20:49.420 And so, I'd like to, if you don't mind, I'd like to ask you about that situation.
00:20:56.600 Because, you know, I had a lot of mixed feelings about what you said, like many people.
00:21:03.480 And they weren't particularly judgmental, by the way.
00:21:06.660 I mean, so, you...
00:21:09.620 And you correct me if I'm wrong here, because I want to get this story straight.
00:21:13.800 You related some experiences you had with a priest who was twice your age, right?
00:21:20.880 Something like that.
00:21:21.920 Yeah, approximately that.
00:21:23.980 You were about 14.
00:21:26.740 I think he was a little older than that, actually.
00:21:29.620 Okay, okay.
00:21:30.260 He was a little older than that.
00:21:31.000 It's difficult to judge ages when you are 14.
00:21:33.980 I think I thought that he was younger than he was at the time,
00:21:38.300 and subsequently found out he was perhaps 10 years older than I thought he was.
00:21:41.240 Okay, okay, so, but there was a significant age gap.
00:21:45.640 Age gap, yeah, yeah.
00:21:46.980 And so, arguably, he was someone who was in a position of authority,
00:21:52.860 and that what he did with you was something that he shouldn't have done.
00:21:58.080 And also, it's highly probable, given the nature of such things,
00:22:02.860 that you were by no means his only, let's say, target.
00:22:06.080 Now, when I heard you talk about that,
00:22:10.500 the first thing that struck me about the way that you formulated it was
00:22:14.340 your refusal to play victim.
00:22:18.500 And I actually found that...
00:22:19.000 I didn't see myself as one.
00:22:20.600 I know, I know, I know that, I know that.
00:22:22.820 And that actually struck me as rather admirable,
00:22:25.360 because you came forward and said,
00:22:29.200 this is an uncomfortable truth,
00:22:31.880 but, you know, I was of sufficient age to have a mind of my own,
00:22:35.820 and this was something I was pursuing of my own volition.
00:22:39.760 And then...
00:22:40.020 That is how I felt at the time.
00:22:41.680 Right.
00:22:41.760 And, you know, when you talk about the abuse of authority or whatever,
00:22:44.760 I've never met an authority I recognize or respect.
00:22:48.480 You know, people have to earn my respect.
00:22:50.360 I have never encountered a person in a position of responsibility or authority
00:22:54.540 who I have respected and deferred to
00:22:58.480 merely by virtue of their office or their position.
00:23:00.960 Right, so it's also the fact...
00:23:02.480 I sort of constitutionally don't recognize authority,
00:23:05.520 so that element of it did not strike me until someone told me.
00:23:10.560 Okay, okay, well, that's the thing.
00:23:12.040 Okay, so, well, I can imagine that,
00:23:13.400 because I don't imagine that you were much different,
00:23:15.320 in some sense, when you were 14 than you are now,
00:23:18.500 you know, apart from obvious maturation.
00:23:20.440 Not very much.
00:23:20.980 You know, you're an assertive and provocative person,
00:23:26.020 and you're an iconoclast,
00:23:27.360 and I can certainly see that intrinsic respect for authority,
00:23:31.940 which so oddly often characterizes conservatives, by the way,
00:23:35.820 is quite absent in you.
00:23:38.100 And so, and I thought...
00:23:39.740 It's interesting, isn't it?
00:23:40.240 Because we have...
00:23:41.000 That's the tabloid gadfly,
00:23:43.880 by constantly taking potshots at the institutions
00:23:47.600 that you also secretly love and are grateful for,
00:23:50.940 but you are dedicated to keeping them on the ground,
00:23:55.160 and not...
00:23:56.660 You know, it's the difference between,
00:23:58.300 you know, the British tabloids,
00:24:00.660 which love to torment our Prime Minister,
00:24:02.660 and the White House Correspondents Dinner,
00:24:04.320 where journalists are seeking to participate in that prestige,
00:24:08.020 rather than bring these people down to earth
00:24:12.340 and make sure they never go a full day
00:24:15.000 taking themselves too seriously.
00:24:16.900 So I think that's perhaps a British...
00:24:19.420 It's a bit of British...
00:24:20.980 A bit of the British psyche.
00:24:22.380 Right, right.
00:24:23.000 That seems, given my interactions with British journalists,
00:24:26.800 that seems like a perfectly appropriate statement.
00:24:30.360 Now, despite the fact that when I heard you speak
00:24:33.960 about what happened to you,
00:24:35.600 and my admiration for your refusal to play innocent victim,
00:24:42.480 I also had contradictory ideas
00:24:45.620 that I think were more a function of my clinical training,
00:24:49.460 and there were two of them that I'd like to discuss with you.
00:24:53.220 I mean, the first is...
00:24:55.460 You know, when you think about yourself as a 14-year-old,
00:25:01.160 you think about that 14-year-old as yourself.
00:25:05.340 You don't necessarily think about that 14-year-old
00:25:08.140 as a 14-year-old.
00:25:10.100 And, you know, when you remember your 14-year-old self,
00:25:13.120 and then you go out and you see some 14-year-olds,
00:25:15.880 it's actually quite a shock, or it can be quite a shock,
00:25:18.320 because 14-year-olds are often a lot younger
00:25:21.320 and a lot more clueless...
00:25:23.500 Than you remember you...
00:25:24.320 Yeah, than you remember yourself being, you know...
00:25:26.920 Yeah, I think I know where you're going with this,
00:25:28.280 and I...
00:25:31.160 Well, and so...
00:25:32.740 Go ahead, go ahead.
00:25:33.400 Well, because the second part of what I thought was that,
00:25:36.360 like, it...
00:25:38.180 And this is the incredibly tricky part of this conversation,
00:25:42.900 as far as I'm concerned.
00:25:44.240 I mean, one of the other things that got you in real trouble,
00:25:47.720 apart from the fact that you wouldn't name your...
00:25:51.640 The person that you interacted with,
00:25:53.820 your abuser, so to speak,
00:25:55.200 was that you made the unforgivable case,
00:25:59.900 I think, publicly,
00:26:01.280 that this sort of thing happened far more commonly
00:26:04.620 than people were willing to admit.
00:26:06.820 And I just...
00:26:07.840 As soon as you said that,
00:26:09.000 I thought, man, you're dead in the water.
00:26:12.180 Because...
00:26:12.660 It was interesting watching...
00:26:13.880 Yeah, good.
00:26:15.340 Well, true that may be,
00:26:17.140 it's not something that can be publicly discussed.
00:26:20.580 It's not...
00:26:22.580 You know,
00:26:23.000 I want you to...
00:26:24.440 I went a bit further, though,
00:26:26.140 than just that.
00:26:27.460 I took it a step further, even,
00:26:29.980 and said that not only is this something
00:26:31.540 that happens far more often
00:26:32.640 than people are willing to admit,
00:26:34.100 it is a function of gay life
00:26:37.600 and gay...
00:26:38.600 Right, right.
00:26:41.360 Adolescence,
00:26:41.860 philosophy, whatever.
00:26:42.740 And it is a proper subject for humor.
00:26:46.040 And I insist on it being a proper subject.
00:26:47.780 Yeah, well,
00:26:48.140 I wasn't even going to bring those two things up
00:26:50.060 because I thought that just,
00:26:51.500 you know,
00:26:51.800 that merely bringing up the first part of that
00:26:53.960 would cause enough trouble.
00:26:54.980 But I'm glad that you did bring
00:26:56.560 the second part of that up.
00:26:57.720 Well, because there's a serious conversation
00:26:59.760 that has to be had about this,
00:27:01.280 and the damn conversation hasn't happened.
00:27:03.920 And I don't mean specifically about...
00:27:05.920 Even specifically about your particular experience,
00:27:09.980 although I think it's a way into the conversation.
00:27:12.800 It's like,
00:27:13.480 the first question is,
00:27:15.420 well,
00:27:16.060 it'd be interesting to take apart
00:27:18.000 some of your claims,
00:27:19.200 and I'd like to do that with your permission.
00:27:21.080 And I don't expect this to be an easy conversation.
00:27:23.880 No, that's...
00:27:24.320 I wasn't expecting it to be,
00:27:25.880 so go ahead.
00:27:26.480 Okay, okay.
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00:30:14.860 First thing I would say
00:30:16.120 is that
00:30:16.660 it isn't obvious to me
00:30:20.400 that even if you were
00:30:21.360 a willing participant
00:30:22.420 in what happened
00:30:23.880 to you
00:30:24.320 when you were 14
00:30:26.060 that that
00:30:27.560 justifies
00:30:29.280 what happened
00:30:30.440 to you
00:30:30.980 on the part
00:30:32.200 of the person
00:30:32.860 with whom
00:30:33.880 you were participating.
00:30:36.100 Well, no,
00:30:36.480 of course it doesn't,
00:30:37.380 but the way
00:30:37.840 I apprehended it
00:30:38.880 was that it was me.
00:30:41.260 Right.
00:30:41.700 But when I said
00:30:44.840 a moment ago
00:30:45.300 I think I know
00:30:45.740 where you're going
00:30:46.140 with this
00:30:46.600 I can interject
00:30:47.620 with a very small
00:30:48.700 data point
00:30:49.500 that I think explains
00:30:50.720 how I think about this
00:30:53.580 after some time
00:30:54.380 and reflection
00:30:54.900 which is
00:30:55.420 I have something now
00:30:57.240 that I didn't have
00:30:58.620 in 2017
00:30:59.500 which is a relationship
00:31:00.740 with my stepson
00:31:02.280 and
00:31:04.500 he is 16
00:31:07.160 and
00:31:09.460 when I think
00:31:10.940 let's not
00:31:13.460 let's not
00:31:14.920 let's not finish
00:31:15.320 that thought
00:31:15.700 but when I consider
00:31:16.500 how old
00:31:17.260 he is
00:31:18.280 and put myself
00:31:19.000 at that age
00:31:19.640 suddenly
00:31:20.820 the horror
00:31:21.560 that I see
00:31:22.060 in everybody
00:31:22.460 else's faces
00:31:23.260 that I have
00:31:23.820 never felt
00:31:24.280 myself
00:31:24.700 about what
00:31:25.140 happened to me
00:31:25.640 and therefore
00:31:26.020 has never
00:31:26.480 been
00:31:27.380 has never
00:31:28.020 been communicated
00:31:28.960 for me
00:31:29.660 a sort of
00:31:30.240 acknowledgement
00:31:30.720 and awareness
00:31:31.340 that this is
00:31:31.940 not normal
00:31:32.580 and that
00:31:33.000 this is a
00:31:34.240 horrifying
00:31:35.720 and terrible
00:31:36.320 thing to happen
00:31:36.860 to a small
00:31:38.100 person
00:31:38.540 I never
00:31:39.380 apprehended it
00:31:40.060 like that
00:31:40.500 because I just
00:31:41.100 thought of that
00:31:41.520 14 year old
00:31:42.160 as me today
00:31:43.060 right
00:31:43.540 right
00:31:43.840 okay
00:31:44.380 and that's
00:31:44.760 exactly
00:31:45.160 what I
00:31:45.560 picked
00:31:45.800 look
00:31:46.000 that's
00:31:46.320 exactly
00:31:46.700 what I
00:31:47.100 picked up
00:31:47.580 from your
00:31:48.080 from your
00:31:48.640 interview
00:31:49.040 until the
00:31:49.800 last two
00:31:50.300 years
00:31:50.740 and now
00:31:52.040 I'm
00:31:52.520 experiencing
00:31:54.700 getting to
00:31:56.020 know a
00:31:56.560 child
00:31:56.960 yeah
00:31:57.660 as a
00:31:58.820 co-parent
00:31:59.800 yeah
00:32:00.660 as a
00:32:01.160 step-mom
00:32:01.780 and now
00:32:03.100 I get it
00:32:04.200 okay
00:32:04.660 now
00:32:05.080 okay
00:32:05.420 all right
00:32:06.280 so you
00:32:06.900 know I've
00:32:07.220 seen this
00:32:07.820 with my
00:32:08.700 clinical
00:32:09.120 clients
00:32:09.720 you know
00:32:10.320 who
00:32:10.620 who
00:32:11.600 failed to
00:32:13.920 notice in
00:32:14.560 some important
00:32:15.480 way
00:32:15.860 that the
00:32:17.200 person they
00:32:17.760 were
00:32:18.240 sometimes decades
00:32:19.580 ago
00:32:19.960 is not the
00:32:21.280 person they
00:32:21.820 are now
00:32:22.360 and the
00:32:23.080 memories they
00:32:23.760 have from
00:32:24.160 those times
00:32:24.780 which are
00:32:25.300 appropriate to
00:32:26.660 those times
00:32:27.400 are not the
00:32:28.700 same memories
00:32:29.460 that are
00:32:29.820 appropriate to
00:32:30.820 those times
00:32:31.500 now
00:32:31.960 given their
00:32:32.920 relative
00:32:33.340 maturation
00:32:34.140 I think
00:32:35.380 that's fair
00:32:35.880 and I
00:32:36.340 think it
00:32:36.680 took that
00:32:37.380 that
00:32:39.380 change in
00:32:41.000 my life
00:32:41.480 circumstances
00:32:42.240 for me
00:32:42.880 to jolt me
00:32:44.020 into realizing
00:32:44.760 exactly what
00:32:46.040 you're saying
00:32:46.520 okay so let
00:32:47.940 so let me ask
00:32:48.820 you some
00:32:49.080 questions about
00:32:49.780 that
00:32:50.160 so
00:32:51.100 what
00:32:52.700 what's
00:32:54.400 what's
00:32:55.400 changed
00:32:56.180 in the way
00:32:57.180 that you view
00:32:57.800 what happened
00:32:58.420 to you
00:32:58.780 and if
00:32:59.220 you were
00:32:59.560 interviewed
00:33:00.100 well and I
00:33:00.780 guess you are
00:33:01.240 being interviewed
00:33:01.880 about this
00:33:02.440 right now
00:33:03.040 if you were
00:33:04.400 being interviewed
00:33:05.120 about what
00:33:05.780 happened to
00:33:06.300 you at age
00:33:07.440 14 I have
00:33:08.440 two questions
00:33:09.240 or three
00:33:09.660 questions about
00:33:10.360 that
00:33:10.720 what do you
00:33:12.360 think of the
00:33:12.940 propriety of
00:33:13.780 that how do
00:33:15.080 you now view
00:33:15.760 your role
00:33:16.500 what do you
00:33:18.160 think about the
00:33:18.840 culpability of
00:33:19.920 the person
00:33:20.460 that that
00:33:21.560 I would say
00:33:22.880 in common
00:33:24.760 parlance
00:33:25.280 preyed upon
00:33:26.360 you how
00:33:27.660 has that
00:33:28.020 shifted
00:33:28.600 in the
00:33:30.580 same way
00:33:31.000 that there
00:33:31.360 is um
00:33:31.960 although it
00:33:32.640 has been
00:33:33.000 ruined by
00:33:33.800 the progressives
00:33:35.040 we both
00:33:35.400 hate so
00:33:35.800 much um
00:33:36.680 a proper
00:33:37.760 place for
00:33:38.600 outrage
00:33:39.200 it is a
00:33:41.000 necessary
00:33:41.460 and right
00:33:42.880 human instinct
00:33:45.400 and emotion
00:33:45.900 that has a
00:33:46.860 place
00:33:47.300 there is also
00:33:49.080 perhaps
00:33:49.800 much as it
00:33:51.380 has been
00:33:51.720 ruined by
00:33:52.140 the progressives
00:33:52.820 a proper
00:33:53.740 place for
00:33:54.540 victimhood
00:33:55.460 when you are
00:33:56.460 in fact actually
00:33:57.280 a victim
00:33:57.680 right
00:33:58.220 and I think
00:33:59.280 that now I
00:34:00.100 perhaps realize
00:34:01.000 that I was
00:34:01.540 one when I
00:34:02.320 didn't know
00:34:02.740 that I was
00:34:03.240 one in
00:34:03.500 2017
00:34:03.980 yeah well
