#228 ‒ Improving body composition, female-specific training principles, and overcoming an eating disorder | Holly Baxter, APD
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In this episode, we talk about Holly's background, her interest in nutrition, and her struggle with an eating disorder throughout a portion of her life. From there, we dive into a case study of what a typical female patient may experience and what she might be thinking about as she trains to improve her physique.
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here's today's episode. My guest this week is Holly Baxter. Holly is an accredited practicing
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dietician, a competitive bodybuilder, a physique coach, and a personal trainer. She's also a
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fitness educator and competition coach. In this episode, we talk about Holly's background,
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her interest in nutrition, and Holly opens up in detail about her struggle with an eating disorder
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throughout a portion of her life. From there, we dive into a case study of what a typical female
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patient that Holly may work with could experience and what she might be thinking about as she trains,
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not necessarily for competitive bodybuilding, of course, but just to sort of improve her physique.
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Holly builds out what a training and nutrition program might look like for a female who wants
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to improve, say, putting on five pounds of muscle and simultaneously losing five pounds of fat.
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We then talk further about female-specific principles when it comes to training. So,
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even if you're not aspiring to be a bodybuilder, which I assume many of you listening to this are
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not, I think everybody is somewhat interested in improving their physique. And therefore,
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I think there's a lot of valuable information in this episode to learn about building muscle,
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specifically for females, which is an important aspect of longevity.
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So, without further delay, please enjoy my conversation with Holly Baxter.
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Holly, thanks so much for making time to sit down today. I look forward to talking about a lot
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of things. My wife has already peppered me with a hundred questions for you today.
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I'm really excited to be here. Thank you so much for having me on the show.
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So, tell us a little bit about yourself. I know you grew up in Australia, and I know that you,
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I think you ran track growing up. Yes, I did. So, grew up in Tasmania, Australia. So,
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for those that may not be geographically aware that is, it's the little island that sits just south
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of the mainland. So, pretty small place. And I think part of the evolution of me now being where
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I am in Florida was just having such a big open mind, and I didn't want to stay there. So,
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I moved away to do college. So, I moved over to Melbourne, Deakin University, where I did an
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undergraduate in nutrition science, food science, nutrition, and then a master's in dietetics.
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I know Tasmania by landmass looks pretty big, but is it a tiny population?
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It's tiny. I think at the moment, it's probably like 500,000. Where I grew up specifically,
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when I was living there, the population of Launceston was about 90,000. So, pretty small.
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So, in high school, you ran track or in college?
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All the way through. So, I started track at about age eight, and I went right through till
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age 18. So, I finished by the time I got to like second or third year of university.
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I guess at that point, that was when I could either go for a sporting career or choose academics. So,
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I ended up choosing academics because, unfortunately, in Australia for females,
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there just isn't a whole lot of opportunity to have a successful career in sport. For males,
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it's a little bit different. We have Aussie rules football, which is incredibly popular and
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absolutely can make a killing. And I think perhaps now that social media has grown to be where it is,
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maybe females have an opportunity to have a good career in sport, but academics was kind of the
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only option really for me at that time. What did you run in track?
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So, I was a sprinter. 100 meters, long jump, triple jump. And if someone dare ask me to do a relay
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or a 400, I might do that. So, lots of fast twitch, anything explosive and powerful and short.
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And did you lift weights in high school with your exposure to it?
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I actually only started lifting weights probably in year 11. So, we call that college at home.
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So, grade 11, I started or introduced lifting weights. That was when I was part of the Tasmanian
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Institute of Sports. So, my coach at the time, Peter Fortune, was also Olympic water meter runner,
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Cathy Freeman. So, she won the gold medal in the 2000 Olympics and everybody loved her. So,
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I worked with him. Yeah, that's where I kind of had a lot of my, I guess, experience in track sprinting.
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Good question. So, most people would probably say, oh, you know, I'm really passionate about sport and
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da-da-da-da-da-da-da. But my reasoning was probably not a good one. I got into the sport
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purely because of my desire for control of my nutrition. And it probably begs the question,
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what's that all about? So, I have only very recently overcome a 15-year-long eating disorder.
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I struggled with anorexia for a short period of time and that went on to become a binge eating
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disorder and bulimia. So, before I even thought about going off to college, I was already
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in the depths of that disorder. I was also struggling a lot with depression at age 16.
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I had already attempted suicide twice. I was hospitalized for a good part of my year 11
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schooling, which looking back at that now, like it's really sad actually. And I just didn't have
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the supports. I didn't have the mentors or people in my life that really helped me to feel what I
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needed to feel and I think experience as a child. And it kind of escalated into my adulthood. And
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really, very recently, have I only started to work on my mental health. And I think that's where a lot
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of my advances have come, especially as it relates to like feeling like I have a sense of purpose in
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life and really ultimately finding my happiness.
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So, when did the eating disorder start? And did that precede what you describe as depression or
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do you think the two are kind of hand in hand and intertwined?
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They kind of came on simultaneously, I think, for multiple reasons. So, I don't want to say
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negative things about my family or my parents or how they raised me because, gosh, my mother was
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just an incredible woman. She basically raised us as a single mom. I did have a father in my life,
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but he was a very hard worker, very disciplined and so career focused that, you know, we were kind
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of invisible to him. So, my mom, I think she had grown up in a similar situation where her mother
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was completely absent. She was a single mom. So, I think her life experiences where she didn't have
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somebody that even cared about her, that take her to do anything, do sports, you know, she had to do
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it all herself. She'd catch the bus to after school training. She'd take herself to athletics on the
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weekends. So, my mother was a wonderful woman, but she did what she did based on her own personal
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experiences. So, it probably wasn't the best thing looking back at it, but, you know, we all have our
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flaws. But our relationship was really strained. I think she wanted to control me, to protect me,
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I think, you know, and that put a lot of friction between us. So, I felt like I had no control in my
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life. I think up until like year 10, I wasn't even allowed to have like a sleepover at a friend's
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without there being like serious arguments. And there was just a lot of hostility and
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confrontation growing up. So, your 10 is about 15? Yes. And so, give me a little bit more of an
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understanding of that. So, was the focus before that age, was it heavy emphasis on your academics
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and on your sports and that was it? Absolutely. Yes. So, we were doing dancing, like tap jazz, ballet,
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piano, music, guitar, like drums. Then we were in basketball and athletics. So, we did a lot of
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activities. And I think the only kind of praise and recognition or like you felt like you were cared
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for or loved was when you excelled at something. So, you know, if I came home and I did really well
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in my grades at school, that was about the only time that I would get, oh, wow, you know, we really
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love you or well done. And I know my mom loves me. Like, it's just how people communicate is so
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important. So, yeah, I really kind of grew up with this idea that unless I was the best at something
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or did everything and I excelled at everything, I didn't really have value as a human. That's kind
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of one aspect of where all that depression and the eating disorder started. But sadly, I also
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experienced some sexual trauma around that age. There were two instances and it happened with people
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that I really respected, that I trusted. And that coupled with this toxic home environment
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where you can't really even go to your parents because there's this fear of being judged, you
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know, from the community. Everything was about keeping up with appearances. So, it wouldn't be,
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you know, are you okay? Talk to me. Let's have a discussion about this. It was, well, what did you do
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to deserve that? Well, what were you wearing? How were you dressed? What kind of makeup did you have
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So, you didn't disclose any of this to your parents?
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I spoke to my mother about it, but that was kind of the feedback that I got.
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She didn't know how to support me and she did, granted, try to look for therapy at the time.
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But I think at that point, I was so far down like the rabbit hole of depression
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and just feeling like I was a lost cause that nothing worked. Certainly, the behavioral therapy
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that I did at that time was unaffected. And the medication that I had actually made it worse,
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significantly worse for a period. So, I consequently came off that.
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Help me understand a little bit more about, I think that eating disorders are probably a lot
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more common than we are led to believe. I don't actually, this is not something I know a lot of
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the statistics about. We've actually been trying to find an expert on eating disorders for the
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podcast because I think it is a very important topic. So, I don't know if you are familiar with
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these statistics, but I'm not. But do you have a sense of how often they afflict young women
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So, the prevalence is a lot greater in females than men, but it's actually increasing over the last 10 years
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in young boys as well. I hope I don't butcher the statistics. I did actually, there is a couple
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of studies that I'd like to reference, but I don't have them with me. But I believe 60% of high
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school students in US females have reported to struggle with low confidence, negative sense of
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self and body image. Prevalence of eating disorders, I guess it's a little bit lower, but I wouldn't know
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the exact statistics. But it is scarily high. And we can also then look into some of the younger
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studies in children. And it is higher than it should be. Absolutely.
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And so, when you think back to how this started in you, I think you mentioned that it started first
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with anorexia before binging and purging. Did you gain a sense of control by limiting what you
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were eating? Did it in the short term satisfy something that was inside you?
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You know what, it did. But I think because I was so athletic, I was so heavily involved in sport that,
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you know, my energy demands, like I think back to the amount of training that I was doing,
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you know, you've got your in school sports, and then after school, and it was hours of practice,
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and six days a week, for the most part, maybe training on Sunday, I couldn't sustain the
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restriction. I was so famished and hungry. And that frustrated me. It really did. Like I didn't
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connect the dots. Like, why can't I control what I put in my body? Like little did I know anything
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about, you know, your appetite regulating hormones at that point, and the requirements for energy for the
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sport that I was doing. So I would act out these behaviors of binge eating, and then purging. And
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it was just constant, it became a point where it was probably every day of the week for, I would say,
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five years, which is terrifying to think about considering the risks.
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So that means from high school all the way into university,
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it definitely slowed down when I got to university. And I think it was just because of the requirements
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for study. And like, I had to work three jobs and to make everything work. So there was just less
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opportunity for me to do that if I wanted to excel in my studies. It was horrific. I just remember
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feeling I wanted to be able to control things. But at the same token, I had no control because my body
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was doing what it's meant to do, which is to protect you from starvation, essentially.
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Now, some of the complications that people experience with bulimia, of course,
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the constant flow of acidity up and down the esophagus. Did you have any of the issues with your
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teeth, the electrolyte abnormalities? Interestingly, no. I can't speak to the
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electrolyte abnormalities because I never had, you know, routine blood work back then. That was
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definitely not something I was going to prioritize as a young, naive student. But I can say now,
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thankfully, you know, I never had any of the esophageal erosion from that acidic acid. I think
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that plays a strong risk in developing cancers of the throat and the olfactory. So I do wonder about
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that because of the frequency of purging and what that says for me in the future, because now that
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I have got that under control, it's a scary thought because, I mean, cancer is a scary thing.
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How did this progress? So you're in university, you're doing an undergraduate degree, then you do
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a master's degree right after. What's happening? Does anybody in your life kind of recognize that
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this is going on, be it your sister, your mom or friends?
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No. So I think one of the challenges, and it's been exacerbated by moving away, was my family
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weren't in the same state. And they didn't travel to see me very often. And it's kind of
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been that way since I've moved away. So I didn't have the family support. I've never had a close
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relationship with my sister, though I would love to. It's just, we've just gone in different
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directions, I think, with life. And didn't have any kind of relationship with my father. So
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I didn't have anyone to go to for guidance. So I was kind of in and out of dating when you were
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at school, college. But none of your boyfriends knew that this was happening?
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No. I may have communicated it to one. And I think part of that was out of shame. Think about
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the stigma that's associated with mental health issues, depression for one. Then to have an eating
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disorder and me being the perfectionist, high achiever, driven woman that I was, there was no
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way I wanted to share this weakness. And especially given that I was educated, I've done a bachelor's
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in food science, and now I've got a master's degree in nutrition, I should be able to control this,
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you know, and that's that word control. So I was terrified to tell anybody. So I was suffering in
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silence. And it probably went that way for 10 years.
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And during that 10 years, the pattern of behavior was still continuing. We're going to talk a lot about
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training. We're going to talk a lot about bodybuilding and stuff that you've done more
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recently. But kind of help me understand, like, what did you physically look like at the time?
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Did you look as fit as you look today? Did you have more of a sort of slender build? Were you more
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muscular? I think part of the issue, and I know this isn't true, but I think it's part of the stereotype,
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is when we think of somebody with an eating disorder, we picture an individual, probably in
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different extremes. When we think of someone with anorexia, we think of someone that's
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incredibly thin, you know, they appear unhealthy and how thin they look. Conversely, I think when
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we picture somebody with bulimia, we usually think of somebody that's a little overweight.
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Were you somewhere on that spectrum? I was right in the middle. I think, again, because of the
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amount of activity that I was doing, that prevented me from being in this state or a mental state of
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anorexia. So I never got to the point where I was dangerously low body weight, but I was a healthy
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body weight. And I was still, you know, sprinting, track training. I would say I was above average
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muscularity. I was kind of when I just started getting into, do you remember the Les Mills classes
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that they would have at the gyms where there's combat class or kickboxing or body pump? I was doing,
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you know, some light resistance training. My actual interest in bodybuilding didn't start until
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much later after college. So I was healthy body weight, but I think like if we look at, you know,
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the research for people that do suffer with binge eating disorder and bulimia, they tend to be
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normal weight to above normal weight. So I was right in the normal. No one would have known.
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You mentioned also, I think that you had a suicide attempt when you were six, was it 16?
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I don't want to ask the obvious question. How was that not a wake up call to your parents?
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It was. One of the things that was really disappointing, and I think it just enhanced the
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sadness. I get a little bit upset and emotional thinking about it. But again, just to kind of
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outline just how incapable like my father was of communicating. And it's not that he's a bad
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person. It's just his backstory is incredible. Like lost his mom at age 13 through breast cancer,
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was raised by an alcoholic father, four brothers, like beaten, you know, really, really sad.
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He didn't know how to communicate. And I remember at that point, my mom was very upset when that
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happened. And I think my dad came into my room and was like, you're a fucking idiot. And he walked
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out. So to have that from like somebody that you're like, wow, I thought you loved and cared
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about me. He was never somebody that would have had a clue where to start. My mother, on the other
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hand, was overbearing. And that was the problem. I knew that she was trying to help. But part of the
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reason that I'd gotten to this space anyway, in combination with the sexual assaults, and then some of
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the things that my coach had said about my training, which led to the ED disorder as well, was that she
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was just way too controlling, wanted to just do everything for me, whether it was live vicariously
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through our sports, which I understand. And I've forgiven my mother for that. And, you know, she's
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just doing what she knew. But she tried to get me in touch with the right health professionals. But I
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think just lack of knowledge, resources, not having good connections herself. And she worked in medical
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industry as like administration for years before she became a stay-at-home mom. Even through her
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networks, she just didn't have the tools. And it was right about the time where I was ready to bounce
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and go to college. I had to fly, move away, essentially. So the ability for her to kind of
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control and manage what I did with my health, and now I'm becoming an adult, it was a lot harder. So I
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think in some ways, I'm really grateful that I stepped away from Tasmania and took on other
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opportunities that didn't require her support. Because if you get babied for your young teenage
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years and enabled, I would never have had the life skills to be the person that I am today, to
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know what it's like to step out and take risks. And I don't have any fear of failure. And I think
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part of that was developed from me just moving away and stepping out from that control.
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I want to kind of go back to still the understanding the eating disorder a little bit more.
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Did your self-image of your body seem inaccurate with what you now look back at as reality? In other
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words, does everyone with an eating disorder necessarily also have a skewed view of their
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body image? Or can that be uncoupled and the eating disorder is simply a control tool that can be
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unrelated to a misguided belief about body image? I don't know if that question makes sense.
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Dysfunctional thoughts, yes. So I think it really depends on the individual.
