00:00:29.140The idea that they'd be watching a Disney movie cuddling under the covers and I abhor that whole idea, you know, there's nothing about that that appeals to me.
00:00:40.380And I don't know. I mean, maybe it's temperament.
00:00:43.320Maybe it's some kind of a spiritual gift, but I just never nothing about that ever appealed to me.
00:00:50.260And maybe that's just the type of person I am.
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00:28:09.040a wife marriage would not have been conducive um beyond that though and this is you know you can
00:28:14.740decline to answer of course but um beyond just the work and your you know your life your personality
00:28:20.820and what you're doing um you do seem like when you were when again going back to this illustration
00:28:26.840of swinging the axe part part of me felt like is he talking about himself like are you like
00:28:34.540obviously you are obsessed and, and just, you know, and just passionate about what you do.
00:28:40.940But are, is it more than that? Is it more than just, I love what I do and I can do it 14 hours
00:28:45.820a day? Or is there also like, yeah, I don't really think about marriage much. And I don't
00:28:51.720actually think about women much. Well, I love solace. I love being alone. And I just don't,
00:28:59.240i'm not a very social or emotional or sexual even person that's kind of what i'm getting at
00:29:05.940so we've talked about celibacy i know this is weird but i like as soon as i saw that clip
00:29:12.040and you know and and everybody's like well nick is gay you know or whatever like you know because
00:29:16.800because you smiled at someone once or whatever it is um but i thought i wonder if nick might be
00:29:23.880celibate i wonder if god gave him like that supernatural gift have you ever thought about
00:29:29.640that um not particularly i i just think it's really more of a temperament thing i think it's
00:29:35.880more you know because i i just don't uh you know if you watch my show i find it very difficult to
00:29:43.900get along with anybody in any context i'm aware yeah and um and it's it's been a real struggle
00:29:50.780of my entire life because, uh, I, I don't really see people very much in my life. I'm very alone.
00:29:57.880And, um, but I like that. I like the silence. I like, uh, having complete control over my
00:30:04.840environment. Um, so it, like you said, I mean, marriage and it would be an easy answer to say,
00:30:12.080well, I'm just celibate because I'm so religious, but, um, I really just don't see myself as someone
00:30:19.400that could share my interior life my interior space when i think about even being married to
00:30:27.960me there there's very little that's appealing to me about it um and like i said for some men
00:30:34.600they can't live without some of these things right a social life a romantic life and sex
00:30:41.160being a big one i mean even biblically like not trying to be crude but the apostle paul like when
00:30:46.120you think of like well what are the purposes for marriage like what are god's you know built-in
00:30:51.100purposes like procreation of course and that's good like be fruitful multiply that's the cultural
00:30:55.940mandate that we see you know dominion in the very beginning so procreation uh that's one of them
00:31:02.140uh companionship right it's not good for man to be alone god sees adam before he made it so
00:31:06.900companionship um and help a helpmate so that's mission like that she can actually serve the0.98
00:31:12.640man's and the man is not her helpmate this is not a mutual thing women all the time would be like0.96
00:31:16.460yeah but you need to be her helpmate too no no she is my assistant a cherished assistant
00:31:22.940loved assistant but no i'm we are not mutual assistants um i have a calling from god i'm
00:31:29.540pursuing that it's like well she has a calling from god too yes her calling is to help me in my
00:31:33.760calling that's her calling right right you know and one of the biggest ways she's helps is uh
00:31:38.500keeping five little people alive when I'm gone, you know, working, um, you know, raising, uh,
00:31:44.300our children, but yeah. So companionship, um, an aid in the mission, uh, procreation to fill the
00:31:50.620earth with image bearing creatures that hopefully by God's grace would be converted and worshipers
00:31:55.940of the triune God. Um, but what I'm getting at is one of the major new Testament cited purposes for
00:32:02.440marriage, uh, is to, um, as a hedge against temptation so that you don't screw up your
00:32:08.080life sexually like that, like, and, and women especially don't like that. Cause it doesn't
00:32:14.260sound romantic at all. It's like, Hey baby, you know, like, uh, it's in my vows, you know,
00:32:18.540on your wedding day, it's like, uh, what, you know, you're saying like why you're marrying
00:32:21.680the person. It's like, I'm marrying you because I love you so much. Um, and, uh, and I think
00:32:27.920you'll be really good to help me not sleep with a hundred other people.