00:34:04.540 that's a
00:34:04.840 hell of a
00:34:05.220 thing for
00:34:05.600 someone in
00:34:06.080 your position
00:34:06.700 to admit
00:34:07.360 right
00:34:08.200 yeah yeah
00:34:09.240 no it's
00:34:09.740 it's rough
00:34:10.260 man
00:34:10.560 and I
00:34:10.940 and I
00:34:11.560 think that
00:34:12.440 that's as
00:34:12.920 concise and
00:34:13.580 as true an
00:34:14.080 answer as
00:34:14.940 yes I can
00:34:16.220 give you
00:34:16.720 okay so
00:34:19.600 let's go
00:34:20.300 into that
00:34:20.780 answer because
00:34:21.720 now I
00:34:22.300 look at
00:34:23.280 somebody I
00:34:23.880 care about
00:34:24.540 who is
00:34:25.060 two years
00:34:25.540 older even
00:34:26.100 and the
00:34:28.020 thought of
00:34:28.560 me at
00:34:29.100 that age
00:34:29.620 and someone
00:34:30.020 taking advantage
00:34:30.880 suddenly I
00:34:32.080 get it
00:34:32.640 I get it
00:34:33.720 I'm like
00:34:34.180 I would
00:34:35.020 kill the
00:34:35.560 guy I
00:34:36.020 would walk
00:34:36.380 over there
00:34:36.840 I would
00:34:37.120 shoot him
00:34:37.640 in the
00:34:37.980 head
00:34:38.240 like I
00:34:39.540 get it
00:34:39.880 now
00:34:40.120 that's a
00:34:42.040 lot different
00:34:42.680 that's a
00:34:43.140 lot different
00:34:43.560 I didn't
00:34:44.120 get it
00:34:44.580 when I
00:34:45.360 was
00:34:45.980 I didn't
00:34:48.660 get it
00:34:49.120 when all I
00:34:50.380 had to go
00:34:50.820 on was my
00:34:51.540 memories of
00:34:52.060 being me at
00:34:52.480 the time
00:34:52.820 yeah
00:34:53.220 well one of
00:34:54.280 the things
00:34:54.640 that struck
00:34:55.120 me is so
00:34:55.680 absolutely
00:34:56.280 absurd about
00:34:57.160 what happened
00:34:57.680 to you in
00:34:58.020 the aftermath
00:34:58.440 of that
00:34:58.880 interview was
00:34:59.500 that I
00:35:00.100 thought okay
00:35:01.300 this is
00:35:01.980 really and
00:35:03.340 it's exactly
00:35:04.120 what I would
00:35:04.680 have expected
00:35:05.320 to happen to
00:35:06.160 someone like
00:35:06.760 you because
00:35:07.380 you're so
00:35:07.840 contradictory
00:35:08.460 is that
00:35:09.180 is that
00:35:11.260 you actually
00:35:12.640 had a claim
00:35:13.240 to victim
00:35:13.720 status
00:35:14.300 which you
00:35:15.840 then refused
00:35:16.620 to capitalize
00:35:17.300 on and
00:35:18.860 then which
00:35:19.260 people refused
00:35:20.320 to bloody
00:35:20.800 well recognize
00:35:21.640 in the midst
00:35:22.580 of the
00:35:22.880 interview like
00:35:23.500 the proper
00:35:24.300 response to
00:35:24.900 that interview
00:35:25.440 should have
00:35:25.900 been something
00:35:26.380 like well
00:35:27.760 here's someone
00:35:28.740 who's talking
00:35:29.360 about a
00:35:30.820 case of
00:35:31.320 child sexual
00:35:32.360 abuse but
00:35:33.480 hasn't realized
00:35:34.820 or recognized
00:35:35.560 that they were
00:35:36.520 in fact
00:35:37.420 victimized
00:35:38.760 in that
00:35:39.080 situation
00:35:39.520 and hasn't
00:35:40.240 come to
00:35:40.660 terms with
00:35:41.280 whatever that
00:35:41.840 might mean
00:35:42.540 and so
00:35:43.540 this is not
00:35:44.000 uncommon
00:35:44.560 among people
00:35:45.920 who have been
00:35:46.400 through these
00:35:46.780 experiences
00:35:47.300 because I
00:35:48.020 have since
00:35:48.700 writing about
00:35:49.640 this I
00:35:50.000 wrote a little
00:35:50.480 bit about
00:35:50.900 this in
00:35:51.320 a short
00:35:53.920 book I
00:35:54.220 wrote about
00:35:54.500 the Pope
00:35:54.800 recently
00:35:55.260 and in
00:35:57.380 other things
00:35:57.840 I've
00:35:58.600 the brief
00:35:59.620 mentions I've
00:36:00.620 made of it
00:36:01.120 since 2017
00:36:02.380 a lot of
00:36:02.900 people have
00:36:03.320 written to
00:36:03.760 me with
00:36:05.100 their own
00:36:05.800 accounts
00:36:06.760 and this
00:36:08.040 is not
00:36:08.320 uncommon
00:36:08.820 I have
00:36:09.940 discovered
00:36:10.360 people who
00:36:12.320 have experienced
00:36:12.900 this sort of
00:36:13.400 thing and I
00:36:14.380 guess there's
00:36:15.060 some point in
00:36:16.040 middle age where
00:36:16.680 the penny
00:36:17.000 drops but
00:36:18.780 yeah I
00:36:20.040 guess that I
00:36:20.820 guess you know
00:36:21.220 there is a right
00:36:22.100 and proper place
00:36:22.740 to acknowledge
00:36:23.600 and understand
00:36:24.460 that you were a
00:36:24.880 victim of
00:36:25.200 something again
00:36:26.280 I have to
00:36:26.960 another thing
00:36:28.940 that upset
00:36:29.320 people I think
00:36:30.200 another thing
00:36:31.440 that didn't
00:36:33.180 do many
00:36:33.460 favors but
00:36:34.100 look I
00:36:34.660 I am someone
00:36:35.900 who will
00:36:37.020 always just
00:36:39.220 speak it as
00:36:39.920 I see it
00:36:40.440 and that will
00:36:41.360 have terrible
00:36:42.000 consequences and
00:36:42.760 it will have
00:36:43.040 great consequences
00:36:43.840 and that calculus
00:36:45.560 will change over
00:36:46.440 the course of the
00:36:46.900 next few decades
00:36:47.620 but I just
00:36:51.800 it wasn't the
00:36:54.660 worst thing that
00:36:55.080 ever happened to
00:36:55.720 me and people
00:36:57.420 find that a
00:36:58.660 terrible thing to
00:36:59.540 come out of
00:36:59.880 your mouth
00:37:00.260 but it just
00:37:00.980 wasn't it's
00:37:01.920 not the worst
00:37:02.480 thing that's
00:37:02.780 ever happened
00:37:03.240 to me and
00:37:04.500 so what's the
00:37:06.720 worst thing
00:37:07.220 okay so so I
00:37:08.300 got a couple of
00:37:08.880 comments on
00:37:09.420 that I mean
00:37:10.020 about 20
00:37:12.080 years ago the
00:37:13.640 American
00:37:13.960 Psychological
00:37:14.700 Association
00:37:15.400 published a
00:37:16.100 famous paper
00:37:16.900 showing that
00:37:18.660 most people
00:37:20.240 who were
00:37:20.640 sexually abused
00:37:21.500 as children
00:37:22.400 recovered with
00:37:24.960 very little
00:37:25.580 psychological
00:37:26.200 damage and
00:37:27.620 that caused
00:37:28.260 absolute outrage
00:37:29.460 the US
00:37:29.940 Congress in
00:37:30.640 fact forced
00:37:31.780 the APA
00:37:32.500 if I remember
00:37:33.080 correct the
00:37:33.620 American
00:37:33.840 Psychological
00:37:34.460 Association
00:37:34.720 this is one
00:37:35.100 of those
00:37:35.340 unsayable
00:37:35.960 truths isn't
00:37:36.740 it well they
00:37:37.400 had to retract
00:37:38.020 they had to
00:37:38.480 retract the
00:37:39.000 article even
00:37:39.580 though it was
00:37:40.060 if you imagine
00:37:40.680 the sort of
00:37:41.320 trauma that we're
00:37:42.440 expected to
00:37:43.180 recognize that
00:37:45.040 someone says
00:37:45.960 they experience
00:37:46.620 because of mean
00:37:47.200 words on the
00:37:47.740 internet and
00:37:48.760 and we have
00:37:49.360 this and we
00:37:49.900 have this
00:37:50.220 economy based
00:37:51.300 on what we
00:37:53.420 all know is
00:37:54.000 not true
00:37:54.640 but that you
00:37:55.580 know these
00:37:55.960 trivial frivolous
00:37:57.180 things can
00:37:57.840 cause some
00:37:58.840 kind of actual
00:37:59.620 trauma for an
00:38:01.400 organization like
00:38:02.220 that or for
00:38:03.000 someone in public
00:38:03.680 life to come
00:38:05.040 out and say
00:38:05.580 this huge
00:38:06.680 thing actually
00:38:08.600 didn't cause me
00:38:09.520 that much
00:38:09.900 trauma it
00:38:11.880 sort of imperils
00:38:12.920 the whole
00:38:13.580 victimhood economy
00:38:14.500 doesn't it
00:38:15.060 because if it's
00:38:16.720 the case that
00:38:17.440 many or even
00:38:19.380 most people
00:38:20.120 who experience
00:38:21.240 this simply
00:38:22.440 don't have
00:38:23.040 their lives
00:38:23.520 ruined and
00:38:24.020 defined by
00:38:24.700 it that
00:38:26.300 rather imperils
00:38:27.560 the people
00:38:27.980 who have
00:38:28.280 made a
00:38:28.580 career out
00:38:29.400 of squawking
00:38:30.800 victimhood
00:38:31.400 for far
00:38:32.460 far less
00:38:33.360 serious
00:38:33.940 experiences
00:38:34.980 and I think
00:38:35.980 that's probably
00:38:36.880 where the
00:38:39.500 threat to the
00:38:40.520 system kicked
00:38:41.340 in where I
00:38:42.120 think I think
00:38:43.460 that's true I
00:38:44.140 think it's also
00:38:44.820 the case that
00:38:45.680 the politicians
00:38:46.900 although also
00:38:48.040 looking for a
00:38:48.960 you know a
00:38:49.520 cheap victory
00:38:50.260 moral victory
00:38:50.920 in some sense
00:38:51.600 we're also
00:38:52.020 concerned that
00:38:52.760 this was a
00:38:54.400 potential step
00:38:56.740 towards justifying
00:38:58.600 pedophilia on
00:38:59.860 the basis of
00:39:00.820 undermining the
00:39:02.300 claims of its
00:39:02.980 absolutely
00:39:03.580 catastrophic
00:39:04.260 consequences over
00:39:05.560 decades whereas
00:39:07.240 what I saw it
00:39:08.060 was was more as
00:39:08.840 a testament to
00:39:09.820 the fundamental
00:39:10.460 resilience of
00:39:11.360 human beings
00:39:12.040 right isn't
00:39:12.860 isn't that a
00:39:13.420 positive thing
00:39:14.240 isn't that
00:39:14.780 wonderful news
00:39:15.740 that there is
00:39:16.900 there are these
00:39:17.780 extraordinarily
00:39:18.420 evil people
00:39:19.420 who do
00:39:19.880 depraved
00:39:20.520 things but
00:39:21.600 chances are
00:39:22.960 you'll be
00:39:23.220 alright you
00:39:24.000 know that
00:39:24.560 something like
00:39:25.000 this could
00:39:25.320 happen to you
00:39:25.940 or could
00:39:26.200 happen to
00:39:26.540 somebody you
00:39:27.020 love or
00:39:27.660 somebody you
00:39:28.160 know but
00:39:29.100 that you
00:39:29.560 know what
00:39:30.000 chances are
00:39:31.160 things will be
00:39:32.240 okay now
00:39:33.160 every once in a
00:39:33.880 while somebody
00:39:34.460 is just blown
00:39:35.860 apart by it and
00:39:37.080 you can never put
00:39:37.680 them back together
00:39:38.280 but that's not
00:39:39.460 most people
00:39:40.340 that's fabulous
00:39:41.740 news but good
00:39:43.260 news is the
00:39:44.880 sort of thing
00:39:45.500 that our
00:39:47.280 current political
00:39:48.220 climate the
00:39:49.320 public square in
00:39:49.980 America especially
00:39:51.060 hates it's not so
00:39:53.360 much whether it
00:39:54.340 it's a particular
00:39:55.800 kind of reaction
00:39:56.800 to for instance
00:39:58.120 people being
00:40:01.560 people being
00:40:02.320 grateful and
00:40:03.700 happy that
00:40:04.120 capitalism is
00:40:05.260 you know lifting
00:40:06.320 millions of people
00:40:07.180 out of poverty
00:40:07.780 all over the world
00:40:08.400 people don't like
00:40:09.340 that good news
00:40:10.260 because much of
00:40:13.080 what goes on
00:40:14.540 in public life
00:40:15.720 basically the
00:40:16.740 whole journalism
00:40:17.460 industry much
00:40:18.880 of the entertainment
00:40:19.420 industry I mean
00:40:20.800 the whole of
00:40:21.920 polite society
00:40:22.720 the whole of
00:40:23.180 politically correct
00:40:24.240 society depends
00:40:25.440 upon everything
00:40:27.160 being terrible
00:40:28.100 in peril
00:40:29.500 getting worse
00:40:30.300 all the time
00:40:31.000 the sort of
00:40:32.020 shrieking urgent
00:40:33.240 hysteria of the
00:40:35.020 press is made
00:40:37.860 to look ridiculous
00:40:38.660 when you point out
00:40:39.560 actually the world's
00:40:40.300 pretty great
00:40:40.900 not that many
00:40:42.280 people go hungry
00:40:43.080 not that much
00:40:44.660 bad stuff happens
00:40:45.500 the bad stuff
00:40:46.520 that does happen
00:40:47.220 we're discovering
00:40:47.840 all the time
00:40:48.740 that human beings
00:40:49.400 bounce back in
00:40:50.160 ways that you
00:40:50.820 know we never
00:40:51.780 never even imagine
00:40:52.460 the world ain't
00:40:53.400 that bloody bad
00:40:54.260 nobody wants to
00:40:55.440 hear that who
00:40:56.100 has a vested
00:40:56.700 interest in
00:40:57.520 at least it's
00:41:01.600 nowhere near as
00:41:02.360 bad as it once
00:41:03.260 was which is
00:41:04.200 something
00:41:04.560 or as bad
00:41:05.560 as it profits
00:41:07.300 the media to
00:41:08.880 suggest that it
00:41:09.500 is as bad
00:41:10.220 as bad profits
00:41:10.840 the academy to
00:41:11.700 suggest that it
00:41:12.360 is you know
00:41:13.200 it these people
00:41:14.520 these people
00:41:15.140 having having
00:41:18.340 relinquished their
00:41:19.240 primary functions
00:41:20.540 whether it is you
00:41:22.840 know speaking
00:41:23.560 truth to power
00:41:24.240 and you know
00:41:26.000 printing all the
00:41:26.620 news that's you
00:41:27.440 know relaying the
00:41:28.420 news that's fit to
00:41:28.980 print or exploring
00:41:31.380 the human condition
00:41:32.060 human nature and
00:41:33.280 you know building
00:41:34.100 you know expanding
00:41:35.960 the you know the
00:41:36.680 horizons and the
00:41:37.940 sum total of human
00:41:38.820 knowledge that the
00:41:39.900 media and the
00:41:40.320 academy have given
00:41:40.860 up on those
00:41:41.440 missions instead
00:41:42.780 replace them with
00:41:44.100 an activism that
00:41:45.200 depends on hysteria
00:41:46.440 but also on
00:41:47.080 urgency on a
00:41:49.180 sort of there's a
00:41:50.260 sort of constant
00:41:51.180 drumbeat and this
00:41:52.180 is why you know
00:41:53.100 it's always something
00:41:53.520 new always something
00:41:53.980 new always something
00:41:54.580 new as soon as
00:41:55.540 something might look
00:41:56.560 like it's resolved
00:41:57.360 something ever more
00:41:58.800 hysterical and new
00:41:59.860 must be produced
00:42:00.720 this is this I mean
00:42:01.660 this is the natural
00:42:02.280 life cycle isn't it
00:42:03.240 of rights movements
00:42:04.420 you got the gay rights
00:42:05.400 movement which
00:42:05.840 basically achieves
00:42:06.560 everything it could
00:42:07.140 possibly ever want
00:42:08.120 yet it somehow
00:42:09.020 becomes more
00:42:09.860 hysterical not less
00:42:10.980 and starts focusing
00:42:11.880 on ever more minor
00:42:13.040 and insignificant
00:42:13.640 things like
00:42:14.240 transgender pronouns
00:42:15.060 rather than AIDS
00:42:16.480 you know and now
00:42:17.900 all of the gay
00:42:18.380 charities are run
00:42:19.160 by lesbians and
00:42:20.060 are preoccupied with
00:42:21.360 transgender pronouns
00:42:23.080 you don't hear
00:42:23.540 anybody talking about
00:42:24.760 the fact that
00:42:25.460 thanks you see
00:42:27.460 these posters on
00:42:28.980 New York trams
00:42:31.000 on the subway