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I couldn't recall all of the exact criteria or like characteristics, behaviors that clinically
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define anorexia or binge eating disorder or the like, because they are all slightly different in
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their own way. But for me, at least I can say that initially it wasn't my body image that I was
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concerned about. It was control. Then developed into like obsessive compulsive for some things. It was
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like anytime I felt stressed, anxious, drop in whatever emotion. As I grew, the desire to control
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came back. And I'd kind of crafted this little environment where when I lived on my own at school
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and then post-school, post-masters when I went off and started my career, my environment was built in
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such a way that I basically shielded myself from stresses, potential triggers, whether it was food,
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environmental, social, so that I could live in control. And that gave me comfort. So reality
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check, when you become an adult and you have to be flexible and nimble and pivot and learn to adapt
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under stress, which my goodness, I feel like my life was extremely stressful for a lot of different
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reasons, but I just had no coping skills. So it didn't start as a negative body image. It was
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simply the desire for control. However, as I found myself more and more involved in sport and as my
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physique did change, as I started to connect the dots with my athletic performance with superior
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physique, low body fat, more muscle, and then the praise that I would get externally from people,
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that then became the obsession. It's how I look. And that was where I found myself worth. That was where I
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felt valued and appreciated and people respect me. And for a good part of my life, I think it became
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my identity. It was impossible to break. And that just fueled the disorder.
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I can only imagine, which then leads to the inevitable question of how do you break that cycle?
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Through a lot of hard work. And this is one of the practices, I guess, that I've incorporated only
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very recently into my own nutrition coaching and with our team as well. And that is really working in
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collaboration with allied health, particularly mental health experts. So for me, until I actually
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started having regular therapy, and I'm not talking like once every six weeks for a review,
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which is kind of the expectation, I guess, in the clinical world. I know for me as a dietitian,
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we would see our patients, you know, maybe you do a four-week review or a six-week review.
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So it was really infrequent. But that's kind of how I had been exposed to it with my parents when
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mom had gotten me into therapy. When was that? That was when I was about 16,
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when I was still living in Tasmania. So after the suicide attempt?
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It puts you into kind of an infrequent therapy.
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Yeah. So I would have to travel to Hobart. I saw a specialist down there who worked with
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females predominantly, any women's health issues, but eating disorders and nutrition. So it was
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infrequent. But I remember loving those little trips because it was like the one time that I was
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like, oh, my mom cares. Wow. We get to go and stay in Hobart. And we get to go and spend time
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together. She cares about me. Like it's a sick relationship to think like that was so exciting
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for me. But that was what was fuel. It was almost like that attention was good attention because I
00:22:17.700
never felt like anyone cared about me outside of the credentials and that kind of thing.
00:22:23.760
As you think about sort of the post-college life, did you think that you had things under control or
00:22:28.980
did you think that this is a dirty little secret that is totally out of control?
00:22:32.700
I think it kind of came in waves, like any kind of condition, you know, works along a spectrum.
00:22:38.840
I definitely had periods where I felt like I was managing the symptoms and the feelings,
00:22:44.380
the emotions that kind of came along with that disorder. Okay. But as soon as things got a little
00:22:49.380
bit stressful or I had, you know, extra assignments due, or if I needed from a financial perspective,
00:22:55.500
do two full weekends of work back to back. And that's the only way that you're going to be able
00:22:59.620
to have groceries next week or put gas in your car. When anything extra kind of came into my life,
00:23:05.120
I just lost it. It was extreme, binging, purging, secret eating was really something that I struggled
00:23:12.180
with. I would go out for dinner with friends and I would try to enjoy myself and partake in the food.
00:23:18.300
But because I would restrict so aggressively, anytime that I did get outside my four walls of comfort foods
00:23:25.460
and things that were on my list of these are okay to eat, I was terrified. No one would know it on the
00:23:30.520
outside, but I'd go out for dinner and it was just this uncontrolled, it was like I had no control to
00:23:36.600
slow down my eating. So I ate so extremely fast. So many of my friends as adults have said to me,
00:23:43.960
yeah, you really eat fast, but I've noticed a massive change, you know, for the last few years.
00:23:48.680
This is certainly for like longer term friends. You know, that habit stuck around. So I'd eat extremely
00:23:52.960
quickly and I would almost binge eat. And then I would usually order something else and take it home
00:23:59.000
with the idea that I was going to have it tomorrow and I'll portion it out appropriately. But again,
00:24:05.640
because of that extreme restrictive behavior, it just meant I'd go home and then binge eat more.
00:24:11.960
And it was absolutely spiraled out of control. And I think again, my stress response at that time,
00:24:16.780
the only way I knew how to manage stress was to eat. And it completely countered the goals that I had
00:24:23.400
for my sport and my training. So yeah, it was hard.
00:24:26.800
What was the wake up call? What was the event or set of events that led you to think, I have to do
00:24:32.280
something different. And it sounds like I'm going to have to take therapy very seriously.
00:24:36.480
It wasn't until I got to probably about age 25. At that point, I had moved from state. So I finished
00:24:43.880
my schooling in Melbourne, moved to Gold Coast where I opened my own business. So like she already had
00:24:49.740
my business in Melbourne, but basically it was starting from scratch. So a new clinical practice
00:24:53.860
and then also working, I guess, 50% of my work week was also in-person training. Because at that
00:24:59.860
point I'd discovered like the love for resistance training and I wanted to be able to incorporate
00:25:03.600
those two things together. My business was going crazy, like busy, busy, busy, busy. I just had some
00:25:09.600
success in the bodybuilding space. And I got to the point where my anxiety was so hard. I didn't even
00:25:16.280
know what anxiety was. I wasn't able to identify or put a word with the feeling that I had. It sounds
00:25:22.920
so silly to think about it now because of course it was anxiety, but like I couldn't even open my
00:25:27.060
laptop because I was so stressed at the amount of work that I knew I had to do. So I actually got to a
00:25:31.680
point in business where I was experiencing some burnout and I took myself to a therapist at that point.
00:25:38.400
So that kind of started it. And then I ended up having to admit myself to like a rehab. So I
00:25:45.420
traveled back to Melbourne to a very well-known rehabilitation therapy location in like country
00:25:50.760
Victoria. And it was, I guess, incorporated counseling, yoga practices, different relaxation
00:25:57.600
type techniques. And then one of the owners kind of come and work through different nutrition things
00:26:03.180
with you. And it was- And this was specifically for people with eating disorders? Yes. And how long
00:26:07.960
did you commit to go to this place? I was there for seven days. It was pretty short,
00:26:12.560
but it was very intense. Like you had a schedule mapped out from the minute you woke up to the
00:26:15.880
moment you went to bed. How difficult was that for you to make the decision to shut down work for
00:26:20.320
seven days? Terrifying. I remember calling my mom actually and just bawling. We rarely spoke,
00:26:27.860
not because, you know, we didn't have a better relationship as adults, but I think we just kind of
00:26:32.340
grew apart. So calling her, I guess she knows like, if I'm going to bring my mom, there's probably
00:26:36.320
something wrong. Yeah. I was just mortified because I was so stressed about losing hours work
00:26:41.740
because I was so passionate about, you know, but my clients, but you know, I just couldn't bring
00:26:46.900
myself to do it. She said, look, financially, you're going to be okay. Just take a week. You know,
00:26:52.280
it doesn't have to be exorbitant. The therapy was quite expensive, but it was very well worth it.
00:26:56.580
I'm going through this, you know, I haven't really resolved my eating disorder. I'm at business
00:27:01.540
burnout stress. So it was just, to me, it was like overwhelming. And I think at that point, again,
00:27:06.440
was the second time in my life where I felt some of those suicidal thoughts. I'd kind of talked with
00:27:11.360
my therapist and she'd said, well, do we need to make her act too? And I was like, no, no, I think
00:27:15.460
I'll work through this, but it's the first time that I felt this hopeless.
00:27:20.300
So how much of an impact did that seven day inpatient rehab have on you?
00:27:26.580
Not as much as I would have hoped to think that anything that's that short in duration
00:27:31.020
is going to cure you. You're very foolish, but it opened my eyes to the benefits of relaxation,
00:27:38.060
meditation, and the value of communication and being transparent and open. And that was
00:27:44.620
not a behavior that I was good at. For that 10 year period prior, I was very closed off, very
00:27:50.580
reserved, didn't share very many things at all. I was very private. So I think I saw the
00:27:56.500
value in what it's like to work through issues rather than suppress them. Once I finally moved
00:28:02.800
to America, I got myself straight into weekly therapy. So I have had therapy sessions every
00:28:09.700
week since 2016. I probably missed, I don't know, maybe 20 weeks just through travel and
00:28:20.100
What were sort of the breakthroughs that occurred with that type of much more consistent therapy?
00:28:24.800
I think number one, it made me accountable and it made me speak, made me talk and helped
00:28:29.220
me kind of reflect back on my past, which I'd never done. I had never given two thoughts
00:28:36.120
about my upbringing. I feel like now it's all I talk about and all I think about, but so
00:28:40.560
much of what I experienced was bottled up in past traumas and those different styles of
00:28:47.340
communication. So I think gaining an appreciation and understanding for why I felt the way that I
00:28:54.360
did was incredibly valuable. It was like, oh, I've now got some data. At least it made sense
00:29:00.160
to me. And then we started kind of discussing where are the dysfunctions in these beliefs?
00:29:06.400
Let's start picking up these different sets of thoughts that you have and let's deconstruct
00:29:12.340
them. And how might these look different for a healthy mind? And through so much self-development,
00:29:19.740
reading, also finding myself spiritually, which is another major part of this story, it really
00:29:27.060
helped me to understand that I was enough as a human, despite my accolades and sporting
00:29:35.400
accomplishments and that I'm loved and I don't need to keep proving myself to all the people
00:29:42.520
in my life. And it was like this huge weight had lifted off my shoulders. And part of that
00:29:46.940
was one of our staff invited me to go to church one day. And I'd only been to church once when I was
00:29:52.700
young with a boyfriend. His family were a Christian. So my experience with religion was not negative.
00:29:59.700
I'd say I grew up like agnostic. So I don't think my parents were anti-religion, but they certainly
00:30:06.260
didn't hold any beliefs of their own and it was not something we discussed. So going to church,
00:30:11.320
and this was a non-denominational church, very progressive, the pastor was just incredible.
00:30:16.920
And every message, every week I kept going back and I was like, wow, this is so relatable.
00:30:22.460
There's so many things out of the Bible that it's just so good. It's like such good information. It
00:30:27.300
was like, this is what I've been missing my whole life because I felt for a long time that I didn't
00:30:31.960
have purpose. And part of my decision to keep moving and traveling was to feel like what's missing.
00:30:39.500
Maybe it'll be here. Or maybe if I go to this country, the people will be different and I'll
00:30:44.020
resonate with them better. But it was something in here that was missing. And yeah, going to church
00:30:49.540
and reading, that was probably the one thing that changed my life. And since then, I have never been
00:30:56.300
happier. I think there's two things that are interesting in the story that I think are
00:31:00.340
important and illustrative for anybody struggling with anything. And one is that the improvements
00:31:05.720
didn't happen quickly and that it's kind of nonlinear. I'm actually struck by the fact that
00:31:11.520
you said, look, I did this seven day intensive thing and it helped, but it didn't help as much
00:31:16.460
as maybe I wanted it to. But I think the encouraging point is here, you kept sort of at it. It would be
00:31:21.880
years before you would find yourself in daily or weekly therapy. I guess the other thing is when I
00:31:27.040
think of my addictions and struggles, I think like any addict, let's just pick alcohol because it's an
00:31:33.020
easy one for people to identify with externally. You know, they say that an alcoholic is always an
00:31:37.980
alcoholic. It's just a question of if you're in recovery or not. If an alcoholic commits to no
00:31:42.500
longer drinking, they still need to be mindful of their behaviors and still need to be cognizant of
00:31:47.260
the fact that they can slip back into drinking. Yes. That doesn't mean they can't be around people
00:31:51.320
who are drinking, but they have to understand themselves and understand those limits. That's
00:31:55.260
certainly going to be true for me for the rest of my life. I know what my addictions are. I know how
00:32:00.080
they need to be managed and they're always there. Do you feel that way as well?
00:32:05.900
Absolutely. So I think there is this idea that you can completely recover. I don't think that
00:32:11.980
anybody truly recovers. Like you said, once an addict, always an addict. Yeah. You're in recovery.
00:32:17.080
You're not recovered. Yes. Now I think with something like that, you know, there's the physiological
00:32:21.260
symptoms that you need to manage as you come out of that. You know, you've got a chemical dependence,
00:32:25.400
but for something that is psychological, you know, there's obviously chemical imbalances in some of
00:32:31.020
these conditions, but there's also a strong need for your desire to change and to improve.
00:32:38.440
It wasn't until like I had committed to myself and said, you are never going to purge again.
00:32:45.240
And I actually have started writing a book about this actually, which will be hopefully very helpful
00:32:49.500
for a lot of people that are going through the same kind of thing. But I remember sitting on my
00:32:53.640
bathroom floor one day, bawling, emotionally exhausted, physically exhausted. And it was
00:32:57.960
during a contest prep, the most difficult thing that one could probably ever attempt to do,
00:33:02.000
which is get extremely lean and try and control your body, which wants to control you essentially.
00:33:07.440
And I remember just saying like, you're not going to do this anymore. And I think as soon as I really
00:33:10.900
believed that I didn't want to purge anymore, I was exhausted. That's when things started to change.
00:33:17.860
And I think the more I talked about that with my therapist, where I no longer had a
00:33:21.540
compensatory mechanism. I wasn't going to let myself do that. And I also wasn't going to try
00:33:26.420
and overcompensate with activity because that was something else that I would do. If I didn't purge,
00:33:30.140
I would feel so restless and anxious and guilty if I didn't go and do a 10 kilometer run because
00:33:35.820
I'd work out, okay, well, I probably ate this many calories in that purge. And then really I've got no
00:33:40.160
idea because I threw some of it up. It was just this horrible, sickening feeling. Hard to talk about
00:33:46.000
really. It's kind of gross. But once I kind of didn't have these outlets anymore, it forced me to get
00:33:52.660
real with my intention for eating. It forced me to become mindful. It forced me to slow down and become
00:34:01.640
present with my meals and to really like listen to what my body was saying. And that was really hard
00:34:08.440
because if you've restrained from, you know, certain foods, alcohol, drugs for a long period
00:34:14.980
of time, all you do is think about that thing. So for me, like I'd restricted, like I would allow
00:34:20.120
myself a little bit of ice cream until I learned about flexible dieting, of course. And then that
00:34:24.200
changed a lot of things, but that's another story. You know, I'd restricted cookies and, you know,
00:34:28.580
just nice fun cereals, like normal foods. And I just couldn't control myself around them anymore.
00:34:34.620
So that was so difficult because I just felt like I was going crazy. What is wrong with me? I remember
00:34:41.220
saying to my therapist, like a couple of, this is years into therapy, why do I still want to eat the
00:34:46.440
entire tub of ice cream? I feel like I can't just make myself one serving. I want to eat the whole
00:34:50.340
thing. And she's like, well, Holly, like you've restricted this for 10 years. What makes you think
00:34:56.400
that you're going to cure this desire overnight when it's been something that you've built a habit
00:35:01.620
that's ingrained over your lifetime with this disorder? So I think once I started having a
00:35:07.120
little bit more compassion for myself and forgiveness and reducing the amount of judgment
00:35:14.000
that I had for myself as a human, like you're a screw up, what's wrong with you? You know, once I
00:35:18.620
started to be kinder to myself, that was when I started to make a little bit more progress.
00:35:25.060
And I hated the outcome going through that initial transformation because it meant I gained so much
00:35:30.740
weight, so much weight. And at this point I hadn't really tackled the underlying cause either.
00:35:36.300
The why, which was, I felt like my body need, that was the thing that would give me value.
00:35:40.940
So I'm trying to do this just to stop the binging and the purging. So for me to see my body weight
00:35:46.680
exceed 70 kilograms, right now I sit at about 63 kilos. So to get to like 75 kilos at the peak of
00:35:55.120
my recovery was the most uncomfortable I think I've ever been. And I think anybody that's struggled
00:36:02.140
with body weight, you know, weight gain can appreciate that feeling. And I just had to do it.