00:32:31.400And he was like, really? And, and that doesn't sound great,
00:32:34.380but it's literally in the Bible. Like if a man burns with passion,
00:32:37.920let him marry. Why? So that, so that that desire would have a,
00:32:45.060a ethical, holy venue to be fulfilled so that he would avoid falling into
00:32:52.200sexual sin. So in other words, and maybe there's a gradation,
00:32:56.060a sliding scale here, like not just, you know, a switch like celibate and just thinking about sex
00:33:02.46024 seven. I'm sure there's some in between, but listening to some of your stuff and, and spending
00:33:09.300a little bit of time with you this week in person, I just thought like, okay, maybe he has the gift
00:33:14.420of celibacy. And if not, he definitely on that scale of like the dude, who's a total horndog
00:33:20.440that's thinking about chicks all the time. It's just pretty much a slave to sex. You definitely1.00
00:33:25.820don't seem like that yeah and i i never really have been yeah um and you know it's not that i
00:33:32.680don't have sexual thoughts i do it's just that um that is not what drives me that's not what
00:33:40.280drives my life it's not what occupies my thoughts most of the time and the trade-off that's involved
00:33:47.720in and even pursuing sex for that matter i talk about it on my show the whole prospect of
00:33:52.960you know courtship and everything like that it just um seems very tedious to me and basically
00:33:59.960just not worth i i so dislike that aspect of it it's just not even worth it to me
00:34:05.200um and then beyond that i mean marriage in general some people and i talk about this on my show too
00:34:12.760a lot of men they love the idea of physical contact cuddling affection basically and intimacy
00:34:21.380and me i'm the complete opposite like i really do not find that appealing at all and the idea of it
00:34:29.680you know lately i've had a lot of female fans that are texting me they dm me i don't dm them back
00:34:35.940and they make edits about me and i i think about it and i just don't even see myself in a kind of
00:34:46.520role like that um and by that i mean like a domestic scene right you know i know some guys
00:34:52.840and i think they're ridiculous that they it really like completes them the idea that they'd
00:34:59.880be watching a disney movie cuddling under the covers and i abhor that whole idea you know
00:35:06.960um there's nothing about that that appeals to me and i don't know i mean maybe
00:35:11.300it's temperament maybe it's um some kind of a spiritual gift but i just never nothing about
00:35:18.860that ever appealed to me and uh maybe that's just the type of person i am but um but needless to say
00:35:26.300that's just never something that's driven my life forward but i think that as i as i get older i'll
00:35:31.400say this i don't want to be like a 40 year old single man i think that's extremely cringe um
00:35:39.420and i said on my show recently it's like there's sort of two bad options i i don't really love
00:35:45.580seeing myself as a husband and saying like my wife there's something else about getting older
00:35:50.960sort of like once you get married it's like okay we're kind of in the end game here um but at the
00:35:57.480same time it's maybe worse not to be married yeah and so what's worse if you are in the end game
00:36:04.140and not married. Right. Like, I mean, if you're, you know, if you're young and single, that's one
00:36:09.300thing, but when you're old and single, not great, not fun. Yeah. And like marriage is, I mean,
00:36:16.660there's so many things in life that have, you know, inherent value, but are also socially
00:36:20.780signs of status. Like when someone is, um, you know, pushing up in years and single, I think we
00:36:28.360old society just instinctively thinks what's wrong with them right like are they just a total jerk0.98
00:36:35.120or are they you know that they're undisciplined or you know like it actually says something like0.99
00:36:39.720even even the people who hate me like absolutely hate me uh they wish that i was single because0.71