00:42:31.680 whatever they're
00:42:32.320 called and they
00:42:33.980 and they're saying
00:42:34.700 oh there's a guy
00:42:36.560 there and he's
00:42:37.020 called Hernandez
00:42:37.680 or Hernandez
00:42:38.760 or whatever
00:42:39.140 and his and the
00:42:41.100 poster is saying
00:42:41.900 his levels of HIV
00:42:43.440 thanks to his
00:42:43.940 medication aren't
00:42:44.700 just undetectable
00:42:45.500 they're not
00:42:45.980 transmittable either
00:42:47.060 basically encouraging
00:42:49.060 gay men to have
00:42:50.320 sex with HIV
00:42:51.180 positive other men
00:42:52.380 I mean it's kind
00:42:53.240 of like sick
00:42:54.180 this is because
00:42:54.820 conservatives have
00:42:55.480 completely stepped
00:42:56.360 out of that sphere
00:42:57.100 entirely every time
00:42:58.400 a conservative tries
00:42:59.180 to say something
00:42:59.740 in the gay world
00:43:01.020 even if it's with
00:43:02.020 good intentions to
00:43:02.880 help they get
00:43:03.540 killed
00:43:04.300 so so republicans
00:43:06.020 and even just all
00:43:07.240 sensible people have
00:43:08.100 simply stepped out
00:43:09.120 of lgbt stuff and
00:43:10.540 they just don't get
00:43:11.100 involved in it at all
00:43:11.860 so you get this sick
00:43:13.780 crazy like mental
00:43:15.080 so with this you
00:43:16.760 know the situation
00:43:17.840 where they're
00:43:18.620 encouraging these
00:43:19.580 reckless unsafe
00:43:20.400 horrendous behaviors
00:43:21.280 and who suffers
00:43:22.260 the most marginalized
00:43:24.420 communities of all
00:43:25.240 you know it's a
00:43:26.400 it's a gay black
00:43:28.080 americans have like a
00:43:29.300 one in two chance
00:43:30.180 of getting HIV
00:43:30.920 you know right
00:43:32.280 like that's that's
00:43:33.100 crazy and this is
00:43:34.360 you know and this
00:43:34.920 this is this is what
00:43:35.960 gay charities are not
00:43:37.020 talking about while
00:43:37.960 they are insisting
00:43:39.020 that you know on
00:43:39.640 on zz or zem or
00:43:41.120 whatever but this is
00:43:42.260 this is the life
00:43:43.260 cycle of rights
00:43:44.040 movements when they
00:43:44.680 run out of things
00:43:45.200 to complain about
00:43:45.760 isn't it
00:43:46.280 let me ask you
00:43:47.120 another personal
00:43:47.980 question um
00:43:49.880 before i turn to
00:43:52.100 something that will
00:43:53.100 probably get me even
00:43:54.420 more trouble
00:43:55.120 in more trouble
00:43:56.240 we'll see we'll see
00:43:58.300 how that goes
00:43:59.040 well you've subjected
00:43:59.840 me to a therapy
00:44:00.560 session i think you
00:44:01.360 can you can uh
00:44:02.220 you can you can get
00:44:03.300 yourself into trouble
00:44:04.060 as uh as compensation
00:44:05.280 yeah yeah yeah okay
00:44:06.880 well there should be
00:44:08.400 plenty of trouble
00:44:09.060 emerge from this
00:44:09.940 so well look now
00:44:11.480 one of the questions i
00:44:14.120 had again as a
00:44:15.620 consequence of watching
00:44:16.520 that interview was
00:44:17.460 because you know you
00:44:18.760 portrayed yourself as
00:44:19.980 an equivalent partner in
00:44:21.240 some sense and i
00:44:21.980 thought look that
00:44:22.940 means that milo
00:44:24.360 hasn't updated his
00:44:25.500 memories
00:44:26.020 there's still the
00:44:27.740 memories of a 14
00:44:28.700 year old and that
00:44:30.220 that's a problem and
00:44:31.880 and and and so and
00:44:34.380 you said that that's
00:44:35.240 something that you've
00:44:36.100 actually rectified over
00:44:37.020 the last couple of
00:44:37.720 years and so that's
00:44:38.600 that's a very
00:44:39.100 interesting thing to
00:44:39.940 hear about but then
00:44:42.120 i was also convinced
00:44:44.800 that because you were
00:44:47.460 still viewing what had
00:44:48.700 happened to you through
00:44:49.460 the lens of your 14
00:44:50.760 year old your
00:44:51.780 iconoclastic and
00:44:53.100 rebellious 14 year old
00:44:54.660 self that it was
00:44:57.100 possible likely even
00:44:59.580 although not necessarily
00:45:01.620 the case that you
00:45:03.040 underestimated the
00:45:04.400 consequence of this
00:45:05.540 interaction on your
00:45:07.040 subsequent life and so
00:45:09.400 now you just told me
00:45:10.560 that you know much
00:45:11.500 worse things have
00:45:12.380 happened to you
00:45:13.340 yes and 20 yeah yeah
00:45:15.380 you you might be right
00:45:16.380 about that because in
00:45:17.160 2017 that's what i
00:45:19.020 thought and then in
00:45:20.220 the course of writing
00:45:21.020 the short pope book i
00:45:22.580 just did i asked the
00:45:23.560 question could this
00:45:25.060 have affected the
00:45:25.880 trajectory of my
00:45:26.580 sexuality yeah well i
00:45:29.660 wonder exactly well so
00:45:31.700 so so what what in
00:45:33.640 retrospect now what do
00:45:35.880 you think what do you
00:45:37.460 think it did to you
00:45:38.460 i don't think it made
00:45:41.820 the difference between
00:45:42.720 me being gay or not
00:45:43.920 okay and why not
00:45:46.120 because i think that that
00:45:49.140 was already happening
00:45:50.160 and i think that i was
00:45:51.920 aware of that and that
00:45:53.300 that was very much
00:45:54.320 you know some gay people
00:45:56.340 talk about you know being
00:45:57.500 a little bit over into
00:45:58.680 gay or a lot or whatever
00:46:00.640 you know some some gay
00:46:01.580 men can can countenance
00:46:03.620 or imagine having sex with
00:46:05.420 women um and for for
00:46:08.060 others it's just like
00:46:08.900 you know in the way that
00:46:10.020 straight men will talk
00:46:10.740 about homosexual
00:46:11.840 encounters uh now i have
00:46:14.080 had a few encounters with
00:46:15.120 women but they were
00:46:16.100 very unsatisfying and
00:46:17.520 miserable for both
00:46:18.180 parties um and i think
00:46:21.820 i'm quite i i don't my
00:46:23.980 hunch is and i can't
00:46:25.000 provide any evidence with
00:46:25.720 my hunch is that this did
00:46:27.820 not make the difference
00:46:28.740 okay i i think that um
00:46:31.460 like everybody the mixture
00:46:35.020 of nature and nurture in
00:46:36.160 my case was probably swung
00:46:38.120 over in that direction by a
00:46:39.240 lack of good male male role
00:46:40.500 models in my relationship
00:46:41.380 my mother um i distinctly
00:46:44.740 remember picking um ethnic
00:46:50.900 minority male sexual
00:46:52.440 partners and making sure
00:46:55.460 that my mother saw me bring
00:46:57.120 them home or saw me out
00:46:58.280 with them to antagonize her
00:46:59.720 i distinctly remember
00:47:01.880 picking sexual partners to
00:47:03.360 annoy my mom and that as
00:47:05.220 demented as that sounds and
00:47:07.940 god that's a that's that's a
00:47:10.280 grist i mean like a three
00:47:11.620 hour conversation no i
00:47:13.000 look i take trolling very
00:47:14.500 seriously
00:47:15.140 um i i i just i'm not
00:47:20.900 saying i went to annoy my
00:47:22.860 mom although i have made
00:47:23.780 that joke before but i
00:47:25.140 remember an element of
00:47:26.720 sort of mischief and
00:47:28.200 defiance in there which
00:47:29.580 has always been at the
00:47:31.200 core of my personality just
00:47:32.860 this this this reflexive and
00:47:36.260 unshakable refusal to bow to
00:47:39.420 any kind of authority
00:47:40.420 right and so what were you
00:47:42.280 more than that also but to
00:47:43.700 not but not just to thumb my
00:47:45.160 nose at it but to rub that
00:47:46.760 authority's face in whatever
00:47:49.100 it is that that authority
00:47:50.020 finds the most repugnant
00:47:51.060 okay well so that's
00:47:52.080 interesting so first question
00:47:54.600 there would be perhaps what in
00:47:57.680 the world were you so
00:47:59.420 irritated or angry at your
00:48:01.820 mother about that that might
00:48:03.860 have been one of your
00:48:04.940 potential reactions i have
00:48:08.640 said this in public before so
00:48:10.260 i don't mind sharing it with
00:48:11.060 you again uh my mother
00:48:13.220 remarried and her new
00:48:15.040 husband was um uh occasionally
00:48:19.720 physically and constantly
00:48:21.720 psychologically you know
00:48:23.080 abusive i guess with the
00:48:24.580 word that we would use now
00:48:25.800 um deep a deeply unpleasant
00:48:29.060 home life in things like so i
00:48:32.060 was a very private private kid
00:48:33.380 and i had all of these like
00:48:34.940 um papers where i had written
00:48:37.600 out poems and and constructed
00:48:40.240 these like systems and i just
00:48:41.720 i just had a very highly
00:48:42.700 developed in a world you know
00:48:43.840 and i've just lived in the
00:48:44.840 realm of imagination and
00:48:45.800 fantasy and private space and
00:48:50.280 privacy was very important to
00:48:51.620 me and my mother's new
00:48:52.660 husband when i was at school
00:48:53.860 would go into my room and
00:48:54.940 shuffle things around just so
00:48:56.300 that i knew he'd been in
00:48:57.300 there so i knew that there was
00:48:58.620 no space that was only mine and
00:49:00.340 i knew by extension that i
00:49:01.780 wasn't welcome there and that
00:49:03.100 i shouldn't be there and that
00:49:04.800 so long as i was under his
00:49:05.800 roof i would never be my own
00:49:06.980 human being and i would never
00:49:08.300 have my own privacy and
00:49:10.460 therefore autonomy as a as a
00:49:11.880 human being and i blamed my
00:49:13.800 mother for this i also blamed
00:49:15.200 my mother for not leaving him
00:49:18.440 when he hit me um and i blamed
00:49:22.580 my father for not taking me away
00:49:24.040 although i asked him to and that
00:49:26.060 sort of began a chain reaction of
00:49:27.940 resentment for both of them right
00:49:29.880 so okay so most of the major
00:49:31.580 authority figures in your life as
00:49:33.640 parental figures had your
00:49:37.220 experience at that point was of
00:49:40.040 of betrayal of various mag of
00:49:42.900 various magnitudes right yes they
00:49:45.800 didn't have my back right it from
00:49:48.420 from from proper betrayal all the
00:49:51.740 way down to just not having my best
00:49:53.840 interest at heart not having my back
00:49:55.300 and and you know all manner of
00:49:57.440 experiences on that spectrum but i
00:49:59.640 don't think i ever felt like my
00:50:02.800 mother would go to the wall for me
00:50:03.880 you know right right that's yeah
00:50:06.220 that's rough man because one of the
00:50:07.800 things you really want from at least
00:50:09.240 one parent or at least one person in
00:50:11.100 your life is the notion that
00:50:12.460 fundamentally man you got to have
00:50:16.020 someone who's got your back
00:50:17.360 i did get it later i did get it later
00:50:20.300 in my mid to late teens with my
00:50:22.000 grandmother as so many oddballs do
00:50:26.880 they end up skipping a generation
00:50:28.320 and and forming a close bond with a
00:50:31.580 grandparent i did get it from my
00:50:34.020 grandmother and i got the sort of
00:50:35.260 unconditional love and support that i
00:50:37.500 recognized again in the man that i'm
00:50:40.200 now with
00:50:40.580 so i have had that since in my life
00:50:44.400 and i'm not wanting for it i don't
00:50:46.420 lack it i'm very happy with the amount
00:50:48.580 of it that i now have but i didn't
00:50:50.700 that's made up for it in some sense
00:50:52.480 oh for sure oh for sure um but i
00:50:55.780 didn't but i didn't have it at the
00:50:57.340 time
00:50:57.760 and i do remember really wanting them
00:51:01.600 to hurt i remember and i think one of
00:51:05.460 my in addition to my ability to sort of
00:51:08.120 see round corners and culturally and
00:51:10.220 sort of tell what's coming next which
00:51:11.920 i'm very good at i'm also very good
00:51:14.280 i'm very good at sort of intuitively
00:51:18.040 figuring out what makes people tick
00:51:19.680 and what drives them
00:51:20.580 um and i quickly identified that social
00:51:23.700 justice warriors were sort of hurting
00:51:25.180 and wanting everyone else to hurt like
00:51:26.360 they were
00:51:26.800 um when i when i very very first started
00:51:30.640 doing my speeches
00:51:31.320 because it was something i had felt
00:51:33.820 myself
00:51:34.320 but only as a child
00:51:35.660 i had grown out of it and clearly they
00:51:38.240 had not grown out of it
00:51:39.380 right right but i saw in them that
00:51:41.500 same sort of petty vengeful vindictive
00:51:44.160 desire to make the world burn uh
00:51:46.440 because they were hurting that i had
00:51:48.080 felt myself as a 13 14 15 year old
00:51:50.240 and so i understood them and that's
00:51:53.100 why i was able
00:51:53.860 and still am able like nobody else to
00:51:56.740 get under their skin
00:51:57.440 because i get what makes them tick in
00:52:00.000 a way that not many other people do
00:52:01.300 because
00:52:01.820 none of the other conservatives who are
00:52:03.980 sort of you know withering uh you
00:52:06.200 know or contemptuous of them actually
00:52:08.800 understand where they're coming from
00:52:10.240 like i do uh which is why they hate me
00:52:12.520 like they hate nobody else
00:52:14.000 right well because i part of the thing
00:52:16.960 that's so strange about you is that by
00:52:18.760 all rights you should be on their side
00:52:20.580 i should be one of them really
00:52:22.120 i ought to be
00:52:23.980 right right that's their that's that's
00:52:26.060 right
00:52:26.300 logically speaking that would be your
00:52:28.460 natural resting place
00:52:29.740 and so it is one of the things that
00:52:31.620 well i also thought thought right from
00:52:33.540 the beginning that that was one of the
00:52:35.060 things that put you in
00:52:35.960 in terrible long-term danger of
00:52:39.480 you know encountering a scandal that
00:52:41.480 would do you in
00:52:42.300 i mean it just seems so
00:52:43.820 improbable to me that you could
00:52:45.900 weather
00:52:46.360 that degree of and that's what i mean by
00:52:49.380 the paradoxical combination that you
00:52:51.820 bring to the situation it's just
00:52:53.480 it's too many contradictory things to
00:52:56.140 maintain themselves
00:52:57.200 regardless of your psychological
00:52:59.740 integration or lack thereof
00:53:01.680 i mean i think i'm pretty well
00:53:03.400 adjusted now
00:53:04.120 but um i think perhaps another
00:53:06.640 reason that this