00:36:08.680
Was the therapeutic instruction, like you need to sit in the discomfort of this weight gain?
00:36:14.020
Yep. That was one of the first strategies that I had to work through for my anxiety. At this point,
00:36:19.740
I'd also developed a social anxiety. It was just like the lid had been taken off and all these things
00:36:26.320
were like immersing themselves in front of me and I had no idea how to manage them. So yeah,
00:36:31.900
learning to sit with that discomfort and be okay with that. So now part of that process was
00:36:38.320
discussing the feelings. And that was really when we started to identify, okay, what are the feelings
00:36:45.120
that you have now that you've gained weight? And it of course led to, I feel horrible. I'm
00:36:49.920
disgusting. This is so unhealthy. You know, I hate myself, like just such horrible words to describe
00:36:57.480
myself. And I think one of the things that the time the therapist had said was, what would you say to a
00:37:03.060
client? Because at this time, like I'm practicing dietitian. I've been a dietitian for 10 plus years.
00:37:07.780
So I really had to go, okay, what would I say to my clients if they said that? So I had to start
00:37:14.120
treating myself like I would my clients. And yeah, there was a big shift then, just that compassion
00:37:19.840
that I had for myself. So how did that work? I think that's a wonderful test. I call it the Rick
00:37:24.680
Elias test. He's a friend of mine who describes it even one step further, which is, what would you
00:37:30.120
say to your best friend if they were saying these things, if they were in this situation? And it's
00:37:37.080
amazing how much it totally changes and softens the tone. It really does. You know, the first thing
00:37:42.500
that springs to mind was, but what about your physical appearance? Well, what does our friendship
00:37:49.340
have to do with your physical appearance if it was a friend? And nothing. It was like, I don't have any
00:37:56.520
logical reasoning for believing this to be true. And so many people like clients would say, oh, you
00:38:02.780
know, I've got this holiday catching up with some friends that I haven't seen in a long time. We've got
00:38:06.480
this, it's always a wedding or some kind of special event where they feel the need to look a certain
00:38:12.340
way. And I said, do you think you would have been invited if you were 10 kilos heavier? People are
00:38:16.640
like, yeah, of course. Those relationships aren't built on your aesthetic. It is built on your
00:38:21.800
character. There's obviously something admirable that people like about you that has nothing to
00:38:26.980
do with your appearance. It's a common interest, you know, the ability to connect over things and
00:38:32.620
maybe your sense of humor, insert whatever characteristic it is. And I think when I started talking to myself
00:38:38.000
in that way, I was like, oh yeah, I actually still can have fun on the weekends and it has nothing to
00:38:42.200
do with the weight on the scale or my body fat percentage. Part of what is so interesting about
00:38:47.240
your story makes it so hard to reconcile, which is everything we just talked about, which then
00:38:52.640
coexists with one of your passions, which is bodybuilding, which seems to me to be this single
00:39:02.000
activity that would most raise the risk of the one thing you're trying to prevent, right? I mean,
00:39:10.060
I guess if you were a jockey or a gymnast, that might be close on the list as well. But even those
00:39:16.820
entities wear more clothing than a bikini. You've chosen to have this hobby outside of your job,
00:39:23.980
but it's really related to your job. In many ways, it's the pinnacle of exercise and nutrition as it
00:39:30.820
pertains to aesthetics. And you've also chosen to do it in the drug-free category. So you don't get
00:39:38.840
to rely on any additional biochemistry. You have to do this just through training and nutrition.
00:39:45.140
I don't know if irony is the word, but there's something in there that's worth exploring.
00:39:49.740
I imagine this has come up repeatedly with your therapist. It's been a really long journey. And there
00:39:55.040
was a point just a few years ago where I really questioned my decisions to remain a coach and
00:40:00.760
to be in the nutrition and exercise space because of the hypocrisy that I felt with what I was
00:40:07.700
coaching on. Again, I think I can say that for the first 10 years of my practice, I had no desire to
00:40:16.160
change my beliefs. I believed truly the bottom of my heart that in order for me to be successful in
00:40:25.860
business, to support others the best that I possibly could and to be taken seriously in an industry that
00:40:32.840
is largely dominated by males. I needed to not only talk the talk, but walk the walk. So I never
00:40:41.700
addressed that belief. I believe that I needed to be lean. So I never did anything about it. I felt
00:40:47.100
uncomfortable that whole time, like the psychological stress that I had. Can you, by the way, give me some
00:40:51.300
examples on this? What body fat are you at when you're on stage? It depends. So I compete in,
00:40:57.320
I have competed in FIGA for IFBB, which is a non-drug tested federation. And I have since moved away
00:41:03.560
from that. But for those girls, you're probably looking at just on 10% body fat. They're extremely
00:41:09.080
lean. And now the division that I compete in, which is the fitness category, and it's for a different
00:41:14.400
federation. It's a slightly smaller body, but still very muscular and very lean. I probably get down to
00:41:22.860
about 10 or 11% body fat. And just to make sure I understand at 10 to 11% body fat, does your menstrual
00:41:30.160
cycle still continue? For majority of my competition history and competing life, yes, it would completely
00:41:37.280
stop. In fact, for about five years, I did not have a period. That was even with the return of calories
00:41:46.460
back to a normal amount, even with the return of body fat back to normal, healthy levels. I think it
00:41:53.120
was just the years of binging and purging. I mean, think about just from an evolutionary standpoint,
00:41:57.360
what that's telling you. That is telling you that, again, evolution has one purpose for you.
00:42:03.080
And it's saying you are not even fit enough to do this.
00:42:06.920
Yeah. And I mean, a lot of people ask, like, is it a healthy sport? And is it dangerous to get
00:42:10.800
that lean? And I would say, well, it kind of depends because, you know, I know there are a lot
00:42:15.380
of females that, particularly in that line of work, if you're going to call yourself a professional in
00:42:20.580
the bodybuilding space, they don't have the desire for families. So fertility isn't even an issue.
00:42:27.260
And I'm making no judgment about that. I'm just thinking about it from an evolutionary standpoint.
00:42:30.940
Absolutely. It's basically saying the one thing you were put on this earth to do,
00:42:35.160
evolution is putting the brakes on. Because it's basically saying you don't have enough
00:42:38.940
excess energy to care for another life, to carry another life to term.
00:42:42.500
It's really scary. So there's no doubts about it. It's not a great thing for females to be that lean.
00:42:48.160
We're not meant to be that lean. And I think, unfortunately, you know, it's just something
00:42:52.320
that has grown with the changes in time, society shift. I think there's been a lot of segue
00:42:57.700
and improvements with the ideals for females. I think it used to be extremely slim. You know,
00:43:04.120
you think about the really tall models, you know, runway models that used to be the look
00:43:08.320
that everyone wanted to go for. And I'm actually really happy that I think we're seeing a shift
00:43:13.000
just with the general population to empowering females with resistance training and strength
00:43:17.940
training. Because to me, that is far more beneficial than starving and, you know, being a bean pole.
00:43:26.440
So that's promising. But for whatever reason, we seem to kind of find ourselves back at this extremism
00:43:33.460
ideal and extremely lean women are simply not healthy. Now, do all women lose their menstrual cycle
00:43:42.060
when they compete? No, I've had probably a 50-50 with the competitors that I've worked with that
00:43:47.760
still have normal menstrual cycle or it may not stop, but it becomes, you know, irregular all over
00:43:54.000
the place. In fact, my last competition, I was actually getting a cycle like every two weeks for
00:43:59.300
about 16 weeks of a contest prep, which was really bizarre. But that was after all not having had a
00:44:05.660
period. So it took me a few years to recover my period through the process of reverse dieting,
00:44:11.220
the recovery diet, and allowing myself to gain some body fat and have an off-season where I
00:44:16.500
got an adequate amount of calories and was able to fuel my body to a point where, you know, my
00:44:21.260
hormones are working and functioning as they should. But yeah, then the other 50% of people do
00:44:26.360
completely lose it. How do you now think about this? If you could go back in time and talk to yourself
00:44:32.200
when you were 18 years old, would you say to Holly then, just stay away from the fitness industry,
00:44:38.720
stay away from bodybuilding, get your degree in economics or business, something like that. Do
00:44:44.840
you think that even though where you've ended up now, seems like you're on a path to recovery,
00:44:50.220
do you feel that you were just flying too close to the sun all of this time?
00:44:55.840
Yeah. So I have asked myself this question a lot. People will say, you know, what would you do
00:45:01.760
differently? I think that if you spend an equal amount of time working on your mental health and
00:45:12.420
that is coupled with diet and exercise, I believe because I'm in this place right now where wherever
00:45:21.080
I am along the spectrum of body fat, wherever I am, you know, in my competition on season,
00:45:26.860
off season, I could truly say that I am good with myself wherever I am. The things that will limit
00:45:35.120
me from getting to the point of obesity or like an unhealthy body weight would probably be like,
00:45:40.700
again, extreme habits, like taking anything to the limits where you're just completely careless with
00:45:46.160
your food and careless with exercise and you just don't have any interest. So I don't think I would
00:45:50.500
ever allow myself to get to that place because it just wouldn't feel good anymore. I try to really
00:45:56.700
be conscious of, okay, what leads to you, number one, feeling happy. And then also what's good for
00:46:03.780
your body? How do you feel best? Where do you perform best? How do I think and function best?
00:46:09.000
I feel like you can be in this space, but I know a lot of people are not doing the work that is
00:46:15.700
required to shift their why. Because I think that's really important for people that are moving into the
00:46:21.300
bodybuilding space. So I want to just kind of walk through, let's say your most recent contest.
00:46:26.440
You just had a contest a couple of weeks ago, right? So I want to walk through the training
00:46:32.520
and the nutrition for the entire prep. So let's just say six months leading up to the contest. So
00:46:38.740
kind of a bulking building phase and then a cutting phase and then a post phase or a recovery diet phase.
00:46:45.920
And even though in your case, the stakes are really high, it's a professional bodybuilding
00:46:51.080
competition at the highest level, right? It's a world federation. But for someone listening to this,
00:46:55.880
it could be their wedding. You know, a woman who wants to look her best at her wedding and might
00:47:02.400
acknowledge that it's going to not be the most sustainable she can be, but wants to do it in a
00:47:07.900
way that's not harmful. So let's go back as far as we need to, six months, nine months, a year.
00:47:13.960
Yeah. What is the training? How do you periodize it? What are the principles of nutrition and everything?
00:47:19.660
I want to understand what the cutting phase looks like. And I want to know what this,
00:47:22.420
because my wife was telling me, cause you guys were talking about this, the recovery phase is also
00:47:26.860
very important. How you come out of the competition without doing what would be natural, given that
00:47:32.260
you're starving is just to go wild. So let's go back to the beginning. It's time to start adding muscle
00:47:40.380
Well, first and foremost, I'd say majority of the people that our team work with are just gen pop,
00:47:45.960
not quite as extreme or high up in like the professional athletes status that I am.
00:47:51.500
But the wonderful thing is that the processes are honestly no different. The only true difference
00:47:58.900
between somebody that is a professional athlete versus your stay at home mom who wants to look
00:48:05.600
good for, you know, they've got a girl's trip coming up or something, you know, next year or a wedding,
00:48:09.860
like you said, would be the extreme or the degree to which we take these processes. So for most people,
00:48:18.020
when we first start, I kind of want to have an idea about like, what's their goal? What do you
00:48:23.960
ideally want to look like? Or sometimes there's health goals as well, but I will say the majority
00:48:29.940
of people that come to us are also looking to, or primarily wanting to change their physique.
00:48:34.460
So we need to get a good understanding of what that looks like, because a lot of women will say,
00:48:40.440
hey, you know, I'm down for this resistance training that you're talking about, but I'm
00:48:44.320
terrified of getting too bulky. And how we approach this whole thing comes down to the individual's
00:48:51.080
definition of like, what's bulky look like to you?
00:48:53.980
Yeah. What percentage of clients that you guys have look at you and say, I don't want to look like
00:48:59.140
you. That's too much muscle. I would say that most of my clients, 90% of my clients
00:49:04.960
like this ideal. I think most people would say, yeah, I am not too bulky. Yeah, Holly, you look
00:49:10.540
great. I have had some people like, nope, your quads are way too big. Nope. I want to fit in my
00:49:15.200
jeans or, you know, something like that. But for the most part, my physique, that fitness looking
00:49:20.060
fitness model physique is something that most women, I might be generalizing, but aspire to. But again,
00:49:26.020
if I'm talking to an endurance athlete versus somebody that has come from a sporty background
00:49:31.040
and they're trying to do something that's very anaerobic, might be a different physique ideal
00:49:35.800
because that would not be beneficial for their sport. But we want to identify that first. So we
00:49:40.500
go through, it's very unlikely that women will get to the point where they look like a female
00:49:46.140
bodybuilder. Like these things don't happen naturally. Those bodybuilders, like that physique,
00:49:51.300
that look is not obtained without performance enhancing drugs. My physique.
00:50:02.340
We call it the myth of accidental muscle. It's just not going to happen.
00:50:05.660
You still have to admire those people despite them being, it's not easy. It's still not easy,
00:50:09.680
but they've got some support. So for me, if someone was looking to make change their physique to
00:50:15.360
this level of muscularity, that's still taken me like seven years of very consistent nutrition and
00:50:23.040
training where I have probably missed less than 10 weeks a year of training. And I have been like
00:50:29.260
that for 10 years. So you're not going to accidentally grow muscle like this, even without
00:50:36.300
And how do you help them identify the actual goals? I think this is an important state. So
00:50:40.820
I'm going to use a female example here and focus that. If she comes in and says, look,
00:50:45.140
I'm getting married next summer and I want to look my best. Is that not specific enough? You want to
00:50:50.640
say, well, right now you weigh this much and your body fat is this. A year from now, do you want to
00:50:57.340
weigh this much and have your body fat be this? I mean, what degree of granularity do you need to set
00:51:03.820
So I am pretty granular compared to some of even our other coaches. I think all of our processes are
00:51:09.000
slightly different. I guess the principles at the end of the day are the same, but I'll often say,
00:51:13.420
is there somebody that you follow on social media or that you've seen in magazines that you
00:51:17.600
really like their physique just to help me get a better understanding? Because it does really vary.
00:51:22.580
And sometimes I've been very shocked. I'm like, oh, okay. All right. I actually don't really need
00:51:26.360
to do a whole lot of building for this individual, you know, based on where they currently are.
00:51:30.600
So that building phase may not even be part of the equation. We also have a look at their scale weight
00:51:36.040
and their current body fat percentages, which will preferentially have them send us through
00:51:39.960
DEXA. We'll take a look at all their biomarkers, that type of thing. And then from there, I kind
00:51:45.420
of plot a bit of a trajectory. So if they do need to gain, you know, a significant amount of muscle
00:51:51.560
in that 12 months time, I will basically map out week for week using some equations like, okay,
00:51:57.620
this is basically how many weeks of building we would need to do as a natural drug-free person.
00:52:03.640
And tell me what you believe the limits are for women.
00:52:07.040
It's going to be a little bit lower than males. And part of that is just due to their ability to
00:52:11.360
build more muscle mass and I guess sex differences and that type of thing. But we can still do a lot
00:52:17.220
of positive work in an off season. In an eight week period, I was actually looking at a study very
00:52:22.180
recently for natural athletes. We're able to acquire somewhere just under the amount of one kilogram
00:52:27.980
of fat-free mass. Fat-free mass isn't just skeletal tissue. We've got to take into consideration,
00:52:34.020
you know, the increases in water mass, increases in all of these other things.
00:52:38.060
That's my record, by the way, in the one year I dedicated to the most improvement was 13 pounds
00:52:45.260
in 12 months of fat-free mass. So it's about a kilo per eight weeks.