00:36:46.180it'd be easier to hate me they're like because it's really hard to say like this guy's a monster
00:36:50.160when he has you know his white blonde smiling adoring wife and his five children you know
00:36:55.960running up to him, four of them being daughters saying, daddy, you know, like, it's like, I mean,
00:37:01.360it's, it's, it's just hard to paint that picture. Right. Like someone is just utterly evil when
00:37:06.120there's, you know, there's six people in his life that adore him, you know? So it is kind of, um,
00:37:11.640it's almost like a resume, like the wife and kids. And, and so it's just like when you're 15
00:37:17.800and you don't have Harvard on your resume, uh, nobody, you know, assumes that that means that1.00
00:37:23.560you're stupid. It's like, well, he's only 15. He wouldn't have like, he wouldn't be able to go1.00
00:37:28.360Harvard even if, even if he was gifted and intelligent and capable. Um, but you know,
00:37:34.040eventually the verdict comes back in. Like, I remember when I hit 30, like, cause when you're
00:37:38.46022, you're like, I could be anything. But by the time I was 30, like the kind of guys that I
00:37:43.380admired that I wanted to be like, I was able to look and say, where were they at 30? Oh,
00:37:47.680they were speaking three languages. They were studying, you know, um, in England, you know,
00:37:52.080whatever. Um, yeah, I think it's safe to say, I'm looking at, uh, this is my pedigree. This is
00:37:57.160theirs. That ship sailed, you know, like that, uh, you know, God will use me however he wants
00:38:02.640to use me, but it won't be like that. I'm not, I'm not that guy. If I was that guy, um, to think
00:38:07.980that I would be where they are at 50, I would need to be somewhere where they were at 30. You see
00:38:13.880what I'm saying? And I think the same kind of, so whether it's pedigree of education, you know, or,
00:38:19.220earning potential and, you know, career. And I think that marriage and family is kind of like
00:38:25.560just one of those benchmarks of a sign of credibility. You know, so there's a certain
00:38:31.280point where it's like singleness can be advantageous. And then there's a certain
00:38:37.880point where I think it becomes a liability. I don't know. I would say that that's certainly
00:38:43.540true from a reputation point of view but at the same time there are so many risks these days of
00:38:49.640being married yeah huge liability which and you know i think a lot of people will acknowledge
00:38:55.680at least on our side that you don't want to be single and all that sort of thing but
00:39:00.440few people acknowledge the real risks of being married and maybe that's because there's not a
00:39:06.080good answer for that from a traditional christian point of view which is that the social and legal
00:39:12.160climate it isn't what it is a hundred years ago and so a lot of people want to kind of role play
00:39:18.280like it's the 1900s or the 1800s for that matter and and that works i think up to a point as long
00:39:25.460as both parties are on the same page but as you know and i know because i have parents that are
00:39:30.960still married that have been married for 35 years when you're married you're in it for the long haul
00:39:36.000And people change over decades, over a long period of time. And in a environment where divorce is not only incentivized legally, but encouraged socially, you just really never know what is going to happen in the long run.
00:39:52.840And especially for someone like myself, I don't think the risks ever really go away for something like that.
00:39:59.800And that is actually a big concern for me.
00:40:02.960It's not just that I'm preoccupied and I have to be very mobile and agile and able to take on risk.
00:40:11.320And, you know, on some level, I have to be willing to die every day.
00:40:14.420If you look at what happened to Charlie Kirk, I mean, and what almost happened to me, someone showed up to my house with a gun.
00:40:19.440I mean, imagine if I had a wife and kids.