00:53:07.700 career stuff just doesn't bother me
00:53:09.800 is that i don't
00:53:11.120 i don't work in the same economy
00:53:14.360 that a lot of other people do
00:53:15.700 in the prestige economy
00:53:16.980 um you wanted prestige when you
00:53:19.780 asked cambridge for that fellowship
00:53:21.100 um and you sort of invited that
00:53:24.180 little embarrassment on yourself
00:53:25.740 because you asked for it because
00:53:27.120 although you've declared
00:53:27.940 well they said i asked for it but
00:53:29.760 that wasn't exactly
00:53:30.640 well if you didn't you didn't but
00:53:31.960 you declared war on a class of
00:53:34.340 institution
00:53:34.940 um you know a higher education to
00:53:37.740 then
00:53:38.220 uh ask for or expect or be pleased to
00:53:43.120 receive baubles
00:53:44.180 from institutions that you had
00:53:46.680 declared war on struck me as very
00:53:48.660 odd
00:53:49.100 and obviously destined for you know a
00:53:52.640 mess
00:53:52.980 that's an interesting point
00:53:55.220 and it's because
00:53:56.160 moment of like false optimism
00:53:59.020 i don't think it's false optimism
00:54:00.960 i think it's i think it's because
00:54:02.360 you still live in the prestige
00:54:03.400 economy
00:54:03.820 because i think that stuff matters
00:54:05.440 to you
00:54:05.880 um and i think that you'd
00:54:07.660 probably prefer to see these
00:54:09.360 institutions fixed
00:54:10.380 and to have
00:54:11.080 a prestigious place within one of
00:54:13.220 them
00:54:13.440 rather than to see them burnt to
00:54:15.160 the ground
00:54:15.540 as so many conservatives and
00:54:17.320 progressives
00:54:18.520 seem to want
00:54:19.660 they just want to tear up higher
00:54:20.920 education
00:54:21.360 i don't think you want that i think
00:54:22.600 you want to fix it
00:54:23.480 and i think you want to be
00:54:24.440 well i think generally speaking
00:54:26.380 you know
00:54:26.960 that fixing things is better than
00:54:30.380 burning them to the ground
00:54:31.580 well i think you want to fix them
00:54:33.500 and i think you want to be one of
00:54:34.560 their crown jewels
00:54:35.260 and i think you operate in the
00:54:36.500 prestige economy in a way that i
00:54:37.960 simply don't
00:54:38.900 and that gives me power
00:54:41.260 because
00:54:41.960 i don't care
00:54:44.160 i don't you know that that's sort
00:54:46.140 of like a scandal from which you
00:54:47.600 will not recover
00:54:48.260 is there somebody in polite society
00:54:51.560 who will invite me to a dinner
00:54:52.760 party
00:54:53.200 uh who won't invite me to a
00:54:55.740 dinner party now
00:54:56.360 who would have
00:54:57.200 in january 2017
00:54:58.560 no
00:54:59.560 is there a tv show that will have
00:55:01.400 me on
00:55:01.880 that won't have me on now
00:55:03.580 that would have in january
00:55:04.920 in january
00:55:05.460 no
00:55:06.440 i mean
00:55:07.240 you know i had a blip
00:55:08.860 on bill maher because of the
00:55:10.740 the college tour
00:55:11.500 but there was no
00:55:12.960 hope in hell
00:55:13.880 no way in hell i was ever
00:55:14.860 going to get a tv show
00:55:15.860 or anything like that
00:55:16.900 because unlike you
00:55:17.820 i can't bite my tongue
00:55:19.000 um and you know you you i
00:55:22.420 think are
00:55:22.960 i see you maneuvering in a way
00:55:26.740 that suggests that you
00:55:28.640 want to do
00:55:30.020 a lot of good and you're
00:55:31.620 prepared to make some
00:55:32.260 compromises
00:55:32.820 in order to have a platform
00:55:34.600 for which to do a lot of good
00:55:35.440 in a lot of places
00:55:36.100 i'm a purist
00:55:37.400 and we differ in that
00:55:38.740 because
00:55:39.560 i can't
00:55:41.060 bite my tongue
00:55:41.720 and if i'm across the table
00:55:43.520 from somebody who is an
00:55:44.700 odious piece of you know what
00:55:46.060 i'm like i'm gonna tell them
00:55:47.580 and it's always that it's my
00:55:49.240 greatest asset and my
00:55:50.120 greatest weakness
00:55:50.640 but it's because i'm a
00:55:51.860 purist in a way that you're
00:55:52.920 not
00:55:53.100 and
00:55:54.140 i just
00:55:56.060 i don't live in that
00:55:57.580 prestige economy that
00:55:58.620 the rest of you all live in
00:55:59.880 um
00:56:00.780 and you all live in it
00:56:02.260 everyone you know the whole
00:56:03.560 conservative libertarian
00:56:05.080 media ecosystem
00:56:06.180 you all crave
00:56:07.480 what do you mean by the
00:56:08.860 what do you mean by the
00:56:10.400 prestige economy
00:56:11.460 exactly
00:56:12.140 position
00:56:13.700 recognition
00:56:14.960 um
00:56:16.460 titles
00:56:17.400 uh
00:56:18.700 being
00:56:19.700 a part of a sort of
00:56:21.080 alternative polite society
00:56:22.620 you don't want to be excised
00:56:24.240 from the church
00:56:24.960 because if you did
00:56:25.680 you wouldn't have signed up
00:56:26.340 with caa
00:56:26.960 you want to be part of the
00:56:28.340 church
00:56:28.760 um
00:56:29.500 and i don't
00:56:30.400 i
00:56:31.520 i
00:56:31.800 and it can be very difficult
00:56:34.040 for people who are part of
00:56:35.220 the prestige economy
00:56:36.020 but people who
00:56:36.820 want the tv show
00:56:38.160 want the fancy agent
00:56:39.320 want this
00:56:40.140 want that
00:56:40.480 and they want to like
00:56:41.720 fix and rule
00:56:43.080 these institutions
00:56:43.820 it can be very difficult
00:56:44.800 for those people
00:56:46.080 to truly understand
00:56:47.520 someone like me
00:56:48.380 who genuinely
00:56:49.760 can't imagine
00:56:51.320 anything worse
00:56:52.740 i cannot imagine
00:56:54.480 anything more awful
00:56:56.200 than having to
00:56:57.280 make the sorts of
00:56:58.720 constant
00:56:59.400 compromises
00:57:00.740 in what i say
00:57:01.420 and do
00:57:01.840 in order to
00:57:02.640 maintain a position
00:57:03.620 because i know
00:57:04.360 it's doomed anyway
00:57:05.240 look at roger
00:57:06.140 scrutin
00:57:06.720 uh you know
00:57:07.860 did nothing wrong
00:57:09.000 he is beyond reproach
00:57:10.520 he is uh
00:57:11.240 you know
00:57:11.500 he is the foremost
00:57:12.220 conservative intellectual
00:57:13.380 of his generation
00:57:14.940 and
00:57:15.960 they just got him
00:57:18.020 for saying something
00:57:18.900 utterly innocuous
00:57:19.720 in an interview
00:57:20.200 they're gonna get you
00:57:21.140 anyway
00:57:21.520 nothing bad has
00:57:22.560 happened to you yet
00:57:23.320 but it's going to
00:57:24.800 i don't say that
00:57:25.380 with any pleasure
00:57:25.940 whatsoever
00:57:26.300 i sincerely do not
00:57:27.340 because i think
00:57:28.020 well i've been expecting
00:57:28.900 that for a very long
00:57:29.860 period of time
00:57:30.600 i'd say many
00:57:31.420 many bad things
00:57:32.420 have happened to me
00:57:33.180 they just haven't
00:57:33.820 well
00:57:34.040 not really
00:57:35.820 uh i mean
00:57:36.860 in in
00:57:37.620 compared to
00:57:39.020 what some of us
00:57:39.660 have gone through
00:57:40.140 uh you know
00:57:40.880 whether it's laura
00:57:41.580 or or me
00:57:42.560 or whatever
00:57:42.900 or alex jones
00:57:43.580 or whatever
00:57:43.900 nothing really bad
00:57:44.640 has happened
00:57:44.880 well fair enough
00:57:45.700 yes um
00:57:46.560 you know
00:57:46.940 it does depend
00:57:47.880 on your comparison
00:57:48.800 group
00:57:49.260 well uh
00:57:50.460 they they are
00:57:51.340 allowing you to
00:57:52.220 grow
00:57:52.640 i'll tell you
00:57:54.020 what they're doing
00:57:54.720 with you
00:57:55.360 what they did
00:57:55.940 with me
00:57:56.360 which is
00:57:57.360 you allow this
00:57:58.360 this phenomenon
00:57:59.340 to blossom
00:57:59.980 up to the point
00:58:01.780 you cannot bear
00:58:03.040 it any longer
00:58:03.720 and then you
00:58:04.760 crush it
00:58:05.340 and that is
00:58:06.460 a horrifying
00:58:08.780 warning to others
00:58:10.000 not to overstep
00:58:11.740 so they did it
00:58:12.900 with me
00:58:13.300 they let me get
00:58:14.020 as far as
00:58:14.620 bill maher
00:58:15.260 and the tour
00:58:15.820 and all the rest
00:58:16.420 of it
00:58:16.740 and then
00:58:17.400 they came for it
00:58:18.580 they're letting
00:58:19.540 you climb higher
00:58:20.460 um
00:58:21.500 so your fall
00:58:22.300 is going to be
00:58:22.820 just like mine
00:58:23.420 was and they'll
00:58:23.800 get you on
00:58:24.140 something else
00:58:24.720 um
00:58:25.660 they'll get you
00:58:26.100 on a complete
00:58:27.840 nothing burger
00:58:28.600 because mine
00:58:29.700 let's face it
00:58:30.340 was a nothing burger
00:58:31.200 it was you know
00:58:32.380 the the supposed
00:58:34.120 scandal
00:58:34.700 was predicated
00:58:35.960 on an edited
00:58:36.660 video which did
00:58:37.480 not show
00:58:38.040 that i said
00:58:38.840 that i thought
00:58:39.180 the age of consent
00:58:39.760 was about right
00:58:40.420 and it was based
00:58:41.980 on it was based
00:58:42.800 on a lie
00:58:43.440 if it had been
00:58:45.120 the case that
00:58:45.900 everybody had seen
00:58:46.680 what i originally
00:58:47.280 said they might
00:58:48.200 have said uh
00:58:49.460 please explain this
00:58:50.480 but it would not
00:58:51.100 have had the same
00:58:51.880 um effect
00:58:53.740 that it did
00:58:54.940 it had the effect
00:58:55.500 it did because
00:58:56.000 it was a deceptive
00:58:57.620 dishonest misleadingly
00:58:58.900 edited video
00:58:59.660 because i had created
00:59:01.240 enemies on both
00:59:01.940 left and right
00:59:02.880 the establishment
00:59:03.780 right and the
00:59:04.520 whole left
00:59:04.960 teamed up
00:59:05.720 to take me out
00:59:06.600 you are walking
00:59:08.080 into the same
00:59:08.580 position
00:59:08.840 so ed so
00:59:09.520 why do you
00:59:10.120 see that it
00:59:10.780 was the
00:59:11.180 establishment
00:59:11.760 right
00:59:12.260 do you think
00:59:12.980 that that
00:59:13.320 was the ones
00:59:13.720 who did it
00:59:14.360 they're the ones
00:59:15.260 who did it
00:59:16.160 it was the
00:59:17.060 well it was the
00:59:18.080 reagan battalion
00:59:18.860 national review
00:59:19.860 crowd who put
00:59:21.280 that video together
00:59:22.120 and shared it
00:59:23.000 they were the
00:59:23.480 ones who
00:59:24.060 manufactured this
00:59:25.120 because they
00:59:25.520 were upset
00:59:26.120 that i didn't
00:59:27.280 give a stuff
00:59:27.840 about cpac
00:59:28.500 because it means
00:59:29.320 nothing to me
00:59:29.720 i didn't even
00:59:30.020 know what it
00:59:30.300 was at the
00:59:30.940 time
00:59:31.200 but they
00:59:32.060 were upset
00:59:32.540 that i was
00:59:32.920 speaking at cpac
00:59:33.660 because it was
00:59:34.300 it was like
00:59:35.320 their precious
00:59:36.700 um pure
00:59:38.880 conservatism thing
00:59:39.900 had been taken
00:59:40.660 over by trump
00:59:41.340 world right
00:59:42.160 right right
00:59:42.720 and they had
00:59:43.320 so they didn't
00:59:44.480 care so much
00:59:44.920 about the
00:59:45.220 bill maher
00:59:45.760 but the sort
00:59:46.460 of the
00:59:46.680 national review
00:59:47.300 reagan battalion
00:59:48.080 crowd who
00:59:48.620 created and
00:59:49.500 propagated and
00:59:50.560 shared and
00:59:51.280 and and uh
00:59:52.560 whatever with
00:59:53.220 this deceptively
00:59:53.840 edited video
00:59:54.820 did so because
00:59:56.540 they couldn't
00:59:57.060 bear the thought
00:59:57.720 of me being
00:59:58.220 the star turn
00:59:58.960 at cpac
00:59:59.500 okay and so
01:00:00.420 and you think
01:00:01.240 that that's why
01:00:01.900 they pushed so
01:00:03.000 hard on the
01:00:03.520 pedophilia front
01:00:04.520 yes because they
01:00:05.800 knew it's the one
01:00:06.600 thing that the
01:00:07.540 conservative base
01:00:08.320 would go yeah
01:00:09.840 right and and
01:00:11.360 the left didn't
01:00:12.040 take me out
01:00:12.580 the right did
01:00:13.780 okay okay i
01:00:15.540 wasn't aware of
01:00:16.260 that no well
01:00:17.680 i thought the left
01:00:18.560 took you out too
01:00:19.700 as well
01:00:20.260 what power does
01:00:21.500 the what power
01:00:22.120 does the left
01:00:22.580 have over me
01:00:23.180 what are they
01:00:23.540 doing to me now
01:00:24.160 that they weren't
01:00:24.640 doing in january
01:00:25.240 2017 nothing
01:00:26.980 well i think i
01:00:28.260 think what my
01:00:29.220 impression i'm
01:00:30.400 i'm not suggesting
01:00:31.220 that i'm correct
01:00:31.900 but my impression
01:00:32.840 was that it had
01:00:33.640 something to do
01:00:34.420 with the second
01:00:35.560 of the two or
01:00:36.240 three topics we
01:00:37.040 were going to
01:00:37.440 discuss which was
01:00:38.320 your claim that
01:00:39.240 the experiences
01:00:40.560 that you had
01:00:41.660 are actually very
01:00:43.040 characteristic of
01:00:44.280 the gay community
01:00:45.300 no that was
01:00:46.680 unbelievable
01:00:47.060 no you see
01:00:48.440 interestingly what
01:00:49.400 actually happened
01:00:50.280 about that specific
01:00:51.740 thing is the
01:00:52.500 entire gay
01:00:53.940 liberal establishment
01:00:55.100 went silent
01:00:56.420 because what i
01:00:59.120 said was
01:00:59.880 and i wouldn't
01:01:02.280 phrase this way
01:01:02.960 phrase it this way
01:01:03.820 again because it
01:01:04.720 was it was not
01:01:05.680 quite what i meant
01:01:06.440 and it was let's
01:01:08.240 say incautiously
01:01:08.940 phrased to put it
01:01:09.660 mildly what i
01:01:11.040 said was that
01:01:12.740 relationships between
01:01:14.080 older men and
01:01:15.220 young i should have
01:01:16.020 said younger men
01:01:16.720 are a common
01:01:18.320 function of gay
01:01:20.120 life and i think
01:01:21.200 i said i'm afraid
01:01:23.120 i think i said
01:01:23.780 after a lot of
01:01:24.320 drinks on a
01:01:24.820 late night live
01:01:25.620 stream they can
01:01:26.540 be hugely
01:01:27.080 positive experiences
01:01:28.260 i shouldn't have
01:01:28.860 put it like that
01:01:29.560 i should have
01:01:30.620 said they are a
01:01:31.240 function of gay
01:01:31.840 life and in
01:01:33.040 many cases
01:01:33.760 like a 35 year
01:01:35.140 old man with a
01:01:35.740 20 year old or
01:01:36.440 whatever very
01:01:37.560 often that 35
01:01:38.340 year old will
01:01:38.980 sort of induct the
01:01:39.860 20 year old into
01:01:40.820 the gay way of
01:01:42.240 things show them
01:01:43.160 where the clubs
01:01:43.620 are show them