00:52:51.380
And you're saying that's true for men and women?
00:52:53.380
Well, again, it depends on the individual. How much time are they willing to invest in this goal?
00:52:58.340
Where is it on their priority list? You know, it really comes down to their training volumes. How
00:53:02.300
well are you going to adhere to your diet? How are you going to adhere to these other variables that
00:53:09.320
Do you know what the largest amount of lean mass you've put on in a year has been?
00:53:13.360
So I haven't done it over 12 months, but I do know that between two competitions,
00:53:18.380
one at the beginning of the year, one towards the end or last quarter,
00:53:26.580
So it was a lot. And that was me going into the University of South Florida. We were doing my
00:53:31.040
BMR testing. I did muscle thickness testing. So this was all fairly accurate methods of determining
00:53:36.860
hypertrophy. That blew my mind. But again, I would say I've put on muscle very easily. You know,
00:53:43.040
maybe there's a genetic component to that, but I'm also very regimented with my training. And
00:53:47.740
the period of time when that happened, I was very fluffy. I allowed myself to put on a lot of body
00:53:55.340
Oh, yeah. So I want to ask you about that. So with the six kilos of lean tissue,
00:54:03.300
Oh, goodness. It was probably about 30% on top of. So yeah, if I had six pounds...
00:54:11.980
Exactly. So basically, your body fat probably went up a little bit as you put on a lot more lean
00:54:19.620
mass. I'd say I probably went up by about 30%. So if I started this build at 12% after a show,
00:54:26.860
I got up to 19%. So actually, it's more than that. I remember being 19% body fat at the end of
00:54:31.500
that build. That's kind of amazing, Holly. To me, if a guy made that change, that would be considered
00:54:37.520
impressive drug-free. So that a woman could do that... And again, let's just posit that you have
00:54:42.560
great genetics, but it gives us a range that there are women with lesser genetics who might
00:54:48.120
be able to do half of that in a year. They might be able to put on three kilos in a year,
00:54:55.240
And I think I also have to be very transparent about this. So I was in a position too, where
00:55:00.420
my ability to kind of step back from my other obligations and priorities
00:55:04.520
has been fair... I'm not going to say easily facilitated, but...
00:55:10.180
Yes. So I remember and recall through that training block, I had programmed progressively
00:55:15.840
overloading. Like my first week of a MESA cycle might've been three working sets of everything
00:55:21.920
on my list. And I might've had six or seven exercises. By that sixth week of training,
00:55:26.740
I would be pushing like five working hard sets, high training intensity, you know, RPEs,
00:55:33.220
eight and nines of my first three exercises and then four of everything else. Like the
00:55:41.200
So talk to me about hours in gym per day in the beginning of the build phase versus the
00:55:47.660
I hit it hard pretty quick, pretty early. I also had a bit more of a reactive style to
00:55:52.800
deloads. Normally I would plan intentional deloads. The whole purpose of that build was to
00:55:57.640
get as much muscle on me as I could in a very short timeframe. So the volume,
00:56:02.560
volume probably went up by about 50% within the first 12 weeks. And then it just continued
00:56:09.240
to grow. So the time that it would take me varied from maybe 90 minutes in like the earlier
00:56:16.140
part of that build phase all the way up to two, two and a half hours daily. And I was
00:56:20.860
doing five sessions a week at that point. So it was a big commitment.
00:56:23.940
And then were you doing any cardio at that time?
00:56:25.900
Minimal. I would just hit a daily step target of about 10,000 steps and cardio was not even
00:56:32.720
So averaging two, up to two and a half hours a day in the gym, five days a week. So again,
00:56:38.460
we're talking about good genetics coupled with-
00:56:42.980
A lot of training. Some of the people listening to this podcast, I'm guessing will be more women
00:56:47.200
than men, won't be as familiar with RPE. Do you mind explaining to people what that is?
00:56:51.740
Because it's going to be an important concept as we talk about resistance training.
00:56:54.320
So RPE is or stands for a rate of perceived exertion. So it's a measure of training intensity
00:57:02.040
and training intensity is one of the principles that need to be increased over your training
00:57:08.500
lifespan in order to facilitate hypertrophy. I guess I can reflect back on my early training days
00:57:14.800
and I didn't even have a training RPE. There was no training intensity. I guess another one that we
00:57:20.200
can refer to, which we use on our workout builder programs is the RIR, which is repetitions in
00:57:25.700
reserve. An RIR of three would mean that you've got three repetitions in reserve all the way up to
00:57:32.200
an IRR of zero. You're hitting failure. So whatever weight or load you select for your lift, you are
00:57:38.400
going to your drop essentially. So my training when I first started lifting incorrectly was so low,
00:57:47.640
like I never challenged myself. And again, I know that we wanted to talk today about our bodybuilding
00:57:52.560
versus powerlifting and how they may be beneficial for females. I am so grateful for the time that I
00:57:59.260
spent powerlifting because that style of training threw me into understanding training intensity
00:58:05.300
and what my true strength was. So there was a lot of carryover to how quickly I was able to select
00:58:12.360
weights for my bodybuilding style of workouts. And that advanced me so quickly.
00:58:18.140
So just to make sure I understand, you're saying when you were younger and you were doing fitness
00:58:22.120
training and even training for track and field, you were never pushing yourself in the weight room.
00:58:27.240
Your RPE was below five. Your RIR was above five.
00:58:30.840
Yep, absolutely. And we were never even given a training intensity. It was just do three sets of 12.
00:58:35.120
So right now, when you say in this building phase, when you say RPE eight, meaning you stopped and you
00:58:42.320
had two in the tank, you could have potentially squeezed out two more. And you said, so if you're
00:58:46.760
doing RPE eight to nine, these are near failure sets all the way through. Yep, absolutely.
00:58:53.060
Focus on how would you split those five days? Was it a leg day, a push pull day? How are you splitting
00:59:00.500
those days? If we all look at how I kind of set up a training program, there are so many ways that you
00:59:06.800
can go about this and, but they all do need to follow principles of hypertrophy. And I guess number
00:59:12.700
one is exercise specificity. We need to be making sure that we're training in such a way or a modality
00:59:17.640
that is going to have the desired outcome. So obviously building muscle and then choosing muscle
00:59:22.680
groups that you want to build during that timeframe. So for me, that looks like glute hypertrophy.
00:59:28.280
That's kind of the main area that most women, or at least those that I'm experienced in working with
00:59:33.160
really want to improve because that has a lot of benefits for many things from normal day-to-day
00:59:38.620
activities, bending down, squatting through to, you know, improve strength across all sports,
00:59:43.480
jumping, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, you know, there's so many benefits. So glute hypertrophy took up a big
00:59:47.960
part of my training volume. Shoulder hypertrophy was another one that I really focused a lot of my
00:59:53.460
training volume on to kind of create the capped shoulders and the illusion of a narrower
00:59:58.200
waist. Thinking back to that build, most of the training that I was doing was lower body. So I
01:00:03.820
actually did four lower body sessions, believe it or not, per week, and then one upper body session.
01:00:11.080
It does sound crazy. And those four lower body sessions, were you still dividing the legs up
01:00:16.420
or were you hitting the same muscles of the legs four days?
01:00:20.060
I think my programs varied. And again, I would kind of triage to kind of give my body the recovery that
01:00:25.300
it needed. And again, it was very reactive style deload. So I would start by Monday might be spread
01:00:31.780
out by doing a quad hamstring, glute, carve, quad hamstring. And then that might be that workout.
01:00:38.500
I may have a second day, which looks like hamstring quad, or I would prioritize again,
01:00:44.380
the muscle groups that I knew I wanted to build. Then I would have a rest day because back-to-back two
01:00:49.040
days of leg days, pretty intense. And then I would probably incorporate an upper body session
01:00:54.180
to again, a second day of complete rest from my legs. And then I would finish out the week by doing
01:01:00.320
a Thursday session, lower body, two days off, come back in, train on a Sunday, another lower body
01:01:06.620
session. So there was a lot of training volume. And I just want to say that I would never do that for
01:01:14.380
somebody that was brand new to training. That volume would be radically reduced.
01:01:19.000
Okay. So what would it look like for a person who has some exercise background? They go to
01:01:25.060
Orange Theory Fitness twice a week. They're a relatively active person, but they don't have
01:01:30.500
any powerlifting experience. They don't know the difference between RPE9 and RPE5. So they're not
01:01:35.900
there, but they still have this ambition of building. They want to put on five pounds of muscle in the next
01:01:42.460
year and lose three pounds of fat. That's the physique goal.
01:01:46.900
First and foremost, I would say like, again, if this is like literal practical takeaways,
01:01:51.420
I would say, number one, find somebody that's evidence-based first and foremost. Ideally,
01:01:57.020
find somebody that can also, that's evidence-based, be with you in a gym setting. They do one-on-one
01:02:02.080
training because there is so much value and knowledge to be learned just one-on-one, spending time with
01:02:07.980
someone that's got more knowledge than you in that space, developing optimal training techniques,
01:02:12.300
developing the right movement pathways. And boy, I have seen some doozies, clients being trained in
01:02:18.200
the gym by someone that has no idea how to squat or deadlift. So another little plus, if you can find
01:02:23.720
somebody that does powerlifting or has done bodybuilding and powerlifting, I think that is
01:02:30.560
like a little golden egg. There's not a lot of these people out there, but incorporating that
01:02:34.880
evidence-based approach with experience, with women and powerlifting and bodybuilding,
01:02:40.060
that's like the perfect ideal. And experience with women because of what difference specifically?
01:02:47.380
Is it anatomic differences in movements or is it just the assumption that women are coming in with
01:02:53.580
lower training volume? Look, there's plenty of men out there that can do that as well, but I think
01:02:57.340
you've got to connect with the person that you're working with. Now, if you've got a male that's
01:03:02.900
extremely experienced in all of those things, then of course, a male can be great. But I think
01:03:08.520
having gone through different body image issues, having that understanding and appreciation for
01:03:14.980
maybe body dysmorphia, having an appreciation for menstrual cycle. I think men that are in the
01:03:22.100
fitness industry, and I don't want to generalize because I know there's a lot of really intelligent
01:03:25.980
guys out there, but there isn't a lot of work. Just the general personal trainer and the amount of
01:03:31.720
time that they spend learning about the reproductive system and how that can impact strength and
01:03:36.420
subjective performance and the implications that that can have on your mood, your psychological
01:03:42.760
state, and just the plethora of like what being a woman encompasses. I just think that women tend to
01:03:49.800
do better with female trainers, but it's harder to come by. So that's what I mean by that.
01:03:56.360
So what would you design for a client in that situation? I'm just going to make it even harder.
01:04:01.700
This is a woman who wants to gain five pounds of muscle and lose five pounds of fat in a year.
01:04:07.280
In other words, they want to weigh, they're fine weighing the same amount next year,
01:04:11.620
but the change in body composition is going to be dramatic.
01:04:14.940
First and foremost, I would be looking at, okay, what realistically can we gain
01:04:18.640
in an eight month timeframe? Because that's the period of time you want to build up.
01:04:22.420
Yes, absolutely. So first off, from a program design standpoint, we would want to start with a
01:04:28.460
fairly low training volume. If this is somebody that has not done a whole lot of resistance training.
01:04:34.240
So we would start by selecting the muscle groups and the exercises that target the areas they want
01:04:39.260
to build. And we would progressively overload that training. So it might start with one working set
01:04:45.620
for every exercise in week one. That little. Yep. That little. So typically I would start with a
01:04:51.280
program that is 40 minutes maximum, 30 or 40 minutes maximum. How many warmup sets to get to that
01:04:56.040
working set typically? Probably one or two. And part of that would also be just helping with the
01:05:00.200
demonstration of technique and kind of getting that movement pattern. And what would be the RPE of the
01:05:04.660
one working set? Starting off like an RPE six or seven in a week one. A set of 10, but weighted to an
01:05:10.920
RPE of six or seven. Yep, exactly. Which again, just for the person listening means you're going to do
01:05:16.000
10 reps of this thing, but if your life depended on it, you could get 13 or 14. Exactly. Yep. And just
01:05:21.900
one set. So you might start with three days a week. And again, we've got to incorporate the
01:05:26.880
person's ability to sacrifice time for their training. And so the other thing I'm taking
01:05:31.400
away from this, Holly, cause I wouldn't have thought of this. So I'm glad I'm asking this
01:05:34.000
question. It's better that she does one set of leg extension, one set of leg curl, one set of
01:05:40.280
single leg RDL, one set of leg press, instead of just do five sets of leg press. It's teaching her
01:05:47.480
enough. It's giving her the education on this so that you can now build on that.
01:05:51.680
Yeah, absolutely. Well, you're learning what muscle, what exercises target certain muscle groups,
01:05:55.400
and you're also minimizing the risk of them getting injured or ending up with extreme
01:06:00.640
delayed onset muscle saunas. The last thing that you want to do is put together a program that is
01:06:05.280
too difficult. And the next day they can't even walk. How well is somebody going to more likely to
01:06:11.360
comply with that program? You know, thereafter, if they've had that level of pain from a session,
01:06:15.800
it's going to be really low. So we want to have good adherence from the get go.
01:06:19.140
And it's also, I guess, more interesting, like the diversity of the program.
01:06:22.040
Exercise diversity. And I think women definitely, well, men and women as well,
01:06:25.440
but I think males are probably happy to do a lot more repetitive type training to get to the end
01:06:30.860
result. Females, we like a little bit of diversity. How many days a week are you doing this? And are you
01:06:35.360
mixing upper and lower body on the same day at the beginning? It doesn't really matter. Again,
01:06:39.200
the primary driver of what or how I would put together that workout would really be training volumes.
01:06:44.280
So whether or not you do lower body and an upper body, or whether you do full body training session,
01:06:50.200
it doesn't really matter. I would probably be deferring to what's your history like? What's
01:06:55.560
your experience? What do you like doing? Because on paper, it probably doesn't really matter that
01:07:00.600
much. What's more important is that I can get you to stick to this.
01:07:06.080
Typically, I will write a mesocycle for somewhere between four and six weeks. So again,
01:07:10.560
my decision for four weeks versus six weeks is the person's ability to adhere to the same program for
01:07:16.960
that amount of time. I know for me, when I first started, if I had to do the same program for more
01:07:21.640
than two or three weeks, I was like, this is so boring. Like as if it's even working, let's change
01:07:26.900
it up. So again, there's a lot of personal preference when it comes to putting those programs
01:07:31.540
together. I personally write my programs for six weeks. I can handle anything for six weeks. It's
01:07:37.680
repetitive, but you've got maybe three or four, maybe five programs again, depending on the levels
01:07:42.040
of the individual's experience levels. So you've got quite a bit of exercise diversity, you know,
01:07:47.700
So tell me some of the lower body exercises you would have a relative newbie, but not a total
01:07:53.020
novice do. You would cycle through what for lower body?
01:07:55.960
I think my favorites for compoundless are always going to be your typical powerlifting movement. So
01:08:01.200
I always try to incorporate some kind of squat or hinging variation or deadlift. So the degree
01:08:08.440
of flexibility just with those two exercises alone is enormous. Like you can do heels, elevated
01:08:13.220
squats, Smith's machine squats, box squats, pause squats, Anderson squats. Like there's so many
01:08:19.600
So if you have a woman who's never done anything, basics.
01:08:23.400
And that's what you're going to start with like a goblet squat or a back squat to a box or.
01:08:27.860
Yep. Absolutely. Body weight squat would be actually the first thing. So I'm just
01:08:31.080
looking at movement pattern to begin with. And then we start to add loads. And I typically start
01:08:36.280
with Arbel and my preference is low bar squatting. I like to teach, well, actually it depends on the
01:08:41.760
person's anatomical makeup because high bar squatting might be better suited to an individual
01:08:47.000
that's got very short femurs compared to somebody that has extremely long femurs. Like I do
01:08:51.960
low bar squatting. And I'm basically leaning over, looking at the ground when I squat just to clear my
01:08:59.340
And when you say low, high, you mean the position on the track?