00:40:21.100on some level it wouldn't be responsible for me to keep doing what i do uh but even beside that
00:40:28.000it's that that's always could be the weakest link which is to say if the forces that i fight
00:40:37.680against if they can't get to me if they can't tempt me if they can't trap me if they can't
00:40:43.380get me vulnerable they'll always go for the person closest to you right and if that person is a woman0.78
00:40:49.580Right. Well, you might be in trouble because women are more vulnerable to that sort of thing than men. And they have a way of rationalizing. I don't want to say treachery or something, but women, I think, are a lot more malleable. They panic.0.98
00:41:06.120And so if you're in that siege mentality of everyone, which I think is very clear in my case, trying to kill me or knock me off or gossip about me, and then you bring someone into the fold, a woman who is a lot more, you know, I never panic.0.82
00:41:24.980but women that's sort of what they do it's there is something extremely risky about that and i do0.59
00:41:31.480think about that a lot even in the early stages of a relationship forget about marriage when
00:41:38.040they're entitled to half your things and they share a home with you and they have your children
00:41:43.020which is a big form of leverage even in those initial stages uh at what point do you take off
00:41:50.200your mask at what point do you fully trust somebody even telling them where you live for
00:41:55.140example right you know even telling them your address let's say in my case um that's just kind
00:42:02.160of the life that i signed up for so you know i i want to get married i think at some point but
00:42:09.000i i definitely don't feel any pressure to um because a lot of people want that for me or they
00:42:16.120wish that I would, but they also don't live my life. Right. And they, they don't really understand
00:42:21.140my life or me for that matter. So that's kind of where I come at it from. Yeah. There's a certain
00:42:26.680assurance. And, you know, I think of the Proverbs that say, you know, uh, rejoice in the wife of
00:42:31.540your youth always like, uh, not growing apart, um, continuing to, uh, to love her. Uh, but,
00:42:39.620but just that last part, the wife of your youth, there's a certain assurance and meeting it's,
00:42:44.040you know, someone being, um, a childhood friend before you became what you were, you know, what
00:42:49.860you are, um, like there, there would be a certain security in knowing, like, let's say that, you
00:42:55.660know, instead of blowing up into the stratosphere at 17, let's say it happened at 27, right? You're
00:43:02.000age now. Um, but you met, you know, your sweetheart at 17 and you, you know, got married at 20. And
00:43:08.940so you already have like seven years, the better part of a decade under your belt. And you know,
00:43:13.740she loved you for you before anybody knew your name before any of these things happened and then
00:43:19.260when those things do happen like there's like you never have to wonder you never have to question
00:43:23.840and now like whoever you meet you will you like you will wonder you know like you'll like you're
00:43:31.520like how big is her nose when you take her out on the first day like i said it not you you know but
00:43:37.180like but i mean but seriously like it's people say that's silly no it's not it's not silly like
00:43:43.400to think that um you know because because even if it's random you just meet her at a coffee shop
00:43:48.360like uh the CIA or Mossad or whatever like to think that they would plant a woman in your path
00:43:55.760a couple times like we've seen it in the movies you know like like so all right so that we're
00:43:59.640following uh Nick we you know we've traced him we know his daily routine when he goes out in public
00:44:04.200and so we're going to have this woman you know she's going to be regularly stationed in these
00:44:08.100place is and then you know have some kind of seemingly natural you know bumping into nick
00:44:13.620and having a conversation and i mean all that could be orchestrated absolutely it's like not
00:44:19.480inconceivable at all um i you know so all that being said uh if you do get married how do you
00:44:27.320think obviously you can you know you don't have a crystal ball but how would it happen i have no
00:44:32.600idea and um i have no plan for it either right because you know you think about how people i
00:44:40.520i think that normies let's say they have a hard time finding a wife right if you talk to normie
00:44:47.640men who may not even share our politics period let alone be in politics how do they find a wife
00:44:54.300it's uh it's the dating apps right maybe going to a bar i can't see myself doing either of those
00:45:01.540things if you were on a dating app you would be mocked relentlessly forever yes like seriously i
00:45:07.360mean it just it'd be screenshots posted everywhere you know like you can't exactly and going to a
00:45:13.960bar for i mean how's the uh introduction gonna go hey like the most notorious like extremist in
00:45:21.000america um so it'd have to be arranged in some way or like you said a family friend or something
00:46:26.820I would also say, though, certainly it's less turbulent now because for years I just the money was all over the place and getting attacked constantly.
00:46:36.500It just was uncertain if I would ever achieve that, like lift off velocity, you know, the breakout velocity.
00:46:42.620But the higher up the mountain you go, the more treacherous it becomes.