01:01:45.080 the ropes in lieu
01:01:47.660 of parents because
01:01:49.360 because the boy's
01:01:50.840 parents don't
01:01:51.680 understand him maybe
01:01:52.680 don't even know
01:01:53.420 or have rejected
01:01:55.200 it or whatever
01:01:55.900 so very often
01:01:57.020 there's a sort
01:01:57.540 of father
01:01:58.300 there's an either
01:01:59.220 an avuncular or
01:02:00.240 a paternal
01:02:01.340 dimension to
01:02:03.580 these relationships
01:02:04.700 on that point
01:02:06.720 and indeed
01:02:07.740 throughout the
01:02:08.540 throughout the
01:02:09.340 whole controversy
01:02:10.360 the gay left
01:02:11.660 went silent
01:02:12.600 and february
01:02:13.460 21st 2nd and
01:02:14.480 3rd 2017
01:02:15.300 gay journalists
01:02:16.880 were nowhere to
01:02:17.680 be found in
01:02:18.200 america because
01:02:18.780 they did not want
01:02:19.460 to have that
01:02:19.880 discussion because
01:02:20.720 they know it's
01:02:21.120 true
01:02:21.340 okay well so
01:02:22.920 was that a
01:02:23.460 consequence of
01:02:24.340 abandoning you
01:02:25.440 by inaction then
01:02:26.760 no no no what
01:02:27.840 i'm saying is that
01:02:28.700 that's not that
01:02:30.080 what i'm saying is
01:02:31.300 that that's not
01:02:31.900 what was so
01:02:32.540 unforgivable
01:02:33.060 that's not what
01:02:34.020 that wasn't that
01:02:34.720 wasn't the problem
01:02:35.380 okay so so then
01:02:37.500 well in that case
01:02:38.620 then i guess it's
01:02:39.740 a matter of not
01:02:41.700 so much the
01:02:42.240 difference in age
01:02:43.040 but the difference
01:02:44.280 in when that age
01:02:46.160 difference starts
01:02:47.260 so let's say well
01:02:48.420 so so we've had a
01:02:50.320 conversation so
01:02:51.300 far um which
01:02:53.540 is presumed that
01:02:54.400 the contents of
01:02:55.040 what i said was
01:02:55.680 important and
01:02:56.680 that we should
01:02:57.020 dissect it this
01:02:58.540 is a mistake
01:02:59.140 because it doesn't
01:03:00.780 matter what i
01:03:01.420 said it doesn't
01:03:02.800 matter whether i
01:03:03.540 was right to say
01:03:04.360 it or what the
01:03:05.400 nuances or vagaries
01:03:07.020 are of a particular
01:03:07.880 statement that i say
01:03:09.060 is deceptively edited
01:03:10.080 here or whatever
01:03:10.800 it doesn't matter
01:03:11.700 narrative was
01:03:13.280 established and it
01:03:14.180 was repeated by
01:03:14.760 right and left
01:03:15.380 and the person was
01:03:16.360 ejected from you
01:03:17.320 know from public
01:03:18.340 life and from
01:03:19.000 whatever right
01:03:19.620 this is what's
01:03:20.400 going to happen
01:03:20.780 to you this is
01:03:21.860 what's going to
01:03:22.240 happen to ben
01:03:22.780 this is what's
01:03:23.540 going to happen
01:03:23.900 to dave rubin
01:03:24.540 um because nobody
01:03:26.580 stood up for me
01:03:27.540 the playbook became
01:03:29.420 established and now
01:03:30.580 that is your fate
01:03:31.560 all of you that's
01:03:33.100 how you're all
01:03:33.440 going to go out
01:03:33.960 and it doesn't
01:03:35.080 matter what you
01:03:36.460 say it doesn't
01:03:37.080 matter what the
01:03:37.420 subject was doesn't
01:03:38.320 matter what the
01:03:38.840 incautious phrase
01:03:39.800 was i mean candace
01:03:40.600 owens it could have
01:03:41.480 could have happened to
01:03:42.420 her recently with her
01:03:43.600 um stupid this her
01:03:45.820 stupid she tripped
01:03:46.800 over herself saying
01:03:47.480 something about
01:03:47.900 hitler and and you
01:03:48.800 know there was a
01:03:49.360 sentence that i'm
01:03:49.960 sure she would
01:03:50.340 phrase differently a
01:03:50.980 second time everyone
01:03:51.780 sort of knew what
01:03:52.380 she meant but it
01:03:53.860 could it could if the
01:03:55.220 stars had aligned have
01:03:57.240 done to her what
01:03:58.060 happened to me in
01:03:58.860 february 2017 the
01:04:00.540 content doesn't
01:04:01.160 matter it was the
01:04:02.340 fact that the left
01:04:03.940 and right decided to
01:04:04.940 take this person out
01:04:05.800 and any pretext would
01:04:07.260 have done done fine
01:04:08.020 so we've had a
01:04:09.820 discussion sort of
01:04:10.580 talking about well
01:04:11.280 what was it you said
01:04:12.400 that was so
01:04:12.860 unacceptable nothing
01:04:14.080 it was me it was
01:04:17.680 the fact that there's
01:04:18.800 also the mystery look
01:04:20.080 fair enough you know
01:04:21.080 and i'm not disputing
01:04:22.540 that that there were
01:04:24.400 any number of reasons
01:04:25.460 to make you a target
01:04:26.600 but i am curious about
01:04:28.220 why it was that
01:04:29.280 particular interview
01:04:31.140 that did it because
01:04:32.100 it was very sudden
01:04:33.200 because because i was
01:04:36.480 scheduled to be the
01:04:37.460 star speaker at cpac and
01:04:39.860 the national review
01:04:40.620 crowd crowd could not
01:04:42.820 handle it so they went
01:04:44.940 through the hours and
01:04:46.720 hours and hours and
01:04:47.380 hours of old live
01:04:48.080 streams and they found
01:04:49.060 something that would
01:04:50.320 uh the they found
01:04:53.560 something that would um
01:04:55.200 get uh get to the
01:04:58.680 republican base something
01:05:00.500 they could sell to
01:05:01.620 alienate me from
01:05:02.540 republicans rather than
01:05:04.260 just the left and then
01:05:05.940 they decided this
01:05:07.220 person's going to go
01:05:07.980 this is a power they
01:05:10.000 still have and it's a
01:05:10.920 power they will
01:05:11.900 leverage against the
01:05:13.700 rest of you too
01:05:14.320 my question is
01:05:16.820 we can talk a little
01:05:18.520 about where i'm going
01:05:19.380 to go next and what
01:05:20.200 i'm going to do next
01:05:21.340 um professionally because
01:05:24.160 i i think it might
01:05:25.460 help the rest of you
01:05:26.700 uh when this inevitably
01:05:28.260 happens to you but
01:05:29.680 it's it's this is a
01:05:36.140 power they still have
01:05:37.160 it is a power that
01:05:38.220 they can and will
01:05:39.680 leverage against other
01:05:41.380 people and unfortunately
01:05:43.020 the brightest star and
01:05:45.600 the greatest standard
01:05:46.520 bearer the you know the
01:05:48.580 court jester of the
01:05:49.680 movement was allowed to
01:05:51.460 be decapitated and
01:05:52.780 because that happened the
01:05:54.860 playbook is now
01:05:55.540 established for it to
01:05:56.920 happen to everybody
01:05:57.520 else and it will
01:05:58.720 happen to everybody
01:05:59.380 else it's already
01:06:00.100 happened to other
01:06:00.860 people you've seen it
01:06:01.620 happen since um to
01:06:02.800 others right um
01:06:04.380 it happened to sargon of
01:06:06.240 a cad exactly
01:06:07.620 in a lesser lesser in a
01:06:09.420 lesser this is now how
01:06:11.080 it's going to be and it
01:06:13.140 didn't have to be like
01:06:14.120 that the only way that
01:06:16.040 this boycott and
01:06:17.600 defenestration
01:06:18.320 could have been
01:06:21.080 successful would be if
01:06:22.440 republicans refused to
01:06:24.200 would have been if
01:06:25.020 republicans said okay we
01:06:26.200 won't invite him to
01:06:26.760 anything we won't
01:06:27.600 have him on our radio
01:06:28.240 shows um he's too hot
01:06:29.940 to handle uh too much
01:06:31.500 drama too much hassle
01:06:32.640 right what the left
01:06:34.600 does is immediately
01:06:36.520 start putting that
01:06:37.440 person on conference
01:06:38.260 stages and panels to
01:06:39.760 get over that period of
01:06:41.520 like oh is this person
01:06:42.740 going to become
01:06:43.140 untouchable they railroad
01:06:45.320 that they drive a truck
01:06:46.860 through that by
01:06:47.640 immediately getting that
01:06:48.580 person on tv and on
01:06:49.620 conference stages a lot
01:06:50.780 to sort of to to you
01:06:53.840 know to to drive through
01:06:55.300 that and to to make
01:06:56.400 sure that person
01:06:56.900 doesn't get removed
01:06:57.900 from circulation right
01:07:00.080 that's what the left
01:07:00.940 does when something when
01:07:02.220 linda sarstor is
01:07:03.100 discovered to have said
01:07:03.920 something awful suddenly
01:07:05.780 she's on conference
01:07:06.520 stages every two days it
01:07:07.840 seems like you know she's
01:07:08.740 speaking in new york she's
01:07:09.480 doing this this is not an
01:07:10.580 accident this is on
01:07:11.300 purpose this is the left
01:07:12.820 um uh leaping into action
01:07:16.780 to ensure that she
01:07:18.700 survives right
01:07:19.860 conservatives did the
01:07:22.120 opposite with me they
01:07:23.420 allowed the left and the
01:07:25.160 establishment republicans
01:07:26.320 who hate them um to
01:07:28.080 dictate who would and
01:07:29.240 would not be a proper
01:07:31.320 subject for discussion and
01:07:32.360 who should and should not
01:07:33.220 have you know a column and
01:07:34.980 all the rest of it and
01:07:36.320 that's that was absolutely
01:07:39.820 suicidal okay and and the
01:07:43.320 reason that so many other
01:07:44.500 media figures were secretly
01:07:46.240 happy to see it happen to me
01:07:47.720 is that they're idiots who
01:07:49.320 believe that this is a
01:07:50.120 zero-sum game they think
01:07:52.180 that by removing me they
01:07:53.860 create space for
01:07:54.680 themselves this is not
01:07:56.220 true there is nobody in
01:07:58.100 the conservative or
01:07:58.880 libertarian ecosystem who
01:08:00.040 offers what i do there
01:08:01.460 isn't there's not a single
01:08:02.600 fucking one of you can
01:08:03.360 crack a good joke you know
01:08:05.000 no get the odd good one
01:08:06.580 off on stage it's not so
01:08:08.200 much on youtube you have
01:08:10.140 your gifts that's not one
01:08:10.980 of them um not a single
01:08:14.140 one of you is funny not a
01:08:16.200 single one of you could have
01:08:17.260 a late night chat show you
01:08:18.780 know uh that's that's
01:08:19.900 cabaret comedy like johnny
01:08:21.820 carson you know none of
01:08:23.720 you nobody has filled the
01:08:25.400 void left by me because
01:08:26.460 i'm a once in a generation
01:08:27.340 talent and sorry to be
01:08:29.600 egotistical but it's just
01:08:30.820 it is what it is um nobody
01:08:33.080 has filled that void which
01:08:34.280 is why i'm not worried
01:08:34.940 about coming back to it and
01:08:36.600 coming out of retirement you
01:08:37.600 know and and and refilling it
01:08:38.920 myself but something did
01:08:40.720 happen to me and that's
01:08:42.300 that i sort of gave up on
01:08:45.240 conservatives a little bit and
01:08:47.780 and so when i do return it's
01:08:49.980 going to be very much more
01:08:50.760 in the mold of a more
01:08:52.300 conventional comedian and
01:08:54.240 that's what i am currently
01:08:56.800 closing funding to do as we
01:08:58.520 speak down here in
01:08:59.520 oklahoma um much more in the
01:09:03.040 vein of a of an
01:09:04.420 entertainment figure and
01:09:06.060 much much less of the
01:09:07.300 politics so the effect might
01:09:09.560 be a relief for you well not
01:09:11.620 really because i quite enjoyed
01:09:12.800 it but the effect of this
01:09:13.820 hasn't been to kill me the
01:09:16.200 effects of the cowardice of
01:09:18.880 other conservative media
01:09:20.240 figures and the conservative
01:09:21.520 base their failure to stick up
01:09:23.880 for me in february 2017
01:09:24.960 the effect wasn't to kill me
01:09:27.380 the effect was to lose one of
01:09:28.860 their greatest and most
01:09:29.700 effective champions
01:09:30.540 because i'm fine
01:09:32.820 i'm doing good
01:09:34.400 okay so okay so let's talk
01:09:35.700 about that being fine so i want
01:09:38.040 to go back to i still have a
01:09:39.780 question about the
01:09:41.320 the older man younger man
01:09:44.420 relationship issue
01:09:45.620 can't we talk about something
01:09:46.560 else
01:09:46.940 well
01:09:47.400 uh humor me for humor me for
01:09:50.780 two more minutes because
01:09:51.800 there's actually somewhere i want
01:09:52.980 to go with this
01:09:53.800 okay so the the first issue is
01:09:57.060 where's the line property drawn in
01:09:59.980 those relationships as as far as
01:10:02.240 your concern with regards to age
01:10:03.860 uh and where and where is it
01:10:06.760 usually drawn because those are
01:10:08.220 now you're trying to get me now
01:10:09.600 you're trying to get me in
01:10:10.240 trouble i i'm not i'm really not
01:10:11.820 i don't want to get you in
01:10:12.940 trouble i and i don't think
01:10:14.540 there is a line to properly be
01:10:15.880 drawn because you're basically
01:10:16.960 just talking about talking
01:10:18.340 degrees of degeneracy at that
01:10:19.900 point aren't you um you know the
01:10:21.600 fact that you get saddled with
01:10:22.780 this aberrant sexuality and you
01:10:24.640 then have to go out and make the
01:10:25.700 best of it
01:10:26.180 um the fact that you find this
01:10:29.060 paternal or avuncular
01:10:30.520 dimension in a in a relationship
01:10:33.060 with an older man that may also
01:10:34.560 have a sexual component i mean
01:10:36.340 this is layer upon layer upon
01:10:38.200 layer of dysfunction so you're
01:10:40.120 not going to get me to say 10
01:10:41.720 years is the right gap because
01:10:43.020 none of it's the right gap it's
01:10:44.240 all fucked up
01:10:45.160 what's the alternative
01:10:47.060 i don't know i mean partly partly
01:10:52.180 hypothetically i wish conversion
01:10:53.840 therapy marriage i wish conversion
01:10:56.460 therapy worked um at least said that
01:10:58.980 before at least in the case of
01:11:00.920 lesbians we know that we can
01:11:02.420 push women back into back back
01:11:05.020 with men and most of them will be
01:11:06.300 happier as a result with men on
01:11:08.100 the other hand some of us are just
01:11:10.040 gay
01:11:10.320 uh and i'm not going to be drawn on
01:11:15.480 what the correct kind of fucked up
01:11:18.520 dysfunctional
01:11:19.160 okay well first of all i wasn't i
01:11:21.360 wasn't trying to corner you you know
01:11:22.880 well i don't want to corner you this
01:11:25.960 is something i'm really curious about
01:11:27.540 because you you made the case and
01:11:30.860 you made a strong case that
01:11:32.440 relationships between younger men
01:11:34.340 and older men were very common in
01:11:36.440 the gay community and that seems