01:09:02.100
Position on the back. Yeah, absolutely. So there are advantages, I guess, of having a
01:09:05.740
low bar squat in that if you think about, if you hold a weight plate right in front of you,
01:09:11.020
that's 20 pounds, you can probably do it for a long period of time. If we extend our arms out,
01:09:15.220
how long do you think you're going to hold that 20 pound weight?
01:09:17.480
Not very long. So similar hypotheses is that when we put the squat bar lower to our center
01:09:23.120
of gravity, we tend to have a little bit more strength and power. And that was a big difference
01:09:27.160
for me as somebody that had crazy long levers. I was a terrible high bar squatter. My strength went
01:09:32.520
up 50% by shifting to that low bar position. So again, you asked about the-
01:09:37.380
But is that only because your femurs are so long?
01:09:40.120
There's other reasons as well. I think spine length as well. I have a long spine, very long
01:09:44.340
torso. So again, I want to bring that barbell back into closer to my center of gravity. So I'm
01:09:48.840
very low on the back. And I realize I'm totally deviating from what you asked me, but keeping
01:09:55.140
And are there any women that you look at and you just say, you know what, you're never going
01:09:59.380
to be a power lifter. It's not worth the risk. I don't want you squatting.
01:10:02.220
I would say anybody that's got some serious injuries, like a history of hip injury, knee injuries.
01:10:08.140
But again, my area of expertise isn't in like rehabilitation. So I'm normally working in
01:10:13.100
conjunction with a physical therapist or chiropractor or something like that.
01:10:16.860
Do you find women who have never done this kind of intimidated by the idea of that big
01:10:24.940
It is intimidating. I think if you've not done that before, it looks really scary.
01:10:28.820
Terrifying. And I think people's like fear is that the bar is going to come down on top of
01:10:34.020
Yeah, absolutely. So when you're first starting, you're not going to be loading the bar that heavy.
01:10:37.480
But I think I work with the catch bars on. So a technique that I would do and incorporate
01:10:42.300
into a new person's program, if I was training one-on-one would be the Anderson squat.
01:10:46.440
So you basically start with the bar on the catches. So you position them at a height.
01:10:52.440
Yeah. So you're finding the client's, I guess, horizontal position at the bottom of the squat.
01:11:01.460
You start in that position and the rep is up, down.
01:11:03.960
Push up. Yeah, absolutely. So that's a really empowering exercise that I think helps build
01:11:10.060
confidence. So I'll do that in conjunction with other squat variations. You know, it's such a big
01:11:16.000
movement. You're using multi-joint, big muscle groups. So it's also going to help contribute
01:11:21.080
positively to energy expenditure compared to just doing, you know, isolation exercises like
01:11:25.740
triceps and biceps. In fact, I rarely program arms for women anymore.
01:11:29.860
Really? And again, it depends on their goals. They're a kayaker or something. They need arm
01:11:34.320
strength. I'm going to probably do that. But for aesthetic reasons alone, most women,
01:11:39.500
once we get rid of the body fat, they've got great arms because just by way of the muscle
01:11:45.200
engagement during these big compound lifts, you're using those muscles anyway.
01:11:49.700
Okay. What's your preferred deadlift if you had to choose, or how do you think about navigating
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trap bar versus traditional versus sumo? Anatomical structure of an individual. So
01:12:01.020
people that have exceptionally long arms are extremely good deadlifters typically because
01:12:08.100
they basically don't have to lean forwards very far to have a bar in their hands. My arms are like
01:12:14.600
T-Rex arms. Like they are disproportionately shorter than everything else, but also is great and creates
01:12:19.820
the illusion that I have massive arms when I don't really. So for me, I am not any way,
01:12:27.120
shape or form built to be a good deadlifter. So you might be more of a trap bar deadlifter.
01:12:33.960
Yeah. But when I do deadlift, I, for that reason, I do sumo because by widening my stance,
01:12:39.780
I can now get lower to the bar and then I don't have to be so horizontal to get down to reach.
01:12:45.660
It would be very painful for you. Oh, it is my spine. And I've also extremely long spine. So my
01:12:52.200
deadlift is so ugly. Technically it looks disgusting, but I'm doing all the right things.
01:12:57.140
Like we know that a little bit of spinal curvature in a deadlift is okay if you are activating your
01:13:03.800
core and you're keeping tight. So yeah, I have a bunch back of Notre Dame looking conventional
01:13:08.560
deadlift, which is feet together. But sumo deadlift is my preference because it enables me to get
01:13:13.420
closer to the bar. And I just feel like I'm in a better position to execute.
01:13:17.500
Interesting, right? Out of the gate, we're going to take a woman who's never done these things before,
01:13:21.160
and we're going to program in some getting to know the squat, getting to know the deadlift.
01:13:26.120
You're going to also include isolation exercises, and I assume they follow in the workout. So you'll
01:13:31.960
start with the prime movers and the combined hip hinges, and then you'll move to leg extensions,
01:13:37.900
leg curls. Where does split squatting and lunging fit in?
01:13:40.940
Typically I will incorporate at max two large compound multi-joint exercises. Typically the
01:13:47.660
first six to eight sets are your best sets. They are like working sets. And then what we tend to
01:13:54.200
see is that any volume that's accrued after those eight first working sets, you start to have like
01:13:59.300
diminishing returns. So big movers first, isolation, accessory exercises second. So again, the way that I
01:14:06.260
would structure in something like lunges or leg extensions or hamstring curls or calf raises,
01:14:11.740
it depends on what that person is wanting to build. Truly, that's all it is. So again, if we look at the,
01:14:17.020
I guess, minimum dose for hypertrophy, when we look at like total set number, we want to be shooting for
01:14:24.220
somewhere around probably the 10 to 15 range per muscle group.
01:14:27.860
When you say per muscle group, you're counting quads distinct from hamstrings, distinct from glutes,
01:14:35.440
The trouble is, and I guess a lot of people have a difficulty trying to write their own program,
01:14:39.160
is that certain movements use both. So I will often just give us, yep, that counts as this exercise
01:14:47.680
So the deadlift is going to triple everything. It's hitting everything. But when you do the leg
01:14:57.680
You're saying we want, by the end of this workout, we want to have 10 to 15 boxes checked for each of
01:15:02.740
those muscle groups. So let's just go through some of them. So your favorites for glutes,
01:15:07.520
obviously a squat and a deadlift, a single leg RDL.
01:15:10.460
Yep. Interestingly, I actually was looking at a systematic review on glute hypertrophy recently,
01:15:15.900
and I guess they were using muscle activation as opposed to true muscle thickness testing or some
01:15:22.060
of those other more accurate methods of hypertrophy. But step-ups were actually as good as glute
01:15:30.280
activation as some of your hip thrusts and, you know, squats, particularly some of the horizontal
01:15:36.280
style step-ups or lunges where you're coming across the body. So like a cross bench step-up where
01:15:42.660
you're taking the foot down one side and then coming back up, where there's a lot of stretch
01:15:48.540
and lengthening taking place in the glute. So for glute hypertrophy, there's always a hip thrust,
01:15:55.660
a hinge of some sort, or a bridge, usually some kind of abduction. An abduction is basically taking your
01:16:02.980
knees out as opposed to adduction, which is bringing them together. So I'll find different machines that
01:16:09.200
enable that and also do those on the cables as well with an ankle attachment. So they're the
01:16:14.640
primary ones that I would use for glutes. Those are great. Okay. So deadlifts, squats,
01:16:21.500
hip thrusters, step-ups, and abduction. That's a lot. So you got a lot to choose from there to just,
01:16:27.500
you got to get 10. You don't have to be doing all of them every time. Yep. And to be honest,
01:16:32.200
as that individual progresses over, I guess, a seven day training block, we may be working up to
01:16:38.980
30 sets on each individual muscle group. If they're able to execute that over a seven day
01:16:46.780
period because of their training frequency, obviously, you know, a beginner, we're probably
01:16:50.620
going to be looking, you know, over a seven day period, they may get 10 to 15 sets with their three
01:16:55.280
or four training sessions, but someone that's more advanced really may be pushing like up to 30 sets,
01:17:00.200
maybe even more. But again, there's a point where we have like diminishing returns where
01:17:04.320
the inflammatory response to that training just makes it impossible to continue making progress,
01:17:08.980
in which case we have the deload. Okay. So then for quads, obviously a lot of what you mentioned
01:17:14.500
is going to hit quads, certainly the squat, to some extent, the deadlift, depending on how they do it,
01:17:19.660
the step up, certainly RDL won't, abduction won't. So then you add some dedicated stuff like leg
01:17:25.860
extensions. Yep. So leg extensions are a really simple one, obviously minimal setup, straight on
01:17:31.640
the machine, but I also like different leg press variations and different squat variations that get
01:17:36.680
our knee into a position where there's far more forward knee travel. There's a lot of
01:17:41.680
contradictions. I used to hear that all the time. It's like, don't put your knee over your toe.
01:17:45.100
It's dangerous for your knee. Now, if someone's had a history of knee injuries, that's something that
01:17:49.900
you would want to take very slowly and very progressively, but anything where we can get
01:17:54.280
the knee traveling past the toes. So by elevating your heels in something like a barbell squat,
01:17:59.120
my preference is honestly on a Smith machine because it really controls the movement pattern
01:18:02.860
and you only go forwards. And so people know the Smith machine is the squat bar that has the hooks
01:18:08.800
on it. That's in tracks. The path is vertical and it's controlled. Yeah, it's completely fixed.
01:18:12.780
So I love that exercise. I think targeting my quads, that's been a huge help. And then also foot
01:18:18.500
positioning on the leg press. So again, you're looking to have at the bottom of the movement
01:18:24.000
where your quads are in a lengthened position, you want to have lots of forward knee travel.
01:18:30.060
And I won't be specific in where you should put your feet because feet placement honestly depends
01:18:36.620
on the machine that you've got access to, because I've had some, I've had to put my feet up quite high
01:18:41.480
because of the movement plane. Yeah. So it's less where the feet go and it's more where the knees and
01:18:47.140
toes are in relation to each other in the bottom position. Yes, exactly.
01:18:50.940
So are you saying to the client, we want you to work to your level of comfort in getting knees
01:18:55.960
over your toes in the leg press, and that's going to maximize quad development. And obviously
01:19:00.200
you're going to work the back of the leg in the opposite position.
01:19:03.620
And then also there's a lot of benefits to doing like single leg work too. So many of us,
01:19:08.020
and I was honestly disgusted at my own imbalances when I tested it the other day,
01:19:12.420
I was doing some single leg squats, just sitting to a box, then standing on the box to going to the
01:19:17.960
floor only. And it's very easy, you know, with lots of repeat training and lots of repeating the
01:19:23.380
same movements where we have a bit of a discrepancy. So I really like to incorporate at least one single
01:19:29.400
leg exercise for every session. If we start to add too many single or leg movements, your program
01:19:35.200
ends up extremely long. So that's real consideration. You know, not everybody has three hours to train.
01:19:40.220
So we want to be concise and to the point. What are some of your favorite hamstring hits?
01:19:45.180
My favorite is a seated hamstring curl. And the reason for that is it is better able to isolate
01:19:50.720
your hamstrings than say a prone hamstring curl where you're laying on your stomach and you're
01:19:55.440
kind of curling the machine in towards your hamstrings. And part of that is just because
01:19:59.720
of the position of the movement, when you're in a seated hamstring machine, you've already got
01:20:04.620
tension on the hamstrings because we're sitting in this upright position. It's a lot more
01:20:09.700
tension on the hamstrings. And if you're in a prone position where your hips are far more open,
01:20:14.600
we don't get the same kind of shortening of the hamstrings. So my preference is to do a lot more
01:20:20.660
volume on a seated machine. I'm not saying you don't do any prone work, but I'll do less of that
01:20:27.440
exercise. The other exercise that I really love for hamstrings and glutes, particularly the hamstring
01:20:34.180
tie-in, which I think a lot of women, you know, you'll see the bikini competitors specifically
01:20:38.480
have these incredibly tight hamstring attachments to their glutes. A lot of that is conditioning,
01:20:44.860
which basically just means getting rid of all the body fat. You will see that, but RDLs and banded
01:20:51.320
RDLs. Tell folks what an RDL is. So a remedian deadlift, I guess you are, it's a hinging exercise
01:20:58.380
and you're shifting your hips back to lengthen the hamstrings. So you are loading the hamstrings
01:21:04.320
in that exercise. We'll link to videos of all these things so people can see what they look like.
01:21:08.700
Awesome. Cool. So you can do that with dumbbells. You can do it with barbell. You can do it with
01:21:13.820
kettlebells if you don't have access to those. And do you prefer to do these single leg?
01:21:18.760
So I'll do both. Again, for a compound movement, if I'm trying to hammer my hamstrings, I probably
01:21:23.280
will start with an RDL because it's a big movement. You know, we're talking multi-joint.
01:21:28.100
And when you do it two legs, you're loading on your back?
01:21:30.860
No, in front of me. So the barbell hangs in front, all the dumbbells. For me, when I first
01:21:35.540
started, it's crazy how quickly you can progress if you work at it. I remember picking up 25 pound
01:21:40.240
dumbbells to do my first set of RDLs for sets of, you know, 12. And now I'm all the way up at 90
01:21:49.280
90s in each hand. Yeah. So I would never have thought that I could do that. And again,
01:21:55.360
credit to my time in powerlifting to help me identify what I was really capable of.
01:22:02.840
Yeah. So what impresses me is not your hamstring strength to do that, but your grip strength to do
01:22:07.960
that. Most men cannot hold two 90-pound dumbbells.
01:22:14.500
Look, I've got to be honest. I get a little bit of help. So again, there's benefits to-
01:22:19.200
Oh, are you using a grip? Are you using a wrap?
01:22:21.120
Grips, absolutely. So, and again, people will say, oh, that's cheating. Like I don't want to
01:22:25.000
use something that cheats. Like use your raw grip strength. If the point of the exercise-
01:22:29.900
The point of exercise is to hit your hamstring.
01:22:31.400
To hit your hamstrings, what's going to be the limiting factor? So grips are a no-brainer for me.
01:22:37.680
Now, when you do single leg, do you do contralateral weight or ipsilateral weight? In other words,
01:22:45.020
if your left leg is on the ground, are you going to hold the weight left hand or right hand?
01:22:50.240
For a beginner, I would do opposing because you're going to have greater stability. As you become
01:22:54.820
more advanced, then same leg, same arm. Absolutely. I think it just challenges you in different ways.
01:22:59.580
It calls upon different muscle groups to help with stabilizing. So for the client that we were
01:23:04.660
discussing before that has some experience, wants to gain muscle, I'd probably over the course of that
01:23:09.480
six-week mesocycle, sorry, over the course of maybe their second or third training mesocycles,
01:23:14.860
I might incorporate the more advanced variation of a single leg RDL. It might start opposing arm to leg.
01:23:21.500
And then as they advance, I would move it to a single leg over that 18-week, 24-week period.
01:23:27.840
And then calves, what are you doing for calves?
01:23:30.080
Combination of both. I originally wasn't doing any calf work because from an aesthetic perspective,
01:23:34.860
it's not something that you see a whole lot of, I guess, but probably, you know, six sets per week.
01:23:41.680
I'd probably start again for someone that's brand new, three sets, and then maybe in week two.
01:23:49.160
Seated or standing. I believe, based on the research, seated tends to be a little bit
01:23:55.480
better for hypertrophy outcomes. Don't ask me the mechanics. This is not my area of expertise,
01:24:01.080
but a study that I did a post on very recently was looking at the different feet positions.
01:24:06.340
And I used to be first to put my hand up and throw myself under the bus, do the toes in,
01:24:11.780
like pigeon toe style of calf raise. Pointless, doesn't really yield any meaningful results.
01:24:17.580
Neutral stance and toes facing out tend to be better for optimizing hypertrophy of different
01:24:25.180
On their upper body day, how do you focus? Now, I know you, I mean, I'm still surprised to hear that
01:24:29.860
you're not doing a lot of upper body for a woman. And what you're saying is the most important thing is
01:24:34.540
taking the fat off to let the muscles show. But in that one day, what are they going to do for
01:24:43.740
One of the main things, again, that does differ between men and women's training programs is chest
01:24:48.120
volume. So men typically want to have jack biceps, jack triceps, big chest. There's less of an emphasis
01:24:53.980
on that. So the women, even in the fitness categories, seem to be judged a lot on glutes,
01:25:03.680
Back is so less important. They want to see a conditioned back, but it's not really where a
01:25:09.460
lot of the judging and time is spent. Unlike traditional bodybuilders, where like you look
01:25:13.320
at your Kai greens, where it's just got lat on lat on lat. I will incorporate different back
01:25:18.660
exercises more predominantly in a program that I would for chest. I defer back to the client. Do you want
01:25:25.520
to do chest training? I love bench press. Like again, I've done powerlifting. So to me, like that's
01:25:31.080
so empowering, like trying to hit a one rep max on a bench. I love that, but I'm not everybody. So
01:25:35.880
again, I defer to the person that I'm working with.
01:25:38.900
And let's assume that she has no interest in her strength on a bench. It's really coming down to how
01:25:46.320
Aesthetic. Some people really need a lot of chest training or conversely, they need a lot of back
01:25:51.600
training due to their posture. So that's a big consideration, but if a woman is sort of hunched
01:25:56.860
forward, yeah, they're really kyphotic. They've got that rounding. They probably have extremely
01:26:00.700
tight pectorals and weak back musculature. So in that case, I would do a lot more volume on back
01:26:07.940
and I probably wouldn't spend any time on any chest work. So, you know, for that final one training
01:26:13.460
session, I might be looking to hit 15 sets of back and no chest at all.
01:26:20.220
I would target the wide back, mid back. So we're looking at our lats to get the widths
01:26:25.280
of the back. And that can help, I guess, from an aesthetic perspective to create the illusion
01:26:29.800
of a really small waist. So wide grip pull downs, wide grip pull ups, assisted pull ups
01:26:35.860
for somebody that's just beginning and then progressing to body weight pull ups and then
01:26:39.920
weighted pull ups. So again, through the course of somebody training consistently over nine
01:26:46.080
months say, there's a very good chance they could go from doing no body weight pull ups
01:26:51.800
Now most women can't do a single pull up unassisted, correct?
01:26:55.520
I'd say that probably 90% of females would not be able to do a single body weight pull
01:27:10.040
You know, Beth Lewis, who you met briefly the other day, you know, Beth is convinced that
01:27:15.480
you can get any human being to do a body weight pull up.
01:27:19.020
Absolutely. There'd have to be something from a neurological standpoint that would inhibit
01:27:23.940
someone from being able to. It was a lot of work. I was that person. I could never do
01:27:28.600
a pull up. I remember like when I first got into lifting, I started with bands, the thickest
01:27:33.760
green band possible with my feet in to help me. And I could do about five reps with that.
01:27:38.940
But the thing that really facilitated my strength in pull ups, I programmed those every single
01:27:46.400
program for years, every program. And it was always the most intimidating exercise. I hated
01:27:52.600
it, but I'd always put it first. So I'd always been nervous going to training if I knew I had
01:27:56.620
an upper body day because I had to do like pull ups. But yeah, I went from not being able
01:28:00.440
to do any body weight to being able to do 20 body weight over the span of five years.
01:28:04.800
But I can tell you now, there was probably maybe three or four programs over that entire
01:28:10.940
timeframe that I did not program specifically put ups.
01:28:15.620
And was the progression using less and less and less resistance on the bands, but always
01:28:21.980
I would pick, you know, somewhere in the hypertrophy range. So that's typically anywhere from eight
01:28:26.140
to 12. And yeah, once I could do 12 reps with a certain band, I would progress to the next
01:28:32.420
lighter resistance. And I just kept going. Once I got to 12 body weight pull ups, I was like,
01:28:38.040
oh, okay, now we add the weight belt with a little two and a half pound kettlebell or something
01:28:43.900
How much are you varying your hand position for both yourself and then obviously for the client
01:28:48.880
So for me, I, again, and this was primarily because of the aesthetic goal, which was to widen
01:28:54.380
my lats, I would do a lot more prone grip. I guess I targeted my rhomboids a little bit more,
01:29:01.240
which would be a close grip pull up. I didn't really do a whole lot of those. Sometimes I would
01:29:05.660
change up my variation. So if I had three sets programmed to failure, say my first set to failure,
01:29:11.580
I would do wide because that was the muscle group that I wanted to work the most. Then I would switch
01:29:16.120
to a neutral grip and then I might switch to an underhand grip.
01:29:19.500
And how much time do you need between sets to failure on pull ups?
01:29:23.240
A long time. You do not want to rush that. Sometimes it would take five minutes between sets.
01:29:27.700
And I think that's where a lot of people find themselves not being able to make progress and
01:29:31.900
not just with pull ups, but for training in general, they go way too fast. And then the
01:29:37.360
consequences, they're not recovered when they start the next working set. And because they're
01:29:41.340
still fatigued, they're not able to execute the next working set to the same number of reps
01:29:46.080
because they're not recovered. So they may have to drop those weights and pick up something lighter.
01:29:50.600
I used to do that. And as a trainer, I'd be on the floor, you'd have 60 minutes with a client and
01:29:55.800
you want to rush. But the reality is if you can slow down your workouts and take as much time as
01:30:02.760
you need. And my rule of thumb is when your heart rate is back below 100 beats per minute, for me,
01:30:09.000
probably is a little bit lower for men. I think males tend to have slightly lower heart rate than
01:30:12.280
females. So once my heart rate is back under a hundred, that's when I know I'm like, okay,
01:30:16.140
yeah, I can probably think about doing my next set.
01:30:17.700
Okay. Interesting. I'm glad you mentioned that. I was going to ask about your rest phase.
01:30:21.840
Anything you want to say about arms before we move on to the next metaphase?
01:30:25.780
If you like arms, do arms. If you don't like arms, don't worry about it.
01:30:29.400
Wow. This is so paradoxical. I would guess looking at you that it's like-
01:30:32.620
I haven't done a bicep curl or a tricep extension in 12 months.
01:30:36.360
So those arms that you have are simply the result of all of the stuff you carry.
01:30:43.100
The heavy things you're lifting with your hands, like deadlifts and RDLs,
01:30:50.340
Especially for something like pull-ups, you do actually get better at pull-ups the less body
01:30:54.740
fat you have and the lighter you get. There's a point where it crosses if you lose too much muscle.
01:30:59.300
Again, this is a very interesting point, which is you can joke and say, look, biceps and triceps are
01:31:03.220
not the most functional muscles in the world. But being able to do a pull-up, being able to do a
01:31:07.000
deadlift, that confers great benefit to life skills.
01:31:11.260
So in some ways, your bodybuilding training much more mirrors functional training than what I
01:31:17.500
would have expected. Let me just play devil's advocate for a moment. How much of that is your
01:31:21.300
genetics? Do you just genetically think you have big muscles in your arms and that's why you can get
01:31:26.380
If I was to look at my parents, like my dad is freakishly muscular for somebody that doesn't
01:31:31.800
do anything in the gym. He grew up, I guess, being in very like laborious type jobs. So he's always
01:31:39.780
been extremely lean. And I think he has short humorous like I do. So I guess it creates this
01:31:45.940
illusion of more muscle. It's easier to grow. It looks, if you think about a long muscle, it's a lot
01:31:50.580
more muscle you've got to grow to make it look big. So I think just my, the way that I'm put together
01:31:55.560
probably has assisted in some ways, but that's not to say that it's not possible for other people as
01:32:07.720
My favorites are probably a scrape the rack shoulder press. I don't know if you've ever done
01:32:12.720
those, but essentially you're up against a squat rack with a barbell on, you can do it kneeling
01:32:18.700
or standing. I like kneeling because it eliminates the ability to cheat. When you're standing, you can use a
01:32:24.220
bit of momentum to keep pushing. So kneeling, scrape the rack press, and you're basically driving that
01:32:30.680
And what angle, what's the humoral angle at the top?
01:32:33.580
Well, you're pretty, basically extended pretty vertically. You have to have good range of motion
01:32:37.740
and mobility for your shoulders. One that I don't do with everybody, but I do, because I do have a
01:32:42.120
lot of mobility with my shoulders, a behind the neck shoulder pressing. On a Smith machine,
01:32:46.740
though, I only do it on the Smith machine because it keeps me in a very safe, fixed plane.
01:32:52.080
I'm not using dumbbells where I'm swerving everywhere or a free barbell. So I really
01:32:57.500
like that because I had some shoulder injuries.
01:32:59.700
What about for somebody who can't really press overhead due to shoulder injuries or impingements
01:33:05.860
My area of expertise isn't specifically on like rehabilitation, but I would be working with a
01:33:11.000
specialist with that. But lateral raises is probably another thing that people can do
01:33:15.320
to improve their like medial shoulder and also then rear delts. So you can do like a reverse
01:33:21.440
pec fly where you're kind of pushing away. If you've got access to cables, you can do a cable
01:33:26.360
crossover to hit your rear delts. And what else? Just face pulls, those types of exercises.
01:33:33.140
Let's say we've progressed the intensity of all of this. We've overloaded. So we've added sets,
01:33:38.780
we've added reps, we've added intensity. We're eight months in and let's assume we've hit our
01:33:44.780
hypertrophy goals. You do another DEXA. And remember the initial goal was gain five pounds of
01:33:51.260
muscle, lose five pounds of fat. If she has met her hypertrophy goal and gained five pounds of
01:33:57.300
muscle, how much fat do you think has changed at that point?
01:34:00.920
It depends on their dietary intake, to be honest. So we can go through a period of progressive
01:34:07.740
overload with an intentional building phase and do all the right things when it comes to the
01:34:12.520
resistance training. But the other key piece to the success of that build is diet. So how much was
01:34:20.800
the client able to adhere to their dietary requirements during that time? It's probably
01:34:25.000
like 50% of the outcomes. So going back to the beginning, I'm going to just create a stereotype,
01:34:30.960
which is she was sort of reasonable in total energy intake, but protein deficient relative to
01:34:37.940
your goals. So what would be your protein goals for her?
01:34:39.920
Honestly, exactly the same as it is males to females. The only difference is going to be
01:34:44.360
the absolute total target that we have for a female because our lean body mass is a little bit
01:34:48.760
lower. So the protein reference ranges to optimize hypertrophy are anywhere from say 1.8 grams of
01:34:56.600
protein per kilogram of lean body mass, all the way up to three grams of protein per kilogram of lean
01:35:02.800
body mass. So based on the individual's dietary preferences and what foods they like, some people
01:35:08.460
love protein. I've had clients that can't stand it. And it's a real struggle with them to which
01:35:13.920
blows my mind because I would probably live on meat if I had to pick one food group that I'd have to
01:35:19.760
survive on meat for the rest of time. But I would pick something that is realistic for them within
01:35:26.900
You had a whole 16-ounce steak yesterday by yourself.
01:35:29.140
I was hoping you were going to... I was hoping there's going to be a little piece left over
01:35:33.320
I told you, I do enjoy proteins. But yeah, it really comes down to their preferences. And there isn't one
01:35:40.460
number that's better than another, but consistency is important. So we don't want to be chopping and
01:35:45.720
changing your protein and it bouncing all over the place for a couple of reasons. And that is that
01:35:50.400
you can potentially reduce or limit your potential, but it also impacts your energy balance because
01:35:57.800
protein has a far higher thermogenic effect of food than carbohydrate and or fat. So if that's
01:36:04.200
bouncing around, you're effectively moving and shifting your energy balance. So that would not
01:36:09.680
be favorable for somebody that is trying to gain muscle and 90% of their dietary calories are now coming
01:36:16.440
from protein might be shifting their energy balance in a negative direction.
01:36:21.240
And if she was starting out, let's just... I'm making math up, but she's 140 pounds and she's okay
01:36:27.100
being 140 pounds at the end, but that 10-pound swap in body comp is important. And let's assume
01:36:32.920
she's weight stable coming into this exercise. Do you basically keep her calorie stable and just
01:36:41.540
Initially, absolutely. I would have a look at what her current dietary intake would be.
01:36:45.160
And if it was below the recommended reference range, I'd pick a number that aligned with her
01:36:50.360
lean body mass and her ability to nail that number consistently. Then progressively throughout
01:36:55.820
that building phase, we would want to be slowly adding in calories. If we look at the overfeeding
01:37:03.200
studies, which unfortunately there is not as much information available to us as there are like weight loss
01:37:08.380
studies, but of those that we do have, if we were to compare somebody being in a surplus of say 20%
01:37:14.160
above their maintenance calories versus 40% versus 60%, what we tend to see is that the best results,
01:37:21.680
and I should quantify what I mean by best, the most amount of muscle mass that would be gained
01:37:26.680
during a given timeframe would be optimal at about that 20% mark. If we go up to 40 or up to 60,
01:37:33.360
what we just end up seeing is excess body fat gain. It doesn't like continue to get better the more you
01:37:37.900
eat. Let's just, again, I'm making this up. She's at 2000 kcal coming in. Does that mean you're
01:37:44.040
actually going to put her at a surplus, even though you don't want her to gain weight? You just want her
01:37:49.160
to gain lean mass? To begin with, just for the initial week, if someone can tell me that they're
01:37:53.880
eating a certain number of calories, I want to see the data. Let's assume that you did that. Let's
01:37:57.560
assume you did a food log and she comes in at 2000 weight stable. So if that's her maintenance
01:38:01.460
calories, that's not optimal. We want to go to a small surplus. You'd take her to 2400.
01:38:05.320
Yeah. It might be a 10 to 20% surplus. And again, part of that decision is also based on the
01:38:10.280
individual's comfort with adding body fat. And for females, that is the hardest group of people
01:38:16.640
that I work with to encourage to gain body fat. So usually I'm working within a far more restrictive
01:38:23.040
calorie surplus than I would if I'm working with a male client. They're a lot more open to gaining
01:38:27.340
some body fat to facilitate their gains. So if I'm being real, optimal would be 20%. Most women will
01:38:34.340
not adhere to that. So I'm probably going to prescribe something that's more likely going
01:38:39.000
to reflect the reality. And that is like a 10% increase above their maintenance.
01:38:43.180
And how would this change if she said she's 140 pounds, she wants to weigh 130 next year. So she
01:38:50.720
wants to lose 10 pounds, but wants it to all be fat loss. So this will also improve body composition
01:38:57.480
because she's going to just lose 10 pounds of fat, but wants to lose no muscle, which still
01:39:01.760
functionally means putting on some muscle to offset the fat loss. Would you then not put
01:39:07.740
her in a calorie surplus during the building phase?
01:39:10.360
No, I still would because her ability to acquire that new tissue is going to be...
01:39:17.920
Yeah. You need surplus energy to come from somewhere. Now, if somebody is starting with a higher
01:39:22.400
body fat percentage, now we've got somebody that has, they have an energy reserve and we can
01:39:27.100
petition that stored body fat. And that's the whole concept behind, you know, body recomposition.
01:39:33.640
So for some individuals, if they do have body fat, I may not need to put them in a major surplus. So
01:39:38.660
it's so client dependent, you know, I have to look at them and the complete picture. So it might not be
01:39:44.860
a massive surplus at all. If they were, you know, 20% body fat, it might just be, let's nail these
01:39:49.980
calories for the next six months. And over time, we will see some positive changes because you've got
01:39:54.840
enough body fat available to help with the building and the foundations of that new skeletal tissue.