01:11:38.460 that's not me making the case that's
01:11:39.940 an established fact i mean every gay
01:11:41.400 person knows that that's got nothing
01:11:42.540 to do with me that's just me
01:11:43.540 pointing out something that every gay
01:11:45.280 person knows which is that when
01:11:47.000 people when people first become
01:11:48.420 sexually active or aware of their
01:11:50.580 sexual orientation or they first
01:11:52.420 start to go out on the scene or
01:11:53.700 whatever they very often form an
01:11:55.820 attachment with an older man it may
01:11:57.700 just be somebody five years older in
01:11:59.180 some cases it's somebody a little bit
01:12:00.440 older than that
01:12:01.180 fair enough how often do you think
01:12:03.880 that that's happening at the age that
01:12:05.540 it happened to you
01:12:06.660 i think it happens all the time i think
01:12:09.060 it happens everywhere um and i think
01:12:11.240 it's i think it's an inevitable result
01:12:14.520 of having a an aberrant sexuality
01:12:18.680 where you have to seek out kind of
01:12:20.340 alternative parental figures because
01:12:24.800 yours aren't fit for purpose for this
01:12:26.780 particular part of adolescence you know
01:12:29.740 right but then you just said too that
01:12:32.000 this isn't an objection that you don't
01:12:35.300 see a clear ethical pathway forward out
01:12:38.780 of that you know none of it's ethical
01:12:40.480 i mean it's all debased and degenerate
01:12:43.700 but it well how what what okay so that's
01:12:47.620 so it's so what do you mean by that
01:12:50.100 exactly because i think there's an
01:12:51.360 element of predatoriness in almost
01:12:53.320 every gay interaction and relationship
01:12:55.200 and this is just one example where it is
01:12:57.520 more obvious and more visible but i
01:13:00.960 think that um there is a predatory
01:13:04.520 component in even even in gay
01:13:08.200 friendships and you think about the
01:13:10.260 way that um well that might have
01:13:12.160 something to do with the more arguably
01:13:14.280 with the more predatory
01:13:15.500 element of male sexuality
01:13:18.240 right right and you're going to talk
01:13:20.200 about undiscussable things
01:13:21.800 right well you take the controlling
01:13:23.200 calming um
01:13:24.740 mediating uh mediating influence of
01:13:27.940 women out of the equation and men just
01:13:30.060 hype each other up which is why they why
01:13:31.860 gay men end up promiscuous right because
01:13:33.780 you're taking out that um
01:13:35.340 that that restraint right exactly
01:13:37.840 restraints to look at what i was looking
01:13:38.880 for you're taking out the restraint that's
01:13:40.580 typically provided by the woman um and
01:13:43.740 instead you can just you know whatever
01:13:45.160 so hypothetically that was supposed to
01:13:47.260 be solved at least in part by the
01:13:49.060 introduction of
01:13:49.860 like socially sanctioned monogamous
01:13:52.460 relationships right because i've had
01:13:54.740 friends i knew about heightened male
01:13:57.320 promiscuity among the homosexual
01:13:59.340 community and it's heightened by a
01:14:00.840 substantial margin and the liberal
01:14:02.900 types who i thought were reasonable and
01:14:04.960 i certainly don't think all of them are
01:14:06.620 made the claim to me that the reason for
01:14:09.060 that enhanced promiscuity was that all
01:14:11.400 the male homosexual sexual activity had
01:14:15.420 to occur behind the scenes and that it
01:14:18.180 was impossible for for men
01:14:19.880 that's a ridiculous argument that's a
01:14:21.780 ridiculous argument male male homosexual
01:14:24.340 promiscuity is obviously simply a
01:14:26.840 function of what happens when you put
01:14:29.100 two men together attracted to one another
01:14:30.640 and you don't have the restraint um of
01:14:33.060 of a woman um it's it's it's obvious and
01:14:37.000 and also you cannot
01:14:38.560 successfully box a transgressive sexual
01:14:45.660 identity into when we say heteropatriarchal
01:14:49.640 institutions like marriage uh and expect
01:14:52.580 gay people to just suddenly become you
01:14:54.720 know normal monogamous whatever doesn't
01:14:57.160 work like that well it seemed to okay that's
01:14:59.900 fine so but it seemed to me that in some
01:15:01.720 sense that well here's something else that
01:15:04.920 is no doubt going to cause trouble it
01:15:07.280 seemed to me that that was kind of part of
01:15:08.720 the bargain like wasn't that the bargain
01:15:10.440 that the i always saw that was part of the
01:15:12.480 deal is that you know in exchange for
01:15:14.260 having this millstone around your neck in
01:15:16.320 exchange for the in exchange for the
01:15:19.240 terrible agony of giving up fatherhood
01:15:21.900 which you know you can adopt and blah blah
01:15:24.440 blah but ultimately you know basically it's
01:15:26.800 like joining the priesthood you know you give up
01:15:29.360 fatherhood
01:15:30.000 in exchange you get to participate in a
01:15:34.980 sort of taboo breaking transgressive
01:15:36.960 experimental life that performs perhaps some
01:15:40.680 kind of societal function might even perform an
01:15:43.400 evolutionary function um and which you have
01:15:46.420 the excitement of the marginal
01:15:47.940 exactly and and and that's that's why i mean
01:15:52.040 i'm i am the world's greatest hypocrite on one
01:15:55.440 subject and one subject only and that's gay
01:15:57.020 marriage um and that's because i don't
01:15:58.780 have the foggiest idea what i think still
01:16:00.700 even though i've got one uh i'm under no
01:16:03.240 illusions that it is a union under under
01:16:06.100 the lord but i am i remain politically
01:16:09.300 against gay marriage despite the fact that i
01:16:11.840 got one because i've met somebody who
01:16:13.560 completed me and i couldn't think of
01:16:15.640 anything else to do but of course i would
01:16:18.300 marry him um so i'm very i'm i'm a mess on
01:16:22.040 that subject yeah that that's definitely
01:16:23.500 that's definitely a mess that i make no claim to
01:16:27.980 coherent logical positions on that one subject
01:16:31.500 that one subject i'm a mess but the reason i
01:16:34.380 always was so skeptical of gay marriage is
01:16:37.520 that it was it was robbing us of the one
01:16:39.400 thing that we had the one good cool thing
01:16:41.940 about being gay that you had in exchange for
01:16:45.080 the awful horror of not being able to produce
01:16:48.740 a child with the person you love in the
01:16:50.440 extraordinary course of of sexual congress
01:16:53.420 um when you realize that and i don't think a
01:16:57.000 lot of gay people realize that ever but i
01:16:59.260 realized it quite early when you realize that
01:17:01.800 you the bottom of your world drops out and
01:17:04.460 you have to do something else you have to
01:17:07.200 find a purpose and if your purpose isn't
01:17:09.140 going to be fatherhood um this is why so many
01:17:11.920 gay men join the priesthood because they want to
01:17:13.360 be a different kind of father uh you know they
01:17:15.880 want they want to to be um to be a shepherd
01:17:18.100 uh you have to find some other kind of purpose and
01:17:22.880 very often for gay men that's uh creativity
01:17:25.860 experimentation yeah it's the license that we're
01:17:28.720 given by the rest of society um because we
01:17:32.280 we don't have this other thing um trying to cram
01:17:37.340 again i'm a complete hypocrite on the subject because i live in
01:17:40.920 total married bliss i live in i live in
01:17:44.600 beautiful monogamous domestic harmony uh so i'm a
01:17:48.600 100 hypocrite on the subject but it just or it still feels to me a shame
01:17:53.120 to sort of condemn you know our experimenters
01:17:57.920 you know the people who are so overrepresented in artists and musicians
01:18:01.300 and and even politicians and warlords you know
01:18:04.040 uh to sort of condemn them to the same you know
01:18:07.380 the same monotonous drudgery that you breeders have to have to submit to
01:18:12.180 um yes well i can imagine that it's sort of it's it sort of grates against
01:18:16.980 your what would you call it your your anti-authoritarian
01:18:20.860 my rebellious spirit and all the rest of it yeah yeah
01:18:23.820 i'm i'm i'm kind of poetic justice in some sense
01:18:27.300 yeah yeah i i this is this is one of the many things that
01:18:30.340 convinces me that god is real because there's no there's no
01:18:33.000 there's there's a humor in that which could only have come from someone doing
01:18:37.620 it on purpose you know just be like you know what i'm gonna give i'm gonna
01:18:41.480 give you something that's just gonna make just gonna remind you that you don't
01:18:44.360 know it all uh and you and it's going to confound
01:18:46.920 you for the rest of your life and remind you that
01:18:48.680 you too are messy and complicated and on this one subject you are never going to
01:18:52.320 be coherent or logical um good luck with that uh
01:18:55.380 okay so no doubt i have another terrible question for you
01:19:00.240 so i i read um martel's book on the catholic church
01:19:07.240 about homosexuality in the vatican and it's very
01:19:10.980 um contentious book let's say written by a gay man
01:19:16.660 who claims that homosexuality is extraordinarily common in the vatican
01:19:23.500 it is and so and that the kinds of relationships that you
01:19:28.240 describe between older men and younger men are
01:19:30.460 common in that culture as they're common in the rest of the culture
01:19:34.380 yes they are so i've written a book on the subject too uh and i can tell you
01:19:38.280 for a fact that both of those things are true
01:19:40.380 there's a it's called um the lavender mafia uh in the vatican
01:19:44.380 it is uh the the um for those those viewers who don't know
01:19:48.860 um it is a cabal of not just gay bishops but specifically progressive left-wing gay
01:19:55.020 bishops yes and and my book was a little bit
01:19:58.100 more politically focused than his my book was drawing attention to the fact
01:20:02.140 that the same people who want to water down the liturgy
01:20:04.780 who want um for for you know divorcees to be able to receive communion and want
01:20:11.100 you know gay people to be whatever
01:20:12.380 they're the same people who've been covering up child abuse in the church
01:20:16.500 and and it seems that the same people who have been doing the child abuse
01:20:20.480 and covering it up are also the people who are most aggressively pushing for
01:20:24.020 progressive reform um of the catholic liturgy and of catholic practice
01:20:28.660 and this of course resonates with what we know from other industries doesn't it
01:20:32.900 just like hollywood just like the press just like the academy
01:20:36.780 the people who are most aggressively pushing for um progressive free-for-all
01:20:41.040 sexual liberation other people with the ugliest and most depraved skeletons in
01:20:45.580 the closet the rest of us are quite normal
01:20:47.040 so um my book was was more about that but i can tell you that
01:20:51.340 um it's absolutely true the mistake that the catholic church has
01:20:54.880 made um and i remain a catholic despite the terrible state
01:21:01.280 of the catholic church um yes and all the other contradictions in your life
01:21:06.280 you know they've never bothered me they've never scared me
01:21:12.680 i'm not i'm not afraid of that i'm quite excited by that because i look
01:21:16.360 forward to a day when i might grow either get closer to a resolution
01:21:19.660 or be happy with you know with not finding one
01:21:22.800 doesn't i mean you know i can i can imagine
01:21:25.700 i can imagine ben shapiro would be kept awake at night by this
01:21:28.880 but i'm not you know because i don't need
01:21:30.980 everything in my world to form into a perfectly you know into like some sort
01:21:35.480 of like kantian or wittgensteinian superstructure
01:21:38.120 uh where everything has its right place and that you know and everything is
01:21:41.420 you know it's perfectly organized and all the dependent things are in the right
01:21:44.380 that's not what human beings are like that's not what we are
01:21:48.800 um we're much much more complex and messy than that and i'm
01:21:52.460 very much looking forward to 40 50 years of exploring my own
01:21:56.640 ludicrous you know internal nonsense but
01:22:01.360 the the i remain i remain a catholic but the the issue that the church has had
01:22:07.380 the mistake that the church has made is turning a blind eye
01:22:10.600 uh as the church would put it to sin um turning a blind eye to
01:22:15.300 rampant gay sex in a vocation that is supposed to be celibate
01:22:19.940 supposed to be chaste um
01:22:22.320 and to associate that hypothetically well the way that martel's claim with the
01:22:29.280 proclivity to cover up the child sexual abuse because of it which is his most
01:22:33.540 radical claim i would say i i don't know if he's wrong about that
01:22:37.520 what i would say is the way that the way the church would put it is you know if
01:22:41.220 you make room for one sin others will follow
01:22:43.220 right so what what that means in practical terms for the catholic church is
01:22:47.820 because the priesthood is somewhere where lots of gay men go and a blind eye
01:22:53.320 is routinely turned to their sexual peccadilloes even if it's just with each
01:22:57.340 other and there's nothing um non-consensual or abusive going on
01:23:01.140 because it's a sexual free-for-all because it's the kind of place where
01:23:04.940 supposedly transgressive or forbidden things happen routinely with no
01:23:09.060 consequence that it becomes an institution that
01:23:12.000 attracts other kinds of people who have other things to hide
01:23:15.000 like pedophiles where where are you going to go if you
01:23:18.440 have um some kind of of um psychiatric dysfunction or whatever it
01:23:23.760 is like that you're going to go somewhere that
01:23:26.320 routinely overlooks or ignores sexual uh wrongdoing
01:23:30.680 of course you are so that's what the church that's what that's what christians
01:23:34.140 mean when they say you know you let one sin and others will follow
01:23:37.160 they don't just mean it in the sense of personal behavior like if you let
01:23:41.300 yourself do one thing you'll let yourself do others