01:40:01.180
Okay. So now it's eight months in, we're two thirds of the way to our goal. She's on target for lean
01:40:07.540
mass. She's also, of course, added a little bit of fat mass. You now have four months to get that fat
01:40:13.560
off and keep the lean tissue on. What changes in nutrition and then what changes in the gym?
01:40:19.480
Changes in the gym initially are negligible. I think there's a misconception that suddenly
01:40:23.920
everything changes when you start dieting. The goal for dieting is truly to be able to keep you on as
01:40:31.260
higher calories as possible with as little increase in activity as possible whilst still achieving a
01:40:39.480
targeted rate of weekly weight loss. So to begin with, their training may stay exactly the same.
01:40:46.320
We might make a couple of tweaks because they're bored and they need change up, but the concept,
01:40:49.940
the principles of that training program and the structure does not change unless suddenly they
01:40:54.100
decided that they no longer want those giant glutes and we put back in chest training. But
01:40:59.360
the principles say the same. From a diet perspective, again, we kind of look at, okay,
01:41:04.500
now that we've acquired a little bit of body fat, we want to get all of that off in time through the
01:41:09.100
wedding or whatever the event is. I basically do a back calculation. I pick a targeted weekly rate of
01:41:16.080
weight loss that does not exceed more than 1.5% of their body weight.
01:41:24.540
It can be a lot. And some people may not have the-
01:41:27.900
But it would be relative to the individual. So, you know, 200 pound male, that's a lot.
01:41:34.240
Yeah, 1.4 pounds, that's 1%. So we're looking at close to two pounds. Again, we've got to be realistic
01:41:38.920
with how much can be achieved in a seven day period for that person. Choosing that percentage rate of
01:41:44.140
loss is important. Why it's important is because when we see extreme dietary interventions carried
01:41:50.360
out, continuous diet interventions that push weight loss beyond those numbers, we are increasing the
01:41:57.820
risk of metabolic adaptation. So now we're starting to look at more, I guess, adaptive mechanisms,
01:42:03.400
a greater response to dieting or our self-defense system really ramps up. We become far more efficient.
01:42:10.400
So we want to keep the rate at that level. And that will help to keep your BMR, your basal metabolic rate
01:42:18.340
nice and high. And it's protective of your muscle mass. Beyond that one and a half percent, that's when
01:42:24.360
we really start to see people actually losing a greater percent of muscle mass and lean tissues as opposed
01:42:29.640
to fat loss. So I think a lot of people will argue with me in the first few weeks when we put together a program
01:42:35.620
for them, they're like, that just doesn't seem like enough weight loss. I'm used to seeing two kilos a
01:42:40.300
week. And I'd say to you, so if you're worried about the number on the scale, if that's all you're
01:42:45.040
worried about, what have I said to you that that two kilos, you lost not a single bit of fat. It was
01:42:49.780
mostly lean tissue. Is that still okay? And they're like, oh, okay. We've got to be realistic with what
01:42:55.180
you can do in a week and how it might impact muscle loss. And then determining what calorie deficit
01:43:01.400
that actually requires. So we have a really wonderful calculation in one of our book,
01:43:06.320
The Complete Contest Bread Guide. And I believe it's also in Fat Loss Forever. And that outlines
01:43:11.040
what amount of calories is required to lose a certain amount of body weight in grams.
01:43:19.880
So it's a really neat little equation. And we can calculate very accurately for the average person
01:43:25.700
that doesn't have crazy, you know, a really fast metabolism or really slow metabolism,
01:43:29.560
what the deficit is that they need to lose that one and a half percent or whatever number it might
01:43:34.520
be. So it's really neat. I can pretty much forecast exactly what someone could use.
01:43:39.760
How does a person do this practically? So there's, on the one hand, there's the calculation. Let's just
01:43:43.600
say it comes out and says, okay, we're going to reduce your intake from what was 2,400 now down to
01:43:48.740
1,875 calories. But then there's the application of that, which is if this person doesn't have a chef
01:43:56.020
that can prepare every meal that they're going to eat with a scale, how do they go about doing that?
01:44:01.080
I mean, this can be really difficult stuff to go weighing everything. And I don't see how you could
01:44:10.360
It is really tough. And I think one of the things that I will say to people that I've worked with
01:44:14.860
is there is so much value in giving or dedicating a set amount of time to weigh your food, to get
01:44:24.540
familiar, to calibrate and learn what a four ounce piece of chicken looks like, what X food weighs on
01:44:31.140
the scale. I think having that knowledge and an understanding of what it represents from a caloric
01:44:35.160
perspective and from its macronutrient, the constituents of that food, knowledge is power.
01:44:41.500
I really struggle with people that don't want to invest that time because that is a lifelong skill
01:44:47.460
that once you know how to do it, and it might take you six months to get the hang of it.
01:44:51.520
But for me now, I can, and I've been doing this for over 12 years, is I can estimate anything and
01:44:57.040
eyeball it. So you get really good. So there is a lot of accountability coaching, homework tasks,
01:45:05.640
getting them practical tools and resources to learn how to do that, which is kind of what's involved
01:45:11.400
in that whole weekly check-in and that coaching process. So as she gets closer and closer to
01:45:17.440
this event, and again, let's just use it as this wedding example. So she's four weeks out.
01:45:22.240
Do you have a sense of where she would need to be a month out on those goals to hit the target?
01:45:27.280
When we get to probably within three to 5% of their goal body fat percentage, like that's when I can
01:45:35.580
start to tell. There's a lot of photo exchange. So we have so much data that we collect for a client,
01:45:41.660
and that can be super helpful to make accurate analysis. But there's so many benefits to also
01:45:47.540
having that supplemented with an actual physical picture. And if we're not always looking at
01:45:52.660
somebody's DEXA scan every six weeks as they're going, which is not always feasible for every client,
01:45:57.920
depends on the clientele that you're working with, but we don't always have that data available.
01:46:01.820
So it really does come down to looking at their, you know, macro tracking, watching their weight
01:46:06.920
trends, and then coupling that with their pictures to be able to see, you know, body fat loss is
01:46:12.960
actually happening. The situation I described, 130 or 140 pound woman who's going to be the same
01:46:19.220
weight a year later, but have a five pound switch. How visibly different is that?
01:46:25.960
Okay. So maybe that goal wasn't ambitious enough.
01:46:28.320
You have to look at what is required for somebody to develop the muscularity of an elite fitness
01:46:35.280
professional. That's like a 10 year process for some people. So I think, again, that five pounds
01:46:41.580
is realistic for somebody to add, but how notable is that going to be?
01:46:46.100
Probably depends on what they're starting with too.
01:46:47.840
It really does. And I think how lean they get at the end too. And sometimes the first attempt at fat loss,
01:46:53.280
it doesn't get you to the goal. And it takes multiple attempts of coming out of this diet
01:46:58.580
process through recovery diets, and then fat loss again, and then another recovery diet before we
01:47:04.820
really start to kind of achieve the ideal that that client is wanting.
01:47:09.340
So let's talk about that. So she hits her goal, which is five and five, and she's pleased in that
01:47:15.560
she hit her goal. She looks better in her wedding dress than she would have a year sooner.
01:47:20.180
But to your point, she's like, I have greater ambitions here. I would like to be even leaner
01:47:26.700
a year from now. And I like this process, but I don't feel like being as restrictive right now.
01:47:36.540
How do I recover from this without undoing all the good I did in the last year?
01:47:41.980
Looking at the research that we have and some of these longitudinal studies that
01:47:46.680
show us what happens with fat loss and the success rates of fat loss, you know, over a dietary
01:47:54.020
intervention, people don't necessarily have a difficult time losing the weight. It is this
01:47:58.560
inability to keep it off. The reasons that it occurs is because typically outside good governance of a
01:48:06.680
good coach, people do things in such extremes. So they've done everything wrong during their diet
01:48:11.140
phase. And the consequences, they've lost a lot of muscle mass during that fat loss that negatively
01:48:16.680
impacts their basal metabolic rates. And now their metabolism, their body's requirements are a lot
01:48:21.900
less. They're coming up against hormonal changes that impact their appetite regulating hormones.
01:48:28.320
So most people post diet experience some form of hyperphagia, which for people that don't know what
01:48:33.860
is, it's just like that excessive, extreme desire to eat more than what is physiologically required
01:48:40.000
by their bodies. So if they aren't conscious of that happening and they're not aware that there are
01:48:46.080
these hormonal changes, the natural inclination post diet is to go back to what you were doing before,
01:48:54.380
especially if you haven't chosen a dietary approach that works for your food preferences. And this is
01:48:59.060
where we see a lot of people struggling with, oh, I've tried this diet. It didn't work.
01:49:03.020
Tried this one, it didn't work. And then they end up going back to what they like.
01:49:06.820
So if you can slowly reintroduce your calories post diet, and unfortunately that means that
01:49:15.380
that whole process still feels like the diet. And I can say like as somebody that has, you know,
01:49:21.500
just a few weeks ago finished my competition, I didn't get as lean. So the hunger response was not
01:49:27.520
as severe as it's been in the past, but it's still there. It is really hard to continue to regulate
01:49:34.100
when the goal is now out of sight, or at least the goal that you were getting close to is leaving
01:49:39.940
because doing a reverse diet, you're not getting that positive visual response. This is intrinsic and
01:49:47.360
you can't see your metabolism improving. The only data or evidence that you have when you're reversing
01:49:53.440
is seeing the small little increases in calories. Like, oh, cool. I get to eat a hundred more
01:49:57.940
calories this week. You know, so it takes a good number of weeks to be able to get your calories
01:50:03.480
back up to a point where it's made a meaningful difference to my life. You know, I can have a
01:50:09.120
couple of glasses of wine now with my friends and I've been able to incorporate my dessert again.
01:50:14.700
So it's a really difficult process. And how many weeks does that last?
01:50:20.000
For a lot of folks, you're trying to get them initially rule number one for setting a reverse
01:50:25.700
diet after you've finished being in a deficit is just finding your new maintenance calories.
01:50:30.360
And you can assess that by looking at how much weight you have lost over the final couple of
01:50:36.060
weeks in your fat loss phase. So we can go back and predict what they are for our clients.
01:50:40.720
For this woman, technically, if her maintenance was 2000 coming in, it's probably going to be a
01:50:45.440
lot lower. Oh, I was going to say a little bit higher because even though her weight is the same,
01:50:49.780
she has more muscle. She may have more muscle mass, but it depends how lean she wants to get.
01:50:54.800
You're saying if she wants to continue to get leaner. I'm saying if she's happy to stay at that 140
01:50:59.620
for another six months before she begins her next cycle, she might actually come in at 2100 or 2200
01:51:06.500
calories before you then say, okay, now the time is we're going to take off another five pounds of
01:51:11.880
fat. I completely understand what you're saying. However, the problem is even if she has added
01:51:17.080
five pounds of muscle mass, which we know in theory, muscle is very energetically demanding
01:51:22.280
tissue. It requires more calories. So you would expect there to be a positive shift in their BMR.
01:51:28.260
Yes. When she did that at the end of the build, yes. But that fat loss phase that someone did to get
01:51:34.240
the weight back down again, depending how long it took, how extreme we had to go and how equipped
01:51:40.800
they were to execute the deficit we needed. And what I mean by that is, did we need to do a whole
01:51:45.800
lot more cardio to create the deficit? What was the intensity of that cardio? Like she could have lost
01:51:51.820
some of that muscle during the fat loss phase. And evidently you will lose muscle anyway. You will
01:51:58.240
always lose muscle mass when you attempt a fat loss phase, but the leaner you get, the greater the risk
01:52:03.720
of that muscle loss is because you no longer have that caloric cushioning to support that. So her
01:52:09.680
metabolism, even when we go back to her new maintenance calories, after she's added more
01:52:13.940
muscle, so physically she's going to look better, she still may be lower at the start of that reverse
01:52:19.520
diet, which is really interesting to think. So there may be some work that's needed to be done
01:52:24.160
reversing just to get her back to maybe that 2000 calories that she was on. She may not be able to go
01:52:29.320
straight back to that. It takes weeks. So the way that you do that is slow and incremental increases
01:52:35.460
week by week and you observe the weight gain and then you adjust respond accordingly. So I guess
01:52:41.260
before we wrap, are there any other specific differences in male and female training that we
01:52:47.480
could shed light on? Outside like the specificity of like putting together an actual program and
01:52:53.200
targeting certain muscles, muscle groups rather, people may have actually heard somewhere along
01:52:58.980
their fitness journey that women tend to do better with higher rep ranges and males do better with
01:53:05.480
lower rep ranges. And traditionally, I think there's a reason why we tend to see that style of programming
01:53:12.580
more prominent, you know, in the gym scene. Part of that is due to some of the differences in sex
01:53:18.760
hormones. And that kind of has an impact on our muscle fiber type. So females actually have a greater
01:53:26.140
percentage of type one muscle fibers than do males. And the positive consequence of that difference there
01:53:34.580
for females is that it means that we're better able to transport nutrients into the tissues and also
01:53:41.600
clear different metabolites during activities. So the benefit there is that women tend
01:53:48.680
to be less fatigable when it comes to training. And another thing that kind of coincides really
01:53:54.320
nicely with that is that women in both the fed and the fasted state tend to do better at utilizing
01:54:00.500
fatty acids. So again, it means that we're less reliant upon some of those glycolytic pathways or
01:54:06.820
anaerobic processes. So we do better when it comes to recovery from different types of training. So
01:54:13.240
when it comes to building out that training program, again, I'm being pretty meticulous here,
01:54:19.040
but men, I would often opt for a little bit more strength specific training. And I guess if you look
01:54:25.920
at the definitions of strength training, it's the rep ranges between one to six, then you've got your
01:54:30.160
moderate rep ranges, or we call that the hypertrophy rep range. I'll have more of that with females.
01:54:36.380
Which is about eight to 12. Eight to 12, eight to 15. And then we've got our endurance strength
01:54:41.960
training, which is, you know, you're 15 to 20 reps. So some women will say that they enjoy that type of
01:54:49.940
training and they're able to tolerate it better, more so than some of the strength-based training.
01:54:54.220
But I would still argue that females, when you're putting the right hands with a good qualified coach,
01:54:58.900
that they could equally enjoy that style of training too. But again, that's thinking about like the
01:55:03.600
actual differences, that muscle fiber type. And part of that's due to, I believe it's estrogen,
01:55:08.260
you know, women having a higher level of estrogen. We've got more estrogen receptors,
01:55:11.580
I believe on our skeletal tissues. And that's one of the benefits for nutrient transports.
01:55:17.380
That's interesting. Wouldn't that also suggest that women would have an easier time
01:55:22.080
training without ingestion of glucose, at least in theory. And yet I feel like maybe it's just
01:55:30.120
looking at my wife. She does not like to train on an empty stomach. You know, she needs to be
01:55:34.740
drinking or eating something beforehand. But I think you mentioned you like to train on an empty
01:55:38.540
stomach. I'm the opposite. So again, I think it's really subjective. The science can always say
01:55:43.580
certain things, but we've also then got to take into account individuals' perception. And it is very
01:55:49.080
subjective. So for me, as somebody that has struggled with like irritable bowel syndrome for
01:55:54.740
the last 10 years of life, I can't think of anything worse than trying to train with anything
01:55:59.660
in my stomach. I might have a couple of coffees in the morning, but I'm keeping, you know, pretty low
01:56:03.840
gut irritant type foods because the minute I feel some kind of distention or, you know, pain in my
01:56:09.580
stomach, I cannot train. I would rather train hungry with a rumbling stomach than try to have to
01:56:16.120
execute with a full stomach. So, but again, endurance training, very different to more anaerobic
01:56:22.960
training. Like the resistance training that I do is probably more anaerobic. So it might be just due
01:56:28.400
to the differences in exercise type. Any other differences that we should be aware of as far as
01:56:33.640
female and male, either through response to nutrient or load? Speaking to sex hormones, I think the
01:56:40.200
menstrual cycle is probably the only other thing that kind of springs to mind. And there's been a lot
01:56:43.860
more information becoming available on that topic as it relates to hypertrophy outcomes and strength
01:56:49.600
training. And again, there's probably four studies that are high quality at the moment that I can
01:56:55.200
think of that again, tend to be kind of on the fence. Half of them show that during the second phase,
01:57:03.340
the luteal phase of your menstrual cycle, when progesterone is high and estrogen is low, that
01:57:09.940
subjectively strength decreases for females during training. And then during the earlier parts of
01:57:16.780
training, when progesterone is low, you know, people report to feel a lot better with their
01:57:21.880
training, the performance is better, the strength is improved. It's a 50-50 for clients. So when it
01:57:28.240
comes to female programming, I, as a default, and if it doesn't seem to impact them, that's great,
01:57:35.120
but I will default to setting deloads on or around their menstrual cycle.
01:57:39.200
So you might go two weeks on two weeks, like you could upload two weeks, download two weeks.
01:57:44.260
Yep. Yeah. It might be in the middle of a menstrual cycle, but again, it depends on how
01:57:48.540
serious they are about their progression, but... I'm guessing that's something a lot of male
01:57:51.960
trainers don't think about. No, probably not at all. Absolutely. And like just ability to be
01:57:56.840
adherent and like your energy, mood, sleep, you know, all of those things can be impacted around
01:58:02.380
your cycle. Constipation is another prevalent symptom of men's ease. So that absolutely impacts
01:58:09.640
people's energy levels and like motivation to train. How many times have you found yourself
01:58:14.700
training clients post-pregnancy and menopause? You have a high number of clients in those two
01:58:20.380
categories? More recently, my clientele has shifted more to middle age. I'd say majority of my clients
01:58:26.620
now are probably 35 to 65. Yeah. I think that transition going from high levels or higher levels
01:58:35.160
of testosterone for females to low level during menopause and the changes in estrogen. It's really
01:58:42.120
hard on females. A funny story. My mom did not even know that there was like symptoms that came
01:58:50.000
along with menopause. She was like, I knew women couldn't, you know, have children anymore, but she's
01:58:54.400
not super scientific in any way. She didn't know she was going to have hot flashes. No, she had no idea
01:58:59.560
about any of these symptoms. And for her, she was so upset and like just frustrated that she didn't
01:59:05.040
have any energy or she didn't want to go for walks anymore or go to a Pilates classes or whatever she
01:59:10.060
was doing. There's so much benefit to number one, like going and getting those levels tested. I believe
01:59:15.980
you're a big advocate of hormone replacement therapy, yes? Just putting somebody back into those
01:59:20.460
normal reference ranges in the benefit that that has, not just on seeing a number move on, you know,
01:59:26.960
their biomarkers, but what that does for their quality of life and how much more motivated people
01:59:33.000
might then be to be active, you know, as we age and stay involved in sport. It's crazy. And so do
01:59:40.520
you see this difference then in clients where you have menopausal women who are not on hormone
01:59:45.100
replacement therapy versus those who are? And do you see a fundamental difference both in body composition
01:59:50.040
and work tolerance? Absolutely. And I would say, unfortunately for the women that aren't proactive and aren't on
01:59:55.680
some kind of hormone replacement therapy, we tend to see those women coming in with extremely low
02:00:00.700
calorie intakes and extreme exercise output. So it's like they're burning the candle at both ends
02:00:07.020
and they're feeling frustrated because they're like, I already eat nothing. I'm training multiple times
02:00:11.880
a day. I'm doing all this cardio and I can't lose fat. And I've only gotten fatter during this process,
02:00:17.220
which is likely to happen because if you've been dealing with those negative symptoms for a long
02:00:21.300
period of time, naturally, if you're not motivated and you don't feel good, you're not going to train.
02:00:27.180
So, you know, people's quality of exercise goes down. Now they're losing lean body mass and they're
02:00:31.600
probably, as I've experienced, aging tends to lend more towards the finer things in life. And
02:00:37.620
you're gravitating towards, you know, more indulgent foods and a different lifestyle that keeps you less
02:00:43.640
active unless you're very proactive about it. So people gain a lot of weight during that timeframe.
02:00:47.640
So we obviously defer out to the experts for the hormonal replacement therapy and then
02:00:53.320
integrate with our interventions, the reverse diet to get their calories back up to something
02:00:59.160
that feels manageable. And now they're enjoying, you know, all their favorite foods again,
02:01:03.940
they have a social life again, and they just feel so much better with that extra energy and then
02:01:08.520
hormones returning to normal. What about women after having kids? A lot of women will say,
02:01:14.280
it's just not the same. Speaking about their body and body composition. So is there anything that
02:01:21.000
you've noticed in clients where you think we have to do something a little bit different?
02:01:26.180
There's the 40-year-old woman who's never had kids, and then there's the 40-year-old woman who's
02:01:30.340
had three kids. And both of them are still premenopausal, but do you notice anything different
02:01:36.200
I think the first one that's brisked to mind is just the available time that they have for their
02:01:40.560
goals. That is such a huge consideration for all of this. I can think very distinctly of a couple of
02:01:47.880
clients that I have that do not, or they've either had children and they've now grown up and moved out.
02:01:52.900
So they have all the time in the world to do what they want to do with their hobbies and their physique
02:01:58.340
goals or health goals. But for people that have children, it is really hard. And again,
02:02:04.240
I think it comes back to managing expectations. I am the coach that will turn people away if they,
02:02:10.160
you know, here's the goal that I want to achieve, Holly, 50 pounds, I've got to do it. But they've also
02:02:14.720
got three kids, you know, they only have a very limited amount of time that they can apply to meal
02:02:20.480
preparation. Maybe they have a limited income and they can't have a chef like we do that comes in and
02:02:25.780
helps out during, you know, those really busy times. They don't have a nanny full-time to come and
02:02:30.500
support them. So there are major differences in what can be achieved realistically. And I think
02:02:35.540
looking at someone's lifestyle, it is so important. And I think women don't give themselves enough
02:02:40.220
credit for the amount of time that they are taking in these other obligations.
02:02:45.120
But from the standpoint of that woman who's say 40, mom of three, who's got 10 pounds, she simply cannot
02:02:52.760
shed. Can you guess whether most of that is going to come from dietary restriction versus
02:02:59.840
increase activity versus what combination? Do you have a sense just hormonally, which one is
02:03:05.700
pestering her? One of the things in our practice that really we don't put emphasis on due to the
02:03:11.260
sheer ignorance around it is body composition. We'll say to that woman, look, we're interested in
02:03:15.800
making you as metabolically healthy as possible. That won't necessarily come with the improvement in
02:03:21.000
body composition you had. It won't necessarily take you to your pre-pregnancy weight. But as you
02:03:25.880
said, a lot of people are coming to you and that's their primary thing. They're, yes, I'd like to be
02:03:30.380
healthier, but quite frankly, I want to be able to fit into the clothes that I was wearing two years ago.
02:03:34.380
That's a tough one. I have said multiple times to women, you need to get a new wardrobe. As simple
02:03:39.120
as that. It's the easiest thing or easiest way to instantly feel better about yourself. Now you've got a
02:03:44.140
pair of clothes that are more flattering for your now physique. It's going to improve your mental health
02:03:48.400
first and foremost, but it's not constantly like pulling and tugging on the clothing that like it makes
02:03:53.620
you think about your body. And if you're already in an unhappy place, like that's a bad place to begin
02:03:57.600
with. But is it realistic for somebody to get back to their pre-pregnancy body weight? Maybe, but for a lot
02:04:06.400
of women, if you have partaken in some kind of exercise, whether it's running or swimming or cycling, if
02:04:12.120
there's anything that's applying some kind of load and resistance, you've probably added a lot of muscle since
02:04:17.260
you were pregnant, you know, however many years ago too. So to expect that you're going to see the
02:04:22.380
same number on the scale, often that's not realistic because they've built so much muscle
02:04:27.460
over the course of their life that they would never be that weight again. They'd have to lose all this
02:04:32.420
muscle and some to get back to that. So I really wish that I could give you a better answer here.
02:04:37.600
Do I see any differences like even from a hormonal perspective? No, not really. I think that
02:04:41.900
with proper nutrition intervention, and that is like optimizing somebody's metabolism
02:04:46.520
through the process of reverse dieting. So we want to sit right on the edge of like every week we're
02:04:52.520
trying to positively adapt and get their metabolism to move up. And that can be done without any changes
02:04:58.320
in lean body mass. Like there is a true adaptation that takes place. So yeah, we're trying to optimize
02:05:04.140
their dietary interventions and get them doing what we know to be adequate from a training standpoint.
02:05:10.080
That is what will help that person get to this end goal. And it just means it's going to take a lot
02:05:15.700
longer for a mom of three, just because they don't have the ability to do it.
02:05:19.820
Where do you think this goes from here for you? Do you plan to continue bodybuilding?
02:05:24.280
I don't know. I think that part of me feels really compelled to stay in the industry and keep showing
02:05:30.440
up maybe on a yearly basis to be an advocate for the people that are still suffering in silence.
02:05:38.180
I think that there's so many people that have difficulties sharing their struggles, reaching out for help,
02:05:44.820
getting support. And I've seen a massive shift in the type of work that I'm doing and the education
02:05:50.640
that I'm sharing now, because it's a really hard life to live and it can be very unrewarding.
02:05:57.340
It can feel like, what's the point if you can't keep making progress and, or if you never really
02:06:03.980
work on the psychological dysfunction that might be happening, like what's the why?
02:06:09.700
So I feel a little bit conflicted coming back and staying because I don't have the same feeling
02:06:16.700
towards competing anymore. I no longer desire the leanness. I really don't. I can do the process now.
02:06:24.060
And I was really worried about my last competition because I thought now that I don't have this
02:06:29.020
eating disorder, am I going to have what it takes to execute? Or was that previously just driven by
02:06:34.160
a psychological condition? It was nerve wracking, but I was able to do it, but I'm no longer attached
02:06:39.340
to the body. So I want to be somebody that can be an advocate to help people realize that
02:06:46.000
if you do the work, you can do these together. They don't exist, you know, exclusive to each other.
02:06:51.740
I think you can do a bodybuilding show and not have some kind of eating disorder,
02:06:56.540
but also recognize that it's an extreme sport and it requires a lot of sacrifice.
02:07:02.240
And personally right now, I'm so passionate about mental health and the idea of potentially
02:07:08.280
stepping back from everything that I do in the fitness industry and going back and doing a PhD in
02:07:13.200
the area of neuropsychology or mental health and eating disorders, that it may not be something that
02:07:19.320
I have in my foreseeable future. I just don't know. I want to help people. I know that there is so many
02:07:24.160
women that would benefit from learning that, hey, I struggled with all of these feelings and low
02:07:30.420
self-confidence and low self-esteem. And that there's another way aside from calorie restriction
02:07:35.480
and dietary restriction that can lead me to the same positive outcomes and value as a human.
02:07:40.400
So how do you think about aging yourself? I mean, how do you think about being 50, being 60,
02:07:49.520
not looking like you do today, given the journey you've been on and the struggle you've been through
02:07:58.780
My approach is all about longevity. I think if you had have asked me that two years ago,
02:08:03.720
I would still be, I'm still going to look amazing. But I think my perception or my ideals about what
02:08:11.200
my life should be in order to truly be happy, it doesn't look like me slaving away in the gym
02:08:16.980
anymore. It doesn't look like me being a lifelong competitor. That doesn't mean that I want to let
02:08:21.140
myself go and not have any interest in exercise at all. But I would like to remain, and I hate using
02:08:28.020
this word, like functionally fit, but I want my body to be able to move. Like I want to be able to,
02:08:33.080
if someone says to me, Hey, let's go for a 5k run. I want to be able to do that. If I need to be fast
02:08:39.380
and agile for something. So I think my training is probably going to gravitate a little bit more
02:08:44.100
away from the gym and incorporate just some more hobbies and things that keep me active and
02:08:49.080
functioning well. But I will always lift because I know the benefits that resistance training can have
02:08:54.860
on your body. But you're okay with the changes that are going to come, which is, you know,
02:09:00.160
you're not going to be 12% body fat. Absolutely. And I think even in like six weeks, I will no longer
02:09:05.060
even look like I do now. Like I'm very content with the idea that I can still be healthy at a much higher
02:09:10.760
body fat percentage. And as long as I have the muscle mass underneath that body fat, I know that
02:09:16.880
that is protective in so many ways. Thinking about reducing my risk of like bone degenerative
02:09:21.840
conditions like osteoporosis, when I get old, like resistance training, anything that applies,
02:09:26.640
you know, tension and stress on the bone, you know, those little bone creating cells, you know,
02:09:31.720
they ramp up, but now I've got greater bone density. I think about that. My dad struggles
02:09:36.420
severely with osteoporosis and arthritis. Your dad?
02:09:40.020
Yeah, very much so. He needs a double shoulder reconstruction. He won't do it.
02:09:44.220
That's kind of the message we give to our patients, both men and women. But I think it's more
02:09:48.540
important for women to hear because I think sometimes women are a little bit more governed
02:09:52.340
by the scale than by what's underneath. And again, that's a stereotype, but I see it more.
02:09:58.360
And what we say is, I'm much more concerned with how much muscle mass we can put on you and how much
02:10:03.720
we can increase the density of your bones as you age. And even if we never take an ounce of fat off
02:10:09.580
you, which by the way, would mean you'd potentially even gain weight a little bit as you age. But if that
02:10:14.900
weight is predominantly lean tissue and we're maintaining the integrity of your skeletal
02:10:22.800
You are. And I think the first thing that women have to do, and again, I don't want to stereotype,
02:10:27.160
but ladies, this is just the reality of how we are wired in today's day and age, but letting go of
02:10:33.580
some of that identity and this belief that we need to look a certain way. There's one thing to being,
02:10:39.380
you know, feeling comfortable and confident, but let's focus on the important things of life.
02:10:43.760
And I think to me, after having gone through all of this and recovered or actively and always will
02:10:49.160
be a recovering person with an eating disorder, but there's so many other things now to me that are
02:10:54.760
so much more important. And my long-term health is important. I do want to make sure that I've got
02:11:00.360
good bone health. I don't want to have bone diseases. I want to be able to live my life to the best
02:11:05.460
and mentally as well. I'm probably going to stay active because of all the benefits that we know
02:11:11.300
for mental health, like anxiety, depression, depressive-like symptoms. I want to optimize
02:11:18.560
my health and staying so fixated on the scale and body fat and cellulite. It's like the least of my
02:11:27.160
concerns right now, which is a really weird thing for me to say as someone that like used to feel like
02:11:32.220
unless I was stage lean year round, I was not a worthy human. So there needs to be a big shift
02:11:39.180
in what we're delivering to our patients and to our clients. Because if we look at social media,
02:11:45.620
it's really easy to get engrossed in social media's thin ideals and filters. And the best step that I
02:11:53.300
ever took was just unfollow. Like all the accounts that are only focused on the aesthetic, I just,
02:11:59.640
nope, I don't look at them anymore. I read about the things that I want to learn more about. If I
02:12:04.560
want to feel happy, gosh, I've got like a hundred books that I've read that are all on how to change
02:12:09.660
your mind, how to be happy, what is life's purpose, how to break habits. That's where I spend my time
02:12:15.120
now. I'm looking to optimize myself as a human. And it means that there's less need for all that
02:12:21.520
aesthetic stuff. Well, Holly, thank you so much for sharing both the insights and also obviously the
02:12:26.060
really deeply personal stuff that actually I think will probably resonate with many people,
02:12:31.140
both men and women. So thank you very much. Thank you for having me. It's been awesome.
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