01:23:43.080 but it also works in institutions too and of course lefties will say the
01:23:47.840 reason that all of these problems happen in the catholic church is that
01:23:50.540 priests are required to be celibate the opposite's true they haven't been
01:23:54.020 celibate for a very long time and that's what's created the problem
01:23:56.960 because there's now um an entrenched left-wing gay mafia that effectively
01:24:01.840 runs the catholic church um that has engaged in the systematic cover-up of
01:24:07.200 child abuse so as to protect its own power and that's about as bad as it gets
01:24:13.860 you know in terms of you know global institutions who have lost their way
01:24:18.460 that is as bad as it gets uh i want a black pope because i want um
01:24:23.960 i want there to be a doctrinally conservative because all the all of the
01:24:28.840 catholics in africa are like pre-vatican too they're serious catholics
01:24:32.940 um and it will make it it will make life very difficult for progressives
01:24:36.880 accusing a black pope from africa of being a racist and a sexist you know
01:24:40.800 because he actually wants catholic doctrine to remain catholic doctrine
01:24:43.540 but the present pope is um basically at the head he is not himself a homosexual
01:24:49.240 as far as we know but he does sit at the head of um this
01:24:54.000 lavender mafia um and he is propped up by people like uh um
01:24:59.760 uh cormac murphy o'connor uh from england and wales vincent nichols
01:25:04.100 and all these other um aging 60 70 year old liberal cardinals
01:25:08.960 who are products of the 60s who are soft on communism
01:25:13.420 uh and and what my book was trying to show was that
01:25:16.960 the soft on communism thing is entwined with the abuse with the wrongdoing with
01:25:22.560 everything they're the same people doing everything
01:25:24.500 so uh theodore mccarrick who has the distinction of being the world's only
01:25:28.820 ex-cardinal because um francis had to remove his um
01:25:33.140 his cardinalcy from him uh had to degrade him as the technical term
01:25:37.080 he was um francis's envoy to china
01:25:40.760 and he was the one who put the deal together
01:25:43.560 with francis to allow the chinese state
01:25:46.920 to participate in the choice uh in choosing catholic bishops
01:25:52.700 i mean this hasn't happened since like gregory the seventh the catholic church
01:25:56.340 has been ferocious about choosing its own bishops
01:25:58.380 but they handed selection of the bishops over
01:26:01.660 to the communist party in china uh knowing that catholics are routinely
01:26:06.760 persecuted um you know and killed in china um
01:26:10.860 because they they never met a socialist they didn't like
01:26:13.840 and it's that it's that particular 60 70 year old child of the 60s
01:26:19.260 aging hippie liberal that lives in another planet from the rest of us
01:26:23.720 and is still thinking you know if only they
01:26:26.120 sorry there's some lawnmower oklahoma um
01:26:29.400 if only if only socialism were tried one more time perhaps
01:26:32.600 perhaps it would be okay this time that that's the world these people live in
01:26:35.860 um and they also that's in your book pope
01:26:38.440 it's uh it's yeah no it's called diabolical uh
01:26:42.200 how pope francis betrayed clerical abuse victims like me
01:26:45.040 and why he has to go uh it's called diabolical so yeah but anyway
01:26:48.860 i talk about that in the book so i'm not not here to book the book but um
01:26:51.560 but no it's it's very interesting how the same people who are far leftists
01:26:55.920 who are pushing for church doctrine to be watered down which has the effect of
01:26:59.340 emptying the pews because when people go to church they want
01:27:01.540 the fire and brimstone they go to be told what to do they want the bible they want
01:27:04.700 jesus they don't want climate change
01:27:06.720 right right right they don't you know they don't want
01:27:09.340 they don't want a bishop talking to them and i'm not making this up
01:27:12.140 there are seminaries now where the um where the seminarians are starting to
01:27:16.900 to issue um uh they're starting to give sermons on toxic masculinity
01:27:22.340 this is a church that is that has no no manly men left in it
01:27:26.740 yeah every man in that church is a home mom you know
01:27:29.820 there are no men left in the congregations there are no heterosexual men left in the
01:27:33.520 clergy and this is a church that thinks it has a
01:27:36.040 too many men problem you know um this is a church that and the reason that this
01:27:41.920 subject interested me in addition to my um faith is that this is another arena
01:27:47.060 in which the loss uh of manliness and masculinity and the loss of a proper
01:27:52.180 appreciation of the heroic masculine virtues has led to chaos and disaster
01:27:56.040 because no true father by which i mean the sorts of fatherhood that the priests are
01:28:04.620 supposed to um give up having children in order to to embark upon you know no no
01:28:10.680 spiritual leader um with integrity would stand by and watch children being abused and cover it up
01:28:16.380 this is something that gay people do because they think what they do is wrong so they're
01:28:20.120 happy to cover for somebody else who's doing something wrong too
01:28:22.620 a father a real father doesn't sit idly by while children are being abused
01:28:29.640 he takes you know he takes steps to stop it and he punishes the people who have done wrong
01:28:34.740 okay so that's that's the righteous indignation and outrage of a true father and those and that
01:28:40.900 that appreciation of you know like it's it's right and proper to hate the hateful and we should be
01:28:44.860 outraged about right well and you said that's part of what you've learned over the last couple of years
01:28:49.380 right and but that that heroic manly virtue is something that has been sort of systematically
01:28:54.080 wiped out of the catholic church just like it's been wiped out of other uh places in public life
01:28:59.840 yeah it's gone from journalism like it's gone from academy and it's had results that everybody knows
01:29:04.640 about in all those different arenas so it was interesting to me writing the book finding that
01:29:07.920 most of the problems most of the things that are happening in the catholic church most of the
01:29:15.280 problems the church has got itself into basically boil down to there being no men it's all women and
01:29:21.120 gays and that the vast majority of the child abuse scandal and all the other things that are wrong
01:29:26.880 with the catholic church are a product of the church losing its connection to masculinity and
01:29:33.720 simply having no men left in it oh good well good there's nothing controversial about any of that so
01:29:39.260 that's quite a relief so we don't have to be imperiling that was a joke that was a joke just so you know that i
01:29:48.800 can actually pull one off okay so i want to return to something if you don't mind i want you to tell me
01:29:55.520 what you think the consequences of what happened to you when you were 14 might have been
01:30:02.220 okay i don't know i don't guess
01:30:09.140 i mean i look if you're not like if i'm not i'm not unwilling to discuss it with you yeah i'm not
01:30:19.260 having a problem being forthcoming yeah i just don't know i know the only thing that i've really thought
01:30:24.920 about is whether or not it might have affected the trajectory of my sexuality and i think that
01:30:31.760 it may well have done but i don't think it on its own was enough to make difference and i think i'm
01:30:37.220 probably right about that also talked about just in this conversation about the transgressive nature of
01:30:44.240 that that that sexuality and now you participated in that even let's say as an active participant
01:30:53.120 and the question is what did that do to you what what did that what did the knowledge of that do to
01:31:01.200 you because you had to live with it i don't know if it's a fair question i don't know if i'm phrasing
01:31:06.500 no no you're phrasing it fine i just don't know the answer to it um in the same way that i don't
01:31:11.960 think anybody can know what quote unquote made them gay you know it's like everybody has is born
01:31:18.360 with i think um everybody is born with a more or less of a predilection whether or not you believe
01:31:23.220 in epigenetics or whatever um some people do some people don't but i think everybody probably
01:31:27.580 has a sort of predisposition uh and coupled with early experiences you end up either mostly having
01:31:34.440 sex with men or not right um i don't think that we're ever conscious of the processes acting on us
01:31:41.340 at the time and therefore it's very difficult it's just pure speculation based on whatever we happen to
01:31:47.160 remember trying to work out what it was that made the difference and i don't think it's i don't think
01:31:53.640 it's something that could ever satisfactorily be answered because simply because we're just not
01:31:57.460 aware of the process is acting on us i don't know if my dad not saving me from you know that
01:32:04.580 household made me you know sort of made some kind of misfire rewired like you know i said something
01:32:12.620 haywire in my brain i don't know whether i resented and just you know just like my mother so much that
01:32:18.100 i went off all women i don't know and i don't think there's ever any way to know and for the same reason
01:32:22.880 i don't think there's any way that i could possibly answer and i don't think there's anything anybody
01:32:26.820 could be on blind speculation and i think that most people who are most people who try to explain
01:32:34.100 i'm so sorry somebody's mowing the lawn um most people who try to explain what abuse might have
01:32:40.440 done to somebody in almost every case i see their political prejudices and their biases at work
01:32:48.020 yeah you know out there in search of justification right because the truth is i have no i have no
01:32:54.900 goddamn idea and neither does anybody else no one can possibly have a clue because these things are
01:33:00.100 acting below the conscious level on us in a way that we cannot dissect and analyze okay okay all right
01:33:06.680 so let me let me ask you then let me switch topics so you know you've been less in the public eye since
01:33:13.260 this scandal i'm retired i've been retired you've been retired okay you've been retired
01:33:20.020 but you've published your book look i sold a quarter of a million books i made millions of dollars i have
01:33:24.920 more nice stuff than i know what to do with i have a husband i am deeply in love with i could die happy
01:33:31.040 tomorrow i helped to get a president office i'm one of the seven people that put trump in office and
01:33:34.820 that's not egotism that's a fact right i'm one of the seven people that put donald trump in office i can
01:33:39.220 die happy now it might be you too in purgatory for you as a consequence yeah no i mean maybe
01:33:44.900 you know what happens after i die for that particular crime who knows but um but the fact
01:33:49.760 is like i have accomplished more than the vast majority of people walking this earth i have you
01:33:55.020 know and if i were to do nothing else professionally now i would be infinitely more successful than all
01:34:00.480 my critics combined okay so so i'm good there's there's rumors of your current state there's rumors
01:34:07.180 that you're terribly indebted there's there's rumors okay so i sometime you know one of the problems
01:34:14.340 with trying to find out what's true about me is i like to troll journalists and i i confirm or deny
01:34:20.040 according to my whimsy so when somebody writes to me saying is it true you're two million and i'll say
01:34:23.800 no darling it's four million um what i won't what i won't uh go to the trouble of explaining is that
01:34:31.120 of my many companies the one that was funded by the mercers who withdrew their political investments
01:34:37.780 from steve bannon and from me at the same time that particular vehicle is somewhat in debt but i'm not
01:34:44.020 i don't i don't have any personal liability whatsoever the sum total of the money i owe
01:34:50.960 it's about 977 dollars to capital one because i can't get any better credit cards than that because
01:34:55.900 i haven't been in this country for long enough i see i see so so so it's a corporate problem rather
01:35:01.260 i might not have as much money as i had two years ago um i don't but um i'm not two million in debt
01:35:07.860 one of my companies is um and we'll probably have to either try to fight it will have to fight its way
01:35:14.400 out of that or it will have to you know go through some kind of insolvency process or whatever
01:35:18.380 but i'm not in debt i just never bothered to correct the record and frankly when a journalist
01:35:23.900 if a journalist wrote to me so sorry about the noise if a journalist wrote to me and said are you
01:35:28.640 two million in debt and i made the very important critical distinction between me and the business
01:35:34.620 yes they wouldn't write that up anyway that's that they would take my confirmation of the figure
01:35:39.620 as confirmation that i'm in debt and just write what they wanted to anyway so i feel no i mean it's
01:35:44.520 not a crime to lie to journalists and i feel no obligation to uh to to act as their fact checking
01:35:50.460 i think it's actually a crime to tell the truth to journalists isn't it amen amen no if somebody
01:35:56.720 comes treated like a crime often if somebody comes to me to ask for a comment i think it's a moral
01:36:02.160 obligation to fuck with them um which is why i got myself into trouble that time before you know when
01:36:06.980 someone shot up the the newsroom wherever wherever it was because i i made some flippant comment about
01:36:13.360 vigilante death squads and journalists or something and i didn't post it publicly i wasn't
01:36:17.480 like inciting people to hurt journalists i wrote it privately to somebody who then published it and
01:36:23.300 wrote a story about it and then they used that as evidence that i was ginning up like people whatever
01:36:28.480 this is the these are some of the consequences of being the kind of person who can't bite their lip
01:36:33.080 so my job is to create a career in which that doesn't matter because i'm not um because my success
01:36:44.580 my income my fan base my profile whatever isn't reliant on the prestige economy but it's also not
01:36:54.240 reliant on the sort of rules of journalistic propriety or whatever so this is why um
01:37:00.000 i'm in the reason i'm in oklahoma is i'm closing the last tranche of money to do um a late night
01:37:08.120 chat show like johnny this is the thing i alluded to earlier in the conversation i see i see so that's
01:37:13.560 part of your future plans and who are you doing that with if you don't mind me asking are you still
01:37:19.720 in the process of waiting to announce that i'm still i haven't announced anything yet so i'm going
01:37:24.940 to the money in the bank first and then i'll do all my hires and then i'll you know announce partners
01:37:28.920 and all the rest of it but the the the basic the idea of it is what i should always have been doing
01:37:36.000 which is somewhere between bill maher and and johnny carson i can do my characters i can do my
01:37:41.960 ilhan omar my dr christine kind of characters uh as cold opens like snl except they'll actually be
01:37:46.920 funny i can do monologues i can do interviews all the rest of it and i i'm a live act i'm not one of
01:37:52.520 these people that can just babble for three hours a day like you know some of the podcasters can do
01:37:56.760 some of the youtubers can do i just find it so boring you know i don't want to just babble
01:38:00.960 three hours no one wants to hear the same opinions from the same four conservatives on the news every
01:38:05.920 day it's just mind-numbingly dull that's not me i'm a writer in a live act right that's where i live
01:38:12.220 that's my my happy place so it'll just be once a week and so how are you going to how are you going
01:38:19.040 to protect yourself just out of curiosity about being from being censored and taken out like
01:38:25.040 because i'm going to make it i'm going to make it absolutely anti-fragile we're not going to be on
01:38:29.660 social media we are going to encourage um viewers not to share clips we're going to beg people not to
01:38:35.120 put us on social media we're going to host the video on our own player on our own website
01:38:38.700 i see um if you want to watch it put your email address in and we can sell into the email list right
01:38:44.120 so we can you know do newsletters with authors and all the rest of it so it's something approximating
01:38:50.540 a private subscription service yes it isn't completely dissimilar from alex jones's model
01:38:56.620 um just without the homegrown products right well that's what we're hoping to allow people to do with
01:39:02.340 this platform that we've been building as an alternative to patreon you know on a broader scale
01:39:09.020 well maybe i'll be on that because if you'll have me because um this is the only thing i'm not
01:39:13.700 banned from perhaps uh i think these hermetically sealed little universes are the future for us
01:39:19.240 look social media isn't for isn't for us the people who run these companies hate us they are
01:39:24.020 dedicated to our annihilation they want to see us wiped off the face of the planet there's no point
01:39:29.000 handing distribution over to people who hate and why would you drive up the market value of these
01:39:33.160 companies by providing them free content just leave and i'm always the person who has to do it two
01:39:38.740 years before everybody else so this is what i'm going to do which is just leave social media
01:39:43.280 i'm going to spend a bunch of money uh converting my facebook fans into a big powerful email list
01:39:48.760 and i'm just going to leave there will be life after social media trust me once once upon a time
01:39:53.220 people didn't imagine that there would be no that my space wouldn't still be here there was aol geocities
01:39:58.220 the world moves on and in five years no one will have a twitter account anymore and you'll be
01:40:03.680 worrying you'll be wondering what on earth you were you were panicking about and the people who didn't
01:40:08.120 look ahead will be lost i will have a three million strong email list that i write to every day with
01:40:14.440 you know a hilarious um daily column and they'll tune in on friday nights to watch my show and i'll
01:40:20.320 be perfectly happy nobody can take that away from me you know if we email providers timeline for that
01:40:26.340 what how when when you're expecting to roll that out approximately um i've kind of pretty much sort of
01:40:31.740 semi-told people already so the cat's kind of sort of out of the bag so i haven't really broken the news
01:40:35.780 now but but um once the money's in the bank then i'll say then it'll be six to eight weeks before
01:40:40.880 we have a set built uh so two months before we drop i'm going to have a very open gestation process
01:40:46.900 i'm going to show pictures of the set while it's being built on the rest of it we're not going to
01:40:49.840 do like grand announcements because i've done enough of those in my career um so we'll just have a very
01:40:55.200 iterative uh period of putting every assembling everything and then in about two months i will drop
01:41:03.400 episode one and it will be the funniest most hilarious unmissable hour of television that's
01:41:10.040 somehow not on tv um produced by anybody in the country and it will be unmissable and hysterical
01:41:17.460 uh it will teach you something because we'll have a serious component too whether it's a mini
01:41:21.460 documentary or an interview or a review of something and it'll be bookended by just the
01:41:25.700 funniest political satire and you know and and and characters and nonsense um that nobody can do but
01:41:33.820 me uh and it's sort of what i always should have done it's what i've always wanted to do uh and now
01:41:40.840 i have the breathing space if you're like well no one's looking well no one's expecting daily this
01:41:44.900 that the other for me i'm in my you know in my first retirement period well like share i will come
01:41:49.960 out of retirement many times in my life um this is um i've i've had this nice space where no one's
01:41:56.640 been kind of down my neck to deliver anything have you enjoyed that like has there been anything about
01:42:01.440 advantageous to you about the fact that you've been sort of pulled away from the public spotlight
01:42:06.060 it's been wonderful it's been wonderful i've been able to i've been able to dedicate two years of my
01:42:11.280 life to getting to know the man i'm going to spend the rest of my life with you know and now we can go
01:42:15.980 about now i'll throw myself back into the fight he's got his own career and all the rest of it
01:42:21.020 but we've had something that most married couples don't get which is two years just together at the
01:42:26.920 beginning of our life together most people don't have that luxury or anything even close to it they
01:42:31.980 immediately get bogged down in the everyday hell of you know who's taking the kids to school did you
01:42:37.340 pay the gas bill crap right we didn't have any of that we just had two years of bliss together and now
01:42:44.300 we have an unshakable foundation and if i'm away for six months i'm away for six months and it won't
01:42:49.840 make a difference to us because we don't have the same sort of vulnerabilities that a lot of newlywed
01:42:53.320 couples do because we had that that time together so from to my mind it was time well spent i've also
01:42:58.800 been reading a lot and we didn't get to talk about anything really substantive in this conversation
01:43:02.580 except my obscure psychiatric history but um you will see you will see that i've been reading a lot
01:43:11.040 and sharpening my claws and uh refilling my toolkit and so when i do start re-entering the arena and
01:43:21.260 popping up on live streams and doing interviews and things like that you'll see that um i've spent
01:43:26.240 two years reading everything i can get my hands on and i'm considerably more formidable than i was two
01:43:32.140 years ago i was already quite formidable anything you'd particularly recommend not at the moment i'm
01:43:38.660 going to keep my powder dry because i have uh i have lots of fun things that i want to that i want
01:43:43.920 to do with it all um but no i've i've i've been regrouping and plotting and sharpening oh i can't
01:43:51.080 imagine that you sharpening sharpening my knives and you don't want to be you know you don't want to
01:43:56.540 be the first one in front of my blades um no it's it's people keep expecting me to be sad or to have
01:44:04.820 had some kind of terrible experience and the truth is i just haven't i've had the best two years of my
01:44:08.820 life i've been i've been in perfect bliss with the best man i've ever met and now i'm ready to get
01:44:15.020 back to work all right well look that sounds like a good place to end from as far as i'm concerned
01:44:22.700 that was a nice natural conclusion wasn't it that was that was natural conclusion perhaps we could
01:44:26.580 do this again and talk about something substantive instead of instead of my dreadful history
01:44:32.160 yeah well you know you're an interesting character and so it was substantive as far as i was concerned
01:44:39.940 and i think people will find it that too so what happened to you was very singular and but it's
01:44:49.600 unexpected it's important that people realize that um the the specifics of what was said are neither
01:44:57.860 here nor there it was the fact that the the powers that be linked up and decided to defenestrate this
01:45:04.780 person and because conservatives allowed it to happen they lost one of their greatest champions
01:45:12.460 and i'm going to be very successful with very profitable enterprises and perfectly happy
01:45:17.520 just being funny for a living because i sort of think to myself why would i keep killing myself for
01:45:24.600 people who why would i keep killing myself for people who don't deserve me so to some degree the
01:45:31.140 politics stuff it's never going to be gone but it is going to be dialed down considerably and i'm going
01:45:34.760 to be talking about love sex death and money instead of you know trump or whatever yeah well maybe you
01:45:39.980 spend you know maybe you spend enough time talking about politics it's not very interesting after a
01:45:46.020 while and the people who are in politics are awful i mean if those of us who are kind of moving into
01:45:52.080 that political sphere and have you know aspirations toward being elected officials the rest of it
01:45:56.780 they're becoming awful people i mean everyone in politics is is dreadful ghastly i don't think i want
01:46:04.360 to spend 30 years talking about or thinking about those people i think i want to do something more fun
01:46:09.540 um so yeah i'm gonna i mean not to say that there won't be uh characters from the political world
01:46:15.720 popping up in my sketches but um or indeed that i won't do of course i'm going to do journalism it
01:46:22.020 just won't necessarily be political journalism per se so perhaps i'll do a 20 minute mini documentary
01:46:26.500 in the show where i'll go out into the country somewhere or i'll go to sweden or i'll go to london
01:46:31.420 or whatever but um but as far as the sort of you know the conservative movement stuff goes the
01:46:37.200 conservative base are cowards and they are ungrateful and they are indolent um and i gave a lot and paid
01:46:47.220 my dues and helped get a president office and now it's time to do what i want to do which is make
01:46:51.400 people laugh because that's that's a power that i have that nobody else in our world does um so i'm
01:46:57.520 going to focus on that yeah it's a hell of a power really can make people laugh you know i think he
01:47:03.820 makes heterosexual men a certain kind of heterosexual man laugh well that's something you know there
01:47:08.340 are certain kinds of heterosexual i like the i like the guy but i i don't personally find him you
01:47:14.060 know rib ticklingly funny um but then that's because i like people like john rivers and you know
01:47:19.480 right right right you know uh that kind of universe so uh you know bill burr and whatever uh so he's
01:47:28.880 maybe not my kind of comedian anyway could be could be um but uh but anyway this has been fun
01:47:34.100 so thanks um hey look i've been looking forward to talking to you for a long time oh and uh say hi
01:47:40.440 to vox for me i will i will he's very much looking forward to me speaking to you too um this is that's
01:47:48.060 what i want to talk about i want to talk about things like the forward because there's interesting
01:47:51.500 substantive things to do that you've managed look we'll have another and i know this was your
01:47:56.000 another conversation well we will and you this is your strategy through this conversation which
01:48:00.460 is not lost on me was to make sure that we don't spend too much time talking about you
01:48:04.180 and you have been successful in that strategy because i've allowed you to but the next conversation
01:48:08.360 we will talk about you um because i do want to talk about uh the forward and i do want to talk about
01:48:13.900 some of the things that you know the thing i asked you about on australian tv and whatever because
01:48:17.380 i think that um well turnabout is fair play as they say right and i knew you know i did apologize to
01:48:24.520 you on that's it and i'm and i'm and i did make a mistake at the aspen and i and i thank you for
01:48:31.600 that um no i i um i think there's important substance to be spoken about you know as regards
01:48:39.420 well important things god and there's what else so let's talk about let's talk about real things
01:48:46.020 next time well i think we'll think when i'm when i'm feeling particularly um up to a battle i'll think
01:48:51.640 about then i'm sure a lot of people will uh watch this so this is officially the last time i will
01:48:56.580 ever speak about bloody february 2017 um so if anybody wants to know anything you can watch this
01:49:02.440 video and that's it all right all right good well best of luck with your new endeavor cheers best of
01:49:10.860 luck to you take care all right bye bye bye if you found this conversation meaningful you might think
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